by Joel L (Australia)
Across my life I have spent time ‘looking for something’. I could not always say what this ‘something’ was and this search has been sporadic, moving from being quite active to ignoring this topic altogether.
Over the past eight years, I have been coming closer to this ‘something’ than ever before. I am sure there is much more to discover, but this something was ME… the real me.
There have been at least six stages of becoming me, and here are the broad brush strokes:
1) Realising there is more to life than just what we see:
I came to this early in life with parents that recognised life is not just about what can be seen; that there is also what can be felt on a subtler level (energetically). They showed me there was merit in understanding, or at the very least not being closed off to, this possibility.
Later in life I studied Natural Therapies, Homeopathy, Reiki, Remedial Therapies and a number of other modalities that all showed an appreciation for this energetic aspect of our being.
I had accepted that having found the concept of energy, this was the hidden part of the puzzle. However, the many and varied therapies I experienced promised so much, yet all I could find as a client and all I could offer as a practitioner was a momentary ‘wow’ or temporary relief. Regardless of this, people would keep coming to me for treatments (even doctors)… My own life was okay but I would not call it joyful – I still had big ups and downs, still felt a sense of struggle through my life.
The ‘something’ was not emerging from the work I was doing, regardless of how dedicated I was. Eventually, I stopped being a practitioner and went off to more traditional forms of employment.
2) Realising that focusing on energy is only the beginning:
After a period of time, comfortable with my career, playing in a band with mates, involved in my kids’ school, I attended (reluctantly) a presentation by Universal Medicine and this guy named Serge Benhayon, who made the suggestion that if everything is energy, everything is because of energy.
It was intriguing to consider the possibility that the energy behind joy may not be the same energy behind anger: the energy behind my thinking I am not any good is not the same energy behind my feeling I am amazing… and so on.
While I said ‘yes’ to this concept almost immediately, I did not fully grasp how deeply true this is. It took me some time to play with this concept and to confirm to myself that maybe there was a different energy behind things. What was most interesting is that I did not end up with a list of different types of energy. There were only two – love, and everything else.
At one point it felt strange to consider why my other studies of energy and healing had felt so true but had not introduced me to such a simple yet profound concept… ‘it’ is not what you do but the energy you do it in – even when you’re dealing with energy!
The Gentle Breath Meditation taught by Universal Medicine, and their workshops, were important parts of this learning, as it gave me some practical tools I could take away and use to develop this awareness.
In the past the teachings were ‘everything is energy’, so just open yourself up to that energy. Now I realise there is a deeper choice.
3) Realising I had a choice:
I began to take responsibility for my life at an energetic level: I chose to ‘feel’ how, or what I was eating, drinking and doing at any given time. Sometimes I would be convinced something was good for me but feel terrible after eating or drinking it. Over time I would test this out to see if the same thing happened.
Through this awareness, I had given myself true choice… to either choose things that are loving, or not. Diet no longer became a regime but a choice to be loving towards myself: exercise was no longer a ‘must do’ but a choice to be loving towards myself. Sometimes I made choices that were unloving (and I still do), but I had a clear point in my body to gauge this by. If I push myself at work to ‘get it done’, I can feel the drain of this, but in the past I would cover up that drain with coffee or sugar. Strangely, the more of these self-loving choices I made, the more I got done.
There are always more areas of my life I can bring more love to, but at the end of the day the ‘love’ I was feeling never said ‘do this or do that’, it just helped me feel the consequence of my choices. I began to realise this personal responsibility was not about removing myself from life and making myself so fragile I couldn’t interact with the world, but rather about how to be MORE of me in every moment.
I used the different esoteric modalities (Esoteric Healing, Chakra-puncture, Esoteric Massage etc.) to help me ‘clean up’ the mess of less supportive choices and build this personal responsibility.
This was when friends and family started to notice I was changing. Some were happy for me to learn this stuff – but not if it meant I would stop drinking alcohol etc. Some felt the change and wanted to know more, others drifted off. Either way, change, real change, was taking place.
What happens with stages 4, 5 and 6… stay tuned for part two.
Part 2: The Six Stages of ‘Becoming Me’ (so far anyway): Part 2
The Truth about Serge Benhayon 
What a super cool blog… stage 1 is enough to change every aspect of life. There is more to the world than just what we see, and everyone knows that. The difference comes when you start seeing the world and life with that knowing that there is much more that what is seen.
