Marijuana Addiction

 by Anonymous, NSW aged 46

I grew up as a teenager in the 80s and a surfer. We watched as our parents self-medicated on a daily basis with alcohol, cigarettes and coffee, but our generation worshipped the sounds and spirituality of Bob Marley and escapism and marijuana was our medicine – we used it to escape and check out, to not truly see what was going on in our lives, and as a rebellion against a world that didn’t make sense.

It was ours exclusively as our parents didn’t understand much about it. From its innocent beginnings the so called ‘non-addictive’ drug wreaked havoc in our lives as well as those of everyone connected to us as we under-performed, buried our issues, told lies to cover up, broke many laws, endangered other people’s lives, as well as our own, and failed to commit to our lives and relationships.

We sure didn’t know what we were getting into or what a ride it would take us on. This included my group and its many extended groups, numbering up to 100 people or more. By the age of 30 I didn’t have any friends who were not stoners on some level (and this covered a good cross-section of society) – I chose to choose my friends that way, so I wouldn’t be exposed or asked to be more.

Looking back now I see how far away it took us from the brotherhood, love and equality we all wanted so dearly in our lives and the world. Writing this now I shed many tears for the young innocent boy and boys we were that got so lost, only to become fringe dwellers controlled by a drug – not our natural way or right to be in this life. The numbness and hardness that I created as my wall of protection became a self-imposed jail… and one that nearly took my life. There were at least 4 people I knew that suicided – all heavy marijuana smokers, the last one a 50 plus year-old neighbour and father of 4. I know in my heart that the marijuana would have helped lead them to get to that point by its insidious nature of hiding / burying and therefore hindering one’s ability to try and work through issues or deal with stuff.

I had slipped down the drain a long way from the young boy with so much potential – the primary school captain, house and senior prefect at high school – and was now living in the underworld, with a warped perception of life. After looking back at an addiction of 20 years, with at least 17 years of daily usage in Australia and internationally, I can honestly say I could hold a Masters or PhD on the subject.

With a strong work ethic, and mainly being a nightly user, I lived in a weird duality as a night time vegetable and mad professor, going deeply into an altered state, unable to express myself or debrief / reflect back on my day properly. Its effects on my rhythms and cycles were the cause of many difficult situations ­– doing something with catastrophic consequences once would have been bad enough without having to repeat it, again and again in some cases.

In hindsight, burying things and numbing was what it helped to do best, and putting up a wall of separation between the world and myself: a protective layer or shield that only held me imprisoned in unresolved stuff and emotions. That shield also kept others at bay – separatism: I was very selfish indeed, rather than truly sharing who I was with all.

My family is only starting to know the real me now as I gradually let myself be seen by all – not always a comfortable experience, but so very worth it. Dope was a double-edged sword: great for helping destroy relationships (3 wives later – de facto), then great for numbing and hiding what really happened. To me, this makes marijuana the ultimate retarding drug of the 20th century, with its recurrence in such big ways ­– the world hasn’t seen this drug before become so mainstream, i.e: having so many users/addicts or ‘devotees’, from kids to housewives. Even though it has been used for thousands of years in Africa, Asia and India, its retarding nature to human evolution is at a widespread and epidemic level.

I spent at least 10-12 years knowing it wasn’t good for me, saying I wanted to stop (with many failed attempts), but the effect of its seductive nature on my psychological mind and physical body was always too strong. Not until I nearly took my own life by driving off a bridge at high speed to stop the voices in my head in a psychotic episode and to end the agony of life, did I take notice and stop ‘forever’ – which only lasted for a short time, by the way.

By my early to mid thirties the “Muppet on Acid” was running out of energy and my lifestyle of partying, drugs and the underworld was catching up with me. Like a burnt-out soldier burnt from running too many missions, my body was starting to show signs of disease. I went looking for help to doctors and naturopaths and after a number of blood tests, I was diagnosed with exhaustion / chronic fatigue / stress disorder and shingles. So I stopped all drugs and was advised to go on a cleansing diet of herbs and pure foods, with no sugar, yeast, alcohol, caffeine, preservatives, etc., for a minimum of 3 months.

After a few days on the diet I cried for days as my body dumped all the unresolved / buried emotions and stuff back into my body to feel. I felt raw and sensitive but the great thing was I was able to feel again. Before that, there was a time where I hadn’t cried for nearly 10 years, just toughing life out with my dope and my dope buddies. After the diet I felt very different and re-energised, but within 6 months went back to my old habits of binge drinking and pot smoking. It did give me a huge marker or point of reference for how I could feel and gave me something to come back to.

After having children in my late 30s I managed to cut it down to weekends only but found if I had it more than 2 days straight, I would want to have it every day again. Children were my first energetic wake-up call: from babies to 6 year-olds, they always knew if I walked in stoned and the way they looked at me was like a freak / zombie had just walked in. So I made sure I wasn’t stoned in their presence. It was like they knew I was somehow different and not my full self.

Not until I attended a Heart Chakra Workshop around 2006 presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine (UniMed) did I know or hear of the damaging effect of marijuana to the human body, and its organs and energetic field. I learned that it affected the spleen and the kidneys energetically (both natural energy centres, as Serge presents), not to mention the lungs / respiratory system, as well as contributing to the depression / psychosis in its users – something I had denied for years, as I, like many users, championed its harmless ‘all-natural’, non-violentand non-addictive status.

