by Sandra Schneider, Erftstadt, Germany (English 2nd language)
Serge once said to me: “My joy is to see you (students) returning to who you truly are.”
Well, I can understand that.
I first heard about Serge Benhayon eight years ago. I was sitting in my garden with my partner and our friend Alex, planning our wedding celebration. Alex told us about this guy from Australia he met in England and what he said. I was immediately interested because he spoke about what I had felt my whole life.
When I met Serge the first time I cried, cried, cried. I felt my grief about not being myself for such a long time and I also realised that I felt soooo alone.
I was 35-40 kilos overweight and I had chronic asthma, having to take cortisone every day or die. I felt like I was existing rather than living. So I started to study Esoteric Healing to heal myself.
My relationship with teachers was always good; I was very quick to be ‘the assistant’, very helpful. Not so with Serge Benhayon. I tried my best (I am clever!) to say or do what I thought he wanted so that he liked me, but I felt rebuffed. He ignored me when I wanted his recognition. But he looked right at me and engaged with me when I was letting go of all this ‘wanting’ or ‘needing’, he met me like I had never experienced before in my life. It took time to digest that. I found how much I had identified with being a good student, partner, worker, rebel… whatever – just to have an identity. But being me – who was that?
I started to study me and the way I was living. I started developing a life that was and is healing for me and others.
I had never worked full-time in my life – that felt too much for me; I got sick if I had to work a lot. Now I have 2.5 jobs with a 5-6 day working week and feel great. I love to work. I am really living in and contributing to society now.
I never really trusted other people – I had a few good friends but the rest I did not like or I was not open to have a relationship with them, and I would never talk to strangers. Now I found myself having a lovely conversation with a woman in the supermarket or on the street. I am open to people again and feel part of life!
I believed others were in charge of how I felt and found that if I didn’t take charge of my choices and my life I felt like things happen to me without my input, so I have wanted to control people and every situation. If I was not in control I felt helpless. Now I find that if I take responsibility for myself I can feel me –what is great is that I feel my old choices – which is mostly not so great… and I feel connected to me and others which is back to very great!
The list can go on and on… I lost 35 kilos and don’t have any asthma anymore!!!
But the most important thing to me is I feel really alive and in contact again!
When I see old pictures of myself or some other students… we look like monsters out of another life with all our worries and experiences on our bodies and face! Now our beauty is back – thank you very much Serge Benhayon for inspiring and supporting us… and for your colossal patience.
The Truth about Serge Benhayon 
It takes but one in true love to inspire the reawakening of many others, who each then in turn inspire others. Before too long this world will change dramatically as we each take greater responsibility in our lives.
A beautifully honest blog. I know what you mean about looking like monsters. I feel like a monster when I feel myself reacting and behaving in ways that I know are not me. The Way of The Livingness is a way of forever deepening our relationship with who we truly are and in that we clear ourselves of so much and can be a real benefit to society.
Sandra it would be great to read an update of your life now. The way Serge was with you when you were seeking recognition by not acknowledging you, yet very with you when you were simply yourself is very loving. In life we learn to be nice, to pander to others, to “do the right thing”, however love is very different to “nice” in its expression, and as a result it’s very powerful, healing, and confirming to experience.
It is a joy – absolutely – to return to our true self and to see others do so too.
Love takes on a whole new meaning when ones want to recognition is denied. It speaks highly of that fact that we are so much more then the physical and wanting recognition for something we have DONE is a reduction of the majesty – which Serge Benhayon sees and meets in everyone.
The photos of people who choose a way of living that is based on connection with their soul are undeniable. There is a glow that cannot be hidden, and that in itself is proof that living from the inner to the outer works.
On it’s own this article presents a huge change in how one person was living, a drain on themselves and on those around them to now being a true supporter of the community in many ways. There are others like this and the similar story of how they have been supported by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. We can’t just walk over stories like this, people that were seriously down and out to now walking and living a completely different life and there bodies reflecting the same. I read stories like this and always want to know more, see more and it’s great to have people recording parts of their lives in this way. I know if I read this and was in a similar position then this would inspire me to see there is a way out and that I’m not trapped.
You cannot deny the vibrancy, connection and love that emanates from the students of The Way of The Livingness. And in a world where lovelessness, at this point seems, to hold the majority rule, we clearly are the custodians of our future, of how a life lived in connection to love is far more powerful and is what guides us to know what living with true freedom and in Brotherhood is.
I will vouch for all you say here Sandra as you are now one beautiful and very much alive woman!
