An Accident or Karma?

by Jane Keep, UK

The other day I was working in a hospital where I work part time as a manager. I’d had a busy and enjoyable day. I knew that I needed to leave by 5pm, and when it got to 4.45pm my body gave me a nudge (it became restless) to say “it’s time to go”. I packed up my things and was just about to head out of the door when my boss asked me if I had a ‘moment’, as earlier in the day she had cancelled a meeting we had previously booked. When my boss asked me this my tummy flipped and my body felt hot and uncomfortable as I knew I needed to leave at that time. Yet I just said to myself, “a few moments won’t matter, let’s just go and see her for a few moments”. So I did that; I went into her office for 15 or so minutes. While I was in there I was constantly clock watching, and feeling hot, distracted and restless. 

In the end I left around 5.20pm and walked over to the staff car park to my (bright red) car. As I got nearer I noticed something oddly different about the car, and as I got even closer I realised that it had a large dent and a deep long scratch in the middle of the rear driver’s side door. I walked around the car a few times a little confused as to how this could happen in a staff car park (when all the cars were either stationary, or people were simply arriving or leaving). At that time there were very few cars left in the car park and the car park seemed spacious.

I then noticed a hand written note left under the windscreen wipers. It was by now raining, and the ink on the note was running, but I could read a person’s name, with an apology and a phone number. I called this person and we exchanged insurance company details. He apologised in his words: “I’m sorry but I simply did not see your car there as I reversed”. I then asked him what time he had ‘bumped’ into my car…. he said at 5.10pm. When he said this time I was not surprised, though at the same time I was amazed. 5.10pm was after the time that I was due to have left the hospital that day (I was due to leave at 5pm), yet due to my overriding my feelings and not honouring the true time for me to leave work that day, I was still there at 5.20pm, and my car was still in the car park at the time he left the hospital (at 5.10pm).

As I stood in the car park that evening, for the first time in my life in this kind of circumstance I didn’t feel angry at the other person for ‘bumping my car’, and I didn’t feel it was an ‘accident’ as such. I realised that it was karma. Karma because I was due to have left the hospital earlier, and at the time he arrived to leave, my car wasn’t actually meant to be there (if you see what I mean). He drove into it, not seeing it was there, and I smiled in this realisation as of course it would not have been ‘seen’ as it was supposed to have left by that time. In these moments, and in my reflections after this occurrence, I experienced something quite different than before. When people had bumped into my car before, I had always blamed them for their carelessness etc. I had always said it was an accident and taken no responsibility for it. In this simple incident I could feel how the choices I make are connected to something much greater, something that connects with everyone else/everything else, and this confirmed what I had already known somewhere deep down: that every single action, incident, occurrence in our lives has a deeper meaning and is related to our choices – in this case my choice to dishonour my feelings and stay later, so my car was, if you will, ‘out of place’ and consequently was not ‘seen’. My choice to stay was the cause, the effect being that someone bumped into my car.

This incident has certainly given me a gentle nudge to pay full attention to my feelings, and that even a moment’s delay can have an implication somewhere down the line, whatever that implication is. 

 

162 thoughts on “An Accident or Karma?

    1. here here – when occurrences happen, it is a completely different feeling when we stay open to the learning, when we ask ourselves what was our part in it, and what can we learn.

  1. Thank you Jane for the reminder that there are often consequences when we choose to ignore and not heed the wisdom which our body is constantly sharing with us.

  2. Awesome and amazing sharing Jane.. in fact deeply inspiring to share a story / healing of my own experience. How strong is the body and a testament how much we need to take care of it in the micro-cosmic of detail.

  3. Was this karma? Could you explain a bit further why? The restlessness experienced even before the time to leave paved the way for what came thereafter. The unsettlement affected your body and your movements, which helped to take you even further away from your body. What happened to the car was symbolic of how this self-created opening allowed an energy to hit you. It was not the work of a man that was reversing uncaringly. It was an energy working through him.

  4. Moving in a way that allows us to deepen our awareness only works when we follow our impulses other-wise the wisdom that is shared through our body is missed or over-ridden as we allow another force to control us.