If this ‘harmlessness’ is true then…

…Why is its production in Mexico fuelling one of the biggest and bloodiest drug wars in history, all to decide who will be in charge of supplying the world’s largest bunch of dope addicts in the USA? Marijuana is a very addictive product that holds people to ransom on many levels (people can be addicted for long periods, up to 65 years) and it’s a billion dollar industry, especially if your customers have given up and sold out to being numbed and medicated, rather than fully committing to life, work and community (as America suffered the GFC, morale has dropped and drug abuse and addiction have skyrocketed).

Originally I was in denial of the fact that marijuana was rated by Serge Benhayon of Universal Medicine (UniMed) as the second worst of all drugs with the shamanic drug ayahuasca in first place according to their energetic effects. I pondered on this for weeks and also discussed with close friends (also long-term dope addicts), agreeing with things such as hearing voices at times when stoned: “Have some more”, or “Where do you think you’re going?” – when you’ve just woken up, drooling on the lounge near midnight, then trying to limp to bed, but somehow convinced to return to the bong for another session after already being the most wasted person in the world – complete insanity, I repeat, complete insanity! Or when you’ve woken up in the morning with a foggy potato head, late, unorganised, and remorseful, swearing and swearing “Today is the day I quit”, only by 3.30pm to be salivating like one of Pavlov’s dogs, to go home and smoke again. This madness went on sporadically for 10 years, not to mention the subsequent addiction to coffee as my life force and energy diminished as time went on.

Its addictive nature was extremely powerful and controlling. I could share many more stories of the behaviours people would stoop to in order to get their daily fix of marijuana – like the lying, cheating and deceiving that I had witnessed– all interesting effects of a so-called ‘soft, non-addictive, harmless, drug’. Yeah, sure.

So to cut a long story short, I kicked the habit by choosing to change my ways by understanding that the substance was utterly destructive and ruining my potential to have a balanced and great life. Not to mention that there was not a self loving, caring or nurturing part about it – only a selfish indulgence into the abyss of a life of misery. After all that smoking and time spent in an altered state I had not gained any more wisdom or enlightenment, or created a better way to live. So why continue with the PhD???

I also started to get help in the form of Esoteric Healing through UniMed, which helped me clear the energetic damage the drugs had done to my body. It revealed the damage to my spleen and kidney energy centres. With UniMed’s support, and through the activation of self love and care, I was able to heal my chronic allergies and hay fever, lower back pain, and chronic fatigue. My new rhythm of early nights, the total removal of drugs and alcohol, and my decision to keep to a gluten and dairy-free diet as suggested by my GP, also allowed me to feel the person behind all that lying and hardness and aloofness.

I feel this did a lot to clear the way for the new me – which by the way, was just the old me by birthright – living in full, feeling all of it – the good, the bad and the indifferent, all as it is. A big thank you to Serge and UniMed for speaking the truth and not holding back in a world where truth is always used in a controlled form and not exclusively for the good of all. The transparency of Serge’s work is there for all to see, and in this case, a spade being called a spade is a great tool for (no longer) burying your shit.

As I now am not an AA­-like reformed drug addict, but someone who has no connection or attachment to marijuana at all, it feels to me that it was another life away, while many of my old friends are still daily / regular users to this day – some in their mid 40s and 50s – are now suffering depression (and being medicated with anti-depressants permanently) and other debilitating ailments. There are many that are also of the belief that there isn’t anything wrong with dope: please note, I don’t preach to them, I respect their choices, but say clearly how I feel and how I would never use marijuana again. In the past I was a pro-marijuana activist, rebel and user who, through its hold of addiction and the strong denial of what it was really doing to me, got caught up in it.

Now I care and nurture my body more than ever before, in the same way that as parents we look after and teach our children to do the same for themselves… Instead of treating our body as something to dump stuff into, like heinous / evil drugs, to help medicate ourselves to be able to cope with life, really only hiding from real life and burying our issues so we have more crap to deal with later – a truly vicious circle / cycle. You don’t see children, especially primary-aged children, having to come home and smoke dope or get drunk to cope with a tough day at school, they deal with their stuff sober. It’s just in the adult world that we justify and champion this behaviour as ok, when it’s really far from that.

May we all aspire to be all we are for the sake of all, as it takes all of us working together to make our lives truly great.

370 thoughts on “Marijuana Addiction

  1. Some of the research that is coming out at the moment is showing how dope changes our DNA and can be passed from generation to generation. So this harmless drug has consequences way beyond our own life.

  2. I love your point at the end of this blog where you make the point that young children don’t deal with a tough day by driving or smoking. So very true. They do, however, watch like a hawk how the adults in their lives deal with their stress and learn by example. You illustrate this really well from your childhood. It is in all our interests to learn how to face our emotions full on rather than numb them, because the consequences of our coping mechanisms can have ongoing complications way beyond our life.

    1. I agree with you Lucy children can see and feel that their parents are not coping with life and I know from my own experience that it has a negative impact on how I perceived life. I never went to my parents for help what was the point when they couldn’t help themselves? So all the un dealt with emotions get bottled up and eventually leak out all over the place effecting all aspects of life.

    2. It’s the power of modelling that sets up our young in how they see life and contribute to life. When we choose to make choices that are not loving or leave us in state of not being able to function in our daily life our young have already become attached to the cycle of behaviour that shows little in the true potential we can all live. It is interesting to observe that when we make life about change it does rattle us to the core but we know deep down inside that the way we were dealing with life before was far from the truth.

