Recently it dawned on me how most of my life has been governed by an outer influence – always there was something or somebody who told me what to do or how to be. The interesting part in all of this is that I thought I chose what I do. In truth, there is so much information out there that tells us how to live, how to eat, what to do to live a happy life, what to do to become richer and how to behave to gain power, etc. Relying on all this information to help me through life, never once did it occur to me that I had all the information I ever needed, if only I had listened to my inner knowing.
By searching for the answers outside of this inner knowing, I opened myself up to being influenced by others’ decisions and gave my power away to what others thought was best for me. Yet all along I had a feeling of my truth but chose to override it constantly. I chose to override what felt true for me.
I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it.
Although there was a deep knowing in me of what is true, I was not able to follow it. It seemed to be so opposite to what was taught in school, lived in religious groups or in society in general, that I felt scared to acknowledge this deep inner knowing and wisdom.
In school, sometimes even in kindergarten, teachers are telling us what to do in order to get good marks, no matter how our body feels about this. The church tells us what to do to be a better person and have God’s blessing, instead of feeling deep in our bodies what is true. The boss tells us what to do in our workplace and often we cope in order not to get in trouble. The bank tells us how to be with our money and what we have earned, and finally there are loads of books or the Internet where we can look up what to do in certain situations.
I realised that I was reacting to the demands of what society and life brought towards me and I tried to find the right solution to deal with that in reading lots of books to gain as much knowledge as possible for any situation.
The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world.
Constantly disregarding myself caused frustration, disharmony and anxiousness in my body, but I was not willing to listen to the knowing inside of me and take responsibility for myself.
My life changed when I came to know Serge Benhayon 4 years ago. For the first time in my life someone understood what I was feeling and knowing and I was able to develop an understanding for myself. Still, the habit to give my power away instead of truly listening to myself was so ingrained that it felt hard to change in the beginning.
However, since I have been attending Universal Medicine courses, I have developed more and more love and patience concerning the way I am living. This has improved my life by changing my habits into ‘better habits,’ – however, to allow myself to listen to the truth inside of me took time.
In gaining more understanding of what Serge Benhayon presents:
- I am learning to not obey blindly
- I am starting to question what is going on, around and inside me
- I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention
- I am expressing my truth and what I am feeling
I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to. In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body. It is a way of living which sometimes seems to be difficult or hard because I am so used to my old patterns of searching outside for answers, but…
In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.
In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.
I am now living an amazing life and feel blessed by Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon being part of my life.
By Kerstin Salzer, Physiotherapist, Germany
Further reading:
The Way It Is – A Treatise on Energetic Truth
I loved the simplicity of this blog, and that “inner knowing is always inside us”. We constantly over ride it and then we wonder why we become in such a tiss with everything we do or be. You are so right we disregard this knowing because from an early age we are conditioned to be in a certain way to fit in and yet, this knowing never leaves us. Till we meet someone like Serge Benhayon and we take those steps to where we once came from.
It was a joy to read this – thank you.
Spot on Alison – and then as adults we have much of that to ‘Un-learn’ in order to come back to how we were as children before all of the impositions and influences.
Kerstin, I love how you state this with the simplicity that it is and has on offer for us all should we choose to embrace it: “In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.”
I agree Henrietta, this blog is simple yet so powerful. Its simply asking us to be us, instead of pretzeling ourself’s into something we are not.
A simple recipe for life and learning to live in it honestly, truthfully and with the willingness to see all there is to see:
” – I am learning to not obey blindly”
” – I am starting to question what is going on, around and inside me”
” – I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”
” – I am expressing my truth and what I am feeling”
Kerstin, I love what you have shared here – it is so true that we are always being told what to do from left right and center…but how refreshing when someone is with us and does not demand anything… and just let’s us be.
We can connect to our inner self if we choose to, ‘In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.’
We can observe Richard that some people are quite happy to look outside of themselves and be dictated to by the mass of society. Thankfully there are those that are living a different way of life that will be the reflection of life in the future. We can say our future is very bright.
What I can feel is how there is often this need to be right, that we want to be validated and confirmed in what we are choosing, and how this often allows doubt to creep in, and what I am learning is how affording myself space to move in a way that being wrong and making errors is allowed, is also part of self-love.
“I tried to find the right solution” In ‘trying’ to find a ‘solution’ we take ourselves away from the truth that we already know within us.
Reading this blog again I got to feel that you are correct in what you say Kerstin when you say
“there is so much information out there that tells us how to live, how to eat, what to do to live a happy life, what to do to become richer and how to behave to gain power, etc.”
But looking around at society has any of this worked for us? Are we living ‘happy lives’? Are those people that have money more ‘happy’ I wonder? I feel that something is seriously wrong with our current way of living and it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to know this. Our society seems to be breaking down literally, so where has all this ‘information’ got us?
We are conditioned from a very young age about what to do and how to live our lives, we seem to voluntary put on the straight jacket of life which is then very difficult to take off. And if anyone does succeed in taking it off they then stand out in the crowd as different from the rest. We even have a name for it ‘The tall poppy syndrome’ Where we want everyone to be the same and in that sameness there is no room for change.
So gorgeous to read, it is very beautiful to start to question life and not just blindly going with what everyone is saying and doing but feel inside what is actually true.
Yes, feel what is true for us, ‘By searching for the answers outside of this inner knowing, I opened myself up to being influenced by others’ decisions and gave my power away to what others thought was best for me.‘
I am feeling quite disturbed today. In the past I would of brushed it aside or not even recognised it as something being disturbed. But these days I ignore it less because if I don’t then things get crazy.
I’ve always wondered what life would look like if we weren’t governed from Day one by everything that happens outside of us, it’s something I’ve begun to explore in recent years – what would life be like if my every choice came from within me – rather than a reaction to what has happened around me – and could our inner compass guide us into a completely different path if we truly used it to navigate?
After years of socialisation that teaches us to ignore what we feel, it takes commitment and honouring of our self and giving self-permission to feel again. We learn to suppress what we feel as kids and instead think about what would be most logical or acceptable. This means that it can take a while for our ability to feel to speak up again, but it definitely does when we give it the chance.
It does feel like having to re-learn how to be with people while connected to ourselves as opposed to collectively refusing to acknowledge the inner knowing in ourselves and each other.
Yet, it is so simple to connect with our body and ask for its wisdom, ‘I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it.’
Being with yourself takes away the anxiety of trying to control situations as your ok to be with what is happening. It is very simple and hugely healing.
It is so healing for our bodies, to listen to and honour what they share, rather than, ‘Constantly disregarding myself caused frustration, disharmony and anxiousness in my body, but I was not willing to listen to the knowing inside of me and take responsibility for myself.’
For me whenever I look outside of myself for the answers or for support I complicate things and end up tossing things around and around in my head, when I choose to connect deeply within and surrender without needing an answer or a quick ‘fix’ it allows the space for things to shift.
That there is a deep knowing of truth within us that we do not always access, are we not then choosing to see through our own filters and level of awareness dependent on what we have accepted as ‘truth’, the way we want life to be – a convenient truth?
It is interesting how we often go ‘out’ to find what rests deeply within and always has. We make complex what is naturally very simple.
Often we use the outer doing to override the inner knowing, rather than use the inner knowing to inform the outer doing.
When reading this blog I got a sense of how in past lives I gave my power away to the church; it was these words that gave me this sense.
“The church tells us what to do to be a better person and have God’s blessing, instead of feeling deep in our bodies what is true.”
I gave my power away to ideals and beliefs that I was living nearer to God but there is no truth in this lie I chose because we all live in the body of God (the universe is the body of God) we all breathe into our lungs the air that surrounds us (the space that is God) so therefore it is impossible to hold him outside of us when he is within every particle of our body. Coming back to this truth exposes the lie I fell for.
‘In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.’
When I hand over to my mind I get lost in a rabbit hole of complication with who knows what making the decisions as to which way I turn. It’s an alarming experience calling in anxiety and panic at not being in control and then trying to control life.
What’s loving is to listen to my body, go beneath any anxiety that I have placed over my inner knowing so as to not feel or express it. Even the fact of following my inner knowing and not that which is outside of me is going against the current grain of how life is lived by many and I have old fears of standing out and being picked on. But isn’t this all the more to live this way so to offer a reflection connected with truth and harmony?
This is so empowering to read Kerstin. Love your sharing, is very honest and real. With your experience you make accesible what is possible for all, listening and trusting what feels true for us, intstead of following the rules, demands or expectations from outside. Thank you
Any form of complication in life is not coming from the wisdom that lives within us all equally but is created to mislead us because like you say Kerstin ‘In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.’ We need nothing more.
If we live from what we know, rather than what we have considered life is so much faster, you know instantly in less than a second, whereas consideration can take so much time, even days or weeks sometimes.
This is so true Meg – when we come from the head there are so many things to weigh out and consider, but when we come from the body there is simply a knowing and even if we do not understand it fully, we just know that this is what we need to go by.
How come the incredible amount of information that is out there regarding life, does not translate into great lives? What is this telling us regarding the quality of the information that circulates endlessly?
It’s interesting that this coming home to ourselves and beginning to trust our own inner knowing like never before is one of the great joys that is encouraged by Universal Medicine and Serge Behayon. This is far from the cultish behaviour that they are accused of.
I want to know why it is that it has taken me so long to discover the essence that makes up every one of us. Why is it we not taught how to stay connected to this essence we are naturally born with? Why is it we are instead taught from an early age to look outside of us? Just using myself as an example so much damage has been done and if multiplied by everyone living then no wonder the world is in the mess it is in today. So surely learning to live from our essence is the most important aspect of life.
There is so much information out there advising us how to live a happy life and back in the day; I would have been one of those people who bounced around from idea to idea, only to find that there are no quick fixes. Now I would ask who the person is who has written the article or book, and are they living a consistent joyful life, never mind happy. Something that I have learnt from Universal Medicine presentations is that we all have the answers inside of us already and that we do not need to give our power away to others.
Just your first line is a show-stopper, if almost every move we’ve made in life has been influenced by outward influences, then is it possible we would be in a very different position in life had we listened first inwardly?
Actually if we stop and just think about it Kirsten you are correct we think we chose what we want to do that we are the masters of our own destiny. If this is the case then why is it so many of us go off the course we set for ourselves? I know this happens because when I volunteer at my local hospital I get to meet the elderly and they do not at all like the path of life they have trodden especially the men, they get to the end of their life and look back in bitterness and resentment to a life wasted.
I find that really sad – that someone could get to the end of their life and not love the steps they have taken. It definitely inspires me to not mess around and to focus and give life everything I’ve got so when at the end I can say – yes that was everything I’ve got, instead of wishing I’d done more or gone a different direction.
Beautiful blog Kerstin. It’s mind boggling that the information we turn to outside of ourselves is designed to take us away from the truth we already know. This means that most of humanity is choosing to keep themselves in the dark. Not wonder so many feel lost and without purpose.
So true – it is our own disregarding of ourselves that causes frustration. I have been used to thinking others were to blame and I am only reacting, but for me to be reacting, something else had to happen.
It is not selfish to live from our truth, it is actually deeply honouring of ourselves and also of others. Something one may have difficulty in understanding until it is lived.
‘I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to. In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body.’ This is for all of us to read and know, that everything we need is already inside us and yet we expend so much energy chasing outer rewards and sources of information
” The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world. ”
I would say this is the same for everybody, the struggle of fighting what is known in full and trying to bring in and implement what are only short term solutions and not truth.
‘The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world.’ So true Kerstin, when we reconnect to our essence we can feel the great wisdom and inner knowing that is always available to us 24/7.
With our knowing that living from our inner knowing rather than fitting into the expectations of others is true, then it is beholden of us to express this wherever possible, in particular to support children to maintain their connection and not succumb to the pressures to conform.
The beauty in living with and In acceptance and appreciation of our inner knowing is that it never gets boring, life constantly deepens and our awareness constantly expands.
You have absolutely nailed it Kerstin. The world has it upside-down (we’ve gone down the rabbit hole). The truth is that life needs to be lived from the inside out not the outside in, the latter being extremely disempowering and ultimately very destructive to our health and wellbeing, and to our brotherhood as a world.
Remembering knowledge does not always automatically make us wise.
I can relate to what you have shared Kerstin, I listened to everything else outside of me except my own inner wisdom , from a young age I was told it was not to be trusted, it has been quite a journey opening up to and accepting that within me is all the love and wisdom I ever need or want , the truth of who I am is there when I connect to my inner heart.
I am learning that there is a decision that has to be made, moment by moment, our inner essence is all ways there but staying steady and consistently choosing to live from it is a constant choice.
I’ve been feeling really frustrated at myself recently for not listening to my inner knowing. But in doing so I choose to express in an energy, a quality that is all about ignoring that inner knowing. I have identified with this ignorance and this in itself feels liberating to expose. The ignoring of my inner knowing doesn’t come from within me.
“my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention” reconnecting to our inner wisdom is to reconnect to who we truly are.
Your opening sentence Kirsten, ‘Recently it dawned on me how most of my life has been governed by an outer influence – always there was something or somebody who told me what to do or how to be’ is one of the the most stunning discourse made by anyone in their life. Once this is realised our whole life and that of others can be turned around – from the inside out instead of the outside in. Wonderful!
“The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world.” I would put money on it that you are/were not alone in this and that much of humanity is giving their power away to the outside world. And this does create tension which drains us and I think it is part of the reason that humanity consumes so much sugar and caffeine.
Our movements in life are a consequence of our choices. So, it is true that we choose what to do, but it is also true that we do so after having said yes to other things first (and did not say yes to other ones). So, awareness of what did we say yes to is crucial to better understand what are we saying yes now. And, the possibility of choosing different is there (of saying yes to different things. The rule also applies here, what we say yes to will influence what are our next steps.
Breaking the illusion that we think we make our own choices when in fact we are conditioned to choose within defined parameters and instead connect to and live from one’s inner-knowing is indeed a challenge. Without a doubt Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and The Way of The Livingness are inspirational practical supports and guides to do so.
We are conditioned from a young age to not live in connection to our truth, to what we feel from within, as such the way of living we become accustomed to is one that overrides truth. Yet our inner knowing can never really leave us, as it is the aspect of our Soul that calls to confirm who or remind us of who we are in essence and what we are truly here for. For in-truth we are already blessed by God before we do a thing, and when we live in connection to our Soul, who we are in essence, we then are a blessing to the world with our every move we make.
We are often much more affected by outer influences growing up than we realise. Even people who think that are not doing what they are told often do the opposite so are still reacting just in the other direction but same result.
Yes, it is such an illusion that we think we are choosing for ourselves when we do the opposite to what we are told or what our parents did.
It is like those that rebel and want to be different and join the club of those that rebel and want to be different – but they are just the same different!
Trying to be all things to all people is plain exhausting. Being true to ourselves is the opposite.
Love this Lucy – it is so true. As we actually are and bring so much more to all, without effort, by simply being our true selves.
We learn that the answers lay outside ourselves but with that we also learn to not take the responsibility we have as we can always blame someone or something for what happens. It is wise to get counsel from someone who knows but without knowing ourselves we are lost, while when we are in tune with ourselves and know what is going on with us the counsel we get is a helpful support to come to a decision ourself.
What I love about these four statements is that they are reflecting the very antithesis of what a cult is , and are obviously the foundation for building a truly independent reconnection with ones true self
I am learning to not obey blindly,I am starting to question what is going on, around and inside me, I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention, I am expressing my truth and what I am feeling
Reading books, going to practitioners, searching the internet etc. is all fine though everything is to be discerned…for otherwise giving our power away to another ‘because they said so’ is fraught with danger and the inevitable reactions (e.g. blame) that follow.
There is so much out there and without the anchor of being connected to our inner knowing we are literally like a ship at sea, being swept from one place to the next; it’s exhausting and it takes time and dedication to drop ‘anchor’ into ourselves to connect to and understand what we know within and live it in our lives, but it’s worth it and takes us back to who we truly are.
It’s absolutely exhausting to let ourselves be defined by all the multitude of conflicting demands being placed upon us. But it is a choice and not a given that we do this, so it is therefore possible to make a choice to not do it and experience life from the inside outside rather than the outside in.
Almost everything in the world is designed to keep us looking outside of ourselves – searching for a way to be. Whereas our inner knowing connects us to the vastness of the universe intelligence and naturally impulses our way.
As you say, we deep down know, but we have become so accustomed to giving ourselves away to any outside stimulation and demands, thinking that is the way it is, that we have forgotten and do not know anymore of the power that lays within.
It’s pretty interesting the extent to which we give ourselves away, and think we are the ones running our lives when we are not! Even if we reject the opinions of others, we can be a slave to our own fiercely independent set of beliefs… ‘fierce independence’ not being the answer either.
Our inner knowing does take out the confusion of what to do, which helps to make life more simple.
Yes, I have found this to be true for me when I connect to my inner knowing, everything becomes so much simpler, clearer and my day flows easily.
‘In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.’ – the simple truth, that I already have all that I need and can connect to that awareness by living the truth who I truly am.
Our inner knowing is simple and in harmony with everything – sometimes the simplicity of it can be what we avoid I think because we’re so used to creating complication in our lives…
“Although there was a deep knowing in me of what is true, I was not able to follow it.”
I can relate to this statement in full. The first book that I read written by Serge Benhayon was amazing for me. Here I found someone who was saying what I had always known, but had not been able to live.
Thank you Kerstin, it’s a beautiful process coming back to our own knowing, even if at times it’s difficult. “I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.” I have lived feeling unsure of things, yet the reason I was unsure was because I was connected to my knowing but I was not placing trust in myself. Learning to feel and confirm my inner knowing is very supportive.
Thank you Kerstin, most of us have lived our lives in disconnection to that which is our natural way of being but it is through our bodies that once again we can reconnect to that all-knowing nature within us by focusing on the quality of our movements and confirming that which lives within.
I agree, connecting to our inner knowing simply presents understanding. The power in understanding is all encompassing. And brings each of us the absolute opportunity to let go of our Judgements.
We are all obedient but the question is to what – love and truth or all that is not that and pretends to be.
Even our inner knowing is not something we own but a universal truth we are a part of and connected to if we so choose.
I love what you shared here Nicola, it is so true. The universal truth is for everyone, so this is why it is no longer a universal truth if we try to own it.
I think many of us can put our hands up to having searched for answers on the outside, and so giving our power away, instead of tapping into our innate inner wisdom, ‘ I had all the information I ever needed, if only I had listened to my inner knowing.’
The world is so ready to tell us how to be. Through entertainment, distraction and escape we are shown ideal pictures of success and life. But none of these communicate a way of being that is anywhere near the beauty, grace and pure majesty of our being, who we are and how to live that on earth. Thank God for Universal Medicine.
we are always moving with an energy and it is from this energy that then determines how we move and what behaviours govern us. When we are connected to our bodies every movement and we move from there it is the essence of who we are that speaks loud and clear and the quality we then align to becomes crystal clear too. The heart of our connection starts with our connection to our hearts first, any movement made thereafter is then magic.
Kirsten I really enjoyed this blog. I can relate to many of the things you’ve written about, especially to do with trusting myself and often not questioning the decisions of others when it affected me.
It feels easier to give our power away and do what we’re told. Well, it looks easier…but there are huge consequences with living that way simply because it goes against our natural order…and when we go up against our natural order the cracks start to appear and those cracks might look like depression or anxiety or disease or a complete dissatisfaction with life, addictions of any sort to keep us distracted from our choices etc. It’s difficult to choose to go against a system that has been so strongly built on fear….but once we make that choice, it turns out that living from our own knowing is WAY easier and more enjoyable than just being part of a machine.
A beautiful sharing of walking back to our connection with our inner most. The knowing and connection that never leaves us but often gets clouded over.
Beautiful point Kim – the fact that our connection and inner knowing never leaves us – it is us that moves in a way to offset or live in complete opposition to it.
“The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world.” The tension felt is so familiar it is almost not questioned. It quietly drains us as the search for answers and solutions maintains an unerelenting pull. Yet drain it does and feeds a lack of confidence that means we consider this unending and repeating cycle ‘normal’.
The more we honour and respond to what we feel is true, from within and not from what other people want, the more that guide becomes our normal way. Awareness is like a muscle that needs to be worked, understood and listened to to become louder and more prevalent in life.
Thank you Kerstin, showing us the difference between knowledge (information from outside) and a knowing within us. And how important it is to understand this – so that we can come back to our knowing in a world where almost everything is based on knowledge.
Reading this tonight, what comes to mind is how much the flow of life is steady, strong, focused, yet delicate and fragile when it comes impulsed from our body and inner heart. When it is fed from our mind it becomes disjointed, racey, doubtful and full of disregard. Loving my body and allowing its very tender voice to support me is a reality that I now live and deepen every day.
It’s taken me many moons to claim back my authority within, and there is much to claim still. We are all born with an exquisite beacon of truth. Our movements away from this beacon, create a fog that leave us blinded from the truth that we are all knowing.
There is a lot of knowledge available to us to learn and that is very useful and needed for us to learn in different jobs and roles we have in life but never should that learning be at the expense of our connection to the innate wisdom we all have access to for without that what use is the knowledge and how will it be used?
‘In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body.’ Well said Kerstin and very true, it is very inspiring to read the steps you took to embrace your inner knowing and wisdom, living these qualities is a game changer and support us to understand life, bringing a simplicity that allows us to be in the flow of life.
‘I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.’ These words resonate in my body and especially that my inner wisdom deserves deep attention. I feel I need to appreciate my inner wisdom more and to let it come through by being more aware what lives within me, not being satisfied with just a bit as I know how grant we all are.
‘By searching for the answers outside of this inner knowing, I opened myself up to being influenced by others’ decisions and gave my power away to what others thought was best for me. Yet all along I had a feeling of my truth but chose to override it constantly. I chose to override what felt true for me.’ This is something that most of us do Kirsten, even when we know better. I certainly know better and yet when it comes to something unusual happening I can still revert to this old way of not listening to my body. I was about to make a big decision recently and my body was telling me ‘No, no, no’, as it would be precarious financially. At last I listened to it, got some advice and then my body felt beautiful and solid once again.
“In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.” That’s the beauty its within us always for us to connect back within. When we become still within ourselves it is easier to connect to that knowing within us, life feels simple.
Learning not to be governed by outside influences, but to listen to our innate wisdom and knowing is a wonderful teaching of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. How deeply loving and true it is to listen to our bodies, which continually convey what is true. Thank you Kirstin for sharing your wisdom.
Yes Kerstin, there are so many books out there on ‘how to live life,’ we forget that we actually do know and stop trusting ourselves. One of the best decisions I have recently made is to start trusting myself again and rely more on my inner knowing.
What this blog makes clear is that external influences we may say yes to can never truly help us to live a life of realisation. This is important since there is so much in offer that can get either to deviate from our truth or that can get us to settle for small pieces of truth here and there and compromise our bodies for the part that is not true at all.
‘Still, the habit to give my power away instead of truly listening to myself was so ingrained that it felt hard to change in the beginning.’ I agree when we live in reaction to the world we are never being our true selves, and yet when we connect to our heart first we are able to make remarkable changes.
Knowing my inner-wisdom, and having a choice to speak and live from there is absolute love, and brings a huge trust that we are knowing everything and that it is inside us – for us to tap into. And to feel what once we express this wisdom we know we are from it.
I agree, Kerstin – whether we rely on information given to us, or act against it, if we are not with our inner-most, but living in reaction, choices we think we are making for ourselves are not of truth.
Amazing Kerstin. I can so relate to all you have shared as I too was ruled by the world outside of myself, governed by what was right or wrong, what was fitting or not, as was dictated by the lifestyles and perceptions of society. But regardless of always following something, I still felt lost at the end of the day and my anxiousness never abated. Yet as with you I always sensed my inner-knowing, a voice within that spoke to me every day, however I mostly chose to not listen or to be guided by that which I saw no-one else in society truly live in response or in connection to. It wasn’t until meeting Serge Benhayon, attending and being inspired by Universal Medicine presentations, that I re-discovered that what I sensed within me, was in essence my Soul communication to me. And it turns out that the more I live in connection to my inner-knowing, as best I can, the more I live with a sense of true purpose, power and grace being guided by what I know and feel is true.
‘I am expressing my truth and what I am feeling’ – powerful choice Kerstin. So often we hold back from expressing to protect ourselves, when that expression may be the very ‘medicine’ needed in that moment. It is so beautiful to express what you are feeling without the need to be ‘right’ or make anyone ‘wrong’. I have recently had an experience of expressing something to a friend who had another view altogether. We both expressed with no attachment and all was well – no drama. And days later it turned out that we came to a unified truth about it – spontaneously arose as the result of neither if us holding back.
There are so many rules and ideas about how we should be. No wonder we end up feeling confused and disheartened. No one teaches us to rely on our inner knowing first. When I started to trust that inner knowing it took a lot of the tension out of life. That tension between what feels right inside and what others or society is telling you.
I can feel the responsibility I have as a parent and as a responsible community member to reflect that back to the children in my life. Trusting our inner knowing is a piece of medicine we are rarely called to value or implement.
We have many systems set up in society that don’t support us to connect with our innermost and make decisions or choices from that place of clarity. It’s not that we can’t always be learning and evaluating knowledge but it’s about what place are we evaluating it from? And are we aware of the innate wisdom that lives inside all of us that knows how to best use knowledge for the true benefit of all. Serge Benhayon supports everyone to re-connect with this wisdom, to discern all that is presented to us without judgement and to honour what we feel.
Thank you for this wonderful blog, this line was absolute gold for me “I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.” How beautiful to read your words, recently whenever I feel nervous, anxious, or unsettled in any way I stop and ask “What am I really feeling?” It’s usually that I have not acknowledged a deep knowing and allowed something to intrude that did not feel right. Once I let my feelings be fully expressed I can restore myself back to what I know to be true and live connected to it.
If we live in reaction to the demands of the world we will find ourselves constantly looking for ways to cope to relieve the tension. The power of connecting to our heart and being willing to be impulsed from there in how we choose to express and move through life cannot be underestimated in our ability to not get affected by the lack of love in the world.
Learning to be still and listen is transformational: with stillness and space, there’s room for that quiet inner voice, that inner knowing to be heard, and then a choice to listen to what it’s telling us. If we’re constantly distracting ourselves, there’s no space for the simple and absolute knowing what we need to do next to be felt.
“I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”. I agree Kirsten, our inner wisdom is indeed enormously precious. Deeply knowing this provides a loving foundation to self care, thus allowing a clear and simple flow of loving healing energy.
I now experience tension and hardness in my body whenever I choose to step away from my inner wisdom. Then the moment I return, my body sighs a sigh of relief and lets go of the tension. So much to consider in this article around how we live and how our bodies are because of how we live.
“The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world”,I agree when we slop to look outside , we bring on tension in our body.
‘The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world’. The conflict that arises within us from not trusting and expressing our inner knowing creates a discomfort that we need to always observe, listen to and arise from.
If we don’t question the status quo we will never be able to bring the necessary changes to the world around us.
Stopping and asking our body what it truly wants is so empowering if we take heed. Yet at this time of year – Christmas holidays – so many eat and drink and get less sleep – than their body is asking for. It seems crazy that it was a revelation to me – when I came to study with Universal Medicine – that I had disregarded my body’s requests and my inner knowing for so long.
It is disempowering to be always told what to do and how to do it. Hence the importance of honouring children’s inner knowing so that they are confirmed in their own knowing, rather than be talked at or to as if they are empty vessels to be filled with the wisdom of the world.
It is as if we are programmed from a very young age, to continually search and seek outside of ourselves for answers and solutions, rather than being taught to remember what is already available in our innermost essence. How empowering this would be and children would know how to live with true responsibility in their adult lives.
“By searching for the answers outside of this inner knowing, I opened myself up to being influenced by others’ decisions and gave my power away to what others thought was best for me”.
I have exhausted myself by not taking responsibility, and really damaged my body and myself by looking outside for love, answers. It’s very saddening to feel.
l love how choosing to come from with in ‘takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment’.
The anxiety, doubt and guilt that is generated when we live governed from outside is truly painful. Until we let ourselves truly feel just how painful, we don’t even see these emotions as not being normal. But they are not normal, our soul clearly shows us this, if we choose to halt the barrage of outside influences that we allow to impact our lives.
It is funny (not) how often everyone listens to others who themselves are listening to others and yet within we all know the truth!
Ha ha true Nicola, I feel sometimes we like the drama and the stimulation of it all.
A very beautiful testament of the fact that, the immeasurable love of who we are is forever calling us to surrender to its eternal light, regardless of what the world is telling us outside, as the love we are within never fades away of gives up on us, it is ever-present.
‘I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to’. Learning that this place is safe to listen to and feeling the ease in which I can walk when this path is followed has been massive for me. Great blog .
Connecting with our bodies movements and expressing from there is the beauty of our inner knowing. Bringing it to the living world as one moving expression, feels amazing and offers clarity and our own quality to what we live, breathe and see everyday.
I am finding that I always had a choice, I just chose to not value my own voice…regardless of what others thought.
Totally agree Kirstin, life as we have created it to be does everything and anything to make you choose what is not, the Evolutionary movement
The clarity that comes from expressing from my inner essence dispels the fog of confusion that I have surrounded myself with for so many years and used as an excuse for feeling stuck. Supporting children to listen to and follow their inner knowing would transform our education system and bring about much needed changes to how we are all currently existing rather than living joyful and purposeful lives unhampered by expectations of others and ourselves.
It has been a shock to acknowledge just how much I have been influenced by forces outside myself throughout my life and thus made many choices that were detrimental to my body and then had to cope with the consequences of all this overriding of what was true. The simplicity of connecting to my inner knowing and then moving from this knowing is awesome and allows me to drop so many of the unsupportive behaviours that have created so much anxiousness and lack of vitality.
I agree Helen – now in my 60’s, I am choosing to continue clearing and healing the consequences of overriding my body from being focused externally rather than connected to that which is true and all-knowing-wisdom within.
How different our lives would be if we were taught from young to stay connected to our inner knowing instead of going into our heads to recall or fix things things. We are encouraged from young to use our mind at the expense of our body.
Our body is the marker of all truths – if we have a question, we will find the true answer there
Whenever I feel confused I now know that I have disconnected from my inner knowing, and take steps to reconnect again. The more I dedicate to living in a way that I am consistently connected, the more I am able to bring ‘forth the power of love I am’.
It actually makes sense that we become confused when we are not connected to ourselves. As we then run the race outside of the inner field. And so , we can feel out of essence, and in all sorts of emotions. So what this blog is reflecting that once a person is devoting themselves to connection instantly lives gets more simpler. How incredibly valuable is that.
Learning to reconnect to ourselves after being so used to relying on outer influences takes time but is an enormous joy for us. We have a natural wisdom that we are taught to ignore and override. It is time to learn to trust this natural and innate wisdom.
“making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.” Kerstin, this is a powerful reclaiming of knowing who you are and no longer susceptible to the ideals and beliefs of others.
I couldn’t agree more – There is nothing more powerful than when you connect to that innermost knowing and act from there, rather than the imposing oncoming ideals and beliefs from the outside
“In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place…” What a wonderful decision to recommit to you. I know l can take this to a deeper level also. There’s more magnificence if we allow it in and out.
Listening to our inner knowing is something most of us have to relearn as it is not something that is fostered and honoured when we grow up. As you describe Kerstin it is a journey that we can take, step by step, learning to trust what we deep down know and live by it.
I would never have considered myself a blind follower, yet in many cases I have been, at work doing everything to appear to do the right thing, at home keeping the peace, and in all of this I ignored what I felt and played the game. And I was and can still be good at it, yet I know and feel in me that fakeness of it all, I used to feel a fraud when I did all of this, and if I catch myself doing it again, I feel even more of a fraud. I’ve learned to be more honest and I’m still learning that more honesty is often needed, it doesn’t stop, the more we feel, the more there is to feel, and we have a choice in that, do we honour those feelings or do we play the game? It’s always our choice and every single moment offers another one.
It is so beautiful to realise that we have this inner knowing that we can tap into and live from. Listening to our inner heart is a treasure that seemed to have been forgotten. How awesome it is to now know that this is true and to feel the difference this makes in our lives.
‘In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.’ And by knowing what to do in every moment you nurture the beautiful woman you are.
There is so much joy felt when we allow ourselves to see what patterns bind us as that means this bond is already not as strong, and that expansion is being welcomed. Expansion simply feels deeply joyous, which brings me to question then how much of ourselves are we truly living now?
This is pure wisdom Kerstin. I am learning that backing myself and allowing myself to be truly aware is crucial to living a joyful life.
Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have supported me too to redevelop connection and awareness of my body and inner-knowing and with that to have a marker from which I can be more truly discerning about the choices that I make.
Developing love and patience with ourselves is a great way to open up to our inner knowing. It may sound virtuous or idealistic but I have found it to be a more sobering experience of coming back to earth, which means to my body. The simplicity this offers has been essential to connect with the inner knowing, allowing it to pass through as a sense and feeling of what is true and that means what works in daily life -what can be practically lived.
its amazing how many times we listen to ‘Google’ rather than trusting what we know to be true. We can put so much trust into something we know absolutely nothing about and yet we can completely discount what we feel and know ourselves. I know I’ve done it which is totally potty.
Learning to trust what I feel is changing what I view confidence to be. I am one of these people who appears confident when you meet me but this confidence is false it is not built on an inner knowing. As I develop and trust the wisdom I hold within I am noticing that the meaning of what I know confidence to be is changing and I am beginning to feel far more steady in my day to day life I still have my ups and downs, it’s the way I handle those ups and downs that has changed.
It does take time to unravel the ingrained patterns of looking outside of ourselves as we have done this for so long, what I’m finding more and more is that my body does indeed know the answers – all I need to do now is trust it.
Simplicity is one of the greatest beauties on earth. To be free of complication and to be totally committed to life is indeed a great achievement.