  5. I had an incident many years ago now where I was driving my car in town but had an odd sense that I didn’t understand – or chose not to we might say. It lasted for a couple of minutes until I stopped at a junction. Shortly afterwards, another car hit my car from behind. On reflection there was a feeling that I was ‘out of place’ somehow. Perhaps I shouldn’t have been there and that’s why I was hit?

  6. It’s a very clear lesson in honouring how we feel and what can happen when we don’t honour what feels true for us. It’s not that the accident was a punishment, as so often karma is seen to be, more that you were out of the flow of your soul which was impulsing you to leave earlier which would have meant it would not have happened.

  7. What’s also interesting is how we can hold some people higher than others, like thinking we can’t say no to a boss but are quite okay with saying no to a friend or partner. How we also can measure and grade situations by how invested we are in them to whether we are upfront and honest or held back and lie.

  8. Oh I couldn’t agree more Jane, “…even a moment’s delay can have an implication somewhere down the line, whatever that implication is.” I’ve had a similar experience recently where I didn’t go with what I could feel was happening and instead went with wishful thinking, believing what I was being told by others. Now it has messed up many peoples time and money to change it. The thing is we think we get away with it but if it is untrue to start with it will always be revealed, eventually.

    1. Great sharing in regards to consequences. As much as we can think it is up to us and it only affects us – everything affects another or something else somewhere down the line. The stakes are higher than we often realise.

  9. There is a perfect rhythm for everything. Just like in our bodies, where everything works together and depends on every other part, when 1 thing is out of order or flow it influences the rest and has its consequences.

  10. I love the awareness you expressed here Jane ‘that even a moment’s delay can have an implication somewhere down the line’, such a call for deeper responsibility in all our movements.

    1. We (I know I do) think we ‘get away’ with our daily actions – whatever they are – e.g. thoughts, that moment when we drive up a one way street to sneak past the traffic, the moment we park on a no parking area for ‘just a moment’, or when we tell a white lie to our boss e.g. ‘yes I’l have this finished today – Ive been working on it all morning’ etc… and whilst we feel its okay to do this – and ‘everybody’ does it – it has a cumulative effect we may not be aware of – and everything comes back to us in some way or another in the grand scheme of things. I am learning to live with the awareness that everything I do say or act upon has a ripple effect and as you say there is a call for a ‘deeper responsibility’ in everything in life.

  11. What you share is so on point right now as I realise that every moment matters, and that those times where I stretch things, where I somehow try and fit something else in have consequences beyond what I see and not just on me but on the environment around me. We are all like ripples in a pond going far and wide and touching places we had never imagined.

    1. yes the body knows well before … I have experienced moments driving in the car where my body says ‘go this way’ rather than the normal way, and realise after there was a long traffic queue on the usual route and the body knows exactly the way to travel.

  12. What a beautiful gift. This really makes me appreciate how there is an order, a design, and our movement is either with it or against it, and that our body does know it so well.

  13. It is so distracting when we put ourselves into a situation where we are clock watching rather than paying attention to what is occurring in the present moment. It almost feels like sometimes your attention is literally split into 2 or even 3…. no wonder we get so restless and agitated.

  14. This is a brilliant sharing Jane. When we let ourselves read everything that happens to us, blame and frustration is replaced with understanding, a deeper sense of responsibility and joy. We realise that there are no such things as flukes or accidents – everything in life is orchestrated to remind us to be the universal flow and order of things. Which our bodies will always be nudging ourselves towards.

  15. I too love this story. It’s such an amazing lesson in observation and responsibility. I love the simplicity of your findings also, that everything has cause and effect and you’ve applied that principle here. That’s it, no need to go further into it. You made a choice, it has a consequence. I love it.

  16. I love this Jane as you share so beautifully how the power of observation allows us to understand and appreciate that there is a deeper meaning and purpose to life, and our relationship with it. It is empowering to explore how our every move influences the move that follows and also in world we are part of. For if we are open to it we realise that we are the ones that are responsible for the way our life is moving, through what it is we are constantly aligning to.

  17. Thank you for the poignant reminder that every time we dishonour what we feel there is a consequence for ourselves and others. Beautiful.

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