“‘it’ is not what you do but the energy you do it in – even when you’re dealing with energy!” This realisation offers a choice and a responsibility for every move you make.
The realisation that we have a choice is an ice-breaker – one that cracks the casing of living in existence and allows us to live in livingness. In other words, knowing that we have the choice between the energy that runs through our body is extremely empowering and sets the tone for every detail of our life.
This is huge Joel, being aware of what we are choosing, and so being able to choose things that are loving or that are not, instead of just thinking we are being loving, ‘Through this awareness, I had given myself true choice… to either choose things that are loving, or not.’
It is very surprising with the modalities I have learnt in the past that never once was I warned about the fact that it is not what you do but the energy you do it in, especially since I practiced Acupuncture, an energy based therapy.
Great writing and sharing Joel, I can relate to many of your realisations.
“I began to take responsibility for my life at an energetic level: I chose to ‘feel’ how, or what I was eating, drinking and doing at any given time.” Super cool. Feeling versus thinking the practical difference between the 2 energies and type of choices that can be made. “Through this awareness, I had given myself true choice… to either choose things that are loving, or not.” – the power within a choice.
“In the past the teachings were ‘everything is energy’, so just open yourself up to that energy.” That is scary and irresponsibly giving your power over to energy without discerning there is obviously an energy that is cunning, deceptive, corrupt, bias, untrustworthy … Universal Medicine teaches this principle to what energies there are and how to discern. I have come across no other organisation that does this.
Loving choices rather than must dos or have tos are sustainable. It’s very powerful to change your way of thinking in this way.
Realising I had a choice in the way my life turned out was both the most rewarding and the most confronting. It meant I had to take action and it was all down to me, but with that there was a reluctance because I could no longer hide behind the comfortable excuses that it was other peoples fault, or it was just the way things were.
One of the most powerful things I have learnt from Universal Medicine presentations is the truth about the 2 different types of energy available to us, knowing this and choosing to live with this awareness is a game changer that allows us to discern and understand so much about life.
I can well relate to many years of searching, and then coming to something very different in meeting Serge Benhayon and the work of Universal Medicine. ‘Real change’ indeed began taking shape in the way I lived my life also, in a way that came from within. Yes, inspired by topics raised at presentations and workshops… but fundamentally, this change came about through having connected to a part of myself I came to realise I had long negated – the essential ‘spark’ of me, the part of me that has always known truth and will ever-know it. Thing was, before meeting Serge Benhayon, I had not come across anyone who walked, lived, breathed and embodied the truth of who we are.
The power of another’s reflection, to inspire and reignite our own essential spark within, that IT may lead the way for us in our lives, is beyond compare…
Joel one of the big things that stands out for me which Universal Medicine has shown me is that no matter what, whether I want to accept it or not, I have always had a choice. And with that knowing that nothing is ever before me that i am already equipped to deal with and so cannot use the excuse that was too hard or life is too hard etc,, we are here to learn to return back to the love we are – no less.
“…..’it’ is not what you do but the energy you do it in …. ” Once this is accepted it changes completely how one perceives and understands the world as the cause of why something is the way it is different. This is a paradigm shift from the generally accepted viewpoint.
I agree Nicola – huge amounts of efforts go into resisting who we are and the awareness we have about life and each other. Dropping the game and re-learning to simply be is a beautiful reawakening.
A great and in-depth reminder that everything is energy. Making life just about the human aspect is a reduction of everything that is, no wonder life does not make sense for many, of course it doesn’t when energy is left out of the equation. Our thoughts, movements, emotions, reactions, feelings, responses, sensations… everything is a by-product of energy first. This is a huge key to navigating and observing life.
There’s the understanding that everything is energy and then there’s the actual honouring and living of that in each moment. And that is very much what I am coming to understand now, and reading your description Joel, of the stages in this is a great reminder. It’s about stepping back and understanding that it’s energy at play always and the end bit the physical is the final part, for ourselves and what we see and feel in others. And with more deepening understanding of this I’m learning to make things less personal and it gives more space for me to actually see what is going on in life and there is so much more to it than the physical.
Honouring and living this in each moment brings a deep and truthful understanding of life.
Joel, this blog is so simple and honest and delivers an understanding that many can greatly benefit from. The concept of actually responding to what we feel is the gift here. For we all feel what hurts and harms us, but knowing we can respond to these feelings and choose to care for ourselves with a deeply caring integrity is the beauty you offer.
