Growing up as a young child, up until the age of six I lived in an environment of constant fighting between my parents. I could feel there was much anger and resentment between them. My siblings and I experienced physical violence and constant verbal and emotional abuse. My mother often lashed out verbally or physically in frustration, rage or resentment at us.
In hindsight, as a mother of two children myself, I can see that she would have been overwhelmed; not only with the daily work and responsibility of raising three small children, but also with her own feelings and emotions.
My father was happy to be working in order to support us financially, but I feel he had no clue about his role at home nor any idea about raising children. He left the responsibility of this to my mother. I saw that my father was equally unable to deal with her outbursts – he seemed powerless around her and either retreated or got angry and fought back.
I now feel how they both felt trapped: it seemed they were unable to communicate, and when they did, it was mostly explosive confrontations.
I often felt scared, sad and powerless… I certainly don’t remember the feeling of being cherished by my mother. I recollect some tender and light moments with my Dad, but there were also feelings of despair and helplessness from him.
My family situation showed me that everything was not ok. I felt insignificant and in the way. From my perspective now, I can see that as a child, not having a true nor whole sense of myself, I decided that I was not worth much and somehow at fault.
Why do we tend to do this?
- Is making ourselves feel wrong and worthless the way we cope with the situation?
- Perhaps by taking on the role that we are wrong is our way of being a piece of the puzzle, to make sense of a situation?
- Is it because we are children and have no other way to see it or make sense of it?
We live for so long, often well into adulthood, behaving and living according to these deep beliefs we take on that are so far from the truth of who we are.
Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole?
Knowing that I had issues to be addressed, I saw counsellors over the course of my adult life. However, it really wasn’t until I had healing sessions with Universal Medicine practitioners, and participated in their workshops and courses, that I began to understand and change how I saw myself, and how I live.
I came to see that many of the beliefs I had taken on and held were keeping me locked in emotions such as deep anger, struggle and helplessness. I came to understand how my identity, my behaviours and my relationships were shaped by these.
I felt shocked when I began to realise that I didn’t have much self-worth, although this made sense when reflecting on my lack of confidence, my constant self-doubt, and always looking to others for answers instead of considering that I could turn to myself and trust my own feelings and intuitions.
I was still identifying with the thoughts and beliefs that I had assumed for myself as a small child. The key way for me to break with them was to ask a lot of questions…
- Could it be that I had no sense of myself because I was taking on the emotional turmoil of my parents?
- As I don’t recall feeling cherished for being me, is it possible then that I had no reference for who I truly am?
- And then was it true that, because I had no sense of me, that this meant I must be ‘nothing’ and worthless?
- Is it possible that the beliefs I created from this experience became my accepted living truth and way of being?
Because these beliefs were so deeply embedded and embodied due to my living them as a false truth, it was very hard to realise that they were actually not true.
Being able to ask the questions, along with some of the obvious answers to these, showed me the possibility that something else could be true about me. Understanding this allowed me to examine long held beliefs and patterns. Learning about myself is an ongoing and unfolding journey.
What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.
Now that I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self. I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.
The absolute gold that Universal Medicine has offered me is that the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me – the amazing being I have always been.
By Anonymous
Further Reading:
Self-Esteem
I Am Amazing Just For Being Me
How Amazing It Feels to Be Myself
The Truth about Serge Benhayon 
Lovely to read that you now know that you are, ‘amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self’; coming from a point years ago having, ‘ often felt scared, sad and powerless… I certainly don’t remember the feeling of being cherished by my mother.’ Wonderful turnaround of your life.
Reading this makes me realise that every human being walking this planet has grown up with some belief system. And in this they live their lives, never being who they truly are. It’s a no wonder we know there is something missing in our lives and we search elsewhere and seldom realise that it is within. And for some they will come to a realisation, like yourself that this isn’t it and, that we are more, and for me also the realisation came when I came across Universal Medicine too, and I knew I had come home.
It is a working progress and I love how my life is unfolding. There are times when I struggle, as sometimes there is something that like to stop me from moving forward or onwards and that is expected. It is my choice to do what I want with my life and who I allow to support me or not, and this option is there for others too.
What I can honestly say that when I live from the belief systems it feels restricted, when I live from who who I truly am, I know I am offering me and my all, my preferred way of living.
Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are likewise supporting myself to come back to who I truly am after years of previously searching outside myself, ‘we know there is something missing in our lives and we search elsewhere and seldom realise that it is within. And for some they will come to a realisation, like yourself that this isn’t it and, that we are more, and for me also the realisation came when I came across Universal Medicine too.’
How is it possible to self love, self care, be responsible, to deepen to a level of love for self and others when we are saturated with an energy that keeps us lesser than. This saturation I feel occurs when we are young and it is used so that there is no way that we will be able to connect to the love we actually are and come from. Is it possible this life is set up as a struggle from start to finish because by being so engrossed in the struggle we will not have the wherewith all to look any deeper. It is not until someone comes along and suggests that we are all struggling that we are given a different perspective. To some people they see the sense in what is being said and start to make changes and some people take offence at the suggestion and carry on with the struggle not believing that life can be so simple.
Mary I watched a film clip of a father who videos his daughter on a weekly basis from birth to 20 years of age. And during this clip you can actually observe her being saturated by the energy that kept her lesser and when these beliefs were embedded into her, it was all in the eyes and facial expression. So that was one person, and there are billions of people on this planet in similar situation too.
Everything is mapped out so we aren’t to discover who we truly are which is interesting and worth for all to explore. And as already shared, life could be so much simpler if we tapped into that different perspective, we just need to be willing to choose this too, a choice we all have, a simple life, or a complicated life…
That sounds like a fascinating film, showing what so many of us have experienced.
It is a great title “From a false identity to discovering the real me” because so many of us believe we are the misery, low self worth and confusion. Whatever the reason we were not able to be our whole and true self it’s still in there waiting to be uncovered and reconnected to, no matter what we have experienced in our history.
Once we are no longer in the care of our parents, once we are old enough to look after ourselves, it is then our responsibility to care for ourselves. But most of us do not grow up with this understanding and we do not get raised with the understanding that this is in fact a beautiful responsibility. In fact we grow up thinking it is a burden or a chore or an annoyance to look after ourselves and the body. This is the ‘set up’ to keep us disempowered (not a set up consciously by our parents, but one that we all fall for in society) – for one of the most powerful ways that the Soul can work with us is when we look after ourselves and the body and love ourselves and the body up. True power then lies in our connection with self love, self care, self responsibility to begin with whilst then deepening to another level of love for self and others.
Looking after ourselves and our body, loving and nurturing ourselves is all supportive for us returning to our magnificence, ‘I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.’
Our upbringing as children can certainly affect us later on in life as adults – but the moment we realise this then we have the choice to observe this, understand it and then know how to bring a loving way of being rather than replacing the behaviour with a reaction that leads to no healing and no restoration of what truly can be. An ongoing process of trial and error and one that requires much honesty, in my experience.
Growing up in a home with no harmony and not feeling safe due to discord and fighting is a sure way for any child to learn to shut down and lose a solid trust and knowing of oneself. However, all is not lost for once we are out of that environment, it is for us to take responsibility for parenting ourselves in a way that restores the trust, love and harmony – not an easy thing to do, but certainly there always as a choice to turn towards.
I haven’t read this for a while, but I’m so thankful you have written this. It explains so clearly the confusing behaviours and beliefs we can have as a result of childhood trauma, and how these carry through into adult life, and yet it’s all possible to heal to return to our true and amazing selves. I know for me that healing would not be possible without the support of Universal Medicine.
Too me there is nothing worse than when you have the realisation at a young age that your parents do not get on with each other, the feeling of helplessness and impotent rage mixed together as I stood by and watched my parents fighting feeling all their resentment and bitterness towards each other my world just collapsed around me and then nothing felt safe. This feeling of being unsafe tainted the way I grew up and viewed the world and the people in it. I thought it was normal to feel unsafe and distrustful. As you say anonymous Universal Medicine is a great support to unpick the false ideals and beliefs that we carry with us in life, by healing the hurts we can at last live life free of these impositions.
For many children growing up they are left with the feelings of being scared, sad, powerless and of not being heard and of not being much use a nuisance in other words. That is a huge legacy to carry around with us into adulthood so is it any wonder we mess up in life. Finding Universal Medicine gives us the possibility of another chance so that we can go back over all the hurts we have accumulated unpick them and in the unpicking comes the healing which is lasting. This then allows us to live free and how many of us can put up their hands and say they live a free life?
A beautiful sharing. I could feel the fire in your being as you let go of the patterns and beliefs taken on from childhood.
Its easy to allow abuse when we do not value who we are, and what we bring to the world. If we did we would treasure this and no way allow others or ourselves to demean that preciousness inside.
So beautifully said Simon, for when we do not value who we are, we do not up hold a standard that does not allow abuse. Learning to love and value oneself is one of the greatest gifts we can give ourselves for this then naturally leads to saying no to what does not correlate as behaviour towards that which we now value.
Learning to love and value ourselves is indeed a valuable gift to give to ourselves, ‘the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me – the amazing being I have always been.’
How many of us have lived false versions of ourselves? I know I did for many years and ended up feeling very miserable and alone; I was trying to live up to many beliefs, ideals and false pictures. It has been empowering to let go of all of this and to start connecting deeply to who I truly am, I then allow myself to feel my divinity and power as a woman.
For most of us, there is a lot of feedback from our world that just being us is wrong. We get mixed messages, changing goal posts and role models who have been hurt and become lost themselves. Thus so many of us grow up feeling we are not enough. It’s not until you re-discover stillness and your inner sense of self that you know there was never anything wrong with you.
It is amazingly precious how much we can learn just by connecting to ourselves and our body.
We locate ourselves. In spite of the famous ‘location, location, location’, where we locate ourselves may not be an asset for anyone, starting with us.
It’s incredible what we live with from our childhoods that most of us have no idea about. I remember thinking I was such an angry frustrated person and that people would eventually find out something really awful about me and not want to be friends with me anymore. In my first appointment with Serge Benhayon he reminded me that I was not all of that and I was precious, beautiful and amazing. I just shook my head but something did sink in, thank goodness.
I can so relate to those toxic beliefs that get reinforced as we would make choices based on those beliefs and it becomes impossible to think otherwise, as that is the only reality we know, and we somehow create a way to manage it and, for a very long time, I didn’t even recognise that I had a self-worth issue when in truth it was totally deeply ingrained in all my behaviour and thinking patterns.
It is very empowering to feel that we are not our hurts, and underneath the emotions that try to keep us locked into believing that we are victims of circumstance, there is a quality that has remained untouched, untarnished, powerful and wise and this quality is in fact who we are in essence. The love we are within is everything we are, and our connection to this is what resurrects us out of the turmoil and suffering to heal our hurts, far beyond what we had falsely been led to believe was who we are.
This is an incredible story about finding freedom from the shackles we place on ourselves. We can not control how other people are but we can choose what thoughts drive us if we are willing to be aware.
Reconnecting back to the truth of who we really are is one of the most powerful and expansive feelings, our movements change and we begin to accept and appreciate the grand love we are from.
Living in the falsity of what we have created is really quite exhausting.
I agree Suse, when we live a reduced version of ourselves it is very exhausting.
What a great line from your blog “The absolute gold that Universal Medicine has offered me is that the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me – the amazing being I have always been.” Even if we haven’t been cherished or loved in our life we can learn to do this for ourselves, and in my experience to do so has certainly been transformational. The beautiful thing is there is always more love and self-cherishing to live. The more we do this for ourselves the more our loving presence can become a blessing and inspiration for others.
Coming to the understanding that we are all “born wondrous and whole” was the most beautiful revelation, one which began to make sense of my life. I know now that I always had a sense that the life I was living, the person I appeared to be, was not actually who I truly was. I can remember several times over my life saying – ‘what do I do these crazy things – this is not me’. Now I know it wasn’t the true me but the ‘false identity’ I had taken on to survive in this world.
Anonymous, thank you for writing such a clear blog about the way as small children we take into our bodies things that are not true because within us we do not have a reference point to fall back on. It feels to me a past life issue; is it possible that we have had past lives where we have not lived as we truly are and so therefore the reference point of who we are gets blurred and then rubbed out all together? I feel that it is this life that we have the opportunity to make different choices to reconnect and rebuild our sense of self-worth. And Serge Benhayon has brought through Universal Medicine modalities that support us all to do just that, reconnect to who we truly are.
It’s true that we are the result of our choices in this life and all the lives before it. Amazing healing is possible when we choose to love ourselves out of the mess we have made.
‘What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.’ Thank you for sharing Anon, I can relate to feelings of worthlessness and no sense of self, beliefs that underpinned my whole life until coming to Universal Medicine, how blessed we are to come to and find the truth of who we are, and learn to nurture our truth by lovingly caring for our bodies.
It is amazing how many false layers and pretences we put on to fit in with the world and those around us. So much so we lose track and sight of the beautiful, glorious beings that we are. The more we re-awaken our true selves and live from this place of love then everything starts to change and I have found I find a settlement in my body as the trying to be someone or something drops off. And then I find myself choosing it again and let it go more and more so then I am remaining myself in all areas of my life and not continually putting on a different hat depending on who I am with or where I am.
“shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.” Thank you for sharing your natural amazingness with us all.
And reminding us that we all have it too!
It’s a huge discarding process sloughing off the beliefs, ideals, and pictures we have taken on to return to the amazing being we were born as, and to then begin to make changes so we can live from our true essence again. I have found it quite a process to understand that me being me is enough, nothing needed to “do”, just to be and bring that to life.
The devastation of realizing that we hold a false identity is always relative to what the realization has revealed us regarding our true self. Ultimately, everything that does not honor us as the divine beings we are, is a false identity. If reclaiming our true identity is our choice, the beauty of it offsets by far any prior devastation.
‘What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.’ Wow what a gift you have received and accepted, thank you for sharing.
I find it the most unfortunate reality to see when someone is so deeply gorgeous, felt in them not necessarily seen by their looks, only to witness them thinking of themselves as anything but that. This is the case with nearly everyone on this planet and it is truly beauty-full to see through the work of Universal Medicine people choosing to naturally coming back to living the beauty that they already are.
You’ve raised some awesome questions Anonymous. I feel it is our willingness and ability to observe and not absorb other people’s emotions and ill behaviours that essentially supports us to stay steady within ourselves.
Knowing that as a child would make for a completely different adulthood. It also supports others we live with to be held with love and understanding and space to feel what is not them and what they potentially need to let go of from the outside.
Universal Medicine offers a clear and open pathway for us all, and that is all of humanity, to return to their own true hearts, the doorway to their soul
In my experience there is a comfort in a volatile, unhappy relationship as there is so much going on outside of that it can be difficult to discern our responsibility amid all the drama and action.
As I allow myself to see and heal the what is not the more I claim and accept the ‘real’ me. The ‘real’ me has been there from day one… all I have to do is to keep on uncovering and re-awakening it by saying yes to the opportunities that come my way that are consistently supporting me to evolve in each and every moment.
Is it because we do not meet love in our lives we step away from that knowing of love and how life should be and instead accept the way it is as it is a reality that cannot be reversed? And that in that stepping away we abandon that inner connection and therefore choose to disconnect from that feeling of self-worth from within being and replace it with feeling worth because we are recognised in any way shape or form?
Our true intelligence is lived in our every day — not in our minds. Understanding this and your world is allready changed.
We need to re-discover our connection back to our body – where the true intelligence lays.
….or maybe as children we recognise we are the common denominator in every experience we have that doesn’t feel great and because of the lack of awareness being lived by older children and adults, we believe that it must therefore be us that is wrong, when in truth it’s everyone else who is living shut down and numb so they can’t feel what’s really going on.
Yes, that is quite a shocking insight that often the children are right and their surroundings are wrong and sometimes completely wrong.
It is very easy to take on the issues of those around us, but it needn’t be this way. The teachings of Serge Benhayon around “observe and not absorb” are fundamental to establishing a way of living that puts our inner connection to self and honouring of that above all else. Through this inner development a way of being is established that supports ourselves and those around us without us ever losing who we are.
Thank you Anonymous, this has been a very supportive and healing read again for me. You have offered a lot of gems of wisdom and very simply, including “I came to see that many of the beliefs I had taken on and held were keeping me locked in emotions such as deep anger, struggle and helplessness.” This is very true and it’s something we can see all through society. The beliefs may change across generations but the damage is the same. You also wrote about the consequences of an emotionally charged home environment “Could it be that I had no sense of myself because I was taking on the emotional turmoil of my parents?” I can really relate to this because when there is turmoil in a home the consequences for all involved are that the energy of the emotion literally can pollute everyone’s body. Children in particular feel the intensity of this and if it’s ongoing they can grow without a true sense of self because what they can come to know themselves as is what’s passing through their body (ie, the energy of the family’s emotional turmoil). If a child is also not cherished for who they are there can be a deeper disconnect from their essence and an identification with what the outer environment is energetically pouring into them.
When we bring understanding to life there can be no blame anymore. Without understanding we are lost as we cannot observe the whole as we are reduced to seeing life in parts…
What Serge Benhayon brings to the world has allowed thousands of people to start living in a way that honours the true person, the amazing and powerful person they are to shine out, ‘What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.’
Thank you Lorraine, that quote is very true for me also, despite the various conditions we have all faced that contributed to our disconnection to who we truly are, we can indeed make our way back to the amazing beings we are underneath the hurts and behaviours we have learned to live from.
Thank you for sharing , its so wonderfull that you have broken the cycle , of lovelessness and can share this with the rest of your family and all that read this writing,.
Levels of self-worth seem to be low with so many children and adults, it is quite sad to see, and I know I was one of those statistics too before attending courses and talks by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, ‘I felt shocked when I began to realise that I didn’t have much self-worth, although this made sense when reflecting on my lack of confidence, my constant self-doubt, and always looking to others for answers instead of considering that I could turn to myself and trust my own feelings and intuitions.’
We take on many layers in our early years that continue to grow and completely cover us as we age, confirming this self-doubt and dullness as who we are and how we are to live. But inside us theres a niggle that doesn’t go away. Universal Medicine gives a voice to that sense that theres more and shows us that it’s ok to feel that tension and even greater to honour it.
I did not have a true sense of myself as a whole being, the worth of me, life often reflects that we are not worth it, our role models do not think they are worth it and doubt themselves. Understanding that this is the case, opens up our eyes to being accepting of life instead of raging against it or conforming with it.
What are our parents reflecting to us in our life, what are we really here to learn from them, do we choose them according to what we need to master in this life? And if this is so, having these understandings completely changes our relationship with our parents.
We are simply being asked to be our very true selves – and this is what Serge Benhayon always presents us with. Love and simplicity of how to re-turn to life in a way that brings us back to that ancient knowing of who we are, giving us practical tools how to bring it back into your life.
I love the teachings – always brings us back to what we know inside, and nothing truly is new. That is very empowering and asking you to take out all you got, I like that, being asked to be truly who you are. This is what Serge Benhayon invites us all back to.
Our parents can have such an enormous affect on us if we do not see where the patterns of behaviour that are being reflected come from. It is quite normal to shy away from confrontation and fear the consequences yet if we can step back and see the low self worth and hurt that very often drives that confrontation, we stop personalising it and it has less of a hold on us.
Learning to deeply care for my body through movements is something I come back to again and again.
The restrictions we place on ourselves as a result of our beliefs around how a man, woman, wife, husband etc should be are crippling. Well done for breaking free of the pictures and connecting to the true you. It would have been easy to site your difficult start in life a reason staying stuck, so its great that you recognised the strength you had within to make a change.
This is a beautiful account of one person’s ability and willingness to take responsibility for their hurt and not simply point the finger at others to ‘take the pressure off’. This we can all do by realising we are not victims of circumstance but more so active participators in it. This does not mean that we blame or self bash ourselves but more so we do as the author has done here and really examine why these circumstances were in place and how that has been allowed to shape who we are.
We could even take it one step further and say that these patterns were living imprints within our spiritual bodies long before we incarnated into our current physical form and that many of us have been carrying this poison for centuries, if not longer, due to an ill way of living we have adopted and become so immersed in, thus why we choose to be born into a situation that will allow such ‘poison’ (energetic imprints that are not true to the love that we are) to rise to the surface in order to meet the light of day and be dealt with once and for all, if we so choose.
Or – we make the choice to bury them further and let it all rage below the surface until the pressure gets too much and the poison erupts forth much like is described in the author’s mother’s case, a position I have no judgment towards as I have been in this dark and overwhelmed space also, many, many times. The point here being that we each have a choice to arrest the momentum that has pulled so many of those we love under. Once arrested, we are in a far better position to offer love and support to those still caught in the rip as we are no longer owned by that which seeks to drag us below the surface of all that is true, decent and loving within us.
Beautiful sharing thank you Anonymous. How blessed we are to share the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine;
“What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am”.
There is a choice to live – by beliefs, or truth. Either way, our every movement confirms and magnifies what we align to.
What I love about this story, it that it’s not about how you ‘made something of yourself’, in the face of all that you experienced. You didn’t choose to react to your circumstances and prove the world (or yourself) wrong. You simply allowed yourself to be supported to return to who you are. No relying on being the best of the best at this or that, simply just coming back to yourself. This is a completely different way to dealing with and healing a childhood that was so unsupportive.
Regardless of how terrible our upbringing was Universal Medicine provides a space where we can heal those hurts – if we choose to. I have spent over twenty years attempting to heal mine, but only with Universal Medicine presentations and with the support of its practitioners, have I finally found a place of true integrity and love in order to enable me to heal.
‘The absolute gold that Universal Medicine has offered me is that the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me – the amazing being I have always been.’ I love this Anonymous and it’s a powerful testimony of the true support and love Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon consistently offers everyone.
How deeply powerful is the place of Universal Medicine and the work of Serge Benhayon, in restoring for us all the fact that we ARE amazing and divine in nature… That every single one of us can, if and when we choose, reconnect to the essence within us that ever-holds this truth – our truth – and from there, truly commence upon the path of unfolding back to all that we truly are. The letting go of the falsities we have donned that have clouded our light and distorted our expression, and the embracing of the love that has been here for us all along…
There will come a day when all of humanity are willing to reflect so honestly upon the falsities we have adopted – what we’ve accepted as ‘us’, when it is anything but that. The embracing of our true nature is most definitely our way forward Anonymous. Thank-you for revealing so poignantly and openly here, how this is possible for every single one of us.
What you have described is exactly what I am nit picking apart within myself. It’s the great set up that we have fallen for, it sets us up for a life where we live by a lie that says we are less than the glorious love we are. It becomes a constant loop that offers no evolution.
Imagine coming back so super-solid in our next life or perhaps the one after that little to none of the kinds of family dynamics described here touches us as children. Doing our utmost in our current life to develop that solidity is the preparation we need for the next.
The depth to which beliefs are embedded in us astounds me. Unearthing them might just be a lifetime’s task, requiring persistence, patience and oodles of compassion – understanding and love – for how they came to be… Or rather, how we came to step away from our innate knowingness to take on thoughts and ideals that have nothing to do with the truth of who we are, and act to keep us away from that very truth.
It can take quite a lot of delayering and self love in order to realise the extent of a lack of self worth and how that plays out in so much of what we do.
It sounds very simple–the key is to love and take care of our body. I find this suggestion deeply inspiring and since have discovered there is always more to deepen into. How can I care for and nurture myself even more today? And with this commitment towards myself, the question that accompanies is how can I bring more to all of my relationships in life?
What strikes me reading your story is how you were all trapped in the situation and how terrifying that must have been for you. This highlights the responsibility that we all have to address our false identities so that we can support the next generation to be true to themselves and break this self-perpetuating cycle of abuse.
It is amazing how in trying to make sense of the world around us when we are young we end up constructing a false identity and then we put so much effort into maintaining this without questioning the ideals and beliefs that we have taken on to support this. Deconstructing my false identity and letting go of the many ideals and beliefs about not being a worthy person etc with the support of Universal Medicine practitioners has been an ongoing unfoldment but I now have a deep connection to the beauty of my divine essence which I can now feel is reflected to me by so many others on the same path.
I think, as adults, we can forget what it’s like to be a child. If we really connected to the sensitivity, awareness and how children see and feel it all, we would never not cherish the preciousness that they are.
When we have life experiences that don’t confirm us for being the amazing beings we are we tend to accept that as our truth. However as you share “Now that I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self. I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.” A beautiful sharing Anonymous – thankyou.
“As I don’t recall feeling cherished for being me, is it possible then that I had no reference for who I truly am?” These words are so powerful and I feel that they are words that so many will be able to relate to from the time of their childhood. Not being cherished for who we truly are and instead identified by what we do, does not offer support to build that solid and steady foundation that we all need as we grow up; that compass for life that is so important to show us a way to live that deeply honours us and all of humanity.
Interesting that you comment on the ‘beliefs that you created ‘ being the cause of your years of distress and unhappiness Anonymous. We are generally far more inclined to see that our experiences are the cause of our issues and beliefs… hence we never actually resolve them. Responsibility for the hurts we feel, based on the beliefs we carry… allows us to resolve them thank you.
Although I have uncovered and dealt with many of my beliefs, there are still some deep ingrained beliefs that I have yet to work through. It is incredible how we let our childhood influence so many decisions we make because we get caught up in ideals and beliefs we hold and think are true, and when we do take a deeper look we find they are mostly based on other people’s thoughts and experiences and not our own, yet we take them on as our own.
