A few years ago the expression “Become who I really am” came to my awareness and slowly transformed into a life-changing revelation. When I first heard it, I felt empowered; it was like a call to become who I always intuitively knew I was. However, it didn´t stop there – it got complicated as I went through a lot of thinking:
- Who was I really? If normally I am not who I really am, then who am I most of the time?
- Am I being invalidated in some way?
- Is someone going to know who I am, better than I do?
I had found relief in defending that I am both my shadow and my talents. After all, it seemed impossible to get rid of my darkness; therefore I should stop fighting against it and accept it as part of me as well. I also thought about what I had done in my life: my studies, working life, abilities, insecurities, relationships, and projections onto the future. However, I was still a bit unclear about “Who I really was.”
My mind came with a possible list of qualities that could define me. They were more like talents I had been trying to cultivate, ideals I had picked up in my psychological researches and spiritual searches, values I had taken from all sorts of institutions such as family, school, friendships, and things that I had admired or envied in others.
What became clear though, was that I spent most of my time in my mind; I used self-criticism a lot, tried to control how I came across, and was always trying to better myself as I craved being recognized.
The expression, “Be who you really are,” expanded and I was offered the possibility to know myself by my essence of Love, Harmony and Joy.
Could someone be described through these qualities and nothing more? What about all the things I´ve done? What about my intellectual knowledge? What about my hidden cravings and not so nice stuff?
Being Love, Harmony and Joy sounded quite simplistic… like a new age passage, nice to hear, but proclaiming from one day to the next that I was Love, Harmony and Joy felt a bit far-out and uncomfortable.
I also didn´t like that, if I was these, or had these qualities in myself, I was not the only one, the rest of humanity had them as well. It implied a sort of dissolution of the attachments I had to my personality, my little stories that felt very important and authentic. All my efforts to become someone in a world where recognition, identification and standing out over the crowd are very much appreciated, all of a sudden became meaningless.
Even though accepting this reality would mean the liberation from the many struggles in my life and the end of the separation I felt to others, I just wouldn’t accept it so easily.
What change would it make to know myself through my essence rather than through what I did, my achievements, losses, all my behaviours and ideas on weak and strong self-esteem?
If I could stop identifying myself with all the heavy stuff I´ve been dealing with for ages, could it be that everything that was holding me back, keeping me messy and re-creating more of the same, would start to finally shift?
What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all? What if we are all equal in our essence, but express in many different ways and it is never about validation, competition or defence?
Lastly and gradually, I gave myself the chance to possibly accept something grander – even grander than my old ideas on the higher self, God and spirituality – ideas that were always outside of me.
Accepting myself as being Love, Harmony and Joy has made me go through lots of self-doubt and hesitation. Sometimes I have felt apprehensive about losing my identity and certain relationships.
What I never imagined though, is that my acceptance of something so simple, yet so powerful and universal, would take me through a journey of deep self-transformation and acceptance of humanity.
My well-known imperfections haven´t magically disappeared from one day to the next. I am actually more aware of my past, the way I used to live and the unloving consequences of my past behaviours come back at me sometimes in discouraging ways.
However, what has truly changed is my understanding and how I relate to all these in ways that no longer seek to indulge in a debilitating self-loathing or self-condemnation and the evasiveness of aloofness and avoidance of responsibility:
- I now know that all of those shabby places within myself shouldn’t be accepted as normal or inevitable parts of Who I am, but ways I have ignorantly used to self-protect, and self-defend, from all sort of deep emotional hurts, and ultimately for survival and self-gain.
- I have come to understand that the connection to my inner amazing being was progressively lost when growing up as I learned to adhere to ways of living and being that allowed me to fit in and gave me accepted identities, but in truth didn´t support my loving qualities to expand from within and express out confidently.
- I know I am in a process of healing, saying goodbye and discarding issues that have a strong hold on me because for so long I believed they were me. When feelings of emptiness and misery look like me, or when sabotage looks like an easy way out of difficult situations, I use honesty, discernment and detachment to support me with these.
My focus is not anymore about changing or judging my personality, my looks, my nose, my job, my family, my friends, my country, but how to live in a way that allows all the beauty I am reclaiming back to come out and express. This has required a new level of acceptance, as to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.
My body was just `something´ I took everywhere without much care or awareness and respect for its powerful intelligence. I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.
