At the age of 14 I was anorexic, after that I substituted that disease for another – bulimia, which continued till my late 30’s. At 16 I turned to heroin to try and drown out the terrible emptiness I felt inside, and in the ensuing years I tried any drug that was available to me, alcohol, cocaine, ecstasy, marijuana, morphine, mogodons, valium, even cough medicine with codeine in it (when nothing else was available). I did stints on methadone trying to get off the drugs that I knew were slowly killing me. Always to no avail, so my self-destructive ways continued. For a brief time I even resorted to prostitution to support my drug habit, sleeping with any drug dealer that was interested.
By my mid twenties I was married and had 2 children and they were being raised in this unhealthy lifestyle.
In my late 20’s I substituted drugs for the New Age crusade thinking that this would give me the inner-connection I was looking for. I trained in Crystal Healing, Astrology, Psycho-Somatic Therapy, Psychodrama, Chinese Massage, Chinese Medicine and Yoga and trained under a so-called Sharman for ten years. Again, to no avail so I was back drinking, smoking and taking ecstasy.
At 44 I was still feeling the same emptiness, I was depressed and disillusioned with life and working as a massage therapist and energy healer and thought nothing of the fact that I was treating clients whilst I was depressed and using drugs and alcohol.
I was then introduced to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and in a one-day workshop with Universal Medicine that inner-connection I had been searching for all those years happened. This was a true miracle, I re-connected with me, I felt myself come home to me, and I will never forget that moment. For the first time in my life I felt re-connected to myself and empowered.
I continued to attend all the Healing courses that taught me about Energetic Integrity and Energetic Responsibility and the difference between prana and fire, which none of the other modalities that I had trained in had. Through this new understanding and this ever-deepening re-connection with myself, I chose with great ease to give up drinking, smoking, and drug taking. Many of the people I knew from those days have died of drug overdoses or from their body breaking down from too much abuse. Many others are still ‘recovering addicts’ — while they abstain from the drug or the drink they still seem to have a daily battle with addiction. In contrast, drugs and alcohol never cross my mind, it is like those days happened to another person. One may ask, how is it that at 54, I am healthier in my body than most who have never lived the debauched lifestyle I did? When my earlier life comes up in conversation, people have been floored as they see how amazing and successful my life is now.
Just after I had begun Universal Medicine workshops, one of my daughters who was in her 20’s and had been drinking and taking drugs since she was 13 had a psychotic breakdown. She had one session with Serge, who supported her to re-connect and she was herself again. Another true miracle. I personally feel I would have needed to have her institutionalised had she not seen Serge. Today she does not drink, nor take drugs – all from her own choices and having been inspired by seeing the incredible changes in my lifestyle. She, who once was a party animal, now runs her own very successful business. Whilst my eldest daughter is not interested and does not attend any Universal Medicine workshops, my relationship with her is better than ever. The damage that I caused in those earlier years of parenting has gone a long way to being healed through the deeper responsibility and love I am now able to be with her.
My once self destructive and miserable life has now changed to me feeling inspired and joy-full every single day. Many of my friends and family members were so inspired by the change in me and my lifestyle that they started coming to see Serge Benhayon and attend the Universal Medicine workshops and now their lives have also changed enormously.
I now live love daily to the best of my ability, thus inspiring others to re-connect with themselves and live with love if they so chose to.
I am eternally grateful to Serge for his consistent point of reflection that shows that it is possible to live in Love, Joy and Harmony every single day.
By Anonymous
The Truth about Serge Benhayon 
This is such an amazing story showing us all that no matter what we may have done in the past, it is always possible for us to choose to start living what we are in true essence. You are such an inspiration, Anonymous. So amazing you made that choice and have been staying with it, and now sharing with the world the glory of who you are.
An amazing transformation and inspiring to feel the power of your return to living in connection to who are in essence. You highlight so beautiful how our bodies are endlessly intent to restore harmony, so that we can live in connection to who we are in essence, our Soul, regardless of how far away we find that we have rambled.
I find it incredible to read how another way of looking at life can change our behaviour so drastically. What is poignant is that life is just based on our choices when we can see another way that is true we can be very much willing to take it, or not of course, it is all based on choice.
