Sugar: The Artificial Sweetener… and My Addiction

by Jacqueline McFadden, born in Scotland, living in Holland

I didn’t even know I had a sugar addiction until I tried to eliminate sugar from my diet two years ago, due to health reasons, and found I couldn’t manage it. That white, soft ‘harmless’ stuff that is found in almost everything took me on quite a trip – it was the artificial sweetener of my life and I was dependent on it.

I work in a nursery. Every other day there is a birthday, so the mums bring in cake for all the children and for the teachers. Then, with family, more occasions to celebrate with more cake: birthdays / anniversaries / weddings  funerals etc., and in between we don’t need a special occasion for a sweet treat because sugar is everywhere, in so many things.

I go to the supermarket – tons more sugar waiting there in everything from curry paste to tinned vegetables, along with the obvious sweet food products: we have become so hooked on sugar, it’s the ‘hidden drug’, an addiction we use to get through the day, take the edge off life – to sweeten things up.

SUGAR: MY SWEET REWARD

For instance, I used sugar as a treat and a way to reward myself – it became my ‘feel-good crutch’ to lift me and make me feel better; but sugar only gives a temporary boost, which would explain why I kept needing another ‘hit’, keeping me in a cycle of addiction. Oh yes, the sweetness of sugar I used to sweeten my life to take away the unpleasant taste life had for me.

In this sugar addiction of mine, life was one ‘big rush’. I was rushing around all the time, doing everything in a hurry – in a sugar ‘rush’: no time to stop, no time to eat, so I always ate quickly (which is a nice way to put it – I chucked my food down, like my body was a dustbin). Did I really taste anything? Of course not, that’s why I was always left feeling unsatisfied, un-nourished, and why I always had a need for a sugar top-up after meals. I was exposed to sugar at home and at school / work, and I gave it to my children, creating the next generation of addicts. We get hooked at an early age, so by the time we are adults we are well and truly ‘sugar junkies’.

It made it easier to crack my sugar addiction when I discovered the unconscious association I made with sugar a long time ago: I used sugar as an ‘artificial sweetener’ in my life, a substitute or a replacement for something I had been missing – my own inner sweetness; the beauty, playfulness and divinity I felt in me naturally as a small child, but had lost. When you lose something, if you can’t find the original you take a substitute – and sugar was mine.

Eating and overeating sugar in the form of cake, biscuits, ice-cream, chocolate, bread, dairy and creamy warm, comfort foods, was a way to not feel the pain of missing the connection I once had to myself, my true self. Every day I missed it, thus the need for a daily ‘sugar hit’ to fill the emptiness I felt.

CONNECTION TO MYSELF

It gets worse. Having lost the connection to myself, my natural sweetness and stillness was replaced with hardness in my body, and a ‘fastness’: a need to get as many things as possible done in my busy day (the sugar rush), no matter the quality they got done in, as long as they got done.

I was in such disharmony and the harm / stress I was doing to my body was obvious in my monthly cycle. Every month my body felt broken, so I had to stop and take lots of rest to allow my body to clear the disharmony that I had accumulated every month. I would crave chocolate at this time, so I fed my body chocolate and comfort food and after my draining, uncomfortable period was over I would continue as ‘normal’ in the fast lane. This was my habit and the cycle of addiction I was in, numbing my way through life.

Deep down I knew it was all wrong for me but as much as I tried I just could not escape or change my life because the patterns / behaviours and emotions were so ingrained, they had been playing me for years and seemed to work… that is until I got a huge wake-up call from my body in the form of breast cancer. This created the opening I needed to break the numbing cycle that I was in.

Sugar is still tempting but I no longer consider myself a sugar addict: the more I honour myself and my body, reconnecting to the sweetness within – the most satisfying sweetness of all – my craving for sugar gets less and less. In total it took two years for the cravings to stop.

To help me reconnect to myself, I did the five minute gentle breath meditation every day, as presented by Serge Benhayon of Universal Medicine. I am deeply inspired by his presentations to live in a way that supports me in creating a more harmonious life.

For example, I now go to bed early to give my body quality rest, I am up early and have plenty of time for me every morning. I eat food that nourishes my body, including meat. I eat slowly – tasting and enjoying every bite which means I do not overeat. No more rushing and no more comfort foods of sugar, dairy, wheat or coffee.

After two years of making self loving choices my body now feels nourished and truly nurtured so there is a contentment and no longer a need to numb myself. That is, there is no longer an addiction to feed with sugar and its ‘artificial sweetness’. Now my body is smiling without it… smiling from inside with my own ‘true sweetness’.

