Tattoo Removal – Feeling My True Beauty

by Amina Tumi, 32 yrs, London Salon Owner

This might sound crazy to you, but I used to think getting a tattoo was something that would mark a moment in my life as a celebration… for example my age, turning 18 or 21, something cool to show my friends, even something to make me feel ‘in’ with the trend.

I got my first tattoo when I was 18 and then another when I was 21; each time I felt a high afterwards and wanted to show people how cool I was and how sexy my tattoo looked. It has been quite an experience for me to see how different I feel about tattoos now as I do not think they are cool or sexy at all – in fact I find them very much the opposite. What I find interesting also is that they take you away from seeing the real person and instead you just get drawn to the tattoo.

Getting the tattoos removed has been somewhat of an amazing experience for me, although little did I realise the pain and frustration I would go through to remove them. They don’t tell you that although the tattoo only takes 30 minutes to apply (depending on size), that it would then take 2 years plus to take it off with laser sessions every 4-6 weeks. They also don’t tell you the pain this treatment entails.

I have found that although this has been painful, if I really stay connected to myself throughout the process and really deepen my stillness, the pain is not as bad: but the times I have had a tattoo removal and not stayed connected to myself, the pain has indeed been so much worse. This to me is something I must share because often I find we are put off doing things in life that we know will help us because of the pain that it will incur. We can in fact look at this on many levels; for example physical pain and emotional pain – we often stop and put a wall up based on not wanting to feel hurt to any degree – and what I realised here is that the pain/damage that the tattoo was in fact doing to me by being imprinted on my skin was much more painful than taking it off.

Is it possible that tattoos do affect us in ways that we could not even imagine?

I have not quite completed this process yet but I am nearly there, and would never ever consider having a tattoo again. I now feel I finally have got my body back… that my body is all mine again. Somehow the tattoo left an imprint that was not me and at the time I was ok with this: now having gone through the removal process I have claimed my body back and I feel that this tattoo is not affecting me anymore, which can only ever be a good thing.

I can now feel how beautiful my body truly is on its own with no imposition of a tattoo or any other outer ideals and beliefs – like what my hair colour should be or what clothes I should wear or even how much makeup I should put on. Without getting caught up in any of these outer influences to dictate or have control over me I am able to feel and enjoy my true beauty, which has nothing to do with anything physical but instead is all about just being and letting myself feel the beauty I hold within. This is very powerful.

I feel that the tattoo removal process has given me an opportunity to give power to what I feel true beauty is, and not get caught in what the world is telling me it is or should be by any doing or action. Instead it really has been a question of just letting it come out and be seen by all, by firstly letting myself see me first.

True beauty is an allowing. It is not about a doing, which is what society seems to be saying it is. My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful.

Inspired by the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine





124 thoughts on “Tattoo Removal – Feeling My True Beauty

  1. I look forward to having your ever expanding beauty shone out into the world Amina. I have never had the experience of having a tattoo, so I found this blog quite educational.

  2. Thank you Amina. You have written many true and beautiful sentences but my favourite part is when you wrote… “allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful”. This resonated very deeply with me as our true beauty lays within, but sometimes when we don’t just allow that to be, then we can get caught up with having to make ourselves beautiful. I notice that with me, when I catch myself trying to make myself beautiful then that it is a clue that I am not at that moment in connection with myself and the beauty that naturally lays within me. And our natural and true beauty feels delicious when we allow it out. I love getting ready in the knowing of that beauty in the morning.

    1. Thanks Johanna, I have to say I have been inspired not only by Serge Benhayon, his whole family, & other Universal Medicine practitioners but also I have been deeply inspired by so many students and their articles on beauty. I would really recommend deeply feeling what has been written on these articles to anyone out there- man or woman – who struggles with looking in the mirror and seeing their true beauty. We all deserve to feel how beautiful we are.

    2. How great to catch this and have the understanding, ‘when I catch myself trying to make myself beautiful then that it is a clue that I am not at that moment in connection with myself and the beauty that naturally lays within me.’ Beautiful.

