by Sue Kira, Naturopath, Gold Coast, Queensland

Many people search the world to ‘find themselves’. How weird is that, when you can never leave yourself? … Or can you?

This morning I was showering and thinking about my day ahead and what I was going to wear and all sorts of things and I suddenly realised I was somewhere else, being transported all over the place by my mind. I was not ‘with me’.

And then my body told me: “Hey, don’t leave me. I’m part of you, we’re supposed to be in this together.” So I continued to shower and feel what was going on without distractions… the water on my skin, how my body felt… it was beautiful and calming and made a huge difference to how I felt overall.

We don’t ‘need’ to travel, seek a spiritual guru, or do another course or workshop to find ourselves – it’s with us right now. I wonder how often our bodies must shout out to us: “Look at me! What are you doing, silly dodo, I’m right here!” But we don’t listen.

I used to think that I had to meditate to get my mind to shut up, but found it was an on-going struggle.

I learned from Universal Medicine that the mind never shuts down, but we can bring it to a place of stillness by just sitting and feeling what we are doing, such as breathing. Or we can simply focus on what we are doing, without thinking about the past, future, ‘what if’ or other distractions. It’s called ‘conscious presence’.

I began to test what I had heard and gradually brought conscious presence into my life – and boy (or girl), what a difference it made.

Then Natalie Benhayon revealed to me during an Esoteric Ovary Massage session that while I had become more present, I could also do so with joy, as sometimes we can be too serious about what we do instead of being playful. Since then I have brought more joy into what I do and even have silly moments… which are so much fun.

Years ago I was out there ‘looking for myself’ and I had become a chameleon, changing to ‘fit in’ with others to be liked and loved. I had forgotten who I was. In the early days of meeting Serge Benhayon, he said to me, “Just be you”. But who was that?

I didn’t know who I was anymore because I had travelled extensively and tried many different modalities and workshops to ‘find myself’: yet all this had done was to take me further away from me. If I’d continued seeking answers in this way, I would have continued to live in confusion.

The process of finding myself and being with myself has been, and continues to be, a very gradual process. The healing workshops, presentations and support from Universal Medicine helped me let go of ‘who I’m not’ and allowed me to unravel who I am.

And I found me… the little girl who loves to be play-full and laugh out loud (LOL) and speak honestly about what I feel, rather than hiding or becoming a chameleon to fit in.

Perhaps I should have titled this article ‘Finding Memo’… much more fun!