Anxiety: Why are you Ruling my Life?

I had an anxiety problem. Well, this is what I used to tell myself anyhow. In fact, I didn’t have an anxiety problem at all. I may have all the symptoms of anxiety – a raciness within my body – and yes, it can get to the place where it is a problem, but to say I have an anxiety problem does not quite go to the heart of the matter.

Let me explain.

I remember anxiety affecting me at age 4 as I waited for the school bus and it has been with me ever since. I remember sitting in class at school not being able to answer any questions because I felt anxious and fearful, so I learned to sit and listen and be very, very quiet. I had determined very early on that this was the best way not to get attention and to stay out of trouble. I may have been quiet, but I observed everything around me with an absolute astuteness.

Now let’s fast forward to my 40s. Anxiety had now become a major hindrance to my life. In fact, it was ruling my life, making it difficult to get through each day and preventing me from connecting more deeply with other people and having the relationships that I knew were possible. It was worse now than ever before because I had stopped living in a way that was hard and in protection. What this meant though was that I was more open to feeling everything around me, where people were at and where I was at, and this made me feel uncomfortable, like I could not cope.

Addressing anxiety could potentially change my life, and I was ready for it; prepared to explore what it was all about.

This was all triggered by a situation where I was verbally abused by someone for something very petty. I was shaken to the point where I went straight to my ‘give up’ place saying “this is all too hard.” Over the years I just couldn’t get the anxiety to stop, and this situation was the last straw, so I went for a quick fix and decided to give anxiety medication a go. There was a part of me that felt such relief with the medication because my body was more relaxed and my mind less agitated. In many ways I could say that I felt a little numb. Nevertheless, I knew that whilst the tablets were providing me with a level of desensitisation or relief from the world, it was not a resolution going to the root issue.

I did not rely on the medication alone, but continued with my commitment to understand and heal from the anxiety. I felt well supported by a team of wonderful practitioners that included my doctor, a psychologist and an Esoteric Chakra Puncture practitioner, and here I began the unfolding journey around healing this anxiety.

I stayed on the medication for six months while I worked on my ‘inner’ world. The medication was not a complete fix to the problem. It didn’t stop my reactions or the hurt in my body when I was abused by another or when I felt something hurtful. It didn’t stop the upset, and still I could push through and become racy if I wanted to avoid feeling.

When I was ready to come off the tablets that is what I did, even though I remember feeling apprehensive about whether or not I would be able to cope with life again. So I took it very slowly, supported by my doctor, feeling no rush to this process. By the time I was down to no medicine at all I was prepared as I ever would be to take the next step. It is a phase where many people typically return to the medication – in even higher doses – and the comments on the Internet sites were not very positive at all. With this in mind, over the next two weeks I allowed my body to go through the withdrawal phase from the medication and this felt quite uncomfortable, but further Chakra Puncture sessions and a commitment to being gentle on myself allowed the symptoms to pass very quickly.

To no surprise, I was met with all the same feelings and reactions that I had from before I started the medication, but now I felt more secure in myself to deal with whatever else was there to learn. Similar situations of conflict presented again, just like before, but this time I was able to handle what was before me. Something had shifted.

I discovered three things.

1. Anxiety as a Choice

One day when I was laying on the healing table in a Chakra Puncture session I became aware that I was free of the symptoms of anxiety. At the end of the session I would speak very differently to the practitioner, in a way that was more present and connected, no longer racy or agitated. When I left the clinic I felt steady and with no symptoms of anxiety at all! This was not my first Chakra Puncture treatment by any means, but the first one when I noticed that anxiety was not present.

This was quite amazing. It was like the session had showed me my future: a ‘me’ in the future that was sharper, more steady inside and knowing. For a while after the session I could live life from this ‘new me’ place, but soon it would dissipate and the anxiousness would return. But I now knew that in the stillness there was great awareness and knowing, and not an ounce of anxiety.

If there was no anxiety to be felt when I was on the healing table, then I had to be open to the fact that I might be choosing it. But why would I choose anxiety? Who in their right mind would choose anxiety?!?