When we absorb the turmoil, drama and chaotic emotions from our environments, it makes healing a lot more complicated because it is no longer clear what is what. Sure, issues are issues, but when they are not rooted in the body from self, they are hard to trace back and heal.
When we live the beliefs of low worth, for whatever reason, the way back is to live in a new way, ie. cherishing and honouring ourselves and our body. We could go to a counsellor for example, and understand how we took on those beliefs, but if the way we live and treat ourselves doesn’t change, nothing really does.
How many people carry into their adulthood the unresolved hurts they accumulated as children that haunt and undermines them long after the actual experience or incident has occurred.
Children are incredibly sensitive and feel so much more than we all too often give them credit for.
It is the most incredible freedom to recognise how our identity, behaviours and relationships are shaped by the emotional experiences of our childhood that remain locked inside affecting every experience and decision we make. Whilst we don’t need to re-live our childhood experiences, we do need support to acknowledge how they might be still affecting the decisions we make in our current day and how, by choosing to not address them, they affect our future.
‘Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole?’ Yes it definitely could be. However if this is not reflected back to us when we are growing up and that we are cherished and loved dearly then the sense and knowing of our wholeness seems to dimmer. That is why as a generation we have a huge responsibility to heal in order to reflect this to those coming through now so they are cherished and loved. This is the second blog I have read today where someone as gone to see counsellors and therapists in order to heal their past yet the true healing began when they came into contact with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, this was exactly the same for me as well. A testimony to what both Serge and Universal Medicine reflect and the quality and integrity of the healing modalities they hold and have brought through.
Vicky I feel this is because Universal Medicine communicates so clearly about who we all truly are – amazing, divine beings. If we understand or even remove the offending beliefs and emotions, but still do not know we are an amazing essence (exactly as we were born), then we can’t truly heal. Knowing and living who we truly are is a universal medicine.
Thank you Anynomous, this said, we can see how beautiful and important it is to expose our false identity and discover who we are.
Something I have appreciated from Universal Medicine is that no matter what we are all deeply worth cherishing and are love in essence. The problem is the world brings us up to think we need to go out and attain something to be recognised but it negates the fact that we have everything within and so by going outside of ourselves we feel an emptiness within and so no matter what we do or achieve we will never be truly satisfied or content. And hence the lack of self-worth is left to flourish within a society made of stupendous loving beings, which makes no sense when we look at it like this and shows how much we have allowed ourselves to have been fooled.
Human beings excel at finding ways to be confirmed that we are not worth it thanks to a host of situations we somehow end up being part of. Could it be that being part of them is just a consequence of us choosing against our own love and light? Could it be that we are setting ourselves up to explore worthlessness until we realise is not really worth it?
“I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.” Beautiful. A realisation that a lack of self worth is such a damaging emotion that drags us down into a grey existence.
This is a great blog and almost a pity it stands anonymous because of what is written. I can appreciate all that is being said and understand every point. With this, “Because these beliefs were so deeply embedded and embodied due to my living them as a false truth, it was very hard to realise that they were actually not true.” I can see much. As you are saying I thought it was just me until Universal Medicine supported me to see that it simply wasn’t. I wasn’t shown something new but more just moved aside all the things I had put on top of me and as you say ‘lived them’ which then lead me to believe I was them. Once you move these beliefs aside the whole world opens up, again and again and again. The blessing in all of this is truly connecting to who you are first, not what the world says you are and not just because this is what you think. But living with that true connection and then from there anything is possible and nothing is what it seems.
The tendency to construct situations that are totally felt like traps from which we cannot escape is very common. What is interesting is the extent to which these traps feel very real and how we accept them as such and create a life around them. These are all our own creation.
Very true Eduardo – not only have we created the struggle in the first place, but congratulate or reward ourselves for learning to cope with the struggles. Why not just live simply without the traps, conditions and complications in the first place?
Its amazing how much we take on as children and are run by these beliefs. Coming back to the place that is untouched by outer influences is what it takes to feel ourselves again, to come back to our essence.
This shows how very important it is that, when we are old enough, we turn towards ourselves and start to take deep care or ourselves. But then, we are often so caught up in the behaviours we have taken on as children that we do not know what it means to take true care of ourselves. We underestimate the impact life has on us and how much we are formed by life and a starting point is to open up to that that is not who we are and what life is about. That we are allowed to unfold what lives deep within us and we haven’t dared to express.
What you share here offers us all a very powerful insight into how our beliefs, when lived over and over again through our bodies, our behaviours and movements, do feel like they are real and it is hard to imagine that we are more than this, as this is what has been lived day in and day out. But as you have pointed out through your experience, when we are willing to go deeper, question the quality of how we are living and what quality we are living from, we will discover that there is a truth in our bodies that reflects the great and Divine Love we truly are. This truth is what guides us to live in honor of this Love, and magnify this quality in our bodies through our movements. When we connect to our bodies we can feel if we are living in harmony with this quality or not, ever-offering us the opportunity to deepen our connection to the greatness of Love that we are.
It’s very interesting how as kids we are so apt to deciphering what movements to make that will suit another or make things easy/comfortable – Almost as if we have had training to do so!
These patterns we take on from life become a configuration that is held in the body that runs like a default track. When true healing takes place these patterns are released from the body allowing our bodies to return back to harmony.
After reading this I feel the responsibility of living in a way that reflects the divinity we are all from to everyone. Many do not receive this reflection from their family or people who are around us as a child, and so it is vital for those who are rediscovering the truth of who they are to let it out, let it be seen and walked wherever we go. You never know who is watching, at the supermarket, petrol station etc.
The difference living in a loving family is so unprecedentedly different to one that is not.
‘The absolute gold that Universal Medicine has offered me is that the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me – the amazing being I have always been.’ This is such a gift a way back to our true self.
“Because these beliefs were so deeply embedded and embodied due to my living them as a false truth, it was very hard to realise that they were actually not true.”
That is the crux with beliefs, we are often completely unaware of them and it takes someone, who is completely free of this belief to reflect back to you that there is another way and then, if we are open to that person, but only if we are open do we start to get a glimpse and can actually feel that there is another way and can start to work on establishing that in our own lives. Quite a commitment to make but as is shared in this blog very much worth the effort.
Growing up for me had many fond memories, I had many brothers and sisters plus many, many cousins that were like more siblings and my parents were always telling me how amazing I was plus my Dad would cuddle me and had pet names from me, he would sing with me and dance with me and was always a warm memory in my youth. My mother my dearest friend that I told everything to and she never judged me, we laughed together and snuggled and I just loved them both so much……it all seemed so good, what could have gone wrong, well, something did go wrong, horribly wrong – What you might ask? Well here is a snap shot from age 10 up. I started to secretly teach myself to smoke cigarettes and pot at 10 years old, I was drinking alcohol by age 12, lost my virginity by age 13 and not long after was raped at a party. I became one of those girls at parties that would get drunk and then give head jobs in the bushes to guys I had been passing that night, yes, did I mention that I was taking ecstasy and acid trips at age 14, gong to night clubs and dating a 24 year old by the middle of the year, oh yes, it was that wild. So the moral to the story is, that even if you have it all, you can be missing the key ingredient and that is love, true love and that starts with self and then emanates forth. Livingness and energy are key to remembering our amazingness.
The world is desperately searching everywhere form the new age to the bottom of a bottle for the true self, and it is there all along quietly resonating in the gentleness of our breath and in the depth of our inner heart
From my perspective now, I can see that as a child, not having a true nor whole sense of myself, I decided that I was not worth much and somehow at fault.’ I think this is true for many of us as adults the responsibility lies with us to choose to reclaim the truth of who we truly are. It wasn’t until I came to the teaching of Universal Medicine and the Ageless Wisdom I have been able to reconnect with and learn to love myself, feel my body and the just how sensitive, tender and responsive I am to the love and nurturing I now give myself because I know I am worthy of Love.
This is one of the great gifts of the esoteric modalities “I came to see that many of the beliefs I had taken on and held were keeping me locked in emotions such as deep anger, struggle and helplessness.”
‘The absolute gold that Universal Medicine has offered me is that the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me – the amazing being I have always been.’ That there is something more to us than just being human and that there is a feeling in us that transcends time becomes more obvious as we begin to really cherish ourselves, deeply caring and loving ourselves.
As an adult we have a choice to live as who we are, regardless of our upbringing. I remember in my 20’s traveling to another country for the first time and realising that life was not “like all the rules I had in my head”. From that day I began to realise I can choose my way.
This opening to a possibility that something else might be true is a valuable gold nugget. Like you, I have found it to be the key that unlocks from long held beliefs to be open to a new possibility. Once we build self-worth so many choices change, choices that affect our emotional and physical outcome. It is vital medicine.
Connecting more with our body is an amazing tool for helping us see where we are holding beliefs or not being truly who we are. Otherwise as you say anon our habits and behaviours can be so ingrained that we identify with them as being who we are or just the way things are.
Your account of your childhood could be said to be the same for many, I could certainly relate. It is amazing that any of us make it through to adulthood but we do albeit as broken wounded shadows of our real selves. But as you say this we can turn around by learning to look inward and to cherish, appreciate and love who we truly are so as to break the cycle of lack of self worth once and for all.
Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole? What a question… it should be posed to every child, and put on the wall of every home to remind us of who we truly are, and the amazing beings we welcome into our homes when we have kids.
The adults also could do with this reminder! I know I do fall back into forgetting when I don’t confirm my wonderous whole.
How many homes in today’s world have the potential for far more love to be expressed both within and emanating from them but are not doing this because too many of us don’t know how to communicate and express our love for each other nor how to balance all our responsibilities and bring consistent care and steadiness to all that we do.
So much of this family situation written about here I can relate to and everything started to make sense to me after attending the Universal Medicine courses, as they help people to look deeper at themselves and the situations around them. Ultimately we have the key ourselves which will unlock the parts of life where we feel stuck.
The level to which I know I can trust my own feelings has been gradually increasing over the years, especially since attending presentations by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. It takes so much effort to be in self-doubt and to look to others for the answers. It is a true gift and healing for ourselves when we trust and act on our own feelings and intuitions.
I also started my inner search and path of healing very young, and it wasn’t until I came across the modalities presented by Universal Medicine that the true connection and was made with my inner heart, and that true healing started.
How our bodies feel to be in life is the way back to who we truly are and the love that is worth being a part of our lives – not just ourselves but everyone equally so. Thank you Anon for this reminder.
‘Now that I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self.’ There is such a massive joy in discovering just how precious and gorgeous you are, it’s one (of the many) amazing gifts I have been given through Universal Medicine.
Universal Medicine has truly played a great part in teaching me how to regain my own worth, and that I am actually all that I need to be. Through connecting more deeply with myself I have been able to make more loving choices, that have supported me in learning that true confidence comes from within.
‘From my perspective now, I can see that as a child, not having a true nor whole sense of myself, I decided that I was not worth much and somehow at fault.’ Your words made me realise that for many this is still very true, and through childhood and adulthood lack of self worth dictates the choices that are then made, until lack of self worth is no longer an issue.
We are amazing divine, pure love and whole. We are born into a world that is not set up to support this fact, but to smash us apart. This “training ground” world is like a big experiment, to see how long we can be kept in separation. But like two ends of a magnet, the force of love is too strong and it is impossible to separate forever. The reunion is inevitable. In truth we are all pieces of the same big magnet. Thank you Anonymous you are living proof of this truth, as am I .
You’ve nailed what eludes so many in their struggle with self-worth. Not only that ‘the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me’ but also that to even start the return, there has to be an awareness that what we have been living has been a ‘false truth’ based on beliefs erroneously constructed from a position of feeling worthless. This itself comes from the lack of being cherished, recognised or referenced for who we truly are.
It amazes me how we live for so much of our lives being someone that isn’t really us, but just a big melting pot of ideals and beliefs taken on from all those who were around us as we were growing up. I used to feel very confused at times wondering why I did certain things that really didn’t seem to fit with who I felt I was, but I continued to do them without question until finally one day I realised that, yes, they actually didn’t belong to the “real me”. With the love and support of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I have been discovering the “real me” by peeling back all the layers of ideals and beliefs that I allowed to run my life for so long; and it’s so wonderful to finally know who “me” truly is.
It’s quite sad that we very often place our self worth on receiving validation for ourselves from external sources effectively being swayed by others responses to us. This in itself creates a great deal of exhaustion if in response to this we change our behaviour to suit the prevailing ideal or belief at the time of what we feel another wants us to be in order for us to be accepted. Yet when we have a foundation of true connection with ourselves then what another thinks pales into insignificance compared to what we feel is right and true for us.
Thank you, Anonymous, I really love what you have shared here and the courage that you’ve showed to go there, to look at what has shaped your world and without blaming anyone in the process, wonderful. I too like countless others have benefited immensely from what Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine has presented to us all. In that like you, we are not our hurts but underneath all that, there is this amazing brilliant loving light of an all caring, all knowing person that holds so much wisdom and love to offer all.
Thank you Anonymous. Your words show me that any thought I have of not being enough is part of a false identity I have erroneously constructed.
This is a very simple yet profound awareness and as it liberates us from the shackles of being a victim, to being our own masters of ourselves.
I too, from my childhood, had no sense of me and feeling I was worthless. I had a reserve about me, not wanting to have a me, all the while putting out the false me in the so called ” doing good”. It is wonderful for us, that the light has been shed on who we truly are, deeply loving human beings in our essence and worthy of being loved and cherished. Thank you to Serge and Universal Medicine for shining the light on the false beliefs that have long held us imprisoned.
On reading your blog today Anonymous I felt a deep appreciation of your understanding and insight into yourself and your experiences; this seems like a great gift to yourself and your family.
“Understanding this allowed me to examine long held beliefs and patterns. Learning about myself is an ongoing and unfolding journey”.
So inspiring that you have made loving choices to shift these long held beliefs and patterns.
‘The absolute gold that Universal Medicine has offered me is that the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me – the amazing being I have always been.’ – Beautifully said and this also true of my experience with Universal Medicine, their love and true support allows you to heal any hurts or patterns holding you back from who you truly are.
“Now that I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self. I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.” I love your words and in this I find inspiration to also love, care and deeply honour myself. Thank you
I remember being surprised at how low my lack of self worth was too – though it’s not really surprising when I consider the massive amount of self doubt and criticism that constantly ran through my mind. Universal Medicine has helped me address this and taught me to cherish myself and learn to respect and nurture my body. The difference in the way I think and feel about myself is colossal.
It is the deep and profound healing that does take place within the courses offered, and the sessions given, by universal medicine and its practitioners, that enables us to truly heal the deep and disturbing events that most of us have lived through. Having started the search for alternative healing of such an early age, decade after decade spent and invested in courses trainings , potions and practitioners, it is an extraordinary thing to finally come across a source of such truth and wisdom and true healing.
The teachings presented by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have allowed me to explore and discard images about life and myself that I have held to which have created hardship and complexity in my life. I now enjoy more space and harmony within my body than ever before.
This blog is reminding me again of the truth of that we are within, how important it is to truly connect to our true self, not letting in any doubt but just feel that we are all that we need to be is the core of self worth.
How easy it is to fall for who we are not, our role models in life are often our parents, and we take up their beliefs and way of living as our own, until we have a reason to question those beliefs, through Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine Presentations, I was able to ask myself many questions, and over time deeply unfold to becoming more of who I truly am.
While I was reading, I was amazed about the strength of the love that is always within all of us. No matter the hardness of our living events. True love, and the deep understanding that it brings to us, clears everything, and take us back home.
“We live for so long, often well into adulthood, behaving and living according to these deep beliefs we take on that are so far from the truth of who we are.” This is so true. It’s like we build up a kind of defence strategy of how to cope in the world as children and then live that way into our adult years. The beauty of what you are saying in this blog is that these strategies are hiding the true amazingness of who we are. Through dropping the learnt ways of being, which are not truly us, we can shine and express the divine selves that we all equally are.
As small children we struggle to understand that the adults around us have issues that are not about us but we don’t have the skills to understand that so we take it personally and blame ourselves for everything that goes wrong within the family dynamics and create a false picture of the situation and blame ourselves. We carry the hurts associated with the pictures with us throughout of lives unless we and choose to take responsibility to connect to our bodies and feel our true self and our hurts and let them go freeing us to allow to healing and evolution to take place.
Today on re-reading this article this sentence stands out: ‘Perhaps by taking on the role that we are wrong is our way of being a piece of the puzzle, to make sense of a situation?’
I have observed this fact being played out with children and young adults I speak with, it is a powerful reminder that everything we do and say affects another in some way, and with the young, even more so.
What really stands out for me in this blog is just how much we effect others in the role modeling we offer. We can take on ideals and beliefs and others ways of living…or we can choose to have a loving and honouring way of being with ourselves that we share with everyone, inspiring others to be the same.
It is beautiful to read the understanding you bring to your parents Anonymous. So often we can get caught up in the blaming others for the way our lives are when the truth is we do have a choice to change … and your sharing here Anonymous is testament to the power of change when we choose what is truly honouring for ourselves.
‘Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous?’ Could it be… that we are born wonderful, deeply sensitive and humungously loving human beings and that has simply been masked? But it’s still there, underneath the layers of being something different to that, like hidden treasure simply waiting to be discovered.
“Is it possible that the beliefs I created from this experience became my accepted living truth and way of being?” Every thing that is not who we truly are We create and identify with and it is a process of letting go of that which is not true. Taking responsibility for ourselves is key.
This is a lovely blog to read Anonymous, discovering the real and true you, realising your worthiness and cherishing you and loving your body. What a beautiful journey we are on, back to the amazing being we are.
This is all so true and I can relate to it in many ways for I feel all of us growing up in this world have created acceptance of false identities by separation from our soul and letting go of living who we truly are. It is beautiful to feel you reclaim back to who you truly are in your livingness and way of being – I especially love the ending “The absolute gold that Universal Medicine has offered me is that the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me – the amazing being I have always been.”
Dear Anonymous I know exactly what you are writing about because in my family it was nearly the same atmosphere and feeling to life. Therefore I understand it very well when you say: “Because these beliefs were so deeply embedded and embodied due to my living them as a false truth, it was very hard to realise that they were actually not true.” It too took me a while – and work is still in progress – to let go of this deeply embedded and embodied beliefs. What made me very joyful is that it is possible to change and let got of these beliefs and therefore I know that I am – like you are with writing this truthful blog – a great role model that things can be changed even if I was nearly giving up.
Thank you fro sharing this blog Anonymous, as it is a very common theme I am sure that many people can relate to it, I certainly can, especially this part about being imprisoned by the false beliefs imposed on us: “I came to see that many of the beliefs I had taken on and held were keeping me locked in emotions such as deep anger, struggle and helplessness. I came to understand how my identity, my behaviours and my relationships were shaped by these.” It is ridiculous that we shape our selves on something that is foreign to us and grow up only knowing ourselves from there.
It is ironic isn’t it Bernard Cincotta, that as you say, we shape ourselves on something that is foreign to us and grow up only knowing ourselves from there, when at the same time, we have this amazing and powerful part of us, right underneath the façade.
“Because these beliefs were so deeply embedded and embodied due to my living them as a false truth, it was very hard to realise that they were actually not true.“ I know this very well – how embedded and dominant ideals and beliefs can be and have prevented me from being me. With the help of Universal Medicine and the modalities provided I have become more and more aware during the last years of what these ideals and beliefs I have had in my head have done to me, and have been able to let go of these ingrained thoughts and patterns more and more – absolutely freeing.
I love how you point out that every day there is more to appreciate, this is spot on, every day offers a new opportunity to learn something new and appreciate something new – it’s one of the greatest gifts we have.
Thank you for sharing, because it helps me to understand more about myself and others. As a child I was not subjected to physical or verbal abuse as mentioned in the above blog and yet I grew up to have no self worth, simply because my parents did not know how to love. And like you I am still “learning about myself which is an ongoing and unfolding journey”.
“Born Awesome” this is one of the first classes I teach in the community college that I work for. It would be great to have this class starting from pre-school and even better yet from the first education the children receive from their parents—with the love that we are re-discovering from within us by the grace of our choices and the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, this has already happened, is happening and will be happening much more as our future is now lived.
“Born Awesome” – now that is a class I would like to attend. What an awesome name and theme for your first class.
Wow Adele, a class called “Born Awesome”, this is amazing! To raise and present to our children the truth of who they are, is desperately needed in the world today.
Making sense of and for the world has been my pattern for a long time, and that takes me straight away from feeling the majesty of myself, as frequently what is reflected from the outside is not the majesty that we know within. Asking myself questions and just talking to myself through the details in life is a great way to come back to the preciousness and value I am. Anonymous, it is truly a deep joy to coming back to knowing and living who we are, and a celebration to be doing it together with so many others.
“I was still identifying with the thoughts and beliefs that I had assumed for myself as a small child.” I like the series of questions you asked yourself after this in order to identify why you had taken these on. Getting to the root of a problem is always more healing than just covering up and only dealing with symptoms, which just buries issues for them to be dealt with at a later date. I so appreciate these blogs – and Unimed students in general – for their willingness to go there and dig deep. The results? Miracles unfold as people change their lives.
This is a beautiful blog showing true healing is not just managing a situation or making us feel better – it is arresting what is feeding the pattern we are stuck in at the core, otherwise it is like muzzling a dog that bites. The muzzle makes us feel safe but whatever has led to the dog’s behavior has not been addressed.
Life is like an onion. We are born with the whole of it but as we go the onion loses some of its rings and suddenly we make the remaining few ones ourselves. Life becomes a very limited experience as we retrench.
“What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.” The depth of appreciation I have for the support I too have received from Universal Medicine practitioners and presentations does not come close in acknowledging the healing I have received to help me connect back to the glory of who I am. I too now am able to support others to see the glory of who they are. The love for humanity felt in this endeavour fills my heart with joy.
‘I don’t deserve any better’ is a belief I have taken on.”Because these beliefs were so deeply embedded and embodied due to my living them as a false truth, it was very hard to realise that they were actually not true.” Coming from a deep feeling of once having done something wrong, being confronted with a (to my eyes) loveless family in a way that I couldn’t feel a true reflection of the love I could feel inside me, I thought that this was it. Cope with life and get along with it. And because I couldn’t keep the connection to what I felt was true, doubting myself, thinking others always know better – I had turmoiled myself into a draining spiral of lovelessness as well. As if I had copied the world to no more be the “troubleshooter” by asking questions, demanding truth and love, claiming my fragility…. I remember making the choice to get others heal my hurt of separation. In my eyes it was because of them not being truthful – I couldn’t be. But looking back I can see that there’s no responsibility in this at all. Today I claim back my truth, my fragility and the immense love sparkling in my heart!
I love too that with the support of Universal Medicine I am now feeling wondrous and whole again as a grown up beautiful woman. It is truly gorgeous to feel how I now have the confidence to trust what I feel and stay with my amazingness and joy even if others not always choose that too.
It’s interesting to challenge some beliefs from childhood and understand that was how we learnt to cope and manage a situation at that time. But we are able to change that now with different understanding, because those old beliefs will still affect us on a daily basis and can hold us back if they go unchallenged. Choosing a different way is not as difficult as we can make out, once we understand where it’s coming from.
I can so relate to what you have written here anonymous, ‘From my perspective now, I can see that as a child, not having a true nor whole sense of myself, I decided that I was not worth much and somehow at fault.’ I did this, I did not feel cherished or adored, but rather the odd one out, as a child and I developed a real self loathing for myself. If I had known this it would have changed everything; ‘Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole?’ I can feel how this is rarely taught to children and that it is common for children to grow up feeling less than who they truly are.
With deep appreciation to Serge Benhayon and my other Universal Medicine Practitioners who have presented to me also the truth of the glory of who I am. I would not be aware of this if it was not for their support.
Stunning blog. “I can see that as a child, not having a true nor whole sense of myself, I decided that I was not worth much and somehow at fault.” This is the experience of so many children and was certainly mine. I have taken this into my adult life and undoing the training of my body believing this has been challenging – it is something I am very comfortable with and struggle to accept the true glory and awesomeness of who I truly am. Feeling this as a choice supports me to make different choices whilst tenderly feeling the old behaviours come up and drop away to allow more space for feeling the truth of who I really am.
A child feeling that they are at fault, or not worth much is is the most destructive thought in their formidable years. Someone not taking responsibility and putting a guilt trip on the child can be so devastating to incarcerate them for as much of their lives as they believe it. If you ever see a child (or adult) that has taken this attitude on let them know in no uncertain terms that it is false. This is a great one to keep in mind, thank you Gina.
This is a great question “As I don’t recall feeling cherished for being me, is it possible then that I had no reference for who I truly am?” The answer of course is that this is the truth. I remember as a child feeling so amazing within myself yet I never saw that same feeling I had within me reflected on my parents/family/teacher’s face towards me. It used to confuse me. So yes we need to feel cherished and loved because it reflects to us what we are actually feeling about ourselves when we are young. Having it reflected back to us confirms our own reality and so if it is not reflected back to us then we abandon what we know about ourselves and then try and be someone that we are not in our attempt to be seen.
