Albert Camus once said: “I would rather live my life as if there is a God and die to find out there isn’t, than live my life as if there isn’t and die to find out there is.”
I used to live as if there wasn’t a God purely because I had decided there couldn’t be one. I had spent my childhood and early teens waiting for God to speak to me; send me some sort of signal to let me know he was there. When He never did, that for me, was proof that He couldn’t exist so I gave up on him.
But looking back, God was speaking to me, sending me signals and letting me know every day that he was with me. The magic of God is all around us: in the beauty of nature, the laughter of a child, in the warmth of an embrace, in the chance meeting with a stranger, or in a seemingly random act or series of events.
So if God is in everything and all around, how come I never realised it? Was I just rubbish at listening, watching and seeing the signs? Surely not!
I hadn’t realised it because I had been sold the idea that God was some bearded old man sitting up in the sky, and that if he chose me He would boom down from upon high or send an angel as a messenger to tell me He loved me; that He knew I was a good girl and that one day I would be swept up to Heaven to be with Him.
Obviously when this didn’t eventuate I was crushed; I gave up on God and what I knew in my heart to be true… that there had to be a God.
What I didn’t know then was that the version of God I had been sold by religion didn’t exist and was a cunning trick that made me feel alone, unworthy of God’s love and separate to Him. That God was something out there, transcendent and out of reach; that I couldn’t have been good or special enough for God to notice me; that I must have done something wrong and was being punished for my sins and that’s why He never appeared to me, spoke to me, or sent me a vision.
As a little girl I would often get a feeling in my chest and body like a warmth radiating out of my heart, with tingles going up and down my spine and across my back – like the soft caress of a warm breeze had gone across my skin. A feeling of calm and absolute joy would accompany these sensations; in these moments I knew God. I could feel He was with me, inside of me, in my heart. I knew I was part of God and His love was part of me.
How terrible to have given up on that because of the deceitful teachings we are indoctrinated with as children.
I attended a workshop for the first time with Serge Benhayon in 2004 during which I was introduced to the Gentle Breath Meditation™.
After only three gentle breaths my heart burst open and that feeling in my chest and body that I’d had as a girl returned so strongly and so familiarly that I couldn’t deny it. I sat and wept, shedding tears for what I had missed, what I had always known and craved for so long – the missing link that was always there.
God had never left me or given up on me… I had. I had stopped being aware of His magic, and how I felt inside. I had “forgotten” how to connect to that feeling and in so doing shut down and denied the most beautiful part of me. The part that is from God, the part that is Love.
I no longer wait for God to come and talk to me or send me a vision. He does that all the time anyway, not with a voice or an angel but with nature, people, a warm embrace and by being in my heart. Now when I want a ‘chat’ with God I close my eyes and breathe gently, reconnecting to that feeling from my childhood and letting my heart open to my own love – the love that is God.
by Dr Rachel Hall, Holistic Dentist, Kenmore Brisbane
The Truth about Serge Benhayon 
Beautiful Rachel, this moved me deeply as I realised that by giving up on God I had in fact given up on myself and like you coming back to a connection with God has allowed me to deeply embrace myself, other people and life. I’ve always known within that God existed but I didn’t see that in the world or at least not in the expectations that abounded around me as to what God is; and that’s the rub, for all of us know God exists and the only way we can give up on that is to be fed a false idea of what God is, something which God is not, and we then give up, so we walk away but God never does and he’s ready and waiting once we are. We are held in such immense love.
I remember asking God for things and not getting the answers I wanted as a child. I have realised now how listening to God and to the constellations of the stars requires my connection to my innermost feelings so I can understand the answer I need, not necessarily the answer I want.
‘… my own love, the love that is God’ that is deeply beautiful. God never leaves we do and we can return at any time.
God never turns his back on us, it is we who turn our back on him and then arrogantly hold him accountable for our chosen blindness.
I had a ride in a taxi today and the driver was listening to a religious channel. There were about 4 songs that played, all of which reflected that God and Jesus were there to save us, that all we needed to be accepted was their love, and that they were euphoric. And it was very interesting to observe and listen how we are spoken too – that God is, in fact, superior and to be worshiped. Not one of them mentioned that God is equal and within us all. It felt so very different to the way that Serge Benhayon shares about God.
Sometimes we can be so blind to God who is all around us and within us. The more we connect with ourselves the more we get to see the wonderment that is God.
Man I love the gorgeous simplicity of this blog. I love the absoluteness in it too because although confronting in the sense of the responsibility we have and how it is in truth all a choice to be with ourselves and hence with God or not, it is also just a choice! And a very simple one too that we can make out every day.
These days I feel that feeling you described in your body on a regular basis. And the joy I feel when recognising those messages from God are really beautiful. It’s getting to the point where this is normal and rather than the answer to ‘How are you?’ Might be ‘fine thanks’ it’s becoming normal to be joyful and awesome knowing God is within and around me.
How beautiful to know that God never leaves us and that we can feel our godliness in every moment.
Very gorgeous Rachel and the quote brilliantly exposes the relationship with God most of us have experienced. As with you, I also remember as a child knowing and feeling God was within me, with a warmth like the sun. As I grew up this sense of connection was not reflected as a way of living around me, so I opted to fit in. There is no doubt that we all felt our Godliness when we were children but have succumbed to a way of living that precludes the presence of God. Is it that we choose the road that is seemingly more comfortable and convenient so as to evade the responsibility we hold when we claim our rightful way as the equal Sons of God? Though the truth be known, we can never escape being who we are, as our bodies are most lovingly letting us know.
The Gentle Breath Meditation allows us to feel the unconditional love of God flowing through us with every breath.
It’s quite amazing to reflect on the fact that by coming to the work of Serge Benhayon and the Gentle Breath Meditation we return to God inside of ourselves… now that is something huge to appreciate. What an incredible gift to the world Serge is.
It sure seems that we are sold a lot of ideas, ways, methods and paths to God. No one can sell us what already exists in our hearts, no matter how they dress it up, or try and dress us down as the case may be.
Traditional religion has made God something special that you need to strive and be deserving of. Through the Gentle Breath Meditation this concept is demolished in minutes. The inner connection is all that is needed to know God.
It is easy to want to think there is no God, or that we have been let down by God – what we don’t consider is that it is easy to also feel his presence but it requires us to connect to what we naturally feel.
It is such a painful moment when we realise how much we have been looking and searching for a connection that was always with us because we failed to trust our own knowing in favour of what we were told by another. It would be great if organised religion didn’t do that but unlikely, therefore we have to live and breath that connection for others to see it is inside us not outside.
So gorgeous, we are all knowing of god and what he represents here on earth. Showing us all in humbleness that which is true, and that we are so much more than we have come to believe.
As a child I too used to wait for God to speak to me or give me a sign that he was there. For a while as an adult I rejected God and was an atheist. In more recent years I have connected to the fact that God is not out there, or separate from me, but is a part of me as I am of him and that I can choose to connect to that in every moment.
I love the magic of God everywhere, ‘The magic of God is all around us: in the beauty of nature, the laughter of a child, in the warmth of an embrace, in the chance meeting with a stranger, or in a seemingly random act or series of events.’
“Letting my heart open to my own love – the love that is God” – so simple, so beautiful, and so contrasting to what we have been led to believe – that God is some old guy who has got a favourite son and basically is not approachable for anyone else. Really dread to think spending life times holding onto that image not knowing/accepting God is really only just a breath away.
“Now when I want a ‘chat’ with God I close my eyes and breathe gently, reconnecting to that feeling from my childhood and letting my heart open to my own love – the love that is God.” How simple it is to be with God and we have made God into so many things he is not.
‘God had never left me or given up on me… I had’. This is how we trick ourselves – we think because human life is full of imperfections it is somehow Gods fault – which totally removes the responsibility of the choices we have made in the equation of life.
I so agree! it is so much easier to say God has let us down, how could he allow such evil in this life? but humans are the ones doing the evil. It is such an abdication of responsibility to consider otherwise.
The feeling of love inside, unrelated to a particular event, place or person, simply from that connection that is you and you as part of the divine we are all from is the grandest feeling. For that to come from the simplicity of the gentle breath meditation, is indeed worth crying over. How do we find ourselves walking away from that?
