by Sandra Schneider, Erftstadt, Germany (English 2nd language)
Serge once said to me: “My joy is to see you (students) returning to who you truly are.”
Well, I can understand that.
I first heard about Serge Benhayon eight years ago. I was sitting in my garden with my partner and our friend Alex, planning our wedding celebration. Alex told us about this guy from Australia he met in England and what he said. I was immediately interested because he spoke about what I had felt my whole life.
When I met Serge the first time I cried, cried, cried. I felt my grief about not being myself for such a long time and I also realised that I felt soooo alone.
I was 35-40 kilos overweight and I had chronic asthma, having to take cortisone every day or die. I felt like I was existing rather than living. So I started to study Esoteric Healing to heal myself.
My relationship with teachers was always good; I was very quick to be ‘the assistant’, very helpful. Not so with Serge Benhayon. I tried my best (I am clever!) to say or do what I thought he wanted so that he liked me, but I felt rebuffed. He ignored me when I wanted his recognition. But he looked right at me and engaged with me when I was letting go of all this ‘wanting’ or ‘needing’, he met me like I had never experienced before in my life. It took time to digest that. I found how much I had identified with being a good student, partner, worker, rebel… whatever – just to have an identity. But being me – who was that?
I started to study me and the way I was living. I started developing a life that was and is healing for me and others.
I had never worked full-time in my life – that felt too much for me; I got sick if I had to work a lot. Now I have 2.5 jobs with a 5-6 day working week and feel great. I love to work. I am really living in and contributing to society now.
I never really trusted other people – I had a few good friends but the rest I did not like or I was not open to have a relationship with them, and I would never talk to strangers. Now I found myself having a lovely conversation with a woman in the supermarket or on the street. I am open to people again and feel part of life!
I believed others were in charge of how I felt and found that if I didn’t take charge of my choices and my life I felt like things happen to me without my input, so I have wanted to control people and every situation. If I was not in control I felt helpless. Now I find that if I take responsibility for myself I can feel me –what is great is that I feel my old choices – which is mostly not so great… and I feel connected to me and others which is back to very great!
The list can go on and on… I lost 35 kilos and don’t have any asthma anymore!!!
But the most important thing to me is I feel really alive and in contact again!
When I see old pictures of myself or some other students… we look like monsters out of another life with all our worries and experiences on our bodies and face! Now our beauty is back – thank you very much Serge Benhayon for inspiring and supporting us… and for your colossal patience.
The Truth about Serge Benhayon 
Thank you Sandra for sharing so simply and with a short article your journey that still unfolds – it is very much felt in the body as in the comments before was already shared – it will be forever the same as it is written from the livingness and your body – very beautiful. Thank You.
I think Sandra many people can relate to ‘not being myself’ and the loneliness as we are so far away from themselves that it hurts one way or the other. It only requires someone to inspire us to study ourselves that we start to release the excess baggage we carry on our bodies, whether physically or emotionally or whether both.
There is much to ponder over what Serge Benhayon presents, there is truth behind it all, it’s how we want to receive it is the key. For some, it feels as though we have come home and for others they are not ready, and either choice is ok too.
Sandra, it has been so beautiful to re-read this again after some time – I loved how you shared how you cried upon meeting Serge Benhayon as this helped you realise how much you missed yourself and how lonely you had actually been feeling. This is something I too can relate to.
Henrietta re-reading something that is written from the body, can truly be felt in our bodies too. There is a marked difference and in every blog/article, we can feel or read a message that inspires us or, confirms us.
That’s why it is important that it is shared whether english is a first or second language. The message will still be there and can be felt.
Sandra this is an inspiring read about how your life has changed since meeting Serge Benhayon and it could easily have been someone else that inspired you to change. He has this energy about him and he certainly meets us in a way that no other has.
Anything is possible if we make the commitment in changing our wellbeing and just don’t accept that it is the only way.
The thing that stood out is the weight loss and the asthma that went with it – now that is worth enquiring about. And In that, you have found you and you serve more and even enjoy working 2.5 jobs. That is inspiring to read about, thank you I have much to ponder over going full time.
“I found how much I had identified with being a good student, partner, worker, rebel… whatever – just to have an identity. But being me – who was that?” I am still breaking down that identification, I can find myself in it a lot, which I can understand based on the education system and how society is promoting our value coming from intelligence and from what we do. It sounds bizarre that we might not know who we are, but living so far from ourselves for so long we have actually lost touch with our own inner essence. That’s why Serge Benhayon’s work is so pivotal, because it supports our reconnection to ourselves which not only restores us back to our wholeness, but it can also then offer a blessing and healing to everyone in our lives by reflecting that we each have an essence we can reconnect back to.
Melinda this identification is often what gets me too, when we make it about ourselves only, the body works and we are left tired and miserable. When we make it about others, the body serves and is energised, now that’s why and where, I would like to take it fourth…
It is interesting how Serge Benhayon is not interested in seeing someone as a ‘good’ student and in fact when there is that role that is being played and someone is seeking the recognition for this, then there is no attention forthcoming. But when one is genuine in one’s ways and not playing a role, Serge Benhayon is there walking next to you, with you and keen to know and support the true you. This is a wonderful reminder for me at the moment to simply keep trusting myself and drop any roles or tendencies or habits and allow myself to just be me and as genuinely as possible.
Sandra, this is a gorgeously heart-felt sharing about how much your life has changed since you embraced some of the simple healings on offer through Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and how you are living them in your life now. The ‘list’ of changes is remarkable! It is very inspiring to hear and feel how much you have turned your life around and begun to live life rather than manage life! Thank you!
Sandra we have all come out of so much, physical issues, emotional issues, relationship and work problems, and various lifestyle choices and behaviours have changed. Serge Benhayon has definitely supported us all in that, and we have become very empowered to support ourselves. This way of living with the soul is a continual return to deeper love and truth, and each day offers so much for us to embrace and enjoy.
If you are looking for recognition and acceptance from Serge Benhayon then think again. I discovered early on that he doesn’t not engage in this kind of behaviour which some of us use to show how good we are or want to be, just to be noticed by someone that we are here on this earth. For most of us we have not been truly met in the sense that you are seen by another person for whom you truly are. Serge Benhayon does just this and as you say it can take some time to digest because we do not know who we are and it can feel quite alien.
Serge does meet each and everyone of us, and is possibly one of the first persons in our life to do so, ‘he met me like I had never experienced before in my life.’
“If I take responsibility for myself I can feel me – what is great is that I feel my old choices – which is mostly not so great… and I feel connected to me and others” – I can so relate to this. And when we see our past not-so-great choices, there’s no judgment as we are already coming from the place of knowing who we truly are even, if we may not be living it in full yet, where we recognise ourselves and others as equally perfect-imperfect.
A life lesson can be learned from this simple observation:
“. I felt like I was existing rather than living. So I started to study Esoteric Healing to heal myself.”
For if we truly see what is happening here in our world, we will allow greater truth to exist and a life to be lived.. One in the Union of love.’
Well said Danna, for on a deeper level we know that an existence is not the full depth of what we are capable of living and hence why we can feel depressed and down. How could one feel depressed if they did NOT know that there was anything more to life? This says a lot – it tells us we know more than we would like to admit to ourselves, that we are super-sensitive beings and that there is more to life for us simply waiting for us to claim it and live it.
Love is not emotional like we have been led to believe, love is a holding which allows us to learn from our own mistakes.
