Self Esteem is no longer an Issue – Appreciating, Celebrating and Loving My Body

Self-esteem is something most people work on in their lives. But what if everything you already wanted is already within you? I was lying in the bath the other night, washing my legs, feeling super sexy, appreciating and loving my body, when I suddenly realised that “Wow, I no longer have the thoughts that I used to have”. Thoughts that had run with me from my teenage years, such as;

  •  I hate my body,
  • I wish I was thinner,
  • I wish I had someone else’s body,
  • I want longer or thinner legs,
  • I wish I had a six pack or a flat tummy,
  • I would prefer a more muscular and athletic looking body,
  • I wish that my breasts were smaller.

But now… I love my body just the way it is!

I love…

  • How my tummy has a beautiful gentleness to it and a little feminine curve,
  • That my legs are no longer hard and muscular; they may not look like a model’s, but to me they feel long, awesome and slender and are exactly the way they are meant to be,
  • My bum; it’s sexy, curvy and amazing, not pert or ‘perfect’,
  • How delicate my fingers are and my cute little toes,
  • My breasts are amazing and I wouldn’t change them for the world,
  • The graceful and playful way that my body moves.

Then I thought about other times I have felt this way, for instance when I’m in the gym and I move with such playfulness and grace and with a huge smile on my face. Long gone are the days where I’d push my body hard, training to extremes and being obsessed by the perfect body image.

A big support for me has been that I now listen to my body and have such fun in doing so. For example, I leave the gym when my body feels it’s had enough, rather than just staying another twenty minutes when my body is clearly tired. So I leave feeling full of vitality, full of me, full of joy because I have honoured my body; there’s no adrenaline buzz, exhaustion, or pain.

When I eat now there is no form of control, no obsession, no thoughts about calories, no worrying about fat, or whether I can eat this or can’t eat that, or if I eat this then I’ll skip a meal, or not eat tomorrow. I simply eat now to celebrate, appreciate, nourish and love my body, and me.

I have so much fun in doing so. I love going food shopping and cooking now, feeling what foods to buy and eat, whereas before it used to be such a chore. That’s not to say there’s days where I don’t eat things that aren’t the most nourishing and supportive, but every day is a learning – I know what I’m choosing now and most of the time I know exactly why. Before I would give myself such a hard time, which only prolonged the way I was feeling.

Now I simply say:

  • Okay – what are you doing?
  • This might taste good in my mouth but how will my tummy and body feel about it?
  • Why are you really eating it?
  • Why do you want to put this in your body?
  • Why do you want to make yourself feel awful?

… when you are worth so much more than that: learn from it and move on.

Even the way I choose to get dressed now is so different: no longer do I just put on whatever, but I take my time to choose what I really feel like wearing. Sometimes it may be to celebrate how sexy I am feeling, and this can be in jeans, a vest top and trainers, or at other times it may be to nurture me and keep me warm on a cold day; it may simply be that I feel to wear a certain colour, or it may be to honour how beautiful, feminine and delicate I am feeling. I feel so much joy in honouring this – I dress for me, not to impress or entice another. Even when I put make up on, it’s not to build my self-esteem, look better, cover up or hide what I don’t want others to see, but all of it is in celebration of me.

I can now stand in front of a mirror and claim that I am beautiful and damn sexy, whereas not too long ago I would avoid looking in mirrors as I would be quick to pick out all the faults that I thought I could see instead of seeing the true and beauty-full me.

And the amazing thing is that this love that I feel is not from anything I can do on the outside, it is something that is within me: I just need to allow myself to stay connected to it, to myself, and be present in my body.

I’ve tried so many things to feel lovely but they simply didn’t work as they came from something outside of me. They may have relieved me of feeling my hurts or emptiness for a little while, but it never really allowed me to deal with them and know that I am already more than enough. I used things like getting a new haircut, buying clothes, a new nutrition or diet fad, a thinner or fitter body to feel better, alongside all the self-help and new age stuff, but there was always an un-full-filled feeling there.

The love I now feel for myself and for my body comes from within me. There’s a fullness, a celebration, a deep feeling from inside that simply, play-fully and joy-fully wants to emanate and radiate. It is the loveliest thing and it doesn’t stop with me.

When this love and joy is felt and embraced, I can’t help but share it and feel the love in others, for in truth it’s not mine to keep and hide away. Re-connecting to myself and allowing my love to be has been a support for me to appreciate myself. There is no longer a need for me to work on self-esteem, to look a certain way but to just accept, appreciate and celebrate that I am already enough – I am amazing.

It is with love, thanks and deep appreciation of Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and Caroline Raphael, for the absolute love and truth they present, live and share, and the constant inspiration, love and reflection from other practitioners and the amazing student body.