I gave up on God too feeling he had abandoned me and left me all alone in a world that did not support you to be who you truly are – a divine child of God…..I was a lost child with no true home, but the day did come when it was time to come home – that was the day I met Serge Benhayon and spent 10 days in his grace on a course run by Universal Medicine. That was the beginning of walking the many steps in my return path to Soul.
I wonder if one day it will be considered a crime against humanity if religious doctrines try to tell children that they aren’t also the sons of god? Allowing children to fully embrace the truly beautiful description you offer about the confirmation in your body of knowing and being a son of god. This is what true religious teachings are about and available to everyone equally all the time.
Let’s not allow the church to steal it from children any longer.
Camus certainly had a point, and considering the wealth of ancient wisdom that points us squarely into the arms of divinity, it’s a pretty safe bet!
I know the feeling of realising that waiting for God is a total ‘red herring’. It is an absolute joy to discover that God is with-in me 24/7 in every moment. This is without except and without fail. If I think I’m missing out then it is because of the resorting to the mind and not connecting to my heart where God is, fully open and ready in equalness.
Beautiful Rachel; how very gorgeous and reassuring to absolutely know that God is always there, will never leave and will never give up on us. It is a simple choice we make in every moment, to walk with God or not.
I was somewhat the same, I didn’t really think that God was around, that he existed. I didn’t grow up typically religious, so wasn’t indoctrinated with all the usual things related to God, So didn’t give him much air time. However, I did always get the sense that I belonged to something far greater than what I could see around me, what i can now reflect back on and feel is that I did feel the connection to God and everything else, it was a warmth inside, in my heart and this actually never went away.
We have to be aware of something. If we confine ourselves to our earthly physical existence, to what us as mere human beings can tap into and, if we accept that God is outside of us somewhere, we will never find/feel God again. Yet, if we are willing and able to give it a go us as divine beings and feeling God via the connection with our divinity, a door opens up and we realise that we walk with God and that God walks with us, even if we walk away from Him.
I can relate to this line Rachel ‘God had never left me or given up on me… I had. I had stopped being aware of His magic, and how I felt inside.’ I also gave up on God and then blamed him for everything that didn’t go my way; through my stubbornness I disconnected from God and turned my back on him. Of course that’s when life got more complicated and difficult for me and it wasn’t until I met Serge Benhayon that it was clear my disconnection to God was the missing link for me, I then began to re-connect back to God and this was a huge turning point in my life and has been beautiful and life changing for me ever since.
I find it simply a choice to give permission for God to be with me, and another. What I have not accepted so strongly is that I can always choose it. It is not limited to ask for his guidance and love for I am always held, it is my choice if I allow it or not.
The sweetness you share with is a delight to feel Rachel. Your blog reminds me that we all know God inside and out. It is we who construct ways of denying his existence because if we acknowledge the truth about God we must acknowledge our equalness and responsibility.
This is a really beautiful sharing thank you Rachel, and yes interesting how we can think God has given up on us when in reality we have done so, ‘God had never left me or given up on me… I had. I had stopped being aware of His magic, and how I felt inside.’
Giving up on God is giving up on overselves, it’s the most isolating, selfish and separating thing to do.
This is a beautiful description of God and I love the fact that it is experienced through the body and not the mind – “As a little girl I would often get a feeling in my chest and body like a warmth radiating out of my heart, with tingles going up and down my spine and across my back – like the soft caress of a warm breeze had gone across my skin. A feeling of calm and absolute joy would accompany these sensations; in these moments I knew God. I could feel He was with me, inside of me, in my heart. I knew I was part of God and His love was part of me.”
Gorgeous to read this again Rachel, I especially loved the understanding of how God communicates with us all: ‘I no longer wait for God to come and talk to me or send me a vision. He does that all the time anyway, not with a voice or an angel but with nature, people, a warm embrace and by being in my heart’.
Gorgeous Rachel… a simple account of making God real and tangible in your life, thank you.
The day I felt how I was the one that had left God, not he who had left me was life changing. It’s still something I have to remind myself of on days when I elude myself that I am alone.
I had never heard of this man until this article, “Albert Camus once said: “I would rather live my life as if there is a God and die to find out there isn’t, than live my life as if there isn’t and die to find out there is.”” It’s an interesting spin on how we see life. Many of us may like to live as if there is no God or only believe a version of God that suits us or suits us to live a certain way. I watched myself and even when I didn’t believe there was a God I still looked for him and was confirmed by him. It was amazing to see that even when you are shunning something like God or ignoring him things still happen around you that you see that confirm there is a God and you take them in but then say to yourself ‘but there still is no such thing as God’. I could see at the time I was hurt, hurt from what I had been told from young. I was reacting to the feeling of something grander and yet never seeing this confirmed growing up. People gave me many versions of life and yet I had a version inside that didn’t have parts and was complete but I couldn’t see this happening anywhere else and that hurt. I chose to be hurt and then to carry this into my life and turn away and run from what I felt in place of standing firmer and firmer in simply what I felt. Thanks to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon I have returned to that feeling what I was younger and know not only there is a God but my relationship with him is very very close and detailed. My God isn’t better then someone else’s nor does it hold beliefs around how you should be. God takes in everyone and everything and it’s not up to me to convert or convince only live what I feel and allow others to do the same.
A beautiful sharing Rachel. How fortunate are we to have Serge Benhayon in our lives to remind us of what our inner most knows but has forgotten.
It’s important to write, speak and live God how he truly is as is described here. I was sold a picture and I bought it and waited for God to come to me. When he didn’t arrive in the way I pictured I was disappointed, dismissive, upset and walked away hurt. Once I listened to Serge Benhayon everything made sense and I can see God for what and who he truly is, no more pictures. I was looking in all the wrong places not by accident, this was deliberate and this pushed the control that was had over me. Breaking free and being able to breathe and see what is truly around me is supporting me to see more and more of God. It’s funny to look back and see the way I was trying to look was actually stopping or preventing me from seeing. God isn’t a picture but an energy, an energy that is alive in us all we only need know how to connect deeply to it.
‘letting my heart open up to my own love, the love that is God’ absolutely captures God and how we are all a part of God, held in the embrace of God and how in fact despite all the falsehoods and ideas spread about God as this distant figure of whom we’re not worthy to connect with, God is there really and waiting for us to in fact see that God has never left us, he’s there for us when we’re ready to be and see that we are of God, an equal with God, and no matter what God is always there.
That seems to be a common theme that we as children already know God intrinsically. We don’t need to go to church or talk to a clergyman and when we do we end up second guessing this innate knowing and losing our way. Then the complicated walk back to the path. Thank god for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine with his consistent support and steady wisdom he has shown and continues to shine a light to bring those who have strayed back to the flock. A sincere, and true, ever loving , ever watchful shepherd.
The idea that we have to wait for God to come to us is actually devastating humanity which we can see so clearly in our nowadays societies. The wars and fights, the corruption and greed, the bullying, the increasing rates of illness and disease to name a few, are signs that we are not doing so well. While we all are pointing outwardly that someone has to do something against all of this we forget that all the answers are already inside of us. When we connect with our inner heart, we will find God and the love that will save us from all of the waywardness we have went into because of us waiting for God to come and save us instead.
The images of God that are promoted in this world make sure that we cannot recognise that He communicates with us. It is a bit like we are expecting for Him to talk to us in a radio frequency but He speaks in a different one. That is why we never hear from Him.
Indeed, Eduardo, it is our attunement that is a little off the scale in our attempts to connect to God and the images that are presented to us are an important contribution to this.
I had a similar path with my relationship with God. After knowing God without a doubt as a child, I considered myself agnostic in my 20’s. That was not because God had changed but I had ideas about what God should be doing for me in particular and people in general. This was the proof I was looking for, that God met my conditions. It has been through Universal Medicine and shedding these false beliefs and expectations and getting to know my body, oneness and divinity again that I no longer need proof of any kind.
I like this quote by Albert Camus. How much richer is our life feeling divinity, the universe, oneness and the grandness of the ‘more’ to life? It’s funny that we argue about this existence or non-existence of God, when that quality can be so easily felt within us all, as it is part of our make-up. This argument is a bit like reincarnation. I would rather live like I am coming back and have to take responsibility for how I live this life, than be reckless and come back with lifetimes of karma.