I love that through a series of awarenesses you have come to realize the power of taking responsibility for your choices and of being more of yourself in the world… with this as your foundation of how you move through life… any change can only be deeply positive.
Number 1 – I agree Joel, there is definitely something more that is missing from our present understanding of the human body. The reality that there is both an energetic health and a physical health is that missing piece of the puzzle and only when we accept this we will get the true appreciation of the bigger picture and understanding of the root of all disease and illness.
I agree Joel, to know that there is more to life and to consider the energetic aspect of life is a great start, but only when we learn to discern which type of energy runs our body can we actually start to make a choice for love to be the fuel in our life and nothing but love.
Very cool blog Joel – showing exactly that our choices, life, is in our hands and that we have the power to change it, no one else for us. We are here to come back and re-unite to our one and only Soul and life from there best capable as we had done before (previous lifes, ancient times). There is no such thing as outer search and or need once the true inner-search has begun…
I also studied other energetic modalities and meditations before I discovered Universal Medicine. Yes, we got to play with energy and there was at times a wow factor, but never did they make it clear that there were only two energies to play with! One energy is love, which allows me to be me. The other is not love, which actually plays with me, making me think, act and speak in any way other than being the real me.
Joel, you have once again captured so beautifully the very ordinary yet profound path of finding your way back to your true self again. I like the way you appreciated what your parents had offered in the way of understanding there is more to life than meets the eye. Although there wasn’t an understanding that everything is energy in my home, God, reincarnation, spirits etc were accepted and openly discussed as fact. I feel this put me in good stead to at least be open to greater possibilities.
Finding out that there are two sources of energy changed my life completely. It is an ongoing learning discerning the energy I am in as I can so easily deceive myself and usually find this out when I am drained by the ‘doing’ having left the ‘being’ behind by one little override of a message my body has sent me that I have left in the inbox unopened! All a work in progress.
For me this insight was a great realization: “. . . ‘it’ is not what you do but the energy you do it in . . . ” Since I got this deeper understanding I know that I am the only one who is responsible for my life – how beautiful is that!
“Diet no longer became a regime but a choice to be loving towards myself”….this is true what you write here Joel. And very profound and could put the multi billion weight loss industry on its head if more people lived like this. It is truly the only ‘diet’ that truly works – the more loving towards ourselves we are, the less harm we want to do with ourselves and that includes eating foods that do not support our body.
“This was when friends and family started to notice I was changing. Some were happy for me to learn this stuff – but not if it meant I would stop drinking alcohol etc. Some felt the change and wanted to know more, others drifted off. Either way, change, real change, was taking place.” It amazes me how people become concerned when we make more loving choices in our lives and yet see nothing wrong with excessive consumption of alcohol, which in truth is a poison to the body.
Universal Medicine Modalities allows us to connect to that innate love within all of us and to let go and understand that we are not our patterns or abusive behaviours as they are just the result of the imposition of the world that is asking us to look for who we are outside of ourselves never looking within at the glory that we already are.
I too studied Natural Therapies and was caught up in the illusion that I had found the answer not knowing that there was so much more to life than what we see, understanding that there are two different sources of energy to choose from allowed me to discern and feel for myself the truth of what I was involved in and to let go and unlearn that which was not from a true nature.
This is very straight to the point Joel, this is what it’s about it is about knowing everything is energy and thus everything is because of energy, and that we have a conscious choice of what energy we use to live with. That one that keeps us in the struggle of life or the one that makes is truly see what life is about, abundant beauty in everything, reflected in that what we feel within.
It’s often thought that becoming more of our selves is a doing activity, of improving ones life. I love how this article makes it about deepening our awareness and going inwards to discover what we need to support ourselves, based on feelings within and not on what others are doing or what is seen and analysed from the outside.
Understanding that there are 2 types of energy is a complete revelation, absolutely life-transforming and is only one of the many life-transforming teachings that Serge Benhayon presents. To know that we have a choice as to which energy we choose puts the ball back into our court and as a result is so empowering. Not only that it enriches life because we are no longer at the mercy of things or victims of circumstances and this brings a whole new dimension to life.
To realise that we have a choice in everything we do and then take the responsibility that this entails is a huge step and something that needs to be deeply honoured and appreciated.
