658 thoughts on “Suppression – The Behaviour of Abuse”

1. What you have written here Kathy is very wise
   “What I love is when I don’t indulge in any of these old patterns or behaviours and instead use them as my friends of learning and letting go, for deep down they are not who I truly am but a part of creation that I created by not wanting to feel truth in its completeness.”

2. Our bodies share so much wisdom that it makes sense to listen to them.

3. Very beautiful to feel and hear how you are now using your body, ‘My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.’

4. I was told by a psychiatrist I saw for years that people who had been in prison for many years were so conditioned to prison life that they found it difficult to adjust to life out side of prison so would reoffend to go back to the familiarity of what they knew. So is it possible that we have become so familiar with our way of life that when someone comes along and suggests that actually there is a true way to live that we don’t want to listen to this possibility as we have been so condition by life times of repetitive behaviour. Have we ever stopped to consider that we been set up for just such a scenario? While we think we think we will never break the repetition.

   1. What you share Mary is so true, we have allowed ourselves to be conditioned to live in a way that is the antithesis of what is true for us.

5. This sharing is a great reminder and how this statement is insidiously ingrained within me, “I used outcomes and recognition to receive acceptance from others”, the remanent’s are still there. The antidote is to, “allowing myself the space to stop and surrender, comes a loving understanding of accepting and trusting what my body brings to each and every moment, connecting from a quality of stillness the wisdom that we all hold within” – is so true. As I nurse a headache, I’m pondering what my body is revealing to me this morning!…

   For me, there is another level of “treating it with respect, commitment, taking responsibility and honouring the truth that it reveals”, so more to build.

   I love how the relationship with anything never stops to unfold, it is beautiful and not always easy at times, but the commitment will always be there.

6. “The truth was I was using suppression to mask all that I was feeling”. I recently saw myself on a video and could see in my face the years of tolerating what was going on and not speaking up and expressing what I felt. My whole face felt suppressed and I could see it was generational in that other family members did that also. I could see the years of strain on my face, it has opened me to exploring this and beginning to trust to say what I feel because the body is reflecting the suppression of my truth.

   1. We don’t realise how much emotion we carry on our faces till we see those old videos or photos. Last year whilst I was doing practice massage hours, one of the things I observed in all of the women I massaged was the shape of their lips as they laid on the table. and everyone revealed something about them. Some were clenched, not speaking their truth. Some pursed, being sweet, some down, carrying sadness, it was absolutely fascinating that we can read so much from a face let alone a body as it walks.

      1. Shushila, I can feel the sadness I’m carrying in my face as it comes up to clear from my cheek bones. Underneath the sadness is a numbing where I have numbed myself down rather than face whatever it was that needed to be faced, pushing everything down as a way to deal with situations that seemed far too difficult to cope with. All this puts an enormous strain on our bodies so it is any wonder we live in nervous tension that we then try to deal with by suppressing it further by either dulling our bodies or stimulating it. We do anything to avoid actually dealing with what needs to be dealt with. Our bodies reflect back the truth that we are all suppressing.

7. Life is amazing and content when I listen to how my body feels and act on such. All the stress and tension comes from suppressing and ignoring it.

8. Love what you have shared Kathy, and when relating to how much vitality we can have in our bodies a simple exercise program where the focus is on our connection works wonders for our bodies and the vitality we have.

9. Most of us do not get taught at a young age that to hold onto our essence is the most important thing. In fact we get taught the opposite – to abandon who we are to please others. But if one day we wake up to this realisation, then so too does the path of return get revealed to us – and then it is for us to tread this path again lovingly so.

   1. We forget at a conscious level how precious our essence and bodies are, ‘to abandon who we are to please others’.

   2. When we are young children we are the canaries in the cage, we sing out the abusive ways families treat each other. We call out the energies that we can sense coming through family members. This clear sense of energy and how invasive it is, is not welcomed and so our clear sense of the world gets crushed as we shut it down as you correctly say Henrietta, we abandon our natural feelings to placate the elders who cannot bear to be caught living the lie, that we all live when we abandon the truth that we feel when we are connected to our inner sense.

10. Most if not all of us fall for this: “I used outcomes and recognition to receive acceptance from others.” – this is our substitute for being loved, the closest thing we can get to but which always leaves us feeling empty and craving for more.

    1. Spot on Henrietta, we abandon love for acceptance and recognition, which keeps us searching and seeking more.

11. The truth is our body as a vehicle of energy is here to express who we truly are in essence. Anything else is a waste of time. Expression of essence can of course be very practical in that it can express itself in a lot of things such as taking the rubbish out, or going to work etc.

12. ‘Put a lid on it’, ‘Button your lip’, we all know these terms for suppressing what we are feeling and the tension this creates in our body by not expressing. Becoming more aware and truthful with ourselves in what we feel and know expands our awareness of all there is to be aware of that is truth.

    1. Absolutely Mary, when we give a child the open-ness to express freely the difference in their energy is tangle-able in the Love they bring to any conversation.

       1. I agree with you Greg there is a huge difference. Children are like light bulbs, they light up everything and everywhere. It is so utterly beautiful to see children who sparkle with the joy of life. However the energy that can come through an adult just looking at a child can shrivel them up so that they do not dare to be the natural light bulbs they are. It’s as though the adult does not want to be reminded that they too were a light bulb once and that they gave into the pressure not to shine but to conform. Deep down we hate the fact that we conformed and abandoned our essence so that we could fit into the model of society where abuse is more prevalent than the natural love that we all are.

13. Making compromises in our expression, pulling in contraction in any form is an age old behaviour for the vast majority of us. Recognising the devastating consequences this choice has on our bodies is huge. So many of us dismiss and ignore how the body feels when we are in contraction and the long lasting effect it has. We have so normalised it that to feel the vitality, joy, health and spontaneity we were born with has to be re-learned, if we are open to re-learning it all.

    1. Contraction is indeed an age old behaviour for many of us and I love how you have highlighted here how important it is that we never compromise how the body is feeling and the messages that it is giving us.

14. We have swallowed a huge fat lie which I feel has its roots deep in mainstream religion and that is to look after others first before ourselves and we have made ourselves martyrs to this doctrine.

15. We cannot truly honour our body till we acknowledge that we are more than this body, that we in-house our soul and as such there is a level of delicateness and sensitivity that honours the relationship between the body and the soul.

    1. Ab’soul’utely Lucy, honouring every aspect of our way of living deepens our relationship with our Soul and everyone we connect to, so we are not anxious about life and the sensitivity and delicateness we all innately bring.

16. Kathy we know that what you say is correct
    “At a young age I could feel everything. But I never knew that the body I lived in was sensitive, fragile, delicate and that it has the wisdom of knowing, the power of healing and bringing all that is needed from a place within me that is divine and full of love.”
    When we are born we feel everything we are open to the world, but society doesn’t want sensitive, fragile, delicate human-beings because currently we are all being suppressed by the astral energy which is run by our spirit . We are not allowed the freedom to choose between the only two energies there are (astral and fire (the energy of the Soul). And those people that do make a determined choice to reconnect back to their soul are threatened with mob violence and ostracized from their communities as weirdo’s and freaks. So we may live in the 21st century but the mindless violence remains the same.

17. How often do we talk about suppression? Yep probably many feel this. Sometimes just even being able to name something in how we are feeling or what we are using, like suppression, and calling this out to ourselves is enough for a shift to start to happen.

    1. Yes, being aware of what we are feeling, and nominating it, can start change to happen.

18. ‘I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing.’ I can relate to this very well. In fact, I felt insignificant and worthless because I held the opinion that everyone was way more important that myself. That’s self-abuse right there, although I did not perceive it to be at the time!

19. Kathy what I could feel reading your blog today was how you have simply accepted the body as wise and truthful, and are so willing to now let go of everything that suppresses the body and the truth it’s always communicating.

    1. Thank you Melinda for your response. It is always great when we come from a loving understanding and total honesty of taking responsibility to look at what is no longer needed in the body so that we may allow space to let go of the things that are not working and so we can bring more love and to live in a way that brings truth in what we do and say.

20. “My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.” I always appreciate reading these words, it completely changes our relationship with our body and our purpose in life – reflection.

    1. Yes, more and more I am understanding how much we pick up from reflection. Our movements give off messages and building a relationship with our body that is then reflected in our movements is a study well worth undertaking.

21. “My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.” I have found that by no longer striving to achieve stress dissolves and there is spaciousness. This does not mean that life is less full, in fact the complete opposite and has greater purpose.

    1. I love what you have shared here jstewart51 – in fact when we surrender to ourselves and let go of the perceived pressures, our life opens up in a completely different way. This is a great reminder for me today as I have allowed myself to fall into the trap of life’s pressures recently.

22. “I was lost in the drive of achieving with no consideration to the body and what this truly meant for my wellbeing and how I was living.” This sounds like so many in life because the body’s delicateness has not been considered a strength.

23. I agree there is so much we can learn about life when we don’t suppress, over-ride or ignore how we feel and basically be honest about how we feel and how our bodies feel.

    1. I also agree Andrew that when we do no suppress or over ride our body and be totally honest that our body can bring so much more that we could ever image. If we allow ourselves to communicate with our body and surrender we can feel the truth in that awareness.

    2. Being honest about how we feel and our bodies feel is super important, ‘I am now choosing to listen to how I feel in my body, treating it with respect, commitment, taking responsibility and honouring the truth that it reveals.’

24. “…. I was using suppression to abuse my body without any consideration of how sacred the body is ….” Until having the role model of Serge Benhayon and his family I would never have considered that that I was doing this to my body or that it is sacred. The realisation and the application of this awareness in my life has been life changing and transformational.

25. “My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.” Before coming across Universal Medicine I would never have considered my body’s purpose to be other than to achieve my needs. However, with this new perspective it has brought about for me a completely different relationship with my body, one that is far more loving and responsive which is reflected in all aspects of my life.

26. Making everything outside of oneself more important than one’s inner wellbeing is to lessen oneself and thereby never live one’s full potential.

27. The body can only take so much of the suppression before it starts to show the signs of fatigue and then the illness and disease sets in.

    1. That is an interesting word to use because ‘suppression’ really does illustrate how we reduce ourselves when we make it all about doing and achieving.

28. Prior to meeting Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine sacredness was never something I would never have ascribed to anything about myself. With my present understanding it has brought a depth of appreciation and responsibility towards myself which then extends out to all in my life.

    1. I agree, because when we discover that relationship with ourselves we see that others are sacred too and we find we cannot carry on treating people the way we did because they deserve so much more! You cannot recognise what is needed for another if you are not living it for yourself.

29. When we suppress our feelings we deny ourselves the awareness of so, so much and hence deprive ourselves the fullness of life.

30. Reading this reminds me of song lyrics “when we admit that we created it, Only can then we be free from it”. I know a pattern of mind to suppress my feelings but only after this admitting that I actually created it for a reason.

31. Today I could feel an old pattern creep in which wanted me to hold back and not ask for help, but what I noticed is that the underlying belief was saying that we shouldn’t ask for help that we should figure things out on our own, even if it means to struggle. So, after a while, I asked for help and now I will wait and see what happens with no attachment.

    1. Gorgeous, something I am learning to do too.

32. When we continually suppress that which we naturally are, our joy, our expression, our love, it is our very delicate body which is impacted on, often quite severely; but we keep on suppressing as it becomes our normal. To let go of the suppression is the most liberating feeling, like we are taking a long, deep breath and gently sighing out, and in the process returning to living all that we truly are; absolutely amazing beings, each and every one of us.

    1. It is a returning to the freedom of expression we had when we danced like no-one was watching. To re-ignite that relationship with our body again is part and parcel of good medicine.

33. How do we listen to our bodies and so respond from there….my go to has been taking time to observe my breathing…there was a time I would get so anxious and panicky, and not want to feel my body, but eat and drink to not feel. Learning slow, steady and consistently that when I bring awareness to my breath it changed how I felt, was a break through moment and I have been practicing ever since. And this has given me the space to respond to the messages my body offers, loud and clear. Be it a bump, getting cold, tired, hard and stressed, I listen and I chose something to support it.

    1. For me I find focusing on the warmth in my hands helps. If it’s not there then being aware of my body or how my hands are moving eventually brings back the warmth.

34. I never tire of hearing the truth of how wise our bodies naturally are. They are informing us 24/7 and when we listen so much is revealed. A treasured relationship worthy of our greatest love and attention.

35. Our body gives us a true marker or reference point for the quality in which we are ‘doing’ or living life, and the more I learn to observe what I’m feeling or sensing the more understanding and awareness I have of myself and those around me, which is genuinely priceless.

36. When we have been hard and rough with ourselves someone telling us we naturally have the qualities of being gentle, delicate and sacred inside of us seems to be something that is out of reach and unbelievable but it isn’t, for in a very short time these qualities can be accessed and feel very real. It is our choice to allow ourselves to go there.

37. Abuse comes in so many forms, bringing honesty to what these forms of abuse are is a great place to start.

    1. Agreed and honouring what we truly feel from our body is a great place to start with being more honest with ourself.

38. I can feel how abuse plays out through the energy people choose and how we have openings that mean we allow this through us

    1. Yes and the more we hold ourselves steady and the more we are able to observe abuse the more we are able to close these openings.

39. Yes, suppression, distraction, anything to not feel. It is also, when we peel it right back, an abdication of our responsibility to ourselves because we leave ourselves ill-equipped to deal with what is in front of us.

40. I am so struck by the fact that Serge Benhayon reminds us of the importance of delicateness in our body as we don’t often connect men with that reflection. But why not? It is only when we allow ourselves to see the underlying beliefs that we can challenge them and release ourselves and others from their grasp.

41. Reading this blog reminded me of the elderly people near to me and how them not living in that honesty is affecting them both mentally and physically.
    This honesty is paramount, when we ignore those signals it compounds the body. The body is just like a car, take loving care of it, it will lovingly care for you too. It is that simple if we choose to do so.

42. Actually I’m disgusted at the way we raise our children to not know how delicate and sensitive they are. We rob them and ourselves of a huge opportunity to restore balance to this life on Earth. Instead we insist that they toughen up to live in the world that we feel is unforgiving. We have not once stopped to consider it is us as the collective that has made life here so difficult. Watching young children being confirmed in their gorgeous, sensitive, delicateness just the way they are is so heartwarming. How we treat our children I feel is how our future will be. So what future do we want more of the same or are we prepared to encourage our children to fully know who and what they are?

    1. Mary I loved what you have expressed about how we grow up our children to keep passing on the same in every generation instead of appreciating our children in what they are bring and reflect to us as adults that we too were children once but we get caught up as adults in our hurts and dismiss what true divine being is all about… Divine love and truth in expression

    2. We impose on our children wanting them to turn out the way we want them to. We want them to get a good jobs or jobs which fit our picture of what we enjoy doing, we don’t want them become the party animal that dishonours themselves again and again, or we do want them to be the party goer, the popular child that everyone likes. We impose all our ideals and beliefs all the time whilst robbing them of the freedom to be themselves.

43. There are a million ways that we have learnt to suppress how we feel – keeping busy, the way we eat, alcohol, drugs, relationships… its a dedication we have that is incredible (in a rather awful way), to just the alternative of feeling it all as we once did when we were young. Its all still there and it feels amazing when we do.

    1. Yes there are many ‘shoulds’ that we can impose on ourself that override what we’re really feeling underneath, but it’s never too late to come back to the honesty of our body and re-nurture the sensitivity of feeling and awareness that is innate in all of us.

44. We do not honour children and all that they bring to the world. I’m not saying we should ‘molly coddle’ them
    but they do have a wisdom beyond their years and if we truly understood re-incarnation it would be much easier to appreciate why they have such wisdom and why they deserve much more respect and understanding than we currently give them.

45. “My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.” Once we recognise this, embody it, and honour this every moment of the day it becomes very difficult to misuse and abuse our body again.

    1. Any deviation away from the natural love we are feels like an abuse… if we allow ourselves to truly feel it.

46. What an absolute treasure this is with regards to dishonesty with ourselves as being a form of abuse “What I did not realise is this behaviour was abusing my body by not allowing the self to be honest and express what was truly going on deep within.”

47. The more that we love our body the more we get to appreciate that it is in fact the vehicle for the divine to come through.

    1. yes Elisabeth, love recognises love and welcomes it.

48. This has given me a new perspective on those behaviours I do which are abusive, how they can be used as a mark to see and understand where I’ve created something to avoid the truth, how in being willing to deeply feel their impacts and understand that they are not me, but a choice I’ve made to avoid truth that I can let them go and more deeply honour the body I live in and inhabit.

    1. So agree Monica, it is a choice we make to simply avoid the truth.

    2. Yes, great observation, we move in a way to not feel what is there to be healed, known, cleared, reflected….it is another level to look at as to why we avoid truth and what we choose instead.

49. and this is a proces of evolution back to Soul, which asks us to be honest and see that there is a greater purpose to us than succeeding this life on earth.

50. It fascinates me that we behave in ways where we bury what we feel. It is an age-old pattern when in fact we are just masking how sensitive we all are.

    1. I really appreciate how Serge Benhayon has shown me how possible it is to actually stay deeply connected with our sensitivity and awareness of energy in life in a very practical and loving way, without being emotionally reactive to what we’re picking up on…

51. Realising what our body is truly here for changes everything about the way we are with it.

    1. Perhaps not something we often consider? Our bodies as vehicles of expression for divinity to flow through..

52. The body has to live all the choices of the mind especially ones where there is no regard or care for the body. In doing so dismisses that it is within the body that our true wisdom lies.