When we listen to our inner knowing it brings a clarity and understanding to the world around us that is equally as simple as it is profound.
I love these ‘4 noble truths’ you have expressed here Kirsten:
‘I am learning to not obey blindly
I am starting to question what is going on, around and inside me
I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention
I am expressing my truth and what I am feeling’
These are the best handy hints on how to be able to be and express from one’s own authority and power!
It requires honesty that the way we have been living is not it as most of the time we have been living life looking for solutions to our woes, it is only until we stop and start to develop a relationship with our bodies and the quality of movement that we can feel what we have been avoiding all along and heal it so we can start to feel more of the love of who we are.
Living our lives in disconnection of our bodies puts us at the mercy of the world we are always striving to be more, to earn more, more security, safety etc,.. when we can easily stop and reconnect to that which is innate to us all and has all the answers to life and the universe and that is our inner knowing.
Unfortunately the society that we now find so difficult to live in is the very one we’ve created by that initial choice to separate from ourselves.
There is nothing we cannot know if we but feel within.
The world, we are taught, does not care about what we feel only what we know. We have the idea reinforced in school, at work, in the media, in academia, everywhere, that unless it can be proven without a doubt through repeatable experiments that what we experience is doubtful in its truth. Subjective truth is not real truth.
The fact is that all truth is subjective, because we are the subjects of the truth. We know truth for ourselves by what we know within.
It’s interesting we are not taught these fundamental truths in school – for example – what if we were taught to listen to our bodies because they can tell us everything about what is going on around us? If we knew how to read our bodies and to listen to what they’re telling us – no one would ever be able to lie to us, deceive us, and we would always know the truth of every situation. Surely this is such a vital life lesson!
Kerstin I love following sentence: “I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it.” I am working in the health area and I am sure if more people would allow themselves to stop and asked their bodies we would not have so much illnesses and diseases.
In general we aren’t raised and don’t support each other to honour the wisdom we innately have and know from our body – it’s like we’ve elevated the mind or intellect alone to be the ultimate form of intelligence. But more and more people are recognising the intelligence that we can connect with through our body and how this is something that truly serves everyone.
When I consider how often I used to override what I felt and then end up making choices that were about pleasing others or keeping me protected – always leading me further away from love and truth. Re-connnecting back to who we truly are and claiming our inner wisdom and knowing has been a great blessing in my life, thank you Kerstin for sharing this very true and beautiful reminder ‘In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.’
Developing connection and awareness of our body and intuition is something that we need to have as a foundational part of school and life. What use is information if we are not also connected with our inner knowing and sense that guides us on how to relate with people and apply information to life…
When we choose to be guided by our inner knowing we know exactly what to do in each moment.
Kerstin I can so relate to the imposing way we are told to live in relation to the outside world for their gain, purpose and functionality. Little to no regards/consideration for me. How strange that the question of what I feel about it is never asked, surprisingly not even by me. My life did change when I was introduced to Serge Benhayon and he presented to reconnect with myself and from this connection act on this truth. This is life changing for me. Thank you Kerstin for your beautiful sharing.
Just acting on the impulses of the inner knowing we all have, makes life so much easier and simpler.
So very true that we can remove complication by turning to the inbuilt simplicity that is our inner knowing.
Coming back to your blog again Kerstin is such a lesson for me as I reflect back on the times I have truly been in stillness and connected to my inner wisdom. Certainly for me a joyful work in progress, inspired by your expression.
For most of my life I gave my power away mainly to be good, to do what I was told, to stay safe or so I believed. Looking back now I always knew that there was an inner knowing that I choose to hide. I am now taking more responsibility for my life and my choices, and I now choose to express from my inner knowing what feels true for me.
So true Linda, keeping everything simple lays the foundation for the flow of our days to be void of the resistance and stress that complication invites.
‘In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.’ Very true Kerstin. Relying on our own inner wisdom rather than being swayed by what other people think and say is so important.
We are pushed and pulled around by many thoughts, opinions and perceptions from others until we stop, feel this truth that we have always known and start walking in a way that honors what it says.
Often I can look back over my life and say that I wished I had listened to my inner knowing; listened to my body. This is indeed a great lesson as I now have the opportunity to do just that. Thank you Kerstin for the gentle reminder.
I’m the same Shirl, there has been many, many moments when I have felt confused as to why I’m being told to do something and yet my body is saying something different. Or moments when I have chosen what I know feels the opposite to my bodies wisdom. Every moment is an opportunity to move with our truth, and such is the beauty of life, we are presented never ending opportunities to make choices.
“Constantly disregarding myself caused frustration, disharmony and anxiousness in my body, but I was not willing to listen to the knowing inside of me and take responsibility for myself” – I can very much relate to this as I used to have very little trust for myself and kept thinking “what if my feelings were not true?” and wanted to have someone who I could totally trust, or blame, in fact. What I didn’t realise was that listening to my inner-knowing itself was the way to build that missing trust.
This is such a great blog. If we look around and look back say 10-20 years, it appears as though we have far more options in many aspects of life, yet we are not making any more intelligent, truer choices – in fact we are doing the opposite. The richness of life seems to be completely misunderstood, and in our confusion and desperation, many of us are opening ourselves even more to the outer influence not to be responsible. I have actually been feeling how easy it is to be affected by that current and lose myself in that, it feels like an avalanche.
We are being told what to do so very often, there is so much information everywhere to tell us “how to” , which is very interesting as this reinforces the belief in us that we do not know, that ignorance is normal and therefore the way to life is to seek for knowledge on the outside, thinking then that we would know. But what a trick this is — as our true knowing is within us, and any form of seeking on the outside actually takes us further away from our inner knowing, so when we think we know something from an outside seeking, in truth we are just more ingrained in our own choice of ignorance and arrogance. Knowing is not the same as knowledge. Knowing comes from the heart and it does not need knowledge to back up, but it gives us what is required specific for the moment that cannot be regurgitated, but with this connection we will never not know, what keeps deepening is the depth of this knowing.
Thank You Kirsten, I love how when we take the focus off what is going on around us and trying to find answers outside ourselves we realise that all the wisdom we ever need is right here with us.
If only I had listened to my inner knowing and wisdom, if only , if only; how many times have I said this to myself?
The beauty and wonder now is that I am becoming more aware and can listen, with great appreciation and honour, to my divine inner wise voice.
I used to believe that this difficulty in listening to my inner knowing was to do with being around other people. But what I have seen is that this difficulty is with me. Because on my ‘own’ every day I am making choices which afterwards, I often say ‘I knew that wasn’t the right thing’. So really there is this part of me I do not always want to listen to. It seems to come down to honouring what I feel is needed, not what part of me would prefer. When I live this way, I agree Kerstin, there’s a sense of unity that comes and a vitality.
I used to think that I was being independent and choosing my life, when I was just choosing less popular options in life. There was a definitive knowing that something was not right about the way the majority was choosing to live, so I knew to say no to certain things, but I didn’t know what I was saying yes to. Giving my own body its due respect back and re-building connection to have it as my own authority teaches me about my responsibility, and makes sense of life.
Interesting comment Fumiyo Egashira. I feel that I used to do this too. I also chose to take the more challenging route sometimes because’ it would be good for me’ which just made my life more complicated and stressful. Like you I tend to give more regard to my body now and let that inform my choices rather than just following what my head dictates or doing what I feel like.
‘I knew to say no to certain things, but I didn’t know what I was saying yes to.’ Great line Fumiyo. Like you I knew there was something quite wrong with the way most people chose to live so instead I chose to escape to my own little world. I definitely didn’t know what I was saying yes to. Connecting to my body and taking my rightful place back into it has made my life more joyful, simple and balanced. From that position it became possible to start making conscious choices about what feels right and what doesn’t.
‘I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.’ Everyday I am becoming more and more aware of my inner wisom which is very patiently waiting for me to acknowledge its infinite grandness.
How complicated we can make living when not choosing to connect to what we know.“it is from the stillness I know who I am.” It is from the stillness I know what is truly true.
I have spent most of my life listening and waiting for instruction outside of myself. The understanding being offered to me now is the question of responsibility. If the instruction or decision came from another, then I have little responsibility for the outcome; but if the decision is mine and mine alone, there is no one to blame. This in itself is an illusion as there is no right or wrong decision if we learn from them and evolve.
‘I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it.’
I feel like starting with the smaller everyday choices and building that foundation of ‘yes, I do know what is supportive for myself’, will make those bigger decisions a no brainer. If there is no foundation of self support then we don’t have much of an internal indicator to know the feeling of support and where it comes from.
A timely return to this little gem of a blog. Complexity/anxiety and giving my power away was my middle name, over time realising that this way did not work but, I chose at the time to allow myself to just get carried away further and further from my own innate power and wisdom. Living with such anxiety was being fuelled by my many reactions to life. Reading your sharing again today Kerstin I gave myself a stop moment to appreciate the journey travelled (still travelling) and how listening to that inner knowing, that “inner wisdom” which as you share “is enormously precious and deserves deep attention” at all times. Thank you.
I have found it a big thing sorting out the truth in what I feel to be true and what the world is dictating. I have allowed the need to be seen as good, nice, easy going and reliable to rule how I am and what I do. Re-connecting to and listening to what my body is telling me has taken commitment and dedication to letting go of approval from others and believing in me. Great blog Kerstin and always relevant to our return to who we truly are.
“In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity”. Very beautiful Kerstin.
On having this awareness it is now up to me to take responsibility to live a life based on my inner knowing and wisdom. A very timely reminder, thank you.
Brendan this is a huge but life changing opportunity to take. Often we can hear others asking us to stick with the norm or to not ‘rock the boat’ to please others or to not expose what is truly going on. When we connect to our inner knowing there is no room to hold back the power that comes with this and how it strengthens our personal decision making.
The world is basically confused… from God to medicine from food to education there is an intellectual morass into which everyone descends in a vain bid to make sense of it all … and yet, as Kerstin says, our inner knowing can cut through all of this and bring us to a one unified truth.
Very true. I do not always choose to connect to it but when I do all becomes clear.
“By searching for the answers outside of this inner knowing, I opened myself up to being influenced by others’ decisions and gave my power away to what others thought was best for me. Yet all along I had a feeling of my truth but chose to override it constantly. I chose to override what felt true for me.”, Kerstin i can completely relate to this, I allowed myself to be influenced by others and gave my power away, even though I had a deep knowing. I never appreciated that what I knew was worth sharing and that I never needed to look outside of me. It wasn’t until I met Serge Benhayon, he shares we all have an inner knowing and we must connect to that knowing and not give our power away. This supported me in building my confidence and claim back my power.
Kerstin, thanks for your honesty regarding how challenging it can be to change old habits. I have had a similar experience. It’s been a very slow work in progress as I ever so slowly detach myself from all that is not true, such as believing that if I do all the ‘right’ things, I will be a ‘better’ person and if I just please everyone all the time, I will feel ‘good’ about myself. It’s a huge eye opener when you realise all you’re actually doing is draining your very own lifeforce. So much to learn about ourselves.
“I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to. ” Indeed it is our constant commitment and dedication to this connection within ourselves that allows us to break away from the patterns and behaviours we have chosen in order to manage life and be simply choose the love that we are.
As soon as I leave my inner knowing, decisions get complicated. There is such simplicity to listening to the truth that lies within me. The question is, why do I leave it? Why do I give my power away to other ideals? This is something to sincerely explore.
Very good question Amanda, I have found the more loving choices and care I take for my body the easier has become to stop oscillating between what I know is my true essence and wisdom and the what I do in order to not feel what’s there to be felt.
I sat for a while with what you share with us all Amanda and it resonates very clearly that it is so simple to listen to the truth that lies within – our inner knowing – we just complicate matters when we work with outside solutions/ideals.
Yes Amanda, I too feel the simplicity of what lies within, compared to the complex thinking of the mind.
Reading this wonderful sharing again today I can really appreciate how holding back in the past from my not expressing what I truly feel has kept my defences up (holding back) and suppressing the ‘all that I am’ to surface with that inner wisdom, allowing instead a different outer energy to run the show. Allowing others to make decisions/demands etc this hardening in my body was there showing me all the time. Such an inspirational sharing of your journey Kerstin thank you.
This line stood out today: ‘I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention’. And after reading I was questioning myself, is how I treat myself bringing out this inner wisdom, am I aware how precious it is or do I take it for granted? I will take this into my day because I feel I can be more appreciative of what is inside me. Thank you Kerstin!
Beautifully said Annelies – when we realise and feel the enormity of what is inside us the feeling of humbleness is met and surrendered to as we are facing the power and majesty of God within. He gave us everything to know Him by.
“I gave my power away to what others thought was best for me.” This made me wince as I always assumed that ‘olders and betters’ were right and that what I felt didn’t count. Attending presentations and workshops with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I am learning to trust what I feel in myself and to accept what I feel is true for me.
You are not alone Mary, many of us I am sure can wince when we hear this line about how easy it is to give our power away to others.
How familiar the running of ourselves from external forces.
When we become aware of this happening, pause and make feeling our bodies the priority, all of the confusion, the constant running of one thought into another, stops.
Allowing ourselves the gift of connecting to our inner knowing brings forth a support system like no other. A love that is pure and holding. Joy that is limitless. Unity with all.
I choose this as my new familiar,
Thank you Kerstin for in reading this blog I have come to a new marker in my connection with my body,
Looking outside myself with ideals and beliefs of how my life has to be, creates hardness and hurts in my body as I have to fight that which I know is my truth within.
One of the key factors in exhaustion too!
It is beautiful to read that you recognise how you use to give your power away and the frustration and disharmony it caused in your body, and how much better it feels in your body to now be expressing your inner truth.
Well said Brendan and I absolutely agree. And even though I live a lot in this way it is still work in progress because I still catch myself at times living life according to other people. The good part is that I can see it and make a different choice.
This is such an important message Kerstin “In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.” How many of us spent most of their lives searching for truth outside of ourselves.
How true is the sharing “if only I listened to my inner knowing.. These words show us time and time again that the choice is there to listen to our body or rely solely on the head.
Absolutely grounded05, the mental dictator is only too happy to step and in run the show when we forsake the inner knowing of our hearts.
Yes, our mind will indeed take over and run the show when we let it. The choice is ours to live.
Trusting our inner knowing is definitely the way Kerstin. There are so many ‘ways’ being sold to us that supposedly will bring fun, happiness, money, the perfect body etc etc. Being in connection with me brings everything and so much more, no need to question anymore.
When we make a true connection with our body, we are able to feel instantly if something feels right or not. I have found that when I override that knowing, my body tells me loud and clear.
Recently I have been recognising how so much of what I do is not me. I do things out of habit, because I feel I have to do, to get the job done, to function, to complete tasks at work etc. I have forgotten to allow my living quality of stillness to be with me first, and to ensure that any doing holds this quality of stillness no matter what. It is from the stillness that I know what to do, it is from the stillness I know who I am.
Sally I love your comment and the true wisdom you share with “..It is from the stillness that I know what to do, it is from the stillness I know who I am.”
Sally that is a truthful command and that inspired me! I too have discovered that “from the stillness I know who I am” and I love to re-connect to this stillness each day more and more instead of choosing my drive to function.
“it is from the stillness I know who I am.” It is from the stillness I know what is truly true.
Beautifully expressed Sally, I can relate so much to what you have written here. I love, and am inspired by, your commitment and responsibility to holding a quality in stillness and tenderness.
“Relying on all this information to help me through life, never once did it occur to me that I had all the information I ever needed, if only I had listened to my inner knowing.” It seems nowhere is this inner knowing encouraged, yet if we stop and feel and listen to our innermost, we do know deep inside what is best – for us and those around us. Coming back to the body, and trusting what messages I receive, which I am eventually learning to do after a life-time of being in my head. Thankyou Kerstin.
My experience also sueq2012. I still find myself locked in my head more often than not. Slowly but surely however, I am learning to pay closer attention to what my body is whispering and sometimes yelling to me. It’s pretty interesting I have to say as I am constantly learning.
Wow Kerstin that is an amazing blog. I love what you share – “In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.” More is not to say or write – that is all what is needed – I can say that because it is also my own experience.
When I look on the outer for guidance or mostly answers, I get really busy in my head trying out all sorts or senarios. I waste so much time trying to get the answer that never comes. The outcome I do get though is exhaustion, anxiousness and a poor diet. If you are in your body and listening to it, you feel what to do next. You just do it, there is no time wasted, no working things out and your energy levels don’t drop.
Yes, this is so true Lindell, I know sometimes when I have a decision to make I can go into my head and think about every possible scenario of what may or may not happen, how its going to look and so on. What a huge waste of energy this is rather that feeling in my body what the Truth is and acting from there.
I have felt this for a long time, I haven’t been great at living in my truth for many years, but i am learning to now, very solidly. I am finding I celebrate each step I take along this path, its all incredible and very significant.
It is amazing the changes that take place once we start to ‘question our behaviours’ and start to be really honest and take back responsibility for the ways in which we go about our every day way of living. I was certainly lost and confused until attending Universal Medicine courses and presentations by Serge Benhayon – this opened up so many possibilities and choices of what I could do to help myself to let go of old patterns and momentums that did not invite self loving choices in to my life. This is a beautiful sharing of your journey Kerstin thank you.
It is so true Kerstin that we are always told what is the ‘best way’ to do things or what is ‘best’ for us. But we are seldom asked does this feel true to you, or invited to develop our knowing of what is needed to support us in any moment. We often do have a feeling of knowing, of what is true but seldom do we express this. And so we live constantly giving our power away to the world outside of us. When in truth, within us we have the wisdom to know and our bodies are an instrument of truth that are constantly guiding us to live in this harmony, in our true power.
Great point Carola… It’s true that there is a lot of pressure from outside to do things certain ways and then of course there’s the pressure we put on ourselves to meet the expectations of others… Children generally naturally express how they feel and yet as they get older, this natural expression becomes less and less. Imagine if we began to support and nurture this connection to our bodies and do this in the knowing from a young age, instead of trying to squash it…?
Searching for solutions from others, from what others have written in a book etc comes with the understandings of the author. When I connect to my inner knowing I am able to feel what is true for me.
Beautiful Mary, I love what you have said here. Other peoples understandings when shared with us can be two fold. They can expand our own awareness and initiate growth or they can hold us back in the same vicious circle the other person is still in. The choice and responsibility is ours to feel what is true for us and we do this by connecting to and listening to our inner knowing.
Yes Suse – It’s about making all our relationships evolutionary, even with books.
A beautiful sharing with us all Kerstin and today re-reading this blog highlighted to me how often I downgraded myself by not listening to that innate wisdom of knowing what to do or how to express in my daily life. Shunning this gift I then play out long held beliefs of not being ‘good enough’ or trying to please others. Learning to trust.
Dear Kerstin, what you share concerns all of us equally. We all live our life to fulfill expectations of our parents, peer group or society and most of us completely get lost in that. So did I. But the tension all of that caused in my body was so high, that I started numbing myself with alcohol, drugs, sugar, coffee, never-ending loads of action and work etc. very early in my life. It`s so crazy that we just don`t realize that we live a big lie, isn`t it? Although our body is telling us the truth each and every second, we arrogantly ignore that and keep on indulging in distractions and any other possible avoidance of feeling the truth and – with that – our hurts.
“To not obey blindly”. That has been a tricky one for me too Kirsten and I feel, stemmed from being a good girl and doing as I was told, always obeying ‘authority’. Now I am developing more and more my way with feeling and knowing my own authority and so this happens much less if at all, though I can sometimes let myself get tricked. Noticing is key. I really liked this blog.
As I read the many blogs and articles from students of Universal Medicine I am reminded of how much we carry that is similar in circumstance to another – and that there are many of us who have yet to master what others have. Kerstin this article is deeply resonating with me and I read it aware – deeply aware of how my indecision and contraction along with anxiety in my body is because I have negated to stay with the undeniable truth of the gorgeous little boy. I am returning as we all are to a truth that supports not takes away from my vitality.
There was always something or somebody who told me what to do or how to be but it always seemed so complicated and I really thought I chose who I wanted to be and what I wanted to do.
Then I met Serge Benhayon, at first it was confusing but I liked what he was presenting and agreed with a lot of things he said.
I started doing courses and presentations with Serge. He taught me to love and care for myself gently and tenderly and to nourish myself taking care not to eat dairy, gluten or any stimulants or eat more than my body needed.
To feel and become more aware of my body and find stillness and be able to connect to my inner heart or soul, my essence and to express myself from this place, my inner knowing and wisdom.
Now I know who I want to be, I am a son of god.
An awesome blog Kerstin and I can relate to much of what you share. Most of my life I choose to give my power away as well and override what felt true for me. The beautiful teachings offered by Universal Medicine has reminded many of us of the power and inner wisdom we all equally share and are now learning to live this truth more fully everyday.
Kerstin, this is beautiful – knowing what to do in any moment can be simple when we reconnect with our innermost wisdom – trying to think our way in life is hard work!
‘In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.’ Thank you Kerstin this is beautiful, looking outside of myself has made and sometimes still makes my life so complicated yet when I live from my connection, the wisdom I have life becomes simple and worth of a celebration.
“I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”
Thank you for the reminder Kerstin to, in every moment, tap into our inner wisdom; which never leaves us.
Beautifully said Kerstin. Thank you for sharing your wisdom and breaking down in a very real ‘how to’ format, exposing how complicated we can make living when not choosing to connect to what we know.
“I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it.” True for me also Kerstin. I treated my body mechanically, never considering what it wanted – and for sure never really listened to its messages, unless I was in crisis. To stop, listen and feel what my body is asking for is a 180* turn around – and SO worth it when I give it love, care and tenderness.
These words really stood out for me: “Constantly disregarding myself caused anxiousness in my body.” If I am disregarding myself and my body, then am I not dismissing my truth? Therefore would this, overriding truth cause an anxiousness, as I know deep down I am dismissing what my body feels so clearly?
To carry on from this … This is actually a huge revelation, as there are so many things ‘out there’ on offer to appease anxiousness, such as hypnotherapy, medications, self help books, tapping, CBT … but none of these seem to work ( I have not tried them all); they are only a distraction from the real reason the anxiousness is there in the first place. Imagine for example, walking into a doctors and having them say, what do you feel, do you listen to your body and honour your feelings or do you disregard yourself and what you know. What is it that you don’t want to feel, why do you not want to be in your body?
This is great to out Gyl for we can easily forget what is essentially right under our noses. The truth cannot be delivered from a body void of love.
Thank you Kertsin, I have been leaving behind my body recently, in my decision making, I thought I was way off, but thats not true, I just needed to stop, and listen. I feel me and joy again.
“In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.” and makes life so much simpler
Thankyou for sharing Kertstin. I have accepted blindly in the past – being a ‘good’ and ‘nice’ woman, not wanting to upset others. Shaking this off hasn’t been and isn’t easy. But your statement “In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity” is so true. The more I listen to my inner knowing the easier it gets and the better it is to express what I really feel.
“gave my power away to what others thought was best for me” This little sentence Kerstin, reveals so much about the way we search outside ourselves for something to do us good and make things better in our lives. Wanting “the best” seems a natural thing, and yet it leads us into this belief that we can make it happen by seeking outside, and sometimes even inside. Whereas, as you have expressed, all that does is “lead us up the garden path” away from our true home, the inner heart and our Soul, which is in fact very practical. It is from there we can ask the question, “what is going on here?” that opens up our inner wisdom, not sought after but just there to feel and recogonise.
The answer is always within. Until the last couple of years I was not able to get clear what this meant. I have discovered that for me it is about trusting myself and trusting life. And that there are no good or bad choices, but that it is more about choices that make life simple or make it complex. To always honor what you feel and build the ability to discern what is truly felt from within our influenced from outside. Universal Medicine has been a huge support in my journey in re-connecting back to me.
Simple was not something I used to do, complicated was my middle name and still is more times than I would like to admit. Only this time around when I catch myself doing it I am able to choose again and appreciate myself for it.
What you mention here Ilja about appreciating yourself is very important to me too, because it helps me to build a loving foundation within myself to always come back to.
Thank-you Kersten, when I met Serge Benhayon some 12 years ago I was very much questioning life and in fact I had done that my entire life but not until I met Serge had I given myself permission to not be afraid to say no to things that I knew were not good for me but the majority of people accepted and championed as being normal and good for you. I too thank-you Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for opening me up to my own love and increasing my awareness.
Kerstin that inner knowing that you refer to having an awareness of before you came to Universal Medicine is what is inside us all and yet I do not remember feeling it at all as an adult. I think I drowned out any whispered messages with constant bombardments of food, fags, exercise, spirituality, partying, bad relationships and so much more. Having taken those things out of my life I am now able to hear my body talking to me and if sounds very sweet indeed.
Kerstin, it’s such a great unlearning so to speak to stop looking outside us and to trust and live the knowing within, and it never stops the more we listen, the deeper it goes.
‘In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body.’ I agree, Kerstin, tapping into the exquisite love that resides within us all is like receiving a kiss from heaven.
We can go into angst over decisions as our minds go round and round with complex considerations and anxieties. When we connect and feel deep into our inner heart, the next step is clear.
Thank you Kerstin for summarising what I have also experienced, looking for answers from other sources or accepting situations that don’t feel right, or being nice to fit in. I love the simplicity of connecting to my inner knowing, and living free of this extra tension and stress of trying to navigate my way through life.
” if only I had listened to my inner knowing”
There are times in my life today where I rue not paying attention to, or listening to, my inner knowing and wisdom.
Slowly, I to, am developing more patience and understanding as I discard unwanted and harmful patterns.; thus allowing more space for innate wisdom to flow.
Shirl for me too, many times that I could have made more loving choices. I appreciate how with the support of Universal Medicine I now realise that there is no need to feel any guilt or judgement, instead to work with each moment offering us opportunities.
Thank you Kerstin, I love the way you shared how it is important to be gentle with ourselves when we initially start to make different lifestyle choices in our life and how it is not easy as often we have such a momentum of not honouring and connecting with our essence that it almost feels foreign. It may feel a bit of a challenge when we start but the results of re-connecting to our innate wisdom is marvellous.
Looking to the outside for answers and direction left me in a state of confusion. So many choices that weren’t supporting of what was needed for me. Your blog sums it up beautifully Kerstin “In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity”. hear hear!
Its great to read this again Kerstin, I’m appreciating more and more just how much I’ve changed with making decisions for myself since meeting Serge Benhayon. I could relate to what you said about feeling frustrated and anxious with not connecting with your inner wisdom and making decisions from there. This frustration lead to resentment of others for me, believing they were influencing me to make certain decisions or being controlling – thank goodness I can see now the irresponsibility in this and how I was allowing my hurts to get in the way. I now find it a joy to feel what I feel or need to do, which has come about from loving myself and really wanting to know myself more.
Reading your blog Kirstin I could clearly see the set up of society to hold us back from feeling who we truly are. All around us we are shown box’s to live in and very few if any are box’s of truth. I remember as a child being so confused at what I was being told and what my inner truth new, and like you Kirtin I found ways to ‘fit’in. I’m now enjoying being confirmed that the inner voice of truth is the way.
Very beautiful Kerstin, what I got from your writing was a sort of picture; having all those points in life (bank tells us how to save money, teachers learn us how to read, parents are telling us how to behave and not behave etc. etc.) But then there is that huge tension within ourselves that we are feeling, possibly a hidden power that resides there all of the time. We are so used to being taught this and that all of the time, but it never had changed that inner feeling we all have. It is time to give that now our deep attention, and it’s worth it. So that that inner feeling can be lived in its full authority and power. We are so wise from inside out, even without all the teachings from around us.
This awesome blog reminds me of how I, too, did not listen to my inner knowing. Until I was taught, by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, that there is another way. And now, listening to my inner knowing and making better choices is the most natural thing in the world, – though not always easy, so it’s a constant work in progress. Even though I’ve found it difficult to change certain choices instantly, I’ve always had an inner knowing that I w i l l change with time. With dedication and inspiration.
What you share here, Kerstin is hugely revelatory. We proudly claim that we choose the best healthcare option for us, the best sofa for our lounge room and the best food to nourish our bodies. . . but we are not truly choosing what’s right for us, in many cases we are selecting from a series of options presented to us by ‘the experts.’ We are then, in effect, choosing from a narrow selection of options that have been presented to us as ‘the way to go.’ But what if our bodies don’t feel to drink milk? or consent to a healthcare option purely because it has the strongest evidence base? While there is certainly a place for considering expert opinions, true choice comes from feeling and acting on what feels true for ourselves.
This is awesome to recognise that our inner knowing is so much more powerful than anything someone outside of us tells us – our bodies carry the history of all our choices, every lifetime we have ever had – who we are, where we have been and where we are going. The wisdom is there – all we have to do is listen.
Yes Carmel all the wisdom we need is already within us. Its just about stopping and listening to what it will share with us in any given moment.
Listening to my inner knowing is one of the greatest gift’s I have received from coming to know Serge Benhayon and hence, making choices in my life to foster this. My life as a child and young adult lacked this anchor and I too, found myself looking to books, courses and other people for how to live. It is such a joy to have shifted this and to be loving living my innate wisdom.
I loved the point if I’m not claiming my inner knowingness, I’ll be looking for something external source to confirm or guide my current predicament.
So often do we put our faith on ‘outer sources’ and indeed we are taught this from a very early age. What has this brought us, as a society. I lot of people looking in different directions for the ‘answer’ (to life). Even experts in their fields, when faced with the difficult questions in life turn them off with ifs and buts.
The inner knowing is profound and a magnificent resource that every one should/could access whenever they wish.
What a perfect day to come back to your blog Kerstin, well actually, every day would be a perfect day. I find myself at the cross –roads once again, and even though I do listen to my inner knowing most of the time, it was so great to have this reminder from your words of wisdom really emphasise how important this is. I have learned that if I stop and connect to my inner wisdom this stops my mind trying to take over and: “takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment”. A simple connection with the potential for a magical outcome!
Yes Ingrid this blog is a great daily reminder that what we know is true is what needs to be shared. This would often avoid all the doubts we can go into about the choices we did or did not make.
I have a room at the bottom of my house where someone else has been living and has just moved out. They have left some stuff behind. Once I would have angsted over it. Can I use it? Can anyone else use it?. Now its headed straight for the dump, as gone are the days when I took on someone else’s stuff.Boy, does letting that habit go feel good!
It is such a big one – Looking outside of ourselves – the breaking down and letting go of such a separating way to live is constantly being redefined and I am amazed how quickly and easy it is to go into this mode. Every time that I choose this I can feel myself becoming small inside and it confirms each time that I think I am not enough. The more I choose to be All of Me and appreciate how incredible I am I have less situations present themselves where I want to look outside of myself. It is such a set up to keep ourselves small and invisible looking and comparing ourselves to the outside world.
Kerstin your blog made me smile from the inside out. “I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.” I too am appreciating and accepting my own innate inner wisdom joyfully so.
Me too Kelly, it feels so honoring to finally live by my inner wisdom, I have deep appreciation for this.
This ‘Deep Knowing’ of what is right and feels true is one that as you say has been ignored, pushed down and forgotten about. I was brought up like most, to look outside of yourself and to be someone that I am not. Returning to my knowing of truth and connecting to all that I am is simply beautiful and I feel the fullest I have ever felt and it keeps getting stronger and stronger the more I keep choosing this connection and going deeper and deeper.
Like you Kerstin I have lived “outside of myself” for a very long time, with all the consequences that come from that.
Knowing, feeling, honouring and expressing my inner wisdom is so freeing and of course I, and humanity, benefit from living that divine knowing.
I agree Shirl, living connected to our inner beings is the best reflection possible for humanity, we all benefit and evolve together, it is simple and there seems to be such a lovely flow to life. Instead of the complexities that are created when we live life always chasing it from outside of ourselves, huge difference!
Shirl and Francisco this can not be said too many times that living connected to our essence is the way forth for us all. The push to live outside of ourselves is constantly trying to take us away from the honouring of what we know is true.
I love the deep honouring of oneself and the acceptance of what is known within, that is inspired in this blog. This is so needed and we cannot be reminded of it enough – thank you Kerstin.
Yes Judith I agree. Acknowledging the knowing is what brings a deeper appreciation of ourselves and then we become so honest with our thoughts and feelings with others.
One of the first things I became aware of when attending a Universal Medicine Workshop was how much I thought and believed I knew, realising that most of all that knowledge was simply taken from all areas of life and that I chose what was especially suited to the ways I wanted life to be. This was related to everything: God, relationships, work, money, having kids, sex, love, good and bad, right and wrong.
That is how I have approached Serge Benhayon´s presentations, workshops, books and The Way of the Livingness – as well – and nothing less has been and still is asked for by him since – free will, free choice, absolute self-responsibility.
In the end all the believed knowledge that we think we have is what limits our free will, free choice and self-responsibilty.
Any belief restricts our own way of being.
I enjoyed reading your blog again Kerstin and the words that stood out for me this morning “…takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment…” and I am finding this to be so for me also – just by feeling into the stillness of my heart rather than to be depending on the ever-busy mind to give me true direction and clarity.
A joy to read your sharing with us Kerstin – For a while I sat with the sentence “I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it”. To ask ourselves this simple question before taking on any daily tasks/jobs/requests by others etc what an amazing gift to ourselves to have that stop moment and truly feel and connect to our choices we make. Thank you.
This is true, Marion, we often take on a job because of the salary, status and identity it provides, but rarely do we ask ourselves the question, ‘Is this work that my body needs right now?’
Kerstin, there are many gems in this blog and it is beautifully expressed. Appreciating my inner knowing and expressing this is something I am growing in and working on. Choosing to reconnecting to me rather than stay in the disharmony and anxiousness is a real commitment to me and to what is true.
What a powerful and exquisitely simple place to be. Connected to an inner knowing that dispenses absolutely with confusion and complication.
