True Appreciation… From Abuse to my Amazing Life

Recently I had a discussion with a very dear friend of mine, whose opinion I deeply value, about a surgical procedure that I require, and during the discussion we talked about many things. Appreciation was one of the subjects discussed… true appreciation of where I had come from, and what an amazing life I am now living. Along with this, I spoke of my feeling of being unable to express in the written word, not even being able to comment on a blog, let alone write one. At the end of our time together my friend suggested perhaps I could write something on appreciation. I went home with an intention to write but felt I had to sit with deep appreciation for a while to truly feel it.

It is easy to say yes, I can see how I have changed, where I have come from and the amazing being I am now, but I realised my appreciation was more of a mind thing… I hadn’t sat and allowed myself to deeply feel it. 

TRUE APPRECIATION

My experience has been that when I truly, deeply appreciate, it expands in my body and becomes an all encompassing love, a love of everything I have been, and all that I am now; a love of the magic of God, and all that is done in heaven and on earth in love – to hold us and support us at all times. I feel a great love for Serge Benhayon and the Benhayon family and their amazing love of humanity, and all the love and support they have given me and so many others. I am surrounded by a loving family, there is always the love and support of the larger esoteric community, and I live in a most beautiful part of the world. These are just a few of the many things in my life that are worth deep appreciation.

The love and support I now have for myself and from others would have been inconceivable not that long ago. My childhood, and the choices I made as a result, did not portend the development of a healthy individual.

I was sexually abused by a brother and a next-door neighbour, and physically, sexually and emotionally abused by my father. I felt unloved and unwanted. I felt betrayed by my mother as she did nothing to help me, but rather I was told repeatedly I was the troublemaker.

I was pregnant and married at 16 and had two beautiful daughters by 18; my disastrous marriage lasted 11 years. I had two other long-term relationships: each relationship was abusive and controlling in one way or another and all my partners were involved with alcohol and drugs, or both. I started smoking cigarettes at 15, started smoking marijuana around 28 and continued both until about 50: between 30 and 40 I also experimented with many other drugs. Afraid of taking responsibility for myself, and afraid of committing to relationships, I lived a fairly secluded life for many years.

By my late 40’s I was seriously unwell, and had I not made my way to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine six years ago, aged 53, I dread to think where and how I would be today.    

Over the past weeks as I have been sitting with appreciation and whilst writing this, it has become obvious to me that I need to take time occasionally to stop and look at myself, and to feel how amazing my life is now, how amazing I am, and to allow myself to appreciate this deeply within. But true appreciation can only be, so it feels to me, if I allow myself to truly feel where I have come from. 

I had an experience yesterday which pointed to this clearly. Firstly, I need to say my body has been very tired over the last week or so – due to my impending surgery, I feel – but my experience was more than just tiredness.

I was getting ready for work and one of my shoes was next to my chair. I knelt down to see if the other shoe was under the chair but it wasn’t, so it must be in my wardrobe; but getting down on the floor exhausted me so much I felt it would be easier to crawl the couple of meters to the wardrobe rather than expend the effort that would be involved in standing up, walking and bending down again. After retrieving the shoe I pulled myself up with some effort, and walked to my bed where I had to lie down as I felt dreadful.

Lying there I felt so sick, tears rolled down my face, but it was amazing! It was like being thrown back in time – this is how I lived/felt every day for several years, living in total exhaustion and pain, and I had totally, absolutely forgotten. I could think about it and talk about it but I had forgotten what it actually felt like in my body – what it felt like on a daily basis to live that, and the deep despair I felt. It was unreal, remembering and feeling in my body the pain and despair I had lived for so long but had totally forgotten about. After about 10 minutes it passed and I got up and went to work. This experience left me in no doubt about how much I have to truly appreciate.

I now live in a beautiful home with a longtime close friend; we share much love and laughter, her loving family is mine as mine is hers. Our grandchildren visit often and we enjoy seeing our adult children continue to grow and blossom. I have a job that I truly love, where I am mixing with and caring for people. There is no abuse in my life – only love. I am surrounded by it and it is reflected back to me by all the amazing people around me.

The love and beauty surrounding me can only continue to grow from my true appreciation of where and how I once was, and as I deeply embrace the amazing life I now live, and fully accept the love I now know myself to be.

Thank you Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

By Rosemary

285 thoughts on “True Appreciation… From Abuse to my Amazing Life

  1. “When I truly, deeply appreciate, it expands in my body and becomes an all encompassing love, a love of everything I have been, and all that I am now; a love of the magic of God, and all that is done in heaven and on earth in love”, is a beautiful statement and I actually understand, but also truly feel it in my body too. When this appreciation is felt, the expansion is not only felt in my body but outside of me. The immense love for another and other’s is unfathomable.

    That is true appreciation, because in that appreciation, we see the appreciation and love of serving others, it is that simple.

  2. Appreciation is like an antidote for so many things – whenever I feel grumpy or down about anything if I then go into appreciation, it is virtually impossible to stay grumpy or down about things and we get to see the beautiful and positive things that unfold from this.

    1. Henrietta spot on. We then observe the offering of evolution in every moment. What a gift we can give to ourselves and others.

  3. Rosemary your sharing is so beautiful and the appreciation of so much can be felt in each word. Life certainly has so many opportunities on offer for us and the more we embrace of these opportunities, the more we can learn and grow and blossom. This does not always feel easy, but does not either have to be a difficult experience.

  4. I too have experienced certain things as being difficult to express – it is akin to feeling constipated! 😉 You want to get the expression out but at the same time you are fighting it and holding it in! It is such a relief but also a healing when we can let it out, and gracefully so!

  5. Rosemary after reading you I come to realize how many things are in my life that is easy to take for granted if I don’t stop and feel the beauty I’m surrounded by. There’s a lot to appreciate…a job I love so much, people in my life who holds me in deep regard and love, the esoteric students community with who I love working in different projects, finding who I am by just sharing through my abilities what is natural and very simple for me to make, not wanting being like anyone else but accepting and appreciating deeply how amazing I and we all really are…the list could go on and on. Thank you.

  6. Love being part of Universal Medicine for all the support and inspiration I daily receive, to make my life more loving and to be more the precious woman I actually am in my day to day. I don’t have a direct relationship with the Benhayon’s but this doesn’t prevent me to feel them as a part of my family. Living in Spain, the other side of the world, and being able to feel that true connection has no borders is an amazing thing to deeply appreciate.

  7. It is truly, wondrous, incredible, and fascinating how Serge Benhayon simply living as he is, inspires so many people to truly heal.

  8. I second your love and appreciation for Serge Benhayon, and all the Benhayon family. What they bring to our world is immeasurable, without which I hate to think where I, and so many thousands of people would be. Words alone will never convey the depth of my love and appreciation for all the Benhayon’s.

  9. Rosemary I have had a similar experience of feeling in my body how I used to live, the terrible exhaustion and insomnia, and it gave me an opportunity to reimprint how I was with myself to be more caring of my body, and also to reflect back on how this used to be my everyday. We are so truly blessed by the presentations and support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine to now live with such self empowerment to care for and love ourselves, and to turn our lives around.

  10. As an abuse victim also I relate to what you have shared Rosemary, but living with an understanding of what appreciation and responsibly can bring to us has changed much. Life has become one of continuous Joy rather than what is next and even when I was violently Ill and vomiting the other day I could still feel the Joy in life.

  11. It is amazing that you have come so far that there is no trace of your old life registered in your body.

  12. What an amazing turn around Rosemary I know from my own experience how we can often brush off the changes we have made in our lives however I am finding that if there is no deep appreciation of all that has been offered and taken by choice then there is no way we can deepen our awareness because we have no awareness to start with of what it is we have given to ourselves it’s just taken for granted. Therefore there’s no confirmation in our bodies.

  13. Amazing to read your testimonial again Rosemary and feel how much has shifted for you. When we live from what we absolutely know is true, slowly we start to come back to ourselves and live from there – and so love expands outwardly. A very beautiful way to be and live in the world, and one that brings a depth to our lives and all of our relationships.

    1. Well said Bryony and the key word here is the shift that has occurred. These shifts that we experience are massive healings and we cannot underestimate the power that is unearthed for us all to have access to with this shift.

  14. That is an extra-ordinary story. Just when I thought wow, that is really something to be appreciated you had more to share and the ‘wow’ would cycle round again. There is so much that we have in our lives that we work through without appreciating what life would be like if we hadn’t. It seems that berating ourselves for our faults is more highly valued.

  15. Thank you Rosemary, it is an amazing turnaround, most people don’t recover from such abuse, so to now be living a love filled life and to have experienced such healing really is a testament to both yourself and all that Serge offers via Universal Medicine. You have also woken me up to deeply appreciating the changes I have made and holding those and myself more preciously, to look back at where I was and where I am now. My experience with Universal Medicine has been the same, living a life of love and recovering from so much, and experiencing truly amazing changes.

    1. It is always great to be reminded of the importance of appreciating ourselves, to take a moment to reflect on the life we are living now, ‘The love and beauty surrounding me can only continue to grow from my true appreciation of where and how I once was, and as I deeply embrace the amazing life I now live, and fully accept the love I now know myself to be.’