I love connecting with people whether it’s on the tube or in a shop, it makes such a difference to how I feel about myself if I connect with others.
“The list can go on and on… I lost 35 kilos and don’t have any asthma anymore!!!
But the most important thing to me is I feel really alive and in contact again!” These two lines alone show the power of true healing what you say here Sandra may sound simple but are miracles in themselves.
The identity game may give us an instant reward but only in exchange of fixing us to a point, that is just a mere point.
And when someone confirms us in our identity or celebrates us in a certain identity it keeps us there rather than supporting us to get out of the identity and back into our own shoes. Being back in our own shoes so to speak is a way of truly connecting to who we are, and this is essentially the best gift we can give to ourselves and all those around us!
It is indeed very beautiful and a joy to watch people step into their power and not shying away from who they truly are. We have made life so complicated all the while it is just about being who we truly are, no facade, no armour, no pretence, just us in every moment allowing ourselves to feel and live the truth we deep down know.
What a story Sandra, for me your infectious joy is such an inspiration, I didn’t know you before Universal Medicine or when you were heavier in weight and to be honest I can’t really imagine it as I have only known you as the bright, sassy and beautiful women you are today.
That is a huge turnaround in both your physical and mental health and it is inspiring. I just smiled all the way through reading it because you call us to be the same inspiration for each other.
I agree Sandra, it is beautiful for people to come back to who they are. I know the joy I have experienced on my own return (which continues every day) and the delight to just be me and to also see many others doing the same thing and living who they are thanks to the support of Serge Benhayon.
Yes, I agree, seeing the endless transformations year after year is an absolute blessing particularly when the opposite is true all around us.
Yes, it is in stark contrast to what life (how we have created it) reflects to us, and it shows how very important it is to let the world see that there is another way and not to shy away from it. Because the normal we are living today is far beyond the normal that is innately true to us.
I love what you are saying here Sandra that it is not just about the changes in your health and your weight but that these naturally happened because you are feeling more connected to your natural joy and vitality. From my experience it definitely has to start with this to make true lifestyle changes.
Well said Andrew – we cannot just say that we will love ourselves once we have lost some weight as this is just a trick – it is about loving ourselves no matter what the weight and then if we lose weight then it will be just as easy to love ourselves.
‘When I see old pictures of myself or some other students… we look like monsters out of another life with all our worries and experiences on our bodies and face!’ I agree my old photos no longer look like who I am today, there is a hardness to them, and it is easily seen in the eyes, now they are brighter and more alive than ever.
One of the greatest gift for me is that we can look at ourself and observe how we are living. With that we have the choice to change which did not support our way of being. Thank you Sandra for sharing how you study yourself and how you change your way of living.
“One of the greatest gift for me is that we can look at ourself and observe how we are living. With that we have the choice to change which did not support our way of being.” Yes, a very simple tool in life everyone can use.
Another great example of someone with a health issue who has made loving changes to their life and has made an amazing recovery, inspired by the presentations of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.
With Serge Benhayon, there is no way to play games of spiritual recognition. That is a great thing. Although the me, me, me momentum may be strong, not playing ball with it helps to evolve.
Yes, and it can be so hidden that until someone doesn’t play ball with it you may not know you are even doing it. There is so much potential for healing old patterns.
One of the best things we can do in our life is to return to ourselves and to do this with love and understanding is the greatest joy at all.
The patience and loving non-judgment of Serge Benhayon is truly inspirational.
It is beautiful to read of the changes you have, which are true and deep testament to what can happen when we connect with ourselves, take responsibility and love ourselves.
I loved reading your article again Sandra, amazing the changes in your life and health that have come about by claiming the truth as presented by Serge Benhayon taking them into your life, bringing true healing, truly a miracle.
This is beautiful account on how it is very possible to live a truly joyful life and I can only say, thank God for Serge Benhayon for showing us the way.
…’I felt like I was existing rather than living’. I love your honesty in this statement Sandra and cannot but wonder how many others in today’s world, a world we have all created also feel that they too are merely in survival mode instead of living to their potential.
Yes, Universal Medicine has brought in a very true way tools that offer re-connection to your body, your Soul, your rhythms and offers space between you and any issue you might have .. It is so powerful to become a master of your own livingness, simply by these teachings and tools there given. We can not do it on our own — we are not made for that, we are here to return to One-ness, our brotherhood — living as One.
Gorgeous Sandra, and I can so relate… to the aliveness I can feel now versus the drudgery I lived in in the past. What Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon bring is amazing – the truth we all deserve to know and the love and joy we all deserve to live.
Yes and this aliveness has become so normal that I not longer feel the stark contrast of ups and downs as there is a consistency within.
I really love what you say about being a good student – it really exposes how we position ourselves in a relationship or a situation can come from our need and expectation, and in the world we are living in, this kind of arrangement seems to work itself out because of our mutual needs and/or co-dependency, and what Serge Benhayon reflects is that that type of movement has no place in the absolute equalness and the Oneness we truly belong to.
Yes and as such it stands out and we notice it because someone is not ‘playing the game’ with us. I have noticed people respond in one of two ways – they either react and get angry, name shame and blame or surrender to the reflection and offer themselves a great healing.
It takes but one in true love to inspire the reawakening of many others, who each then in turn inspire others. Before too long this world will change dramatically as we each take greater responsibility in our lives.
A beautifully honest blog. I know what you mean about looking like monsters. I feel like a monster when I feel myself reacting and behaving in ways that I know are not me. The Way of The Livingness is a way of forever deepening our relationship with who we truly are and in that we clear ourselves of so much and can be a real benefit to society.
Sandra it would be great to read an update of your life now. The way Serge was with you when you were seeking recognition by not acknowledging you, yet very with you when you were simply yourself is very loving. In life we learn to be nice, to pander to others, to “do the right thing”, however love is very different to “nice” in its expression, and as a result it’s very powerful, healing, and confirming to experience.
It is a joy – absolutely – to return to our true self and to see others do so too.
Love always supports the true being and gives no energy to who we are not, that is quite the opposite of how emotional love works which is an exchange of needs and seeking recognition.
Love takes on a whole new meaning when ones want to recognition is denied. It speaks highly of that fact that we are so much more then the physical and wanting recognition for something we have DONE is a reduction of the majesty – which Serge Benhayon sees and meets in everyone.
It is so gorgeous to see the transformation in photos of people choosing to live with a connection to their soul. There face is brighter and glowing, their eyes sparkle, there so much life in their whole body.
The photos of people who choose a way of living that is based on connection with their soul are undeniable. There is a glow that cannot be hidden, and that in itself is proof that living from the inner to the outer works.
On it’s own this article presents a huge change in how one person was living, a drain on themselves and on those around them to now being a true supporter of the community in many ways. There are others like this and the similar story of how they have been supported by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. We can’t just walk over stories like this, people that were seriously down and out to now walking and living a completely different life and there bodies reflecting the same. I read stories like this and always want to know more, see more and it’s great to have people recording parts of their lives in this way. I know if I read this and was in a similar position then this would inspire me to see there is a way out and that I’m not trapped.
You cannot deny the vibrancy, connection and love that emanates from the students of The Way of The Livingness. And in a world where lovelessness, at this point seems, to hold the majority rule, we clearly are the custodians of our future, of how a life lived in connection to love is far more powerful and is what guides us to know what living with true freedom and in Brotherhood is.
I will vouch for all you say here Sandra as you are now one beautiful and very much alive woman!