Beginning to grasp that everything is energy and that the choices we make can either allow the energy of love to flow through us or the energy of all that is not love becomes the default energy gives us the responsibility for how we choose to live. The more we live love the more love there is to live in every movement we make.
To be able to feel changes in our bodies from an increase of sensitivity so that our choice of energy is very clearly reflected in them, is the true instrument of change. We can not identify ourselves as being better and hold some idealised goal of getting anywhere because as we become more sensitivity we see more layers that are not truly who we are and so remain humble and real about what life is about.
This concept of magnification is a big one to understand.. the fact that not just what we do but how we do it, becomes amplification, that makes the next choice easier or harder (whatever it is).
It is simple – the choice to breath our own breath, to be present in all we do and allow love to weave it’s magic through us. I have tried and attended many workshops where alternative therapies were the focus and none of these brought the clear understanding that everything is energy and therefore everything is because of energy and it is the energy we choose to hold and live everyday that is what life is all about. Serge Benhayon was the first person to present this and to support me to claim all that I am as an amazing Human being and to make this my way in life. So simple yet so profound. A Beautiful, clearly articulated movement into the truth – thank you Joel.
‘ ‘it’ is not what you do but the energy you do it in’ and yet we gear ourselves up to be all about the doing rather than the how of what we’re doing. But it’s a palpable thing, this phenomenon. You only need to spend a few moments on a motorway to be able to feel the impact of how different drivers are driving – the maniac, the slow-coach, the cautious one. Everything can be felt, because everything is energy. Once we choose to begin to take responsibility for our relationship with energy, then true change can follow.
Same for me Felixschumacher8, understanding that there are 2 forms of energy that we can choose to run with was a massive revelation for me too.
Great comment Brendan, I find it extremely empowering to know I do have a choice. In the past when I thought I didn’t have a choice in life, I realise that they were times when I had completely given my power away.
I love your blog Joel. Brilliant realisations, inspiring and very relatable the way you’ve presented. I too am in the process of cleaning up my mess and learning to take responsibility.
Joel I love the way you write, an easy to read step by step account of how you came to realise that there is another way of living, I’m looking forward to reading part 2.
Change is coming 😛
I love change, I said bring it on and celebrate change, the world is craving it, humanity needs it and we all are being pulled along regardless, it’s inevitable.
The knowing of energy and the choice we have to be love is a life changing lesson, I can feel this will never leave me and of great support to be myself the rest of my life. It isn’t always easy but well worth the effort, honesty is the key.
Thank you for your thought provoking blog Joel. “I began to realise this personal responsibility was not about removing myself from life and making myself so fragile I couldn’t interact with the world, but rather about how to be MORE of me in every moment.” This is something I realise I have a tendency to want to do believing that I can’t deal with whatever life presents at times so as you say here the key is to be more of me in every moment and also to trust myself in those moments.
Love this account of your unfolding Joel, and particularly your realisation you were in the process of learning how to be MORE of yourself in every moment by making different choices. For me that approach breaks the pattern of trying to always fix myself, which has a completely different energy behind it.
‘I began to realise this personal responsibility was not about removing myself from life and making myself so fragile I couldn’t interact with the world, but rather about how to be MORE of me in every moment.’ That’s what I love about the teachings of Serge Benhayon it is never about removing ourself from life but completely the opposite, we have the responsibility to be in the world with everything that we are. I never knew it could be a joy to live in this way, knowing that life is about energy first and how we can choose love or not love.
Thanks Joel for sharing the beginnings on your life path which I can relate to in many ways. What a shame that we aren’t taught from birth that life is about re-connecting back to who we truly are and that we are all on this journey but that our choices will determine how rough or smooth our travels are.
I really enjoyed reading this Joel L and the blossoming Love and may I say Joy at life and for yourself. Accepting that everything is energy and that everything is as a result of energy (Serge Benhayon) is huge as it does place a greater responsibility on us as to how we live our lives. I have accepted loveless behaviour in myself and from others for so long but as I open up to truly feeling and acknowledging the energy behind things it is clear that there really are only two types of energy – that which is from Love and that which is not from Love. If we are tuned into our bodies and we’re honest – our bodies’ tell us very clearly which is which.
Thank you Joel, for pointing out so simple, clearly and with so much love the unfoldment of becoming your true self again and living a life of truth and love.
