by Gabriele Conrad, Goonellabah NSW Australia
I discovered something truly amazing this morning and it has to do with time, this precious and ever more precious commodity in all our lives.
I awoke, checked the clock and realised that I had woken up super early and in accordance to the time zone I had left the previous day to travel to Western Australia. No way was I going to get up at 15 minutes past midnight!
I snuggled back under my doona, rested for a while and then decided to use my two eye pillows. One across my eyes and one on my heart. It felt great and I was just about to relax very deeply when I went, “Wait a minute! I can’t remember putting the eye pillows there!”
I realised that I had gone into automatic pilot – one second the eye pillows had been on my bed, the next second they had somehow landed on my body. Oh yes, they felt great, but I hadn’t consciously been involved placing them there.
Where had that time gone?
It must have existed, surely – even if it was only a couple of split seconds.
And then I realised that during the day and in my daily activities, every time I am not present and involved in what I am doing I am actually squandering time. I negate time by acting like it does not exist whenever I am not present whilst at the same time lamenting the lack of time and how there is never enough of it.
I could feel that by being present I actually create space – and space equals time, whereas I have forever tried to make more time by rushing and squeezing more and more things into my minutes, hours and days.
And thus, lack of time is actually my self-perpetuated illusion and imprisonment, aided and abetted by not being present.