“When I met Serge the first time I cried, cried, cried. I felt my grief about not being myself for such a long time and I also realised that I felt soooo alone.” I can so relate to this Sandra, I was also so alone and cried when I met Serge for the first time, the tears just kept coming down my face and I could not stop them. I knew I had met someone of truth.
Gorgeous – deeply inspiring blog about you and your life since you met Universal Medicine. A profound saying that we are everything already – we just need to come back to by re-connect to all there is within.
“But being me – who was that?” This made me smile as it was a question I too asked when I met Serge Benhayon and listened to presentations. It has been a wonderful experience getting to know the beautiful woman with unbounded love that was within me all along just waiting for me to connect to who I truly am.
Having met you in person I am stunned to read you ever lived anything less than an amazing life because you move and live with such joy and openness now. The way you have turned your life around is miraculous.
A gorgeous example of someone who has turned their life around, a living miracle, thank you for sharing Sandra.
It is beautiful to be ‘met’ by Serge Benhayon, ‘he met me like I had never experienced before in my life’, being met for who we truly are, not what we do, is something we all seek.
This is very true Lorraine – we all do seek being met. And so this also highlights the responsibility we all hold, to truly meet each other in the essence of who we are, and not the behaviors or emotions we at times are presenting with.
Serge holds everyone in that equal love, so the feeling of it is expanding in the body, a beautiful holding and equalness.
To be met in this way by someone who will not pander to that which is not true within us feels very challenging at first and it exposes very clearly the emotional, needy way of living we have accepted as normal. Thank God for meeting Serge Benhayon and being shown that there is another way to be – letting go of living the lie and returning back to living from truth.
“He (Serge) ignored me when I wanted his recognition. But he looked right at me and engaged with me when I was letting go of all this ‘wanting’ or ‘needing’, he met me like I had never experienced before in my life”.
Absolute colossal patience and unending support, as nothing is more difficult than seeing others making choices away from truth, even though they got all the truth inside (aware or unaware). Thank you for sharing your grace with us Sandra. Well done you!
Sandra you are a living example of how you can transform when you introduce self-love and self-care into your lives. Your extraordinary journey is deeply inspiring of how we can truly heal and move forward in our lives when we embrace love in every way.
It is a beautiful example how we can transform our lives through self-love and self-care, something that is not talked about much amongst society. What has been shared by Serge Benhayon has supported so many to transform their lives back to their truth.
One of the most bastardised forms of teaching is that of mentorship, which by way of arrangement views the student as less and the teacher as more. Such a relationship never exists with a true teacher and true student, where the teacher is actually someone who just uses the reflection of their living way to allow the student to arise to the understanding that they actually equally have the same potential to live the same. In other words, the teacher does not hold themselves as more because they live a deeper understanding of life than the supposed student, for the teacher equally understands that they are also a student of life themselves, and that is because they understand that in life there is no end point to our understanding of its depth. There is always more to unfold. And thus why you will never see Serge Benhayon allowing a so called student to hold him on a platform, even though they might try. By virtue of his living way, he simply says, “if me, then why not you”, and whilst that may not be received by the aspiring student, it is certainly communicated in his every movement.
Everything in life is geared towards recognition and being accepted, so it can feel quite hard when you first meet Serge because he will not pander to any need for recognition. I remember trying to get Serge’s attention in subtle and not so subtle ways but it never worked and after a while it clicked that love does not work this way and like you Sandra…. “It took time to digest that. I found how much I had identified with being a good student, partner, worker, rebel… whatever – just to have an identity. But being me – who was that?”
It is amazing how we can turn our lives around by simply introducing self-love to our daily life and make it our natural way of being. We live with the belief that we always have to strive for more and with this focus on the more we miss out on the volume that is already there.
So true Esther! Our evolution comes from within because in fact it is nothing than an expansion of what is there already, when we connecting to who we truly are, our divinity.
“I started to study me and the way I was living.” Why is this not our greatest grandest study to know who we are in essence and all that we have lived in our past lives.
I guess because we would not ‘just’ study than life and how to live successfully in the meaning of ‘living together in harmony and love’ but also would have to take full responsibility about every single choice we make… and who should teach us here, as we all have lost this way of being. And now, where a teacher rises who can do this (called Serge Benhayon), because he lives it all, he gets attacked. But in fact it is not him who gets attacked, but the fact that we have to take responsibility.
Thank you Sandra, beautiful job and well done for making this choice to stand in lead for your life, not from control but connection. That is simply magnificent. Hence you are an inspiration to many people, so it is so good you share.
I don’t think we can ever underestimate the number of choices it takes every single day to make such a massive change in your life, nobody can do it for you and it’s nothing short of inspiring.
Everything in this article rings true for me. I experienced the very same and am so eternally grateful that I am again engaged in my life and no longer feel alone, as I too have opened up and have found I really enjoy connecting with people. I never knew just how far away from myself I was before, now though I know I am remembering more of my true nature every day and this experience is priceless.
Serge Benhayon is a teacher like no other teacher. He does not play the usual teacher games; he does not teach the usual teacher contents; he does not use the usual teacher tactics. He is the world teacher. Unwavering in what he delivers, full of love and understanding.
Thank you Sandra for sharing the amazing changes you have made in your life by choosing to look at how you were living and now by taking responsibility you are feeling the aliveness of being back with you.
‘I started to study me and the way I was living’. We waste so much effort focusing on the outside world to fill us when our true fulfillment, strength and wisdom lies dormant within.
Thank you Sandra, I really appreciated the opportunity to read about the transformation you have chosen. I absolutely understand Serge’s joy at seeing people return to who they are, it is a truly beautiful thing. I often find myself feeling the full potential of people that cross my path regardless of the way they are choosing to live, to see this potential realised is nothing short of astounding and every time I see someone living true to themselves it reminds me that I have an opportunity to do the same.
There is no greater joy than feeling the flame of our love rekindled and burning bright for all the world to see. For too long we have lived in ‘solitary confinement’, the dampness and darkness of our chosen prison, while all the while the light that truly guides us is found in the warmth of a heart that never stops loving no matter the multitude of hurts we may pile on top of it.
‘Monsters out of another life’… sadly too true for me also. It is scary looking back but so inspiring to see the profound affect that taking responsibility and making loving choices can have in our lives, not only on our bodies but also in our relationships with people and the world in general. Transformations beyond recognition.
I had no idea who I truly am until I learnt how to reconnect with my essence and feel the warmth of my delicate, fragile and loving true self; this inspires me to take responsibility to be all of me and let go of the hurts and protection I was living from and allow the true me the emanate out to the world.
When I read that Sandra, I realise that there is a dimension of life happening simultaneously and intertwined with our physical reality but mostly we just think of the one world we can detect with our physical eyes. Maybe we consider the inner world to some degree but I feel that the physical life is just the outer crust of something else going on constantly. It’s like what we see with our physical eyes is just the tip of the iceberg. I feel however that what is hidden below the surface can be brought more or less out into the open depending on how much of this metaphysical world we choose to embrace.
The beauty of Serge Benhayon is he asks nothing of you, not to be a certain way, to achieve, to look or act a certain way. He simply allows the space for you to be you.
Dear Sandra,
Thank you for clearly exposing how any neediness is not it. This small drop of wisdom alone has the potential to transform how we live upon our planet.
Sandra your story and your life is incredible – I would love to read more about it, the changes you’re describing to most people would seem impossible, yet you changed your whole life around in a few years – I think that deserves a book!
