Writing in a Journal and the Power of Honesty

I woke this morning feeling out of sorts – flat and weary, with a sore lower back. I began writing simply but honestly in my journal. I asked myself, “how could I feel this way when I had just woken from a full night’s sleep?” I asked how yesterday had been, what had been disturbing me, and what I had done when I had felt disturbed. I wrote down exactly how my body felt physically and more generally, I wrote how I felt. As I wrote I had more clarity on my weariness, and felt beyond the sense of flat, to sadness, to a feeling of being a little bereft. I wrote as honestly as I could about the things that had been happening that triggered those feelings. 

And then I got up, dressed, and as I usually do, took my dog for a walk.

As I started out I became aware of how snug, secure and warm my body felt – I was wearing my new thermal tights and vest under my walking clothes. I felt the care and nurturing I had given myself in choosing to wear them. And then I noticed how easy and flowing my walking felt.

I enjoyed that feeling of ease and harmony. I then became aware of the weather: it was what many people would call ‘miserable’. It was damp and misty, and almost raining at times. In my warm thermals, protected from any cold, all I could see was the deep beauty and quiet that came with the weather. The shapes of the trees seemed more pronounced against the mist, and the sounds of the birds seemed more distinct and clear.

I remembered Serge Benhayon talking quite a few years ago about how it shouldn’t matter to us what the weather was like, how in truth it shouldn’t dictate or alter how we felt. At the time I had thought the comment fanciful, something that was lovely in theory, but not achievable in practice, but now I found myself fully appreciating that no day was more beautiful than another: that this ‘miserable’ day was equally beautiful to a bright sunny one.

So, here I was, the person who had woken distinctly out of sorts, now walking along feeling the ease, stillness and quiet, and fully appreciating the beauty of the day. The things that had been bothering me on waking were still there, but they were not dictating or affecting how my day would be. They were not engulfing me like they had when I first woke up.

And what had I done? I had simply committed to feeling what I was feeling, to being as honest as I could be about what I felt, and writing it in a journal. They are very simple practical techniques that have been presented at Universal Medicine events, and which, when I commit to them and put them into practice, help me on a day-to-day basis.

By Catherine Jones, Surrey

757 thoughts on “Writing in a Journal and the Power of Honesty

  1. Catherine, your blog is a beautiful reminder of how we can turn any situation around when we simply connect to ourselves and change our movements. I have always found walking a very supportive way to bring me back if I am feeling out of sorts or tense in anyway.

  2. Thank you Catherine for reminding me how simple it is to connect to ourselves and honestly express how we feel, and the huge impact this can have. I have recently added stop moments to my day so if I feel off or notice any change in or around me that doesn’t feel true I offer myself space to just feel and express honestly to myself. It’s been very supportive. I’ve also realised just how many amazing things are happening each day and writing them in my journal, they may be realisations, events, or a situation that I feel is from the Magic of God, etc. It has felt lovely to value these and record them.

  3. I always love reading this blog Catherine, it’s like the combination of commitment and honesty together is a rocketship back to where we should be – and they are the fundamental blocks we need to build our day on.

  4. Yes there is great power in being honest and commit to living in and with what our body is communicating. I know for myself I always woke up feeling flat and weary by the idea of commencing a new day. I’ve realised how this was a ‘comfortable’ habit, better said an addiction and with observing without any judgement or beating up of myself I just claim that’s not me and it starts to change. Of course I can be tired but I can be equally joyful at the same time in caring and nurturing myself.

  5. Committing to being honest, truthful and to feeling what one is feeling is a sound foundation from which to live.

  6. Catherine what you write is spot on, we just need to give ourselves the space to truly feel what and how we are feeling the rest is then dealt with upon a foundation of healing.

  7. I find it amazing that I can wake up out of sorts including a headache, go to work and have a walk and by 7am I am almost fully or fully recovered, yet it has happened a number of times.

  8. If we focus on what is outside of us we will always be disappointed as life never lives up to the pictures we create.

    1. Well said Fiona – nothing in this world can confirm or live up to the truth of who we Soulfully and divinely in essence. The power, the truth of all that we are and are part of is found and as such known within us.

  9. If we allow our moods to be dictated by external factors such as the weather or the moods of other people then we are signing ourselves up for a rollercoaster ride of life.