  3. Awesome Amina, thank you for sharing your experience. I currently have a tattoo which is to be removed, so your blog has further supported my choice to remove this imprint that I chose to stamp myself with at a very odd time in my life. As you say I also glorified myself and celebrated the fact that I had done such a (what I saw as) rebellious and cool thing to my body. I now feel the weight of this choice and the potential negative pull this crazy stamp on my shoulder has. I understand fully your comment on how people see the tattoo and not the person. I feel this too as recently I had a beautiful dress to wear for a special occasion and the straps did not cover the tattoo. I felt strongly for it not to be seen as I did not want to show this to everyone as it is not true for me now, and as you noted, I felt they would see the tattoo first, with all the judgements and attachments this would come with, and then see me next. The straps were altered and I confidently wore the dress without the tattoo showing. This really showed me the unease I feel about the tattoo and that it is not an expression of me now, as I did not want it to be seen. Yes, I accept it was a choice I made at the time and yes, there was a time I would show it off in the hope I would appear cool and trendy and even beautiful to the eyes of the world. Now as you read, I find that I feel it’s no longer a true expression of me and I now feel it’s a blot on the true beauty of me, so removal here we come as it’s time to claim back my body in full.

    Tattoos are such a permanent thing and I wonder how many people are wandering around with an impression on their body that they once felt to be a true expression of themselves and now feel otherwise. Maybe feeling a bit odd too and not connecting their dis-ease to the tattoo? Thank you again Amina for your blog.

    1. Hi Beverley, I feel it is great that you found a way to not let getting a tattoo impact your occasion and still got to enjoy you. I have learnt that punishing ourselves because of previous choices is definitely not the way and finding a way to deal with what is in front of us, lovingly so, over writes our previous choices.

      I have found that there are many articles out there with people regretting getting tattoos and that they where either under the influence of alcohol or felt huge peer pressure or like me wanted/needed to do something to distract themselves from what they were truly feeling.

      Is this not then something that we need to look at more deeply as does this not then mean that we are not truly us when making these very permanent decisions, and are we just putting up with something i.e. leaving a tattoo on a body that does not want it there?

    2. Thanks for sharing Beverly, it has become more glaringly obvious to me these days how harmful and unattractive tattoos are. They really take away from the beauty and preciousness we all hold in our own special way. I’m sure that one day tattoos will be a thing of the past, something we did hundreds of years ago but would never dream of doing now.

  4. Thank you for your sharing. I have also been getting my tattoo removed, and am four sessions into it. It is certainly an amazing healing with each session and I totally agree with you in that I would never get another tattoo on my body knowing now what I can feel about them and the energy/imprints they hold on us.

  5. Thank you Amina, in a time when tattoos are getting a lot of air time on TV (BBC 1 this week asking viewers to comment on whether having tattoos affects one’s ability to get a job), it’s great to hear from someone experiencing the joy of clearing them from their body. When we truly understand energy and the effect one person can have on another through their energy, we will question many things we take for granted and tattoos may well be one of those things.

    1. Thanks Rowena, and yes, I had taken for granted the true power of just being me and enjoying that. It is easy nowadays to be distracted with this and that as life is filled with so much to take you away from being you. I am enjoying expressing the joy I feel now as the true freedom that comes with that. I celebrate everyday. 🙂

  6. Your words, “My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful”, are important to share, especially for children and teenagers where the pressure is so strong to look on the outside. I have not had a tattoo, nor was ever drawn to get one, but your words and experience may make others pause and contemplate if they are thinking about getting one.

    1. You are so right about the pressure the youngsters are under today, and what will be interesting to observe is where they go to next with it, as it seems as though it just can’t get any worse. It is very sad to see the troubles that they are having with their looks when to look at them they are so beautiful and yet that is not what they see when they look in the mirror. Why (as a society) are we stopping children, teenagers and of course adults from seeing their own beauty, why are we harming humanity in this way? Something that I feel needs much discussion but first coming from a place of feeling what true beauty is.

    1. Yes, this really resonated with me too, Suzanne – especially when every magazine is telling us all the things we need to ‘do’ to make ourselves beautiful. “True beauty is an allowing. It is not about a doing” – truly, beautifully, expressed, Amina!

  7. Amina, Thanks for your beautiful post. I have never had a tattoo or been interested at all in having one placed on my body. So for me I found your post about why you chose to get tattoos, how it made you feel, your choice to have them removed and the lengthy and painful removal process, very educational… For me I could feel in the post your openness and healing but my favourite words were in your final statements… “True beauty is an allowing. It is not about a doing, which is what society seems to be saying it is. My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful”. These sentences have so much empowerment and love of self and all.

    1. Thanks Paul for your message and your appreciation. I can further say that the process of claiming myself back is one of true joy, not one of excitement but one of a deep celebration of me and a true connection.

  8. Thank you Amina. This is a very open and honestly shared blog about the fact that having tattoos is not so great. I sometimes have patients who come to see me for treatment of back pain etc. who have tattoos and I always feel the impact on their body.