God is pouring out love in abundance and exquisite quality, if we buy into the mis-representations of god by organized religions it cut us off from a natural connection with god, and thus ourselves, and each other. I love how you described being touched by god and it was felt deeply in your body, it exposes clearly what is the truth of god, and what is definitely not.
How can we turn our back on God? I did because I felt betrayed but that was my own doing. When I was a child there was no doubt who God was. It was simple, natural to feel God within me and around me. I couldn’t understand what the big deal was but that started to change as I attended Sunday school and regularly went to chapel. As I reflect I wonder if this was the point where my confusion and bewilderment began and I started to give up on life and being here. How could I commit to life if God was someone up in the sky that was out of reach and that was never going to be tangible? I had allowed myself to fall for what I know now and knew at the time a lie but thankfully after coming across Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine my relationship with God has been restored to when I was a child and continues to develop in my livingness knowing that I am a son of God.
Funny how you believe what you are told when you are younger and when you get older it plays out the same way and still you don’t question it. It’s like you are sold something that didn’t feel right at the start and yet over time it wears you down and then you think it must be true. I remember challenging who God was when I was younger and being shut down for it but yet when I grew older instead of returning to what I was feeling and working it through I chose to still believe what I was told back then and allow it to play out in my life. I believe there couldn’t be a God and then also at times I would plead for him to show me something. So I didn’t believe and yet did believe. Frankly I didn’t know what I was doing, I was confused and yet if I had chosen to feel deeply what was going on I would have known I see God everywhere. Universal Medicine cleared the way for me to see God again and support myself to see why I had lost him from my view. God is a feeling, a connection to a deeper part of yourself that allows you to see the connections we have to everything. You can live in the same world you did but feel and see it completely differently. The current forms of Religion don’t own God and in fact deliberately take you away from the truth as they did with me. At their core the messages are the same and yet their current teachings are all different and have lost their essence.
A most beautiful sharing of God, one we all need to hear. Thank you Rachel for breaking through the picture that we have God made to be.
A beautiful sharing and reminder of the simplicity joy and warmth of connecting to God I love it Thank you Rachel “The magic of God is all around us: in the beauty of nature, the laughter of a child, in the warmth of an embrace, in the chance meeting with a stranger, or in a seemingly random act or series of events.”
Why wait for God while he is in us all the time. Living like if God is someone outside and something we have to deserve or to combat for is devastating the human being to the extend we clearly can see in our societies. Peolple are lost in themselves and sometimes even the most basic human values and dignity are not be able to be lived anymore. While we are so rich from the inside, if we not connect to that, we can feel very devastated and poor.
Beautiful and simple, this is my experience of God, from within and around me, I had managed to forget that it was so simple, but I am reconnecting, I feel that warmth in my chest and the more I honour that feeling the more I feel connected.
Its revealing to know God exists and our connection to that love is subject to our choices.
It is crazy how we create expectations based on beliefs then walk away when they are not met… and usually at our own expense. How gorgeous that you were reintroduced to the magic you had lost through the simplicity of your own breath and were able to reconnect back to feeling what you always knew was true.
The Magic of God is all around us and available 24/7, we just need to open our eyes to this fact and it is all there to be seen and appreciated with every move we make and every experience we have.
What happens if we seek something we already have inside us? We create the illusion that we don’t have it and then we live from the belief that it is missing. Is it possible that God is never absent but that we have ‘learned’ to seek Him and have therefore created the false impression that he is absent?
who would have thought… That a doorway to the kingdom of heaven lay in gentleness… It does however sound very familiar.
There are laws in the universe and beyond that we live within and everything within also needs to follow these laws, including us and including God. Therefore it’s interesting to ponder on why we reach the conclusion that God must not exists because he is allowing this and that to happen in the world, I know I considered this for a time. But what if we consider that we are living in a way that is going against these laws of the universe? Given that how could we then expect God to “save us”. Maybe that’s our job.
All so very true Rachel and also my experience of ‘waiting for God’ under the lure of a false image that has been fed to us. The same could be said of love…it is not what we are being sold; an emotional Hallmark card based on need and attachment, it is simply who we are and what we are made of, a divinity we can never erase no matter how far we may choose to stray from its expression. God never walked away from us, it was we who walked away from God. And all the while in this waywardness, we are still held by these great arms of love, the majesty that is Thy Father, only ever a breath away.
There are so many pictures of God that we are sold via religion. These pictures take us outside of ourselves, searching, looking and waiting to hear from Him. Within that search we miss the connection that is easily accessible. God is right there within and it only take a brief moment to stop, pause and reconnect. After all we are the Sons of God living inside his body.
“God had never left me or given up on me… I had”. The day I had this realisation was the day my life was turned upside down in a most spectacular way, and I am so glad it was as the way I was living, in denial of the God that I innately knew as a child, was a most empty way to live. And now I know that emptiness that I spent so much time trying to fill from the outside was simply my separation from me, and from there, from God.
As you beautifully say Rachel, God never leaves us.. it is we who separate from God within and all around us, when we disconnect from ourselves and the love we naturally are.
As I awoke this morning to the most amazing sunrise, a beautiful clear day, and glorious welcoming chorus of birds, I deeply appreciate the magic of God all around me.
Rachel I agree and know this to my core, that it was I who was not discerning the loving nature of God always present within me, from another energy that caused self doubt, lack of self worth and all the behaviours to seek validation from other people. As that love has become stronger, the choice has become more evident and so has the truth that I always have a choice.
No need to wait for God, our choices determine the connection
God is like Love – always there for me, in fact it is me. To avoid it, is to avoid the responsibility it comes with. And all the joy it carry as well for me. I can’t have one without the other. So it is interesting why I still choose so often the suffering, just to avoid the responsibility. But – as you said, the grace it that it is always just a breath away and by and by I become more familiar with choosing to express the love that I am anyway.
How amazing that we actually have a choice with every breath… to be or not to be.
With all that is done in the world in the name of ‘God’ or in the name of ‘religion’ it is no wonder many people have reacted and thought ‘how on earth is there a god when this happens’. Like the belief that if God would ultimately control it all. What I love the most about this is that God leaves us to make our own decisions and to live our own lives so that we do eventually come to understand that God is in fact within each and everyone of us. To me this is love, absolute love; totally unimposing and totally knowing that we will all again return one day to this love that is God but is also who we are.
Oh yeh – how many of us can relate to finally, after many years of soul searching, coming to this “God had never left me or given up on me… I had. I had stopped being aware of His magic, and how I felt inside. I had “forgotten” how to connect to that feeling and in so doing shut down and denied the most beautiful part of me. The part that is from God, the part that is Love.”
We’e waiting for God when the truth is it’s the other way around and he’s lovingly waiting for us.
It’s interesting how and why we resist the love of God that we really do know in truth is ever present.
Exquisite, when I read this this makes total sense to the feeling of God, Love and Religion. The other bastardized versions actually never made sense. As how can love be an image? Picture? or Ideal or Belief? As love is always in one’s heart and not one’s mind. Equally thanks to Serge Benhayon I was remembered of the feeling again – and can now say that the other rules, images, beliefs about God that I had fallen for before – are not feeling real to me anymore.. And so I found an opening in my heart to the divine. We all are this.
I love returning to this blog and have observed it usually happens after I feel bombarded by the world and have allowed myself to be taken out or separated for my connection to my heart. The simplicity and reminder of the warmth and love that is God written of within this blog brings me back to my solid connection to God within me. Gorgeous blog Rachel – thank you.
It is an abomination that we are taught from young to disconnect from our innate knowing of God. Institutionalised religion and our education system which is all about performance and not about the person have a lot to answer for here. Our divine essence is raped and pillaged from very young.
But what is important to consider is our part in this — the fact that those systems that govern today’s society have been created as a result of our collective choice to do so. There’s no blame here and no victim — simply a remembering of what we deeply miss as Rachel has shared here, and then saying Yes to claiming it in full back in our lives.
‘I sat and wept, shedding tears for what I had missed, what I had always known and craved for so long .’ Your tenderness and vulnerability speaks volumes Rachel — God speaks through you in this beautiful piece of writing.
