Sugar: The Artificial Sweetener… and My Addiction

by Jacqueline McFadden, born in Scotland, living in Holland

I didn’t even know I had a sugar addiction until I tried to eliminate sugar from my diet two years ago, due to health reasons, and found I couldn’t manage it. That white, soft ‘harmless’ stuff that is found in almost everything took me on quite a trip – it was the artificial sweetener of my life and I was dependent on it.

I work in a nursery. Every other day there is a birthday, so the mums bring in cake for all the children and for the teachers. Then, with family, more occasions to celebrate with more cake: birthdays / anniversaries / weddings  funerals etc., and in between we don’t need a special occasion for a sweet treat because sugar is everywhere, in so many things.

I go to the supermarket – tons more sugar waiting there in everything from curry paste to tinned vegetables, along with the obvious sweet food products: we have become so hooked on sugar, it’s the ‘hidden drug’, an addiction we use to get through the day, take the edge off life – to sweeten things up.


For instance, I used sugar as a treat and a way to reward myself – it became my ‘feel-good crutch’ to lift me and make me feel better; but sugar only gives a temporary boost, which would explain why I kept needing another ‘hit’, keeping me in a cycle of addiction. Oh yes, the sweetness of sugar I used to sweeten my life to take away the unpleasant taste life had for me.

In this sugar addiction of mine, life was one ‘big rush’. I was rushing around all the time, doing everything in a hurry – in a sugar ‘rush’: no time to stop, no time to eat, so I always ate quickly (which is a nice way to put it – I chucked my food down, like my body was a dustbin). Did I really taste anything? Of course not, that’s why I was always left feeling unsatisfied, un-nourished, and why I always had a need for a sugar top-up after meals. I was exposed to sugar at home and at school / work, and I gave it to my children, creating the next generation of addicts. We get hooked at an early age, so by the time we are adults we are well and truly ‘sugar junkies’.

It made it easier to crack my sugar addiction when I discovered the unconscious association I made with sugar a long time ago: I used sugar as an ‘artificial sweetener’ in my life, a substitute or a replacement for something I had been missing – my own inner sweetness; the beauty, playfulness and divinity I felt in me naturally as a small child, but had lost. When you lose something, if you can’t find the original you take a substitute – and sugar was mine.

Eating and overeating sugar in the form of cake, biscuits, ice-cream, chocolate, bread, dairy and creamy warm, comfort foods, was a way to not feel the pain of missing the connection I once had to myself, my true self. Every day I missed it, thus the need for a daily ‘sugar hit’ to fill the emptiness I felt.


It gets worse. Having lost the connection to myself, my natural sweetness and stillness was replaced with hardness in my body, and a ‘fastness’: a need to get as many things as possible done in my busy day (the sugar rush), no matter the quality they got done in, as long as they got done.

I was in such disharmony and the harm / stress I was doing to my body was obvious in my monthly cycle. Every month my body felt broken, so I had to stop and take lots of rest to allow my body to clear the disharmony that I had accumulated every month. I would crave chocolate at this time, so I fed my body chocolate and comfort food and after my draining, uncomfortable period was over I would continue as ‘normal’ in the fast lane. This was my habit and the cycle of addiction I was in, numbing my way through life.

Deep down I knew it was all wrong for me but as much as I tried I just could not escape or change my life because the patterns / behaviours and emotions were so ingrained, they had been playing me for years and seemed to work… that is until I got a huge wake-up call from my body in the form of breast cancer. This created the opening I needed to break the numbing cycle that I was in.

Sugar is still tempting but I no longer consider myself a sugar addict: the more I honour myself and my body, reconnecting to the sweetness within – the most satisfying sweetness of all – my craving for sugar gets less and less. In total it took two years for the cravings to stop.

To help me reconnect to myself, I did the five minute gentle breath meditation every day, as presented by Serge Benhayon of Universal Medicine. I am deeply inspired by his presentations to live in a way that supports me in creating a more harmonious life.

For example, I now go to bed early to give my body quality rest, I am up early and have plenty of time for me every morning. I eat food that nourishes my body, including meat. I eat slowly – tasting and enjoying every bite which means I do not overeat. No more rushing and no more comfort foods of sugar, dairy, wheat or coffee.

After two years of making self loving choices my body now feels nourished and truly nurtured so there is a contentment and no longer a need to numb myself. That is, there is no longer an addiction to feed with sugar and its ‘artificial sweetness’. Now my body is smiling without it… smiling from inside with my own ‘true sweetness’.

338 thoughts on “Sugar: The Artificial Sweetener… and My Addiction

  1. Sugar is constantly in the news and more people are now understanding it is a highly addictive poison to the body. This article confirms this fact and equally importantly, through lived experience, brings in the awareness of the energetic factor behind this insidious addiction. Thank you Jacqueline for this great sharing.
    “That is, there is no longer an addiction to feed with sugar and its ‘artificial sweetness’. Now my body is smiling without it… smiling from inside with my own ‘true sweetness’.”

  2. I very much know what is spoken of here as I struggle with sugar, and notice that it’s empty calories, if I start down the sugar slope, there’s no stopping and no matter how much I have it’s never enough. And it makes sense because in fact it’s a substitute and cannot make up for what I truly want to feel connected to me and joyful in my body.

  3. In the past I would of said I loved sugar, these days it tastes acidic and sharp, I rarely enjoy the initial taste in my mouth but for whatever reason theres a belief that it’s worth it in order to not feel something. Which these days more often I feel amazing. Typing this now I can say I’d rather accept the consistent amazing rather than disturbing it with sugar or other dulling foods for a couple of days, only to come back to where I started, feeling content in myself.

  4. Substituting the real deal for anything artificial is a let down – Except fake flowers and plants, they can be quite impressive and low maintenance!