  16. What an amazing transformation Rosemary from abuse to appreciation, this is a living miracle and deeply inspirational, thank you.

  17. Resurrecting ourselves and extracting us from the misery we have embraced is not an easy one. And, yet, it is the most beautiful gifts we can offer us. Even if we have to crawl out of what used to trap us.

  18. When we become accustomed to living joyfully after healing a traumatic past it is quite amazing how we can forget how horrible life used to be. If we do not appreciate the changes we have made then it is possible that we will take things for granted and slip back into the old behaviours that resulted in the trauma in the first place. Consequently appreciation is really important in order for us to keep evolving.

  19. When I go deep in appreciation, even though it may be about myself or what I do etc. I often get a sense that the essence of what I am appreciating actually has very little to do with me the person. The godliness that I connect to is not mine to own or keep to myself, but it is actually about the intricate yet totally simple truth about All of Us.

  20. This is beautiful and very touching to read Rosemary, the journey you have made from abuse to an amazing life is certainly worth sharing with others and showing them there is a true way forward after living with abuse.

    1. I agree Anna, it would make a fantastic book to show people that you can not just recover from abuse but establish a truly loving way of living.

    2. Yes, this blog is beautiful, inspiring, and touching, and shows us what is possible when we have the support and love of others who live a loving way.

    1. I agree 100 percent cjames! The words say it all but the quality with which it is written holds so much more and this is certainly what Rosemary has shared with us above and beyond and hence makes it deeply inspiring.

  21. Rosemary, your story blows me away. There are so many miracle stories within the student body (students of The Way of The Livingness) and yours is an incredible inspiration.

  22. There is so much unresolved hurt carried within so many people in today’s world. And when you stop and consider that all our experiences accumulate be that the good the bad and the ugly, they do make us who we are today. But without feeling the appreciation of how we can grow from all of these experiences they can continue to torment and hurt us when we don’t seek support to heal them.

  23. In a world where abuse often defines the life a person ultimately lives, you have shown abuse is not who you are, and that with love and support your life has been regained so you can live as the love you are.

    1. Yes this is a marvellous testament to the truth that we are not the illness or traumas in our life and that we can return to our true, beautiful essence that can never be tarnished however far we may have strayed from it or however horrific the abuse we may have experienced.

  24. Appreciation is an extraordinary energetic quality that is not just underestimated in the world today, but almost completely unknown… It has extraordinary power and great depth, and is the foundation for a qualitative awareness that expands us all

  25. For me appreciation is like building blocks that we place one at a time into our foundation for life but if we have not healed the traumas of our life these can sit beneath the foundation threatening to wobble it at any given time. I, like you Rosemary, know what it feels like to finally and honestly allow myself to truly feel what various periods of my life felt like in my body. This allowing is priceless as it offers us the space to appreciate how far we have come; another building block of appreciation is then ready for our foundation.

    1. Yes I love that approach Ingrid because it brings the opportunity firmly back to being ours. This is our foundation because we are the only one who has lived our life. We experienced things from our body that no-one else can share because they are, quite simply, not in our body and therefore might or could have perceived it differently. Much to build on just from this blog and the comments that have been shared.

      1. This is such a great reminder to us all Lucy: “This is our foundation because we are the only one who has lived our life”. Yes we are. We can’t change how we have lived it up to this moment, but we can learn from how we have lived and begin to make change from this moment forth; it’s all a matter of choice.

  26. A beautiful appreciation of the choice to bring love into your life and with this choice bringing love to those around you.

  27. A beautiful testament Rosemary of the power of true love to bring healing into our lives, So much to appreciate in the Grandness of God’s love that is within and around us every moment of our lives.

  28. It is interesting, the difference between appreciating what is there present in life such as objects, situations and people, and then in appreciating the person that you are and the movements that you make each day.

  29. Appreciation can really be so simply introduced into our households… It doesn’t have to be a big deal, it can start with just the way we talk with each other, not allowing any old patterns of sarcastic expression to be the norm, and gently moving and reminding each other to actually express what there is to appreciate… Really old paradigms can be shifted in this way.

  30. Where would we all be if we had not come to Universal Medicine and studied with Serge Benhayon? For me I was on the road to chronic disease, exhaustion, financial issues to name a few. I have never worked as hard as I do now and love it. I love the commitment I have to the whole of my life.There is absolutely much to appreciate.

  31. Rosemary no matter how many times I read this I am amazed at the changes that Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon have supported you with. To have had such a traumatic and abusive start to life to now have a life filled with love, with no abuse, and new levels of health and wellbeing is extraordinary. But, it’s also quite normal for anyone committed to living the work Serge presents! It’s an amazing process because it’s so empowering, we receive support but we take the steps back to wellbeing and love (our soul). Congratulations!

  32. Thank you Rosemary for sharing your deeply touching story. It shows no matter our age or circumstances every single one of us can change, can heal and can transform our lives.

  33. Appreciation being a mind thing vs a body thing.. I can absolutely feel how when we limit appreciation to a concept in the mind it becomes very one dimensional instead of a whole body expansive experience and connection to everything.

  34. Amazing to read how you have been, what you have experienced in your life and the loving choices you have made to become more of you and still are. When we truly start to appreciate ourselves, and the choices we have made and choose to make, it feels as a natural thing to do or to be in. It is as if the tone in which I speak to myself has changed and continues to change the more I let love in and out.

  35. Your sharing is straight from the heart and very beautiful to read. There is a huge difference between truly feeling appreciation and going through the motions. When we appreciate we allow everything to be exactly as it is knowing that there is a plan that we are a part of.

  36. That’s miraculous Rosemary. There is no end to appreciation. You cannot have amazingness in your life without appreciation. It is taking a moment to feel what is true and now love in your life.

  37. What you share here and your life’s turnaround is truly amazing Rosemary, it is important to remember how we used to be and take time to appreciate the many changes that have happened over the years as a result of us making loving choices, whilst also appreciating the ever loving support from Serge Benhayon.

  38. Appreciation is such an important aspect to bring to our lives, ‘when I truly, deeply appreciate, it expands in my body and becomes an all encompassing love, a love of everything I have been, and all that I am now,’ gorgeous.

  39. Rosemary I can really feel the deep appreciation you have for yourself and your life. I am beginning to make time to stop and feel how much there is to appreciate about myself and my life, and I can relate to what you say about it being an expansive feeling.

  40. Beautifully expressed Rosemary, when we stop to truly appreciate ourselves, and the steps we have taken to change and support our lives more lovingly we also get to feel and appreciate how we support others through the changes we have made for ourselves too.

  41. I’ve believed for a very long time that you only appreciate others or things that you have but not appreciate yourself. And also that you can only appreciate yourself once you are feeling really amazing or going really well in life. Slowly I have broken this down and am at times appreciating so much more than I ever have, like even learning to say nothing when that is needed instead of talking for the sake of it.

  42. Appreciation is much more than I first realised. Appreciation has confirmed the love and beauty in me and in life and it has also shifted my focus to an expansion of this in every moment. What we have reflected back to us and what we observe grows. When we make appreciation our way then there is only room for the expansion of love.

  43. We can choose to live or we can choose not to live. That is a very clear choice. When we choose to live all our focus will be on the relationship we have between us and life. Life is a simple reflection back to us what our choices are. Love never rushes us through life, it is forever patient with us. Once we choose to return to love, we begin a life of truly living.

  44. Thank you Rosemary – that is truly beautiful touching the centre of my heart.. Knowing where to stand there has to be the depth of understanding of how you came there and the acceptance of it.. As without the appreciation there is no understanding and no acceptance. Very well well delivered.

  45. Beautiful blog Rosemary. Reading this warmed my heart up. The fact that you have so many reflections of love in your life is a great testament to the choices you’ve made to commit to yourself and love yourself more deeply. Thank you for sharing what is possible when we’re prepared to truly love ourselves- and that it’s never too late to start making different choices.

  46. It is beautiful to read Rosemary of the steps you took to let go of the abuse you once lived with and to embrace a more loving life and to feel your deep appreciation for this.

  47. In a tennis match the final result depends on every ball played. Life is pretty much the same. It is every choice we make to our last breath. Even in lives that appear to be destined to horror, people can make a clear choice to turn them around and re-imprint them. Appreciation is key. Yet, appreciation cannot be a mental thing. It has to come from the ability to connect deeply and feel deeply the body. Only from there, true appreciation can blossom and our lives with it.

  48. Appreciation is opening us up to life, ourselves and people; without there will always be a contraction whereby we keep ourselves less and also cannot enjoy another in their greatness. Appreciation is part of the self-applied medicine that restores the inner gem.

  49. Rosemary you are such an amazing inspiration on so many levels. You have busted wide open the myth that you could not write, broadened my understanding of the true meaning and depth of appreciation and shown me how important it is to reflect and appreciate on the fact that how we have lived up until the present moment has influenced and shaped our lives and it is our responsibility to make choices based on love.

  50. It is so gorgeous to come to a place where you are able to not only look back and recognise how far you have come by feeling the difference in your body, knowing you are there due to the loving choices you have made along the way… but that life reflects that love through those around you.