True Elizabeth a reflection of what we are feeling from someone who lives it consistently is key. I can attest that with even a ‘great’ childhood in the way the world sees it, a happy close family with very caring parents, a child can see the inconsistencies, and craves for a society that invites and cherishes the true essence within everyone, without asking us to dim or change our light. The world is so confusing, bewildering and unsafe otherwise. We all have great responsibility to heal our own issues and live the love that we are in full with consistency, because everyone else sees that and feels it – and this has a huge impact, a lot more than we would wish to know.
This is very true Elizabeth, I can relate with this, ‘we need to feel cherished and loved because it reflects to us what we are actually feeling about ourselves when we are young. Having it reflected back to us confirms our own reality and so if it is not reflected back to us then we abandon what we know about ourselves and then try and be someone that we are not in our attempt to be seen.’
Awesome reflections Elizabeth. This too was my experience. Only the other day I was reflecting back to a feeling I had as a young girl, shaking my hair and feeling my pony tail swishing about. In that moment I can feel I was experiencing the joy of me and who I was. Only a short time after that, my Mum cut all my hair off to a short boy’s hair style. No judgement or blame here with our parents – perhaps they did not know how to handle their children’s light and what it brought up for them – but as children we change our lives around these experiences. How amazing to rid ourselves of the self-imposed prisons we take into our own adult lives.
Thank you Elizabeth – dealing with the inconsistencies from the people around us is very confusing as a child and what you say here makes sense ie. it being one of the reasons we abandon ourselves at such a young age. Understanding this is one of the steps in the healing process and making our way back to who we truly are.
Elizabeth thank you for this great sharing. It can remind me that as a child I had this amazing feeling within myself too and it also confused me that I could not feel it in others as a reflection. Your words gave me the possibility to remind me because I had nearly forget about it – thank you.
I agree Mary, it is such a natural thing to do, to give a child a hug when they feel hurt or at any time when felt to; it can make such a difference to the child and teacher in their day. To deny this does indeed create further tension instead of bringing joy and harmony within our schools.
What more is needed in any given moment than when we have a reflection of love and feeling cherished; we feel safe and we can trust. Having these reflections as children growing up, we then go out into the world knowing who we truly are.
And to also know that even though we might have no reflection of that love, if our love and choice is strong enough we are able to hold our love even if we have no parents to offer us this reflection. I know I had not chosen to hold my love without this reflection in the past, but I definitely know now that next time that I will be born, I will choose to hold strong and commit to that yummy love even if the reflection is not there.
Growing up I was aware I was living a life that was not true to me, but no matter what I tried there was something still very much missing. It is only through knowing Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine including Universal Medicine practitioners that finally I am starting to re-connect and feel the truth of me. This is such a blessing especially in a world that is currently constantly being set up in a way that leads us further away from ourself not back to who we truly are.
It took me a long time and a long look at my early years to realise that I had had “no sense of myself because I was taking on the emotional turmoil of my parents?”. To finally understand that as a little girl I had felt responsible to try to fix my parents and to help carry their pain, only served to bury all that I naturally was underneath this huge and unnecessary load. The release of this burden was an incredible feeling of freedom and one that allowed me to then start to connect back to that beautiful and sweet little girl.
It is so very freeing to drop the patterns that we have adopted to cope with life. My main one was staying small, so that others could run the show and feel better about themselves, playing small then became my identity. So very freeing when we start to realise those patterns are just a game we have been playing. I have loved connecting to the fact that the real me is so much more expressive, playful and powerful.
Lovely blog. I can relate to this. Isn’t it beautiful to get to know your real self! Serge Benhayon has led us to the beautiful life that is available to us through the power of healing.
Yes, what a beautiful life it is when we can let go of the old paradigms and free ourselves to feel the essence of who we truly are. Thank heavens for Serge Benhayon and his insistence that we are so much more than what we have allowed ourselves to become. And what joy to know that it is never too late to return to our true selves.
So true Janetwilliams…”Thank heavens for Serge Benhayon and his insistence that we are so much more than what we have allowed ourselves to become. And what joy to know that it is never too late to return to our true selves.” There is no excuse for giving up on ourselves and the amazing life that is there to be lived if we so choose.
I also agree Janet, thank heavens for Serge Benhayon. To be there year in year out, reflecting consistently a love for all that is just so uncompromising. That has not one ounce of judgement, criticism, condemnation on anyone. He is just love, loves all equally no matter what shenanigans people get up to, behaviours of those who so down right abusive, not loving at all. But there is always just love and incredible understanding of where people are at. I am deeply inspired by him every day.
Reading your story shows the true power that healing has, regardless of what has taken place in the past – how lost we have got, the many false identities and faces we’ve worn underneath all of that is the real me – the true essence that has remained untouched for eons.
Well shared David. Regardless of what has taken place the next steps are about going where we need to go next.
True healing and evolution indeed is found in dealing with our past hurts and issues. A wonderful responsibility and how different would the world be if we all engaged in doing this.
This is such a great article, bringing out into the open the childhood hurts many of us carry and how this really affects our lives. In my experience, it is only through Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that this has been clearly exposed, and true healing and understanding has been brought to the lives of so many, with an ever increasing awareness, love and appreciation of themselves and their way of living. The true gift and appreciation of what Serge Benhayon is bringing to the world for us all is just beginning as we begin to find our real selves, like you have, thank you for this great sharing.
I thought this was great very open and an easy read like it is nothing but a memory of how things used to be, and i guess thats why this part stuck out so much for me.
“I came to understand how my identity, my behaviours and my relationships were shaped by these.”
Developing understanding and asking the hard questions we at times tend to avoid is the way and opens up endless possibilities.
Anonymous, I love that you asked so many questions. Questions are such an important part of understanding and they can have a way of opening us up to possibilities and answers. Sometimes I find the answer in the question, if that makes sense. It’s like my body can ask the question and then gives the answer. Ahhh, the magic of our body…
So true Elizabeth, questions are super important as they support us to come to a greater awareness and understanding about anything in life.
“What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.” I see and feel this in many of the Universal Medicine students, including myself. It is a natural unfolding, dropping the old ideas and concepts to expand into a new way of being that has always been there, that supports us in the true love that we are.
I grew up in a matriarchal family and we all knew who was really in charge. I had my quiet little rebellions but they were always put down. I still carried the imprints when I finally left the nest but some of the tendrils were still there for years, this line sums it quite well ‘We live for so long, often well into adulthood, behaving and living according to these deep beliefs we take on that are so far from the truth of who we are.’ I must also claim that Universal Medicine has shone me the way back to who I truly am and what my purpose is. It is never too late to re-discover the greatness that has always resided with us all.
Your comment sjmatsonuk is symbolic of many experiences that children try to understand in some way, but cannot find the clarity to not make it about themselves. You are also so right about it is never too late to re-discover who we are. The choice to turn around and have a good look in the mirror causes a significant shift within.
“It is never too late to re-discover the greatness that has always resided with us all.” This is so powerful sjmatsonuk. We are already the greatness that we wish to be, we simply need to make the choice to accept that truth, and no matter our age that greatness has the opportunity to come forth and be the expression with which we live.
“What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.” beautifully expressed and there would be hundreds that would feel the same way as we now enjoy living the true joy of who we are.
Having grown up in a similar environment as you I can totally relate to what you went through. So awesome you are now joyously loving, cherishing, caring and living who you are. Once we choose to live in our joyous and loving natural way, we feel complete and full and with this, nothing outside of us can really affect us. We then can also reflect to others who they are and true love can be felt.
As someone who works with children, I would like to see a societal acceptance of investigating ways that we can support children NOT to take on the emotional stuff of the world around them.
“Cherish” is such an exquisite word and an equally exquisite way in which to hold oneself throughout life. Taking on the emotion turmoil of others as a child and formulating a fall set of intransigent beliefs as a result of this, is a path all too familiar to so many. The return to true love presented by Universal Medicine is the only way I have found to re- instate the loveliness of cherishing my self and others in this life.
Life can be very difficult. Some people suffer seriously chaotic lives with one problem after another. These problems are very real and when we are caught up in them, it can be hard to see the light. It’s ok to feel sad, angry or whatever, as an initial reaction, because at the end of the day, we are living human lives with very raw things that happen despite our seeking of security and comfort. However, while that may be going on, the only way to get back to the light is to keep feeling and know that even the worst things pass if we are willing to keep coming back to love.
I love your comment, Jinya. Thank you. Keep feeling is key. And come back to love. Always. No matter what.
Reading this blog made me take a deeper look at my childhood and how it resulted with me having similar issues with self doubt, lacking confidence etc. It is great to be able to look back and not put the blame on anyone as our parents were just doing the best that they could.
Indeed kevmchardy blame only serves to bolster irresponsibility.
Well said, kevmchardy, and something I worked on for years. It actually feels lovely to take full responsibility for my own choices of what I have allowed to affect me and not blame anyone, not even my parents.
‘As I don’t recall feeling cherished for being me, is it possible then that I had no reference for who I truly am?’ I agree Anonymous, even if we have been brought up with so called loving parents which were emotionally loving but not been able to meet the child in its natural presence.
When we take a long deep look at our childhood hurts and parent’s behaviors, it must come with great understanding and zero blame or judgment of them, then and only then is true healing for the whole family possible.
As children we are deeply loving, tender and feel the everything that’s going on, when things are not harmonious in our family’s we attempt to bring harmony and love, leaving our true identities behind and adopt a false identity, which can have a crippling effect on who we truly are and the expression of that for the rest of our life’s, what you have shared is a extraordinary transformation of how it is possible to truly heal.
Beautifully expressed Thomas. I agree, no matter what traumatic experiences we may have endured in the past, our choice to heal is always available. It is entirely up to us what we choose, to either indulge in the cycle of misery or break the cycle, heal our hurts to reveal who we truly are, the amazing powerful love that is within all.
I fully agree Thomas; those false identities we take on, often unknowingly, “can have a crippling effect on who we truly are” and sometimes these masks and roles are with us for all of our life, as they have been imprinted so deeply into us that we have simply accepted them without question.
Thank you for sharing your incredible story for us all to learn from, your dedication to unraveling your true identity and the awesome, amazing person you are.
It’s an astonishing and very real truth to come back to that regardless of how our lives have been and the trauma we have faced, there is a place within us that we can reconnect to that is “wonderous and whole” – and we can learn to live from this place again.
Beliefs are crutches that we learn to lean on and they give us a false sense of security.
And often we get so used to walking with and leaning on these crutches, that we do forget that once we walked without them. Seeing others walking without them is the strongest inspiration for us to re-learn walking free again.
This is so true Gabriele and Brendon. Your comments highlight how harmful seeking a false sense of security loaded with beliefs can be and it diverts us further away from living our true essence. Once we realise this, it is empowering to know that we have a choice to let go of beliefs that weigh us down and choose a true way of living that embraces truth and love.
Gabriele absolutely love this, sweet short right to the point
“Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole?” whenever we meet a baby we would know this fact to be true however somehow we lose this knowing about ourself as we grow up and take on the challenges of the world from the false identity. One of the greatest gifts is coming back to the “real me”. It would certainly transform our planet if we all truly embraced this.
As I read your blog it reminds me of how very important it is for parents to fully love, adore and cherish their children. But sadly almost everyone in this world is overwhelmed by the mounting of daily tasks and past hurts that they are unable to care for themselves in this way let alone children if they have them. I feel there is so much room for healing working with parents to support them in dealing with this overwhelm so they can then share with their children all the love they crave to but yet lack the skills or ability in how to do this.
Thanks to Serge Benhayon on many occasions speaking about free-will and responsibility your following sentence Anonymous makes a lot of sense to me- “From my perspective now, I can see that as a child, not having a true nor whole sense of myself, I decided that I was not worth much and somehow at fault.” The questions you asked to debase the beliefs feeding the lack of self-worth, shedding light on the true you underneath these and by honouring your body and cherishing the true you are all building that missing ‘whole sense of myself’ that you lacked as a child. I lacked this too and as I accept reincarnation re-building this foundation and strongly knowing who I am in truth makes it my responsibility in future lives to know my worth and that I am not at fault if the adults around me have forgotten who they are and where they come from. Furthermore when Serge Benhayon presented on this I found it incredible, beautiful and freeing to understand that it is possible to reincarnate with such a strong sense of our true self that not only can the child stay connected to themselves and not waiver the child can be the one that brings love to the adult. For more on this-
http://truthaboutuniversalmedicine.com/2015/10/27/hidden-treasure-and-the-illusion-of-elders/#more-3720
“As I accept reincarnation re-building this foundation and strongly knowing who I am in truth makes it my responsibility in future lives to know my worth and that I am not at fault if the adults around me have forgotten who they are and where they come from. Furthermore when Serge Benhayon presented on this I found it incredible, beautiful and freeing to understand that it is possible to reincarnate with such a strong sense of our true self that not only can the child stay connected to themselves and not waiver the child can be the one that brings love to the adult.”
This is incredibly beautiful and powerful to feel, thank you Deanne.
This allows a cycle of re-inforcing the lie that families collude to create ,it can be broken, freeing the members to begin healing and evolve to the Truth of what we are here for.
This whole blog is a wonderful example how Universal Medicine offers very deep childhood healing and the kind of understanding that some might not get to even with the support of conventional therapy. I did not have a difficult environment as a child, it was in fact comfortable in many ways yet I still have adult behaviours that originate from holding onto sadness and other emotions I felt in childhood and behaviours I learnt in childhood such as pleasing others to gain their approval. Nothing offered me understanding and healing like Universal Medicine has and to me this blog confirms important key components for healing such as
1. our negative emotions, thoughts and behaviours are not who we are
2. we are love, innately divine and already whole and complete
3. The Universal Medicine healing therapies, including Esoteric Psychology support the clearing of who we are not so that knowing the divinity of who we are is not a theory but something we can re-connect and become familiar with, this re-builds trust.
It’s important to never blame but to express how life was and how it has made me feel, with zero emotion. Great healing in expressing the truth and an opportunity for all to do the same, win win for everyone.
I agree Mathew, it’s super important to express without the blame and with the willingness to understand others without emotion in order to accept and move forth.
This is a very empowering step, Matthew and Francisco, as holding onto blame only stops us taking responsibility and having the freedom to choose another way for ourselves.
It takes enormous courage to admit that everything we have identified with and built around us could be false. My moment of realisation came when i was pregnant with my third child, I attended a workshop with Serge Benhayon and realised as he spoke about choices that all of mine up until this point had not been truly from me, although i was devastated i also felt the enormous strength in letting go of a lie that i had been holding together.
It sure does take a whole lot of courage and willingness to start to look at what we have created to believe is true. It gets pretty hairy and uncomfortable to feel this false life you have created but the beauty of Serge Benhayon and the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom you are totally 100% supported with the enormous Love that we Are. When I started to accept this and allow this in my life the more of what is not this I wanted to see and let go of. There is still stuff coming up to this day and I wouldn’t want it any other way.
“There is still stuff coming up to this day and I wouldn’t want it any other way.” Indeed most of us have seen the involution caused by judgement and blame, stepping forward with understanding and responsibility there can be no problem too big.
A great point Brendan. And we can easily become many versions of ‘who we are’ throughout our day, week and lifetime. Seems much simpler to be the real version from the get go …and a lot less draining.
And hear, hear for myself and countless students – ‘The absolute gold that Universal Medicine has offered me is that the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me – the amazing being I have always been.’
Yes Tamara, who would have guessed way back when that we hold the key to who we will be and we have been walking around with that key all of our lives and through every unloving choice we have ever made, our true glorious self was glistening away, just under the surface, waiting for a glimpse and acceptance of its mighty power.
What is gorgeous about Universal medicine and the Ageless Wisdom that the start of the conversation is this amazing being that I have always been”. Pretty much everything else until then would look at the issue and work on the issue. I find everything about Universal Medicine is honouring at the deepest level and encourages that level of honouring within ourself.
Thank you for sharing your personal journey which I’m sure most of us can relate to in somewhat different flavours. What really stands out is that we don’t have to remain victims of our circumstances – at any given moment we always have a choice to take responsibility for who and what we are.
Cherishing who we are for just being ourselves is super important. If we don’t do this, it is like climbing a ladder with steps missing.
“Cherishing who we are for just being ourselves…” to me sounds like a foreign language as no one in my childhood treated me or talked like that to me. Learning to cherish myself for just being me is unfamiliar to say the least if not at times heavily opposed by self-doubts and held on beliefs that need to be exposed for the falseness they are. And very well said, without cherishing oneself some steps cannot be taken and the foundation we build will have holes and gaps we later on possibly will stumble upon.
When we fully cherish ourselves we then don’t feel the need be cherished by others. It creates a beautiful space of allowing others to be themselves. When you meet someone who fully cherishes themselves it’s so amazing that you can’t help but feel naturally drawn to cherish them too and feel encapsulated with this lovely feeling. So, what is already naturally present, has a tendency to pull to be expanded upon by others.
It was not until I met Serge Benhayon and began studying with Universal Medicine that i realised how many old beliefs and ideals I was holding onto, despite years of therapies and all else. The description of your parents and the way they reacted to life could be my parents, Anon, the same dynamic. I always wanted to keep the peace but was slammed down for doing it. living between them and wanting to please both, and so set up a pattern that I followed, and find I still do when I am not paying attention to myself. It all became about “out there” and “other people,” in order to protect myself. And so the layers built up. Now I am finding that place deep inside that is utterly worthy of being cherished, things are changing, I am changing, those around me are changing. That is the magic of love in its true form.
Yes that is the magic of love in it’s true form, it is contagious.
Universal Medicine has been true Gold for all humanity. For those who are a part of it, for the family and friends around those who are now living in more truth because of Serge Benhayon and for all those who will one day use or access the ancient wisdom on all the sites.
hear hear!
‘Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole?’ Absolutely yes.
A very beautiful blog, it shows me how in trying to cope with situations as children, we can learn to change how we express ourselves, perhaps for protection, or maybe to extract some form of loving intent from others. All the same, who we are can become buried and this leaves everyone with less, because who we are is always worth cherishing.
I enjoyed reading this again Anonymous, and can relate as many others will also. It took me some time to not react to people arguing and for most of my adult life I refused to argue within my relationships, but that in itself isn’t healthy as much has been left unsaid and resentment sets in. When people were aggressive to each other with body language and their words I would become very anxious and want to escape, but now with greater understanding I am finding I can step back and observe a lot more – this helps me to not try and guard my sensitivity, which in reality doesn’t truly work.
Yes, I have always struggled with aggression of any form, ‘When people were aggressive to each other with body language and their words I would become very anxious and want to escape’. I am learning to observe and not take on other people’s ‘stuff’, and so not close down and become protected.
I guess its learning to honour, accept and respect quite how sensitive, fragile and tender I am instead of toughening up to get by as I spent most of my life doing.
I would like to add some cherishing to this new way of living.
Interesting how we observe our parents – in my case it felt like Mum was the strong one and my father was busy working but when he was home they would argue. He would go outside and smoke his pipe to escape and I would feel resentful towards her. It always felt like there was no love between any of us, which is sad, but the person I was angry against more than anyone was myself, and that self-loathing drove me into becoming hard as an adult. Much of that is gone now and my body feels much more tender, but there is still a level of fragility to nurture and appreciate before I can express fully the woman I am.
“Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole?” A great question Anonymous. When I spend time with new babies they are indeed amazing and just are naturally themselves – and people gravitate towards them. How sad that so many of us lost that natural ease of being in our own skin. Yet, seeing the children of Universal Medicine students, it is inspiring to know that there is a different way of being that can be lived form a very early age.
I just love the word ‘cherish’, and after reading your blog I am struck by how usual it is that people don’t feel cherished, not by their parents, their spouse, their friends and certainly not by themselves. I feel that you have come a long way and now cherish how important it is to be and feel cherished, and from here on it, that will be your way.
What you said about being cherished reminds me of a family situation where everything seemed ok but underneath there was a feeling of tension that we all picked up on. I can see the effect it has had on the younger members, one in particular who still struggles, as an adult, with not feeling enough.
Cherish conveys a depth of appreciation, honour and preciousness of life. May we each cherish our quality, divinity and all that we are and honour our place in the Universe.
Thank you Deborah – very beautiful words for us all.
Beautiful!
Me too Suzanne – the word ‘cherish’ struck a cord within me as well.
Thank god for Universal medicine and thank you for sharing your story with us, it shows many people that what ever happens in our life…….. it does not have to define us, there is another way.
This is one of the greatest gifts – connecting to our true self and learning how to tell the difference between that and all sorts of ideals, beliefs, emotions and whatnots with which we have camouflaged our essence. One great thing this offers is that it is so much easier to tell the lies apart, even when we lie to ourself. With all the falseties and untruths everywhere I find this very very needed.
One of the greatest gifts indeed Golnaz – very needed and very powerfully said.
To see you analyze your childhood and scrutinize your parent´s behaviours with true understanding instead of judgement and blame is refreshing and the way to deal with one´s childhood issues that have become one´s adult issues that then contribute to the issues of one´s own children… Understanding prepares the way for responsibility.
True Alex that ‘Understanding prepares the way for responsibility.’
Understanding allows us all to move on, to step away from drama, hurt and dynamics and to live a life of our own making.
“Learning about myself is an ongoing and unfolding journey.” I feel that this is true for all of us and I love when you claim “…the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self.” This is a truly open, honest and beautiful sharing of a difficult childhood and journey of realisation about who you truly are that continues to unfold. Thank you for sharing this, it is inspiring.
Yes, I agree with what you share here Lee, and yes, ‘This is a truly open, honest and beautiful sharing of a difficult childhood and journey of realisation about who you truly are that continues to unfold.’ Very inspiring.
‘I came to see that many of the beliefs I had taken on and held were keeping me locked in emotions such as deep anger, struggle and helplessness. I came to understand how my identity, my behaviours and my relationships were shaped by these.’ This was so very true in my life too – several years ago I met a nurse where I was working who in our conversations helped me to realise that I was actually holding onto the emotional pain I had felt earlier in my life and looking to those I held responsible to acknowledge it and their part in it. I was blaming them. I realised that I first had to let go of this to be able to move forward.
Well said Michael. When we hold onto emotions, past pain and blame towards those who hurt us in the past it is impossible to move forward and deepen our relationships with other people or with ourselves… It’s a bit like having a (self-made up) brick wall that consists of loads of different layers of sadness, frustration, anger, grief, jealousy, betrayal etc. that prevents us from really touching base with all the love that we are, and expressing that in everyday life.
Even though I know this and have read similar accounts on exactly this, Susie, – holding on to the past and having a wall built up – the way you describe it made it much clearer than ever before. Awesome, thank you.
It’s amazing how an encounter with someone can help us begin to change something so important. Your comment really reminds me of the catalyst effect we can have on each other – thank you.
I began to be committed to self development, and letting go of old patterns and hurts some years back, I saw counsellors and I did resolve and let go of some of it, “Knowing that I had issues to be addressed, I saw counsellors over the course of my adult life. However, it really wasn’t until I had healing sessions with Universal Medicine practitioners, and participated in their workshops and courses, that I began to understand and change how I saw myself, and how I live.” However much of this healing only scratched the surface, much of it came from the ‘head’, I agree,my attending Universal Medicine courses has opened up the potential of deep healing for the whole body and soul.
Yes – Universal Medicine gets to the root causes of the pain and allows a full discarding, Hey, davidsonSamantha? My experience of counselling was that it was great in sharing strategies to manage hurts and obviate them in the future – which was great at the time -but eventually I wanted the complete dissolving of the hurt.
Me too Coleen, I knew there was more healing to be done so I never felt satisfied. It was not until I came across Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that offered me another way and like Coleen where the issue in my body could be healed in full; never before had I come across a modality that got to the root cause.
“From my perspective now, I can see that as a child, not having a true nor whole sense of myself, I decided that I was not worth much and somehow at fault.” So many children take on stuff like this from their parents, but it isn’t who they – we – are. I feel so blessed having come to Universal Medicine to be able to let go of these old patterns that no longer serve. The world needs to know there is another Way……and one day it will.
This is beautiful what you share here Sue. I too can very much relate to being quite lost as a child with no inner compass so to speak to guide me back to my inner self – literally lost at sea. It has been through my own choices to heal and the truth presented to me by Universal Medicine that I have reconnected back once again to the love I am.
Isn’t it often that we take on emotional staff, sadness or drama from our parents and often we end up not feeling ourselves anymore but living a rythm which pleases others. Great turnaround, Anonymous, that you now gave yourself a chance to feel yourself again. After all, what you have experienced it is not so easy to let go of the hurts, ideals and beliefs, but you have done it which is great and shows that it is never too late. I agree, Universal Medicine is a wonderful support in this.
Yes Universal Medicine is leading the way. Humanity is hurting and struggling in dealing with these hurts. Universal Medicine offer hurts are not something we need to deal with or cope with but rather heal and let go of.
Thank you for sharing this truthful blog and all the wisdom that Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon have brought to you and for us all. It certainly is the gold we are all really looking for and can connect to inside our bodies and how we live truly honouring all we are. Responsibility and living who we truly are in the valuing of ourselves and others is vital to our lives and that of all humanity.
Thank you Anonymous for sharing your story: I suspect many of us have a similar tale to tell. What we don’t yet share is the level of understanding you have brought to this topic. The work of Universal Medicine is instrumental in supporting people to come to the understandings you speak of here, without drama and without judgement. Thank you also Serge Benhayon, founder of Universal Medicine, for reminding us of the Ageless Wisdom that allows it to be so.
Well said Victoria and coming to this understanding is what we are all searching for.