No wonder your family and friends have started to attend Universal Medicine after seeing your life take a complete turn around, ‘My once self destructive and miserable life has now changed to me feeling inspired and joy-full every single day.’ It is always gorgeous to see the joy in you.
This story blows me away. Seeing and feeling who you are today, you are a true miracle story and an incredible inspiration to many.
On re reading this article tonight I am in the deepest appreciation for the grand gift that Serge Benhayon has reminded so many of, that they are Love, and all that is needed is to reconnect to this truth.
What we all yearn for, ‘it is possible to live in Love, Joy and Harmony every single day.’ You are an inspiration in how you live.
Your story is one of kind that will touch the world like it has to all that know you. It is miraculous. I can say being a student of The Livingness the miracles do not ever cease, and they happen more than we register that they even exist or are happening because when we reconnect again it is a miracle.
If I may add… It can be so easy to view ‘the addict’ or ‘self-abuser’ in the obvious sense – i.e. someone who takes drugs, has an issue with alcohol, self-immolates, harms, etc… Yet don’t we all make choices in our lives that harm ourselves? Don’t we all allow behaviours we know are not ok – by our bodies, our psyche, our wellbeing and our relationships?
We must never view ‘the addict’ from a position of comfort, or ‘oh, that’s so far removed from my life in its extremes that it’s not about me’ – for the extremes only show us more plainly, and often more honestly, where we may all be losing ourselves, and the pain we have yet to heal. It’s arrogant to think otherwise.
Phew… what a story and I so deeply appreciate your candidness in sharing it. What occurred for you is indeed a true miracle. That you experienced this, after the most intensive drug forays, and plethora of spiritual searching, at a workshop with Serge Benhayon, speaks volumes for the power of truth to touch us in the sanctity of who we have always been within, no matter what we’ve done or where we’ve been…
“For the first time in my life I felt re-connected to myself and empowered.”
You are a living testimony that one need not remain a ‘recovering addict’, should the choice to truly reconnect with oneself and be willing to heal the root of our pain be embraced.
Wow that is one big blog about a change.. This is a revelation that our way of living and so our health is in our hands, also when we are not taking drugs or alcohol.. It can be in many ways. But to see the change from these levels of abuse and self-destruction to truly joyfull and healthy life is incredible! Thank you so so much for all the changes you made, you show the world that we can, in every situation.
Your life story is one miraculous testimonial of the power that Universal Medicine brings to people.
Inspiration and empowerment go such a long way in healing what has come before more than fixing or saving someone ever could…. and such a huge component of how you were able to have such an incredible shift to find yourself where you are today… inspiring others through reflecting what is possible. Amazing.
Quite amazing that you can turn around things very quickly with the right will and support which proves that everything we ever wanted is right there with us every step and every day.
This account of your life does not get old. It is absolutely incredible and a miracle as you say that you have allowed yourself to return to you in the huge way you have! You talk about Serge Benhayon giving you the space to feel you again, you do not talk about him as if he was your saviour…just merely that he facilitated your appreciation of who you are. Unlike in your past choices where you gave you power away to Sharman’s etc…this story is very different, you grabbed control of your life and di it with love, appreciation and respect following no rules, but what you felt within you to be true.
It is so important that you shared your story because it shows that changing the trajectory for our lives is possible. I would be one of the people who am amazed when you tell your story that this happened to the steady, confident and incredibly loving woman who stands in front of me. You have a directness and commitment to truth which can support many to break beliefs that hold them back from knowing who they are in order to turn their own lives around.
Thank you, you are a true inspiration for all and your reflection of commitment and dedication for the all is deeply appreciated.
Great sharing. What an a beautiful testimony not only to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine but to how far you have come through your own choices and the inspiration you are by these choices and changes you have made in your life to date.
Extraordinary. It just highlights that true and lasting change is always possible and we can in fact turn our own lives around.
It’s amazing how the mind can explain our choices and can justify virtually anything to us when our heart has the exact opposite logic.