‘The Kingdom of God is Within You’ and ‘Be Still and Know I am God’ are two sayings that have been with me all my life – and longer it feels. Throughout my upbringing I had a sense that there is deep truth in these words, despite the reinterpretations that abound in our world. To come home to the realisation that the Kingdom of God truly is within us all is no great surprise and that through our breath, we can connect with stillness in our bodies and our Oneness with Him just feels like a confirmation of those two sayings. The notion that God is aloof and distant is not true in my experience. He is right here with us, feeling everything we feel, sensing everything we sense, ready to welcome us back to His loving Beingness when we choose to make it so. Connecting with God is a very normal thing to do – for anyone and everyone.
Beautiful Rachel. Yes, God has not abandoned us and cannot abandon us. His Presence is everywhere. It is we who have ‘walked away’ from him with beliefs and ideals that cut us off from the awareness of His Beingness. And it is we who can choose to reconnect to His Love with the simplicity of a breath. How glorious.
I’m deeply moved by this Rachel. It’s brought tears to my eyes and a familiar ache that I too turned away from God – waiting for him to prove his love for me in the old-bearded guy illusion of this, so like you, when he didn’t I took on the belief that I was not worthy of his love. This stuck for a long time. When I did realise God is everywhere and talking to me all the time, I felt shame at having turned my back on him and then later, a feeling of needing to make up for this somehow, to do penance. But with The Way of the Livingness, there is no penance, only understanding and acceptance of what has come before and a commitment to connecting to ourselves consistent to the best of our ability. Now there is magic all around in my life – God speaks.
I am blown away by the beauty you share here Rachel. You show that God is more accessible than anyone and available to us 24/7 if we simply connect. When I allow myself to feel the truth of this things that seemed difficult become easy and my body feels lighter and more supportive.
This blog feels like it is flicking switches on all the way through it, I love it, the simple and straightforward truth we all know and so deeply miss.
“So if God is in everything and all around, how come I never realised it? Was I just rubbish at listening, watching and seeing the signs? Surely not!” Thank you Rachel. This really struck a chord with me. Surrounded by the wonder of nature while walking bathed in warm sunshine among the trees, through a meadow ablaze with wildflowers with butterflies dancing from flower to flower to the accompanying music of birdsong you feel the presence of God but when you are being jostled while walking in a busy street with concrete under your feel it can be easy to not feel the loving presence of God because we have lost connection to our own essence of love that is who we are in our inner-heart wherever we go when we breathe our own breath.
“God had never left me or given up on me… I had. I had stopped being aware of His magic, and how I felt inside. I had “forgotten” how to connect to that feeling and in so doing shut down and denied the most beautiful part of me. The part that is from God, the part that is Love.” I had done this too – so good to reconnect….
Great comment Lee, this is so true. I have invested into the many pictures of what life is and who God is in the past. I have now realised more and more that these images are not true or loving. The images we receive in our mind are mostly, if not all, distorted to take us further and further away from truth. The responsibility is ours to discern what truth is and what is not.
I’ve read your blog a few time Rachel and every time it is as incredible as the last. I can so relate to how you were waiting for signs from God to prove that He does exist. I was exactly the same and I was also put off by religion because of how God was portrayed. Now through The Way of The Livingness and Universal Medicine I have reconnected to my inner knowing that God is and has been with me all along. It is through healing my hurts that I have allowed myself to feel God’s presence within and all around me.
Yes Suzanne, it is a tragedy that we learn to shut down to the magic of God and it takes a lot of reminding and remembering to claim it back as part of our lives again.
It is interesting how the more we lose the connection to our divine nature the more we need stimulation from the outside to make our life fun and worth living. And the more we choose to return to live in sync with our divine nature the more we are content with our own breath, enjoying the simplicity of life and the deep stillness within.
I love what you share here Rachel and Alison – it is so worth returning to a life of simplicity and connection to our innate divinity.
great article Rachel. When we are young it is very unlikely that we are confirmed in our connection with God, we have a system of parenting children where parents don’t sometimes see the amazing gift they have been given, and in truth these messages are coming form all around. Not being confirmed in our connection with God deeply hurts. Everything that starts to bombard and intrude our natural way of being is asking us to disconnect from God, and play ball with the systems.
‘ letting my heart open to my own love – the love that is God’ – a beautiful quote that encapsulates how to reconnect to ourselves and who we are – and from there to where we’re from.
My connection to God used to be a mental one. I could feel his presence but I wasn’t letting him in. Lately, as I surrender more to love, I could feel how I kept him at arms length as I dithered on the threshold. As I feel him now and I choose to let him in, I can feel that in every single moment I am being absolutely showered by his love. Showered. In buckets. Again and again.
Thank you Rachel for the beautiful reminder that our connection to God is with us always and through the Gentle Breath Meditation we can experience a deeper connection with God that continues to grow and expand.
When the people who make up their stories about God, aren’t truly connected to him, they cannot but concoct lies. Serge Benhayon has a connection to God that is tangible. It is scent in everything he says or writes or how he moves. That’s how I rekindled my own connection to God.
This is a beautiful blog to start the day with Rachel. I battled for many years to make sense of God but at last I found the answer. God is in each of us.
What a beautiful and inspiring blog Rachel. My childhood memories have bee reignited. As a little girl I would often play in nature and feel such warmth in my heart. I never could pin point what that feeling was but knew it felt safe and was with me all the time. Your blog is a reminder that God is within us all.
I love the way you write, Rachel.
It makes me recall my relationship with God, how it was developing.
I didn’t know about God till I was 9-10 years old. Then I saw a picture with a man walking on water. I was told that it is God. I thought ” Well…” The same with beareded old man in the clouds.
I just didn’t trust that God can be just that.
Later on in my thirties I started reading Blavatsky books and bible and everything come to the place. I started seeing and experiencing God in everything around me. When I was connecting to this it felt very expanding and “bubbly” in my body. I knew that God in everywhere, in me too.
Sometimes I was so deep in my troubles that the only God was there to talk to. I never expected to hear His voice but very often if not always my prayers were answered.
Twenty years later I know that I am surrounded by God’s love- inside out and it is up to me embrace this love and live it.
Wow, beautifully expressed Elena
I was sold the same story when I was a child. I had been waiting for God to tell me my purpose for being here and what it was that I was to do. The message never came and in my mid teens I blamed God for an incident and decided to end our relationship. The first time I attended Universal Medicine I could feel everything that naturally was not me. I was like a fish out of water but the room felt so gentle and safe and Serge’s presentation made sense and felt familiar. Now I’m becoming aware of how I have been treating God and how hurtful that has been for both of us. From this I choose to deepen my connection to God through trust, acceptance and love. The deeper my connection the more messages I receive from God.
Thank you Rachel for the reminder – God never leaves us, it is us that gives up on God. As you have clearly confirmed – ‘Now when I want a ‘chat’ with God I close my eyes and breathe gently, reconnecting to that feeling from my childhood and letting my heart open to my own love – the love that is God. A Beautiful and Healing Blog.
This is a great reminder for me too ch1956, and I love the simplicity of being able to re-connect back to God (in truth the connection is never ‘not’ there, just whether or not we are aware of it) via the gentle breath…
Yes, I agree ch1956 I felt the same about this awesome blog. I can appreciate the similarity in how I also related to God prior to The Way of The Livingness. I was waiting for a major sign from God yet I wasn’t aware or noticing any signs from Him until I started to become more aware of who I am.
I sometimes wonder how it all started, this story about the old man with the long beard sitting on a cloud etc. It must have been a very lost person. What I learned by observing Serge Benhayon is: be myself and thus get to know God myself. That’s very practicle and tangible and fits in my modern daily life.
That’s the beauty of God , he is always there lovingly holding us no matter what lifestyle we lead. It’s us who decide if we include him in our lives or not.
You made me smile Felix, and I agree, having your personal relationship with God is a more practical and tangible fit for our modern life, and saving us from going to the church to talk to a middle man instead of having direct communication.
We can say there is great evil in any murderous and abusive act and there is, but far far greater and more devastating is the evil of lies and distortions and manipulated truths as when these are adopted, they can cause separation that can last generations
Yes Joshua, to bring up a child asking it to revere another person, like a priest or a rabbi or even a superstar is completely distorting its natural connection with the divine and its knowing of the universal order.
Thank you for expressing this Catherine as I can feel what you say now also. Others expressing on top of Rachels’ beautiful sharing builds the love further and we feel the presence of God, the stillness of this presence and how this love connects us with others.
I love how the gentle breath meditation allows us a moment to stop, connect and feel the quality within that is the presence of God, then we realise we don’t need any beliefs just presence with ourselves.