Absolutely Victoria a huge thank you to Serge Benhayon and the Ageless Wisdom for being that constant reminder that we are much more than what we think we are. That we are in fact all connected and beating to the same pulse that created us. This pure love that resides deep within us all. Being presented with this truth has been the biggest turning point in my life and choosing to live the Love that I am keeps getting more and more amazing.
It can be quite difficult to value ourselves when we blame ourselves for events and situations. When self ‘value’ is destroyed very early on in a child’s life, it can be hard to back yourself when you know what is true or not.
Indeed, Matthew. We then try to live up to something or become perfect in everything and just refuse to consider – let alone feel – that we are enough just as we are.
I agree Matthew. Thank God for the reflections of Serge Benhayon, the Benhayon family, Universal Medicine Practitioners and the student body. With reflection many, many more will feel the true value they are.
I agree, it can be difficult, especially when we disconnect from our bodies and when much of our society feeds this disconnection… However turning this around starts with a simple choice, and that choice is to take responsibility and to re-connect to our bodies.
Well said Angela, it always comes down to choice; it is our choice to come back to ourselves or not.
This is true Matthew – we can smell, feel, know and hear a false yet if we have not consistently backed ourselves in confirming our knowing and standing firm in our truth from the start, we are unlikely to have built a solid base to hold such truth. Its a great thing that it is never too late to value ourselves, to connect to who we have always been in truth and to speak the truth.
Well said Deborah, it’s never too late to start to re-connect to ourselves, to value ourselves and to return to the knowing of the truth that we all actually have.
What you describe here, Matthew, is the classic situation which produces a child who wants to ‘please’ or even to ‘disappoint’ in order to get the recognition that either tactic brings. In these situations, the right or wrong of the action does not matter, it is getting some attention from someone which is the desire.
Being able to recognise this has been a huge healing, for not only me, but being able to feel when another person is trying to win my attention to satisfy their need for recognition. There is no going into judgement in these situations, but a loving understanding, that we all end up seeking recognition instead of love at some time in our lives.
Well said Naren. The loving understanding makes all the difference in these situations. If I don’t allow the understanding what is most uncomfortable for me is my own reaction, more so than another persons choice to play the recognition game.
Indeed, Vicky. The spiral of reaction can start the moment we do not allow understanding to be the basis of our response to any situation.
Yes Matthew it’s true, a lack of ‘self’ value in those formative early years can make backing yourself quite difficult. What is incredible is that the author of this blog has found a way back and I think that is just wonderful.
Yes indeed Matthew but we now have the opportunity to heal past issues and beliefs we may have held onto from childhood by choosing to stop and connect to the quality of our own heart. That is something we all bestow and no one can de-value that. We are our own wealth of wisdom and truth and we can tap into it at anytime. There is always another opportunity to make a different choice, the door never closes completely.
Yes Matthew. Valuing ourselves is something that most of us find very hard to do, especially if our value has been destroyed early on in life. We then learn to strive to ‘be’ something in order to feel we are worthy and to be accepted by others, rather than simply knowing that we are enough just as we are.
Great Article, what I love about it is the lack of emotion and victimhood that could be very present here with what you have experienced in your past. It is clear that you have cleared much of this and are well on your way to reclaiming the amazing you.
Yes katechorley – it is refreshing and deeply inspiring to feel the level of self-responsibility and true healing that is reflected here.
Since reading this blog I’m more often choosing to be me again. I can feel how my own lovelyness is with me when I choose connection. So tenderly, so Heavenly, so precious, so joyful. As this becomes more and more my own foundation, the moments that I am not connecting are becoming more and more obvious. The difference is so grand that I am really missing myself when not connected. Nothing in this world is a substitute for my own love. And when being connected to my love, it is also quite ‘easy’ to let others be. Where if I’m not connected to my love, where as I react a lot to others when I am not connected. I do have a choice…
This is just gorgeous Floris! I felt when you said “So tenderly, so Heavenly, so precious, so joyful” – that it is true, and it is also for me to appreciate more. We are all this in our connection. I agree the “the difference is so grand” to when we are not connected.
I could feel you too Arianne. It is Gorgeous to read that we are in fact all one – only that we do not choose to connect to it. And by expressing and confirming each other that we are indeed heavenly and sharing that ‘the difference is so grand’, we’re starting to turn the world upside down. First of all for ourselves, laying the foundation for other to stand on. How beautiful and precious is that. Something to be appreciated :). Thank you Arianne.
Great observations Floris – nothing in this world comes close to being a substitute for True Love.
Wonder-full reminder Floris, that nothing in this world is worth loosing our connection to our bodies and to the amazing tender beings we are, yet we continue to pursue things outside of us to try to fulfill the emptiness when we are not connected, and the more we fill it the emptier we feel!
Hear hear, yes Thomas. I can very much relate to what you’re saying. “The more we fill it, the emptier we feel!”. I now understand also how this in fact is the (evil) foundation of measuring my life against the life of someone else. Where really, this is all comparison and doesn’t change anything for me. I am still suffering from my own level of emptiness. No matter how great my life is, compared to someone else’s. Each moment (!!) that I do not feel my own Love is actually choosing emptiness. Which space has to be filled up by some kind of other energy, rather than my own precious Love. How arrogant, blind and ignorant do we choose to be…
Great Floris, it’s so true when we are not connected it is easy to react to others, If I am not holding myself in tenderness and preciousness then it’s not possible to hold another in love and equal to me.
Hi Thomas & Floris, I love what you have shared here, and I so enjoy having your loving reflections to remind me exactly of what you shared; the more I appreciate my tenderness and preciousness I can hold others in this love equally so. Indeed without our inner connection, it’s very easy to react to others and we all lose out on love, taking our focus to what’s not even real nor true.
Such wise words, Thomas and Floris, – and so inspirational to read. It touches me deeply.
Yes, I can relate to this ” when being connected to my love, it is also quite ‘easy’ to let others be”. Exactly. And the other thing that stood out for me was “the more we fill it the emptier we feel!” Of course.. Because we fill the body with the wrong energy. Ouch.
A lovely way of being in this world Floris, inspirational, we always have a choice in every moment, to be love or not, to be connected or not.
How wonderful Lorraine that we come back to this Wisdom that is resonating within us all and now recognised, shared and confirmed by so many. I love reading your comment and feeling the appreciation and the confirmation towards your own love. Thank you. This feels yummy and connected. Confirming that we are indeed all One.
so true Floris. It is a choice to stay connected to the love that we are, and in making this choice we allow others to be.
Yes Lee, and how amazing is that. More and more I am able to see through the dramas, the games, the emotions and just stay with myself, not wanting any outcome. It is profound and amazing to see and experience the effect when ‘just’ staying with me. Quite often over a short period of time the other one calms down and comes back to their senses. Feeling that whatever they choose just before, they’re still loved. And by feeling that they allow themself to feel their love as well, choose to reconnect. Simply Amazing science. Almost too simple for the human spirit. But worth surrendering naught. Thank you Lee.
Nothing indeed comes close to the divine feeling of your particles tingling from self love.
Reading your comment Ilja made me smile as I could feel the joy you wrote in connecting to the particles tingling from self love. A joy to read and feel. It is indeed truly joyful to feel the particles tingling. I love the word tingling. My smile gets bigger and bigger while writing this comment. Thank you Ilja :).
Lovely 🙂
Beautiful comment! Connection is EVERYTHING, without it it’s hard to keep all the turmoil that happens in life outside of us. I love being reminded so tenderly how important our connection with ourselves is – thank you.
Yes Meg, not even hard… In my experience it is impossible to leave the turmoil outside of me when I’m not connected. Secondly I’m missing out on the gorgeousness, tenderness and all the love I am. And yes, it’s gorgeous to be reminded, everytime again and again.
Yeah that’s a great point, it’s impossible to leave the turmoil outside of us when we’re not connected, we don’t have a chance! And when we are not connected we miss out on so much beauty and gorgeousness that’s ever present.
Without bashing ourselves when we’re not connected! I am finding more and more how on one hand I am very strong, but on the other hand life is reflecting to me a lot of vulnerabilities. To be honest about feeling sad, raw, pain, stress, anxiousness is the way to learn about myself and to really re-choose my open heart. In my experience so far I am playing a game when I am not open and when I try to not feel those emotions. I am learning that it is very freeing to allow myself to be vulnerable.
That’s super true, allowing yourself to feel whatever you’re feeling without judging it or trying to make it something different is tremendously freeing.
The Joy is coming right through your comment Meg. It is super freeing. As if we don’t have to hold on to all the seriousness which in fact is a way to control. Which isn’t even me… Loving myself and honouring what is there to be felt is freeing in the first place and secondly also very joyful, stilling and building amazing relationships.
This is my 2nd read and I’ve enjoyed very much reading about the way in which your life turned around, and also the thoughtful examination you’ve given to your childhood and it’s effects on adult life. I can really relate to the low worth and looking outside of the self. I also feel that when there is a lack of cherishing going on from parent/career to child that the child can feel unable to connect to who they are or understand their own qualities. If the environment is highly stressful this also interferes with a child’s natural unfolding development of sense of self. It’s a fairly volatile combination for a young child to deal with. You have done an exceptional job to come through this.
I agree- an exceptional job to come through all this.
Yes it is amazing any of us make it through childhood and in fact very few do!
Hello Melinda, I completely agree – childhood hurts are very real, tangible and prevalent as underlying hurts in humanity today. This article acknowledged how important it is to “ask a lot of questions” to begin breaking down the long held mindset, and to seek understanding for these hurts.
There are more often than not so many dynamics playing out in families – especially those between child and parent. When we become aware of the extent that our current behaviours are a result of our experiences as a child and stop making choices based on these patterns of hurt, we can start healing and connecting back to who we really are and living from this. I love how you have expressed this Melinda and yes, the writer of this blog is inspiring in what they have come through and chosen for themselves.
Yes Melinda, I agree, an exceptional job to come through childhood and as some of the other commenters have noted, it is a wonder that any of us survive this time. As a parent, I feel that the greatest gift I can give my children is to deal with my own issues and not pass them on or take it out on them. This allows them to be free to connect to their true self and deal with their own issues rather than me creating issues for them. I’m not perfect, but I work hard on not inflicting my stuff on my children.
Well said Melinda, I agree, anonymous has done a great job to come though this, and to re-connect to her essence, to not be determined by her childhood hurts for the rest of her life. That is truly empowering and inspirational.
Lack of self worth and confidence are easy and almost natural when we have no idea who we are. Especially if we have not known for the majority of our lives. But the path back can be relatively quick. In a few years I have been able to uncover enough of who I am to let go of self worth issues and lack of confidence. It is an ongoing process and I continually uncover more but the initial excavation did not take as long as you might think having lived so long not living who I was.
Precisely – how can we value our own worth if we don’t know who we are? That’s an amazing point.
Years of counselling may or may not help us, until we get to the root of the issue and are allowed to unfold this to deeply heal whatever it is that is manifesting as our issue. Without getting to the crux, treatment can only be symptomatic and this is less than satisfactory for most.
“Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole?” A big, adorable, scrumptious yes!! I’ve read Dianne Trussell’s blog on the wonder that, we are all born with a wisdom and knowing – that is precisely because of the wholeness we are born with. It brings another dimension to growing up as you have shared here Anonymous. http://truthaboutuniversalmedicine.com/2015/10/27/hidden-treasure-and-the-illusion-of-elders/
Thanks for sharing your story, very big questions to ask and very healing – how is it we end up with these beliefs and sense of worthlessness as children. It’s not until we can start to cherish and value ourselves that we can feel as you have stated anonymous, which I LOVE “I could turn to myself and trust my own feelings and intuitions.” to trust our feelings and intuitions are such a beautiful relationship to have with ourselves and very supportive in our day to day life.
‘What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.’ I love this statement Anonymous and it describes my experience of Universal Medicine too. Working with Universal Medicine has been the most healing and self-loving choice I have ever made.
Universal medicine has helped so many people realise that we are all precious and are from love and deserve love. How many success stories does there need to be before this thing really takes off?
It seems hard to understand, doesn’t it? I suspect many people can’t help but respond positively to what they read here and see in the students of Universal Medicine they meet. However they would also feel the level of commitment and honesty required to take the next step and it is this that holds them back.
It might be too good to be true and hence hard to believe, imagine and accept what so many people report and share here on the blogs about Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon. The level of giving-up-ness, held on pain and unwillingness to take responsibility in many holds strong against the true and uncomfortable answers Universal Medicine offers, not the easy way out solutions but solid answers that ask you to save yourself.
I work in the city. Every day I see homeless people begging and I think of how they were probably cherished and celebrated when they were born. I find this very, very sad.
When I read your beautiful blog anonymous, I understood what we take on when we are little and how we can move away from the gorgeous love that we are. It has taken Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon, with consistent love and encouragement, for many of us to realise the deep preciousness and love that we are. I feel so blessed that I can now claim this and share in the amazing transformations of so many. It is so needed for mankind that we can then reflect this to all.
We all assume false identities and homelessness is just one of the many options available to us. This is not to dismiss homelessness, but to point out it is a role of sorts – one that gives us something to identify by and with. That homelessness exists is problematic and definitely not a choice any of us would want anyone to make. It will be a great day for humanity when we figure out how we can all live with in equalness with the same level of love in our lives.
You are amazing and worth cherishing – so true for all of us. It is incredible to realise that we have lived under a false identity, driven by ideals and beliefs and there is much to unfold, but underneath all the layers we find the exquisite soulful being that has always been there, waiting for the opportunity to show us the true way. Thank you Universal Medicine, from all of us who have re-discovered The Way.
In most situations there seems to be a running theme when dealing with trauma or issues – we can blame others or take the blame on ourselves. As children we can read it all, what’s happening and the energy behind it, but we are rarely guided and nurtured with what we are feeling, so we end up absorbing it. This is a pattern and erroneously learnt behaviour yet one that can be seen and broken by asking the questions – ‘Could it be that I had no sense of myself because I was taking on the emotional turmoil of my parents?’
I love this question as there is no blame to self or another, it is asking simply and care-fully how these patterns or beliefs materialised and what it’s roots are. This feels like true philosophy.
False beliefs learned in childhood plague so many of us with self-doubt well into adulthood.
As we take time to heal these un-truths we build a rock solid foundation as we grow an unconditionally loving relationship with ourselves.
Forever deepening, with no perfection but a dedication and commitment that we are worth it.
I agree Julie – our false ideals and beliefs from childhood can impact us in so many ways until we are supported to realise they are not us or true. Freedom from these imposts is one of the greatest blessings we can have.
How awesome that your children get to witness you honouring yourself, that they get to learn that they are worth loving and honouring too.
That in itself is massive. What a gift to our children.
Thank you for your beautiful sharing here. I could feel the depth of your appreciation to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine here. I feel the same and by appreciating who they are, I am able to deeply value and appreciate who I am too.
Thank you for sharing this Anonymous. I could have written the opening to this myself as my upbringing was similar. I know I still carry these false beliefs in my make up that I’m just becoming aware of and slowly unpicking. You ask some great questions here and I can see more clearly now how and why my sense of worth has falsely be made up by my experiences. The web we weave is a complex one to fathom coming out of it, yet the simplicity and beauty that lies underneath it once exposed is so worth getting to.
Nothing has been more transforming than what self care has done. It gets underneath the hurts and starts laying a loving foundation. The hurts become revealed and tangible and therefore they can be addressed. Without self care, we remain a victim of situations and events, with nothing the heal the wounds that are left behind.
So true Matthew. The self-care is what allows us to address that which holds us back – the hurts we’ve accumulated. What a marvellous service Universal Medicine offers us, that allows us all to move forward in this way.
True self-care supports us to remember that we indeed have value and spending time with ourselves in this way confirms this over and over again, until we realise this on a much larger scale and are able to fully embrace our value and worth, then share this with the world to support others to also choose self-care.
Self-care is such an effective way to bring us back to connecting with ourselves. How deep we go with this is really up to us, but there really is no limit to this whatsoever.
What an amazing blog and incredible transformation Anonymous. I loved the line “free myself from the false identity I built’. This rang home for me as I had spent most of my life complicating and doubting what I knew was true just like you Anonymous – we are all amazing and self care by honouring the body is just the start.
Absolutely grounded05, “we are all amazing and self care by honouring the body is just the start” I’m only beginning to really appreciate how much honouring the body supports me in building confidence and trust as i listen to what i feel.
oh Ariana, thank you for drawing my attention to that absolute gem of a line “We are in fact born wondrous and whole”. Without a doubt living with this as our foundation is absolutely life-changing. And thank you for the reminder to “…not believe or trust ANYTHING that says otherwise” 🙂
It’s incredible that we feel like we are not worth much, if anything at all at times, when we are so incredibly amazing naturally. When this is not nurtured or cherished or even appreciated, we allow space for other energies to take their place, one being lack of self-worth. This is such a mis-truth as you have share here Anonymous and exposing it for what it is begins the healing process of returning to our inner glory. Nurturing this and not allowing anything to come between us and this amazing warmth is worth the commitment, as are we!
I agree Robyn – we are very very good at getting the whip out and not wanting to claim who we are. And you make a strong point that in not appreciating ourselves, we leave a gap for self worth issues. I know i have always felt the need to feel full in my body. If it is not through joy, then I will look to self worth, food, anxiousness to fill me up. The question is always what fuel do we choose?
That is the question hvmorden, “…what fuel do we choose?”. Inner glory or lack of self-worth? When presented like this it becomes very clear what choice we need to be making.
It’s especially puzzling when you consider the newborn, who just is, and is not afraid to assert themselves in the world! We arrive naturally robust, then proceed to absorb what goes on around us. Thankfully, I can see an end to this process via the sciences of reincarnation and momentum. If we build to a certain level of self-love, care and worth in one life and hold it to the end, then that is what we will tend to return with, a little more so each lifetime. And so on and on, until it is a permanent state of being (assuming we keep choosing it to be so).
A great point Victoria – we have a responsibility for how we live and how that impacts who we are in our reincarnation. A baby is absolutely robust and will even be open to people looking at the baby all day, and yet it is still completely itself and open to the world. Then we grow up to not want people looking at us and truly meeting us all the time. To bring this back – to claim a level of love that is truly honouring of who we are is just beautiful and returns us to how we were when we were born. Life is lived in cycles.
This really brings into question the nature vs nurture debate doesn’t it. The state we are born in and the nurture we receive (or not). Interestingly, the quality of nurture has never really been investigated in the debate (or not to my knowledge). Because if we are nurtured to remain in our natural state then life would certainly be different for almost all of us. So the two choices of nature and nurture might actually be interrelated. To nurture our nature, this is the way to go.
This to me says it all anonymous “Now that I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self. I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.” Without Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon this would not have been possible for so many of us, and I know I would still be trapped in my hurts and living a lie that everything is ok when this was so far from the truth.
I can relate to doing this: ‘Is making ourselves feel wrong and worthless the way we cope with the situation?’, I feel this is down to the lack of truly appreciating ourselves. Currently in our society we do not have a big reflection of this (people truly appreciating themselves .. or others). The reflections we have are hurt, given up, anger, lack of self-worth .. the list goes on. We need to change this not just for now but for future generations we need to live in a way that reflects more to others so they in turn can choose to be more themselves. Thank goodness for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that could not only see this but have started to live and very much bring this change into place.
This blog reminds me that if we repeat something often enough it becomes very familiar and our reality, even if it is not who we really are. It takes someone to come along and get you to feel, even for a brief moment, a taste of the gorgeous connection with your true self to break out of this prison.
“that I could turn to myself and trust my own feelings and intuitions.” This is huge, so often I hear in schools from a very young age children asking is this okay? Can I do this? Already not trusting in themselves, giving their power away, seeking permission, recognition or acceptance outside of themselves.
Anonymous what this story shows is how lost so many families are today, as I am sure this example is only one of millions. As in how many mums and dads are living in their own turmoil and feel trapped within their married lives and then the knock on effect this has on the children – it makes me wonder how many children give up before they reach their teenage years and have some grade of depression. This is why stories like yours are worth their weight in gold, as there just aren’t enough examples of how different things can be.
Thank you for sharing Anon. It was really interesting to read and your story had a lot of insight into how we take so much on from childhood and base our temperament from that. I can relate to what you have shared in that “I didn’t have much self-worth, although this made sense when reflecting on my lack of confidence, my constant self-doubt, and always looking to others for answers instead of considering that I could turn to myself and trust my own feelings and intuitions.” Also from taking on what you felt around you and so not having a clear sense of who you are. Finding that sense is amazing though, being able to trust who you are is an incredible thing.
I now feel how they both felt trapped: it seemed they were unable to communicate, and when they did, it was mostly explosive confrontations. This was exactly the same for me Anonymous, and as a result of my childhood, I grew into an adult unable to communicate and share my feelings, which kept people out and at a ‘safe distance’, thus I had taken on the same behaviour from my parents. Thankfully, this has changed as I have learnt to share and express to those around me and boy, is this making a huge difference in my connection with myself and others.
I can relate with what you share here jacqmcfadden04 having likewise learnt to bury my feelings and keep quiet. Now, with the support from Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I am choosing and re-learning to feel everything and to express my truth at all times.
“What Universal Medicine has offered me is that the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me”, this is beautiful, yes is so true Universal Medicine does offer us how to connect to and honour our own body, love and cherish ourselves and our true essence.
Absolutely, Francisco, Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are a deep support to undersatnd the layers and let them go to bring love more forth.
As children we rarely get supported in being who we really are but are constantly encouraged or more or less imposed to fit into the picture of what a “good” child is. This leaves us without a reference point for how amazing and simple it is to just be ourselves. Thank you Universal Medicine for inviting us to look at exactly that and let go of all the ideas and beliefs and instead start to feel from deep inside of us who we are and what we bring.
When we act from past hurts we have found an easy way to express forceful, overpowering emotions and can thereby control others. It is very comfortable but harmful for us and very harmful and sometimes comfortable, as it is familiar and known, for others. After a while there are consequences in our body but we could also simply deal with our past hurts and our tendency for comfort and life can then be very different.
Thank you Anonymous, indeed Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have allowed us to reclaim ourselves by giving us the opportunity to shed the many layers of ideals and beliefs we have identified with for so long and to bring a level of love and care for our bodies that honours who we truly are.
They so have, and seems as though they are the only ones fully allowing this opportunity. A lot of talk goes around it but nothing to the extent of what Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine present that actually enables them to be shed and lived without.
Your sharing is very beautiful gift as it offers an opportunity to consider what I chose to take on as a child to fit in. It is very true that as children, even though initially we know we are love, if we are not guided in a way that confirms this love within us, who we are, we develop in a way where we do not trust our connection to the truth of love that we are. We then seek to obtain the love we sense is there, from outside of ourselves and instead choose to be and do whatever is needed to receive recognition, attention or a sense of belonging which is what we come to believe and think is love. Thank you for this beautiful opportunity to reflect, renounce and free myself further from what is not of the love that I now know I am. Universal Medicine has also inspired me to choose to return to and freely live all that I truly am. Your return to knowing that who you naturally are is an absolutely amazing being, feels so solid, steady and is truly inspiring.
Beautifully said Carola. Growing up we are well rewarded for all that we do, especially if we do it well, be it academia, sport, music, etc. Our systems and education institutions promote constant achievement yet sorely lack the heartfelt connection, the one thing that confirms who we are no matter what we do. I have been establishing confidence within myself since receiving the depth of connection Sacred Esoteric Healing offers. This has and continues to be a major turnaround from my childhood years where my inner confidence dropped more the older I became.
So true Abby – ‘Our systems and education institutions promote constant achievement yet sorely lack the heartfelt connection, the one thing that confirms who we are no matter what we do’. – so well said. This heartfelt connection is what we all miss when it is not present. But as you say, and has also been my experience, our connection to ourselves within is always there and possible regardless of what we do. And building the confidence to hold this connection throughout my day has strengthened, and continues to do so through the support that the Sacred Esoteric Healing therapies offer.
I experienced the same growing up. If I only I had tools now I learnt through Universal Medicine – observe and not absorb, move or walk to shift any contracted thinking, I have control of my life to be who I am, express in full my vulnerability, call out what is not true, and knowing as you say Anonymous “Learning about myself is an ongoing and unfolding journey”. We are not perfect and we’re not designed that way however, our expression can be. “The key way for me to break with them was to ask a lot of questions…”
“Now that I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self”. “I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world”. The most valuable thing I have become aware of is to listen to my body.
The teachings from Universal Medicine are super simple and practical and the results are so astounding. You have to ask of look to see the changes in wellbeing, both physical and emotional, in vitality, joy and responsibility in all different area’s of life to conclude; boy oh boy what Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon offer is absolute gold.
So true Monika. Absolute gold ! The changes people make as a result is incredible and the difference can be seen without a doubt. In so many different areas of their lives.
So many people benefit from the changes we made. I only have to look at my children, family, friends and work colleagues to see and feel the different reflection I offer by taking responsibility for my choices. They all experience I react less and am more loving and more fun to be around. Some even change some things in their own life too.
So true Monika, the results are outstanding for so many people. Yes, the conclusion is so real, it is impossible for anyone to deny or even play it down. Daily miracles are occurring in people’s lives and are very worth celebrating.
I love how you call the results of our different choices ‘daily miracles’. Yes these results sure are miracles on a daily basis and the world should learn about them, for they are there for all of us.
