by Fiona Shuttleworth, UK
I thought my life was OK. I seemed to tick most boxes and felt happy enough compared to others I knew who were a lot more miserable than me. But I always felt like there was something missing in my life, and I knew deep down that I was holding myself back in some way. The problem was I was so unconfident within myself that I never trusted my own feelings, and always defaulted to others’ opinions, feelings and ideas, even when I didn’t really want to. My life was fuelled with alcohol, drugs of every kind, and cigarettes. The funny thing was I always knew I didn’t want to be that person, but I just never seemed to be able to break the pattern, and I had tried numerous things.Then one morning for no apparent reason I woke up and knew I would never smoke again. I made that choice on my own and knew it was right. I adjusted my lifestyle and drug choice, as in I carried on with cocaine and ecstasy but quit weed. And I still drank, every night. But even this simple choice of stopping smoking made such an impact on my social life, it was more difficult to be involved with everyone when all my other friends were on weed, and I started to want different things from life.
Then I stumbled upon a man called Chris James. His music touched me and made me feel different, particularly his new album at that time, ‘Silk’. I felt alive and joyful. I had always loved singing and music but always felt awkward about my voice and being heard. What struck me most from my experience with Chris was that I didn’t seem to be worried about any of that, and for the first time I felt like I truly sang for me – just because I couldn’t hold it in any longer. At this stage the drugs went out of my life – I didn’t really need them any more. But alcohol was still there big time.
Not long after that Chris introduced me to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. I remember going along to the first presentation. There was something about Serge that just felt right. I didn’t feel disturbed or put upon in any way – what he was saying made sense to me although I had never really heard any thing like it before. I watched the people around me, there was such love and integrity, respect for each other, and I felt like I was home.
Shortly after this presentation I made the choice, again on my own, to stop drinking. It was the hardest thing I had ever done to that point in my life. I had no idea until I stopped the hold alcohol had over me. And my biggest surprise was other people’s reaction to it. They didn’t like it at all, and for the first few months I really had to battle my way through countless people trying to convince me to just have one drink. Some people even bought me a drink when I had specifically said ‘I’ll have an orange juice please’ – I couldn’t believe it. It was harder for me to quit alcohol than smoking, cocaine or any other drug I had consumed.
I went to more Universal Medicine presentations. And I made more choices that seemed to happen naturally. I started to actually care about myself in a way that I had always wanted someone else to care about me. My food choices changed and then something really beautiful happened – I started to trust my own feelings and love myself. I found that as I took more care of myself I enjoyed life more and more. The amount of great days I was having started to increase. I still had bad days – I still do but they don’t seem to affect me in the same way. I never spiral down with them and they happened less and less. I started to get more confident within myself, and then I started to see all the ways that I held myself back, and the little games or situations that used to come into play to feed certain ideas I had about myself to keep me from believing in me.
Now I live a full and joyful life. I love work. I’m closer to my family and friends than I have ever been. And I don’t even think about wanting a drink or a drug to get me though the day. Instead my day is enough for me and I absolutely love it. I feel open to life and embrace it. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have never told me what to do or judged me in any way. Instead Serge and his teachings have supported me to come to myself in my own way and at my own time. I have never felt anything other than true love, support and understanding from Serge Benhayon and never, not once, has he ever made me feel like I was less or not good enough in any way, shape or form. He is a constant inspiration to me of how each individual truly is inside.
I will never walk away from that love and understanding that I have come to know for myself through Serge Benhayon’s teachings. Why would I, when for the first time in my life I can say that I am truly living? My commitment to myself will never cease.
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Very interesting how you found alcohol to be the hardest to stop taking. Even the doctors say drinking alcohol is ok as long as not too much. There’s something about alcohol that grabs us so tight and feeds us with justification.
Alcohol has become so accepted as a drug of choice in society it is no longer considered a drug. But as you say this is the one people were most concerned about you giving up… which makes no sense as you would be healthier without it. It only makes sense because it has been normalised as a drug. A drug that helps people check out from their problems, and not be who they are.
I can relate to that feeling of something needing to change but the day seems to never come. It’s like you are caught in a never ending cycle of waking up saying or seeing a similar thing on a different day. When is the only time this ends? When you are ready to finally make the step yourself to make the change. From experience you can never bring someone to make these changes, you need to be there yourself. It’s great to see people standing by something they have felt to do for a long time.