I really liked reading this blog because what you describe has been so absolutely life-changing for me. I have been so lost in my life before I learned to understand life energetically through Universal Medicine and suddenly everything began to make sense and I feel so much more complete now!
Thank you for sharing Joel this Part 1 of the different stages of becoming you i’m looking forward to reading Part 2.
“Strangely, the more of these self-loving choices I made, the more I got done.” This is so true and it just shows that our first responsibility is the choice of which energy we are in and the rest will gracefully follow.
Often once we get a sense that there is more at play than the physical, we can get overwhelmed as it seems we are immediately hit with an onslaught of energy that we then have to discern. But this is not so. Firstly, there is no instant onslaught but more a gradual awareness of the constant bombardment of energy that is forever passing through us. Secondly, there is not a vast array of different energies – there is only love and what is not.
Thankyou Joel, this is all very well expressed and a joy to read as per usual. I love the revelation in this line: ‘‘it’ is not what you do but the energy you do it in’. There is a bit of a forehead slap here…for how many of us devote the best part of our lives getting a good amount of ‘things done’ so that we can feel ‘successful’ and ‘worthy’, without pausing for a second to feel and thus discern if the moment that impulsed the movement contained love or not. For if it did not, then all those ‘wondrous’ things that followed thereafter were not so wondrous at all, for they were void of love. Ouch.
Like you Joel I was one of those people that were at ease with the fact of energy and willing to accept that energy could flow and get stuck and stagnate etc.. I was also rather vague and willing to glaze over this without some of the most simple and obvious considerations such as where did the energy behind negative emotions and all of the dark things in the world come from. I was certainly living in an unquestioning fog while believing I was questioning. The shift in my diet and gentle breath meditation combined with the presentations on energetic science by Serge Benhayon have all helped beyond measure to clearly understand there are two energies and the difference can be known through clarity of feeling (clairsentience).
All very important stages thus far Joel, 1, 2 and 3. I notice stage 3 can be a tricky one, as an old way of being is tossed out for a loving way can bring up big resistance in people who would still like to continue with their old way, as is their right of course. The word acceptance comes to mind, for all parties.
That is so true, Suzanne! There are people I know who do not accept that I am a student of Universal Medicine and are very suspicious about all my changes. They want me to stay with the arrangements we were in to be able to keep their comfort. I find it difficult to accept their reactions to my choices as I can feel that they are often born of jealousy.
This is so true Samatha, the level of responsibility available for us to take can be very daunting for some and a revelation for those that choose it. It can be a bottomless pit, where we keep looking for an end point or a huge sense of expansion as we start to realise we don’t have any boundaries to who we truly are.
Thank you for sharing your journey to becoming you Joel is such a relatable way and I love how it all comes down to choosing to be responsible about the energy you are in and the choices that then flow from that. So simple but so profound.
What a great idea Joel, to revise and share the stages for us all to reflect on and learn from.
I had been living with the knowing and practice of energy as a practitioner of energetic based bodywork (shiatsu, oriental, thai and Indian massage) and of yoga practice. Coming to Universal Medicine felt like a huge shift in responsibility. I was instantly shown the depth of understanding and clarity to which I was simply not accessing. There was a huge amount of letting go to be done before I could begin building a true life. I think my family, friends and practitioners at my clinic thought everything was falling apart for me 😉 The true change is starting to shine through now (after 4.5 years).
The fact about the two energies – love, and everything else – was never taught at schools or by any teachers/presenters that I had come across before Universal Medicine. How could it be possible to make a conscious choice without knowing this? This realisation helped me understand the way we have ended up with the state of the world we are currently living now.
Thanks felix for pointing out that it’s really so simple- two different choices. Love or not love.
Awesome Joel. The different esoteric modalities are a great support for the clean up of less supportive choices. Getting rid of the mess helps make room for the good stuff.
I can remember the same reactions from family and friends when, after attending a few workshops with Serge Benhayon, I began to make changes in my life. “Some were happy for me to learn this stuff – but not if it meant I would stop drinking alcohol etc. Some felt the change and wanted to know more, others drifted off.” I think they all were sure it was another passing phase, like my New Age exploration, but eventually they began to realise that this time something was different – and that was the me who was emerging from the many layers of protection, hardness, lack of love, etc that I had built around me over many years, to reveal someone who began to look after herself by making loving choices, whose well being began to improve immeasurably and who was finally beginning to discover a renewed joy of life.