It’s so true Monika, all you have to do is look around the student body of Universal Medicine to see the glowing faces, the obvious joy and vitality and the very clear care that people of taking of themselves and each other to know that what is being offered by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, is pure gold and without question the way forward for humanity.
Spot on: what Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon offer is the way forward for humanity.
What a great re-claiming of who you are – this goes to show that no matter what we have experienced or how traumatic, we have the ability to heal and evolve and not be forever defined by our experiences.
Absolutely Deborah this is a game changer as a far as healing psychological or emotional pain is concerned.
Yes, well said Deborah.
Yes agreed Deborah and Andrew, to feel someone has truly moved on from these sorts of traumatic childhood experiences and reclaimed their essence as who they are, is exceptional and well worthy of note.
I agree Deborah…this blog shows everyone no matter what you’ve experienced or how traumatic your situation is, we can all heal and truly live life…… if we choose.
‘I felt shocked when I began to realise that I didn’t have much self-worth,’ what struck me when I read this sentence is how I used to hold this as a belief, way of being, something I was stuck with, or a badge to wear…. it is all just a choice and it is only when we can step aside and observe this that we can see it is a choice.
“What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.” I so echo this Anonymous. Having spent over twenty years in spiritual searching to find something outside myself that would miraculously transform me, I came to understand that the answer lay within me all the time. Beginning with the gentle breath meditations and Universal Medicine practitioners I have healed so much – and continue to do so, uncovering the true woman that I am. This true essence lies within every single human on earth – if we so choose to uncover it by dealing with our hurts.
It is my experience also that children think that they themselves are at fault when the parents are continually fighting and it really undermines any sense of self worth they would otherwise develop.
This is my experience too, also that parents who continually fight do not have the self-worth themselves to reflect to their children.
It is also my experience too, i learnt very young to feel it was always my fault and carried this into adult life until i started healing this and understood that i self blamed for all the awfulness i was feeling around me and within me. I am not this, i actually am a valuable person and i am responsible for me, yes, but not the choice of others. In fact as the healing clears the layers of hurts/protection what is underneath this is ME, an amazingness.
I agree Gabriele, it is a common case that children feel it is their fault, when parents fight each other.
Yes, I certainly can relate as I took this pattern and deeply ingrained it into my adult life, often feeling responsible or somewhat at fault when people got upset or things went wrong, leaving me in guilt, lack of self-worth and uncertainty. It is such an effective way to constantly undermine oneself, but it is also a very self-centred approach assuming that everything happens because of me.
“Is it because we are children and have no other way to see it or make sense of it?
We live for so long, often well into adulthood, behaving and living according to these deep beliefs we take on that are so far from the truth of who we are.” I feel many children come into this life with a momentum of behaviours that have been playing out for longer than just this life. Having honestly observed many of my patterns in this life, i am able to see that i quickly chose to be unseen, i even chose a nickname ‘cinders’ that confirmed the smallness i felt. In many ways it suited me perfectly to return to familiar ground, i remember feeling pleased that i could hide in being labelled dyslexic, I now had a reason to stay small and quiet.
Such a great blog and so relatable to “Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole?” I love it and if we really were treasured and brought up to know this throughout our lives confirming this what a difference it would make to us all and humanity as a whole to live who we truly are.
It is an interesting point. Do we allow self doubt in so we can play small and use this as a way of not taking responsibility to committing to true purpose in this world. I know this is something I have used to go unnoticed and to avoid taking responsibility. It is a hard pattern to break free from (but so well worth it) and takes a loving commitment to know and truly feel that we are all incredibly powerful when we are connected to our true purpose and live our life connected to that purpose.
“Is making ourselves feel wrong and worthless the way we cope with the situation?” I realized that I also felt worthless and wrong from early childhood on. Today I can feel how much I have used this feeling of being wrong to hide myself and how much I have given up on my light. Now I am recovering and start to claim back the love and light which I have naturally in me.
I love reading blogs that celebrate a fellow brother re connecting to their essence and claiming the divinity that we were breathed forth with.
They are inspiring and really warm the heart.
Dear Anonymous,
The simple fact that you, like many others, found yourself a student of Universal Medicine is proof solid that we are not only born wonderous, but that deep down, even with the many trials of life, that wonderous part of self was always there gently encouraging us to remember our divinity and to take steps like you have done to live from its impulse again.
So true Leigh. There is a part of us that remains pure and true no matter what unfolds in our life. When we connect to this and follow our heart felt impulse our lives can blossom into the fullness that we are.
This is important to remember Lee that no matter how far we may have deviated, drifted and played the part there will always be ‘a part of us that remains pure and true no matter what unfolds in our life.’ This is well worth connecting to.
Its funny how we can all have such different experiences, yet we can relate so deeply to what the end result can turn out like. I have very fond childhood memories and have always been very close to my Mum and Dad but I still ended up with really low self worth, bad drug and alcohol problems and general promiscuous behaviour through out my life as a young adult. That was until I came across Universal Medicine and like you, my life did a complete turn around.
We can have the best intensions as parents but at the end of the day, if you don’t have a good relationship with yourself and live in a way that is in total regard for that relationship… then we seem to communicate that neglect and lack of self worth to your kids, wether we are trying to or not.
Your sharing anonymous is very relatable and I appreciate your blog, it’s a great contribution to these amazing sites.
Awesome point Sarah, and thanks for sharing. It really does come down to the relationship we have with ourself, that it is, and always will be our responsibility to love, care for and appreciate ourselves. When we grow up and realise we are hurt and wish things could have been different the default option to blame our parents keeps us where we are. If we know things could have been different we then need to begin to choose and live that for ourselves.
Well said Kate and that is why even though I chose a very rocky path of drug, alcohol and addiction, starting around at around age 11 and stretching to age 22, I never blamed my Mum and Dad and when I came across Universal Medicine through my mother, I understood why. I know it is now my responsibility to break the cycle of living in disregard and lack of self worth and then my children will have the opportunity to choose a different way than me, so far so good!!
I know what you mean Sarah, it is fascinating how so many of us have had seemingly completely different experiences growing up yet the outcomes have all been fairly similar whether it has been drugs, alcohol, low self worth effectively not being content with ourselves and life. It has only been through Universal Medicine that we have been able to turn our lives around to where they are today. Sure we made the choices, but Universal medicine inspired those choices and without it I shudder to think where I would be today.
So true James, had I not had the Unimed crew in my life, OMG, I shudder, it would be a very depressing situation, the amazing people involved in Unimed helped me to remember that existing is no way to live.
Likewise Sarah, the love and support Serge Benhayon and the Universal Medicine team have offered me over the years has been quite simply amazing. I have never received so much love, care and support before. No matter what I have done I have never been judged or criticised. I have always been held as an equal and been shown how to step up and live as the man that I am. I have been shown that I have a voice and that I matter. Turn the clock back to when I was 19 when I first met Serge and I was a train wreck waiting to happen. I fought and resisted making the changes and more loving choices in my life but am glad, way more than just glad, that I stuck with it. Where I am today is a million miles away from where I would have been without Universal Medicine.
Hearing a bit of your story James made me reflect on how the Benhayon family find the time to love so many people so intimately…it makes me consider how much potential or ability to love we may have access to but are not currently living…and how inspiring it is to make your life about people and love first.
I agree Sarah, it is extremely inspiring how the Benhayon family live. To make live not all about self and how well we are doing is quite amazing. They all have extremely busy work schedules yet will be there for you at the drop of a hat if you need them. Quite incredible and a great example of what can be achieved can we give focus to living a life of love in full.
“They all have extremely busy work schedules yet will be there for you at the drop of a hat if you need them”
James this has always been my experience of this family, what amazes me is that every other person I speak to says the exact same thing. I thought I was special ? Just kidding but seriously how do you maintain intimate relationships with hundreds and hundreds of people?? It comes down to relationship with self, deeper that is the more you have to give…
That is a great point you are making here sarahraynebaldwin, we generally assume that the mess that we at times find ourselves in is because of bad childhood experiences, but like you I had a very protected childhood and a very close connection with my parents, however the one thing I did not learn was how to truly love myself and deeply honour myself in my preciousness and worth. That was for the first time introduced to me by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
Very true Judith Andras,
“however the one thing I did not learn was how to truly love myself and deeply honour myself in my preciousness”
I had the same experience, thank you for sharing.
No, I did not learn, ‘ how to truly love myself and deeply honour myself in my preciousness’, what a difference this would make, just bringing this into every child’s life. This needs to be the norm for all children.
For me Universal Medicine has been the antidote to irresponsibility and blaming others especially my parents for how I saw myself and chose to live. I could relate to so much of your childhood Anonymous and how the doubt and lack of trust played out in your adult years. We feel everything as a child, including how to bend and twist to be liked and please those closest to us. What is empowering is to eventually realise I was the one that changed and conformed into something unrecognisable to when I was very young, and so I am the one who can heal that. Its a work in progress, but one that benefits all, because now I see my parents without the thick fog of hurt and see them for they are.
I love how, by simply getting to know ourselves, we discover how amazing we are and realise how much we’re worth cherishing.
It is beautiful, as we get to know ourselves, we are able to feel and connect to that amazingness we are and how important our self worth is and how much we’re worth cherishing.
In a world where hardly anyone is actually being themselves it is very difficult for us to stay being our true selves when we are surrounded by people who are changing their masks more regularly than their underwear! Who am I being now and who are you being? Is the person who reads the news being themselves reading the news or a newsreader? Is the person on the phone being themselves or a ‘service provider’?, is the butcher being himself or a ‘butcher’. Do these people stay the same when they take their uniforms off? Is Mum the same in the school yard as she is with Dad? Will the Real Slim Shady please stand up!
Life can be an endless character parade or is that a charade, sham and theatrics?
Enter stage left ‘the real deal’ and the show is over. The truth is enough to stop the most seasoned actor in their tracks.
I can relate to the turbulent family environment and also of taking on board and feeling responsible for issues within family and like you through the work of Universal Medicine am returning to my true self without the baggage of childhood imprints
YES I too Joe, lived in a violent environment and it was ‘horrible’ as a child, as we are so sensitive and feel so much, that we learn ways to not feel this pain. I do deeply appreciate what Universal Medicine brings as it shows a way that i can learn to live my potential in a way that is genuine and consistent. Not just a fleeting moment of a feeling good.
The fact that we can re-connect to our true self, our wholeness even before we have dealt with and healed everything that hinders us from living like this consistently is one of the first things UniMed presents and gives the opportunity to experience. What and who we truly are never is lost, only buried. The moment we get to feel who we are the way we can see and handle the hurts and childhood baggage is completely changed for good.
This is very true – Universal Medicine does not offer quick fixes and fleeting moments of living our potential but provides endless wisdom, support, tools and insight with living examples of what it is to live in full, a divine life – the onus is on us to choose love, heal our hurts and honour ourselves, or not, for our choices consistently lived will become our way of life.
A great blog!
Your one liner of .. ‘Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole?’
Got my really pondering on what happens in life for us to feel like we are less then, that we are not ‘whole’. I really feel the truth in your words.
Yes Natasha this one that really jumped out at me as well. Could it be that this is the truth, that we are in fact born wondrous and whole – When we allow ourselves to stop and truly feel this, which I have been able to since the support of Universal Medicine and having this in my life. I am indeed wondrous and whole and we are all designed the same way. Then why would we consider anything less. Accepting that what I feel and know is everything I would ever possibly need or want – simply living All of Me is magical. Appreciating this deeply is my next step and it is starting to feel even more incredible – who would have thought that was possible, I certainly didn’t!
I agree , wholeheartedly
There is nothing more exquisite then feeling the beauty and divinity of being born wondrous and whole. Nothing wrong, just a bundle of joy
And love the way and fact that you say that —– self-worth is just simply getting to know who we are, loving this and holding ourselves cherished. When we make this our foundation, it becomes normal to then be held in this same way (by others)
Gorgeous Zofia, although in practice it has at times been a rocky road to establish such consistent cherishing of myself – I do appreciate though each time I leave this state there is something more for me to learn about myself..and hence all others.
I’d never considered self-worth being a matter of getting to know who I am. So simple and straight forward and makes sense. My experience totally supports this – every time I stop looking outside of myself and look within I feel how lovely I am. The stuff that doesn’t feel so great that I thought was me, when I actually feel it I get to feel how it isn’t actually me. I just let it become part of the furniture.
“The stuff that doesn’t feel so great that I thought was me…” is only exposed when we feel and look inside as only then we recognize the essential difference of what belongs to us naturally so and what has been imposed and taken on from outside. But it takes a choice, probably some effort, honesty and clarity to turn from the outside to the inside and recognise and understand what we see there, as we have been blinded for so long by the self-chosen ignorance that it actually takes some time to get know ourselves again.
Your para here Annoymous is great about being honest about self-worth as so often we like to think we have this when in fact there is very little, if any – “I felt shocked when I began to realise that I didn’t have much self-worth, although this made sense when reflecting on my lack of confidence, my constant self-doubt, and always looking to others for answers instead of considering that I could turn to myself and trust my own feelings and intuitions” – the absence of worth and the importance of oneself means cherishing is not ‘normal’ – for we cannot value very much if at all what we do not first cherish or hold dear.
Thanks you anonymous and you are so right it is absolute gold we have all been given by Universal Medicine to reconnect to who we truly are.
Yes absolutely Penelope – I am with you all the way with that.
Yes, absolute GOLD as Universal Medicine has shown us the truth – that we are all worth it – worth Love, worth being cherished, worth joy, worth the glory we hold within and so much more, with no exceptions.
I second and third that. Absolute gold that has been shared by Universal Medicine in reconnecting to who we truly are.
One may wonder or better ask what is that Universal Medicine presents and supports that possibly is not offered by the myriad of general psychotherapeutic, wellness and lifestyle modalities we are flooded with. Check out http://www.unimedliving.com/ or http://www.universalmedicine.net/ for a deeper exploration of what people on this blog write about.
‘Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole?’ This is such a powerful question Anonymous, because I can immediately feel the truth of it. The truth of who we are is born with us – we disconnect from it. It does not leave us!
… and as we remain wondrous and whole, but for our disconnection from us, we can choose to Re- Connect with this truth at any moment.
Perfect invitation that is ever present Victoria! All we ever need or want is truly there for us to choose!
To live in self doubt, means we are constantly settling for less, thinking that is all we are worth, and what we deserve from life, when deep down we know we are so much more.”What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the natural and amazing me I am.” I too would still be living in self doubt if it had not been for Universal Medicine, and the deep love of Serge that I felt on our very first meeting, and knowing deep in my heart what he spoke was truth, I just hadn’t heard it for so long.
Beautiful Sally. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are awesome at helping people see and know their worth and how amazing they are. Leading by example.
After a continual sense of deflation from having been punished for doing nothing more than be oneself, a child in my experience does tend to lean towards feelings of worthlessness etc; for without self confirmation (hard for a child to do under pressure) and or confirmation from others (in this case parents doing the opposite) it is very hard to be unwavering in our joy and love of ourselves.
As you observed of your parents and yourself Anonymous, we are all trapped, seeming victims of our own hurts, emotions and inability to express until we understand we have choice and realise we are so much more. I reiterate, thank God for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for offering the way out of the confines of false separative beliefs into the true, living, expansive fullness and oneness of the love we all are.
I can relate to your blog Anonymous. Especially when you say how Universal Medicine has supported you to free yourself from the false identity you had built and fully believed yourself to be…
From a very young age almost all of us have allowed these beliefs to be ‘so deeply embedded and embodied’ that indeed ‘it is hard to realise that they were actually not true’ and this does explain why it takes some undoing to rectify.
But! it can and has been done through applying the teachings of Universal Medicine and that alone is one of the most miraculous rediscoveries of my life… to be able to free myself from my own illusion. There are no words for that.
“…to be able to free myself from my own illusion..” – Wow Dean, I love what you’ve shared here – what an absolute gift you have given yourself, to truly know yourself and live this truth – now that is true freedom!
Thankyou Hannah, it is something to sit with and deeply appreciate on a regular basis…
It was the same for me too Dean and a miraculous discovery to find that I could free myself from my own illusion. At one point my entrenched belief was that I couldn’t ever be any different, and always carry hurts of the past. How wrong I was, and like you, the deep change happened because I applied the teachings of Universal Medicine.
Gorgeous Dean. Yea, ‘freeing myself from my own illusion’ what a realisation must have been had about your whole life to come to this. How much your willing to look at and expose, talk about and uncover. We don’t realise it until our perspective changes and we are able to see from a different angle.
Awesome.
Perspective is a funny thing. I could swear something is a certain way… that is until I see it another way. It inspires me to do at least two things. One, stay willing to learn and become more aware – knowing full well that whatever I do understand today is guaranteed to change or at least be expanded on tomorrow. And two, to trust more my intuition over the knowledge I can recall as this seems a far more flexible approach that is less likely to fall for these illusions that I have fallen for.
What I realise is that I chose to come into this life as a victim creating these lack of self worth issues and that they were a very old pattern that I had taken on once again. “What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am” Thank God for Serge Benhayon, the Benhayon family and Universal Medicine Practitioners who, through their amazing way of living and reflection, inspire us all who choose to let go of those old hurts and patterns we have taken on and to live in this caring and loving way.
Oh yes indeed Ariana, that should be part of every school moto, just in case it is not over every bed, door and mirror in the house!
I was just appreciating how we are all innately the same and the only thing that separates us is our belief that we are ‘individuals’. When truth is expressed it resonates within us all equally and we confirm it by accepting it. We are all ‘chips off the same block’ so to speak, although we come with our unique shapes, sizes and expressions.
Beautiful to feel.
This is so true Victoria. We are all the same and all on our unfolding path back to soul. We are working on our individual selves but we are all in this together so we can unite together as a one unified brotherhood.
‘chips off the same block’. How true Victoria. My childhood experience was nothing like that of Anonymous, and yet as I read her account I was moved to tears, her feelings about herself so mirrored my own. There has to be a deeper truth here. Is it possible that all our different childhood experiences are different expressions of the sadness we feel that we have strayed so far from who we are, and also an excuse to not take responsibility for straying? Its so great to read the experiences of the students on these pages who have taken responsibility, and are working back, each in their own way, and with the support of Universal Medicine, to their own true self, their own true home.
Beautifully expressed, Victoria: “We are all ‘chips off the same block’”. I love allowing myself to feel that as well, that we are in essence all the same. How complicated and not true have we allowed life to become by thinking we are individuals.
It is very interesting for me to see how as the child we lose our sense of self-worth in this scenario and I enjoyed your exploration of this. Yes I think I did take on the emotional turmoil of my parents and felt as though I had no reference for who I truly am. I felt lost and at sea. These feelings remained with me as I grew up, abandoning my inner knowing and replacing it with seeking external confirmation and approval. It is so painful to write about and see how I have lived with this pattern! But the greatest liberation was realising that I actually chose this and it is part of a greater theme that I have carried with me for lifetimes… I don’t know how many but I know it is a lot; a denial of myself in reaction to being attacked for the truth, light and healing that I naturally bring. Now that I know this, I can consciously choose otherwise, to re-claim myself in full. And with the incredible support of the esoteric healing modalities, I feel the reality of this in my body: my body is changing and becoming free of this configuration once and for all.
Wow Emma Danchin, it is painful to realise that we chose this way of living time and time again, ‘abandoning my inner knowing and replacing it with seeking external confirmation and approval’. This was in fact a ‘denial of myself in reaction to being attacked for the truth, light and healing that I naturally bring’. Serge Benhayon has helped, this is on going, me too in re-claiming my truth.
It is confronting for me to read your blog because I have had similar experiences, but I appreciate the insights you have reached and shared with us all.
My parents also had a lot of conflict and equally there was a lot of explosive moments of frustration, rage and resentment as well as much absorption in these intense feelings and hence I felt I didn’t receive a sense of myself as the glorious being that I am as a child. Not surprisingly, I managed to replicate this pattern in having my own daughter, despite my best intentions. I observed this playing out before my own eyes in horror but of course the patterns were entrenched in my brain and energy body as being normal. I have immense gratitude for meeting Serge Benhayon when my daughter was only nearly 3 so that I could begin, as you have, to see this all with clarity and re-imprint my behavior. Now she is 7 and whilst we are still working on it, I see that she is flourishing into a beautiful girl with her self-love and self-confidence intact.
This blog offers so so much to the reader and it is remarkable how the power of sharing a personal experience can ignite in another their own healing and understanding. I grew up thinking there was something wrong with me due to not being cherished and feeling invisible. I also took on a lot of my mother’s sadness and resentment thinking it must of been because of me that she felt this way. Through the support of Universal Medicine it has been liberating to feel and let go of these ill beliefs and connect back to the amazing being I am through the choice to love and cherish me in all that I do.
It is so easy for a child to blame themselves for the arguments in a home, even if it is not related to them at all. There can be a way of communicating that, to many, would be seen abusive but in the context of that home it is seen as normal. The dysfunctional patterns of communication, the damaging beliefs, the harm to self worth all then play out into adulthood. The conversation started by Universal Medicine really offers an opportunity to question what we have taken as normal that may not be normal but may be influencing our current way of living. Simply by opening up to questioning long held beliefs about ourselves and the way things should be done offers valuable tools in any medicine box. Why would we not consider everything when it comes to healing and wouldn’t it be better to be proactive rather than reactive to illness and disease?
Hi Lucy, lovely comment. What I can feel from personal experience is how un-natural arguing and disagreeing feels in relationships and that there was a want for me at a certain time to “be the good son” so as to not cause any arguments. indeed there are a LOT of dynamics at play even in ‘normal’ family homes. Thanks to Universal medicine indeed I have seen that there is a different way and I don’t have to feel like I am the cause of things, but rather I can simply be and observe what is happening and this I can take out to all that I do in the world.
We develop behaviours in order to not feel that we are hurt. With this we can go very well in the world but we will still be hurt. Universal Medicine has offered that we may all just be hurt, and living a false life as a result.
I remember feeling completely responsible for my parents relationship, that, like you say Lucy, felt normal at the time, because it’s all that you know. You develop coping mechanisms that dictate your behaviour and start to imbed themselves into your belief system. Universal Medicine has certainly opened up the idea about what is and what is not truly me, and really helping me to build on my self worth and learn to observe and not absorb.
I was feeling the same Ariana. Imagine our world where the foundation we all built was one born of the love we are, it would be very very different to the one we have created through our false beliefs about ourselves. It is never too late though, as we get an opportunity each and everyday to make a different choice. This is inspiring.
Annon your blog offers a consideration for us all. What have we taken on through our lives that simply isn’t true? It is a joy to begin to feel the truth of who we are and to appreciate that we do know this love.. it never leaves us.
Gorgeous Victoria, very well said. I love how you’ve used the word consideration. It’s so gentle and really asks us to ponder on how we are and why we do what we do, or think what we think. It seems crazy that most of our lives are based around ideals that are not ours and these stand in the way of us expressing and being all the love we naturally are.
A lovely comment thank you Victoria, simple, powerful and true what you share here, we do know this love, it is who we are.
What is so beautiful about clearing away the old ideals and beliefs we have of ourselves is the exposing of the gorgeousness of who we truly are.
My feelings exactly Paula. It is like watching a beautiful rose bloom in the sunlight. Each delicate petal opens up when the light is at its peak just like us. Letting go of old ways and beliefs keeps us small and tight, but when we begin to peel back the layers and discard of them we can release the tightness and share the awesomeness within.
It is joyful to feel how you can recognise the divine being you have always been Anon. Even though you were not cherished as a child you have found your way back and can no,longer be fooled into thinking otherwise. You really ask a pertinent question “Is making ourselves feel wrong and worthless the way we cope with the situation?” I would undoubtedly say yes. It is a way to cope but I have also found it is a way to to not deal with what you were able to read of the situation you were in. In can be difficult to be in a loveless relationship whether it be yourself or as children, feeling it in our parents. They are like our Gods and when we feel their lovelessness we somehow get lost in the despair forgetting we are the one, the light, the way and the love we have all been waiting for … Until now.
Thank God for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that we can begin to see through the thick fog that we live our lives in and connect to who we are within. Another incredible story of a willingness to healing hurts and new choices made.
Isn’t it great to hear yet another amazing story of a person re connecting to their true essence? Right you are, thank God for Serge Benhayon, these blogs will continue to be written as more and more are connecting to the love that has been earthed.
Here here Jennifer – Universal Medicine presents all the tools to walk our way back to who we truly are… and live it! It’s the whole package, religion, philosophy, body work, true science, maths and history. When we work with ourselves in the way Serge Benhayon offers by way of how he lives each day we get reacquainted with the enormity and grandness of who we are and what we are made of… Love.
This line stood out for me: “The absolute gold that Universal Medicine has offered me is that the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me – the amazing being I have always been”.
Why? Because this has also worked wonders for me, as since I’ve started caring for myself more and more my life has started changing in a beautiful way and I’m appreciating more and more how much I enjoy now just being in any situation whereas before I’d be hanging out for the weekend or some activity not wanting to really be where I was in that moment.
Thankyou for this – I can see so many parallels with my own life. Despite being born whole and full if we do not have a positive reflection from our parents or care-givers it was (for me anyway) easy to feel and continue to live the ‘I’m not good enough’ stuff. Universal Medicine has supported me to return to begin the return to who I truly am.
