What To Do With My Life – Listening To My Inner Knowing

Recently it dawned on me how most of my life has been governed by an outer influence – always there was something or somebody who told me what to do or how to be. The interesting part in all of this is that I thought I chose what I do. In truth, there is so much information out there that tells us how to live, how to eat, what to do to live a happy life, what to do to become richer and how to behave to gain power, etc. Relying on all this information to help me through life, never once did it occur to me that I had all the information I ever needed, if only I had listened to my inner knowing.

By searching for the answers outside of this inner knowing, I opened myself up to being influenced by others’ decisions and gave my power away to what others thought was best for me. Yet all along I had a feeling of my truth but chose to override it constantly. I chose to override what felt true for me.

I did not once stop and ask my body what would be a loving and supportive choice for it.

Although there was a deep knowing in me of what is true, I was not able to follow it. It seemed to be so opposite to what was taught in school, lived in religious groups or in society in general, that I felt scared to acknowledge this deep inner knowing and wisdom.

In school, sometimes even in kindergarten, teachers are telling us what to do in order to get good marks, no matter how our body feels about this. The church tells us what to do to be a better person and have God’s blessing, instead of feeling deep in our bodies what is true. The boss tells us what to do in our workplace and often we cope in order not to get in trouble. The bank tells us how to be with our money and what we have earned, and finally there are loads of books or the Internet where we can look up what to do in certain situations.

I realised that I was reacting to the demands of what society and life brought towards me and I tried to find the right solution to deal with that in reading lots of books to gain as much knowledge as possible for any situation.

The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world.

Constantly disregarding myself caused frustration, disharmony and anxiousness in my body, but I was not willing to listen to the knowing inside of me and take responsibility for myself.

My life changed when I came to know Serge Benhayon 4 years ago. For the first time in my life someone understood what I was feeling and knowing and I was able to develop an understanding for myself. Still, the habit to give my power away instead of truly listening to myself was so ingrained that it felt hard to change in the beginning.

However, since I have been attending Universal Medicine courses, I have developed more and more love and patience concerning the way I am living. This has improved my life by changing my habits into ‘better habits,’ – however, to allow myself to listen to the truth inside of me took time.

In gaining more understanding of what Serge Benhayon presents:

  • I am learning to not obey blindly
  • I am starting to question what is going on, around and inside me
  • I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention
  • I am expressing my truth and what I am feeling

I understand that my inner knowing and wisdom is a deeply loving place which needs to be listened to. In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body. It is a way of living which sometimes seems to be difficult or hard because I am so used to my old patterns of searching outside for answers, but…

In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.

In deeply acknowledging this love that I am, making that simple choice to reconnect to my heart, to my inner knowing, to the essence inside and to express myself from this place, takes the confusion out of knowing what to do in every moment and brings forth the power of love that I am.

I am now living an amazing life and feel blessed by Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon being part of my life.

By Kerstin Salzer, Physiotherapist, Germany

Further reading:
The Way It Is – A Treatise on Energetic Truth

1,053 thoughts on “What To Do With My Life – Listening To My Inner Knowing

  1. ‘The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world’. The conflict that arises within us from not trusting and expressing our inner knowing creates a discomfort that we need to always observe, listen to and arise from.

  2. “The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world”,I agree when we slop to look outside , we bring on tension in our body.

  3. I now experience tension and hardness in my body whenever I choose to step away from my inner wisdom. Then the moment I return, my body sighs a sigh of relief and lets go of the tension. So much to consider in this article around how we live and how our bodies are because of how we live.

  4. “I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention”. I agree Kirsten, our inner wisdom is indeed enormously precious. Deeply knowing this provides a loving foundation to self care, thus allowing a clear and simple flow of loving healing energy.

  5. Learning to be still and listen is transformational: with stillness and space, there’s room for that quiet inner voice, that inner knowing to be heard, and then a choice to listen to what it’s telling us. If we’re constantly distracting ourselves, there’s no space for the simple and absolute knowing what we need to do next to be felt.