  51. Thank you Rosemary, a very moving story you have shared and I feel blessed to read it again today. As I read I realised I still have a strong cap on myself to not be too bright, too amazing, too brilliant, too loving, i.e. too me, because it makes others so uncomfortable, and they can be jealous and attacking. Now I realise this is why I also cap my self appreciation.

  52. Hello Rosemary and great story and sharing thank you. We often or I often don’t appreciate all that has been before. What touched me about your blog today was remembering what it felt like to live the way you did, how exhausted and in pain you were. We can talk about it but the actually feeling is important as you identify. Appreciation is the same, talking about it is one thing but the consistent feeling of it is another all together. The words themselves are a great start but the foundation is build in the feeling, the action of it. Appreciation is a great word as I’ve said but to have this great word as a part of your life you will need to live it, feel it.

  53. What an incredible story to share Rosemary. To many times we under estimate the value in appreciation and the powerful medicine it is.

  54. Appreciation is truly such an underrated experience, indeed a whole state of awareness, that it does need to be written about, explored, and of course celebrated.

  55. Hi Rosemary, for someone who thought they could not write this is the living proof that you can not only write well but you write with all of you in a way that inspires many. Thank you for sharing your story. Having known you for 35 years or more I can vouch for the amazing turn around your life has taken since being introduced to Universal Medicine and how you grow younger, more vital and more beautiful every day.

  56. Rosemary thank you for reminding me to take stock of life and really appreciate everything around me and the choices I’ve made – a daily dose of appreciation should be part of every doctors prescriptions.

  57. Rosemary, thank you for trusting that you could actually write, and that you took the time to share with us the many challenges in your life, challenges which I can feel no longer define who you are. You have offered us all a wonderful gift with what you have written. It is amazing when a word like appreciation is no longer just a word that we utter, but a parcel of energy that we can feel rippling throughout our body, the knowing permeating every cell. It is then that we can truly live appreciation in every moment and with every movement, not just for us, but for those we connect with during the course of our daily life.

  58. Rosemary I love what you have wrote about true appreciation – “when I truly, deeply appreciate, it expands in my body and becomes an all encompassing love, a love of everything I have been, and all that I am now; a love of the magic of God, and all that is done in heaven and on earth in love.” It is a bit strange that most of us has forgotten how beautiful true appreciation felt in the body – I love it that you wrote this amazing reminder for us.

  59. The power of appreciation emanates off the page. Beautiful to read. Thank you Rosemary.

  60. “The love and beauty surrounding me can only continue to grow from my true appreciation of where and how I once was, and as I deeply embrace the amazing life I now live, and fully accept the love I now know myself to be.” Beautiful to read of your transformation Rosemary. Inspiring for us all.

  61. This is stunning Rosemary. The moments when we appear to ‘regress’ are a true blessing as they give us a marker of exactly where we have come from and a knowing of the loving foundation we have since built.

  62. When we start to appreciate ourselves for the amazing beings we are, we open ourselves up to another realm in life that is love. We then are able to appreciate life and other people as well, just for what life brings to use and for who people are and bring to the world. Living in this realm of love and appreciation is no place for any abuse whatsoever.

  63. It’s shocking what we accept as our normal and our every day, I’m sure even what I call my most amazing days and moments now, I will look back on in a few years and say – wow life now is incomparable.

  64. Beautiful Rosemary to appreciate all the love that you are just waiting for you to feel it. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine has shown so many how to turn our lives around and to truly live love.

  65. Incredible Rosemary. Thank you for sharing your journey. I am so glad you have written what you appreciate in your life. This is a gift for all who reads and even more so for yourself.

  66. Rosemary the shift in your life is extraordinary and most definitely not only worth appreciating, but appreciating you for it was you that made all the changes that brought you to where you are now. You are an inspiration to all women but definitely older women who may feel that it’s too late to make change. What you have shared shows that nothing is ever loo late.

  67. It’s interesting how quickly we forget the hard times we have had, but to really remember it within your body and to truly feel how far you have come, within your body, is true appreciation. It’s easy to come from the mind and to logically speak of appreciation, but to embody appreciation is a true gift. It is living appreciation, claiming it and being so authentic that there is no question about what this means and the amazing changes in your life. Your lived experience absolutely grounds what appreciation is.

  68. What you are sharing here Rosemary brings to the fore how much we are lost without appreciation. Without appreciation we do not stand on a ground that is solid and truly supporting us as that what we are standing on can always be negated by a single doubting thought. But when we know what we are standing on, when we honour and cherish that what we are, what we bring and what we have, we have a well to draw from with every appreciation more.

  69. Rosemary, what an inspiring blog. I haven’t had the same experiences of the more obvious abuse that you describe here, but certainly am no stranger to abuse when it comes to many of the choices I have made for myself and in relationship with others – things I would perhaps not have considered as abuse, such as being hard and protected in my body, being controlling, judgemental angry, critical, stressed etc. Learning to take care of myself and developing my inner self-worth and acceptance of myself – alongside developing appreciation of myself and others – has been absolutely huge and has turned my life around, in such a way that the woman I was previously has totally transformed in the last 5-6 years.

  70. I’m realising more and more the true importance of ensuring that appreciation is deeper than mere mental acknowledgement, a cursory tick-box activity before sleep or a momentary feel-good factor as I do a quick audit of my life’s progress. I’m finding that unless and until I truly feel the impact in my body of what’s up for appreciation, then I don’t actually embody where it’s brought me to and so without this I merely continue onto my next moment from where I originally was and not from a revised platform which embodies fully who I am and how I have evolved. Appreciation isn’t mental. It has to be at a cellular level.

  71. Appreciation… This can be like a foreign language to some people, and yet once it starts to be practised, then appreciation starts to be something that is really really enjoyable, and even creates a foundation for our relationships, not just with each other, but with ourselves.

  72. Appreciation is like a secret fountain that is hidden in plain sight, that is deeply nurturing , available for everyone to drink from, and yet is not seen or experienced by most… and this is unfortunate because it doesn’t just slake a thirst , but actually brings us back to life.

  73. Thank you for sharing your inspiring story Rosemary and how by truly embodying your appreciation it has grown and confirms the awesomeness of your life now.

  74. Rosemary your blog is truly humbling. Yes, it is actually an ill-ness, a dis-ease and a very devastating way to be living when we are taking what we have for granted.

  75. This is so beautiful Rosemary. I appreciate all you have shared. I was able to reflect on my own life and the changes I have made. In fact yesterday I was so exhausted I went back to bed at 9am and slept until 11am. I felt as though I would never be able to get out of bed again and it dawned on me that up until a few years ago I used to feel like this every time I had a day off. This time I had the support of my beautiful housemates going about their day and I was able to get out of bed and do things very gently and lovingly instead of staying in bed all day and retreating from the world.

  76. Thank you for your beautiful sharing Rosemary – it’s a reminder for me to take stock and deepen my appreciation for the way I and my life are changing. What I also received from just now is that it doesn’t matter where we’ve come from, life can do an about face when we opt to make better choices for ourselves.

  77. Thank you Rosemary for sharing your beautiful story on appreciation. I feel I do not do this enough, so I am prompted by your article to not just think about it, but actually take the time to truly feel how my life has changed so much since coming to Universal Medicine.

  78. Rosemary your story from abuse to an amazing life is very inspiring and powerful to read. What a great support this blog is to anyone who has experienced abuse of any kind how we can heal and move forward with true love and appreciation.

  79. Thank you for sharing Rosemary. For me your article is a great reminder to keep appreciating how far I have come and how amazing I am. Sure I still make many mistakes but they don’t define who I am. I am forever learning.

    1. “Sure I still make many mistakes but they don’t define who I am. I am forever learning.” Thank you for this reminder Ilja

    2. I agree Ilja, appreciating ourselves and every choice, as well as understanding its natural to be imperfect and make so called “mistakes” in the process of our being forever students.

  80. Appreciation is so extraordinarily important, it is to be nurtured always, and expressed with our children, friends, even at work… It is the hidden lubricant of society, that frees us up to be able to be more of who we truly are.

  81. Thank you Rosemary for sharing your amazing story, and appreciating more deeply with remembering where you have come from and who you are now. I too need to stop and ponder on with appreciation the amazing changes in my own life.

  82. What also jumped out for me was “It is easy to say yes, I can see how I have changed, where I have come from and the amazing being I am now, but I realised my appreciation was more of a mind thing… I hadn’t sat and allowed myself to deeply feel it.”
    Feeling it and accepting appreciation from our bodies is totally different to ticking off what we ‘should’ appreciate from our mind.

  83. Rosemary wow, there is so much to appreciate… biggest one is the loving choices you have made to not allow abuse into your life or around you anymore, and you claiming your amazing self, life, and dear friends and family. I can relate to not giving myself the stop moments to truly appreciate where I am at now.

  84. Thank you for your truly brave and revealing sharing Rosemary. To share so frankly must have brought up much for you, but it seems amazing how together and healed you are which is testament to the work you have done with the support of Universal Medicine and your dedication too! It is beautiful to read of your new life and appreciation from where you have come from to now!