    I noticed that it seems that clients who have tattoos have heavier symptoms in the body. When I treat the area where they have the tattoo this already can help to ease the pain and make the ongoing treatment more successful.

    1. Thank you Kerstin, Yes an interesting observation and one that I have also experienced myself. During my tattoo removal I have felt as thought something had been lifted off my body, something that felt as though it was weighing me down so I really cannot recommend tattoo removal enough. It feels amazing to have my body back.

  9. Thank you for this blog and sharing the way in which you have gone through the process. Reclaiming the body for what it naturally is rather than what is placed onto it be that clothing, tattoos, makeup etc is inspiring. Currently I am going through the process of having mine removed and when asked why I am getting it removed I say ”It’s no longer ‘me”. Truth is it was never ‘me’ in the first place.

  10. Thank you Amina Tumi for sharing about this subject of tattoo removal and I for one have no experience in this department as the thought of anything being poked into my skin does not feel great. Some of my close family members have cosmetic tattoos which is permanent ink for eye liner and eyebrows. Again I opted to not have this done and have no regrets.
    What is interesting is how tattoo shops have popped up everywhere and business is booming. I wonder if we have ever stopped and felt why the tattoo industry is on the rise and how people are now becoming addicted to this by having more and more tattoos in all sorts of places that in the past were unthinkable.

  11. It’s really interesting to hear your experience of living with a tattoo; then what it’s like to have it removed and how your body feels now, thank you. I can absolutely see what you say about a tattoo being a distraction from the real person themselves and how they are like an imprint on the body.

  12. When I was growing up it was only sailors or ‘toughie’ workmen on building sites that had tattoos and you are correct, I only ever saw the tattoo and never the person. I had never understood why anyone would want to disfigure themselves in this way and I found this article very interesting, particularly how you feel the tattoo impacted your own body and reclaiming yourself with its removal.

  13. Great blog Amina. I haven’t got any tattoos or even had the urge to get one which I am very thankful for when I hear about the pain involved in removing them, as I am sure I would have done as I got older. It was interesting to read how you felt having the tattoo ‘left an imprint that wasn’t you’ and that it could be possible that tattoos ‘do affect us in ways that we could not even imagine?’ With someone like David Beckham making tattoos ‘trendy’,the proliferation of tattoo parlours is everywhere which means there could possibly be many more people with an imprint of someone else and not being themselves.

  14. Thank you Amina, definitely a much needed sharing as so many of us – men and women – believe that our beauty is based on how we look. In fact most of society believes this to be true. I now know that the love I hold for me and others is the real beautiful me and no cream, hair-do or make-up (although it’s fun to play with these) matches what I feel inside.

  15. It was amazing to feel what you said about claiming your body back during the process of tattoo removal. It was as if you had allowed something that was not you by getting the tattoo.

  16. I always thought that i would end up getting a tattoo one day, only because I thought it was cool and everyone else was doing it, how silly is that. If I feel deep inside me, there was no way I really wanted a tattoo.

  17. I love this Amina, letting the true beauty out as you say, rather than letting something outside of us define our beauty, feels just divine. What a wonderful way of expressing the beauty that we already are.

  18. Amina when I go to the beach it seems that it is more unusual to not have a tattoo than to have one, which is ironic considering the people who have them feel that their tattoo identifies them as different. The girls not only have tattoos but theirs are getting bigger and bigger and it is getting more common to see heavily tattooed women. This is a clear visible outward sign that we are not connecting to our incredible inner beauty. We are looking for ways to ‘be attractive to others and to make a statement about us’ but with a tattoo it literally is only skin deep.

  19. I fully agree with “to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful”. As presented, the true beauty is within us all. Thank you Amina for writing this.

  20. Fascinating Amina! I was close to falling for a tattoo many years ago. It felt very cool to me as well. Yet, there was a voice inside me that stopped me. Not long go I thought, a tattoo is something you do one day, for a specific reason, and you have to live with it all your life (unless get removed) even if the reason why you went for it may not be longer valid. Recently, I watched a video where they show the needle coming into your skin to produce the tattoo. Just watching it I could feel the horrible pain that it brings and how imposing is on your body. I am glad, I never fell for it!

  21. I really enjoyed reading this blog Amina. In my experience it is true that tattoos distract from the true beauty we all hold. The booming tattoo removal business is a testament to the fact that many people regret the decision to imprint their skin with the mark of another. Thank you for sharing your experience with us.

    1. Yes I also enjoyed this, I love how you have shared this so honestly and it would be worth reading for all those people that want to get tattoos.. to look at why they want to get one because down the track things may change then they have to go through the pain of removing it or the even deeper pain of keeping it and not wanting it.