53. Living on other people’s recognition of us can work for a while until we don’t get the recognition for some reason and it is shown that this way of living is not working. When we are running our body without any acknowledging of it and just for the outer recognition or reward, we will run our bodies down and that is why many of us get so exhausted, especially when we take away coffee and sugar, emotions and distractions.

54. It is how much we allow suppression to take over our true expression. A moment of true expression is a moment of love and so – no suppression is allowed.

55. This is the education we need from young, to build an honest relationship with our bodies and allow ourselves to express and honour the truth of all we feel.

    1. This really is a crucial part of life that belongs in our education from day 1.

       1. Agree, I remember there always being a focus on physical exercise and the outer expression which I loved, though do not remember any discussion or attention brought to honouring what was felt from the inside, from the connection with how our bodies felt.

56. This one is a big one for many of us – being “in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing.” How many of us have fallen for this one, and continue to do so? Give our all to a project/cause/family member etc…only to come out the other end exhausted. I know I have.

    1. To have really felt the devastation of seeking for external recognition we would not devote to the illusion of it.

57. I think it’s a good point how you say that we can be aware of our feelings and emotions that may be there without indulging but simply to learn from them and with that we can evolve with being more true to who we are in essence.

58. -I listen to my body, it has a lot to say
    it tells me how I truly feel and when to rest and play-
    as the words of the children’s song go, we really do have to listen to our bodies

    1. It has so much to say if we just take a moment to listen

    2. Beautiful lyrics, so simple and a sincerely helping reminder.

59. Suppression is the self-censoring that we do in order to be accepted by others. This can never work because we end up not knowing who we are.

    1. And with that not really knowing who others are either…

       1. Gosh not a great set up, may as well be honest and know where we stand… and others know where they stand with us as well.

60. ‘Growing up as a child, teenager and adult, I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing.’ To me, not only is this a very honest and clear observation of oneself, but also a very accurate understanding of why the world is the way it is. Why we have such chaos, such violence and aggression and disconnection from our neighbours and one country or race or religion to the next. We’ve made the outside world more valuable than the inner Kingdom.

    1. This really highlights to me the importance of the quality of relationship that we have with ourself for the benefit of everyone.

61. When we indulge this just goes into circulation energy, that is staying stuck in the same feeling or emotion and not being able to move away from this. However, once we have more awareness, and start to love ourselves more, the truth then becomes clearer as it did with you. It is great you were honest enough to feel how you were using suppression and just how abusive this was to your body so this could be truly healed.

62. “I came to the loving understanding at the age of 63 that I was using suppression to abuse my body without any consideration of how sacred the body is, and how it truly works” – when it comes to touching even the sides and a hint of the beauty of sacredness, we realise then or at that point the extent to which we have not and for a very long time used this reserved space for the quality [of sacredness], but instead utilised and junked it with abuse.

63. Being part of Universal Medicine shows me everyday how important is stay humble and real with what I feel. This is a very self-loving choice that supports me to be expanded, very joyful, alive and still in my life. Not having anything to hide or protect frees me from the pride and makes me see how needed is this way of being in the world we live in. A unifying way of living where we are all the same.

    1. Inma I agree with what you have expressed, we are blessed having Universal Medicine to bring the truth of the wisdom of The Livingness to come from the loving understanding of how to truly live life with responsibility integrity and honesty with respect of what our body brings through awareness.

64. We are encouraged from a very early age to look outside of ourselves that this is the only way to be. I feel from my own experience that this leads to a disassociation from our bodies and it is in this disassociation that we can and do abuse our bodies in so many different ways. The moment we stop looking outside of ourselves and reconnect back into our bodies we discover how harmfully we have lived with ourselves and others, but more than that, its actually impossible to stay in the abusive behaviour. To me the science of the changes that take place is fascinating.

65. Suppression and neglect can be equally as damaging as what we might call ‘forward’ types of abuse, such as assault or self harm.

66. Thank you Kathy for expressing from the absolute love that we are from. Anything else, is the suppression of that truth and hence absolute abuse.

    1. Danna I love how you came from the beautiful understanding from a deeper level that everything we are and do is love and suppression is abuse but in that there comes love that brings awareness of the behaviour that shows us the truth

67. ‘What I love is when I don’t indulge in any of these old patterns or behaviours and instead use them as my friends of learning and letting go, for deep down they are not who I truly am but a part of creation that I created by not wanting to feel truth in its completeness.’ I can relate to what you are saying here Kathy, old patterns can be like an addiction and it is something to look at without judgement, to see them for what they are and that is indeed not a part of our truth but a part of creation, and to let it go.

68. When I think of suppression it can appear to be fairly passive in activity. It usually comes with a power difference where one gives their power away and another takes the power. I see this normalised in society, between kids and parents for instance., partners, work colleagues. It is an act of abuse to treat anyone as less or more than ourselves and to inflict this energy on ourselves is just as abusive. We need to be very aware of how we are treating ourselves.

69. Holding back our light is an arrogance that says you can only receive so much of heaven through me.

    1. This takes the personal out of it and exposes how self-central our issues really are.

70. Children have so much wisdom and knowing most adults don’t know how to handle. And then you see children being busy doing sports or indulging in foods, TV, social media etc that suppresses their awareness further, it’s a vicious cycle. Then society wonder why we have issues with teenagers.

    If we allow our children to be who they are from a very young age, we would see they are unique and have their own expression of wisdom – they know who they are.

    1. Shushila thank you for your sharing. It would be great if we were taught from young in each generations to honour and allow our children to live and bring all that comes naturally to them in their expression and not have to change them in the way from our ideals and beliefs of controlling and holding on to them as some sort of prize possession.

71. When we suppress living the light of who we are, we are basically abusing ourselves and this then is the quality we reflect to all through our movements and bring to all our relationship in all varying degrees. Yet abuse is abuse regardless how subtle it may seem and this is not who we are or our true way of being.

    1. Carola I agree that abuse is still abuse when we don’t live our true beingness
       We do not realise how much abuse we do to ourselves without the knowing of the truth of who we truly are which hold us in the illusion of separation.

72. Suppression is harming ourselves to get at others.

73. Our bodies are our greatest friends and mentors for they always reflect back to us the truth of our choices.

74. You say at a young age you could feel everything – actually that never changes. We all feel everything but as we develop (which is really the opposite of develop) we develop (that word again) more and more ways to shut down, override and disconnect from what we feel – end result we still feel it but become less consciously aware of what we feel.

    1. Being aware is the greatest protection as choosing to not be aware of what we feel and are picking up allows us to be fooled, interfered with and harmed in many ways.

75. It took me a little while to trust what I felt – and it has become really cool to find that whoa, I know a lot more than I was giving myself credit for. I then realised I could become more clear in hearing what I was feeling by cutting out certain foods, drinks and habits that could cloud my ability to feel what was going on.

76. I can feel the iron bars of suppression in my own body when I hold back, our body feels it all, let’s listen and feel and break free of our self made prisons.

    1. Yes so agree davidsonsamantha, and in that suppression we are magnifying the very energy that we so do not want to be part of .

77. Our body is a constant reflection of the Love we are from and as such, if we choose something that abuses our body it shows us in whichever way it can, for example, we might be more moody, more resentful, more irritable. I have noticed a very clever brain can justify these, perhaps more ‘negative’ emotions, with the balance of the highs and euphoria that comes from injection of adrenaline from whatever substance I have consumed or activity I have done. Yet the rollercoaster of highs and lows does not offer me any consistency and this is incredibly draining.

78. Trying to suppress what we feel and know leads us to continue to swim in a murky pool of our own making, through our habits, hurts and we can only climb out of that pool when we begin to choose to be honest about how we feel, what we know and live life from that place, otherwise everything we choose and see is veiled in the murkiness.

79. To feel into the sensitivity of the body gets us to the place where suppression feels like abuse, because we can become aware of its beautiful delicacy and sacredness, and just how much it has been putting up with and carrying us until we get to a point where we can feel this. It deserves a huge thank you.

80. We look around and say how sad the world is with military juntas, dictators and no freedom of speech – but overlook the fact that we suppress our own true nature every day, with seemingly small but brutal acts.

81. “Growing up as a child, teenager and adult, I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing. I found I was always making choices to keep myself constantly busy in the ‘doing.’ I can so relate to this Kathy. @make yourself useful’ was a phrase I heard a lot. Coming to appreciate my own body – and the messages it brings me was such a revelation when I attended Universal Medicine presentations, it seems strange to think I lived for sixty years with this unknowing…..

82. “learning to love everything and every part of my body – after all it is my greatest teacher.” It is a beautiful awareness when we realise that every ache and pain is not a problem but an opportunity to look at how we are living.

    1. I like this too Mary. Rather than looking for a quick fix or blaming someone or something it offers us an opportunity to reflect on our daily choices and to make appropriate changes.

    2. I agree with you both, Mary and Sue. A friend once told me that they were told by an Esoteric Practitioner to appreciate what their bodies were communicating and for me, this message has been a godsend. Now I have a different relationship with my aches and pains when they occur, and the messages from them are always spot on, and so much can be revealed with regards to our reactions in life.

83. What you have shared is so important for children growing up to not suppress what is going on for them.
    As a child once too I could feel inside of me things weren’t right or things didn’t quite gel with me but didn’t have anyone to support me that what was going on was ok and just honour the feeling.
    Since meeting Serge Benhayon I started to learn more about my body, I may not have perfected it but I can honestly say I’m honouring me and my body more.

    1. Shushila thank you for your sharing. We are truly blessed, since I have meet Serge Benhayon and choosing to go to the Universal Medicine workshops I am learning how to live life in honouring and appreciating my body in all that it brings and what it shows me.

84. Suppression is draining, exhausting, delays and holds me back. Being honest with myself when I can feel I am suppressing myself is a continuous learning but key in my unfolding. When I am honest, I am love, honouring and adoring myself to let go of the old behaviours that hold me back from evolving.

    1. Yes, so draining and such a denial of ourselves. We then play a game to pretend we are not feeling what we are feeling and bizarrely encourage others to do the same so we don’t offer each other a reflection of the insane game we have all bought into!!!

85. This just goes to show when we are willing to be truly honest with ourselves and feel what is there to be felt within our body we are never too old or it is never to late to truly heal, learn and change.

86. Suppression is something the Catholic Church has used with great success. Certainly in my case I grew up with absolutely no idea of the true meaning of Sacredness and no idea that it was something I was born with, that is natural for me. Only now, nearly 68 am I getting an inkling.

87. “Suppression – The Behaviour of Abuse” – abuse and suppression cannot feature when the love we are is expressed and lived. The more we love, the less we abuse.

    1. Thanks Kathy, your whole blog emanates a beauty, love, and wisdom that is well beyond the words, lovely to feel as well as read. “The truth was I was using suppression to mask all that I was feeling; I was putting a lid on everything that I felt…” It is such a common thing to cover up how we truly feel and to not express it, and the body then has to experience burying this which disrupts it’s harmony and flow. I liked your final words about living with respect and commitment to listen to the body, allowing it to lead to show us when we are off (so we can explore why) and also to understand when we are doing well and why. It’s a very humble position for the mind to allow the body to lead, as the mind thinks it knows so much, but the body is absolute truth and wisdom.

88. When we hold back (suppress) our love, we create an ‘emptiness’ within us that allows the force of all that is not love (evil) to enter the equation and wreak havoc. Hence the pertinence for us all to express every ounce of the love that we are, in the many different facets of our lives, in every single moment of the day. This does not mean we go around gushing like a Hallmark card, but more so we attune our movements to be in harmony with all that the heart sees, feels and speaks.

    1. Beautifully put Liane, it makes me ponder on the fact that our every movement of suppression has an impact on our next movement and how evil escalades when we are not careful and aware of what is happening. The more we call out and unravel suppression in our day the more committed I am in service to the all in my day.

89. “I came to the loving understanding at the age of 63 that I was using suppression to abuse my body without any consideration of how sacred the body is, and how it truly works” – yes, when we connect to the precious delicateness quality of ourselves we realise just how much or how far we have gone the other way and used the quality of abuse to sabotage ourselves.

90. Well, we can avoid it short term but our bodies keep talking, expressing and correcting our choices so the indulgences and irresponsibility simply back up until we are honest enough to face them or until they erupt in our faces.

91. There is an unfathomable depth to feel when we connect to our bodies – and when we allow this to be part of our everyday expression magic happens.

92. Playing small so as to not attract the mire of others is a another form of self abuse in which we deny the responsibility of bringing our all to life and others.

93. Generally speaking we don’t know (or honour) the power of our sensitivity, our ability to feel, or our ability to know what is true. The Ageless Wisdom teachings have shown me I have access to all of these.

94. Sometimes it is really is just about coming back to the simplicity of being in one’s body. There is nothing more than this perhaps to open the doors again and to let out the love that is there to be felt, seen, and appreciated.

95. This is great Kathy and may I expand on what you have expressed by sharing that when walking and “feeling” our body and the depth of Love within can be a deeply amazing. When we add the Sacred Movement as presented by Natalie Benhayon we can feel an even deeper blessing in the way our bodies can move and continue to heal from these movements.
    So as you have shared Kathy “the way Serge moves in every step” is an inspiration.

96. No matter the moment we come to a deeper understanding – it is always a great time as long as we accept it for the truth it is – and don’t deny it.

    1. And it invites us to go even deeper in our understanding of what our awareness is.

97. I feel that there are so many of us that are brought up in this manner
    “Growing up as a child, teenager and adult, I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing. I found I was always making choices to keep myself constantly busy in the ‘doing.”
    We are taught this from the very get go from our parents and then reinforced with our current form of education. So it is difficult to almost impossible to know any different. Until we are shown that there is another way to be with ourselves and then there is the resistance because we have got used to a certain way of being even if it is so very damaging to our health it is familiar and comfortable. Breaking the comfort so that life can be seen for what it truly is… a big fat lie that we have become so attuned to for me feels difficult to break away from.

98. Suppression of our expression to punish others is a big one but in that expression, we are paralysing the body and squishing it into contraction. So, who are we really harming the most?

99. Agreed Ariana the experience has changed my life as I deepen my understanding of how sacred my body is, I would never have considered using the word sacred to describe something I felt before and that was indeed because I would suppress myself it so many ways to fit in.

100. My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light. What a beautiful place to get to and a real inspiration and reflection of how we can live and the choices we can make lovingly that changes everything very healing and powerful.

101. ‘Life is full of opportunities when I truly honour my body and what it brings without suppressing any feelings.’ This feels wonderfully freeing and honouring of oneself by being in tune with ones body, and the universe as that’s what it’s an integral part of – it’s in no way small or insignificant which is something I often deny.

102. I wanted to hold back my sadness and shock today but Life is very loving in the sense that it would not allow it and I allowed myself to feel the vulnerablility and it was then that I felt empowered.

103. What a beautiful development in your relationship that confirm the power of the body and how much they communicate with us. If we listen, there is such a depth to working with our bodies rather than against them.

104. I’m getting much more of an awareness, as I work with this, of how the many ways I can hold back is a suppression and an abuse… just being me, speak up, trusting, surrendering, letting go, moving forward and more.

105. I had this driving thing come in yesterday. I pushed on to get all those flowering weeds out of the bed so they would not seed and spread further and I let myself go into an old energy of having to get it done and lost my composure. I ignored my awareness of this at the time and only some time later when I was bumping in to things, noticed how hard I had become and how roughly I was treating things that I stopped to pull myself up. This doggedness is so harming and takes us further and further away from the harmonious playful beings we naturally are.

106. I’ve been finding that acknowledging my reactions as I go is a great way to stop the suppression that can otherwise occur. It also stops me going fully into the reactions and acting them out, It’s like having a wise owl on my shoulder pointing things out for my attention but encouraging me to keep going without giving my reactions any energy. It’s a great way of staying centred and committed to the moment and the next moment without stopping to indulge or create. It also stops everything building up inside.

107. Thank you Cathy, as this brings up a belief that I have held from the time of my early years of employment, when you shared “I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing.” And this is because my employer always said that the customer is always right even when they are wrong they are still right.

     “What I did not realise is this behaviour was abusing my body by not allowing the self to be honest and express what was truly going on deep within.”
     This is great as I can now undo these ill energies by ‘now’ allowing myself to speak the truth, and this does not always have to be verbalised, because it can simply be said in my heads and the pattern held around the ill belief is released.

108. “I was lost in the drive of achieving with no consideration to the body and what this truly meant for my wellbeing and how I was living.” This sense of having to ‘achieve’ something in order to get somewhere in life at the expense of the body is all too common in our society. Whereas if we put our body first in everythng we do, we would be amazed at what is possible without even trying.

109. Suppressing who we are is like using a dimmer switch to turn down the brightness of a light. So what is it about our brightness we have trouble dealing with? Others maybe be temporarily ‘blinded’ by the light shining from us but if we turn it down to make it more comfortable for them we are not only denying them what is possible but we are also harming ourselves in the process; suppression of the truth hurts all.

110. Anything that impedes the natural movement of love through the body is abuse, as our bodies are designed to reflect and magnify the light of our Soul, the love we innately are, through the lives we live.

111. What a turnaround you show is possible Kathy, from living in an abusive way to the body to living in a loving relationship with Soul and body, working together as one.

112. We are often the perpetrators of our own abuse, as you have shared so beautifully here Kathy. We need to nominate all the ways we keep ourselves down to release their hold on us so we can blossom and flourish.

