Depression, Bi-Polar & the Medicinal Qualities of Love & Choice

by Gina, Brisbane, Australia

For many years I have been diagnosed with depression: at one point in my thirties when my behaviours were even more erratic than usual, I was diagnosed with bi-polar. As a human being needing to operate in the world, I have sought medical advice from doctors, psychologists, psychiatrists and counsellors. I have searched into the spiritual world for ways to help my personal angst and I have sought support from friends and family. Earlier in the year, I finally was able to admit to myself that although I have moments where things appear okay, the real truth of it was, at the very best each day was a painful upheaval and struggle, and at the very worst, there was little will to carry on.

A few months ago, I hit rock bottom. All my symptoms escalated, I was not coping and had no will to deal with my day. Life was impossible and I just wanted to check out; it was too painful, too hard. I was shouting a lot, in overwhelm, crying and just wanted to end it all. These symptoms were what had led to my diagnosis of bi-polar a few years previously. I saw my GP regularly at this time, who was very caring and supportive because I was scared. I also saw some practitioners from Universal Medicine (UniMed). All suggested I get on some anti-depressants to support me and give me some space to explore possible causes for these symptoms, which had arisen all my adult life.

I am not a stranger to anti-depressants. I had been on them for many years previously and after the birth of my second child I was on an extremely high dose. So, I went on a moderate dose of the brand I had used before. I was immediately nauseous and couldn’t get to sleep at night; in fact I was unable to get any sleep. Plus I would feel dizzy and disorientated. So I kept returning to my GP who worked with me trying to find a pill that worked. We tried taking, every second day, half a pill of the lowest dose of an anti-depressant that was mild on side-effects. But still I would immediately get all the side-effects I previously described.

So, frightened and still at rock bottom, with medication that seemed to intensify my symptoms (one of the side effects of one pill listed said that suicidal thoughts could occur in the first two weeks), I turned to my Universal Medicine practitioners, who helped me try a different approach. It’s not easy to admit in one’s life that at best it’s bloody awful. But in a loving and caring approach, because they could feel I was ready to hear some hard stuff, they socked it to me… they pointed out that I had turned up for my session and presented my symptoms to them with little will to get on top of them; I hadn’t actually said – “Okay, how do I fix this?”. They pointed out that I was stuck in the story of how my life was extremely tough, blaming events and people – and I wanted to stay there. I was a little affronted at first, to say the least. In fact, to be truthful, I wanted to walk out. But I had nothing to lose because I couldn’t find relief with the anti-depressants. So I continued to listen.

Next, they asked me to contemplate if it could be possible that exhaustion was playing a part in my depression and, more so, was I maybe making choices in my life to create the drama, thereby providing myself with the exhaustion and chaos – which in turn gave me the excuse to go into overwhelm and give up?

I understand, from twenty-five plus years of suffering depression symptoms, along with other family members suffering the same, that there is a lot of research on depression, in particular on the fact that it can be the result of chemical imbalances, which the anti-depressants assist with. I have done a lot of research myself on depression and how people who suffer it lead debilitating lives, with depression being brought on by an onslaught of abuse or tragic incidences (war, hijacking, terrorism, etc).

But this was my personal experience of depression and, as I had not suffered any of these events, I became open to looking at the possibility being presented to me that maybe I was setting up choices in my life to lead to events that would bring on the symptoms. I had to admit that when I fell into a depression cycle, which went deeper and deeper into that black hole as it is often described, it almost felt like a drug, a relief to finally give in, give up and lay in bed. I’ve never taken heroin but it was almost like taking a ‘hit’ of something which I knew wasn’t good for me but boy, did it feel great.

I can tell you, it was pretty painful to even contemplate for one second the possibility that I could be responsible for creating all the pain I’d been through, and had put my family through. But with patience and genuine true love and care, my GP and UniMed practitioners, with zero judgement, held my hand and allowed me the time and space to consider these possibilities more deeply.

About eight years ago, when I was experiencing these extreme symptoms, I was similarly scared and visited a counsellor, psychologist and psychiatrist. Each independently concluded I presented with bi-polar. I immediately became even more scared. In the sessions with them whilst I was pouring out my heart, concerned for mine and my family’s welfare, they didn’t seem to really engage with me or even look at me; they made notes then delivered their diagnosis, writing out a script for anti-depressants. The experience felt cold and unassuring.