Well, the symptoms of anxiety were begging me to connect to my body, like a child crying out for support, but instead I would unconsciously create a distraction to run away from the uncomfortable symptoms. Instead of connecting to my body and stepping out into the world with confidence, shining the true me, I would choose to become my fearful, unseen, small and contracted self – just like when I was 4 years old – because this is what I had relied on to get through life thus far. Asking me to be more than this, to be seen and self-assured, was certainly tempting and even achievable, but it brought with it great fear and trepidation.

There were a lot of things that I blamed for my anxiety. For instance, I thought I had a problem with trusting people, but I did not; I thought I had a problem handling life, but I did not; for a while I blamed it on childhood issues, but it wasn’t that at all; I thought it wasn’t ‘natural’ for someone like me to do public speaking, but really it was; I thought there was something really wrong with me, but there wasn’t. I was simply resisting connecting to the stillness and being my true self.

Why resist connecting to the stillness when it feels so amazing? This is answered simply. There is a power, an authority and a knowingness about life that is unshakable when we live from the stillness. I could have chosen this and been more responsible, but I had convinced myself that the disharmony in my life and around me in the world was bigger and more powerful than me and that I was too weak to hold steady. I realise now that I had to work very hard, even to the point of exhaustion, so that I didn’t have to feel what was being asked of me. Instead I would create a momentum of busy-ness that allowed me to enjoin with the buzzy energy around me: I could get caught up in the chaos that would dull my awareness and I could live in a way where I was burdened and could quite rightly say, “See, how can I step up in this kind of world?”

There are probably hundreds of tricks that I would find to distract myself away from the simple act of connecting with the stillness within. In many ways it could be said that I was so busy trying to address the chaos that all along, all that was needed was to connect deeply with the body and enjoy the simplicity that is there. If the world around me was crazy, then I just needed to let it be crazy. Nothing to be done, except to read it as it really is.

2. Discovering the Picture

I also needed to disarm myself of a picture that I had created of how I felt life here on Earth should be between people, and also my investment in making it ‘right’ or ‘better.’ Deep down I knew relationships to naturally be affectionate, deeply caring and where there was understanding for each other, but I struggled to accept all that was not loving between people. By not accepting what was not loving in the world, it meant that I set myself up to react to it when it presented. And it presented a lot!

Coming to an understanding and acceptance that life here on this planet is as it is – with its love and its lovelessness – still hurts from time to time, but the lack of love we experience here is part of life. Sure the lovelessness is not a true way to live, but it is the reality and to me it really does appear to be what planet Earth is all about. Abuse and violence at all levels has been here for thousands of years. It is not something new that has crept in… it has been here from day one.

I am still coming to terms with this aspect in full, and at times continue to find myself foolishly desiring it to be another way, but one thing I do know for sure – the tension in our bodies that we feel when we encounter something that is not loving is quite natural for us to feel as human beings. Our bodies amazingly read what is love and what is not and will clearly let us know what is before us at any given time. How we react to the hurt… well, that is another story altogether.

3. Something to Express

The next aspect for me to understand unveiled itself at a Universal Medicine workshop. What I understood from Serge Benhayon’s presentation is that anxiety is just the body’s natural way of telling us that we have something amazing or important to express. This struck a chord with me – like a lightbulb turning on. I had believed anxiety to be something wrong with me, like an illness, but with this statement I could feel that anxiety was a natural part of me – like a messenger.

Anxiety encourages us to express, and if we ignore those impulses it will become louder.

I didn’t have to wait long for a situation to present and show me this was true. Only hours later, and at this same event, Serge asked the audience to share about an activity that we had done. I have never been able to talk on the microphone at these sessions, or with any large audience in fact, but this time I had something specific to share. I felt the impulse to put my hand up and take the microphone. I wanted to do it but I physically could not raise my arm. I sat in the chair and observed my anxiety kick in and the longer I resisted expressing myself, holding myself back, the more intense the anxiety became until it reached a point that the anxiety had caused such a physical reaction that I was beside myself and could no longer speak. The moment was gone and I held back saying what I had to say.

After this situation I began to practise speaking up in everyday situations. It was harder with those things that I feared could potentially end in conflict, but as long as I stayed connected to myself as I spoke, the words were there and were more often than not received with their loving intention.