  5. I am dealing with sugar addiction at the moment and it is really refreshing to read that the cravings can take a long time to subside. I stopped drinking alcohol years ago and have no desire whatsoever to drink it ever again – in fact, I’m repulsed by it. I have a feeling that one day I will feel the same way about sugar.

  6. It is true, sugar is basically everywhere we look and it has become so normal to eat it that we do not consider that it actually has no value in nourishing the body because our body does not use it, it only has to discard it which is extra (unnecessary) work.

  7. I have to say the same thing – I did not realise how addicted I was to sugar until I cut it out. But there is something in me that still craves it every now and then – and reading this blog really exposes how I have been living – areas of disregard and a lack of appreciation that make me feel it is OK to have a day off. When really it isn’t and I get totally smashed by it.

  8. I have found that many people who find life stressful, and live in anxiousness use sugar as a way of coping with life, it becomes a never ending cycle, however when we reduce our sugar and allow ourselves to feel the anxiousness in our body we get to feel what makes us run on anxiousness and can change our choices so anxiousness has less of a hold on us.

  9. Making self loving choices and choosing to nourish ourselves are important steps in helping us let go of the need for sugar, ‘the more I honour myself and my body, reconnecting to the sweetness within – the most satisfying sweetness of all – my craving for sugar gets less and less.’

  10. Nourishing a body that belongs to the universe is a full commitment and deeply honouring way of consistently living that is in respect to the all and complete decency to yourself. If for one moment I do not honour this quality of living artificial sweeteners can be substituted.

  11. Sugar has become the food of addiction, with sugar being an added ingredient in many products, in order to sweeten the taste. It is also the food of choice for an instant pick me up, maybe we need to consider how we are living if we are relying on sugar to help get us through the day.

  12. Sugar is a very addictive substance, and yes it is a substitute for something we are not giving ourselves, ‘I used sugar as an ‘artificial sweetener’ in my life, a substitute or a replacement for something I had been missing – my own inner sweetness; the beauty, playfulness and divinity I felt in me naturally as a small child, but had lost.’ It is important to nominate what sugar is giving you, or numbing you from feeling.

  13. What you expose here is huge. We think sugar is harmless, but it is a drug. And like you I know I only want it when I am not connected to myself. It is a telling sign that I am missing me.

  14. Its been my experience that when I am content, I don’t feel the need to treat myself with sugar. There is a fullness from within. I am making it a priority to work on staying with that content feeling rather than reaching for the sugar that does not deal with the underlying disharmony, but only masks it and keeps you in the cycle of addiction.

  15. That is such a powerful conclusion: as long as we long for sweets from outside we miss the natural sweetness we have within us. A natural sweetness, beauty, tenderness and love we ALL have and only have lost the connection to.

  16. I totally agree that sugar is “the ‘hidden drug” and because it is hidden it is so much easier to ignore how much we are consuming. We wouldn’t eat 8 -10 teaspoons of processed sugar in one go but some will drink a bottle of a well-known ‘fizzy drink’ containing that much sugar in just a few minutes. With apparently over 50 different names for sugar it is no wonder that it is so easy for food and drink producers to hide this poisonous substance from the eyes of an often unsuspecting public, who teaspoon by teaspoon become addicted.

    1. There’s also a consciousness that a little bit doesn’t hurt or everything in moderation. Like salt, many say, the body needs some sugar but where are we getting that from? Are we getting it from a body that is clear of sugar and clear of the need to supress or are we getting it from sources that want us to keep consuming the white stuff so that we keep sales up and get addicted. The strangle hold of investment of needing humanity to keep consuming it shows up whenever someone exposes the harm and poison of it to the world.

  17. Sugar is like a wolf dressed in sheep’s clothing or the devil disguised. It seems sweet and innocent and lovely but it doesn’t take much to revel its true nature.

  18. You used to go to the petrol station to buy petrol, now you are swamped with chocolates and lollies galore to tempt you and then the cashier offers you a special promotion of 2 for the price of 1. Sugar is everywhere and we are constantly being fed… pun intended, with quick fixes of sugar to boost our energy levels and to take us further away from our true selves.

  19. Oh dear, back here again! I am getting a bit bored of my attraction to sugar. I am realising that unless we address the energy we are living in we will continue to mask the patterns of behaviuur that lead to the coping mechanisms. Unpeeling the layers and being prepared to see what has become familiar, how abusive and how far it keeps us from stillness and from that settled feeling we can get just before we go to sleep, unpeeling those layers and choosing more awarenss is one of the most powerful tools to show that it is not about denying or banning anything, it is about choosing to value your service in life and honouring what supports you in that service.

  20. Wow I really relate to sugar being the substitute for loosing our inner sweetness and then replacing this with a hardness or drive. I am looking at eliminating sugar from my diet at the moment – and it is hard. There are times I just want to go to the extreme. But I have to keep bringing it back to why am I wanting it and what am I not wanting to feel. There is a reading in everything.

  21. I recall many years ago going off all sugar (which didn’t last) The surprising thing that I noticed was the withdrawal. I was highly emotional for about 3 weeks, which was/is not me. Even though I ended up returning to my previous diet, I was forever aware of the effect that sugar had. I don’t think we – certainly me – appreciate how we use food and how we know how to use food and it is rarely to nourish our body. We can never address what we eat with diet alone, we absolutely need to address the underlying reasons why we make these choices. For mind over matter – as often prescribed – simply does not work.

  22. It seems as though we can abstain from sugar but as soon as a small amount is added to the diet, the urge to have more is there again, and it will increase until we figure out why we wanted it in the first place.

  23. I have noticed when ever I crave sugar its because I’m very tired, feeling anxious or want to avoid feeling something. It is so interesting. And then there is the association with a treat. I’ve worked hard so therefore I deserve a reward. As another commenter said above, there is always so much more behind the act.