  3. This is a great blog, and I could not agree more. I’ve been sucked in for many years by the ‘safe’ feeling around Marijuana… like alcohol its seen to be OK, permissable, enjoyable. Yet like alcohol it has deep and distressing effects on people’s lives. I had two very close friends in particular who both had psychotic episodes and have had life long mental problems as a direct consequence.

  4. Great re read Anonymous. This is something everyone should read and take heed of ! I have seen many people lose their way through taking the stance that it is harmless!

  5. Thank you for writing your experience with this addiction of Marijuana. It has been very insightful and has allowed a deeper understanding in this area. To be owned by an addiction is imprisoning. Congratulations on breaking your habit and returning to a truthful and healthier way to live.

  6. Thank you Anonymous, this is a great testimony to Universal Medicine and to the choice you were willing to make. If one is willing to take responsibility for one’s life everything can change as you have so clearly demonstrated here.

  7. Wow I am so grateful to you for sharing your experience. Many many world wide have fallen for the illusion that pot is good for you – I too once advocated that marijuana must be good for you as it was natural. I completely refused to see the truth right before me.

  8. Such a great expose on your life and what you had created for yourself, but most amazingly, turned around for yourself. Taking responsibility for yourself, making other choices and loving yourself along the way. Thank you, very inspiring.

  9. I love the courage of people who choose to let go of the props they hide with and choose to be seen in the world – “as I gradually let myself be seen by all – not always a comfortable experience, but so very worth it.”

  10. Marijuana has this stranglehold over so many people. Somehow because it is ‘natural’ it is ok. But thats like saying deadly nightshade is medicine because it is natural – yet we all know it is far from that! Some plants were never designed to be ingested or inhaled – we just need to face the reality and see things for what they are.

  11. “we used it to escape and check out, to not truly see what was going on in our lives, and as a rebellion against a world that didn’t make sense.” When we use a drug of any sort to numb ourselves from feeling we are lost to the truth of who we are and the love that we innately are.

  12. I read this and with all the ups and downs, decisions and choices leading to drama and addiction it reads like an amazing front page article highlighting one man’s life that the world would be staggered by.
    The trouble is that this is just one man’s story and there are 182.5 million users according to a UNODC 2014 report – information provided by
    This is tragic then when we get a sense of how many people this is actually affecting – not just the 182.5 million but everyone they are in contact with, work with etc. Truly staggering that we make the choice to become like zombies when we can live more of who we are with ease as presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

  13. Interesting how we can create a whole lifestyle that keeps feeding us back into the same, for example choosing friends who use marijuana too so as to not be exposed for the devastating drug it is.

  14. This is a great account of the effects of marijuana. I have seen it ruin many people’s lives. What Serge Benhayon presents on the subject ought to be studied in more depth as it provides a true energetic understanding of what really happens to us when we use the drug. With this understanding, change occurs. For example, whilst I never used marijuana I did drink alcohol. However, the moment I understood the energetic effects of alcohol I stopped drinking alcohol that same day.

  15. “You don’t see children, especially primary-aged children, having to come home and smoke dope or get drunk to cope with a tough day at school, they deal with their stuff sober. It’s just in the adult world that we justify and champion this behaviour as ok, when it’s really far from that.” A great point Anon. As adults we try to bury our hurts through whatever vice or addiction we choose, be it hash, TV, overwork, alcohol etc. They all just dull and numb us. Attending Universal Medicine presentations was and is the best thing I have ever done in life – to support me to deal with ‘my stuff’ and lead a more healthy and true way of living.

  16. Marijuana is greatly unrecognised as being a very harmful substance, as unfortunately there still remains a perception that because it is a plant it is relatively harmless to smoke. But like this blog, there are countless stories of those who have ruined their lives without necessarily realising that marijuana has had a major influence in that.

  17. It’s a bit of a wrecking ball is marijuana, and yet justified by so many. I see and smell kids smoking it openly in the street and it does seem to have become more prevalent. It is a wonder that with all the evidence to the contrary that there is still this big push to make it an acceptable part of society. I suppose it would take its place alongside alcohol with they’re destructive nature sitting in the normalised seat of our societies in spite of the huge harm both cause.

  18. What an honest sharing of what is around the addiction – whats behind it and how deep we can go into an addiction. Self medication is something we’re pretty good at. There are so many ways we can numb ourselves – to actually ask why takes a lot – perhaps because we know if we ask why then we have to start being honest with our choices.

  19. Thanks for this totally honest account, I too have personally experienced the devastation caused by this drug. Through what you’ve shared here there can be an uncovering of the truth and a shake up of the consciousness that socially accepts this drug to be something harmless or as a form of medicine.

  20. We tend to rebel against a world we do not like. Yet, what the blog offers here is the rebellion against a world that was already in rebellion against another. So, rebellion within rebellion. The world of rebellion is always a world of images and never a world of truth. Truth has no link with rebellion. It does with revelations.

  21. So many of us end up in this bind of seeking ways to check out from the demands of life and then get trapped in needing more and more props to function.

  22. Thank you for so honestly sharing how the life of drug addiction is so called lived, this is a story that would really benefit teenagers to read before they embark on a devastating life of drug abuse. You have a powerful story to share because the lie that this drug is harmless needs to be exposed.