Practising this helped prepare me to speak at an Engineering Conference, to a large audience of over 210 people. In many ways I found it easier to talk at the conference than to express about those sensitive matters or things that made me vulnerable, and this was a surprise. On the evening of the Conference Dinner I felt the anxiety in my body begin to run about 2 hours before the event, but I did not allow myself to run with any silly story, I just told myself “You have something amazing to say. You may not know what that is just yet, but get up there, let go and enjoy being yourself.” And that is what I did. Within minutes the audience was laughing and I relaxed to the point where there was no anxiety at all. None. And it was fun!

Today I look at anxiety very differently to how I have in the past. It is no longer about ridding myself of the symptoms of anxiety or running away from what I may feel, but responding to it when I first notice its presence in my body so that it does not reach the heights that I have allowed it to go in the past. All along I believed there was something wrong with me as it has been so debilitating in my life, and here now I have been given the freedom to know that anxiety does not need to rule my life. It is more like a friend that pops in from time to time to remind me to express what is there and to let go and be myself without fear of repercussion. Anxiety may be there as my personal little champion to help me be all of me whenever I am taking another step, and that is something I can now deeply appreciate.

By Maree Savins, Australia

Related Reading:
Anxious Much?
Anxiety is not Something you Just Have to Put Up With – There is Another Way
Nervousness and Anxiety – A Scared Little Boy

811 thoughts on “Anxiety: Why are you Ruling my Life?

  1. These are very powerful realisations that can transform a persons life, which raises questions about why we are not taught this kind of wisdom and true techniques for living at home, school and beyond. Not that anyone is to blame, but more so that it is very telling how our societies, cultures and traditions have evolved over time to exclude such basic fundamentals such as how to remain present within your own body.

  2. I never thought that I was ‘blaming’ when I would think that I had an issue/problem etc. but it’s so true that it is an alibi I give to myself not to be living the essence of who I am. This is an amazing example of how we can empower ourselves by having a relationship with tension/discomfort and allowing it to connect us back with the truth that made us aware and react to the life of untruth in the first place.

  3. It is very empowering to see anxiety as a choice, as at any moment we can fill our bodies with the authority of knowing who we are by connecting to our soul.

  4. Wow Maree, what a deeply loving way to understand anxiety, it ‘is just the body’s natural way of telling us that we have something amazing or important to express.’ Anxiety is so common in our society, it is awesome to understand why we experience it and how to heal it through our loving choices.

  5. Appreciating reading this again today. When I feel anxiety or tension it’s usually because there’s a lot to do and I’ve put pressure on myself to achieve and do it all, instead of surrendering and letting go. It’s also a messenger that says there is something to be expressed or work to be done, but like you say, it’s always our choice to allow it in and to allow it to dominate.

  6. Anxiety can be really debilitating if we let it hold our body to ransom, it can make us tongue-tied or simply unable to speak up as our physical body gets overridden by the anxiety, the more we express what we truly feel from our connection within the less hold anxiety has and the greater our freedom to express becomes.

  7. I have lived with anxiety from a young age, I chose to shut down, become quiet so as to not attract attention, It is amazing how I now see anxiety as a reminder to step up and express what is there to be expressed. I had to speak in front of a group of people the other day, anxiety came in and sent my heart racing and making me feel a bit shaky, but I went ahead and spoke no holding back, I now know it does not own me and I am not it anymore.

  8. After spending a lifetime plagued with anxiety and learning as you have Maree to overcome it, I can now clearly see that not only is anxiety a choice, it is also an addiction – a specific vibration we align to that enables us to hold back our true expression. Disenabling the hold this can have over us is a process well worth embarking on. But it requires absolute honesty. That is the bit we have to be prepared to see and deal with.

  9. I love your willingness to explore the cause of your anxiety which influences every part of our life capping our whole expression. When we start to bring a true presence to our body and listen to what our body is communicating we are able to reconnect to our inner wisdom and true expression.

  10. With each day that I deepen my relationship with my soul, purpose and living the fullness of me the more and more that plaque of anxiety fades away into the distance. How powerful are we to both choose anxiety for various reasons and to equally be able to not have it in our lives?

  11. Anxiety rules our life when we lack connection to our innermost. It is only from our connection to that deeper part of us that we can truly navigator ourselves through life.

  12. I have also come to understand that when we eat certain foods they add to the nervous system being heightened and add to the feeling of anxiousness. Sugar is a prime example and can make a steady person feel nervous, racy and agitated. Considering the amount of sugar we consume on a daily basis, imagine on top of already being in an anxious state how this will aggravate the problem.

