My Road to Freedom

by Kate Maroney, Melbourne, Australia

For the first time in more years than I can remember, I feel like I am free to choose the life that I want.

Up until recently, I had a problem with sugar. It wouldn’t be exaggerating to say that I was addicted to sugar. I was preoccupied throughout the day with when and how I was next going to be able to eat chocolate, cake, biscuits etc.  If I wasn’t thinking about when I would next be able to eat one of these things, I was preoccupied with how much I hated the cycle that I was in. Every time I ate something containing sugar I told myself it would be the last time. That this one would ‘fill up’ the emptiness that I sought relief from and I could move on… but each chocolate, biscuit or cake I ate only made me want more… and more… and more. I actually can’t remember when this cycle started, but it went on for at least 12 years. 

I had tried many times before to ‘give up’ sugar but here is how I finally did it…

With some help from Serge Benhayon and some other amazing people I began to examine why sugar was such an integral part of getting through each day. I came to realise that I was using sugar to try and distract myself from feeling that I wasn’t ‘ok’. Up until that point, I hadn’t felt that I really was ‘ok’. It took some time for me to really feel that not only was I ‘ok’, but so much more than that again.

I discovered that the essence of me is truly amazing, but the way that I had been living for so many years (without caring for myself properly) did not confirm that the incredible light I felt inside me could truly be the essence of me. I remember someone summing it up beautifully for me…. they said that I was seeking sugar because I was ‘missing the sweetness of Kate’. Finding my own sweetness opened up the possibility to not need sugar to enjoy my day, because within me was all the sweetness and beauty I needed.

Once I started believing that I, as well as my body, was worth nurturing, I was able to start choosing to not eat a substance that was harming me. I also started supporting myself in other ways so that I was more readily able to say ‘no’ at the times when I most wanted sugar. I started looking at all the things that were leading to my being exhausted during the day, such as going to bed late and frenetically rushing from one thing to another throughout the day. I also started nurturing my body by doing things gently and with grace – rather than stumbling and clunking through daily tasks.

Now, I don’t even want sugar. People can be eating it all around me and I am not remotely moved to have any myself. My body generally vacillated between feeling buzzy and dull when I was eating sugar, whereas now my body feels a lightness and a stillness that I rarely experienced then.

A ‘bonus’ to my choice to give up sugar is that I now feel an incredible potential within myself. My problem with sugar was the most formidable thing in my life. There are so many basic things that I felt were out of my control because of the lack of control I perceived I had over my ability to not eat sugar. Since giving up sugar, I feel for the first time like I am piloting my own star ship (or plane if aviation is more your thing than space travel), and I really can choose for myself the life that I want to live.

127 thoughts on “My Road to Freedom

  1. We are so trained that everything comes from the outside that we do not even consider that it could be our own sweetness that we are missing and not honouring and living.

  2. I know how strong it can be when we say yes to an addiction whether it be sugar, drugs, alcohol, tv, gambling, anything which takes us away from the love that we are. As soon as we say yes to it I find myself consumed by it, owned by it in a way that I now own it – it gave me something so its entitled to something back. The more I say yes to love the more without trying I do no delve into the distraction and numbing and this comes back to staying with and living what I know is true and honouring this in full. Then nothing gets in my way.

  3. We can often think that ‘giving up’ something like sugar is dull and boring, but nothing can be further from the truth. Having it certainly keeps us dull.

    1. Yes, and we can observe that in little babies and children, they are just content with themselves, but we have made living about life, a life that we have created and thus try to fit in, instead of living our life from this inner contentment and sweetness, because then everything we do will have this sweetness as we do it with our sweet self.

  4. When we are inspired to choose to be more loving and tender with ourselves we start to deepen our awareness and become far more willing to honour how our body is feeling which builds a steady foundation and nurturing quality to our way of living as well as an appreciation of our true worth.

  5. It took me until I was 50 to discover how my addiction to sugar had imprisoned me in a world that was of much lesser quality than the one I could have been living. Once I realised what was behind the craving for sugar, the constant exhaustion and the undealt with emotions, and began to heal them, I was finally on my ‘road to freedom’ and on this road sugar is no longer a needed travelling companion.

  6. Thank you Kate for your beautiful sharing…. I am sure what you highlight is something many of us can relate to. Whilst we may not have a sugar addiction, there are numerous other ways we indulge ourselves, so as to avoid feeling our amazingness and the truth of we truly are.

  7. There seems to be so many ways we seek to quell that feeling of emptiness, and to medicate against the negative beliefs we carry about ourselves. Reconnection to our essence is an amazing experience Kate, being in disconnection is so prolific that behaviours to distract and medicate ourselves are normal in society, like sugar addiction, using alcohol, etc. Living disconnected to our essence is perhaps our normal because there aren’t that many people out there reflecting what it is to live our essence in all our light and amazingness. It’s so natural for children but often we put that down to innocence and expect them to lose it as they grow. But it is definitely natural to live who we truly are within.

  8. People also seek sugar because they do not want to feel their own exhaustion and fullness which they cannot run from feeling all the time. Humanity is dearly paying the price of not choosing to live from their soul the only one thing that can offer a truly glorious and amazing life.

  9. We don’t question enough how it is possible for us to have a very clear and precise sense of what is not serving us, and we say to ourselves I don’t like this behaviour, why do I do this, I am not doing this again etc. Yet there is another part of us that cannot help but seek to sabotage the truth we feel, what we know is best for us, completely dishonouring it. Something I am sure is commonly experienced. The more we focus on connecting to what we feel is true and say yes to honoring this aspect of ourselves the more we confirm and live who we really are.

  10. It is empowering to know that we have a choice to live the life we want to live and it makes sense that the more we truly care and nurture ourselves the more empowered we are to honour our self-worth and express from the true quality of our essence.

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