I spent about 20 years of my life drinking, partying, trying to be one of the lads and having a complete lack of self-worth. I got really ill as a teenager from over-drinking alcohol, but just carried on as it was what I felt gave me confidence and was what all young people did, I didn’t know another way of being. It came to the point where I got so sick, I wasn’t digesting food properly and I had constant diarrhoea.
I decided to seek help, I was advised by a nutritionist to stop eating gluten and dairy and to cut down on my alcohol consumption. Over the next couple of years I started to feel better and decided to stop drinking alcohol altogether as I noticed how sick it made me. The problem was that this alienated my friends, all of a sudden I didn’t have a social life and my friends thought I was weird for not drinking. So even though my body was feeling better, my lack of self-worth was still there and especially now I felt like the odd one out.
I attended a Universal Medicine course and through listening to Serge Benhayon present and talking with other students there, I realised I wasn’t alone, I had finally met people who were also looking after themselves and who had chosen not to drink alcohol; I was introduced to another way of being.
Serge presented to us to feel for ourselves what our bodies were saying, which foods worked for us and which made us feel bloated or heavy.
So I began making changes. I refined my diet by feeling what foods and drinks worked for me and three years on I no longer have digestive issues or diarrhoea.
After hearing from Universal Medicine about spleen time and how it began at 9pm, I started to go to bed earlier and noticed that this made me feel much better and that I then had more energy in the day. Serge talked about the tenderness we all have in our bodies and I really felt this in my body when he was talking about it. I also had some Esoteric Breast Massages with female Universal Medicine practitioners and so have been feeling more of this tenderness, as well as a delicateness and beauty in my own body – this feels amazing, I feel like I’m losing the hardness in my body and instead feeling an elegance and grace I never knew I had.
I realise that I’m not one of the lads, I’m actually a gorgeous woman, I have started to dress differently, much more feminine, which feels lovely.
I take the time to self-massage and am much more gentle with my body, from not carrying heavy bags to driving much more gently and carefully. Through this self-care and having the support of healing sessions with Serge Benhayon and other Universal Medicine practitioners, my confidence and self-worth have been increasing hugely, I feel much more of the real me and am letting go of the trying to be something or someone else.
I have found another way of being, a more loving, more gentle, more enjoyable, true, honest way of being, of self-care, nurturing and love. My relationships have improved because I feel really well and have a lot more energy, so I’m able to love and support my family and friends more, and I have noticed that people around me have been inspired by me. And I now have enough self-worth to not worry if someone thinks I’m odd for caring for and nurturing myself.
By Rebecca Wingrave