    1. This has been my experience too, since childhood sugar, carbohydrates and fruit have featured heavily as part of what was considered a normal diet, but it wasn’t until I began to remove these that I realised how racy my body was. As I removed sugars in their various forms by listening to my body and feeling what speed me up, a lot of the nervousness and anxiety left. I am now much more steady and calm in my body and any nervousness or anxiety that comes up now is issue based (i.e. something I need to work on inside myself) and not related to diet.

  13. ‘If there was no anxiety to be felt when I was on the healing table, then I had to be open to the fact that I might be choosing it…’ This is a remarkable realisation, for those who feel a deep sense of anxiety may not make this connection. This realisation applies to all types of reactions and is relevant to us all, whatever we are choosing. Maree, it shows a level of self-responsibility that you were willing to get to which is an inspirational thing.

  14. The knowing and seeing of the world wide abuse, let alone lack of love can be extremely confronting. It is I find hard to see it, and so I can but only commit to not being part of the problem and instead being a point of love in the world.

    1. I am inspired by your comment Heather, because, as you say, when you see and feel the level of abuse in the world we feel so powerless. Yet we are not powerless because we have a choice to add to the abuse or not and that is very empowering.

  15. This just goes to show when we do not address something like anxiety at the time (or know how to truly address it) it runs through our life until the point comes when we can no longer ignore it and have to address it or at the very least accept on some level that it is there. That is why the teachings, presentations, workshops and Sacred Esoteric Healing courses and modalities held by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are … Absolute Gold. Because these teaching and modalities truly enable and empower us to understand energy, our body, our choices, our life so we can arrest momentums of energy, such as anxiety, that have been running us throughout our life and that are not even truly us!

  16. I love the truth of this statement Maree – it is deeply inspiring, empowering and confirming.
    “There is a power, an authority and a knowingness about life that is unshakable when we live from the stillness”.

  17. Anxiety is such a huge negative which carries on getting bigger and bigger if left unaddressed. I love how you share that you effectively turned this huge negative to a huge positive. A great sharing and very supportive to anyone who suffers from anxiety.

    1. Yes, I agree Doug, Maree’s blog is very, very supportive and I love reading every part of it. I used to suffer from mild anxiety and by introducing more self-love and self-care to my life, this has made a massive, massive difference.

      1. Me too, I was constantly anxious and living on edge. It is so beautiful to now live without this. And losing the anxiousness got rid of the high blood pressure I had suffered from for years,

  18. ‘I was simply resisting connecting to the stillness and being my true self.’ I know that one Maree and yes it is avoiding and denying my power and authority when I let myself run on anxiety. Re reading where you have come with your anxiety makes me aware how much less I go into this debilitating pattern.

  19. ‘By not accepting what was not loving in the world, it meant that I set myself up to react to it when it presented. And it presented a lot!’ Yes I have had the same experience. Something inside me wanted to hang on to an idea of what I thought it ought to be like, what life ought to be like, how people ought to behave. It is huge to drop all this and free ourselves of the chains we have bound ourselves in.

  20. Brilliant… if I can build a relationship with anxiety that presents it as an opportunity to be alert to the fact that I have strayed from being open and in the flow of a moment, day and/or situation, then it is a flag waving friend in my developing relationships (with myself, others and life).

  21. The understanding you have of anxiety is awesome Maree. When I am able to settle in my body there is no anxiety so I have the responsibility to provide an environment for me to want to reside in, that is deeply caring and loving this body and nurturing its thoughts.

  22. It seems to me that we should practice and practice with expression. If holding back has been there since childhood then the patterns can feel very deeply embedded and normal, therefore lots of expression allowing for oops and whoops along the way starts to chip away at that foundation till we plant the seeds for another more supportive and true one.

  23. Such a brilliant blog Maree, exposing the truth about anxiety. I have used anxiety as the perfect excuse to get me out of certain situations, but really what I was doing was missing out on the opportunity to truly evolve.

    1. Wow Anna, super honest sharing and I can totally relate. Anxiety for many people can be debilitating and it stops us from physically moving as well as expressing when it is severe, so energetically, what this energy is doing to our body is awful. And, if our evolution is stunted, it will impact on the rest of humanity too. 