  23. Marijuana is indeed a very toxic drug and children can feel and see exactly what it does to someone who uses it. Adults can too but they are not as honest as children. We need to learn to listen to each other and care about the impact we have.

    1. I agree Elizabeth. I once met a man who was very attached to his marijuana addiction but even he was unable do deny the devastating affect that his drug use had on his young children. If a drug harms children that are not even the ones using it what harm is it doing to the user?

  24. Anonymous, you smash the belief that marijuana is a relatively harmless drug, more benign than the class A varieties that cause the strife they do. There is nothing harmless about a substance that steeps you in deep illusion, illusion that you’re doing fine when in truth you’re numbed out to your eyeballs with the paranoia stealthily creeping in to your entire being. What you’ve shared on this blog and the conversations this has started is so necessary, for as you say marijuana is being more and more normalised, with devastating effects for humanity as a whole as a result.

  25. Wow this really exposes the deeply damaging effects of marijuana and cuts through the ‘friendly image’ it is frequently tagged with. And I love how you show that no matter how familiar we may be with a certain pattern of behaviour it is always possible to change.

  26. What a needed blog Anonymous. The conversation we have around Marijuana is so often about good or bad, legal or banned, but how many have written about the energetic effects on us at first hand? From what I have read and seen in my life, the results are truly catastrophic and so destructive in every way. Perhaps the reason we don’t want to go there whether we are smokers or not, is that in essence, we all use substances and food in the same energetic way to numb distract and call things in that simply don’t belong to you and me. Isn’t it about time as a human race, we had a stop and an internal stock take about the things that are here in our bodies every day? Then we would have to deal with the fact that there is an energetic side to life we have for so long not wanted to see.

  27. Thank you so much for sharing, as the use of marijuana gets more prolific and we are hearing of more and more places legalising the latest being California. We need to wake up to what it truly does. The effects of this so called soft drug are horrendous. I would love your article to be front page in every city in every county until we get it, that this drug is not good for us, our family, our friends or our society.

  28. The friends we choose and the people we hang out with are very reflective of where we are at. We can have relationships that ask for evolution, where behaviours are called out to be discussed and when you are asked to be yourself and nothing less, this to me is real love. Then there are the relationships that want you to be less, to remain in your stupor and in denial of how amazing you are. These relationships are for hiding, comfort and actually feel pretty abusive.

  29. This blog is such a great exposing of the true harm caused by marijuana. It is not the “natural” harmless drug that a lot of people like to believe it is. Irrespective of what addiction we have, whether it is drugs, food, overworking etc all of these strategies we used are just there to avoid feeling our hurts.

  30. Thank you for your super honest and crystal clear account of the effects of marijuana on the body – this ain’t no soft drug and those who are honest know it, deeply so.

  31. It’s incredible how strong the way of thinking can be that makes marijuana attractive. I know how I watched so many young people write their lives off with chronic marijuana smoking. It is so insidious how it’s actually perceived as harmless, but in fact it’s undoing people deeply slowly from within, so that dropping out seems like a legitimate thing to do. Dropping out or becoming apathetic about one’s future is then ” normalised” and seen as ok in the context. This is all from a supposedly harmless drug. Most marijuana smokers will tell you that it’s not dangerous because it makes people ‘peaceful’ amd happy, yet that drug is actually causing far more harm than some of the other notorious drugs – very insidious.

  32. Marijuana is a deeply harming drug, I have seen many people get lost completely from taking this, all under the illusion that it is less harming than other drugs.

  33. We all have tough days as the blog writer has expressed and the way we deal with them may be different than choosing to smoke marijuana. Either way our choices in self – harming are no different as they all stop our full potential being lived. Thank you for your honesty and what a huge healing this is for us all!

  34. What a transformation Anonymous, we are all responsible for what turns up in life. So to go from what and how you were living to where you are now, I understand takes dedication, honesty and reconnecting to a love within, that actually never goes away, but it is through daily choices that we make, to turn life around and you did that, very awesome.

  35. The addiction to anything in life is horrendous, a nightmare of being controlled and our lives and our bodies spiral into destruction. The true change that will break this vicious cycle as you have lived Anonymous, is through the marker you have felt within yourself, when you allow yourself to feel again. Our bodies truly lead the way back to love.

  36. Wow this is such an honest sharing and from reading it I get that the author has really gone deep to explore what drugs did to them in the past. What a healing to the body to allocate the ‘why’ behind the ‘what’ – being honest about the fact that they had set up their life to not be more. if we could all get to this honesty about the choices we have made then we would not be holding onto so much.

  37. Wow – true inspiration – this blog should be on massive public sites like Huffington post for more people to read. I agree there is nothing harmless about drugs, and it’s very wrong how weed is portrayed by the media as natural and safe, as your experience shows – it’s far from either.

  38. I love that you have been so honest here, your honesty will light the way for others through there own addictions.

  39. It is a story that I have heard many students who used to have addictions share that they no longer have any fight or desire for the drugs, whereas traditional methods for kicking addictions require will power and a life long struggle, always aware they can tip over into the addiction at any time. Rather when we are self loving and healing our hurts the reason you were using the drugs is removed and a deepening of your relationship with your self and others is restored.

  40. Thank you anonymous, you have informed and educated me to the road many choose and champion as a natural way to relax and escape reality. I feel the consequences of choosing to use anything to escape our feelings becomes a trade deal, It’s like you don’t have to feel but (whatever energy) will have the last say, we allow that energy to control us and it’s not always where we choose to go or end up, if we were really honest!