‘The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world.’ I knew and sometimes know this so well. To honour and express what I know to be true makes my connection to my inner knowing stronger and gives me a foundation to build on every day and this makes me very joyful. I am learning to appreciate every step in this beautiful process.
Thank you Kirstin. Upon reading your blog I was reminded that from my life experience and low self-esteem I mistakenly thought that nobody cares what I feel, my feelings do not matter, or my feelings are wrong. With help from Universal Medicine I have been able to unravel that, the cause of my woes is that I did not honor my feelings. Many people do this because they are holding onto ideals indoctrinated since childhood. It is liberating to trust your inner knowing.
Indeed the inner knowing is always there.
For me, it is only at times that ‘I’ disconnect to the fact that it becomes inaccessible. Meaning I lose trust, unable to deal with the situation, I become overwhelmed or simple give up due to whatever may be affecting me at the time.
Kerstin, a few years ago I was the same as you – ”never once did it occur to me that I had all the information I ever needed, if only I had listened to my inner knowing”. I was completely ruled by my head and my entrenched ideals and beliefs about how things should be. As with you, this all changed after attending presentations by Serge Benhayon and making more loving choices in my life which included listening to my inner knowing instead of my head!
This blog offers a deep point of reflection here when it reveals that we can be so influenced by the external that the decisions we make are not really our own. Wow I really did think I was always in control too – but now I see the importance of connecting to ourselves and honouring what is within.
Hi Kerstin, I can very well relate to not trusting my inner feeling but do what others think is the best. You never can take a full stock of your life, as you have lived it based on others recommendations. This has truly changed with the courses offered by Universal Medicine and I started to more and more intergrate ‘me’ in my life. The choices I make are now more and more from my inner feeling. This helps me to live a life with more responsibility for myself and others. Also I can’t blame anyone for choices and their outcome now, if the choices in the first place were not so true or still laced by ideals.
The power of acting on your own inner knowledge is the most honoring thing you can do for yourself, even if it defies what the rest of society is doing.
Kerstin, thank you, this blog is like reading a page taken directly from my own life. To refer to all that my body allows me to feel, to make choices from there, rather than muting it and living at the mercy of outside influences, is life changing.
Before Universal Medicine and Serge Benyahon, I use to give my power away to the outside world, whether it be books, people etc. I doubted my own inner knowing and awareness. Over the last 4 yrs, i have learnt that the answers are within me, all i need to do is trust my inner knowing, because i do know. To be able connect to this clarity i have been committed to letting go of what has been holding me back, including my hurts. This journey has been beautiful as i have been unfolding with a greater understanding. The depth of my knowing is deepening and i am able to connect to the greater wisdom available to all.
I have always been a real one for giving my power away to either a person, an organisation such as certain religions, or even to a place. You name it, I was willing to see it as more powerful than me. This was indeed in contra to what I felt inside, just like in your blog Kerstin, and I did always feel the tension, because as much as I knew what I felt, I also wanted to either fit in, or be accepted, both of which I placed as far more important than any wisdom I had already inside.
I was someone always looking for answers in books, courses etc to gain the knowledge how to deal with life, never trusting my inner knowing and giving everything outside me more credits. I was becoming more and more frustrated because of misusing myself and my body. Starting with the Gentle Breath Meditation has been a turning point in my life to reconnect with what lives inside me, an innate inner knowing and wisdom.
I love what you have shared here Kitsten, in that it shows how much simpler it is to trust the messages and direction our bodies are giving us in every moment, rather than running around looking for answers from outer sources and always being subject to the whims of other people’s ideas, beliefs, or acceptances.
It’s so empowering to connect and trust our inner knowing, for me this is work in progress. Rather than the old way of looking outside of ourselves and to others for answers.
Thank you Kerstin for you’re in depth blog on this.
After reading this blog I started to feel how much we look outside ourselves for the answers, either from someone else or a book or course to turn to. It is almost unheard of, outside of Universal Medicine presentations, to hear or be taught that it is our bodies that have the answers, if we choose to feel what is going on in there. This means there is a responsibility that is needed in order to stop and feel what we truly need to support ourselves. It is the one thing that we tend to avoid the most yet it holds the answers to everything.
Reconnect to my inner-heart/body takes the confusion out of the knowing what to do in every moment. What a great reminder. The passed days I was slipping into my doingness at some moments. Then it is confusing: from what shall I do/what is useful to what is life about (thoughts which enter). It is back to simplicity: connect to my body. It is developing a steadiness with this connection, building of trust that this is ‘it’. Life is simple, only my mind likes to complicate things. Perhaps I am unlearning the doing and that feels sometimes like letting go of an old addiction. I can just be and express from there. How simple…… 🙂
Before finding Universal Medicine I never questioned the way I was living and if it was healthy for me, yes I made choices believing that they were healthy, like becoming a vegetarian for 6 years but never gave my body a fair chance to tell me if it was true or not.
Being influenced from the world can become very complicated, as there is too much information which contradicts itself, but listening to the body and registering how it feels keeps things simple.
I love that you have shared the simplicity of connecting to ourselves and the inner wisdom that lies within – from here we can not be led astray by the myriad of demands and choices imposed on us by the world but can simply just listen to what feels true.
Great comment Samantha, it takes one to the simplicity that we can choose to live when we listen to what feels true.
So much truth and wisdom in your words Kerstin, thank-you for sharing.
Before Universal Medicine, I had no idea about connecting to my body and seeing how it felt as an adult, that was quite a foreign concept and no-one I knew ever talked about feeling into their bodies in a way that is presented with addressing how you are feeling as opposed to going into the story and your emotions, as I had no idea there was even a difference between the two previously. Since reconnecting back to my own loveliness, memories of how I had that knowing of my natural loveliness and true power as a child, confirms for me, that we all have it, we just chose to leave it hidden.
Before Universal Medicine I didn’t know how to connect to my inner knowing from my body. The simplicity of the Gentle Breath Meditation is one tool that I find so supportive every day, allowing me to connect to my essence and stillness. Thank you Kerstin for sharing your insights, I relate to much that you have experienced.
When I read “I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it”, I realised that asking the body is something we learn with Universal Medicine. I would have never use any expression like this in the past. I would have said asking me what would be best and the one answering would have been my mind and my hurts. We have to deeply appreciate what we are saying/doing and what we are not saying/doing any longer.
Following blindly and not questioning was a big part of my life. Always believing that someone out there had all of the answers to life and that others were special but I now know that it was a fools quest to always be searching outside of myself and giving my power away to others. Great discussion Kerstin, thank you.
So true that our wisdom ‘deserves deep attention’. You highlight the perils of avoiding, denying and disregarding it and the joy, simplicity and vitality of honouring it. Thanks Kerstin.
I can relate to this “The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world.” Particularly the ‘tension’, I used to be completely overwhelmed by the choices that I perceived I had concerning where I was going with my life, I now I understand more that if I connect with my inner knowing, I will feel what is required rather than following my head. Thank you for sharing.
So many points you make stand out for me to relate to, what an awesome sharing. Thank you Kerstin.
‘ I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it’. And what if we did and recognised that say sugar made us racy or aggressive or hyper -active. Could we, unless with a known disease or in pain, make a choice to let go of that substance and stay clear of it forever? When reading food labels we discover that sugar is in nearly everything. It takes dedication to self and a turning away from the accepted norm to adhere to our commitment. It looks like a turning away from society but in truth it is a support to society when the consequence is a more loving world to live in.
So inspiring what you have said here Elaine:
“When reading food labels we discover that sugar is in nearly everything. It takes dedication to self and a turning away from the accepted norm to adhere to our commitment. It looks like a turning away from society but in truth it is a support to society when the consequence is a more loving world to live in.”
It is such a simple move, and we could do it in such a supportive and normal way . . . and yet the flack that flies around over these things is huge. I was recently at a lovely celebration lunch with people, none of whom eat gluten and dairy. There was quite a bit of reactive fuss around the fact that we were as a group ‘GF and DF’ – the fuss not being made by the waitress or the chef, but by the actual people in the group themselves. There was identification with the food choice, defence that they might be challenged, criticism of ‘mainstream’ food, and, I could go on . . . Really interesting to see where we are at with this.
“Never once did it occur to me that I had all the information I ever needed, if only I had listened to my inner knowing”. This is a huge revelation when we first get it Kirsten. As you have discovered listening to your own ‘inner knowing’ can be life changing.
Thank you Kerstin for sharing this wonderful blog.” I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.” This is so beautiful to read and reminds me that the wealth of wisdom I bestow within needs to be deeply listened too, because everything we need comes from within. Simply awesome.
So true Kelly, that everything we need indeed comes from within is so true which begs the question why do we spend and waste so much time and effort looking outside ourself for what already is within?
Lovely to appreciate that connection with our ‘inner knowing’, through reading your blog “I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to.” It feels wonderful to support this connection and celebrate it, my life has altered immeasurably through learning to connect with this feeling and honouring it.
What stood out for me today in your blog Kerstin, was when you stated not to follow things blindly and to question things. Prior to attending Universal Medicine there was loads of things I blindly went along with and it never occurred to me to ask myself if that was true for me. I found it difficult in those days to go against others and would often crumble and give in.
Now I have the confidence to speak up if something doesn’t feel right for me, let alone question others decisions.
“In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.” Beautiful expressed Kerstin. Before I met Serge Benhayon eight years ago I had forgotten that I had an inner knowing. It is still unfolding, but I am also re-finding my way back to a way of living from the love and power inside of me.
Thank you Kerstin . It wasn’ t until I met Serge Benahayon at a Universal Medicine course that ‘ the dots were joined’ about what I wanted to do in life. Up until then I had been operating with my feelings within ‘verses’ what the world expected of me, especially around career. Meeting Serge and experiencing his presentations encouraged me to follow what I knew was true and feel confident about that.
I agree Belinda, the presentations of Serge Benhayon have opened up a whole new way of life. Listening to what my body is feeling and actually honouring those feelings rather than letting the mind lead me is so empowering and has given me more confidence that I have ever had.
How remarkable that we assume life comes to us and we accept what’s presented. What a different understanding we have when we trust or own inner knowing and come from there.
Beautifully shared Kerstin, I can also relate to how much and how often in the past (and often even now in the present too!) I catch myself going with the ‘should’ and ‘shouldn’ts’ or thinking that I am doing what I need to be doing whilst all along there is the inner knowing to do it in a more natural way. It’s the ‘trying’ that often does me in – the ‘trying’ to do something right, the ‘trying’ to not offend another, the ‘trying’ to do things whilst not allowing the flow and the inner knowing to take over and guide me. It can be something as simple as putting my facial cream on, or training my dog – there is no right or wrong, there simply is just the natural way that comes to me in that moment when I allow the connection deep within. And this allows for the flow. Much much better than following another’s instruction or a book or googling how to do something. Not that we can’t do the latter, just that we can still come back to doing it in a way that resonates with the inner.
“…Constantly disregarding myself caused frustration, disharmony and anxiousness in my body, but I was not willing to listen to the knowing inside of me and take responsibility for myself.” So many people also look outside to blame – the world, their family,God and life in general, rather than look inside and start to take responsibility for themselves. I know because I used to do this too. Thanks for a great blog Kerstin. It feels great to have found a way back to the true me with the amazing truth presented by Universal Medicine, available to us all if we only stop and feel.
The simplest and yet most impressive lesson I have learned is that whenever a situation or anything feels complicated, there is something to look at and probably adjust, because life just ain’t complicated!
So true Michael. Our body tells us everything we need to know…and when we listen, life is simple. When we don’t it is complication galore!
That Michael is an incredible lesson, where there is complication we know we have put ourself in the way of divinity.
‘The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world’.
Thank you for exposing the truth behind this tension Kerstin. A great truth for humanity to feel how driven we are by outside influences and how much we actually rely on them.
Gosh I needed to read this today – thank you. I too am letting go of old patterns to look outside of myself for answers because as you say – it is EXHAUSTING! It creates so much complication and as I am learning also, it is quite imposing on the outside world because you are basically outsourcing something that you have within you. And I know that I have done that quite often in desperation – “I can’t make this decision – here you make it for me”. And then if people reply – “only you can make that decision” – I want to scream at them NOOOO make it for me!!! Which is incredibly dishonouring of the innate wisdom and deep knowing we all have and dishonouring towards other people because it is not a genuine call for support. It is one from laziness and a unwillingness to look at what is truly going on. It keeps us in a spin – well it does for me. Or should I say, it has for me…..with the love and support of Universal Medicine and their practitioners, I am slowly learning to step on another path – the one of my own and to re-connect and trust that I know what to do. Which is also to simply be me and be the love I am and the rest will unfold. I am deeply grateful for this – even though I can resist the simplicity it really is that lovely and that simple. And deep down, I yearn for this simplicity.
Incredible, isn’t it this simplicity?! It is all within us. I also used to seek advice outside of me, just because I didn’t trust my own feelings, my discernment. The moment I checked with others I gave my power away. Because in a way the answers were never really fullfilling. They filled a need of what you write: I can’t make a decision, please make it for me. Over the years I taught myself just to start making decisions on my own with the guarentee to myself: nobody is going to die. I might even learn something. That was my journey back home.
That has been a great learning for me too, to just get in and make decisions from what I feel from my inner heart, and be it a good decision or not, there is learning in it all.
great comment sarhflenley. well said
Great point you make here. When we are indecisive and think we don’t know what to do we are dishonouring our innate wisdom and are actually unwilling to look what is truly going on.
Oh my goodness,
This story I know well. I have felt the restraints of life and have been severely crippled by them. Learning to break though has been challenging and learning to access my own inner wisdom and sharing my deep insight and feelings from my body is a continuos challenge. When I feel something I often deny talking about it but this does not ever support me. I am learning to talk about how I feel and my goodness is it revealing to how I have been living… Awesome blog Kerstin.
I spent a lot of my early life looking for answers in books. When I had my first child I had a mountain of books I kept referring to. Its funny that there was never a time when I thought, right, I’ve got all the information I need. I just kept buying more and more books. Through the teaching of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have learnt to trust myself and my own inner knowing. Yes I might need help and extra information at times, but I now no longer override my feelings in favour of what everyone else is saying in books or otherwise. I have not bought a self help book for over 10 years now and I dont stress so much about getting things ‘right.’ Its now more about what feels right for me from my own inner knowing.
I am loving turning things around: where my habit is to reach out for a book, expert or someone’s advice when I am struggling with something, I am shifting to giving myself the grace and space to access all that I naturally know, almost like calling on the wise elder inside me – that quality that has always been there but just not heard for all the noise outside. Thank you, Kerstin, for sharing your powerful emergence back to you.
Beautifully said Matilda. I too am finding that so much more can be heard as I learn to let go of the outer noise. I didn’t realise the level of detail and understanding that our inner wisdom provides – this I am constantly learning.
Detail – yes I relate to this too. I’ve also been observing how I tend to skim over detail when I communicate, yet, assuming an absence of ‘story’ in the telling, the detail is exquisite.
I too can skip over the detail when expressing and sharing, in the belief that it is not important or does not need to be said. Yet I am learning how holding back the detail completely changes what is being shared and everyone, including myself is left less because of it.
I love your comment sarahflenley. I can’t tell you how many packets of nuts I’ve looked in – and the rest! Actually, it’s kind of nuts in and of itself to think we can find what we are seeking in food and other comforts, as if the answers to life are to be found by foraging in cereal boxes for bonus plastic toys.
Thanks Matilda for the confirmation of something I often forget but do know deep down.. That I can access a deep level of wisdom to support through troubling times, and that it comes from the inside, only I have to allow it the stillness and space to come out.
Yes that is the key isn’t it. The space and and stillness to connect to that deep level of wisdom. It’s not in that packet of nuts that I reach for when I am struggling with something.
Beautiful Matilda, how normalized is this habit of consulting outer sources for advice instead of relying on our inner wisdom. I love how you share about you wise elder inside you, very gorgeous!!!
I let the battle wage on caught up in the noise from outside and the rule book of life that I have bought into. All the while the wise elder inside me sits and waits patiently, absolutely always available but never getting in the way of my choices. My next moment hangs in the balance in this moment; what I choose now lays the path for the next step.
Beautifully said Matilda. Thank you for the reminder that the inner knowing is always there, and that grace and space help allow us to hear it. Oh how I love the sound of the words ‘grace and space’ in my head as I type them; ‘grace and space’. My body is saying, yes, yes surrender to this, and I feel the magic of grace and space working already.
Thank you so much for your commitment to yourself and to everyone else in writing your experience of all that we need is already in us. I am learning to recognise when the body is trying to tell me something by allowing more space in me. Your blog is confirming to me the choices I have made earlier in my life were from sourcing the answers from outside of me, and all this came from wanting my life to be a certain way.Thank you Kerstin.
What I could feel emanating from this blog was a lovely steadiness Kerstin, like waves gently lulling me as I read. It’s as if having now found yourself, you’ve allowed yourself to express your essence in full ~ and how beautiful that is.
That’s beautiful Victoria, a great example that when we start expressing in full, all get the blessing.
What you say is so true we become separated from our innate wisdom at an early age by all the demands and dictations of the outer world. How beautifully you have expressed the joy of re-connection and living life guided by our inner knowing – thank you.
We need to learn to trust ourselves once again and our inner knowing to – as you say Kerstin – “take the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment”. Because we do know what to do if we just listen.
I couldn’t agree more Deborah. Your words are so strongly felt for me today. It’s remembering to trust and listen to what our heart says and not get caught up when the mind tries to chime in and run amok. Thank you.
The mind is an interesting thing, isn’t it? It can be divinely attuned or, as you say Kelly, left to run amok. We certainly need a mind, but not at the expense of the body and the soul. There needs to be a harmony, a union, between all three.
I hear you Deborah and Kelly. Listening to our minds can take us on a merry go round of distraction but when we allow that moment to stop and connect to our hearts and whole body we can feel and listen to a wisdom that allows us a far greater understanding than our mind will ever consider or allow.
Absolutely Deborah, learning to re trust our bodies and all the wisdom they hold.
We so know the truth and what I also love is that once a decision is made, even then we are supported as we receive so many confirmations from nature, symbols and even what people casually say. Sometimes I am ‘in counsel’ with myself and someone will say something to totally confirm what I have been questioning. The confirmations show us very quickly if we are on or off track. Either way we are totally confirmed and supported all the way.
Kerstin, thank you for sharing such an enlightening story. I have never had a such a sense of self connection as what I have now, thanks to what I have learned through attending Universal Medicine presentations. Tuning in to and expressing from my inner wisdom is very different from my old ways of relying on external markers to tell me what I could or couldn’t say/do etc but there is no comparision between the two ways of being.
‘I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it.’ Oh I hear you, Kerstin, neither did it. I spent years subjecting it to all kinds of abuse. What kind of craziness was that??? And what kind of society do we live in that makes that OK? One we have sanctioned through our lack of true connection with ourselves, is the answer I’m guessing. Thank goodness we have Serge Benhayon, a voice of clarity and common sense presenting a different way to live.
It’s so deeply humbling to feel that we all have had struggles and to feel how far people have come in their healing. Victoria I know you and to have connected with you and feel your absolute beauty in the way that you are now living is remarkable.
Thank you Natasha, what a beautiful confirmation – and reflection. It’s all too easy to forget where we’ve come from and truly appreciate the work we’ve done to bring about true change. And I mean deeply appreciate the enormous amount of dedication it has taken.
Yes Victoria, I too didn’t know a supportive decision from a not so supportive one, I just knew that something wasn’t right because my life was a mess. This all turned around after meeting Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, and for this I have a deep appreciation.
It’s interesting to observe that in that ‘lost’ space it’s as if we’re in a fog; a haze of confusion. This is surely compounded by all the things we use to check out and distract us – drugs, including alcohol and tobacco, food, entertainment, work, family… Cutting through the haze means defeating the thick consciousnesses that surround us, and Serge Benhayon is one who has done just that. Thus, the enormous service he offers in supporting others to do the same. And we can all do it, it’s not reserved for any one person.
‘In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am’. Beautiful Kerstin, I too am choosing this way of living.
I love the no fuss and straight to the point of this blog – ‘In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.’ – What I love about this is the unity of us being all who we are naturally designed to be and sharing it with all. When I choose this it feels incredible to connect with people at this level of awareness.
Indeed the simplicity of what is offered here in this blog is exquisite. Kerstin you highlight how we can complicate things by seeking solutions from outside of us or by analysing and evaluating things according to our previous experiences and hurts. Connecting with our inner knowing and following that impulse is the key to living that simplicity.
It feels very solid and empowering when I connect to myself and follow that inner impulse of what to do, sometimes against all the odds of what my friends and even my own partner think I should be doing. And life affirms that decision.
Thank you Kerstin for sharing your experience.
Hi Kerstin, I really enjoyed reading your article expressing your willingness now to listen to your ‘inner-knowing’, and the words that stood out for me were “In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: It is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.”
I feel this as something that has been revealed to me also and I appreciate that the opportunity for me to embrace this awareness only became apparent after meeting Serge Benhayon and attending presentations of Universal Medicine.
This is a clear and beautiful blog, Kerstin. I have been given the opportunity these past two months to truly ‘…..understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to. In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body. It is a way of living which sometimes seems to be difficult or hard because I am so used to my old patterns of searching outside for answers…’. I have recently turned down three job interviews because I knew deep within me that not one of the roles was in sync with where I am and where I am going. It has created tension for me because the pressure is there from the outside world to accept whatever job I am offered and not be ‘choosy’. But in this knowing I trust and, even though I might not have the conscious awareness of ‘where I am going’, I know my inner knowing well enough to know when I am in alignment with what is going to be evolving for me, and the feeling of having that confirmed through, as you say, feeling the joy and vitality in my body is absolutely amazing.
Love that, Brigitteevans, your example about turning down a job interview even though the world would say: don’t be picky, accept what you get!
This is exactly where I gave my power away many times in my life, because I thought I should be happy for anything that was offered to me. In that I have let abuse happen, making myself less then others and thinking I would bring no value to the table.
A great point delorme2013, I also “thought I should be happy for anything that was offered to me”. I would always think I needed to say yes to friends and yes to things I did not agree with so I would fit in with others, and the more I said yes to abuse the more I allowed abuse into my life and the more extreme it became. So I ended up doing things I would never have dreamed of doing.
Agree James Nicholson, in hindsight I can’t believe I ended up doing certain things so far away from who I really am and at that time justifying that inside myself with very strange excuses….
This is so great to read Brigitteevans. So often we fall into the trap of accepting the first thing that comes along, knowing full well it doesn’t feel true in its entirety. Often we do not know where something will lead, but as long as we remain open to all the possibilities and feel each in turn we can learn to honour and respect ourselves in our choices.
Brilliant, turning down the job interviews. Now that’s connection and self-love and trust. Congratulations, brigitteevans!
The practical application of the relationship you have built with yourself – super cool to read – thank you, brigitteevans.
This is a clear and beautiful blog, Kerstin. I have been given the opportunity these past two months to truly ‘…..understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to. In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body. It is a way of living which sometimes seems to be difficult or hard because I am so used to my old patterns of searching outside for answers, but…’ I have recently turned down three job interviews because I knew deep within me that not one of the roles was in sync with where I am and where I am going. It has created tension for me because the pressure is there from the outside world to accept whatever job I am offered and not be ‘choosy’. But in this knowing I trust and even though I might not have the concious awareness of ‘where I am going’, I know my inner knowing well enough to know when I am in alignment with what is going to be evolving for me and the feeling of having that confirmed through as you say feeling the joy and vitality in my body is absolutely amazing.
Reflecting back on my relationship with my body, I am astounded at how I was. I was very Mental, believing all the thoughts i had were true, hell bent on gathering knowledge and skills. I lived according to my beliefs, mostly picked up from everyone else around me because that was the status quo. Then when a lot of them didn’t feel right, I believed i was being rebellious by rejecting mainstream mindsets and conventional ways of doing things . However all i did was trade one set of beliefs and behaviours for another. No different in terms of their deleterious effects on the body, as i just overrode what my body truly needed and was always communicating with me. It was not until I met Serge Benhayon and attended Universal Medicine events that it became obvious that my broken body could not handle the way I was treating myself. I had pushed myself to the limits with dance, circus aerials, yoga…
I wanted to prove to myself and everybody that i was unique, powerful, capable, special.
I can see the complete emptiness of how i was, searching for myself, looking everywhere for the right reflections, trying to establish an identity based on those. It feels so absurd now.
I am on the path back to my true self now.
Thank you Kerstin.I love these words. They feel powerful, true and deeply honouring. I feel I am home when i read this.. It makes me realise how long I have been absent and still I have a way to go till these words will represent my deepest living way:
“I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention. I am expressing my truth and what I am feeling.”
Awesome acknowledgment Michelle re your career choices. I can relate – I chose a hard life of the chef in a busy restaurant scene. Boy, did I pay the price. I then followed it up with an almost equally abusive time in advertising. It took me a LONG time to learn what I was doing was harmful and unhealthy. I thought it was ‘just what everyone did’. It wasn’t until I started having sessions with my Universal Medicine-trained practitioner that I started to understand and feel what I’d been doing to myself.
I love the point you have made here, Michelle. We oscillate between conforming and rebelling, thinking we are thinking for ourselves, whilst all the time being led by ideas and belief systems in society. Only when we are prepared to develop our relationship with ourselves do we have the option to make true choices. Responsibility and freedom. Thank you.
So many times I’ve had an innate understanding about a situation or choice i was about to make only to override this with some logical reason why not and then berate myself later for not listening to this! It feels as if there is a powerful force going against us listening to this inner wisdom, but if we were truly to adhere to what we felt deep down we would be our own best guide in life.
Hi Kerstin, picking up on a point you made about how ‘giving power away’ is a habit. The term does connote some rather strong behaviour yet as a habit, we often do not notice we are doing it and it can be subtly draining. Even a simple action of believing a food, an exercise or Yoga posture is good for us and practicing it religiously because an authority has told us so, without checking in with our body as to how it resonates within us, is a way to give our power away. The importance of checking in with our bodies, based on them being the felt marker of choices we are making is key and offers a great understanding of how to sustain our true power, as well as how not to give it away.
So beautifully said and lived Simon: ‘The importance of checking in with our bodies, based on them being the felt marker of choices we are making is key and offers a great understanding of how to sustain our true power, as well as how not to give it away.’
This is true intelligence. It is amazing how we can practise something religiously because an authority told us so, when our bodies are telling us otherwise – as I am writing I can feel the element of ‘superstition’ in acting this way. It is just as superstitious to practice, let’s say, a ‘yoga’ that the body is letting us know is inharmonious, as it is to not step on a crack on the pavement. As I am writing I began to go into the roots of the word ‘superstition’ which is ‘super'(above) and ‘stition’ (standing) – in other words standing above or outside yourself or body, or taking something from outside yourself and standing in it. Our bodies are our precious marker of truth.
Heartfelt thanks to Serge Benhayon for bringing this to our attention.
Yes, the mind can be very convincing even though we feel the tension in our body that something is off here. We even defend it with our lives sometime why we have to stick to a belief!
Thank you so much for this lovely blog, Kerstin. I love these words “In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.”
These words are so inspiring, the more I listen to my inner knowing, I am drawn more and more to simplifying my life. I am in the process of gradually discarding more and more of the things I am surrounded by, really feeling the need for a much more simple life. Everything feels so much lighter as I do this.
Kerstin, this was a great blog to read, it helped highlight the fact at times I can still give my power away, and let other people make decisions for me. Good way to not take responsibility. I would agree when this is done it almost causes an anxiousness, like a feeling of not being fully in my body. Yet when I am full with myself, and make decisions for me, from my heart – I know what I feel to be true – very clearly, there is no second guessing, or doubt – just an absolute strength, solidness, power, absolute clarity and confidence from my body.
My inner knowing, I wish that someone would have reflected back to me what was so obviously there from a young age! When I see pictures of myself as a young child I see the inner wisdom in my eyes. We lose connection with that as we are not recognised by our parents or the rest of the world as beings of light and great wisdom. Bless you Serge Benhayon for being the first to reflect the love and grandness that resides inside of me.
The natural intelligence of our inner knowing comes from our ability to self love. I’ve noticed that the more I develop self love within my body and all that I do, the ability to hear my inner knowing and awareness is much easier.
Dear Kerstin, I can relate so well to what you share. It is hard to believe when I’m looking back, how easily I used to give my power away, thinking the other knows more or their point of view is more important than what I was feeling. My body suffered the consequences of all this, as this is not natural to us. And yes, I can see that it is a perceived easy way, as it feels like I am not responsible then. But that’s such an illusion. I am still responsible -if I agree to take responsibility or not. Avoiding Responsibility is avoiding being who I am.
this is key Kerstin, that we think we are the ones choosing what we do and how we do it while in reality we are not. I am still after many years of unfoldment unravelling all the ideas and ideals i have taken on from outside of me that govern what i do. To really feel from a deep connection and love within ourselves takes a great development in our awareness and a willingness to see what truly governs our thoughts and actions.
I embraced so fully a ‘ be a good girl’ approach and it takes some undoing to allow my inner wisdom to lead me. Your words have helped remind me where my frustration comes from and the importance of not giving my power away. Thank you Kerstin.
Everything in life from a very early age sets us up to take us away from what we truly feel and from connecting to who we truly are. That is until Serge Benhayon came along to show us all that there is another way, as you have so beautifully claimed for yourself Kerstin.
I am beginning to re-learn and re-trust the inner knowing that is constantly there. As I am building I have often doubted and transferred what I felt, looking for confirmation in my head, which does not support and makes complication. By confirming myself with what I am feeling and following through with action my confidence is building to deeply listen to my impulses. I feel surer footed in the world and stronger in myself.
I can so well relate to that Rachel. I have experienced what a great support confirmation and appreciation of how much I am already feeling of this seemingly endless knowing can be.
‘In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.’ Beautiful. In this claiming of self, we are also offering to others the possibility of another way to ‘be’. It strengthens our rhythm and adds consistency to our livingness, and it feels amazing.
I am expressing more what I feel now trusting my inner knowledge and wisdom, particularly with communication, if I feel it I am now saying it much more. As you have shared Kerstin the feeling in my body is light with joy and vitality.
“In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.”
Beautifully said Kerstin. I relate to your sharing from where it starts to where it ends and I too now feel the simplicity of re-connecting to our inner knowing and the simplicity and truth this brings to life.
Kerstin reading your blog reminds me of many ways I was with my life. I would always look for and want to be told what to do. At the time frustration would build as I knew it was not fulfilling me yet I was hooked into listening to others. The fact that I have all the answers inside was lost on me – when I first heard this the lifetime of doing what others told me to was much stronger and it felt foreign but absolutely true to listen to my inner knowing. I now can appreciate the incredible gift I have of being supported to not only re-connect to my inner knowing as the basis of my life but also supported to constantly deepen by connection. And with that I am starting to understand that I had not truly lived until I live from me.
Thank you Kerstin for sharing the transformation that has occurred in your life since attending Universal Medicine courses. We are indeed blessed to be given this truth.
It is important for us to live it to the best of our ability so others can also feel and experience a new way of living and being. Can you imagine if everyone in the world lived like this?
Kerstin I have just reread your article and have become even more aware of questioning what is going on around me out loud rather than hiding it all in fear of disrupting the status quo. That deeper knowing you shared is within us all and when we bury it so too do we bury the knowing that is there for all to share.
That’s just one of the many parts I resonated with too, natasa. How many of us have spent our lives staying silent and hidden and in fear, or conversely, embracing a cause that wasn’t really our own except to give voice to our personal frustrations? To actually clearly connect with what is true and speak up and out from that place is truly powerful.
If we shared more openly what we know and see in this world and in each other, without fearing to be stepping on somebody’s toes or rocking the boat too much, we would have far more clarity and harmony. Letting thoughts come in and redirecting what we actually know to be true brings a lot of confusion and unnecessary and often long discussions, quarrels and disharmony.
This is really important what you have raised and I would say affects nearly all of us. How much do we claim what we know and honour what we feel? I would also add to this how much clarity do we have within us to feel discern and truly know what we are claiming? Writing this what I am feeling is not how only we allow other people to affect us but also food and drink, which can hold us in the comfort instead of living all that we are and truly shine.
Beautiful Kerstin, once I started to acknowledge that I actually have the truth within me, and that all the things that were once discounted or dismissed have proven to be true all along, it has been tremendously healing and empowering.
Listening to my inner knowing is one thing, but acting on it is another. As I come to trust my inner heart I know deeply the simplicity this can bring to my life, for myself and for others.
I used to live in complete confusion. I just couldn’t make any decision that felt like it completely honoured me and my truth for a good part of my life. Just like you Kerstin Serge Benhayon has helped me connect to my inner-heart and learn how to honour myself and my inner knowing. I am so deeply appreciative to him, and Universal Medicine for their guidance, love, wisdom and patience.
It is so easy to get drawn to what is going on outside to find an answer when we stop and connect to ourselves we do have an all knowing that comes from within.
Sally. Fully agree on what you have said. We need to listen to our inner heart more.
This is a beautiful expression Kerstin. I never liked being told what to do and rebelled as much as I could but this only hurt me and kept me further away from the truth that is there for us all if we only just listen to that inner voice.
A beautiful reflection for me today. Thank you.
Searching for solutions from others or my limited experiences of life, pales into insignificance in comparison to feeling life and responding from the knowing of my inner heart.
Everything you wrote, Kerstin, is very familiar to me. Especially in early years everyone was telling us what to do, what to think, how to be. In Russia it is part of the culture that’s why the country used to be called ” The country of advice”. Through all my life people were constantly telling me their opinions about my life, directions to take, coming with solutions. It might be very confusing because they are coming from their lived experiences which might have nothing to do with where I am at. Then if I follow their advice without taking full responsibility for my choice – I might blame them which takes me even further away from where I want to be. And life becomes messy.