I am sure we have all had experiences when things were going bad, life felt hard and you shared it with a friend or family member and suddenly, supported by their sincere concern and listening, it lifted a cloud. They might not have provided a solution, but the love and care somehow fixed some things. This was what my GP provided when I shared my anxieties with her; I cried because I felt her genuine care – this care and talking with her felt like medicine in itself. There are many medical practitioners in the world who naturally present themselves in this caring manner. There are also many who don’t, due to stress, overwork, frustrating medical systems etc. I have no judgement of any of them; however, this time round with my depression I wanted to surround myself with a little bit more cushioning and care. I don’t just align myself to only seeing Universal Medicine health practitioners – that would be foolish. But on occasions I do seek them because I know that I will consistently receive genuine care, love and concern for my symptoms – but neither sympathy nor pandering; this care is part of their work ethos because they feel it can play an important part in the overall care and treatment of the patient. And when you’re dealing with the kind of issues I was dealing with, I felt it was advantageous to share these issues with someone in whose company I felt like I was with family or a friend – someone that cared and who knew me to be more than the mess I was in. As I journeyed through finding a suitable anti-depressant with my GP, I shared with her what I was exploring with my Universal Medicine psychologist practitioners and how it was really helping – she was super supportive of the efforts I was making, praised me for confronting the hard stuff and expressed to me directly that it was great that I was getting “so much support”.

Very gently, I considered my part in my life. Slowly it began to help and make sense. One of the dramas and distractions which I created and was able to look at, was being caught up in getting things done, especially since having children. Each day I created a to-do list, which set me up for failure as I put myself into a drive or busy-ness, which overrode my body telling me that it could not physically undertake such an impossible list. To compensate, I would be constantly reaching for comfort foods and felt exhausted, irritated and frustrated, which often led to rage directed at my innocent children and husband. This to-do list of mine was debilitating.

Could this be one of the ways I created chaos and overwhelm in my life – by generating circumstances and situations that made life so hard and so difficult that giving up felt like the only option? What if, for added drama, I threw in sabotaging thoughts of being a failure for not ever achieving the unachievable, plus a range of judgemental, self-loathing thoughts? And how could I profess to love my family when I treated myself so appallingly?

So, as I began to attempt each day to bring a simplicity to that day’s activities, I slowly started to see something else. Although I was making my life more simple and less complicated and my quality of life started to improve, I still was having shouting outbursts at my family. Now, my relationship with my practitioners was different, in as much as I could now go along and rather than look for them to fix it for me, I would rock up and say, “Okay, life’s better but I’m still yelling – I want to stop this, why is it still happening?”. Again, gently with no judgement, I received the possibility that I was only committing to making my life better, but not actually addressing the relationship I had with myself: my opinion of myself was still terrible and because I could still be mean to me, it was easy to be mean to others too.

So, I contemplated this for a while and BINGO! Finally a light went on; my internal voice was still running me down, judging me, chastising me all the time. So I might have been making better choices, but I was just ‘doing’ them to make things better rather than because I really felt I was worth it. Now I was getting somewhere.

I had been running two lives: a physically exhausting one, and another in my head running non-stop commentaries on how useless I was. So although I was changing the physically exhausting part of my life, the low self-worth part was still running the show: I still hadn’t committed to genuinely loving me and making that the reason for every choice I made in my day.

Stopping the merry-go-round, allowing the discomfort and pain of those unloving choices to be felt was not, and still is not, easy. But I now give myself some stillness and quiet, just to feel me. Now that I’ve allowed myself to feel my brutally low opinion of myself, I can see past that part and see the real me – this beautiful woman who is just busting to be given permission to come out into the world.

I would like to show my appreciation to Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and all its wonderful practitioners for their unwavering love and support. This, however, is not a rah–rah for UniMed; this is a rah–rah for the growing awareness of the healing power of love, which is at the core of what UniMed endorses but is obviously not exclusive to UniMed; this is a rah–rah to the medicinal qualities of love and care – the love and care from my GP, the love and care from UniMed practitioners, the love and care from my family and friends and the love and care from me. It was me that made the choice to see qualified medical practitioners, highly trained in their field of mental illness, choosing to administer their medicine with love and care – the vital ingredient which was missing from my last foray into fixing this debilitating condition. All of the above helped bring me back to ME, showing me that I always had a choice, even when I had dug my heels in pretty deep, thinking I had no choice, believing that the dramatic events in my life were outside of my control and that I was a lost cause.