Sandra I only met you after this amazing transformation and find it hard to believe the way you were before…
thanks for sharing what you have, from where you were, to the way you look and feel today is a true modern-day miracle. From a practitioners point of view, to lose that weight is one thing, but the total turnaround in your health is incredible… THAT needs to be studied and understood and introduces into the healing equation the responsibility we each have to live something that is truly who we are. The body clearly responds accordingly…
I have known you most of the time you have been a Student of the Livingness Sandra and have been deeply, deeply inspired by your transformation, both physical and the intangible innate qualities of you that were hidden from sight. Now I see the depth of your beauty which you have allowed to shine out for the rest of us to see and feel.
Thank you Sandra for a great sharing of letting go of the need for acceptance outside of yourself, and coming to accept responsibility for your choices, what a testament your story is to the power of love, loosing all the weight and healing the asthma. The healing power of the love that is within us is truly amazing.
Sandra I can relate to the wanting the attention and recognition and not getting it. It’s quite uncomfortable especially when that is a well developed and successfully used skill that you use to get the recordation you’re looking for. But really how else are we supposed to see what our patterns are that don’t offer evolution to ourselves and others.
Sandra Schneider how great to read how much the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine has change the quality of life you are choosing to live. What stood out so clearly in your writing is that from this support you were able to not only go back to work full time but provide more support in your truest form. If this is the result of what you have felt from these teachings then obviously there is something amazing here to share with the world!
The power of a true friend is so palpable, someone who truly understands and lets you in without judgement no matter what your choices of way of living are. It is deeply inspiring to read this account as I feel the power of such openness with what I can bring to others too by meeting them in this way.
You are a living testimonial that it is possible to re-connect to our true self – we are all already everything but we have to chose to see and feel it.
Wow Sandra, you are living proof of what happens when we let go of what we are not. Seeing you now, there is not a glimpse of any of the choices that previously plagued you. There are so many living miracles living life fully from being inspired by Universal Medicine presentations.
What you shared about Serge Benhayon ignoring you when you wanted recognition is very interesting. When we are wanting recognition from anyone it acts as a very good repellent. It is our own responsibility to look at why we are wanting recognition – it does not confirm who we are, it merely praises something we have done. What are we identified with?
‘We look like monsters out of another life with all our worries and experiences on our bodies and face!’ It’s amazing how much strain and worry our bodies carry when we are not true to who we are, it’s almost like they morph into different shapes and become something totally different to our true selves.
Hello Sandra, your transformation from before Universal Medicine to now is remarkable and an awesome reflection you are offering others.
Hi Sandra, your experience with needing attention and to be liked sounds very similar to mine and Serge Benhayon would and does respond to my neediness just how you describe here, which is truly loving and supportive but does not always feel like that at the time. It is in the end our choice to be the joy that we are or not.
Yes looking back there have been many who have totally transformed their life both physically and mentally, from some of the wildest or crazy life’s, and all walks of life. We now stand to continue to expand to share what we bring as this is also possible and available to all.
Thankyou Sandra, I have enjoyed reading your blog again – you have shared many true miracles with all the changes you have experienced, I’m sure since writing there have been many more. Your quote from Serge Benhayon is lovely “My joy is to see you (students) returning to who you truly are.” I have witnessed the same contentment and joy in Serge supporting people around him to blossom. In a world based on comparison and competition, this in itself offers a wisdom the whole world would benefit from returning to, the joy of truly supporting others and the simplicity love brings back to life.
“…I started to study me and the way I was living…” In a nutshell, this is Esoteric Medicine. This is the best lesson to take in many ways, as it is the consequence of our choices that play a big part in our health and wellbeing.
Incredible Sandra, what an amazing transformation? You lost 35 kilos and don’t have asthma anymore, this is unheard of. You hold the key to true medicine, and this is from making simple choices to living who you truly are, taking responsibility for your life, being open to people and embracing love. You were inspired by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine to live another way, a true way and I have to say it again, amazing transformation Sandra. Thank you for inspiring us all.
It is not the intention to change our lives that changes things. It is our choice to begin to accept who we truly are that changes everything.
Knowing who we are can seem like quite a daunting experience given how far removed we have become from ourselves. Having hidden ourselves under layer upon layer of ideals and beliefs which are not truly ours, it takes honesty to feel the truth. The beauty is we are never lost or far away and the reconnection can be pretty instantaneous. Building this into our lives with consistency and living this always is what truly sets us, and others, free.
I agree Jenny, consistency is key in imprinting a new way of living.
Beautifully expressed Jenny. Your comment allows me to feel that the layers we hide ourselves with are many and that we often stop removing them when we feel ‘better’ without realising that we are still attempting to protect ourselves with the (now thinner) layers. Thank you for reminding me to keep allowing my beauty to be seen and felt.
Spot on Sandra. Serge Benhayon has inspired me to discover who I am and it is very revealing all the ways I had devised and chosen to avoid feeling the sadness of missing the infinite love that I am. The joy of finding the love that I am is that I now can feel the love that is equally in all others.
and by that feeling the connection of all of us – I agree Mary, thats deeply lovely! 🙂
I have observed you from afar Sandra and you are a true inspiration to us all.
What a joy that expressing love is contagious from afar 🙂 – or is it that ‘afar’ is an illusion when you are in love…?
Your experience with Serge sounds much the same as mine
Its been a while since I last read this beautiful out in the open, truthful sharing – and like the last time it went deep within and so much of what you share Sandra I could feel – yes, that was me also. As you questioned yourself “But being me – whose that?” Until Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon came into my life I lived that way of not being really sure of who ‘me’ was. Floundering around with a lot of searching, only to find out no searching is required, or playing games with the many parts I could perform to try and control life – I already have everything that is needed within. Taking back the responsibility of our choices in life. What an amazing gift we can gift ourselves, especially with the amazing support that is offered, unconditionally so.
Thank you Marion. Coming back to my blog today I found a point which I have to correct: Serge is not patience – he is living love. It is the love that make him repeat every teaching and presentation again and again from different angles…no matter how much and often I say or live my “but, but, but” – he is love and it is love what he presents to me. A true inspiration. And I appreciate us all, as we have the same love inside of us – Time to discover with each other. What a lovely journey!
Sandra beautifully said, it is lovely how Serge encourages us to be all that we are, and doesn’t entertain or acknowledge the games we play for recognition and acceptance.
Yes, Serge shows that it is possible to step out of the game even if you played it for a while. That is maybe also the challenge he brings for us (more or less) – that it is possible to change and that it is all in our hands. To step out of the game means also to take full responsibility about our playing before and what it has done to the world and us.
It has been a great honour to see over the years how you have grown into the beautiful woman you are, this is very inspiring.
I agree with your comment “I found how much I had identified with being a good student, partner, worker, rebel… whatever – just to have an identity. But being me – who was that?” Letting go of the needing to be ‘good’ has been a work in progress for me , but at last I am allowing myself to listen to my body and follow – and trust- what I am feeling. So liberating!
A gorgeous blog – thankyou Sandra. And now, three years on you are even more glorious. Your beauty shines through. I love reading about the changes Esoteric students are making in their lives – so inspiring.