  24. Great blog that is quite exposing. I have cut out sugar from my diet and very rarely eat sweet things. I never realised how sweet onions were! But occasionally I go for something sweet and I usually shove it in my mouth before I’ve had time to think. Because of that I’m not sure I’ve really delved to the depths of why I want something sweet because I know how my body react to sweet things and it is quite clear my body does not want it. I have come to the awareness it is not about will power. If I am strong in that regard and simply don’t eat it, I may not get to the root of why I want it in the first place.

  25. I’ve come to the stage where I know sugar no longer supports my body and having spent a few days cutting it down, I really feel the difference. Of course there is a pull to have it – but I was having a chat with someone today who said that when he says no to sugar because he knows it isn’t supportive – the feeling of that is so much bigger than having something sweet. And I can relate to that. I can see how when I am
    not connected to myself or honoring myself – sugar is an easy win – but the really sweetness is within.

  26. “the more I honour myself and my body, reconnecting to the sweetness within – the most satisfying sweetness of all – my craving for sugar gets less and less” this is such an indictment of what can occur when you self honour. The choices that then follow become more honouring and self loving, this then flows onto all areas of life, especially our food choices.

  27. I love how sugar is described as an “artificial sweetener” in this article. In today’s world there are many sweeteners that are called artificial. But when it is looked upon as offered here, with our sweetness within being the sweetness we crave, using anything to substitute this that we miss is artificial. What a truly revelatory understanding, there for who so ever is ready to claim as their truth too. Which is what is needed if the choice to quit sugar is made and committed to.

  28. Yes Fumiyo and the other great trick is; everything in moderation, so a little sugar won’t do any harm, a few wines during the week wont do any harm, the week-ends are for late nights and parties…. and so this, everything in moderation is a sure fire way to stay in comfort, indulgence and stubborn where we go round and round in circles going nowhere and not evolving. Going sugar free was a huge, huge step forward for me that has greatly supported me to take many more such steps that today I am enjoying a healthy, light and vital body and have so much more energy.

  29. It’s amazing how we are led to believe a bit of sugar is good for us – like, it gives us instant energy, it makes us happy etc. and we do not see that as a sign of addiction, and we hardly ever question our way of using food as a reward – I certainly didn’t, I thought it was my entitlement as life equaled struggle and I had every right to be rewarded for getting through it! It is a great trick that it is in fact sugar itself that dulls and disconnects us from the very sweetness we so crave to be reunited with.

  30. My relationship with sugar has changed so much over the last few years as I connect more to and live according to my feelings. However sugar is a great way to avoid feeling the deep love that I am, have always been, but not chosen to live. I feel so tired after eating something super sugary for my body, leaving me feeling dull and tired and disconnected from that loveliness. But from experience this delay of feeling the consequences of my choice to not be love is longer and more draining then the moment of feeling, letting go and moving on.

  31. Thank you Jacqueline. I’ve just started a sugar detox and it’s left me with no doubt that sugar is a drug… and it’s a drug I’ve been addicted to for a very long time. Your blog reminds me to focus on the sweetness I can feel in my body rather than the cravings that pop into my head.

  32. Sugar is a great way of racing the nervous system to then not understand or observe life. For me, eating sugar takes me out of stillness and connection with my body and I then live life from my thoughts, which turn very unstable. Why do I do this? As a detraction from what I’m feeling and what is being offered to me by way of Divine energy. Crazy… I know.

  33. This blog is a big stop for me Jacqueline as despite greatly reducing my intake of refined sugar for several years my life is still one big sugar rush if I’m really honest with myself. I use fruit like candy to pep myself up and in large quantities too. As I read that the cravings took two years to stop I admired your resolve and wondered how on earth you managed it. Then I saw ‘breast cancer’ and that brought me to a stop. Of course something so major would make change a huge priority but do I really want to wait until it comes to that? No. Thank you so much for sharing.

    1. HI Leonne, several years on I am still sugar free, but I do remember clearly how I felt back then, that it would be impossible to give up sugar, and yes you are right, I got a huge wake-up call ( and blessing) with the cancer that greatly initiated the call to choose to live differently. That said, for the last 6 months I have a new job which requires me to work till 10 and as a care worker I am in and out of people’s house where in every single house there is a variety of ‘goodies’ to choose from of the sugary kind! And all of a sudden I am tempted, yes I have been tempted, because I started my day at 7 am, the day has been full and I’m up past my bedtime, which is around 8 and 9pm and so I felt so strongly the need for a sugar boost. I could have easily succumbed many times but have not, and the reason I have not given in is because I have built up a solid momentum of 5 or 6 years of eating a sugar free diet. It is that momentum
      that has been my saving grace!

  34. The supermarket is like a drug store – crazy but true… All I need to do is go down the ‘health food’ isle if I want a ‘fix’ and there is PLENTY of options. All refined sugar free but still dripping in honey, maple and other natural sweet syrups. I have felt stillness in my body and know that these sweet treats race me just as much.

    1. So true Rachael. I use fruit in exactly the same way too. Even the greengrocer is a drug store for me. Our bodies will always tell the true story when it comes to which foods really support health and wellbeing.

  35. If we are not aware our lives can be completely controlled by food usually in whatever takes our fancy to satisfy the cravings. So many of us don’t even think about the harm that certain foods do and therefore don’t get to experience the benefits that can be felt when they are eliminated from our diet. It is gorgeous that you are reaping these benefits now that you have chosen to put true nourishment above all else and find yourself as a result, smiling from the inside like you are.

  36. Sugar is now commonly referred to as ‘sweet poison’ and how true this is. We are slowly killing ourselves with sugar in more ways than one. Whereas our natural sweetness will truly nourish and sustain our bodies with an everlasting joy and vitality beyond measure.

