A few years ago the expression “Become who I really am” came to my awareness and slowly transformed into a life-changing revelation. When I first heard it, I felt empowered; it was like a call to become who I always intuitively knew I was. However, it didn´t stop there – it got complicated as I went through a lot of thinking:
- Who was I really? If normally I am not who I really am, then who am I most of the time?
- Am I being invalidated in some way?
- Is someone going to know who I am, better than I do?
I had found relief in defending that I am both my shadow and my talents. After all, it seemed impossible to get rid of my darkness; therefore I should stop fighting against it and accept it as part of me as well. I also thought about what I had done in my life: my studies, working life, abilities, insecurities, relationships, and projections onto the future. However, I was still a bit unclear about “Who I really was.”
My mind came with a possible list of qualities that could define me. They were more like talents I had been trying to cultivate, ideals I had picked up in my psychological researches and spiritual searches, values I had taken from all sorts of institutions such as family, school, friendships, and things that I had admired or envied in others.
What became clear though, was that I spent most of my time in my mind; I used self-criticism a lot, tried to control how I came across, and was always trying to better myself as I craved being recognized.
The expression, “Be who you really are,” expanded and I was offered the possibility to know myself by my essence of Love, Harmony and Joy.
Could someone be described through these qualities and nothing more? What about all the things I´ve done? What about my intellectual knowledge? What about my hidden cravings and not so nice stuff?
Being Love, Harmony and Joy sounded quite simplistic… like a new age passage, nice to hear, but proclaiming from one day to the next that I was Love, Harmony and Joy felt a bit far-out and uncomfortable.
I also didn´t like that, if I was these, or had these qualities in myself, I was not the only one, the rest of humanity had them as well. It implied a sort of dissolution of the attachments I had to my personality, my little stories that felt very important and authentic. All my efforts to become someone in a world where recognition, identification and standing out over the crowd are very much appreciated, all of a sudden became meaningless.
Even though accepting this reality would mean the liberation from the many struggles in my life and the end of the separation I felt to others, I just wouldn’t accept it so easily.
What change would it make to know myself through my essence rather than through what I did, my achievements, losses, all my behaviours and ideas on weak and strong self-esteem?
If I could stop identifying myself with all the heavy stuff I´ve been dealing with for ages, could it be that everything that was holding me back, keeping me messy and re-creating more of the same, would start to finally shift?
What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all? What if we are all equal in our essence, but express in many different ways and it is never about validation, competition or defence?
Lastly and gradually, I gave myself the chance to possibly accept something grander – even grander than my old ideas on the higher self, God and spirituality – ideas that were always outside of me.
Accepting myself as being Love, Harmony and Joy has made me go through lots of self-doubt and hesitation. Sometimes I have felt apprehensive about losing my identity and certain relationships.
What I never imagined though, is that my acceptance of something so simple, yet so powerful and universal, would take me through a journey of deep self-transformation and acceptance of humanity.
My well-known imperfections haven´t magically disappeared from one day to the next. I am actually more aware of my past, the way I used to live and the unloving consequences of my past behaviours come back at me sometimes in discouraging ways.
However, what has truly changed is my understanding and how I relate to all these in ways that no longer seek to indulge in a debilitating self-loathing or self-condemnation and the evasiveness of aloofness and avoidance of responsibility:
- I now know that all of those shabby places within myself shouldn’t be accepted as normal or inevitable parts of Who I am, but ways I have ignorantly used to self-protect, and self-defend, from all sort of deep emotional hurts, and ultimately for survival and self-gain.
- I have come to understand that the connection to my inner amazing being was progressively lost when growing up as I learned to adhere to ways of living and being that allowed me to fit in and gave me accepted identities, but in truth didn´t support my loving qualities to expand from within and express out confidently.
- I know I am in a process of healing, saying goodbye and discarding issues that have a strong hold on me because for so long I believed they were me. When feelings of emptiness and misery look like me, or when sabotage looks like an easy way out of difficult situations, I use honesty, discernment and detachment to support me with these.
My focus is not anymore about changing or judging my personality, my looks, my nose, my job, my family, my friends, my country, but how to live in a way that allows all the beauty I am reclaiming back to come out and express. This has required a new level of acceptance, as to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.
My body was just `something´ I took everywhere without much care or awareness and respect for its powerful intelligence. I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.
The more I discern and keep aligning back to a quality that to me feels closer to harmony, the more I organise my movements, my choices and all of myself in ways that allow for a more loving way of living to unfold naturally, without sacrifice or becoming alien in a very busy world. It is not perfect, but a deeply powerful process that is forever unfolding and deepening towards the true Harmony, Love and Joy I am.
Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life. It is something that deserves true consideration and a commitment to be explored in each one of us. It is true evolution!
I have been inspired by Serge Benhayon and deeply appreciate the trust he brings back in the deep knowing of Who We Really Are.
by Luz Helena Hincapié, Bogotá, Colombia
Further Reading:
Essence
How Amazing it feels to Be Myself
Inspired By Universal Medicine…Just Being Me
The Truth about Serge Benhayon 
“Is someone going to know who I am, better than I do?” God and our Soul know the Divinity of who we are.
I can remember many times throughout my life when I used to wonder who I really was, for at times there seemed to be ‘someone else’ running my life, as what was playing out didn’t appear to relate to what I knew deep inside. It was very confusing indeed, but until Serge Benhayon came into my life in 2005, I kept on living in this confusion. And it was from his amazingly supportive and inspiring presentations, which made so much sense of life, that I began to understand why, and at the same time began to understand me so much more; and the me I finally uncovered is one gorgeous woman, who I fall in love with more each day.
When we know who we are from our qualities there is no need for perfection. When we know who we are from out abilities, we will never be enough.
Many of us go into survival mode to survive whatever it is that we feel is trying to harm and or crush us especially when we are small as our current way of raising children is not so that they can be all that they naturally are by essence but to crush them so that they give up and become like the adults around them robots of life, and not living life to the full.
I know I lived a reduced and smaller version of myself for many years, I was miserable and exhausted and felt disempowered. Meeting Serge Benhayon changed all that I was awakened to the truth and beauty of who I truly am, this was only possible because of Serge’s powerful reflection inspiring me to live the true me.
I didn’t realise that for most of my life, up to 55, I had been living a ‘reduced and smaller version of myself’ and like you, it took meeting Serge Benhayon to begin to clearly see this. There were many times when I struggled to understand how I was ever going to grow into my true form, but presentation by presentation, book by book written by Serge, I slowly began to let go of the smaller version of me and embrace the much larger version that had always been waiting for me to say yes to it. I must say, that living the true version of me is way easier than trying to live the reduced version.
When we become overwhelmed we loose our conscious presence of the moment we are in. This is the worst trouble we can get ourselves in. Who we really are, is with us in our present time, all we have to do is being still from within in our every move.
‘allows all the beauty I am reclaiming back to come out and express’ … and this we can do, allow our beauty out, bring understanding to where we are and let go our ideas of how we and the world should be.
To me Serge Benhayon has been the only person in my life who said to me
“Mary you are far more than you are currently living” and that got me thinking what is this man seeing about me that no one else has. Why has no one told me this before? Is it possible that there is more to me and more to life than ticking the boxes? And if there is more to me then there must be more to us, and of course there is much more to us all than we are willing to admit. I say ‘willing to admit’ because if we did admit to be much more then we would have to forgo our comfortable but dissatisfied lives and reevaluate our way of living.
To accept who we are, to understand that we are not all those roles we take on, that always there is in all of us an essence that is untouched, that is there to be lived, a beauty ready to come out, that is the journey to discovering who we truly are, and the best thing of all, is that it’s all there in us ready and waiting. We often just need a trigger to remind us, for us to look beyond how we’ve been and where we are to see and feel that we are so much more than all that, a call back to the depths of us, and in that we connect to both us and everyone, for we all have this in us, no matter how we present outside. This unites us all.
Disconnected from my true essence, I lose myself and more likely to react to the world around me. This has a ripple effect that impacts on others that is unloving and should be avoided.
I am now in my 60’s and it is only in the last few years can I can say that I have begun to truly know myself which is extremely beautiful and am forever indebted to Serge Benhayon for being the inspirational reflection and guiding light for this to happen. Prior to meeting him I knew myself by the roles of how I believed I should be and endeavoured to fulfill. It has been, and still is, a journey to divest myself of these identifications.
‘Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life. It is something that deserves true consideration and a commitment to be explored in each one of us. It is true evolution! ‘ Consciously being aware of the quality of touch that I bring and the quality that I move within and from my body and the gentle quality of my breath all support me in re aligning to my natural essence. I can feel this in the centre of my chest and can nurture this feeling as I deepen my connection.
If we call us a version of us, who we are is always bigger than whoever we pretend to be. That is why, learning the truth of who we are changes quite a bit, if we walk it.