The more I discern and keep aligning back to a quality that to me feels closer to harmony, the more I organise my movements, my choices and all of myself in ways that allow for a more loving way of living to unfold naturally, without sacrifice or becoming alien in a very busy world. It is not perfect, but a deeply powerful process that is forever unfolding and deepening towards the true Harmony, Love and Joy I am.
Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life. It is something that deserves true consideration and a commitment to be explored in each one of us. It is true evolution!
I have been inspired by Serge Benhayon and deeply appreciate the trust he brings back in the deep knowing of Who We Really Are.
by Luz Helena Hincapié, Bogotá, Colombia
Further Reading:
Essence
How Amazing it feels to Be Myself
Inspired By Universal Medicine…Just Being Me
The Truth about Serge Benhayon 
We are a part of the whole and the whole is God and each part is equal to the whole so why do we play small and hide in our comforts? It is perhaps to do wanting to stay separate as an individual when we in fact can never be separate as we are part of a whole! What a waste of time and effort investing in individuality when it doesn’t really exit outside of our own head.
I was asking myself about deepening the acceptance of myself and my choices, this blog has been a great support rather than entertaining the thoughts of “It’s too much/above you, you should give up now” Accepting all the beauty within me is not hard but very simple and that I am that simplicity. And when it comes to living this the simplicity is not instant at first but takes time and thats ok too.
We cannot escape who we are. We run from our grandness more than we distance ourselves from our mistakes and unloving choices.
“I have been inspired by Serge Benhayon and deeply appreciate the trust he brings back in the deep knowing of Who We Really Are.” Me too Luz, Serge continually inspires me to return to my true essence even though it’s been covered over in so many ways to the point I believed my behaviours, emotions and misery were who I am. And, the return to living from my essence is beautiful.
One can only be who he/she truly is. That will never change. Other thing is who we are in this life and what we portray to be. The latter two are enormous reductions from the first one. Yet, the key is held in what we portray to be. We have an opportunity (within limits, of course) to share with the world who we truly are.
I have found that as time goes on and since coming to Universal Medicine I have taken away layers of who I am not, allowing more and more of who I truly am to be seen. As I do this, there are no startling revelations of who I truly am. In fact it feels like the most normal thing in the world and I have always felt it – I have always been me. It’s only the layers on top that get taken off and discarded.
I love the simplicity you share here Luz of simply connecting with our essence through our bodies and the joy, harmony and love that is naturally occurring in all of us and yet expressed in our own unique way which we can truly connect with and value and we don’t have to prove ourselves, try to be anything else or more or judge ourselves for our imperfections. Very beautiful and very healing for me to read at this time.
Coming to understand that all that is not of love and harmony is not in truth me but instead adornments that I have gathered through life and can be discarded like a coat to reveal me in my truth of being a Divine Being is the greatest blessing possible – and that has come about through the blessing of Serge Benhayon.
The path within has always been simple…and will always be so until we all return.
It was only after I had gone through and let go of a lot of who I am not that I started to develop a deeper connection to who I truly am.
Struggle and emotion have no foundation – it is brilliant to read this and see these for what they are – the complication that pulls us off track from what we can truly bring. This sharing brings a simplicity to how we can live if we choose to not make it about only the physical and issues but live from the truth of the body.
It also asks us to detach from people. To let go investments we have as they make us otherwise living a lower version of ourselves. Which for sure doesn’t mean that we shouldn’t connect deeply with people but is a letting go of personal needs and work together to a grander purpose.
Thank you Sylvia for your comment and as I hadn’t made the link between having investments in others and this coming from an untrue version of ourselves.
I love how this blog supports the detachment from everything we have created. My achievements and failures are not who I/we really are.
Making this differentiation is taking blinkers off not only one’s eyes but all one’s senses.
This is a question I have asked time and time again and the answer is always irrefutable and consistent when the answer comes in the form of an encompassing feeling from my body. Then I am sold and forever that is my marker of truth.
Beautifully said Luz. When our essence is love, joy and truth we get to see immediately all that we use to not accept this very fact.
‘What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all?’ This is an amazing question that exposes that perhaps we have been fooled into thinking that we are our issues when in fact this is not true. What I have been learning lately is how hard I have to work at keeping things simple which sounds silly but it does take a lot of work to keep life simple and not create complication and indulgence in anything from food to so-called issues etc.
Allowing for a natural more loving way of living is so supportive, ‘Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life.’ Absolutely.