But if we choose to stay connected to ourselves and feel what is truly needed to be done for us and humanity – we can choose wisely – and appreciate others along the way.
Kerstin thank you for sharing how you got to trust and listen to your inner voice. This is something I have found difficult over the years too because as you say we are told what to think and say quite often, at home in school and in society in general. It takes a lot to re build the trust we need to make our own decisions and listen to our inner voice. Without Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I don’t know if I would have had the courage to question and then make my own choices as often as I do now for that I am very grateful.
Exactly Roslyn, we are encouraged from an early age to look outside for the answers and we lose trust in how we feel. Awesome to return to how we truly feel and live from that point. A much more reliable source as it relates directly to us and what we know is true.
Beautifully said Beverley, “Awesome to return to how we truly feel and live from that point. A much more reliable source as it relates directly to us and what we know is true”. It is so easy to listen to others and mould our lives to fit in with them and do what is expected, but it is exhausting living like this. The more I truly listen to a feel what is right for me, naturally everyone else is considered and I no longer have the level of anxiety I used to carry around with me, always thinking am I doing the ‘right’ thing or not.
I do not know why we are encouraged to ignore our inner-knowing and wisdom. It just doesn’t seem like a natural way to live. I think we need a major parenting shift.
Yes Beverley, it’s amazing and feels like such a relief -and a strength in my body, once I started to listen to my own inner feeling. It does take practice to stop overriding what I feel, as this is what I have been doing for so long!
Many times when I thought I did not have the answer, I asked around me for it, when in fact it was already within me. I have done this almost all my life too. Incroyable (incredible)!
I so agree alexandremed. It is indeed ‘Incroyable’ how we have been living – upside-down, and back-to-front, ignoring the ceaselessly emanating treasure of life within us.
Sacre bleu! I agree, it is incredible alexandremed. And Lyndy, I love what you say here too about the topsy-turvy way we live, avoiding the gold inside. What an under-utilised resource it is.
Me too Alex, the fascinating thing is how so often I would then get different opinions and advice depending on who I would ask! So often I would then end up more confused then in the first place!!
So true! And when I catch myself now wanting to ask others (usually my husband) for his opinion on something, I’m like ‘why are you asking that question when you already KNOW’ – so awesome.
!!!!!Oh the time we waste asking others!!!!! I often ponder this. Imagine how many fewer phone calls, conversations, emails, texts, blogs, threads, chats, debates, arguments…all that white noise….there would be if we just trusted and acted on the fact that we already knew.
This is great, thanks for sharing. In my life I have been reluctant to stand up for what I truly feel in my body and ask questions of the outside world. But I am learning how to present what I feel so others can hear what I have to say. This is something I work on every day. Now it is all coming back to me. I never used to accept things the way they were, I used to naturally express what is in my body to express even if it conflicted with what was outside. I just shut that ability down so I would not stand out.
Thank-you Kerstin for your great and relatable sharing. And like you Harry, I too in the past have been reluctant to stand up for what I truly feel in me and express it as I shut down that ability when I was quite young so I wouldn’t stand out also. But lately, I am choosing to speak up and I feel how freeing and alive I feel inside when I choose to do so. It truly is, totally natural to be us, to be amazing.
It is so amazing to stop and recognise just how many situations I have chosen to override what I was truly feeling inside. Why do we do this constantly? I have been awakened to the fact of just how powerful it is to acknowledge that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so extremely precious and deserves deep appreciation of this new found discovery. When I look back over my life I can see that I actually had many moments of knowing what was true, what my body was telling me; sometimes I listened, but most of the time sadly I didn’t – and the consequences in my life and for my body speak for themselves! We are indeed blessed to have been offered a reflection through Universal Medicine that our inner knowingness is very well worth our constant attention. It is truly divine to return to oneself in this way.
You put this so gently Ruth, it allows me to feel the sadness of how I have also done the same so frequently. The awakening Universal Medicine gives us enables us to recognise that we have so much more inside us that can support us to speak our truth as we feel it. I find this happens more and more; I suddenly know what to say, and then the joy I feel inside leaves no room for the sadness of the past, for this is the present and the way forward is from here.
Joan this is truly lovely – “and then the joy I feel inside leaves no room for the sadness of the past, for this is the present and the way forward is from here.” Thank you for this.
I echo Jennifer’s appreciation of what you have written Joan. So often I am crippled by the fear of the sadness. Which is a total illusion – a baseless projection of what might happen, that keeps me trapped in the comfort of not doing anything. Yet, as you so rightly say, the joy that I feel when I appreciate, honour and express the truth, blows any old sadnesses out of the water – leaving one basking in the glory of who we actually are. Lovely.
Yes ruthanderssen007, I can relate to this dismissal of the inner knowing so frequently in my life. I never used to listen to the inner voice or the body. I used to push myself mentally amd calculate, rather than feel what was needed for me.Such a mistake… I wish school or parents had taught me to value my feelings first and foremost.
I am re-connecting to feeling and to my body now, as an adult, an amazing re-discovery of the love and wisdom within.
This is beautiful Kerstin I love how you say ‘In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.’ This is so true and learning to trust ourselves is so empowering to feel and truly live.
“I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to.” This is something precious to remember every day, thank you Kerstin.
Whenever I override what I feel to be true, the rebound from the choice made comes back to haunt me. Saying No, whenever something does not feel right for me, is empowering,
Indeed not expressing what I have felt to be true also comes back to haunt me, whilst saying no if something does not feel right confirms my inner knowing can be trusted.
Beautifully expressed Jenny ‘ whilst saying no if something does not feel right confirms my inner knowing can be trusted.’
Very true Jenny and Kehinde. These days I am trusting more and more what I am feeling and not just assuming that because something doesn’t feel right that’s there is something wrong with me. Allowing myself to stay with a feeling and observing it, rather than taking it personally or interpreting is quite a revolution for me. By trusting my feelings I am learning to create space for myself and giving myself the option to ‘Yes’ or ‘No’ depending on what feels true. Very empowering indeed.
Saying No when things don’t feel right is so important. Feeling that then honouring this – magic formula!
By saying “No” to one thing, we are often saying “Yes” to so much more.
It is so amazing to realize in how many situations I have chosen to override what I was truly feeling inside. It usually happens out of protection and out of our upbringing where we are taught that not adapting and standing out is a bad habit. Standing out may challenge others, but this should not bother ourselves as only when fully speaking out our truth we will bring all of us to every moment of our lives, which is the most powerful form of self-care and true care for others.
I can relate with what you share Kirstin, this is beautiful, ‘In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am’. This is a work in process that helps me to honour and be true to myself.
“In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.” Kerstin, this sums it all up beautifully. Our bodies are a marker of all truth.
I find this to be a wonderful expression too. Imagine knowing what to do in every moment? I mean it’s absolutely the case when one lives in one’s heart and walks in one’s body. Well said.
When I look back over my life I can see that I actually had many moments of knowing what was true, what my body was telling me; sometimes I listened, but most of the time sadly I didn’t – and the consequences in my life and for my body speak for themselves, with much illness, injury, exhaustion, anxiety and much more. Now, like you Kerstin; “I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to”, and I do, more than ever before and as a result the quality of my life and my well being has improved beyond anything I thought possible.
It’s amazing how much truth our bodies hold. It feels magical when we stop and truly feel and listen. It is normal for our bodies to speak to us, and appreciating this can help us to feel our bodies more.
Yes Rebecca, I am really only just understanding that everything I need to know comes from my body. I just have to make sure I stay in my body to be able to feel it.
Thank you Kerstin for the beautiful way you have written and described your inner knowing. As I was reading I could allow space to settle into my body to get a sense of my inner knowing – in other words the Esoteric or the inner most part of us that knows. Looking outside for answers and solutions does become a habitual, familiar way of being in the world and when I am honest I also feel the tension you mentioned between the outside influence and what feels true for my inner knowing. The tension feels key here, like a red warning flag to slow down and pay attention to what it is outside of me I am giving power to.
Good point Deanne. It is helpful to remember that there will always be a tension between the outside and the inside. To remain aware of this can help us to understand and deal with it.
Thank you Deanne for your comment: “The tension feels key here, like a red warning flag to slow down and pay attention to what it is outside of me I am giving power to.” I also am noticing that tension, usually what i feel i have to do in daily life, and what i want to do / not my thought anyway. It is a pulling in different directions. I am learning to identify what the pulls are: is it distraction or ‘ self ‘ focussed? Sometimes it is a belief or investment in something that is pulling me away from what feels right or true for me.
Great for me to keep on recognising and adjusting my actions as the ‘red flags’ come up.
It’s so easy to feel that old pattern standing by ready to be fallen into again. However the natural way to be, to stay with your body and your inner knowing, may seem to rock the boat, but the joy that comes with being in a harmonious rhythm with your cycles and the love you then feel for all is astounding. Thank you for this blog Kerstin. I was with you on every line.
Was great to re-read this blod this morning Kerstin. Like you I made many new lifestyle choices which as most definitely improved my life, and for me too, it took some time to really listen to the truth inside me and a lovely reminder that all i have to do is trust, trust that I know in every moment the next step to take.
Thank you for sharing Kerstin, it is truly lovely to feel the clarity and strength within when we make that choice to re-connect with ourselves. To be able to feel the energy of past patterns there and then choose to change this and feel the difference, how great we are and yes, thank you, thank you, thank you to Universal Medicine & Serge Benhayon.
There is a huge “well” of relating to what you share Kerstin. This sentence referring to the tension we carry is a big one for me: “The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world.” I’m just feeling how many people are going through this very moment in life with tension in their bodies, bracing themselevs from the imposition of what the world dictates. Starting here we can choose to re-connect with our own truth and wisdom and live from there. Then there will be a few less tense people walking around and who knows it could catch on, and that would be a wonderful step forward for the world.
Re-reading your blog this morning Kerstin I love this powerful closing statement – making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am. Today I will choose to listen more to my inner wisdom because of your words. 🙂
I can remember the first time I became aware of not living according to what is true for me, it was about 15 years ago and I was giving my power away in order to be in a relationship. At one of the endings of this relationship, I became aware of this and the feeling was one of devastation. I have stayed with what I know to be true to the best of my ability since then. It is always amazing to me to know what is true for me, act on that and the beautiful flow in my life that is available – and yet, I still have times where I override this and then wonder why everything gets so messy, complicated and I end up stressed, or even stuck because I ‘don’t know’ what is the way forward. Funny that. Though I can still see how this happens from time to time, this blog reminds me of how important it is to to take a moment and feel what is actually true for me. Thanks Kerstin.
When I was very young I remember knowing exactly what was going on around me but whenever I spoke to others about what I was feeling they would react to me as if I was an idiot and did not know what I was talking about. In hindsight I can now see that they were jealous of my level of sensitivity and ability to read energy so they wanted to shut me down.I gave up on myself and stopped trusting my inner knowing. Thanks to, and with enormous appreciation of, Serge Benhayon I have re-connected to my body and have well and truly begun the process of trusting and expressing my inner knowing again.
It is ironic that I too disconnected from that inner-knowing I had as a child and it took the inspiration I received from how Serge Benhayon lives to reconnect and live from that place again more consistently for myself. So another’s reflection has allowed me to trust again that all the answers and inner knowing can come from inside of me, from a felt sense.
Kerstin, I so loved reading your blog again and its reminder that it is such a simple choice of reconnecting to our heart and expressing from there.
Starting to trust my inner knowing and applying it to my daily life has made a massive change: the constant panic of doing something wrong is fading away.
It was stunning to experience that in fact I know the answer to everything if only I am honest and willing to look at it and at the consequences this will bring.
“Recently it dawned on me how most of my life has been governed by an outer influence – always there was something or somebody who told me what to do or how to be.” Many of us are raised to act like this. Coming back to the truth of who we are and that our body informs us all along the way, if we care to listen, has been transformative for me.
hi Kerstin, Reading this blog this morning hit home of how I have been living for such a long time. It makes sense of the frustration and confusion I can often feel at times from not trusting my inner knowing and relying on others to lean on. It is so harming and dishonouring of myself to not listen and override to what I know to be true. This blog serves as a great reminder of this, thank you.
Beautiful to reread the blog again Kerstin and to let myself feel what your write: ” I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to. In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body.”
This is my experience too, it takes the complications out of life and brings a greater understand of what is going on and what there is to learn for us.
Our inner knowing that comes from the body is generated with the nurturing of the body. How much do we truly honour the body and listen to the signals, and do exactly what it is asking for rather than override it with ideas of what other people do.
To “not obey blindly” 40 years ago when I was in the military I had a tee shirt I liked wearing for what it meant and the feelings it aroused in bosses and everyone. It was never any kind of anarchy thing it was just a question that always raised eyebrows. The words were ‘Question Authority’. I had felt the truth of the two words.
Kerstin, reading your blog has given me a very powerful realization. I hadn’t realized I was yet to join all the dots on how not actually choosing and discerning what was true for me, attributed to a sense of confusion and even overwhelm at times, when I felt at odds with what is going on around me. I had been setting myself up for indecision, which I know through the work of Universal Medicine I was allowing myself to twist in knots. This process is still un-raveling and after reading what you share it’s unraveling a lot more. Thank you.
I have found that it seems easier to listen to the outside for what I should do in any situation. For instance that it is normal to stress for an exam so it is fine to give in and have stress for an exam. But, my body is very honest and such a great marker for if something is true or not and how by body feels after a day of stress is not so good 🙂 If I am honest and truthful I know inside that I do not have to stress for an exam as it does not define who I am. This is not always easy to do but very simple to feel.
When I listen and act on what my inner heart is telling me it feels so true and right that when I override and ignore it, it really doesn’t feel good at all.
Since I have started to observe and choose my inner knowing instead of the external influences that do not make sense to my inner heart, life has become far richer. And I find that my awareness of what I perceive is my true essence is deepening all the time. The more I choose to honour what I perceive to me of my essence while being open to observing where the external influences might have sneaked in, the deeper my connection with my body, my awareness and the clarity of my choices becomes.
Golnaz I can truly relate to your sharing and the more I develop the connection with my body the more clarity , ease and flow there is in life , it is very simple.
I have felt recently that often deep down I know exactly what decision to make or what feels right, its is simply the choice to be honest enough to admit that deep feeling. Listening to our inner knowing, and developing that relationship being to build confidence in listening to how we truly feel.
What a beautiful way to live again. Bringing forth our wisdom from deep within – out for everyone.
I agree Simone, it takes one person to live another way, for many others to be touched and inspired by that.
This is just GOLD! A timely and powerful blog, thank you Kerstin.
I can relate to all of this Kerstin. It is incredible how we have been lied to making us believe we need to look on the outside of ourselves to make us happy. I did spend a lot of time and money searching for the right answer but to no avail. Knowing that all my answers are in reconnecting back to my inner heart the search is over. There is a sense of joy and stillness in this reconnection back to who I truly am and that there is simplicity and a knowing within this.
Before Universal Medicine , I thought I was listening to myself , tuning in, but unfortunately I was tuning into the wrong channel, and ‘thought’ was the operative word. Who I truly was had been overridden from such an early age, that I had no idea of my true self. The ongoing process of reconnection with my inner knowing was initiated by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, and I am eternally grateful.
That is so true, Chris and Kerstin. From babies we get pushed and pulled in all directions and usually choose the path of least resistance and we grow up only knowing ourselves through the impositions, rather than our true selves. I remember Serge Benhayon presenting: “nothing is grander than you breathing your own breath.” Universal Medicine has helped me recognize when I am operating from impositions, ideals, or beliefs, and to trust my inner knowing.
Thank you Kerstin for this honest blog, how in growing up we are not shown to trust our inner knowing and wisdom but instead look out side of ourselves for answers.The turmoil and lack of confidence this causes is criminal. It was on first meeting Serge Behayon that I was presented and felt truth and all I knew and I then realised everything before in life I was told I had to believe. Serge Benhayon showed and reflected truth to me and I am eternally thankful to him and his family. I am learning to live this way too and express my truth also now and to trust myself and what I feel and honour this with a real appreciation.
Reading this blog again I can feel how I really do know what the truly loving choice is in each moment, however, because the loving choice is often initially awkward or uncomfortable (because I have lived a lie for so long) I override what I feel and stay in the very uncomfortable comfort and choose less than love. Thank you for bringing my attention to this Kerstin.
As you say Kerstin, we are brought up to ignore what our inner heart tells us and to follow in everyones foots steps – doing what is expected of us. Then we start to build these ideals and beliefs on what life is and how we need to be in it. All the while losing more and more contact with our Soul. Serge Benhayon presents a simple yet unwavering truth on how to re-connect to our innate way of being with our Soul and to have this as our impulse in all that we do. I for one can feel an enormous difference between the two and my Soul is wise, powerful and extremely loving.
This is such a beautiful blog Kerstin, ‘I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place and needs to be listened to’, these are wise words, when we live by this, following our inner knowing life is so much more simple and lovely.
There is such wisdom in this blog Kerstin. Our body’s hold the wisdom we need to make wise decisions every moment of every day.
Wow this is so powerful to claim the absolute wisdom that our bodies truly hold.
Thanks Kerstin, there are a lot of influences all around us that can strongly affect how we live, yet it is that knowing of what is true and right for us that is always there and I have learned can be quite simple if we connect back to how we feel. It is so true that going right back to pre-school we are led to behave in a certain way, that is why it can be so confusing as a child when something an adult says makes no sense to us. I am sure everyone can remember such a feeling coming from this inner knowing that we all have.
As I have made time and space for myself, I have been able to connect to more of my inner knowing. With this connection, life has become more clear and simple.
Great blog for someone who has always had difficulty making decisions, and has doubted every possibility and always asked everybody for advice. When I actually do what you say in the blog I know I am making the decision that comes from me and even if I make a mistake it will be my mistake and I will learn from it. Indecision can be very disturbing, until we do what you propose, and what I need to remember every time is: “making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am”. So the dilemma is not, if it will be the right decision, but if it is true for me.
Your words stood out for me here Juliamanbosj, So the dilemma is not ‘if it will be the right decision’, but if it is true for me. I based my whole life (up until the last 7 or so years) on making the right decision, and seeing things or people as wrong if they didn’t align with what I thought was the right choice. Now I know, it has nothing to do with whether something is right or wrong as there is no such thing, only as you say, if something is true for us or not.
Yes Julia, Indecision can be very disturbing… every choice can be a ‘good’ choice even if it is the wrong one as so much can be learnt in the process. I am learning to feel each choice rather than trying to work it out in my head. Trusting this process is developing, but I am finding it to be much more true that trying to work it out with my mind.
So much in life is telling us about how to be, how to look, what to eat, what to think and listen to. We have these influences bombarding us from soon after we are born. So it it is understandable that living from our inner knowing can be challenging as a daily life thing. This is why Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have built and continue to build such a great reputation, because of the support and practical advice to choose yourself first and then live along side all of those influences without being pressured or owned by them.
Yes absolutely Simon. Universal Medicine offers us simple tools that anyone can apply that assist us in our reconnection to ourselves so that we can fully trust our inner-knowing. We can then start to let go of the outer influences and really see through them as things that aren’t really us but as ideals that we have bought into.
‘In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.’ Our inner knowing is just patiently waiting till we connect back to this well of wisdom.
Once we start to listen to our inner knowing it is so amazing to feel that the answer for every question we may have is there and we only have to listen to this inner knowing
‘I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it’ – I too am guilty of being this way, until the last few years. I expected my body to do what it was asked to do and thought that my mind knew best. Which is ironic, as now I realise it’s the complete opposite! My body holds all the wisdom I will ever need and I am now really enjoying looking after it.
I agree Alison we did not learn when we were young that “our body is the marker of truth” (SB) Now I know this I am building a body of love to be able to en- house the soul so as to live as a Son of God on earth and reflect back to humanity that this is possible.
Beautiful Mary-Louise, this is my on going choice too.
Yeah!! Imagine if they taught THAT at school. It beats ballet or rugby!
This is so true Alison, how amazing is it that our bodies hold a superior wisdom if we but only listen and follow its expression.
Truly listening to your inner knowing in every moment gives you all the information you need. Then you know exactly in every moment what is needed, what you have to do and which step you have to take. It’s beautiful to experience that everything I need to know is right there within me.
Exactly Mariette, it is beautiful, and so empowering.
Great blog Kerstin, thank you. Applying self-care and self-love certainly blossoms the connection to and presence of this inner knowing.
Yes Johanne, I have found self care and self love has brought me back to the connection with my body and with this my inner knowing.
I too am living an amazing life. There are no bells and whistles or shining bright lights or rah rah. My life is living with a simplicity and beauty so profound and deeply honouring of who I am that cannot be anything less than absolute joy because I am in it.
Your words are so true Suzanne, if we are deeply honouring ourselves with our choices and keeping our life simple and loving, then it makes sense that everything we do would be a joy because we are taking our joyful selves to it. So then the only thing that can change that is whatever we choose to bring in that is not that.
“I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”. For too long I ignored my inner wisdom, then I met Universal Medicine and its practitioners. I now give this inner wisdom my full attention.
This part stood out for me this morning Kerstin: I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.
I’m just beginning to realise that trust in ourselves leads to an absolute knowing of what we have to do/ and hence listening and paying attention to our wisdom of what we feel.
Thank you Kerstin and Emily … Trusting ourselves and paying attention to our inner wisdom is so important. The more we do it the easier it is to honour. ✨
We can make life so simple when we understand what is truly going on around us.
When Kerstin says, ‘it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity’, it takes away all those complications we allow into our lives. It’s the old habits that are complicated and, yes, I have found it a bit of a tussle to rid myself of them, and am constantly finding little pockets of resistance, but oh! the relief of living simply is so amazing, and normal, that I cannot now imagine living any other way.
How heavenly is that to hear and feel. Even reading it arrests any ‘creeping-ins’ that are trying their hardest to play and torment with my head, and then consequently my body.
Kirsten, thank you for writing such a powerful blog which I and many can relate to. I have been feeling into whether it would support me and my family to get myself a job whether at home or in a school. This has brought up much within me and that which I have felt from those around me but reading ‘In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am’ has supported me enormously to come back to me and then from this place to feel what is true for me.
Caroline continue to stay with you, trust your inner impulses, a moment will come when the next step presents itself.
Kerstin, our inner knowing is simple and waits for us to return to its wisdom. Its amazing how everyday life is then transformed and simplicity flows into everything. Thank you for the blog.
“simplicity flows into everything” – so true, once we start to embrace the inner knowing we all have as both you and Kerstin note, it really does flow. What struck me most about reading this blog is how much the body is always last, it’s all about the out there the doing and the thing that does is not considered, until we choose to stop and listen. Great blog and reminder that it’s all about connecting to and feeling us, and our body is the gateway.
“I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.” How awesome is that, and yet, as you describe so well here, how rare, given that so many offer their lives on the altar of public opinion and expert knowledge. We are indeed blessed to have been offered a reflection through Universal Medicine that our inner knowingness is very well worth our constant attention. It is truly divine to return to oneself in this way.
Like many I can so relate to so much of what you have shared with us all. When you mention being “influenced by others” I realise looking back before my introduction to Universal Medicine/Serge Benhayon – I realised that I started to rely totally on the influences of those around me, giving virtually all my power away and completely overriding those inner feelings. Now taking back responsibility for myself it feels amazing and one that feels so true. Re-connecting to my inner knowing has allowed my self expression and joy has paid me a visit. Such an inspiring read thank you Kerstin.
I can very much relate to this Marion. I was also lead by others and sought out the opinions and approval from others pretty much constantly. Through a daily rythmn and through connection to stillness I have connected to my own knowing that is felt first and foremost in my body. I now live daily with much more confidence and trust as I now know the absolute truth of my inner knowing.
I can so relate to this blog, from the day we are born we are held with expectations and this continues on through school, peer groups and work. I’ve always felt different and didn’t ‘fit in’ with the mainstream but went along with it, I felt deeply from when I was young but didn’t know anyone that also ‘felt’ in the same way so was just labeled as weird or unusual. I am now to able to be free to be me and feel and express from whats felt! There is so much joy in that! Thank you Kerstin.
I had the same experience, Nataliemz, it was as if there were two of me. The one that most people saw , the ‘front man’ and the one only revealed to a few, kept hidden. Relationships weren’t easy, I never understood the games people played, so probably got labelled as a bit stand-offish. ‘ I am now able to be free to be me and feel and express from whats felt. What a relief, what freedom, I am so much more.
Thank you for sharing Kerstin. With the understanding bought from Universal Medicine I am looking at my life and choices, one by one only to find the origins of my choices were impositions or what I thought I had to be to fit in rather than from myself. No wonder I was always tired and lacking in confidence. I have had enough of trying to be what everybody else wants, they would most probably prefer me to be me anyway.
Bernard, I too have had enough of trying to be what everybody else wants me to be! At times I can feel the frustration because of my lack of taking responsibility but I am learning to keep building the love and appreciation I have for myself.
I can recall countless times when I’ve felt to do something or go somewhere not really understanding why, and then I’ve ‘bumped into’ an old friend or met someone or something has happened where i’ve sat back and said ‘wow, if I hadn’t followed what I felt, that wouldn’t have happened’. All we have to do is listen with our big inner heart ears.
I can vividly remember watching TV as a teenager, and as an adult to see “how to live”. Then I moved onto personal development books, and spiritual new age courses. Wow, I was a long, long, way from knowing that the truth of how to be was always inside me, just waiting to be connected to.
Reading the comments here I can appreciate how much I do listen to my body, I didn’t realise just how often I did this. I can truly say when I do listen to my inner knowing and respond from that place the result is a beautiful connection and confirmation of the love within me. Thank you Kerstin for making this possible for me.
“I realised that I was reacting to the demands of what society and life brought towards me and I tried to find the right solution to deal with that in reading lots of books to gain as much knowledge as possible for any situation.” Life taught me to acquire knowledge – always searching outside of myself for answers. We have been sold a lie. The simplicity of connecting to ourselves can reveal the truth. Then we have power – not something society etc wants in its citizens.
I wonder…. when did we stop listening to the inner knowing we innately have within us all? Why?? Because of this…. we have made life so much more difficult for ourselves. Why would we do that to ourselves? why would we disconnect from this truth? I wonder….
We are all taught so early in life to look outside of ourselves for all the answers. But I now know that is not true. The real truth lives innately within us all…..all the wisdom we need is there…. if we just choose to connect listen and trust it. Imagine…. if we were all trusting this inner knowing from within…wow…. how different our lives would be?
“In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.” This makes life so simple if we just connect to ourselves then we have all the books and tools inside us with all the answers in our bodies to let us know if something is not right. How amazing is that.! When we listen we feel the confirmation in our bodies. We are our own question and answer book all wrapped into the body we walk around in.
I really like what you say here Denise, that we are our own question and answer book all wrapped into the body we walk around in. A delightful picture and so true.
Great blog thank you
This is a very powerful article and has supported me today as I reread it.
An incident happened yesterday when I overrode my bodys message, and pushed forward in an old habitual way to ‘support’ an old friend who had a sudden bereavement.
I realised that I had imposed what I wanted for this woman partly out of an ‘I can pay you back’ ideal and perhaps to make me feel better about her situation, when all I had felt to do was say “I really just felt it would be lovely to go for a walk with you”. (Which I didn’t say.)
When I phoned her back and owned up to that push from my agenda not hers, which had felt horrible, the whole energy changed and she said to me “I really want you to come as it would be lovely to just go for a walk together.”
How simple. The beauty of the expansion I felt in my body as that was said confirmed to me how our bodies respond when we do what feels true rather than from a way of thinking that is ‘accepted’ or not even questioned.
So today, I am going for a loving walk with an old friend, and it feels true.
So cool…what you have expressed here Jeanette….simply confirms for us all…. trust and listen to our inner knowing.
That’s beautiful Jeanette – thank you for giving us such a practical example of what happens when we do listen to what we feel, and then act on that.
A very gorgeous piece to read, thank you Kerstin. I liked this line: “…I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to….” Indeed it does. When I live every moment of every day in accordance to what my inner knowing or another word I use, soul, is gently advising me, then life is a delight, an ease (not easy, rather there is an ease to the day but which can involve difficulties) and most of all an unexplained joyfulness about it. I am very wise when I allow that to come out and be lived!
A very powerful article.
Thank you for this beautiful blog Kerstin. It reminded me of the many times I used to look to many different sources to find solutions to my problems only to be confused by the conflicting messages I received. In contrast, now, in choosing to listen to my body, the clarity and simplicity of the message I receive means I have no need to look elsewhere for answers, the deep knowing coming from my body says it all.
Kerstin what an insightful blog to start the day with. The reminder that we need to listen to our inner voice and the truth it brings to us. When I worry about things that come up in as day and don’t sit with myself things go haywire. When I let things just be I can see how the day just flows, no stress just works itself out without any fuss and things just slot into place, so easily and connection to self clears the run way of life,
Constantly disregarding myself caused frustration, disharmony and anxiousness in my body, but I was not willing to listen to the knowing inside of me and take responsibility for myself. Such relatable words for me Kerstin.
I second guessed myself so many times in my life and thought that others knew so much more than me about me. Definitely a way to resist taking responsibility for myself and claiming the love that I now know is my greatest and most natural quality that never wavers, has all the answers I need, and is equal in all.
‘Making the simple choice to reconnect to my heart’, So true Kerstin, so simple and yet so profound.
I remember as a new parent al the parenting book, groups, and 5 cents people would throw in all with the presumption that I wouldn’t know. But really I didn’t need any of it. If anyone wanted to truly offer support in a situation like this, it would be to support another in them being able to listen to their inner knowing.
There is a simplicity to life to be enjoyed when we reconnect to the Truth inside of us. An inner knowing and wisdom waiting when we stop searching outside of ourselves for answers. Thank you Kerstin.
So true Annie.
For all the times I have sought answers in books and from ‘experts’ I have been chipping away at the trust I have in myself. A mad, contra merry-go-round: trying to bolster my sense of myself by gaining knowledge whilst actually undermining my confidence in me. When I start with me and a knowing that I know, I can gather information as a tool but not as something that is master over me, and balance is restored.
When did we stop listening to our inner voice of what we truly felt? Was it when we surrendered to society’s pressure to conform to what it thought we should all be. I now know for myself that the inner voice of the body is all I require to be me.
Kerstin, I love what you have shared here – I used to give my power away to others making it difficult to connect and trust my inner knowing. Thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have made loving choices that support me and have re-connected back to me. So empowering when we trust the wisdom we have – inspiring and beautiful for others around us to feel and equally know this truth resides in them as well.
To find our own way with the direction of the inner knowing can only come from within me…. That has taken all the struggle out of life and freedom to focus on the quality I bring.
I understand the supposed difficulty of listening to ourselves before others. I am finally finding that through deeply loving myself, my essence and truth more than my need for acceptance by the outside world I am letting go of the pull to conform and be someone which does not reflect the true loving, caring and beautiful being I am. It feels liberating to love me and truly honour me in everything that I do.
I love what Kirstin has shared here with everyone. I also love what you (Gretel) have shared here too. Finding your true self through deeply loving yourself more than the need for acceptance by the outside world. Simple choice…which can make such a huge difference.
I can so relate to the same behaviour of searching for the answers outside of my inner knowing, Kerstin. I know I have been influenced by others’ decisions and have also chosen to override what felt true for me. But i really don’t think it ever occurred to me that my body knew the answers,until recently; now I have a much greater respect for the knowledge within my heart and body.
So true gillrandall. Growing up we are never taught that our bodies know ‘all the answers’ and hence we start a life long search for answers outside of our innate inner knowing. The time is long overdue to drastically change the education system and present young children with the truth!
To access all of this I need stillness. Without it it all seems gone even thought it’s not really. When I make the choice to bring myself back to stillness everything I ever wanted is right there with me.
I so agree Matts, the instant I choose to be still, every thing is there with me also. From this platform it is easy to make choices and to live life.
This is so great, Kerstin:
“In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.”
My husband calls it my “yeah, but no, buts” – the way I am when trying to make a decision without this level of connection – it is a nightmare!
And yet the choice is indeed simple – to choose to reconnect deeply to ourselves, to our hearts, where everything is known.
I can relate Annemalatt – confusion and inability to make a decision completely disappear if my connection is there.
Also if my connection is there and I make a decision which is no longer right for me, my body is also can let me know that something is not right if I wish to listen.
To start to trust our inner knowing is quite possibly one of the greatest awakenings we can have, and right from the start Universal Medicine presents this as the ultimate self-empowerment tool. Presenting self-responsibility, the power of choice, and self-awareness right back to the individual.
I love what you share an express, “what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”,
This is a great blog Kerstin, and what you share is so important, the true way of living is not coming from outside of us, we all know what is true for us and are responsible for that equally.
This is lovely “In truth our inner knowing is always inside us.” I have felt this in my life, very recently there have been moments in my life of experiences that have literally come to life and have been truly lived and appreciated by myself. In being aware these moments, I also know that I have felt the seed of these experiences for a long time. And through connecting more deeply with myself and my “inner knowing” I am expressing so much more than ever before.
Kerstin I think this is the third or fourth time I have read this blog, and I can feel why I have needed to. Listening to my inner knowing is indeed simple and makes life simple as you say – feeling the ‘tug’ to make things complicated is something I am learning to observe also and feel into why that may be when it comes up. I can now feel how when I am frustrated, in anxiousness and in disharmony, a disregarding choice of my inner knowing can not have been far away. It’s so great to bring my attention to this also.
Thank you so much again for your expression of your insight Kerstin, it has been great to reconnect with.
Listening to our body and what it is trying to tell us all of the time is such a practical yet profound way of getting to know ourselves and what is right for us. It takes away that reliance on external influences.
Yes Elizabeth, it gives us our freedom and power back and brings so much ease, where before we were always running after ideals we wanted to live up to. Life really is that simple.
