As I have been connecting with greater depth and awareness to my body, I can feel the shifts and the changes – the delicate and powerful way that each moment impacts upon the next. This has been an ongoing relationship for me since my mid-forties and one that has been forever unfolding.
As human beings dwelling on this planet it does not seem to be unusual that we hit a point in our lives where everything comes to a stop – more often than not it is not a natural stop but more of a grinding halt where the body speaks loud and clear and we become aware of the abusive way we have been living and how long we have been ignoring the amazing blessing that our body is. Quite often it is a point where mentally we no longer feel able to cope with life.
I feel more and more that the way I treated my body was not supportive or loving to the point of abuse – I had regular migraines and was quite often constipated and this was more apparent at weekends or on holiday when I stopped the drive of daily life and when there was space for my body to make itself heard and when I took time to listen to my body. As I allowed my body to speak with greater clarity, I also realised that I was not the only one and in truth there were many like me. We seem to have an ‘ideal’ or ‘belief’ that no matter what, we must keep going – that to stop would be unthinkable as that might possibly offer us a moment of connection whereby we might feel a sense of the deep disregard.
What is it about us that we allow this continual and ongoing abuse – without which our soul would have greater freedom to access our body, whereby our body could surrender to a natural rhythm?
So if I was no different from many others, why did I not accept life the way it was – the ‘normal’ that seemed to be the way everyone lived in varying degrees? I felt this ‘something’ deep within that told me there was another way and at this point I wasn’t sure what. It was a murmuring as though I had a deep voice within that was offering me the truth, even when I wasn’t ready to hear it.
Gradually over the years this has all changed as I have unsubscribed from the patterns and behaviours that had been driving me and allowed my body to find its own way through the miasma of ideals and beliefs that seem to be threaded throughout our lives and are the hindrance to our natural way of being, and I feel this is a forever unfolding as I continue to evolve.
As I have refined and redefined my relationship with my body, I have expanded my understanding of myself – and more latterly of the Universe. I no longer feel separate from the Universe – it feels as though there is a constant conversation not only between my body and me but one that takes place and is ongoing between each of us and a greater wisdom as we learn and understand more and more that we are part of something magnificent, and yet at the same time a reality that reveals itself the deeper we connect.
Are we alone with these feelings or is there something greater and grander at work and far beyond our human imagination – and are we a part of this? Is there something calling us all back home? I have felt a connection to the Divine in varying degrees for all of my life, but now as I delve into my innermost I am beginning to understand that we are not alone on this planet but are an integral part of a relationship between our bodies (the microcosm) and the splendour that is forever reflected back to us by the Universe (the macrocosm). We are indeed an indelible part of the Magic of God – all those everyday occurrences that at times we discount until a moment comes where we no longer are able to doubt the true power that is passing through us all of the time and we can feel God calling us to return once more to who we truly are.
Through the teachings of the Ageless Wisdom as presented by Serge Benhayon, I have come to understand that each tiny movement has an impact on the whole that is our forever expanding Universe. This may seem astounding to some, but this has been my experience – that the more I opened up to this feeling, the more it made sense. I could feel how if I went into a room and was insensitive to my surroundings in the way I moved that there would be a ripple effect on others: somehow we all know deep down that our natural way is one of stillness and steadiness and yet we often feel pulled out by the drive and motivation that feeds a way of living that is both inharmonious and not living in unison with the world around us.
When we move with ourselves in harmony we can feel that this offers others a space to move likewise – they open up to the quality we have offered – or sometimes not. These moments of stillness can be quite unnerving to someone who is used to living in constant drive and without any moments to re-connect back to the natural rhythm of the body within.
The connection and relationship with my body has been enormously supported by having sessions with Esoteric Practitioners, who have each offered a different angle and approach to support me to change the old momentum that has been in my body for a very long time. I have always been offered a depth of honesty and love that until this point I had not knowingly experienced. Through building and surrendering to an innate sensitivity and deepening this relationship with my vehicle of expression I feel I am approaching the gateway to the soul – to be able to expand this relationship beyond my body and to connect to the sacredness within that we all hold in our essence.
I feel as though I am only touching the tip of the iceberg as I explore my understanding of myself and the Universe, and I am aware that having taken the first few tentative steps in this exploration that I no longer have the option to reverse this process – that the Laws of the Universe that govern our movements will unfold and expand as I become a participant whereby I become an equal partner – no more and no less – of the magnificent plan that is our undeniable future.
Surrendering my body to this inspiring and intimate relationship between it and the Universe allows me to feel the support and the continuous offering of evolution from the pulse that is calling us to return to a way of living that is indicative of the harmonious space that is always waiting for our return.
By Susan Lee, Retired and enjoying the Volunteer Work that I undertake – Being a Mentee and Digital Inclusion Volunteer at a Refuge Centre and working in a Charity Shop where I meet the local community, Norfolk, UK