Yes, we are living miracles! Worth a thousand headlines… like: “Student of The Livingness did claim her beauty back – New discovery: Taking Responsibility makes us beautiful!” 😉
I love that comment Sandra “Student of The Livingness did claim her beauty back – New discovery: Taking Responsibility makes us beautiful!”😉Wow, imagine if this was the front page of every newspaper and magazine for women. What a revelation this would be to all of humanity. And I can absolutley atest to the fact the changes in you are truly amazing – you are indeed a very beautifu lwoman and it has been an absolute joy to observe the transformation in you. : ))
Your beauty is definitely back Sandra Schneider. The healing that you have gone through by focusing on self-healing first is a glory to us all, as we now have a very beautiful, spunky and sexy woman in the world that is a true inspiration to every single person. A true inspiration as you represent what it means to take responsibility for one’s life by connecting to the real you
and just being yourself.
Thank you Shevon for this lovely appreciation. To honor each other and our choices is the foundation of a true, lovely and harmonious community. And so uplifting to all of us. 🙂
When we start taking responsibility for ourselves – and for the choices we are making – then we begin to recommit to life and from there it’s but a small skip and a jump to be engaging in the world as who we truly are. The world gets to see the real you and not the control-freak version that was only ever developed as a protective defence to avoid the possibility of ever being hurt.
This is really inspiring Sandra and yes whilst Serge Benhayon provides the inspiration by his lived way we each have to be prepared to take those steps back to the love that we are.
Sandra you are a living miracle and it is obvious that what Serge Benhayon presents and lives truly works.
There comes a point in ones life where we cannot hold on to the coat tails of someone else, we have to take responsibility but we are not alone, ever. Serge has been a great teachers and role model who has shown me that I am already enough and as you say Sarah has been very patient without an ounce of criticism. In this relationship I have always felt held until I was ready to take the next step. I now know and can feel in my own body I am never alone and that I am held by an all encompassing love that is holding us all equally so.
Sandra, what an amazing transformation. Self love and appreciation is the best diet in the world!
Love your enthusiasm here Anne, and agree – “Self love and appreciation is the best diet in the world!”
It is nothing short of a miracle, how we change with Universal Medicine, Serge Benhayon and the Esoteric Healing modalities. Thanks for sharing your healing with humanity, Sandra.
A miracle it is – or I should say thousand of miracles… Fact is: Students of Universal Medicine are living, proof miracles.
You are such an inspiration, Sandra. What a joy to read your sharing. So beautiful and powerful.
Reading this beautiful sharing again today – I was inspired to reflect with appreciation as to the journey of how I was living, to how I now live. This was the key for me as I’d never allowed a stop moment to really observe, feel (all of me) and to bring honesty into the way I was actually living. No more ‘just existing’ we all have an amazing gift – now its time to share and reflect back out into the world.
Great claiming Marion!
There is much beauty, grace and wisdom revealed here Sandra. Through the Loving reflection of Serge Benhayon, and your commitment to self discovery, you replaced ‘being good’ with being true……being the true amazing glorious you.
Great blog, thank you Sandra. It is amazing the way you transformed your life.
Thank you for sharing, it is lovely how trough meeting Serge Benhayon, you were inspired to live your own truth. And truly connect to life again.
Sandra – thanks for a beautiful snap shot of ‘before’ and ‘after’ life with Universal Medicine. I can well relate to thinking I had to do something to get it right in life but through attending Universal Medicine courses, I have come to understand that being me is the key.
Being Me
Is the Key!
– What a slogan! (and worth a t-shirt imprint)
Sandra you absolutely rock, a beautiful, sassy, sexy and gorgeous role model for everybody in the world!!!
Control is a funny thing for we can only ever seek it when we have lost it but ‘having it’ is not the answer either for when we have it, we have it because there is a need to ‘be in control’ due to the fact that something else has been lost… When we disconnect from the truth and love that we are, we desperately seek measures to manage the chaos that this separated state leaves us in, for when we are naturally with ourselves there is no need to seek what is already there – harmony. Control is therefore sought in replacement of this natural way of being, that is, we seek control because we deeply miss the harmony that we are in essence.
It’s a strange phenomenon that often we don’t allow ourselves to see ourselves as we truly are until someone sees us for who we truly are, to the depths of our being. When held in this way by another we are better able to give ourselves permission to be more of this. This is the unfolding; a little more… then a little more… slowly, slowly we let the guard down to reveal what was there all along – our big and gorgeous selves, free of the fear and the distrust that have kept us so tightly bound. Welcome home Sandra, I’m standing right beside you having walked a thousand paths to find what lay within always – the love that we are.
Yeah – the one who sees us for what we are in truth is creating a space in which we can remember and let go of the illusions. Being held like this is pure love.
Beautiful comment Liane. That is exactly what happens when we are standing before Serge Benhayon, who can’t but see us for who we truly are, no more and no less.
What a difference it makes when we let go of controlling life and start to be honest about the choices we have made. It’s not easy but it sure does make life a lot simpler.
Wow! Sandra how you have turned your life around. A beautiful honest sharing with us all. When you expressed “I never really trusted other people”, sitting with this for a while realised that I too never trusted others – I would converse with them but only on my terms. Its that control thing and not wanting to get hurt – up go the guards. Realising now I was not trusting me. Since attending the many workshops and presentations with Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon there has been a big turn around in my life. Like you I feel “really alive and in contact again” with the world.
Beautiful what you share with us Marion.
Yes, I never did trust others – and I also found that this was based on my mistrust in me. How should I trust in me? I was the one who chose against my true being to fit in. I did leave the true me and confirmed this choice every day by not expressing what is really going on, not expressing my true feelings. To trust in others I have firstly to learn to trust in me and my choices. This needs a consistency in true, loving choices I can rely on. Thats the way for me. And thats the way which is supported by Serge Benhyon and Universal Medicine.
Thank you Elizabeth. Yes – its like a transforming from a maggot to a butterfly… ; )
I relate to what you say about once taking responsibility for yourself, you get to see and feel the horribleness of all the choices you’ve been making in the past. That’s a tough and bitter pill to swallow, but it really is worth getting through, so that we can finally shed those ‘monsters from another life’ and instead feel the freedom of being back with our true selves. And I wholeheartedly agree – Serge Benhayon has the patience of 1000 saints!
Yes Cathy. And I had to realize that this ‘bitter pill’ (the horribleness of all the choices I made) is there, in my body, all the time. To try to ignore it does not make it disappear. In fact it grows with that.
To take responsibility for me means to accept and appreciate the glory that I am, to feel & express it every day. Every time I do not do so I create a ‘bitter pill’.
To deal with my ‘monsters from another life’ I can focus on the bitter pills and so focus on my creations (and so focus on me me me again). Or I can focus on what I am in truth, let go of the creations and integrate again in the big picture I am a part of.
Beautiful Sandra, to hear you through this blog fills me with joy, not just to learn of your amazing life changes you’ve made, but simply because the love you have reconnected to beams through your every word, and out of the page to me, thank you.
It is amazing that we can say, to ourselves that we don’t know how to just be without the need for any identity when naturally simply honouring our bodies and what we feel within shows us exactly who we are and highlights all the time the fact that we are far greater than what we do.
Wow Joshua, thats a firecracker.
Wow Sandra what a transformation since meeting Serge Benhayon and making choices that are loving and true for you. It is a miracle the way your life has changed – your health and well-being has improved and you are now actively engaged in the community. What a power-full and deeply inspiring sharing – thank you.
Yes Anna – my transformed life and many other changing life’s from students of Universal Medicine are presenting that we can forget ‘character’, ‘education’, ‘genes’, ‘psyche’ or ‘culture’ to make responsible for our way of living, our illness and our sadness or what ever. It is all about free will and our choices. People who are choosing the ‘Way of the Livingness’ are living testimonial of this truth. This is maybe challenging for some because it brings it all back to self-responsibility. But hey – our self-responsibility is a treasure chest and not a burden. Its THE X on our treasure map.