“But being me – who was that?” This made me smile as it was a question I too asked when I met Serge Benhayon and listened to presentations. It has been a wonderful experience getting to know the beautiful woman with unbounded love that was within me all along just waiting for me to connect to who I truly am.
Having met you in person I am stunned to read you ever lived anything less than an amazing life because you move and live with such joy and openness now. The way you have turned your life around is miraculous.
A gorgeous example of someone who has turned their life around, a living miracle, thank you for sharing Sandra.
It is beautiful to be ‘met’ by Serge Benhayon, ‘he met me like I had never experienced before in my life’, being met for who we truly are, not what we do, is something we all seek.
This is very true Lorraine – we all do seek being met. And so this also highlights the responsibility we all hold, to truly meet each other in the essence of who we are, and not the behaviors or emotions we at times are presenting with.
To be met in this way by someone who will not pander to that which is not true within us feels very challenging at first and it exposes very clearly the emotional, needy way of living we have accepted as normal. Thank God for meeting Serge Benhayon and being shown that there is another way to be – letting go of living the lie and returning back to living from truth.
“He (Serge) ignored me when I wanted his recognition. But he looked right at me and engaged with me when I was letting go of all this ‘wanting’ or ‘needing’, he met me like I had never experienced before in my life”.
Absolute colossal patience and unending support, as nothing is more difficult than seeing others making choices away from truth, even though they got all the truth inside (aware or unaware). Thank you for sharing your grace with us Sandra. Well done you!
Sandra you are a living example of how you can transform when you introduce self-love and self-care into your lives. Your extraordinary journey is deeply inspiring of how we can truly heal and move forward in our lives when we embrace love in every way.
I guess because we would not ‘just’ study than life and how to live successfully in the meaning of ‘living together in harmony and love’ but also would have to take full responsibility about every single choice we make… and who should teach us here, as we all have lost this way of being. And now, where a teacher rises who can do this (called Serge Benhayon), because he lives it all, he gets attacked. But in fact it is not him who gets attacked, but the fact that we have to take responsibility.
It is amazing how we can turn our lives around by simply introducing self-love to our daily life and make it our natural way of being. We live with the belief that we always have to strive for more and with this focus on the more we miss out on the volume that is already there.
So true Esther! Our evolution comes from within because in fact it is nothing than an expansion of what is there already, when we connecting to who we truly are, our divinity.
Thank you Sandra, beautiful job and well done for making this choice to stand in lead for your life, not from control but connection. That is simply magnificent. Hence you are an inspiration to many people, so it is so good you share.
Everything in this article rings true for me. I experienced the very same and am so eternally grateful that I am again engaged in my life and no longer feel alone, as I too have opened up and have found I really enjoy connecting with people. I never knew just how far away from myself I was before, now though I know I am remembering more of my true nature every day and this experience is priceless.
Serge Benhayon is a teacher like no other teacher. He does not play the usual teacher games; he does not teach the usual teacher contents; he does not use the usual teacher tactics. He is the world teacher. Unwavering in what he delivers, full of love and understanding.
‘I started to study me and the way I was living’. We waste so much effort focusing on the outside world to fill us when our true fulfillment, strength and wisdom lies dormant within.
Thank you Sandra, I really appreciated the opportunity to read about the transformation you have chosen. I absolutely understand Serge’s joy at seeing people return to who they are, it is a truly beautiful thing. I often find myself feeling the full potential of people that cross my path regardless of the way they are choosing to live, to see this potential realised is nothing short of astounding and every time I see someone living true to themselves it reminds me that I have an opportunity to do the same.
There is no greater joy than feeling the flame of our love rekindled and burning bright for all the world to see. For too long we have lived in ‘solitary confinement’, the dampness and darkness of our chosen prison, while all the while the light that truly guides us is found in the warmth of a heart that never stops loving no matter the multitude of hurts we may pile on top of it.
The beauty of Serge Benhayon is he asks nothing of you, not to be a certain way, to achieve, to look or act a certain way. He simply allows the space for you to be you.
Dear Sandra,
Thank you for clearly exposing how any neediness is not it. This small drop of wisdom alone has the potential to transform how we live upon our planet.
Sandra your story and your life is incredible – I would love to read more about it, the changes you’re describing to most people would seem impossible, yet you changed your whole life around in a few years – I think that deserves a book!
Sandra I only met you after this amazing transformation and find it hard to believe the way you were before…
thanks for sharing what you have, from where you were, to the way you look and feel today is a true modern-day miracle. From a practitioners point of view, to lose that weight is one thing, but the total turnaround in your health is incredible… THAT needs to be studied and understood and introduces into the healing equation the responsibility we each have to live something that is truly who we are. The body clearly responds accordingly…
I have known you most of the time you have been a Student of the Livingness Sandra and have been deeply, deeply inspired by your transformation, both physical and the intangible innate qualities of you that were hidden from sight. Now I see the depth of your beauty which you have allowed to shine out for the rest of us to see and feel.
