A Playful Walk – What My Shadow Reflected to Me

Recently on an early morning walk I felt how sweet I am and how delicately and flowingly my body actually moves. Through the reflection of my shadow, I watched how my body moved without any imposition, with true flow and freedom. Even though I was moving, this delicateness and lightness had a quality of stillness about it that was simply lovely – unimposingly delicious, innocent, tender, delicate, open and what I call and can sum up as ‘sweet’.

This somewhat surprised me because a couple of weeks ago it was suggested I use ‘feeling the sweetness of my voice’ in a blog I was writing. But at that time I could not accept this– especially regarding my voice. As words to describe myself, or my voice, I could accept loving, strong, loyal and dedicated but not being sweet.

As I continued my early morning walk, I was able to claim that sweetness was something that lay within me. However, when I changed direction and my shadow moved to my side or even behind me I didn’t quite feel the same quality in my body – I didn’t feel like I walked with the true and absolute authority of knowing without any doubt or questioning that sweetness was me in every aspect of my being and body. So I asked myself… if I only feel this innate quality when my shadow is in front of me, have I truly claimed and accepted how deeply sweet and still I am?

The answer to this question was clearly no, even though it was so obvious in my shadow and the way it reflected my movement, my walking, the way my hair was shaped, etc.

I then posed these questions to myself . . .

  • What has come in the way of my knowing that this quality has always been there? Basically I had worked out from a young age that this sweetness and sensitivity does not get seen, nurtured or even honored so I very quickly became the strong independent child who didn’t seem to bother about things and seemed to be able to handle life, but deep down I had many things that if someone had truly asked how I felt, I probably would have cried. I learned to suppress the way I was feeling. I have used many forms of protection, such as being forcefully direct, exercising my body to make it hard, using the ‘happy go lucky girl’ facade, reacting to some situations and being over the top at times
  • Does self-doubt, self-sabotage and being hard prevent me from even recognising this quality that has always lain deep within me?
  • Why did I not trust the power of this innate quality all along? It is something I know others feel when I allow it to be there. The trick was sadly falling for the hardening route as I now know that being in true connection with this sweetness and allowing myself to be sensitive has an amazing strength and power.

As I continued my walk, I played with keeping the knowing that I am sweet in my body even when my shadow was behind me…

  • I realised that I was not able to really see or appreciate the sweetness in others due to my hardening. I had used this hardness as a type of defence to protect me from getting hurt and to not allow others to get too close
  • The ripple effect of my allowing this quality to be expressed would be a reflection and an opportunity for my daughter to allow her natural sweetness to be there too.

After finishing my early morning walk I began to look at ways to allow myself to support this quality to remain in its full presence all of the time, such as when I sit on my chair at work or at the dinner table, when I am brushing my teeth, when I am pouring hot water from the kettle to make a cup of tea, when I am hugging my daughter, when I am holding my husband’s hand or when I am smiling at a stranger or someone I know.

Since then I have come to fully appreciate how sweet I am and I continue to allow it to be there in every part of my day, just as it was reflected to me in my shadow. Now I feel this as I gently move, walk or speak. It is now something that I know is me in full, and not a surprise, but a quality that I already feel in my body, and appreciate and know is me when I see it in my reflection.

Inspired by the presentations and the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

By Johanna Smith, Bachelor of Education, Perth WA

Further reading:
From Suffering From Withdrawals – To Healthy Relationships And True Intimacy
The Gentle Breath Meditation: A Tool For Life
Esoteric Yoga: Truth in Stillness

631 thoughts on “A Playful Walk – What My Shadow Reflected to Me

  1. I can relate to the feeling that sweetness is a weakness and not a strength. But its is worth questioning if this is what we are truly feeling or what society has imposed onto us. There are so much pictures around sweetness, like that sweetness and intelligence don’t go together for instance. In truth sweetness is very beautiful and a strength and this is something I am embracing more and more.

  2. ‘What has come in the way of my knowing that this quality has always been there?’ It is a great question to ask ourselves – ‘what has got in the way? – because we have created a lot of ‘stuff’ between ourselves and our true essence that apparently blocks it or blinds us to it. Having the willingness to be aware of our ‘stuff’ is very necessary in order that we can ‘realise’ ourselves out of it.