I am understanding more and more the meaning of true love and what that encompasses: it is true love to gently, without judgement, lovingly help people when they are ready to begin to entertain the possibility that we are responsible for our choices and the events that happen in our lives: it is true love to present the ‘tough’ stuff – to bring people back to who they really are so they, in turn, can help others return back to who they really are. This to me is the bigger picture, this to me is all part of true love. This is what personally helped me understand my depression and my part in it.

557 thoughts on “Depression, Bi-Polar & the Medicinal Qualities of Love & Choice

  1. Taking responsibility to support ourselves when it comes to our health is absolutely key, rather than looking to others to do it for us, which sadly, is often the case.

  2. The realisation that we have a part to play in everything that happens to us can either be very inspiring, or daunting. It entirely depends on how we take it, however if we realise that the fact that we have a part to play in everything gives us the power to create a wonderful life for ourselves, things in our life may begin to change.

  3. Taking responsibility is the inevitable fork in the road to our own self salvation or demise. We all have that choice.

  4. There is such a crucial distinction shared here between doing self-loving things and being love itself. It seems that until we embrace the latter and choose to understand our responsibility to be love nothing will really heal. Great sharing Gina, thank you.

    1. Yes Richard, Being Love itself is taking self-love to a whole new level, a really delicious level that truly supports us to make those all important different choices about – well – everything.

  5. This difference between wanting to make life better and actually addressing our relationship with ourselves is monumental. They are entirely different processes with entirely different outcomes. Bingo is right. This is where true healing can occur, when we are willing to address our relationship with ourselves rather than apply a short-term fix. Being mean with ourselves is something that can slip under the radar if we are not being vigilant. Yet it is very destructive of any sense of self-love and equally draining of our energy. No wonder we end up feeling unwell.

  6. So interesting isn’t it when we really start to look at our part in things which come to unfold in our lives and in our bodies. Beautiful to see how in such a relatively short time it seems you were able to start taking responsibility for those choices and choose loving support to start to turn it all around. I would think the doctors are pretty impressed too, as yours seems an uncommon story for someone diagnosed with Bipolar.

    1. Change does happen even if we cannot see it immediately – hence we can never underestimate the little steps we make because they are the foundation for the big steps we take to grow.

      1. As a society, we have become used to instant gratifying changes with results that please. When we are offered space, patience and appreciation the quality in the results is what is not only felt but remains as a marker of where we were at and what we have aligned to now.

  7. Gina, thank you for sharing your experience with depression – in our stories of how we have found Truth, we offer others much inspiration to make true change as well.
    In my life I have observed people who have depression, and it was confronting to see them lying in bed not wanting to get up in the morning and just crying. I used to feel so helpless, but at the same time I just knew I had to ‘get on’ with my life. Perhaps in not indulging in this behaviour allowed them then later on to bring themselves out of it…who knows… I do know as well that after I gave birth with the lack of sleep, the lack of immediate support and the overwhelm and exhaustion I was in, I did have what I would call post natal depression. But interestingly I can now see how I played into it, and made it far worse than what it was and ‘needed’ to be. More recently I have also felt much sadness, a sadness that feels old and has no obvious cause to it, and this has affected me on a day to day basis where I could say ‘I feel depressed’ – in other words I have recognised that this overwhelm is a form of depression. But thankfully, I have come to realise that though this is there, it is about not giving into it – it is about acknowledging the sadness and as you have said Gina, taking the time to appreciate myself, respect and care for myself and deepen my love and self worth, and to live from this rather than from the sadness. I have also felt that the sadness is an opportunity offered to connect deeper with myself, rather than use it to take me further away from myself. When we see it this way, we get to see that everything in life is an opportunity offered for growth.

  8. Those voices in our head that are a constant sabotaging commentary have to be addressed… And they can be! It’s just that we have given them a momentum, but like anything with momentum, it can be, with constant choices, changed diametrically in its path… Nothing is inevitable.