The very unfortunate outcome of living with a lack of true loving connection is that our sense of self isn’t nourished and developed to potential. The wonderful part to discover is that we can do this if we choose at any stage in life. With the support and presentations of Universal Medicine I’ve been laying foundations for me in self worth that blossom at every moment I choose.
That is what is the most incredible part of ‘The Way Of The Livingness’. No matter how far we have strayed and become wayward, we can always make a choice to return to the love that we are within and begin to heal and claim our true power.
Yes, so true Sandra. It is never too late to choose to develop self love. It’s a far more enjoyable option than living in the hurt we have experienced throughout our life.
Dear Anonymous
I love how you have reclaimed YOU…
‘Now that I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self. I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.’
You are living proof that love heals.
How liberating to reconnect to the fact that we are whole and complete as we are, and we were born this way. Great sharing anon about the false identities we can take on when the love we are is not reflected back.. and we then begin to doubt what we know, if we do not stay connected with ourselves.
Anonymous, unravelling the pain of the past as you have done, and finding healing and love is a miracle. Knowing that the past doesn’t have to rule our lives now, is a breakthrough point. There is another way and through your constant search for truth, you found Universal Medicine, the rest was down to you and your commitment to cherish and adore yourself.
Our childhood hurts can and do cause us to enter adulthood with a certain perception of ourselves that is simply not true. The tragedy is that we can live out our entire adulthood thinking that we are someone that we are not simply because of those hurts. Thank God for Serge Benhayon who is someone that has opened my eyes to the grandness that I am. I have come to know this grandness myself through healing the hurts that I once carried.
“Is making ourselves feel wrong and worthless the way we cope with the situation?” I have read this blog a few times and this line keeps jumping out at me. I can feel this is true for me. I can see that chosen to believe I am worthless as a form of protection against feeling that someone has treated (the very precious) me in a way that is not honouring.
This question lead me to ponder also, Leonne. I have recently come to realise that I have chosen to allow the lack of self-worth story to take the place of the amazing power I have within. And this came from not having built a strong foundation of this power that would have sustained me through the tough times growing up. Instead I went down the track of self-doubt, berating myself, feeling like I wasn’t good enough etc etc. Now I am coming back to the foundation of power within and seeing how the lack of self-worth doesn’t correspond with what I feel inside my heart and it is becoming easier to recognise that this energy is not true and in fact does not make sense whatsoever. How can we not be enough when are already everything?!
Do we enjoin the situation to try and fix it, do we enjoin so that we do not have to feel the pain around us? Or do we join others in their misery to make them feel comfortable because if we stayed with the huge level of love and light we were when we were born how would those in misery cope with that?
Great understanding Leonne, ‘I can see that chosen to believe I am worthless as a form of protection against feeling that someone has treated (the very precious) me in a way that is not honouring.’ Yes, I can relate with what you share here, thank goodness for Serge Benhayon who has helped me and hundreds more know that I am valuable, lovable, amazing and powerful just for being me.
It is true that rediscovering that we are enormously joyous beings is a great experience, which truly feels like getting to know ourselves again.
Well said Benkt, “….we are enormously joyous beings…” yet many would find this hard to believe, that we are naturally joyous but we are not living this way. I too am discovering a deep well of joy, in those moments when I’m simply being me!
What you share here makes it so simple to see what we do as a child to not have to feel uncomfortable being whole and grand in the face of others who do not choose this for themselves. I find this really amazing to see so clearly how it works and what I have done too. Living these ideals and beliefs we take on as a child then confirms them to be real but in fact it is not who we are.
Anonymous, it is so supportive to know that our parents were struggling with their own issues and emotions, and these had nothing to do with us. As you share, our parents had issues and turmoils which they didn’t know how to deal with. I have come to understand this through what is presented by Universal Medicine and it has been very supportive in letting go of the blame, the ideals and beliefs which have shaped my life since childhood. Thank you for this amazing and honest article, which everyone can relate to.
Awsome! Your blog is so divine – Thank You for sharing this with us! I loved reading it and for sure will read it again. With love Nadine
Thank you Anonymous, it is great to realise how much our childhood hurts actually have shaped us, and affected us. Universal Medicine has been the first to present that healing of our childhood hurts is required to be able to shed this old skin and step forth in life with the real us – no longer needing to be identified by these hurts. I am also on this path, and it is one to be shared with all – as we can blame others or the world but not return to our sensitivity that we are love, we were born love, we were possibly not met in this love, and there has been a hurt there. I know I have a shyness of stepping out, of claiming myself from this foundation, but never to say that we can’t begin to re-imprint this. This constant opportunity has been the ultimate gift (revelation) from Universal Medicine.
Reading this it was this act of asking questions that really stood out. It introduces little points of space into our fixed way of looking at things, and in that space movement is possible, new ways of seeing our lives, situations, patterns of behaviour.
So true Simon, the grace of space allows us room to move and we can see our lives and what drives them more clearly.
What a blessing it is to have Serge Benhayon in our lives showing us that the way we’ve been raised and who we’ve become as a result isn’t true and also showing us that it is our responsibility and our choice to make our way back to who we truly are.
As it was also our responsibility for going off course in the first place.
Yes, absolutely Robyn.
Being responsible in this way really frees us from so much that binds us, and this allows us to feel more of what is true, which is really what we all want deep down.
Anonymous, reading your blog I am recognising that this blog could well have been written by me. I have experienced so much of what you have shared. It was not until I came to Universal Medicine that I have been able to reach a full understanding of what was going on and why. This enabled me to not make any of it personal and be open to shining all of me again.
Lovely to read your journey of blossoming back to you.
Universal Medicine has also brought to my attention a false sense of myself that I thought was the only way.
But the truth is I was living in a way that let my hurts be more than the love that was in my body and more than the sensitivity that I wanted to share.
And by making my hurts more, I almost forgot that I could be any different. But in coming to Universal Medicine, and with the support of practitioners, friends and family, I have started to be honest with what has hurt me, and how much I walk around with a cape of defense instead of in the joy of who I was before the hurts.
I feel I am only just beginning to not ‘play small’ consistently, and the strength I feel in my body is so beautiful.
Hi Anon, great sharing. I was reading this sentence . . . “Is making ourselves feel wrong and worthless the way we cope with the situation?” . . . and realised that perhaps it is not that we make ourselves wrong but that we pick up these feelings from our parents and then take them on and run with them as if they are ours. If on the other hand our parents were celebrating themselves so would we be able to celebrate our self as this would be our norm instead of the other. We have an enormous responsibility with children as they can be little emotion sponges.
Cherishing our children does little if we are not cherishing ourselves.
What Universal Medicine offers is indeed pure gold. Simple, profound, for all of humanity and with absolute love and truth.
Yes, Anonymous I can feel the truth of so much of what you say in your beautiful blog. I could relate to much and in particular this resonated with me – ‘Perhaps by taking on the role that we are wrong is our way of being a piece of the puzzle, to make sense of a situation?’ as I have always had this feeling of being ‘in the wrong’ and every now and then it can still surface and confound me. However I am now realising that ‘I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world’ and as each day passes there are more possibilities opening up as life is expanding and deepening.
A great blog highlighting how a child can interpret life events, feel hurt, then blame themselves for the situation, that then tarnishes every choice and decision from that point onwards. The key is to know this has happened and deal with it rather than bury the hurts and plow on with all the colourful ways we distract ourselves to not feel the hurt.
Exactly Matthew, the key is to recognise what has happened in our lives, that we have buried our hurts and then lived from them with no awareness that this is what we are doing. Once we have the opportunity (thanks to the teachings of Universal Medicine) to address and heal our hurts, how we have been living is clearly shown to us. Treating our bodies with the utmost love at all times is the most exposing and fulfilling way to live life that I could imagine.
Yes Matthew, this is so true, and, the buried hurts go on to affect the person for the rest of their lives. It is so important to feel and heal these hurts and not let them run our lives.
‘the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me’ hat’s it anonymous, the way back is through reconnecting in our bodies and never through our minds. The mind will keep us going in circles and become maybe more aware of our issues but we can only truly heal through feeling our hurts and beliefs from the body.
You have spoken out for many people who can relate to similar upbringings, with feelings and experiences so like yours, anonymous. Realising those old beliefs from childhood that we are not worthy are great to release, and building a foundation of self love shows us we are all amazing and worth cherishing.
It must be totally bewildering for a child that is love and from love to realise that what is going on all around them is something that is completely different. Then we spend the rest of our lives trying to figure out what is wrong with us and the answer to that is nothing. We are still that love and from that love and Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon have shown us that this is the way it is.
Those are some great questions Anon. One thing I have learnt from Universal Medicine is that questions are gold when coming from our Soul, showing us that nothing is set in stone, everything can expand, a part of us may be lying and that what we believe and accept may not be true. Questioning – discerning the quality of our choices is a huge healing tool.
I am always a little torn when I read articles of such amazing transformations for although it is deeply inspiring to read of people rediscovering their worth and transforming their perceptions and behaviours, I find myself saddened that we live in a world where this is required. We are usually so careful with babies, to honour their fragility and preciousness and give them all the love and tenderness in our care we can and yet at some point feel that level is no longer a fundamental necessity…. The repercussions of this being detrimental to our psyche and self worth. It is beautiful however that you are once again connecting to this and healing through providing yourself with the love you deserve.
It can be saddening to see how we have abandoned our innate knowing of how to take care of ourselves, and it is a worldwide plague – but the beauty is that there are many of us now re-discovering and living the truth of who we are and this will grow. So we look to the love that we are and we beam that from every pore so that every person we walk past or interact with is reminded of what is inside them as well. Love wins, every time.
It is an interesting point you raise about babies, Samantha. Where is the imaginary cut off point to treating them with respect and delicateness, and why do we do this? It’s like we shift the goal posts on them and from my experience this begins earlier than we realise.
Beautifully expressed Anonymous, with such understanding and tenderness towards yourself as you unpicked back through those beliefs you held about yourself. I was pondering on these things this morning as I woke and could also feel how lack of self worth was simply something I had chosen to hold on to and reinforce by making myself fit the picture/circumstances in childhood, and that in fact I was not that – but worthy and 100% complete.
“Because these beliefs were so deeply embedded and embodied due to my living them as a false truth, it was very hard to realise that they were actually not true.” Because of the way society is, this is the norm for most people – being trapped in living lives based upon false truths that they believe are true. I was one of those but thankfully through the teachings and inspiration of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have managed to break free, like you anonymous.
I can relate to living a false identity and then discovering the real me. The fact is we often live in a way that we really think is us yet is not us in any way. This happens in different situations or clouds our entire life. When I reflect on everyone across the world, it makes one realise just how many people are likely living not the real and true being they naturally are but a version that they have become to cope and get through life. It touches everything. And as you’ve shared “What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.” is something that is good medicine for everyone worldwide.
To find out that what I called ‘my-self’ is a bundle of beliefs, taking overs and false ideals is in one hand shocking but also revealing. It was no true fun to be this ‘self’, even though it gave me a false foundation, a ground which did feel like a safe place, a comfortable place. By letting go of those false ‘self’ and discovering what I am in truth is a huge challenge, because with letting go what I am not I also had to let go of control and letting go of creating a life-bubble for me in which I was comfortable. Now, by choosing to connect with the real me thats the only choice I have to make, to be me. All else will come to me, all what is needed to be expressed and done. Yes I am amazing and magic. But I am so because I am a part of a bigger and higher whole, part of a diving puzzle. And I have to take my place, express the color, sound, whatever which is needed here to make the whole picture complete and make sense. All together we make this divine picture and when everyone takes his/her place, we will raise together. ‘Self’ is an illusion which we have to overcome. And we will. Step by step.
It’s always precious to read the transformation people undergo when they have been inspired by the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. Growing up in so much conflict and aggression cannot be easy. I know the hurt it can cause and I take my hat off to those who make the changes for a True life lived as there is so much to unravel, expose and take responsible for. I call you the Brave Ones!
In honouring my body, I have found a whole new life has opened up for me, as I can now listen to the wisdom my body shares with me, my body becoming my best friend.
‘Now that I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self. I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.’ This is an awesome testament to the foundational support that Universal Medicine provides to allow us to address the false identities we have taken on as a result of our childhood experiences. Thank you for sharing, your story is deeply inspiring and shows how it is possible to heal the deepest of hurts and thereby discover the ‘Real Me’.
Your self-reflective questions are a fantastic way to ponder on our own childhood experiences and to go way deeper than scant analysis to the source of our deeply held beliefs and patterns. The pure gold that Universal Medicine offers continues to support people in understanding where false identities have been built and lived out and at the same time in revealing the natural amazingness that we all are but have forgotten to be, that is ready and waiting to be reclaimed.
We often shake our hands in the air and say this is me. However what if we do have child hood issues which still affect us until this day?
Therefore it would be a wise investment to be aware of them.
Gorgeous Anonymous. We are all indeed worth cherishing. This is what can change the patterns of a lifetime.
I can really relate to what you have written here anonymous, I grew up not feeling cherished as a child and so agree that ‘Because these beliefs were so deeply embedded and embodied due to my living them as a false truth, it was very hard to realise that they were actually not true.’ It has taken me a long time to realise that I am actually worth caring for and loving and that I am a beautiful woman and not worthless. I loved reading your article, thank you, it’s further confirmation that all of these ideas that I had about myself were not true and that i am so much more than i thought myself to be.
I loved this sentence ‘Now that I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self. I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.’, as I am also loving and appreciating on a whole new level what it is I bring to the world. Thank you.
Gosh – you have quite literally taken the words out of my mouth. I find it fascinating how if you live for long enough thinking you’re at fault or not good enough it actually becomes a misguided truth for you. The reassuring thing about this is that in the same way that false belief was written, with a little time and commitment it can be rewritten with the truth, which is that you were born totally amazing and nothing has changed.
Anonymous this is a great article in that it so clearly reveals how easily we can buy into believing what is not true, that what we grow up thinking and feeling that this is us. The truth is these childhood issues are not who we are, we are (as you have been discovering) more than a product of our environment. In truth we all have a choice to see that who we are comes from within, not what we think we are, but that place inside that is the real you.
“I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.” To feel my own qualities and immensity of being are the root key for me to let go of any lack of self worth. If you embodied and embraced your power, old beliefs have no chance to enter and rule you anymore. It is definitely an ongoing development and it is great to read, how much you could free yourself from your past experiences and beliefs through the teachings of Universal Medicine.
“The absolute gold that Universal Medicine has offered me is that the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me – the amazing being I have always been.” And that is the beauty. The answers are very close to home in fact they are at home. We do not have to search far and wide to understand life, the only thing we have to do is to take deep and loving care of ourselves, cherishing us and honouring our bodies and feelings. Then, the more we ‘rest at home’, feel comfortable and at home with ourselves, the clearer we can see and understand everything around us. It is a truly beautiful science.
“Because these beliefs were so deeply embedded and embodied due to my living them as a false truth, it was very hard to realise that they were actually not true.” Until Serge Benhayon arrived, no one teaches us that all these aspects that we hold onto, things that we simply accept as being part of us are simply what we have chosen to identify with. For at some point we make the choice to shut down our essence, to join the mass of individuals & carve out an existence. Then along comes a teacher who pulls back the curtain, peels back the layers, the tricks, the games and points to the same wondrous and whole essence that has been there all along.
Very awesome this blog of anonymous – thank you for sharing your childhood experiences. First I thought that it must have been hard and tuff to get borne into a family like this, but than I got to feel my own situation what was very similar. The only difference was that there where less obvious fights, we seamed to be a tidy family that I grew up in; but the cold war was even worse. As a child I could feel the anger and hate and unspoken words between mum and dad – they where hurting me from inside. The feeling of frustration that I can’t understand what is going on and I wanted to help my parents in a way, but I did not know how to. Therefore I decided to shot down my feelings and I was hiding to not disturb my parents because they have much on their plate already with their problems. I can see how I created a set up to not be with this – I isolated myself from the family things. Today I can see that this was for me to not give away myself, even in this loveless set up, and I have freed myself from being a victim, and taken responsibility for my true purpose of life. Showing the world who I am included all the un-perfection, but amazing for just being me.
Thank you anonymous. What you share shows that we can go to school to be educated on lots of facts but our lasting learning takes place at home well before we get to school and these lessons stay with us and affect our behaviour. Serge Benhayon is like the wise professor at the University of Life who teaches us how to unlearn and be free of the harmful lessons we have taken on in childhood.
Our parents had many issues growing up as we do today, not better or worse just different. I wonder if we stop enough to realise that we are doing the same to our children, thinking we have dealing with life better.. Could it be the same just a different picture. We must bring greater understanding to our families and then the blame game will lessen and we will realise our own choices that we have made and will make.
Totally Gail, the blame game gets us nowhere and the understanding for our parents seems to come thick and fast when you have kids of your own.
It’s incredible to think that we have to be taught how to be self loving and that we are worth loving. How horrible that we have got to a point where it is not a natural side affect of life. Feeling worthy and honouring that in ourselves. Self worth changes our lives and the society we live in. It reflects the change and the meaning of why we are here.
As children we are born knowing we are naturally love, self love is in our every move, we can not communicate exactly how we feel, later on this changes (usually very quickly) as we learn the world around us is not like the gorgeousness we feel inside, if we are never confirmed in that love we tend to loose it and so the heartache of separation begins. Thank you Anonymous for sharing your journey back to the innocence and joy that is so naturally you!
This innocence we all carry feels so important to connect to samantahengland. It can make us approach life so differently as adults, much more open to discovering more of who we are and where we are from.
Yes the lost innocent of adults is a worldwide epidemic and something that unfortunately starts to happen after the age of 3. Thank God for Universal Medicine reminding us of who we truly are, that magic, that innocence, that purity that is always and has always been there in all of us not matter what we might display on the outer.
It is always a celebration to read someone has found his/her way back to him/herself. Beautiful.
So many people will be touched by this writing. So many of us are reduced and compromised by our experiences in childhood. So many of us live this out into our adult lives adopting various coping strategies that often exacerbate rather than help the situation. And yet there is a way to break the cycle and to re-write history so to speak, a way that is at our fingertips all the time. Stopping for a moment first, halts the hamster wheel; considering for a moment the powerful tool of choice we hold in our hands right now and realising that all we search for is in us all the time…these things are the turn around points for the oil tanker that thinks it can only head in one direction – the course for which was set years ago.
Thanks for sharing this – it is true for so many of us. As children will nearly always blame ourselves and our unworthiness rather than seeing our parents as defective. If there is something wrong with my parents, and I am small and powerless – then I am doomed; far better for me to be the cause of the problems rather than them for then at least I am cared for by competent loving people.
I echo your experience of Universal Medicine “What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.” Boo yeah – bring it on!
Hey great point Jean, we twist the situation and what is lacking to be about us to somehow provide us with a sense of safety rather than face the fact that our parents are hurting and not being themselves, for if this were true we would be in a very treacherous situation which many of us clearly were.
Thank you for sharing this very personal story of your childhood that has obviously had a huge impact on your life. I feel that one of the most amazing things that any parent can do for their children is to deal with their own issues and not just put them onto the children. This does not always have to be in the form of abuse, even issues of wanting to be good,or achieve this or that all has an impact on children. As a parent, I am working on my own issues and have no problems in apologizing to my children for something that was my issue – not theirs. This feels liberating for me and supportive for them.
That is beautiful Lee, a wonderful role model of parenting and a true relationship.
Having experienced parents who always argued and a mother who I hated for sending me to boarding school at the age of 7, I went on to have a marriage in which, although we were great friends and had a lot of fun together, there was an undercurrent of criticism and judgement that created such an atmosphere of tension it eventually led to divorce. Once Serge Benhayon had explained about how we approach relationships from a needy perspective, expecting our partner to fulfil those needs, I began to understand the choice that I had made in my life to be less than who I truly am. I was looking for love outside of me instead of developing true love for myself within.
“I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.” That is just beautiful anonymous.
It is definitely a true joy to rediscover who we truly are 🙂
And expressing who I truly am makes it all even grander Meg.
I have to agree – when I feel I am totally true to myself and I do not hold this back it feels amazing, yet of course normal, but there is an ease and beauty to this normal!
Thank you Anonymous for introducing the question about developing our self-image in this blog. As for me reincarnation is a reality it feels that we already come preloaded in this life with a certain way of being that is reflected by the environment we live in and that from there we are confirmed in this and cement these beliefs in our behaviours in this life. Otherwise when I would be come into this life full of myself, the environment I would be living in would in the first place reflect this to me and any deviation from that would not have any influence on me as I have that strong connection with my inner most, the connection that gives me trust and value in life.
Anonymous I think that you have encapsulated what most of us have lived and indeed the majority are still living. The details are different for us all but the process is the same. We are born whole and complete, we get hurt and morphe into greatly reduced versions of our glorious selves. We take on a myriad of beliefs that then ensure that we are kept separated from our once glorious selves and we then repeat this life after life. Enter Universal Medicne who has supported so many of us to unravel the knot of illusion and reclaim ourselves as the equal Sons of God.
It was great to read your story Anonymous and to be inspired by your healing. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine offer us a true way of healing back to the glorious beings we have always been, as many of our lives are testament to this fact. Re-learning to feel everything again as the child did but no longer taking on any of it as a burden or in any way ours, instead being in acceptance and allowance of what is felt whilst staying true to our own love.
With the support of Universal Medicine I now look back on my life and can see that it is like I have lived many lives in one. I can see the phases of my life through their different miseries, being abandoned as a child, and as an adult, being lost both in and out of relationships, and being less than loving with myself and those around me! Now I look back with the grace of knowing who I am, and see the wonder of the development of love in my life, both for myself and for the people around me.
I can relate to so much of what you have shared about growing up in a family . There is no such thing as the perfect family model with the perfect set of parents or children so we all emerge from the experience with many unresolved issues. It is very confirming to revisit these times with Universal Medicine courses to relearn and reevaluate our own child self perspective. In my own healing it has been vital to become aware of and contemplate how much self worth is lost in this most impressionable time of life.
As I look back on my childhood I realise just how sensitive and intuitive we are as little children. If we are in as household where things are difficult and arguments abound we feel insecure and tend to hide and not express ourselves for fear of reprisal ourselves. Although my home life was relatively peaceful I still chose not to speak up when I needed to for fear of retribution.
What you share here is super important for everyone, as we reflect on our upbringings and note the level of cherishing and preciousness that we have been held in and met for; it is simple to note this same level that our parents and elders held for themselves. Without a true marker of love in our lives we give our power away when we are young to the love that we are being wrong and the loveless we deeply observe as the way that it is or has to be.
I agree Cheriseholt. It is super important to reflect of how we are living today and consider to what degree that is a direct result of our upbringing. As in truth our true marker of love has never left us, it remains with us at all times. It is only that we have lost our trust in this connection and instead have searched for this love outside of ourselves as you shared – ‘Without a true marker of love in our lives we give our power away’. But through choosing to self-care, self-love and cherishing our preciousness we can re-build this trust through our bodies and once again return to power of knowing who we are through our connection to the truth of our love within.
What a brilliant blog you have shared Anonymous. To recognise how much the processing of situations in childhood have shaped the way we respond or behave as an adult is huge. It is a monumental moment like lifting off a cloak that has smothered over our true and natural expression when we recognise our patterns and habits and saying… “thats not me!” and see that it was a consequence of the way we took on, adopted, aligned to during an impressionable time in our life. When this ‘cloak’ is lifted, there is a moment of being able to see the two choices we have, our true self (love) and the adjusted version (protecting our love), and that moment of choosing our true essence of ourselves is amazing… And from then on, building our relationship with ourselves by choosing to self care and self love are certainly the steps to reclaiming and reconnecting back our natural way of being.
Thank you anonymous for your very honest and open sharing.
It is very beautiful to read how through the teachings of Universal Medicine, you have learnt to reconnect to gorgeous you and that you can feel, and appreciate how amazing you are, and, always have been.
“Because these beliefs were so deeply embedded and embodied due to my living them as a false truth, it was very hard to realise that they were actually not true.” You’ve so nailed it here in this sentence. We can be so dogged in our belief of who we are (in a belittling way) that it can be a struggle to come to terms with the fact that we are so much more, so much more powerful and amazing than we realise. And, in saying this, I have the feeling that I don’t even know the half of it.
“I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing” – Beautiful. There’s nothing to be improved or attained, all it takes is for us to awaken to and surrender to the fact that we are amazing already.
“I felt shocked when I began to realise that I didn’t have much self-worth, although this made sense when reflecting on my lack of confidence, my constant self-doubt, and always looking to others for answers instead of considering that I could turn to myself and trust my own feelings and intuitions” – I can really relate to this. I reacted with disbelief when someone pointed out that I had very little self regard. By then I had already firmly constructed my life based on my undeservingness and that was normal for me. I had no idea how magnificent I truly was.
“Now that I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self. I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world”.
How absolutely beautiful that you can now love and appreciate yourself and not be burdened by past events and experiences. I feel that you have an understand of the pain and hurts of your parents, a great blessing for them.
A very inspirational sharing thank you.
I woke up this morning considering how we behave in relationships and how these behaviours affect ourselves and all around us. I also grew up in an atmosphere of disharmony and on reading this blog can feel that I had also come out of that with feelings of worthlessness and self doubt, which of course then played out for most of my life. I get the sense that these feelings run deep with many layers buried under each other as I am still challenged with times of deepening fragility and having to face these beliefs as they emerge, like gum stuck to the bottom of my shoe. It is showing me the need for delicacy and support in our relationships as many of us are unfolding the hurts of our past and the defenses are quick to rise and try to bury what needs to be released.