113. When we suppress what is there to be said or how we feel it is a very slippery slope to withdraw and become depressed because we are shutting the body down from what it is feeling it’s almost like we allow this ‘given up energy’ to enter our bodies. To me there seems to be a misconception that we have bought into that if we contract and don’t say anything then we will be left alone but we are never left alone this is a huge lie because the energy we use to contract ourselves is forever ensuring that we stay that way.

114. When we suppress truth, it doesn’t stop there, we have to keep pushing it down regularly and in addition to that deny the fact that we knew what was right all along. No wonder we are so busy and tired! That’s a lot of suppressing to do.

115. We are taught that everything outside of ourselves is more important than our inner wellbeing. This leads us away from the one thing, our body, that ensures we can live a simple, loving, joyful life from and with our soul.

116. ‘It wasn’t until I met Serge Benhayon at one of the Universal Medicine workshop presentations that I realised how sacred my body is: the way Serge moves in every step and the quality of the tone of his voice allowed me to connect to my own truth. It was through his reflection of the appreciation of his delicateness and tenderness that I came to the clarity of how important my body is.’ Love how you say this Kathy.. and a great reminder of how powerful reflection is.

117. Wow! Every now and then you come across a blog that really speaks to what you are working through. It somehow “outs” a little misconception or game you have been playing with yourself. Suppression is indeed a game I have had, and it does not bring me a joyful, vital life!

     1. I agree Heather, a real eye opener that exposes the levels of abuse we willfully partake in, in an attempt to avoid freely living the light of who we are and the responsibility that this calls for.

118. We all have a relationship with our bodies whether we like it or not – fact is, we have one, we are in one and we cannot live without one. Looking around at life we have every possible hook, line and sinker to dull and abuse the body – drugs, alcohol, and sugary foods are just some examples – so what is actually going on? For us to be attacking and essentially killing the very thing that we live in, breathe in and be in? It’s like burning down your own house and still expecting to be able to live in it. The body deserves our regard, attention and care like nothing else.

119. My experience of suppression is one of diminishing my worth, doubting what I felt and knew and keeping my self boxed in a way of living that I thought I had no choice but to accept. The less I suppress, the more I stand tall in my body and live the life I want to live.

120. I have abusively suppressed myself for a very long time, for all sorts of reasons, one of which was the mistaken belief that to speak up would always be confrontational. The more I do let my natural expression flow the more I realise that this is absolutely not the case and that lots of amazing conversations happen when I am not restricting what is there to be shared.

121. Abuse can be so subtle and the obvious physical abuse is very possible to start to change and bring love to. What is worse is the on going running thoughts that we can have that slowly chip away at us and you constantly feel down and not worth anything. This requires a very committed and loving focus and first it starts by moving in another way. The way we move determines the energy we align to which gives us the thoughts that we believe are ours.

122. “Suppression – The Behaviour of Abuse” – the more I delve into the avenue of love, the more I realise how much of the road of abuse I have traveled for so long.

123. We can only suppress something in or back into our body that naturally wants to express. The more we understand and develop a loving relationship with what wants to express the less we will be inclined to hold it back from getting out.

124. The more we respect and honour ourselves the more we respect and honour others which is one of several reasons why it is selfish and irresponsible to not take care of ourselves.

     1. Crazy isn’t it, that is the exact opposite to what most of us learn in life.

        1. Yes, crazy irresponsible disgraceful that so much of what is taught, promoted, lived and propagated in life is the exact opposite of what is true.

125. Suppression is self abuse in reaction to the lovelessness around and the consequence of it is the suppressing of our own love and the actual blockage of our vascular system, causing tension, pain and sickness.

126. We are made to feel everything without emotion or judgement -denying what is there because it doesn’t suit our view or getting angry is just ignoring the truth of who we are.

127. We are living beings who have so much to communicate in our movement and expression. When we shut down or suppress we put a lid on all this and hold ourselves back. This is a form of abuse as you say in this very open sharing and it is one I used to use if I felt uneasy or unsettled also. Sometimes I can still catch myself using it but now know when I am doing so, so I make the effort to at least expresss what I am feeling in that moment as a way to not allow this very old pattern to not have any opening to continue.

128. And the energy it takes to suppress ourselves is immense, it’s the highway to exhaustion.

129. “My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.” What a beautiful space to come to that makes all the difference to our lives and an end to the abuse and suppression so many live with.

130. ‘I was lost in the drive of achieving with no consideration to the body and what this truly meant for my wellbeing and how I was living. I used outcomes and recognition to receive acceptance from others.’ Reading this I can feel how common this is; that we put ‘success’ and achievement over and above our own health and well-being.

     1. There are so many things in life that we can use to race ourselves up, distract ourselves, keep ourselves in drive – all of this is designed to keep us from knowing and feeling just how delicate and expansive we can actually be in our bodies. And through this expansion we have access to a deep and knowing wisdom that is part of our divine universal order. It is thus our responsibility to allow ourselves to stop and connect, to feel our delicateness and be in life in a way that truly honours our body.

131. Suppressing what we feel is also very exhausting because we constantly have to do something to not feel what we are feeling.

     1. Yes. True. It takes a lot of effort and force to hold back our feelings that are naturally there waiting to burst out. It is a bit like wasting effort trying to squash an expanding rubber ball. Tough work and totally unnessessary.

132. ‘ I was putting a lid on everything that I felt’ – I can very much relate to this behaviour, I was great at containing all my feelings – all at the expense of my own health and well-being.

133. I love the way you’ve expressed and this revelation is absolute gold. “My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.”

134. My body is my best friend as it never holds back from pulling me up and letting me know what’s on and what’s not on with how I am living.

     1. This is a truth and a gem that humanity will one day as a whole come to appreciate. Our bodies are all always telling us what is true and not true about how we are living- and it is for us each to choose to listen to the wisdom of our bodies.

        1. . . . or not. One way or the other we will all eventually learn to surrender to our body’s innate wisdom.

135. “What I love is when I don’t indulge in any of these old patterns or behaviours and instead use them as my friends of learning and letting go” – wow what a fresh approach to all the things and behaviours we have that dominate our lives – not something to be frustrated or disappointed by but a friend or an opportunity to never be in the same place ever again.

136. Our history is riddled with supression of human beings, but no one ever seems to have stopped and seen that it mirrors the way we suppress the truth in our body. This rewrites history. Better than saying a war took place – more accurate to state that 6 billion people or so continued to deny that they are Love.

     1. And saying it this way, it addresses us all, we are all called into responsibility, it allows us to see the part we play in the all.

137. I feel that it is never not true that we don’t know how sacred, delicate and deeply sensitive we naturally are. We do know on some level for how would we then know the exact ways to counteract And surpress it? We in truth do not want to be aware of the fact because it shows us that the irresponsible ways of this world are not conjuicive to the Divine essence we naturally are.

     1. Very true Joshua. We do know on some level. By the fact that we know when things do not feel right or true dictates that we must know the true way also. However, how often do we as a humanity stop to consider this and choose to connect to and follow the truth we know within.

138. The beauty and joy of expressing what I feel is something i had not really understood also and the surpression and harm I was doing to my body myself and my life. The truth of abuse to ourselves is something to really recognise as when we become aware of it, it changes everything and allows a loving nurturing way of being valuing all we are.

139. Beautiful Kathy that you are so open to having a relationship with your Soul. My understanding is, our Soul is constantly trying to communicate and connect with us, and when we do open the gates and allow our Soul to enter our body, it is deeply healing and always inclusive of everyone.

140. A great unveiling to discover that our body conveys so much to us if we are prepared to listen and adjust our life choices accordingly making more supportive and loving choices rather then continually disregarding the message by pretending that you don’t hear it, or dulling it down so we ignore it because we no longer think we feel it.

141. “On the surface it looked like I was a super woman… but within I could feel the anxiety building up through the aches and pains in my physical body” – This has been true for almost all of us at varying times in our life, and it’s important that we develop relationships where we feel absolutely comfortable expressing what is really going on beneath the facade.

     1. Yes. Expressing above, beyond and through our facades to facilitate their dissolution is the way to go.

142. “The Behaviour of Abuse” – happens because there is not the deepened self-care or love there in the first place. There would simply be no abuse if there was love.

     1. Yes, I agree Zofia, there is either love or abuse, no in-between.

143. When we allow space, we get the awareness of what’s needed next, when and how to do it. Learning to move from rush to a more spacious relationship with the world has been an incredible unfolding, where there is learning on offer in every moment, simply by clocking how we are moving and being with ourselves.

144. If we experience suppression from anyone around us in our life it is a reflection of the fact that we already do this to ourselves. No-one can actually dictate how much we express, but we can put ourselves under a certain amount of control out of fear of what will happen when we do.

145. Abuse clearly comes in many forms, it will be a joy when society sees abuse as not expressing the truth of what we feel.

     1. And that we do feel everything… one line of abuse for me is the pretence that I don’t.

146. I’m learning how not expressing what I feel
     Is abuse to the body. The more I get to know myself- the more there is to express – and when I don’t it stays with me as a tension in my body that is quiet demobilising.

147. ‘Doing’ is so deeply engrained in many of us it is difficult for us to let it go and place more importance on how we be. ‘Quality before quantity’ needs to be plastered on every billboard across the country.

     1. I agree – and it starts with the up-bringing of children, we need to allow them space to BE who they are and not mould them into a life that will ensure that they will always chase the ‘doing’ and performing.

148. We are our own worst suppressors – actually no one else can do it for or to us. On the first look it may appear ridiculous but when we go to the depth of our choices to that place hidden and protected even from ourselves we will find ‘someone’ who is choosing suppression as a form of control and power.

149. It has been a long journey learning to appreciate and allow the communication of the body, because it simply offers us the reflection of how we have been living and also what is true for it to be lived. Living dishonestly and ignoring the communication of what is true – results in hugely damaging impact on health and wellbeing – but yet we engage in this dishonest living in order to retain our seeming control over our lives – unwilling to admit though that we are the ones being played to the detriment ourselves and all.

150. My ingrained pattern was to withdraw when I feel defeated. But now I understand that to stand my true height, spread my wings and open my heart to move freely, is actually much more efficient in dealing with any challenge.

151. When we suppress something, for example an emotion then it will come out somewhere else, including within our own body as an illness and disease.

     1. Suppression creates so much tension in our body and this tension will eventually get unleashed elsewhere or if it is bottled up which like you’ve shared Elizabeth, it can be released as an illness and disease, this is our body’s way of clearing what does not belong.

152. The religion of the world we live in today is suppression. Everything we do it seems is aimed at covering up how we feel. A ‘good’ life is one where you feel blissfully numb. With the acres of pain and rejections that have been stashed away it’s no wonder we don’t want to look deeper inside. But having this attitude means nothing will ever truly change.

153. “My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.” What an inspirational turn around Kathy. When we get ourselves out of the way and no longer need to look for any kind of recognition or acknowledgement of what we do, all we have to do is simply ‘be’ who we are which is enough. And that is more powerful and beautiful than anything we can ever ‘do’.

154. When I am not free in my movements, self imposed of course, it is a protection and an arrogance to not let people see the fullness of me.

155. I found I was always making choices to keep myself constantly busy in the ‘doing.’ This behaviour was deeply ingrained in my body and it originated from being told that “time was not to be wasted.” So many ideals and beliefs are taken on from others that often behaviours we have and live are not even true to us or from us! It is through Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine teachings and Sacred Esoteric Healing modalities that I have been able to let go of many patterns, ideals and beliefs I had held onto from my body that everything else I tried did not touch or get to the root cause of. It might be a bold statement but these teachings, The Ancient Wisdom that we have long lost but has always been there as well as the Sacred Esoteric Healing modalities are it! They navigate us back to our innate love, true truth and wisdom within allowing the body to let go of all that is not of truth. It has been a very empowering, freeing and deeply healing process that still continues to unfold.

156. If true wellbeing involves being well within, it does not make sense that the only way we try to improve our wellbeing is from things external to us.

157. A gorgeous sharing Kathy, I can so relate to these words “What I did not realise is this behaviour was abusing my body by not allowing the self to be honest and express what was truly going on deep within. ” This is how I lived most of my life not wanting to feel, keep it all squashed down. I have since come to a deeper understanding and love for my body and what it offers in its wisdom, just the other day a behaviour came up in my body to be seen and healed, one that no longer serves me.

158. “Suppression was a behaviour that I would go to when I felt defeated and crushed…” I recognise this pattern very well and have used it many times when life got too much, too intense or too overwhelming. But the withdrawal was not a comfortable place to be, and certainly didn’t solve any problems. In fact I would say it magnified them as the thoughts got more intrusive and negative. So far from being a place of escape, I would liken it to being imprisoned in my own body. It’s clear to see how suppression of oneself is indeed abusive.

159. “What I did not realise is this behaviour was abusing my body by not allowing the self to be honest and express what was truly going on deep within” This is very relatable to and brings an understanding of the suppression we do to ourselves instead bringing a true appreciation and love for simply being who we are and expressing this freely and joyfully in the world in our daily movements.

160. We can only suppress things for so long until the pressure builds and blows that lid straight off, and we can have major melt downs for the body although great at coping with all that we throw at it will eventually start showing us the error of our ways. So it is much better to take the controls off the spirit and hand them over to the soul so the vehicle can express in truth.

161. So true Cathy, our bodies respond so much when it is given the loving grace and space that we all deserve.

162. I know when I don’t speak up everything builds and builds until I feel like I will explode. Often though I will choose to numb this and become deadened rather than speak up. It hurts a great deal. In times when I have spoken up it feels so amazing, and I feel full of vitality and joy. So worth it, even if it seems hard to speak the truth at the time.

163. ‘At a young age I could feel everything. But I never knew that the body I lived in was sensitive, fragile, delicate and that it has the wisdom of knowing, the power of healing and bringing all that is needed from a place within me that is divine and full of love.’ As children many of us experience feeling everything, which is our innate divinity, yet this is not nurtured and honoured and then need is awakened and instead we learn to get what we need outside of us. We leave this world connection to our inner power. In leaving our divine being, our loving essence, is the abuse towards ourselves.

164. When we embrace with out judgement what ever it is that our body is telling we have the opportunity to learn and grow from what it is revealing.

165. That is a great question for us to ponder on, would we trash it or not, would we nurture it or not, what would we do if we knew our body was divine.

166. Dishonesty is abuse like it or not. It is crippling for the body to be anything less than honest.

167. Abuse is the choice of those who decide to ignore their divinity and everything our own particles are communicating to them. They are engaged in actions and movements that guarantee the creation of a reality where nothing divine has a place. That is why everything crumbles when you stumble with divinity. Only then, you realize the extent you were in a crusade against God; that is against you.

168. It takes more energy and force to to suppress our equalness, as equalness comes naturally when we allow it to flow.

169. I have done the same, constant suppression to avoid feeling what has been given to me to feel. Its a crazy game I played so I did not need to take responsibility. Now I am loving the increase in awareness, responsibility and power that comes with it.

170. This is so beautiful what you share and I can completely resonnate with you “My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.”

171. I can really relate to putting a lid on it and suppressing how I feel. Thank you Kathy because my read today has given me the inspiration to allow myself to express more, and not go into the well known patterns of suppression.

172. “My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.” – a great reminder for me this morning, as I can get caught in the doing and forget that all that really matters is the quality of my relationships with everyone including myself.

173. The simple honesty of letting ourselves feel the way we are feeling without any judgement or need to change this, is very refreshing and allows us space to explore what is actually happening. From here we have far more scope for healing than if we deny how we are feeling or pretend that everything is fine or even brush it off as not being important. Every situation and feeling offers us a clue to a healing and a step in evolution.

174. If I judge myself or another as not enough, I very quickly become a victim to life’s ideals, expectations and all the should and should not rules in life.

175. Building a relationship with our bodies is essential given that it is with us 24/7, it experiences everything we clock and everything we choose to not clock. When we choose to not clock what we are feeling the body has to find a way to pretend we are not feeling it which I now see to be a total waste of energy and such an insult to a magnificent, honest, loving and respectful communication.

176. ‘This behaviour was deeply ingrained in my body and it originated from being told that “time was not to be wasted.” ‘ – This is a huge one, most of us are totally controlled by the idea of ‘time’.

177. Using achievements as a way of getting acceptance is a never ending process versus self acceptance that we are enough just as we are.

178. We all know from observing babies that they come into this world complete with love we know this because we are drawn to their fragility and grace, they are delicate because they are so new born but there is a quality about babies that most of us adore and are attracted to. Somehow we lose this connection with them and as they grow up into young children we expect them to conform to the requirements of society because we want them to grow up to live a secure life. In doing this we dismiss, ignore, the beauty we first held them in and instead we teach children to look outside and measure themselves against the rest of society, this is our downfall.

     At a young age I could feel everything. But I never knew that the body I lived in was sensitive, fragile, delicate and that it has the wisdom of knowing, the power of healing and bringing all that is needed from a place within me that is divine and full of love.

179. “What I did not realise is this behaviour was abusing my body by not allowing the self to be honest and express what was truly going on deep within.” Intersting how suppression is usually seen as a behaviour that is inflicted on another, by another and not associated with self honesty and honouring of what we feel. Holding back our true expression is far more harming than we care to realise.

     1. Exactly, we ignore the biggest suppression of all, the one inflicted by ourselves.

180. I have a little rule of thumb I follow in life that applies to most aspects of it and that is – ‘better out than in’. Now I do not mean to say we should go around like a leaking gasket, spewing our emotions and abuses on everyone, but more so just to say that it is far better to see and feel the source of our discontent than to bask in the illusion it is not there when we can feel it all tremble below the surface.