  9. Thank you for sharing honestly the game of drama and emotion that is rife in the world today and one of the major factors we have an alarming rate of depression and exhaustion. The willingness to not walk away was your awareness that for the first time you were being presented with the truth and your commitment to hearing and living this now needs to be appreciated. This example is a great blog for all to read as we can so easily stay in “the rut if irresponsibility” or bring more understanding, openness and be prepared for a much needed change.

  10. Taking responsibility for the life we have created can at times seem like a bitter pill to swallow, but ultimately frees us from the creation itself.

  11. ‘I can tell you, it was pretty painful to even contemplate for one second the possibility that I could be responsible for creating all the pain I’d been through, and had put my family through.’ I love your honesty Gina, this can’t be an easy thing to admit and yet, I expect this truth applies to us all in one form or another. Thank you for your upfront sharing.

  12. Thank you Gina for sharing your story of challenges, courage, love, truth, wisdom and above all self responsibility. I deeply appreciate what you have expressed and shared, thank you.

  13. Absolutely amazing Gina. With mental illness I’ve observed a lot of people become extremely insular and shut off from people, family and friends, but it’s incredible how one of the best remedies is actually opening up to love and care and not taking the depression, anxiety or sadness on solo.

  14. Whenever we feel scared about something, we can be assured that we are not our true self. Because anyone who has felt their own confidence and shine know that being timid and panicky is not their natural self. So when I feel scared, I would ask myself–who on earth is this? It is obviously not me, and therefore it is silly to indulge in this emotion or to even criticise myself.

  15. A lot of us have an attitude because the world has been cruel to us; we close down to those around us and wallow in a cocoon of being a victim. I know this well and the seeking of sympathy; I also know well that sympathy and being a victim only makes things worse. It takes self love and self care to look with honesty at ones choices and take responsibility and control of your life like you have so well described here Gina.

  16. I heard today that a school was wanting to raise money as more and more kids were facing depression. These students were from year 9. It made me really stop and see that depression is a huge issue that we are not really wanting to see. What I love about this sharing is that it brings it back to self responsibility and our role in what is going on with our lives. Do we express from an issue we have or do we look to see what we could do to support ourselves? A big question for all of us to ask.

    1. Yes, and how important it is to allow support from others. In depression we can hide ourselves away in a corner and shut out the world. We may need time on our own but we also need connection with others where we can open up and uncover what is really going on. Universal Medicine Practitioners are an awesome support in this way.

  17. If we do not consider our part there is no other option other than to blame others or our circumstances for our woes, and then seek solutions to take away the symptoms.

    1. I agree Brendan. If we continue to blame ourselves and others for our circumstances it feeds a vicious cycle of abuse, depression, anxiety, stress, overwhelm and the list goes on. Choosing to let go of blame and take responsibility for all our choices and everything that happens to us with love and understanding then life becomes empowering, joyful and we are able to develop a deeper level of love the more we choose a deeper level of responsibility. Amazing how this works, so simple, so accessible and always available for everyone to choose.

  18. Gina, thank you for sharing so openly and honestly about your experience with depression and bi-polar. Your story will support and inspire so many people to understand the root cause of depression. Yes scientifically it has been proven to be related to a chemical imbalance in our body but what you have clearly shared from experience is that there is much more to it than that. My understanding is that antidepressants doesn’t cure depression but acts as a relief and support for most people. You demonstrated how important it is to seek support that is truly loving and caring, and then also being willing to take responsibility for all your choices. Also choosing to look deeper into your relationship with yourself and developing self-love, self-care and self-nurture to help understand what was driving and creating your symptoms. The biggest part that stood out for me was realising how much of what happens to us is all a result of our choices. That we are responsible for choosing to feel joyful and we are equally responsible for feeling depressed, anxious or overwhelmed. Understanding this has changed my life.

  19. ‘I had been running two lives: a physically exhausting one, and another in my head running non-stop commentaries on how useless I was’ – Imagine if our commentator alter-ego was another person, who followed us everywhere we went, criticised everything we did and picked out everything we do ‘wrong’… this person could easily be charged for harassment and we wouldn’t want them in our lives, yet so many people accept this every day?

