I was 9 Years Old when my Family joined a Real Cult

I find it absolutely ridiculous that sections of the media are calling Universal Medicine a cult and Serge Benhayon a cult leader – how far away are they from the reality of who Serge is, and how Universal Medicine contributes to society?

When I was nine years old my family joined a cult my uncle started. My uncle (the cult leader) was a well known and respected medical doctor practising in Melbourne who decided his time would be better spent inciting fear, intimidation and paranoia amongst a group of people who were lost and searching for an escape from life. When I reflect on this time it brings up such feelings of paralysing fear, debilitating confusion and total lack of self – this is true abuse. I remember my uncle used to say he was higher up than Jesus.

Through my nine year-old eyes I remember observing this fat, white-haired man, who felt so angry and intimidating, and thinking – Jesus represents LOVE and this man is so far from LOVE, so what is he really representing? Unfortunately, I felt my parents would not listen to my view so I never expressed it, but with hindsight I know now I felt the truth while my parents did not.

I spent my weeknights and weekends going to these strange meetings with my parents and younger brothers where we observed chanting, meditation and the channelling of energy. My brothers and I were encouraged to join in the meditation and I clearly remember feeling it was bizarre. I was meant to stare into the light of a candle and go into the ‘white light’, and while my uncle chanted something, I was meant to lose myself. I watched a lady go into a trance and become a totally different person – it was truly frightening and felt so unnatural. I knew I did not want to experience that ever, but I lived in paralysing fear that it would happen. This is when the nightmares started, and an eerie feeling of spirits being around while I went to sleep.

Along with the paralysing fear, there was the harsh judgment of the outside world and exclusion from people I had known. Although I was still allowed to live at home and go to my Catholic school, I was told everyone else was evil and to stay away or I would be influenced and become evil too. The tragic thing was that when I looked outside the cult group there were so many people in the real world who I truly loved, and I felt loved me. I remember not being allowed to see my grandmother, who I loved dearly, because she was “absolute evil” and an “energy sucker” and I had to protect myself from her. This was devastating.

There were also predictions that the world was going to end and some people, i.e. the cult members, would get to move on to another world, and everyone else would just cease to exist because they were like robots – he called them “non-permanent atom beings” – catchy, isn’t it? The most hilarious thing was that every time my uncle predicted a date, nothing would happen. He would then say it was because we weren’t ready, then move it to another date in the future. I can laugh at it now but at the time I was anxious and absolutely terrified: I was too young to die and so confused about why God would want to kill so many people. The thing is, this energy wasn’t from God – it was just the ravings of an empty man. Other people in the group felt this tension also, and I remember a couple in their 70s drove their car off a bridge and died so they didn’t have to wait for the end of the world.

My body began to react to this state of constant terror and unknowing. I started having stomach issues, sleeplessness, and I created bizarre rituals to ensure I was good and got to move on to the new world. I became so controlling of myself and my behaviour – perfection was my new name. I lost my innocence, my freedom to be a child and the feeling that I was good, un-harming and safe. I totally lost the real me.

When I was nearly 11 my uncle moved to America to continue his work, and without his dominating influence my father decided this cult stuff was just too far away from Catholicism for him, so back we went to the Catholic church. We spent the rest of my childhood being devout Catholics – we had so much to repent for in my father’s eyes. I guess he felt like he could sweep away all the harm that was done by going to church every Sunday and having a friendship with our local priest.

So, my reason for expressing the above (apart from it feeling amazing to be so open and exposed), is to illustrate the differences between a real cult and its cult leader, and to critically discern what Universal Medicine is and what Serge Benhayon represents. The following points illustrate the key differences between what I experience now, and what I experienced as a child:

  • Serge Benhayon has never said he is above anyone. It is actually the exact opposite: he always talks about how we are all equal and we are all equally the sons of God. This makes sense to me.
  • There is no fear, no predictions of the world going to end, no channelling or bizarre occurrences – just presentations that are easily applicable to real life and are about being committed to living in the world and fully part of society.
  • There is no judgment of other people’s choices, but an allowing for everyone to choose how their life is for themselves.
  • There is no mandate to avoid people in society, and absolutely no segregation – there is actually the exact opposite.
  • Serge’s presentations are about reconnecting to the love that we all naturally are, healing your stuff and bringing more love, self-nurturing, harmony, stillness and commitment to your life.
  • There are no rules, only the freedom to discern whether or not what Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine present feels true and makes sense to you.
  • If you decide what Serge presents doesn’t make sense to you, there is no judgment; no one follows up on your decisions or intimidates you to conform.

At 37 years of age I am now choosing to be more open to love and to take responsibility for healing all the hurts and patterns I created in my childhood. I have re-connected to my essence, live more simply than ever before, and connect to people with an openness and love that I have not experienced for a long time – and I do all these things without perfection. The most confirming thing for me, is that to reconnect to the love I naturally am, feels like absolute truth in my body.

In a real cult, like the one I experienced as a child, your natural connection with your essence is lost, and there is an enforced mandate to use practices to ensure this disconnection continues; neither are you asked to find your own truth and live it in full. Universal Medicine presents the exact opposite.