181. Loving my body is a feeling of joy and a beingness that comes from within. It does not rely on needing to ‘look good’…although this naturally happens as our inner-essence shines out We feel and look amazing!

     1. Jenny I agree its that deeper connection within that allows us to feel the joy and beingness. With that connection we look amazing and our true essence emanates out.

182. We can develop an honest body, one that shares understanding and insight when we are willing to have an honest relationship with it – Allowing ourselves to feel what has been self inflicted and the effects of certain actions and words of others too, helps us come out of patterns of behaviour that may have held us as less than we truly are, for lives.

183. Suppression is a mega word, it really defines a way of being that is wholly contradictory to what is natural.

184. We have some obvious and not so obvious ways of abusing ourselves and suppression of how we feel is one of them. The body loves for us to be open and responsive to what it needs.

     1. Yes, the importance of trancparency goes both ways i.e. allowing people to see who we truly are as well as allowing ourselves to honestly read what is going on based on what our body is telling us.

185. We keep looking for peace, for calm, for easy but suppressed beneath all the layers of these ideals and beliefs is grace, stillness, sacredness and universality. It’s crazy to block out such beauty.

186. The shift to being present in our bodies (listening to and reading the constant responses and feedback) from being caught in the busy-ness of any moment could be considered to be imperceptible. The impact however is properly huge.

     1. So true Matilda, a whole different way of being when we are present, before having presence with ourselves and our bodies I wonder if we are actually ‘being’ at all or just surviving.

187. The relationship with our bodies is super super important. We can either be in denial of it and just use the body to experience all the ‘pleasures’ of life or we can choose to surrender to it and let it be our guide in life. The latter is now my choice, but I have been in the first one too. The difference is enormous. A whole new world has opened to me in choosing the simplicity and wisdom my body holds. There is now love and true relationships in my life instead of the need for recognition and reward and to only connect with people because I needed something of them – functional, but without any love.

188. To suppress the livingness of the body is one of the main causes of all of the problems we as a society have in the world.

189. Drive and achievements go very deep and it can be surprising how much they still motivate and affect us even after we have noticed many aspects of these distractions.

     1. Very true Christoph, it is a forever unpeeling of the layers of protection and distraction back to the innate awareness we are and always were connected to.

        1. Lucy you nailed it, it really is about unpeeling the layers of protection and distraction, this allow us to reconnect back to the depth of awareness within us available all of the time.

190. Those, like you, who reflect the sacredness and beauty from within God’s divine love are a God-send. I get to feel and understand what this is in the world, a living example I can relate to. I learn so much this way, I can feel what is being lived. Like my friend talking about her relationship with God I got to feel how real this relationship is and that I too could develop one so true.

191. “I am now choosing to listen to how I feel in my body, treating it with respect, commitment, taking responsibility and honouring the truth that it reveals” . . . . Beautiful Kathy! Dealing with the abuse in the world has to start with us and how we treat ourselves.

192. ‘I used outcomes and recognition to receive acceptance from others.’ – We live at a time where we are incessantly looking for confirmation, recognition and ‘likes’, a constant disempowerment of ourselves.

193. I feel the effort of silencing myself, the energy required and the exhaustion it creates… I am working on this and am coming to realise the simplicity, sweetness and support of speaking up.

194. “What I did not realise is this behaviour was abusing my body by not allowing the self to be honest and express what was truly going on deep within” – developing an honest body through expressing feels so different to be in, to hold, to touch and feel, because of the lessening of protection and hardness that results from not being honest or admitting what has hurt us. Losing the protection to open up to honesty and eventual love, is dealing with abuse.

     1. The simplicity and wisdom of the body is one of the gifts we are blessed with, we only have to give up that wayward mind and surrender to this wisdom and simplicity of the body instead.

195. What a beautiful unfoldment you have expressed Kathy. We are indeed masters of suppression, holding back all that we truly are.

     1. Jenny indeed we are and yet how freeing is it when we choose to not hold back and express in full.

     2. We can only be masters of Suppression when we know how equally to be masters of Expression.

196. Life will seem hard when you fight your nature and every in built system your body possesses. Gosh though how simple life could be if we just let these things be!

     1. That is true. The consequence is that we get transformed and shine for all to see and this can lead to a backlash and we need to learn to deal with the backlash.

197. We had it the wrong way round indeed, be well within and observe the tensions going on around us.

198. I recall from a very young age I started suppressing my feelings because I thought my sensitivity and awareness were the reasons why I felt deeply hurt. I thought if I could stop feeling so much maybe I wouldn’t be able to get hurt, but this didn’t help at all, in fact suppressing my feelings made things feel a whole lot worse. It meant I was burying my feelings deep inside my body which cause a lot of tension, hurt, dis-ease and I simply didn’t know how to deal with them. From choosing to suppress my feelings, I also felt overwhelmed, stressed, helpless, went into victimhood and the list goes on. So, I agree suppression is a form of abuse on our body. And, thank God for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for showing me how to live in a way to reconnect to my awareness, sensitivity, be more loving, connect to my feelings and work on healing my hurts.

199. Respect should be the minimum when it comes to how we treat our body, but sadly the ‘norm’ has slipped as far as self abuse in society today. Being role models for each other is so crucial in bringing change to this, and we do have an enormous impact on others in how we look after ourselves.

     1. This is an open call to the beautiful responsibility of reflecting to others a level of care that will change the whole way for our relationships and health.

     2. Susie well shared, we have a great responsibility in looking after ourselves as we are the role models for others, we cannot inspire and reflect if we are not truly living it.

200. I find that if I am struggling with something I tend to shrink and withdraw which is an abuse to myself. By holding myself small I do not do myself any favours, and everything seems harder as a result. To stay open and expanded even in times of difficulty is something I am learning how to do. It’s important to not assume the victim stance and always know my true worth and my value, even when times are tough. Being hard on ourselves is not helpful!

     1. I absolutely agree Rebecca, I have tried both methods and I can definitely say, contracting, shrinking and hiding from difficult situations never helps, it just causes more complication, pain, and suffering. Whereas when we stay open, be honest, be willing to take responsibility and allow ourselves to feel everything and read the situation with an open heart, all the answers are right there.

        1. Yes, I agree with you both. A lifetime of making myself small to be a harder target to hit may have worked to some degree but how I’ve abused myself to be so small, under an illusion that it’s ok because I’m in control when actually the result is the same. Observing how, when I don’t contract or shrink, life may at times feel raw but the fog that otherwise surrounds me lifts and a wonderful clarity, feeling of space is lived.

201. We all know as adults how to shut a child down and have them then live a life of suppression. This behaviour is then their go to when things get too stressful. Wouldn’t life be so much simpler if we were taught from young to express ourselves and to value our expression as not being right or wrong?

     1. ‘We all know as adults how to shut a child down and have them then live a life of suppression.’ – Yes, and this behaviour is copied and passed on from generation to generation, a neverending viscious cycle.

202. I wholeheartedly agree with you Kathy about how Serge Benhayon moves and expresses. Absolute harmony and stillness in motion. When most people walk past anyone, this felt like a breeze or wind ruffling the air quality. When Serge Benhayon passes by me, I have only experience that there is NO disturbance in the the air space around me that he moves through.
     “the way Serge moves in every step and the quality of the tone of his voice allowed me to connect to my own truth. It was through his reflection of the appreciation of his delicateness and tenderness that I came to the clarity of how important my body is”.

203. When we suppress ourselves and limit our expression of ourselves we then feel a lack of something important which we then try to fill with recognition and achievement and doing things but this can never fill the void, only giving ourselves permission to be who we are and to express freely fills us up with love truly nourishes us.

204. ‘Growing up as a child, teenager and adult, I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing.’ – The crazy thing is, we don’t even know we are entitled to have ‘inner wellbeing’, we grow up learning that we need to keep up with everybody else, or else we are losers.

205. It is only recently when I have allowed myself to deeply reflect and feel the impact of my ways of protecting myself in the past, I realize every one of them feel much more horrific in their impact than any external threat I thought I was protecting myself against.
     I can now see how if I get struck when I am standing in my fullness, there is a period of recovery from that strike yes, but if I have squashed myself into a box of protection in which I can neither breathe nor feel the warmth of love expressing through me I am in a long term prison of my own making. Besides that protection does not even ever stop the strikes really, I am less able to feel the impact and less able to truly respond to the situation!.

206. The simple fact is that if we can abuse ourselves then we can abuse another, you are so correct in nominating that abuse in whatever form – suppression, criticism, doubts, or even physical begins and ends with us. I notice it in myself, if I drop my level of care or bash myself up my standards with everyone also drops.

207. Speak is cheap when you don’t walk your talk.

208. I’m getting to feel we’re here to expand and be big. Fighting this and trying to put ourselves in boxes can only harm ourselves. I’m inspired to consider where I try to contain myself, how does this feel and to let any beliefs or ideals of how I should be go.

209. Touched to the core with this gorgeous blog Kathy –
     “My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light”.

210. “What I did not realise is this behaviour was abusing my body by not allowing the self to be honest and express what was truly going on deep within. ”

     For many many years and life times we go on self abusing – whether it be with food, negative thoughts or drugs until we wake up to the divinity we truly are.

211. It is beautiful to see your inspiration car from seeing and feeling how Serge was moving and that it was not from preaching or telling you that you had to do things differently. That is how we must inspire other people – by how we live.

212. How beautiful is that – cherish our bodies as vehicles of expression, rather than push and drive them to perform and function to have moments of satisfaction or achievement.

     1. Yes, the difference in such a body is monumental.

213. In order for abuse to take place and continue there has to be this element of suppression. If we don’t speak up about it, it’s allowed to continue.

     1. Very true Susie, this is exactly how suppression feels, when we are in it we have already chosen abuse instead of love. When we suppress ourselves, we also are more likely to suppress others and this then means we tend to further cement suppression in our family, society, and the world.

214. There are so many ways we can abuse our bodies and we call it normal, the way we move, walk, talk, eat, breathe, the how we do these things makes so much difference and with care and love is the only way for it to not be abusive. Abusive behaviour is anything that is not love. And then there are also the emotions, the habits which we choose so they harms us, harm on any level is abuse.

215. This is absolutely beautiful, love what you share “‘My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light’.

216. “With allowing myself the space to stop and surrender, comes a loving understanding of accepting and trusting what my body brings to each and every moment, connecting from a quality of stillness – the wisdom that we all hold within.” This is beautiful what you share, the wisdom we all hold for us to connect too.

217. We have learned behaviours to suppress what we are feeling and been encouraged to not express our feelings, but the abuse in the body is deeply felt. I did not acknowledge that until recently, how abusive and disregarding that has been for the body, and changing these behaviours is very liberating.

218. I am no scientist per se, but doesn’t basic physics teach us that if we exert force to push something under, then that force does not go away but builds under the surface until it finds a crack through which to unleash its wild torrent.

     1. Liane absolute the force does not go away, there is always an equal and opposite force.

219. I can certainly feel that ‘Suppression was a behaviour that I would go to when I felt defeated and crushed’ and that in retrospect I can see that I had given up long before anyone else attempted to suppress me.

     1. Its crazy how we give up well before anyone else attempts to suppress us, that is just an after effect.

220. There is so many rules and regulations, treaties, groups and organisations set up to stop people from abusing and suppressing one another. Yet here we see that most of us are actively doing it to ourselves. It seems the attitude of ‘as long as I get what I want’ everything else is incidental starts a lot closer to home.

221. But we do know it’s divinity – inside out – otherwise we wouldn’t have the precise skills to trash it with such accuracy.

     1. And I have found it supportive to ‘appreciate’ the brilliant accuracy with which I can move as an un-god. Through this observation and appreciation, I am forced to look at where this ‘wisdom’ comes from.

222. And if in each version of these events you were to get the job, which version of you would they be contracting? This is a big learning that I have had. That absoluteness from the very beginning is essential to create a true foundation and relationship that can then be evolved and deepens as the job progresses. Anything less is in fact a lie to one’s future employees – a lie that they have every right to call you on some time down the track.

223. Our soul/sole responsibility is to create a body that is as clear as possible so that as much of our natural divinity can pour through it and magnify out to the rest of the world. That’s it.

     1. Otto yes it is as simple as that, create a body that is clear for the natural divinity to pour through and magnify out to the rest of the world.

        1. Or, to put it another way, get our ‘self’ out of the way.

224. ‘…without any consideration of how sacred the body is…’ – What does that actually mean that the body is sacred, not just how sacred, i.e. a certain amount or degree of sacredness but sacred? Is it sacred because life is considered to be sacred or because we give it a lot of value or cherish the care of the body very high or because any tradition or religion says so? Or is it because it can be the vehicle for the Soul, ie. it becomes sacred by us choosing to live sacredly (divinity in expression) in and with our bodies. My understanding is that the body is sacred because it is made of divine substance and hence capable of expressing divinity hence it is for us to activate such livingness and holding the body in the sacredness of being a vehicle for the divine in expression.

225. I really enjoyed reading this blog Jane. It makes sense that our bodies should be the first port of call to find settlement. When I feel that deep settlement in my own body, it feels like I am coming home.

226. ” I came to the loving understanding at the age of 63 that I was using suppression to abuse my body without any consideration of how sacred the body is, and how it truly works. ”
     This is so wonderful thank you for sharing.

227. When we indulge even a little in old patterns and behaviours it’s not that we are going backwards but it is a moment to take stock and ask ourselves why we need to distract ourselves in something that is not true. I am indulging if I do not read and let go of what I have sensed. What I am getting a sense of is as I step more and more into my power it can make others feel uncomfortable even in the slightest and I am learning not to self harm by reacting and distracting myself from what I know is very often not my issue but another’s, a constant learning for me at this time.

228. I loved reading this piece as I could relate to so much of you share here Kathy. Thank you, your article has supported me to look at where I am suppressing things in my life and how I can give myself permission to express all that I feel.

229. Without suppression we cannot keep the truth of who we are under control hence in order to have individuality we have no other choice but to suppress the communication of our body and soul. But of course we are instead absolutely free to choose being who we are and experience that there is nothing greater than that.

230. True blessings come through an uncorrupted body and never from a corrupted body.

     1. A body that is clear and full of light will provide a true reflection and a true blessing.

        1. Beautifully said Amita.

231. Could it be that the layering of anything that does not belong in us is suppression? Which in turn, leads me to ponder whether any layer whatsoever is in actual fact suppression, in light of the fact that we are all already whole and complete, therefore the addition of any-thing is going to reduce the magnitude and brilliance of who we already are.

232. ‘Suppression was a behaviour that I would go to when I felt defeated and crushed’, feeling defeated and crushed is already suppression of the body.

233. What a powerful blog. Suppression created by ourselves is a deep dwell of evil. When we choose to not go in suppression, we free ourselves from the created evil once played.

234. The impression we can make on another – even just by walking past them – is huge.

     1. Yes our reflections are powerful, therefore we hold a responsibility when we walk pass another.

235. It is ridiculous beyond measure that we have all learned to play a game where although our true essence is so much more, we just act “human” and tell ourselves this 3 dimensional perception is all there is. And even the human expression is reduced to a restricted cliché of living out hundreds of ideals, beliefs and issues designed specifically to busy us so we do not deepen our awareness and focus on the fact that we are living a suppressed existence.

236. Very true Doug, time will tell if we can embrace it in the true divinity that our body is.

237. Could “Suppression” be all about keeping us from passing-over in our true connection to our essence so that we keep on returning or reincarnating into the same old patterns?
     If so would it not be our divine responsibility to pass-over in full awareness of all our good and not so good ways so next life we will get a chance for corrections?

238. I have never considered my body to be sacred, the word ‘sacred’ was tied up with religion, the Catholic religion I was brought up with, or it was used to say something was ‘special’, and of course now I am learning just how special the body is and how it needs to be adored, not in a saint-worshipping way but loved for every cell, every membrane, every chemical interchange and reaction, absolutely everything in my body is to be revered and treated as the precious instrument it is because only when I do that can my body do its job of expressing the Soul with full clarity. It is an instrument of communication, of expression.

239. It is such a lie that we are fed and willingly swallow that everything outside of ourselves is more important than what is within. This lie permeates all of society, it is in every industry and it is destroying us.

     1. It is crazy that we are this lie, when we know the truth that what is inside is more important than the outside.

240. I clocked a few days ago that when I am really connected to my delicacy it becomes so much easier to call out what isn’t true. In that state of connection, it was like my observation was really honed and yet when I was met with denial when the other person expressed it was like that denial had nowhere to go, so absolute I felt from my body.

241. Ah yes, the victim game. So long as we blame people or the world for our woes we hold onto a sense of entitlement to not be responsible for our choices, because we feel justified in protecting our hurts and living in a way that is unloving towards ourselves and others.

242. I met someone I hadn’t seen for a while and noticed how withdrawn they are becoming and mentioned this to them and they agreed it is an energy that is so insidious it creeps into our bodies and dulls it down by taking our life-force. So we have agreed on a program so that they can support themselves to find ways of being more self loving rather than wanting love from other people who are incapable of loving them since they cannot love themselves.

243. “Suppression – The Behaviour of Abuse” – the more we do not see, the more we are abused through the absence of whole sight. It’s that simple. Choosing to not see – is choosing to be open to abuse. Choosing to see – is choosing to be open to love.

     1. Very simply put Zofia, “choosing to not see – is choosing to be open to abuse? Choosing to see is – choosing to be open to love.”