  22. I had a semi permanant cosmetic tattoo applied to my skin to cover a scar a few years ago. I was supposed to see the tattooist for a second session soon after the first to ‘set’ the tattoo, however, the first tattoo felt so wrong I couldn’t bring myself to go back, despite the fact that the scar looked much better. Thankfully this tattoo faded away on it’s own leaving me with a visible scar once more. Now I can say with certainty that I would rather have my scar than a tattoo any day.

  23. “True beauty is an allowing. It is not about a doing, which is what society seems to be saying it is. My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful”.
    I simply love what you have written here, Amina; the story of your transformation is very powerful.

  24. Focusing on letting your beauty out rather than trying to make yourself beautiful is just so gorgeous. What a truly inspirational way to live.

  25. “True beauty is an allowing. It is not about a doing, which is what society seems to be saying it is. My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful.” – This is gorgeous Amina, to appreciate that we already have true beauty within and all we have to do is to let our beauty out.

  26. Thank you Amina for a lovely sharing, the true beauty that we hold inside does not compare to anything outside of us, it is this beauty that shines through us, all we have to do is allow what is already there to come out .

  27. Your experiences here Amina clearly show that the tattoo is not all it is necessarily made out to be. I find this interesting considering that over the last few years in particular there appears to be more people with more tattoos than I have ever seen before.

  28. I love your honest sharing Amina. Because I do not have any tattoos – I am very interested in why people choose to have them. I like what you share so openly and it helps me to understand why people choose to have them.

  29. Amina, what you have shared is very supportive and inspiring on many levels. I totally agree with what you have said that we often do not want to deal with things in life because of the physical and emotional pain we will incur from it but by not dealing with something we usually cause far more harm and damage longer term than actually facing the initial pain of confronting it.

    1. So true Linda all the effort we put into avoiding both physical and emotional pain is so draining. As Amina shares the difference in being connected to herself during the removal process is clear and I feel it is this commitment to connection that can support us to face the pain of working through something and letting it go so that the world gets a truer reflection of us.

  30. What you share Amina here is very inspiring and supportive for anyone who is interested in getting their tattoo removed. ‘True beauty is an allowing. It is not about a doing, which is what society seems to be saying it is.’ – A beautiful reminder for us all, thank you.

  31. Thank you for your beautiful sharing Amina. I love how you ended with – ‘My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful.’ – so brilliantly said. As this truth for me reflects the true power of how we all shine when we connect to the beauty that we all are within. That within we are it all.

    1. I love your comment Carola, brilliantly said. Inspires us to let ourselves shine and share the beauty that we all are.

  32. You have brought attention to something that many may not realise in observing ‘Tattoos’. Tattoos are a barrier to connecting and allowing others to see who you truly are. Another avenue to hide behind. I loved your sharing of your experience of having the Tattoo’s removed and the place of stillness within that you connected to. A very honest and insightful blog Amina, thank you for sharing.

  33. “What I find interesting is that they take you away from seeing the real person and instead you just get drawn to the tattoo” I realise that is what I have done when I see a tattoo on someone. I have never had a tattoo myself so thank-you Amina for giving me a greater understanding of another way we search for recognition from others. Whereas making the choice to have them removed has allowed you to feel the effect that they were having on you. How wonderful that you can now feel the power of your own true beauty – the Real you.

    1. Same for me Deidre. I have never really paid attention to this but it is so true. It is awesome to be more aware of this about tattoos.

  34. Really, tattooing is a form of branding, labelling. To most, Its an indication of type, quality and contents before ever sampling. For many it can be a warning to steer clear of the product all together. Its not so easy to change brands and, as you’ve indicated Amina. arduous and painful to remove the label, but well worth it to be free to be your own unique product, transparent, so the amazing contents can be sampled and shared by all equally without reserve.

    1. You’re right Barbara, tattooing is indeed a form of branding or labelling. I wonder in the long term just how many people are happy with the ‘brand’ they have chosen….??

  35. “My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful” – very well said, Amina. It’s a world apart knowing our innate beauty and letting it out; or thinking something would make us beautiful and caking it all up.