Choosing to take care of ourselves in the way we always hoped another would is a huge game changer as it cancels out a heap of problems. Problems such as our general health and well being but even more importantly our neediness of another to deliver what we are not willing to give ourselves.
I too noticed how uncomfortable other people were around me when I stopped drinking.
It isn’t a good place to be in life when we are using alcohol and drugs to ‘fuel’ life. It is actually a sign of how far away we are living from our true selves. Not that mainstream society deeply understand this as yet, but there are those who are understanding the impacts that drugs and alcohol have on life and the connection that is just not possible when making such choices.
I literally can’t imagine waking up with a hang over again, so horrible and really hideous, that jaded feeling, the inability to engage with anyone, just wanting the day to be over before it started. Stopping drinking is without a doubt one of the best things I have done for myself.
You show that it is possible to truly heal an addiction where it is not a discipline that has one refrain from the substance or behaviour but a living way.
What a turn around of your life Fiona, ‘Now I live a full and joyful life. I love work. I’m closer to my family and friends than I have ever been.’ Gorgeous.
“then something really beautiful happened – I started to trust my own feelings and love myself. I found that as I took more care of myself I enjoyed life more and more.” So true Fiona, Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine consistently offer inspiration to choose for ourselves to be who we naturally are.
Your story Fiona is deeply inspiring and is a testimony to Universal Medicine and all that Serge Benhayon presents and consistently lives.
I relate to your story Fiona, of how we can abuse our bodies in order to fit in and be accepted by others knowing too well that that is not what we want to do in the first place, it’s crazy! it is only through the connection to our bodies that we can start to let go of harmful patterns and behaviours and embrace a true loving way of being.
We may think that some of our old habits and patterns feel like they are impossible to break but the truth is anything is possible when we put our heart to it.
It is fascinating how an addiction that at some point happened to have a huge presence and which felt impossible to escape from, simply vanish. Our bodies no longer long them. They are gone. The body regain a feeling of what is natural to it. When that happens, that which felt impossible to leave behind now feels as belonging to a remote past.
A great commitment there Fiona, and you also show how much of a hold alcohol, or other drugs for that matter, has on us, but I would like to highlight alcohol since it’s such a falsely accepted substance. The alcohol seems to have not just an intoxicating effect on the one/ones drinking but as you share, when someone is not drinking, the ones drinking seem to be very confronted with this. Probably because they can feel the choice they’ve made and that it’s not truly good for the body. So they want you to join them. I’m glad that you held yourself strong and committed yourself to yourself Fiona. It’s way more fun to be sober!
This is a great testimony to the teachings of Universal Medicine and how self-responsibility allows us to reconnect and live more of the love and harmony that we are with ourselves and all our relationships with others, thank you.
Thank you Fiona for sharing the amazing changes that have happened in your life I love these lines. “I started to actually care about myself in a way that I had always wanted someone else to care about me. “then something really beautiful happened – I started to trust my own feelings and love myself. “
“My commitment to myself will never cease.” I love that Fiona – imagine more people would chose to have such a commitment as well. I guess our world would look a bit different.
This is a beautiful testimony to Serge Benhayon, Chris James and to yourself Fiona for all the choices you have made in your life to date . I felt to comment on the reaction you mentioned you were met with after ceasing to drink alcohol. In my life also I found this to be most extraordinary. I recall the very first time I declared that I would no longer drink the outcry from my family and friends was enormous. My mother shocked me the most as I was young then and I felt that she of all people would be pleased that I had finally decided to take care of myself after being on a path of self destruction for many years. But on the contrary she bemoaned the fact that I would never drink champagne with her again! She chose to take my giving up drinking personally. I found that quite bewildering at that time.
You write: “then something really beautiful happened – I started to trust my own feelings and love myself” – that really resonated with me. I remember many years ago having a similar experience. One day I was having a conversation with myself and when I started an old pattern of judging myself, another internal voice said “you know that you are totally committed and doing your best” or something like that. Thus started a big turnaround in my life where I started to trust, accept and confirm myself on a much deeper level.
As a child I simply knew and knew I knew, but as I grew up and my knowing was not confirmed by others, for example I knew my mother was sad but if I asked her how she was she would say she was fine… and so this went on everywhere until I started to doubt my feelings and knowing. As you have written Fiona, through the healing and meeting I received from Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I have reconnected to my inner knowing and that is of immense value in every conceivable way – hence no desire to have alcohol, drugs, emotions or any substance that disconnects me from that.
