by Ariana Ray, Wales, UK
In 2005 when I was very overweight (twice the size I should be for my frame), eating to bury all the issues in my life that I didn’t want to look at, all the hurts I had felt and buried, which I then turned into anger against everyone, I came into contact with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
I found that by attending the healing courses and having sessions with Universal Medicine practitioners I began to deal with the hurts and the anger until I got to the point where I could easily see that the anger I felt and was dumping on everyone else, was the anger I felt towards myself. I became aware that it was me that had not taken responsibility for the choices that could have avoided the hurts in the first place. I was just scapegoating everyone else for my own choice not to look after myself! So step by slow step, I brought my own awareness to the responsibility for making true self-nurturing, loving choices in my own life.
Then, working with Serge, I made choices that lead to me loosing half my body weight.
I began to look at what I was eating in terms of how it affected me from day to day. I knew that what I was eating was making me feel less than good, so I chose to cut some things out to see how it went, tried to re-introduce them after a time and listened to how my body felt along the way. The results were impressive in terms of how I felt in my body (very awesome) and what happened to the shape of my body (also very awesome!).
But the choices I made were against what I had been told and educated in with regard to food and diet. For example:
“Bread is a staple and part of a balanced diet” – yet bread gave me chronic diarrhoea, bloating, cramps and candida.
“Alcohol is a socially acceptable part of life” – yet alcohol gave me mid and lower back pain, nausea and a sense of not being me at all, and this feeling of not being me would last for a day or more. Yet I grew up with the view that it is socially acceptable to be this way, and it’s sought after and laughed about – how does that make sense?
“Milk, cheese and dairy are the building blocks for the body” – yet dairy products made my nose run constantly, gave me tinitus and yet more diarrhoea.
“Chocolate is a treat we can give ourselves for working hard and being good” – and yet, after the initial three minute yummy rush, it made me feel like I didn’t have a body at all, I was just numbed out and so happy to be numb! I questioned – how is not feeling a treat?
“Rice, corn, potatoes, pasta and other carbs are necessary to keep us going through the day, they stop us falling asleep mid afternoon” – yet they made me sleepy by 3pm.
All of this made me realise that what we are told about health / food / weight was not necessarily the truth. If we reflect on the state our our bodies in this world today, what are they telling us and about how we live, in a world where cancer is 1 in 3, diabetes is the fastest growing disease on the face of the planet, illness and disease are out of control and more people are getting obese than at any other time in our history, which says a lot about our eating habits.
Listening to conventional wisdom about food supported my body to be the over-weight size it was, and carrying around the extra weight was taking a huge toll on my body.
I certainly fell for everything I was told by health experts and pharmaceutical companies because it was easier than having to take responsibility for what I was putting in my body…
The news today is exposing what is happening in the food and drink industry and how we have consumed. For example:
- Almost two-thirds of people rely on alcohol to relax in the evenings, the charity ‘Drinkaware’ has warned. Drinkaware warns that alcohol might appear to aid stress but often makes things worse. (1)
- Dr William Davies, a preventative cardiologist who practises in the USA reports in his new book ‘Wheat Belly’ that wheat is so bad for your health that it should carry a government health warning. (2)
- The Guardian newspaper reports ‘Sugar addiction is making our children fat. Smoking and alcohol dangers are known and regulated, so why are the risks posed by junk food not taken seriously?’. (3)
- Why our food is making us fat? We are on average three stone heavier than we were in the 60’s. We have unwittingly become sugar addicts. (4)
I started to look at why I used food, alcohol, coffee, tea and cola, to bury and hide from what I was feeling. I recall feeling scared of feeling, simply because it hurt and I worried I would get lost in that hurt and be stuck there. I found that healing the hurts did not mean getting lost, it meant getting myself back.
I did not do this alone, I had help to do this and it’s an ongoing journey for me to listen to my body. I had a life time of looking for a true way to heal. I’d tried everything, all modes of spiritual ‘healing’ methods and nothing worked. Yet at the first course I attended with Universal Medicine I felt the truth in my body for the first time. It wasn’t what anyone told me, it was always me feeling me. Before this…
I would never have admitted to the fact that I lied to myself and numbed myself out of existence.
I was offered a true reflection of what my life could be if I started to take responsibility for my choices.
I know that in my life I have invested so much of me looking at what the world was telling me what I should do and what I should be. I constantly sought to ‘be something’ for the world and ignored me inside and any connection with who I truly am. If I didn’t meet what the world wanted of me, which was most of the time, I’d fall into self-loathing and beating myself up for not being enough. The demands of the world were always more important than me. But now, allowing myself to be me, means I can be with me in the world and not get lost in what it demands.
I have proven that the world and what it says is wrong. The nutritional advice we have is based on falsities, and science is slowly and surely discovering this now. However, the price of all the ‘nutritional wisdom’ we have been living under, is that peoples’ bodies are proving it’s wrong, as more and more people get sick from eating the way we have been told is good to eat.
I consider myself to be very fortunate to have stumbled upon Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon. He has inspired me to change my life, a life that was not supporting me, or in truth, anyone around me. Serge just presented, never told me to eat in a certain way or live in a certain way, there never have been any rules. I continue to feel it all for myself and base my choices on what I feel is true.
Whether it is through the presentations, workshops or the books he writes, Serge Benhayon has the greatest level of integrity. He re-defines the words ‘honesty’ and ‘truth’ and ‘love’ by the way he lives and works. He is a shining example.