Sandra I can relate to the wanting the attention and recognition and not getting it. It’s quite uncomfortable especially when that is a well developed and successfully used skill that you use to get the recordation you’re looking for. But really how else are we supposed to see what our patterns are that don’t offer evolution to ourselves and others.
Sandra Schneider how great to read how much the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine has change the quality of life you are choosing to live. What stood out so clearly in your writing is that from this support you were able to not only go back to work full time but provide more support in your truest form. If this is the result of what you have felt from these teachings then obviously there is something amazing here to share with the world!
The power of a true friend is so palpable, someone who truly understands and lets you in without judgement no matter what your choices of way of living are. It is deeply inspiring to read this account as I feel the power of such openness with what I can bring to others too by meeting them in this way.
You are a living testimonial that it is possible to re-connect to our true self – we are all already everything but we have to chose to see and feel it.
What you shared about Serge Benhayon ignoring you when you wanted recognition is very interesting. When we are wanting recognition from anyone it acts as a very good repellent. It is our own responsibility to look at why we are wanting recognition – it does not confirm who we are, it merely praises something we have done. What are we identified with?
‘We look like monsters out of another life with all our worries and experiences on our bodies and face!’ It’s amazing how much strain and worry our bodies carry when we are not true to who we are, it’s almost like they morph into different shapes and become something totally different to our true selves.
Hello Sandra, your transformation from before Universal Medicine to now is remarkable and an awesome reflection you are offering others.
Hi Sandra, your experience with needing attention and to be liked sounds very similar to mine and Serge Benhayon would and does respond to my neediness just how you describe here, which is truly loving and supportive but does not always feel like that at the time. It is in the end our choice to be the joy that we are or not.
Yes looking back there have been many who have totally transformed their life both physically and mentally, from some of the wildest or crazy life’s, and all walks of life. We now stand to continue to expand to share what we bring as this is also possible and available to all.
Thankyou Sandra, I have enjoyed reading your blog again – you have shared many true miracles with all the changes you have experienced, I’m sure since writing there have been many more. Your quote from Serge Benhayon is lovely “My joy is to see you (students) returning to who you truly are.” I have witnessed the same contentment and joy in Serge supporting people around him to blossom. In a world based on comparison and competition, this in itself offers a wisdom the whole world would benefit from returning to, the joy of truly supporting others and the simplicity love brings back to life.
“…I started to study me and the way I was living…” In a nutshell, this is Esoteric Medicine. This is the best lesson to take in many ways, as it is the consequence of our choices that play a big part in our health and wellbeing.
Incredible Sandra, what an amazing transformation? You lost 35 kilos and don’t have asthma anymore, this is unheard of. You hold the key to true medicine, and this is from making simple choices to living who you truly are, taking responsibility for your life, being open to people and embracing love. You were inspired by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine to live another way, a true way and I have to say it again, amazing transformation Sandra. Thank you for inspiring us all.
Knowing who we are can seem like quite a daunting experience given how far removed we have become from ourselves. Having hidden ourselves under layer upon layer of ideals and beliefs which are not truly ours, it takes honesty to feel the truth. The beauty is we are never lost or far away and the reconnection can be pretty instantaneous. Building this into our lives with consistency and living this always is what truly sets us, and others, free.
Beautifully expressed Jenny. Your comment allows me to feel that the layers we hide ourselves with are many and that we often stop removing them when we feel ‘better’ without realising that we are still attempting to protect ourselves with the (now thinner) layers. Thank you for reminding me to keep allowing my beauty to be seen and felt.
Spot on Sandra. Serge Benhayon has inspired me to discover who I am and it is very revealing all the ways I had devised and chosen to avoid feeling the sadness of missing the infinite love that I am. The joy of finding the love that I am is that I now can feel the love that is equally in all others.
and by that feeling the connection of all of us – I agree Mary, thats deeply lovely! 🙂
I have observed you from afar Sandra and you are a true inspiration to us all.
What a joy that expressing love is contagious from afar 🙂 – or is it that ‘afar’ is an illusion when you are in love…?
