About Me and Serge Benhayon

by Sandra Schneider, Erftstadt, Germany (English 2nd language)

Serge once said to me: “My joy is to see you (students) returning to who you truly are.”

Well, I can understand that.

I first heard about Serge Benhayon eight years ago. I was sitting in my garden with my partner and our friend Alex, planning our wedding celebration. Alex told us about this guy from Australia he met in England and what he said. I was immediately interested because he spoke about what I had felt my whole life.

When I met Serge the first time I cried, cried, cried. I felt my grief about not being myself for such a long time and I also realised that I felt soooo alone.

I was 35-40 kilos overweight and I had chronic asthma, having to take cortisone every day or die. I felt like I was existing rather than living. So I started to study Esoteric Healing to heal myself.

My relationship with teachers was always good; I was very quick to be ‘the assistant’, very helpful. Not so with Serge Benhayon. I tried my best (I am clever!) to say or do what I thought he wanted so that he liked me, but I felt rebuffed. He ignored me when I wanted his recognition. But he looked right at me and engaged with me when I was letting go of all this ‘wanting’ or ‘needing’, he met me like I had never experienced before in my life. It took time to digest that. I found how much I had identified with being a good student, partner, worker, rebel… whatever – just to have an identity. But being me – who was that?

I started to study me and the way I was living. I started developing a life that was and is healing for me and others.

I had never worked full-time in my life – that felt too much for me; I got sick if I had to work a lot. Now I have 2.5 jobs with a 5-6 day working week and feel great. I love to work. I am really living in and contributing to society now.

I never really trusted other people – I had a few good friends but the rest I did not like or I was not open to have a relationship with them, and I would never talk to strangers. Now I found myself having a lovely conversation with a woman in the supermarket or on the street. I am open to people again and feel part of life!

I believed others were in charge of how I felt and found that if I didn’t take charge of my choices and my life I felt like things happen to me without my input, so I have wanted to control people and every situation. If I was not in control I felt helpless. Now I find that if I take responsibility for myself I can feel me –what is great is that I feel my old choices – which is mostly not so great… and I feel connected to me and others which is back to very great!

The list can go on and on… I lost 35 kilos and don’t have any asthma anymore!!!

But the most important thing to me is I feel really alive and in contact again!

When I see old pictures of myself or some other students… we look like monsters out of another life with all our worries and experiences on our bodies and face! Now our beauty is back – thank you very much Serge Benhayon for inspiring and supporting us… and for your colossal patience.

202 thoughts on “About Me and Serge Benhayon

  1. Your beauty is definitely back Sandra Schneider. The healing that you have gone through by focusing on self-healing first is a glory to us all, as we now have a very beautiful, spunky and sexy woman in the world that is a true inspiration to every single person. A true inspiration as you represent what it means to take responsibility for one’s life by connecting to the real you
    and just being yourself.

  2. A gorgeous blog – thankyou Sandra. And now, three years on you are even more glorious. Your beauty shines through. I love reading about the changes Esoteric students are making in their lives – so inspiring.

      1. I love that comment Sandra “Student of The Livingness did claim her beauty back – New discovery: Taking Responsibility makes us beautiful!”😉Wow, imagine if this was the front page of every newspaper and magazine for women. What a revelation this would be to all of humanity. And I can absolutley atest to the fact the changes in you are truly amazing – you are indeed a very beautifu lwoman and it has been an absolute joy to observe the transformation in you. : ))

  3. I agree with your comment “I found how much I had identified with being a good student, partner, worker, rebel… whatever – just to have an identity. But being me – who was that?” Letting go of the needing to be ‘good’ has been a work in progress for me , but at last I am allowing myself to listen to my body and follow – and trust- what I am feeling. So liberating!

    1. Yes, Serge shows that it is possible to step out of the game even if you played it for a while. That is maybe also the challenge he brings for us (more or less) – that it is possible to change and that it is all in our hands. To step out of the game means also to take full responsibility about our playing before and what it has done to the world and us.

  4. Its been a while since I last read this beautiful out in the open, truthful sharing – and like the last time it went deep within and so much of what you share Sandra I could feel – yes, that was me also. As you questioned yourself “But being me – whose that?” Until Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon came into my life I lived that way of not being really sure of who ‘me’ was. Floundering around with a lot of searching, only to find out no searching is required, or playing games with the many parts I could perform to try and control life – I already have everything that is needed within. Taking back the responsibility of our choices in life. What an amazing gift we can gift ourselves, especially with the amazing support that is offered, unconditionally so.