Yes Elizabeth and Michael. When we are not reliant for truth on outer influences and can hear our body’s communication there is an authenticity in our lives that makes so much sense. And it makes for a whole different relationship to the world, one of ‘bringing who we are’ and co operation rather than neediness.
Yes Kerstin I am fascinated by this idea that we think we have the freedom to choose whatever we want in life but how many of these choices are under the influence of a conciousness which is fed by society’s ideals, beliefs, norms and expectations? How many of us really have the courage, strength and clarity to honour our own feelings even when they go against these influences? So how truly free are we really?
I absolutely love your blog Kerstin. Life really is so much simpler when we a. listen to our inner-knowing and b. stop going against it. This is something I really have to vigilantly keep check on, for I find it easy to override my inner wisdom and seek comfort and conformity at times.
Congratulations on such a powerful realisation, how cool that all you need is inside you, and how liberating to stop looking for approval, recognition, and Love on the outside.
I too had given my power away, looking on the outside for approval.
You are correct in saying the whole world is set up in the complete contrast. Beautiful to know there is another way, the Way of the Livingness, as presented by Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon. 😍
A beautiful, deeply inspiring and true blog Kerstin. Thank you for the simplicity in expression of your offering to truly be who we are and listen to our inner knowing.
In terms of my understanding of outside influences, this morning it seemed to sink further in:
“I realised that I was reacting to the demands of what society and life brought towards me and I tried to find the right solution to deal with that in reading lots of books to gain as much knowledge as possible for any situation.
The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world.”
I want to re-create the relationship with that inner knowing so strongly that it dominates my daily living, rather than the outer influences that is spoken about in the above paragraph.
It seems to me, that to live in one’s heart and still be fully committed to general life is the way forward both in the world and for one’s own being.
That’s a too beautiful reminder, Kerstin! It got me on track feeling into what I truly need – and not only what I can sense is needed on the outside. Well, for all my life this was working quite well – but there has always been that underlying dissatisfaction. I could do anything – cause I love helping people and exploring to do things that are new to me – but in simply floating around in life without ever asking the question of what I truly want – makes it feel more unpleasant for me.
“My inner wisdom is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.” I couldn’t agree with this more. Sometimes I forget this and treat myself, my body and my feelings with disregard. In reading this line it has just confirmed the truth: that my/ our inner wisdom is so enormously precious, so divine and tender and absolutely deserves to be listened to. Every time.
Kerstin, I just love reading the title of this blog, ” What To Do With My Life – Listening To My Inner Knowing “, as it answers everything, from the tinniest little questions, to the biggest thing. Listening to our inner knowing, and this is exactly what it is – a knowing -just makes life very, very simple and clear. I so agree with everything in this blog, thank you for choosing to write this and to claim the fact that your inner knowing is much greater than anything outside of us in this world. This brings a huge smile to my face, because I know it is true. When I choose to listen to myself and honour what I feel life is amazing, simple and so full of joy – so am I.
When we go outside of ourselves for answers, or into our heads, things do get difficult and can get confusing … when we connect to our inner heart, we know what to do and say and things feel so much simpler.
Yes Sandra, when I bring my self into it things get complicated, but if I listen to the inner heart everything flows in harmony with the rhythm of life.
The points you are now living by – to not obey blindly, question what is going on, and appreciating your inner wisdom and truth you are feeling – are huge steps away from a moderated society.
Everything around me has taught me not to ask questions or trust myself – so as I understand the importance of this, and start to live it, how can it not change my life and everyone around me?
Wow – what an absolute joy there is in living our full potential, and also inspiring that in others.
I feel as though I was asleep and blindly following instructions from outside of myself on how to live my life, and always seemed to be at the mercy of another fad or trend. Thinking someone else had all of the answers to life, so I would give it a try, only to find that yet again, someone else’s way isn’t working for me.
Then I found Universal Medicine which has, and is, helping me to realise that I do know life and that the answers are inside of me, if I take the time to stop and listen. It is very empowering to act on your own feelings instead of overriding them and listening to someone else and if you get it wrong that’s ok also.
So true Julie, it is very empowering to act on our own feelings instead of overriding them and listening to someone else…as Kerstin said, ‘By searching for the answers outside of this inner knowing, I opened myself up to being influenced by others’ decisions and gave my power away to what others thought was best for me.’ I did this for many years, a bit like a bendy bus, adapting to others but now feel so much more steady in my choices to do what is right for me.
I so agree with your statement – ” if only I had listened to my inner knowing” way back. But now I am appreciating the fact that I do listen more nowadays – sometimes wondering why I feel drawn into a particular shop or aisle or road etc and then find out why! Connections…..Glorious.
I agree sueq2012 and only this morning when I simply could not find my glasses, I let go and waited for my body to tell me where to look. Bingo! I checked when I got a message and yes, there they were, in my dressing gown pocket. As you say, if only I had listened to this voice within way back.
Yes sueq2012, we could also consider that sometimes you may never know why but it is still a true impulse that may have ignited something in another that you may never be aware of.
Just your first paragraph already reveals so much Kerstin. We are raised to look outside of ourselves for everything and to think we need to get our answers from a book, science, someone ‘who knows’ anything and anyone but ourselves. And yet everything we need is right here within us all along. This is the huge gift that Serge Benhayon has brought to us, the realisation that wisdom is innate and that all we need to do is reconnect to what is within.
Beautifully said carolienbraakenburg and what you say shows how simple it truly is to live our life when we reconnect within, as all that we need is already there.
This is so true carolienbraakenburg imagine what it would be like if we were taught this from a young age, the wisdom would just flow.
I’ve found the inner knowing doesn’t always make sense. It’s an impulse to say or do something, but what is really beautiful is when the impulse makes complete sense an hour or a day later, that’s when I smile and confirm the presence of my inner knowing.
Yes I too agree Mary and Mathew. Time and time again I stop and have a giggle at how it all flows when I learn to trust my body and truly cherish my own connection.
So true Matthew. It can be very easy to question the inner knowing for this reason. When we hold steady the confirmation of ourselves soon follows.
Yes -I agree: the confirmation always arrives: just not necessarily when we think it should. I love how humbling that can be -I find it opens me up to possibilities greater than my expectations can conjure up.
So true Matthew, and that smile can be felt throughout the whole body.
Growing up I did not know who to be so I looked outwardly for role models and latched onto an image of what would be acceptable, and made myself fit that image. I lived fitting in but paid the price by selling out, never satisfied, trying new things that I thought I would know myself through. Never happy, always yearning for something that was missing. When I realized that was not true I sought advice from others but always got the feeling they were projecting what they wanted me to be rather than bringing out my true essence. I had to take responsibility and work it out for myself. I found that all my thoughts were still pulling me back to old familiar ways based on that image I made of myself in my late teens. There I was living as an adult of 45 as lost as I was as an awkward teenager. Kerstin has brought up many points, my favorite is “I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”
“There I was living as an adult of 45 and as lost as I was as an awkward teenager.”
I can so relate to this Bernard – how I used to drift from one person’s advice to another, outwardly seeking solutions but never taking any real responsibility for myself. Serge Benhayon lives from the inside out – his inner knowing is so supported by his daily rhythms that each choice is naturally impulsed from within.
I love the simplicity of this blog and the profound message of reconnecting to our bodies and developing a deeper relationship with the self where there is such a clarity and certainty of who we are and where we no longer need to give our power away in order to enjoin others in pursuit of recognition and acceptance as inner wisdom is everything. Thank you
Beautiful and empowering blog Kerstin, that our inner knowing is always inside of us, waiting for us to connect to. Our connection leads us the way in every step we take.
This is true, it never leaves us and is always offering messages for us to listen to (if we choose).
So true Diana & Joel. Making that connection to our inner knowing instead of looking outside of ourselves is a paradigm shift that is life changing.
‘My inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention’ – this line simply inspires me to hold the innate, sweet quality that I am inside with utmost respect, awareness and tenderness. Thank you.
Thank you Kerstin for your wisdom. This line was one that stood out for me; “what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”. The words ‘enormously precious’ and ‘deep attention’ are like balms to my body.
Those “old patterns” constantly cropping up for me too Kirstin.
A new freedom in my life is recognising them, listening within,
to find MY truth, which in turn brings that “joy and vitality to my body”.
Me too! I have questioned authority my whole life and have often got into trouble for it. I have always felt that if something doesn’t feel ‘right’ and true for me, I won’t do it, irrespective of who is saying I should be doing it. I love what you are writing, Kerstin, about how it’s so easy to live your life by being influenced from the outside and not from our inner wisdom, which we all have, but may not be aware that it’s actually there. As you say, it can be hard to change this pattern, however, it is so liberating and joyful to choose our inner wisdom and yes, it does deserve our attention.
“I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.”
Kerstin, thank you.
Thank you Kerstin for so beautifully outlining how simple life can be.
Universal Medicine has been an amazing inspiration to change a lot things in my life, what I am currently learning is to be patient with myself and let the judgement, pressure and perfection go more and more. This is not always easy, but feels marvelous.
Agree Kerstin, ‘making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment’ can be life-changing. Living this way, listening to one’s own inner knowing and not to all the voices outside ourselves not only ‘takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment’ but allows us to live in a way that is true for us.
I also felt like I was a yo- yo always reacting to the demands of what society and life brought towards me and researched all the time looking for some sort of answer but it felt like it was one distraction after another. None of it really shifted the restlessness i had inside. It was Universal Medicine that presented a totally different paradigm that started the journey back to me.
Kerstin I get more out of this blog every time I read it. This time I really felt, like you have said how we can try to amass so much knowledge to try to learn to ‘deal’ with any situation that may come our way – so our mind is equipped and we will be prepared. What we have not been taught all along is the value of our inner knowing, and how our body is communicating it to us all the time. I so appreciate I have been given the tools to reconnect to this inner knowing, by virtue of Serge Benhayon and the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom.
Thank you for this blog. It has raised an important point I have been recently contemplating. Responsibility. I am feeling the responsibility to be Me. By knowing who I am deep within, do I not have a responsibility to embrace that and live it every moment that I can? Interestingly I have realised that in order to do this I first need to take responsibility for having accepted myself as being something different to who I really am. Therefore this allows me to make a different choice. A choice to accept myself for who I really am in all my inner glory so I can not just live this sometimes but much more consistently.
Dear Kerstin, I agree its such a relief to not have to look to the endless external sources for something that resides within us all, all along. To be able to sit quietly with an inner knowing is such a powerful advantage to take into the world. I thank-you for your story.
While reading the blog, I realized that it has been default behavior for me to search outside and follow the recommendation rather than look and feel withing me what feels right. Majority of the time recommendation came for comfort, solutions and hidden interest of the the entity who is recommending. e.g. Benefits of dairy based on the research funded by Dairy Industry!
A lot has been revealed ( and still in progress) by the Universal Medicine & Serge Benhayon. Now I’ve started looking within for the answers, the life is not the same. There is a sense of freedom, expansion, empowerment, responsibility, JOY and LOVE!
Thank you for sharing!
In your words Kerstin “I opened myself up to being influenced by others decisions and gave my power away to what others thought was best for me”. When I was at my lowest point I was giving my power away all the time – little did I realise then I was making the choice to opt out of committing to taking responsibility for myself – always searching outside for something which was within me all the time. The difference today is amazing and what you have shared with us is very inspiring – thank you.
I had to smile at your list. 40 years ago I have not long joined the military, I spent a month in Washington DC. There was some kind of peace rally one weekend and three of us went just so we could say we had been at one. I bought a Tee shirt that I liked. I liked to wear the shirt when I was off work at the base and one officer said “you could get in trouble wearing that’ and my reply was yes, I know. The shirt only had two words ‘Question Authority’ it truly is that simple.
“Question Authority” great T- shirt.
What a beautifully true blog. I feel this way too. Thank you for sharing.
Awesome blog Kerstin, before coming across Universal Medicine I felt life just ‘happened to me’… that is I always felt governed by what was happening to me or around me, never making the connection that my choices always brought me to where I was. Now, in connecting to my inner knowing, my choices are very different and I am so much more aware of the consequences of my choices – for me, and for others. The responsibility in that was a bit of a challenge to begin with, but I would not have it any other way now – it is beautiful to feel and listen to my own inner knowing and trust myself!
How I know what you are writing about Kerstin, as the outer was my source of reference, even though I was kidding myself that it was from within. Your article again has highlighted the difference, of living from the inside out.
It is interesting that whether I choose to look outside of me and try to make myself into what I think is asked of me, or whether I choose to look inside and feel the knowing and wisdom that is already there, whichever I choose, I find that I seem to get into a momentum and am more likely to continue down the same track. The difference is that when I look outside of me for guidance I end up feeling less confident, less appreciative of myself and more anxious, and when I connect to my inner awareness I feel a steady warmth and confidence.
“In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.”
Great sentence, so much pressure is taken off when we re-connect to that inner knowing and start trusting that the answers are all there. Even writing this comment has the energy in my arms moving, just introducing this trust more over all areas instead of limiting it to times when we think we need it.
For me the easy way out has always been to look outside myself for answers, but of course that also meant it gave me someone or something else to blame if things didn’t go right. I could then get myself caught in an emotional whirlpool around the unfairness, the injustice of different situations and go into anger, hurt, frustration etc. All of this kept me very busy but didn’t actually feel good or achieve anything useful. Universal Medicine has offered a completely different understanding of life and asks me to be self responsible. While old habits die hard, I nonetheless know it is the truth. Therefore your words, ‘In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am’, are a true blessing to read and reflect on. Thank you Kerstin.
Kerstin, you are bringing up a very relevant theme – how often do we really make a choice based on our own inner knowing? Most people are running on an autopilot that is based on ideals and beliefs of how things should be, or how they have always been etc. Do we ever get encouraged to make sure we are deeply connected with ourselves before we make a choice? I didn’t, not until I came across Serge Benhayon’s teachings – this turned the world upside down for me. Life is now about taking responsibility for every choice that I make – I am forever learning that it takes deep honesty and a steady commitment to myself to turn the autopilot off and navigate myself manually from my inner core, my inner knowing. It is so true what you say, ‘our inner knowing is always inside us’ – thank you for this blog.
Well said, Eva. The teachings of Universal Medicine do indeed turn things upside down. Most of us spend our lives avoiding the truth of our inner knowing, and create lifestyles to make sure it stays that way, whereas Serge is constantly calling us back to the love and wisdom that naturally resides within all of us, and how we simply need to commit to living from and surrender to that.
In today’s world there is so much out there that influences our everyday decisions.
At times we need to sit back and take stock of what is pushing us to do certain things.
We need to let our heart take over, rather than our head. As that wonderful saying goes:
“The truth is out there”. Just feel it, you will know if it’s right or wrong.
This is a beautiful line and I am learning at the moment how true it is: “… am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention” I can feel how deeply disregarding it is to think that what I feel inside is wrong. It brings such an enormous tension into my body, wow. Reading the line above made me feel how precious I am and the inner wisdom that comes with that is to be deeply listened to.
That’s right Kerstin. There is so much information out there telling us how to live and when we are bombarded with it, give our power away and take it all on- we become lost and it’s difficult to truly discern if that’s all we are relying on. However if we simply choose to connect to our inner heart, ourself, our inner knowing then it is all there quite clearly.
Thanks Kerstin for your honesty. When I listen to my inner knowing everything in my life is in harmony. When I choose to disregard this inner knowing I fall back into anxiousness and suffering, trying to control myself and situations while trying to fit into preconceived ideas that have been dictated to me and believed by me by the world outside of my own innate wisdom.
Thank you Kerstin for showing the key to life of learning to listen to ones body in all it is guiding us with our own deep truth and inner knowing. For so many of us this has been lost but is always there inside to reconnect to and since knowing Serge Benhayon we have been reflected and shown the way. It is beautiful to feel the way your life and many others including mine has changed by living the way from within finding a joy and wisdom developing an ever evolving supporting rhythm in being all we are.
I used to look for answers in books and read voraciously for many years. I was always searching, and despite the hundreds of books I read, it was never enough. I was always left hungry and had to keep up my search buying more and more books. It feels so lovely to start to trust myself. Its like coming home. And the funny thing is, this is when the true learning starts. I know the answers are already within.
What a great distinction you have made Kerstin. There is a vast difference between developing good habits and the stopping to listen to the messages we are receiving from our body. The good habits sweep the path clean so to speak, but the listening requires the development of a real relationship with self, deep trust and the will to stop and say no to the outer clamour that seems to know it all – but has left us all vastly short of connection and quality in life.
Beautifully said Rachel “the listening requires the development of a real relationship with self, deep trust and the will to stop and say no to the outer clamour that seems to know it all.” This is a wonderful awareness for All. It would make a great post-it note for the front page of everything everywhere – just in case we need a loving gentle reminder that all we need is already with-in. The world isn’t going deliver what is loving and true no matter how well it is presented, primed, pimped and preened.
Rachel, this is truth, living a better life dosen’t cut it, if it is coming from your head to just improve your life. The difference felt when you start to make more loving choices for you, and feeling how this flows into every part of your life, not just the thing that you are trying to improve.
Kerstin, your blog is a real inspiration. Being blessed to meet you personally when you first attending Universal Medicine presentations some years ago, I agree with you totally – the changes you have made through different choices are very apparent – your expression is clear and full of wisdom and then there is that true inner beauty that emanates and shines out from you. Thank you Kerstin for sharing more and more of the true you.
It is sometimes not understandable for the human brain that all what we need to know is inside of us. As a child and teenager I was very much impressed by those people who have gathered so much knowledge and felt a bit less because I did not have it, though I was a good pupil at school. I would like to give a simple example: I have no good knowledge about technical devices and though I can gather the infos from someone who has this knowledge – it feels overwhelming to decide what TV e.g. to buy. But interestingly if I just follow my inner feeling when choosing the TV – I eventually bought a super duper device as confirmed by those who have the knowledge. It is exactly the TV I need. Transferring this example to my daily life – it is the same, I follow my inner feeling and I know the best, what choices I have to make. No one can know better than me feeling it in my body.
I remember sitting in my classroom at the age of 16 and about to leave my senior school. I remembered thinking that I had been at school all my life and yet felt that I knew nothing. I felt extremely ill equipped. Yet if I had been honoured from an early age and practiced my ability to feel and trust that, as you have shared through your example Sonja, I know my experience and confidence would have been very different at the end of my schooling years.
I had a deep knowing my life was not quiet where it could be and that most of the time I was living to please my family, friends, colleagues and everyone else. I wasn’t living a balanced life, I was taught to put others first before my needs, it was important to not offend anyone or cause any trouble. But in reality I was giving my power away by not honouring who I am and not looking after myself first. It was something I took on and was so ingrained that it has taken me a long relearn a new way. A way to honour who I am, nature, love and care for myself before I am able to truly care and love others.
It seems that the default program of second guessing kicks in when I need to make a decision, but more and more, I can feel there is a delay between the initial thought and the eventual response so its catching myself in the delay and choosing to breathe my own breath, and feel, I am totally worth choosing to stay with me and going with my own naturally wise and true impulse.
Thank you Kerstin, I can relate to everything you say as I too have always looked outside of myself to give me an indication of what to do and never trusted that I had an inner knowing of what was right for me. I also have the presentations of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine to thank wholeheartedly for bringing to me an understanding that I do indeed know when I connect to me.
Yes Deborah We do know. The more we surrender and allow it, the more it is there to be known.
What comes through in your blog Kerstin, which is really lovely, is so much appreciation for yourself and the loving choices you’ve made in recent years, and also offering yourself understanding in those times when it ‘sometimes seems to be difficult or hard because I am so used to my old patterns of searching outside for answers’. These simple acts of love help us to re-establish trust with ourselves, with the inner knowing that we know the way, the true way, and always have.
I agree Stevie, having understanding for yourself can be a game chafer, preventing the beating up that can often occur when we are learning.
Well said Stevie, I never saw it out of this angle and to appreciate one’s own journey is so freeing and healing. Thank you.
It is so silly that we override our bodies. I too do this and the more I learn to honour my body and listen to my body the more joy and vitality I feel!
“I thought I chose what I do”. A fascinating experiment I sometimes like to run is this. Take a day, any day, a whole day. (or if that is too much just take an hour, any hour). And then, being honest – and you have to be super extra mega honest – think back on that period and really consider how many of the choices and decisions that you made were absolutely yours….as opposed to being influenced by the outside world. It’s a very humbling experiment and certainly shocked me into considering more deeply what is truly at play.
An interesting experiment Otto and one I’ll try out for myself.
I like your experiment ottobathurst. I am going to try it today.
That’s one great experiment, ottobathurst – and I’m sure the results would leave anyone in no doubt that something’s going on different from what they would have imagined. It’s habitual to think we own our thoughts and choices, that we make them consciously… but the more I learn the more I realize this is not true at all.
This is a great insight Otto, what choices are profoundly our own? This contemplation is one that brings us very deeply back to ourselves, who am I without all that is at play – and immediately there is a connection to inner stillness. Great exercise, by the way, mega honesty required.
“….takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.” What a powerful statement. Imagine if we were taught this simple lesson from birth? How many hours, months and years we would spare ourselves from worrying about things that we actually have very little control over but deep within have the ability to deal with at every moment.
Exactly Jenny, learning to live without worry and anxiety by being connected to the wisdom within that we trust and know will support us to deal with whatever we are faced with in the moment – and as you say there are things we have very little control over and what a lot of energy is wasted in trying to control them.
I have found it fascinating over the last few years to observe why I do things – where the influences come from. It certainly was challenging in the beginning, to accept that I had all the answers inside me, particularly when they didn’t seem that apparent. Gradually I have come to back myself and learnt to pay attention and now feel so much more confident and often I innately (like all of us) know what to do anyway. And if I get it wrong, well, I learn something, and it’s usually because I haven’t listened to my inner knowing because I’ve had another agenda.
Your honesty and clarity is so lovely josephinebe2012. It is certainly challenging at times to re-learn to listen to and trust our inner knowing (and even know it is there).
Beautiful Kerstin. It is indeed a simple choice to listen to our inner knowing, and life can become more simple as a result.
This is so profoundly true. I am not sure I can express the joy that comes with this simplicity, but it is there.
Absolutely Joel. There is joy found in this simplicity.
I so agree, and that’s what I feel every time I read this blog, it just reminds me of that absolute joy in simplicity . And life really, and I do mean really can be so so simple and so full of joy.
Our inner knowing is taken away from us when we are very young – from those who have also disconnected from theirs. How beautiful it will be to raise children always connected to this inner knowing – so that there does not need to be the reconnection or rediscovery of what we were born with and so innately are. Thank you for your description of this Kerstin, I can really relate to the process you have gone through here. Now knowing my inner knowing is priceless, and I certainly have Serge Benhayon, God and the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom to thank for this.
‘Inner knowing’: At first it sounds like a fancy term, something a bit ‘new age’ and worth looking into. But the more it dawns on you, the more obvious and real it becomes that inner knowing is everything. Without it I am lost and with it I am so completely natural, deeply fulfilled and very, very wise.
I agree Dean, without my inner knowing I am lost also. I am not sure of anything, cannot make a decision, have no real direction and tend to give my power away left right and center. With my inner knowing I am everything I need and more.
There’s nothing quite like it, having that in inner knowing.
Well said Amelia, our inner wisdom is priceless and I too have Serge Benhayon and the Ageless Wisdom to thank for showing me the way to re-connect to mine again. It is directly due to the work Serge does that is enabling people to support their children to grow up with this connection, to nurture and honour their beauty within. What a truly loving gift to offer one’s children.
Your insight on ‘changing my habits into ‘better habits’ – however, to allow myself to listen to the truth inside of me took time” is GOLD – coming back to the innate wisdom within us is the only thing worth pursuing – yes it takes time – but the joy and vitality that you speak of are deeply felt and truly lasting – I relate to this very much and understand it never actually stops going deeper.
Very true Gemma, this is how I feel too.
I agree Gemmarubina, coming back to the innate wisdom and knowing within us is the only thing worth pursuing.
I agree also Eva, and really enjoying that relationship each and every day with ourselves is key to being steady in life.
Kirstin lovely to read of your continuing awareness. How wonderful it would be for society if the awareness of our inner sense was developed in school – we would be living in quite a magnificent world!
Inner Knowing v’s outside influences… a constant barrage of offerings to tempt us off the path. Once I could see the game my eyes opened to reading the game.
Absolutely Matthew. What also resonated today as I read the article is what Kirsten said, ‘I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to. In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body. It is a way of living which sometimes seems to be difficult or hard because I am so used to my old patterns of searching outside for answers, but…
In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity’.
It reminded me that it is just old patterns of searching outside of myself that can stop me from keeping walking along the path of love, if I allow them to play out in my life.
Kerstin, the great thing for us to understand is it’s never too late to listen to our inner knowing, and how loud and clear it can speak to us, when we do. So I feel an urgency to move on and express my inner wisdom as it gets louder and clearer.
Very true gillrandall, “it’s never too late to listen to our inner knowing” and it does speak very clearly if we allow ourselves to listen.
Exactly it’s never too late to listen to our inner knowing.
” there is so much information out there that tells us how to live, how to eat, what to do to live a happy life, what to do to become richer and how to behave to gain power, etc. Relying on all this information to help me through life, never once did it occur to me that I had all the information I ever needed, if only I had listened to my inner knowing.” Me too Kerstin. Why is this I wonder? If we all did know from our innermost from a young age, would we have ‘too much’ power (in the eyes of some) and thus rock the established boat?
What if we would be thrown out of the nest and we needed the safety still so we adapted and so the story repeats itself….?
It’s a crazy patten we get into, as we keep repeating and not learning if we look for safety.
Good point sueq2012, what would the world be like today if we had all chosen to stay with our inner wisdom and claim the true power we have. The shift in Kerstin is very evident in her writing, this woman has now chosen to seek her own counsel and can no longer be exploited or controlled by the external world. When we do this for ourselves we make different choices that in the long run do not support our society to continue to function as it does, boats will most definitely get rocked, which will in the end make way for a much more loving and harmonious culture then we presently have.
A beautiful blog Kerstin, a great exposure of how the world has told us what to do, and not let us found it out for ourselves.
Great point Ben, the outer influences are there from the very start so that it is harder for us to trust in ourselves as we grow up.
This is beautiful Kerstin bringing a simplicity joy and harmony to life by listening to our inner knowing . I know this has always been there and learning to trust myself in feeling all my body is guiding me inspired by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine has been the golden key to life . It brings a true honouring love and responsibility for humanity.
I can totally relate to what you share in this blog, whenever I have to make a decision that seems big, I always have to ask many people what they think or feel, not just one, all my friends, it is like a public survey. After all that talking and requesting opinions, I still have to feel it for myself, and I still have to make a decision whether from connection or from my head. So why not first connect and decide and trust what I feel? I love when you say: my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to.
Your blog is really pertinent, as what you are describing can be applied to any area – parenting, deciding on a career path, friendships, relationships, your job, anything – in all areas of life we have been feed an idea of how it should be or how we should do it, but every area is an opportunity to feel for ourself and develop a relationship with how we feel to act in the situation.
I love how you have practically presented how much in life there is telling us what or how to be and how we can go along with this for so long until the tension builds too much and we begin to come back to what we know inside.”I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention” Thank you Kerstin for the wisdom and simplicity in all you have shared.
You raise something so important here, Kerstin. We now have access to so much information so easily, more than at any other time in our history, but what are we doing with it? I have been a part of that crowd who, when asked for some obscure bit of information have reached into my pocket and whipped out my smartphone to look it up, instead of sitting with the question being asked and wondered do I need to know this?
Technology is great, and I’m not saying let’s go back to having multi-volume encyclopaedias taking up our shelves, but with all of this instant information, we seem to be sacrificing the process of truly finding things out by connecting to one another, and to ourselves.
Great to highlight this Naren. It’s almost as if the world is doing everything it can to desperately try NOT to feel the truth of what is being exposed here…..
Kerstin there is so much I relate to in your blog. Today what I appreciate is how you once looked to reading and finding knowledge that would equip you for any eventuality. I have sought this knowledge that is outside of my true inner wisdom too, mostly at times when I felt insecure about my ability to handle work or situations I found myself in.
I had a real insecurity about work and doing well at work so I wouldn’t be jobless. But ironically the more I looked outside of myself the more I lost trust in myself because I wasn’t connecting to my inner knowing. Looking to knowledge to provide all the answers is a self fulling cycle, one which, unless I had been presented with Universal Medicine’s presentations I’d still be lost in.
My relationship with knowledge has changed vastly. It’s a great tool but I know that what is true for me only comes from within. It’s beautiful to read about this. Thank you.
Well said Andrew. I’d say often all the information out there can be used to distract ourselves from the truth of what’s being presented.
Hi Kerstin, you’re definitely not alone with this. I know exactly how you feel and it’s amazing how that straight jacket of ‘having to perform in a certain way’ still influences my life. And yet if I trust myself it comes down to “that simple choice” beautifully expressed.
I agree Michael in every moment it does come down to the “simple choice” as I am learning it is all those choices when we choose not to listen to our bodies that actually contribute to us feeling further away from ourselves causing us to behave in unnatural ways.
Kerstin I can completely relate with wha you share. It really is crazy how we have conformed to what the world wants, rather than stay connected to what we know is truth for us. The world has not been setup for us to honour our true feelings, instead we have been given rules and procedures to follow from very young, starting from school, college and work. No wonder most of us have stopped connecting to that knowing inside of us and just accepted what was told to us. Really giving our true power away. It is amazing how Serge Benhayon has helped so many of us to reconnect to that knowing and continuously supports us to deepen this within ourselves.
Thanks Kerstin, If I am to be honest, which I am, I have to say looking back, how easily influenced I was by many things and many people. Sometimes I wonder if I had a mind of my own let alone a connection to my body. That has all changed and is forever evolving as I have been given the gift of expression and the chance to reconnect to the freedom of being connected.
This tension between the inner knowing and the giving away of our power to the outside world was something that was steadily growing with the first steps I took towards really changing my life. The central point that always comes up with every layer that I look at is self-love. Everywhere where I do not love myself 100% in every moment I tend to give my power away to the outside world, whereas when I am with me and appreciate myself for all that I am and bring and every step that I take, the inner knowing is free to guide and let things unfold. Life can be so simple – if we choose to let it – and above all – ourselves just be.
I love to feel the unity of everybody from where you are expressing. It is awesome. Thank you.
‘In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.’ Beautiful words to read this morning. And what I am learning at present is just how this inner knowing is everything. It is our start and end point, we need not stray from this place within. I am learning now to trust this inside of me.
So very gorgeous Kerstin. As I read I reminded how I used to be with food and taking on this belief, that is, and cutting out or adding foods entirely on outer, ‘the book said’s’. At one stage I adopted the blood type diet …and could not get over that I felt so great eating avocado, which was now a ‘no no’, BUT instead of questioning the diet, I questioned how my body could seemingly enjoy something the ‘book said’ was not good/natural for it….REALLY. I later moved on to ‘macroneurotics’ as I now call it, all strictly imposed from my disconnected mind onto the body, so upside down. I so understand what you say about giving your power and discernment away, and not just asking your body. Thank God for Universal Medicine and returning to discernment and what supports each of us wherever we’re at.
Kerstin your blog says it all – for me it has been a process of re-building trust in my inner knowing as my habit has been to defer to outside expertise. I will be revisiting this blog as a constant reminder.
To come to a point of realisation that what you chose was not from you but from outside influences is very powerful to feel. There is no blame in this but a deeper understanding of what has been truly going on and like you Kerstin I am deeply appreciative of Serge Benhayon and what he presents for us to consider.
I am in the process of learning to listen to and trust my inner knowing rather than look outside for direction, thank you for an inspiring blog Kerstin.
How very true Kerstin, connecting to our deep inner knowing and living life from this place of wisdom and understanding as you say “leads us to a life of simplicity and unity”.
Thank you for your article Kerstin.
I can relate well to the feeling you talk about where we don’t connect to what we feel is true about how to live life. There are so many influences out there and it was not even considered in my upbringing that you could touch base with what you knew to be true in yourself as to a way of making decisions. This is very different for me now after spending a lot of time attending Universal Medicine presentations although it’s still interesting how I can be tricked sometimes and find myself going along with something that is an influence more from the outside world then from my own soul.
Kerstin what you’ve written is invaluable. You writing, ‘my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention,’ helps me realise I’ve never really given myself a true chance to know my inner wisdom – else I’d not have continued with trying to substitute it with looking elsewhere for answers.
And no amount of numbing out can hide me from the fact I and the rest of the world is missing out because of my choice to not know and then express this wisdom.
A great realization Karin, and an equally great reminder for us all – whenever we are looking elsewhere for answers, we are not connected to ourselves and our inner wisdom.
The information we are bombarded with exists in every living moment and the fact that it does from early in life and consistently comes through those closest to us causes us not to question. To feel who we truly are deeply gives a glimpse of what is and offers us the choice to reconnect back. It is so beautiful when everything constellates to bring these moments of confirmation and living our truth becomes our way. Thank you Kirsten for sharing your time building that re-connection and confirming the way it is for us all. Serge Benhayon has lived and been presenting the truth for many years now, he is constantly reaffirming that there is another way. In Appreciation.
There are many times in life when I get a feeling or sense of something or an inner ‘voice’ speaks to me. It is like a guide that allows me to instinctively know what is right and if I choose to listen to it I know exactly what is required. There have been times when I have ignored it or chose what I thought I knew to be best where things did not turn out so well and in reflection I can say that I already knew what was required or going on and should have listened to that deeper part of me.
Connecting within has allowed me to trust myself and that ‘voice’ and has enabled me to develop a deeper relationship with myself and with life.
Kerstin what you share here about feeling scared to acknowledge your deep inner knowing and wisdom because you could see it was the opposite to what was being taught and accepted in schools, church and society in general, is huge. These areas are a part of all our lives as we grow up and so it is quite staggering to realise that we as a society would, as you describe, be walking round scared to acknowledge ourselves – that is, scared to acknowledge and express what we feel.