Your experience with Serge sounds much the same as mine
Its been a while since I last read this beautiful out in the open, truthful sharing – and like the last time it went deep within and so much of what you share Sandra I could feel – yes, that was me also. As you questioned yourself “But being me – whose that?” Until Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon came into my life I lived that way of not being really sure of who ‘me’ was. Floundering around with a lot of searching, only to find out no searching is required, or playing games with the many parts I could perform to try and control life – I already have everything that is needed within. Taking back the responsibility of our choices in life. What an amazing gift we can gift ourselves, especially with the amazing support that is offered, unconditionally so.
Thank you Marion. Coming back to my blog today I found a point which I have to correct: Serge is not patience – he is living love. It is the love that make him repeat every teaching and presentation again and again from different angles…no matter how much and often I say or live my “but, but, but” – he is love and it is love what he presents to me. A true inspiration. And I appreciate us all, as we have the same love inside of us – Time to discover with each other. What a lovely journey!
Sandra beautifully said, it is lovely how Serge encourages us to be all that we are, and doesn’t entertain or acknowledge the games we play for recognition and acceptance.
Yes, Serge shows that it is possible to step out of the game even if you played it for a while. That is maybe also the challenge he brings for us (more or less) – that it is possible to change and that it is all in our hands. To step out of the game means also to take full responsibility about our playing before and what it has done to the world and us.
It has been a great honour to see over the years how you have grown into the beautiful woman you are, this is very inspiring.
I agree with your comment “I found how much I had identified with being a good student, partner, worker, rebel… whatever – just to have an identity. But being me – who was that?” Letting go of the needing to be ‘good’ has been a work in progress for me , but at last I am allowing myself to listen to my body and follow – and trust- what I am feeling. So liberating!
A gorgeous blog – thankyou Sandra. And now, three years on you are even more glorious. Your beauty shines through. I love reading about the changes Esoteric students are making in their lives – so inspiring.
Yes, we are living miracles! Worth a thousand headlines… like: “Student of The Livingness did claim her beauty back – New discovery: Taking Responsibility makes us beautiful!” 😉
I love that comment Sandra “Student of The Livingness did claim her beauty back – New discovery: Taking Responsibility makes us beautiful!”😉Wow, imagine if this was the front page of every newspaper and magazine for women. What a revelation this would be to all of humanity. And I can absolutley atest to the fact the changes in you are truly amazing – you are indeed a very beautifu lwoman and it has been an absolute joy to observe the transformation in you. : ))
Your beauty is definitely back Sandra Schneider. The healing that you have gone through by focusing on self-healing first is a glory to us all, as we now have a very beautiful, spunky and sexy woman in the world that is a true inspiration to every single person. A true inspiration as you represent what it means to take responsibility for one’s life by connecting to the real you
and just being yourself.
Thank you Shevon for this lovely appreciation. To honor each other and our choices is the foundation of a true, lovely and harmonious community. And so uplifting to all of us. 🙂
When we start taking responsibility for ourselves – and for the choices we are making – then we begin to recommit to life and from there it’s but a small skip and a jump to be engaging in the world as who we truly are. The world gets to see the real you and not the control-freak version that was only ever developed as a protective defence to avoid the possibility of ever being hurt.
This is really inspiring Sandra and yes whilst Serge Benhayon provides the inspiration by his lived way we each have to be prepared to take those steps back to the love that we are.
Sandra you are a living miracle and it is obvious that what Serge Benhayon presents and lives truly works.
There comes a point in ones life where we cannot hold on to the coat tails of someone else, we have to take responsibility but we are not alone, ever. Serge has been a great teachers and role model who has shown me that I am already enough and as you say Sarah has been very patient without an ounce of criticism. In this relationship I have always felt held until I was ready to take the next step. I now know and can feel in my own body I am never alone and that I am held by an all encompassing love that is holding us all equally so.
Sandra, what an amazing transformation. Self love and appreciation is the best diet in the world!
Love your enthusiasm here Anne, and agree – “Self love and appreciation is the best diet in the world!”
It is nothing short of a miracle, how we change with Universal Medicine, Serge Benhayon and the Esoteric Healing modalities. Thanks for sharing your healing with humanity, Sandra.
A miracle it is – or I should say thousand of miracles… Fact is: Students of Universal Medicine are living, proof miracles.
There is much beauty, grace and wisdom revealed here Sandra. Through the Loving reflection of Serge Benhayon, and your commitment to self discovery, you replaced ‘being good’ with being true……being the true amazing glorious you.
Thank you for sharing, it is lovely how trough meeting Serge Benhayon, you were inspired to live your own truth. And truly connect to life again.
Yeah – the one who sees us for what we are in truth is creating a space in which we can remember and let go of the illusions. Being held like this is pure love.
Sandra – thanks for a beautiful snap shot of ‘before’ and ‘after’ life with Universal Medicine. I can well relate to thinking I had to do something to get it right in life but through attending Universal Medicine courses, I have come to understand that being me is the key.