I love your honesty Anonymous and how you share the fact that you worked as ‘a massage therapist and energy healer and thought nothing of the fact that I was treating clients whilst I was depressed and using drugs and alcohol.’ It really exposes and makes us all consider what is the actual level of healing and quality of care that we are delivering another when the foundations of our own energetic integrity and how we live our own daily life is rocky at best.
Thank you Anon for a really inspiring story, and who would imagine that this was your former life feeling the beautiful warm loving woman you are today, Thank heaven for Serge bringing to us this true way of living from our inner love.
It is beautiful to read what the awareness of energy can bring into any kind of lifestyle that we have chosen. It shows the power of love we have inside.
What strikes me particularly in reading about your turnaround is the positive impact of making those different choices in the way you were living on the quality of the relationships with your daughters and wider family. That confirms how inspirational just living lovingly can be in a world where, let’s face it, most just don’t.
I respect and admire your honest and open story
Powerful reclaiming of the truth inspired by Serge Benhayon.
Serge Benhayon presenting on energy was a revelation for me and changed how I understood everything – including myself. When I read “working as a massage therapist and energy healer and thought nothing of the fact that I was treating clients whilst I was depressed and using drugs and alcohol” I appreciate the integrity and love that is offered in every session with Serge Benhayon and esoteric medicine practitioners.
Wow Emily, the power of inspiration. She is definitely someone who can help others to change their life for the better, because she is really walking the talk.
You really are an amazing person Anon and a living testament to the efficacy of Universal Medicine philosophy and treatments. Universal Medicine to me is light years ahead of current treatments for addiction and trauma. I hope that Universal Medicine is able to reach millions of people who can then also live the joy and health you radiate every day.
Anon your Love and warmth inspire all who meet you, and there is only room for admiration for the way you claimed Your Life and Love back from the depths! Thank you for sharing your journey and inspiration with us all.
I already knew your incredible story but loved to read it here. Your turnaround shows with no doubt, the power of truth from the inner essence, everyone has and you have held on to, once you had reconnected to it. A truly inspirational story to read and a truly inspirational living reflection you are nowadays. Still deepening your beauty and strength and love as it is like easy to feel even from the other side of the world.
Hi Kristy,
Just goes to show that it is never too late.
The other day I was struggling with an issue that is reoccurring, I had the whole ‘failure’ thing come up. Then I stopped and had this strong sense that there is no end or beginning and there fore what was I actually ‘failing’?? It made me laugh.
Anon is the perfect example of how simple it can be to change your direction….
If we truly let go of our issues like Anon has, then we are free from being re -dealt the same cards next game, it leaves no room for giving up on anything, if you see it as an investment in our next round.
Well said Richard, I have found that things just dropped off without realising too, the complete opposite experience to when I was attempting to ‘quit’ things and was in the struggle of still actually wanting to do them. Since Universal Medicine things have become a lot clearer in that regard.
“Many of the people I knew from those days” “are still ‘recovering addicts’ — while they abstain from the drug or the drink they still seem to have a daily battle with addiction. In contrast, drugs and alcohol never cross my mind, it is like those days happened to another person.”
I can totally relate to this Anon. What a celebration to truly clock that I am so far beyond the hooks of any of the old substances that they could have no in road now, and that there is no trace, and even that it felt like it happened to someone else. Universal Medicine has gifted me back myself – and the level of healing from these old ways is so absolutely complete.
It is simply amazing to feel no drama nor attachment when you talk about your past choices. Having met you in person, it is really hard to believe that you are the same person. You don’t feel to ‘have cleaned up your act’ – something far deeper than that got fundamentally changed. A true inspiration you are. Thank you.
Your story powerfully illustrates how easily drug addiction can be healed when approached from an esoteric perspective. It is a miracle indeed that you have changed your life around so completely, and that your daughter did the same, but it shows that others could also do the same if they were met with the same deep love and connection.
The way Anon lives and who she is, is an inspiring example for all.
I so love these words you wrote as my experience was the same “… I felt myself come home to me, and I will never forget that moment. For the first time in my life I felt re-connected to myself and empowered.” Lovely to read and reflect on them today.
This is a powerful sharing, and thank goodness for Universal Medicine for showing us the way to live with integrity, love and respect for our bodies and for teaching us the true meaning of responsibility.
Hear Hear Francisco – thank heavens for Universal Medicine.