244. It is by the grace of God, I met and was offered a way to know. deeply love and honour the sacredness of my body. Thank you Serge Benhayon.

245. When we can see clearly that something is an abuse we can then start doing something about it, or not that is the choice once we know, but if we don’t do something about it, it will never end well.

     1. So true when it is clear that something is abuse,we have a choice to make a change, its that simple.

246. I never looked at it in this way, that my body actually was and still at times, is scared because I lived in disconnection with it, completely driven by the mind.

247. We tend to hold ourselves up to be a super woman or a super man but underneath there must be always that tension and anxiousness. Otherwise there would be no need to behave as such.

248. No one wants to suppress a body, but once you start the poison and conflicts pile up, like a junk room in our house we’d rather not look in. But let’s face it sooner or later we’ve got to go in and face up to the mess we’ve got ourselves in.

249. True honesty in expression is life-changing and allows space for so much more. When we deny and hold back all that is there to be said there is no space for the magic of life to harmoniously flow.

     1. I love that Paula “True honesty in expression is life-changing and allows space for so much more.”

250. ‘I am now choosing to listen to how I feel in my body, treating it with respect, commitment, taking responsibility and honouring the truth that it reveals’. In this offering there is inspiration to others (including me!) to live this more and more each day.

     1. It is true Michael, I tend to think I can only be an inspiration for others but never considered that my way of living does also inspires me to live this more and more each day.

        1. Nico yes we do forget that we are inspirations for self to as we are able to bring more of who we are out.

        2. Yes, and to elaborate on that. This inspiring of ourselves we not only bring appreciation in our lives but to an ever expanding way of life as you know to every expression there is an equal expression feeding us back and in this energetic truth and process we continuously grow more as nothing in this universe stays a constant but is forever expanding and we are not any different. So by expressing all who we are we got reflected back all of who we are and with that get access to more and the actual grandness that we are.

251. We do have a society that is so driven by outomes and box ticking. So how important is it to come back to knowing that we are worth so much more, that this box ticking does not need to be the standard that we live up to, but that we have the choice to make life so much more.

     1. Box ticking will always lower standards, this is guaranteed because ticking boxes confines, narrows and ultimately limits us all.

252. The key here is putting a lid on ourselves and all our power, it requires so much effort and makes sense of why the whole world is essentially exhausted.

     1. So much contained in these precious vessels that should be expressed and shared. Yes, exhausting to not be who we truly are.

     2. So true Vanessa it is very exhausting and takes much more effort in putting a lid on ourselves and our power, rather than naturally letting us out.

253. Abuse – not honouring that (the body) which allows us to feel and be the utter amazingness we essentially are. Hence it is worth pondering why we harm the instrument that actually has the means to save us from all harm.

254. We are immeasurably grand and powerful and for this to not be in full expression we have used suppression.

255. We hold many beliefs ad ideals that make us suppress what we truly feel, I still find myself overriding what I am feeling and surprising this feeling to give way to a thought that comes from either a belief or an ideal.

     1. I do too Carolien, it is so subtle often but a picture of what should happen none the less and therefore not in the flow of what is needed next.

        1. Yes, I am seeing more and more how this deliberate as the road ahead is simple and straight forward but by suppressing the impulses that keep me on that road I get to detour and take the long way home.

256. I can really relate to how I’ve used the time is not to be wasted to the detriment of my body and the ease of which I lived. I have chosen busy jobs and have felt unsettled when space opens up, sometimes feeling a great frustration if I’ve felt forcibly made to stop – a train delay etc. or physical injury. I’m starting to really appreciate space and it’s never wasted when I am present and connected within it. The willingness to feel whatever is there is supporting me to be more and embrace the wisdom space brings.

     1. I love this Karen, really loving and appreciating space not trying to fill life up but rather be purposeful with life.

        1. I too love this, “appreciating space and not trying to fill life up”

257. Kathy, I have also been very inspired by Serge Benhayon, what I have observed is that Serge moves with no rush to get anywhere but instead with presence and grace. And that he does not panic or hurry, there is a beautiful flow and ease with how he moves and talks.

258. ‘At a young age I could feel everything. But I never knew that the body I lived in was sensitive, fragile, delicate and that it has the wisdom of knowing, the power of healing and bringing all that is needed from a place within me that is divine and full of love.’ – This is so well described and my experience is that the dismissal of all that we are can come with devastating consequenses.

259. How amazing it is to be able to reconnect to our bodies then to feel and “reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.”
     Bringing a focus from day one to being gentle was the key to me feeling more from my body.

260. Bringing the Livingness into my life has given me the tools to connect to my body, care for it, listen to it and be on a path of deepening respect for it. Sometimes I get it wrong but it is a learning, as you say, and my body clearly tells me when. It also shows me when I do listen and the response is instant.

261. I like how you see your old pattens or behaviours as friends of learning, great way to look at them leaving you free to let them go rather than hang on to them as your way.

     1. Yes absolutely there is no holding onto them as we just see them as a learning and we can let them go.

262. As we become more aware of our bodies we become more aware of our movements and sometimes as I walk I can feel the stillness within. I love these words, ‘With allowing myself the space to stop and surrender, comes a loving understanding of accepting and trusting what my body brings to each and every moment, connecting from a quality of stillness – the wisdom that we all hold within.’

263. ‘My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within..’ This is beautiful, Kathy. There is a completely different way to be once we live from the wisdom of the body rather than the constructs of the mind.

     1. “There is a completely different way to be once we live from the wisdom of the body rather than the constructs of the mind.” Love this Janet. Important to know we have a choice: life as we know it, is not all there is, there is much more. And re-aligning to body’s essence, not mind the first step.

264. How many of us do this..”I used outcomes and recognition to receive acceptance from others.” I know I have lived in this way, it is in complete disregard to the body to live like this because we are not considering it at all, when we make our choices and this can build up in the body over decades to illnesses like osteoporosis. But it is never too late to make changes when we stop this abuse, the body feels it.

     1. True Gill, we can actually make a true turnaround by learning to say NO to abuse.

265. As we work together as one. Such a simple yet profound relationship the Soul and the physical form, we can’t have it with out each other but we always have a choice to either connect to this or not. What I Love about Serge Benhayon is how he openly shares how it is possible, how this deepens and how practical it really is.

266. Better late than never – the physical body will do what it can to support us and demonstrates that deep care and nurturing do make a difference to its regenerative abilities.

     1. absolutely Conrad it is never too late to make changes in our life and our body will undeniably respond to it.

267. So much of life focuses on the external and irrelevant. Conversations for example, most of the time we talk about anything but what we’re truly feeling. It’s as if we have two conversations inner and outer, expressed and unexpressed. Transparency is expressing what we feel, from our inner-most. When in conversation with others, we need to go beyond ‘surface talk’ and support others to express what is really going on.

268. It seems that for the majority of us we have been encouraged to believe that life happens outside of us. Everything is externalized. It is not until Universal Medicine came along and asked the world to consider that this may be a false way of living did we stop to consider the possibility.

269. This is beautiful to read Kathy. When we hold back what we feel we dishonour ourselves and others.

270. I am appreciating more and more, as I deepen my connection with my body and allow myself to be open and honest about how I am feeling in challenging situations, without judgment, I am able to work things through with so much more ease and understanding – it’s very beautiful how much support is there for us when we are open to receiving it.

271. ‘Suppression was a behaviour that I would go to when I felt defeated and crushed and it seemed the way to avoid not wanting to deal with situations every time I felt overwhelmed and could not cope with life.’ – and yet, it’s through the connection with our body in how we are feeling that we are truly supported to be able to cope with what is going on for us.

272. It’s great to bring attention, as you have in your blog, to the fact that abuse need not only be physical and something we see – This makes us more aware about the insidious and subtle nature of abuse, that can be expressed in such things like negative self talk or disregarding behaviour patterns.

273. I have realized that there is nothing I need to do and improve, letting go of the false belief that this is how we as people do Life, has allowed me to really touch upon the worth from inside from day dot, and to live it with purpose.

274. It is the malady of the modern man and woman being caught in the drive of achieving, all motivated by the need for acceptance, approval and recognition.

275. It is true that “Life is full of opportunities…” it is simply our choice to embrace all that is on offer when we connect to our inner essence – the magic, flow and harmony and potential that comes with this connection is divine.

276. There is only so much our bodies will tolerate to be suppressed before they loudly and clearly show us that this way of being is not ok – through illness and disease, accidents and injuries.

277. So often I have held back for fear of being rejected, but the more I build a relationship with my self, the easier it becomes to say what I feel without reaction and to hold a loving space for others to do the same. A work in progress that is gently undoing the self abuse of thinking that what I had to say was not important.

278. The simplicity of the body when it comes to honesty and clearly knowing what is true or not is remarkable and never leaves us – if we want it or not.

279. We are all our own worst abusers.

280. Having just done Livingness 1 again what I really took away was it is up to me what I bring to every situation and that by bringing me in full, being open, transparent and not protecting myself from others I have the power to support others to return to that same state.

281. The frogs we swallow when we hold back how we feel can make us choke and suffocate.

282. Kathy, this is very gorgeous and deeply inspiring; ‘I have come to learn that the body is a vehicle of expression and with that learning to love everything and every part of my body – after all it is my greatest teacher.’

283. The sense of freedom and joy as well as the enormous sense of purpose that I now feel since I have chosen to stop putting a stopper on who I naturally am, is incredible.

284. I was recently in a situation where something someone else was doing made me super uncomfortable, and yet I found myself not speaking up and saying anything – I kept suppressing the feeling, telling myself i was being silly or imagining the intent behind the other persons behaviour, or simply to wait it out and when i left them later it would be over rather than honouring how i felt and just speaking up and saying something. The suppression of how i felt created so much tension in my body that it took hours to settle from the situation – but what about if we do that in smaller ways all day, the level of tension we build in our bodies.

285. The way most of us have been parented we have no idea how to cope with life’s situations so we devise our own ways and suppression is one of them. If we can’t feel we think we won’t get hurt but suppressing is what hurts.

286. As much as we try in truth we cannot deny who we are, only seek to hide it and not be aware of it.

     1. I agree Michael… we all know the truth deep within us and we have all felt it at some point in our lives – we just choose to ignore or override it.

287. Being honest about what I am experiencing within myself is still an art form I am mastering, due to the depth of suppression I have previously applied to my feelings. The level of abuse that we heap on ourselves also affects those around us, as when we fail to voice our wisdom and intuitive knowing, we deny everyone the opportunity to evolve.

     1. Me too Rowena, I have realised that I don’t even really know myself as I have suppressed and hardened as a protection so much so I haven’t been connected to my delicacy and fragility. Time to get raw and open.

288. Yes, the body is indeed our greatest teacher. Sometimes we do not want to listen to what it has to say but it will keep presenting the truth until we are ready, or our wayward behaviours need to be stopped by an illness or disease.

     1. Often it takes a calamity to make us pay attention to what our body has been trying to tell us for a long time.

289. “Life is full of opportunities” – Such a simple and beautiful fact, that there is never an absence of things to learn and unfold in life.

     1. So true Susie. When we relinquish our ideals about right and wrong, life just becomes one huge learning curve from cradle to grave. What a rich classroom it is!

290. Great to call out the abusive nature of suppression and the impact it has on our bodies. I certainly suppressed my growing level of anxiety for many years and the extreme tiredness that came with never feeling at ease in my own body because I was so busy denying what I was really feeling. Acknowledging the constant communication from my body can be challenging but there is so much more flow in my life which comes from a much deeper level of stillness rather than the frantic activity that I used to use to mask my feelings of lack of self worth.

291. It’s interesting how we can react to feeling crushed or overwhelmed by something by then crushing or suppressing our inner feelings or sensitivity which if instead we stayed open to being aware of would support us to get true clarity on how to move on and heal…

     1. Great point Fiona we react and then we suppress our feelings, for without any reactions we would be willing to express all of who we are.

292. I have imagined most of my life that if at any point I express less of the love and the truth that is within me, it is kind of okay. That like some change in my pocket, it will stay there until I choose to use it. But oh how wrong that is.

     Energy is not static, it runs through us all of the time. If I want to reduce the flow of love, I have to actively clutter my body with what is opposite to love. We may not consciously plan to do that, we many not really want to invite the exact energy that harms our body and has us more likely to think and express abuse, but just choosing less love instantly does that. This understanding is HUGE.

293. ” I was using suppression to abuse my body without any consideration of how sacred the body is, and how it truly works.” what a real and honest sharing that is so relatable to with the real abuse being what we do to ourselves through ignoring our bodies and driving through what needs to be done. The joy of learning to honour our body and feel our delicateness and sacredness in all we do is deeply beautiful nurturing and loving all in one and offers a true way to living treasuring ourselves and everyone in brotherhood and as all we are.

294. I have come to realise that suppression of expression and suppression of the truth is an enormous abuse. It is an abuse for the one that does not speak it, as to hold back truth creates a tension, tightness and poison in the body. It is also an abuse to others that do not get to hear the truth as they are not offered an opportunity to see and hear something different that will enable a change.

295. What I like about the word suppression is that it exposes the very real choice and action behind this denial of our divinity.

     1. I think it’s perfectly possible to deny our own divinity but I don’t think we can ever truly suppress it, it remains in insuppressable activity constantly.

296. I went in to over-drive yesterday and suppressed this feeling for a few hours. At the end of the day I lay in the bath and could feel the tremors/jitters in my whole body; the stress that I had put it under was palpable.

297. I often have to ask myself the question, why am I afraid to express fully and not hold back if it is my truth, because after many years of working on myself I still find myself at times in the energy of suppression.

298. Thank you Kathy, I enjoyed reading this again and feeling your unique and very beautiful expression. I can very much relate to this, “abusing my body by not allowing the self to be honest and express what was truly going on deep within.” When I’m not allowing my honesty or how my body feels I can make decisions that are unsupportive, it’s so key to be aware of ourselves because then we can make loving and caring choices based on how we truly feel.

299. I love this …”the loving relationship between Soul and my body, as we work together as one…” Being aware of, and becoming familiar with the Soul’s presence is perhaps the most primary relationship we have, and have always had, the one at least we alway come back to.

300. ‘the way Serge moves in every step and the quality of the tone of his voice allowed me to connect to my own truth. It was through his reflection of the appreciation of his delicateness and tenderness that I came to the clarity of how important my body is.’ – beautiful confirmation of how immensely powerful we are when we walk the truth of who we are. The support and inspiration we have to offer each other is infinite.

301. This is a great article in the way that you appreciate the sensitive and beautiful qualities of Serge Benhayon.

302. “I was lost in the drive of achieving with no consideration to the body and what this truly meant for my wellbeing and how I was living.” Absolutely Kathy… know this one well – although the achievement was always seeking an outcome of recognition and/or acceptance from others, not any accolade! There was no consideration for my body – it was purely there for function, to get from point A to B… and absolutely no attention given to the quality of the way I was living except when my body loudly ‘complained’. Today my body and the quality I live are first and foremost – this is everything before I do any task… and life is so much more loving, enjoyable and harmonious.

303. It is truly liberating to be able to express how we are really feeling in situations where we would previoulsy have surpressed our expression.

304. I can so relate to this Kathy… “Growing up as a child, teenager and adult, I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing.” I used to live in a constant state of anxiousness, making sure everyone else was ok so then I would be ok – supposedly – but it never worked because the external markers were always changing… and it was a totally exhausting way of living. Now that I focus on ‘my inner wellbeing’ I have a steady marker within that is not influenced by anything outside of me. This allows me to respond rather than react to life – life is no longer a roller-coaster ride but a more true and harmonious way of living.

305. I love what you say here Kathy, that “I am now choosing to listen to how I feel in my body, treating it with respect, commitment, taking responsibility and honouring the truth that it reveals.” How amazing it feels to honour the body in this way.

306. Keeping a lid on what we feel constrains our potential and ability to heal.

307. Building an understanding of how we listen to our body so we feel or get a sense of what it is sharing is a crucial part of our evolution.

     1. Understanding is a great part of our evolution, when we bring that to our body we can truly get a great sense of what it is sharing.

        1. When we explore the body and do not override the feelings that are so natural for us all as we have agreed that it is a “part of our evolution” and that deepens our connection to our inner-most.

308. Kathy, this is absolutely gorgeous; ‘My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light’.

309. I love your honesty here and what you have exposed ‘On the surface it looked like I was a super woman, nothing was a problem that I couldn’t handle, but within I could feel the anxiety building up through the aches and pains in my physical body – there was a deep tiredness and exhaustion.’ Exposing that regardless what we look like on the outside, inside we can be a complete wreck! It just goes to show how looks are deceiving unless we use our clairsentience and energetically discern and feel where a person is at instead of how they look or present themselves. Another reminder that transparency is the key!

310. Suppression of ourselves can be such a subtle behaviour that we don’t even notice, the way we put aside how we feel, make ourselves feel small or unworthy, cut ourselves down in conversation etc, rather than allowing ourselves to just be us.

311. We are all committed to the constant suppression of love, even whilst proclaiming that we’re either looking for it or that we’ve found it.

312. Choosing to live from the body.. I have heard that before and not understood what it meant. But as we become more aware of the body’s rhythm, we can feel how it’s pushed or driven, then it is easier to feel whether we are led by a belief from the head or an impulse to do something from the body.

313. It is beautiful just how much our body can do when we pay attention to it, when we allow ourselves to be still, move with tenderness and pay attention to every message it offers. Through our bodies we have a sense of knowing that has nothing to do with education or the commonly accepted intelligence of academia, it is an innate sense that we all have.