Sandra, it is so beautiful to feel the true you shining through. What I loved was how you are now a student of you, by re-connecting to who we really are we no longer have to wander through life trying to be something we are not. Instead we can reclaim who we are, getting to know our rhythms, cycles and make choices based on what is true for each of us. What I love about Serge Benhayon is that this is something he inspires in each of us, allowing us in our own time to get back to living the truth of who we really are.
ohhhh… Being the good student!, doesn’t that hit a sore spot.
It is everything that has ever gotten me somewhere, or so I thought.
But what it did was restrict what I thought I was allowed to express, over calculate and miss having spontaneous fun.
Gosh I’m glad I’ve decided to let that go.
There is such a sense of celebration in this blog and in all the comments! Yes, we have all changed this much! Sandra I love the joy and truth in which you write. I too have made a complete turnaround, my process is ongoing but I’m living a life of joy and better health now, that I had given up on (or would not dare dream about). When I came to Universal Medicine, I had no idea about the depths that Serge Benhayon could give humanity. My life is just like yours Sandra, a reflection of what Serge is actually offering everyone – and it works!
What an inspiring transformation Sandra, and today you are the expression of the living love you have re- connected to. Thanks to the grace of meeting Serge Benhayon, who is a constant reflection of the glory you speak of, so many have re-connected to the truth of themselves, very powerful.
Sandra, having only met you in the last couple of years I find it hard to imagine that you wouldn’t talk to strangers – my experience in meeting you is that you are a confident, beautiful women who is open and loving to all. I haven’t watch your transformation but am inspired by who you are today.
Where you were to where you are now is extraordinary.. these kinds of changes are unheard of for most people but there are so many of these astonishing stories on this blog site!
Sandra, having met you in recent times, you are an absolute powerhouse of love – one deeply inspiring lady, who meets another with the fullness of your strength and at once such deeply beautiful delicacy…
That you had lived a life of so many years of pain, illness and withholding of this love, is tragedy indeed – and yet nothing in your story can dampen how I feel, for the gloriousness of you now blows me completely out of the water so much that any tears are only of pure joy.
And I am left to reflect on where I also, and so many others, have ‘come from’ – to where we now stand, inspired in full by a man who chooses with absolute consistency to stand in the glory that he, and we all in truth, are. Wow, yes thank-you Serge Benhayon. I am speechless…
‘He ignored me when I wanted his recognition. But he looked right at me and engaged with me when I was letting go of all this ‘wanting’ or ‘needing’, he met me like I had never experienced before in my life. It took time to digest that.’ I too have had a similar experience to that, and am learning to claim all of the awesome woman I am, minus the ‘trying’ stemming from a reaction to a ‘playing small/hiding’! It is truly a joyous work…and the answer (As Serge Benhayon states) is always simply a consistent living the Love we all are in our inner-most through our bodies and lives!
Yes pernillahorne – to put me in the place were I am looking for recognition is to put me out of the place were I take my responsibility of expressing the wonder and beauty I am. If I want something, need something for me I am not offering what I have given from heaven to share.
Sandra, I really love what you share here. “I started to study me and the way I was living” – so simple, so powerful. Returning to who we are is a choice, and is available to every single one of us.
So true Sandra, when I look at photos of myself I am so distorted and look nothing like the person I am today. When I show my photo of 10 years ago to people they find it really hard to believe that I once looked like that. Now they see the beautiful,delicate women I am today. Thousands of other people as well have turned around their health and wellbeing all thanks to Serge Benhayon.
It is amazing what can happen form one man simply living his love and truth and from that livingness truly meeting everyone. Being met by Serge Benhayon is being allowed to feel who you truly are, so I can imagine your tears Sandra. And with all the changes you have made since then you are now offering this to all those around you. Beautiful!
A beautiful home coming Sandra – coming home to you – and everyone benefits.
Gorgeous Sandra and so right you are Serge Benhayon does indeed have colossal patience, but he will never walk away from presenting the truth of who we are and that is what is so amazing and loving about him as a man. Thank you for sharing your journey back to you.
Thank you Jade, Sandra and Serge Benhayon. The overwhelming patience and integrity of Serge Benhayon can only be described as absolutely AMAZING. Actually words are at a loss when looking for superlatives to describe the completeness that is delivered by Serge Benhayon.
Thank you Sandra Schneider for this beautiful sharing and thank you for choosing the path of return to the beautiful woman you are.
Sandra, what you have written here, it is like your life and mine are parallels. Every thing you write about I have experienced. And much of my life too was lived without being me, trusting me, knowing me. This is now a reality of the past and even though I know me more than ever before, I am getting to know myself more and more intimately every day. And feeling from deep within that I can only but love what I am rediscovering about myself, feeling in this love that I have much to offer humanity. This is what inspires me and brings joy and purpose to my life in each and every day.
Sandra, I had no idea that you were over weight at one time and cannot picture your description of yourself as it comes nowhere to matching the women I know today, a joyful and beautiful woman.
You do not have to imagine Fiona – have a look here: http://bit.ly/1ByWlIT. It is my “before & after Universal Medicine”-story on unimedliving.com with pictures. As all the other lovely people who are sharing here their changes, it is a good reflection of a transformation.
It truly is an amazing transformation Sandra, your sparkly and beautiful essence so there for all to see. I hope to meet you one day in person.
Yey! Truly met by Serge Benhayon, now truly meeting us. Hello Sandra!
Our beauty is back! And Serge reminds us that it never left us – we just did our best to hide it.
Yes Leonne, we have done our best to hide who we truly are. But something so very beautiful cannot be hidden forever, no matter how much we try. Our love is and always has been greater than anything else.
And no physical beauty can even begin to compare to the true beauty that can be felt inside us all.
I love that Leonne! 💗
Beautifully said Leonne!
Yes Leonne – and here lys the pain of it. We invested so much on effort to hide…and it was all hurting us and others. To take my responsibility here seems hard from the place I’ve started. But just startet to take true responsibility I realized: it is a blessing to do so and …a joy : ). I have the responsibility to accept and express divine BEAUTY and LOVE – and now I have the choice: do I react on my past choices (the hurt) and so go on with this or do I embrace what I am and bless all with learning to expressing it.
I know this story all too well Sandra. Thank you for reminding me that my expression is for all. I find it much easier to come out of my contraction when I connect to the fact that expressing my love and beauty is actually my responsibility not my right.
Yes – we can never leave something we already are; we simply choose to not express it.
Sandra, I can really relate to the changes you have made in your life since meeting Serge Benhayon. He sees us for who we truly are and then we get to truly feel this for ourselves and miracles happen!
Thank you Sandra, for your lovely story , very inspiring the changes that take place as a result of a deeper love and connection with our selves.
Hi Sandra
I didn’t have the pleasure of meeting you when you visiting Australia recently but I felt and feel your enormous warmth and depth as a woman. Thank you for sharing your transformation with us all. I also unknowingly (and uncomfortably!) tried the attention seeking to be seen and liked by Serge Benhayon and he completely ignored me. Not so when I engaged with myself in full and stopped making myself less, however!
Looking back, I feel that I was living a shell of myself and completely checked out. Now I am re-learning to commit to life in full and yes it does feel amazing, amazing… your writing has brought into focus what this healing process in fact brings and what I am doing when offering these heaven sent modalities to people as a practitioner.