Being Me
Is the Key!
– What a slogan! (and worth a t-shirt imprint)
What a difference it makes when we let go of controlling life and start to be honest about the choices we have made. It’s not easy but it sure does make life a lot simpler.
Wow! Sandra how you have turned your life around. A beautiful honest sharing with us all. When you expressed “I never really trusted other people”, sitting with this for a while realised that I too never trusted others – I would converse with them but only on my terms. Its that control thing and not wanting to get hurt – up go the guards. Realising now I was not trusting me. Since attending the many workshops and presentations with Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon there has been a big turn around in my life. Like you I feel “really alive and in contact again” with the world.
Beautiful what you share with us Marion.
Yes, I never did trust others – and I also found that this was based on my mistrust in me. How should I trust in me? I was the one who chose against my true being to fit in. I did leave the true me and confirmed this choice every day by not expressing what is really going on, not expressing my true feelings. To trust in others I have firstly to learn to trust in me and my choices. This needs a consistency in true, loving choices I can rely on. Thats the way for me. And thats the way which is supported by Serge Benhyon and Universal Medicine.
Thank you Elizabeth. Yes – its like a transforming from a maggot to a butterfly… ; )
I relate to what you say about once taking responsibility for yourself, you get to see and feel the horribleness of all the choices you’ve been making in the past. That’s a tough and bitter pill to swallow, but it really is worth getting through, so that we can finally shed those ‘monsters from another life’ and instead feel the freedom of being back with our true selves. And I wholeheartedly agree – Serge Benhayon has the patience of 1000 saints!
Beautiful Sandra, to hear you through this blog fills me with joy, not just to learn of your amazing life changes you’ve made, but simply because the love you have reconnected to beams through your every word, and out of the page to me, thank you.
It is amazing that we can say, to ourselves that we don’t know how to just be without the need for any identity when naturally simply honouring our bodies and what we feel within shows us exactly who we are and highlights all the time the fact that we are far greater than what we do.
Wow Joshua, thats a firecracker.
Wow Sandra what a transformation since meeting Serge Benhayon and making choices that are loving and true for you. It is a miracle the way your life has changed – your health and well-being has improved and you are now actively engaged in the community. What a power-full and deeply inspiring sharing – thank you.
Yes Anna – my transformed life and many other changing life’s from students of Universal Medicine are presenting that we can forget ‘character’, ‘education’, ‘genes’, ‘psyche’ or ‘culture’ to make responsible for our way of living, our illness and our sadness or what ever. It is all about free will and our choices. People who are choosing the ‘Way of the Livingness’ are living testimonial of this truth. This is maybe challenging for some because it brings it all back to self-responsibility. But hey – our self-responsibility is a treasure chest and not a burden. Its THE X on our treasure map.
There is such a sense of celebration in this blog and in all the comments! Yes, we have all changed this much! Sandra I love the joy and truth in which you write. I too have made a complete turnaround, my process is ongoing but I’m living a life of joy and better health now, that I had given up on (or would not dare dream about). When I came to Universal Medicine, I had no idea about the depths that Serge Benhayon could give humanity. My life is just like yours Sandra, a reflection of what Serge is actually offering everyone – and it works!
What an inspiring transformation Sandra, and today you are the expression of the living love you have re- connected to. Thanks to the grace of meeting Serge Benhayon, who is a constant reflection of the glory you speak of, so many have re-connected to the truth of themselves, very powerful.
Sandra, having only met you in the last couple of years I find it hard to imagine that you wouldn’t talk to strangers – my experience in meeting you is that you are a confident, beautiful women who is open and loving to all. I haven’t watch your transformation but am inspired by who you are today.
So true Sandra, when I look at photos of myself I am so distorted and look nothing like the person I am today. When I show my photo of 10 years ago to people they find it really hard to believe that I once looked like that. Now they see the beautiful,delicate women I am today. Thousands of other people as well have turned around their health and wellbeing all thanks to Serge Benhayon.
It is amazing what can happen form one man simply living his love and truth and from that livingness truly meeting everyone. Being met by Serge Benhayon is being allowed to feel who you truly are, so I can imagine your tears Sandra. And with all the changes you have made since then you are now offering this to all those around you. Beautiful!
A beautiful home coming Sandra – coming home to you – and everyone benefits.
Gorgeous Sandra and so right you are Serge Benhayon does indeed have colossal patience, but he will never walk away from presenting the truth of who we are and that is what is so amazing and loving about him as a man. Thank you for sharing your journey back to you.