This blog has shown me that the years of trying to be what the world has tried to make me be something it wants, would take life times to complete the list that has been drawn up. Being myself is a whole lot easier because we are all complete already.
It seems like society is set up in a way that always gives us a solution to problems. Money, jobs, food, exercise…the list goes on. But what that means is we give our power away to what everyone else is doing or going along with, instead of really listening to our bodies, and the wisdom they already hold. if you think about it – our bodies are amazing. All our organs have a role, our heart knows to keep beating, our throat knows to swallow, our digestive system knows how to break down food, our fingers know how to hold things – its fascinating – and yet we don’t allow them the simple wisdom of knowing whats best for us.
What you say here is really beautiful hvmorden about what the parts of our body can do “– and yet we don’t allow them the simple wisdom of knowing what’s best for us”.
Beautifully said, Kerstin! This is the exclusive and remarkable thing about Universal Medicine: it first and foremost put’s love and appreciation of everyone in the focus. The way of looking at people lovingly – and therefore being reflected that I am perfect and to be loved too – is life changing. It truly sets new markers in life.
Kerstin Salzer great blog to read. It can be studied what you, and many students of Universal Medicine are now living.
For myself I used to look out and see what was accepted behaviour, especially when I was younger to fit in with my parents. That control over what I was feeling was stopped from not long after I was born. It is a force very hard to reckon with.
Even further on being a teenager and leaving school the only way to survive was to act in a way that was cool and accepted by the strongest force at that time was around you in what you were doing.
It just shows you how that deep inner knowing is so power-full than what is the norm presently. If you do go there it is interesting to feel the force that stops you only to protect how much it all hurts us that we have not.
It’s easy to remember so many times in my life when I really DID know what was going on, but because it did not fit with anything the world seemingly presented, or thought someone must know better than me, and sometimes because I just plain didn’t want to listen, I overrode that knowing and instead chose a different way, gave my power away to another, or did not speak what I felt was true. Yet now I’m beginning to understand how powerful that inner knowing is, and how in dismissing it I have been left less, and the world has been left less.
So beautiful Kerstin. There is a profoundness to life that can only be found the simplicity of being.
Listening to our inner knowing is the way to live our lives, life becomes harmonious and there is a real confidence in ourselves as we live from our inner wisdom….we all know that deep feeling inside but as you have shared, we can override it to the point where at times, we don’t feel it anymore…..
“Listening To My Inner Knowing” this made me smile as I read it in the title of the blog, as I could feel the joy through my whole body that listening to my inner knowing is true. I already know me, better than anyone one else, and listening to this inner knowing brings so much joy as it confirms everything I already know within, I have all the answers to everything inside of me.
Listening to all the suggestions outside of me always seemed to lead me astray. Realising that the answers are there inside of myself has been amazing and far more honouring of what I truly need.
I agree Maree. Listening to outside of me has not only lead me astray but some hard lessons have come from this as a way to teach me that that wasn’t the way or right for me. It’s much simpler to stop, choose presents and trust one’s inner knowing and feelings.
Yes there are many incentives focused on our weakest points to fill the emptiness. It’s not that we are empty, it is but a place that requires awareness and understanding. It is us that determine exactly what we need and exactly where to get it from. It reminds me of the equation “to every force there is an equal and opposite force’, the perfect match to the weaknesses that exist within. When we think we have ‘found it’, we may have actually only found the perfect piece to a puzzle that only plugs a hole to stop the boat from sinking, and not truly repairs the hole that lets so much in.
What I realised when reading this blog is that we think we are the ones in control of our life and making all the decisions and to some extent we obviously are on the surface, but what this blog points out so well is that we under-estimate the influence of all those subtle and in-subtle messages bombarding us with images and messages on how we should be and do things and that if truth be told we let those influences govern most of our choices if we are not listening to our bodies and our own inner knowing.
I agree Andrew, about “the influence of all those subtle and in-subtle messages bombarding us with images and messages on how we should be and do things” I know I have let them govern the vast majority of my choices, but I am now learning to listen to my inner knowing and calling out the impostor instructions from my head.
I agree Andrew, there are many moments in life that we override what we feel and what we would really like to express thinking that we will be rejected, not heard of even that we may get it wrong but what about just being ourselves and not caring what the world or the people in the world thinks!
Well said Andrew, this is very true, ‘ if truth be told we let those influences govern most of our choices if we are not listening to our bodies and our own inner knowing.’
That’s a great point Andrew.
So true Andrew, we are taught very early in life to read and respond to what society tells us we should be, completely overlooking our own inner knowing.
It’s amazing what we have to unlearn in order to live life from the inside out. The more we build a relationship with self the steadier we become and in this more able to discern what pulls us outwards.
Yes it proves without a shadow of a doubt that our education system is backward.
It feels as though all the outer impositions that we allow to enter our mind and body are only about how to do life but not about how to be in life. As I learn to connect more and more to that deep inner knowing I have less need to look outside myself as I build a reserve of love and begin to learn to trust that I am enough.
Yes so true Susan, we are not raised to consider the quality of who we are because the focus has always been on our achievements, what we can do. I too am learning to rely on my inner feelings and trust myself, to re-establish my true quality in all I do. It is so beautiful to feel Kerstin’s quality returning to her, a very delicate and graceful authority full of power. How glorious!
It does feel glorious doesn’t it? When we begin to appreciate and embrace all that we are naturally and innately we find we have a sense of our own truth deep within that supports us to expand further, and shine brighter in the world.
The more I read and hear the word simple the less I can construct complication to avoid an honest relationship with myself. Thank you, Kerstin and Brendan.
So simply and straightforwardly expressed, Kerstin, thank you. Knowing we know, I really appreciate the fact that you have exposed the utter madness of our habit of needing a book to find answers and solutions for life – for me, this is a classic case of running with the ill patterns to try and solve a problem that was created by the same. That small but so huge shift from looking outside to listening within is life changing for me and then by reflection all those around me. My appreciation of Universal Medicine is immense.
“That small but so huge shift from looking outside to listening within is life changing for me” – gorgeous matildaclark, so true.
It is true Kerstin. I have found the same, that inner wisdom cannot be taught only re-connected to just as learning how to trust it is equally something we have been reminded of through Universal Medicine.
How True Kerstin, looking outside of oneself for confirmation is such a huge trap, one that I have to continually check myself with. How silly when the inner knowing is so much more powerful, joyful and confirming. Thank you!
Great point Mary! Our inner know is powerful, joyful and confirming and not to forget that it is with us all of the time, ready for us for when we choose to stop, and reconnect to ourselves, feel our bodies and humbly listen.
Interesting blog Kerstin, I guess when I was young I was a somewhat a rebellious person and questioned authority figures to say the least and was opposed to what they were expecting of me because it didn’t feel right. Even back then I had a deep knowing somewhere inside me that what I was asked or told to do didn’t feel true, most of the time I was not connected to my inner knowing so I was rebelling against systems that didn’t feel true but was opened to random energies running me because I was not connected to my innermost. Since being introduced to the teachings of Universal medicine more and more I am able to connect to my deep inner knowing and wisdom and connect with what is true.
I can really relate to this Margaret. I too rebelled as I acutely felt that what I was being told was not truth and was very far from it. While I had these strong feelings I did not know how to connect to what was truth, so life was very complicated and confusing for me. Developing stillness and tenderness in my body has allowed me to connect to truth and life has become beautifully simple and straight forward.
I can relate to you Kerstin, always looking outside of myself for answers, giving my power away and never believing I was “good enough”. This perpetuated the momentum, which led to frustration, anger, anxiety, mild depression and chronic fatigue.
Much appreciation to Serge Benhayon and Universal medicine for teaching us the simple, yet powerful technique of the gentle breathe meditation. This allowed me to connect to my inner heart and in stillness I was able to connect to our deepest inner wisdom.
I to have been caught up in the lie that I don’t really know myself, the lack of trust in what I know in my inner being, the knowing from childhood left well behind. Returning to this inner knowing and catching out the constant overriding is the best medicine ever. The gratitude to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon is more than words can express for showing me there is another way.
I can totally relate to waiting for everything out side of me to tell me what to do instead of feeling for myself what is true for me. Through attending Universal Medicine courses and workshops Serge presents but never tells anyone what to do, and even when I would email him, asking ‘What do I do?’ He would say that it’s up to me to feel into it myself. This has been very strengthening for me to trust more what I am feeling and that I also know what to do.
I can so relate Arieljoymuntelwit….I just remembered that before meeting Serge Benhayon, I would even ask ‘what do I do?’ of ‘oracle’ cards…. rather than listening within, or to my body, or powerful (but at the time utterly disconnected) inner knowing, I would hand my responsibility away and instead pull a card from a deck and take that as ‘the answer’, (sillier still, if it was not the answer I wanted to hear, would repeat the process!). Reconnecting to ourselves is an absolute game changer back to natural practical ways.
Thanks Kerstin, the part you write “I have developed more and more love and patience concerning the way I am living. This has improved my life by changing my habits into ‘better habits,’ – however, to allow myself to listen to the truth inside of me took time.”
This is where I feel I’m at – your article is inspiration that ‘with patience and love’ we can all get there.
This is a really great reminder of how being committed, strong and steady ‘wins the day’ so to speak. That there is no fast track, just a re-learning of trusting one’s own inner light again. Thank you.
Thank you Kerstin, In being told what to do and how to be from day one is a hard but rewarding one to crack. That inner knowing is always there, connecting and living to what feels right in our bodies is the true way of living..
What a beautiful and confirming message you bring Kerstin, to feel that deep inner knowing is within, and the simple choice to reconnect to my heart, takes the confusion out, this is amazing and yet such a simple truth available to all of us.
Universal Medicine is the only organisation that I have ever found which does not offer any kind of solution other than the tools or life skills to re-learn how to look within and trust what you find.
Very true Shami and the same applies for me. Serge Benhayon was the first person I met who offered me a real tool of connection and allowed me the grace to build that inner connection for myself. Nothing to believe in, no doctrine to follow or imposed rituals, just a focus on connecting to, feeling and expressing our full divine potential and nothing less.
Yes me too Shami. To be offered the tools and skills, as Universel Medicine does, to align to my own truth and inner wisdom and trust what I feel has been so liberating and empowering. As I do this being in the world is changing so much.
Thank you Kerstin. This is all of what I need in my life at the moment and always also. I found reading your blog very difficult as my mind kept wandering and taking me other places. I know that this is because I too have lived a life of not living my inner knowing and it is all there in front of me when I read your blog. I have made many changes to this also and it is a working progress, obviously for me there is a lot more to go. This blog I will read many times. Thank you
I love your blog Kerstin, I too am searching for the Ageless wisdom, to get rid of outer influence and let in the inner wisdom. Bring it on.
Complete power and simplicity in this article Kerstin. How powerful and simple it is to listen to our inner knowing and live from that place.
Thank you, Kerstin, for reminding me that it is a simple choice. All those instructions from outside in the past would have us believe that knowing ourselves is a complicated and arduous task, but it is not, it has a delightful simplicity about it.
Yes joanchristinecalder, most people keep looking for ‘the answers’ or solutions on the outside, when all the time the real answers are all within.
So lovely Kirsten. You really bring home the simplicity and power of the choices we make. When we connect to our inner knowing complication and confusion about life disappears. We simply know who we are and there is no need to look to another to find direction. This is something I am developing and I can feel the potential of living this connection in every moment.
Yes, I agree, this stood out for me, ‘our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity’. I am choosing a more simple life too.
This is one of those blogs to keep coming back to, as it reminds us of how simple life can be and how all-knowing we truly are if we allow it to be so.
I agree janetwilliams06, such a simple and powerful reminder to keep it simple.
I can really relate to this kirstin, ‘Although there was a deep knowing in me of what is true, I was not able to follow it. It seemed to be so opposite to what was taught in school, lived in religious groups or in society in general,’ I can really remember this feeling growing up, it feels lovely now to be starting to trust my feelings, even if they are not the norm in society, I now know through my lived experience that what I feel is true rather than what i am told is true by society.
Going against the grain in everyone…
Beautiful Kerstin. It’s timely for me to read this as I too have made huge improvement in my life but am only now beginning to trust what I feel as my first port of call and go with that over what society or my head may be telling me. I’m finally letting go of the constraints that I’ve allowed life to impose on me and trust the deeper wisdom within that is always supportive to me and always there for us all. I feel like I’m finally growing up to the truth of life and who I truly am : )
Beautiful, Kerstin. I can really relate as my own process of getting to know my inner knowing – listening to and trusting it has been a bit of a struggle at times. I love what you say about our knowing leading to a life of simplicity and unity – this is so true. Thank you!
Great blog Kerstin, I can relate to doubting my inner knowing as well when almost everything outside of me seemed to contradict it. Thank you for sharing your story of how you have changed the way you live your life from listening to this inner knowing – very simple and powerfull.
What would be a loving and supportive choice for my body? I sometimes forget to ask this very simple question but when I do the answer is oftentimes very clear and if it is not it is because I have jumped into my head again without realising it.
If only I had listened to my inner knowing earlier in my life, it would have saved a lot of time and anguish. But I know this is the journey I needed, and I also feel very blessed by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine practitioners.
Kerstin beautiful blog, I especially love this part – In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity. Very beautiful indeed.
“Constantly disregarding myself caused frustration, disharmony and anxiousness in my body”….oh yeah, I knew/know that one sister! Here’s to ending that ridiculous cycle and turning into a much better frequency – our own inner-knowing :-).
Actually I also think a lot of people would like to know how to feel vital and joyful most of the time too.
This is such an important sharing Kerstin, thank you. I bet a lot of people would really love to know how to connect to their inner knowing and overcome their confusion, self-doubt and complacence.
Thanks for sharing Kerstin, so true about how often we give our power away thinking that everyone else knows better than us or we need their confirmation, we are learning that’s certainly not the case aren’t we.
Gorgeous Kerstin, we can so easily be led astray when we let ourselves be influenced by the opinions of others, or seek help from books / the internet. Our inner knowing is so wise, wiser than we could ever imagine, and is so worth listening to.
I love your reference here Kerstin, to patience and being loving toward ourselves as we learn to more consistently trust our inner knowing and respond to it with commitment and conviction.
The thing that I find quite challenging, especially living in a busy city like London, is the constant bombardment of media and sensory stimulation, the heavy traffic and number of commuters; all contributing to non-stop noise.
Taking part in Universal Medicine events have supported me to understand how sensitive I am, and we all are, beneath our often tough exteriors. Learning to stay honouring of myself in such an environment is a skill worth mastering and everyday I learn to come back deeper to my tenderness and inner knowing, so that when I am out in the world I am able to stay connected to that truth with greater tenacity.
Hear hear Jinya. It is so well worthwhile mastering our sensitivity with the bombardment of the city environment, or indeed from any bombardment . . . and also of mastering our reactions to our own sensitivity. To have the delicacy of sensitvity backed by the power of love – now that is really something!
Thank you Kerstin for your blog. It becomes a beautiful every-day awareness to feel the body, to listen to its wisdom and to always choose to come back to it.. this is life-changing – the body loves this appreciation and then supports us back with vitality..
Indeed Doug, we human beings certainly seem to be set up to reach outside than inside of ourselves for answers and it makes us feel completely lost. Serge Benhayon is presenting relentlessly that we have all the answers to all our questions inside us if only we surrender to this truth and connect to our inner knowing. This is a revelation for our time.
“The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world.”
I know this tension very well and the immense anxiousness and even panic it brings. It is only when I empowered myself to transfer this power from the outside to me that my anxiousness receded. I realised that there is no safer place than my inner knowing.
Thank you so much dear Kerstin for expressing so powerfully on this subject and offering us this gem of a blog.
A fabulous article Kerstin – I too always looked outside myself and in the past, like you, ” did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it.” Today, on the whole, I do stop and feel what my body is telling me- which has made such a difference to my life. One of the biggest things is learning to reclaim my power – no longer giving it away to things and people outside me.
Thank you Kerstin for sharing your blog , I have spent most of my life trying to fit in ,trying to be more, to please those I said I loved, thinking I was never enough because I could never reach those demands I placed on myself. Meeting Serge Benhayon was a revelation that all I needed to do was to just be who I am and that that was love, the same love that holds the universe in all its beautiful grandeur and in the love that I am I align with this magnificent plan.
It really is an amazing feeling when we begin to trust ourselves that what we know is ok and don’t need to look any further out to the world for answers, but just listen from within.
“Amazing Grace…I once was lost and now I am found” … These are the words that ring in my ears as I feel the difference between trying to follow the world and listening to what lives within.
Wow Joel – beautifully linked!
This is true Gill. All we had to do was connect, which is so simple . . . yet the world in its complexity is there to place doubt in ourselves through providing us with many situations to distract us and offer us ways and ideas to invest in everything and anything other than ourselves. Thank God for Serge Benhayon who has provided us with a true living way which is in direct connection with the love of our soul.
Life can either be us living us in it from our inner knowing or us letting life live us, which means we will react to the demands it places on us.
I have and am finding that by simply trusting my inner knowing, honouring its deep wisdom and myself that I am provided with the feeling of what’s next, what way or choice is right for me. Sometimes it may not be something that I can rationalise with my mind at the time, but it always unfolds to be the most correct and supportive decision. Just listening and living from us then allows everything else to harmoniously fall into place. A Divine Design.
Constant disregard not only hurts ourselves, but leaves an imprint for others to feel. It sets up what we call ‘normal’ and we accept this level of normality when in actual fact there is little love to be felt and consequently no magnetic pull to be more.
Gosh Kirsten, your blog is such a timely read for me. It is something I need to encourage in myself every day. I have made what is out there stronger than what is in me, but when I give myself a chance I amaze myself!
I love the way you have expressed that Amber – ‘something I need to encourage in myself every day’ – this supports my resolve and commitment to prioritise my relationship with me and taking responsibility. Thank you.
“In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.” It can’t be said any simpler than that. I too have been finding this an ongoing deepening unfolding, requiring care and attention and immensely rewarding.
Kerstin, I love the list of points you make of what you have learned through Serge Benhayon’s presentations. The one that stands out for me at the moment is:
“I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”.
This is the one that I am particularly working with at the moment, the one that feels in need of so much ‘precious and deep attention’. As I read those words, I feel my body melt, and I know I now need to concentrate on feeling, hearing and living from that inner wisdom.
It does indeed seem crazy the idea that we look outside of ourselves for answers and truth… Yet we continue to do so, and thus prolong the separation from true love.
I know this one Kerstin – looking outside of myself for how to live, how to solve issues, how to be happy, etc, etc. But all along, my ‘How to Guide’ for the way forward with any situation was right inside me, I just needed to learn how to re-connect to it…thanks to Universal Medicine for showing me the way.
For me the marker of whether I’m listening to how I feel, as opposed to the demands of the outside world often comes down to a simple word – saying ‘No’ when it does not feel right.
Kerstin, I could have written that blog myself, I related to it so much. The search outside because you know what you are feeling inside is not being meet. Thanks, it allowed me to feel deep appreciation for my choices and where I am today.
Wow, Kerstin, it certainly feels like you have made amazing changes to your life. An inspiration for many. Responsibility feels worth it.
It really is so simple to do, but I find that it can be hard to lose the self-pride in order to get there. Thanks Kerstin.
There is lots we allow/choose to get in the way (pride definitely being one), but as I deepen my resolve to be honest and am willing to go beyond initial barriers I am re-discovering a power and sweetness in me that inspires deeper commitment. Thank you, Ben.
Kerstin, I enjoyed reading your blog. My life was similar to yours in that I was always relying on the outside world to tell me how to live and be. This way of living was exhausting, emotional and complicated. Through doing the Universal Medicine courses and seeing Esoteric Practitioners on a regular basis I have learnt to reconnect back to my inner self and live life from this place which has given me more vitality and improved health. So refreshing, and a simple way to live.
Truly inspiring Kerstin, thank you for sharing how simple the choice is, when we choose to be honest and to listen to our innate wisdom, to trust in the fact that we do in fact all know what is truth.
Looking outside, striving for goals, being led by ideals and beliefs of how I should be or how I thought others wanted me to be has been the way for most of my life. A whole new perspective and wisdom comes up with connecting to my innermost. Thank you for sharing Kerstin.
Beautiful, Kerstin. The inner knowing is the most precious gift, I have also found with Universal Medicine. I had tried to find my inner knowing with the help of Hatha-Yoga, Shamanism… only to find a knowing that was still influenced by outer forces. After meeting Serge Benhayon I slowly understood how to discern the true inner knowing, which is so simple in the end.
Serge Benhayon continues to support and inspire me beyond the confines of my outer life. Through his Livingness and total commitment to serve he has opened up a whole new world, deeper and richer than anything I have encountered before. He lives it and lays the foundation for me to choose to do so too, or not. No imposition or rules, simply inspiration.
Dear Kerstin, thank you for this amazing blog, one I can deeply resonate with. And by the magic of God I am beginning to let go of the lack of trust I had in myself and my inner knowing, and trust what I so clearly feel, each and every day, God. My body and others confirm to me to trust implicitly what I feel. When I do the joy in the confirmation is huge, and also the lightness and simplicity I feel in my body. The more I trust what my body clearly shares with me, the more simple, joyful and amazing life is. I have learnt that I have ( and still do at times) use self doubt as a comfort, a way to hide, not take responsibility, to shine and commit to life. When there is no doubt and absolute trust everything is very very clear in what needs to be done.
I love hearing how choosing to listen to one’s inner knowing, rather than what the world thinks, brings us connection to who we truly are, which is glorious.
I’m appreciating listening and acting on my inner knowing – sometimes I get it loud and clear and sometimes I’ve been so listening to the outside world that what I hear is muffled. But then things transpire and I can be honest and say ‘yes I knew that all along’.
When I find myself following what I’m being told by the world, I now ask myself: on what grounds is this being said -is it love? If not, then it is time to reconnect to what is so much grander, God and love.
Beautiful Kerstin. What a powerful reminder that all that we need is already there inside just waiting for us to reconnect to. It’s simply bizarre how we are imposed upon from birth and encouraged to conform, fit in and look outside ourselves for answers when in truth the answers are all there within.
Thank you Kerstin for listing the summary of what Serge presents. Simple and succinct. By taking regard of our body and paying attention to it, we do build an amazing relationship and intimacy with ourselves.
I love what you wrote, Kerstin! It is so important and rewarding to be in our own authority, instead of relying on the outside and be dependent on its outcome.
A beautiful sharing and reminder Kerstin. It is so simple when we just listen to ourselves and what we know is true. There is so much power in that.
So lovely to read and feel your re-awakening Kerstin, thank you.
May we All bring the power of love that we are by re-connecting to who we truly are.
Reading this blog helped me tune in and acknowledge what I am actually feeling on the inside re a decision I had to make. I can recognize that I too, have long looked outside of myself for answers Xx
Thank you Kerstin, I can relate to learning “not to obey blindly,” especially in the name of love. And, yes, “listening to our inner knowing is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity”.
From trusting myself more and listening to my body lovingly, I have released a lot of sadness from living a life away from my own and true power.
From trusting myself more and listening to my body lovingly, I have released a lot of sadness from living a life away from my own and true power – this is wonderful Victoria. I too have healed so so much and the trust in myself grows day by day :).
Me too Victoria, I am slowly pulling out of the ‘obedient servant’ mentality and enjoying more and more the ability to chose and decipher what is true for me. Still a work in progress for me, but I can really appreciate the unfolding return to power that Kerstin is experiencing, such a gorgeous feeling.
Thank you Kerstin, I can relate to learning “not to obey blindly” especially in the name of love. And yes, “listening to our inner knowing is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity”.
From trusting myself more and listening to my body lovingly, I have released a lot of sadness from living a life away from my own and true power.
Since seeing esoteric practitioners I surprise myself at how much I do actually feel and know. I have always looked to others for the answers I need and quite easily gave my power away because I thought they knew more than me. This is gradually changing and I am trusting my own knowing more and it feels great.
I have had a similar experiance Christine, from after, seeing esoteric practioners, and Universal Medicine presentations, I have noticed that rather than looking to them for the answer they are actually supporting me in unlocking the door for me to be more open to the impulses that my body is constantly offering me
Thanks Christine, I understand just what you are saying, the more I practice Sacred Esoteric Healing the deeper I go into the inner wisdom and the answers I am looking for just seem to be there.
Thank you Kerstin great article. I relate so well to what you share always looking to the outside, getting so confused rather than listening to my own knowing, giving my power away. Serge Benhayon has helped me so much with this, I am now much more listening to my inner knowing … and trusting it, still a work in progress, and as you say it makes life so much simpler. ” I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to. In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body.” I agree.
Serge Benhayon is the living example in real life of the power of what living from and trusting your inner knowing can bring.
Thank you Kerstin, your blog is prompting me to go deeper and recall how when I first came to a Universal Medicine event I found it really hard that no one was telling me how to do it! I had relied on all the outside influences in my life to guide me and I had become totally dependent, and I felt really stuck. As time has passed I have found the true value of finding my own way and strength to support me in dealing with life. It is awesome when I realise that there were so many moments when I was being supported in the past but at that time I did not trust that I was enough – I always needed confirmation. Now I know that there is always a place within where I can go when I feel stuck, and that this place builds a true connection to God – and thereby everyone else in the Universe. Or as you so beautifully say ‘ In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity’.
“I realised that I was reacting to the demands of what society and life brought towards me and I tried to find the right solution to deal with that in reading lots of books to gain as much knowledge as possible for any situation.” I can so relate to this – for me wanting knowledge to bolster up my insecurities. Learning to trust myself more – with the support of Universal Medicine – has released a lot of this – but still some way to go as yet.
Thank you Kerstin for explaining so clearly your acceptance of the beauty and simplicity of Serge Benhayon’s teaching – that we have all the love and wisdom inside us for every situation when we choose to re-connect to our own knowing.
It is so true and such a common practice for most people to ignore the wisdom of our inner knowing and instead make choices based on what we have been told by others or to ‘fit in’ with others. It never works. Instead to be shown and supported so lovingly by Serge and Simone Benhayon and other Universal Medicine Practitioners to trust and honour my inner-knowing is a true blessing.
Lovely blog Kerstin, I especially like the line “In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.” How much simpler our lives can be if we just listen to that inner knowing, rather than to all the myriad of advices that are available to us from the outside. All they achieve is complication, while we try one thing after another to solve our problems.
I really connected with this “In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body.” I have had this experience, I can feel more ‘vitality’ and ‘joy’ building up within my body, I am enjoying being me and it is supportive. Holding back feels constrictive and expressing feels expansive.
Ariana, I can relate to what you share about almost forgetting what our own inner voice sounds like. I spent so much of my life wanting to keep others happy and overriding my own feelings that to connect to what I really felt was a challenge. But learning to listen to myself, with every choice has been the bedrock of change and I stand today on much more solid ground because of it.
This is so true Kerstin, ‘ there is so much information out there that tells us how to live, how to eat, what to do to live a happy life, what to do to become richer and how to behave to gain power, etc.’ It is not the norm to be told that actually you have all the wisdom you need inside you and that you are fully equipped to deal with every situation, we simply are not taught this and so we are forever looking outside of ourselves for ways to better ourselves, great that you have written about your experience of this Kerstin.
This is so true and real of my experiences and others I feel and beautiful to read and acknowledge thank you Kerstin The honouring of what we feel inside is deeply felt and highlights how we have not been brought up and living to do this and the turmoil created by this inside. Serge Benhayon reflects the truth inside us and inspires our connection to our true essence with the grace and love we are.
And to add, I also am finding that expressing what I am feeling, when I am feeling it, rather then holding it back because of a zillion reasons such as, what will the other think, its silly, its too much etc etc, are all actually dishonouring myself as a person. By not expressing I have been telling myself I am not worthy. And so in starting to express myself, I am feeling how it is allowing me to rebuild my own self worth.
I always had a sense of my inner knowing, but because I measured myself on outer expectations and ideas I never thought it could be expressed or lived. It’s probably so for a lot of people. In Serge Benhayon, his family and many others of the student body we now have a reflection that shows us clearly that living our innate inner truth is actually the only way to be in harmony with ourselves, all others and God.
Thank you, Kerstin, for telling your story, it’s an inspiration and a great confirmation for us.
Great insight. There are so many forces around us, telling us what to do and think..why so much effort goes into asking us NOT to connect to and trust that inner connection is the question for the ages.
Kerstin the truth of your sharing shines through like a beacon. In my life I have always doubted myself and it is only through my connection to Universal Medicine and the work of Serge Benhayon that I am learning to trust my inner knowing once again, as I am sure I did in my early childhood. Thank you .
Thank you Kerstin. Your writing really highlights how allowing our inner knowing to come to the fore so simplifies the decision making process in a world with so many options! For me it’s an ongoing process of letting go of everything I thought I was – and especially as a man – to release the need to understand and know how everything works to ensure I do the right thing, to fit in, to protect myself from harm… Could it really be true that we have an inner voice that not only knows everything we need as individuals but also somehow magically takes into account the needs of all. I look at nature and see such a wonderful harmony of “non thinking” life. I look at those around me who are embracing this inner wisdom and see such joy and true community in those sparkling healthy eyes and bodies. Might it actually be ok to really let go and trust this in myself too?
Years ago I used to work for a tutoring firm for school children. I remember being shocked at one of their ads which went something along the lines of: ‘Get your child ready for grade 1 with our pencil skills class’. Grade 1 – really? Yes, it starts that soon in, as soon as we leave kindergarten – the pressure to conform, excel, fit in, compete. Returning to a way in which this is not the norm is surely where we need to go next. If the drive for things outside of ourselves continues to escalate, where will it end up? Last time I looked, we weren’t doing so well using that MO anyway.
So true Kerstin, disregarding ourselves sends shock waves through our body. The way to compensate for this is to numb this anti-vibration, hence all the tricks and ways we have to hide from the resultant hurts it causes within. If we can’t feel the disregard, we trick ourselves to think it’s not happening, which ends up being the slippery slope to greater levels of numbness and choices that are not supportive or loving in any way.
Spot on Matthew – disregarding our body can have seriously detrimental affects. For me the biggest one is exhaustion; when I don’t look after myself and my rhythm is out of whack I become super tired, lethargic and procrastinate doing anything to help stop it… Not a great cycle to get yourself in to – I don’t recommend it.
This is a very important topic and something I am sure many can relate to; ‘Constantly disregarding myself caused frustration, disharmony and anxiousness in my body, but I was not willing to listen to the knowing inside of me and take responsibility for myself.’ .. that is ignoring what we feel within and being influenced on the outside by what is not true to us. I have done this with many things in my life but one that instantly springs to mind is how I ignored what I felt to be true for me for a career and did something for years that was not coming from the impulse within my heart and being, life was a struggle. Since knowing Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and clearing all of what is not me I have now changed my career to what was true to me and loving every moment, life has started to have more purpose.
That’s beautiful Vicky…the clue is when things are a struggle. Life isn’t meant to be a struggle, it has a flow and when faced with challenges, we know how to overcome them when we listen to our inner knowing.
A gorgeous blog and awareness you have now Kerstin. Thank you so much for sharing this so beautifully. I feel inspired to be still within and ready to lose the old patterns of seeking that are so spiritually ingrained.
‘The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world.’
I have a greater awareness now of the tension I feel in my body and the overwhelming frustration I can be stuck at times.
For me learning to trust my own inner knowing is a continuing process. I have found that that my inner connection has been deeply buried under long lived patterns of deferring to “experts” people who knew better than me. Now as I continue to learn to trust myself I find that it is my unwillingness to accept full responsibility for myself that continues to retard my trust in my inner knowing, and the fear of “getting it wrong”. The way forward is in deepening my tender appreciation of myself and accept the choices I have made before without harsh judgement, for only in tenderness can I connect with the wisdom that lies within me.
There is alot here I can relate to Tim, I am definitely prone to taking on what experts tell me, or that fear of getting it wrong that holds me back. And it simply holds me back from being myself, right or wrong, and learning to be more of myself as I learn.
I can really relate to giving my power away Kerstin, and not honouring how I felt and going with that, second guessing through most of my life and wanting others advice. I can see that it was a tool that I used to not take responsibility for my own life and choices, and was totally disempowering and discounting my own amazing, deep inner wisdom and love within.
It is so true Kerstin, that we grow up being taught to rely on on the rules and norms of our society or family or the experts to guide us. When all this time we had this inner knowing that we disconnected from as children.
How crazy it is, Jenny, that we let go this wonderful inner knowing. Life has become so much more complicated as a result.
I agree Beverley, it is crazy as we have all we need within us and yet we look elsewhere.
Very true Jenny and what an amazing joy and strength there is in Kerstin now that she has re-connected to her own source of guidance once again.
That’s right Jenny, and we then compete against each other in an attempt to fill the void that this way of life brings, not realizing that it all feels completely different to the deep connection and love for others felt when living from our inner knowing.
I know, it blows my mind that it was there all along. In many ways we are told this, but until we are told in truth we still choose not to feel it.
I couldn’t help but want to reiterate “Although there was a deep knowing in me of what is true, I was not able to follow it. It seemed to be so opposite to what was taught in school….”. I once heard a wealthy man say, that to do the polar opposite to what everyone else does, is a very good start to a successful business – perhaps there is an element of this, that applies to much of life..?
Oliver it does seem that much of life is upside down. So much of what I was taught and told to be ignores the fact that inside I know what is true and I simply need to follow that truth, my truth which is naturally all our truth.
Kerstin I too gave in to the outer world at a very young age and so spent a lifetime trying to do the right thing & learn how to be in life, but I was never at ease with this way of living as it left a tension in my body, an anxiousness of “did I get it right”. Often I would act against my knowing and defer to outside influences, and then resentment would rise – there is no comfort in saying “I knew that!” after the fact. Universal Medicine has presented that the inner knowing is to be trusted, and so I now am building my connection to that knowing, rebuilding trust in myself. This feels solid, a foundation I can build on.
