by Rebecca Wingrave 

I spent about 20 years of my life drinking, partying, trying to be one of the lads and having a complete lack of self worth. I got really ill as a teenager from excessively drinking alcohol, but I just carried on as it was what I felt gave me confidence and was what all young people did. I didn’t know another way of being.

It came to the point where I got so sick, I wasn’t digesting food properly and I had constant diarrhoea. I decided to seek help.

I was advised by my nutritionist to stop eating gluten and dairy and to cut down on my alcohol consumption. Over the next couple of years I started to feel better and decided to stop drinking alcohol altogether as I noticed how sick it made me. The problem was that this alienated my friends. All of a sudden I didn’t have a social life and my friends thought I was weird for not drinking. So even though my body was feeling better, my lack of self worth was still there and especially that I then felt like the odd one out.

I attended a Universal Medicine course and through listening to Serge Benhayon present and talking with other students there, I realised I wasn’t alone. I had finally met people who were also looking after themselves and who were choosing not to drink alcohol. I was introduced to another way of being.

Serge presented to us to feel for ourselves what our body was saying. Such as, which foods worked for us and which foods made us feel bloated or heavy?

So I began making changes and I refined my diet by feeling what foods and drinks worked for me. Three years on, I no longer have digestive issues or diarrhoea.

Serge talked about sleep times and how the spleen begins to cleanse the body from 9pm, so I began to go to bed earlier and noticed that this made me feel better. Serge also talked about the tenderness we all have in our bodies. I had some esoteric breast massage sessions and felt this tenderness as well as a delicateness and beauty in my own body. This was amazing for me, and since then I have been allowing myself to feel this more and more.

I realised that I wasn’t one of the lads, I was actually a gorgeous woman. I started to dress differently – much more femininely, which I’ve really been enjoying, I take the time to self-massage and am much more gentle with my body. From not carrying heavy bags, to driving much more gently and carefully.

Through this self-care and having the support of the healing sessions with Serge Benhayon and other Universal Medicine practitioners, my confidence and self-worth have been increasing hugely. I feel much more of the real me and am letting go of the trying to be something or someone else.

I have found another way of being. A more loving, more gentle, more enjoyable, true, honest way of being with self-care, nurturing and love.

My relationships have improved because I feel really well and have a lot more energy, so I’m able to love and support my family and friends more. I have noticed that people around me have been inspired by me and they ask me a lot of questions about my diet and lifestyle.