I agree, God is always there. It is us who decide not to feel and see his presence, instead holding on to hurts not wanting to see what is all there to see, only wanting to see what we select to see.
Yes, what a cunning deceitful trick it was, to be sold a distorted version of the truth just to deter us from finding that greatness that we are a part of.
Even though we were sold these lies we eventually found the truth and our lives have become so enriched from this discovery. Lies always get exposed and one day everyone will know the truth.
Thank you Rachel, I love now how there has been the opportunity through the teachings of Universal Medicine to reconnect to how God felt and was for me as a child, but was denied for a few years as I couldn’t feel in life and in conversations with others how God could fit in. Of course he doesn’t have to it is just me simply accepting my relationship with him and feeling this presence everywhere. This is magic!
It is true that the version of God we are sold by many established religions is a picture of God that does not exist; a picture that we perpetually try to live up to, but something that can never be obtained. To know God in one’s heart, to see it in another, in the embrace of a smile, to mantain that connection even in life’s ebbs and flows is the greatest relationship that ANY AND EVERYONE can have with God.
That is beautiful Rachel, thank you for sharing. I just feel so much joy when I connect to the warmth in my heart and feel God within.
Thank you Rachel for sharing your return to the most beautiful part of you, the part that is from God, the part that is love and your connection to yourself through the Gentle Breath Meditation. As a child I knew the magic of God but I never valued myself as part of the equation due to the fact that I felt I was not enough. Thanks to Serge Benhayon I am now getting to know myself as an equal part of the equation
Just gorgeous Rachel. I too have learned that the Magic of God is in the simplest of things and expecting him to communicate with a big production number is just not going to eventuate, his messages are much more subtle. This realisation you had warmed my heart, a heart that like yours was opened wide by that first Gentle Breath Meditation; “I knew I was part of God and His love was part of me.” Yes – it is that simple.
What a beautiful blog, Rachel. I recognised the indoctrinated version of God you mentioned and also how debilitating it is when you realise you walked away from something way deeper, grander and of absolute love that’s actually been with us all along.
Once we relearn the language of God we see how much his talking to us all the time.
Thank you Rachael, your blog offered me a moment with my child self and how I also knew God well before the teachings of other untruths. It’s a major turning point when one realizes that we were the ones that turned our backs on God not he on us.
This is beautiful, simple and true. I can so relate to your words here Rachel, “God had never left me or given up on me… I had.”. When I make God an exacting task master there is no joy and I become very exacting with myself and everyone and everything around me. When I am kind and loving towards myself, and connect again, God just is, in everything around me and within me.
Felix, this is such a valuable point. It’s very painfull to not being met for who we truly are and feeling how people give up on us. After having given up on myself and healing this I feel how grucial it is to meet people even when they are totally given up, as this reflects them that someone IS there, CAN connect and that they DO matter. This is so important for someone to be able to turn arround and come back into the light!
I can also recall waiting for God to speak to me and feeling let down constantly and eventually giving up, it never occurred to me that the signs were there on a daily basis and that it was me who was blind to them. Having bought into the stern bearded all knowing guy who sits within the clouds looking down at my every mistake, waiting for me to be good and worthy enough to be spoken to. Looking at this way of thinking, it makes no sense to me now and it makes me wonder why in my younger years I did not question this idea of God.
Beautiful sharing Rachel – It brought back memories to when I was about 4 years old cloud gazing with the sun rays shining down all around me – I felt that connection to God. Not putting it into words but ‘I just knew’. Then school came into my life and going to church all of which that inner glow/knowing started to disappear. Reading books with a picture of a bearded man and people all around him. A picture of God? I was confused. Then different books with different images of him too! Mmmmm!
I felt a coming home to what feels so true inside of me when I attended presentations/workshops with Serge Benhayon. God is all around us in everything we see, feel and observe – so many magical moments all within each and everyone of us. Equally so.
Not one picture of what God looks like with Universal Medicine. It’s about a knowing and a connection to God by the stillness within us.
Absolutely beautiful Rachel. Religious institutions had sold us a deceitful definition of God. To understand he is with us all the time is life changing. I feel God now wherever I go because I trust and I am open to feeling his presence. And boy, am I being shown some magic. Just the other day 8 kookaburras swooped in a fly-pass, settled in the trees and started singing and laughing to me. It was God saying, I am here all the time.
Beautiful Rachel to get in touch with the innocent natural connection to God again, feeling God inside and in the encounters, signs and constellations every day. So realizing that God is in and around me nonstop and that just to let go of the decision to ignore this, opens me up immediately.
This is so true Lee. Many of us have belonged to churches in the past where we have been told who and what God is -usually an external being far greater than we could ever hope to be. To be able to feel God in the world around us, in the people we meet and inside ourselves is truly magical.
Thank you for sharing your beautiful re-discovery that God is all around all the time, whether we chose to feel / know the truth or not.
I feel very still after reading this Rachel. I have also come to realise that my strong desire of not wanting to ‘be here’, so (huge lack of commitment to life) meant I could not see or accept the magic of God that was all around me and actually how much love there was for me and was around me every single day: the love my children had for me, the love they showered on me, they adored me….initially this brought up much sadness and tears, and once that was released, the love was still there to be felt and received, now that I was allowing…..
I too gave up on the God the mainstream religions presented to me. So many rules… and so little love. I even stopped using the word God, and instead referred to the being I knew was there as ‘The Universe’. Now i know that God lives in me, and I in Him, His presence is a tangible cloak of beauty wrapped around me.
Dear Rachel, thank you for reminding me what God truly is.
Love this blog Rachel. I had a similar experience with the Gentle Breath Meditation at the first presentation I ever attended with Serge Benhayon in 2008. As I sat beginning to breath this way, my whole chest went really warm and felt light and expanded, my spine then had a similar feeling through it. Tears of joy cascaded down my face –I knew in that instant I could finally stop all the external seeking – here was the key to the path home, simply waiting within me with the re-connection through the Gentle Breath Meditation.
Rachel I loved every word of this blog. It reminded me for a moment of my childhood where I would be calling upon God as well and how I was so clearly looking ‘up’ and outside of myself. The evil you expose of the lies and indoctrinations about God and how they actually separate us from our natural and innate relationship we have with Him is very important just as the fact that we can reconnect at any moment as God never leaves us and can always be found within.
Rachel, this is written from the depths of your connection with God, with you and your enormous Love. Absolutely beautiful. Thank you.
Beautiful Rachel. The connection you have with God sounds amazing. I use to do the same thing – ask God questions and ask for some sort of signal. How amazing it feels to know that my connection to God comes from me, and there are so many signals- if im willing to see them.
Emily I had forgotten until I read your comment that I did the same thing when I was young. I would ask God a question and tell him to show me a sign. He never did, but then I wasn’t asking from my inner most, I was looking for an answer outside of me.
Yes Lindell, we just have to look around and god’s showing us signs and talking with us all the time- when we are with ourselves and willing to see it.
In my twenties I told my mum I didn’t believe in God. I thought I was tough and was doing life superbly on my own, getting by and making it through. Deep down I was so so hurt and lonely and very disconnected from myself. I missed myself and when I was reminded by Serge Benhayon how to re-connect to myself I realised that I also missed my connection with God and more than anything I missed feeling him in my life. He didn’t leave me, it was the fact that I left myself that I left him too. Every day now that I look in my sparkly eyes in the mirror, or feel the graceful sway of my hips and joyful bounce in my step I feel and see God and feel us playing together.
The magic and beauty of God is all around us all of the time, it is for us to reconnect to our stillness and feel that love.
Beautiful blog Rachel. I agree God is constantly communicating to us but sometimes we just choose not to receive it. I have been disconnected from God for most part of my life for similar reasons to yours. But now I know that God is within me and all around me. I am beginning to see and appreciate the magic of God in us all.
Yes Chan, often God has been made complicated. He apparently comes in prayers and white robes, in certain churches and places of worship according to some people but not others. There have been all sorts of rules made about God. But as has been shared here in Rachel’s blog, God is everywhere, all around us and always within us. It’s just about us connecting, letting ourselves listen and feel. Then we feel the divinity we come from.