  6. If we live in reaction to the demands of the world we will find ourselves constantly looking for ways to cope to relieve the tension. The power of connecting to our heart and being willing to be impulsed from there in how we choose to express and move through life cannot be underestimated in our ability to not get affected by the lack of love in the world.

  7. Thank you for this wonderful blog, this line was absolute gold for me “I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.” How beautiful to read your words, recently whenever I feel nervous, anxious, or unsettled in any way I stop and ask “What am I really feeling?” It’s usually that I have not acknowledged a deep knowing and allowed something to intrude that did not feel right. Once I let my feelings be fully expressed I can restore myself back to what I know to be true and live connected to it.

  8. We have many systems set up in society that don’t support us to connect with our innermost and make decisions or choices from that place of clarity. It’s not that we can’t always be learning and evaluating knowledge but it’s about what place are we evaluating it from? And are we aware of the innate wisdom that lives inside all of us that knows how to best use knowledge for the true benefit of all. Serge Benhayon supports everyone to re-connect with this wisdom, to discern all that is presented to us without judgement and to honour what we feel.

  9. There are so many rules and ideas about how we should be. No wonder we end up feeling confused and disheartened. No one teaches us to rely on our inner knowing first. When I started to trust that inner knowing it took a lot of the tension out of life. That tension between what feels right inside and what others or society is telling you.

    1. I can feel the responsibility I have as a parent and as a responsible community member to reflect that back to the children in my life. Trusting our inner knowing is a piece of medicine we are rarely called to value or implement.

  10. ‘I am expressing my truth and what I am feeling’ – powerful choice Kerstin. So often we hold back from expressing to protect ourselves, when that expression may be the very ‘medicine’ needed in that moment. It is so beautiful to express what you are feeling without the need to be ‘right’ or make anyone ‘wrong’. I have recently had an experience of expressing something to a friend who had another view altogether. We both expressed with no attachment and all was well – no drama. And days later it turned out that we came to a unified truth about it – spontaneously arose as the result of neither if us holding back.

  11. Amazing Kerstin. I can so relate to all you have shared as I too was ruled by the world outside of myself, governed by what was right or wrong, what was fitting or not, as was dictated by the lifestyles and perceptions of society. But regardless of always following something, I still felt lost at the end of the day and my anxiousness never abated. Yet as with you I always sensed my inner-knowing, a voice within that spoke to me every day, however I mostly chose to not listen or to be guided by that which I saw no-one else in society truly live in response or in connection to. It wasn’t until meeting Serge Benhayon, attending and being inspired by Universal Medicine presentations, that I re-discovered that what I sensed within me, was in essence my Soul communication to me. And it turns out that the more I live in connection to my inner-knowing, as best I can, the more I live with a sense of true purpose, power and grace being guided by what I know and feel is true.

  12. I agree, Kerstin – whether we rely on information given to us, or act against it, if we are not with our inner-most, but living in reaction, choices we think we are making for ourselves are not of truth.

  13. Knowing my inner-wisdom, and having a choice to speak and live from there is absolute love, and brings a huge trust that we are knowing everything and that it is inside us – for us to tap into. And to feel what once we express this wisdom we know we are from it.

  14. When we lack confidence in or fail to heed our inner wisdom there are a plethora of opportunities outside of us to seek advice from, but by doing this we end up giving our power away which creates tension in our body and introduces unnecessary complexities into the equation. When we seek council from our inner wisdom the impulse we receive will have only our best interest at heart.

  15. ‘Still, the habit to give my power away instead of truly listening to myself was so ingrained that it felt hard to change in the beginning.’ I agree when we live in reaction to the world we are never being our true selves, and yet when we connect to our heart first we are able to make remarkable changes.

  16. What this blog makes clear is that external influences we may say yes to can never truly help us to live a life of realisation. This is important since there is so much in offer that can get either to deviate from our truth or that can get us to settle for small pieces of truth here and there and compromise our bodies for the part that is not true at all.

