Misery, Sugar and Movement

I have been overweight most of my adult life, but since changing my diet to gluten and dairy free pretty much all of that excess weight dropped away over a period of five years, and stayed off for a further seven. I worked to kick sugar too, and mostly succeeded, and more weight dropped off. But recently I’ve been eating more sugary foods (including carbohydrates and dried fruits, which are all sugar in one form or another) and have started to put some weight back on.

I always know that when I crave sweet things it means I am exhausted or feeling low for some reason and if not addressed, can lead to a mild form of depression. The trouble with eating sugar is that it gives you a lift and then drops you down even lower, so there is a cycle of feeling low, eating sugar, a moment of feeling OK then a crash back down to feeling low again. We can get into a cycle we think we can’t get out of and fall into despair.

The antidote is to be totally honest with how the body is feeling because then we can choose to look after our bodies through self-loving choices. I know that for me, when I truly love myself I naturally don’t want to eat anything containing sugar – which can also include fresh fruit – because it makes me racy and I can’t feel what’s going on around me.

Question: But how can I love myself when I feel miserable?

Answer: Awareness and Understanding.

I have the awareness that there is a certain tension in my body that I really don’t want to feel and an understanding that overeating has been my ‘go-to’ numbing device, but it’s no longer working. All I do is eat more and more sugary foods with a kind of desperate addictive behaviour. My body is warning me it’s too much because I am putting extra weight back on, so I know that I need to bring myself back to me – to re-establish my inner connection.

Thanks to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, we have been provided with many tools and techniques for bringing ourselves back into balance and one of them is the quality of our movements.

How are movements connected to being self-loving?

Our bodies are systems of delicate balance, yet we tend to treat them hard and rough even though they are really very fragile. By being especially gentle and tender in my walk, my touch, my breath, I am taking more care of my body, and that is the start to being self-loving through our movements.

When I move my hands with tenderness my whole body feels different: for example, when turning a doorknob, I have to allow my hand, my wrist and my shoulder to be gentle, which affects my back, my hips and my legs too.

Getting into a car is a challenge, especially when the seats have high sides. I do it as gracefully as I can and then close the door firmly, but not slamming it.

My voice is an obvious one because when I am racy it tends to go a bit hard, so I breathe gently and that helps to take out the hard edge.

There are many examples of ways I can be tender, and I can really feel it when other people are not being tender. For example, one I’ve particularly noticed is in ladies’ toilets – the way I hear some women attack the toilet roll or the paper towels makes me smile. It is something we do every day without thinking and that’s the point… when we do anything without conscious presence, we are not being tender.

So, coming back to the title of this piece, the way for me to feel less misery is to enjoy moments of tenderness with myself, because my body is beautiful and it feels beautiful when it is being tender: there is a stillness inside that does not allow for misery, and that stillness is shattered by anything that makes me racy. So… if I want to let go of misery, and enjoy the inner stillness, I simply have to breathe gently and move with tenderness. No sugar needed!

By Carmel Reid, Northern Rivers, Australia

Related Reading:
Are we Consuming Sugar or is Sugar Consuming us?
Quality of Movement = Quality of Life
The Dieting Misery-Go-Round

1,120 thoughts on “Misery, Sugar and Movement

  1. I have been reading some comments and I must admit I reach for the sugar when I am feeling amazing…. it feels like I just want to suppress and alter the expansion I am feeling…. although for me I think my body can turn any un-needed food into sugar….

  2. I’m realising how there is a part of me that wants to race my body so that I cannot regain my awareness that I gave away as a child by eating copious amounts of sugar not realising the affect it was having on my body. Now at the age of 63 I know that if I eat sugar it will race me and dull my awareness. My desire for my awareness and what it offers me, an ability to read life is now so much more important to me that I will not forgo this for a few minutes of sweet sensation in my mouth, because once I have swallowed the sweet something I can no longer taste it.

  3. It’s very beautiful to experience how a reading like this can support us to be more aware about the way we move, our posture, the quality of our voice…every little detail counts and has an effect in the whole body, which is designed to be treated in deep regard and tenderness. I take this message into my day, thank you Carmel.

  4. ‘enjoy moments of tenderness with myself, because my body is beautiful and it feels beautiful when it is being tender’ This feels medicine, if we all had more moments like this, anxiety and depression wouldn’t exist.

  5. We do seem to forget that our bodies are very tender and delicate and we do seem to use them like battering rams on the outside and think that we can eat anything we want and it is not going to affect our insides how arrogant are we and also how ignorant at the same time.