  24. Attending to something as soon as it is presented is a great way to live unless of course we have a reaction to what is presented and then it is more prudent to wait ’til we have worked through this reaction before responding.

  25. If ‘anxiety is just the body’s natural way of telling us that we have something amazing or important to express’ then my understanding is that anxiety could well be related to us holding back what is there for us to say – hence the agitation and discomfort in our body. I get it now, this makes total sense to me.

    1. It makes complete sense to me too and begs the question how much magnificence am I and have I been holding back from the world and others? When I express what is there to be expressed then I feel a settlement and contentment in my body and when I do not I feel the sense of unease and this slowly builds and builds until I do not know where it has come from and I get all racy and uncomfortable.

      1. James thank you for sharing your experience here, it’s a great insight I can also relate to. I liked your comment about the settlement, surely this is the opposite to feeling anxious.

  26. We can let anxiety build up in us, take control and leave us out of control. Or we can observe our movements, make sure we intend to caring in all that we do and see the level of steadiness this builds in our cells.

  27. I love the way you have written about anxiety being a potential ally and flag waver, if we clock the flag and explore what is going on, willing to learn and unearth patterns of behaviour that do not truly serve us.

  28. ‘…in the stillness there was great awareness and knowing, and not an ounce of anxiety.’ Returning to our inner essence there is no place for anxiety.

  29. We run away from our power far more than we run away from what we fear. I am finding that I use fear and anxiety in order to delay expressing my true self who is very sweet and adorable. The Esoteric Healing modalities help bring in the fact theres a choice, I can feel how being open feels and compare it to how being anxious feels. Overtime being open is shown as the truly successful one to live.

  30. I love this third element, that far from anxiety being the worst enemy there is, it is simply a build up of the tension of something that is going on and needs expressing to allow it to come up and out… to address the tension. If we don’t then having that tension stored in the body is going to change the way we feel and build.

  31. “By not accepting what was not loving in the world, it meant that I set myself up to react to it when it presented.” – This statement rings so true to me Maree, and I can see how I used to think that I would be giving up on people and the world if I accepted all the corruption and abuse that was going on in the world. This only resulted in massive reaction and exhaustion, and then a vicious pattern of going to behaviours to distract and numb myself from feeling the extent of the abuse. But reading your blog is really helpful in that it can be such a weight lifted when we let go of the pictures of the way things should be and just focus on our own movements connected with our body that will then lead us to serve others accordingly.

  32. Our past can condition us into certain behaviours and movements that we think are us, but they are like a film over the top of the real us, and removing them is letting go of the shackles of the past.

  33. It’s often those things which we consider ‘faults’ which provide our greatest learning, and to get to a place where you see them as a nudge to come back and consider where we are and what we need to express in any given moment is beautiful. Thank you Maree for shining a light on how we can approach anything, as a stick to beat ourselves with or get overwhelmed by or as a way to expand more into grace and express who we are and enjoy it.

  34. I had never considered anxiety as being there because of something unexpressed, but it is so true. The expression doesn’t even have to be verbal – if there’s something we know we should be addressing or doing, and we’re not doing it, there is an internal tension and anxiety that stays there, humming away in the background, until we pay attention to the niggle and act on it.

  35. I love here Maree how you have turned around your relationship with anxiety to be more like a marker or signal from your body rather than an illness or something wrong with you.

    1. It is super cool – suddenly those initial flutters of anxiety become a friend letting you know that something is going on in your relationship with the world that needs to be addressed / expressed. It becomes the truth of a marker in the body which acts as a clear bell weather for what is going on and rewards your obvious sensitivity.

  36. I really am beginning to understand your sharing on holding back our expression and what we have to say in a world that is hard not to react to as a foundation for anxiousness and the choice we have to speak up and how special this feels when you have never done this. Inspirational and a real marker for all the things I find difficult and believed I simply could never do and I love how you share your knowingness now that ‘you have something amazing to share’. This is very beautiful and a real gift..

  37. A beautiful sharing and so inspiring to read and realise the truth about anxiety and the excuse it really is in coping with life and what we feel and not wanting to connect to our true self with the steadiness power and stillness this allows us to be in who we really are and the choice we have with this .