  41. It is extraordinary the harm that can be caused to ourselves and others when we choose to escape from life through substances that deny us any connection to our essence… an ugly consumption I too have chosen and am able to now look back on in disbelief and yet gratitude that through Universal Medicine I was able to address my reasons for choosing to be consumed by something that stopped me from truly living and enjoying life.

  42. Marijuana is far more insidious and harming than we are led to believe. There was a time I championed it as being from a plant and natural but it completely took me out of living any sense of reality. We ‘think’ it may be a social thing but reality it completely cuts off our connection to ourselves and to others.

  43. Thank you Anonymus, for such an honest sharing and willingness to heal and let go of the hurts, it is only until we choose to be responsible and stop managing life by seeking relief and medicating ourselves that we can truly be ourselves and that is for sure worth it.

  44. “Instead of treating our body as something to dump stuff into, like heinous / evil drugs, to help medicate ourselves to be able to cope with life, really only hiding from real life and burying our issues so we have more crap to deal with later – a truly vicious circle / cycle.” We are so precious and delicate it is crazy to think we can put ourselves into that position where we actively abuse our bodies with as you say ” heinous/ evil drugs”.

  45. I know from experience Marijuana is not as ‘innocent’ as it is made out to be you are spot on here when you say ‘The so called ‘non-addictive’ drug wreaked havoc in our lives as well as those of everyone connected to us’ and I am not surprised that Serge Benhayon rated marijuana as being ‘the second worst of all drugs with the shamanic drug ayahuasca in first place according to their energetic effects’. We need to talk about this more, the truth and devastating affect these drugs have on our body, mind, emotional state, relationships and energetic state .. creating so many gaps and holes in our aura that we become puppets to an energy that is so not loving but instead evil. It is these discussions that will make users and non users more aware of just what happens when drugs are taken. Also it doesn’t matter if you are in a different room in the house taking drugs where the children cannot see you, the affects are still felt by them. Everything is energy and energy can be felt, so instead of turning to drugs which completely numb us and create havoc in our lives what about we hold steady and start feeling what we do not want to. Again from my experience when we start to do this, feel what we haven’t wanted to, you get to feel that actually its okay. Things only have a hold over us if we let them. So lets not let them.

  46. Reading this brought back memories of growing up in the holidays and then when I left home in a surfing community where pretty much all the guys were stoners and drank heaps after days out in the surf. And this didn’t change much as they grew up so still got stoned at night and just about woke for the days work. I had other addictions but I gave being stoned everyday for about 2 years then on and off for a while a good go. I surfed too and tried to have relationships with these guys but going out with guys who cared about numbing out more to cannabis, alcohol, other drugs, sex and surfing was impossible. What a perfect reflection for my choice to not have a relationship with myself, that I constantly sought relationships from men who were choosing anything but intimacy in the same way I wasn’t committing to being intimate with myself. A great wake up call for me to start my programme of self-love.

  47. As the world desperately squirms for more ways to numb distract and medicate it is a shame that it is being normalised and made out to be a harmless substance, with recent legalisation in many places around the world. Education of energetic responsibility is needed and a good look at why we need to reward ourselves with numbing substances like drugs, alcohol and foods for that matter.
    Addiction and the viscous cycle of dependence is a horrible way to have to live our lives when we are truly worth so much more, and as the author implied we don’t bring children into this world wanting them to be just that. But in reality happily hold their hand and lead them into the hands of evil by our lack of responsibility and acceptance of the ways of the world or so called norms.
    What is it that alcohol companies are the major sponsors of sporting events? What has alcohol i.e. a known poison got to do with optimum human body function in fitness and health?
    The corrupt nature and greed of humanity things make this a norm.
    The stoners vote / political power not to mention governments wanting its tax income are making marijuana more accessible and normalised in many areas globally saying to children its ok to check out in a supersonic way regularly.
    I met a young man the other day that told me how he ended up in the mental institute department of a large city hospital after bingeing on marijuana a number of years ago. He was admitted to hospital by his parents also smokers after suffering complete delusional behaviour, hallucinating and seeing things for days. He was lucky to come back after being heavily sedated for over two weeks and experimented with many different anti psychotic drugs and tranquillisers to bring him back to his conscious self.
    This is a classic example of the harm that a highly psycho active substance #THC #Marijuana #dope #pot can cause to the minds of some users, with so many more of the documented cases in hospitals all round the world. Hence the need for responsibility and education so we are not just puppets being manipulated by the forces of evil and norm.

  48. Fascinating read into the world of harm that can be caused by this ‘natural’ drug. I was taken by this point “You don’t see children, especially primary-aged children, having to come home and smoke dope or get drunk to cope with a tough day at school, they deal with their stuff sober.” and whilst it was obvious, I saw it so clearly. When do we start medicating ourselves against the world? Children do deal with their stuff sober but they are surrounded by adults who don’t. They do not get much other inspiration as to how to deal with their stuff. You can see the cycle quite clearly.

  49. it is extraordinary how almost a whole generation was conned into thinking that marijuana was okay… But hey how long have we been conned into thinking that alcohol is okay… Humanity certainly does have blind spots… when it chooses!