  6. Put sugar into the fuel tank of a car and the engine seizes up and doesn’t work. Hmmm? Our vehicle/body runs evenly and reliably when we choose food and drink that nourishes us.

  7. How often are we truly honest with ourselves when we reach for either food or a drink in why we are reaching for that type of food or drink? ‘I always know that when I crave sweet things it means I am exhausted or feeling low for some reason and if not addressed, can lead to a mild form of depression.’ and if we were honest in how we were feeling it would actually be loving ourselves more in being wiling to go there and maybe just maybe instead of reaching for a certain type of food or drink which suppresses, dulls or burys the feeling there was a way of being and living that could change, heal and clear this instead? Something I definitely know is a truth, although certainly not perfect with this and still go to this to avoid feeling something I feel I am loving myself more and more where this is becoming less and how I support myself is becoming more.

  8. Many years ago I gave up certain foods that I was informed were’t good – for anyone to eat. Rather than feeling for myself what was being presented I took it as an instruction – which it wasn’t. I did feel ‘better’, however because I had stopped eating these foods on account of my will power last year it all came untangled. I realised I had to feel for myself, not rely on anyone outside me telling what I should or shouldn’t eat. So rather than being ‘good’ and doing what I thought was ‘right’ I gave myself permission to eat things I had previously stopped myself from eating. Result – I feel more me and I am evolving. Certain foods are less appealing than they were and will disappear out of my diet in their own time.

  9. Its great to bring awareness to how we feel when we start to crave a food that we know doesn’t serve us. We may still continue to indulge, but if we keep doing this (checking how we feel in our body) the craving may subside and eventually fall away completely.

  10. How honest are we when we focus on the food we are eating? We are so used to thinking about whether we are eating right or wrong, if it will make us put on weight or whether it will tamper with our awareness – but how often do we truly consider the energy we were in before reaching out for that which we know harms? How honest are we in our reflection, or are we often too content and comfortable in settling with the self-bashing chatter of “i shouldn’t have eaten this”.

  11. Eating to numb myself from what I am feeling doesn’t work anymore. But that understanding and admission doesn’t stop me from doing so. The more I connect to my essence, which has no want or need to do something it knows doesn’t work, the less I spend in the mindset that ignores past results.

    1. Beautiful Leigh. Our essence has no needs or wants,as you say. Reconnecting to that part of me supports me to ignore the subtle mind cravings that result in my indulging. If I move and maybe go out for a walk – with me – I feel so different on my return and no longer have the craving. .

  12. Movement being the key word here. As what movement have we been in or what have we been aligned to that then craves something. This is something I am still learning.

  13. “When I move my hands with tenderness my whole body feels different..” I experience this as well, the quality of my thoughts and emotional state can all literally change instantly when I allow the tenderness and grace back into my movements. The soulful quality of tenderness is like a wash through my whole body.

  14. ” because my body is beautiful and it feels beautiful when it is being tender:”
    This is an important learning, coming from the truth that one’s body is beautiful and treating it so will imitate the beauty.

  15. ‘But how can I love myself when I feel miserable?’ mmmm good question so does the cycle continue? Eat sugar etc for comfort and because we are not feeling good, then feel worse then eat more sugar? I am learning more and more that the way the cycle can be broken is indeed through our movements. Simply by walking to be with us we can change things in an instant ✨ Simply yet powerful when we choose.

  16. I’m experimenting with the seat belt of my car again as it is so easy to just get into my car and drive off with no awareness of what I’m doing as I’m so busy with where am I going, what will the traffic be like, how long will it take roughly to get there? I’m totally focused on the outside world and not what is happening to me.
    The seat belt is my stop moment to bring it all back to me to be tender with myself as I strap myself in before anything else.

    1. Love this Mary. I was doing this but have stopped. Thanks for the reminder. There are so many stop moments in our day when we can choose to reconnect and be tender with ourselves.

  17. “The antidote is to be totally honest with how the body is feeling because then we can choose to look after our bodies through self-loving choices” Honesty is the first ingredient in true healing.

  18. “the way for me to feel less misery is to enjoy moments of tenderness with myself, because my body is beautiful and it feels beautiful when it is being tender:” Staying connected with our body can transform so many of our more negative feelings and when we move it tenderly even more so.

  19. I know the cycle sugar can throw you into… once begun the cravings can be a challenge to stop. When consumed I feel my nervous system heighten and my body becomes very unsettled.

  20. Doing things gently is so much more joyful than doing them harshly. Joy is never that far away, just a choice really, but how often do we move in a way to ensure we don’t have any opportunity to feel it?

