At the age of 14 I was anorexic, after that I substituted that disease for another – bulimia, which continued till my late 30’s. At 16 I turned to heroin to try and drown out the terrible emptiness I felt inside, and in the ensuing years I tried any drug that was available to me, alcohol, cocaine, ecstasy, marijuana, morphine, mogodons, valium, even cough medicine with codeine in it (when nothing else was available). I did stints on methadone trying to get off the drugs that I knew were slowly killing me. Always to no avail, so my self-destructive ways continued. For a brief time I even resorted to prostitution to support my drug habit, sleeping with any drug dealer that was interested.
By my mid twenties I was married and had 2 children and they were being raised in this unhealthy lifestyle.
In my late 20’s I substituted drugs for the New Age crusade thinking that this would give me the inner-connection I was looking for. I trained in Crystal Healing, Astrology, Psycho-Somatic Therapy, Psychodrama, Chinese Massage, Chinese Medicine and Yoga and trained under a so-called Sharman for ten years. Again, to no avail so I was back drinking, smoking and taking ecstasy.
At 44 I was still feeling the same emptiness, I was depressed and disillusioned with life and working as a massage therapist and energy healer and thought nothing of the fact that I was treating clients whilst I was depressed and using drugs and alcohol.
I was then introduced to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and in a one-day workshop with Universal Medicine that inner-connection I had been searching for all those years happened. This was a true miracle, I re-connected with me, I felt myself come home to me, and I will never forget that moment. For the first time in my life I felt re-connected to myself and empowered.
I continued to attend all the Healing courses that taught me about Energetic Integrity and Energetic Responsibility and the difference between prana and fire, which none of the other modalities that I had trained in had. Through this new understanding and this ever-deepening re-connection with myself, I chose with great ease to give up drinking, smoking, and drug taking. Many of the people I knew from those days have died of drug overdoses or from their body breaking down from too much abuse. Many others are still ‘recovering addicts’ — while they abstain from the drug or the drink they still seem to have a daily battle with addiction. In contrast, drugs and alcohol never cross my mind, it is like those days happened to another person. One may ask, how is it that at 54, I am healthier in my body than most who have never lived the debauched lifestyle I did? When my earlier life comes up in conversation, people have been floored as they see how amazing and successful my life is now.
Just after I had begun Universal Medicine workshops, one of my daughters who was in her 20’s and had been drinking and taking drugs since she was 13 had a psychotic breakdown. She had one session with Serge, who supported her to re-connect and she was herself again. Another true miracle. I personally feel I would have needed to have her institutionalised had she not seen Serge. Today she does not drink, nor take drugs – all from her own choices and having been inspired by seeing the incredible changes in my lifestyle. She, who once was a party animal, now runs her own very successful business. Whilst my eldest daughter is not interested and does not attend any Universal Medicine workshops, my relationship with her is better than ever. The damage that I caused in those earlier years of parenting has gone a long way to being healed through the deeper responsibility and love I am now able to be with her.
My once self destructive and miserable life has now changed to me feeling inspired and joy-full every single day. Many of my friends and family members were so inspired by the change in me and my lifestyle that they started coming to see Serge Benhayon and attend the Universal Medicine workshops and now their lives have also changed enormously.
I now live love daily to the best of my ability, thus inspiring others to re-connect with themselves and live with love if they so chose to.
I am eternally grateful to Serge for his consistent point of reflection that shows that it is possible to live in Love, Joy and Harmony every single day.