314. Sadly we learn to suppress what we are feeling from a very young age. But that doesn’t mean that at any time we can’t start to re-learn how to honour and respect what we are feeling and go with that instead of the minds thoughts.

315. As I read the title of this blog – “Suppression – The Behaviour of Abuse” I can feel a heaviness come over me and my jaw start to clench. I know that the way that I suppress myself is by holding back the words that need to be said. This is indeed abuse to myself.

316. “I was lost in the drive of achieving with no consideration to the body and what this truly meant for my wellbeing and how I was living.” Yep, been there, got the T-shirt. Thank Heavens for Serge Benhayon, whose wise teachings have gently re-educated me about my body and empowered me to re-build a loving relationship with my flesh and bones. Today I nurture myself with the tenderness and respect I deserve and hence deeply appreciate just how powerfully sensitive my body is, so much so that putting myself in to such drive again is simply not an option.

317. …And is actually abusive to others for it denies them the opportunity to see who we are and connect with us.

318. I saw on the news that in the US there has been a steady rise in suicides since 1999, they now have 123 a day and world wide it has become an epidemic. I wonder how many of these are done to suppression and how many years and deaths there will be before we all catch up with the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom as presented by Serge Benhayon.

     1. That is disturbing Kev about suicide statistics. We suppress each other too by enforcing unspoken rules of masking how we really are and feel to keep up appearances, and to keep things “polite”. In one suicide case we know of the remarks were that “no one knew, and he had everything, a job, a car..” etc, but obviously this person felt quite awful. There is so much suppression everywhere.

     2. This inspired me to do some comparative research, In the last 11 years, 3600 Americans have died from terrorism. That is less than one per day. So, roughly speaking, the suicide epidemic is more than 123 times more extreme than the problems of terrorism. And yet which gets more air-time and political rhetoric? What is even more insane is the $$$ spent on tackling terrorism compared to the support given to preventing suicide. Our willingness to point fingers rather than tidy our own back yard is the grossest of irresponsibilities.

     3. So true Kevin, I heard that suicide is now the worlds no 1 killer overtaking heart disease and cancer.

319. I know what you mean about suppression here and I like that you are calling it out as abuse both to ourselves and others around us. For a long time I was under the belief that suppressing how I feel and how I express myself was somehow harmless compared to the more obvious aggressive and abusive behaviours I witnessed around me however as your blog shows very clearly this is in fact not the truth.

     1. Very true, Andrew, we can convince ourselves that we are doing people a favour by ‘keeping the peace’, putting the relationship first, but these are all excuses. Anytime we hold back from expressing the truth, we are denying the other person the opportunity to grow and evolve. We don’t own the truth, it’s there for us to share, it’s not for us to judge who can hear it and who can’t.

     2. Ditto to this Andrew. At least with the “obvious aggressive and abusive behaviours”, they are out there, can be seen and can thus be dealt with, handled and addressed. Suppression leaves both us and others much less able to read and respond and thus correct or change. It keeps us on the wheel of life.

     3. Yes, Andrew, suppressing and denying our power is just as harmful as acting out with abusive behaviours, because they are opposite ends of the same scale of irresponsibility.

320. “I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing”. This is so common, Kathy, in the young people I meet at work as many have little sense of what they are feeling, are often disconnected to their bodies, and are never measuring up to what they think the world demands of them.

     1. And we wonder why there is so much suicide in the world today… this way of living you describe Janet is what leads to suicide whether at a young age or later in life.

321. I have also come to learn that my body IS my greatest teacher, what I used to be able to ignore, I now can’t. Every action, word and deed is registered by my body and I can either feel vibrant or depleted depending on what my choices have been.

322. ‘My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.’ in making our body sacred we are making it more accessible for the expression of divine light on earth. Truly gorgeous.

     1. Definitely how I didn’t live yesterday, so gorgeous to read this morning.

323. Suppression is a beautiful word that captures perfectly up how we live our lives totally suppressing the natural beauty that we all come from.

324. I had become mute with my suppressed expression. I had bottled within, my feelings for most of my life. No matter what age, we re-connect to what we have never lost within, joy returns.

325. “Suppression – The Behaviour of Abuse” – there is nothing like the alertness of awareness that brings us the strength to see.

326. Gosh, your blog clearly shows us just how abusive self critique, self judgment and the pressure we place on ourselves by way of behaviour patterns and habits are… Abuse is not only the physical type… we see this obviously… It is the un-obvious, silent, invisible form of abuse that is perhaps far more harmful because everything ‘looks good’ – It is wonderful to see how this can all begin to drop away through reconnecting to our body, and feeling that original quality of love within, … then comes the activity self-care and self-love which is the centre part of the ‘U-turn’ back, living life without abuse.

327. In dis-connection from our body we become a puppet for other energy to work through us. In connection with our body we feel our truth, our magnificence and our connection with everything around us – everything makes sense and we can feel the truth of how life is with clarity.

328. It’s so interesting how the patterns of behaviour that we often adopt in life to ‘protect’ our selves and allow us to ‘cope’, such as suppressing how we feel, are the antithesis of how we can truly support our selves. By dismissing how we are feeling, we are dismissing our glorious self making ourselves less than whatever is going on around us. This dis-connection from our truth actually results in us feeling even more overwhelmed as we are now also feeling our own abandonment.

329. “What I did not realise is this behaviour was abusing my body by not allowing the self to be honest and express what was truly going on deep within”. Thankyou Kathy. I had never associated abuse with a lack of ones own self expression, but it is exactly that as by not expressing what we truly feel, we are dishonouring ourselves and what our body innately knows.

330. Kathy your realisation enlightens us all to the many lies we conform to, time to let our own glorious selves shine in full.

331. “I was lost in the drive of achieving with no consideration to the body and what this truly meant for my wellbeing and how I was living. I used outcomes and recognition to receive acceptance from others.”

     I can relate to this right now, I am not totally lost in the drive of achieving but it is definitely present and my body is paying the price. A pertinent reminder to read today, thank you.

332. It can take a bit to really be honest about what we are feeling. This may not correspond to what we thought we were feeling, or perhaps had a picture of how we would or should feel…we may have always wanted to do something or get something and then when we get it, somehow it might not be as we ‘expected’ – and this is OK, but what is hard sometimes is to express how we actually feel. And this is made doubly hard when there are expectations from others too clouding the scene. And so all too often we play a game, pretend we feel one way when in fact we feel completely differently. Or we bottle the feeling up and deny how we are feeling, supress the true sense of what we are feeling etc etc. How important is it to be honest and to express with no judgement of whether it is ‘right’ or ‘wrong’ but simply allowing ourselves to be.

333. Denial is another way of suppressing the body and its communications. And so is ignoring, turning a blind eye or a deaf ear. But then finally when we do end up listening to the body, this really is only the first step, a good step mind you, but only the first step. The second step is actually heeding what it says, and this is often where many of us stumble and do not complete the honouring of what the body is communicating.

334. Yes it is great too just feel our patterns of old behavior and understand why we are doing it. And than I found too that the key to not judge that it is wrong and has to change but just know it is not us but a behavior we have adopted and thus can learn to let go of.

     1. Allowing judgement to not over take when we identify patterns that are not supporting is a loving response to deepen the understanding and bring an awareness of all the games we still play that prevent the true healing from taking place.

     2. Yes, to understand that we are not our behaviours is very liberating… it allows us to let go of the identification with that behaviour and come back to the truth of who we are.

     3. Very true, Lieke, the key being to nominate why we are in the pattern of behaviour, until we expose the underlying need we continue to feed it. Once we call it out and determine that the behaviour is not us, without judgment, we can simply let go.

335. Yes, me too Kathy, coming to the realisation, and subsequent deepening understanding of how important my body is, has brought huge change to my life. The more respect and love I hold my body in has naturally supported and changed the way I care for myself, it’s changed the way I move, what I eat, the things I do in my day, the way I sleep, the amount of sleep I have, how I relate to people… My relationship with my body has lead me to the precious essence within myself, that has naturally elicited these changes.

336. I have lived like this all my life, I am choosing to not do this any more and my body loves it!
     Thank you Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for supporting me!

337. I’m inspired by your seeing old patterns as friends from whom I can learn a lot. I realise I’ve been very stubborn in letting them go and got off on, look at me and what I’ve created – that and not wanting to admit the deep harm I’ve caused, knowing my body is deeply sacred. So I’ve given myself such a hard time for abusing something so sacred, for trying to hide behind saying it was necessary to get the job done (a lie because no one benefits from jobs done in an energy that isn’t honouring or loving). But now I see every time I’m about to have an internal go, I can feel the sensitivity beneath and connect.

338. I know this one well – burying things. What is great here is that it is presented as abuse – the truth of what we are actually self-inflicting on our bodies. Being honest about this is a huge shift in an old pattern.

339. It blows me away how much there is to observe in life, and how much we suppress all that there is being communicated to us.

     1. I agree Michael, our investment in suppression is colossal because if it weren’t then we would all be living the truth.

        1. And the truth is this model of life is a lie, each and every nook and cranny a creation. A fabrication.

        2. And one day it will disappear as easily as a puff of smoke.

340. I couldn’t agree more, Andrew. When I grew up it was all about striving to make something of life, in terms of achievements and getting somewhere – but where is it that we ‘think’ we are trying to get to? This drive to achieve just takes us further away from our selves and further away from feeling the pure joy in being who we are in whatever it is that we do in life, the joy in connecting with true purpose and feeling the expansiveness of all that we are a part of – this is living. The other is existing.

341. ‘I found I was always making choices to keep myself constantly busy in the ‘doing.’ This behaviour was deeply ingrained in my body and it originated from being told that “time was not to be wasted.”- Time is the bulldozer that tries to flatten space. We have created this linear concept of time to distract us from being present in each and every spherical moment and allowing ourselves to feel all that is on offer. Busy just smashes straight through these moments on a mission to ‘do’ rather than feel and respond.

342. “With allowing myself the space to stop and surrender, comes a loving understanding of accepting and trusting what my body brings to each and every moment, connecting from a quality of stillness – the wisdom that we all hold within.” I love reading this as it melts through my body and shows how when we don’t suppress our feelings everything is given to us.

343. “It was through his reflection of the appreciation of his delicateness and tenderness that I came to the clarity of how important my body is…” This is true inspiration, when we see a quality, a movement, literally, a body of love walking… reminding you / us that we are exactly the same… We are All that as well… What enormous healing there is in reflection…

344. It is crazy that we are not supported from very young to really honour our bodies and what we feel when this is the key to living a life of vitality, purpose and joy.

     1. When these sort of facts are laid out clearly, that the body has a way of living that brings vitality and we have in human life everything but that vitality and joy is highlights the fact that there is a spirit and a Soul and that there is another character inside that wants to be contra to the body. Because if we were just human and listened to our bodies we wouldn’t be in the state we are in.

345. There is nothing that feels lovelier than moving from and with our bodies, not always easy to do as we have invested so much in the world outside of us, but so lovely when we do.

346. Suppression of expression and holding back really does abuse the body by way of hardening, tightening and holding on. I have felt the consequences of this in my own body and the physical pain and discomfort it has brought. Learning to let go, open up more and express more has enabled my body to feel lighter and more at ease.

     1. We are all so innately amazingly divine and naturally loving beings and so to constantly suppress this natural grandness we have to use a lot of force and a lot of energy constantly. The body can detect this force instantly and we can all feel the strain this places on us if we allow ourselves to feel it.

347. Great blog, how many other behaviours do we use to abuse or attack ourselves. I never considered suppression this way (in how we can use it with ourselves) until reading this.

     1. Vicky it feels to me as if we all have our hands on our owns heads, permanently suppressing ourselves down. And if for a split second we stop suppressing ourselves, then rest assured there will be someone else ready to immediately take over.

348. Our Bodies are a sacred vessel that definitely needs to be treated at-least gently so it can respond to what it is feeling and this should be allowed to be taught to every child from birth then what we would take to passing-over phase of life would be completely different.

349. Over time I have become more aware of the different layers of suppression. Holding back in just saying something simple, has a negative impact on the body. If we do this time after time we start to feel more discomfort with ourselves inducing self-doubt and more – all because we hold back an expression of what we know to be true out of a desire to fit in or not rock the boat.

350. This is really helpful, Kathy – ‘I don’t indulge in any of these old patterns or behaviours and instead use them as my friends of learning and letting go’. When our old ways get exposed it is tempting to judge ourselves, so what I love about this is that you are simply using every new awareness about yourself to evolve.

351. We spend a lot of our time trying to act solely from our mind, at the expense of our body, and as a result we have this disjointed relationship where we suppress our feelings and as you’ve shared try to ‘use’ the body for functional purposes that we ‘think’ we should achieve. This is certainly a key factor in why the world is so exhausted, that we use function and drive to get through whilst giving ourselves headaches and migraines from overthinking life.

352. “I used outcomes and recognition to receive acceptance from others”. Living this way makes one dependent upon others and therefore a victim to, and of, life. When one honours and responds to the needs and truth of one’s own body one becomes answerable to oneself and thereby becomes one’s own master within the Laws of the Universe.

353. Giving up is a process! Life gets harder when we allow the outside world to affect us. We began to accept what we are were given and start to believe this is as good as it gets and the suppression of us begins. Do we wallow in mud or follow Alice down the rabbit hole seem to be our only choices at this point. But, there is another way that has always been a way to come back to we all truly are, that will forever be, just a choice away!

354. I was reading an article and it was about a company’s sole purpose was seemingly to make a profit for the shareholders! And we all live in this scenario and we are driving ourselves into illness and disease in order to feed this monster. As you say we are all lost in the drive of achieving and wanting recognition and acceptance because this is the only way we get recognised by our friends, family and colleagues.

355. “I was using suppression to mask all that I was feeling” It’s like putting a cork in the spout of a kettle. When the kettle starts to boil the steam cannot escape and if we refuse to take the cork out, the kettle will explode, so it’s no wonder our bodies hurt when we don’t express our selves.

356. I can relate to how exhausted we can feel when we put so much energy into suppressing who we truly are and not expressing in full this truth.

     1. It’s like we are building a dam with suppression, stopping the flow of our truth from being expressed, resisting our natural way of being – that takes an enormous amount of energy – a destructive energy.

     2. Absolutely – it requires a constant force to suppress something.

357. To work with our bodies instead of just using and thus inevitably abusing them is the best gift we can give ourselves, as when we are in sync with our bodies we are strong and confident and nothing can fool us.

358. Kathy, I really loved reading this blog. It felt very real, simple and expanded me which tell me I was feeling truth. Thank you.

359. Silencing the body and its communications is something many of us are in fact quite good at! However, if we can learn to reverse this trend, then life can take on a completely different meaning and purpose!

360. Beautifully expressed Richard and it makes so much sense. Our body is not an enemy and once we accept and understand how powerful and sacred it is, we may think differently to how we would treat it. If we are able to truly treat our body with absolute love, it would naturally be very easy to treat everyone else and everything around us with the same quality.

361. Love the way you share so openly and honestly, Kathy. It feels so supportive to be having a conversation around how easily we can slip into suppressing how we are feeling to keep the peace, or gain acceptance, recognition, whatever our flavour is at the time. Yet, as you so beautifully share, any choice to shut down how we are feeling is abuse. We feel for a reason, it’s a very wise and powerful form of communication from our body, to be deeply honoured and respected. It’s from the understanding we gain from this wisdom being shared with us that we truly learn and evolve in life.

362. No wonder life feels like a struggle when we spend our every breath attempting to keep down, ignore and suppress. What would our life be life if we just chose to allow and accept? Challenging and tense perhaps but much simpler.

363. There is a lot of fixing and rescuing in the world that very much supports not to deal with what we are feeling and our stuff that comes up. I hadn’t really considered before that it is a form of abusing ourselves and self bashing when we suppress what we feel… suppressing our gorgeous and amazing qualities. I can feel I do it when I don’t allow myself to be happy or feel good if I’ve done something I perceive is wrong or I have an issue with something.

364. When we suppress ourselves we can then also suppress our expression, how we deal with the outside world, encouraging others to become abusive without being checked by us.

365. Thank you for bringing suppression to forefront of our understanding of abuse – how often do we suppress what we feel, or sense, or know in a day – it’s a source of constant abuse and a way of constantly holding ourselves back from the glorious future we are made to have.

366. Kathy, I really notice how this happens with children as they get older; ‘Growing up as a child, teenager and adult, I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing’. I have observed that with young children they know who they are and how they feel and expressing what they feel is very natural to them. I have observed that as children get older this changes and the pressure from society changes the focus to children putting the outside and what people think and looking for recognition and acceptance as more important than their inner well-being.

367. “On the surface it looked like I was a super woman, nothing was a problem that I couldn’t handle, but within I could feel the anxiety building up through the aches and pains in my physical body – there was a deep tiredness and exhaustion.” I know this one well from a time in my life where I was sure I had it all going on and on the surface it really looked like that. I even believed it for a while and might still be there if it had not been for my body pulling on the emergency break and bringing me to a full stop. A stop that allowed me to become gradually more honest about how i was truly doing and what I had been trying to bury and suppress for a very long time. Only after that could true healing begin.

368. When I made the decision to stop abusing my body with food/drink/smoke and stopped eating gluten, dairy, sugar, and stopped drinking alcohol and caffeine, and stopped smoking, I remember friends going wow, you must feel amazing ‘being so healthy’. I remember going no way, I am totally exhausted. By taking away the pick me ups (coffee, sugar etc..) and the distractions of eating foods that dulled my body, I actually had to feel how tired and exhausted I really was.

