No Wonderland… but Loads of Wonders

by Claudia P., Bonn, Germany, Health Coach (English 2nd language)

The Queen of Alice in Wonderland said to Alice: “If you want to stay on the same spot, you have to run as fast as possible.“

And as Alice in Wonderland, I was running through my life and had always the feeling something went really wrong; so much energy and so much effort and nothing changed my state of being.

I would still run, but about five years ago I attended a presentation from Serge Benhayon.

One aspect of his presentations led to a pause to think.

My understanding of what he said was:

If at least you stay on the same spot, why don´t you choose to change the quality of you whilst you are running, walking, breathing or working? You come back to the same spot anyway.

To be honest, I felt uncomfortable because I was getting the notion of the truth in his words and had to question myself; how did I live up until this moment?

The journey began.

“Where should I go?”– Alice

“That depends on where you want to end up” – Cheshire Cat

As a goal-oriented high level athlete I thought life is about the achieving of goals.

My whole life I was running fast and training hard.

Inspired by Serge I stopped again: it is not the question of where you want to end up – it should be the question of which quality you wish to be in. How your body feels like in every moment with a constant quality – flexibility, vitality, spaciousness and full of energy.

“It would be so nice if something made sense for a change.” – Lewis Carroll

And what he, Serge, said made sense for me and I started to change. But not in a way that I quit my job or my relationship, coloured my hair and moved to another country.

I just changed the perspective – looking from the outside to the inner. And what followed was a paradigm shift of everything of what I experienced before in my life.

I started questioning my relationship to food, training, my manner of communication, and if there was a drive behind earning money. And I started to get an awareness of who I am, and if there is a “who I am” at all.

I am still a traveller, never was a follower.

Where this journey will end – I don’t know.

I am my own travel guide but on my side there is a friend who answered my every question, lends always his ear and who supported me in difficult times – unconditionally.

I would do the same… this is what true friends do.

“You used to be much more… ’muchness’. You have lost your muchness”– Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

I am so grateful that we met each other because now I have the chance to make choices of getting back to the connection of my ‘muchness’.

Thank you, Serge Benhayon!

 

152 thoughts on “No Wonderland… but Loads of Wonders

  1. I too was lost before I met Serge Benhayon and bit by bit I rediscovered myself and what I really felt about life and how I could live – the possibilities, the potential that was already here. I’m continued to be inspired to unfold, there’s constantly more of me to let out, to appreciate in full and to share with everyone. I would choose no other way to live.

  2. Claudia I loved these words ‘To be honest, I felt uncomfortable because I was getting the notion of the truth in his words and had to question myself; how did I live up until this moment?’ I too remember hearing Serge Benhayon present for the first time, and found that I had the same feeling, when you hear the truth you have to start to look at yourself, and you then have the choice to make different choices. It is a forever unfolding process.

  3. Thank you Claudia – what an extraordinary blog. As I read your words I can feel that the quality we do things in is everything. This makes me feel uncomfortable in the best possible way.

  4. When I met Serge Benhayon it was like being confronted by a different dimension. He carries such an energy of stillness and presence even though he actually physically moves quite fast, that it made me aware of a huge raciness and noise within myself. Over the years that noise has become less and less and that feeling of running has slowed down and I have started to experience more space as if time too has slowed down. The consequence on my energy and levels of productivity has been literally out of this world.

  5. What Serge Benhayon presents very clearly is a way of living that completely makes sense and it does give us the opportunity to stop and wonder what (and why) on earth we’ve been doing up to that point.

  6. “It is not the question of where you want to end up – it should be the question of which quality you wish to be in.” This sentence got me as it showed it very clearly where most of us ended up – we are more human doings than human beings – something is not how it could be.

  7. Thank you Claudia for a great sharing about coming to find your muchness. I too felt lost in life before coming into contact with Serge Benhayon, the first time I heard him speak i knew I had at last come home

  8. ‘…I started to get an awareness of who I am…’ I really appreciate this line. It’s me seeing I can be letting go of the drive in my day (got to do this, then that then etc) and allowing of my awareness of who I am. A beautiful way to live.

  9. I love how it simply comes back to the quality we are in, that is huge and lets all the goals and wishes fade into the background. Then everything I do counts, as the quality counts first and foremost and not so much what I am actually doing in each particular moment. It brings equality to life.

  10. I never read Alice in Wonderland but I can relate to the point of ‘I lost my muchness’ and I’ve got inspired by Serge Benhayon to claim it back. There is much more than I ever expected from life and me to discover, I see this more and more what this ‘muchness’ is and enjoy to discover and live it again. Live ‘me’ again – in full. Very much so. 🙂

  11. Living our muchness is living our potential. And this is making me wonder how many of us are living our potential in this world today or how many of us are merely marking time in the same place and not learning to take those extra loving and expansive steps into our muchness, our potential. Or worse, not even considering that we all equally have this abundance of potential just waiting to be lived.