  3. Sometimes we can be blocked by the image we hold over ourselves. I used to do that. Me tender? That did not fit into the picture I held of myself. But there was no denying in my body that this was actually a quality that wanted to lived and expressed once again.

  4. I loved that you could relearn about your sweetness from your shadow, it is amazing what is there for us to see if we start to open ourselves up to the possibility that there is a constant communication happening to help us back to the truth that we chose to bury because the world didn’t want or value it.

  5. We spend lifetimes trying to cultivate and master an image we think we are, and often find it hard to accept when a drop of our true essence gets seen, or let alone appreciated by others.

  6. I know I lived in protection for many years avoiding people or situations so I wouldn’t get hurt again, but in this I ended up feeling miserable and hurting even more as I was missing expressing all of me and feeling any true connection with others.

  7. It’s quite ironic really. We harden to protect ourselves thinking we won’t get hurt by others, but this protection also holds us back from expressing our qualities and thus living our potential which in itself hurts us.

  8. Beautiful to read Johanna, thank you for reminding us of the sweetness, strength and power that we all hold as women when being true to who we are.

  9. “I now know that being in true connection with this sweetness and allowing myself to be sensitive has an amazing strength and power.” A beautiful realisation of the strength and power of being who you naturally are.

  10. We can learn about a quality that we represent through different ways. How do we learn matters but not the crucial thing. What truly matters is whether we claim it and start moving (with) it or not.

    1. I agree Eduardo. The quality of sweetness is within me. I sense it, it is claimed, I see it in the reflection of others often and express it but what matters most is living it is my every movement bringing and offering it to the world.

  11. Our sweetness is an exquisite reflection or expression of our delicateness, and to claim and express this quality through our daily living, is to bring more of the truth of who we all are to life. And if we look around at the world today with honesty, we will see that generally our innate sweetness being lived, is greatly lacking.

  12. Most like quality to be there in the products they use and buy. We all love the feeling of using high quality items. But do we consider sweetness as a quality that is equally as important as efficiency, Love and Care? Sweetness is seen as a wussy sort of word but it is one with indeed much power as it when lived opens us up to greater awareness and greater lightness in life.

    1. Sweetness is not a trait limited to girls, I see so much sweetness in boys and even men but the false male macho role models make it harder for boys to hold onto this as they harden to conform. Yet I am often detecting a sweetness still there underneath the tattoos and the hard exteriors.

  13. I am learning to become more and more familiar with my true qualities, such as joy, in my daily movements. It is a slow process of accepting how normal it is to constantly express joy and not allow complication to sabotage such a natural way of living.

  14. It is an indictment on society today and our view of
    health and well being when the loss of sensitivity in ones expression is not even remotely clocked as an illness when there is no wonder why such a choice would cause many more complications later in life especially from contraction of not living ones essence.

  15. I love the insights we can arrive at when we go for a walk with our bodies. Paying attention to the qualities we can feel from within. It’s like by asking the question the answers come just as you’ve described here Johanna.

  16. To be told or it suggested that one is “sweet” or has a sweetness about them is not a very common experience these days. I have had an experience of this just recently and as I sat with that there came a sense of beauty and delicateness a quite lovely experience as I connected to this aspect of myself.

  17. Thank you Johanna, it’s a beautiful journey retuning to the truth of ourselves, meeting ourselves in full, and then living and walking with our inner qualities.

  18. I played with my shadow a bit after initially reading this article, I feel to go and have another play – when we have some sun here in the UK – you have inspired me, ‘Since then I have come to fully appreciate how sweet I am and I continue to allow it to be there in every part of my day, just as it was reflected to me in my shadow. Now I feel this as I gently move, walk or speak.’

  19. We are our greatest reflections (mirror) of what we have chosen and what not. If we choose to see the beyond imaginary and or comforts we will truly see.. As it is teached by Serge Benhayon to mankind – we can be our greatest saviors or worst enemy – the choice is ours. But at least he has shown us the true way forth.. For us now to walk with every step of every day..

  20. What was revealed to me in this article was that we are ok when we can physically see something but the moment it’s out of view we change and think it’s not the same. This is the gap between truly feeling and seeing because if we are waiting for everything to be seen in a certain way then our view will be obscured and the moment whatever it is isn’t seen that way anymore we will leave it behind us and ‘look’ for the next thing. Appreciation, true appreciation for what you are feeling allows you to stand on a platform of feeling and from there nothing is missed.