  20. “In the sessions with them whilst I was pouring out my heart, concerned for mine and my family’s welfare, they didn’t seem to really engage with me or even look at me; they made notes then delivered their diagnosis, writing out a script for anti-depressants. The experience felt cold and unassuring.”
    I think so many of us have had this experience when we have reached out for help and been met with knowledgeable professionals who may have the technically correct answers, but are unable to connect with us in a human way where we feel met and feel able to let go enough to surrender. When we feel met we are able to find a space in which to turn the trajectory of our lives around. This is the foundation I have found for true healing.

  21. “I still hadn’t committed to genuinely loving me and making that the reason for every choice I made in my day.”
    This very much is a commitment, for the reasons to not are forever there on the peripheral of our lives, it is only the deep commitment that will hold us and support us to say no to what lies peripherally and yes to genuinely loving ourselves every day.

  22. When we consider our choices we are not blaming ourselves but empowered to feel that if we dug ourselves into a hole, so to speak, we can dig ourselves out of it.

  23. I agree, the state of our health begins first with us taking responsibility for it, nothing can shift unless we choose it to be so. This is so significant concerning mental health, as so often people think it is about a victim hood and ‘why me’….I know that horrible situations and hurts can trigger why someone may have a mental health issue, but still the choice to heal, the choice to look at why and make different choices, has to begin with ourselves first. Very powerfully and clearly stated in this article.

  24. taking responsibility for our choices is an exercise in discernment and love, there is no place for judgement or blame of ourselves or anyone, only the offer of a greater awareness and greater freedom from the ties that previously bound us, incarcerating us in a misery of our own making. Responsibility and love for ourselves is the first step towards true freedom.

  25. Thank you, Gina, for sharing with us all how true love and true care has supported you. And no matter how great it may be, it can only support, it is your choice to come to the truth and heal that makes a true change possible. You are an absolute inspiration.

  26. ‘…could be possible that exhaustion was playing a part in my depression and, more so, was I maybe making choices in my life to create the drama, thereby providing myself with the exhaustion and chaos – which in turn gave me the excuse to go into overwhelm and give up?’ This is enormous in terms of realisation and that we are in fact creators of all that we experience…even if on the surface it doesn’t look that way. To consider that we set ourselves up is a gigantic leap, but when really felt into the truth of it, it cannot be denied.

  27. ‘the medicinal qualities of love and care ‘ – Beautifully said Gina, Truly caring, nurturing and loving ourselves is medicine.

  28. If I do not feel a sense of purpose in my day and when I wake then I can feel the energy of depression trying to come in. Yet the moment I reconnect back to the purpose I know it lifts. For me one of the best ways to do this is connecting with others and making life about people rather than simply about what I can get out of the situation and better my life.

  29. When we consider the magic of God that is all around us, we need to ask ourselves the question of why do we resists embracing it and choose to be obedient to something that will only create complications and pain in our lives? when we look at it this way we realise we have been played all along by letting our heads run our lives rampant when we have everything that is needed when we live with an open heart.

  30. Sometimes it takes someone holding our hand firmly and asking us if we are committed to changing the behaviour not just wanting a change.

  31. How great that you had support from Universal Medicine practitioners and your Doctor, ‘I felt her genuine care – this care and talking with her felt like medicine in itself.’

  32. We can be our own worst taskmaster, ‘I threw in sabotaging thoughts of being a failure for not ever achieving the unachievable, plus a range of judgemental, self-loathing thoughts?’. Why are we so harsh with ourselves? I love how you brought in responsibility; taking time to appreciate and care for ourselves whilst deepening our self love and self worth are fundamental steps for all of us in my experience.

  33. It’s amazing that we have this voice playing in our minds that is so self destructive and what’s more we listen to this seemingly over all the confirmation and affirmation we are given by our friends and family. Why is this and where on earth do these negative thoughts come from? They must come from somewhere.
    I have been learning that everything is energy and there are two types of energy we could say positive and negative and to me the vast majority of us have got caught up in the negative energy that then feeds us the negative thoughts. Some times these thoughts are so negative that we don’t feel that we can continue with life. It feels to me that there is something else unseen that is controlling our lives and because we cannot see it we feel that there is something wrong with us rather than understanding that these negative thoughts are not ours but we are constantly being fed them. If humanity could get to this understanding we could then take the next step by actively looking to understand where this negative energy is coming from and why.