Great article Joel – you clearly articulate the difference between being aware of energy and knowing that there are two types of energy. Like you, before I really came to grips with this fact being aware of energy didn’t not help with understanding the way life is, or why energetic modalities aren’t all equal in what they deliver.
Joel, I love how you’re presented your journey, it’s so clear and simple and I laughed out loud at the truth of your statement ‘‘it’ is not what you do but the energy you do it in – even when you’re dealing with energy!’ – the thing is as you note, and I and many others have experienced many others talk about energy but don’t make the clear distinction between energy, love or not, and the fact that knowing energy is one thing, but actively living and choosing based on that is another. Something I’m learning now daily. And yes it really is not about retreating from the world, it’s about being more truly us in it.
Amazing Joel I was curious to read your blog because to have 6 stages to be me was a wonderful invitation for me. I was immediately drawn to the following words:”‘it’ is not what you do but the energy you do it in . . . !” So this means it is more important how I am when I am doing things and not achieving them!!!! That is great and it feels also not so draining for me – I am a champion in achieving things and so I will give it a go to find out if I am less drained when I am more aware of how I do things.
How to be more of ME in every moment, great reminder Joel. And isn’t it amazing to realize there is always more of us in every moment…..if we choose so.
You’ve presented some great points Joel. Especially the part where focussing on energy is only the beginning… Realising that everything is energy opens up a lot and I, personally, have begun to see things a lot differently and realise that things don’t just ‘happen’ but are a result of a choice I’ve made.
Joel thank you for another thought provoking article. I can relate in the understanding that there is choice in the energy of love and everything that is not love. This has been a game changer for me as it has been for you.
Lovely to read about your journey and the changes you experienced. Looking forward to the next three stages.
Beautiful journey Joel. I just love this type of accounts of how things change in someone’s life.
Thanks for sharing the first 3 stages of change in this blog Joel! It wasn’t until I was in my 20’s that I came across the concept that there was an energetic component to life. When I did, it was a no brainer, it was like ‘of course, that makes so much sense about everything I always feel’. Learning that then everything is because of energy also resulted in me following the same step 3 as you – choices, aka responsibility. There’s no one left to blame for anything when you fully understand steps 1 & 2. And the change and ensuing joy that comes from making those choices make it so worthwhile.
I experienced the same process Brooke, only for me this awareness didn’t come until my mid 40’s. Like you, understanding about energy and that there were only 2 sources of this energy made absolute sense, and in filling in all the blanks of everything I’d been looking for previously in an attempt to explain my life. In fact, understanding that “everything is energy and everything is because of energy” (Serge Benhayon) is the ‘only’ thing that makes sense of ‘everything’.
Beautiful Joel, life is all about energy, a fact that is clearer to me each and everyday and the responsibility we have with every choice we make
It is always so great to read about other student’s journey. Looking forward to reading Part 2.
What you said about the love never telling you what to do but just helping you to feel the consequences of your choices is just gorgeous… and then the responsibility lies with us – as you said, we can then either choose things that are loving or not…it really is that simple.
We are only up to step 3 and I can feel that each of these steps is absolutely transformational on their own let alone used in conjunction with each other. Thank you Joel.
Beautifully and clearly expressed Joel. I can relate to much of what you have shared. I love how you say this – ‘I began to realise this personal responsibility was not about removing myself from life and making myself so fragile I couldn’t interact with the world, but rather about how to be MORE of me in every moment.’ Super powerful – thank you. I look forward to reading ‘Part Two’.
I knew that feeling too Joel, of searching for that “something” to make sense of it all. Learning about energy has been huge. I loved the way you described that the answer was not to find an escape from the world, but to come back in with more of the whole you. Thank you.
I first heard Serge Benhayon sharing about ten years ago that “if everything is energy, everything is because of energy”. I too found it revelatory and gained many understandings and still the unfolding continues. Just last week, I glimpsed a whole new level of understanding in relation to what those few words mean to me and to everyday life. Those few words in themselves are enough for a life time of evolution and then to consider that there are well over 1,000 hours of audio recordings of Serge speaking and more happening all the time – the mind boggles and the heart sings.
Awesome analysis of the true seeming difficulties of life, and the simplicity you founded.