369. The lie of todays world is, that you get recognised by quantity and not by quality. The doing gets registered but not the being, that did it. It never asks us to consider your own preciousness by doing all the things that you are doing. Respecting your own preciousness would never lead to self abuse- why not teach that from young to our kids?

370. Suppression is a way to trick yourself that everything is still ok, at least ok enough to keep functioning. I am realising that at times I feel crushed, which is my reactions to what is not true in the world but then going into giving up. I am finding its actually very valuable to be honest about this and let myself feel it. Life is far from what it could be and my body loves it when I admit that and allow myself to see the evil that I am avoiding seeing.

371. In my late 50’s I am loving and appreciating my body, being in my body, and what that brings more and more. And as I come to know the depths of my true beingness, how wonderfully and beautifully my body responds. It is never too late!

372. Our bodies are amazing in their ability to feel everything that is going on around us and on the entire planet with all fo humanity. The tension of how we are living against how we could be living is enormous and many of us crush that or numb it with food, entertainment and other distractions and avoid dealing with our hurts. As a result we live with a degree of unawareness that is not natural and wonder why we are so miserable.

373. Life is for sure full of opportunities. We are offered things to learn almost 24/7. That is how great God’s love for us is and how well we are taken care off if we are willing to be open for this.

374. What you write is so knowing Kathy, with suppression, we cannot be living our lives in full, and all the issues build up because we are not dealing with them. They don’t go away, they sit in our bodies, making us feel heavy and lead to illness. Well done for breaking this pattern, your body will thank you for sure.

375. This is an amazing relationship to develop with the body, one that is about observation, learning and communication rather than an ignorant relationship where we constantly play ourselves down.

376. There can never be any joy when we live in abuse of our body.

377. Of course suppressing ourselves in any way is abusive. We often state too flippantly that alas I used to be a lot more open, expressive etc. and now that is changed. It is useful to clarify the fact that this can only happen through long term and consistent dedicated abusive choice, so when we might go into that space again in our adult life, and when we hear the demeaning thoughts play once more, we know exactly what is being played.

378. Not allowing myself to feel and read a situation I allow suppression to take over. There has to be a tension within my body and so instead of feeling the tension I choose contraction and suppress myself usually to avoid my power.

379. I certainly agree with stopping and truly committing to listening to my body. Its unreal to know the answer is always in my body. What I have to be is continuously absolute in my honesty committing to honouring and feeling all I am and not holding it back (for anyone). Being all that you are brings The ALL back to you.

380. Thank you. I am looking more deeply at how I might suppress my feelings and thus dishonour myself and hold back what I have to bring to the world. An inspiring blog.

381. Suppression.. so many of us women suppress what we feel because perhaps the one time we expressed our truth we got a reaction that felt uncomfortable and made a choice to hold back.

382. Suppression is such a huge abuse – when we feel something, especially if that thing is not right or creates tension or discomfort in ourselves, and we shut that feeling down with ‘don’t be silly’ or ‘you can’t say anything in case you’re wrong’ – but it leaves us feeling torn and unheard and that tension is left unresolved in our bodies.

383. Suppressing of what we know and sense is true is something many of us do. The more I simply honour what I feel, no matter what happens I get to learn from it. Whereas when I go with what another says then i either get caught up in their stuff and do not really learn much right or wrong! And for me it comes back to self worth and how much value I place on myself as without this there is no foundation to stand on and with.

     1. Yes I agree James It is how much we value ourselves that often makes the difference between whether we suppress our feelings or not. Building self worth comes from our deepening care for ourselves and allowing ourselves to be the primary relationship in our lives.

        1. Self-worth is huge Elaine, for me it then starts to build the authority and knowingness in my body that says what is love and so what is acceptable and what is not love and so is not acceptable in any way, shape or form. And this I feel is where true confidence comes from by honouring what we know and feel and not settling for any less.

     2. Suppression leads to contraction and allowance leads to expansion.

        1. Simply put and true, everything is already before us and within us we just need to allow it and stop fighting it!

        2. Exactly James, all we need to do is to stop suppressing the God that we already are, et voila, like a genie in a lamp, there He is.

        3. Very true – we already are God we simply just need to live the God we are then as you say everything is there with us.

384. Yes indeed, when we allow ourselves to take a moment and feel what is there to be felt, there is a much deeper level of connection to go to within ourselves, and there we find the truth of the soul.

385. As we deepen our Livingness, we are “taking responsibility and honouring the truth that it reveals. Accepting the loving relationship between Soul and” our “body, as we work together as one.” Then when our Soul takes us out or if you like, when we pass-over then our Livingness will be available for our next incarnation.

386. When we listen to our body we are listening to the wisdom of the ages.

387. I know the effects of suppression very well, it is holding in everything that lives within you, all the love that you have and all that there is to express. And for what? To conform to a life that is not at all natural to us. No wonder there is so much tension and turmoil in this world and people being so discontent. You cannot ask a fish to be a monkey or vice versa, its simply impossible for either of them, but that is how we go through life, we conform to the many ideals, beliefs and pictures and press ourselves into them instead of living from the natural beat from our heart that only knows love and can feel the rhythm of the universe.

388. It’s interesting how when we’re doing things out of seeking recognition, for instance wanting to be seen to ‘do’ a lot or for what we appear to achieve I would say we are wasting time, even though it might look like we are doing a lot! Whereas when we live in connection with our innermost we bring a quality to whatever it is that we’re doing that is truly purposeful…

389. A long road journey by car turned to an exploration of space not time. Responding to a family emergency, I took to the road and felt held, as if the car was driving me there. Time expanded into space. I arrived at my destination despite traffic hold ups, without rush and felt settled inside.

390. Suppression = holding back. How many of us have done that? Hands up everyone. A great reminder from you here.

391. Someone I know in her mid-eighties strongly believes sitting and resting her body and not doing something is a ‘waste of time’ and an example of the abusive relationship we can have with our bodies.

     1. More so it can be an example of not listening to our bodies when tired. I’ve seen someone sleep whilst standing so resistant are they to stop and sit down. The mind overrides the body’s signals of tiredness.

392. “Suppression – The Behaviour of Abuse” Reading this title it is painfully obvious that our own suppression of ourselves leads to the abuse of ourselves and the abuse of others. If we do not acknowledge or express our feelings they get bottled up and if un-dealt with can lead to an explosion of emotion and all kinds of physical conditions. It is up to us whether we suppress or express.

393. We can suppress ourselves to such an extent that we do not even admit to ourselves that something hurts. It was a great revelation to me when I was advised by an esoteric practitioner that I should acknowledge when things hurt me, even if it was just to myself. As a result, there is this process of seeing the world as it is and the hateful expression that can come through people – otherwise we numb ourselves and become too sensitive to feel the truth of our existence.

     1. A great point you make, Julie, for however painful it is feel the hurt it does open the door to seeing the reality and truth of the world and not live in an illusion of our own making. Once having opened the ‘door’ the challenge is to live in this truth in joy and not being overwhelmed by it. The teachings from Universal Medicine and The Way of The Livingness are the support to do this.

394. Even the saying things like ‘ok’ and ‘fine’ in answer to how we are feeling is enough to deny and suppress the truth….”Life is full of opportunities when I truly honour my body and what it brings without suppressing any feelings. ” If someone asks lets allow ourselves to answer with honesty and see where it takes us….

395. Lovely to read how you came to a ‘loving understanding’ of how you’d been using suppression to not feel, and how abusive this felt on your body. It opens up and expands the meaning of self-care as something way beyond activities that we might consider to be self-caring, to a whole way of relating to ourselves that is based on deep care and love.

396. If we do not honour our body we create constant tension within it which is experienced as disharmony and stress.

397. ‘Growing up as a child, teenager and adult, I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing.’ – I completely relate to this, Kathy, and have spent most of my life living under this constraint also. Now that I hold myself as equal to everyone else, I can feel a far deeper level of love and care that I am able to share with everyone else. The more we treasure what lies within, the greater our potential to treasure everything outside our selves.

398. Kathy, at the recent Sacred Esoteric Healing Level 1, we discussed nervous tension the affect it has on our bodies and how it gets there. It made sense to me that we are all born as sensitive, open, aware and loving to everything that is around us. We are very aware to the truth of life that we are naturally in contact with. As we grow into small children we are expected to conform to the world which we can sense feels very different to what we feel inside our bodies and as there is no one there to guide us to stay with our sensing or awareness that something doesn’t feel right we get caught in the ILLUSION you talk about that everything outside of us is more important than our inner wellbeing. We suppress our awareness or sensing which the body cannot do, it is always sensing, so we heighten the nervous system which becomes racy when the body is racy it cannot easily sense anymore. This leads to anxiousness and we keep this going by continuously racing our bodies. It makes sense to me why we as a society drink so much coffee, tea or stimulating sugary drinks and that we have laced our foods with sugar it’s in everything, we race our bodies to stop feeling the anxiousness of the fact we are very sensitive and can feel and read energy all the time, but we don’t like to feel this so we suppress it. We would rather eat comfort foods or stimulating drinks than say to a work colleague, family or friend actually I’m a very sensitive person and what you just said doesn’t feel right to me.

399. ‘Accepting the loving relationship between Soul and my body, as we work together as one’ We try many ways to not accept this divine relationship. For me it is continual lesson in acceptance, and one which can often only start with the honesty that you have written about. And what it always boils down to is taking steps to develop a deeply caring, loving relationship with our body. In this process I have gotten to know how tender and loving we really can be.

400. The flow and the depth in Serge’s voice cannot be faked (I’ve tried ‘putting it on’!) It comes from a deep knowing, caring and living the essence that he is inside. We all have that inside us as well… just need to access it, and the more we do, the steadier will be our movements, the deeper our wisdom.

401. How restorative and healing it is honouring our essence in every one of our movements during the day… When we hold this immutable respect for who we are, we naturally come back to love.

402. “My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light” – beautiful Kathy; the reflection feels such an easing over the otherwise arduous stretch of always proving, needing, doing. To reflect through our bodies our true selves is to reflect the light of God

403. Kathy, this is gorgeous to read; ‘Accepting the loving relationship between Soul and my body, as we work together as one.’ What I have felt lately is that it is really important to look after my body and to surrender to allow this soul-full relationship.

404. How easy it is to lose our selves in the external world when we are not educated about how to stay in constant touch with God within us, the core focus of Universal Medicine that empowers us to restore our correct perspective and self respect and infuse every inch of our lives with love.

405. Life becomes a meat grinder when we wave the white flag and give up on who we are. But, the spark within us can never be altered. Our tenderness and delicateness are what supports us to surrender, but never give up.

     1. For-get the meat-grinder, we are already as you have shared Steve, full-of tender, delicate, deliverance and the fragility of being in our divine surrendered state, which are all our normal way of being.

     2. Yes, this is beautifully said Steve. Life indeed becomes a meat grinder when we give in to the systems we have created and turn away from our inner wisdom. There is so much beauty in all of us and it is sheer horrible to see how very little we know and acknowledge that.

     3. Yes, checking out or numbing ourselves can have dire long term consequences.

406. Keeping ourselves busy and ‘constantly in the doing’ is deeply ingrained in our human behaviour and championed in society; badges of honour awarded to many who run themselves ragged whilst ‘doing good works’. There is a rat wheel insanity about this when we consider it carefully.

407. On a pure physical level listening to our bodies honestly is the best thing we can do for our own health as we know our own bodies best, not to mention the fact that through this renewed connection we get to know so much more.

     1. How many friends could we abuse and treat real badly and still want to know us, let alone associate themselves with us? Isn’t this what we do to our body? Our body is our best friend that will never hold us in judgment no matter what choices we make and tell us the truth of what is happening to our body!

     2. I agree, practically it makes complete sense but as you say once we start being honest, wow the experience and awareness that it offers goes so much deeper. This also makes sense, our body is our vessel our connection with life and the universe and so the more we know it, the more we know everything and so the deeper we connect with the why, how and quality of living more with everything.

     3. Yes, that is what I cherish the most that it is an ever deepening connection, exploring and understanding that I have with my body.

     4. I agree Kev and it is important to be honest with ourselves and about what our body is communicating to us. I feel also, to not leave out the energetic factor that plays a huge part in life and our health. There certainly is so much more to learn, connect to and be inspired by.

408. Kathy you are such a great inspiration for the world that we can change our lives in saying yes to everything we feel instead to suppress what our body wanted us to feel. For me this suppression is one reason why most of us need so much coffee or sugar as suppressing feelings needs a lot of strength.

     1. Ester thank you for your beautiful response to the blog and what you have expressed here.. that one of the reasons why most of us need so much coffee or sugar is to suppress feelings in the body because there needs a lot of strength and in that we hold back our expression. It is amazing how much we use food and substances to keep us in suppression so that we do not have to feel our body and what it truly reveals in the knowing.

     2. Suppressing is a constant handbrake to the volume and the movement that otherwise would just easily flow through us. It is like calling in a force that keeps standing on the break- no wonder we get exhausted by this.

409. Thanks Kathy for your important sharing. The illusion of life likes to promote or keep us in a constant momentum of drive and busy-ness in a world that rewards drive and creation, so we learn to become hardtack masters and very driven. With many sayings and beliefs supporting this ill way of being like ‘harden up’, ‘No pain no gain’ etc. Our movements are so important as we harm or heal ourselves and others with harsh movements in disregard, in comparison to moving with our selves connected to god and love. I suppose it just comes down to feeling our way back to a harmonious way of working and living that works for each of us.

     1. Greg I totally agree that the illusion of life promotes and keeps us in the constant momentum of the drive and bus-ness which the world rewards the drive keeping us in the doing with our movements coming from a harshness in disregard taking us away from our true connection with body and soul holding back the expression of God.

410. ‘What I did not realise is this behaviour was abusing my body by not allowing the self to be honest and express what was truly going on deep within.’ Wow, Kathy you have nominated a very subtle form of abuse that I sometimes do not recognise. It is amazing to receive such a clear understanding of this and how honesty is key to supporting us in every way.

411. There is only the divine plan – or the suppression of it. We don’t need to come up with anything ourselves but choose carefully which energy we let through.

     1. Perhaps this is why the world is so complicated- you have 7 billion people trying to come up with their own plan rather than seeing the part we are to play in the divine one!

412. Thank you, Kathy, for exposing the abuse so ingrained and so hard to be called out for the damage it truly is inflicting on us, and I can feel how much I am still allowing this to be part of my life even though it is far less than what it used to be. I have been feeling more and more lately how I have not given this way of being a full go where the body is left to its own devices to maximize what it is here to bring. And pushing it to its limit certainly is not maximizing its potential.

     1. Fumiyo it is amazing how much we abuse our body through life from our ingrained patterns and behaviours to suppress what we feel when our emotions come into play. It is only when we come from the loving understanding in honesty that we allow the body to bring what is needed without the pushing and achieving.

413. I’m coming to appreciate, accept and live that the only place to do life is from our bodies, from here we feel safe and know that there is nothing outside of us that is greater than what we feel within.

414. This blog speaks very deeply of something I know well, the ‘doingness’ plaque and how it’s our bodies that cop it, the thing that shows us the truth of life and us. To hear where you can come to …’My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.’ … is stunning. and speaks to our true purpose here, to live divinity in a human body.

415. “My body – the vehicle of expression … to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within …” This is truly living.

     1. It sure is truly living…so what is stopping us? Only saying yes to the love in full.

416. “I have come to learn that the body is a vehicle of expression and with that learning to love everything and every part of my body – after all it is my greatest teacher.” Wise words Kathy… and ones we need to hear and see reflected around us from very young… then we will naturally grow into adults living that divine connection between body and Soul.

417. “I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing. I found I was always making choices to keep myself constantly busy in the ‘doing.’” I can relate to that even up to today. I actually caught myself this afternoon in a ‘doingness’ whilst I was observing myself doing it. I could feel both the pattern of behavior ánd the harm it did to my body. Their is a push to ‘doingness’, a ‘keep-on-going’ to the next task irrespective of the signals of the body. It took me a while to really bring myself to a halt and feel the depth of abuse to my body. I appreciated myself for making this choice and just sit with it and slowly get back to my ‘beingness’.

418. The fact that we see how abuse can be holding back and not being all of who we are can help open our eyes to the depth of abuse so many of us live with.

     1. Great point David, I find not many people are aware of the level of abuse that occurs in our day to day life. We can list many things that we choose that are abusive to our body but if we are not willing to recognise them for what they are, then our behaviours and choices are often justified and or ignored as being abusive.

419. That ‘time is not to be wasted’ is a biggie. I often find myself railing against time, especially on the weekends, and rating if I have ‘used my time effectively’ as it is ‘not to be wasted’. But when I do that, I can feel the hardness in my body and how rigid that thinking is. A loving work in progress for me to let that one and let my body lead the way, and not my head.

     1. This is something I’m also working on, and I can see it’s just another belief that needs to be thrown on the scrapheap. When I live with this belief my body never truly surrenders because I’m having thoughts of ‘stop being lazy’ or ‘make the most of my time’ etc.

420. When we keep ourselves full-time occupied with doing and busyness, and we’re consumed by it, there’s no space to feel anything else. It’s only when we start to create space in our days, moment to moment, that we can feel that there is so much more to us than the perceived emptiness that we seek to fill up from the outside, and that we are part of something much bigger than ourselves.