What a turn around Fiona, you made the loving choice to return back to the real you rather then fighting and hiding it with the drugs and alcohol. You are a shining example of how when we choose to listen to our bodies our lives can completely change, when we listen we allow miracles to take place.
The great and truthful thing about having truly healed an addiction is when there is no urge, no thought of wanting this substance anymore and it has not been substituted with another.
Fiona your blog is gorgeous! Thankyou for sharing your story, it brought tears to my eyes to read of how you began to love yourself and life – amazing! You are a beautiful inspiration. I was fascinated to read of the difficulties you giving up alcohol presented to those around you, there must be huge societal and collective pressure to keep consuming alcohol. So many gorgeous points you have made throughout your blog, I particularly related to “I never trusted my own feelings, and always defaulted to others’ opinions, feelings and ideas, even when I didn’t really want to.” Thankyou, quite a healing there for me to feel around this. Keep writing Fiona!
‘It was harder for me to quit alcohol than smoking, cocaine or any other drug I had consumed.’ Just this line on its own is so telling of the insidious grip that alcohol has on our lives, being woven into the very heart, fabric and soul of our socialising culture and providing a crutch on which to lean for confidence and a pick-me-up or numb-me-out when exhausted or unhappy. Alcohol being so ubiquitous, when one person decides not to play, they stand out so sore-thumbed that it provides a true reflection to others and their discomfort at their own dawning irresponsibility often means they’ll try to woo you back with ‘just one glass’ so that the reflection can conveniently disappear.
The really strong message that I felt in reading this inspirational blog is that the choice to quit alcohol, drugs, smoking etc all came from a choice within that was not dictated by anyone else. For me I’ve found that these kind of choices are the only true long lasting and supportive choices…
Yes that stood out for me too Angela. The fact that we all know deep down what is good for us and what is not and how powerful it is to make these choices for ourselves out of care and love instead of others saying it to us.
Great to read about how you turned around your commitment to life and systematically but gently stopped doing all the things that were anaesthetising your experience and marring your ability to truly feel. All that paved the way for you to then begin to ‘see all the ways that I held myself back, and the little games or situations that used to come into play to feed certain ideas I had about myself to keep me from believing in me.’ Quite alarming how much of our social life can be geared around substances we ingest to keep ourselves away from ourselves.
“I started to actually care about myself in a way that I had always wanted someone else to care about me.” Beautiful Fiona. I too found with the inspiration of Serge Benhayon that caring for myself is something that no one else can do for me and it is how I move, touch and feel that brings me true care and love for my body that is with me wherever I go.
“I will never walk away from that love and understanding that I have come to know for myself through Serge Benhayon’s teachings. Why would I, when for the first time in my life I can say that I am truly living? My commitment to myself will never cease.” I say the same Fiona. Witnessing the changes in people over the past few years is phenomenal, as we all make changes and adjustments to our life-style choices. Committing to ourselves – and thus humanity – is key – regardless of reaction from those around us.
I could totally relate to your experience with people not wanting you to stop drinking – even an alcoholic friend once stopped, and would find people putting heaps of pressure on to ‘have a drink’… the whole ‘everything in moderation’ argument is so flawed – harm yourself moderately just doesn’t cut it really.
Defending this “in moderation” thing reminds me of another line we shoot off as a society and it refers to having to experience these things (drinking excessively) in order to be ‘who we are’
It’s a ‘You live and learn’ attitude, some might think it is a throw away thing we say but to me its not. I used to party a lot and hard and when people ask how I completely turned my life around they are very inspired but often they also cling to an ideal…..
“I had to do these things to shape the person I am today and that this kind of life experience is valuable”
I always question the logic behind this, as the illusion that brain damaging activity is adding anything to how amazing we are naturally as a new born baby – no longer makes sense to me. Some of the wisest, most together and inspiring influences in my life have never drunk a drop of alcohol and I think the above line is simply designed to makes us feel ‘better’ about our ill past choices. We do not need to fall down in order to appreciate standing up, in fact imagine just how far we might go if we didn’t buy into this false concept? Can we really imagine saying to our 13 year old daughters – ‘You need to go and get wasted and sleep around in order to shape your personality?’ Crazy and we never would but we defend the fact that we did it and that we ‘needed to live this way’.