Your words Joel: “it’ is not what you do but the energy you do it in” – is the ultimate key here that unlocks everything and offers a different way to living life. And that the energy ‘we do it in’, is either one 2 types – love, or non-love. Simple. Invaluable.
Awesome to feel this Joel and I look forward to reading part 2!
There are always more areas of my life I can bring more love to, but at the end of the day the ‘love’ I was feeling never said ‘do this or do that’, it just helped me feel the consequence of my choices. Exactly, and it is your choice to listen to the consequences or not.
So cool Joel! Loving the breakdown of your process!
Joel I appreciate this simple step approach to developing more awareness. Beautifully and simply put, reflecting back to people the importance of appreciating where they were and where they are now.
It is so clear and simple how you have written out the steps and I can relate to all. It is also beautiful to look back at the steps and appreciate the unfoldments.
Joel, you so simply expressed that it is just a choice, and to be responsible for the choices we make.
A very real and tangible perspective of learning how to build a relationship with yourself Joel. I can’t wait for the rest of the steps.
Thanks Joel.
Contrary to you, I had not been searching for “something” very much, but always felt that something was not right or was missing from the way in which I lived.
Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine enabled me to find the answer myself. What was missing from my life was me.
The journey back to myself since then has brought amazing changes and has made me connect to myself, life and other people again. And this journey will probably continue forever :o)
I have loved reading the first 3 steps Joel. Looking forward to reading the next 3. With all the modalities I have studied (and there have been a few), I was never asked to consider what type of energy. All energies were simply lumped into being energy. A very important point that I first learnt from Universal Medicine was that there are 2 types of energy and it is for us to discern which we are aligning to.
“I began to realise this personal responsibility was not about removing myself from life and making myself so fragile I couldn’t interact with the world, but rather about how to be MORE of me in every moment.” Joel – this is a golden reminder for me to take complete responsibility for the type of ‘me’ I bring to all my interactions with others today.
“There’s love, – and everything else”. No in between. Thank you for an inspirational blog, Joel – it confirms that we all have choices all of the time – to what energy we align to. It puts responsibility on a whole new level. No excuses, really.
Beautiful as always Joel. I love the part at the end where you talk about that what love supports is bringing more of you to the world, not telling you what to do or not to do. I’m constantly reminding myself and my son that love is always with us, we only need choose to allow ourselves to feel it, and share it. It has been so freeing to discover through Universal Medicine that the essence of me is already within, the love is already there, and with gentle steps I’ve been able to, and continue to, let go of the sadness, self-loathing and lack of self-worth that’s been covering it up for many years.
Just like you Joel, I was also looking for something for years and years and I can very much relate to all the stages you have given us already of becoming me again, looking forward reading the next stages.
This is beautifully simple, thank you Joel for giving this simple insight of how we can become ourselves again.
A beautiful concise expression, with real clarity….thank you Joel, this will be an invaluable support to many of us, on our return journey to our true selves.
Brilliantly written Joel. I too got an understanding from Serge Benhayon about the 2 energies in life and that everything comes from one or the other, love or not love. It has brought a whole new way of viewing life and to live from.
I love this Joel. Your explanation of the different energies and how it gives true freedom choice is very, clear, simple and direct.
You have made it so clear, Joel, about the difference between just thinking of energy as one energy, and feeling that energy comes in the form of two energies.That allows us to have choice, and so free-will. I just wish some theologians would read your blog! All the councils of the churches throughout the ages have debated free-will versus predestination, becoming more and more complex in their arguments, and here you have expressed it so simply in a nutshell.
Joel, reading this is magic, thank you. I’ve heard everything is energy many times and know that as you say the energy behind anger is very different to that behind joy for instance. It really is love or not, but when you talk about taking responsibility for the energy we choose, something in that stopped me, I realised that while I’m more aware of the energy I choose, often I will fall into an energy and do the subsequent action falling out of that with the feeling I have no choice; true to a point, but I’ve been staying with the physical choices I’m making and their consequences and not always looking back at the energetic choices I’ve made which led to those, and interestingly enough these have been non-loving choices. It’s the energy behind the choices which is key, and at any moment we can change that energy if we choose. Great to catch and feel and something for me to observe in my day to day life.
‘It’s the energy behind the choices which is key, and at any moment we can change that energy if we choose.’ Thank you Monica and I agree it’s something to be observant about in my day to day life and feel where I am at with it.