  85. Rosemary this is beautiful. I love what you share about appreciation needing to be something you feel in your body and not a mental construct. And the humility of reconnecting to what we might have accepted as a way of life before, exhaustion, being drained, abuse — and feeling how those emotions and intensities are no longer there the way they were in the past, when we live our lives with love and really appreciate the choices we have made.

  86. Appreciating me feels like I am re-parenting myself. There was a time when there was a considerable amount of hardness in my body, but now, through attending courses by Universal Medicine and becoming responsible with self care and truly caring for myself, the hardness has decreased and appreciating others so natural and normal. Thank you for your blog Rosemary, a great reminder to continue this journey of appreciation.

    1. Beautiful comment Matthew, “Appreciating me feels like I am re-parenting myself.” Yes, and also if we appreciate ourselves we are not looking out waiting for others (parents, friends, colleagues, family) to appreciate us first. I appreciate how normal it is now to appreciate others, knowing that is also because I am appreciating myself more.

  87. Sometimes we so easily either forgot or simply don’t want to remember or feel how we have lived our lives up until a point, me I didn’t want to feel it the self abuse!! What I’m finding is you do all the you think are loving, better choices, taking responsibility but unless you actually deeply appreciate all of these things you do for you forget it, it’s just another box ticking exercise.
    Love the blog Rosemary makes us all stop and deeply appreciate.

  88. “The love and beauty surrounding me can only continue to grow from my true appreciation of where and how I once was, and as I deeply embrace the amazing life I now live, and fully accept the love I now know myself to be.”

    This is a stunning true story Rosemary. Thank you for sharing so candidly and beautifully the simple truth of your life and the choices you have made. The way you express allows me to see how far I have come also. In fact , moments ago I was in bed having a dream about what my life used to be and it was a far cry from the joy I live regularly now, Appreciation is definitely the key to this so thank you for the reminder to embrace what I have chosen.

  89. Learning to appreciate is one that does take time and a concerted choice, especially if this is not what has been the norm. I really loved reading you blog Rosemary, it is pretty amazing what you have been able to feel and heal within and learn to self honour and appreciate all that is you. I am deeply inspired. x

  90. There is no abuse in my life, only love. Just beautiful Rosemary. It is so lovely to feel just how much you appreciate your life now. The transformation you have made is such a credit to you, as is the responsibility you have taken to make self loving choices.

  91. In life there are no coincidences, so to have this moment of weakness, crawling across the floor is a powerful reminder and a deeply felt opportunity to appreciate, which you have done so beautifully in the blog. Its interesting to note that for someone who struggles to express them self, the blog is a pretty awesome piece of work as well!

    1. Beautiful point you share about the struggles of expressing that were mentioned Simonwillams8, this piece of writing is a gem.

  92. All of you is in this blog Rosemary and it was an honour to read it. Deeply inspiring is your sharing and the appreciation you embody. Appreciation certainly is a beginning point for an abundance of love all round – not forgetting our past but certainly not carrying it like a dead weight upon us anymore.

  93. Appreciation seems like such a ‘lame’ word, until the inner core of what it means is revealed, and then it becomes a pivotal awareness in the unfolding of our own lives, and returning to self-love, the doorway to our inner heart

  94. Truly awesome blog Rosemary, the love, the beauty and the support that now surrounds you is the outer reflection of your true appreciation for yourself, which can be felt in all your words, as I felt uplifted and joyful after reading. Thank you so much for sharing in such detail.

  95. Appreciation has been described as the cement that builds a strong foundation from which to operate. Without the cement, we just have a pile of wobbly rocks made up of events, decisions and choices. With cement we bind them together to create a foundation. It’s the process of appreciation that solidifies our experiences and enables us to continue to evolve. So appreciation to me is an opportunity to confirm who I am and in so doing, strengthen my knowing of who I am, so that all my choices are based on and from that foundation and nothing else.

    1. ‘So appreciation to me is an opportunity to confirm who I am and in so doing, strengthen my knowing of who I am, so that all my choices are based on and from that foundation and nothing else.’ Thank you Cathy for inspiring me to build my foundation strongly with the cement of appreciation.

  96. Thank you Rosemary for your sharing of yourself as it so powerfully communicates how easy it is to forget the hardships we have endured when life gets better and we then to not appreciate the change. It is so important to appreciate the change otherwise we take it for granted, which allows any hurt to undermine that improvement and we slip back into the suffering to start the cycle all over again.

    1. I agree Jonathan, it is so important to appreciate the change in our lives, otherwise there is no confirmation and as you point out any lingering hurt can and will undermine the improvement, making it easy to slip back into old ways, and then their is no change to appreciate!

  97. Thank you for this very lovely sharing, Rosemary. Appreciation is part of the expression of love and such a great way to affirm where we are at in our lives and how gorgeous we all are!

  98. Great work Rosemary, how important is it to look back to before Universal Medicine to present. The turnaround is miraculous.

  99. This is beautiful Rosemary, so wise and beautiful what you have shared, I can learn a lot from you. And I am so glad you shared your experience through a blog with us. What you shared about appreciation is so brilliant; it inspires me to really feel where I have come from and to appreciate this. And accept that I am so much love and I so deeply know love now, that I can just fully allow myself to feel that, accept it strongly and live it everyday – not being affraid to show it !

  100. Wow, Rosemary. Coming from where you had been before to now being able to say ‘There is no abuse in my life – only love’ this is huge. And thank you for the great reminder that appreciation is not an affirmation on a mental level, it is a whole body experience.

  101. This is such a great reminder of true appreciation. Feeling guilty about our past choices is a waste of energy, but celebrating the choice to live a responsibile, loving life with true relationships, feels expansive in our bodies and feeds us back. Thank you for ‘expressing in the written word’ for all of us.

  102. As I reread your story Rosemary my eyes welled up as I felt your transformation and deep appreciation for yourself.
    I am in awe at your resilience and ability to make loving choices; to fully take responsibility for yourself.
    I am deeply appreciative of you and what you bring to humanity.

  103. A Beautiful sharing of the healing power of loving and truly accepting self. The body is amazing in it’s wisdom and truth Rosmary and always holds self in that truth. It is also proof that it is in the moment that we live and make the choices which inform our lives. Thank you so much for sharing. Thank you Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for the opportunities to see all of who we already are and can choose to live.

  104. This is so beautiful Rosemary. I am deeply touched by your experience and by the immense joy of love that you have returned to living. Through what you have shared and expressed so well I can feel the power of appreciation and how this deepens our connection to and reflects the absolute love that we all truly are and can live.

    1. Through this blog Carola I can really feel the ‘power of appreciation’, and how transforming it is and how appreciation is the foundation of true acceptance of what is, what has been and what has still to come; the next level….

  105. This is so beautiful Rosemary. The feeling of you is love. Your life feels absolutely gorgeous.
    I know that I quickly forget the feeling of the bad times, in a way it is human nature to heal and forget and while I was in those times I liked to numb myself, Because I didn’t have the answers to fix things, but now I do. I have a way of living that heals and where I allow myself to understand where I have been and the deep root cause of my sadness. It is with deep appreciation that I feel where I have been and where I am now. Thank you for reminding me to feel this in my body. I know whenever I feel a glimpse of that old exhaustion creep in I feel a kind of panic rise, however it doesn’t take much to bring myself back to me.

  106. After rereading what has been shared I can feel the absolutely amazing miraculous changes that you have made in your life. I can feel such joy as I read through your journey – It is truly inspiring and highlights that with commitment our lives can turnaround no matter what has been before or what stage of life we are at. Love never goes away 🙂 Thank you Rosemary and I deeply appreciate your sharing your return to love.

  107. Rosemary, wow. Thankyou greatly for sharing your story. It is very clear that there is so much to appreciate around us.. I use to be exhausted all the time and it wasn’t until I was doing something that I wouldn’t have been able to do back then did I truly appreciate the different choices I choose to make and where they have lead me.

  108. Rosemary what an incredible turn around you have made in your life. Your story is one of inspiration that needs to be shared with all who have experienced abuse of any nature in knowing we all can heal and that what is offered by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine offers us the true support in this healing.

  109. Your blog has really highlighted for me how little I appreciate myself at the moment, your story has encouraged me to also take stock of where I have been and where I am now. My minds focus is pretty much always on what’s wrong, not on what is going right. I can feel this way of being living without appreciating all that I am is like contracting myself down to the size of a matchbox. Criticism is quite insidious, it’s eeked it’s way into my life starting in school where the focus was on getting answers right and my worth strongly tied to that. There always seems to be a reason to “work on myself” but it’s in a way that denies all that I already am, all that is there waiting to be appreciated and celebrated. Thanks for the reminder to shift my focus.

  110. Thank you Rosemary for sharing your story with us. The miracles worked by the loving support of Universal Medicine on our lives knows no bounds. Your life is very inspiring and you have so much to offer people who are also doing it tough to see that there certainly is a way out, that practical loving choices every day do work, as does the right kind of support.

  111. Thank you Rosemary for sharing with such honesty and openness. Your journey from abuse to true appreciation is not only amazing but worth celebrating. I know many others who have experienced something similar would be deeply inspired to hear your story and the loving choices you made to heal these hurts and move forward.