    1. Thank you Marion. Coming back to my blog today I found a point which I have to correct: Serge is not patience – he is living love. It is the love that make him repeat every teaching and presentation again and again from different angles…no matter how much and often I say or live my “but, but, but” – he is love and it is love what he presents to me. A true inspiration. And I appreciate us all, as we have the same love inside of us – Time to discover with each other. What a lovely journey!

  5. Spot on Sandra. Serge Benhayon has inspired me to discover who I am and it is very revealing all the ways I had devised and chosen to avoid feeling the sadness of missing the infinite love that I am. The joy of finding the love that I am is that I now can feel the love that is equally in all others.

  6. Knowing who we are can seem like quite a daunting experience given how far removed we have become from ourselves. Having hidden ourselves under layer upon layer of ideals and beliefs which are not truly ours, it takes honesty to feel the truth. The beauty is we are never lost or far away and the reconnection can be pretty instantaneous. Building this into our lives with consistency and living this always is what truly sets us, and others, free.

    1. Beautifully expressed Jenny. Your comment allows me to feel that the layers we hide ourselves with are many and that we often stop removing them when we feel ‘better’ without realising that we are still attempting to protect ourselves with the (now thinner) layers. Thank you for reminding me to keep allowing my beauty to be seen and felt.

  7. Incredible Sandra, what an amazing transformation? You lost 35 kilos and don’t have asthma anymore, this is unheard of. You hold the key to true medicine, and this is from making simple choices to living who you truly are, taking responsibility for your life, being open to people and embracing love. You were inspired by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine to live another way, a true way and I have to say it again, amazing transformation Sandra. Thank you for inspiring us all.

  8. “…I started to study me and the way I was living…” In a nutshell, this is Esoteric Medicine. This is the best lesson to take in many ways, as it is the consequence of our choices that play a big part in our health and wellbeing.

  9. Thankyou Sandra, I have enjoyed reading your blog again – you have shared many true miracles with all the changes you have experienced, I’m sure since writing there have been many more. Your quote from Serge Benhayon is lovely “My joy is to see you (students) returning to who you truly are.” I have witnessed the same contentment and joy in Serge supporting people around him to blossom. In a world based on comparison and competition, this in itself offers a wisdom the whole world would benefit from returning to, the joy of truly supporting others and the simplicity love brings back to life.

  10. Yes looking back there have been many who have totally transformed their life both physically and mentally, from some of the wildest or crazy life’s, and all walks of life. We now stand to continue to expand to share what we bring as this is also possible and available to all.

  11. Hi Sandra, your experience with needing attention and to be liked sounds very similar to mine and Serge Benhayon would and does respond to my neediness just how you describe here, which is truly loving and supportive but does not always feel like that at the time. It is in the end our choice to be the joy that we are or not.

  12. Hello Sandra, your transformation from before Universal Medicine to now is remarkable and an awesome reflection you are offering others.

  13. ‘We look like monsters out of another life with all our worries and experiences on our bodies and face!’ It’s amazing how much strain and worry our bodies carry when we are not true to who we are, it’s almost like they morph into different shapes and become something totally different to our true selves.

  14. What you shared about Serge Benhayon ignoring you when you wanted recognition is very interesting. When we are wanting recognition from anyone it acts as a very good repellent. It is our own responsibility to look at why we are wanting recognition – it does not confirm who we are, it merely praises something we have done. What are we identified with?

  15. Wow Sandra, you are living proof of what happens when we let go of what we are not. Seeing you now, there is not a glimpse of any of the choices that previously plagued you. There are so many living miracles living life fully from being inspired by Universal Medicine presentations.

  16. You are a living testimonial that it is possible to re-connect to our true self – we are all already everything but we have to chose to see and feel it.

  17. The power of a true friend is so palpable, someone who truly understands and lets you in without judgement no matter what your choices of way of living are. It is deeply inspiring to read this account as I feel the power of such openness with what I can bring to others too by meeting them in this way.

  18. Sandra Schneider how great to read how much the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine has change the quality of life you are choosing to live. What stood out so clearly in your writing is that from this support you were able to not only go back to work full time but provide more support in your truest form. If this is the result of what you have felt from these teachings then obviously there is something amazing here to share with the world!

  19. Sandra I can relate to the wanting the attention and recognition and not getting it. It’s quite uncomfortable especially when that is a well developed and successfully used skill that you use to get the recordation you’re looking for. But really how else are we supposed to see what our patterns are that don’t offer evolution to ourselves and others.

  20. Thank you Sandra for a great sharing of letting go of the need for acceptance outside of yourself, and coming to accept responsibility for your choices, what a testament your story is to the power of love, loosing all the weight and healing the asthma. The healing power of the love that is within us is truly amazing.