  50. ‘Even though it has been used for thousands of years in Africa, Asia and India, its retarding nature to human evolution is at a widespread and epidemic level.’ – this is pretty huge. The fact that as a society we know exactly what drug to go to and how much to take to avoid evolution. And yes – weed seems to have become a trend and somehow more common than in the past – perhaps a reflection of where we are as a society, and with all the grief in the world, this seems like the perfect escape. But at what price.

  51. What occurred to me as I read this blog is just how we have not advanced as a society at all. In the last 80’s we had parents smoking marijuana and ignoring their kids, now we have the same as well as parents spending their whole time on social media rather than connection with their kids. It does not matter what tool we use to disconnect from ourselves, the very fact that we continue to live a life of disconnection is a huge problem for all of society.

  52. As long as the symptoms of drug use can be managed, often people don’t question the real harm they are doing to their bodies.

  53. Amazing, isn’t it… How the actual evidence of the scale of harm caused by the use of this drug is there, but it’s not societally acknowledged. Thank-you ‘anonymous’ for the depth of your candidness here. No doubt you could share reams on the destructive consequences you yourself have suffered, and those you’ve witnessed.
    And well done Universal Medicine for not holding back on the truth of the impact of the drug on so many levels of our being – it is no ‘soft’ or ‘passive’ foray to smoke marijuana, whether ‘on occasion’ or ongoing daily use.
    I’ve only seen harm and destruction in its wake, and delicate, sensitive people lose themselves entirely – often spiralling into other drugs of self-destruction (horse tranquillisers, etc.) and not being able to cope with life at alarming levels. We really need to take a long and hard look at the way in which we use any substance to supposedly ‘relax’ or take ‘the edge off’ the stresses and strains in our lives, when mental and physical well-being can be so disastrously impacted.

  54. I watched a program a couple of years ago, on what was occurring in Colorado, USA, following the legalisation of marijuana (for social use). It was not pretty – and again, all the evidence was there with alarming mental and physical health consequences already evident after a short time, let alone the behavioural indicators already showing for young people in particular.
    As you’ve shared here anonymous, never before have we seen such endemic use – and it is an endictment upon our societies that we are not looking more deeply at what’s truly going on (ask anyone at the coal face). We’ve made checking out and self-harm so very ‘cool’ and ‘desirable’, that it takes people such as yourself anonymous to be the game changers – what IF there is a far richer life to be lived, and no drugs could ever compete with the joy, vitality and ongoing inspiration available?

  55. ‘To me, this makes marijuana the ultimate retarding drug of the 20th century,’ This is a very strong statement however I feel it may well be true yet not something a lot would like to admit. I guess, it is like anything else you don’t really realise the harm of it till you are free of it or would it be more true to say you are not really free of it till you realise the harm of it? Thank God for our 6th sense which lets us know, which keeps reminding us and nudging us till we take action and begin to truly care for ourselves.

  56. Thank you Anonymous for sharing your experiences, it is not a drug I know much about so to read of the effects it had on you and your life is quite revealing. I had many friends who considered it harmless and you are showing how that is very much not the case.

  57. An awesome article, honestly sharing the great harm that dope does to our bodies and minds. There is such a high rate of drug use in our world today, that is begging for some straight talk and guidance, this blog answers that ten fold.

  58. It’s astounding how socially accepted Marijuana is, and yet how devastating it is for those exposed to it. I find the proposed medicalisation of marijuana to be deeply concerning because of this.

  59. Great blog anonymous and thank you for sharing. The superficial, physical effects of marijuana are already not good but when we take the energetic part into account it is even a worse scenario and make a seemingly innocent, natural drug not so innocent at all!

  60. “great for numbing and hiding what really happened. To me, this makes marijuana the ultimate retarding drug of the 20th century” and as you say this has been around for years but we have only begun to see its domination with the push to legalise it. When I read your blog and I think about how many more people will avail themselves to this drug, it scares the bejeesus out of me. The number of people using will only increase and have a devastating effect on humanity.

  61. A really fantastic insight into marijuana, and an angle we don’t always get to read from. I have never taken marijuana but was addicted to coffee for a while. Not in an extreme way but enough to want a fix every day, and what I noticed was that I made some of my worst decision while high on caffeine. It might sound silly as it is seen as a normal part of a functioning society, but for me, it was a powerful and damaging stimulant and one that left me far removed from my normal self, hence the poor decision making, not to mention the ravaging fatigue that resulted. With marijuana it looks scary what it can do, and what a powerful lobby there is to legalise it and normalise it. I fear if that were to happen we would see even more people give up on themselves and slide into addiction under the false belief that it is harmless and normal.

  62. Killing our potentials while thinking we are having fun is a hell we create and trap ourselves in. Not only just not knowing the hell we are in, but thinking that that is what we want seems to be how many of us choose to cope with the pain we feel inside.

  63. I grew up experimenting with lots of things, why we call it experimenting is a point here to look at – I was like you, wanting to avoid feeling and dealing with areas of my life, I thought I was cool, daring but really was devastated inside. At the time I thought there was little wrong with marijuana, yet today I can feel the damage it caused and the clarity I have is something I would never sacrifice again. The substance is not harmless at all and from working in the industry today I know the lives of so many people that are destroyed by this “social” drug. Time to wake up and change the perception over what “social’ really is.

  64. I love it when people just ‘tell it like it is’ without sugar-coating the reality of what has been occurring.

  65. It’s crazy how the obvious effects of marijuana are ignored by so many users, when there are stories like this out there that show how exhausted and physically ‘gone’ you can become from regular smoking. The difference between your experience that you’ve shared here is that you’ve found the way to heal your body from this experience in full, but many people suffer for their whole lives from this habit and sometimes as you’ve shared continue on into their 40s/50s/60s.