  10. Its interesting what we do when we are feeling out of sorts. Normally we would continue travelling through our day in that way, perhaps even looking to blame a situation or circumstance or another person. But all that is needed is what was done in this example. Acknowledge how you are feeling and then using tools to return awareness to the body. So simple.

  11. To become honest about how we feel and look where it comes from is a beautiful way to deepen the relationship with ourselves and others.

  12. Honesty is our keyway to heaven – love, love in our hearts and love in our lives. When we become honest and see that we have missed living love, our world starts to open up and the possibilities are directly there for us to change our past around by connecting to our love in our present time.

  13. Simple honesty about how we are feeling, with nothing to fix, breaks the hold those feeling have over us, and allows us to come back to what is true in the love that we are.

  14. I have never really been able to keep up with journal writing and feel this is something I could consider as a support for myself as a self-reflection exercise. We focus so much on the negative and rarely appreciate the magic that happens in our lives all the time.

  15. Catherine I love what you present here, when we honour what we feel we make life uncomplicated and super simple.

  16. Everyday has its own quality of beauty, whether we recognise that or not is dependent upon our state of being.

  17. Being honest with one self can see the truth and then have the opportunity address what needs to be addressed, if we are not truthful we cannot do this.

  18. I know for myself that when I am honest all the complications that came with the dishonesty disappear, whilst it may not be a nice feeling at first after a period of time in that honesty the clarity that comes is more than worth it. It’s great to see how walking and talking and being honest supports us.

  19. There are moments when truth feels like a fanciful fiction, but our body knows it so well that it always finds its way back, eventually.

  20. I love to write down my soulfull dreams.
    This way I feel the Message from my soul deeper And sometimes I share with others which brings even more clarity to it.

  21. I love Catherine how you show through a few simple moves, such as writing in your journal and being honest with yourself you were able to change the way you felt upon waking. Appreciation is the key. When we walk with appreciation as you did there is no room for negative thoughts to come in and if they do it is much easier to spot them and say no to them.

  22. Without honesty we stay stuck in old pattern and momentums, when we commit to being honest with ourselves and nominating how we are feeling this is a powerful movement that supports us in every way.

  23. The techniques presented by Universal Medicine are very practical and when practiced bring about amazing, and often unimagined, changes in one’s life and way of living that are truly remarkable.

  24. It is only when we are not true to the love that we are that we allow the clouds to mask the eternal warmth of the Soul’s glow.

  25. I love the simplicity of what you have shared here Catherine “I had simply committed to feeling what I was feeling, to being as honest as I could be about what I felt, and writing it in a journal” I find there are times when I can do this and let it go but there are other times when I go into fix it mode and then of course everything is amplified and i feel the heaviness of it all.

  26. Our honesty is our key — our golden key to heal the past and to prepare ourselves for the future by being in the present. It is so profound to share more openly, by writing it down for example, what we go through, what we feel and see in our lives and around us and what mechanisms we have actually established to play down our sensitivity and love. Good to catch! And this is by honesty.

  27. How more we are just ourselves, very simple, just open and transparent it does not matter what is going on we can feel the joy of each moment.

  28. This is gorgeous Catherine, the key is being honest and open about how we feel. I know when I have been denying and avoiding how I feel, the tension and intensity of what I was feeling just get buried and can build up. This could lead to a potential eruption if I do not deal with it by stopping to feel and to heal.

  29. Everyday we live, we write a page in the journal of life, but do we expresss with all of our heart? Do we consider ourselves a part of the universe? It seems to me we are the authors of the life we lead, and the story we illustrate is purely down to us, our ideals and beliefs. Life needn’t be a drama or science fiction – but a true love story if we just consider the bigger picture. We after all are just characters in God’s stageplay. Thank you Catherine for this reminder of the power of writing.

  30. When we are honest with ourselves about what does not feel true, we expose the energy that is not of love, allowing us to move forward embracing greater love in our bodies, as such creating space for us to magnify love through our movements.

  31. Honesty is key in coming to the truth of who we are and why we feel as we feel and with that any judgement disappears. There will be only understanding and a new foundation to evolve from.

  32. Something else that stands out for me is how the body is left to be itself in this sharing. We tend to treat our body with such disdaine when we choose a behaviour that doesn’t feel lovely in it, when it is never the body at fault, but the choice we made in how to live in it.

  33. I love how this article doesn’t try to fix what has happened or how the body feels, that instead it is acknowledged accepted and left, with the day ahead to be lived with the grace of fully loving the body, no matter the experiences of the previous day.

