Recognition for Doing: The Blueprint of my Life before Universal Medicine

by Alison Moir, UK

I have been active all my life, and when I say active I mean doing… I was always doing something. Looking back it was the only way I could be seen, be recognised. Doing for me meant physical.

At the age of 9 or 10, I was out all day working at a stable in the possibility that I might get to ride a pony back to the field. I now see it was because I wasn’t happy at home, so to get away, doing became my way to escape, to not feel what was really going on. There was an underlying blueprint in my life that to get on in life, to succeed, you had to ‘do’.

I wasn’t encouraged to have dolls, to wear pink, to be a girl – as long I was doing then I was seen to be ok. I was left alone. If I saw girls being ‘girlie’, I saw it as being weak – as silly and a waste of time. So from the very beginning of my childhood I was encouraged to do… not play, not have fun.

This I took into my adult life, being busy, working hard. The trouble with this is that you forget about yourself, everything becomes being what someone else wants you to be. I learnt to be a chameleon – I changed myself to fit in with everyone, to accommodate everyone so that I would not make waves, so that I did not upset people. All the time I was doing, I was losing the real me. Somewhere deep inside I knew something was not right, but the whole world was busy… so where do you look to find something different?

Life became a chore, a way of getting by.

By the time I got to 30, my life was already mapped out, and I went along with it. 40’s… and I knew something wasn’t right. I would make changes, but they changed nothing, so I would fall back into my old pattern, ‘the doing’, so that I didn’t have to question how my life really was.

My wake up call came when my husband was diagnosed with cancer, and after 3 years of trying to fight it, in the year 2000 he died. I began to question so many things – why did my husband get cancer? Why was life such a struggle? Why is there this empty feeling inside of me, that won’t go away? Now I wanted answers to my question that I had been asking throughout my life: Is this all there is to life? There has to be more.

By now my health was not great: I wasn’t sick but neither was I well.  After several years of trying alternative medicine and modalities nothing felt right – it didn’t change what I was feeling inside. All the time there was this underlying giving-up, a sense that nothing really worked, so I began to make my life as comfortable as possible. Working for myself was a great comfort as I could do as much or as little as I liked, avoiding situations that I didn’t want to deal with and in doing so, slowly opt out of life. I was no longer accountable to anyone.

Learning to be me again

I am now nearly 57 and for the first time in my life I am enjoying it: why? Because I have re-claimed me. It has taken nearly 10 years to find me in the malaise of what I had allowed in my life to take me away from me.

I now work in a busy supermarket where I am accountable to everyone. It exposes all the little things in me that I kept hidden from the world. This is not all bad because it is also bringing out the real me again – not the one that wants to please and be liked for what I am doing, but the loving woman who does care about humanity.

To peel back all the layers of me not being me has been very exposing: to unravel what has been imposed on me through life, all my ideals and beliefs I have carried with me. To accept responsibility for my choices and my actions has at times been painful to reveal, but I knew there was nowhere else to hide and I knew that I could not turn back from something I knew to be true. My questions were being answered and that is what kept me going through the not so easy times.

I could not have done it without the inspiration of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and all the amazing practitioners. Why? There was very little in life that was reflecting back to me that how I was living my life was not true. Everywhere I looked people were living a similar life. No one seemed to be asking the question, let alone having the answer.

Thank you Serge and Universal Medicine for standing by me, showing me it is possible to know me again… and in finding me I have found the answer to my question.

132 thoughts on “Recognition for Doing: The Blueprint of my Life before Universal Medicine

  1. Serge Benhayon’s lived ways and powerful reflection offers humanity a way to live that is truly loving and joyful in every way – what a blessing it is to have this opportunity for us to equally choose this grand love and to live a true life.

  2. It’s just amazing to be able to look back in life and see what you thought you enjoyed, and didn’t enjoy, and go ‘actually…’ and at the same time with no sense of regret or remorse – because now you do know what true joy is and you are choosing to live that instead. Beautiful, Alison.

  3. It is a great point you make, that in all our doing we forget who we are. This is sad but true as in our obsession to be recognised through what we do, we have overlooked the reality that the greatest confirmation of who we are already resides within, and is with us everywhere we go and with whatever we do. There is no greater love to be found than the connection to the love that we already innately are within.

