Loving Daily Choices and Healing Hurts

Recently, I had a moment where I realised that I have not truly stopped to feel the enormity of life, my life and myself.

I have not stopped to feel how far I have come with my personal growth and how I now feel my life is nothing short of absolutely amazing. Everything that I am and all that I have is a blessing. My life being a blessing is a reflection of the daily choices that I have made. I have made loving choices that are supportive of me and everyone and everything around me.

Looking back on my past I could see and feel how much I lived in disregard, with no consideration for how my choices were affecting me, my body, my life or those who came into contact with me.

I was not aware nor was I at all present with how my daily choices were impacting on my body. Yes, I was unwell, but so were a lot of other people; it appeared to be the way of life. You got an ache, an illness here or there, you had a drama or three every day just to keep you on your toes.

I began to question if this was truly how life was meant to be.

After having my first esoteric healing session with Serge Benhayon, I quickly realised that:

  • NO, life certainly was not meant to be this way – that is, with continuous drama and feeling unwell.
  • I was creating the ills in my life, my relationships and in my body.
  • My life was the way it was through my own choices.

I had to take responsibility for the way my life was. It took some time and a level of honesty from me in allowing myself to feel the devastation of what I had created.

I discovered that choosing what I wanted to feel, controlling the hurt so it did not sting too much, was not a supportive way to live life. I had to allow myself to feel the hurt and all that came with that in order to allow a full and true healing to occur.

The hurt only hurt when I tried to avoid it; not letting myself feel everything that was there to be felt was actually more harmful. So I began the long process of letting go, feeling the consequences of my daily choices and all that came with them. At first it was not easy; I resisted, made excuses and even lied to myself about how great I was doing.

Initially I set a marker for myself that was actually way below how truly amazing I naturally am. When I reached the marker I believed I was doing well and moving forward, when in actual fact I was not doing it at all – I was measuring and controlling the pain and disappointment. I had chosen to set my marker lower so that I could choose to remain in and be surrounded by areas of comfort that would not expose my deeper hurts. The hurts that stopped me from shining and being all that I truly am.

How much of me am I willing to…

  • connect to,
  • remain in connection with,
  • commit myself to, and
  • commit my way of living and daily choices to,

… in order for me to be in a way that is of true service for humanity?

I was willing to do the esoteric healing courses, retreats, presentations and attend abundant sessions with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, but just attending and partaking: then I realised partaking was not enough. I had to be prepared to go deeper, to look at the bigger picture, to be completely willing and wholeheartedly open to doing whatever it took for me to heal my hurts and therefore shine.

Letting go of the non-supportive comforts of life that hold me back has been a test to my level of commitment to humanity. I have found that we often love our non-supportive comfort, in whatever form we can get it. Whether it be eating foods that are heavy or sweet, which dull or stimulate the body, to acting a certain way with friends and family just to feel accepted. Un-supportive comfort can be lots of things, for me; it is using things and being in a certain way that leaves me feeling unchallenged, or does not ask me to be all of myself.

In many forms and vices, no-one is exempt from having non-supportive comfort in their life, big, small, obvious or subtle, and when the comfort is exposed it can be raw, often painful… We tend to protect and justify it with a fight to the end. We want to hold onto this type of comfort in any way we can, even if it is only by a thread.

In the past, I chose to do and eat things that kept me feeling lethargic, heavy, racy and not supportive to my body. The daily choices that I make now involve not overeating or overdoing it when my body is feeling tired, honouring what my body is capable of – for example carrying groceries a few bags at a time instead of pushing myself to carry them all at once – and being myself around others without fear of not being liked or accepted. I am no longer attached to or have an expectation of how I think my life should look; instead I am being open to what is needed, what is loving and supportive.

So For Me… it is time to let go of the comforts I have chosen to support me in coasting through life, unchallenged and unexposed, and that have kept me less than who I truly am. Time for me to stand up, claimed in the love and light that I am and to shine for all the world to see.