  112. Wow Rosemary your blog made it very clear for me what true appreciation is: You wrote: “. . . when I truly, deeply appreciate, it expands in my body and becomes an all encompassing love, a love of everything I have been, and all that I am now; a love of the magic of God, and all that is done in heaven and on earth in love . . .” This is very tangible and understandable – wunderbar.

  113. Rosemary, it’s really beautiful to hear of your journey. There is much to appreciate in how you have changed your life and helps me see more how appreciation has been a mental exercise for me also and something that I could experience more in my body. It is a beautiful moment you described where you stopped and felt how you used to feel and how far you have come. Thanks Rosemary.

  114. Thank you for writing this amazing blog Rosemary. What a beautiful appreciation of where you were and where you are now. Your experience of appreciation shows me how healing this is when we allow ourselves the time to feel the depth of it.

  115. Thank you Rosemary for sharing so honestly and beautifully your story. It has come at a time when the word, appreciation, keeps coming up for me. I realise after reading your blog that I have made it a mind thing, and not really felt it in my body. I was brought up with the saying “self praise is no recommendation” what a killer of any self worth or value. To truly appreciate me, that is a big one, one I am opening up to more.

    1. What you share Jill is a great reminder that we can really get lost in our heads so our mind leads and not our heart.

  116. Rosemary, my deepest and heart-felt appreciation for sharing your story so honestly and so openly, and in doing so reminding me of so much in my life that I have moved on from. Your sharing brought tears to my eyes, and sadness for what once was, but tears of joy for all that now is, and all the beautiful people I have in my life, as you have in yours. And thank you for the reminder that there is so much to appreciate – always!

  117. What a beautiful blog Rosemary, truly touching to read how your life has ascended from abuse to love. Not just a word love that you refer to here, but a living love that is unconditional. I feel from your writting the importance of appreciation , and how we are actually so not use to it ! While actually we are naturally so beautiful in our own way , we are just not letting it out often.. This reminds me of the importance of how I need to value and appreciate myself as I can feel this appreciation on a daily basis refinds me to a place where I know – I am love. No need for anything else , and for sure no abuse !

  118. Appreciation can become the new foundation for a loving relationship, and it is such fun to experiment with and play with, to really feel the loveliness that comes from appreciating each other, and of course oneself.

  119. Good point: Appreciation coming from my head or appreciation embodied? I like how you opened the discussion for this here, and it allows me to set a new marker for true appreciation in my body.

    1. Yes Felix, I agree. Only embodied appreciation allows us to truly expand. It is deeply felt, and builds a deeper connection with ourselves, to move forward with.

    2. Great comment Felix – thinking how great something is is never going to scratch the surface, but to feel it in your body is an opportunity to change for ever.

  120. Appreciation is an essential foundation for building a deeper connection with ourselves and with the Divine, its like appreciation opens up a whole new part of us, and if you haven’t tried it, please do, its actually really enjoyable…☺

    1. This is a really important point and I like how you have expressed this cjames2012. Appreciation isn’t a luxury and isn’t being boastful but is “an essential foundation for building a deeper connection with ourselves and with the Divine”.

  121. This is a very apt blog to read tonight, after coming home from my last day at work, before I move on and realising just how much I have to appreciate about myself but also all the people in my life that I have shared this past year with. It has been amazing.

  122. “I hadn’t sat and allowed myself to deeply feel it. ” this is the key, we can so often dismiss or play down just how grand we are and how far we have come and how much we have to appreciate.

  123. Dear Rosemary thank you for being so open and honest – and writing this amazing blog. I know this will inspire many people, you are living proof that life can change.

  124. Rosemary, simply thank you.
    This takes appreciation to the next level. I had started to make it a daily choice to voice, even if just to myself, what has changed and what I appreciate in and of my life and me. Which was a great start but after a while it started to fade, it didn’t have that supportive quality to it anymore, it does when I am feeling super flat however so I have not completely abandoned it. But to actually acknowledge how these things I am saying I appreciate in my life feel like to my body – wow.

  125. My appreciation for this blog Rosemary. It has brought to my awareness the difference between acknowledging how much my life has changed for the better, to allowing the time to sit and FEEL the awesome changes made and how worthy this is of true appreciation of myself.

  126. Rosemary you have touched on a fundamental subject we so often get lost in looking at everything we think is not ok, needs work or improvement and we have become experts at self criticism. It is so vitally important to appreciate all the we naturally are, the road we have travelled and all that we have left behind that was not love. I am still learning this but the power of appreciation is felt in me and your blog Thank you

    1. I am a true expert at self criticism. Ever since I was a little girl I have been working on ‘improving’ myself. I have to admit there was a lot of work to be done but appreciation and self love is key to true evolution.

      1. I have found Ilja, that most of the ‘work’ I have done on myself was not truly bringing me back to myself, just creating a ‘better’ or ‘more acceptable’ version of myself. I am learning everyday to truly accept that all I could ever dream to be -and so much more – is already within in me. The real work is to accept the grandness of that, surrender to it and then express it in everything I do.

  127. Rosemary you are a living example of appreciation – you make me appreciate appreciation!

  128. I can feel the deep appreciation in your words and I also felt such grace and understanding. What you share is also so powerful, in society the ‘victim’ role is often one that many feel unable to get out of, here it is clear that being the ‘abused’ is something that you can make a choice to change. You did it for yourself and brought yourself out of that ‘despair’ to appreciate and live a full, loving and appreciative life.

  129. Rosemary this was a truly extraordinary sharing. Other than it being a profound reminder to really take stock of how far we have come, it was an honour and a blessing to read, and your appreciation was deeply felt.

  130. Rosemary, I just love how you feel about appreciation: “when I truly, deeply appreciate, it expands in my body and becomes an all encompassing love, a love of everything I have been, and all that I am now; a love of the magic of God, and all that is done in heaven and on earth in love”. And, yes, we have to really appreciate how far are we from where we were before Universal Medicine.

  131. Rosemary your ability to use the written word to convey your experience and to deepen the readers understanding of appreciation is profound. I was able to feel so much through reading your article. Your transformation is remarkable and testament to the changes that you have instigated.

  132. Rosemary I applaud your courage and grace – it is so wonderful to read about the way you have chosen a life of love for yourself having experienced the horror of sexual abuse from those who were so close to you.

    When I read this blog I could feel how much I have to appreciate and I connected to how fruitless and ridiculous it is to feel ashamed about choices I have made. It is so simple and supportive to simply connect to the love I have chosen and appreciate this instead.

  133. With a lot of abuse stories I have heard recently, those who were abused noticed that the abuse came with intense jealousy of the innocence, beauty and light of those abused. Two pains (abuse and jealousy) for the price of one.

  134. There is so much to appreciate there Rosemary… wow that is amazing. It’s great for you to share a bit of your background history so the reader gets an expanded picture of the quality of you life you had to now having and how much things have changed. It’s a miracle what has changed for you but I am not surprised as this has been what has occurred for the majority that have met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

  135. Very touching, Rosemary! My inner conviction has been for ages that appreciation of myself shouldn’t be too extensive otherwise I’d be arrogant. That’s how I was raised. That’s what my mother has believed in – that’s how she was raised. Today by joining expression workshops and other courses of Universal Medicine I slowly start to experience appreciating myself. In words and gestures. The difference between the way of talking about myself in arrogance was only coming from competition. Expressing about what I had done competing with others gave it the arrogant note. But simply meeting me by speaking out loud to myself how precious I am – because my body tells me so, I can connect with others from that consciousness, with me, with the all… I love to be on that way of true appreciation and self love. Fulfilling others peoples expectations was simply leading me a astray.

    1. I love what you’ve expressed here Christina – about appreciation of yourself coming across as arrogant or conceited. There’s a harshness and mean-ness in refusing to appreciate ourselves because we don’t want to be arrogant, instead of allowing ourselves the grace to appreciate ourselves just as we are, not for anything that we do.

      1. True words, Bryony! It really takes a lot of energy to keep my self small to not possibly seem arrogant. The beauty is to let go of that effort and feel how love flows.

  136. Thank you Rosemary for writing about your life. I would summarize it in your words: There is no abuse in my life – only love. What a clearing, what a change, and wow.

  137. Thank you Rosemary for your courage and honesty in sharing the life once lived. By all accounts everyone should have an appreciation of what love is, but sometimes we take the hard road of learning by living a life that is devoid of true love and when we return to what is truly a loving way, we then have the deepest knowing and awareness and appreciation of all that is love and all that is not love.

    1. Beautifully said Andrew and gorgeous, honest, courageous and inspiring writing Rosemary. Thank you for sharing your journey of appreciation with us all. You are a living miracle and I appreciate you and where you have come from to share this story.

    2. Very beautifully expressed Andrew. Sometimes we do need to feel the hard road to then return to a living a true way.
      Rosemary, it is incredible what has unfolded in your life from you fully accepting your love. Thank you for sharing.

  138. Thank you for sharing your amazing story. I could so relate to how we very quickly forget how bad we felt when we start to feel better. It felt so key making the appreciation a bodily thing rather than a mental exercise. When I feel appreciation as you so beautifully described, it brings such an immense feeling of love and humbleness.