“In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.” Kerstin that says it all so clearly and simply, if I just listen to my body then there is no confusion.
Absolutely Denise, that was worth reading again.
An excellent account of how easy we can make life by just connecting and listening to our inner knowledge.
Great blog thanks Kerstin. When I first met Serge Benhayon and attended the courses at Universal Medicine, I absolutely knew this was the real deal and felt the power begin to emerge of knowing the truth was always in me. Yet despite that, I was so engrained with the habit to live my life from what I was told from the outside that I made even Universal Medicine and what Serge presented as rules. This delayed me coming to the full understanding that I absolutely know truth. Today however, I am accepting of this awareness and develop daily this inner knowing and wisdom in my body. As a result I feel a vitality and confidence like I have never felt before and an acknowledgement and joy in knowing I need not give my power away any more.
I decided to read this again this morning as it has some wonderful points. It is crazy ridiculous how we get ‘conned’ by society’s unspoken rules, into living a certain way to fit in, which completely squashes the truly beautiful uniqueness each one of us brings.
I am deeply appreciative of the opportunity we have been given by Serge Benhayon to wake up to the world and ourselves and begin to live a more loving life, one in which each and everyone is of value equally, each and everyone living in a way that is true and loving for them. In this way we can’t help but have a more harmonious society.
Thanks Kerstin for such valuable insights. I especially noted your words ‘In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body.’ I am discovering the truth of these words more and more as I deepen my awareness of all my body is communicating to me.
A beautiful blog Kerstin. What stood out the most for me was the line ‘I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention’. I can relate to this discovery and also working on putting this inner knowing before all the outer beliefs and influences that can so easily sway us.
I can look back on a large portion of my life and see habits and hobbies I formed that were all designed to fit in or cause the least disturbance. It is only really in the last few years that i have become aware of how much I played a game of conforming. It can be hard to see when we are doing something that isn’t true as the pull to do it can be so strong to just fit in that we can convince ourselves that it is what we love doing, like drinking alcohol or following a sports team or eating certain foods. Yet through all this time the body never lies to us, it is all down to how much we are willing to allow what it tells us to register and act accordingly.
This is a really incredible turnaround Kerstin. I think many of us can relate to behaving in a way that meets the expectations of people around us, and allows us to fit in. At school, it’s the way things work really; people can become shy if they realise those around them aren’t interested in listening to them or when they want to become invisible to avoid conflict or jealousy, and others become extremely loud and over the top to attract attention or ‘prove’ their social status by keeping all eyes on them. I’ve done both of these in the past, and after swapping between the two for years I realised how much of myself I had lost and not expressed to other people.
Wunderbare Kerstin what you have realizied in your amazing blog is gold. You wrote:”Constantly disregarding myself caused frustration, disharmony and anxiousness in my body, but I was not willing to listen to the knowing inside of me and take responsibility for myself.” Could it be that we as society are doing this as well???? Is it possible that this behaviour could lead to illness and desease???? Well it is worth pondering on this.
Thank you Kerstin. When I am searching outside of myself and not coming from that inner knowing, my own authority, I can feel the tension it creates in my body, an underlying tension, because I am not living my truth.
Yes, I can relate to this to. I feel an anxiousness and a feeling that I am not enough, well of course I am going to feel that if I am not appreciating me and allow me to be all I am!
The more I trust this inner knowing the more I am being shown how powerful and accurate it is. I love how I don’t need to do anything but simply feel each and every situation and experience from the quality I hold in my heart. Everything is revealed from there.
From a young age we are told to look up to people of authority (teachers, parents, bosses, adults etc) but in this so called learning we are giving our power away from the start, telling our bodies that “you don’t matter” just do what you are told. Why do we simply assume that these people know best? Wisdom doesn’t necessarily come with age as we might expect, it comes from living a true life.
Great comment Tony – totally agree everything comes back to how we are living every day and if it is a true life or not.
There must be an honesty here though as people have a different view of what a true life is. A successful life for some is to be rich and famous, for others it is simply having enough food and water to survive. In most cases a persons view of success is something that they have to attain before they are successful, are we searching for something that we already have but just don’t know it?
This so great Kerstin. When I had my daughter I read every book to try to work out how to parent her and look after. There were so many conflicting messages and I tried them all to no avail. It was only when I was willing to ignore all books and start to trust that she & I might already know what she needed that things started to truly change and it became much easier. It took me a long time to realise that I needed to do the same thing in all area of my life, that somehow I might already know what was needed in each moment. Once I started to listen to myself and my body (looking within) then I truly began to live a life that was from me.
When I read your insightful and articulate blog and the ensuing comments, it is incredulous that Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have attracted these lies of being a cult. Here you have beautifully laid out that coming to hear what Serge has to say, has strengthened and reconnected you to your own inner-knowing and that you are ” learning to not obey blindly and am starting to question what is going on, around and inside” you. Now that does not sound like a cult leader to me? Your blog just blows those accusations out of the water. Thank you for sharing your experiences.
Beautiful article Kerstin
Listening to and following our inner heart for guidance and direction leads to a truthful, simple life as you say. I can also feel the beauty and simplicity of living a life impulsed by my inner heart rather than a life dictated by the rush and demands the of the outside world. Thank you.
This has been quite the theme for me today – the way we all learn to search for answers outside of ourselves, including the truth of who we are. Only today I was pondering on how as a small child I was always looking to how my parents, my teachers, and my peers at school expected me to be, and so for many years I became a chameleon, adjusting who I was to suit the expectations of society. I became, as the saying goes – a man for all occasions. Only whilst that made me very adaptable, it also meant that I had no foundation for determining who I truly was on the inside.
Yes, it is being dishonest with ourselves and not allowing us to be all who we really are, or being the same with every single person. I feel many are able to relate to this blog.
Thank you Adam – I now understand myself a lot more with what you have shared here – In playing the chameleon meant I had no foundation. This has unlocked something for me. Thank you.
Can absolutely relate to this Adam. I got lost on the labyrinth of mirrors endlessly reflecting back what I thought would ‘fit’ to each changing circumstance and person, only to lose myself, and so add to the turmoil and confusion of the world. A very intriguing movie experience for me from the was a Woody Allen movie about a famous ‘Chameleon’.
A great sharing Adam and I can very much relate to, being this way is by no means wrong from my eyes but it does not build a true foundation as you say and so we are always at the mercy of what others think of us. Universal Medicine has blown that out of the water by the simplicity of starting a relationship with yourself and build on that each and everyday, something I am continuing to work on.
You are not alone with this Adam, many can relate to what you have expressed here. I know I certainly can. I was just pondering on the very same thing and came to the conclusion that since a very small child I have been I very good actor playing all the parts that have been expected of me but with very little practice at being simply myself. My learning has been to re-acquaint myself in accordance to my own inner knowing.
What a wonderful blog and one that resonates deeply with me. I have listened for so long to others views and opinions that even when I do feel for myself, I at times don’t trust what I feel. The world bombards us with how we should be and live, that I’ve noticed that most aren’t living who they truly are, but another version of themselves of what they think they should or need to be to get by. Through the beautiful support of Universal Medicine I am learning to retrust my inner knowing so I can be myself in the world and not look out for the answers.
I can relate to so much of what you have written here in this blog. Looking outside ourselves for answers is exhausting, while living from re-connection to our inner knowing is a very beautiful way to live. Thank you Kerstin.
I’m finding that there is tension in my body when I override the wisdom of listening to my body. The body speaks loudly and the heart will always make a loving choice if we allow it.
A beautiful blog, thank you Kerstin. I can relate to it all, as I was the same as you in the giving away my power to others, by looking outside myself. I overrode what I felt was true for me, just to fit in with what the world expected me to be. Only since attending Universal Medicine courses and presentations have I begun to honour my body and true feelings once more. I feel my body really appreciates it when I actually listen to its deep wisdom and I’m beginning to trust myself again.
Kerstin there is much truth and wisdom in your blog, from such an early age we are encouraged to look outside of ourselves for the answer, this looking outside has been the plight of our society as we all chase the carrot to the detriment of our own health and wellbeing. The words that come to mind when I read your blog is ‘the kingdom of God is within you’. It is time to start to live from our inner knowing rather than what the outside world tells us.
There is nothing more precious or divine than connecting back to who we truly are and allowing ourselves to be impulsed from our own bodies – it is self love story that knows no bounds.
Yes, so true Jo. And without this we are forever seeking ‘the answers’, the ‘right’ way and for outer recognition to substitute our inner innate and absolute knowing.
I love this Jo, ” it is self love story that knows no bounds.” And all we have to do is connect back to who we truly are and pay heed to the messages our body is constantly giving us. Simple.
It feels that as children we are so in touch with our inner knowing and we know exactly what feels true and what does not. Then slowly we lose touch with it, while it is always there. We cover it up, we look outside of ourselves and we start living the other way around: from the outside out. Thanks to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon I have found my way back in living from the inside out. So natural and simple, and you know why? I have done it as a child and it has never left me.
Its a good point Mariette – living from how we feel and simply expressing that is innate to us all. Its something we all have some memory of as we have all been babies, unable to talk, but still very capable of feeling and communicating everything that is going on for us.
Trusting our inner knowing is the only way to move forward in life, in truth, we don’t have to ‘move’ anywhere because we are already there, inside. Your blog is a great reminder of this, thank you for your clear and precise sharing. It is a testament to our own power that if we choose to listen to our inner knowing, and not be slaves to the ‘outside’, how we can free ourselves and live in the flow of life instead of doing what we ‘think’ society wants us to do. I trusted my inner knowing when I found Universal Medicine, and the best decision I ever made was to go to a presentation by Serge Benhayon because I knew I had found the truth.
What you have said resonates with me Sandra. I agree that we need to trust our inner knowing as the only way to move forward in life.. As Kirsten said ‘The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world’ and that was the way it was for me until I met Serge Benhayon.
“In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.” So true and so rewarding. It has been such a blessing for me to have been shown this by Universal Medicine in a way that is practical and livable and not an intellectual theory.
Kerstin without the guidance of my inner knowing I lived a very damaging life, despite the fact that I thought that it was a rather enlightened way of living ! Our bodies can’t lie and the fact that my body just kind of ground to a halt was what I needed to wake up and see that I really had it all wrong. I now know that listening to our inner knowing leads us to a healthy and joyful way of being and will eventually lead us all the way home.
A beautiful comment to this beautiful blog, that you Alexis. So true – I have found that allowing our inner knowing to lead the way is both healthy and joyful.
A beautifully tender and powerful blog. Thank you Kerstin. This is something that will inspire for a long time to come.
So true Marika, “no-one knows my body better than me”. So then why would I spend most of my life listening to others and doing what they ‘think’ is best for me, rather than doing what I feel to do?! It is interesting to stop and ponder on that!
Thank you Kerstin for the powerful reminder of all that Serge Benhayon has awakened in me. Letting go of conforming to all the things I felt I ‘should’ do to fit in and listening instead to my inner knowing to be all that I am.
The most beautiful treasure in the world is the inner knowing and we all have it.
Not listening to our inner knowing is irresponsible. I have found that giving my power away made me vulnerable, weak and easily manipulated by outside forces. It caused me to lose myself, deeply harm my body and sense of self. I’ve now moved on, learned to trust my inner wisdom and no longer need the approval and acceptance of others.
Kehinde, years before I met Serge Benhayon I learned that not to listen to my inner knowing had undesirable consequences. I did my best to listen and act upon it. But here’s the rub: how do you ‘know’ if what you think is your ‘inner knowing’ is really your innermost knowing and is telling the truth or not? Well, it worked when I was younger. But in later adult life once those outside forces began to influence me, I’d sometimes think that I was listening to my inner knowing, but there would be undesirable consequences. Then I was stumped: if I’m paying attention and acting accordingly, how is it that things keep going wrong? It was when Serge Benhayon came along and explained the true nature of the innermost and the energetic underpinnings of conscious choices and cause and effect that it all began to make sense. Fine tuning my life has increased my ability to feel the difference between true impulses and false ones.
I agree Dianne it is not always easy to discern the true impulse from false ones and appreciate your sharing how ‘fine tuning’ your life supports you to feel the difference. It reminds me that nothing works in isolation: how we are moment by moment lays the foundation for all else. Thank you Dianne
This is such an important point you make diannetrussell, I too felt I was following my “inner knowing” when now after meeting Serge Benhayon and gaining a greater understanding of the play of energy and our part as a receptor I realised that I had previously been caught in an illusion. Nowadays I am learning to trust my connection to my “inner knowing” in a whole new way by staying as connected as possible with my body and paying heed to every message it is giving me.
‘Not in isolation’ – good reminder Kehinde. Sure we each have responsibility for the development of our awareness and how we conduct ourselves in the world. However we are not isolated beings, and we will feel ourselves to be part of the whole whether conscious of it or not. We will be affected, we will evolve, we will choose, in response to what all Humanity is doing and where it’s at, as well as in response to the ever-present feel of God within us.
Thanks Kerstin, it is through the teachings of Serge Benhayon I am now able to live in a way that truly honours me, how I feel and how I express me to the world, I no longer live my life pleasing others and looking for others to confirm who I am. The more I commit to this way of living the more access I have to that wisdom within me.
Thank you for sharing Kerstin, I have found the same. All my life I have had an inner knowing but have largely over-ridden it and instead chose to fit in with everybody around me, even if it meant doing things that have put my body under pressure and stress. I learned how to be able to please everybody but this created a lot of frustration for me, frustration because I could partly see what I was doing, yet was so caught up in it I could not stop it. The more I listen to my body and do what feels true to me and stop trying so much to please everybody around me, the more loving I am with everyone and the less tension and frustration I feel.
“By searching for the answers outside of this inner knowing, I opened myself up to being influenced by others’ decisions and gave my power away to what others thought was best for me.” I so know this one. I did it all the time, believing it was the ‘right’ thing to do. Discovering Universal Medicine and re-awakening my listening to what my body was telling me was a revelation; looking within rather than out for answers. A beautiful blog, thank you Kerstin. Great to read that you now honour your inner wisdom.
sueq2012 I agree with what you have shared and reading this blog a second time I could feel how simple life would be if we listened to what we truly felt inside rather than search for answers outside.
Through reading your blog, Kerstin, I realized, that I was always in resistance with expectations coming from the outside, from school or society,and I just used the being in contrast as another form of keeping me in line and giving my power away. It was a constant battle, creating complications and tension in relationships and I still am – as you so humorous have written – changing habits into “better habits”. But to listen more and more to my body and inner knowing is the beautiful experience of re-awakening, what I already am. Here is the width and stillness and love, I always tried to find through escaping rules or systems : ).
I can relate to this Kerstin, ‘I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it.’ It is only in the last five years that I have started listening to how my body feels, I used to think it was funny to feel exhausted and to have aching muscles from pushing my body in sports, now I listen much more and take much more care of it.
I have really enjoyed this blog Kerstin, thank you. I too can say “I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it.” But through Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I am re-learning to do this and it does make a huge difference when I do.
And Wow Michelle what a HUGE difference it makes!
Kerstin you have explained so clearly what happens when we don’t listen to our inner knowing and get caught up in looking for answers, solutions and quick fixes anything outside of us rather than feeling from our bodies and listening to our inner knowing. It is so true every where we look there is someone telling what to do or how we should be that we quite often don’t give it a second thought. It is so ingrained in us to do what others tell us to do, that for me it is an on-going daily practice to keep coming back to listening to what I am really feeling and not what I think would be best, dutiful or ‘right’.
alisonmoir, I can relate to what you share. I have always been a person who looked to others to tell me what to do and fallen into the trap of wanting to being dutiful and to do the right thing… even if it meant that it wasn’t true, or right for me to do. I have been a people pleaser at the expense of myself.
Hello Kerstin, your blog is written with such clarity, it is like the sun streaming in through an open window. Connecting to my inner self is very much work-in-progress at the moment, but I shall re-read your blog several times and use it as a point of reference.
Many Thanks for sharing it.
In some areas of life it feels extremely easy to listen to my inner truth and follow through. What I have noticed is that there are particular areas of life that I have not consulted my inner knowing on and instead have abdicated my power and authority of knowing what is true for me to the many outer constructs of society. How to be with people, what is polite, friendly, how much you can love and adore yourself, what will or won’t ruffle people’s feathers. It’s crazy!! Because we are all doing the same thing, living to these invisible rules that no one truly benefits from.
It is crazy Rebecca, and yes they are invisible rules and yet once we break them there can sometimes be a wave of shock from others as the game has been changed. But let’s face it the game desperately needs changing and who better to do it than me as I can only ever change me.
And that changes the game. .
Thank you Kerstin, this is something that Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon have deeply inspired in me as well. To not just accept everything as the truth because it is how the world is doing it mostly at the moment. To feel in myself if it feels true to me and learning to listen to that is absolutely amazing and very empowering.
I have found the same Lieke, that Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have shown me that just because the world is the way it is and people are doing what they are doing does not mean that it is loving or our natural way of being. Through connecting more deeply with myself and my body, I can feel what feels true to my body and what feels like an instruct which opposes its natural loving rhythm. The more I say Yes to what my body feels to be true, the clearer my thoughts become and the clearer my feelings are. I now have a much deeper understanding about life.
For as long as I can remember, I have always given my power away simply because I was disconnected from my body… checked-out… thus I had no relationship with myself or connection with the wisdom inside. With a new commitment to developing and now deeping a connection with my body, I no longer give my power away, for I now know that everything I need is inside me.
A great reminder to listen to your inner voice that is, indeed, “inner knowing”.
Yes, Kerstin, it’s as though our bodies become more familiar with the awful feeling of overriding the terrible feelings that come from succumbing to that which others want us to do and hence it feels “normal” whereas to truly feel what is best for our body and follow through with that feels “strange”. Another definition of crazy? And your blog presents that there is another way. Thank you.
Through my meeting with Serge Benhayon and the courses presented at Universal Medicine, I have also learnt to listen to the inner part of me that has all the answers. Sometimes my mind kicks in and tells me it should be another way, but when I stop, become still, feel and listen, the answers are always there. I feel so much more power and love within myself from choosing to listen to me, rather than looking to others for confirmation or answers.
This is the way forward for all of us Kerstin Salzer, live from our inner-most instead of following the outside rules of life.
I still catch myself looking to the outside world for answers, yet I know that living from my inner heart is the only answer. Thank you for the great reminder Kerstin.
Thank you Kerstin for expressing your understanding and experience. It is such an amazing experience taking responsibility for my life and living in the Simplicity it offers me. The more Love I choose, the more love l share with others and it is growing. Making this choice does not mean I am doing less, on the contrary I am able to do more, the difference ls the quality of me I am bringing to everything. I am more open, nurturing, honest and truthful. Slowly l am shaking off the outside forces and closing the door on disregard. Thanks to the Ancient Wisdom Teachings, Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
Kerstin, such a powerful account of the difference between listening to the outside influence’s – ideals and beliefs or going within, connecting to your inner heart, where innate true wisdom lies. It comes down to a choice, to connect to truth or not.
I agree Kerstin. In many simple ways we know – energetically and temporally and it is enormously helpful to know when we know and when others are supporting us with their knowing. That is a real lifeskill.
Thank you Kerstin for your truly heartfelt blog. I can sure get into strife if I sway too far from my centre of knowing, giving my power away usually to get a need fulfilled. Yes, what is inside us is truly precious and definitely deserves our deep attention :).
Yes! Yes ! Yes! I love what you are sharing Kerstin. When we do not acknowledge the wisdom and the truth that we know ourselves to be, then how quickly all that is not-true rushes in to invade the space that we have left empty, leaving us ‘confused’, ‘disorientated’ and ‘powerless’. In my experience it is a total ambush, a hijacking of our true selves that we are entirely responsible for by not living the enormity we actually are. This is then reinforced by a world we have ‘set up’ to reflect everything that we ARE NOT and the absolute illusion we fall under when we sense the disparity of ‘what we know’ versus ‘what we see’ by letting ourselves believe that it is us that have got it wrong on the inside when in fact, it is the outside world that we have created wherein the true falsity lies. Fortunately this is easily corrected by choosing to live from the inside-out as you have so perfectly described. Connect to our essence (love) and express from that point. The power of love is that it is able to transform all that is not love, simply by being lived. Therefore, our remedy for the ‘mess of the world’ is to choose to live the love that we ALREADY are – it doesn’t get more simple than that.
Your insight that disregarding yourself caused frustration, disharmony and anxiousness in you, spoke very clearly to me, Kerstin. How I can relate to this! I too am learning to allow my inner knowing and wisdom to surface from the depths it has been relegated to! Thank you for your inspiration.
With everything that we have been influenced by and taught from the outside, it can be difficult at first to let go of this way of living and to connect back to trusting that inner knowing. How amazing it is when we start to again to listen to that inner voice which is always there to let us know the truth in all things. When I first started listening to what Serge Benhayon was presenting, that inner voice was there saying yes, because what Serge was saying resonated so deeply within me to what I already knew in my innermost being to be true.
Kerstin, I really enjoyed reading your blog – there were several times that I related to your words, and for myself some instances quite recently including the fact that I had/have while aboard ship, only access to the internet at certain times for a certain number of minutes, dependant on satellite connection, people, availability etc. and discovered that I was allowing myself to become quite frustrated at the inability of my being in control of this situation – I felt I was giving my power away to the frustration. On being aware of your stillness in your unfolding article it assisted me to discover that I too was being asked to just be, and allow that stillness to provide the perfect timing and opportunity to make that connection with other people. I know we are always held in the divine energy of all things, and am learning to trust that once again.
Great blog Kerstin, thank you. Reading it, reminds me of how self care is the bridge back to our body, and from here, I discovered that the body has an exquisite intelligence that before I attended any Universal Medicine presentations, I too would have overridden. Coming back to the body, feeling its presence, which I discovered is a body that just simply knows love, given a moment to reconnect to it, it teaches me back.
Kerstin so wonderfully expressed. By looking within and listening to our inner hearts this allows us to truly know what is right for us. That is a powerful tool to have.
I agree Kelly, not only is it a powerful tool but it is a real game changer.
Thanks Kirsten. A superb blog to remind us of the beauty that lives within. Outer influences are a constant in this life, they are forever knocking. Once we realise that there is another way or at very least another option, that being how we feel, it is a game changer. When we introduce this, something quite lovely occurs and that is, does what is being presented resonate with a vibration on the inside. Getting use to this feeling is the learning… Listening to the impulses or be swayed by outer influence.
“Simple Choice” to trust our innate expression is the bridge to reclaiming our True Power, Glory and Love. From there we can bring the all to all.
I love this blog as I have often doubted myself even though deep down inside I have know the answer and the truth. Thanks Kerstin for confirming the importance of connecting to this and the work of Universal Medicine in supporting us back to its origins within us all.
What you raise, Kerstin, is very important. If we were to try to read and absorb as much human knowledge as possible from books and internet to help us manage life situations, we would need the most incredible memory of all time just to hold it, let alone have it with us ready to use every moment! And on top of that, the details keep changing so what was ‘right’ yesterday is now ‘wrong’ today. And it keeps growing, faster than anyone could take in if they never slept and did nothing else but read. This therefore cannot be the way we are meant to be. It cannot be the way God means us to be. As you express so beautifully, paying attention to that deep inner knowing, and expressing what you are feeling, replaces that overload of outside confusion with simple truth and harmony from the source within.
Good point Dianne that we now have an overload of far more knowledge than we can ever digest but by trusting our deep inner knowing we have no need to be swayed by whatever the current thinking is on the topic of the day because we have access to the truth of what is right for us.
I’ve heard senior scientists groaning that no matter how fast they develop systems to try to keep up with the rate of increase of scientific knowledge, they just get further and further behind. With the advent of computer technology it became difficult for one scientist to keep up with the whole of science; then it became difficult to keep up in your own subject; then your own micro-specialty burgeoned out of control….so we hired extra staff and built computerized systems to keep up, and they could not…. To me this points out the insanity of placing our emphasis on factual knowledge instead of inner knowing. Especially when we have the best computers that will ever be invented – our own bodies!
What a great picture you just painted with your comment Dianne. This would make a great children’s story book which would be a great read for adults as well, as all great children’s book are. It says it all with a sense of humour bringing all back to a simple truth..
You are describing that exhausting feeling I get of trying to keep up with all of the everything that is going on and all too soon I tire, and give up. Yet the answers are already there for us, inside, just waiting for us to slow down enough to listen!
Thank you, Kerstin. I share the exact sentiment you share here. Even though, I was appearing to be ‘free’ and doing ‘whatever I want’, the feeling of not knowing what to do dominated my life for so long – about my job, where to live, what food to order, which cloths to wear – I was an accidental tourist of my life. Now, I am choosing to re-connect and trust the love that I am and the truth that I hold, and this ever-unfolding process keeps confirms itself. Like you, I feel so blessed to have found Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine in this life time.
All of this strikes a very deep chord with me Kerstin. You have beautifully articulated a truth that I know to the core in my body but fluctuate in my adherence to it. We are blessed to have the tools and teachings of Serge Benhayon to aid us in returning to and living from that truth.
Hear hear, Rob. Like you and Kerstin, I couldn’t have done this off my own bat. I was far too disconnected and unquestioning to do so!
A beautiful blog that confirms for me that our truth, our way lies within and bringing this out and living it is the true way to be. It’s amazing that we come to learn in life to honour everything outside of ourselves (placing outside views, opinions and perspectives) above our own inner knowing that has been with us since the day we were born.
This is great Kirsten, you raise the essential importance of learning to trust oneself and develop this into great sight where we live life knowing and feeling, and utilising what everyday life has to offer with a more open, as opposed compliant way of being that is completely restrictive.
Beautiful Kerstin. I have found that my inner knowing is gentle and has a loving authority, extremely different from the incessant doubt and neediness when looking outside of my self. I can relate to the old pattern of stepping back and handing over decisions to others and then resenting it or looking out side for what I ‘need’. I am starting to see more and more with the support of Universal Medicine teachings, these ingrained patterns and returning to what I already know.
Thats a great point Aimee that the inner knowing has a very different quality to the anxiousness, doubt, neediness that we have when we are looking outside of ourselves for confirmation. It makes so much sense the more we build that inner connection the less we doubt and need anything to feel how awesome we are.
Me too Aimee, I love feeling the ingrain patterns of incessant doubt and neediness dissipate as my inner knowing steps in more and more to take the reins.
Beautiful sharing Kirsten. It traces so clearly how we all got lost in the labyrinth of thinking someone else knows better, of imagining that all the answers lie outside of us, and that gathering knowledge is power. And with the explosion of ‘knowledge’ at our fingertips on the Internet, it could be even more tempting to use that as our ‘go to’. What you have presented about re-connecting with the inner heart and its wisdom is pure truth. There is no confusion in the inner-heart, but instead a depth of understanding and love that brings each of us back to our true authority – then from that place we can listen to the offerings of others if need be.
So true Lyndy, there is so much that pulls us away from our inner knowing if we have not been shown how to truly treasure and take council from our inner wisdom. The confusion only arises when we know the truth inside but chose instead to look to the external for verification. It is beautiful how Kerstin has come to know and appreciate the truth within herself, a true re-claiming of a beautiful soul.
I love your comment Lyndy ‘It traces so clearly how we all got lost in the labyrinth of thinking someone else knows better, of imagining that all the answers lie outside of us, and that gathering knowledge is power’. Kerstin’s article has beautifully expressed how connecting to our inner hearts, gives us all the wisdom we will ever need and then to be able to share it with others. A truly inspirational blog.
‘In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am’. Beautiful, and by so doing, you are choosing love, to express from love, to live that love, to share all of you with everyone and to inspire others to do the same.
It is interesting that I have learned more about life, health, responsibility, energy, God, my own essence, and loads more since I met Serge Benhayon – however I have never been so honoured and met with such equality. I have never been given any information as fact that I needed to believe but offered it as a possibility and have been prompted at every step to look within me, trust and honour what is at my inner most, connect to the awareness from within and fully express from that place. And I too have found that “in truth our inner knowing is always inside us”.
Great blog Kerstin! I too have gained so much more awareness since coming to Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon’s presentations… I’m deeply appreciative of this awareness as life makes so much more sense now, and no longer do I feel like I am at the whim or mercy of another, or that things just ‘happen’ to me – but that I have choices and my understanding of life is deeper. My anxiety is less and life is more full of joy!
Wow powerful written Kerstin! What a beautiful blog to start the day with, thank you. What resonated strongly was ” I felt scared to acknowledge this deep inner knowing and wisdom”. As it brings back to us the power we have and the responsibility to live with.
Being aware of my body and how it is feeling helps me stay connected with my inner knowing or wisdom. I still appreciate reading and learning about things but now don’t just accept something because it sounds good in words or knowledge but see how it correlates with my intuition.
That is a good point fiona55 that I had not stopped to consider. In the past I would just read something and take that as truth. What I find these days is that I can read something and my body can feel amazing and open, or I can read something else and its like my body gets tighter or smaller and if I listen to what my body is telling me, I realise in that moment that there is something that just does not feel right to me in whatever that is that I am reading. Awareness is the key and then trusting what you body is telling you makes it easier and easier to know what truth is.
Beautifully said, Fiona55, I can feel your lived experience and the development of trust in yourself, through the depth of connection to your body.
Kerstin, what an absolutely delightful blog. And thank you – you helped so much with understanding for me about another level of how frustration can creep in – I know in me how to live from me, more now than ever before, but I don’t always follow that, and I’m learning more that my body pulls me back and shows me the impact. And right now that feels a gift to be shown this.
I appreciate the clarity that you bring to common everyday dilemmas and quandaries by way of listening to your inner wisdom and I love what Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have brought to you and all of us.
Thank you Kirsten. It is so true that the world does not make it easy for us to access the place within where all the answes lie and in simplicity. There are many who have chosen to abide by a safer option albeit more complicated. But Truth is always with us, everyone of us equally, and your response to live from the place of Truth amongst all the pressures and ideals of the world is so inspiring, it inspires us that the power within is always there when we choose to express it.
Kirstin, you are right society is continually trying to push and pull us in every direction away from our true self. It is a powerful thing to say enough and reclaim what is true for you. For me the inner knowing was not strong but I have developed it by acknowledging what I do really feel, and acting on it.
Hello Kirsten and thank you for the blog. ‘Giving your power away’, ‘not being in your authority’ and ‘not listening to your inner knowing’ etc are all points that you are vertically doing what someone else is telling you to do in place of what you feel and know to do for yourself. We all have that knowing, you can’t escape that. We can hide in the world and allow it to ‘live’ us or we can make a stand, appreciate all that we do know and make the next step from there.
This sounds like a solid plan Raymond… can I follow you.?… only kidding. I agree it is making one step at a time from our own inner knowing that is going to make all the difference in the world.
Thank you, Kerstin, your blog is like a soothing balm, so clear and simple and true. Every day I remind myself to listen intently to what my body is telling me, and it is a practise that I am looking to take even deeper as it supports me more than anything.
I love this comment Janet, a practise that you are looking to take deeper as it supports you more than anything. When I am connecting to my inner knowing, everything flows, and when I am not, the tension and sadness that results can be unbearable. Best to connect to that place inside of us.
If everyone in the world came to the truth that they have all the answers within, the self-help isle in the book store would disappear and so would the spiritual new age section. We really need to start seeing things as energy first, and re-connect to our true inner-knowing rather than allowing life to dictate to us, yet this is how many currently do live.
I gave away my inner knowing at a fairly young age too. It is only through the teachings of Universal Medicine that I have rediscovered the inner knowing that was always there. It creates such simple joy in my life, to listen to an impulse or feeling and follow it through and feel the effects in my body and then the ripple effects into my life. It is slowly taking away the arrogance of my mind thinking it knows best, as I find when I listen within, it brings a sense of ease, flow and lightness.
I find when I give my power away to others, life and my decisions becomes confusing and complicated. When I trust and know what is needed and act from there, life becomes simple and flows. The difference is a world apart.
Beautiful susanG and so true, I relate well to your comment.
I agree SusanG and what I find is that when I listen to my self, the answers are always right there and simple.
So true SusanG. When confusion and complication come into play I now know I have given my power away.
Agreed Susan. When I am giving my power away I feel like I’m in a fog. When I trust and feel the wisdom of my body, the fog clears.
I agree Susan, the more I build my trust in myself and my inner knowing, the more I listen to it.
A truly wonderful reminder to start the day. To ‘swim and not get wet’ also encompasses this blog, or vice versa, as to be in the world there are many influences that can alter our path if we’re not dialled into ourselves.
Awesome Kerstin. I too am deeply grateful and blessed to have been introduced to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. It is empowering to learn that we are responsible for our own choices, it is about returning to who we are and reconnecting to our inner knowing. Learning and trusting that we hold all the answers within, we no longer have to searching outside of ourselves to find who we are. The amazing reminder is that we are not separate individuals but all connected as one and that life is never really about me but everyone together. There is so much more to rediscover.
What you share is so true, Kirsten. I have also been re-connecting to my inner heart and learning to trust what I feel in my body. However, I have noticed recently that I still have this need to adhere to ‘rules’, a fear of getting in trouble, of upsetting someone. When I dishonour what I feel inside it is never beneficial for anyone. I love what you wrote: “our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity”, thank you.
This is beautiful Kirsten, I really love this line – “I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to”. I too used to look outside of me for the answers, feeling in fact that my ‘gut feel’ could not be trusted – or that it was foolish to make decisions based on this. But now I too feel just how lovely my inner knowing is – it is so very supportive.
Thanks Kerstin, I particularly like “I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”. This remains very much a work in progress for me but like you I have learned with the teachings of Serge Benhayon that this is able to be lived, I’m learning the respect and responsibility that I can have with myself as opposed to conforming to the outer world, driving decisions that are simply not part of me anymore.
