by Elizabeth Douglas, Cape Breton, Canada
“Everything is energy” – Albert Einstein.
“Everything is energy, therefore everything is because of energy” – Serge Benhayon.
I am not writing to defend Serge Benhayon, his loving family, Universal Medicine and all that entails, or the practitioners. When energetic truth is expressed it is complete. Where lies and accusations are applied in an area of life, they have to be fed with more in order to get the attention they crave in the first place.
I write only to express my truth, without fear of being ‘found out’.
You see, I was always afraid of being found out as a child, a teenager and an adult. I always thought there was something wrong or something awful about me that lived inside me: because the outer world made me feel as if I never measured up, and because no matter what I was doing, it never was enough. And so I carried that feeling throughout my whole life – in work, in family, in relationships, in community service, etc.; not ever truly feeling safe to express my true feelings because of the response, and then my reaction to the response, whereby I would allow others to make me feel less-than or not worthy.
Most of my life I pretended everything was alright, because it was easier than being honest with myself. So like many others, I started searching for something, anything to feel loved in some way – through recognition, basically. Yet that still didn’t fill the hole inside, that empty pit that kept pushing and pulling at me.
Six years ago I found a website called universalmedicine.com.au. I couldn’t figure out at that time what I was feeling from this website as there was nothing there enticing me to buy or join… no hoopla. Yet I knew I wanted to check it out. This time, after being involved in many different modalities, teachings, workshops and courses, and hundreds of new age books, etc., I was aware it too may not fill the emptiness either, for you see I always thought someone outside of me would fill my life and make me feel whole.
I chose to listen to Serge’s audio on line for a year, to feel what was being presented. The first impression I got was of the gentleness and the integrity and yet the playfulness of Serge, and I came to feel the energetic equality that he spoke with to us all. After listening I became more energetically aware of experiences happening in my life and how I was changing, becoming more honest with me in my choices, and what was happening because of these choices. I hadn’t even met Serge Benhayon up to this point. I then chose to fly half-way around the world to Australia. Leaving a little fishing village in Cape Breton Island to attend a retreat presented by Serge Benhayon wasn’t an easy choice, yet something within knew this felt right. Did I get controversy? – oh yeah, and lots of deplorable names as well.
At the retreat Serge expressed how he had begun by connecting to himself, his true self, and how he was now sharing with whoever felt to hear what he had to say. Whether they felt it was their truth or not, well, that was fine with him. There was no judgement, no expectation, nothing… just his truth, and how refreshing that was to hear.
I am the type of person who filters what is expressed, then asks questions later. This time when I filtered what was expressed, I found I had the answers to my own questions, as Serge spoke the truth from within, which connected me to my inner self, where we are the same. I didn’t go into my intellect to try to figure out what was or was not right. Although there were many who did question Serge – and yes, lots had the same questions I had, I didn’t need them answered by him, for I am one who makes the choice to listen to my heart and feel for me what is truth or not. Serge had, without doing anything other than expressing from love and truth, made it possible for me to feel ME for the first time… and oh what a feeling!
I was ‘found out’ in that retreat – and it was awesome, because I am this gorgeous, precious human being in a female body, now feeling from a place that is being filled everyday with joy and the preciousness I am. In doing that, my search is over. I found what I have been searching for – ME – and now my choice is simple: to keep loving and adoring the preciousness I am, which in truth we all are. Take it from me as one human being to another – it is far more delicious to live with love and joy every day than to live in the misery of denial.
Serge Benhayon, with heart-full gratitude to you, to your loving family and all that Universal Medicine energetically stands for, I applaud you for standing out in truth. You have shown me, through the way you live, that I too can now know my energetic truth, and each day I choose to look deeper within to see how much more precious I am. I am joyous to have been found out – it is awesome to be out in the open again. I’m forever grateful.
The Truth about Serge Benhayon 
I agree Linda we have been so lied to when it comes to our sensitivity and preciousness, that it is almost as though we do not believe we can be this way. I’m discovering that there is a depth of quality to us all that we have not explored which is to our detriment, as we all miss out on the absolute grandness we all come from.
Elizabeth we seem to have had similar childhoods
“You see, I was always afraid of being found out as a child, a teenager and an adult. I always thought there was something wrong or something awful about me that lived inside me: because the outer world made me feel as if I never measured up, and because no matter what I was doing, it never was enough. And so I carried that feeling throughout my whole life – in work, in family, in relationships, in community service, etc.; not ever truly feeling safe to express my true feelings because of the response, and then my reaction to the response, whereby I would allow others to make me feel less-than or not worthy.”
I feel that most of us have these feelings which we try to hide from the world which then cripples us because this becomes the lived experience.
For me it wasn’t until I met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that things started to change slowly at first but over the years I have discovered that I am worthy of love and that I have something worthwhile to give back to the world.
It’s actually wonderful that we know something is missing, and we feel that so clearly from our whole body. The mind is happy with all sorts of things, but the body holds the truth, which breaks through all the beliefs about life the way it is being it, when it’s not it at all.
You are correct Melinda that we reach a point in our lives where the mind just cannot over rule what we feel in our bodies and we say there has to be more to life than this. I had many false starts with finding what it was I knew I was looking for but I eventually found Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and I have not looked back since. My body knew we all know the truth when we are presented with it. What we do with the truth when we meet it face on is a different matter because then it comes down to a choice or free will to say yes to the truth presented or not. Some do and some don’t that is free will in action.
More than worth a trip round the world for this Elizabeth, ‘I am this gorgeous, precious human being in a female body, now feeling from a place that is being filled everyday with joy and the preciousness I am. In doing that, my search is over. I found what I have been searching for – ME – and now my choice is simple: to keep loving and adoring the preciousness I am, which in truth we all are.’
I can very much relate to this; ‘I always thought there was something wrong or something awful about me that lived inside me: because the outer world made me feel as if I never measured up, and because no matter what I was doing, it never was enough.’ Reading this makes me realise that we are not accepted for who we are, that instead we make it about what we can do and achieve and so we focus on what is outside of us rather than on our qualities.