    1. feel the same Fiona, I can easily forget al the misery I left behind. It is so important to take stock of where we have been and the choices we have made to be where we are now. This claiming and appreciation is not only healing and confirming for ourselves but it will bring us authority in how we live so we can inspire others even more so.

  139. Rosemary, I am in absolute and deep appreciation of the fact that your beautiful presence is something I know in my life, and feel deeply blessed by every time I see you. It’s tragic that so many of us live away from the natural grace of who we are, steeped in a life of pain, both physical and emotional, such as you’ve described so openly here.
    And yet, your story shows that we can all undergo enormous transformation, and return to ourselves, if we are willing. Without the changes you have willingly gone through, how bereft we would all be without your great love, shining as it does, to bless us all…
    I can feel from your words just how much Serge Benhayon and many others have meant to you in this regard. If we truly open our hearts to heal and love, we are blessed beyond measure to find ourselves again. What joy, and what profoundly deep inspiration for all.

  140. ” There is no abuse in my life – only love”. To have experienced that level of abuse that you did growing up and in your adult life and to now own and write that statement is a miracle and incredibly inspiring. And it – without a doubt – shows the absolute power people actually have to change their lives and the enormous power of what appreciation can bring you. You are a great inspiration in this world Rosemary.

    1. Sarah this is beautiful – Rosemary has shown us all in her story that we are so much more powerful than abuse.

  141. Rosemary, your story is an amazing example of the fact that no abuse is too much to turn around and heal. How you now see, acknowledge and truly appreciate how far you have come is indeed a key to the magic of God and the ever-expanding love you now live in and with.

  142. I often forget how to appreciate myself too. It has become ingrained that I don’t ever appreciate, just shrug off any great thing I do manage to notice about myself and move on. I’m not going to to do that anymore. 🙂

  143. As you say it is very easy for appreciation to be a ‘mind thing’ and it is not not until we embody it can one truly appreciate. Thank you Rosemary for such a frank article, which expresses such a deep understanding of this.

  144. Rosemary, thank you for a lovely reminder to appreciate myself for where I am now in my life,I find it is very easy to get distracted and focus on what’s not working out in life when there is so much to appreciate if I choose to do so, and the more I build a relationship with this everything else seems to fade away.

  145. I can’t thank you enough for sharing here Rosemary. I am really touched by all you have shared. I love the way you describe appreciation most of all, I have never tried to put appreciation into words but when I read your description of appreciation it felt so expansive. I can see that the beauty and love in your life a result of the appreciation you now have for yourself and continue to evolve and this is very inspiring.

  146. Your appreciation is deeply felt Rosemary and what an amazing turnaround you have made. I feel inspired to truly appreciate my life for all the choices I am continuing to make to bring the love that is me out to be felt in full.

  147. You have inspired me, Rosemary, to take some time today to deeply appreciate the life I live now because it is so very different to the life I had before meeting Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. Thank you. I can feel how healing appreciation is and find it interesting how difficult it can be sometimes to allow myself to stop and feel this.

  148. Beautiful Rosemary I could feel the expansion that you express in your body in this article and I am deeply inspired by you.
    I am also taking a moment right now to truly appreciate how I have made amazing changes in my life since being connected with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

  149. Beautiful, Rosemary. It was a joy to read your amazing journey to claiming and appreciating YOU. It’s so easy to ‘forget’ or dismiss where we have been or how we have felt and to do this, as you say, very effectively stops us from being able to fully appreciate all that we are. Thank you for sharing this Rosemary, you have really helped me to understand how I can more fully appreciate all that I am.

  150. Rosemary, thank you for this beautiful reminder to stop and deeply appreciate myself.

  151. Hi Rosemary thank you so much for writing and sharing your blog, you certainly have much to appreciate being the beautiful woman you are today. What a joy to hear where people have come from to where they are today and what an inspiration to all you offer from your lived life.

  152. As I read of your experience of the fatigue in your body – how this was the way you used to feel all the time but had forgotten, how it prompted you to shed a tear and allowed you to feel deeply the change you had made in your life and truly appreciate – I realised that allowing myself to deeply feel where I was and where I am now in my body is a great way of appreciating and claiming the change I have made and fundamentally putting the old to bed.

  153. This is a great reminder to appreciate how far we all have come. It’s well worth celebrating. Thank you very much Rosemary for writing this.

  154. Beautiful Rosemary. A testament to how much change we are capable of making in our lives. Appreciation of ourselves is key in this and allows us to focus and act from our strengths and not our weaknesses.

  155. Thank you Rosemary for showing us how far you have come, and how it is possible to change your life completely around through simply making different choices in the way we live. Appreciation is a huge part of this and something I have not quite mastered yet. I can feel how when we do appreciate we can’t help but feel how amazing we really are, and those self negating thoughts have no room to breath.

  156. Wow Rosemary, having only know you a short time I couldn’t imagine your life in the early years. You have sooo much to appreciate! It’s beautiful that you can share your story and experience and how different you are today. You’re a joy to be around and I’m thanking Universal Medicine for bringing you back.

  157. Wow, brilliant blog Rosemary. I too have come such a long way from the way I used to live. I am now learning to take time to truly appreciate how far I have come, appreciate that every choice I have made have manifested the amazing life that I live now. To appreciated everything in my life and everything around me is so awesome.

  158. Thank you for sharing so personally here Rosemary. Your Amazing life is a gift to us all, and I will stop now and appreciate my openness to heal and grow as you have. A truly inspiring blog and I agree, Serge Benhayon and his family are a gift to humanity that no one wants to decline!

  159. Thank you Rosemary. Appreciation, certainly, has been key for me as a way to avoid the pull to be in the patterns and fatigue of the past.

  160. Thank you for this inspiration! With your past experiences most people would not be where you are now. It just shows that there is always another way. You are reflecting that you are not a victim of your past but you have made the choice to deal with the past and to choose love. Appreciation is a big part of that love and this is great reminder that we should appreciate every single day.

  161. Your sharing has inspired my own appreciation. I often get stuck in the should. Thank you.

  162. Rosemary, thank you for having written your blog, it is such a simple thing to just stop and appreciate were we have come from and the choices we have made to our lives. But as you say, to stop and really feel in our bodies the appreciation – that then becomes part of our foundation, not all the hurt we have been carrying around all our lives…

    1. Beautifully said MissSpringClean, it’s so easy to focus on the hurts and not on how wonderful we are. It’s like seeing 5% of the picture and ignoring the rest. When I was growing up very little was ever said to me about how wonderful I was, and the same in my teenage years. The only acknowledgement came from what I did for others or what I achieved, but it was never for me the person. As an adult when I started to shine all I received was jealousy, so I learned that if people are aware of how great you are, they will fight you or not like you. By this stage it felt painful expressing my natural and amazing qualities. What a complicated life we have created in our communities, and how simple and nurturing life would be if as a collective we appreciated and honoured ourselves and others.

  163. I for ages hadn’t been appreciating the choices I have been making for myself as I kept such high expectations on myself, and to make things just a little harder I had the other foot still firmly cemented in you shouldn’t have done that… Crazy really.

    1. Yes it is crazy Jamie how quick we are to judge ourselves, let’s be quick to appreciate ourselves and the judgement begins to fall away.

  164. There is a beauty in us all that we indeed have too little appreciation for. Thank you for reminding us and telling us your story, it’s beautiful!

  165. I find self appreciation is not so difficult to do from the mind but is much more of a challenge to really feel genuine appreciation deeply in my body. I found your words have really left an impression on me. Thank you Rosemary for sharing your experiences in this blog.

  166. We have indeed forgotten to appreciate who we are. Not to appreciate me for who I am, is abuse in the first place and allows all the ‘outer’ abuse to take place. How amazing my life has become since I have been in contact with Universal Medicine, it shows me how much I have learned to appreciate: appreciate myself and life.

    1. ‘Not to appreciate me for who I am, is abuse in the first place and allows all the ‘outer’ abuse to take place.’ Thank you Felix for exposing the responsibility we have to truly appreciate ourselves which starves the negative self chatter of oxygen and leaves no room for abuse.

  167. Very beautiful and inspiring Rosemary. Appreciation, a great reminder for me. It feels amazing to stop and appreciate everything from small to big. I seem to have gone through life not really paying much attention to fully appreciating myself and how far I have come. Great realisation, thank You Rosemary.

  168. Rosemary Dunstan you are gold! Thank you for sharing so honestly and reminding us of how foundational and essential it is to appreciate where we have come from and where we are now. To stop and deeply feel who we are is worth appreciating.

  169. Appreciation for self is huge. I can reflect on my past and because of those past choices I made I have had a lot of self-worth and self-loathing issues. To realise this was easy, but to let go of the guilt about them I found very difficult. To accept myself and let go of the guilt by seeing how far I have come from that way of living and the loving choices I now make is truly worth appreciating.

  170. Without appreciation we can easily get lost, it is an important way to claim back the what is from the what is not. Thank you for sharing / reminding me Rosemary, I sometimes have to pinch myself to stop and appreciate how far I have come, because I have forgotten to truly appreciate how amazing life feels in my body and the clarity of my mind.