With love Emma
Wow what a turn around Sandra. From being a bystander and largely putting up with living to truly living life in full. Remarkable but all in a days work for Mr Benhayon from what I have experienced.
So empowering that Serge sees right through our masks and behaviors and sees us for who we truly are. Yes I agree, he is extremely patient for each of us to make our own choices in our own time.
Sandra, you are such a huge inspiration, show yourself fully to the world, we need that!
It is hard to imagine you as you were in the past as when I see you now you are the epitome of life, fun and vitality.
What really resonated with me is when you said ‘I started to study me and the way I was living.’ Getting to really know myself is key!
Yes, the best study I ever started is studying me in the true way with Esoteric Healing.
Well that is a testimonial to Serge Benhayon! You have totally turned your life around just through meeting someone who teaches truth and lives the truth he teaches. It’s amazing that, that is all we really need as human beings – to be reminded of who we are so we stop dwelling in out hurts and issues and being victims to what we all have to experience and that is ‘life’.
Inspiring to read the changes that occurred once you began to reconnect to your inner most and started taking responsibility for the choices you have made. Thanks Sandra.
Thank you for sharing your story Sandra, you’re journey back to you is very beautiful to read and clearly inspiring for all who know and meet you in your new found connection and beauty.
Sandra, I just love your blog. It totally comes from your body. The fact that your journey was possible speaks very very highly of you and of Serge Benhayon.
Beautifully expressed Sandra, you are true testament of living a life with self responsibility, commitment and love. Very inspiring!
And the true beauty of living in this way also inspires others to bring the same deep care to themselves…
Hi Sandra. Thank you for sharing your journey of self discovery with us all.
Thank you Sandra for sharing your experience of coming back to yourself and how you have done this with the help of Universal Medicine. There are so many of us now who are feeling the true benefit of the changes Universal Medicine has helped us to make and I agree with Adam, Universal Medicine deserves to be studied as we are the living testament to the changes that can occur when we make more self loving choices.
Yet another example of the healing power we all have if we but choose to reconnect to our innate beauty; and yet another example of another Universal Medicine student turning her life around by taking responsibility for her own life choices, and making the changes that were needed. I say this, not out of the need to “market” Universal Medicine, but because there is something incredible here about what Universal Medicine offers, that is not owned by Universal Medicine, but is actually freely available to all. Having said that, Universal Medicine deserves to be studied in full for the consistent way in which people who subscribe to the life philosophy it presents are so easily able to turn their lives around – in terms of health, relationships, and commitment to life.
I love this story Sandra! I have always had a conflicting relationship with people. On one hand, I love them and I love to know lots of people, on the other hand I don’t like people and want them to go away. I’ve had this attitude most of my life. It is definitely starting to shift though as I let go of trying to be someone to everyone. I think my main issue was that I felt like I needed to adapt to everyone individually. I remember feeling like a bit of a chamaleon, talking and acting differently depending on who I was with. Perhaps the reason I went through phases of not liking people was when I felt sick of making the effort. Because it absolutely always felt like a chore to meet new people. I never really considered that until right this second actually. AMAZING.
Perhaps my anti-people thing is about avoiding having to be someone I am not. And who I am isn’t enough, and so it’s easier to withdraw and disengage. Well, there you have it. I’ve just unlocked a little piece of the puzzle. HA!
Suffice to say, I’m totally getting over this and am far more welcoming of everyone these days. But I still do have moments where people drive me mad, I’m working on that.
What a beautiful understanding of yourself Elodie. I can relate to this – it is not the avoiding of people per say but avoiding the effort it takes to not be our natural selves and how awful this feels. This behaviour makes sense and may be how we justify the root issue – the tendency to withdraw and disengage in the first place.
Sandra, it is lovely to read of your journey back to finding the true you, and I wholeheartedly endorse where you say “thank you very much Serge Benhayon for inspiring and supporting us…and for your colossal patience” – this has been my experience too.
“I started to study me and the way I was living”. We are so much conditioned to believe that answers to our problems are outside of us but in fact they are within. Beautifully expressed Sandra, thank you for sharing.
I loved your sharing Sandra.
Sandra you blog is truly inspiring, in so many ways. You have shared so much wisdom and truth. It is so true that needing and wanting recognition does not support who we are. When we let go of needing to be identified we can naturally just enJOY who we are. This has been a huge lesson for me also. Your transformation had me smiling with joy as I could feel your power and love shine through as you have re-connected to the truly beauty-full you.
Sandra this is a beautiful blog and very inspirational on so many levels.
Thank you for sharing how your life has changed since meeting Serge Benhayon and for ‘returning to who you truly are’ 😊
Hi Sandra, you share that Serge once said to you: “My joy is to see you returning to who you truly are.” – I feel exactly the same. It is a HUGE joy to witness myself, my husband and others returning to who we truly are ☺ All sorts of seeming monsters as you say (including me) come to the work and turn into the most gorgeous, motivated, loving people as you have described. One day the world will wake up to what is going on here which is both something very, very simple and also a miracle! Here is a link to some before and after photos as you have described.
It’s true Sandra, Serge Benhayon’s “colossal patience”, refusal to pander to our needing and wanting, and his steady love and understanding allows us to break through to responsibility, and discover a wonderful new us and a wonderful new world.
‘I feel really alive and in contact again.’ Thank you Sandra it is beautiful to read your journey back to yourself and how you have re-connected with humanity and are now offering yourself so freely.
Lovely blog Sandra, I smile as I feel your effortless joy in how you live now and how far you’ve come – what a transformation and a celebration.
I enjoyed reading about your re-commitment to life, and that the obvious benefits to your health and well-being are getting you out there as a living, breathing, active member of humanity… in particular because it means we all get to experience how gorgeous and playful you are!
I wanted to read this again today.
What strikes me, as Sandra’s story helps me reflect back, is how very helpless and out of control I used to feel…all of the time….and how being held in such equality and respect and being shown a way of utter accountability by Serge Benhayon, and other Universal Medicine individuals, I have come to understand just how in-the-drivers-seat I am – and I’m making huge strides toward choosing to be how and what I want to be from the guidance of my own heart which I have begun to listen to with both ears!
Sandra, I very much feel the impact of your journey. It is SO familiar! I also cried and cried and cried when I first met Serge Benhayon. I sobbed for having been apart from my heart for so long…I felt utterly seen and loved by him; seen as who I am beneath what I have let myself become (all my issues)… and this opened me to feel myself with love.
I had been sad for years but this crying left me lighter as I had felt who I really am; who I want to come back to.
Like you, “I started to study me and the way I was living. I started developing a life that was and is healing for me and others.” And like you so much has changed in me and my life!
Such a lovely blog Sandra, and like many I have watched you blossom and shine each time you return to the UK, the pictures I have seen of you before Universal Medicine bear no resemblance to the beauty that shines through you now.
‘Colossal patience’ is almost an understatement in relation to Serge Benhayon! I too, played the ‘good student’ seeking approval and recognition, and also went through feelings of being rebuffed by him as so much of my identity was tied up in that…he just doesn’t play ball with that and I love him for it. Yet as I’ve learned over the years of healing myself through Serge’s presentations and workshops, as well as with other incredible Universal Medicine practitioners – being me is the best medicine….And whenever I step away from that, it actually hurts. Just being aware of that is amazing. Being a parent and a teacher too, it resonated very deeply when you wrote of his words: “My joy is to see you (students) returning to who you truly are.” So, here’s to being a forever student returning to being truly ourselves…..thank you, Sandra.