Thank you Jade, Sandra and Serge Benhayon. The overwhelming patience and integrity of Serge Benhayon can only be described as absolutely AMAZING. Actually words are at a loss when looking for superlatives to describe the completeness that is delivered by Serge Benhayon.
Thank you Sandra Schneider for this beautiful sharing and thank you for choosing the path of return to the beautiful woman you are.
Sandra, what you have written here, it is like your life and mine are parallels. Every thing you write about I have experienced. And much of my life too was lived without being me, trusting me, knowing me. This is now a reality of the past and even though I know me more than ever before, I am getting to know myself more and more intimately every day. And feeling from deep within that I can only but love what I am rediscovering about myself, feeling in this love that I have much to offer humanity. This is what inspires me and brings joy and purpose to my life in each and every day.
Sandra, I had no idea that you were over weight at one time and cannot picture your description of yourself as it comes nowhere to matching the women I know today, a joyful and beautiful woman.
You do not have to imagine Fiona – have a look here: http://bit.ly/1ByWlIT. It is my “before & after Universal Medicine”-story on unimedliving.com with pictures. As all the other lovely people who are sharing here their changes, it is a good reflection of a transformation.
It truly is an amazing transformation Sandra, your sparkly and beautiful essence so there for all to see. I hope to meet you one day in person.
Yey! Truly met by Serge Benhayon, now truly meeting us. Hello Sandra!
Our beauty is back! And Serge reminds us that it never left us – we just did our best to hide it.
Yes Leonne, we have done our best to hide who we truly are. But something so very beautiful cannot be hidden forever, no matter how much we try. Our love is and always has been greater than anything else.
And no physical beauty can even begin to compare to the true beauty that can be felt inside us all.
I know this story all too well Sandra. Thank you for reminding me that my expression is for all. I find it much easier to come out of my contraction when I connect to the fact that expressing my love and beauty is actually my responsibility not my right.
Sandra, I can really relate to the changes you have made in your life since meeting Serge Benhayon. He sees us for who we truly are and then we get to truly feel this for ourselves and miracles happen!
Hi Sandra
I didn’t have the pleasure of meeting you when you visiting Australia recently but I felt and feel your enormous warmth and depth as a woman. Thank you for sharing your transformation with us all. I also unknowingly (and uncomfortably!) tried the attention seeking to be seen and liked by Serge Benhayon and he completely ignored me. Not so when I engaged with myself in full and stopped making myself less, however!
Looking back, I feel that I was living a shell of myself and completely checked out. Now I am re-learning to commit to life in full and yes it does feel amazing, amazing… your writing has brought into focus what this healing process in fact brings and what I am doing when offering these heaven sent modalities to people as a practitioner.
With love Emma
Wow what a turn around Sandra. From being a bystander and largely putting up with living to truly living life in full. Remarkable but all in a days work for Mr Benhayon from what I have experienced.
So empowering that Serge sees right through our masks and behaviors and sees us for who we truly are. Yes I agree, he is extremely patient for each of us to make our own choices in our own time.
Sandra, you are such a huge inspiration, show yourself fully to the world, we need that!
It is hard to imagine you as you were in the past as when I see you now you are the epitome of life, fun and vitality.
What really resonated with me is when you said ‘I started to study me and the way I was living.’ Getting to really know myself is key!
Yes, the best study I ever started is studying me in the true way with Esoteric Healing.
Well that is a testimonial to Serge Benhayon! You have totally turned your life around just through meeting someone who teaches truth and lives the truth he teaches. It’s amazing that, that is all we really need as human beings – to be reminded of who we are so we stop dwelling in out hurts and issues and being victims to what we all have to experience and that is ‘life’.
Inspiring to read the changes that occurred once you began to reconnect to your inner most and started taking responsibility for the choices you have made. Thanks Sandra.
Thank you for sharing your story Sandra, you’re journey back to you is very beautiful to read and clearly inspiring for all who know and meet you in your new found connection and beauty.
Sandra, I just love your blog. It totally comes from your body. The fact that your journey was possible speaks very very highly of you and of Serge Benhayon.
Beautifully expressed Sandra, you are true testament of living a life with self responsibility, commitment and love. Very inspiring!
Hi Sandra. Thank you for sharing your journey of self discovery with us all.
Thank you Sandra for sharing your experience of coming back to yourself and how you have done this with the help of Universal Medicine. There are so many of us now who are feeling the true benefit of the changes Universal Medicine has helped us to make and I agree with Adam, Universal Medicine deserves to be studied as we are the living testament to the changes that can occur when we make more self loving choices.