  66. Thank you for sharing your experiences with marijuana. I have read many medical accounts where it is linked to early onset of mental health issues in young people. It is far from being a harmless drug. Many who may be struggling to give up as you did will be inspired by your story.

  67. After reading this blog, and to really feel what the use of marijuana does to us individually but also, on a grander scale in our societies I do now understand the impact drugs has on humanity as a whole. As being shared in this blog, it is not only the ruined lives of the individual users but also the families and communities they are a part of and not to forget all the crime and wars that are related to the drug industry. When do we wake up and start to see the reality of this, that drugs are ruining our lives, our families and the societies we live in and are in no way as innocent as we are being told to believe.

  68. Thankyou for the insiders view of what marijuana does to human beings and why they use it. It’s too easy to label people as “druggies”, “stoners”, “pot smokers” etc instead of seeing the human being and why they choose to use this drug. You given me enormous understanding. It’s interesting that we don’t talk openly and honestly about how foul drugs really do feel, or even how awful life itself can be (which can prompt drug use), maybe if we all talked more openly and honestly working together and supporting one another, drugs would not be needed.

    1. So many destructive substances would not exist if we felt safe and free to open up and be honest about how we feel, what hurts and what makes us joyful in our families, at school, in our work places and most of all in our relationship with ourselves.

  69. Over the years I have seen much devastation caused by this so called harmless drug, particularly with the young, bong smoking in their teenage years. Research indicates that there is a strong relationship between cannabis use and experiencing mental health problems. Mental illnesses associated with cannabis include depression, anxiety and psychotic disorders. . . . hardly harmless at all!

  70. “You don’t see children, especially primary-aged children, having to come home and smoke dope or get drunk to cope with a tough day at school, they deal with their stuff sober.” You know what I have to say the opposite – not all kids use drink and drugs to get through a rough day, some do, and I would say even more if they could get away with it – and even some kids of primary school age drink and I am sure take or have taken drugs – but many other children from very young ages use other forms to deal a rough day or life, such as self harming, computer games, social media, mobile phones, behavioural issues and chocolate.

  71. Its clear that marijuana is a drug – it causes an altered state. Anything that we take to alter who we are is going to have dire consequences.

  72. True self love and care really is restorative medicine, helping us to change our way of living and move back to being the love we are in essence.

  73. Thank you for sharing your experience with complete openness and honesty. It’s so important to tell our stories from every angle and what supported us to come back to the truth of who we are and let go of what was smothering it, so others can hear of another way… just like what Serge Benhayon does and never holds back. When we don’t want to deal with our stuff and are hurt, we are given so many alternatives to numb and not feel. That’s where many can say marijuana is natural and safe… or drinking wine is healthy.

  74. Thank you for a very real and down to earth piece on how addictive marijuana really is, and how it robs you of your daily life and your health. You have described very well the life of a ‘stoner’ and the effects this way of life has on those around you and the long terms mental and physical health risks.

  75. Thanks Anonymous, a great account of how drugs can exclude oneself from life, contract us and change the way we live life. But your sharing shows that it isn’t ever too late to change behaviours and the way one interacts with life.

  76. This is a truly inspiring personal account of the world of evil (all that is not love) that promises to fill us up if we choose to live empty and not in the fullness of our true self. Young children are good at dealing with their issues sober because they still have enough connection with the part of them that knows better in the sense that they know we are far more than what we at times play ourselves to be. It is only by reconnecting back to this part of us, our Soul, that we can lay to rest that recklessness of the human spirit that seeks to keep us living in separation to such love. By accepting and deeply appreciating that we are love in essence and by committing whole-heartedly to making our life about the expression of this love, we seal the cracks through which such evil otherwise enters.

  77. There is not a lot that has been left unturned here and it depicts the user’s perspective incredibly evocatively, so thank you for the insight Anonymous, I’ll be returning to this blog again.

  78. From the time of being a child and than to being addicted to marijuana, there must be so much numbing and hurt that this seems like an acceptable option.

  79. Thank you for illustrating so clearly the effects of Marijuana. As with so many things that we champion there is no good coming from Marijuana and I like how you say you are “not an AA­-like reformed drug addict” but that you have truly healed that what had made you use drugs to cope with life.

  80. A fascinating insight into the world of marijuana addiction, It definitely is not a ‘natural’ way to live, it has devastating effects as outlined here.When I read this and recall that they want to legalise marijuana, a shiver runs down my spine. I hope that does not happen.

  81. To use drugs is a way to numb ourselves as alcohol, sugar, coffee, working hard, eating too much are too. Drugs is one of the strong forms as it is very hard to stop with it. You think you are free as you feel for a moment may be in you head but basically you are completely controlled by astral energies which is costing your vitality and joy in life even more. And all we have to pay back to the body one day sooner or later.

  82. Marijuana and ‘its insidious nature of hiding / burying and therefore hindering one’s ability to try and work through issues or deal with stuff.’ Sadly I have seen young people start smoking this and put their head further in the sand, refuse all support from relations and turn to peers who are also into smoking. Once they connected with those around them but gradually turned inward and to poor choices making their futures ones of struggle and reason to bury their heads further all the time thinking what they’re doing is fun and exciting until it so isn’t. My impressions is that society still views marijunana as more acceptable than other drugs (I’ve not heard calls to legalize heroin for example) fearing it more, not because of its effects, but that it is considered a ‘gateway’ drug not acknowledging the user has already entered the danger zone.