  171. Wow.
    Thank you for this amazing and inspiring blog Rosemary.
    It has made me sit back and feel how far I have come and to truly appreciate the amazing steps I have already made.

  172. Thanks for sharing your story Rosemary, appreciation is a word I have struggled with over the years, and it is easy to get caught up in the doing and not appreciating. Particularly to appreciate how things have been before, and not to forget the differences in health and vitality I feel from having made changes to my life, no longer living in exhaustion and despair.

  173. This is a great reminder for me to also look back in life and realise the profound changes I have made and feel the deep appreciation of where I am now. Thankyou for sharing your inspiring story Rosemary.

  174. Rosemary, I found your story from abuse to appreciation so inspiring and it gave me a sense of the depth of appreciation we can go to if we choose. To be able to say “I appreciate me” is so easy, but if we do not connect to us as we say it, we could be saying anything. I have come to realise I have been very dismissive, at times, of how far I have come in the last 10 years since I first attended a workshop presented by Serge Benhayon. In that time I have come to understand me so well and how I created the life that I was living and the body I had as a result. But now, if I stop and allow myself to truly feel my body and how it has changed with the loving choices I have made, I can connect to the appreciation and express it so easily.

  175. A beautiful article that shows so clearly that we can step out of the darkness into light; it is the choices we make. Rosemary you inspire me to stop and deeply appreciate all that I am.

  176. This is amazing Rosemary, I can really feel the changes you have made in your life and the deep realisation and appreciation of this, not only for yourself but your whole family too.

  177. Rosemary your story is so inspiring and has prompted a deeper honouring and appreciating of choices I’ve made. Appreciation never ends, for love never ends.

  178. Rosemary thank you for sharing. I can really relate to having things happen in your life where you feel really damaged and not sure how to move forward, but being able to really appreciate where one has come from, with the absolute loving help of Universal Medicine, Serge Benhayon and family, is truly amazing.

  179. Wow Rosemary – I deeply appreciate your honest sharing. It is a very important reminder that once we honour (are honest about) what we feel we are free to move on, or like you put it “After about 10 minutes it passed and I got up and went to work.”

  180. Thank you Rosemary, this is very touching inspiring article. Reading your article I realise more appreciation of my own journey and where I am now is needed. I love your description of appreciation, I have not had words for it… you explain the feeling so well: “it expands in my body and becomes an all encompassing love”.

  181. Such an inspiring blog.
    Taking the time to allow myself to appreciate the true extent of how far I have come is the key to allowing more of that love that I am to flow through me.
    I really enjoyed this read.

  182. Rosemary, your appreciation of yourself here and what appreciation is, is lovely. “It expands in my body and becomes an all encompassing love.” Feeling appreciation in my being is a new thing for me and this describes it beautifully.

  183. This article has allowed me to feel that if I don’t truly appreciate myself IN FULL then there is still an opening for abuse. I may have stopped the obvious forms of abuse, of drugs and alcohol, copious amounts of fatty and sugary food, or being with a partner who is clearly physically, verbally and emotionally abusive. But without a true and full and acted on appreciation of myself then I am often still allowing a moderate level of abuse. This can be abuse in the way another speaks or looks at me, not so obvious to an outsider, but a manipulation and emotional abuse that is degrading or undermining. More common hidden abuse is the abuse that I have allowed in my thoughts, of not feeling enough, being self judging or self critical. Claiming my worth, and truly appreciating the amazing and powerful person I am is what allow’s me to not only say no to any form of abuse, but it means that I do not have a sign on my forehead that say’s ‘it’s ok to abuse me’.

    1. Gosh Danielle, reading your comment after reading Rosemary’s blog is revealing the extent of my perceived difficulties in life – a lack of appreciation. Without the real appreciation of oneself we are lost to the mire of self-criticism, doubt and needing to be more. Appreciation has come up a lot this week further confirmed by this blog and reflects that life continually gives us messages that help support us with what we need.

      1. Thanks Shaven after reading all of this I have also realised that if I don’t allow myself to appreciate and value myself in full then I am actually choosing to not be myself, and I am choosing to allow a way or a being that will cause abuse and complication or disharmony with others. When I consider it like this I feel a greater responsibility to appreciate me, and see that it’s not ok to have a little indulgence in a ‘lack of self worth’

    2. Danielle, your comment here, if I don’t truly appreciate myself IN FULL then there is still an opening for abuse, really hit a cord with me. Of course, it makes sense, that if we aren’t full of our own appreciation, stuff creeps in.
      Thank-you for sharing this very true and revealing response, it is exactly what I needed to read.

      1. Pleasure, it’s sometimes a hard pill to swallow, to feel if someone is being harsh or hard with me: it’s usually because I have been this way with me first :-/ but also a great way to build honesty and awareness 🙂

    3. Danielle, thank you for your comment, I had not looked at appreciation that way but it makes sense that without it abuse can certainly creep in very easily from others. Perhaps living without appreciation is a form of self abuse, because we become so unaware of how valuable and precious we are and make choices that confirm the lack of worth we perceive in ourselves.

      1. You’ve taken this higher again here Melinda by saying that a lack of self appreciation is in fact an abuse. I love this and agree with you completely. A lack of appreciation for our strengths and who we truly are and also a lack of expression and celebration of this is a level of abuse and maybe the first place where it starts. Meaning if we choose to separate from ourselves and the preciousness we are then this is the first layer of abuse and what results in us being abusive with ourselves and the choices we make in the way we move, eat and speak, which then leads to an opening for others to abuse us. This is profound!

  184. Thank you Rosemary for such a touching, open and honest sharing of your journey. Your story, and others like it, are so inspiring for others with similar painful experiences. For those like me, who fortunately have not had such horrendous life stories, it is an inspiration of what we all have the potential of achieving.

  185. How beautiful, open and inspiring this blog is Rosemary and demonstrates what magic happens when living with self appreciation. The love you have now built for yourself can be felt throughout all that’s been expressed. Thank you 🙂

    1. What gorgeous words! I also had not stopped to appreciate how much love I have built into my life, feels like a great moment to begin appreciating all the love I now choose to live with.

  186. Thank you for your honest, inspiring and touching story Rosemary. From where I have come from to where I am now is nothing short of miraculous and so its easy to talk about appreciation and using different words to describe that appreciation, but actually taking time to stop and feel the appreciation is something different and something that I don’t do enough. Thank you for reminding me that it is worth taking the time to appreciate myself more.

  187. What I really got from reading this blog this time around was how much we have created a normalcy around not feeling well and having no energy. It has become almost strange for someone to express that they feel great or are showing signs of being full of life. That is a an appreciation I have for Universal Medicine presentations, for although I have days where I am tired, I live with a much lighter step than I did previously and have a much clearer mark of what it can mean to be fully energised and ready for each day.

  188. “When I truly, deeply appreciate, it expands in my body and becomes an all encompassing love, a love of everything I have been, and all that I am now; a love of the magic of God, and all that is done in heaven and on earth in love.” These are beautiful words, Rosemary and they are so true. This week I haven’t been self appreciating and my body has felt like a scrunched up ball of paper. Yesterday, I had one thought of self appreciation and my whole body reconfigured. I can feel my heart is warm again, my body has opened up and the hardness previously felt is melting. How powerful the shift has been from one thought… just how powerful can it be then from living everyday in self appreciation?

  189. Rosemary, I love the way you have so honestly written about all stages of your life and the appreciation of how far you have come to living a life that is loving and honouring of yourself, as well as sharing that with others in your life. Very touching and inspiring. Thank you.

  190. I can really feel the true appreciation you now have for yourself. It’s really lovely to see how we don’t have to always be the victim if we step up and take responsibility.
    Thank you for sharing – I can really relate to what you have written.

  191. How beautiful Rosemary to feel how you now cherish and appreciate yourself. Your blog gave me pause to consider and truly appreciate me, I often do it to a level but to take it deeper and feel how much I’ve changed and how much love and joy I now have in my life – thank you for inspiring me to look deeper.

  192. Just reading the comments has been moving and inspiring. I had to stop, yet again, just to feel where I am in my life now. The beautiful thing is that even though there are challenges and my mind can be very active with mind chatter, stopping to feel and appreciate the loving and responsible choices I have made that have fostered growth, I can’t help but smile. None of this would have been possible without the amazing inspiration of a man named Serge Benhayon, his family and all of the Universal Medicine Practitioners.

  193. Thank you, Rosemary, for sharing the joy you have in your life these days since you learned to appreciate yourself and the loving choices you have made. A beautifully inspiring account.

  194. An honest and inspiring blog Rosemary. I have been struggling with writing recently and this simple reminder about appreciation has brought me to a stop this morning – “… I hadn’t sat and allowed myself to deeply feel it”. It has also brought me a loving reminder to just stop and be more deeply aware of a way of thinking that has been hard on myself, and come back to appreciating just how far I have come in my own healing and the true changes I have made to my life.
    In deep appreciation of your expression, bringing so much healing to all.

  195. Thank you Rosemary, your blog is a joy to read. Your writing is an inspiration for me to stop and really appreciate how I have made changes to the way I feel about myself and changes to the choices I am making in the way I live and how this has brought true love of myself and others into my life.