  37. Very accurately portrayed Jacqueline. The sugar rush is designed to keep us fast and racy so we do not pause to feel the depth of the true stillness that is otherwise there, were we not overcome with such artificial frenzy. The moment we re-connect with this innate stillness is the moment we become aware that there are in affect two realities at play in our life. One is happening on the surface and fed by all that floods in from the outside world and the other is quietly occurring deep within us and holds the vastness and intelligence of a universe that is forever communicating to us, albeit it muffled by the behaviours we put in place to not feel such majesty.

    1. ‘The sugar rush is designed to keep us fast and racy so we do not pause to feel the depth of the true stillness that is otherwise there..’ Spot on Liane – and with the stillness comes our connection to divinity, which allows us access to Universal Wisdom. Why drown that out with sweet stuff?! Note to self – Universe is WAY more cool than sweet sensory stimulation.

      1. Very cute and very true. Until we reacquire our taste for truth, we will hunger for all that seeks to replace this.

  38. I can picture your body smile Jacqueline, how it’s now got it’s true natural sweetness and no longer needs the artificial sugar which used to fill that gap. Your writing reminds me that it takes time to retrain ourselves and our bodies out of the bad habits we’ve developed over time and to stick with – what I feel is so important is if we understand why we reach for those things like sugar we can start to truly address the underlying ways we live and so then letting go sugar can become easier. Sugar is merely a symptom of what may be ailing us (that we miss ourselves), and until we address that we can’t truly address what is going on with the sugar. Slow and steady it is then.

  39. In my new job I am doing shift work and sometimes I am working till 10ish. I have been sugar free for around 5 years and my night time routine is going to bed around 8.30ish. But what I have found is that because I am up later, sugar becomes tempting to give me a boost as normally I would be in bed and feeling tired. To make it worse, every house I go into ( I work as a care worker) sugar is waiting and sneakily and silently calling out; a little bit of sweetness to keep you going…..I resist each time but the main observation here is that during the day, sugar can not tempt me at all, but when I am up after my bed time, boy does it try really hard to get me!! But I know for sure, sugar is has no place in my future.

  40. Sugar has been as big downfall in my life too Jacqueline. I can still get taken in at times, but more and more I can pick up its hidden inclusion in many of the foods I have eaten .

  41. It’s easy to see the sugar in sweets, chocolate fudge or mints, but another conversation when you start to see it in carrots or beetroot. Even though it still has a stimulating effect, there’s a part of us that is surprised when someone points out the facts. We like to turn a ‘blind eye’ but our ignorance shows how attached we are to the effect sugar has in our lives. So everything you share Jacqueline is so right, but why on earth do we go for sugar in the first place? What lives underneath our desire for these sweet treats? This is the important topic to talk about.

    1. The degree to which certain sugars will affect us will depend on the amount of truth that is being lived. It is easy to ‘ride the high’ that sugars bring when living a lie, but not so when our body becomes more attuned to the truth it was born to express.

  42. Jacqueline great expose on the evil that controls the sugar industry and how we can when honouring our bodies take ourselves this addictive and poisonous substance.

    1. Poisonous and addictive is right… I’ve heard alcohol and cigarettes be labeled as the ‘gateway drug’, meaning that once you start on those you’re sure to seek more. To me, sugar is the gateway substance that begins to take us away from the present moment and the body. From here, our choices are no longer in line with the well-being of the body.

  43. What would ever happen to the human race, if we eliminated sugar from our diet? I feel that after the initial withdrawal symptoms had passed, that there would be less racing around, less racy minds, less obesity less diabetes and less heart disease, and we would build a greater connection with our inner sweetness.

  44. When we truly feel ourselves, the sweetness, the joy, the beauty from within, we do have a natural smile occurring and we do not feel to numb this with sugar or any other substance. Therefor the best and only successful way to renounce sugar is to connect back to this place within and our true nature.

  45. “. . . we have become so hooked on sugar, it’s the ‘hidden drug’, an addiction we use to get through the day, take the edge off life – to sweeten things up.” This hidden drug addiction is still increasing in our society and therefore your awesome blog is so much needed!!!!

  46. It makes sense that we replace or substitute things, when I was a kid I naturally played with friends, laughed and muck around. This silliness was a joy in my everyday, when I got older and that was no longer such a prevalent part of my life, I went out drinking at night to try and recapture the fun I had as a child. The big difference was how terrible I felt the next day. Artificial substitute’s usually have side affects, where is the joy and energy we are born with, is ours and actually revitalizes us, rather than drains us

  47. “….the more I honour myself and my body, reconnecting to the sweetness within – the most satisfying sweetness of all – my craving for sugar gets less and less.” When I made the link between my craving for sugar after lunch – and connected it with my boarding school days, when we were allowed 4 sweets from our tin, which was my connection with home and love, I realised what was playing out. It has taken me a while to combat the desire tho. However the more I love and appreciate myself – the sweetness in me – the desire has reduced in me too.

  48. I like the phrase… “sweetner of life”. Its how I have used sugar, especially as a way to reward myself or to make a difficult day a bit sweeter. I still have moments now when I feel I need that bit extra as life is not enough of itself… that I have not been enough that day. And that is the revealing part – when I use the sugar to pep me up, it discounts the opportunity to look at what happened in the day and what I can learn for tomorrow.

    1. Yes, sugar was my ‘sweetner of life’…. thankfully these days sugar no longer has a hold on me which is huge and to be appreciated if I consider that i thought it would be impossible to give it up fully back then.

  49. “I used sugar as an ‘artificial sweetener’ in my life, a substitute or a replacement for something I had been missing – my own inner sweetness; the beauty, playfulness and divinity I felt in me naturally as a small child, but had lost.” This is so true for me even knowing this I still struggle with my sugar addiction when I am not completely present with myself.

  50. I agree sugar is a real hidden ingredient, over the last few years I have been reading the ingredients on food labels when I go shopping and have been surprised by the content of sugar, salt and milk, and over the last year even though people are more aware of the health benefits of eating less sugar, food manufacturers are not listening.