I remember when I first started hearing and re-discovering ‘who I really was’. I wondered about this phrase and how this could be related to people who thought they knew who they were but were actually knowing themselves from their talents, ideals and feedback from the world. The only thing that changed and brought awareness for me was the Gentle Breath Meditation, then Esoteric Yoga, which allowed me to feel who I was for the first time since I was a kid, free of who I thought I was.
This is so profound and mega important.. As we live with ourselves everyday.. So does it shows our reality that we have lost our true sense of purpose in life, because we have forgotten who we innately are. Thank you for sharing.
This morning while being out, I kept seeing the word ‘vessel’ in all kinds of places and it feels like a perfect reminder for me right now.
This rings several loud bells of how I used to compromise true expression by conforrming to what was required by parents, school, society etc. There is much to appreciate in the teachings presented by Universal Medicine and the support to make changes and new choices to bring more understanding of who I am in truth.
“I have come to understand that the connection to my inner amazing being was progressively lost when growing up as I learned to adhere to ways of living and being that allowed me to fit in and gave me accepted identities, but in truth didn´t support my loving qualities to expand from within and express out confidently”.
On re-reading this blog today, I am again inspired to deepen the true relationship with my body and continue to build a deeper level of nurturing and care with it.The teachings that Universal Medicine offer are a blueprint for returning to live from the truth of our innermost essence that is there in all.
One of the most beautiful Contributions to humanity that Universal Medicine brings is offering the doorway to that simple profound knowing of who we truly are.
We invest in so much that brings us identification just so that we stand out from the crowd or so we think, and yet none of it assists us to know who we are without the doing – it all still leaves us feeling empty.
Reconnecting to who we truly are is to reconnect to God and His Divine Love.
We have made it all about being right or wrong so it is understandably to feel a bit unsettled with the idea of being Love, Harmony and Joy in essence, whatever we have done. But it does not make it less true!
We are a part of the whole and the whole is God and each part is equal to the whole so why do we play small and hide in our comforts? It is perhaps to do wanting to stay separate as an individual when we in fact can never be separate as we are part of a whole! What a waste of time and effort investing in individuality when it doesn’t really exit outside of our own head.
I was asking myself about deepening the acceptance of myself and my choices, this blog has been a great support rather than entertaining the thoughts of “It’s too much/above you, you should give up now” Accepting all the beauty within me is not hard but very simple and that I am that simplicity. And when it comes to living this the simplicity is not instant at first but takes time and thats ok too.
We cannot escape who we are. We run from our grandness more than we distance ourselves from our mistakes and unloving choices.
“I have been inspired by Serge Benhayon and deeply appreciate the trust he brings back in the deep knowing of Who We Really Are.” Me too Luz, Serge continually inspires me to return to my true essence even though it’s been covered over in so many ways to the point I believed my behaviours, emotions and misery were who I am. And, the return to living from my essence is beautiful.
One can only be who he/she truly is. That will never change. Other thing is who we are in this life and what we portray to be. The latter two are enormous reductions from the first one. Yet, the key is held in what we portray to be. We have an opportunity (within limits, of course) to share with the world who we truly are.
I have found that as time goes on and since coming to Universal Medicine I have taken away layers of who I am not, allowing more and more of who I truly am to be seen. As I do this, there are no startling revelations of who I truly am. In fact it feels like the most normal thing in the world and I have always felt it – I have always been me. It’s only the layers on top that get taken off and discarded.
I love the simplicity you share here Luz of simply connecting with our essence through our bodies and the joy, harmony and love that is naturally occurring in all of us and yet expressed in our own unique way which we can truly connect with and value and we don’t have to prove ourselves, try to be anything else or more or judge ourselves for our imperfections. Very beautiful and very healing for me to read at this time.
Coming to understand that all that is not of love and harmony is not in truth me but instead adornments that I have gathered through life and can be discarded like a coat to reveal me in my truth of being a Divine Being is the greatest blessing possible – and that has come about through the blessing of Serge Benhayon.
The path within has always been simple…and will always be so until we all return.
It was only after I had gone through and let go of a lot of who I am not that I started to develop a deeper connection to who I truly am.
Struggle and emotion have no foundation – it is brilliant to read this and see these for what they are – the complication that pulls us off track from what we can truly bring. This sharing brings a simplicity to how we can live if we choose to not make it about only the physical and issues but live from the truth of the body.
I love how this blog supports the detachment from everything we have created. My achievements and failures are not who I/we really are.
Beautifully said Luz. When our essence is love, joy and truth we get to see immediately all that we use to not accept this very fact.