“Now that I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self. I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.” I can so relate to this Anonymous…it is an absolutely gorgeous journey of discovery uncovering and appreciating our love and joy of ourselves and what we bring to the world.
Developmentally young children don’t have the capacity to understand the events going on within their families so they internalise then and feel that they are responsibility this is a huge burden and the beginning of the hurts and the ideals and beliefs that build the pictures we carry through into out adult lives. I partook many years of different healing modalities therapies and self-help groups as t wasn’t until I discovered Universal Medicine I truly felt healing take place and was able to reconnect with my authentic self.
This blog has hit a raw nerve with me as I was that mother who lashed out in frustration and resentment in feeling left alone to cope with caring for my kids by myself. I can feel how much that hurt my children, myself and my husband. At the time, I felt trapped in a cycle that I didn’t know how to escape from. With the support of all that Universal Medicine presents I have healed much of how this unfolded and I have reconnected to the truth of who I am not the situation I set up in my life. The great thing is that there is always more to do deeper with and the honesty of this sharing has opened the door to deeper healing to support a greater connection to the loving woman I truly am and love within everyone else.
Hi Sharon, I see myself in that mother who took out her anger and frustration on the family. It’s not a comfortable thing to admit that you have caused others pain. Fortunately I no longer give myself a hard time and wallow in guilt. I too have healed a lot of my hurts with the support of Universal Medicine. It’s never too late to start making new choices and develop a more loving relationship with yourself and the people around you.
Sharon, you were definitely not the only mother who lashed out in frustration as I can relate to this article also. What has been beautiful is since coming back to myself and beginning to heal my hurt through understanding the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom, I have not only transformed my relationship with my children and husband but most importantly with myself.
Honouring my body and learning to cherish me, these are the keys Universal Medicine has given me too, such a blessing.
I am amazed by the depth of knowledge that we have as small children, and how aware we are of the energy around us especially in our families. No wonder we cut off from these energies and the emotion they bring with them when the adults in our families don’t even see or acknowledge that we are affected by the discord. This in turn causes us to close down and hide, therefor down the track we will come up with issues in relating and sharing of ourselves. Great to know that you found Universal Medicine and the Teachings of the Ancient Wisdom presented by Serge Benhayon.
Great Sharing Roslyn, thank you
Thank you for this blog I also know very well the harm of taking on others emotions and in taking responsibility for this as you have, thanks to Universal Medicine, there is a huge shift of vitality and wellbeing. The body is obviously not designed for such emotional investment.
I agree Simon Voysey, taking the emotional stuff of others is so easy to do if we are not connected with our bodies moment to moment. Universal Medicine has allowed me to live life observing and not absorbing what is going on around me and it has been the most liberating experience as there is so much more consistency in the quality of my being.
I love what you have shared here and can say that with the support of Universal Medicine I too was able to see through all the crazy ideals and beliefs that I had taken on and believed was me. I am still working through a lot of them, and realising that I am not the tough, hard, reactive person I used to be with my massive coats of armour on, but actually I am super sensitive and sweet. It is like who I am naturally is the complete opposite of who I thought I was, and that was all because I grew up in protection. I have attended many of the Universal Medicine courses and each time I learn something new and let go of a whole lot of baggage that I was carrying without even realising.
I work with children for the exact reasons you have stated here, their erroneous assumptions about themselves based on what they are experiencing in life and namely in their close relationships with family members. It is so great to heal these whatever our age young or old and it is also my experience that Esoteric Healing modalities are most effective in supporting you to let go of false identities built up and connect to the divinity that lies within. WIN WIN!
Thank you for sharing what it is like as a child growing up with little acknowledgement of being met for who we truly are. I feel it is so important that each one of us on meeting children especially give them the attention they deserve by meeting them fully and letting them know the amazingness of who they are by our reflection.
‘…the amazing being I have always been.’ All the self worth issues and divisive troubles in the world are caused by our choices not to be aware of this truth.
“What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.” This sentence captures it all Anonymous, thank you. The process of un-picking what is our stuff from our parents’ stuff and then all the false beliefs we have taken on about ourselves as a consequence is quite a task in itself. Fortunately, Universal Medicine is there to shine a huge light on it all, lifting our hearts and showing us that underneath it all is a glorious essence just sitting there quietly within, itching to shine. Once we connect with that, then the false identities begin to crumble and fall away of their own accord and bravo, there we are in all our glory. Thank you for sharing your journey, fraught as it must have been, you bring great healing and inspiration by sharing your way home to the ‘amazing you’ you are.
Thank you so much Anonymous for sharing this experience of your life. Re-discovering that we are in fact whole is a beautiful part of our journey as humans. What you have described here about not feeling that from a very young age is the case for so many, and it results in much suffering and ill-health as a consequence. It is fast becoming realised that ill-health feeds from our lack of love in relationships – and the most key one being our relationship with ourselves. What you have spoken about here with returning to cherishing and nurturing you is key, and there is much to be gained from this for humanity as a whole.
Beautifully said Amelia. It is so true that we are here to re-discover that we are so much more than the lives that most of us exist in. ‘It is fast becoming realised that ill-health feeds from our lack of love in relationships – and the most key one being our relationship with ourselves.’ – this is a great point. As without our connection to ourselves, to the truth of our love, we are existing in a way that is not of this love and so not true, hence the dis-harmony and dis-ease. And, as what has been presented through this blog and your comment, we can return to living in truth and harmony when we choose to return to cherishing and nurturing who we truly are in essence. This way of harmonious living is already being lived today by many around the world through being inspired by the life and presentations of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
What a great observation and revelation of how what we see around us soon becomes what we know to be true. The truth however is way grander, much deeper, we are all absolutely wonderous and have much to share. Being able to hold this and know this of oneself supports and inspires others to know this of themselves too.
Which goes to show that hiding and pretending to be small and insignificant does not serve anyone.
“Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole?” Having been a practicing health therapist for 15 years and many years prior that on my own personal healing journey it was not until encountering this concept by Serge Benhayon that my healing commenced. This perspective completely changes the standard approach to healing, which is to attempt to fix something that is ‘wrong’. With this perspective one is no longer trying to mend something that is broken but to re-connect to that original wondrousness, which has never been harmed in anyway just covered up, and to let it shine out dissolving whatever obscures its light.
This question was something I had never heard of or considered as well Jonathan before hearing Serge Benhayon present. All I saw was the constant trying to perfect ourselves and achieve more to be successful. If this fact was understood and accepted it can most definitely draw the striving to fix oneself to a halt.
Beautifully expressed Jonathan!
I totally agree Jonathan, I too was on the endless search for something that would heal me as I always felt the “broken nut” until I met Serge Benhayon when I felt for the first time in my life that I was complete within myself and just needed to let go stuff that I had been holding onto thinking it was me. Amazing!
I had a belief that life is hard work and can’t be full of joy and glory. From here foward I walked and lived in a way that magnified hard effort, complication, seriousness and no joy – all by my own choice and creation. Stopping this I am left with who I really am, joy, love, glory and powerful!
I can relate to that Danielle, I thought a life of ease was only for the very fortunate few and I had not been dealt those cards by life, but I now know I am the creator of my days and therefore I am the one that chooses struggle or joy.
“Because these beliefs were so deeply embedded and embodied due to my living them as a false truth, it was very hard to realise that they were actually not true.”
This is a great observation – when we give weight to what we are not, we lose sight of what we are. It doesn’t go away, but our awareness of it does. A lie can only be sustained if we feed it and this we do by believing it, embodying it and walking it as if it were truth.
Very well said Liane, as we have lost sight of who we are, seemingly we have laid the focus on who we are not and we seem champions in this way, actually that is crazy! The less we allow ourselves to be who we are, the less truth we are able to touch, see, hear and speak. Therefore we are our own enemies when it comes down to our blindness, numbness, comfort – as we have chosen our way. A way that is allowing to be real and that we are Sons of God, or to denial this fact and life the opposite. This last one mentioned is were Universal Medicine stands for.
totally agree Liane ” A lie can only be sustained if we feed it” once we stop and reconnect to who we are, it then becomes clear what we have been feeding that is not of truth. And with that awareness comes the freedom to be able to let go of the lie.
“Learning about myself is an ongoing and unfolding journey.” As it is for me too – steadily uncovering more of what gets in the way of the love that is inside me from being expressed. And appreciating and learning to express more from that love.
Anon your blog has struck a deep chord as yet another childhood issue was revealed to me this week. Taking on the emotional turmoil of the family was huge for me as a child, and a shadow of that pattern emerged to be dealt with in the form of sibling relationships. I could feel myself becoming frustrated and resentful and trying to control the situation rather than simply feel what was happening. I then observed my behaviours which were less than loving and can see what was driving me as a child all those years ago, and why I decided to hide away and not feel. As a child, being cut off from my feelings and expression I lost the sense who I was very quickly, thus losing self-worth and always doubting myself. Thank you for your insightful contribution. Sessions with Serge and attending workshops with Universal Medicine have helped me to unravel childhood patterns also, and to come back to being me.
Without the support of those who know your essence thoroughly and will not accept any less, we don’t receive confirmation of who we are (and when in dire straights, it’s very difficult to frequently confirm yourself). I see the power of confirmation coming through in this blog from the author, to the author and to many more no doubt who have read the blog. Thank you.
What I have started to realise is how cleverly I choose the childhood issues that I have used life after life to avoid being the ‘wondrous and whole’ me. By having issues with hiding, playing small, not feeling able to speak truth etc it creates struggle in my life. When I am struggling, I can’t feel the amazingness that is just there when I drop all of this. More and more these issues are feeling like a smoke screen, one of my own creation.
Fiona great point you make that as a child we can hold onto our hurts- from lifetime to lifetime like a security blanket as to not want to look at them, but blame others for them, avoid taking responsibility, but more importantly to keep ourselves small- not allow the amazingness that we all are to shine.
We were all born wondrous beings of love and light.
Yes Fiona I resonate with what you share here. When we choose our past childhood issues to keep as small it doesn’t allow our fullness arise to the surface and that is what stunts our growth. When we let go out these past issues we surrender to all that we are.
This is great Fiona, starting to see issues that we think are with us for life, are in fact our own masterful creation to not have step up into the fullness and truth of who and what we are. Even the parts that seem overwhelming or intractable that we think we have to ‘fight’ or struggle through – this is all part of the same game – seeing them for the false light that they are, we can just let them go as we step into the truth and embrace fully who we are.
This is so true Fiona when we identify with these issues and make them part of who we are we don’t actually see or feel the truth. That we are in fact far greater and more amazing just by being us.
‘More and more these issues are feeling like a smoke screen, one of my own creation’ I can really relate to this Fiona and can feel how the choices I have made have prevented me from feeling my amazingness and I am now appreciating making different choices.
I agree Fiona, I have realised that all my issues were of my own making and because I was not met and cherished as a child, I decided that I was going to hold back my love as this world did not deserve my love, but in fact, I deeply hurt and lost my true essence in doing so…..not so smart. Thankfully, I am now allowing my love to be felt.
“When I am struggling, I can’t feel the amazingness that is just there when I drop all of this.” How true, and how simple. Why would we do this to ourselves when there is so much on offer?
This is very true Fiona. When we identify with the struggle we think that we are our issues, therefore becoming submerged in them. The absolute beauty of the Ageless Wisdom presented by Serge Benhayon is that we begin to see and feel the choices that we have made and the responsibility we hold in making those choices and that through healing our hurts we can begin to make new choices where there is no longer a struggle because we have connected to who we are and there is not an ounce of struggle or issue in that.
It’s interesting Fiona the smoke screens we choose to not be in our glory, looking back now the choices were often from contracted me not from who I knew I could potentially be, the world didn’t feel safe so I chose to hide now I see the patterns and choose to be simply ‘just me’ and that is glorious.
absolutely, more and more I am seeing that all my issues have been entirely created by me and my choices… and without blame to any other. It is only from this point can the way forward be clear – and gaining clarity around the choices I’ve made then allow a different choice to be made.
It is great to understand that taking responsibility for our choices is not an onerous, or shameful admission or one that expects punishment or recrimination, but rather a truly empowering step forward out of life’s incarceration and into true freedom of living who we truly are.
‘I am joyously discovering how much more there is of me to love and appreciate, and what I can bring to this world.’ I love this, it is indeed a joy to find out that we are divine creatures and only love can bring this out and yes there is so much to appreciate in each moment every day so you get to see and feel what it is you have to offer.
Beautiful blog which shows how we build a false self and can unbuild it too. I love this line ‘Could it be that we are in fact born wondrous and whole?’ – we are and to unravel any beliefs we have which suggest otherwise taking this into account changes everything, it allows us to see ourselves from a platform of knowing that we are absolutely ok in and of ourselves no matter what.
You are absolute Gold anonymous. Your sharing shows powerfully how we can choose to go along with the story of life events and mould ourselves into these issues and experiences. But its just not true. I am inspired by the way you’ve been peeling back these layers of belief to come home to the real you.
Behind all issues, is the Glorious and amazing us. It can take awhile to unfold these layers, with the loving support of those around us, but it is there always waiting the opportunity to shine.
It is really knowing that it is not you, this false self that is convinced it is not worthy of just being love. I personally have struggled a lot with this and are forever learning to surrender to the simple fact that I am breathed forth equal to all from God. Just accept that and everything changes.
Beautifully said, Joseph. Thank you for reminding us that it is our choice, and we are making one constantly.
Joseph I couldn’t agree more, the beliefs being shed here need to be shouted from the roof tops and then celebrated as another one of our brothers returns home, re-connecting to who they truly are.
One of the (many) things I love about Universal Medicine workshops presented by Serge Benhayon is that they offer the opportunity to look at what ideals and beliefs you hold about you, your body, your relationships etc… and then the space to challenge them – is that really true? Do I want to continue living with these? And then you have the choice to say yes or no. And that choice is entirely yours. I have been very astounded at how many I actually hold and the power and influence they have over my life – some quite easy to notice and others quite subtle in how they play out. And how easy some can be to let go of and those that aren’t, I call in the excavation team for support 🙂
As little kids we feel everything. When our environment is not one that honors the fact, communication between the two can be missed, and in that gap all that is not true can fill it. To realize that we never lose the ability to feel and connect to Truth is a move closer toward it – one that honors the Love we are.
“I was still identifying with the thoughts and beliefs that I had assumed for myself as a small child. The key way for me to break with them was to ask a lot of questions…” Giselle I’m not entirely sure which gap you speak of, but there certainly are many and as described above, they can be closed beginning with loads of quality questions that to reach an answer for requires a healing regardless.
Thank you Anonymous. Your story allows me to feel that I do not have to be ruled by my past. I often ask myself the question “Does this thought come from my soul”. The answer is always very obvious as no thought from my soul is harsh, judgmental or cruel. I love knowing that we can all choose to live in a loving way as you have done.
This is what is so key for me too…not having ‘to be ruled by my past’. There can be no victimhood or blame once I claim that truth.
No thought from my Soul is harsh, judgemental or cruel. A lovely reminder Leonne, to take into my day!
And thank you Leonne for this gorgeous reminder – asking such a simple question can bring such profound change to how we are with ourselves in each moment. Asking “Does this thought come from my soul?” allows any thought that is harsh, judgmental or cruel to be seen for the rubbish that it is and not taken on.
It all comes down to the choices we make, and we don’t need to start with big and grand ones, as it is the choices we make in everything we do, starting each day with how we get out of bed, that let the grand changes come about.
That is very true, Joost. How often do we think that the only way that things will change in our lives is if we change absolutely EVERYTHING all at once? So we try, and we fail at it, thus giving us a reason to think that we are not able to change anything, and end up thinking that we can’t change.
But if we build up a foundation of seemingly small choices that are truly loving and supportive of ourselves, we find over time that huge things have changed with not as much effort as we thought we needed.
This is beautiful Leonne – It is so easy to be critical, but once it was presented to me the question ” how would Love say that to you” and you realise that the harshness and criticism we are using to bring ourselves down is not truly us at all. All we have to remember is we are from that Love and we can live from that instead if we choose.
The questions you pose are life changing as with the answers come the Truth of who we really are, and all that is not naturally can begin to fall away. Thank you for sharing your insights and appreciation of who you are – most wondrous and whole.
I can completely relate to these feelings of childhood guilt that you have written about, and how they still shaped my decisions and view of myself well into my adulthood. One of the greatest gifts that I have given myself is the understanding to let those things go. This was only possible through the help of Universal Medicine and working with Esoteric Practitioners, who allowed me to see that these things were not my fault in the slightest, and that they were not who I am.
And only when we can from a very early age, connect with the truth that anything less than love is ‘not it’ Naren, can we make choices to truly empower ourselves. We are amazing and powerful beyond measure and cap this truth due to the comfort we are sold and that we choose.
Regardless of all the awareness and discovery of how you felt as a child through counselling, it was not really until you had a foundation of self love via the work of Universal Medicine that things changed for you. I can understand that the counselling may have been helpful, but even in unravelling the truth of what happened to you, a greater truth was not restored until you attended Universal Medicine, which was that you are worthy of love, of being cherished, were confirmed for how amazing you are, and able to heal your life through the activity of your own self love. This is similar to my own experiences and until reaching Universal Medicine I was still all of those issues and experiences. There was still an emptiness which was perhaps worse than the trauma, this was the absence of me. Thank you for sharing your story.
Absolutely agree Melinda after 10 years of therapy I can say with out doubt that understanding my hurts never healed them or supported me to live with the connection to my body that I have today solely down to the teachings of Universal Medicine.
I love this paragraph about Universal Medicine and totally agree, “What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.”
I have to agree Raymond. We do not let ourselves be aware that the false ‘you’ taken on as a coping mechanism as a child, is nothing like the real you. This is something Universal Medicine supports us to feel and know for ourselves and is one of the greatest gifts anyone can be offered in this life.
It is a gift Fiona and a real blessing to be shown all the falseness we have taken on which has led to lives being full of complication. To feel and return to our natural innocence and playfulness as a child is so gorgeous yet so natural at the same time.
Hello Fiona Lotherington and I agree, it’s an impostor. Dressed and looking the same as ‘you’ but not behaving anything like the ‘real’ or true you. At times in fact the acting is deliberately opposite and you wonder how can this be. Are ‘we’ collectively as human beings running our lives or is there something else at play? If we agree that ‘everything is energy’ then it would seem that anything physical would be governed by this energy. Universal Medicine reawakens us to energy and what is really going on around us, it’s been great fun and very freeing.
Raymond I agree. There is a definite before Universal Medicine and after Universal Medicine in my life. I now have an anchor, a reference point, and a sense of the immensity of me – I can claim my amazingness and the huge love that resides within.
Ya Ha it is significant the moment I came across Universal Medicine and how it has supported me to connect much more deeply to who I naturally am. I feel so confident in myself today almost unrecognisable to the insecure anxious aggressive person I used to be… phew for everyone that I can now live much more at ease in my body and as myself.
It is true, by working with the Ancient Wisdom as presented by Universal Medicine we do have a reference point, a marker for the amazingness that we are, a constantly unfolding and growing one. It does not mean that we are in a constant blissful state, but that we have the ability to continue unfolding our awareness of what the human being really is and what we are all really here for which requires love, understanding and a willingness to be open to what false beliefs we allow to run the way we think and act.
Hello hartanne60 and yes the before and afters, http://www.universalmedicine.net/before–after.html. The support Universal Medicine offers is far and wide. If you are feeling there is more to life, feeling a pain within that is not satisfied by anything then Universal Medicine can support.
Without Universal Medicine the ideals of who I thought I was would never have been exposed for the harshness that they were. It is revelatory to realise that the beliefs we develop of who we are as children stick with us for so very long, and often they are not a shadow of who we really are.
Hello Heather Pope and I totally agree. These “beliefs” almost lay in us hidden from our childhood and shape us from the environment we grew up in. Most may say this is normal and when you realise all that we are you can clearly see this is very far from normal. Thank you Heather.
I agree too Raymond and Heather, even if you think you don’t have the obvious ideals or pictures that are seen, as in being the good mother, father, family, or having the nice house, car, job etc but the insidious pictures, of considering ourselves not up to scratch, not enough in some way, not as valuable as others, these are deeply sabotaging constructs many take on and live their life by – not only incarcerating themselves to live a life in deep contraction and angst, but also to deny the world the opportunity to know them in the fullness of who they naturally are if they were free to just be themselves.
Knowing who we are is what frees us from the constraints and constructs of the clever tactics and ploys we play to not know this. Universal Medicine is the only organisation that presents that there is more to us than our issues. In fact that is not who we are. Serge Benhayon presents on love and that we are and from that love.
I agree Jennifer – ‘there is more to us than our issues” so much more… and knowing who we are helps us see everything that we have chosen to take on that is not us and that can be let go of, to allow the truth of us to shine out.
Dear Anonymous, separation from self is painful and acutely felt. As a child we come into the world connected to the warmth, love and light that we are. The forces we meet coming at us are harsh and shocking. What your blog re-affirms for me again is that this connection to self never dies. it is always there no matter below all the ‘stuff’ we accumulate in order to not feel the truth. Children are about showing us the pure light and love that is. They bring the opportunity to join once again to the clear and unencumbered truth that we once knew. Your re-connection to the truth is so joyful – another son coming home, another reflection of the truth of who we all are. Thank you for sharing, for offering this truth to all those around you and for bringing more light to the everyday livingness that is there to be lived.
To finally understand that the ideals and beliefs that I had taken on through my life were not who I truly was, was life changing to say the least. I used to wonder why I acted the way I did at times, sometimes horrified at my behaviour, all the time knowing at a deeper level that I wasn’t that person, but having no reference point to assist me to return to that “wondrous and whole” being that I actually was. That was until I met Serge Benhayon and was presented with the reference point I had been seeking for so long. And so the journey back to me began; the wonderful, amazing me that had always been there, but only revealed in her glory once the mountains of other peoples ideals and beliefs that buried the “true me”, had been acknowledged and released.
Ingrid I feel to say ‘ditto ditto’ as you have expressed my experience in life. I felt like a observer often looking at the dramas and me in them thinking ‘this is madness this isn’t how I see myself or imagined my life’ but I was powerless to change as I couldn’t identify why it was going so badly pear shaped and no one had any answers, they all had their own dysfunctional lives to muddle through. When I first saw a Universal Medicine practitioner it was reflected to me my part in the drama I was shocked as I didn’t consider I was equally responsible for the disharmony. Accepting responsibility for my part was the beginning of my return to appreciating my essence and love. I now have an awareness and foundation in life that has clarity and wisdom and true understanding of myself and humanity thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
I was just reflecting on the question why children so often feel they are to blame for the troubles of their parents and one thing that came to me is that as young children, we more often than not don’t have the ‘big picture’. Our experience of life is very small – family, school and the local environment so we do not see what is affecting our parents outside of this. All we feel is their turmoil, their upset, their anger and because it might be in that moment directed to us, we do not have the big picture view to realise it isn’t about us or because of us.
True Lucy however,, our experience only becomes small because if we don’t play small we will feel rejected. The choice has already been made by us. We are clever and know how to play small. The responsibility has to be taken at some time or point – why wait?! Do I feel my rejection or do I play small?
Awesome Rik, thanks for expanding. You’re spot on.
It is a great moment when we can look at ourselves and behaviours and see how these behaviours have moulded us for a long time, BUT they are not us, just taken on to get through or cope with a difficult time/times. What Universal Medicine brings is beneficial to everyone as “We live for so long, often well into adulthood, behaving and living according to these deep beliefs we take on that are so far from the truth of who we are.” so to be able to stop and take stock of what is us and what not is a great gift and healing for ourselves and everyone else we interact with.
The truly amazing person that each and every one of us is, was the best kept secret that I had come across until Universal Medicine. It wasn’t until I started having regular sessions in the Esoteric Healing modalities and attending the workshops with Serge Benhayon that I soon discovered that there is a pot of gold that lies within each and everyone of us and as we heal the hurts from our past, the gold can then shine for all to see.
Very beautifully said Donna.
Beautifully expressed Donna Gianniotis, ‘as we heal the hurts from our past, the gold can shine for all to see’.
Thank you Donna, I agree, the pot of ‘Gold’ leads to a rainbow that has always been inside us waiting for the light to shine on humanity.
True Donna, and we cannot truly appreciate that amazingness in others until we get to discover that gold within ourselves first and foremost. then naturally we can see and know that all others hold the same treasure inside. And our appreciation of their beauty and preciousness allows their own sparkling light to shine out even more.
That is wonderfull news anonymous. It is so easy and sneaky how we buy into those falls identity and cover it up – relating to it that it is true, while in fact it is an uphold of lies of appearances. I find it so interesting why, myself, have chosen this identity and how I have chosen to live something that is so clearly unnatural. It would have stood out much cleaner that this is unreal, if we as a society had not chosen it all, our accepted, normal form. As if we choose now to stay with who we truly are, all those masks, shield and protections (false identities) will just stand out. Thank you Serge for all the support, I have now allow myself to step on my true path again and supporting me to lose all my false identities.
I always find it amazing when people from difficult upbringings can see past the hurt and realise that their parents struggled and had issues just like we all do – not excusing behaviours that is not okay, but also bringing understanding as to why they where that way. It is great that you are able to start feeling that your are enough, and totally worth loving.