Thank you Luz… We can take something just as simple as walking… And within this we can feel such a beautiful harmony, a rhythm and a joy, or we can just get somewhere.
Totally gorgeous Luz, you have brilliantly cover the steps to in walking back to love and out of self.
Before meeting Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine the question of ‘Of who am I really? was not one I had really considered. I was just me. However, doing so was a huge unravelling revelation as I discovered the ‘me’ that I had taken for granted was not really me but a me that was identified by what I did – it was like a coat I wore. Taking that coat off has, and still is, an ongoing deepening as I re-connect and reveal to ME myself and the world.
We have never been encouraged to learn to know who we are but instead all have been led into the myriad of false images we were told to look into.
It is through our body, our presence, and the quality of how we live and move each day, that helps re-connect us back to our essence, who we are in truth.
Knowing who you are is something everyone in the world wants, and it has only been through the Gentle Breath Meditation I’ve discovered what that inner connection, and following tangible daily experience feels like.
On the entrance to the Temple of Apollo at Delphi the ancient Greeks inscribed the words – “Know Thyself”. In these two words is every thing we need to uncover who we truly are and understand that the teaching ‘I am that I am’. For if we know the depth of who we are, we will know the second something enters that does match the absolute beauty of this. We are not the sum total of all the ideals, beliefs and behaviours we have taken on in life. Deep to the core of us we are Divine and we have simply allowed these shadows to cloud the truth of who we are and thus the majesty of this light.
Beautifully expressed, Liane, and I am forever thankful to Serge Benhayon for enabling me to understand the true meaning of “Know Thyself”.
The more I have embraced and surrendered to who I truly am, the more I have realised that all of these qualities have been there all along and I do not need to look for anything outside of myself to express in full.
The true love, harmony and joy you mention together with other true qualities of the Soul and our essence are beautiful described in Unimedpedia: http://www.unimedliving.com/unimedpedia/word-index and are so very much more than we acknowledge as are we.
This is a great question to ponder on Luz, ‘Who was I really? If normally I am not who I really am, then who am I most of the time?’ I am letting go of what i am not, the ideals, beliefs, pictures and allowing my true self to emerge, to be seen and felt in full.
We are all innately connected by our inner essence and it is how we express this inner quality to the world that makes us unique and yet still equally needed as a grander part of the universal puzzle. We really are one and that is very beautiful to feel and to appreciate.
This is so true Luz , everything you have expressed makes sense to me .
” Who I truly am ” is Who you truly are
‘What change would it make to know myself through my essence rather than through what I did..?’ This is a question I asked myself, and thankfully I was willing to give it a go, because my previous way of living was making me miserable. What made the choice easier was seeing how others who had made that choice were living and I was inspired.
‘…how to live in a way that allows all the beauty I am reclaiming back to come out and express.’ – This is awesome – what we let go of is great – but what confirms this is to express what we are and not what we have let go of. What a shift in how we are in ourselves and with others.
‘Be who I truly am’ – Well,l it took me a little while to peel back the layers and feel the essence of me, the natural me that is full of joy when I connect and engage with people, life and the universality of who we all truly are.
‘Being who I truly am’ meant little to me a few years ago, but after a few years of letting go of all the ideals and beliefs I was using to define myself I now have a strong presence and sense of who I truly am which doesn’t involve pictures or a long list of things I do. The less I think and the more I let my body lead the way the greater my connection to me becomes.
We are so much more than our minds would have us believe.
Absolutely Victoria, we become very lost and confused if we let the mind take over.
Our bodies are magnificent really and when we listen and live in respect to our essence, the body and mind working in union nothing is out of order.
This is a beautiful expression of coming home to you Luz. ‘Who am i really’ is a question I too asked and searched for for years through many different avenues before I came to realise that I was right here all along, the one in the All and the all in the One.
‘This has required a new level of acceptance, as to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.’ This statement captures the very essence of what I was recently trying to communicate to a friend about the difference for me between acquiring more ‘mind’ knowledge and living from the wisdom of my body.
You bring it back to simplicity Luz, it’s through how we live in our bodies, how we walk, what we choose, what we allow – this is how we live and accept the truth of who we are.
Equality would not even be a thing if we honoured and expressed from our essence and accepted the same spark in all others. Equality would be our natural base line, our foundation from which true Godly connection and brotherhood then stems.
I love the question of “can I live as who I really am?”, because it forces me to look at who I really am, and drop away the pictures of who I think I am, and just be me.