  21. I have known you most of the time you have been a Student of the Livingness Sandra and have been deeply, deeply inspired by your transformation, both physical and the intangible innate qualities of you that were hidden from sight. Now I see the depth of your beauty which you have allowed to shine out for the rest of us to see and feel.

  22. Sandra I only met you after this amazing transformation and find it hard to believe the way you were before…
    thanks for sharing what you have, from where you were, to the way you look and feel today is a true modern-day miracle. From a practitioners point of view, to lose that weight is one thing, but the total turnaround in your health is incredible… THAT needs to be studied and understood and introduces into the healing equation the responsibility we each have to live something that is truly who we are. The body clearly responds accordingly…

  23. Sandra your story and your life is incredible – I would love to read more about it, the changes you’re describing to most people would seem impossible, yet you changed your whole life around in a few years – I think that deserves a book!

  24. The beauty of Serge Benhayon is he asks nothing of you, not to be a certain way, to achieve, to look or act a certain way. He simply allows the space for you to be you.

  25. When I read that Sandra, I realise that there is a dimension of life happening simultaneously and intertwined with our physical reality but mostly we just think of the one world we can detect with our physical eyes. Maybe we consider the inner world to some degree but I feel that the physical life is just the outer crust of something else going on constantly. It’s like what we see with our physical eyes is just the tip of the iceberg. I feel however that what is hidden below the surface can be brought more or less out into the open depending on how much of this metaphysical world we choose to embrace.

  26. I had no idea who I truly am until I learnt how to reconnect with my essence and feel the warmth of my delicate, fragile and loving true self; this inspires me to take responsibility to be all of me and let go of the hurts and protection I was living from and allow the true me the emanate out to the world.

  27. ‘Monsters out of another life’… sadly too true for me also. It is scary looking back but so inspiring to see the profound affect that taking responsibility and making loving choices can have in our lives, not only on our bodies but also in our relationships with people and the world in general. Transformations beyond recognition.

  28. There is no greater joy than feeling the flame of our love rekindled and burning bright for all the world to see. For too long we have lived in ‘solitary confinement’, the dampness and darkness of our chosen prison, while all the while the light that truly guides us is found in the warmth of a heart that never stops loving no matter the multitude of hurts we may pile on top of it.

  29. Thank you Sandra, I really appreciated the opportunity to read about the transformation you have chosen. I absolutely understand Serge’s joy at seeing people return to who they are, it is a truly beautiful thing. I often find myself feeling the full potential of people that cross my path regardless of the way they are choosing to live, to see this potential realised is nothing short of astounding and every time I see someone living true to themselves it reminds me that I have an opportunity to do the same.

  30. ‘I started to study me and the way I was living’. We waste so much effort focusing on the outside world to fill us when our true fulfillment, strength and wisdom lies dormant within.

  31. Thank you Sandra for sharing the amazing changes you have made in your life by choosing to look at how you were living and now by taking responsibility you are feeling the aliveness of being back with you.

  32. Serge Benhayon is a teacher like no other teacher. He does not play the usual teacher games; he does not teach the usual teacher contents; he does not use the usual teacher tactics. He is the world teacher. Unwavering in what he delivers, full of love and understanding.

  33. Everything in this article rings true for me. I experienced the very same and am so eternally grateful that I am again engaged in my life and no longer feel alone, as I too have opened up and have found I really enjoy connecting with people. I never knew just how far away from myself I was before, now though I know I am remembering more of my true nature every day and this experience is priceless.

  34. I don’t think we can ever underestimate the number of choices it takes every single day to make such a massive change in your life, nobody can do it for you and it’s nothing short of inspiring.

  35. Thank you Sandra, beautiful job and well done for making this choice to stand in lead for your life, not from control but connection. That is simply magnificent. Hence you are an inspiration to many people, so it is so good you share.

  36. “I started to study me and the way I was living.” Why is this not our greatest grandest study to know who we are in essence and all that we have lived in our past lives.

    1. I guess because we would not ‘just’ study than life and how to live successfully in the meaning of ‘living together in harmony and love’ but also would have to take full responsibility about every single choice we make… and who should teach us here, as we all have lost this way of being. And now, where a teacher rises who can do this (called Serge Benhayon), because he lives it all, he gets attacked. But in fact it is not him who gets attacked, but the fact that we have to take responsibility.

  37. It is amazing how we can turn our lives around by simply introducing self-love to our daily life and make it our natural way of being. We live with the belief that we always have to strive for more and with this focus on the more we miss out on the volume that is already there.