Top Part 1 Joel, when I first came to a presentation by Serge Benhayon and he talked about ‘everything is energy and therefore everything is because of energy’, I had no idea of the vast implications of those words. Knowing that everything I did, say or think had two different energies behind them, (as you say, love and everything else), it made me realise that I have a great responsibility in my choices. From there, like you, I was able to start making choices that truly supported me and to start to be the real ‘me’.
I agree Tim, is is a concept that is so easily agreed to but then to live its truth, life gets turned upside down and inside out and then you find upside down and inside out is the truth of life and it was how I lived that was actually back to front.
“If I push myself at work to ‘get it done’, I can feel the drain of this, but in the past I would cover up that drain with coffee or sugar.” Yes, Joel, I did the same, it’s great to appreciate how far we have come.
Love the first three stages which reflect so much of what I experienced, so onto stage 4!
I agree Joel it was a complete revelation to me too that there might be more than one type of energy and that we just might have a choice or a say in what energy we allowed to enter and flow through our bodies. Previously I had just thought things happened to me and I did not have a choice in everything. This choice is the ultimate responsibility and the ultimate self – empowerment.
I love the fact that the things that I perceived as negative, are the things which bring healing when I look at them closer i.e my right shoulder started to hurt when I was 16 at my very first job and continued most days, until I learnt through Universal Medicine how I harden my body in reaction or by pushing – I blamed work over and over but my body was showing me all along that, it was how I was at work and not the work itself.
Universal Medicine have helped me to to be much more aware and discerning of different types of energy and that just because something calls itself energy-based doesn’t mean it is of a healing energy… Thanks Joel, I’m off to read part 2.
Joel I love the point about the fact we have a choice – it seems so simple but in fact it was never clearly presented to me as I grew up that everything in my life, in everything I felt and did or did not do: I had a choice. This meant I had little to no self responsibility previously for my actions and behaviours. I was just getting carried along with everyone else and doing what everyone else did, until I learnt through Universal Medicine that every single thing in our lives we have chosen and we always have the choice of what is next. Then I could begin to stand up and say no to things I began to see were not loving or supportive, and yes to things that were. So simple – yet so revelatory.
It is such a common theme to look for ‘something’. I’ve noticed so many of us have this feeling that life isn’t ‘it’, that there is ‘something else’ but don’t know what, or what they have just doesn’t quite explain it. Getting to know myself and being able to accept that I am actually ‘it’, and that there is nothing outside of me to look for, is a big revelation but feels normal – like I always knew that. The ‘revelation’ is so simply presented by Universal Medicine, everything is energy, including ourselves, we just have to get back to the ‘real me’ by making everyday loving choices. It’s great to read the practical processes you go through and continue to go through.
Often my mind has made the word ‘responsibility’ into something to avoid or that it is this huge, mountainous subject. As I start to feel more I am becoming aware of just how much I avoid it when really, as you have so brilliantly presented, it is just a simple case of choosing to feel more me in everyday life. Thank you.
Thank you Joel. Your analysis is very interesting and also fun. The fact that your parents were not “closed off” to the idea of feeling as well as seeing, is, I think significant.
Thanks Joel, I can certainly relate to steps 1-3 and look forward to reading the rest. This account of your deepening awareness about energy and realisation of the choice we have in every moment, is really accessible for anyone to read.
I love this Joel. You write with a profound wisdom and sense of responsibility but it’s playful and light at the same time! Welcome home – coming back to the real you.
Joel, I love this, the way you lay it out so clearly and how you write and describe it. As you say there are 2 energies, love and everything else, and then it’s about what I choose and knowing that I have a choice. Fantastic piece.
Great writing and sharing Joel, I can relate to many of your realisations.
Thanks Joel for the journey so far, I can relate to your experiences and has brought back the ‘you have changed’ comments from people around me. The change in me was slow but steady. I was on the bus back to me and all the others saw was me on a bus and watched me driving by.
I love this blog Joel, easy and simple to read. Everything you have written I can relate too and I look forward to part 2.
Love it Joel. I am also looking forward to the next posting. You could have eked this out as a six part blog series with a hook at the end of each part!
Beautifully laid out Joel – I can relate to this very much. Thank you.
This is a great account of what many of us have experienced in some form or another, Joel. I’m looking forward to stages 4, 5 and 6.