  196. I too, have struggled with appreciation of myself. I can easily appreciate others. When I find it difficult, your blog has reminded me it’s probably because I’m being very heady about it. Again, I am realising I don’t give myself enough time to just sit and be myself to really feel, since I am always so busy trying to get through my list of things to do. Thanks for the reminder, Rosemary.

    1. Good point Debra, it is important to take a moment in the day to appreciate ourselves, how we feel, the choices we have made and what we have in our lives. I often find that my journey home from work gives me a space to appreciate who I am now and how far I have come from a life of self abuse to a life full of love. Rosemary’s article is truly worth celebrating as she has demonstrated that we can truly love and appreciate ourselves even when some of our life experiences have been very traumatic.

  197. It feels so good to be called back to truth and stillness by this powerfully honest and expansive writing. I have much to ponder, and appreciate as a result of having read it.

  198. Dear Rosemary, your blog is so touching and inspiring. I had to stop part way through just to appreciate where I am now and the beautiful Love I feel within. Thank you Rosemary for sharing what you know is truth. It makes a difference to many, many people.

  199. Rosemary, your article is beautifully written and I have a greater sense of appreciation from reading this, thank you

  200. Thank you for this beautiful reminder Rosemary that we can sit and feel what there is to be appreciated. I know for me it is a more tangible way to appreciate myself, even if it is as simple as appreciating the lovely way I put my tea cup down with presence.

  201. Dear Rosemary I loved reading this blog and I am reminded how important appreciation is. Your journey is one which highlights the changes we can make if we choose to and its an inspiration for all of us. Well written.

  202. I feel like I have struggled with appreciation most of my life because I have discounted, criticised or judged myself on how I live at a point in time and the choices I have made up to that point. It then becomes a mental check list to some how remind myself that what I have in my life is actually amazing and in doing this it feels empty and no appreciation can be felt. But then you offered a line that made me stop in my tracks and I sat with this article for quite some time because it started to open up a feeling of deep appreciation. The line, “But true appreciation can only be, so it feels to me, if I allow myself to truly feel where I have come from.” I wasn’t truly seeing and appreciating where I had come from to now. It’s a completely different feeling because the approach is completely different. By the end of this article I felt deeply humbled for what you have written and a deepening respect and appreciation for myself. I was seeing appreciation as a point in time. This I know is not it. Feeling where I have been is the key to unlock the true appreciation I feel for myself, and I deeply thank you Rosemary… from this place.

  203. Beautiful Rosemary. Thank you so much for the reminder to truly appreciate. This was just what I needed to read today.

    1. Yes Natalie, this was just what I needed to read today too. Last night I suddenly had an impulse to tell my partner how much I appreciated him. I felt my body expand and a flood of warmth filling every part of it. As an after – thought I added appreciation of myself, but it didn’t come from the same place, I was making myself so much less. I am inspired by what you said, Rosemary, of really taking the time to FEEL deeply a true appreciation for how far I have come in healing from within, and a deep appreciation of all around me, most especially Serge Benhayon and many practitioners and students. Thank you for writing your story, I will be keeping it by me for a while as a reminder.

  204. Dear Rosemary, Thank you for your Incredible illustration of how to appreciate ones self! I used to beat myself up when I thought how miserable I’ve been (spreading misery instead of love..) but when I chose to feel and ACCEPT where I’ve come from, how I used to live… that transformed into pure appreciation and love for myself like never before!

  205. The love you express is so beautiful and the honesty with which you share is a huge inspiration. What a journey you have been through. Thank you, Rosemary, for opening your heart and sharing.

  206. ‘When I truly, deeply appreciate it expands in my body and becomes an all-encompassing love, a love of everything I have been and all that I am now: a love of the magic of God, and all that is done in heaven and on earth in love” How beautiful this is…I feel myself expand as I read and also as I write these words. Thank you so much for this article Rosemary. This is a true gift and blessing.

  207. Rosemary, I am so glad you shared this. I am deeply moved. I have just touched on that deeper appreciation of ‘where I have come from’ which you speak of. To remember how utterly exhausted and horrible I felt and how much abuse I used to allow (but no longer allow) in my life for so long…It is this kind of appreciation which has flooded my heart with the warmth of self acceptance that I was unable to reach before. Thank you for your uplifting reflection!

  208. Beautifully written Rosemary. How you have written is very sobering. I have had times like that too where something would happen and I would remember how I was living, in pain and misery and well how basically my life was a complete mess. Knowing Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and the Universal Medicine Practitioners and modalities have completely turned my life around, my health, my relationships, my work and so much more and it doesn’t stop there it continues to expand and evolve and will do so. Yep I am with you I too have huge appreciation for them and myself and you xx

  209. Beautiful Rosemary, thank you deeply for sharing your journey and how incredible, after all you have been through to be feeling such amazing appreciation for yourself and your life. And you are not alone, as so many of the people who attend Serge Benhayon’s workshops (myself included) are also turning painful life experiences into beautiful, loving lives. You have definitely inspired us all to stop, take stock and appreciate just how much joy and harmony we now have on a daily basis, all inspired by Serge Benhayon and his relentlessly loving work.

  210. Thank you for your beautifully expressed blog Rosemary… I really appreciate your gentle and loving reminder that appreciation is something to stop and feel in our bodies… The expansion of love that comes with it is so divine… Yum! 🙂

  211. I felt your words for self appreciation. Whilst reading your blog I began to appreciate myself more and my body became more still, more present and expanded. Thank you for the gentle reminder to really appreciate all the changes we make to our lives on a daily basis.

  212. Rosemary, I love the way you write, with a gentle honesty – I could feel all your beautiful words.

    Thank you for the reminder that appreciation can only be felt and never can it come from the head. I love how the magic of God was there to show you just how far you have come. It is easy to forget or push aside how we used to be, but the experience with your shoes was such a loving example of how far you have come… I was there on the floor with you!

  213. Thanks Rosemary, I love how you have demonstrated how much we all carry from the past, and by simply allowing and appreciating brings a new level of healing… thanks and appreciation for your blog writing.

  214. Rosemary I was deeply touched by your honesty expressed in your words. What an amazing inspiration you are to others who have experienced abuse to know through their choices they also can come to deeply appreciate truly who they are.

  215. That is amazing and so are you! I had no idea who that person might be as I started reading and I didn’t know until the end when I saw your name, Rosemary. You have truly turned your life around and my own life is richer because you are a part of it.

  216. Thank you Rosemary for writing this blog. It is beautiful. I can deeply feel what appreciation is through what you have written, a great reminder that we have to truly feel in our body and not only think “I appreciate myself”. I find it is easy to just think it but it takes more to truly feel it. To me, to truly and deeply feel appreciation for myself, feels as a loving warm bubble around me that holds me and in which I can totally surrender to myself.

    1. Lieke, what a great line “…to truly and deeply feel appreciation for myself, feels as a loving warm bubble around me that holds me and in which I can totally surrender to myself.” Such a beautiful description, I look forward to this same bubble and surrender as I go deeper with feeling appreciation from my body 🙂

  217. Thank you Rosemary for this awesome blog. It has reminded me how important it is to stop and actually feel the result of the choices we have made in the past years and really appreciate ourselves for it.

    Like you I was in a very bad way when I came across Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, and like you it is becoming harder to imagine how I felt then, as life is so amazing now. But every now and then my body reminds me, and to be honest it sometimes scares me and I do not fully want to feel it as those times were very difficult. But as you say, to truly appreciate where we are today we need to feel where we have come from and not block it out. And then just celebrate the love we have and are today!

    1. Thank you CB. It’s easy to look back at my life and feel embarrassed, or feel that there is something to be ashamed of because of the many challenges I had, however that is judgement and a discounting of the person I was and the wisdom and understanding I gained from all of my experiences. Rosemary shared that her appreciation is an expanding feeling of love for all she is and has been, this is great for me to read because I have also blocked out my past, and the person I was in those periods. There was still so much to appreciate about me even in the roughest of times.

  218. In reading this Rosemary, I can feel so inspired to feel the love and appreciation in my life for where I now am but also who I am — a wonderful tender man who is amazing as he is. It is so important to appreciate isn’t it! Thank you.

  219. Wow, your story is truly inspiring Rosemary and you have shared an invaluable lesson about what appreciation is really about. As I approached the end of your article I felt much joy from reading about the transformation in your life. Such wisdom and insight from one who felt uneasy about writing a blog. Go for it!

  220. Well, that was worth waiting for! What an amazing piece of writing, Rosemary. Thank you for reminding me that appreciation is not a mental exercise, but a feeling to be deeply felt. And that when our bodies struggle, they are indeed showing us the truth of how we have lived, and giving us an opportunity to appreciate them some more! This was truly beautiful to read and feel and I deeply appreciate you sharing it.

  221. Thank you for having the courage to write this blog as I can feel more clearly from your expression what I can now do to work through what has been coming up for me lately. I would like to say I appreciate your effort very much.

  222. A truly beautiful piece of writing Rosemary, I can feel the love and deep appreciation in your words and can so relate. Having had a former life living in complete disregard to myself, your expression of appreciation is a reminder as to just how far I have come also. Thank you so much for sharing your story.

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