A courageous blog Anon showing how the every day hurts and lack of love and attention led to anorexia and bulimia and the road to drug addiction and prostitution. And how Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine turned that around, that started with a one Day course that taught you to connect to your inner heart, be love and make the right choices to improve you life. Indeed a miracle with a potential to help thousands of people with debilitating addictions. I am inspired, thank you.
Thank you Anon for your raw and honest depiction of your former life of addiction.
I too was stuck in a cycle of addiction and pain and now after attending healing sessions with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine courses I am a very successful business woman that does not drink smoke or take drugs, I am in a loving relationship and mother to 5 children. Thank you for leading the way for many families to change our lives forever.
The beautiful thing about Anon and all the other of us who have turned our lives around is that the world is crying out for role models for a way that is real. She has paved the way for so many to free ourselves from similarly destructive ways, and to break truly free of previous cycles of ‘addiction and pain’. All of us who are now beyond free of addiction, and self-destruction thanks to the leading light of Serge Benhayon, are now also leading the way for our global family ‘to change our lives forever’. This blog takes away all the excuses – there is nothing we cannot turn around completely, it is never too late, and we are never too far gone to return, rebuild and totally heal through loving choices.
Thanks Kate that is very sweet and yes we defiantly need more true role models for woman and men. I absolutely love being in a family who all share the common goal of self refection and explaining and deepening our relationships.
Thank you for an honest and open sharing
Your story demonstrates the power that is within us all to transform our lives through the understanding that all the emptiness and searching ‘out there’ is actually due to a massive lack of self love and acceptance within ourselves. As you have shown, once we can accept that this is the key, the possibilities for joy, harmony and love in our lives are endless. Thank you!
Absolutely gilesch… This is what I have realised also… Anon’s story is inspiring not because she is special or one of the chosen few, but rather because the true power of change from within means that this is available to all, and this is exactly what this blog reflects.
Anon your story is an amazing testimony to the fact that it is never too late to truly turn our lives around. From sheer misery to living an amazing life full of vitality and joy. True inspiration, thank you.
It is a miracle the way you have let go of the drugs etc and been able to live life to the full – it is literally unheard of.
Your experience and commitment to reconnecting back to yourself shows there is indeed life beyond addiction. An amazing sharing that is very inspiring for us all.
There are so many people in the world missing that connection with themselves. It is hard to imagine someone so lost working as a massage therapist and offering healing to others at a point in their life when they were depressed and taking drugs.
What sort of healing is actually offered in this situation?
And just how common is this situation in health care workers?
Perhaps not to the extreme degree as with Anon, but from what I see it is still very common. It makes a lot of sense that the quality that is lived in our own lives is the quality we naturally bring to a healing session.
I was just reading your amazing story and was struck how after a life time of searching in one session with Serge Benhayon you were able to reconnect to yourself and receive a humongous healing. You call it a miracle and thousands of others including your daughter say the same – so one has to wonder what is going on here? One explanation that makes sense to me is that love is an energy and who we all are at source. Serge fully lives and expresses from the energy of love. Those that come into contact with Serge and are open to it get a taste of that energetic configuration or vibration. Therefore by Serge meeting them and them getting an experience of pure love they get to reconnect to themselves (as that is who they are). From then on they have a marker in their body to enable them to keep developing that connection. Once they start living it others also get the reflection and so it keeps spreading!
What an an amazing woman, one who inspires many to change their lives and heal from the past and move on to embrace life fully.
The huge turnaround that you went through in your life is truly inspirational. It shows how powerful reconnecting to self, and the love we naturally are, can be.
Super inspirational Anon and I can relate to much of what you have shared.
I am also grateful to the inspiration of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and I too can now claim that:
“drugs and alcohol never cross my mind” either!
Your story is of enormous inspiration Anon. The immense healing you have undergone, who you have become and the glorious reflection you offer the world, all in less than half a lifetime, is extraordinary and demonstrates what is possible when we re-discover and re-establish true inner-connection… something that so many New Age modalities seem to promise but so very few truly live up to.
Anon, you are living proof of how we can turn our lives around from the most dire straits to one of joy and grace. That we can all do this by taking loving responsibility for our choices.