The ‘simple choice’ or choice to connect as you say “…takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.” Simplicity is a quality that I can relate to, my life has become more simple, as in the confusion has lessened greatly, as I have reconnected with my inner essence, or inner heart.
So true Kerstin, no amount of looking outside of ourselves can ever truly fill us. I spent many years on this road and it is never ending. It truly is such a joy to have stopped searching and re-connected through the body to the wisdom and inner knowing that is always there within me… and all of us equally. This is the place where we can all meet, in our essence, which is Love.
Thank you Kerstin, listening to our inner knowing is absolutely the key to feeling connected and returning to what we know to be our truth in any moment. I can see how our ability to truly honour and nurture ourselves in the moment comes with this initial step of connection within.
Thank you Kerstin, for presenting all the outer influences that deter us away from trusting and listening to our inner knowing. In regards to the “Internet where we can look up what to do in certain situations”, I wanted to mention that you can now even search “how to…” which by providing all the answers, doesn’t ask us to feel for ourselves, or trust our way, first and foremost.
It is funny, I grew up often hearing ‘the kingdom of God is within you’ and not to look out, to ‘see here’ or ‘see there’ … yet there was nothing about my education or the world around me that showed me anyone knew what this meant, even the priest and school religion classes were very happy to say these words, but that didn’t help.
So as I got older and into my teenage years I started to ‘See here’ and ‘See there’ – looking everywhere for answers to life, anywhere but within that is! I continued this into my late twenties until I met Serge Benhayon and he made some sense of what these words truly meant. By this age I had grown accustomed to, in fact I was entrenched in looking outside of myself, I was calculating all of my decisions from my head, thinking how clever I was and that within my head and my thoughts lay all the solutions to my problems. I just had to focus and think through every thought…. right?
Wrong! I could say through the Grace of God, Serge Benhayon’s teachings and healing therapies re-connected me to my body and listening to it, what it is to have clear feelings (clairsentience), and to trust myself despite every belief and thought I held about myself that I for one did not ‘know’ and could not be trusted. Through the teachings of Serge Benhayon I am today supported by these healing therapies, and most practical – I am bringing tenderness to my everyday activity, these are just a few ways I am rebuilding trust in myself and gradually I am more likely to go within and feel rather than to look outside of me or over-rely on my thoughts.
‘I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention’
Thank You Kirstin. This blog is powerful and I am inspired every day by the work of Serge Benhayon also. 🙂
Kirsten, thank you for that insight. I don’t think we are ever told how to honour what we feel over what we are told. To build a relationship with our inner wisdom. It is so strange to realise our education both at school and through our religion has predominantly been about what we do, not who we are, and to find ourselves re-learning those skills later in life.
I have found the same Lucy, we are not “ever told how to honour what we feel over what we are told:. We are taught to obey, to listen to our elders and those who know best, we are boxed like sheep – we are not honoured for the beauty we each bring individually and then together as a whole. At work it is about what we do, we are measured on our output – so long as that is good then it matters not if we are exhausted, frustrated and depressed, so long as we are doing a good job! Crazy really!
That is a journey that I can relate to. I have had those moments as well where I will waver between different people hearing what they have to say and believing what ‘sounds good’ or believing what others want me to believe and not ever having a sense of what I felt about things. It’s now a huge part of my focus to feel what I feel about things and it’s awesome.
Lovely, Kerstin. It’s a wonderful feeling not having to look to something or somebody for confirmation about stuff we already know and are better equipped to make decisions about. Roll on and let the love and connection get even stronger.
‘I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention’. This is beautiful and so deeply honouring, thank you Kerstin.
Thank you Kerstin for sharing your blog. I agree we have it all; we are the all; and all we have to do is confirm that consistently in every moment.
This is very beautiful Kerstin, the world is full of influences we are so accustomed to follow and give our energy to, so I feel it is very amazing to stay with ourself and follow our own true course.
I can relate to this Kerstin. I have always wanted people to make the choices for me rather than me listening to what I know my body is telling me and go from there.
Thank you Kerstin. It takes commitment and dedication to ourselves to go from living by outside ideals, beliefs and ‘rules’ to making the switch to connecting to ourselves and listening to our inner wisdom.
I have been blessed to have met Serge Benhayon. Before I met him I would look outside of myself for guidance on how to eat, live and made the majority of my choices from my thoughts. I have also found when I make choices based on giving more credence to my thoughts than space to listen and feel my body and my inner sense the result is never harmonious- in my body or my outer life. The difference these days is I am far more aware of what I want to choose from a feeling within but still hold a plenitude of ideals and I can also let these override. The two ways of making choices create a tension inside of me that is not especially pleasant but I would not have it any other way as gradually I am allowing space to make more and more decisions from my body and inner feelings. This to me is essentially what Serge Benhayon means by esoteric and living by our inner most, or at least for now this is my understanding. I can emphatically testify Serge Benhayon does not and logistically cannot make all of my life decisions for me, even if he offered a comprehensive rule book which he does not, there is a fat chance I would have the discipline to live by it. Serge Benhayon has very patiently over many years inspired and encouraged me and others to listen to our own bodies and inner feelings to arrive at our own decisions.
Thank you for sharing this, it makes me appreciate how I do listen to my inner knowing these days, and like you it took a while to be able to even hear or be aware of my inner knowing as I had blocked it out, ignored it and even told it to be quiet and instead, I listened to everything that I was told and what in many way was imposed, pushed and expected of me.
My inner knowing is much wiser and knows all the answers for me, way beyond anything outside of me and it is a constant choice for me to make because it is always easy to get sidetracked or influenced by how the outside world wants to shape me and to follow along like a blind sheep and just give my power away.
I was just writing somewhere else before reading this post and this is exactly what I was reflecting upon too. I can see Kerstin that, although you live across the world from me, and I don’t know you, we are connected to each other; as we are both feeling to express the same thing on this subject – maybe there are powers at play bigger than both of us!
“In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.”
Kirstin, so simply and beauty fully expressed, but so
POWERFULL.
This was perfect for me to read this morning as I to have been more aware of the following points –
I am learning to not obey blindly.
I am starting to question what is going on, around and inside me.
I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.
I am expressing my truth and what I am feeling.
Thank you for expressing this the way in which you have.
This is great, great speaking. The thing that struck me most was the revelation : “I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”.
I love this, it feels so true. I have been putting so much pressure on myself in my life that was so much focussing on putting attention outside of me and wanting attention around me to feel me.. So the opposite of what you share. I love your sharing because it is so true we are here to love ourselves and to honor that inner wisdom within us and give that our full attention.. So well said. Thank you.
I feel very inspired by this Kerstin. Thank you! We all have an innate inner knowing and after lifetimes of separation from this, I feel that I am becoming reacquainted with my essence once again. To live from ones essence is such a different way to live life – for me everything is done with such gracefulness when I’m connected to that deep inner-knowing. I feel fuller, more confident, tall and I certainly eat less!
This wonderful blog breaks apart the belief that I, and so many others have had, that all the answers can be found outside of us. I spent such a great part of my life in this outer search, so often putting others suggestions above mine and wondering why many of those decisions didn’t have the outcome that I had expected. Now I can see that as those decisions were made from an outer influence, the results didn’t fit into what I had expected as they were contrary to what I knew deep inside. They were someone else’s truth, not mine. Like you Kerstin, I now know that I have all the wisdom that I will need to make any decision, I simply need to stop, feel, listen and trust that wise and ever ready, inner knowing.
It is true in my experience that my body is constantly communicating and it doesn’t lie. It has been a real blessing to learn to listen to it and start to live in communion with it rather than dismiss it as something second class and at times inconvenient. I feel so much more ‘me’ as a result.
“I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”. Thank you Kerstin for this beautiful reminder, I am finding that the more I acknowledge this the more I can trust it and the simpler life becomes.
It is like we have been slowly slowly weaned into depending on all we hear around us to the extent we think we know no better ourselves when it could not be more loud and clear what our inner-essence is forever communicating to us. All we have to do is listen.
Such a beautiful blog Kerstin and your messages is very relevant to me right now. There are so many conflicting messages and opinions out there telling us how to be and how to do things in life that it can seem confusing and hard to discern the truth unless we connect to our inner knowing which always presents the truth very simply and then it becomes easy with much less tension involved!
One has to question what type of society are we creating lives that are existing without true refection? “Not once did it occur to me that I had all the information I ever needed”,
We are living with such contradicting messages playing out in our bodies.
“I also recognise that although there was a deep knowing in me of what is true, I was not able to follow it”. By taking on so many things from the outside things have become so convoluted it is hard to know how to begin.
It was quite a shock when I truly looked at how often I make a decision that is 100% just about me, what supports me, what is right for me and my body at that time. Most of the time the decision is about what other people want, what I think I should do, to be liked, appreciated, loved, praised, etc…There are so many other reasons I’m making choices, from every day what to eat, when to eat, to how to be in relationships or at work, but not with the first intention of checking what feels right for me.
Now that I have noticed it, I am working on being aware of it as much as possible, and am feeling the awkwardness of making a choice that is just about me, although it feels true, I’m still looking how everyone else is going to take it, but I can see how important it is for me to do so, as the effects of making choices for any other reason were leaving me constantly needing something back, exhausted, resentful and angry. When I’m being loving and supportive to myself, that is what I can reflect and offer others.
I can relate to the awkwardness about making a choice about me Laura, but what I have found is that when I am listening to my body whilst the choice may seem to be about me, it actually encompasses everybody else, so never is it asking me to do something which makes another less, or puts another out, rather it embraces me, life and humanity all at the same, quite magical really how it takes everybody and everything into consideration.
Thank you Kerstin this is so beautifully expressed and these words ‘making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am’ are an amazing support in recognising that we always have the choice to reconnect rather than look outside of ourselves for answers. Much appreciated – just what I needed to read today.
We spend so much time looking outside for answers and there are too many people who are all too willing to give you that advice. One of the things I love about Serge Benhayon and what he presents is that it comes from what he actually lives, not an unrealistic ideal, and that he says that we all have a knowing and understanding within and to trust this. Thank you for sharing this Kerstin.
Beautiful, thank you Kirstin. Living from our inner wisdom and true authority . .. the only way forth.
Kerstin I have had a similar experience with Universal Medicine. I have started to really listen to my inner knowing and trust it above all else. This is helping me build a very close, personal relationship with myself that is built on trust. Trusting myself to know what to do at every turn. Very empowering, life changing in fact.
Learning to trust my inner wisdom is still a work in process but a lovely one, all part of my deepening in am intimate relationship with myself. Looking outside myself for answers has been an ingrained and ultimately unsatisfying habit, albeit a comfortable one. Yes, Kerstin learning to stay with myself, back myself and not give my power away makes life simple and unifies me with others. Thank you for the blog.
Kirsten, feeling the stillness and claiming in you article was a delight. How so very true are your words, that we give our power away to the outside world and how this can be so very frustrating, causing us to live in a way that in no way reflects how we feel to live from inside ourselves. That we disregard the simpleness and openess of living from our deepest feeling. Such an absolute lie is any thing that has come from outside of us. To feel the delicate divineness that vibrates from deep within is so supportive, and is the one thing that brings me back when I have let the outside world influence me in any way.
A great sharing Leigh and an important way forward.
What a profoundly beautiful blog, Kerstin. Your words – that it is indeed possible to not live in the confusion of what to do, based on the enormity of influences and forces from outside of ourselves that ‘tell us’ what to do and how we ‘should’ be… and bring forth “the power of love that I am” – touch such a deep place inside. A place that knows the same truth that you do, and that surely lives in the heart of us all.
The work of Serge Benhayon has been an enormous catalyst for so many now to re-find this depth of knowing within. And with the power and grace of our love, we walk our steps forward. No perfection (an ‘outer influence’) required, just a steadfastness that can only deepen in time, once we have refound the power of our love.
Wow thank you Kerstin and Victoria, what a blessing to know both you and Serge Benhayon. Our inner-heart has felt our forays into all things erroneous, that completely drive us to distraction away from “the power of love that I am.”
I too lived my life according to what I read, was told, taught, what was the norm and accepted. Although I rebelled in my teenage years and thought I was making my own choices and knew what was right for me. It was a reaction to life from my head and from my hurts, not my inner knowing. I never felt into my body or connected to my inner heart to feel what was really my truth. Until I met Serge Benhayon and started to learn to feel again energy, my body, my inner heart, inner knowing. From there I now make different more loving choices and my life has changed miraculously.
My inner knowing tells me this blog is gold. Thank you for sharing your true wisdom and beauty with us all Kerstin.
Growing up I too questioned is this really how its meant to be? So much so that I left home at 15 vowing that this really was not how I wanted to live, but instead I too got caught in a cycle of complete disregard for myself and my body because I just could not accept the world the way was. When you write “I am learning to not obey blindly” this really got me to stop for a moment feel how we just push down how we feel, blindly because perhaps we just don’t want to feel the truth of what we feel and that perhaps we are being fed the idea that we cannot express how we feel in case we get in to trouble, this way of thinking holds me back in so many ways and am now learning more and more that simplicity and reconnection to our inner knowing is key.
Thank you Kirstin for sharing and bringing such wonderful clarity and wisdom..
Beautiful sharing Lucia, I to am continually reminded that “…simplicity and reconnection to our inner knowing is key”.
Looking outside of ourselves comes so easily when it has been repeated so many times in our lives and is reinforced by parents, teachers, the education system, work, friends, media and advertising – indeed so many facets of our life. As a result it seems dreadfully difficult to make a different choice– to choose to connect within and listen to your body and your inner knowing. But once you move past the initial discomfort and get a taste of the immense richness and freedom that can be lived, there is no going back.
Totally agree Hannah! I was just thinking the same thing. It is so much easier to have others dictate how we should be and what we should do, so little to be responsible for, and then so very hard to break out of that mould. But the grass is super lush on the otherside of all that, once we choose to be responsible for our choices and make them from a place that feels right.
Yes Elodie, it may seem “easier” to be dictated to by others but if we’re honest it feels pretty terrible to not be responsible for our choices.
Exactly Hannah! There is so much pressure from outside telling us how we should be, what we should do, how we are to behave etc… When we consider that most of what we naturally felt what was true as young children, it begs to question, what is it that we allow into our bodies that takes us away from this natural clairsentience and inner knowing, and what is it that we allow to override what we feel in our bodies (which we are feeling regardless of whether or not we are consciously aware)? And could it be that there is a bigger picture for us all to consider here, in terms of addressing where this energy to ‘not’ be ourselves comes from…
Beautiful Angela, thanks for taking it deeper – it is definitely worth considering the bigger picture, “in terms of addressing where this energy to ‘not’ be ourselves comes from.
Kerstin, this is a blog that strikes a chord in it’s depth and simplicity as Gill has expressed. For me it is the way in which you share about developing an understanding our yourself with so much love. This is a profound piece straight from truth. Thank you deeply.
Kerstin, a lovely sharing, and I love the line “In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity”. As you say, it is so simple once we realise this, we no longer have to look for anything outside ourselves. The truth is always there within us. This takes all the stress out of the decisions to be made, no longer bombarded by all the various stances that are taken in all the areas we used to go to for ideas on what to do to solve various issues and problems, such as books, articles and other people.
Thank you Kerstin for the beautiful conformation that our inner knowing is where we should seek ‘counsel’ from first. To look any where else that is ‘out side’ of us will always leave us in a ‘lessor’ state of dis-empowerment.
One of the most beautiful things that have occurred for me since attending presentations by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine is that I have learned to be more and more myself, listening to my body and acting on what my body is telling me. I have found this to be the best way to stop giving my power away to others and to outside influences. It has been a real joy to re-connect to my own wisdom and to be able to rely on it.
That’s happened for me too Elizabeth; since attending and learning from the workshops/presentations I know how amazing it feels to actually listen to what my body tells me and act on it.
Our hearts and our bodies do indeed hold a lot of wisdom, because when we are truly with our body in its natural state, it is mind boggling but it knows what to do. and the full expression of that which we have in our bodies, makes for a very sustaining way of living. I also find it such a great point that we get taken out of that knowing feeling in our body when we pander to the demands of what is outside of us, but without the connection to our bodies. thats what makes us tired and unwell/ and wears out our body very fast.
Very true Kerstin, you have beautifully shared with us, how we allow all the outside influences to complicate our lives, while our inner wisdom is always there available to us, If we choose to connect with it. Our inner wisdom holds the key to a simplier and more enriching life. Something for me to be aware of on a daily basis.
It seems like such a foreign suggestion to say “listen to your body and let it guide you in choices to really care for yourself.” The self help, get fit, get love, be rich industry is overflowing with so many people telling us how to live a so called successful life, and yet for me anyway, none of it worked. Until Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine offered the simple truth of listen to your body. Since then everything has changed, and what a magnificent change it has been and continues to be.
I agree Heather, and much of what is presented in the world brings up much recognition and comparison. Watching how others live life and feeling not good enough if you are not experiencing the same success, a vicious circus that never lets up and just keeps you chasing your own tail with no prevail.
What Kerstin is presenting here is profound and a way forward to actually dealing with deep issues that we can easily hide or override if we remain in the former example.
Exactly Heather, who would have thought something so simple would provide such a profound, magnificent change?
I was also inspired by Universal Medicine to see a way of living where choices are made from my feelings within and not from looking around at others. It’s taken time to break the pattern of looking outside myself and often I have wanted Universal Medicin or Serge Benhayon or even my husband to tell me what to do, but they never did or would because it’s against everything that the esoteric stands for.
Kerstin I love this line “I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”. I too can feel the same for myself, even though I have some sadness here for ignoring this part of myself for such a long time. I feel very blessed and humbled that I have connected with myself in this way and share this ever developing way with everything that I do. Which brings an enormous joy.
Thank you Kirstin for this very truthful blog that I can relate too.
I too have known Serge Benhayon for a number of years, and felt that he deeply understands this tension I carry around – being influenced by the outside but knowing all the while it is exactly what gives my power away.
I am observing this more and more, and now even though I know this – I am still not living it in every moment. So your blog has been another reflection for me to ask ‘why do I hold back’ and why don’t I claim the deep wisdom and knowledge that is already within.
Kerstin, thank you your words, but more so, thank you for the gentle knowing grace that emanates from them. I feel the strength yet complete lack of imposition when you write of gaining more understanding through your inner connection. An open heart, “A life of simplicity and unity”.
Thank you Kirstin for this very truthful blog that I can relate too.
I too have known Serge Benhayon for a number of years, and felt that he deeply understands this tension.
The way you presented the list of places and people who dictate how life should be (teachers, the Church, the boss, the bank, books and Internet)… not to mention the vast forms of media, just shows how minute the chance is that we will grow up knowing who we are.
Kerstin, thank you for sharing I enjoyed reading your blog which I have to add has been a timely reminder. ” Constantly disregarding myself caused frustration, disharmony and anxiousness in my body, but I was not willing to listen to the knowing inside of me and take responsibility for myself.” . Life was far more complicated when I was listening to all those external communications and not just for me but for my immediate family members as well. But as I am now listening and trusting more my inner knowing my life and those around have become far more joy-full and for-filling.
“I am starting to question what is going on, around and inside me” Kirsten I’ve found this to be one of the greatest lessons from Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. Now when I feel that inner niggly doubt about something I stop and question what is going on where in the past I would just continue on, like you, doing what I thought I was supposed to be doing. You have highlighted in your story how we don’t actually live life but life actually lives us, we let it control us and take us away from who we truly are and the wisdom that comes from our inner knowing.
Once we allow this inner knowing to guide us, life we know becomes simple like never before. We do not need to fear the future, results or reactions, but live in stillness, knowing that in every moment we meet, there will be everything we need at our disposal.
Thank-you Kerstin, such a lovely read. Your words here, I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to, is so true. There is no place like the absolute love and deep inner wisdom within us all, its something that needs to be deeply cherished and fostered.
I can very much relate to the fact, searching for answers in the outside instead of trusting me. It is an awesome sharing for everyone, how giving your power away influenced your whole life. I guess all of us are somehow familiar with this. For me it is really caring for my body and checking in, to build a relationship with myself and find trust in it. I can sometimes really feel, how outer influences want to pull me away of this knowing, this connection with me, to confuse me… It is a constant learning in checking, what is actually true (if it is just a thought that is bothering me or actually true) and it takes a loving discipline to stay on track of claiming me and the absolute knowing in me.
I know what you mean Steffi, it’s amazing to think that giving my power away has changed literally my whole life, and how making small changes actually changes something huge within us.
Oh I can really relate to your story Kirsten. I’ve noticed that when I connect to my body and trust my feelings I usually make the right choices. But when I get mental about it and question and analyse my feelings or seek ‘expert’ advice, essentially all I’m doing is wasting time and energy…and the irony is that the answers are on tap, ready to access.
Thank you Kerstin for highlighting the most significant gift of our own inner-knowing. It is strange how we do not as a society or humanity acknowledge the depth of who we are and the wisdom we all naturally have. It is a shame that this is not the foundation of our education systems. In fact I would have to say, it’s a crime that our children do not grow up knowing the truth of who they are from their inner knowing.
Everything we need in life comes from within us, just as nothing in our life happens without us or without our input (active and passive). Thank you for this reminder Kirsten.
The inner Knowing. Not a “gut feeling” or a repeating of what I once learned out of a book. My KNOWING is based on my connection to what I am truly am: a piece of God. Deep inside I know what is true and what is needed. My knowing is based on what does serve best for all. This my mind never really gets nor can it keep up with as long it tries to ‘think it out’, tries to control. In truth we cannot control anything – we just choose which source we connect to and then will flow through us: either the one which is separating us or the one which is reflecting our connection.
Thank you Kerstin. This was a great reminder that all the answers I seek are inside of me.
Thanks for your beautiful sharing Kerstin. It’s a great reminder of what can be experienced in the body when we don’t take responsibility for our choices and continually override what our body is telling us. It’s inspiring to read about the changes in your life since you have been more self loving and making choices that are honouring of your body.
Thank you Kerstin, as one who had not only been subject to outside influences, but actually sorted them by going on many ‘ology’ and ‘isms’ courses and workshops, I totally agree that in finding Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon I found someone who as well as encouraging and supporting me ‘to develop an understanding for myself’ fosters in me the confidence that I do have that understanding and honour it.
Yes, there is an inner knowing but we still need somebody from the outside (Serge Benhayon in my case) to show us how to access this inner knowing. It is ironic – the place from which all the damage comes – outside – is needed to show us how to overcome the damage. Many outside influences harm us but it doesn’t work to shut ourselves off from the outside.
Kirstin, this is so simple but oh so deep and profound, it’s beautiful. I love this ‘In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.’ This is exactly NOT what is taught in life so I have been very confused in the past. Acknowledging and following my inner wisdom is my way forward.
Hi Kerstin,
Looking outside for answers is a very familiar way of existing to me! It also is a ‘get out’ clause, if I take others advice I can then blame them if things go wrong it wasn’t my idea! There is no self responsibility and no self connection in that way of existing. Your words in this blog show us another way of living and embracing all that can be. ‘In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity’
Great point Judy, ‘we can actually blame others because we got the answer from somewhere else’. Totally voiding us of responsibility for our behaviours and actions. There is more to say but at this stage I can’t quite put my finger on. Why can we blame others, but still make the choice? Something is missing…
It is indeed simple the choice to reconnect. Just, like you, I also was governed by outer influences – what others might think of me, what the media is telling me to believe whilst deep inside I had different feelings….. but my body was the last place to go to for answers. It took me a while to not ‘believe’ those beliefs anymore and just build a connection with my body. Wow, it is all there. My body can tell me instantly what feels truthful and what is not for me. I am just learning to allow myself to listen to these signals and express them. Thanks Kerstin for this lovely reflection.
Great blog Kerstin. It’s amazing how we can complicate life with outside influence, when all we really have to do is connect to the deep wisdom inside us all.
Simple but not always easy.
Thanks Kerstin your blog is for me.
Clear and simple, about what is really going on in the decision making process for most of us and what creates frustration and tension. But there is also another way ! And that you describe beautifully too !
Thank you.
A great way to name what this blog expresses Ann-Brit. This blog is for me too!!
Kerstin you have presented such a powerful yet simple message. I have found that like you I had learnt to ignore my inner knowing in preference to living from everything I was being told or what I thought I should do. It’s incredibility freeing to now live from my inner wisdom and essence which I am deeply grateful for.
I have seen your transformation Sharon and you are an inspiration to many men and women in the way you have found your inner wisdom.
Keratin, for so long I have dismissed what I have felt to be true inside me and listened or obeyed what I have been told from the outside that it has been hard to shift this habit. It has taken frequent reminding that I do know. ‘I am starting to question what is going on around me and inside me’ when we start to question rather than simply accept we gain so much awareness to the world around us.
Kerstin I can so relate to what you have presented here. I too have allowed myself to be influenced by others opinions, religions, books, teachers, New Age modalities and much more for years and I didn’t trust that inner knowing that was inside me all along. This led to me changing religions, lifestyles, relationships, beliefs etc. for years which not only confused me but confused those around me. It wasn’t until Serge Benhayon presented that I could choose to connect to my inner knowing that I have found consistency in my life. I agree that making this simple choice leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.
So true Kerstin, our inner knowing from our heart reveals the truth and simplicity is it’s result, but looking outside of ourselves for answers is a sure way to get confused and our bodies pay for it. I too have experienced both of these and I know which one I now choose – my inner-heart and it’s truth. Thank you.
I have found that simply paying attention to how my body feels, how I feel, has an enormous impact on everything in everyway. It is very simple but very powerful.
Absolutely agree Vanessahawthorne listening to our body is true empowerment!
Thank you Kerstin it has also been my experience of listening and getting the answers from the outside world, in fact actively searching for the answers to all of lives problems. But like you I am finding that I had the answers all along but was overriding them and choosing to put someone else’s opinion above my own, in the belief that they knew what was good for me. It has taken some time but I am learning to trust that I know what I need and that if I get it wrong that’s ok also.
Top post Kerstin and thank you for such an important reminder about listening to our inner most wisdom and going with that. My ingrained ways of not truly following what I feel and what is the truth for me is still a “work in progress”.
Recently I have been questioning my relationship to food as this is a big one for me. I realised how much I had been in “reaction” to what I had heard or read or seen others do and somehow think that it would work for me. I gave up a lot of foods just to fit in, look like I am part of something and not once did I think that it was not true for me.
Suspending all beliefs and ideals of what I should eat, can eat and not eat has helped but I still get caught in my head with the right and wrong instead of feeling and going with what I know is the truth.
Serge Benhayon has presented many times about honouring what we feel and to discern for ourself what is true and what is not.
Definitely still a ‘work in progress’ for me too Bina. I get caught in self-doubt and question what I feel and that is a slippery slope until I remember to reconnect and feel.
Beautiful Kerstin. Its so true, we are bombarded from a young age by expectations from the outside, temporal markers to measure up to other people’s ideals and beliefs. Just the very thought of you reading all these books so you are prepared for any eventuality feels really exhausting! How glorious to meet a man who not only understands these pressures, but gently reminds us that our encyclopaedia to life is residing within. It is beautiful to feel your strength returning as you begin to seek the answers within you, to connect to and follow your own feelings rather than dancing to another’s tune.
I love this Rowena: “…our encyclopaedia to life is residing within.” And I agree Kerstin, it is quite a shift to turn the focus to our own innermost, to start and make the connection and tap into that inner wisdom. Everything in me is trained to look for it on the outside, to rely on someone who knows better than me and nothing has supported me to build the connection and dedication to myself until Serge Benhayon came along with the suggestion to look inside.
I love that Rowena: “…that our encyclopaedia to life is residing within.” If all children were encouraged to stay connected to this and to develop and trust in this – always – the world would surely be a different place.
A brilliant blog Kerstin on sharing how we constantly override what we feel is true at the expense of our body. “In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity”. By not listening to what we know is true, we bring so much complication and stress into our lives.
Thank you Kerstin, that was beautiful. As you say it can feel challenging when we begin to change all the deeply held patterns of the past. However, now that I have begun to feel the subtle differences in my body as I change and let go, the full beauty that I find within is gradually coming to the surface. As this builds it is amazing to look back and see how much has changed with each and every little step and to appreciate how far I have come.
The world is for sure a better place to be in when we trust ourselves and trust that we know enough to live what is right for us. Life can be very different when we are not imprisoned by a need to conform or live within the norms that society has constructed. I have personally found that the greatest restriction through my life has been caring too much what other people think of me, instead of making decision that I know to be true. Thanks Kerstin.
I agree Stephen caring too much what people will think or how they will react is enormously constraining and really keeps us small, shutting down our registration of true impulses. Ultimately we all lose out, as when I am true I am true to all, even though I might not be popular.
Beautiful Kerstin! What an amazing journey of unfolding you have shared. I can totally relate to the damage that giving my power away in the past has caused to my body and relationships. And just as equally I can relate to the simplicity, knowing and power that feeling and living from my inner heart is like. Thank you for your expression.
So true Kerstin. It is so easy to give our power away to everyone and everything around us. I still find myself looking for someone to tell me what to do. It is a truly loving and powerful thing to take our attention inside and trust our own feelings enough to act from them. We can claim our power back.
Looking back at my life, I have had so many moments where I knew what felt true for me, but I did not listen to it. I have given my power away to many things and people outside of myself, not trusting myself and my own inner knowing. The more I do listen to this inner knowing and the more I experience that everything is inside me, I feel so much more free and the real me, enjoying every day and looking forward to what comes in front of me, I know I can deal with it, because it is all inside.
I love this Mariette. It reminds me of how I always had this inner knowing, it’s what I walked with every day as a little girl with a deep joy in my heart and glow in my eyes. As I grew older the outside influences became stronger and the more I succumbed to them, the more I lost connection with inner knowing I knew so well, and life became difficult, unsatisfying, disconnected.
Returning back to living my life from my inner most knowing is the most precious jewel I could ever have. Thank you Kerstin for giving me the opportunity to stop and deeply appreciate this.
It reminds me of how as a teenager I would aspire to beauty, gentleness and harmony and what I saw around me was ugliness, aggressivity and harshness and I felt very much alone as my “friends” were partying until late and drinking alcohol for “fun” and listening to loud music I didn’t like. I knew that there was another way to live.
Kerstin, I am learning to listen to my inner knowing a lot more and am enjoying the simplicity of the living it offers. My life gets complicated when I pay too much attention to all the external stimulus on offer and I can really feel it in my body! A great blog and a timely reminder!
Kerstin, I love this blog, so simple and so true – it breaks the consciousness of should I do this or should I do that debates in our head, to the simple fact and truth of asking our body how does it feel. It is as simple as that. The joy that can be felt in this simple yet profound truth and action is amazing. And the feedback we get from our bodies is so loud and clear. It just takes one step of trust, to listen and honour our bodies and everything becomes so much more clear. It makes life so much more simple and joyful, and also we feel so much more solid and steady in our bodes as we trust our inner heart and knowing, rather than give our power away to everything else. A great blog, one that has confirmed everything I know.
A great sharing Kerstin and I relate well to what you share here. It has also been my experience that the constant search outside of ourselves causes more tension in the body and for me it was this tension that actually prompted me to search further. That was until I met Serge Benhayon and realised from his presentations that there is another way which embraces the simplicity of looking within.
“In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.”
I agree Beverley, thanks to Serge Benhayon’s presentations I started to trust my inner knowing more and more and I realised that it was safe to do so. It has been a very liberating process.
“…… it leads us to a life of simplicity and unity”.
What goes on outside us effects us constantly, and we live looking to the outside for answers to everything – how we feel about ourselves, what to eat, what’s normal, etc. Beginning to learn to reverse this, and know that there is a diffence between what I feel inside me and on the outside and learning to treasure what I feel in me and give presidence to it, while there is still a long way to go, has felt revolutionary.
Its a great journey isn’t it Meg. I thank God every day that I made the choice to begin it.
Me too, beautifully said.
Kerstin it is quite incredible to reflect on the way our life has been, a way accepted by society as one where we completely ignore our own feelings and are instead taught from young to act, to learn and to go through life in a way that society or simply a few other people say is how we should. What is so different about your sharing is that the true way of living, a way where you feel and live in harmony actually comes from re-connecting to that inner knowing that we all have and living from there. The enormity of this I often don’t appreciate yet living to an ideal and what others said was also the way I grew up, leading to much dissatisfaction in life. The love and support of Serge Benhayon to re-connect and build confidence in my own inner knowing has been one of the greatest gifts in my life.
Brilliant comment David, you have expressed this so beautifully.
Thank you Kerstin, you have really struck a chord with me in your description of how the world can influence you but that you have this deep inner knowing all the time which only and simply just requires reconnecting to. And I love how you have pointed out that at first you had to be very brave whilst you learnt to trust this process, but now that you have, the life you live is precious and full of appreciation.
Listening to the inner heart oppose to the constant chatter and dogma that engulfs us from a young age. It takes a real strength to stand up for what you know to be true.
Thank you Kerstin
Wow Kirsten, this is really lovely to read, I spent most of life looking for answers outside of myself, reading lots of spiritual books to ‘better myself’, it feels so much more simple and fun to follow my inner knowing, I’m learning to trust this more and more.
I too am learning to trust more and more my inner voice and appreciate who I am.
Me too Rebecca – looking outside for the answers that have always been within sparked a lifelong spiritual quest that was doomed to deliver nothing but more of what I was so lost in – sheer illusion and one that I could not see while I was owned by such a futile voyage. I must say, when the ‘penny dropped’, I did feel rather foolish…
You are not alone in that Liane! We have all been fooled by the illusion and felt foolish when it was revealed . . but how wonderful and freeing. All thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine
I can relate to your comment rebeccawingrave and I have spent so many hours looking for answers outside of myself in books, religions, philosophies, astrology and finally spiritual new age before I came across the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. Trusting my inner-knowing and feeling safe to do so is work in progress for me.