I have chosen to start being honest about why I needed to eat particular foods: was I feeling tired and that is why I reached for something sweet or stimulating… or was I feeling down so chose to go shopping to make myself feel better? Being honest about what I was feeling I could begin to heal any hurts that I had buried by using life and all that life had to offer as a distraction from myself.

The level of appreciation I felt a few days ago left me pondering:

  • Why do I not do this every day, every second of my life?
  • On how easy it is, and
  • That it is there for me to see and feel whenever I so choose.

I can see that my life is now amazing and I fully appreciate how supportive my daily choices are. All that I now am is a testimony of the livingness that I have chosen to commit to, with the support and inspiration of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

By Nicole Serafin, Age 42 years, Tintenbar, NSW

543 thoughts on “Loving Daily Choices and Healing Hurts

  1. Dear Nicole, I love what you have written here and it felt like you were writing my experience as well. This line particularly – “The hurt only hurt when I tried to avoid it”. I am going to take that with me and ponder it because there is such a belief that hurts hurt more when you feel them. This turns it on its head. It can be raw when you feel them, but it is usually momentary. Living with them can feel like a life sentence, hence the comfort.

  2. Our life is the living example of the choices we make and the most loving thing we can do for ourselves is to slowly, deeply, gently go deeper and expose the small detail that keeps us trapped in what is not true – thank you Nicole.

  3. When we appreciate true and genuinely supportive changes that we’ve made in our life it helps to make them a stronger part of our foundation, from which to grow and develop even more love in the way that we live with everyone.

  4. I love to heal my hurts by truly feeling them and let them go for ever. True freedom is there. What a gift to have the esoteric Healing modalities available in our lives if chosen so.

  5. I can now see that my hurts, and the deliberate choice to go into them are the one thing that is blocking living the FULL powerful, loving, wise and tender man that I am. So I am committed dealing with them, and the same time not judging myself, still accepting my grandness, that I am a great guy, when I stuff up every now and then.

  6. I recently had an experience that exposed the level of comfort I had been living in and choosing to ignore. What I learnt was that although it was painful to feel, the joy and expansion I felt after taking responsibility for my choice of comfort was incredible. It was far more painful to sit in comfort than it was to expose what I was turning a blind eye to.

    1. Thank you Kim, this is very inspiring ” It was far more painful to sit in comfort than it was to expose what I was turning a blind eye to.”

  7. Once we let go of the hurt there is more on offer in how we can build a life of consistency in our foundation. The choices keep bringing more clarity, simplicity and the wonderful teachings of how life can be lived through the teaching of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

  8. Thank you Nicole, this is fabulous. I haven’t really considered comfort in relation to burying and managing hurts, so your words have offered me a great insight.

  9. ‘The hurt only hurt when I tried to avoid it..’ This is true, we are so afraid of feeling what we feel, but it is the only way to actually free ourselves from the crutches of avoiding the hurt. Seem like all our habits, all our behaviours are used as an avoidance, so take away the avoidance, the habits then aren’t needed.

  10. When you reached out the words : expectations of how you want life to be.. It literally killed one of my big comforts, I could feel that for the first time I were more open considering my own image of “life” and how I want it to be.. I can feel from image I am holding the true reality away, which is very needed for me to see actually.. So what this blog learned me is now to discard the images and expectations I have about how life should look and move on from them – seeing reality in life and let life come to me in truth. I serve much better myself and others from that.

  11. Where we stand today is a culmination of all our past choices and we are in a perfect position to change the patterns and momentums which keep us in comfort and in denial of who we truly are. It is never too late to start the journey of uncovering our hurt and to heal their root causes, this requires an honesty, an openness and a willingness to see ourselves in all our amazingness and to also see what it is, and why we have chosen to live less than our amazingness.

  12. ‘Time for me to stand up, claimed in the love and light that I am and to shine for all the world to see.’ Beautifully said Nicole, the world needs powerful reflections such as yours as too many have forgotten the truth of who they are and are living in a way that is not loving or supportive. Learning to live without comforts seems overwhelming at first but the more you let them go the lighter and grander life becomes.