  21. I certainly know the pattern of feeding the tension in my body with foods that my body really doesn’t like, and the result is, I still have the tension and my body feels decidedly more yucky than it was. I have realised that I often feed this tension as I really don’t want to know what it is actually telling me, but the avoidance doesn’t solve anything, in fact it makes things worse. Note to self – be honest about what I’m avoiding so I then can avoid the foods that make my body miserable.

    1. I’ve been noticing this recently too, Ingrid, how ‘I still have the tension and my body feels decidedly more yucky than it was.’ I’m realising that this doubled up yucky-ness is not worth it anymore so I’m taking a page from your notes if you don’t mind and rather than trying to numb this tension I am feeling with food, choosing to raise the bar on the level of honesty I am willing to go to with myself.

  22. Thank you, Carmel, for the gorgeous reminder of how our movements can fill that empty-ness that I too tried to fill with sugar from a very young age and from any number of different sources. I have felt how beautiful it feels to move in a self-loving way, or to change my movements to be self-loving ones when I clock they are less than. Your blog has inspired me to bring these self-loving movements into those moments when I am still reaching for something sweet. I am realising with great joy that I am ready to let go of a lifetime sustenance of finding sweetness in the outer and instead am ready to accept and embrace my inner sweetness.

  23. Being in conscious presence (when our mind and body are doing the same thing) and when we move with the quality of tender loving care it is exquisite.

  24. It feels like you have to work hard to feel yourself miserable – in entertaining that endless self-harming thoughts, to constantly looking for something to eat to keep that uncomfortable feeling in your tummy, the constant motion to distract yourself perhaps with sporting or burying yourself in your work.

    1. This was an aha moment for me reading your comment, Willem. Sugar sustained me from a very young age and although I’ve heard it before, your drawing attention to the connection with sweetness as I read it here and now has really hit home. I can feel the utter lack of sweetness throughout my childhood and beyond and how I desperately tried to replace this lack with an outer sweetness. Thank you for your wise sharing, sweetie 🙂

      1. I echo this Brigette, appreciating Willems comment. Spending a long time in a boarding school, when we were ‘allowed’ four sweets a day after lunch set in a sweet craving that is ongoing – and always after lunch!

      2. Incredible isn’t it, Sue, how ingrained a sweet reward can become even down to the time of day? My childhood sweet craving started and has since been before the evening meal when the anticipated return of an abuser was looming and I would clock the minute they walked through the door whether abuse would take place that evening or not.

  25. Thank you for sharing Carmel. The pull of sugar is one of the most addictive things I have ever experienced and trying to use willpower to give up inevitably backfires as the root cause and understanding of the attraction to the sugar has not been truly addressed and understood – super inspiring to read of your experiences.

  26. ……’there is a stillness inside that does not allow for misery, and that stillness is shattered by anything that makes me racy.’ Connecting with our body provides us with lasting energy and vitality.

  27. This beautiful blog reminds me to be more gentle on myself and be more aware of the quality of my breath and my movements. Sometimes I can get a bit racy without sugar but by going into a rushing energy.

    1. Yes, absolutely. I have seen this play out in life and it is very interesting to observe and understand how love works.

    2. The feeling miserable is like a confirming of how empty you feel and so the catch-22 spiral continues and confirms. Pharmaceutical companies would have us believe that the only answer to this downward spiral is to put us on a lifetime program of popping Prozac as there is no money to be made in encouraging self-love.

    1. It sure does make you more tired, but what a perfect reason to eat some more! That’s exactly how I used to live until my body began presenting me with a raft of very unpleasant symptoms, messages from my body that I could no longer ignore if I wanted to live my life to the fullest, a life where sugar has no place.

      1. It is choosing to jump onto a crazily unhealthy roller-coaster that removes all harmony from life. We need to see it as the deliberate choice that it is. I have done it, we have probably all done it.

  28. I reckon if you asked most people, especially kids “would you like to willingly live a life of misery?” Most would say no.
    And yet most foods, activities that drain us, being harsh, unloving, critical, blaming, obliged to task and much more is a normal part of daily life that leaves us miserable! As a whole we haven’t fostered a life lived from being gentle, tender and loving with ourselves but thank God there are people doing so and many more learning to live such a way.

      1. Good point Doug! We are slowly getting there – with warnings against diabetes and obesity if you eat too much sugar. And with the current craze in searching for what makes you happy a misery warning may well pay off.

      2. I love this. However, we have all the warnings of the dangers to health on packets of cigarettes yet people keep smoking. We need to find ways to stimulate them to look at and support them to heal the causes of their miserableness rather than scare them.

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