421. We are not taught to deal with all the stuff life throws at us so we resort to suppression and comfort as our coping methods.

422. Suppressing what our body feels is such a common thing for us to do. We have not been educated to respect and love the body for the amazing tool of wisdom that it is. It takes someone like Serge Benhayon to come along and wake us up to this fact so we can literally give ourselves permission to live this way. The process of waking up to this can be very joyful.

423. Such an honoring and humbling last sentence: ‘Accepting the loving relationship between Soul and my body, as we work together as one.’ And indeed it is through our body that our soul connects to us and we connect via our soul to the wisdom of the universe.

424. Thank you Kathy this reflection is important – becoming aware of the love that we know as a child. And to tune up the level and depth of love in our lives. Going back to the values of what we innately know and want as our normal in our lives, not by judgement but by connecting to the depth of our values and claiming them by living from them.

425. That’s a great way to look at our patterns or behaviours, use them as our friends of learning and letting go.

     1. absolutely, in looking at them in this way it is much easier to be open and honest about it which then offers the foundation for change. A change not from force but from exploring and uncovering what lies underneath them.

426. I am also inspired by the way Serge Benhayon moves and holds himself. It is not in a soft or gentle way per se. More deeper and far more holding than that. You can feel he values his body to the nth degree as though it gives him the ability to access a form of grandness and love this plane alone does not have.

427. Understanding the body as a vehicle of expression and that everything expressed comes either from the Astral Plane or from Soul changes how we view ourselves and our intelligence. Understanding that all we need to do is connect within and access our body’s wisdom makes a huge difference to how we live our everyday lives.

428. We can and do abuse ourselves in so many ways, that may not first appear as abusive, they can be very subtle indeed. Suppressing our expression is a great one to discover and unpack, because everything about our expression matters.

429. Being berated and being suppressed are a couple of things we consider wrong and abusive when it is done to another. Curious that most of us are so good at doing it to ourselves.

     1. Golnaz so true, the way we treat ourselves is very often far more abusive than others and yet we see the way people treat animals, land etc. and often petition for these to stop whilst we go about abusing ourself and our families. Like its easier to try and change something else instead of look at us.

        1. We have as yet to understand and acknowledge that the energy behind our own thoughts and actions have a direct and indisputable impact on everything we witness in life. However much good the actions look and however many boxes they tick, there will be little true evolving impact when we are suppressing the true expression of our heart and our own evolution.

430. ‘Growing up as a child, teenager and adult, I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing.’ I had this ill seated belief too and have lived by this most of my life. It was only on hearing the presentations of Serge Benhayon that I began to see through this and the harm it was doing to my own body. I have also begun to see that by holding back how this affects others too.

431. I sometimes wonder if we suppress because we know how Divine the body us.

432. The body gives constantly messages to us but it never judges us, it doesn’t say this is a bad message or this is a good message. It just lets us know the consequences of our choices and from that we can learn. So it is great to learn to listen to these messages without feeling bad or good about it and just seeing it as a learning.

433. I love your blog Kathy and certainly know how masterful I had become in suppressing everything that I was feeling just to keep up the appearance that everything was okay. Eventually we have to face what we are suppressing because it manifests as all sorts of ill behaviours and totally cuts us off from the love that we are.

     1. Elizabeth thank you for what you have expressed that we are masters of suppressing everything to put up an appearance that everything is okay so that we do not look like a failure in life while the body is telling us truth of what we are truly feeling.

434. I can see that to go through life suppressing what your body is trying to tell you can only go one way. The build up would just be too great and the emotional or physical fall out would be far more complicated than if there had been a more responsive relationship with the body.

435. Press delete and we think everything is sweet – but in reality our body is seriously impacted. For we can’t unknow what our body’s received. So much better to accept this.

436. The more wisdom we allow the more tenderness, love and integrity we have in how we use and move our body.

437. To hold back our divine essence from being fully within the body we have does harm and hurt the body. How we move, hold ourselves, stand, sit, talk, think etc are all a direct result of how much of the wisdom that lies with in is allowed to be present in the body.

438. I love the idea of seeing patterns of behaviour as ‘friends of learning’, exposing what is not working and being open to new ways of living and honouring your vehicle of expression.

439. What a curse it is that we place on children with such sayings as, “time was not to be wasted” which result “in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing” and the irony is that it is done with the best of intentions and believed to be loving.

440. Gosh I can assure you you were/or are not the only one that has felt this ‘Growing up as a child, teenager and adult, I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing.’ In fact I would say pretty much the whole of the world does this or has done this and that is one of the reasons we are globally not in the such great place (to put it politely) that we are in today, particularly with illness and dis-ease let alone other things … because we have made the outside more important than our inner wellbeing. We have a huge lesson to learn with this one 💕

441. Beautifully expressed Kathy and thank you for showing us that it does not matter what age we are or how entrenched our patterns of behaviour are, we can with the correct reflection find our way back to the innate wisdom and grace within our bodies, by treating them and our selves with the utmost tender respect. And we cannot want for a more gorgeous, tender and extremely wise reflection than Serge Benhayon who so generously shares his integral beauty with us all.

     1. Rowen thank you for your lovely reply. It is beautiful when we respect our body and allow the wisdom to bring the truth of our patterns and behaviours so that we may come from the awareness and understanding to let go and come back from within.
        We are truly blessed having Serge Benhayon our greatest reflection to bring the beauty and grace of God within us all in the movement and quality we all bring equally.

442. Thank you Kathy, I could feel your joy in all you have expressed by returning to a life of love and understanding. I can relate to your story in not understanding the deep wisdom of the body and using it to achieve things without realising the impact on my wellbeing. Before studying with Universal Medicine I also didn’t fully understand the effects on my body of not expressing how I feel, I’m still learning this but I can definitely feel more now of how suppressing things has a negative affect on me. Living connected to and listening to the body is beautiful because it’s a return to a sensitivity we once had as kids, and to a respect and honouring of ourselves.

443. I can see that the behaviour of which you speak, suppression, keeps us trapped and imprisoned and does not let us evolve whereas opening up to ourselves, becoming more honest and willing to go deeper with our feelings and awareness lets us grow into fuller expression and a fuller relationship with life.

444. Striving and achieving is exhausting and pulls us to disregard the body for a moment of recognition but the deflated feeling comes very quickly thereafter. Then there is a cycle set up where we strive to achieve even more recognition, over and over.

445. Thank-you Kathy I too can concur that meeting Serge Benhayon has given me the opportunity to see the carousel of my self created suppression, through practicing and building a platform of greater self-connection, appreciation and love, the sensitivity and awareness in my body has expanded, i have stepped off the carousel and felt the true freedom of living/moving from your innermost.

446. That is awesome Kathy, thank you for sharing and as you say when we connect and return to the stillness we all know and feel that we also connect to ‘the wisdom that we all hold within’ and so no longer need to seek anything from outside of ourselves, rather we then actually enrich all that is around us and others simply by the quality we are choosing to live.

447. Our beliefs around what constitutes ‘productive use of time’ are perhaps the biggest contributing factors towards our absolute abuse of time.

448. By suppressing the body, we suppress the truth, by suppressing the truth we prevent ourselves from knowing God.

449. Kathy the simplicity and beauty of what you share are quite simply divine.

450. Kathy, reading this I can feel how easy it is to get caught up in the busyness of life; looking for recognition and acceptance rather than living our true purpose of reflecting our light and love; ‘My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.’

451. ‘..the way Serge moves in every step and the quality of the tone of his voice allowed me to connect to my own truth. It was through his reflection of the appreciation of his delicateness and tenderness that I came to the clarity of how important my body is.’ Quite often, until we are shown a different way we are not able to get it; we need someone who is living it as a real tangible example to see that it is possible. In this inspiration, we clock where we are at, and if we are open, can then make the changes for ourselves.

     1. I remember some years ago being completely stopped by the way Curtis Benhayon walked past me. In that moment I registered something absolutely exquisite in the quality of his movement that deeply touched and inspired me. I now recognise that quality within myself and it is deeply nourishing.

        1. This is gorgeous Nicola. Natalie Benhayon had the same effect on me not so long ago. She had gone to a whole new level and I was blown away by what I saw and felt. Whilst I can say I haven’t yet completely recognised that same quality in myself it inspired me as a marker for what I felt it possible to get to.

        2. You must have experienced it in yourself Michelle or how could you recognise and feel it in that way in another? If you didn’t know it you wouldn’t know it!

452. A very beautiful turnaround Kathy. It takes a lot of force to hold back the stupendous love that we are hence why exhaustion is so prevalent amongst us. We are not tired from the things we do. We are tired from not doing them with love. Love never depletes, it always restores.

     1. So true Liane… we are tired of holding back our innate love, truth and wisdom that is so naturally there for us all to feel and see reflected in one another.

     2. It is quite a wakeup call when we become aware of just how much force we use to shut out and hold back love whilst crying that it is the one thing we want – no wonder so many are exhausted and coffee will never fix it – why not drink from the cup of love.

     3. I want to put this as a quote on my GP surgery wall

453. Kathy reading your blog and many others it is abundantly clear that when we are young we can feel everything around us everything is known to us because we can sense energy first. Most of us then experience the trauma of having this knowing denied by our family and then the wider world. So we close down what we can feel in our bodies and conform to what the world or society asks of us. To me this is the most self destructive thing we can do to ourselves and each other and to me because we all do this we have the world in the mess it is today. Now we are aware of energy and how it affects us all surely it is now up to the parents of today to raise their children in such a way that they are confirmed in feeling energy and supported to appreciate the delicate, sensitive beings they are, that we all are.

454. Being the same age as you, I can also relate to a life of motion. For me, it was not so much recognition as keeping your head low and becoming invisible. Expression was caged and locked away; life was safer that way. Meeting Serge Benhayon and rediscovering my true vehicle of expression has changed my life and the people around me. It is never too late to teach old dogs new tricks when the tricks were just tools of evolution we have never lost, just forgotten.

455. Kathy, what a beautiful post on your unfolding and understanding of the body in its preciousness. And I agree: ” …the way Serge moves in every step and the quality of the tone of his voice allowed me to connect to my own truth” – is undeniably true, I only have to look at Serge and feel the absolute love he lives and has for all that his way of being cannot help but pull me back to my own love and from there feel the warmth of settlement within me.

456. This is very beautiful Kathy, although it is such a pity that we have to go though the suppression or what ever that keeps us from the true expression that we are, because we are not supported from day one to know that this is our true way of being.

457. A beautiful sharing, thankyou Kathy. When I slow down instead of rushing and ‘doing’ there seems to be so much more space and more time in which to do the tasks I need to do. Honouring and respecting my body comes first these days on the whole. We should all be taught this from our early years, which sadly isn’t yet the case.

     1. Awesome Sue, honouring, respecting and listening to our body is so supportive and when we understand how this works and live it ourselves, it is then very easy to inspire others.

458. When feeling into God and our responsibility it comes as a package, which very much includes reincarnation and how we live our life it is us who have to be responsible for all we do so when we do reincarnate our body is open to our Soul.

     Attending to the details from birth to death is our responsibility and the way we live in-between will either develop good karma or the same patterns from the ill energy lived in the past without any understanding of how we are responsible for what our body is living.

     This is such a Loving way to understand how our karma can bring those things to our next life and where does this cycle of love begin, could it be at birth, which is intrinsically tied to how we have passed-over?

459. It appears that the majority of us have made ‘doing’ into an art form while our ‘being’ languishes in the background, sadly neglected. This is itself is an abuse of the wonderful being that each of us is, so it is essential to the quality of our lives to remind ourselves regularly that we are a precious being deserving of the greatest love and respect; always.

460. It is so beautiful to read Kathy that you came back to the love of your body from living with it for a long time of your life at the mercy of the striving mind. The love that our body holds has not judgement or has any opinion about the life we have choosen so far. It is just there when you choose to reconnect in all its grandness, we then find was always already there.

     1. The patience, unwavering love and understanding of God is reflected in our bodies as they endlessly support our learning.

        1. Our body and the love it contains is timeless as it lives in the same space as the universe, therefore it is not waiting or even patience, it just is.

461. As child we are never taught that the all the wisdom from the divine we need in life is already within the body we live in.

462. “Time is not to be wasted” – what a classic one! And this is one I am familiar with and still often fall for – I often feel this urgency of things needing to be done, but when we become slaves of time, then we hold no joy in our body in this form of service. But when we serve the Soul, time warps happen and things constellate in ways we would never have been able to fathom … the magic of God is at hand, and all time is respected, but not in the form of a slave…time is only a physical factor and the Soul is not bound by these constraints, hence why we can bring so much more to the physical should we choose to!

     1. Henrietta I can feel such expansion when I read your words ‘time is only a physical factor and the Soul is not bound by these constraints’, beautiful, really very beautiful indeed.

     2. Beautifully expressed Henrietta and I can very much relate. I am becoming more aware of the times when I fall into needing things to be done with an urgency, like you’ve shared it knocks out the joy and we become ‘slaves to time’. But when we connect to the magic of God, time doesn’t seem to exist and we can feel spaciousness and timelessness that is simply magical and deeply soulful. When we move and live from this connection to our multidimensionality, we are no longer ‘slaves to time’ but free to expand.

     3. Suppressing what we know and feel is dishonest. We can never fully relate to ourselves and others until we allow our true feelings to be felt and expressed.

     4. There’s an expression that ‘time waits for no man’ but I disagree – time can appear to stretch itself when we surrender to it, and ultimately to ourselves.

463. The pressure to perform that I can place on myself is lifted when I live what it means to be a true woman in the world. No longer do I make life about seeking recognition from others but about focusing and living from the natural qualities such as delicateness and preciousness I am in my essence.

     1. Living in relationship with our innate qualities, letting them infuse all our activity, makes life so simple and inspiring.

464. Kathy, what a gorgeous sharing of how you have come to care for, appreciate and love yourself and your body! And how simple and inspiring – much needed in our world today!

465. The interesting thing with suppressing our true feelings is that on a mental level we may believe that we are ‘dealing’ with the issue in a way that it does not disturb or interrupt a way of being that is more ‘doing’ than anything, but in reality this suppression is causing a consistent disturbance and unsettlement in the body that manifests in many ways and effects all our relationships, as we are in a sense holding back the love for ourselves and others by keeping that natural expression trapped inside of us, and it is only a matter of time that these buried feelings resurface to finally be dealt with anyways.

466. I feel very delicate today and allowing myself to feel that while not holding back what is felt, without the blame to others.

467. I hadn’t thought of what we do to our body in terms of ‘suppression’, but it makes sense to me now that I have read your contribution. We do suppress it and then do our best to get it to conform to what the mind dictates.

468. Thank you Kathy for exposing the outcome of choosing suppression over true expression. This is a call to honour ourselves, our body and to taking responsibility for our choices

469. Knowing our bodies as divine vehicles of expression it makes sense that any behaviour that suppresses this natural expression is a misuse or ‘abuse’ of all that is available to be.

470. Great point Kathy. What exactly are we achieving if what we are doing is leaving our body in exhaustion?

471. Each and everyone of us has the choice to be with ‘the wisdom that we all hold within.’ And each and everyone of us equally hold the depths of the grandness and wisdom within when we allow ourselves to be with all that is true and natural to us innately.

472. ‘With allowing myself the space to stop and surrender, comes a loving understanding ’ giving myself/ourselves space is absolutely paramount – it allows us to stop, to feel,and from here I find that my body automatically connects to the flow that is natural and calls to be part of it.

473. It is very common for people to use outcomes, drive and achievements for recognition – something I too did in the past. One of the tricky things with that is that when faced with someone doing a very “good” job it is hard to fault them and you are almost pulled into praising them when often their good job can be quite harmful and sometimes it may not even be what is needed.

474. It wasn’t until I met Serge Benhayon at one of the Universal Medicine workshop presentations that I realised how sacred my body is: the way Serge moves in every step and the quality of the tone of his voice allowed me to connect to my own truth‘ 12 years ago this was the same for me. It was what I saw and felt in reflection that inspired me to live what I could feel was deeply true and to be treasured. This goes to show how much of an impact our reflection is – and now many many students world wide live a truer reflection in their movements during their work day, with family etc – and the same truth is being communicated as the reminder that we are more than outcomes, the way the world is and we have something very special that can be connected to and lived in our human body by honouring it.

475. It seems so important to expose suppression as an abuse. I always thought that not speaking up was just me or just being polite – but what I understand now is the harm that comes with this – of holding things in and bottling things up

476. I did not have the ‘time is not to be wasted’ message as a child but I did have the message that responding to your body and caring for yourself equated to not caring for and therefore hurting others. Whatever the message, it shows the false messages that we have swallowed and possibly misused ourselves in the past. Playing the human game of time, sympathy or self-sacrifice means suppressing and harming the body, which wants to live in the spaciousness and grandness we are. I definitely experienced the ill effects of suppression, which led to depletion and exhaustion.

     1. There are a billion trillion ways that we suppress our bodies but they all have exactly the same effect and that is to suppress the truth of who we all are. Let the body be and we are left to be the truth of who we are.

477. Thank you Kathy for sharing your amazing blog. After reading it, I am aware that I too used suppression to deal with life, to hold back expressing how I truly felt and as a way to abuse my body. I find suppression is a way to avoid taking responsibility and to deny what my body can feel and register. Thankfully, I have the tools that I have learnt from Universal Medicine to live more lovingly and let go of many subtle forms of abuse in my life. I am making way to clear and discard anything that is not loving to allow my body to reconnect to my Soul.

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