  21. I imagine a lot of us keep, or have kept, our sweetness hidden for one reason or another, how great to playfully play with this, ‘I had worked out from a young age that this sweetness and sensitivity does not get seen, nurtured or even honored’.

  22. A very timely read for me Johanna as I move through the bodies repercussion of hardening up in protection. You have offered me a moment to feel my sweetness and take a moment to feel the strength in what it offers. We can walk around waiting for the world to show us it’s sweetness of we can bring ours to it.

  23. It’s great to stay open and question ourselves on the way we think and behave, and from there, take what we discover and put it into a practical activity. The next time I go for a walk I will be playfully paying attention to my shadow.

  24. Johanna, thank you for the timely reminder of the importance of connecting to my sweetness and playfulness .

  25. Such a beautiful article Johanna reminding us to always honour and appreciate all the qualities we bring as women and to never hold back on sharing them to the world.

  26. Beautiful to read Johanna, thank you. As I take myself for a walk this morning I will take particular note of the love and truth reflected in my shadow.

  27. ‘this delicateness and lightness had a quality of stillness about it that was simply lovely – unimposingly delicious, innocent, tender, delicate, open and what I call and can sum up as ‘sweet’.’ I am starting to embrace my sweetness and allow myself to truly feel what it is and how it feels in my body. And you have summed it up beautifully, very inspiring Johanna.

  28. The sweetness that we feel within ourselves is so much more powerful than any protection we put on in turning hard or forceful. This sweetness of being sweet especially is others can feel this sweetness within themselves too. This too has been a testimony in my life and with those around me.

  29. ‘feeling the sweetness of my voice’, for most of my life I have never liked my voice as it always sounded hard. Well of course it sounded hard as I went into so much hardness not to feel and to keep me safe. All my movements were rushed, pushed and yes hard! That said I have changed a lot over the last few years and have cleared and released so much of that old movement from my body. I am so much more aware of how I move, and now I love to feel how delicate and tender I actually am and my naturally sweetness as a women.I have so much to deeply appreciate.

  30. it never ceases to amaze me the reflections and awarenesses I receive when I take myself for a walk in nature, It feels that everything is constellated for me to see and feel what is required in order to deepen my relationship with my inner being. Johanna, I loved reading about how your shadow reflected your relationship with your sweetness and your willingness to look at, and deepen your connection with this divine quality.

  31. I love watching my shadow, when it is long, or short and even playing with it, there is a lightness to it that dances along next to me, which is a great reminder that when I am playful I too am light on my feet and my touch.

  32. Beautiful to read again and feel how we are forever held in God’s love, as through the magic of nature and the universe we are confirmed of the divine qualities that reflect who we are in essence, offering us the opportunity to bring more of our Soulfulness to life.

  33. It is such a shame that our sweetness is not honoured and nurtured from young so that we don’t grow up needing outside confirmation to feel what is innately true. How gorgeous however that you have been able to truly become aware and can appreciate that it has been with you all this time and you are indeed all what you see in your shadow and more.

    1. It’s a bit nuts, isn’t it?! When I observe the sweetness in young girls I melt. In fact, when I observe young girls with their fathers I notice how often their dads melt too and how the girls have them all wrapped up around their little fingers, as they say! At what point does this break, at what point is this no longer seen? Is it possible that as a child grows and hardens up in the face of school/life, losing connection with this sweetness then the adults around them stop seeing it so clearly and stop confirming them in it?

  34. Walking is such a great reflection of how we have been living. It is lovely to feel how the body responds when I have been living in rhythm and with awareness; there is a lightness and joy in my movements.

  35. When we walk ourselves in the full presence and grace that we are it can actually allow a spring of joy to come to our steps.

  36. “Through the reflection of my shadow, I watched how my body moved without any imposition” beautiful Johanna. Having walked with my young grandchildren this week on sunny days I’m wondering if this is why they are so fascinated with shadows – just a shadow reflection of everything that is there – no impositions. In Indonesia shadow plays are renowned as artistic endeavours – often a re-telling of dramas such as the Mahabarata – the battle of dark and light.

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