  51. Jacqueline these words stood out for me ‘For instance, I used sugar as a treat and a way to reward myself – ‘ Because I have also used sugar as a reward, if I did something well I would reward myself, at the time it seemed a harmless treat, yet sugar is really damaging and in truth if I was really doing well, I wouldn’t need a pick me up like sugar, so I also have to look at the real reason I wanted sugar in the first place.

  52. A few months ago I was looking for something to comfort eat and went to buy a sweet snack that previously I had a hard time stopping eating, and there was not one part of me that wanted to eat it. In that moment I knew sugar had gone from my life – it was an amazing moment of appreciation and downright awe. As a self-confessed sugar-addict for most of my life, to not even have a craving to eat sugar showed to me the incredible power of making small self-loving changes in life. They turn into massive changes over time when consistently chosen.

    1. YES they do indeed Lucy, this incredible power of making small self-loving choices in life is not to be underestimated as over time they become massive changes which supports us in our evolution and going deeper in connecting with the intelligence that our bodies hold within guiding us in our next steps.

  53. thank you Jacqueline… As I was reading your article, I was reflecting upon my first time in a supermarket in the USA… Gosh everything was sweetened, even the bread… It was absolutely pernicious… No surprise that there are now 125 million Americans have a condition called Pre- diabetes… Which simply means that if they don’t change their behaviour they will wind up with type II diabetes. This addiction runs deep in our societies, and needs to be as Jacqueline is doing exposed on many levels.

  54. Several years later after writing this blog, I am still sugar free which is a consistent choice I continue to make. However, sugar still tries to sneakily call me. For example, when I am really tired ( when my body is clearing or releasing) or there is something I do not wish to feel, sugar is to be found everywhere trying to tempt me. For example, in the supermarket, walking down the street, I will pass a bakers shop full of rich colourful cakes of many shapes and sizes, including my old favourite carrot cake which seems to have the loudest whistle…… I could succumb and give in so easily as my tongue remembers the sweet delights. It simply comes down to choice…. and what supports me the most is the momentum I have already built of consistently saying NO to sugar ( the poisonous stuff) and walk on by….. It is my constant consistency that provides the space to impulse with: a few seconds of delight ( actually poison) is simply not worth it!

  55. Thank you Jacqueline for a clear exposure of the addictive qualities of sugar that so many have succumbed to. As I have gradually weaned myself off a sugar addiction I am finding a richness in foods that I had not tasted before.

  56. Sugar is without a doubt addictive, anyone who doesn’t agree could try not eating it for a month, and then rethink that thought.

  57. Jacqueline, I love that last line, your body smiling from within, with it’s own natural sweetness. Our bodies are super wise and we often ignore them and create all sorts of distractions to stop us feeling how we truly are and what is truly going on with us, and often sugar has a huge part in that, it’s a great way to numb, and yes it give a temporary ‘high’ but the crash after is pretty awful and as you say here, it’s far away from the natural rhythm of who we are and how we can live. I love how honest you’ve been that it takes time to address that sugar addiction and that actually it’s not the sugar at all really, that’s the end point for a way of living that leaves us empty, lost and craving stimulation and letting go sugar involves addressing that, seeing how and why we use it, and giving ourselves the time and space to let it go.

  58. When I decided to reduce and eventually cut out sugar from my diet, I was amazed at to what degree the food manufacturers add sugar to almost all food. For example almost all cooked meat has sugar added to it. Almost all bacon has sugar added to it etc etc. There is something very sick and very wrong going on when you cannot purchase hardly any processed food without also being fed sugar. For this reason, virtually all I buy now is fresh vegetables and fresh meat and fish.

    1. I agree Doug, I travel to the USA frequently where they add sugar to everything, it was quite an eye opener trying to source meat or food that didn’t include sugar.

  59. Sugar is one of those very sneaky ingredients. It seems to be added to every food in some way. It is a revaluation to realise that we have been replacing our own sweetness with sugar and it is lovely to come back to the sweetness that we have inside us instead of always craving this substitute.

  60. Jacqueline, I am so glad to be reading your journey with sugar and calling it for what it is. An addiction, a substitute for loosing my connection with myself and my sweetness. Being left with the after taste of the bitterness of life. It is one of the hardest addictions to give up I am finding. It takes days for the sugar to be gone form the body, but as soon as I eat just a hint of sugar, the cycle starts again and calls for more and more. For me, one way that sugar comes disguised as an innocent beautiful piece of fruit.

  61. “The more I honour myself and my body, reconnecting to the sweetness within – the most satisfying sweetness of all – my craving for sugar gets less and less” – this is so interesting, and makes me look at why we like sweet things and the way we live. Where I live, some fruits are graded by how sweet they are and the sweeter they are the more popular and expensive; the department stores compete with each other on what sweets they have exclusively available, and it is not rare to find many people waiting in queues for hours to buy them – people are after sweetness big time.

  62. We are a society addicted to sugar and most are blind to the very obvious facts about sugar, it is time for humanity to see the harm that sugar is causing as diabetes is becoming more common in our children and adults not to mention the obesity rates that are rising rapidly due to the high consumption of sugar.

  63. I have to agree with you Jacqueline, sugar is everywhere in the processed food we can buy at the supermarket nowadays. And it is interesting to look at the reason why it is there in such copious amounts, while in fact our bodies do not need any of these added sugars because it will be naturally healthy with the amount of sugar it gets by eating our normal diet in fresh prepared foods. Could it be that humanity is addicted to the sugar rush we get to keep us going and to not allowing us to feel that we are exhausted and have depleted our body in doing so by the way we are conducting our lives?

  64. ‘I chucked my food down, like my body was a dustbin’…I just love your honesty Jacqueline as the quality of nutrition we nourish ourselves with is fed by so much more than just what we put on our plate.