By Bianca 

249 thoughts on “I was 9 Years Old when my Family joined a Real Cult

  1. I have never experienced a cult, there must be something people get out of living in a communion, secluded from the world – yep it can get difficult at times: stressful relationships, hard work and all of it, but it is our learning to remain part of this world and engage with it in full. I cannot imagine myself going onto a desert island and secluding myself, I would get bored very very quickly.

  2. The ultimate compare and contrast. What a horrific experience for a child to have and so spiritually and psychologically abusive as to fritz someone’s own radar to such a degree they suicide. That is clearly and simply a socially harmful disempowering group.
    It is ludicrous and beyond that the media continues the worn out lies of Universal Medicine as in any way a cult – which as you so simply show it is the polar opposite of. Universal Medicine (UM) empowers, supports clear self discernment and absolute agency in life. Prior to UM my children attended an ‘alternative’ school seperate and aloof from society, we barely mixed with anyone outside the school circles, and the many dogmas and beliefs were in retrospect stifling and disempowering. It took meeting Serge Benhayon to open my eyes to the possibility I was cloistering my children away from a society I judged and essentially disempowering them to simply have the resources to deal with whatever ‘mainstream’ life might have in store. Thanks to Serge Benhayon I removed my children from the cult like school and they completed their schooling in the regular local state school – our friendship circle diversified hugely – we opened back to life.
    As you say Bianca – the absolute polar opposite of ‘cult’ – UM actually integrated us back into the midst of life and broadened our outlook beyond measure.

  3. Sharing a deep level of Love is such a simple approach to life and to understand how to live in a way that continues to build a deepening level of Love is the most humble and glorious way to expand our lives.

  4. “Inciting fear, intimidation and paranoia amongst a group of people who were lost and searching for an escape from life” – this sounds like how so many products are being marketed and sold these days.

  5. In the cult of creation, the life we have created on this planet, we are lost, we want to conform and fit in, we fear being different and if we step out side of the box, we get slapped down. It is only a world such as this that would call Universal Medicine a cult. The tricks of creation to tar something with the brush of lies and deceit. and controlling.

  6. If it were not for the ‘cult tag’ and the predictable media frenzy that this unsurprisingly stirs up, the brutal attacks on Universal Medicine would be seen for the religious vilification that they are – vilification that happens every day to good people regardless of whether they are part of Universal Medicine or not.

  7. I am sure you could add a lot more to this Bianca given the chance to write more about how Universal Medicine is the antithesis of a cult. The media and other bodies still claim we are but there has not been a true inquiry into Universal Medicine operations and how the student body lives. You would have to ask why this has been the case? Is there some truth to find?

  8. Bianca, I love the raw honesty you share with on your blog. In 10 years of knowing Serge Benhayon he continues to offer the importance of NOT escaping from life, but to live with commitment, purpose and true expression in every way in every day. This is how humanity retrieves and heals its painful separation from the essence of love within – it will never be found seeking outside of ourselves and getting lost in a plethora of distractions to escape from life.
    “My uncle (the cult leader) was a well known and respected medical doctor practising in Melbourne who decided his time would be better spent inciting fear, intimidation and paranoia amongst a group of people who were lost and searching for an escape from life”.

  9. How quickly the use of the word ‘cult’ brings up anxiety or fear in people and societies – the inner voice of truth and discernment is overridden in order to be swept up in the collective energy of judgment and condemnation, without even knowing the people concerned in person. Serge Benhayon is the complete opposite to everything this blog exposes about real cults.

  10. When the word cult is used, it is used to harm and it is used because someone else is actively choosing not to understand the choices of another. This is easy to do when what is said, or what is presented is taken out of context or out of the whole that it is presented it.

    1. With the possible hope that if you throw enough mud some will stick? But when the Loving truth is shared and lived the mud will have absolutely no affect on those who are solid in their Livingness.

  11. There is also the issue around money….there are organisations that are forever asking you or coercing you into giving money to them, trying to persuade you that your families are not good for you and to leave all your money, when you die, to them. Universal Medicine does no such thing, in fact the requests for donations are fare less frequent than many other outfits, including charities, that I have known or know. There are no advertising techniques to try and get you to subscribe or donate either and certainly no cold calling. Universal Medicine, like any decent company or business, leaves you alone to decide for yourself whether you want to support it or not.

  12. In the end we can either discern the energy of what is true or not or choose to ignore or dismiss what we are feeling as it provides some sense of belonging, acceptance or approval.

  13. What I can feel from your account is the imposition of someone’s beliefs in a way that is diminishing of another. In the 16 years of knowing Serge Benhayon, I have not once felt any kind of superiority or knowing better, but rather the consistent message that we all equally have access to the same wisdom…a very different story.

    1. Absolutly right what you‘ve written Janet!
      I have never felt any push or better knowledge from Serge, only a deep understanding and Appreciation!!

  14. Your experience as a child must have been very frightening and from the word go you could feel how this did not feel loving and supportive. Bianca this experience would have given you a clear knowing on what was and what felt true for you and confirmed to you that we feel everything. We simply know what it and isn’t true, even if nothing is said.

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