by Claudia P., Bonn, Germany, Health Coach (English 2^nd language)

The Queen of Alice in Wonderland said to Alice: “If you want to stay on the same spot, you have to run as fast as possible.“

And as Alice in Wonderland, I was running through my life and had always the feeling something went really wrong; so much energy and so much effort and nothing changed my state of being.

I would still run, but about five years ago I attended a presentation from Serge Benhayon.

One aspect of his presentations led to a pause to think.

My understanding of what he said was:

If at least you stay on the same spot, why don´t you choose to change the quality of you whilst you are running, walking, breathing or working? You come back to the same spot anyway.

To be honest, I felt uncomfortable because I was getting the notion of the truth in his words and had to question myself; how did I live up until this moment?

The journey began.

“Where should I go?”– Alice

“That depends on where you want to end up” – Cheshire Cat

As a goal-oriented high level athlete I thought life is about the achieving of goals.

My whole life I was running fast and training hard.

Inspired by Serge I stopped again: it is not the question of where you want to end up – it should be the question of which quality you wish to be in. How your body feels like in every moment with a constant quality – flexibility, vitality, spaciousness and full of energy.

“It would be so nice if something made sense for a change.” – Lewis Carroll

And what he, Serge, said made sense for me and I started to change. But not in a way that I quit my job or my relationship, coloured my hair and moved to another country.

I just changed the perspective – looking from the outside to the inner. And what followed was a paradigm shift of everything of what I experienced before in my life.

I started questioning my relationship to food, training, my manner of communication, and if there was a drive behind earning money. And I started to get an awareness of who I am, and if there is a “who I am” at all.

I am still a traveller, never was a follower.

Where this journey will end – I don’t know.

I am my own travel guide but on my side there is a friend who answered my every question, lends always his ear and who supported me in difficult times – unconditionally.

I would do the same… this is what true friends do.

“You used to be much more… ’muchness’. You have lost your muchness”– Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland

I am so grateful that we met each other because now I have the chance to make choices of getting back to the connection of my ‘muchness’.

Thank you, Serge Benhayon!