  38. Everything in life is geared towards recognition and being accepted, so it can feel quite hard when you first meet Serge because he will not pander to any need for recognition. I remember trying to get Serge’s attention in subtle and not so subtle ways but it never worked and after a while it clicked that love does not work this way and like you Sandra…. “It took time to digest that. I found how much I had identified with being a good student, partner, worker, rebel… whatever – just to have an identity. But being me – who was that?”

  39. One of the most bastardised forms of teaching is that of mentorship, which by way of arrangement views the student as less and the teacher as more. Such a relationship never exists with a true teacher and true student, where the teacher is actually someone who just uses the reflection of their living way to allow the student to arise to the understanding that they actually equally have the same potential to live the same. In other words, the teacher does not hold themselves as more because they live a deeper understanding of life than the supposed student, for the teacher equally understands that they are also a student of life themselves, and that is because they understand that in life there is no end point to our understanding of its depth. There is always more to unfold. And thus why you will never see Serge Benhayon allowing a so called student to hold him on a platform, even though they might try. By virtue of his living way, he simply says, “if me, then why not you”, and whilst that may not be received by the aspiring student, it is certainly communicated in his every movement.

  40. Sandra you are a living example of how you can transform when you introduce self-love and self-care into your lives. Your extraordinary journey is deeply inspiring of how we can truly heal and move forward in our lives when we embrace love in every way.

  41. Absolute colossal patience and unending support, as nothing is more difficult than seeing others making choices away from truth, even though they got all the truth inside (aware or unaware). Thank you for sharing your grace with us Sandra. Well done you!

  42. To be met in this way by someone who will not pander to that which is not true within us feels very challenging at first and it exposes very clearly the emotional, needy way of living we have accepted as normal. Thank God for meeting Serge Benhayon and being shown that there is another way to be – letting go of living the lie and returning back to living from truth.
    “He (Serge) ignored me when I wanted his recognition. But he looked right at me and engaged with me when I was letting go of all this ‘wanting’ or ‘needing’, he met me like I had never experienced before in my life”.

  43. It is beautiful to be ‘met’ by Serge Benhayon, ‘he met me like I had never experienced before in my life’, being met for who we truly are, not what we do, is something we all seek.

    1. This is very true Lorraine – we all do seek being met. And so this also highlights the responsibility we all hold, to truly meet each other in the essence of who we are, and not the behaviors or emotions we at times are presenting with.

  44. A gorgeous example of someone who has turned their life around, a living miracle, thank you for sharing Sandra.

  45. Having met you in person I am stunned to read you ever lived anything less than an amazing life because you move and live with such joy and openness now. The way you have turned your life around is miraculous.

  46. “But being me – who was that?” This made me smile as it was a question I too asked when I met Serge Benhayon and listened to presentations. It has been a wonderful experience getting to know the beautiful woman with unbounded love that was within me all along just waiting for me to connect to who I truly am.

  47. Gorgeous – deeply inspiring blog about you and your life since you met Universal Medicine. A profound saying that we are everything already – we just need to come back to by re-connect to all there is within.

  48. “When I met Serge the first time I cried, cried, cried. I felt my grief about not being myself for such a long time and I also realised that I felt soooo alone.” I can so relate to this Sandra, I was also so alone and cried when I met Serge for the first time, the tears just kept coming down my face and I could not stop them. I knew I had met someone of truth.

  49. Don’t we pretty much all go through life choosing to trust either no-one or else just a few people? If we added up how much trust there is in the world between 7 billion humans we would deduce an infinitesimal amount in comparison to what it could or might be. We have all been hurt by a handful of people and because of this we choose to not trust. We need work to restore trust in the world.

  50. You cannot deny the vibrancy, connection and love that emanates from the students of The Way of The Livingness. And in a world where lovelessness, at this point seems, to hold the majority rule, we clearly are the custodians of our future, of how a life lived in connection to love is far more powerful and is what guides us to know what living with true freedom and in Brotherhood is.

  51. On it’s own this article presents a huge change in how one person was living, a drain on themselves and on those around them to now being a true supporter of the community in many ways. There are others like this and the similar story of how they have been supported by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. We can’t just walk over stories like this, people that were seriously down and out to now walking and living a completely different life and there bodies reflecting the same. I read stories like this and always want to know more, see more and it’s great to have people recording parts of their lives in this way. I know if I read this and was in a similar position then this would inspire me to see there is a way out and that I’m not trapped.

  52. The photos of people who choose a way of living that is based on connection with their soul are undeniable. There is a glow that cannot be hidden, and that in itself is proof that living from the inner to the outer works.

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