I love this story Sandra! I have always had a conflicting relationship with people. On one hand, I love them and I love to know lots of people, on the other hand I don’t like people and want them to go away. I’ve had this attitude most of my life. It is definitely starting to shift though as I let go of trying to be someone to everyone. I think my main issue was that I felt like I needed to adapt to everyone individually. I remember feeling like a bit of a chamaleon, talking and acting differently depending on who I was with. Perhaps the reason I went through phases of not liking people was when I felt sick of making the effort. Because it absolutely always felt like a chore to meet new people. I never really considered that until right this second actually. AMAZING.
Perhaps my anti-people thing is about avoiding having to be someone I am not. And who I am isn’t enough, and so it’s easier to withdraw and disengage. Well, there you have it. I’ve just unlocked a little piece of the puzzle. HA!
Suffice to say, I’m totally getting over this and am far more welcoming of everyone these days. But I still do have moments where people drive me mad, I’m working on that.
What a beautiful understanding of yourself Elodie. I can relate to this – it is not the avoiding of people per say but avoiding the effort it takes to not be our natural selves and how awful this feels. This behaviour makes sense and may be how we justify the root issue – the tendency to withdraw and disengage in the first place.
Sandra, it is lovely to read of your journey back to finding the true you, and I wholeheartedly endorse where you say “thank you very much Serge Benhayon for inspiring and supporting us…and for your colossal patience” – this has been my experience too.
“I started to study me and the way I was living”. We are so much conditioned to believe that answers to our problems are outside of us but in fact they are within. Beautifully expressed Sandra, thank you for sharing.
I loved your sharing Sandra.
Sandra you blog is truly inspiring, in so many ways. You have shared so much wisdom and truth. It is so true that needing and wanting recognition does not support who we are. When we let go of needing to be identified we can naturally just enJOY who we are. This has been a huge lesson for me also. Your transformation had me smiling with joy as I could feel your power and love shine through as you have re-connected to the truly beauty-full you.
Sandra this is a beautiful blog and very inspirational on so many levels.
Thank you for sharing how your life has changed since meeting Serge Benhayon and for ‘returning to who you truly are’ 😊
Hi Sandra, you share that Serge once said to you: “My joy is to see you returning to who you truly are.” – I feel exactly the same. It is a HUGE joy to witness myself, my husband and others returning to who we truly are ☺ All sorts of seeming monsters as you say (including me) come to the work and turn into the most gorgeous, motivated, loving people as you have described. One day the world will wake up to what is going on here which is both something very, very simple and also a miracle! Here is a link to some before and after photos as you have described.
It’s true Sandra, Serge Benhayon’s “colossal patience”, refusal to pander to our needing and wanting, and his steady love and understanding allows us to break through to responsibility, and discover a wonderful new us and a wonderful new world.
‘I feel really alive and in contact again.’ Thank you Sandra it is beautiful to read your journey back to yourself and how you have re-connected with humanity and are now offering yourself so freely.
Lovely blog Sandra, I smile as I feel your effortless joy in how you live now and how far you’ve come – what a transformation and a celebration.
I enjoyed reading about your re-commitment to life, and that the obvious benefits to your health and well-being are getting you out there as a living, breathing, active member of humanity… in particular because it means we all get to experience how gorgeous and playful you are!
That is a great question Joel – this observation that the benefits of studying with Universal Medicine are being extolled by people of all ages, all around the world.
I wanted to read this again today.
What strikes me, as Sandra’s story helps me reflect back, is how very helpless and out of control I used to feel…all of the time….and how being held in such equality and respect and being shown a way of utter accountability by Serge Benhayon, and other Universal Medicine individuals, I have come to understand just how in-the-drivers-seat I am – and I’m making huge strides toward choosing to be how and what I want to be from the guidance of my own heart which I have begun to listen to with both ears!
Sandra, I very much feel the impact of your journey. It is SO familiar! I also cried and cried and cried when I first met Serge Benhayon. I sobbed for having been apart from my heart for so long…I felt utterly seen and loved by him; seen as who I am beneath what I have let myself become (all my issues)… and this opened me to feel myself with love.
I had been sad for years but this crying left me lighter as I had felt who I really am; who I want to come back to.
Like you, “I started to study me and the way I was living. I started developing a life that was and is healing for me and others.” And like you so much has changed in me and my life!