The beauty of returning to who we are inside is the constant blossoming and expanding that is felt from our centre. The moment we live what we feel, we are called to take another step and deepen to feel the endless well of love that reveales itself constantly, shedding from our bodies anything we have lived, accepted or allowed that is not from the love inside. A walk in life that I cannot imagine being with out.
Thank you Luz for your fabulous blog, it requires quite in depth study as there is such a lot of gold here. I could relate to this line in regards to allowing myself to be the love, joy and harmony of the soul “It implied a sort of dissolution of the attachments I had to my personality, my little stories that felt very important and authentic”. I could definitely feel the identification I have also had to the smallness, to the human life, and even the issues, instead of the multidimensionality of the Soul and myself as a being. There can even be a sense of safety, comfort and familiarity in that smallness, and also in the actual misery it brings.
“Who was I really? If normally I am not who I really am, then who am I most of the time?”
What a great question to stop us in our tracks and begin to have an understanding that something is awry in living the truth of who really are – so much more than just the physical body, mental thoughts and emotions we take for granted as being ‘it’. Re-connection with the truth of our Divine Essence is then possible.
I completely agree – we shouldn’t accept anything less than Love, Truth, Harmony, Joy and Stillness as our normal – all the other stuff is all that we are not in truth.
“Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life. ” So true Luz. When we all can accept – and appreciate – that our innermost has it all, the world will be a very different place.
Such a powerful and inspiring blog Luz on accepting and living who we truly are and this line is a beautiful reminder of this ‘ I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.’
This is gorgeous Luz, the more we accept the fact we are love, the more we can move in this truth. The more we move in this truth, what is not of this truth comes to the surface to be exposed giving us the opportunity to stop this movement away from love and bring it back to our divine truth.
It’s amazing how we can build ourselves an identity out of traits or issues that are in truth not a part of our essence and yet not surprising due to how much individuality is championed in our world.
It is a well-worth re-discovery of ourselves to bring awareness to all of the roles and ideals we have adopted in life and to know ourselves by our true essence – by the purity of Love that is forever inside us, untainted.
Such a beautiful sharing Luz and a hugely important shift in how you are living. What you share here might not seem like a huge thing, but actually you are claiming in full who you are to the world, and this is not done enough. You are an inspiration for others – to drop all the ideals and beliefs and behaviours we think are us bt are not really. To live from the essence of who you are first – this is very cool.
Luz what you have shared is huge, claiming back who we are is our true purpose, as with this we can live the truth that we are here to live. What you shared here is so true “claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.” It is our livingness that supports to claim back who we are.
What a great exploration of the use of your mind and coming to accept the truth as being the quality through which you are living IN your body. Awesome blog Luz. Thank you.
“This has required a new level of acceptance, as to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body”.
Yes beautifully true, it is an embodiment of love lived and not a mental construct.
Who we are is not who we think we are. There is always a grander version of us waiting for us. This is our truer us. Connecting to it is always extraordinary just to realize how natural is for us to feel grander.
I love Luz how you are totally realistic in what you have shared, that “My well-known imperfections haven´t magically disappeared from one day to the next.” you know that these, as you say well-know imperfections, or we could say old behaviours, don’t go away magically. It is in bringing awareness to the fact that they are there, being more conscious of them, so the make other choices, that is how we change ourselves, lovingly so.
“Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life. It is something that deserves true consideration and a commitment to be explored in each one of us. It is true evolution!” Absolutely Luz, I truly enjoyed your sharing here.
When we reduce ourselves to the layers that stand in the way of us living our truth – life feels incomplete and we seek recognition for what we do within those layers rather than being in the expansiveness of what lies beneath.
Thank you Luz, that is a beautiful example to start knowing who we truly are.. We are the torch carriers of our own light. So the moment we taking our lights out is the path of a new (or actually re-born) beginning.
In essence we are One and the same.
Who we are can never be identified by what we do, as much as our minds would like to tell us so. And words are empty unless lived. As you say Luz, it is through the body and the quality of how we live and move each day, that re-connects us to the true qualities of love, truth, harmony, stillness and joy that we are.
Beautifully said Victoria, there is so much to discover when we live and embody these words rather than just talk about it.
I just had a talk with a Great friend about deepening our self nurtering. To treat our body lovingly as iT is the tempel for our soul to express through.
IT means to me to deepen every single moment in every movement.
Is started And iT feels lovely to do.