  36. I used to be in a social environment with lots of people having lots of tattoos and not only those “pretty” tattoos, but lots of tattoos making clear statements about their hurts and disagreement with society. I was sometimes shocked by what I saw tattooed on people’s bodies and even though I had a time I thought about getting a “pretty” tattoo I never really considered it. It was quite funny also, because I started to stand out by not having tattoos. There is a massive identity, specifically between men, with tattoos and the way to connect, specifically at the beach has often been about commenting someone else’s tattoo. It was like the tattoo provided people with a story to tell so it was a way to communicate without having to connect truly. It kept it superficial, but at the same time there was the illusion of human connection. Tattoos have so much to do with hiding and protection and I can very much relate to what you share here, how important the process of removing was and I love your final sentence: “My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful.”

    1. ‘It was like the tattoo provided people with a story to tell so it was a way to communicate without having to connect truly. It kept it superficial, but at the same time there was the illusion of human connection.’ This feels true Rachel and gives greater understanding to why people get tattoos. With the continuing growth in this trend it is a sad reflection of how disconnected we are from each other and how important Amina’s claiming of allowing her beauty out is, to reflect a different way.

  37. As you have shared Amina, once a tattoo is inked onto your body it is there in a very permanent nature unless you have a change of heart and go through the arduous and painful task of removing it. Years ago when I was thinking about getting a tattoo my Dad said to me I should just put different fake ones on and change them whenever I wanted because ‘you know how much you change you mind Suse’. Today I am more than content to still be a clean skin. Thanks for the wise words Dad!

  38. Its a great point you have raised Amina that tattoos may affect us in ways that we could not even imagine. My personal opinion is the tattoo culture has gone a bit to far.

  39. I find it interesting to read a blog on this subject as there has never been any part of me that has been drawn to have a tattoo so it helps to bring an understanding as to why some would choose this. Thank you Amina for the sharing.

  40. A great blog Amina, I am sure if people knew the process involved in getting a tattoo removed they may have second thoughts about it. Thank you for this simple and powerful reminder – ‘ My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful.’

  41. Thank you for sharing this Amina, your blog will support so many people. Not only the physical pain to consider but the energy linked to having tattoos as you’ve shared is very valuable. The way you describe having your body back after the tattoo removal was brilliant and I love that you are choosing to allow your natural beauty to shine through. Inspiring.

  42. Thank you Amina for sharing how the tattoo removal process has supported you to feel your true beauty as you no longer have the imposition of these imprints on your body. With the continuing rise of tattoos this blog is so relevant because I am sure there are many who end up regretting their choices and by you sharing your experience others can feel how it’s possible to make different choices.

  43. An amazing journey of self-discovery about the true nature of our real beauty and a real inspiration to anyone contemplating a tattoo. As you say, true beauty is an allowing – never an imposition.

  44. Gorgeous Amina, it is very revealing to read the impact a tattoo has on one’s body, that it owns part of it and has a great effect on our body. Which is not strange as it is nothing more that impregnating our skin with a substance that is far from natural, in a way that is not honouring for our body. I loved feeling how it truly made you able to claim back your body, and be free from ideals that you had about it.

  45. Thank you Amina for sharing your experience of removing your tattoo and coming to a deeper understanding of your true beauty, “True beauty is an allowing. It is not about a doing, which is what society seems to be saying it is.”

  46. Thank you Amina, I have learnt much from your sharing also. I have sometimes been quite shocked when older people decide to have a tattoo as a celebration of a significant event in their lives.

  47. Even though the removal process sounds very painful, from what you have shared Amina it feels as if it has been a wonderful gift of re-connection to your body and the precious opportunity to learn to love and appreciate it all over again.

  48. Like you Amina I find we can often ‘put off doing things in life that we know will help us because of the pain that it will incur’. This occurs on many levels of our human bodies and lives but as you also have said, just like the tattoos you removed although painful at the time, is far less painful in the long term than just leaving these painful imprints to gnaw and aggravate you on top of all the other stimuli we have to contend with in this day and age.

  49. Amina, one part of your awesome blog that stood out for me was where you say you are now devoting yourself to allowing your beauty out rather than wanting to use external markers to feel beautiful. This is a huge shift from the common notions of beauty. Imagine if all the industries associated with ‘enhancing beauty’ started with a person coming from a position of knowing that are beautiful just as they are. It would revolutionise the way people shopped and it would be unlikely they would even consider getting a tattoo! Thank you for sharing – I think it’s very important that people realise what’s involved both in getting a tattoo (physically and energetically) and in having one removed.

  50. This is lovely and inspiring to read Amina, we get caught in feeling we need the right hairstyle, make-up, tattoo, etc to make us feel beautiful when the truth is our ‘true beauty’ is within always we just need to let it shine.

  51. Amina, you have presented and exposed much insight-fullness on this subject of tattooing. Every time I see a tattoo I feel like asking – Why? And somewhere in all the possible variations of answers, I can not be convinced that it is a good thing. Like all things, there are many layers and levels at play here. Not just the visible.