  13. “I was not aware nor was I at all present with how my daily choices were impacting on my body.” I can relate to this way of living too Nicole, being in my head the majority of the time allowed me not to feel the impact my disregarding choices were having on my body and I realised how disempowering it was to do this to myself as well as dull my awareness of the effect I was having on everyone else around me.

  14. Huge blog Nicole… I know exactly what you mean about those unsupportive comforts. They are not good for me but I hang on to them for dear life. Your blog allows me to feel where I am at with this … and yes it is uncomfortable 🙂

  15. There is no forced change in this either. No I must eat this way or I must do more of this for myself. It comes so naturally and gracefully through simple self honesty, without criticism and acknowledging the changes and enjoying the process along the way.

  16. Allowing ourselves to be who we are and not calibrating or measuring to fit how we think others want us to be is huge. When we stop calibrating and controlling, and drop our guard and allow ourselves to just be, it’s actually liberating and empowering for us and everyone around us.

  17. Prior to meeting Serge Benhayon I believed I was living a very responsible and caring life, particularly in comparison to many others. However, what Serge presented, and never ceases to present, is a way of life and level of integrity that made me realise I was living in total judgmental and arrogant illusion. This was challenging to acknowledge and accept but by doing so my life has become simpler, less stressful and more honest and truthful.

  18. “I had to allow myself to feel the hurt and all that came with that in order to allow a full and true healing to occur.” This is why healing is not an easy process and why many people are not willing to go there. However, it is essential and the freedom and joy that comes with the healing out ways any pain one experiences and is beyond words.

  19. This is an ongoing project if you like, an ongoing commitment or living way. It’s not that you never get to the end of it but the mere fact you think or perceive it ends is already blinding you to another part. Life isn’t what it seems, just a physical outplay of what is going on around you, there is an energetic part that accounts to life before the physical comes into play. So there is a life within a life, ever thought of someone and had them call or remember something and then notice it more or look for red cars and think you haven’t seen any for ages only to see so many. We see in life what we put into life and so hold life as just a physical thing and your view will narrow to that, open up to more and more of life being another way and that will also present itself to you through your eyes. Ever had the feeling of more, or life being about something bigger? It’s not chasing the physical things in life that fill this void but more the energetic part, the greater part of what is going on around you. Life and the awareness around life keeps growing or expanding and if we stop this expansion or growth then we allow something else to come in.

  20. it is super inspiring to read of your absolute commitment to jump in, boots and all, into learning to uncover the truth of life… to be honest about how we are in the many ways that is not congruent with that truth. and as you have shared “The hurt only hurt when I tried to avoid it; not letting myself feel everything that was there to be felt was actually more harmful. ” – therein lies the cause of so many complications we create in life just to avoid having to face what hurts, when in fact this just creates a thicker fog around us to not see that ‘hurt’ is not of us at all. freedom is being able to see the truth of us beyond the fog. So commitment to honesty and love are the first necessary steps.

  21. Recently I had a very tangible realisation that I am actually untouchable – nothing can ever touch me unless I allow it. It was very simple, and the difference between that, and allowing complications in my life, was stark – like black and white. I used to be ruled by my hurts, but now I can allow them to surface without the avoiding, obsessing and indulging that used to be my every day. Thank you Serge Benhayon for bringing the incredible teachings of the Ancient Wisdom and making sense of it in our every day life. I am learning to be greater Love all the time knowing its never stops. There is always more.

  22. This morning I am feeling pretty raw, something has happened that has triggered some of this hurt feeling you describe Nicole. So it’s a beautiful reminder to read your words and remember that the biggest difficulty we face is caused by us running away. I am going to support myself this morning and just feel what is there and what is happening for me.

  23. Nicole it is amazing to hear the changes you have made. Serge Benhayon has been a beacon of light for many and will continue to be for many many years to come.
    In a world where we have lost our way there is a man who is reminding us all of the truth we hold in our inner hearts.

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