YES to this, the power of your words and lived experience ask me to step up to knowing who I really am and exploring this.. Not waiting until it comes with the wind, but actually committing all of you to exploring this and making sure you take care of you and your body the best you can. Beautiful marker and this shows us the power we have inside..
It is quite exposing to find – in a world where everything is about individuality and becoming someone – that it’s not what we do or what we have become it is actually who we are – the inner quality that resides within us and is equal to everybody else.
“If I could stop identifying myself with all the heavy stuff I´ve been dealing with for ages, could it be that everything that was holding me back, keeping me messy and re-creating more of the same, would start to finally shift?” Absolutely, it has started to shift for me, my whole life has change and, my feelings and all my movements. My body feels lighter and more connected, deeper awareness and and clarity. We just need to let go and allow who we truly are to come through.
It feels so true to me that we in essence are all the same and that only through the way we all individually express ourselves we bring that flair and joy to life that makes us all complete.
Beautiful blog Luz. It feels absolutely beautiful to acknowledge that I am so much more than my talents and imperfections. When I connect to this everything else seems simple.
Thank you Luz, as you share it made me aware that being who you are is actually a choice of commitment. As deep down we all know we are more than this current existence we are living. Hence it requires a level of willingness to go there and feel the past and at the same time the future that is awaiting. No shame, no game, just simply being with what there is and making changes is the way.
Feeling as though I am not being who I truly am was a very familiar tension that I had felt for a very long time, but we won’t find ourselves by being someone. We are the One and every one. Knowing oneself has nothing to do with identification.
I really love how you have come to accept your true essence and are able to see the choices that were previously made possible by not choosing to accept who you truly were for what they are.
Letting go of the layers of the what is not and allowing ourselves to surrender brings about a change within ourselves where we are more in connection with the essence of who we are, something that can never be intellectualised only lived with the wisdom and joy that is natural for us.
I remember crossing a number of parts in life of ‘who am I’ and it seemed to hit me harder when something was changing. I remember a few years back when I was changing jobs and it hit hard, who was I without this job. What I have come to learn and still learning since is that we are not what we do and it’s about the quality we are that truly supports us. As is said in this article, “This has required a new level of acceptance, as to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.” This living way holds everything steady and keeps growing in relationship with others. I have seen the enormous growth in how I understand and move around people that then also supports them more. The Way of The Livingness isn’t so much a new spin on things but an relearning of an older way, http://www.unimedliving.com/voice/about-the-audio-presentations/the-way-of-the-livingness-presentation.html
Accepting that it is a process discarding all the issues that I have taken on as part of my ‘identity’ and that there is no perfection allows me the space to explore a new relationship with myself and how I relate to others.
Becoming who I really am is a journey that I too have been on since deciding to come down out of my head and the many twists and turns that my mind has taken me on over the years. I have started to appreciate the depth of my essence in practical ways like choosing to notice the movements of my body and experimenting with how I can support myself to move more gently and with greater presence which then has a knock on effect in how I move through my day. It is sometimes hard to see the effects of these changes and I have often been discouraged by my slow progress but this is always because I am choosing to return to old patterns and judging myself for my frequent ‘mistakes’. Accepting that I am not any of these things but can align to a far greater purpose with the commitment to keep coming back to my body and who I really am is an ever unfolding journey that I am never need to make by myself. The reflection offered by Serge Benhayon and others inspires me daily.
It can be so easy to lose ourselves in emotions or feelings that aren’t really the true, ‘us’ – i.e. aren’t the core of who we are, but sometimes do a great job of being imposters and pretending that they are us. It takes practice and commitment to stop identifying with our ‘stuff’ and to realise that it is a surface layer, and tiny in comparison to the enormity of our essence and who we are when we’re connected to that.
Loved your blog Luz, I picked up on your words ‘or when sabotage looks like an easy way out of difficult situations’ it made me realise two things, one how easy it has been to sabotage myself, because it’s easier to feel lesser, and secondly I’m starting to appreciate the times now when I don’t sabotage myself, and instead allow myself to feel my connection to my essence.
I love the way you say it like it is Luz : ‘when sabotage looks like an easy way out of difficult situations’ We don’t usually consider sabotage this way, we focus on what we have done to ourselves rather than the simple truth that we are avoiding the simple truth.
It can be very powerful to look back at our past with an honesty and awareness that exposes the ideals, beliefs and choices that we have allowed to get in the way from expressing in word and movement the truth of who we really are. I love that you have done this and have now come to a place of appreciation within you of what is possible to live …. and the unfolding and deepening that comes with that when you embrace it like you have.