    1. Absolutely agree Suse, I no longer chuck down my food, however, if I have left it too long to eat and find myself starving ( is there really any such thing?) I have observed that I eat a little too quickly, when I clock this I stop and start again and really slow everything down!

  65. Wow this is the perfect blog for me to read this morning, even though I no longer feel drawn to surgery foods I know the way I eat can be detrimental. I often rush my food thinking ahead and not being present, your blog is a great reminder and prompt to really taste and enjoy every mouthful. Thank you Jacqueline.

  66. Dear Jacqueline,
    I have just re read your blog and some of the comments. All indicate just how addictive sugar is. It is wonderful that this is now recognized in the wider community. However, to really make in roads on how accepted sugar has become we need to share our experiences, as you have done. And never hold back on sharing it more in our daily lives. As it is such true life experiences that will support others to connect to how much sugar controls the way people are and the food choices made.

  67. I agree Jacqueline, sugar is a poison, an addictive poison at that. Funny how we tend to think we are rewarding ourself when we indulge in a so called treat. . . it is a bit like having a cigarette to have a breather! It simply does not make sense.

  68. I can relate to having a sugar addiction and saw sugar as a type of guilty reward when I felt I needed or deserved it. Grocery shopping almost always included a stop in the confectionery aisle. On top of that was the fact that sugar was hidden in so many foods I purchased. No wonder there is such a demand for sugar in our diets when often people don’t even know they are consuming it! I can now say that I am on top of the sugar trap and it’s been a few years since I felt the strong pull for something sweet to help me get through whatever was happening at that moment. This turnaround didn’t happen overnight but as I changed my lifestyle to one of noticing and caring more about my body, the less I wanted to consume sugar. The map to doing this has been offered through Universal Medicine and presentations from Serge Benhayon and basically comes down to the choices I make each day for how I want to live my life.

  69. I love coming back to your blog Jacqueline and being reminded to connect to the sweetness within;
    “That is, there is no longer an addiction to feed with sugar and its ‘artificial sweetness’. Now my body is smiling without it… smiling from inside with my own ‘true sweetness”; gorgeous.

  70. Thank you for highlighting the addictive nature of this substance and how we use it to numb, dull, and disregard as well as to celebrate and reward ourselves. That this substance is not only legal but also sanctioned to be ubiquitous – and covertly so in many foodstuffs – is a complete travesty when statistics about diabetes and cancer to name but two ‘plagues’ of the modern era specifically cite sugar as a prime factor in their causation.

  71. Your blog highlights where the craving for sweetness comes from. It is a lack of disconnection to our innerselves that then creates the emptiness that we seek to fill with a form of sweetness that is always less than the true sweetness within and hence leaving us forever craving and unfulfilled

  72. I love this blog. I watch people at work consume enormous amounts of sugar and then see the state that it put them into. People are aware of what sugar is doing to them but the need to find some sweetness in life is so huge that it overtakes everything. Jacqueline, you provided us with the answer when you said that you were missing the connection you had with yourself and your natural innate sweetness and that is why you were addicted to sugar. The answer then to sugar addiction is to re-connect to that sweetness that is naturally within us all, we know it as kids, now we need to know it as adults.

  73. I can so relate to what you have expressed here; sugar addiction is a powerful force;
    “Sugar is still tempting but I no longer consider myself a sugar addict: the more I honour myself and my body, reconnecting to the sweetness within – the most satisfying sweetness of all – my craving for sugar gets less and less. In total it took two years for the cravings to stop”.
    Gorgeous Jacqueline I can feel you smiling from within and I am smiling from within with you.

  74. I read this blog feeling as though I could relate to every word, feeling glad someone else understands this ‘sugar addiction’ thing….I related to the painful and uncomfortable periods (I’m in the middle of one now) and the drive….and then I got to the part where you say you had breast cancer. Boom, it hit me like a tonne of (very loving) bricks. I am headed for major illness if I do not choose to arrest my need for this artificial sweetener. Sugar is no longer something I can ‘get away with’.

  75. Thank you Jacqueline for sharing your journey with sugar addiction and I love how you end by saying ‘Now my body is smiling without it… smiling from inside with my own ‘true sweetness’.’ Building our awareness and re-connecting to our inner sweetness is beautiful and for me still a work in progress but your blog is inspirational and much needed as the world wakes up to just how much we are addicted to sugar.

  76. Its true Jacqueline, sugar is the artificial replacement we seek when we lose our connection to our inner sweetness, our own inner essence that makes us uniquely us.

  77. Even though this blog is talking about sugar we can easily relate this back to any vice in our life we use to numb the emptiness we feel. We can be caught in such a momentum that only an inspiration, challenge or big STOP Event can break the cycle.

    Thank you for sharing.

  78. I find I have more clarity and energy when I have no sugar (even fruit) in my diet. If I eat something sweet it starts this cycle where I want it more and more – it is very addictive and I can feel foggy for a few hours after the initial rush, it is not worth the few minutes pleasure in my mouth.

    1. My experience is similar Anna and I certainly don’t miss the mood swings that accompanied my sugar intake.

  79. Sugar and Fun – this is a really strong association to break. Just a few days ago I was speaking to a mother on Christmas morning and she made light of the candy cane and chocolate her four year old was eating, a quasi admission that it was not a great choice and she justified it by ‘but it’s Christmas and it’s Fun’ even though as we spoke the child was already starting to race around and the mother was needing to discipline and direct the child to settle down and be less ‘silly’. I know I have the same association – sweet foods are fun and this has drawn me back to it again and again. This is despite being educated about the effects of all kinds of sweeteners (including fruit), having detoxed from it many times(!), endured withdrawal symptoms, and come out the other side to enjoy the stability of being sweet food free. Despite having improved health without sugar and my whole life running more smoothly I still found it really difficult to not be tempted by the taste of sweetness and the lure that a few moments of sweetness = fun, even though many not fun moments follow that. Perhaps like any drug addiction the craving for the ‘hit’ defies all logic, over rides past experiences and the drive is not different – to numb the pain. Jacqueline, from my firsthand experience I would say you are spot on – when we look to our sweet foods to offer us something such as ‘fun’ we also deny we are missing something within and that we are actually miserable without our inner connection.