I agree Chan, Katerina, Rachel and others. It is has only become clearer to me in recent times who and what God actually is. Before that I realise I have literally held a fear of God, stemming from early religious teachings. The fact that God is quite the opposite of this concept has taken me some time to accept and I feel I am still getting there but I do now realise that God is all around me and that it is me who is not recognising when I am being spoken to, rather than the fact the God doesn’t talk to me at all. I have found this blog both valuable and timely – thank you all for the comments.
Beautiful Rachel, the magic of god is indeed all around us if we just open our hearts and our eyes to this fact.
I agree Suse. Knowing God has been complicated by the many different religions, images, stories and expectations, when the truth is that God is within us all – the warmth and the Love is what connects us all. Once this is accepted and known by Humanity – True brotherhood will be known.
“Now when I want a ‘chat’ with God I close my eyes and breathe gently, reconnecting to that feeling from my childhood and letting my heart open to my own love – the love that is God”. Thank you for this reminder Rachel. Sometimes in the busy-ness of life we tend to forget that God is always there and all we need to do is to open our heart to our own love to connect with God.
So true and so simple it is – yet I’ve found how I brought in all kinds of complications and distractions to but feel this fact. amazing how we can lose ourselves in this outer work at times. My experience is though by being true and consistently deepening the simpler it get’s and the stronger the pull.
Thank you Rachel, I love it and can very much relate. I too had given up on God and then had a similar experience as you had, doing the Gentle Breath Meditation for the first time I felt a stillness within me that let no room for any worries or thoughts just a deep contentment and connection with everything, I was aware of everything around me yet it did not disturb me. I felt part and connected with the all. So simple, so clear and so real, re-connecting to my essence that had always been there. And indeed God had never left nor had he ever been non-existent I simply had lost touch with the divineness we are all coming from.
Great blog thank you
Simply beautiful, thank you Rachel.
Within myself I have always had a feeling that there is a god but the religious god being a male sitting in heaven with a big white beard and a deep voice, judging us just didn’t make sense to me. Even when I have had discussions with people who say ‘how can there be a god when so many bad things happen in the world’ and ‘why does he not help the innocent’, there is this sense that there is a bigger picture, something far grander than we can image, nothing is left to chance.
I had a similar experience in that I could not stomach the officially sold version of god, it just didn’t make sense. I consequently spent many years, decades actually as an atheist until I listened to Serge Benhayon and the teaching of the Ageless Wisdom when God and everything else finally resonated with me and started to make sense.
I loved reading your article Rachel. Thank you for the beautiful reminder of the magic of God.
Great blog Rachel! I love the Camus opening phrase. Very wise! I have negated God from the word go. There was no indoctrination. There was no image of God. God did not exist. Yet, very hidden, there was some hope that I was wrong. Of course, I have never opened any of his love letters. It is a bit like I wanted to venture in life just feeling my human part and play with that. Of course, now that I look back I can recognise my Soul, hence God, being with me. Recently I have discovered that when I allow God consciously in my being gets replenished, suddenly there is a feeling that makes me clear, crystal clear. I would add, that being a human being is not it, that is incomplete. We can try and try and we can fight and fight this fact, but we can only feel complete when we allow to feel God from within our body.
Rachel, you just showed me how to talk to God. It just came back to me how I did it as a child. A very intimate and most natural relationship, that is eternally there. Now I can learn to have this with everybody.
“Now when I want a ‘chat’ with God I close my eyes and breathe gently, reconnecting to that feeling from my childhood and letting my heart open to my own love – the love that is God.”
This sums up the simplicity that can be lived, which Serge Benhayon has been sharing with so many and which has taken me quite a while to come back to. As I too had dis-connected to feeling what I always knew – God is inside and all around – I bought into the lies that connecting to God is arduous and difficult, something only a few can achieve and we have to really work hard to be able to come to this. You’re blog Rachel tells the true story and exposes the web of complexities which hold us apart and entangled in the outer world of struggle when all along the richness of our hearts is always there to re-connect and live from.
Thank you for this powerful reflection which supports me to truly live again. Forever grateful to Serge and all other fellow brothers leading the way for all of us to come along – If we so choose.
I can remember waiting for god to speak to me, after all he did it to Moses in the Hollywood epic and many other religious films I grew up with. Growing up there seemed to be countless stories of people having had direct messages from god which had changed their lives, especially in their moments of despair – so why not me I would ask myself but it never happened, at least not in the way I wanted or expected it to.
I now realise that this was just the picture I formed in my head based on the world outside of myself, without discerning if it was true or not and believing what I was taught in religious studies and the movies. It just goes to show how we can be fooled by looking outside of ourselves for the answers and giving our power away to fantasy and fiction.
I agree, it’s very wrong to interfere with something that is innately known and so natural as the inner connection we each have to God. Many have given their power completely away to religious institutions, content to join the many instead of staying with what they know is true inside them. These false ideas of God are now pervasive through most aspects of society. It’s quite amazing that Serge Benhayon is able to deliver tools including the Gentle Breath Meditation which support that natural re-connection back to the innermost and to God. It’s really huge what Serge is offering to humanity, and it’s all very simple as well as being accessible to all equally.
A profound and utterly beautiful piece of writing.
That quote at the start just says it all – in a world that is filled with magic, in nature and in people, are we going to hold God to ransom? If we do, we run the risk of living a two dimensional life that misses out on the richness of our own inner heart as well as being able to connect to the magic that is all around.
Just gorgeous Rachel. Thank you.
Rachel I love your connection with god – it is how it should be for me – simple easy and joyful. It is really time that we stop thinking that god is a punishing man!!!! So thank you so much for sharing your amazing realization about god and you.
So very true Rachel and Mary. I too had forgotten and denied for so long, not allowing myself to feel what deep down I always knew to be true, that there is deep within apart of me which is beautiful, clear and of the Love we all come from. Love is not a word any longer but a true feeling in my heart. When I feel this glow in me I feel save, held and complete.
Thank you Rachel Hall for your sharing on your connection with God. The absurdity of the fact that we are told that God is outside of us and that we are not worth to be held in his love while in fact, God lives within and in everything around us has to be told again and again. I feel that is the root cause of why our society is as it currently is. How different would our society looks like if we would be told the truth about God? For sure when we allow that truth into our lives we would live in heaven on earth.
Totally gorgeous Rachel. The beauty and love that’s there for us from God is only waiting for us to stop and say hi and what a beautiful greeting it is.
This is so touching Rachel and completely dissolves any garbage we have been sold about what God is not.
I have always known God and His magic is always with me. This is a relationship that is now steadier than ever and it is very humbling and very joyful.
Thank you Rachel for a beautiful blog.
“The version of God I had been sold by religion didn’t exist” – so simple, so true. And we somehow forget the true version of God as well.
God like Santa Claus is not a bearded old man judging us and deciding if we are good or bad. But somehow we feel we have needed the lies because the truth seems too hard to feel and connect to…
God is love. LOVE. The essence and stillness we feel inside our bodies when we choose to connect.
LOVE is GOD. It’s the same thing and here we are making up stories about elderly men to confuse the sheer magnificence of something much greater, US and our deep connection with love.
Very heart warming blog Rachel, I could feel you as a little girl naturally in touch with the magic of God. I felt this also. I feel the magic of God is everywhere when we have the eyes to see it. Nature is our beautiful reminder of this…untouched by the imposition of indoctrination.
“God had never left me or given up on me”
Even on what would seem the darkest day, my solar panel still recording energy. Somehow that power gets through.
Even in my darkest hours God was with me and I never doubted his power and my power.
This is a beautiful sharing Rachel and what a profound moment for you with the Gentle Breath Meditation 🙂 As a child I knew God was in everything and was everywhere but I hadn’t put me into that equation due to the fact that I felt ‘not good enough’ mostly. Thanks to Serge Benhayon and the Universal Medicine teachings I am now getting to know myself as an equal part of the equation.
As a boy I would constantly ask for help – to God for help and support. The agony I was living prompted this…it was only recently that I realised that He had been there all along – walking with me and allowing me to make choices so that I would eventually re-connect with him fully – He cannot make the choices for us but simply hold us in absolute love.
Beautiful sharing Lee, and a lovely reminder, that we are never truly alone, we may think we are when the bumpy road of life feels challenging and overwhelming… however, I felt the truth in your words; ‘I realised that He had been there all along – walking with me and allowing me to make choices so that I would eventually re-connect with him fully.’