This amazing sentence says it all! “My once self destructive and miserable life has now changed to me feeling inspired and joy-full every single day.” It takes great change to develop such a loving appreciation of yourself after living over 30+ Years of self destruction! Esoteric Healing modalies combined with self-care, self-love and self-responsibility have supported change in so many peoples lives.
What I find fascinating in your account Anon is the fact that we are ‘addicted’ to our hurt (since we structure our lives around this). In this sense, life beyond addictions is more than quitting drugs but also renouncing to our life being governed by the hurt.
Thanks Anon for your wonderful sharing.
Sometimes I get a feeling for myself of whether a person has been involved in self-abusive behaviours (e.g. alcohol, drugs, pornography etc.) as the traces or energy are seen and felt in the body. The only trace I feel is that of Love and understanding, that you have for yourself and for people, and that you can help them in a very unique manner, since you have this lived experience.
Your life story that you share is truly a miracle!
Thank you for sharing your truly amazing journey back to the extraordinary woman you are. You are a true inspiration.
Anon, my jaw just hit the floor when I read this, because of the transformation in your live. Such an eye-opener to how much we can change no matter how lost me may seem.
The turnaround in your life Anon is glorious. As someone who once used drugs to fuel my life I can relate to what you have written. What caught my eye was the term “recovering addicts”, a great percentage of people fall into this category, whilst they may not physically take the drug they are still in its clutches and for many, are never actually free of the substance. Like you I never have thoughts about using again and don’t have to champion the fact that today is my 267th day clean. The drugs do not own me as they once did as I have gone underneath and looked deeply into why I chose that lifestyle, that period seems like it was in another life not just fifteen years ago.
I recently had the privilege to speak at a conference and was amazed, the presentations were about suicide and the two key guest speakers shared their stories on how they survived suicide attempts and have lived to tell their tale. This is fabulous that they have survived but they are not free from the suicidal thoughts that still plague and sometimes cripple them. In no disrespect to these wonderful men, how can they be a true inspiration if the underlying issue is still very much present. The physical act can be stopped but the thoughts and where they come from are what need to be addressed for one to say that they are free from a substance/issue.
This is such an important point. There are many things that we champion in life, even if it be giving up sugar or cigarettes for a certain time – but without looking at the reasons of why we chose them in the first place, we are never free from their grasp, and as you say just a choice away from going back there. This is very much in contrast to dealing with the underlying issues so that there is no longer even a problem to cover up.
If it is an effort to not consume these substances then we must be honest enough to admit that we are addicted.
Thank you. How many people have turned their lives around by simply reconnecting, by freely choosing their inner heart? Thanks to Serge Benhayon for inspiring so many!
I honestly think that if I had not encountered Serge Benhayon in this life then I would quite possibly be dead or in prison by now.
Brilliant comment Tony, I agree whole heartedly with what you have shared, it never made sense for me to go to rehab even though I was the perfect candidate too. I was a heavy drug user for most of my life. I can honestly say in my opinion that Universal Medicine is the best rehabilitation centre in the world. It does not identify you as an addict, it supports you to realise your amazingness and in that realisation it is impossible to do drugs.
You write that in a healing course you learnt “the difference between prana and fire”- this too has been a key point in my healing and returning to myself. It has been the understanding that they are two sources of energy in the world, one that comes from love (fire) and one that comes from not-love (prana). With that developing awareness I am able to choose which source of energy I connect to and express from… and when I choose the love source life my transforms in the most gorgeous way and magic happens!
Such an awesome sharing Anon, it shows that we all can change and you are such an inspiration!!! It feels so easy and simple!
Thank you Anon, for such honesty and for being such a great inspiration on how taking responsibility of our choices we can change our lives no matter what.
This is the second blog in a row that I have read tonight on this site that relates to having lived through intensity but to come back from that in such a massive way through the support of Universal Medicine and the modalities that have come from UM. These stories, or personal sharings are so inspiring for anyone who has done anything they regret to be able to see that there is a way to move on from it and to re-imprint your life, your relationship with yourself and with others.
Thank you.