  38. It is a beautiful learning to realise that living in contraction is the same as living in false confidence and that it is a choice we are getting something out of, even if at first we tell ourselves that we behave this way because we are justified. As you suggest so pointedly, it is a choice we make because we are getting something out of it.

  39. Reading your contribution made it clear to me that anxiety is another label we can identify with and hold on to; it makes us different, it makes us stand out and gives us something to talk about. It makes us somebody, provides a tangible self – but it is, as you have found out, a creation and part of creation and we have the free-will to change it and drop the diagnosis.

  40. Learning to ‘speak-up,’ or more accurately say what we know to be true from a loving intention, more often than not is met with understanding rather than the anticipated reaction.

  41. Great to highlight – it is in staying connected with our body that is the key to being able to truly express ourselves and the words to be expressed are naturally there the more we trust our inner connection.

  42. Even though at times it may feel nerve wrecking speaking in a group or in front of people it actually hurts our body more if we don’t speak up. I can completely relate with what you have shared as I have never been great at speaking in a group (especially large groups of people) but the more true body confidence I have through building my relationship with me (self-worth and self-love) the more this has changed. Part of my job now is to hold workshops and lessons in schools and the other day I did an assembly to 400 students with a microphone! So yep this can totally change.

    1. Hence the amazing transformation from feeling crippled to expressing so amazingly in this blog! What freedom it evidently brings.

  43. “Anxiety as a Choice” A whopping realization to have Maree and one that many of us shy away from. To be able to sit within yourself looking out at this energy and see it as a choice is paradigm breaking. If we are empowered to see anxiety as a choice, then deep down we know this to be true of all other emotional reactions too.

  44. I find it extraordinary that someone like yourself who expresses like an Angel could have lived life not ecprsssing! The whole of humanity is seriously missing out on some glory when you consider how many people feel crippled by anxiety! Amazing sharing so insightful and a delight to read.

  45. You say Maree, ‘I have never been able to talk on the microphone at these sessions, or with any large audience in fact, but this time I had something specific to share. I felt the impulse to put my hand up and take the microphone. I wanted to do it but I physically could not raise my arm. I sat in the chair and observed my anxiety kick in and the longer I resisted expressing myself, holding myself back, the more intense the anxiety became until it reached a point that the anxiety had caused such a physical reaction that I was beside myself and could no longer speak’. I don’t think that there is one of us who has not experienced this scenario where an impulse to speak comes and then all the 2nd guessing and anxiousness kicks in to stop us from expressing. We know now that we won’t be killed when speaking up these days but because of the ‘right wrong’ paradigm still being fairly strong in us all we can fear being ‘wrong’ even though Serge Benhayon would never enter into that way of communication, BUT, a reply can be skewed by the audience as being ‘wrong’ and then the consequent ‘gloating’ of the audience is difficult to handle feeling! (This was explained to me by one of the amazing practitioners at the clinic I attend, and made sense).

  46. I find that much anxiety can be created in the body when there is not an acceptance of one’s level of awareness. And so, feeling unprepared we tend to venture out in to the world which can be harsh and un-loving. And yet, it is that very same awareness that serves us so well, because when all is seen and understood we are ready for anything.

    1. I love what Maree shared about this fact that the world is unloving and accepting that fact was a step toward being more able to stay connected to her body. I think this is so helpful.

  47. ‘The next aspect for me to understand unveiled itself at a Universal Medicine workshop. What I understood from Serge Benhayon’s presentation is that anxiety is just the body’s natural way of telling us that we have something amazing or important to express. This struck a chord with me – like a lightbulb turning on. I had believed anxiety to be something wrong with me, like an illness, but with this statement I could feel that anxiety was a natural part of me – like a messenger.’ This is a wonderful way of looking at this Maree. It helps us to detach from reaction and actually observe what is going on and then respond from there. Reaction can be so blinding in one’s life and then the downhill trajectory into the entanglement of the emotions is the result. After that one’s health is undermined.

  48. Wow this is such an amazing blog with so many wonderful realisations. I can relate to your feelings of anxiety, and also being scared to speak. I have also experienced the anxiety getting worse because I have not expressed what I want to say. To get to a place of recognising the anxiety to simply be a holding back of expression makes it so simple. We do not need to medicate, or go into therapy, or think there is something wrong with us. We just need to express! How liberating! Thank you for sharing.