  83. Firstly Anonymous I would like to acknowledge the tenderness, openness and fragility you express with, it is completely disarming and very beautiful. Your description of your first few days on a sober and nurturing diet stopped me in my tracks as I recently experienced something similar when I stopped eating fruit and sugar for a month. We all use a lot of different things to bury our emotions and deny what we feel but you remind me this stuff is always waiting to come up and out and it’s actually a very beautiful and healing process to honour what we feel.

  84. When we look at life, we tend to look out for things that cause ‘violent’ changes. We see these extremities as the worst things. But whilst these events are undeniably powerful are they truly the most intense? Or is it possible that the visual scale we measure life through is not so complete? When I look at the side effects you outline here Anonymous, which are my experience too, it is clear to me that often times it is the ‘small’ indulgences and ‘not so bad’ habits that can cause the greatest harm. Everything is energy, so it only makes sense to me that we should begin to see the influence and impact of things from this point of view. To continue to ignore this will make us great dopes.

  85. Reading your article made me ponder whether each generation look for something that is exclusively their’s
    As a parent of teenagers part of the struggle is to try and keep abreast and understand the things they are up against in our rapidly changing society.

  86. A brilliant sharing Anonymous and one so sorely needed in this world where drug use appears to be out of control. And isn’t that the key thing that you show – that whilst we might think momentarily escaping from a feeling or emotion we have is a great relief – the essential fact is this buries and traps the issue so deep. Contrast this with letting the sensation be, looking at why it is there, but knowing that’s it’s not the real you or me.

  87. Marijuana is a messy drug, and it is far from ‘natural’ to smoke it or ingest it etc. Amazing how far we can go in order to justify not dealing with our stuff…

  88. It’s amazing to feel past patterns, or even addictions become just something in the past with no hold over ourselves. Usually when we quit something through will power it stays in our body so the pull to do it again is always there – it’s an inner struggle we have to deal with constantly. But through dealing with the underlying reasons for the patterns and addictions, we heal the hurts that we have been trying to bury by whatever these were, so there is absolutely nothing left of them and no need for them at all.

  89. A sharing for all, the destruction marijuana causes is very evident if you have known a person before taking up the drug and after. As after they seem to be a shadow of their former selves. Let’s begin to talk more about the destruction all illegal drugs cause to self, family, friends and subsequently, humanity. But more than that, let’s talk about why these behaviors are chosen.

    1. Beautiful Leigh – it is this understanding and judgment-free approach you offer here, that will allow us to open up and admit at last that we can’t cope and that there is a deeper conversation for us all to have.

  90. It’s become more and more evident to me, that any understanding of drug addiction on its own will never work. For the truth is, being addicted to marijuana is the same as being poor, being good or a rock star, being a great employee, partner or a rebellious student. Every single thing we puruse and drivenly seek, is just another flavour of hiding from our true power. How can you judge another for the choices that they make, when you look at your past and all the poses that you chose to avoid the simple truth of the Love you are? Our addiction to these stories and dramas are the greatest hindrance to ourselves but is possible as you show Anonymous to leave these addictive ways behind. That is the crucial fact and something we can all get behind.

  91. Thank you for the insights into the world of marijuana smokers, and the effects it has with regards to burying your issues, so that you do not feel any sadness. It is clear that it has become a huge problem because it is so widely accepted and unfortunately that’s when it is seen as harmless, and normal.

  92. What an honest blog! I hadn’t fully understood the effects of marijuana and how it can destroy lives. It is inspiring that you have come out the other side of this drug use and seen it for what it is. Understanding why we are drawn to drug use, what it is that we are burying and what it is that we ultimately don’t want to face is the first step to kicking out any addiction.

  93. What has become so apparent to me by reading this blog is just how widespread and normalised our de-faulty behaviours and choices have become as a humanity. Not that I want to judge but exhaustion, seediness, lethargy, Drug use and other forms of escaping are high… my question is , is this our true potential and is there more? Thankyou so much for sharing this kid as it shows the potential is real and true love, joy can be loved in life – the external stimulants never measure up to that natural beauty.

  94. This is a very painful story of being trapped in the underworld of life through the vicious cycle of addiction, all for the sake of not feeling or dealing with the issues that need to be felt and cleared. It’s amazing the lengths we go to to do this, and then justify it in our minds to convince ourselves that it’s ok. This blog is a valuable gem that everyone would do well to read. Thank you for sharing your story.

  95. There is the illusion when smoking marijuana that it somehow helps to deal with or dissolve stress and issues but the insidious truth is as written here that it just burys them deeply with no learning and so when trying to stop smoking it you often have to face all of these unresolved issues and all that comes with them.

  96. Amazing thank you so much for sharing, what a journey to go on and to now come back to you. I am always astounded by the degree in which we can turn our life around when we start taking responsibility. Although not everyone is ready for it, could it be that taking responsibility is the answer to many of our so called problems.

  97. Anonymous, I just love your analogy of addiction with the salivation of Pavlov’s dogs – it’s so true of any addiction and a great reminder of how powerful it is living in anticipation of the perpetual highs without consideration to the consequential and inevitable low that all addiction inevitably brings.

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