It is a great day when we can see our parents as human beings who have just made their way through as best they could without any real support either. Once we stop blaming our parents for our hurts we are empowered to claim the responsibility of our own lives.
Awesome!
I agree, it can be so easy to see our parents as Gods, and so to be able to look back and understand that they where human just like we are, with hurts and issues and struggles like everyone else. It is been a great healing for me to see my parents as people rather than just my parents.
…bringing understanding, a magic ingredient.
So true Rebecca! Past hurts will go on through life and generations as long we hold on to them. It is such an empowering realization to see that I can let go ‘my’ hurts by taking responsibility.
Great point Rebecca, its always a bit of a miracle when we start to see a bigger picture, and this is what understanding brings. From seeing how it is or was for others, we can start to tease out the thing that happened long ago, from the pattern of behaviour that we are continuing to live and are completely responsible for. Its what is happening now that can be healed, and changing our perspective really helps!
Yes absolutely Rebecca, when we do not take it personally and see the hurt and turmoil that others are in with understanding and love, it allows us to take responsibility for our own hurts and deal with them without complicating the matter.
Exactly, it is amazing what we can see and understand when we take a step back from the situation.
What a beautiful article on how to heal sell-worth and the entrenched belief that one is wrong. I could really relate to your question of ‘Is making ourselves feel wrong and worthless the way we cope with the situation?’ as I found that this was a belief that I adopted so that I could make sense of situations. However what my association with Universal Medicine has shown me is that not every situation has something to do with me or is about me and my only role is to just observe what’s occurring. It is through the ability to observe, that true understanding comes. However if we have not been cherished as a child and we don’t feel confident about who we are, the ability to observe is very difficult and then we do take on what is going on around us. For years in my teens I wanted to study child psychology and was disheartened when I studied it at ‘A’-level as it didn’t tell me anything about people. Universal Medicine really knows and cares about people and the psychology that is presented through Universal Medicine enables people to understand themselves and others at a very deep level.
Wow it is fascinating isn’t it Shevon how we can study for years in something acquiring the knowledge only to be in truth we are no better off then when we started, and in some cases worse off as our minds can then hold all these beliefs and ideas of how things should be stopping us from feeling what is true. I totally agrees with you the psychology offered by Universal Medicine shows immense understanding and comes from a deeply caring perspective, nothing in the world compares.
‘Because these beliefs were so deeply embedded and embodied due to my living them as a false truth, it was very hard to realise that they were actually not true.’ ‘What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.’ Through everything Unimed has to offer we indeed get to feel what it is like to truly connect with ourselves, which leaves the choice up to us to go back to our old ways or to actually surrender to feel more of the love that we innately are.
Thank you Anonymous. To re-discover whom we truly are and to know that we are worth cherishing is profound and precious. It fundamentally changes everything.
To cherish me and reconnect to the true me is breaking the cycle of hurts and false identity. This stops an evil energy to go on and on and it is a choice which does bring a change into this period, a break into a tradition of self-deception and disempowerment. Yes, it is a strong choice to ‘re-discover whom we truly are’!
So true Elizabeth, to know and accept the grandness of who we are and the fact “that we are worth cherishing” is an absolute game changer.
Totally agree Elizabeth, re-discovering our preciousness is profound and the more I cherish and care for myself the more I feel how precious I am.
Absolutely Elizabeth – it really does fundamentally change everything and feels to me like coming back home to a place that has always been known – just seemingly forgotten or dismissed.
This is a defining moment in so many of our lives,”From my perspective now, I can see that as a child, not having a true nor whole sense of myself, I decided that I was not worth much and somehow at fault.” The next defining moment is the one where we realise this is not our truth and we choose to change. It’s up to us.
It is pertinent for us to consider how we take on these beliefs as an accepted way of being and actually live without even realising we are holding such beliefs about the way life is when in fact it is not that way at all. This is the ultimate prison. A prison one does not even realise that they are in until we open ourselves up to our natural innateness and see the bars that we have remained held by
Absolutely. And yet it is always our choice, and thankfully our nature, to ask questions and in that curiousity to see beyond the walls of the prison to the space beyond (that is actually within us all the time!)
It is actually easier to escape the prison than the prison may appear to make it. It all comes back to expressing and living from our hearts
well said Joshua, the beliefs we take on become such a part of us that we think it is who we are and many live with this all their lives, blind to the fact that it is far from who they innately are. To expose the beliefs for what they are, not ours in the first place, is a big step in our healing process.
We may think being lost in the woods or deserted on a desert island is bad but being trapped by our beliefs and ideals is far far worse as it not only stays with us in one life, but can remain with us life after life until we choose to see the falsity that they are.
true Joshua, in that perspective it may be good to be in those woods or on that Island as a way of coming back to basics. I was stopped in my tracks and had to go back to absolute basic which offered me the space to start to unpick the ways and beliefs that were not really even making sense.
Yes Joshua the ‘Ultimate Prison’ is the one we don’t know has us.
Choosing to bring awareness to the fact that we have choices is so powerful. Then we have an opportunity to change and ‘break free’.
It is the bars that lock us in without us even knowing that we are locked that ensures we will not even attempt to escape even when we are in there. It is indeed the ultimate of all prisons
Wise words Joshua, and once we open up and be aware of this innateness – the innateness is known – all is known. Your responsibility then to yourself and to all, is to live what is possibly amazing in our world presently that does not honor it.
An innateness that is not new in any way, as it always has been known by us, just simply not honoured or claimed in its whole truth
“I felt shocked when I began to realise that I didn’t have much self-worth, although this made sense when reflecting on my lack of confidence, my constant self-doubt, and always looking to others for answers instead of considering that I could turn to myself and trust my own feelings and intuitions.” I certainly relate to this anonymous, Universal Medicine has supported so many to break free of these inhibiting factors and rebuild a true life in which love and care of, and trust in oneself form their solid foundations.
I relate to this Jeanette, yet I have found that I can flick a switch and stop playing that game of not trusting myself and just choose to do things and this very rarely means I get things wrong. The self doubt is a bit of a trick but a strong one that can and often does lead to a misery that doesn’t need to be there if we just make that decision to trust we are enough just as we are.
Yes Stephen, trusting we are enough as we are with what we know right now, as you say we have a choice, and making a choice is key. We can flick a switch and stop playing the self doubting game right now.
Shattering cycles of old is ground breaking. Letting go of held beliefs from past hurts is liberating, no wonder we have natural disasters – these both equal a love tsunami!
Agree Marcia, letting go of the hurts we are holding onto often for lifetimes is a true liberating process. To feel as a child that the amazing love we are is not lived and reflected to us is devastating and to let go of this hurt is very empowering.
yes the impact of shattering these cycles is huge, and is reshaping not only our individual cycles but the greater cycles that we live within, wow.
true victoria, for the impact of change in one cycle will be felt in all others – absolutely wow!
Yes we are powerful, it certainly brings a responsibility back to ourselves and how we are living when we consider the impact our choices are having on the whole.
Yes indeed Victoria, when we accept how powerful we actually are, we must also accept the responsibility that comes with it.
Thank you Marcia, bring on the wave of ‘Love.’
Children often take on the responsibility for their unloving or dysfunctional family and begin to doubt the love they were born with. It’s wonderful that you now appreciate you “…for the naturally amazing me that I am.”
So true Hannah and then we separate from that great love that resides within us and settle for a much lesser substitute of looking outside ourselves for anything that can fill the aching void.
Exactly Jane, in our hurt we retreat and settle for whatever substitute we can find, joining the game that everyone is playing.
What a real and honest understanding of your life and what happened to you and the lack of self worth and ideals and beliefs you held and I can relate to much of this too. I also found “The absolute gold that Universal Medicine has offered me is that the way back to my true self is found in honouring my body, and cherishing me – the amazing being I have always been.” A great sharing and appreciation of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine presented to us all and the way of the livingness.
Absolutely Tricianicholson, I agree, the admirable attributes of Serge Benhayon are ‘gold’ and will be with us all the way back to Heaven.
We take on ways of being and responding to life in our early years that we often carry all through our lives. While initially we adopt these characteristics and behaviours out of protection or as a way of responding to a world that doesn’t want us to be who we truly are these traits make up the ‘personality’ we carry around with us, sometimes for our entire lifetime.
Anonymous you are so deeply beautiful, it is a joy to celebrate you and the inspiration you bring on your blogs. Thank you.
What amazes me over and over again is the complexity of the false identity I have built it is like a fortress so the world can’t see the real me.
Hi nicolesjardin, these fortresses that we build are not always successful as most can still see our immense beauty regardless . . Behind my fortress I realised people could see me but I missed out on the world as I couldn’t see out.
yes kathleenbaldwin, your fortress could never hide your immense beauty, but it is an absolute joy to see now see you revel in it and share it with the world. It is amazing how much more beautiful our experience of the world is when we are not interacting from the protection of false identities, but instead with the ease and freedom of our true selves.
Thank you Hannah, from one immense beauty to another, as we all are in truth, I agree with all you say.
I have really noticed how much hurt is used as a fortress it creates a ig buffer zone between me and people – it means I can’t feel what is going on and it creates the perfect barrier to keep people out. It is also very lonely and miserable.
Well said Nicole. We really do build up fortresses around us – strong, indestructible, tough walls that can only really be taken down by careful personal unpicking, never at the hand of another… For someone to try and get through those walls can be a little like a blind man playing jenga!
I love the blind mind playing Jenga analogy as that is exactly what it can feel like at times.
For me the it starts to feel like something is not quite right in an area of my life and so there is a possibility that there is a wall there and I am not letting people in and then it is knowing where to start the healing process.
Thank you Nicolesjardin, I agree, such a tangled web of lies and falsities that take us away from the true self. How amazing are the presentations by Serge Benhayon that inspire us to write and explore the truth of our true self and power.
Anonymous, I am surprised at the depth of knowing that we have as small children.
This is rarely acknowledged by adults in our families, therefore we take on so much more than is realised, causing so much havoc in our lives as we grow into adults ourselves. I admire the fact that you didn’t give up but kept searching until you found Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayons teachings , and were able to heal yourself.
When we look back to our childhood most of us are probably surprised to realise how much we knew and felt, that was not acknowledged by adults in our families. I don’t remember being told that I was Loved but I knew that I was, and for that I am forever grateful to my parents and family. I too still did not have the greatest sense of self worth and was considered shy, (hiding my light) . Thank you for sharing your journey Anonymous and your wonderful turn around to discover who your truly are.
Thank God for Universal Medicine – and the opportunity to really stop and ask the questions that begin to unpick all the stitches that can have us sewn up, and essentially trapped (or perhaps even hiding) in things that are not true that we have believed to be so. The empowerment of freeing ourselves from false notions that keep us down and hold us back from the simple ‘natural amazingness’ we are is beyond measurement.
Thanks to Universal Medicine we can see all that what has not worked for us – from a place of a lived and claimed love for ourselve and for all others equally – not perfect but aware of it.
True Monika – and I could not be more grateful for the chance to “see all that what has not worked for us” – and to build a way that is not run by all the old stuff that I let push me around, but a way that actually supports me to live who I really am – from the inside out.
‘We live for so long, often well into adulthood, behaving and living according to these deep beliefs we take on that are so far from the truth of who we are’. – Well said Anonymous. I feel the next step is the realisation that we also have a responsibility in this choice. To take on things from our childhood. This feels sometimes a huge leap, but it is not meant in a harsh way, just an awareness to bring about true healing and change.
One of the greatest traumas of childhood is realising that the world around you does not seem to be aware of the great love that you know is there at your fingertips.
True Adam, and one of the greatest tragedies is that we then begin to doubt this great love.
Yes I agree Hannah & its a shame that kids don’t always speak up about how they are truly feeling amongst the drama.. Now we can support our children to speak up when things don’t feel right.
And when we doubt this great love, Hannah, all we have to hang onto are the ideals and beliefs that have been part of our world as a child and then we carry these into adult life. Universal Medicine presents a way for true healing of the traumas and hurts and we have another choice about how we are able to live.
Beautifully expressed Adam and Hannah – our deep hurt as children is that we know we are love, but that others don’t reflect this back, and then we begin to enter a cycle of doubting what we know is true and the love that we are…. Thankfully, and although for many, it takes a lifetime or many more, we are all able to return to the love we are because even though we may doubt it, it is always naturally there within.
Yes Angela, Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine are a beacon of light, reminding us all of the love that we once all knew as true before our hurts fostered doubts and mistrust. They are a steadfast reminder that this love is not lost, indeed it never left us for, as you say, “it is always naturally there within”.
Yes so true Adam and Hannah, to be able to stay with ‘the great love that you know that you are’ in the face of any circumstance that presented would avoid a lot of hurt and angst.
This is one of the biggest tragedies we have to live with – doubting our amazing love and building walls around our love believing we are protecting it.
Yes lindellparlour, the irony is that the only true protection is to live a life without walls.
It is quite the trap really – we know that to be connected with each other is natural, but we look around us and see that the world is connected to something else. And so we leave our true connection to enjoin others out of the false ideal that this is what brotherhood is actually about.
Exactly Adam, such a trap, made all the more easier to fall into with the lure of “not being alone” – so we trade connection with ourselves for a shared emptiness.
Yes Adam and as there is no reference that what we feel is true we gradually override our feelings and take on a way of life that is fitting with the picture we see around us. How amazing would it be to support children to be who they are and live what they feel – truly being the wind beneath their wings.
This is what I claim for my next life; parents that support me in allowing me to be me and feeding me the food that my body needs to stay align with my soul. As well a family where honesty and love is a solid foundation. At least I have a marker now for what I want to grow up in – thanks to the Benhayon family.
That is indeed the way to raise kids. And it starts with us to heal the ‘kids in ourselves’ by dropping the false beliefs we adapted during our childhood and dis-cover the love we were and still are. From there we can be a reflection for all kids we meet. We don’t even have to be parents for that.
Yes Michael and the best way to support children “to be who they are and live what they feel” is to live this ourselves.
Agreed Adam, then, as this blog portrays so well, we build a series of reasons for this experience and typically blame ourselves. Adding a layer of doubt that can at times feel rusted on.
I agree. I can remember being very puzzled and confused. I choose then to do things that got me attention and recognition instead and thought this is the only way the world functioned until I came across Universal Medicine which presented we can be our true selves in this world without a doubt.
Hi Karin, I too can remember being puzzled and confused. I became very small and quiet in order to survive as a child. Through the presentations of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have a greater understanding of energy and just how it works and how important it is for each of us to take responsibility for the energy we allow in . Living in a way that embraces who we naturally are supports all others to do the same.
In contrast to you Karin and in order to deal with the lack of love as a child and to avoid unfair punishment I did my very best to go unnoticed. I succeeded so well that it lasted until a few years ago when Universal Medicine came into my life.
Kathleen and Patricia I’ve really appreciated your comments as they’ve inspired me to consider all the ways I’ve hidden who I am and observe the many creative ways people hide – whether it’s from being invisible or hiding behind a loud mask. Yesterday I realised how I was continuing a choice I made when I was growing up: to never make mistakes or need anything from another, I tried to hide my vulnerability and fragility but just became sneaky and dishonest about how needy I was – to myself especially! Lovely to realise I don’t have to hold myself so hard but allow myself to honest and make mistakes.
Hello Adam Warburton I agree coupled with the fact that you don’t hold that “great love” in the face of that realisation.
Well said Adam and Ray. It is both the world not knowing it and us not living it that causes us great sadness.
I agree also Adam, it is a huge trauma to see the world ignoring the great love that is there with us and instead insisting on barrelling along a path creating a world of misery and pain. And then creating reasons to justify why they have to live that way.
That is interesting Ray and Sarah, there is great sadness to see the adults not knowing the love that is there, maybe also a sadness in child knowing that if they hold that love the adults do not know how to be with them, and so the child leaves that love to enjoin with their parents, and that choice to give it up to fit in with the world leaves a deep feeling of loss and abandonment. Their parents cannot bring what the child knows as the love it has left, and the child has abandoned its own great love. Adults grow up feeling lost and abandoned but in fact it was their own choice to abandon themselves many years ago.
Hello Annie C and it sounds like a never ending cycle as the parents have children who then are parents that have children and so it goes on. Universal Medicine offers a choice to end this cycle of what appears to be blindness to who we truly are.
Yes Raymond, as adults we have the ability to face both sides, the one which did not recognized the love we are and our side being incapable to hold it. A man once said to me how disillusioned he feels that in his culture parents have such a big hold over their children’s future in regards of job, marriage, money etc. and that this will never change. I said to him, when you are a parent remember how you felt and allow your children to make their own choices and hold them in love for what they are.
Hello Sonja Ebbinghaus and this is great and current. While it’s important not to try and right the wrongs done to you as a child through your children it is important to understand where they are. I have seen first hand what it’s like to allow your children to grow up in place of telling them how to do it, “allow your children to make their own choices and hold them in love for what they are”. We can’t attach to them ‘getting’ it and as you say to “hold them in love”, at times, this is nothing more than a caring look or a hug, at times a stern word, or a lead. Children learn more from how you do things and less from what you say. We need to lead the way, great comment Sonja.
Very true Raymond, it is so easy to just consider ourselves as the victims and yet there are some children who do not take it on, they see it for what it is and hold themselves, their love, their playfulness regardless. From my experience, I see many young people try to speak up all the time but they don’t get a great reception and then one reaction spawns another reaction until that becomes the normal way of communicating. Support is very often needed for the whole family so that everyone is able to feel the way they are all hurting each other yet blaming each other and not taking responsibility for their ability to bring change.
Hello Lucy Dahill and I agree. Someone will need to lead the way in this “support for the whole family” and this should fall to the parents or elders of the home or community. As we are describing it can be very difficult for children to hold themselves or speak up if the environment they live in doesn’t support this. Many of the ‘lessons’ of life are ingrained in us from young. It’s not a point to go back to and blame either, but bring awareness to our part and see how things, sayings, songs have shaped us and how we live now. Thank you Lucy.
Hello and yes the ‘blame game’ a dangerous past time for us all. When you focus solely on someone or something else being the cause of your ills it’s the start point of a never cycle that will never ever allow you to truly see what’s actually in front of you. As you say Brendan the reflection is, “when we blame others for not loving us dearly we shut down our ability to love ourselves again.”
…at your fingertips and infused into every cell of your body and every pore of your being. It is like watching people complain of thirst and collapse with dehydration, parched and defeated when all the while, the well lies before them (within us all) but cannot be seen because the eyes remain masked and downcast.
Absolutely Adam- great and simply expressed- love it!
So true and beautiful Adam. We slowly phase ourselves out of what we know is possible and succumb to the much lesser version of ourselves the world seems to be wanting us to be. That is so profoundly sad and hurtful. Most of us never actually recover. We just numb ourselves to the fact and keep plugging through what we call ‘life’ without any real ‘livingness’.
absolutely Adam it is hard for children to realise their parents do not respond with the same open heart they have and on top of that they can feel their parents hurt and reaction to the reflection of this love as their parents have once left it behind but deep inside forever miss it.
So true Adam, This pretty much sums up my experience of childhood, one that I am only just unravelling now.
This is so true Adam. How confusing it must be as a child, feeling and expressing all this amazing love and no-one is reflecting it back.
Yes it is very crushing to feel and experience Adam. It is such a deeply healing grace to meet the teachings of Universal Medicine that support us to re-connect to our truly innocent and loving essence that we felt and lived from as a young child. Anonymous’s article proves beyond doubt that what resides inside us remains un-touched by the cruelty and hardships we endure. All we need to do is be shown how to connect to it once more within and then the power of our love will transmute everything that has attempted to smother it.
Thank you Adam, I agree, and it never leaves our ‘finger tips.’
Anonymous, your blog shows how we form beliefs about ourselves that confirm to us we are not worthy. By identifying with such thoughts and beliefs we cement them in and when ‘a false truth’ is so ‘deeply embedded and embodied’ we think it is who we are. It is not until we ask questions like the ones you have posed that we start to examine what really is the truth and discover it is not us.
Very True Sandra. The love that we are is always there within us and waiting for the moment when something ignites it once again. No matter how hard the world tries to convince us otherwise, the little voice from within is always asking us to check-in and re-claim the truth.
Incredible, anonymous. It’s inspiring to hear how with support you were able to let go of holding onto your family’s issues and could then see that woah, you’re actually pretty cool! ‘Now that I have awakened to the fact that I am amazing and worthy of cherishing, I continue to take care of my precious body and self’, this is also really important; a lot of people put a lot of effort into taking care of themselves – going to the gym, buying nice clothes, maybe having baths, but many of them don’t have this sense of self worth beforehand so often do these ‘caring’ things to look a certain way or to please others… Instead of doing them simply because they’re amazing!
Thank you Anonymous for raising such a painful topic and it’s lovely to read the transformation you have made in your life. Studies in attachment suggest that it’s hard for children to believe that the very people they rely on for their needs, including being shown that they are precious and loveable, can actually treat them in abusive ways. Children are stuck between a rock and a hard place: they need their parents for survival but at the same time their parents are often quite frightening to them. In an attempt to manage this quandary, children usually come to believe that the problem must be in them, rather than in their parents. We can see how this is then fertile ground for taking on all sorts of painful self beliefs which just get more deeply cemented over time. What a life saver for people to come to understand that these beliefs are actually not true and can be healed through a genuine commitment to self love!
Great expansion of the blog Helen, thank you.
Thanks Helen for shedding more light on why we as children tend to blame ourselves when the behaviour of the adults around us doesn’t make sense.
Wow Helen, what industry are you in, either way you are great reflection and role model for adults, and children. So beautifully summarized, including “We can see how this is then fertile ground for taking on all sorts of painful self beliefs which just get more deeply cemented over time”. There is so much to expand on here but a simple truth can ‘nail’ all of it – “those thoughts are not yours”.
Thank you Anonymous for sharing your story, much of which I can relate to. It took me a while to see things from my parents point of view and how they were or were not coping with life, their marriage, bringing up children, dealing with their own hurts, but as the years have gone on and having attended a fair few Universal Medicine courses now, I am more aware of what my parents were going through and how they came to making the choices they did.
Great comment Julie most of our parents did the best they could with the tools they had at the time.
Good point Julie. It is through standing back from our centralised point that we are able to see why our parents were the way they were from a much broader perspective. It is through this compassion and understanding that much healing can occur.
what you have offered is that a lot of us grow up and experience feelings about our parents and the world around us that don’t make sense. I like how you mentioned that we must be naturally born whole and complete and that we choose to take on certain ways of being and choose to be less than who we are so we can identify with the emotions and patterns of those around us.
Thanks harryjwhite for highlighting this. We are born complete, it is the things that we take on that affect this completeness. Knowing this however, we can drop all that we have taken on and return to the completeness from which we came.
beautifully said Lee, we can drop anything that is not us, and return to who we are at any time.
Well said Harryjwhite, ‘a lot of us grow up and experience feelings about our parents and the world around us that don’t make sense’. I experienced the same and instead of standing by what I felt I become what others needed me to be, so I would not rock the boat. I chose to fit in and carved a way of living that would get me by in life, the problem was this left me with a massive tension in my body, I would have to constantly override with any form of stimulation I could get my hands on. It was not until I met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that I started to become more content with myself and honoured what I was feeling rather than pushing it as far away as possible trying to ignore it!
Yes I picked that up too harryjwhite. It is rare to consider it that we may have been born amazing, indeed some religions have us all as sinners right from the get go. Yet the most beautiful turnarounds I have seen in people’s wellbeing, both physical and psychological, have come from reconnecting to their natural sense of who they are, the divine perfection, tenderness, playfulness and strength that is innate in every single one of us.
I agree Lucy, It would be hard to not notice the immense joy and preciousness of a newborn baby, then why do we grow up to be the way we are? Diseased, dis-functional, disharmonious and disconnected, for a lot of the time.
“What Universal Medicine has brought back into my life is not only supporting me to free myself from the false identity I had built and fully believed myself to be, but also shedding light on the naturally amazing me that I am.”
-I too am deeply appreciative of the truth and ageless wisdom that Serge Benhayon brings to humanity, and am thankful for helping me reconnect to the beautiful person I am, and know that the negative thoughts – like believing that I was a bad, bad girl when I was growing up, was not true. We all come from love.
These words caught my attention too and one of the things I am truly grateful to Serge Benhayon for is the understanding that these beliefs about ourselves are not true and only serve to make us feel less than who we truly are. They are deeply ingrained and, for many, hard to release, but we are slowly opening the way for true love to be felt within.
Yes Carmel, they are deeply ingrained because everything about the way we have set ourselves up, from school to work and everything in between, support the notion that we are here simply to function and get through life. Within this we are missing the most important aspect of ourselves which is that we come from love and are this. I know for me it has been a struggle to release some of my old beliefs and patterns because there has been a strong identification with them.
I agree Carmel & Michelle- strong point, I’m glad you brought it up. They are very ingrained only because we choose to keep the fortress to protect our hurts. It’s a serious game we play to not be responsible for our actions and allowing thoughts that are obviously not love, not from us.
My mate recently committed suicide because he gave in to these lessening thoughts. Drugs did not help his mind but he choose to give in and not face them and say I’m closing the door on these thoughts and — “Time to change and co-create the life I want”. It might seem hard but it’s your choice first then trust the help will come. If you know a Esoteric Practitioner then they can provide the platform for true change like it did for me.