  34. Such a great sharing Catherine and it can be on the smallest or biggest thing that is going on in our lives when we go for the honesty and at times this can be difficult what we are left with when we do go for it is clarity and space to feel more of who we are.

    1. Agreed Natalie and beautifully said. Space is never empty as it is either occupied with the spaciousness of love or the density of all that is not of love, the difference of which is always felt in the body.

  35. Honesty in our daily lives takes us from being a cork in a sea of life and all it brings, to being resourceful and equipped for whatever comes our way.

  36. Catherine I love the power that writing with honesty and truth brings, it stops all the confusion, all the games that we can play in our head and allows us to grow, evolve and move forward with our life. It helps us make sense of the world by expressing the truth of what is going on. Of course we can also abuse writing and list off lies and “convenient truths”.

  37. This is such a simple practice that I know has supported me on many a morning when I’ve let the previous day’s choices run into my day. Just accepting how I am feeling and reconnecting with myself with out admonishment but an openness of observation I can go for a walk, or drive the car to work and just be with me and come back to feeling a steadiness that I can keep choosing through out my day.

    Often I have to say no to the thoughts that want me to give myself a hard time and know their justifying themselves are not valid. So they will say that by giving myself a hard time will mean I will not do it again. It is rather like the angry parent shouting at the child but not understanding why the child did what they did and leaving those reasons intact. So, no matter how hard the punishment, the child repeats their behaviour or subjugates it into something else instead of being supported to heal.

  38. The beauty of this life at this time is that connection is on-tap! By being connected to ourselves and cultivating a deep relationship with our body we do not become victims of the external factors in this world, even the weather.

  39. Walking, whilst connected with ourselves, feeling our body and appreciating our qualities we bring can really help change our energy to one that feels quite gorgeous no matter our start point.

  40. I find that the levels of honesty in how I have been in the day come to me when I stop for a walk at the end of the day, or during my lunch break. A moment to stop and take stock of how I have been travelling and clocking the choices that I have been making that have either been harming or supporting me throughout the day.

  41. There is nothing more empowering than to discover that we are not our emotions, and that movement, when made in a gesture towards truth, which includes starting with the honesty of what can be felt, is one that re-establishes a connection with a greater flow in life. A beautiful illustration of this thank you Catherine…

    1. Yes, everything in this blog seemed very simple yet the power that came from it is a blue print for space within our bodies to be able to understand ourselves and life. Honesty with ourselves has to be at the foundation of any true and lasting change.

  42. By nominating what hurts us, we no longer allow it to own us. Thus, in this state we are free to walk unencumbered by the imposition we had brought upon ourselves that had no place within us and sought to make us feel so burdened and become so dense.

  43. Simple and sweet really, ” I had simply committed to feeling what I was feeling, to being as honest as I could be about what I felt, and writing it in a journal.” There is something about writing in a journal or recording like this that supports us deeper. I know when I have done this and read back over things as apposed to trying to just remember there is a huge difference. It’s like you remember it one way but when it’s recorded the real goings on are shown. I guess like even writing this comment is a record in the same way, a true record of what I was feeling at this point.

  44. When we are, and feel really comfortable, in our body no outer circumstance can disturb this. And this is something everybody should learn and know.

  45. I have been amazed how much I could recover during the day from waking up tired or (in the past) exhausted. It is as if living in a certain way during the day actually gives you energy.

  46. I moved from England and lived abroad for 3 years citing the bad weather here as one of the reasons. It didn’t take long to realise that with wall to wall sunshine for months on end, I still had the same issues. Now back in England, I rarely moan about the weather and actually love the seasons and even the rain.

  47. This is wonderful to read. I feel that honesty delivers us back to truth, to ourselves, so no matter what energies we’ve taken up we can let them go with this honesty. I also am appreciating how weather isn’t dictating how I am feeling as it once did. Days of non-stop rain I am not a fan of because it’s not so nice for walks but there are always others things like swimming to enjoy.

    1. Yes, lies have difficulty sustaining themselves in the face of honesty. It seems too simple but it is very powerful.

  48. ‘I had simply committed to feeling what I was feeling, to being as honest as I could be about what I felt, and writing it in a journal’. – This is so practical and supportive Catherine. There is an honouring that has taken place in these 3 reflective activities and commitment. From the time we are young we live with a constant message that we are not ok and so a foundation is formed that reflects to us everything we feel, and everything we are is wrong. Taking a moment to truly feel, accept and honour our truth is re-connecting to that inner divinity that we truly are and a healing/shift plays out changing our moment/our day/our life.