  17. Yes Kerstin, there are so many books out there on ‘how to live life,’ we forget that we actually do know and stop trusting ourselves. One of the best decisions I have recently made is to start trusting myself again and rely more on my inner knowing.

  18. Learning not to be governed by outside influences, but to listen to our innate wisdom and knowing is a wonderful teaching of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. How deeply loving and true it is to listen to our bodies, which continually convey what is true. Thank you Kirstin for sharing your wisdom.

  19. “In truth our inner knowing is always inside us: it is simple and leads us to a life of simplicity and unity.” That’s the beauty its within us always for us to connect back within. When we become still within ourselves it is easier to connect to that knowing within us, life feels simple.

  20. ‘By searching for the answers outside of this inner knowing, I opened myself up to being influenced by others’ decisions and gave my power away to what others thought was best for me. Yet all along I had a feeling of my truth but chose to override it constantly. I chose to override what felt true for me.’ This is something that most of us do Kirsten, even when we know better. I certainly know better and yet when it comes to something unusual happening I can still revert to this old way of not listening to my body. I was about to make a big decision recently and my body was telling me ‘No, no, no’, as it would be precarious financially. At last I listened to it, got some advice and then my body felt beautiful and solid once again.

  21. ‘I am acknowledging that what is inside of me, my inner wisdom, is so enormously precious and deserves deep attention.’ These words resonate in my body and especially that my inner wisdom deserves deep attention. I feel I need to appreciate my inner wisdom more and to let it come through by being more aware what lives within me, not being satisfied with just a bit as I know how grant we all are.

  22. ‘In expressing what I am feeling there comes joy and vitality in my body.’ Well said Kerstin and very true, it is very inspiring to read the steps you took to embrace your inner knowing and wisdom, living these qualities is a game changer and support us to understand life, bringing a simplicity that allows us to be in the flow of life.

  23. There is a lot of knowledge available to us to learn and that is very useful and needed for us to learn in different jobs and roles we have in life but never should that learning be at the expense of our connection to the innate wisdom we all have access to for without that what use is the knowledge and how will it be used?

  24. It’s taken me many moons to claim back my authority within, and there is much to claim still. We are all born with an exquisite beacon of truth. Our movements away from this beacon, create a fog that leave us blinded from the truth that we are all knowing.

  25. Reading this tonight, what comes to mind is how much the flow of life is steady, strong, focused, yet delicate and fragile when it comes impulsed from our body and inner heart. When it is fed from our mind it becomes disjointed, racey, doubtful and full of disregard. Loving my body and allowing its very tender voice to support me is a reality that I now live and deepen every day.

  26. Thank you Kerstin, showing us the difference between knowledge (information from outside) and a knowing within us. And how important it is to understand this – so that we can come back to our knowing in a world where almost everything is based on knowledge.

  27. The more we honour and respond to what we feel is true, from within and not from what other people want, the more that guide becomes our normal way. Awareness is like a muscle that needs to be worked, understood and listened to to become louder and more prevalent in life.

  28. “The choice to look outside created an enormous tension in me between my inner knowing and my habit of giving my power away to the outside world.” The tension felt is so familiar it is almost not questioned. It quietly drains us as the search for answers and solutions maintains an unerelenting pull. Yet drain it does and feeds a lack of confidence that means we consider this unending and repeating cycle ‘normal’.

  29. A beautiful sharing of walking back to our connection with our inner most. The knowing and connection that never leaves us but often gets clouded over.

  30. It feels easier to give our power away and do what we’re told. Well, it looks easier…but there are huge consequences with living that way simply because it goes against our natural order…and when we go up against our natural order the cracks start to appear and those cracks might look like depression or anxiety or disease or a complete dissatisfaction with life, addictions of any sort to keep us distracted from our choices etc. It’s difficult to choose to go against a system that has been so strongly built on fear….but once we make that choice, it turns out that living from our own knowing is WAY easier and more enjoyable than just being part of a machine.

  31. Kirsten I really enjoyed this blog. I can relate to many of the things you’ve written about, especially to do with trusting myself and often not questioning the decisions of others when it affected me.

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