By Gyl Rae, Student and waitress, Scotland

294 thoughts on “Self Esteem is no longer an Issue – Appreciating, Celebrating and Loving My Body

  1. The word model is an interesting one. On the one hand, we relate it to something out-standing (as in fashion modeling) or as something totally standard. Yet, in truth the word refers to something extraordinary and ordinary at the same time.

  2. Reading this blog I really realised that if you care for yourself in every aspect of your life it’s like every part is accounted for and cherished it’s like your life is a complete sphere so there’s no space for low self esteem or self doubting thoughts because every angle is taken care of.

  3. “I simply eat now to celebrate, appreciate, nourish and love my body, and me.” There is no greater diet to follow than this.

  4. Reading this morning has put a huge smile on my face. Thank you. Such a beautiful process of surrender. What I can feel is how it is simply about our commitment to just being with ourselves, being ourselves and that is all that is needed, and also how we might be setting ourselves up yet again when we try and be somewhere else while we are here – and this includes even going for ‘deeper love’. We do not have to go anywhere.

  5. It is so beautiful when a woman is in full appreciation and acceptance of her body and all her amazing qualities, the world needs to see more true role models that are claiming themselves in this way as it is deeply inspiring when we do.

  6. It all comes back to the body- the body just and exactly how it is. The power of accepting the natural divinity, beauty and loveliness of our bodies is phenomenal for women and men alike. when we accept our bodies, we accept others too.

  7. We can all too often think our imperfections are us but they are just layers of learning that are there to teach us how to let go of all that is not us so we can live more and more our innate qualities from within.

    1. I loved what you have shared Eduardo, your words are gold, there is much for me to consider and ponder. I remember recently reading a blog where a woman viewed herself on video and the change it made to how she perceived herself. I am going to do the same.

  8. It is exhausting and painful to be at war with and in judgement about our bodies. Once we start to connect to the love that we are and that can be felt in our body it seems so crazy that we ever were any other way. But this comparison and non acceptance seems to be what is more widely reflected in the media and society. Thank God to Serge Benhayon and others for showing another way.

  9. When you were talking about your relationship with your body I begun to reflect back to how I felt about myself as a teenager. Back then, every part of me I wanted to change, from my hair to my teeth, to the shape of my legs, this self-loathing continued all the way into my twenties. In fact, it didn’t truly start to be addressed until I began attending Universal Medicine presentations and then over time, all the problems I thought I had, slowly and naturally faded away. I am not saying I am totally clear of it, as I still have weak moments of wanting teeth that don’t stick out as much or skin that doesn’t get dry but over-all, I am loving myself and that is huge.

    1. This is very beautiful to read Sarah. What you shared here could be written by me. Letting go of this insidious tendecy of critique myself in whatever way, shape or form is a process for me too. But I feel very enriched by have been choosen a way of life where I can re-learn how to treat my body, how to walk in gentleness, how to appreciate the divine being that I am…sometimes is easier than others but now I know is my choice, to be loving with myself or not. I don’t know where I would be today without Universal Medicine, probably quite sad and not really as joyful and vital as I am today. So being in this process of letting go, learning and expressing more of me – the true me – is faboulous and deeply precious.

  10. Amazing how we can completely change, a reality that used to affect us so much now no longer exists. This is truly worth pondering on as how many other realities do we get stuck in thinking that things will never change…

  11. ” There is no longer a need for me to work on self-esteem, to look a certain way but to just accept, appreciate and celebrate that I am already enough – I am amazing.” Accept appreciate and celebrate are three power filled words that bring such joy when we can live them in our lives. Thank you for a beautiful sharing Gyl.

  12. There is so much in this Gyl but I felt the grown from looking for approval from outside, from others and the self-critique that went along with that. Then the relationship that was developed with you that meant there was less need to mold yourself into someone else’s picture of perfection.

  13. “But what if everything you already wanted is already within you?” It’s probably one of the hardest things to accept because when you do there is a momentum of choices to feel when you have not chosen it.

    1. It is also one of the most empowering and gorgeous things to accept and then to discover that not only everything we have always wanted but more than we could ever imagine!

  14. ‘The graceful and playful way that my body moves.’ naturally connects us to our inner essence, and we can live and express from there.

  15. It makes such a difference – where you are making the assessment from. Are we judging ourselves, comparing to this or that, looking for perfection? Or are we truly seeing ourselves, who we are, the choices we have made, and celebrating our innate gorgeousness in whatever way feels right to us?

    1. That is a key question isn’t it – where are we making the assessment from – inside or outside? And what are we comparing it to? All too often it is to manufactured image in the media…a recipe for failure right from the outset.

  16. It has taken me a long time to appreciate myself ! But I have come so far down the track since Connecting with Serge Benhayon and his presentations of the Ancient Wisdom. For many years I have hidden away behind excuses of lack of confidence, and have gradually eased myself out from under that rock!

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