    1. So true Mary – the first thought is it must be ourselves that are getting it wrong – understanding energy runs us constantly is the opportunity to choose which energy to have running us.
      “It feels to me that there is something else unseen that is controlling our lives and because we cannot see it we feel that there is something wrong with us rather than understanding that these negative thoughts are not ours but we are constantly being fed them”.

  34. Love and care are indeed medicinal qualities and ought to be an essential part of any health care plan. Without love and care there is no true healing.

  35. Overwhelm is an interesting emotion and one that seems to be in lead of many mental illness. For me, thinking about what needs to be done but not doing anything about it feels horrible in my body and I can get myself to a state of overwhelm. So overwhelm is a choice. Doing what needs to be done and responding to life is very good medicine, mentally and physically.

  36. One thing I have learned from working in the healthcare industry is that the way we diagnose, treat and view people with mental illness is outdated. One thing I began to observe was, the things that mentally ill people suffer from, so called “normal people” suffer from as well but perhaps what we call normal has become way too comfortable and diminished compared to true wellness and vitality.

  37. I learned at a presentation I went to last night that depression is a result of pictures we create and they are created based on the rules we subscribe to in life. So basically they are ‘all’ created by us and the fact that we feel a loss when our pictures/expectations of life are not met, when we don’t deal with the loss we feel sadness, when the sadness is not dealt with, we feel grief and the undulate with grief turns up as depression!!!

  38. It is not always so easy to admit how the responsibility for our thoughts and emotions sits firmly with ourselves. I guess this has come to be a part of our constructed ways for coping with life – to avoid the lightness of being that we so naturally are and to allow instead a kind of darkness to consume us through our thoughts and actions. It can be a long and tough road, but I am learning that by saying yes to love I am in fact quite simply saying no to what is not love, and this brings so much light back in to life again, it makes me wonder why I ever said yes to the darkness in the first place.

    1. Thank you Shami. A powerful statement stated with the simplicity that Love is. “I am learning that by saying yes to love I am in fact quite simply saying no to what is not love, and this brings so much light back in to life again, it makes me wonder why I ever said yes to the darkness in the first place”.

  39. Understanding we have a choice changes everything we otherwise consider life to be about, because instantly there can be no more excuses for where our lives are at.

  40. I think it’s empowering to support someone to consider deeply the part they may be playing in their own wellbeing – for then we can clearly see what we have the power to change. Universal Medicine has helped me to deepen the level of honesty that I have with myself without judgement, which is crucial because that just creates further complication rather than the clarity we can otherwise allow ourselves to go to…

  41. There is a desire to listen to the inner-voice when it says un-loving cruel words to one-self. Truly why would one want to listen to a cruel unloving inner voice . Think about it .

  42. Thank you for sharing your story Gina. With true support we are able to look at our part in the overall picture of our struggle with whatever issues we are having in life and this allows us to heal ourselves for ultimately it is up to us to make the necessary changes.

  43. A suggestion of true gold ‘…maybe I was setting up choices in my life to lead to events that would bring on the symptoms…’ Just asking this question of yourself and a question that we can all relate to and ponder, opens up the world of possibilities rather than blaming or feeling victim, we get to discern our involvement in our experiences in life.

  44. Thanks for ypur honest sharing which for sure will support many who have the same condition you had.
    It also shows that of one really choose to find a way out of their missery God shows a way.

  45. What the world seems to have dismissed and forgotten is that someone who is suffering from depression or who is bi-polar, is underneath it all extremely sensitive, and reacting to the world. So often the sympathy card is played in lieu of real connection and support – a support that holds them first and foremost as the sensitive human beings they are, and then offering them the possibility that this way of withdrawing from the world doesn’t need to be the only way they can try to cope with their sensitivity.
    The esoteric brings this understanding in spades – never holding the person by their ailment or condition as a precursor to who they are, but seeing the whole person first who has made choices – choices they can always undo if that is what they want to do, and return back steadily and in their own time to the truth of who they are.

    1. Interesting extra you supply here, Katarina. The fact that bi-polars are in effect are really sensitive explains a lot for me dealing with a family member who also had this condition.
      It brings understanding which does not mean this is an excuse to not change one’s life around. We are never a victim of any disease.