  12. There is a muchness just waiting patiently for everyone to tap into it. At the beginning, the muchness seems to be something out there. Yet, the muchness belongs to us in the same way we belong to it. The only way to get there is through healing that allows a person to start feeling the walls it has constructed around it so it cannot be felt to the point that we may even deny that there is something out there. That is why, the quality in which we move makes such a difference.

  13. It does feel like so many people end up running on the spot going nowhere so it makes sense that the problem may be the quality they are running in… maybe if we changed the quality, there’d be no need for the running in the first place and more an allowing of moving with and where the quality guides us.

  14. I know that feeling of running on the spot, putting so much effort in which leads to exhaustion but nothing really changes and you don’t actually get anywhere, just go around on the same spot. But when I started see that we live in cycles and come around again to the same issue, same way of living, there is an opportunity to make different choices.

  15. Claudia, so we stand on the spot really, busy in motion to stay there and in fact why not consider how we move, the quality of it – this changes everything totally, we still move but we can begin to move with the muchness you speak of.

    1. It’s such an illusion we live in, that busyness or achievement takes us forward, that the more we do the more we are, or even that advances in technology signify movement. But what is really changing if the world is more loveless than ever? Bringing life back to the energetic quality I live from is one of the most profound and true changes I have ever made. And that energetic quality comes from my soul and is an ever deepening daily learning process for me of living in stillness, love, joy, truth and harmony. Evolution is the ongoing surrender to who we truly are and living from that place.

  16. Asking myself how I was truly living and in what quality was never easy for me either. I knew it was not something I could make up for by just doing more or being ‘good’ from then on, there was something fundamental that had to be looked at and felt, and I wanted to hide in shame and remorse, claiming it was not possible to be changed because there was something seriously defective about me – too far away from the muchness, and that’s how it began for me. And me too, I am forever grateful for encountering the teachings presented by Serge Benhayon to reconnect and live from the muchness I forgot for a very long time.

  17. We can run away from ourselves as fast as we can but we always end up back in the same place! By staying put and reconnecting back to what is inside – the magnificence and expansiveness of all the universes – everything does come round again and agin but the quality in which we are in it is the thing that deepens so what we then experience on the outside is what we are expressing from the inside. It’s beautiful.

  18. I recall my attending my first ever presentation by Serge Benahyon and everything he said made sense and it was presenting in a very ordinary way. Nothing that was presented felt like a theory, it was practical, everyday and very real. Nothing has changed, but everything has changed at the same time.

  19. Absolutely gorgeous Claudia. Changing the question from, ‘where do you want to go to’, to ‘what is the quality you want to be in’ gives a whole new and different purpose to life.

  20. Meeting Serge Benhayon and attending my first Universal Medicine workshop was the biggest ‘stop’ moment in my life and offered me the directions for the way to go that I had always craved. Since that day I have started to live those directions and I have found them faultless.

  21. Everything changes when we make it about the quality we are in and with each other and then it does not matter where we are going as it is a going together in equalness where every moment can be enjoyed.

  22. I am always my own travel guide as it is always my responsibility to make choices and nobody else’s; I cannot blame another even if I have chosen to listen to them! Yet it is humbling to admit and even knowing that all the answers are inside me and I simply need to connect to this inner knowing that from time to time I need support in my livingness from a source I know is true and am inspired by and there is no doubt that Serge Benhayon is the ‘real’ deal through the way he chooses to live love.

  23. I too was lost before I found the work of Serge Benhayon, I was literally going around in circles but even when I felt things were changing I would eventually end up back in the same spot. I was using a lot of energy, exploring many things, but not really getting anywhere. Now I understand the nature of life and evolution being cyclic, I can understand how I am coming back to the same spot over and over but there is something I can change which is the quality of energy I choose to live from (namely love) and I can finally feel each day, week and month is different. True change is happening and life is feeling wonderful.

  24. Claudia, such a simple and deeply profound blog, thank you. It moved me to tears in particular ‘it is not the question of where you want to end up – it should be the question of which quality you wish to be in’ … feeling this I realised that I’m allowing myself to be driven by outcomes and not always addressing the quality of how I’m being on the way to those outcomes, so today this sentence stopped me to feel my quality, and to understand that it’s about quality first ever and always; in how I move, how I treat myself, how I am in each and every moment, it’s that simple.

  25. So well written Claudia, if we are forever running only to get to the same spot, it does make one question why we are choosing to run in the first place.

  26. I really enjoyed reading this blog Claudia. The first sentence really struck me, because I do recall my life used to be frantic and very busy but nothing much was changing for all the energy and effort I was putting in. It did feel like I was running very fast to stand still. Its great to have people around you that pose questions you haven’t ever thought to ask yourself. These questions can be the start of making new choices.

  27. The quality we live in is so important, ‘the question of which quality you wish to be in. How your body feels like in every moment with a constant quality’, rather than just doing and driven by outcomes.

  28. Life is full of magic and wonder and so much beauty if we are open and living in such a way that is honouring of ourselves and each other. The simple fact is each and every man woman and child on this planet come from love and are love, how can we not be anything but grandness and amazing beautiful divine beings.

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