This is summed up so well in the line: “We do not need to fall down in order to appreciate standing up”. And this goes not just for drinking and sleeping around, but anything we have got into, that ultimately does not support us to be who we truly are, or does not really care for us as we all so fully deserve. For example the idea of ‘doing it tough’ being ‘character building’, or similar.
I was at a women’s event recently and speaking a bit about life experiences – and it was said that the tougher the experience the more we would benefit or learn… as ‘part of ‘the journey” type thinking. Personally, all I got out of tough experiences was mostly a tougher, harder, more shielded and ‘more closed to love’ body, (and a whopping victim way of thinking to boot). This ‘all part of ‘the journey” extends to excuse and justify all the ill choices we make, say to give our power away to an abusive relationship, or an unloving ‘alternate’ lifestyle or to say it’s ‘character building’. Any unloving evolution thwarting activity “is adding anything to how amazing we are naturally as a new born baby .” There is often a ‘line’ we bring in no matter what the past bum steers we have got into, be it excessive drinking, or any drinking, and all manner of other forms of self abuse – For me, there is no possible benefit for having taken ourselves so far, or even at all, off track and I can see how holding onto this line is a form of dishonesty to not fully feel, and to remain in the familiarity of continuing to fog actions that harm ourselves and others. Time to call a spade a spade – and if something has not directly developed a more loving way of living – then it has not built anything – in fact the opposite, it has slowed us down from living a level of love and care we can only imagine we might otherwise be at.
Thank you Fiona for your sharing – you remind me not only how very far I have come, but how totally complete the change is – to the point that I cannot now imagine drugs played a part in my life, and knowing that these things are so far behind me they are beyond gone – I feel like they have actually been erased permanently. It was after a Chris James workshop that my ex-partner attended that I finally said no more to alcohol, pot, and other drugs, cigarettes were the last to go, and even those I am totally and completely free from, without a trace – nothing short of miraculous.
I remember feeling like I wasn’t being me, but then I didn’t know what/who the true me was like either. Rebuilding the connection and trust with myself through making more loving choices in everyday life has not always been easy, and I often forget to stop and appreciate how far I have come. So, thank you, Fiona, for sharing your joy with us – it was a perfect prompt for me.
Hi Fiona, what a beautiful testimony to Serge Benhayon. What a beautiful testimony to yourself as well for the choices you have made for yourself. You brought tears to my eyes with “I will never walk away from that love and understanding that I have come to know for myself through Serge Benhayon’s teachings. Why would I, when for the first time in my life I can say that I am truly living? My commitment to myself will never cease.” These are powerful words. Thank you for sharing so generously. Your sharing is inspirational for all.
I love that quote “One reason why I don’t drink is because I wish to know when I am having a good time.”, total classic Dragana! I really enjoyed this blog and I am so glad that I found it and your comment buried down here in 2012.
I’m with you Sarahraynebaldwin, so glad I found this blog and Dragana’s classic quote. What a great blog, and I can relate to the backlash from so-called friends to having made healthier choices. I love the steadiness of Fiona’s resolve…all the hooks of substances dissolved and long gone. I’m so grateful I’m also in that boat, I used to stop smoking, pot, or alcohol, or other drugs for a year or two, but it was always in the background, nagging away to various degrees. Now it is totally cleared out, without a trace, and has absolutely no in-road possibility – to the point I can barely imagine it was me at all – feels so different – and I could not be more thankful to Universal Medicine for this complete shift.
It’s a pretty amazing thing to be really clocked and appreciated hey Sarah. I’d say there are plenty of others who have had the benefits of the support of Universal Medicine who feel the same.
Yes Kate, it sure is and it feels like you speak for the plenty of others when you write, very universal style you have.
Fiona your blog reminds me of how far I have come. I use to be a heavy drinker, smoker and well drugs always on the cards. I had the same ease and support from Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon as you experienced, never judging me and allowing me to come to things in my own time.
It made me laugh when you said that people couldn’t accept that you had stopped drinking, people still say occasionally to me, ‘I wish you could just have one drink with me”. Society views drinking as a bonding exercise and a way to bring people closer together but in truth when you look at what alcohol is doing to our nation it is actually tearing family and community apart. I connect more with people at work or over a mineral water than I ever did spending hours at the pub drinking and chain smoking.
“I connect more with people at work or over a mineral water than I ever did spending hours at the pub drinking and chain smoking.” – so true Sarahranebaldwin – me too, by miles. Even when I was not drinking I used to go to the local pub to ‘be with people’, but there was not a drop of connection, everyone was long gone and distant, and even just drinking water I’d still end up with a whopping hangover – so that had to stop too. Now I love really being with people, at the playground, beach, cafe, …alcohol out of the picture means when we look each other in the eye, we are there – priceless, no comparison really.