  80. Thank you Jacqueline, I thought I was over sugar but it just keeps sneaking back in. I think it is hidden in foods that I am just not prepared to see it in and then it lowers my sensitivity to it. There is definitely a new level of dedication needed to seeing what is distracting me and why I choose not to pay that close attention to detail. Thank you for supporting me as I do my research

  81. I don’t eat sugar generally and it took me some time to get over it. What I found interesting though is that if I did indulge in anything sugary, it stopped me from feeling the sweetness of me and it left me longing for more the next day and the next. Sugar really has such a lasting effect, it is quite invasive.

  82. While reading this blog Jacqueline I thought that I was not addicted to sugar but yes to comfort food such as bread, yogurt, cheese. In reality I do crave sugary food from time to time but because it is only occasionally I remain in the comfort zone whereby I think a little won’t hurt. Well yes it does. Granted I have made big changes to my diet but I can go deeper and not allow myself to be complacent. So why do I still feel I need sugar from time to time? Plenty to explore for me.

    1. I love that you have brought this up Patricia; ‘a little won’t hurt’, and the other one is, everything in moderation…. these little sneaky beliefs are a great set up that keep us in our comfort. Truth is every little bit not only harms our body, but every little bit keep us wanting more, why? Because it is so ‘sweet’ and so addictive and widely and easily available….

  83. I cut out refined sugar from my diet a long time ago but am finding I still often look for sweet things which can also be found in other foods… What I’ve become aware of is that I generally look for these when I am tired or wanting to avoid doing something (what better distraction than to eat!), and this is something I am still working on…. What has been a great reminder for me today with this blog is that it’s not only the food, but also the quality in which we eat it, and to that I would add, its also about the quality we prepare it with…!

  84. I like how you point out just how sweet we naturally are, and how our addiction to sugar is related to this sweetness that we miss. I was a HUGE sugar fan, and this only rears it’s head now when I am missing the sweet feeling of myself.

    1. I totally agree, I only ever crave or want sugar when I am already feeling a lack within myself and so not feeling my sweetness. This usually happens when I let something get to me and by doing so stop feeling what is actually going on. The sugar is then a momentary relief from feeling this pain or angst but it does not resolve the matter. Slowly and at times subtly a small amount of sugar can suddenly end up being lots and all sense of reality at this stage has completely gone out of the window. It is fascinating how we can use things even though we know the longer term consequences but play that off wanting the immediate fix and yet we still call ourselves intelligent.

  85. Thank you Jacqueline for giving us a deeper understanding of why we eat sugar, the addiction it brings and what we are doing to cover up what we do not want to feel within.

  86. Jacqueline I love how you have made the link between the sweetness within you that you chose to replace with the sweet taste of sugar. I have often seen that in many people and realised that until we connect to the “essence of sweetness” it is very difficult to eliminate a ‘drug’ which gives us a kick and nothing else in return.

  87. Another feeling into why sugar seems so hard to kick is it’s consistent and insidious availability, like you say Jacqueline, it’s everywhere! When I am feeling out and go to the supermarket I get completely overwhelmed with the choice of how I can check out further and what I can buy that has not so obvious sugar in it – sneaky foods like potato chips, corn products, coconut water or pretty much anything in the ‘health food’ section. It’s like I can go into a frenzy of indulging in thought, even though I may not buy anything, I will indulge in the thoughts and let them rule me as I walk around the isles. The thought frenzy is fuelled by this sense of ‘I can have anything I want, it’s legal and I have the money to buy it’, it’s all there just sitting on the shelves looking at me, I don’t need ID or to be a certain age to get it and get off on it. Now that’s addictive behaviour if I’ve ever heard it!

  88. I feel like crying after reading this again Jacqueline as it is very exposing to why I am STILL caught in a self made cycle of sugar abuse. Cigarette’s and other drugs fell away quite seamlessly after I started making more loving choices for myself, but sugar is proving to be the most difficult and stubborn. You have offered really clear awareness of why that may be, I am missing the sweetness of me. Also I feel that I am not enjoying simply being me and living my days, there is a bitterness to life which is purely perspective and looking out of eyes that are choosing not to see the beauty and magic all around me. I feel like I could write about this subject for some time and I may start doing this recording daily to support in freeing myself from the sickly sweet hold of sugar.

    1. Love your honesty Rachel Evans, honesty is great medicine which greatly supports us to kick our bad habits and to boot it dosen’t cost anything! Like you share, for me coffee and alcohol were easy and just dropped away, but oh boy I never thought I would be able to give up sugar, such was my dependency….In my own process of going sugar free, I observed and noted when I would succumb to sugar ; which was always when I was tired and emotional. So I made sure I got quality sleep (going to bed early and when I was tired) which greatly reduced my reactions and emotions and I made sure I never went hungry, I ate 3 solid meals a day. And the other thing was I did not bash myself when I did give in to sugar back then. I just back tracked, observed and learned and then adjusted what I needed to adjust. But I was determined due to health reasons, which I see now was an extra bonus and motivater.

  89. Dear Jacqueline,
    I to felt the fast pace and constant drive of living with sugar being the drug of choice to sweeten my life. I can also feel the steadiness and stillness of living without sugar in my body and I much prefer the later. Sugar is truly scary in how it is so over used in our world. There are so many foods that contain sugar of some sort. Now is a prime time for companies that produce processed foods to step up and begin to process foods without sugar and salt. Yes each of us is responsible for our own choices and for what foods we choose to consume, but this could be supported by food companies. Support that could change the lives of many people, literally. Stopping sugar has greatly changed mine.