I agree with you whole heartedly Anon, in that…. ‘I am eternally grateful to Serge (Benhayon) for his consistent point of reflection that shows that it is possible to live in Love, Joy and Harmony every single day.’
That is very true Richard, I have had the same experience: bad habits just fall away when we connect and start living true to ourselves.
Whoa, Anon, awesome. Thank you for sharing. You’re absolutely right- the amazing, beautiful, super-loving woman that describes who you are today has no hint of the life you have recounted in this blog. It’s incredible what we do to not feel empty and alone. Simply because we know something is missing, but can’t see it anywhere, or don’t know it.. until we find the Universal Medicine courses which are super-simple, yet support us to make so much change. For me, when I go to them, I’m like, “of course”! It’s just so astounding.
Deeply honest account, very inspiring.
This is such an inspirational account – thank you for sharing that it is possible for every person to come back – a long way back to the joy that they naturally are.
Anon, I’m grateful for YOUR “consistent point of reflection that shows it is possible to live in love, joy and harmony”. It is an absolute miracle that you came back after trying so hard not to. You’re awesome!
You have touched my heart with your life story. So open, honest and accepting.
An amazing woman you are Anon and a true inspiration and blessing for us all to read your life’s journey from how you had been living to where you are today, and shows that we all do have that power and wisdom within to make changes to our lives through making different choices. My life too has changed so much since I started attending courses and workhsops with Serge and am also deeply in gratitude.
Like you say Anon… its like two different people. Thanks for sharing the incredible story as you do act like a beacon to others of what is possible when you re-connect to the love inside. You are amazing.
I felt inspired to read this blog. Amazing is the power of esoteric healing and the livingness as a life style choice. Your blog is an inspiration to many.
Thank you feels like cheap words Anon to say how much I appreciate you sharing your story with such openness and saying it as it is with no holding back.
You have totally turned your life around and I know what you mean about the new age crusade and the old you is like another person.
I too have transformed my life after meeting Serge Benhayon for the first time in 2005. He never told me what to do or even go back and attend a workshop or course. Those were my choices and today I feel amazing and live my life making choices that do not harm me, my partner, family, community and the earth to the best of my ability.
“I am eternally grateful to Serge for his consistent point of reflection that shows that it is possible to live in Love, Joy and Harmony every single day.” Absolutely Anon and you are living proof of this. It is amazing how you have turned your life around and now choose to reflect this to everyone you meet. Thank you so much for sharing your story so honestly – it is truly inspiring.
Anon, your story is deeply inspiring and it shows that we can all choose to turn our life around if we make loving choices and allow ourselves to be truly supported through the process. Rather than a “fix” to the ill ways, you’ve shown a completely different way of living.
Thank you Anon for your honesty and inspiration, and mostly for being the awesome woman you truly are.
Inspirational is an easy word to throw around, but yours is an incredible story Anon. It is almost like something out of a film, to transform your life from where it was to where it is now. It is a testament to the human body that we can change from self destructive actions and turn our life around, ‘once an addict – always an addict’ has never sounded so false.
It really does make us consider why we have bought into such beliefs as ‘once an addict – always an addict’ when stories like this clearly show this is not the case, particularly evidenced by the fact that while taking nothing away from this super inspiring story, it is in no way exclusive to a select few. Could it be that we don’t want to see and feel how much life can change because this involves us taking responsibility for our choices…?
Yes, the belief that we will always be an addict is a great imposition, a prison like status that we are so keen to throw on people and which is bought into. Yet if we look at things from an energetic status it is merely choices we make that creates the situations that arise. And the choice to be an addict, be it of hard drugs, chocolate or the adrenalin rush of jumping out of a plane or even buying and selling stocks and shares is always a choice and one that is dictated by the hurts we haven’t resolved. Resolve the hurts and the addiction to relieving ourselves with the drug of choice simply goes.
As you say Anon, ‘another true miracle’ occurred. I have deep appreciation, for you sharing your experiences. Life can be miraculous when a person takes responsibility of their choices. Serge Benhayon and yourself have been astounding and inspiring reflections in my life. Thank you.
Thanks Anon for such a great, honest and most of all, true story. You are awesome!
You are an inspiration Anon – I treasure this, thank you.