  49. It can be so easy to get stuck in an emotional issue and let it play round and round in our head and let it affect our day. I love the fact that you took a moment to wonder why you felt flat and weary and out of sorts with a sore lower back. It can be so healing to ponder on these moments instead of overriding them as a bad nights sleep and continue the day in that way hoping the day may get better. When we are truly honest with ourselves it is amazing how quickly we can shift something that may have disturbed the rest of the day.

  50. Sometimes when people talk about writing in a diary or journal it can seem like an indulgence – like it is a way of venting emotions and blaming others/ life/ the weather for their discontent but I love how the way you’ve written here there is none of that – it was just simply being honest with yourself about what you were feeling and being open to seeing what that was reflecting for you…

  51. You choosing to appreciate your own caring and nurturing about your perfect clothing for the day gave you a different focus on how your body and then the weather felt to you. I love the way appreciation works, what it does to the body and the movements it makes, leaving behind a beautiful imprint for everyone to enjoy.

  52. I’ve tried writing journals in the past but have not been committed to a daily practice so have stopped after a few days. One of the reasons for that is I’ve felt a bit silly writing to myself. What I mean by that is that because it was for me and not for anyone else to read (an audience), I found it difficult to understand the point of it. So ingrained in me is that belief that I took on in school that writing is only for others – to be recognised, to achieve something, or to express something to another, that I found it impossible to write without writing for someone else to read it. Why express when its just for me? It’s great to expose this lack of valuing myself as well as the need for a reward for writing or expressing in any other way. I’m going to return to journal writing with a fresh imprint and knowing the value there is in expressing to myself.

  53. This is a great example of what can happen if you choose to put any one of the many support and practical ways of being in life that are presented by Universal Medicine. The Way of the Livingness is that – a way of living that supports you to be fully engaged in life but not knocked around by it.

  54. You say “I had simply committed to feeling what I was feeling, to being as honest as I could be about what I felt, and writing it in a journal” – and this is the thing, we want a technique, a medicine with a fancy name, something to get us out of our predicament, yet here we find healing is actually very simple and rather gorgeous.

  55. love how honesty brings truth, truth brings connection and connection allows us to feel the beauty in all that is around us.

  56. I love what you have shared her Catherine. I find there are levels of honesty I can engage in. For example this morning I have an aching lower back. Admitting that in itself rather than ignoring it and pretending all is okay is an important level of honesty. Universal Medicine has supported me to understand nothing happens in random and any issue is a result of choices, and adopting this I can see the choices I made yesterday to push through after I knew my body needed to stop (as well as the choices I made the days before which resulted in me being in that predicament yesterday!) were directly related.

    But interesting that when I consider ‘honesty’ I tend to think of getting to the point of seeing how I have stuffed up and what needs extra work. What you have introduced here is expanding my awareness to the yet bigger picture of the power of the perfection, absoluteness and love that is the Universe and that I also am.

    1. Pretending leads us on the roller coaster of ups and downs and then has us questioning how did we get there in the end.

      1. So very true Natalliya. Every one of us has access to an inner source of awareness and wisdom beyond measure. Could the endemic state of anxiousness which people increasingly live with, be a result of us not living true to ourselves and constantly striving for and often pretending to be all that we think we need to be.

  57. Life becomes so beautiful when we connect to that natural delicate and tender feeling in the body in which we can feel the the love we are from. When we live like this from this livingness, we connect to the outer world in the knowing that we are from the same source and that there is the same beauty in whatever is being presented to us. May it be a lovely summer day or a cold winter day, there is always that connection with the grander whole we are all part of and can connect with.

  58. I loved walking with you today, no matter what the weather is when we walk with ourselves we walk with an easy flow, and I have noticed how easy it is to let go of the things that have bothered me before my walk, how much freer I feel after a walk and how much easier it is to be honest with myself.

  59. Thank you Catherine, I have found great power in simple self care and nurturing techniques, especially when I have felt engulfed by something such as issue or worry etc. I have just recently begun some journal writing as well to help me catch up on some big events in my life, and nurturing myself by sharing honestly how I feel. All this time dedicated to ourselves and our own self care makes for a joyful life.

  60. Nowadays a ten minute walk can connect deeper with me and can relax more tension out of my body then what a whole weeks holiday did before in my life.

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