Yes I have been known to go to the pub and hang out with my friends when I was single, not drinking but I did also feel the effects of being in that environment. It not that I won’t go to the pub anymore but I will defiantly not choose to go unnecessarily as I just do not enjoy it. Since I made that decision I have not gone back for a longtime although I do go to restaurants and hotels that remind me of bars, they are not quite as intense as the pub, as a pubs only purpose seems to be to offer alcohol, quite depressing.
I also remember feeling that sometimes I just wanted to be taken care of. With forever deepening self-care this need disappears and I agree Nicola, it has also enabled me to express true care to others also without feeling any resentment or need for it to be reciprocated. Another revelatory way being a part of Universal Medicine has changed our lives.
It is amazing to be able to say ‘now I am truly living’ after breaking free of all the drugs, alcohol and behaviours that many of us were using to numb ourselves against the pain of not living who we truly are! You did so well Fiona to just stop every vice one at a time, as your awareness grew around caring for yourself and you also managed to negotiate the difficulty that our friends and family can have when we make these life changing choices. Yes it can be challenging, but the truth is we know we are worth it.
As others have shared in the comments Fiona, the fact that you have been able to feel and claim what is true and stick by that choice to say no to drugs, alcohol and smoking is inspiring. This just goes to show how we can very simply stick by our feelings regardless of what those around us are doing. Like yesterday, I felt not to have a desert after dinner, knowing for me that it would have been way too much and I would have felt terrible afterwards, but what I didn’t clock until later and even now is that that it is worth appreciating. The fact that we do have it in us to say ‘No’ to what we feel is not true! That blows all those thoughts and lies of ‘we are powerless’ ‘we can’t change the world/our lives/situations’ out of the water.
Fiona thank you for sharing so openly and honestly. Your amazing commitment to self-care and self-love has supported you to make true and lasting changes in your life. How inspiring you are to others who also struggle with addiction – your lived experiences and choice to deeply heal from these addictions is very empowering and supportive in so many ways.
Pretty awesome turnaround Fiona, life is so much better when you make self loving choices
Fiona your absolute commitment to yourself is very inspiring to me. With a solid daily foundation like that the sky is the limit in terms of what you can do with and for yourself and others!
I want the world to know your story Fiona how many of us have been lost in alcohol and drugs when really we where just looking to find ourselves. We have a world wide problem of alcohol and drug abuse and your blog shows us the miracle that is waiting for us if we start to choose differently “Now I live a full and joyful life. I love work. I’m closer to my family and friends than I have ever been. And I don’t even think about wanting a drink or a drug to get me though the day. Instead my day is enough for me and I absolutely love it.” Thank you for sharing.
Thank You Fiona for openly sharing your story about drugs and alcohol. I have recently studied this subject and what you are sharing about the substances having a “hold” on you is true. No amount of drug therapy is going to work unless the person wants change, is truly seeking change or has someone in front of them that is willing to support them to bring about change. In your case Serge Benhayon was that man. In my work, I bring about miracles just by being me, allowing them to truly feel and know they are being met for who they are and without judgement. Once the guard is down and trust is built – which takes time as consistency and commitment is needed on my part, then real change occurs. I have this confirmed over and over again in my work and so I am left with no doubt – If we want to see change in our world then we have to LIVE it first.
Wow Fiona what a powerful transformation and the commitment you have made to yourself is truly inspiring. Although I feel I wobble in my commitment to me, I found reading your words I too never doubt what I have felt from what Serge Benhayon presents and his amazing consistency, love and wisdom is unending. But what I also realise is that we all have this within us, it comes back to choosing love, responsibility and ourselves above all else.
‘I started to actually care about myself in a way that I had always wanted someone else to care about me’….Your words are very true, very inspiring and very transformational. Awesome sharing Fiona!
Fiona, you are an absolute inspiration and I am soo grateful you shared your story.