  46. Wow, what a story Gina. Such honesty and what a view you present into a life of somebody who is depressed or even bi-polar. For me it is shocking but good, because a person I know had this condition as well, and now I have more understanding where they were, and not judging them anymore.
    The way out you have created yourself is truly awesome and inspiring. Yes, you had excellent loving support but you also had a loving relationship with you Gina. Deep appreciation.

  47. I agree it is painful to retrace how and why habits and behaviours are occurring, but to do so, and go for it and be honest is the most liberating experience I have encountered and I continue to expose layers of deceit and self-responsibility. In doing so behaviours are being healed, there is no other way but to consider where we can make a choice.

  48. Gina, this is absolutely amazing – a truly inspirational blog of the consequences of every choice we make in our lives and the changes that are possible from being at a very low point to return to a harmonious way of being.

  49. ” by generating circumstances and situations that made life so hard and so difficult that giving up felt like the only option? ” This is true of a lot of peoples situations even people with no record of mental illness. This way of living gives one the false understanding that their voice / choice has no power , but the opposite is true.

  50. Great blog Gina, when we are willing to take a look at ourselves and what part we may play in our own illness and diseases, we discover that there is a responsibility that we can take for ourselves, to make different choices and not expect someone else to fix something for us.

  51. It is very scary when you feel yourself slipping away from engaging in life and withdrawing it can be a steep slippery slope. So to have help and support is much needed to bring us back. Medication can help, but it can also in my experience make matters worse because you can then let everything go and give in to the numbing effect that the drugs offer.

  52. It is a big step to get out of playing a victim of life. It works well for a lot of people – but this sharing shows how we can take responsibility in every moment. We don’t have to wait for the suddenness of a situation to start to look at how we are living and what we are attracting in our lives.

  53. Gina, what a powerful lived testimony to the choices and changes you have made in order to stop creating all the overwhelm, exhaustion and depression in your life. The true healing begins when we can be honest enough to nominate that we are the creators of our own sad story and it can be re-imprinted with awareness and joy.

  54. It is not until we acknowledge the part we play in our depression – and can therefore make a choice to change it – that true healing begins. If we don’t, we are merely being administered to rather than take responsibility for our part in it.

  55. What I found interesting in this article this evening is that Gina’s body could no longer tolerate anti depressant medication. This to me is rather significant, as it indicated that she was ready to look deeper into her condition, the wisdom of our bodies has the potential to take us to the greatest healing of our life.

  56. ” I created chaos and overwhelm in my life” When we are open to looking at this fact as truth we taking the first steps out of the maelstrom of overwhelm and returning to the stillness of who we are.

  57. Being part of true healing means looking at every angle of an illness, and the part we play in it (with zero blame) has to be part of that.

  58. “this is a rah–rah for the growing awareness of the healing power of love” I love this because it is true – we can say what someone needs to do to change or just put down a diagnosis but if it is done so without love and care the chance is big that the person runs the other way even though what we are saying is very true.

  59. What a deeply honest perspective this is – to look at our part in the drama and chaos of life. We can get to a place where we feel the world is against us, but if we are not willing to see the choices we are responsible for in putting us there, then there is no healing

  60. It is a beautiful thing when a person gives up the need to be a victim of life and starts to take responsibility for them. This is when the medical fraternity can really engage and work with the person to support true healing.

    1. Great point Elizabeth. I’ve always found that I receive the support that I need from others when I am truly ready to address what is going on in my mind and body.

  61. The support that the Universal Medicine therapies offers connects you with your own inner essence, and builds the true you, from the inside out.

  62. Thank you Gina. The way you describe depression and express about your experience goes a long way to destigmatising mental illness. I have personally found this blog to be very helpful in supporting me to see where I need to take more responsibility in my own life.

  63. When we take true responsibility in our lives and with our health, it is a win win. A win for you, your family and all you meet and our community as we have a fully committed member of our community returning to serve in full. Thank you for sharing Gina.

  64. We can get lost in the canvas that is our own life if we don’t step back now and again and are willing to look at the bigger picture, to be honest at how we have been playing our part and give ourselves the space to do things differently.

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