I am reminded of an incident in my twenties that instantly re-connected me with God. I had, to that point lived in disregard of the possibility of His existence conveniently ignoring my responsibility of knowing that I am His Son.
A motor bike accident left me lying on the ground with a broken back and I vividly recall my first thought was a plea to God to spare me from being crippled and I promised that I would uphold my end of the deal by being a ‘faithful servant’ from that day on.
Well I was spared, but I soon ‘forgot my deal’ and shirked on my promise of being a servant – 15 years later Serge Benhayon presented the possibility that I am not a servant but an equal member of His family through the Divine essence we all have equally within.
I now serve His plan to re-connect with His essence within and bring this to living all of who I am.
What a comment – it so beautifully exposes the difference between the indoctrination that I grew up with (where we are to be the servants), and the world that Serge is living in (where we are all equal). No wonder your commitment has been re-invigorated!
The magic of God is all around us: in the beauty of nature, the laughter of a child, in the warmth of an embrace, in the chance meeting with a stranger, or in a seemingly random act or series of events. A lovely reminder…
I love what you have shared Rachel as having a similar childhood experience with regards to waiting for a sign a confirmation from God of his existence. When I too had been receiving them every day but completely unaware of his loving presence. But now thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I feel him at any moment by simply coming back to me and my breath of God.
When I have experienced disconnection from God it was at a time when I was most disconnect from myself. Now that I am more connected to who I am, I can reflect back to my past and I begin to see and appreciate that God was with me all along. I just chose not to see it at the time.
It was so beautiful to read your blog again and to connect with what was your first experience of the gentle breath meditation – and your connection to the ‘missing link’. It is amazing when we connect to the deep inner part of us that knows and confirms all that we are.
This is so beautiful Rachel, thank you. I can feel the innocence and purity of a child and I can feel this in me too. A very precious sharing.
Lovely sharing Elaine, the purity of God of the magic of knowing and feeling God inside and all around when a child. It is magical yet at the same time the feeling is no big deal as it simply was what I felt. I never knew the feeling by the word God as that was something “out there” a construct in the mind – it reminds me how much as adults we complicate what is so simple.
Thank you Rachel, your blog did remind me of my childhood. When I was a child I heard God and especially Nature talking to me all the time, but I didn’t trust it, I felt influenced with people saying to me: “There is no God, Nature can’t talk to you, only human beings can communicate etc”. Now centuries later being a Universal Medicine Student and living in a way that my body is clearer and more perspective I trust my inner voice and act according to it, what a blessing.
Beautiful expression Rachel – I can relate to your experience of always waiting for God to give me a sign as a child which too kept me questioning does he really exist? A beautiful reminder that God is everywhere as well as deep inside of us. And yes, the signs are everywhere, when we stop and be still we can see these signs through nature, through other people, through the warmth of a smile – God’s beauty is everywhere.
Spot on Rachel, your conveyed experience is very similar to my own.
“How terrible to have given up on that because of the deceitful teachings we are indoctrinated with as children” And this I feel begs the question…Is this not a crime against humanity ?
Beautiful to re-visit this blog this evening Rachel, and appreciate the wonder of God in my life.
I love what you share Rachel. My experience was slightly different in that I have never doubted that God existed, I always knew that he did. But as a teenager I started attending church and in doing so began to see God as I was told he was – somewhere outside of me, in need of worship & obedience, & that he would be ‘just’ should I disobey or stray. If I look back, this was a time when I was furthest from myself, from my connection to who I was, or a trusting of what I felt – I was always looking outside of me for acceptance & confirmation. How amazing to come back to the truth & love of God, that we knew & felt inside as a child.
I love how you describe having a ‘chat’ with God being at any moment you choose and is as simple as closing ones eyes and breathing gently. It’s so beautiful to feel it’s as simple as, ‘letting my heart open to my own love – the love that is God.’ I feel inspired to have more chats with God and really notice how that feels for me. thank you
A wonderful reconnection with God, he is in fact everywhere. So thank you Rachel for this inspirational blog.
Beautifull. Connecting with God within and around is so simple in the end. Thank you Rachel and Universal Medicine for bringing this back to me so timely.
I love this Rachel, I too grew up thinking there was no god, and the way I was told he existed, well in that way there was not. Now with the awareness and understanding I have of true religion I know now there most certainly is God.
Rachel, as I read your blog I was immediately transported back to being a child myself, when I knew in my heart there was God, but it seemed everyone around me was looking for him inside buildings. So I went to every church in my neighbourhood, one after the other with whichever friend participated in that Church’s religion. Each time I felt nothing – God wasn’t only found in a church and I knew it. Through working with Universal Medicine I also re-connected back to my inner heart via the gentle breath, and found that God was there all along – in me, around me, in everyone and everything – as was love. Revelation indeed
It’s true we have been sold an idea of what is God, therefore to cut it back to the simplest form, we can build and develop a relationship with God we never thought we could. Thank you Rachel, this has opened me up to experience more lightness and magic to where ever it may be
I wrote this blog a couple of years ago and have re-read it today for the first time in ages. I was touched and moved so deeply by my own words and reading them again has been incredibly healing. More “proof” for me that God is worth waiting for….for it is in the stillness, the moments when we stop and choose to connect that God who has been there all the time is felt, not because He has appeared to us but because we have become aware of Him.
Thank you Rachel for giving me a simple revelation that the reason I had no interest in God before was ‘because I had been sold the idea that God was some bearded old man sitting up in the sky’. When I first came to the presentations of Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon and he started to talk about God, I had no reaction, it felt I had known who God was all the time but because of the way religion had portrayed God it seemed so far out of my reach. I know God much better now and he certainly isn’t some guy in the clouds, he is everywhere and in everything we do.
Thank you for this beautiful blog Rachel, I completely relate to the experience that God never left or gave up on me, however through my own held beliefs I chose to override the magic I felt of him. Only this week I stopped whilst nursing in my theatre environment and realised that there was no nature inside the four walls (something I often connect to with God when I am outside, or able to view out a window) and I simply asked myself ‘so where is God in this room?’ and from my very inner heart I felt myself remember, with such warmth, that God is within me – that I am God as I am equal to him. And from here, I felt that loveliness and delicious warmth that I know to be what’s loving and true for me. Gorgeous article, thank you for sharing.
As I write this comment, the kookaburras have begun to chuckle outside of my window, it appears so graciously to me that the more I accept that God is indeed everywhere, in every moment, the more it is confirmed for me through the beauty of nature that there is no doubt about it!
Beautiful sharing, thank you Rachel. I especially loved this line “Now when I want a ‘chat’ with God I close my eyes and breathe gently, reconnecting to that feeling from my childhood and letting my heart open to my own love – the love that is God.”
I absolutely loved reading your article Rachel. It reminded me of so many beliefs I also held.
It is so hard for many people, myself included in the past, not to have a reaction to the word God, especially in this country (the UK) it seems. But it can change, as you have described Rachel, when discovering for ourselves who and what God is.
So true Joan, my reaction to the ‘G’ word ceased once I knew and felt that God is love.
Yes, Elizabeth, and each and every one of us has a different experience the way we feel what God is in ourselves. When it becomes a whole body experience, in every cell, and not just first from the mind, it makes such sense — literally engaging all our senses, all six of them and more!
I always knew that we are all God’s children, but somehow never fully included myself in this club. To see God as separate to us or that we are not being worthy of his Love, is a disservice to ourselves as it closes our hearts and cuts off that very natural connection.
Such a beautiful blog Rachel . Thank you. I can really relate to what you have shared. I remember as a child lying in bed asking God to show me a ‘sign’ that he was real and in my life. Essentially asking God to prove himself to me. As you say this comes from an indoctrination that tells us that God is outside of us, a supernatural being rewarding those in favour and punishing those not. As I have connected to my own divinity and Godliness I feel this reflected in everything around me as it is a living breathing part of all of us. The joy and wonder that this has brought back to my life is the greatest gift.
Today’s different versions of religion have put so many people off, and shut them down to the true magic of God – how awful that religion has become that. We can all know God, within us, and can always let ourselves truly feel that and not let religious beliefs or others dictate what it should look like.
Yes I agree, Rachel, that God is all around us all the time and present in every single one of us – whether we feel it or not, or admit it or not. When you look at the beauty, order and balance of nature and look deeply into someone else’s eyes with tenderness, or hold a child’s hand it is very difficult to imagine that we do not have a soul and that God does not exist.