One day I made a choice to stop drinking alcohol, it was very easy as I had that same feeling that I never really liked it but being such an ingrained part of society I just went along with everyone else. I just knew at that point I would never drink again, because the choice came about from caring more about myself. However, I noticed the same thing as you Fiona, in social situations people always really wanted me to have a drink and would try to persuade me too. It seemed to make them uncomfortable, which is quite interesting when you consider how most social situations are designed around drinking alcohol, and unless the choice is a real commitment to loving you, it is tricky to avoid any temptation. Serge Benhayon is a great inspiration, as he never tells anyone what to do, but by showing how he lives with such deep love, care and integrity, it seems to make it very easy and natural to let go of things that don’t support us. Very different to the discomfort and force of going cold turkey which never seems to last anyway…
Fiona you have shared yourself with such honesty and grace. It is truly inspirational to feel the changes you have made. Reconnection is freedom. 🙂
Wow, what amazing changes you have made in your life, vey inspirational!
Beautiful to read how, from simple changes you made, you “..started to trust my own feelings and love myself.” Amazing to read how empowering such changes can be. Thank you for your sharing Fiona.
This is a super blog Fiona, full of blessings for all who read your extraordinary journey back to yourself. I loved what you wrote about enjoying life more and more after caring for yourself in a way that you had always wanted others to care for you. It is clear that the joy this commitment to yourself has brought your life is profound and thoroughly inspiring as it reminds us that we are the ones who decide how awesome our life can be.
Having used all those recreational drugs I know it can be difficult at times to make the choice to walk away. Fiona, your story further confirms that once we get to feel the innate Love and Joy within us that choice becomes much easier. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have been and continue to be the most extraordinary support for making choices that have us return to the innate Love and Joy that we are.. and, without the slightest bit of imposition.
Fiona, your story is a testimony of your great capacity to renounce to what is not true and to learn to trust your feelings regarding what is true. Beautiful!
You’re a shining star, Fiona, so sparkling. I wondered, where did you get the will and power from, to quit all those self-abusing patterns? As for me I can say, it’s God’s grace and my choice to feel it.
Wunderbar Fiona I am deeply impressed about the choices you have made all on your own!!!! That is truly inspiring for others. Thank you so much Fiona for sharing this so open-heartedly.
Interesting how we get reactions from outside when we make choices which truly support our health and well-being but are against the common comfort.
Your blog is such a joy to read Fiona, a true testament to the changes that can be made in ones life when the truth of who we are is presented by a man, Serge Benhayon who inspires us all with his deep love, as he is one who walks the talk.
We all know when something is missing in our lives and this was how I felt. When I came across Serge Benhayon and his presentations it made so much sense. Beautiful read.
Absolutely beautiful Fiona. The words in your closing paragraph are particularly touching as I feel in you a woman who deeply loves and respects herself. I was amazed to read how difficult it was for people to accept your decision to no longer drink alcohol – characteristic of how imbedded drinking alcohol is within our society, but also how miserable we are that we need alcohol as a crutch; so that when someone says – no thanks I’m choosing to love me – it makes others feel very uncomfortable.
Thank you Fiona for writing this so honestly. Is it a “pack mentality” that made people around you to keep you drinking when you were trying to stop? I suppose that people think when doing something harmful, it will make it less so if many people do it changing “harm” into “norm”?
What I find very interesting is, how it is more socially acceptable to say no to the offer of a cigarette, but not so with alcohol, when I say no to the latter I get nagged and questioned all evening. I wonder if this is because there is more awareness around the harm caused,to our bodies through smoking, and less awareness of the detrimental affects of alcohol to our brains and body?
Isn’t it interesting that alcohol was the toughest one to give up, and the impression I get from the blog is that because of its wide social acceptance, when you did give it up was challenging for everyone else around. The change raises the question for them too… it’s less confronting when we all carry on with the same behaviours without asking the question of ‘does that really support me’?
Amazing Fiona, I love your new choices, so empowering.
Wow what a beautiful transformation Fiona and I totally agree with you when you say ‘Serge and his teachings have supported me to come to myself in my own way and at my own time.’ Thank you for sharing your story to which many will relate.
Fiona I relate to all the things you have shared especially the experience of stopping drinking, as people can get very cross! Which for me, says more about our normal behaviour to distract ourselves. Like you share, it is now normal to care for myself and it feels great. I never miss drinking, ever and I love waking up feeling good, feeling free of an induced hangover or something else. It feels amazing to be consistent in this way and lays a foundation that I can build on to bring more love, nurturing and tenderness to my life.
Haha – its New Year’s day here in the UK, and I was just thinking the same thing this morning… enjoying not having the hangover that is so traditional!
An open, honest and inspirational sharing…thank you Fiona.