by Nicole Serafin, Age 40, Tintenbar, NSW
I had never really bothered to stop and ponder on what it was that I was here for, nor how it was that I should treat and relate to the body which I had chosen to arrive here in. I was born, I lived, I partied, often way harder than what my body could really cope with and so the roundabout went.
My uncle used to have a saying, and excuse some of the language…“you eat, you shit and you die”. The older that I got the more this became a reality.
Or was this the reality?
In one way, yes it was, but it felt like a false sense of reality: a reality that if I chose to live in such a way of pure existence and nothing else – then yes, that was life… A life where I got up and went on automatic pilot, going through the process of the day but never really bothering to stop and consider why we did what we did, and if what we were doing was actually right for us, or anyone else.
I began to ponder on the fact that maybe, just maybe, there was more to life and that I was here for a purpose; that there had to be more.
As I considered the possibility of coming back again after I had died to do it all again, it began to feel quite real. “Oh, my god”, I would think to myself, “I don’t want to come back and do this all over again… I could not possibly do it again!” Yet if I felt like this, then what was the quality of my life? And if my life was so amazing, why wouldn’t I want to come back and do it all over again?
With this thought I began to look at life and the way I was living. I began to ask myself some questions…
- You know that feeling of what we call Deja Vu, the feeling that you have been somewhere before, met that person before, or done that before…? Could it be that this feeling is true, because you have?
- Could it be that there is a bigger picture, a plan that if you so dare to ponder, greater than we have ever imagined?
- Could it be that we are able to make more of an impact on the world and the society in which we live, if only we dare to stop and consider that there may be more – that we may be more… even if it is only for a second, and allow ourselves to feel all of these things that we so often feel – but choose to push aside and ignore? To allow ourselves to begin to choose those inner feelings and to choose to live a life filled with honesty, truth and love?
When I came across and began to attend Universal Medicine presentations, and courses and sessions with Serge Benhayon, all that I had been feeling not only about life but also myself, began to make even more sense. Everything that I heard and felt was just confirming what I had already been feeling: the fact that there was more to life, that I was here for a purpose, and that there was a bigger picture and that it was not just all about me.
I began to look at how I was living, to make changes in my life, in order that ‘when’ and ‘if’ I did come back, there would be a foundation that I had created that I would want to come back to. And not one that left me thinking, “Oh, no, not again…”.
I now have an opportunity to live in a way that at the end of the day I am not exhausted, and that I actually look forward to getting up in the mornings, without dreading what lies ahead for the day. To enjoy living the simplicity of my life rather than living in the overwhelm of the life that goes on around me.
I have to thank Serge Benhayon, his family and Universal Medicine for being the inspiration for all that I am and all that I have. I now have a life that I look forward to coming back to – a life that I can continue to build and work on in a way that is supportive of everyone and everything.