by Leonne Sharkey, Compliance Coordinator, Brisbane, Queensland, Australia
About 8 years ago I wrote on an online profile that I wanted to “change the world”. I had no idea what this meant but I was trying to write a profile from the heart and I knew it was something I wanted to do. Of course “changing the world” always meant “for the better” and I wanted it to be in a huge, powerful, earth shattering and awesome way.
Unfortunately, I think my attempts to express this came off a bit ‘beauty pageant–like’, because when people asked exactly how I wanted to change the world… I was stumped! I had no idea, I just knew the world seemed messed up and I wanted to fix it… How embarrassing!
I had so many grand ideas: volunteering in a third world country perhaps, volunteering at home, or helping the homeless? I gave some of these ideas a shot but they weren’t what I was looking for. The world was still a mess – I was still a mess! If one more homeless person had dinner that day, was anything really changing? How could I really support another person if I was not supporting myself? How could I show that life could be full of love and joy when that was not my experience?
About two and a half years ago, as I lay in my bed I was overcome by an overwhelming desire to know the true purpose of my life. This question had been burning in me for as long as I could remember and it had come to the point where I could not go on a moment longer without knowing the answer. I guess you could say I prayed. I put it out there that I was willing to know why I was here on earth, and I was willing to do whatever it took to fulfill a promise I knew I had made, but forgotten.
Within the next week I was given a card for a Universal Medicine (UniMed) practitioner. I had a feeling that this was part of the answer to my call for the truth, but I was a little fearful of facing up to this (now it had shown itself to me). I had a big overseas holiday planned to celebrate my 30th birthday and decided I would make the appointment when I got back.
I went on my holiday and visited exotic locations including Hawaii, New York and Las Vegas. I went for it, determined to have the holiday of a lifetime and let my hair down. But things did not go according to plan: sure I had a great time and some great Facebook pictures to prove it, however, what the pictures didn’t show was that I felt more empty than ever; travelling, partying, shopping and living it up were clearly not the answer. I now had firsthand proof and it was a bitter pill to swallow.
Upon my return I had my first Chakra-puncture session and immediately I felt that something important had happened, even though nothing much changed in my life at first. I did notice that I could no longer flog myself at the gym though… hmmm. Over the coming months, as more truth was revealed to me through Serge Benhayon’s amazing books, and with the loving support of several UniMed practitioners, I began to make more loving choices for myself and bring more true joy into my life. I began to start changing myself, and as I started to do this I started to see that the changes I was making for myself had begun to change the lives of the people around me.
The change that I have brought to myself and others has been subtle in many ways, and I have made many, many mistakes along the way – old habits sometimes die very hard, and I had 30 years of emotional self-flagellation to re-imprint. However, as I started to let go of the harsh judgment I had heaped upon myself, I was also able to let go of the way I judged others and become much more allowing and accepting of the way other people choose to be. My relationships with others – which I had always felt were strong, loving and honest – began to deepen in a way that often shocked me. I was amazed at the beauty and honesty I was able to uncover and develop with friends and family, by simply and truly listening to what they had to say and expressing from my heart.
I also started to speak up more when something felt wrong to me. On one occasion I told someone that something they had said had hurt me. This person initially reacted very badly to what I expressed and was nothing short of furious with me for weeks – if looks could kill I would have been dead many times over. I was walking on eggshells; a little freaked out by what I had started, but I had an unshakeable feeling that I had done something true in a loving way despite the consequences I was experiencing. Over the next few days I began to notice that this person’s behaviour began to change with everyone they interacted with; the people around this person who had also been harsh also began to soften. Although there was still a lot of anger directed at me by the person I had confronted, overall, things felt so much better for me and everyone else they interacted with… I was starting to feel and see the change I was making in the world.
I began to treat my body in a more loving way, exercising gently, breathing gently and giving up any substance that I felt was causing harm to my body and made me feel sick, including caffeine and alcohol.
Funnily enough, I was not able to feel the entire harming effect that certain foods and drinks had on me until I stopped having them. I didn’t really think I reacted to foods before, but I felt tired all the time and got sick almost every 2-3 weeks with viruses and colds. I discussed these issues with a practitioner one day; they suggested giving up gluten and dairy as an experiment and seeing for myself if this had any effect on my energy levels. I was amazed how different I felt when I did not eat these foods! I felt much lighter and more vital. If I caved in to a craving after abstaining from something for a while, I would often have such a bad reaction to it that stopping myself the next time became easy.
I have begun to change the world. Many people may not notice, but I know everyone I meet in my life is affected. I am bringing a level of honesty to my relationships that can be beautiful and/or confronting. I am living in a way that shows a dedication to treating myself lovingly that can be beautiful and/or confronting, and I am able to sit back and allow others to choose whether they find me and the way I live beautiful and/or confronting.
I now live in a loving way; I am more open, I express from my heart and I experience joy on a daily basis. It is not always easy, it is not always fun; but I am changing the world and the changes I am making are huge, powerful, earth shattering and awesome.