“What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all? What if we are all equal in our essence, but express in many different ways and it is never about validation, competition or defence?” I love this Luz. Allowing doubt and struggle to creep in is literally – soul-destroying. Sabotage doesn’t support anyone, regardless of whether it is done by oneself or another. Discarding the outer – the ‘what-is-not’ allows who we really are to flourish.
I know when I have been called to answer the question ‘who are you?’ I’ve become tongue tied and started to list my roles and things I’ve done. This would then mean that I am no one without my accomplishments, and this cant be true. I have found it’s not something I can work out from my mind since I now know I have adopted many beliefs and ideals that are not really from me. I cant rely on my mind because I have observed that its often filled will all sort of nonsense that I know is not true. Getting to know the real me is a journey I am still on as I discard the outer stuff that never really belonged. What helps me do this is focusing on my body and its movements. It keeps me present and connected to a place within that I am trusting more and more.
Naturally we are our qualities within, everything on the outside is an illusion.
I am also on the same journey as you Luz, learning to live more lovingly, in harmony and joy more and more every day. What you’ve shared is very relate-able and deeply inspiring. The process of letting go of things that no longer support me to be who I am constantly needs to be revised and deepened.
The concept of ‘becoming who I am’ Luz is very interesting. We spend so much time adhering to the roles and societal expectations placed upon us we can often forget that within we have a wealth of qualities unique to us that when connected to and expressed literally brings our world alive.
Absolutely Luz, what you have shared is true evolution. Rediscovering our divine joy and beauty expands one beyond the limitations of what our mind has called self.
I feel the term being who you really are resonates with so many of us, as we miss being ourselves and the connection with everything that this brings. It also feels like it brings immense ease to the body. No more trying, controlling self-judging etc which is all exhausting and creates a lot of tension.
As has been shared, the term ‘become who you really are’ can bring up a lot for people. For many of us, we have overlaid so much over our true self since we were young that it can seem like a fog to wade through to find our true selves. I can still feel how I was as a child but many people I speak to cant recall a lot of their childhood or how they were as kids. Exploring what you have become, taken on, identified with is part of this returning. Knowing that all that is minute compared to the strength and solidness of the true self always within us, is what can keep us on track.
The body really does support us to know our true self better than our mind. The chatter stops when the mind and body are in one place at one time doing one thing… building that to be more than a passing experience is what reconnects us to a magnificent beauty within.
So true Lucy, when I have random none supportive thoughts this is an indication that I have been moving and expressing in a way that is disconnected to my body. When we connect to our body the quality of our thoughts changes.
What an incredible blog Luz, it offers a reconfiguration within and a calling to ones soul to shine and appreciate all that it brings.
This paragraph is deeply evolutionary, “My mind came with a possible list of qualities that could define me. They were more like talents I had been trying to cultivate, ideals I had picked up in my psychological researches and spiritual searches, values I had taken from all sorts of institutions such as family, school, friendships, and things that I had admired or envied in others.”
It exposes clearly how we tend to see and understand ourselves to be, which needs to be owned by all of us as behaviors and thoughts that are not us, if we wish to remember, deeply, the beauty we are with in, as Luz has so beautifully explained here in this blog.
“I had found relief in defending that I am both my shadow and my talents’ – this is brilliant. I used to think I was an angry, resentful control freak and ‘accepting myself’ was to be able to say that I was that and it was ok, and so it felt impossible to say that I was love and all that – and yes, I agree it was the ultimate alibi I gave myself not to live who I truly was. It was a choice only confirmed by my own movement
Hello Luz and I remember this question of ‘Who am I really?’ coming my way many times and in many ways. Often I would define myself with what I did or what I have done when this question came to me and if it didn’t feel enough then I would drive to achieve more so when the question came again I had more to answer. The answer from here always felt empty, like it wasn’t enough and from this I took two things, I am not enough and what I have done isn’t enough. It felt like that no matter what I did this was always the feeling, no matter what mountain I had climbed before it always meant nothing when this question came. So where to from here? There was only one way and from the support and teachings of Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon it was time and still is time to appreciate all I am, before I even step out of bed. No comparison to others needed or picture of where I should be just appreciation for what is here now. The only answer to that question comes from how you live, if we live in critique, hardness, judgement of who we are then that is where the answer will come from but if we appreciate, appreciate and then appreciate then that question will never come because you already know it. What am I, what are we afraid of?