298 thoughts on “Sugar: The Artificial Sweetener… and My Addiction

  1. Seeking a reward, regardless of what kind, is indicating that we are feeling that there is something missing in our lives.

  2. It is fascinating how so easily thoughts can come in when I am in a supermarket of what about this food or that and my mind can wonder. And then I catch myself and go why would I want that? And how I know if I let the thoughts run wild in my head then I might as well be eating it, as I get the taste and everything! I was having a discussion earlier about how supermarkets pump fresh bakery smells into the air especially by the front doors to entice and tantalise you which shows how much we are being manipulated. And so how present we need to be with ourselves so as not to get drawn into the temptations on offer.

  3. Eating stimulating foods meant that I pushed my body far more than necessary as I could not feel how tired my body was to be able to make changes to the way in which I was living. I now understand and appreciate the more present I am with myself the more I am able to honour how my body is feeling and eat foods that nourish and nurture my body and my energy levels have steadily improved.

  4. I’ve come to understand how I am very good at the doing and not so good at the consolidating and appreciating – and this very obvious links to my sweet tooth – wanting things that are sweet because they make me racy – which just feeds the cycle of more doing. A huge stop moment for me to consider the way I live is set up perfectly to feed this – so reading this sharing is a great reflection of the trap we can fall into.

  5. Most of the world’s population is addicted to sugar; it is a major contributing factor in illness and disease, especially in type 2 diabetes that is continually on the rise. How many more people have to die or have a serious illness before people wake up to the many harms and dangers of ingesting this known poison, which is considered more addictive than cocaine.

  6. Amazing to feel your commitment to honesty for you to arrive at the realization that sugar is an artificial sweetener in your life, Jacqueline. When we are enmeshed in that reward mentality, it is unthinkable to give up the ‘sweets’ in life, be it sugar or any other kinds that we give ourselves.

  7. I find it amazing quite how addictive sugar can be. If I do not have it I do not want it yet if I have some then suddenly I get major cravings for more and find it very hard not to have more. It is like one of the most addictive ‘legal’ drugs we have and is readily available to all.

  8. We are all too used to sweetening life with sugar to elevate us to not only change the flavour of our daily life but avoid the taste of our reality.

    1. Very true Eduardo it is like the saying goes about sugar coating life but this is not reality, and keeps me away from connecting deeply with myself and thus in turn keeps me away from deeply connecting with others. We then miss this true connection and so seek the sugar and sweetness to fill our lives, which is a vicious cycle.

  9. The hidden drug indeed. It always baffles me why on earth put sugar in something like tinned vegetables!!!! Similar to wheat and milk if you read most ingredients of things in supermarkets. I still haven’t eliminated sugar completely from my diet and was reflecting on this the other day. We all have our own process and journey particularly with things like food what I loved hearing is how you healed and changed this for yourself by realising it was your own sweetness you where missing and trying to replace. Very beautifull and cool ✨

  10. Well done Jacqueline! What a great break through. Sugar is so addictive that even when I gave up any processed food or anything that had any form of refined sugar I was still addicted anything sweet in fact the green apple became my daily cake and when that bloated me too much and I found that it had the same buzzy affect as refined sugar, roasted pecans and blueberries became my cake . . . and they now have the ability to bloat me to the size of a pregnant women. You are spot on Jacqueline one has to reconnect to the sweetness of our essence and then all else pales in comparison.

  11. I love that you have found your inner sweetness and that it is so much more than sugar hits. What an amazing and inspiring journey. There are a lot of programs out there to quit sugar or get healthy but this is true healing that supports the body continuously.

  12. Sugar is constantly in the news and more people are now understanding it is a highly addictive poison to the body. This article confirms this fact and equally importantly, through lived experience, brings in the awareness of the energetic factor behind this insidious addiction. Thank you Jacqueline for this great sharing.
    “That is, there is no longer an addiction to feed with sugar and its ‘artificial sweetness’. Now my body is smiling without it… smiling from inside with my own ‘true sweetness’.”

  13. I very much know what is spoken of here as I struggle with sugar, and notice that it’s empty calories, if I start down the sugar slope, there’s no stopping and no matter how much I have it’s never enough. And it makes sense because in fact it’s a substitute and cannot make up for what I truly want to feel connected to me and joyful in my body.

  14. In the past I would of said I loved sugar, these days it tastes acidic and sharp, I rarely enjoy the initial taste in my mouth but for whatever reason theres a belief that it’s worth it in order to not feel something. Which these days more often I feel amazing. Typing this now I can say I’d rather accept the consistent amazing rather than disturbing it with sugar or other dulling foods for a couple of days, only to come back to where I started, feeling content in myself.

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