From Empty Returns to Investing in Me

By Julie Chung, Melbourne

I have come to realise that in the past I have been an extremely bad investor. Over all of my 56 years and all that I have invested in, I should be a very wealthy, healthy and wise person by now. But all I kept getting were empty returns that needed to be filled up with another investment to satisfy me. It left me feeling incomplete and not enough as a person, which was very dis-empowering, draining and totally not who I now know myself to be.

I realised that I can’t possibly feel or know the fullness of me or who I truly am at those times because I’ve chosen to not feel what I truly need and instead go with outside stimulation as a filler – and it doesn’t work. It was like trying to fill something with nothing, so I couldn’t possibly feel open and spacious, vital and complete.

I’ve invested in this way in TV, movies, people, situations, food, life choices, sex, emotions, others’ emotions, things; the list goes on but you get the picture. Of course you often get the momentary burst of excitement which kicks in the nervous system to accommodate your need that feels good at the time but is very short lived and leaves you with the dull hangover from the emotion used and the energy expended.

My deepest gratitude to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, as it is through them that I have finally come to realise that I have never fully invested in myself. Oh sure, I had a certain level of commitment to living more truly from what I had come to learn about myself, and I love that I had chosen to honour myself in that, but I also realise that I can go so much further and from a much grander place.

The biggest commitment that I will ever make is to invest fully in all of me, and not just what I would deem to be the acceptable parts. I realised that I hadn’t been aware of what truly investing in myself means in full, and that it is asking for me to be open to receiving all of myself – including the parts that are not true, serving me, or that I don’t like to look at. That when I do allow myself to receive all of me and come from my own innate rhythms I can make even greater choices and therefore truly better investments.

So if I am the greatest investment of all, then why did I not feel totally free, unwavering, complete and enough in myself where nothing more was needed – what was missing?

The truth is I had never trusted in myself enough, and so I could not possibly have invested in life choices that honoured the Beauty and Grand-ness of me that I am now feeling in full. I hadn’t allowed myself to know all of me, from that place of Greatness, Beauty and Trust in its absoluteness, for many reasons.

Now,as I know what is right and nurturing for me, and what is truly needed in my daily life as part of a rhythm that I choose for myself, all of those things in life – TV, movies, people, situations, food and making love etc. – are experienced from a new perspective, from a more open and alive part of me that has always been there but veiled by my way of life and its constant motion. I now choose to receive each moment from a place of stillness within me and experience life from there, from me first – so what’s not to enjoy?

I now know with absolute certainty,I AM my own best investor and the only one that can make the greatest choices for me, bringing in those healthy returns over and over again – and never bottoming out.

My own love, deeper appreciation, acceptance, allowance and exquisite grace, are the key to my living a full and true life not only for myself, but just as importantly for others – and I totally invest in that because I am absolutely worth it.

Everything begins and ends with me, it is that simple.

123 thoughts on “From Empty Returns to Investing in Me

  1. A great sharing Julie, and I love this, ‘The biggest commitment that I will ever make is to invest fully in all of me’.

  2. What better to invest in than yourself, ‘I am the greatest investment of all’, helping support you to know and live your, ‘ own love, deeper appreciation, acceptance, allowance and exquisite grace,’ which is key to you living a full and true life for self and others.

  3. I love the fact, Julie, it is always there – the knowing – the feeling – what and how to do it, simply so. At times you may think you don’t have it but that is simply not true. We have it all in our bodies and how important is it then, as Julie proclaims, to deeply look after yourself and your body so you can always have and connect to it.

  4. It is interesting how we make life all about us but by searching in the wrong places, always outside of ourselves, and how simple and enjoyable life can be when we truly invest in ourselves by taking deep and loving care of ourselves and getting to know ourself inside out and with that bring our full potential to the world, always. That way we make it all about ourself but serve everybody else greatly and equally.

  5. Investing in ourselves: the biggest return on investment we’ll ever realise, yielding riches that are a measure of true success.

  6. It’s interesting you mention the trust factor, Julie. Somewhere deep down we know about this – it’s even reflected in some of our financial language… we speak of ‘trust’ funds and ‘trustees’ along with investment and returns. It makes sense that we need to back ourselves in order to invest in ourselves. The same kind of dynamic is at play in the purely financial sense.

  7. What struck me when reading your words Julie is, how we have a whole life to invest in ourselves and we constantly do, but the outcome is determined by the quality we invest in with and not so much the outcome itself. Thus how content and joyful we are in life we can determine by how loving and caring we are with ourselves.

  8. “Of course you often get the momentary burst of excitement which kicks in the nervous system to accommodate your need that feels good at the time but is very short lived and leaves you with the dull hangover from the emotion used and the energy expended.” Some might ask “why would I want to give that up?” because in the initial excitement, stimulation, drama, whatever it is, we think we are living, but that’s only because we don’t know any different. If we do take the plunge and accept the call to make changes which involve not seeking these things to make life colourful, we realise there is joy beyond our imaginings just waiting within every last one of us to be felt and expressed.

  9. Julie I could so relate to your blog, I spent years achieving one thing after another, never being satisfied with the last achievement, yet I never gave my body a second thought, now my relationship with my own body is so much stronger and a great marker for me as to what something feels like in my body, and it is from there that I make my choices from which are so much more loving and supportive I no longer look for the next achievement because I already have all I need from inside myself.

  10. When we invest in ourselves, everyone benefits, because we’re making ourselves feel cared for, looked after, loved – and not needing that from anyone or anything outside of us. A truly empowering way to be and live, that inspires others to live that way, too.

  11. There are two paths down which we can travel – investment of self at the expense of all others with our every move made seeking security for ourselves, or investment in our true self that not only takes all others into the same equation but also ensures that every move is made in consideration to them. The former leads to an energetic bankruptcy in the sense we are constantly filling a hole that cannot be filled unless we bring more of the latter, our true self, into expression and in doing so become more aware of how our every move affects the all we are a part of and deeply appreciate our part in it. This is where the true riches are found.

  12. The beautiful thing about investing in ourselves, in being who we innately are, is that the returns are priceless, never-ending and enriching beyond compare, not only for ourselves in the life we live but equally so for all.

  13. When we care for and nurture the seemingly small aspects of life this naturally cares for everything else both for ourselves and for others.

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