Yes Andrew, as I read what you said about seeing beauty and order or the feeling when holding a child’s hand, I too felt connection, and wondered why, if I frequently experienced these moments, which I do, is my knowledge of God not rock solid and absolute, and saw that it is a case not simply of having and casually appreciating those moments, but of taking the time to acknowledge and deeply appreciate them and to say to myself very loudly, yes this is the magic of God that I am experiencing right now. On the occasions that I do that, the magic and beauty always magnifies massively, and there can be no doubt.
Thank you for such a beautiful blog. As I read the part as you started to breath gently, it stuck with me – God communicates via feelings and a sense of sadness over having not listened for so long came to me. But rather than sit in that sadness, I feel more inspired by the fact that I can stop, breathe and return to that same feeling of openness and warmth.
That is so true Ariana, the tales almost appear to be designed to prevent us knowing and connecting to God.
This is such a beautiful blog Rachel. I’ve returned to it 2 years later and am reminded how supported I now feel by the feeling of God within me, which has grown since I have trusted and allowed myself to feel that I am indeed his Son. Just the other day I had mixed some white mineral salts in with some brown Eso Herbs. After it all swirled together, for a split second (and to my amazement) a perfect white heart formed in the middle of the dark herbs and then just as quickly as it formed, it disintegrated. The whole thing was like pure magic, and in that moment, I certainly felt God’s presence.
I love your blog Rachel, because when I was young I always knew God. It was quite simple, and it was no big thing for me to have “conversations” with him. But, I then got the idea that I couldn’t be good enough to talk to God, and that God was simply a part of religion, someone who didn’t get involved with human affairs. God became something out there, nothing to do with me, and until recently, even though I had begun feeling the fact that actually, I am connected to God, and have every right to that connection, feeling it and having it as a part of my life is still very much a work in progress. But slowly, I am remembering what I knew as a child, that God is the person who is always there, so I am never alone and always loved.
“What I didn’t know then was that the version of God I had been sold by religion didn’t exist and was a cunning trick that made me feel alone, unworthy of God’s love and separate to Him. That God was something out there, transcendent and out of reach…”
This is so powerful Rachel and I completely relate. What I was taught as a child and at school was so strong, I felt it so strongly to not be true that I completely rejected God and religion for I knew that what I felt was true. It still plays out today for me, to come to terms not with accepting God or any of the worldly beauty, but using the terms God and religion, because they come so heavily loaded with untruths that I don’t like using them. This is something I am learning and very aware of. Thank you.
Just felt to read this again as the title itself really spoke to me. Waiting for God, indeed. There is such a divine beauty to know and feel that God is truly in all of us equally. There are days when I feel an amazing connection with strangers I pass on the street, just by truly looking in their eyes with openness and no expectation or judgement. I feel in those moments how we are all truly equal, no matter what we look like or how we live, and I know God then.
Thank you Rachel, lovely account of how you found your way back to that connection you had as a child – I had a couple of tears myself.
I can relate to the religious indoctrination of god being a white bearded old man, looking down on us. For years I had the idea that god was ignoring me because I was bad in some way; because I was not perfect.
I now know that the connection had never left me and that it was me who was looking outside of myself, waiting to be saved.
I agree Julie, it is great to reflect on the preconceived ideas I have, not just about God, but other things in my life, that actually hold me back from seeing what is really going on – and that maybe what I was looking for was there all along, just not the way I thought it would look.
I love this piece, so exquisite.
Thank you Rachel Hall for another great post here.
The magic of God is everywhere and how true is that. You would be blind freddy if you didn’t notice the beauty in nature with all its cycles, rhythms and magic unfolding right in front of you. Equally in babies, children and all of us as we go about our everyday lives.
I grew up with a load of Gods in the hindu religion and was utterly and totally confused. Today I chat to God everyday and can feel a presence inside me when I choose to connect to myself deeply. The gentle breath meditation that I learnt from the teachings of Serge Benhayon really helped me to deepen my connection. When I feel my chest expanding and I feel still and warm – that’s my sign that there is a God, that I have a relationship with God and that is more than enough for me.
I love your quote from Albert Camus – makes sense.
This is just gorgeous, Rachel, brought tears to my eyes.
To feel that God is always around us, has never left us, and it is simply our choice to know this to be true and to notice the signs that are there every day. I feel such tenderness in this moment to reflect on how, for so many years, I too had not noticed the signs that truly were always there, every step of the way. I realize I had never truly missed God – how could I when he was always there? It was more my self and my connection to God that I was missing.
A great reminder – that the magic of God is all around us – how true!
Love the quote Rachel – a sensible option. 🙂
I really enjoyed reading your blog. The truth of it resonates..
Wow. This is such a beautiful story. It is inspiring the way that you expose the effects of the teachings of a transcendent God and show how simple and heart warming it can be to re-connect to that feeling that was there all along, but we have been missing so dearly.
Thank you Rachel.
A beautiful read. Thank you Rachel.
Hi Rachel,
I didnt realise that I had a preconceived idea of what God was until reading your post just now. I didnt realise that I thought and still have it in me to think, as much as this email has started a realisation, that I believed God did sit above us in his white bearded glory and that we were somehow below him. That he, being a person figure, was sitting and watching us and that we would asend to him after death if we were a certain way… if I was a certain way. Like he could choose me if he loved me but there was a possibility that he wouldnt love me and therefore not choose me and send me to the depths of hell where I would burn for eternity!
Wowzers. Thats heavy! especially heavy for that to be pushed onto me as a little girl. How much fear surrounds that! …and not just fear but anxiety too..
Awesome clarification!
Thanks for that.
Such beautiful words Rachel, can so relate to this, another one of your blogs I definitely will be sharing…<3
Thank you so much Rachel. I can feel the love of God in all that you are sharing.
I realised that very religious people are even more separatet from God!
This is great – well said Rachel. I too both did not believe in God and at the same time had the idea that if he did exist he was a big old man with a white beard sitting up in the sky – maybe I got him mixed up with Santa except he would be wearing white and didn’t have any reindeers. As you say these are deceitful teachings which together with my own inner separation had me disconnected from God. There is nothing more painful than being disconnected from Love / God. Thank God indeed that I met Serge Benhayon and through his love reconnected to my inner heart and through that to God.
Love. And an awesome deconstruction of religious doctrines.
Thank you Rachel. So beautiful to know you and your amazing connection to who you are.
“Now when I want a “chat” with God I close my eyes and breathe gently, reconnecting to that feeling from my childhood and letting my heart open to my own love – the love that is God.”
So true and so beautifully said Rachel – thank you for sharing this inspiration for others.
This is very beautiful and touching Rachel. Thank you for sharing.
Thank you Rachel this is beautiful. Deidre.
So very beautiful Rachel, I also have re-discovered the Love you write about, it is a very different version of God than I the one that was preached to me as I was growing up, but like you the God I know now, I know in and from the feelings and sensations in my body…
Yes, it is amazing when the realisation comes that the kingdom of God is inside you and not out there somewhere as all the religions would have us believe. Thank you Rachel.
I guess when we do all accept the wonder of the kingdom of God inside us there will be a lot of out of work clerics!
Beautiful Rachel!
Beautiful, Rachel. Your words say it all for me. I never gave up believing in God however, I too kept looking for Him on the outside and forgot how we were truly connected.
What a gorgeous way to start my day – reading that blog. Thank you.
Thank you Rachel, and what a beautiful part it is, our love! For me looking in the eyes of a baby always confirms me I am from God, from heaven.
So absoutely beautiful Rachel; thank you for talking about the childhood connection to God which I can remember so clearly too. The sereness of that and the absolute knowing that it is all about love, and that we are all that same love of God who is with us all the time. And yes how sad to then move away from that feeling and understanding to spend a lifetime believing we are less. But how wonderful to return. You have articulated this so well.
Thank you for sharing this awesome experience, Rachel. I remember having the same warm fuzzy tingling feeling in my chest and spine as a kid when I watched someone drawing or painting, but I never knew what or where it came from until I connected with my inner heart after attending UniMed workshops that taught the gentle breath meditation. It really feels wonderful to revisit that feeling at will during the day, and especially when I feel like I am getting a bit “off-center” or emotional.
Thank you, Rachel. I really loved reading this.