What I was Missing was Inside Me all Along

by Kirsten Roslyn Barrett

It was in April 2009 when I first met Serge Benhayon whilst attending my very first Universal Medicine course. Up until that time in my life I had been obsessed with being of service to others. I had studied and practised Chinese Reflexology, Reiki, Angel Therapy, NLP (Neuro-linguistic programming), Kinesiology, Iridology, did psychic readings and was also an ordained Christian Spiritual Minister holding weekly services. But nothing that I did, studied or read truly answered that ‘call’ from deep within. I had a constant feeling that that something was missing and unanswered, if you will.

Weighing in at a hefty 155 plus kgs, I was smiling on the outside whilst working extremely hard at burying the sadness, pain, hurt, anger, emptiness, self-loathing and lack of love in my body – whilst all along believing I was helping others deal with theirs.

No one, or anything I had studied or read had ever explained nor shown me how the way I lived my life affects not only me, but also everyone else. This was a bitter pill to swallow I have to say, but I could feel the truth in what Serge presented at the workshops and presentations. Something deep within was stirring for the first time and I knew the search was over – it was all about me finding myself.

My initial reaction was that I could take this work out and show it to everyone, as this will help so many. At the end of the course I was determined that I too would be an Esoteric Practitioner and be there to support others. I thought it would be so easy and wouldn’t take me long to be a practitioner as this had been the case with other courses I had attended. But, over the next six months it became very apparent that there was a hell of a lot more involved to being an Esoteric Practitioner than just looking and acting the part physically – which had been the case for me previously. I realised that I couldn’t be of service to anyone if I didn’t choose to live the healthy, loving life that I could now feel the benefits of, especially to myself.

Since attending Universal Medicine presentations I discovered that what I felt had been missing for so long, much to my surprise, was already WITHIN ME, and this was the loving connection with myself. I had not known how to honestly, truthfully and lovingly deal with and let go of all the sadness, pain, hurt, anger, emptiness, self-loathing and lovelessness that I was feeling deep within. I am now aware that I and I alone have control over what direction my life takes, as I and I alone am responsible for the choices that I make, lovingly so.

I am now far more aware of my body and am able to feel what and when to eat. The more that I tune in and listen to my body the clearer I become. I have a lot more energy and feel more balanced, brighter and lighter in more ways than one. My body feels alive for the first time ever – and so do I. Now, at the age of 50 I feel like I’m only 30 with the best yet to come. My weight is positively on the decrease as I a lovingly re-build my foundations for this life.

I stand here today – a joyful work in progress, a loving product of my own choices as I no longer allow myself to be a helpless victim of circumstances. Serge Benhayon lives what he presents in his lectures and workshops, and that is “that life is all about love” – the love that we have for ourselves, for family, friends and everyone equally so.

My heartfelt thanks go not only to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine but to the whole Benhayon family and all the Universal Medicine trained practitioners that have, and are, so lovingly and professionally supporting me along my journey to a healthier, loving and joyful ME.