    1. Yes I agree, express and be bold because every single person on this planet is learning how to do the same, some with more gusto than others but expression is always present.

  49. This is very inspiring in how you supported yourself with this. I didn’t even know you could get medication for anxiety!!! But along with this you then had Chakra-Puncture to get to the root cause of why you were feeling so anxious. This is definitely something we can learn from. I had a very similar thing with depression in that I could feel in my body it was a choice I was making to be depressed! It is very revealing and amazing when we are open to healing and seeing the truth just then what the body shows us. There is a specific Gentle Breath Meditation to arrest anxiety that can be found on the UniMed Living website http://bit.ly/1BZjlne.

  50. “But I now knew that in the stillness there was great awareness and knowing, and not an ounce of anxiety” – so true Maree, stillness is the salve of steadiness in which we feel inside our body, prepared. When i feel prepared, i can feel everything to be possible in this state of presence.

  51. This is quite amazing to read how you have transformed your relationship with anxiety, from letting it rule your life, to appreciating it – welcoming it, even – as a messenger that you are not fully expressing what you can feel. Our relationship with ourselves transforms when we start to see symptoms not as an excuse to judge ourselves, but as a messenger that there’s something going on that we need to pay attention to and act upon. This is not just for our own wellbeing, but also so that we can blossom and bring more of who we are into our jobs, homes and relationships.

  52. A great realisation on what lies underneath our anxiety. I agree our body reads what is love and what is not and clearly lets us know this so we have the opportunity to observe and respond. The more we stay present with ourselves the more aware and prepared we are to handle situations so that we can choose not to react and deeply appreciate our body’s wisdom.

  53. To see and accept anxiety as a way the body communicates with us is so very different to thinking there is something wrong with us. I can very much relate to feeling some anxiousness before saying something important or something that another/others need to hear. What is helping me is when I feel the absolute of something to be expressed and the anxiousness kicks in I can no longer hold it back for it is there to be expressed for everyone.

  54. Having a marker of being deeply settled in our body and mind is truly empowering as it shows us that it is something that is within us and so is possible to bring ourselves back to.

    1. Yes it is one of the major differences in Esoteric Healing for me to the other modalities I experienced prior, nothing connected me to the stillness that lies within in the way that Esoteric healing does. It is so sweet to have felt this so often, as a reminder of what is possible.

  55. ” I thought there was something really wrong with me, but there wasn’t. I was simply resisting connecting to the stillness and being my true self. ”
    This is a very important truth.

  56. “Coming to an understanding and acceptance that life here on this planet is as it is – with its love and its lovelessness – still hurts from time to time, but the lack of love we experience here is part of life.” I too have had to come to terms with the lack of love in the world and in coming to accept this it has allowed me to step up my own responsibility to bring the love that I know is missing.

  57. Thank you Maree, I always appreciate your openness and delightful honesty sharing in full about your life. This has been so supportive for me to read and it makes perfect sense, anxiety cannot be present when we reconnect to our being and our stillness, and allow ourselves to express what we have to say. I also appreciated the way you saw anxiety as a signal that something was there to be expressed, a symptom of an aspect of our grandness missing, not as an illness of its own right.

  58. I also found the answer for my anxiety with just bening connected with my body again.
    IT was an avoidance of my power as a woman in my adult life to stay in the Child condition.

  59. The turning point for me on my path in letting go of anxiety was when I accepted in my body that the anxiety was not who I was. This belief which I had taken on from outside of me was crippling me and as I let go of this belief I began to let go of the anxiousness. It is incredibly powerful and life changing to nominate or call out that which is not true.

    1. Caroline, same here and what I notice is that Anxiety still comes up for me but just much less than before and when it does I am much more aware of the effect it is having and then get to deepen the care I have with myself to help let go of it.

    2. Caroline that is a great point that the anxiety is not nor ever was you. The more we can detach from what it going on and observe it for what it is the more we can see the game we are playing. And I agree it is incredibly powerful and honouring of ourselves to call out that which is not true. To sit back and not say anything simply enables it to continue unabated – when we see something we have seen it for a reason and so have a responsibility to speak up and not allow the lies to continue anymore.

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