  52. I know each and every time I have considered getting a tattoo, which have been very few and far between so I remember each one clearly, I have wanted to enhance myself because I felt plain. Thanks to whatever angel or guidance was with me at the time I did not go through with it and now appreciate I can work each day with a blank canvas which I tend to with deep care. How We feel about ourselves comes from inside – nothing to do with the outside.

  53. Great that you have removed your tattoos Amina and also sharing that the removal process although painful is worth going through. You pose the question “Is it possible that tattoos do affect us in ways that we could not even imagine?”. I would say categorically yes. Because everything is energy and everything leaves an energetic imprint a tattoo actually allows the energy of the tattooist into your body and it remains in your body until it is cleared. Tattoos are therefore a very unwise investment.

  54. Amina, thank you for writing about why you made the decision to have a tattoo imprinted on your skin and later why you made the choice to have it removed. I have never had a tattoo (probably because they were not the ‘in thing’ in my younger days!) so it was great to hear a firsthand account of what is involved both physically and emotionally with having this procedure and then later having it reversed. It is sad to see how this deeply harming fashion statement is so prevalent in our society today.

  55. “they take you away from seeing the real person and instead you just get drawn to the tattoo.” This is very revealing that so many people hide from themselves and others behind the mask of a tattoo and a great observation that the constant pain of a tattoo taking you away from who you truly are is so much greater than the physical pain of having a tattoo removed.

  56. ‘they take you away from seeing the real person and instead you just get drawn to the tattoo.’ So true, and is I feel one of the reasons some people get tattoos – they are a way to hide as another’s gaze will be taken from the eyes to the tattoo.

    1. It is true Sally, I have observed this comes up for me too. I find when I am open and more connected to people, judgement is then less likely to come through. This applies to everyone I meet, to first connect to the person and not let what my eyes see cloud or distort potential of true connection, to meet people with an open heart regardless.

  57. “My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful..” I love this Amina. Allowing our beauty out, rather than getting caught up with the latest fashion and beauty stakes. True beauty does come from within. I am noticing that many Universal Medicine students are becoming more beautiful with time – even as they age.

  58. “True beauty is an allowing. It is not about a doing, which is what society seems to be saying it is.” Wow Amina I love this as it would be so wonderful if more people would live like this. Imagine everyone would allow the true beauty to be instead of constantly trying to fulfill a picture our society is asking us to be!

  59. You breaking the concept here that we have to make ourselves beautiful, for example through a tattoo and that beauty therefore is a ‘taste’ or preference that is dictated by the outside. But what if beauty is innate and just needs to be connected to so it can surface and shine out?

  60. ‘What I find interesting also is that they take you away from seeing the real person and instead you just get drawn to the tattoo.’ I must admit I have experienced this too, my attention is often immediately drawn to the tattoo instead of connecting to the person. What I have found is that our body is already naturally beautiful, covering it up with tattoos to me doesn’t seem to allow this natural beauty to shine through.

  61. “True beauty is an allowing. It is not about a doing, which is what society seems to be saying it is. My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful.” I know these words are true Amina and I say similar things to many women around me but I have yet to fully claim this for myself by surrendering and allowing my inner beauty to shine out.

  62. Up until quite recently I used to shake my head in disbelief when gorgeous young girls/women could not accept compliments being bestowed upon them, however, when I took a moment to reflect on how I was at their age, I realised that I had behaved in exactly the same way. As you have discovered Amina it is so beautiful when we come to and accept the understanding that our true beauty emanates from the inside out and not the other way around as the world would like us to believe.

  63. It is gorgeous to read how you have chosen to be aware of the imposition of the outer influences that inundate us from society and instead choose to connect to and enjoy your true beauty, knowing there is nothing you need to be other than yourself. A powerful message for us all.

  64. Thank you Amina for revealing how we so often look outside of ourselves or to change our physical appearance, when we sense there is a need for change. Yet our greatest transformation comes through our ever deepening connection to Soul, to our love within, through which we will always become more of who we are. An unfolding journey of our magnificence, reflected through our bodies, to which there is no end.

  65. I have never felt the impulse to get a tattoo and reading your very honest blog I am so pleased that I didn’t, especially when I read the words: “the pain/damage that the tattoo was in fact doing to me by being imprinted on my skin was much more painful than taking it off.” What a wonderful revelation that was, one that has now allowed you to have the tattoos finally removed so you can feel your true beauty again, a beauty that had never left you in spite of the tattoos making you feel like it had.

