by Josh Campbell, IT student and a student of life in general, Tauranga, New Zealand
I have no super-amazing story of Serge Benhayon saving me from my pain or my discomfort in life, but rather a simple one of me realising in myself that what he presents is truth. This was not because I had to believe it or try to live a life by idolising the way he lives his, but rather because I could actually feel deep within me that what he said was also a truth for me. This was because I could really experience it for myself by feeling it within me too.
Long before I came across the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine (through hearing about it from my parents), I was living a heavy emotional life – full of stress, anger, frustration, the odd spurt of happiness (which never really lasted), and the odd combination of other emotions from time to time. This, for me, was my experience of ‘feeling’ things. To me, at this time, a feeling was an emotion.
At this stage of my life I was also heavily embedded in the Catholic faith. Despite many obvious inconsistencies with the belief system of this religion, I continued being a devoted Catholic who always tried to get to church every Sunday.
When I first heard the name, Serge Benhayon, it was on my parents’ audio system about 4 years ago. My first thought was “man, my parents are going insane, first playing this weird music from Chris James and now listening to this!” This thought was confirmed when I first went to a workshop of Chris James’ with my parents where I was told to ‘feel the music’. Chris would then ask everyone how they felt about it, and most would respond and say that it was lovely, or gentle, or they could feel it in their lungs or something to that effect. What?! To me a ‘feeling’ was an ‘emotion’, and an emotion was just that. There was no ‘feeling’ into your organs or ‘feeling’ that it was lovely or gentle. Soft was the best I could do, and Love was something you gave to God or your girlfriend (not that I had one at that stage).
It was not long after that when I realised all of what I was hearing from Serge Benhayon, my parents, and Chris James was actually true. You can feel your body. You can feel love in it… and you certainly can feel much more than emotions. I realised emotions were on the surface. A true feeling in the body was much much deeper. This was a truth for me, not because I heard it from Serge or my parents or Chris, but because I actually experienced it in my own body.
These feelings could actually tell you more than just whether something was true or not. They have a quality to them that enables everyone to be able to know much much more about something than the standard intellectual can fathom. This quality enables us to find out what the quality of energy is behind an action, thought or word. These qualities can be lovelessness or love (prana or fire). When I realised this for myself I realised there was much much more to this world than we currently are allowing ourselves to know. I have come to realise through my own experiences, the fact that children feel much much more than just emotions… in fact to them, they don’t know emotions, only true feelings of love or lovelessness.
Feeling (which, by the way, is something that everyone does every moment of every day – just not realising or honouring of it) into the feelings that I felt as a child of 3 years; “Why is it that? Why not THIS?” was the statement I was asking myself regularly. As a child I felt (as do all children of that age) the energies of life. This meant that I could walk into a house and not have to know the people in it, but I could FEEL THEM. The absurd thing is that, as a child, you DO NOT even THINK of questioning these feelings, you just know that they are true. Young children at this age, for instance, will tell their parents that they feel discomfort in their shoe because there is something in it, like a stone. They do this because at this age they just know by feeling, that that discomfort is not true and need not be there. A child is never taught in any way what is right or wrong: they just know that something like a stone in a shoe is just not right.
YET how is it that even two years past this age the child actually begins to question these feelings to the point that they will actually be prepared to walk around and put up with the discomfort which they just knew two years ago was not right or supposed to be there?
At what point does a child, who will not even think of questioning these natural feelings, actually begin to question them and start living a life of much less sense than that which they had as a wee child?
If everything is energy, then everything (from the smallest bacterium to the stone that is in the child’s shoe) must be because of energy. This means that the loss of the natural way of being of a child can be explained by the science of energies, especially because the child can feel energies and thus will respond to them on a greater level than the contracted human mind can understand.
We all know that a child looks to its parents for guidance and support, but if a child sees the world differently to how the parent thinks it sees the world, is it possible that they may see the things we think are part of ‘good’ parenting differently to how we think they see them?
Could this explain a little bit more of why an innocent child develops into an adult with behaviours that are anything but innocent?
Is it possible, that to a child who has come into the world fresh with true innocence and all they want is LOVE, that ANGER feels like a drop of poison?
Love is therefore not an emotion or some ideal or ultimate form of expression to someone. Love is an energy. If all is energy, then everything must be because of energy. The problem is, science already knows this but chooses to make it a point of study rather than a truth they live in their everyday lives.
If everything is energy, is it possible that there may be two types of energy: love and a lovelessness? If everything in society was founded on the energy of lovelessness, then is it not possible that people lose a foundation or a mark of what true love is because they would have not felt or lived such an energy enough to know the difference? If God is love, then God must be then the energy of love. If we all come from love, then how wayward have we become as a race of beings if the grandness that we are actually from can at best be intellectualised by many, but is never actually lived?
This is all that Serge Benhayon’s teachings are about: bringing the energy of love into our everyday living so we can start to return to living the truth and full grandness we are all equally from. It can be at times very difficult to see that what Serge is presenting is all about the grandness we all truly are, when the teachings do rock the very foundations of lovelessness many have built their lives upon. This can be why Serge’s teachings appear very challenging. Serge is never showing you that you are not love, but rather he is forever teaching about the love we are all truly, from showing each one of us who we are not and therefore helping present a picture of who we truly are.