    1. It is Leigh very scary the over use of sugar in our world but thankfully sugar is getting more and more exposed in the media of its harming effects on our precious bodies….I don’t see any support coming from the food companies as yet, but they too have a responsibility and perhaps that day is coming that it will not be so easy to avoid responsibility!

  90. And something else to consider Brendan – Is the rush from sugar actually feeding the overwhelming speed of modern day society?

  91. ‘I used sugar as an ‘artificial sweetener’ in my life, a substitute or a replacement for something I had been missing – my own inner sweetness’. The question is why in this day and age do people need to be constantly sweetening themselves up and rewarding themselves with so much sugar??

  92. In this present day sugar is definitely hidden in a multitude of sources in the foods we buy. Surely the sheer volume of sugar eaten today from an accumulation of all these sources has huge ramifications on our body and in not only feeding the waistlines of our people but also the escalating poor health statistics being predicted by the likes of WHO and other health organisations.

  93. for years I never considered the effect that foods had on my body until I decided to go gluten & dairy free in 2012. I just ate lollies, sugar, chocolate, bread, pasta, soft drink, coffee, chocolate and the list is endless. I guess I wanted something that was stimulating and gave me an energy rush. Once I felt the difference in my body and how light I felt after having no Gluten and dairy for a month I was definitely doing it for good, no matter what! And I still had cravings for sweet things like honey and cakes etc but eventually I started to develop some stability in my mood and enjoyed the quality of stillness in my body so these foods I have stopped eating as well. Its amazing what can happen when we listen to our body and begin to change some things which don’t feel right to us. We are our best guide for sure.

    1. Yes Harryjwhite, I was the same, until I considered what I was eating when working with a nutritionist and doing a food diary. I started noticing patterns and reactions that I had previously skimmed over. I chose to be more discerning about what I ate and just became more and more aware. I could not go back now, my body just feels so much lighter as a result.

  94. I used sweet foods as a reward and can easily still fall into that trap if I don’t take note when that thought enters my head. For me that’s the trick I have used to play with tempting myself. I find to catch that thought as soon as it comes in and say no to it, it then just goes, but if I feed the thought then I can become hooked. This is happening less and less as I listen to my body and not my head.

    1. I grew up being told sugar was a reward and that it is such a shame that I couldn’t tolerate it. I think there was a corner of me that still believed that, but the feeling in my body is so awful and the steadiness of the stillness is so divine that I now see it as a gift to not be able to tolerate sugar.

  95. It is great blog Jaqueline, I was addicted to sugar too and I still need to be careful with what I eat. Sugar is addictive so I just stay away from it. Should I get a craving, I would have a Granny Smith Apple but try to stick to two or three per week or less.

  96. I can absolutely relate to this statement, “I used sugar as an ‘artificial sweetener’ in my life, a substitute or a replacement for something I had been missing – my own inner sweetness; the beauty, playfulness and divinity I felt in me naturally as a small child, but had lost.” This is very powerful and true for me also. Thank you!

  97. Out of all the things I have been addicted to sugar has to take the cake, in fact it is the cake – and I am yet to be free from the clutches that still bind me to it. After attempts and regular periods without it, inevitably the cycle continues to venture round again where the lure of that ‘reward’ and/or slice of comfort is taken, which includes, as you aptly describe Jessica, the side affect of ‘rush’ along side it. I question now what is the stronger addiction – the rush mode of moving through life to get things done in, or the sweet prize having done it all? Either way the call is for me to appreciate how solid I am in my stillness without it and truly taste the sweetness that that brings.

    1. Absolutely Giselle – what is it we are actually wanting and feel addicted to when having sugar? For me, I don’t like the rushing feeling but I do like the initial feeling of ‘oh life is lovely, I love these people, etc’. It’s very much a false and extremely short lived sense of emotional love for me, which when it wanes leaves me feeling completely dull and upset with myself for going there again. Of course the taste of sugar is totally the want too, but it does not seem worth it when that feeling of the drop comes along. In investing in this false sense of emotional love from sugar I am ultimately saying NO to the all encompassing and true love I am. Now the taste of artificial sweetness seems absolutely worthless in that face of that understanding! wow.

      1. There in lies the key, if I’m not choosing to feel, appreciate, or honor the loveliness I am, then easy it has been to opt for the consolation of the ‘sweet-treat’, and that viscous cycle is allowed to continue. Great exposure Rachel thank you!

    2. Yes Giselle, that is so supportive as a reminder. I am so solid in my stillness without it and I will notice and appreciate the sweetness of that some more. Thank you for your comment.

  98. Sugar overtakes my taste buds and they call out for more of the same – if I indulge this call then I lose my appetite for real food, and just want a quick fix. Until a naturopath asked me to describe what I eat in a day I had no idea that I was riding a sugar wave, with most of the sugar hidden.

    1. If I was to have any form of Sugar however small, the sheer sweetness overtakes my taste buds and they would also ask for more of the same, which would bring me back in the same loop of addiction as before and that is why I know for myself sugar is not going to be part of my diet ever again.

      1. I have found this too Jacqueline,
        I had a realisation one day where I ate something sweet, instantly on eating it my next thought was, “well you might as well have some more now, what can it hurt.”
        Needless to say this was very revealing of the hold sugar had on me and thankfully I saw the thought for what it was, a thought, that in no way had my body held in its best interest. For my body had begun to react quite significantly to any sugar.

      2. Me too! It overtakes and there is a clear choice to make because the pull is to repeat the behaviour. Sugar cannot be part of my way of living, it just feels so horrible in my body.

    2. ‘Sugar overtakes my taste buds and they call out for more of the same.’ This is a good point, sugar is highly addictive, I am so aware now that if I have one small bit for the next few days I will be craving it.

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