  66. I used to see tattoos as like a stamp from a certain part of my life. I like the idea of having those permanent reminders of who I was at the time I got them. But now, looking back at who I was at those times of my life, it is as though the tattoos were holding me in some way to where I was at when I got them – and I was not in a good place when I got them contrary to what I may have thought at the time. The tattoos were capping and quite destructive. Having them removed was very freeing in many ways.

    1. What I understand from your comment Nikki is that you took your tattoo to mark a certain period in your life, like Amina wrote when you become 18 or 21, and that that mark keeps you connected to that spot. I can sense that there is a reality in that. The question that comes to me is why should you want to imprint the body, that is continuously moving and evolving, with a fixture? It sounds like debilitating and withholding the body from truly moving forwards.

      1. That question is exactly what I didn’t ask myself at the time. I was so emotional and lost that I thought it was a great idea to mark that moment in my life and let it have some hold over me. Looking back with clarity I can see that it was debilitating yet I did not have that awareness at that time. Although, in truth on some level I did know and that is that part that came as a shock when I took responsibility for it.

  67. Gorgeous Amina, deeply enriching blog about the truth and experience of you and your tattoo and the removal from it. I am so deeply appreciative that you took the time to write this, share it and help others to understand themselves and see their choices for what they are but never who they are. And so to see and let go and heal what was there all along needed to be healed.

  68. So true – we often don’t get told what is actually involved to undo what we choose to do. So much for informed choices. Or, we may sometimes adopt selective hearing.

  69. I do not mean this with any judgement Amina, but I have always felt there was something crazy about allowing someone to mark you permanently with an ugly dark mark which was for life. I know you can now get them removed although I have no idea how successful this is, but back when I was younger, there was no removal process. If felt like painting graffiti on a beautiful work of art.

  70. Thank you Amina for sharing your evolving relationship with tattoos with us. This is a subject I find deeply disturbing. I grew up at a time when tattoos were frowned upon, more commonly worn by men, usually sailors and rarely by women. To witness the culture of tattooing escalate to the extent it has, massively marketed, shops in every high street and adopted by both men and women is shocking. It is an example of what happens when an ill-habit trends and everyone follows without question. The preciousness and sacredness of the human body trampled underfoot by a stampede to willingly mutilate and de-face.. As you show short-term attention gives way to long-term harm and painful removal process.

  71. Curious how we willingly pay for procedures that scar and harm our bodies and to find tattooing sold in unexpected places. A young female hairdresser, used for the first time, cut my hair and casually offered to tattoo my eyebrows. I asked her why I would want to do that when I have eyebrows already. She didn’t have an answer. This is a small example of how entrenched tattooing has become and insidiously offered to people.

  72. Such an interesting phenomenon you describe Amina… do we really stop and think what is happening that we can see tattoo’s as so cool and sexy at one time, and not so long after, find them repulsive and unappealing. We push this aside with the notion that it is a matter of ‘each to his or her own’, but what if it is not that, but rather the energy we have aligned to (or in other words ‘buying into something’) that has us see things a particular way. Perhaps there is an absolute truth about things, everything in life, it is only us that changes, depending what we have ‘bought into’ or not.

  73. Wow awesome blog Amina and fantastic that you have shared with us your experience, we don’t often hear about the after effects and the expense in both time and money there is in getting it removed. I would love to see this blog given to anyone before they have a tattoo in fact I would love to make it mandatory reading for anyone considering such a procedure.

  74. When I read this “What I find interesting also is that they take you away from seeing the real person and instead you just get drawn to the tattoo.” I had never seen it so clearly but of course that is what happens, we see the tattoo and not the person. It is a buffer between people.

  75. I find that is exactly what tattoos do
    “that they take you away from seeing the real person and instead you just get drawn to the tattoo.”
    I can remember as a child my parents had a friend who was in the Merchant Navy and he had a tattoo on his arm and that was all I saw, I didn’t see the man, just his tattoo, so is it possible that is one of the many reasons people get them – so that they can hide behind them so to speak?

  76. Tattoos are becoming completely mainstream now, the energy of them can often be very sinister and quite dark, but whatever the picture there is a feeling you get when you look at someone who has chosen to have a tattoo. They can say how much they love it, however, they always feel to me like there is something the person may not want to feel, which you have beautifully confirmed in this blog Amina, to feel ones own beauty.