‘Colossal patience’ is almost an understatement in relation to Serge Benhayon! I too, played the ‘good student’ seeking approval and recognition, and also went through feelings of being rebuffed by him as so much of my identity was tied up in that…he just doesn’t play ball with that and I love him for it. Yet as I’ve learned over the years of healing myself through Serge’s presentations and workshops, as well as with other incredible Universal Medicine practitioners – being me is the best medicine….And whenever I step away from that, it actually hurts. Just being aware of that is amazing. Being a parent and a teacher too, it resonated very deeply when you wrote of his words: “My joy is to see you (students) returning to who you truly are.” So, here’s to being a forever student returning to being truly ourselves…..thank you, Sandra.
Great blog, Sandra and I agree with Dragana – your eyes get bluer and sparklier every time you visit, reflecting the true changes you are making! How totally empowering it is that Serge does not accept the help which comes from wanting to please and be helpful and yet when you are living from your own wisdom and offer true help, he supports that in any way he can.
Hear, hear Sandra, thanks to Serge Benhayon for his colossal patience.
Sandra, a lovely blog. I first met Serge Benhayon in Vietnam, and he supported me in seeing there was a better way of living one’s life, and in getting away from old patterns that I had used for a great many years. Being loving, tender, and gentle is better than being rigid all the time.
I agree with all that you share here Rowena, this is my experience too.
What a beautiful blog Sandra. It has been lovely and inspiring to see the real gorgeous you evolve over the years.
Thank you Sandra, I found you captured superbly in your story how Universal Medicine and meeting Serge Benhayon has changed your life for the better. In many ways it is the interaction with people that is the most profound and special part of living fully each day and being a student of our livingness.
A lovely sharing of your experiences, Sandra, your ‘before and after’ photos are stunning, and it’s so good to read not one word of beating yourself up about the way your life was before you made the choice to self study. I am so glad I have been making those choices too, and opening up myself to others.
I love how you wrote, ‘I started to study me and the way I was living. I started developing a life that was and is healing for me and others,’ Sandra. Becoming ‘students of ourselves’ certainly has been life-changing for me, as it has been for so many other people of all different ages who were facing a wide-ranging selection of health challenges prior to meeting and being inspired by Serge Benhayon and/or the Universal Medicine practitioners. Now we are living, walking, breathing proof of the remarkable differences that result from this form of self-study.
Hear, Hear – what a gorgeous blog.
Thank you Sandra, I really enjoyed reading your blog. I have witnessed the changes of yourself and other students and it is joy to see.
Very inspiring Sandra, thank you for sharing this. To see how you have become more connected to people and to truly living and enjoying life is gorgeous …and yes, those eyes do sparkle more and more each year!
“I feel really alive and in contact again!” This is gorgeous to hear, for anybody regardless of wether they have seen and felt your transformation over the years. To feel alive and in contact with the world is a very healthy way to be and something I think everyone would want to feel for themselves and be a part of too.
What stood out for me in this blog was that Serge Benhayon supports us to be who we really are. The more we are willing to engage and celebrate just being together with others, the more we have confirmation that this is who we truly are, and the neediness that has us wanting to please or seeking that pat on the back for what we have done to feel good, is not there in that moment.
I agree Leigh, the support and love from Serge for us to return to who we are, to stop trying to be something else, and to make changes in regards to our well-being is absolute and unwavering.
Exactly Leigh, Serge Benhayon does not support us in being any role, whatever that may be, but in just being ourselves; he fully meets us, and having met him I can say it feels amazing to be accepted as exactly who I am, without having to be anything other than me.
Thank you for sharing Sandra, I have loved watching you return over the years back to the truly beautiful person that you really are, an inspiration and a shining light for all to see. I’m so glad I know you, and love being part of your extended family.
Awesome, blog Sandra, I love the examples of your experiences, an inspiration to read.
“When I see old pictures of myself or some other students… we look like monsters out of another life with all our worries and experiences on our bodies and face! Now our beauty is back – thank you very much Serge Benhayon for inspiring and supporting us… and for your colossal patience.”
This is SO true, Sandra. And Serge’s patience is SO inspiring. The depth of his unconditional love is unbelievable and a living example of what love truly is and what we are truly capable of.
Sandra you write so clearly, and as I have seen you over the years your love within has grown and can be felt. You stand firm as a woman and as Dragana writes your eyes sparkle more and more x
I second that Jenny. Sandra is an amazing inspiration for the world to see.
Beautiful post Sandra. I see you couple of times a year when you visit England, and on each occasion I observe the blueness of your eyes getting a deeper hue and becoming sparklier and sparklier.
I too once was one of those students who always wanted to sit at the right hand of every teacher – not so with Serge as you say. And how great that this was not supported or encouraged, otherwise we end up like adults running around with umbilical cord still attached and inevitably unable to be ourselves. As much as at the time it felt uncomfortable I would always much rather have it this way – the way it is meant to be.