  4. Many people live and have lived a life of doing, to get the recognition they crave, in the process they lose their real self, this in itself exposes this way of living is not true.

  5. Being taught by life to be accountable to everything is a precious lesson. As love has to be equal across the board with everyone. No situation can ever be avoided, every choice matters.

  6. How lovely that the true you is emerging, ‘it is also bringing out the real me again – not the one that wants to please and be liked for what I am doing, but the loving woman who does care about humanity.’

  7. What can come with realising we are accountable to everyone is a greater sense of purpose and responsibility, an appreciation of ourselves and the interconnectedness of us all. I have been working in a shop for over two years now and I love how we support each other and work as a team.

  8. I too was a little girl who wanted to join the ‘boys’ club’ which included lots of ‘doing’ in the world to prove my worth. Now what I do has purpose, and I have a much deeper connection to the woman I am. To the best of my ability, how I feel and where my body is at comes first, not what I think I should be doing to achieve an outcome.

  9. I too was very good at doing from a young age and and being the peacekeeper and good daughter. All of these titles still gave me recognition for things I did and allowed me to put others needs well before my own for most of life. Saying no became apart of my new vocabulary and feeling more what will support me and how I move day to day offers me so much more freedom and the need to be recognised for what I do has diminished as I see how important it is to simply be me and move from that quality everyday to the best of my ability.

  10. This that are set up from young and at the time we see as simple and possibly insignificant. It’s like you start something and this sets in process a chain reaction that then needs to be continued in order to not see the start. You could say there are many choices where things changed or you could see it as one choice that then needed a similar choice again and again to justify or cover the first one. I can relate to this article and the start of the doing, it starts young and simple but by the time we grow we have made it a whole way of being in the world. It always comes to points where we can turn back and look what we have created or push ahead and keep going. More and more people are choosing to turn back or at least be aware enough to look over their shoulder. As the article is also saying, the turn back is well worth it and answers many questions which in the end is possibly only one question, who truly am I.

  11. When you’ve gone from hiding to claimed, you just have to get out there and offer inspiration to others to do same! It seems to be the next natural step – and what better way than in a supermarket. I love your story Alison, thank you!

  12. “Is this all there is to life? There has to be more.” So many of us ask ourselves this question and go on a quest seeking high and low for the answer. Serge Benhayon presents the truth that the answer has been there inside us all along waiting for us to re-connect to the inner truth of who we are.

  13. My life is in many ways a mirror of the life that you describe, where doing is used relentlessly to cover up the huge chasm of emptiness that would be felt the moment the doing ceases. I too always knew that there must be more, but had no idea that the more was living with me and inside me all the time.

  14. I totally relate to the doing, I was so caught up in achieving something I was constantly moving on, from one thing to the next, until I came across Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, when I realised that it was in fact nothing about the doing at all, it was all about the quality we are with ourselves first.

  15. “Life became a chore, a way of getting by” – this feels like how so many of us think what life is about. We fear death, but we live as if we can hardly wait for the day we die. No matter how much we achieve and how busy we get, if we are empty of ourselves, not knowing or connecting with who we are, life feels very empty and pointless.

  16. Peeling back the layers of our ideals and beliefs that hold us to ransom with their consciousness is definitely an ongoing and at times uncomfortable way to live your everyday life. But nonetheless this discomfort is far better than the alternative of living blindly in accordance with them and accumulating additional layers that also will inevitably need to be peeled back at a later date. Best not delay and just get on with it now instead of making it even harder for ourselves later.

  17. Losing ourselves in the doing is so easy in a world that is all about doing, looking to the next thing, multi-tasking.. I’m pretty good at getting things done but if I do it in loads of drive and push, I leave myself behind, and then I feel grumpy, tense and disconnected at the end of the day, and then I’ll want to numb those feelings. What supports me is staying connected to my body throughout the day, doing one thing at a time, with my full attention and focus, rather than getting lost in distractions along the way. Then I end the day feeling pretty amazing – much more vital and energised.

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