  77. Hi Amina, what caught my attention today is what you wrote about the pain and damage that the tattoo has been doing to you, that you came to the realization that the pain of wearing the tattoo is far more worse then the pain being experienced from the laser treatment and is a pain you are constantly carrying with you as long you have the tattoo. This is completely new to me and has never been told to me before. I feel so lucky that I never have taken one realizing the effect a tattoo does have on the body. It leaves a configuration that makes the body move in a different way, a way that actually is not natural to it and therefore is actually so harmful.

  78. Thank you Amina, we live in a society that dictates what is beauty and the means for us to be accepted and liked by others but all this is an absolute lie we fall for when not connected to our true nature within, it is only when we learn to appreciate ourselves that we slowly discover that our beauty is within and the more we embrace it the more we emanate that for all others to feel and be inspired treat their bodies with the love and respect they so deserve.

  79. I had a tattoo on my left breast when I was in my thirties. I began the process of removing it two years ago. Getting it removed and re-connecting with my left breast made me realize how detrimental getting the tattoo had been to my over all well-being and specifically to my direct relationship with my left breast. After a couple of removal sessions I was blown out by how I could feel and re-connect with my left breast again as well as the whole of my left side. This was a real eye opener to me in realizing how dead the parts of our body we get tattooed become. It is like they energetically no longer belong to our body even though physically they are still a part .

  80. “True beauty is an allowing. It is not about a doing, which is what society seems to be saying it is. My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful.”This is an amazing realisation and something for us all to know and honour who we are simply and lovingly beautiful and a much needed reflection in the world calling us to look outside of ourselves constantly.

  81. ‘My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful.’ I love this Amina, so many women get trapped in this cycle of continually searching outside of themselves to feel beautiful and accepted. When women embrace all the qualities they bring within and deeply value themselves we get to see and feel a women in her power and true beauty.

  82. Amina, thank-you for sharing your process with this. You’ve said some things that feel very significant here, especially in your words: “I now feel I finally have got my body back…”
    From what you’ve described, I can’t but appreciate just how precious is both our body and ‘us’, the being that inhabits it. And how there can be things we do to our bodies that actually mar the brilliance, vibrancy and light of our true being. A tattoo is an imprint – imbedded in the layers of our skin – of another’s creation. We can’t take it on or off depending upon how we feel any given day. It’s there ‘for the duration’, unless we decide upon a removal process as you’ve been going through. And with it, as with anything in life, there comes a package of energy…
    Your sharing here makes me realise all the more that we must look, feel and sense below the surface of how anything may appear, to the actual energy at play, such as the creation of another’s art that we are saying is ok to live in and with our body, 24/7… and then where we were at in the first place, that we said yes to the pain of even its application.

  83. Amina thank you for describing how you have claimed your body back. It is indeed precious, and if we all treated it that way, there are many things we wound not do to it. Things like over eating, drinking alcohol, taking drugs, getting tattoos etc just shows that many of us are disconnected from out bodies and don’t see the preciousness of it.

  84. To “not get caught in what the world is telling me it is or should be by any doing or action.” This is such a powerful learning for you Amina, one I am sure will be inspirational for others. I have observed that so many of us give our power away to beliefs that society has willingly accepted and to the many ‘shoulds’ that come with these beliefs. To be able to honour our bodies as the wondrous vessels that they are will ensure that the thought of inflicting pain by getting a tattoo would be a choice that has no chance of being made.

  85. True beauty is an allowing, an allowing of what is inside of us to be seen and felt, ‘to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful.’

  86. It is fantastic to hear from a salon owner what true beauty is from the inside compared to the outside with a ‘doing’ or tattoos. “My focus now is to allow my beauty out rather than try and make myself beautiful.”
    Thank you for sharing Amina.

  87. It sounds like a painful process to go through to get tattoos removed, and to think we never truly consider the permanence of a tattoo when they are first done, and totally in the illusion that we will love them forever. As the tattoo leaves an indelible impression it contains an energy left by the tattoo artist that remains for the lifetime of the tattoo, and that we carry that around with us.

  88. This is a great question to reflect on, especially for those who are considering having a tattoo, ‘Is it possible that tattoos do affect us in ways that we could not even imagine?’

  89. Amina I loved the honesty in your blog, the length of time it takes to remove a tattoo is incredible I admire your tenacity in sticking with it to the end when you no longer have any tattoos left. I think it would be great if someone who was thinking of having a tattoo spoke with someone who was having one removed.

  90. What you say about a tattoo being an imprint that means your body is not all yours is kind of like saying you have been “branded”.

  91. This is a clear demonstration of how much more painful and how long it takes to remove a pattern imprinted on our body than it is to take it on in the first place.

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