Good question Ray, what is it that we’re afraid of? Could it be letting go of control and investment in how we’ve made our lives, and allowing ourselves to feel vulnerable – and to live that vulnerability?
We have made life about becoming someone while we already are everything we need. Why do we fall for building that facade that at the end completely covers who we naturally are? When I look to us human beings from this angle I can see the madness this way of living brings to society while the answer to all our problems in the world to me is behind that facade we all have build around that all knowing being that lives in side and for with only love, that is among other things represented in the qualities harmony and joy, matters.
All I could feel while reading this beautiful blog, is the need to surrender to everything we all ready are. Dropping all the ideals that we have created as us, and feeling that we are born divine. Living with with this known truth everyday helps us surrender to this fact.
Our innate essence is an exploration of living in all its honesty and rawness. There is such an expansion to be found from looking at our lives and how we live them day to day. To discover what may be holding us back from all that we are naturally, the only hinderances we may have on accessing our innate qualities is the judgments, comparison and ideals that have been from lives past or hurts we may have experienced. To discover these old ways of being and let go of them, returns us to our natural way. That is where true living begins.
Wow Luz, beautifully expressed, this is a blog I could read over and over and continue to receive benefit. There is such a difference in blogs like this that are about evolution – my whole body ignites and lights up! I have also been finding that woes and misery, issues et al, are all ways in which I currently am able to identify myself and separate completely from my harmony, joy, love and stillness. It’s not that life does not present real challenges, nor that I need to be perfect or untouched by life, it’s more that my foundation of who I know myself to be needs to change profoundly back to my essence and to respond from there.
“Is someone going to know who I am, better than I do?” Yes, God and our Soul knows who we truly are and constantly call us to return to feeling the natural Love, Joy and Harmony that we are in essence.
It also makes sense that if we’re attached to ideas of who we think we are, or need to be – images or expectations of how we need to be, what we need to do – then we have no idea who we truly are. It’s not until we’re prepared to look at and let go of these pictures and expectations we’ve put upon ourselves, and begin to develop our relationship with our bodies, that things start to change. So if I’m avoiding being and living who I truly am, it would make sense that I sabotage my body by living in a way that means I can’t connect to it.
Thank you Luz. What you’ve written here about claiming who we are not through our mind but through our body completely turns the idea of ‘who we are’ being about what we’ve done, achieved and learnt on its head. To know ourselves through our body is a fascinating unfoldment that feels expansive.
‘I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.’ – Luz this makes a lot of sense to me and really reflects to me how important the relationship with our body is. We have a responsibility to connect and listen to our bodies and develop a relationship with them – then as soon as we feel something is not right we can look at it rather than ignoring our bodies and getting to a state where our hurts rule, where we don’t feel joy al the time, and where we are getting sick.
Another amazing blog Luz – thank you! It is becoming clear to me that our systems, amongst other things, are designed to take us away from who we truly are, and replace that with a lesser form of ourselves, shaped by ideals, beliefs and self deprecating feelings and actions. I have often wondered who I truly was, and enjoyed completing psychological and personality tests such as Myers Briggs, just to have someone else tell me that I was worthy. It felt good to read about my strengths, but why did I need this validation from outside of me? I am slowly but surely peeling back the layers to see my true self, with the support of Universal Medicine, its teachings and practitioners.
Thank you Luz. This is so important : building a relationship with yourself first. So you know who you are and can live from there. And so we must be honest about all the ways we have allowed ourselves to drop to what is not from who we are but the denial of it.
When feelings of emptiness and misery look like me, or when sabotage looks like an easy way out of difficult situations, I use honesty, discernment and detachment to support me with these. I use these too, and they work, getting honest and real is powerful and has greatly supported me to make different choices and in making more self-loving choices, more choices keep opening up for me to continually evolve.
Liz what a brilliant blog on what it means to truly be who we truly are? I had to read it twice before I could comment, because I struggled with not being identified for what I do and saw them instead as my qualities which is not actually real. Coming from our essence is a completely different ballgame, well actually it’s not a game at all, it’s letting go of all games, sabotage, playing small etc etc. For me I can now see that all my perceived hardship, struggles and issues have been used as recognition and a normality. However mine, and everyone’s divine essence, is always there either being hidden from view or reconnected to and let out for all to see as a reflection equally.