Great blog, Sandra and I agree with Dragana – your eyes get bluer and sparklier every time you visit, reflecting the true changes you are making! How totally empowering it is that Serge does not accept the help which comes from wanting to please and be helpful and yet when you are living from your own wisdom and offer true help, he supports that in any way he can.
Hear, hear Sandra, thanks to Serge Benhayon for his colossal patience.
Sandra, a lovely blog. I first met Serge Benhayon in Vietnam, and he supported me in seeing there was a better way of living one’s life, and in getting away from old patterns that I had used for a great many years. Being loving, tender, and gentle is better than being rigid all the time.
What a beautiful blog Sandra. It has been lovely and inspiring to see the real gorgeous you evolve over the years.
Thank you Sandra, I found you captured superbly in your story how Universal Medicine and meeting Serge Benhayon has changed your life for the better. In many ways it is the interaction with people that is the most profound and special part of living fully each day and being a student of our livingness.
A lovely sharing of your experiences, Sandra, your ‘before and after’ photos are stunning, and it’s so good to read not one word of beating yourself up about the way your life was before you made the choice to self study. I am so glad I have been making those choices too, and opening up myself to others.
Thankyou for what you have shared Sandra … It is amazing to see the joyfull sparkle in people’s eyes as they return more to themselves .. Go all of us xox
I love how you wrote, ‘I started to study me and the way I was living. I started developing a life that was and is healing for me and others,’ Sandra. Becoming ‘students of ourselves’ certainly has been life-changing for me, as it has been for so many other people of all different ages who were facing a wide-ranging selection of health challenges prior to meeting and being inspired by Serge Benhayon and/or the Universal Medicine practitioners. Now we are living, walking, breathing proof of the remarkable differences that result from this form of self-study.
Hear, Hear – what a gorgeous blog.
Thank you Sandra, I really enjoyed reading your blog. I have witnessed the changes of yourself and other students and it is joy to see.
Very inspiring Sandra, thank you for sharing this. To see how you have become more connected to people and to truly living and enjoying life is gorgeous …and yes, those eyes do sparkle more and more each year!
“I feel really alive and in contact again!” This is gorgeous to hear, for anybody regardless of wether they have seen and felt your transformation over the years. To feel alive and in contact with the world is a very healthy way to be and something I think everyone would want to feel for themselves and be a part of too.
What stood out for me in this blog was that Serge Benhayon supports us to be who we really are. The more we are willing to engage and celebrate just being together with others, the more we have confirmation that this is who we truly are, and the neediness that has us wanting to please or seeking that pat on the back for what we have done to feel good, is not there in that moment.
I agree Leigh, the support and love from Serge for us to return to who we are, to stop trying to be something else, and to make changes in regards to our well-being is absolute and unwavering.
Exactly Leigh, Serge Benhayon does not support us in being any role, whatever that may be, but in just being ourselves; he fully meets us, and having met him I can say it feels amazing to be accepted as exactly who I am, without having to be anything other than me.
Thank you for sharing Sandra, I have loved watching you return over the years back to the truly beautiful person that you really are, an inspiration and a shining light for all to see. I’m so glad I know you, and love being part of your extended family.
Awesome, blog Sandra, I love the examples of your experiences, an inspiration to read.
“When I see old pictures of myself or some other students… we look like monsters out of another life with all our worries and experiences on our bodies and face! Now our beauty is back – thank you very much Serge Benhayon for inspiring and supporting us… and for your colossal patience.”
This is SO true, Sandra. And Serge’s patience is SO inspiring. The depth of his unconditional love is unbelievable and a living example of what love truly is and what we are truly capable of.
Sandra you write so clearly, and as I have seen you over the years your love within has grown and can be felt. You stand firm as a woman and as Dragana writes your eyes sparkle more and more x
I second that Jenny. Sandra is an amazing inspiration for the world to see.
Beautiful post Sandra. I see you couple of times a year when you visit England, and on each occasion I observe the blueness of your eyes getting a deeper hue and becoming sparklier and sparklier.
I too once was one of those students who always wanted to sit at the right hand of every teacher – not so with Serge as you say. And how great that this was not supported or encouraged, otherwise we end up like adults running around with umbilical cord still attached and inevitably unable to be ourselves. As much as at the time it felt uncomfortable I would always much rather have it this way – the way it is meant to be.
Thank you Sandra – enjoyed your post very much and how you have been empowered to make changes for yourself, becoming more self aware and honouring the true you.
This is a lovely story Sandra thank you and so true about Serge. Like you, I can relate to the enjoyment towards the study of self and then finding the real beauty that is shinning within – is no comparison to before. Who in their right mind would not want more of that great beauty and aliveness and to develop that further?!
The beauty in this this article is that Sandra began to study herself. It is actually huge to stop and look and listen at your own life and then make choices to change it. To be supported by Universal Medicine as you go through this process, as Sandra said, to bring the beauty back is amazing and so appreciated.
Dear Sandra, thank you for your open and true words, which sound so familiar to me. I have been and will be through and in this with you and us all for this lifetime. Michael (Husband) Thank you Serge, you are inspiration.
How is it that people around the world with different lifestyles and genetic make up are all having similar experiences with their health and wellbeing? And what does that mean in the whole nature and nurture debate… I read your artilce and wonder if there is another element at play that has been ignored until now… the esoteric!
That is a great question Joel – this observation that the benefits of studying with Universal Medicine are being extolled by people of all ages, all around the world.
A great question, JL.
Wonderful Sandra, you have summed it up very well, how Serge will simply ignore us when we want a pat on the back and how he will love us when we are simply being ourselves. I personally have witnessed the true you emerging over the years and have felt graced by your beauty, love and playfulness. Thank you.
I agree with all that you share here Rowena, this is my experience too.
Thank you Sandra. I can relate to lots of what you have written. I also lost 35 kilos, the first 15 kilos were through intense dieting before I met Serge and then it plateaued. The last 20 kilos fell away by themselves without dieting over the last few years since I met Serge.
I also strongly (and cringingly) relate to the bit about wanting recognition and not getting it. It is impossible to play these sort of games with Serge. He meets everyone (the true you) equally and does not engage with the false us. This can be very exposing because most of us identify with the false us (clever, pretty, successful, rich, sick, poor or whatever) as being who we are. However, as you say it is such a freedom to drop all of that.
Sandra I love what you have shared. I too no longer have asthma and I have noticed other students writing that this particular physical symptom has gone, I would imagine this is not the norm, hey isn’t this awesome we are the living proof that our choices make significant differences to our bodies and our lives. Yes thank you very much Serge Benhayon for inspiring us.
What a beautiful post Sandra. I really loved your comment “I feel really alive and in contact again!” – my experience has also been a willingness to be open to life and to people (a gentle work in progress!), and I too am deeply grateful for Serge’s “colossal patience” with us all!
“now our beauty is back” – and this has happened because people are making choices based on deeply caring for themselves and others.
Beautifully said Sandra, thanks. You’ve echoed many peoples experience, certainly mine and many others I know. And yes we also have a good laugh (and groan) over old photos where life’s stresses and our past coping methods are etched on our faces and bodies!
I Love these stories – about the truth of what Universal Medicine shares – and that everyone is making changes for the better, for themselves! Thank you for sharing Sandra, it’s very inspiring.