‘What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all?’ This is an amazing question that exposes that perhaps we have been fooled into thinking that we are our issues when in fact this is not true. What I have been learning lately is how hard I have to work at keeping things simple which sounds silly but it does take a lot of work to keep life simple and not create complication and indulgence in anything from food to so-called issues etc.
Allowing for a natural more loving way of living is so supportive, ‘Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life.’ Absolutely.
Thank you Luz… We can take something just as simple as walking… And within this we can feel such a beautiful harmony, a rhythm and a joy, or we can just get somewhere.
Totally gorgeous Luz, you have brilliantly cover the steps to in walking back to love and out of self.
Before meeting Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine the question of ‘Of who am I really? was not one I had really considered. I was just me. However, doing so was a huge unravelling revelation as I discovered the ‘me’ that I had taken for granted was not really me but a me that was identified by what I did – it was like a coat I wore. Taking that coat off has, and still is, an ongoing deepening as I re-connect and reveal to ME myself and the world.
We have never been encouraged to learn to know who we are but instead all have been led into the myriad of false images we were told to look into.
It is through our body, our presence, and the quality of how we live and move each day, that helps re-connect us back to our essence, who we are in truth.
Knowing who you are is something everyone in the world wants, and it has only been through the Gentle Breath Meditation I’ve discovered what that inner connection, and following tangible daily experience feels like.
On the entrance to the Temple of Apollo at Delphi the ancient Greeks inscribed the words – “Know Thyself”. In these two words is every thing we need to uncover who we truly are and understand that the teaching ‘I am that I am’. For if we know the depth of who we are, we will know the second something enters that does match the absolute beauty of this. We are not the sum total of all the ideals, beliefs and behaviours we have taken on in life. Deep to the core of us we are Divine and we have simply allowed these shadows to cloud the truth of who we are and thus the majesty of this light.
Beautifully expressed, Liane, and I am forever thankful to Serge Benhayon for enabling me to understand the true meaning of “Know Thyself”.
The more I have embraced and surrendered to who I truly am, the more I have realised that all of these qualities have been there all along and I do not need to look for anything outside of myself to express in full.
That is simple and true and a great start point.
The true love, harmony and joy you mention together with other true qualities of the Soul and our essence are beautiful described in Unimedpedia: http://www.unimedliving.com/unimedpedia/word-index and are so very much more than we acknowledge as are we.
This is a great question to ponder on Luz, ‘Who was I really? If normally I am not who I really am, then who am I most of the time?’ I am letting go of what i am not, the ideals, beliefs, pictures and allowing my true self to emerge, to be seen and felt in full.
We are all innately connected by our inner essence and it is how we express this inner quality to the world that makes us unique and yet still equally needed as a grander part of the universal puzzle. We really are one and that is very beautiful to feel and to appreciate.
This is so true Luz , everything you have expressed makes sense to me .
” Who I truly am ” is Who you truly are
‘What change would it make to know myself through my essence rather than through what I did..?’ This is a question I asked myself, and thankfully I was willing to give it a go, because my previous way of living was making me miserable. What made the choice easier was seeing how others who had made that choice were living and I was inspired.
‘…how to live in a way that allows all the beauty I am reclaiming back to come out and express.’ – This is awesome – what we let go of is great – but what confirms this is to express what we are and not what we have let go of. What a shift in how we are in ourselves and with others.
‘Be who I truly am’ – Well,l it took me a little while to peel back the layers and feel the essence of me, the natural me that is full of joy when I connect and engage with people, life and the universality of who we all truly are.
‘Being who I truly am’ meant little to me a few years ago, but after a few years of letting go of all the ideals and beliefs I was using to define myself I now have a strong presence and sense of who I truly am which doesn’t involve pictures or a long list of things I do. The less I think and the more I let my body lead the way the greater my connection to me becomes.
We are so much more than our minds would have us believe.
Absolutely Victoria, we become very lost and confused if we let the mind take over.
Our bodies are magnificent really and when we listen and live in respect to our essence, the body and mind working in union nothing is out of order.
This is a beautiful expression of coming home to you Luz. ‘Who am i really’ is a question I too asked and searched for for years through many different avenues before I came to realise that I was right here all along, the one in the All and the all in the One.
‘This has required a new level of acceptance, as to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.’ This statement captures the very essence of what I was recently trying to communicate to a friend about the difference for me between acquiring more ‘mind’ knowledge and living from the wisdom of my body.
You bring it back to simplicity Luz, it’s through how we live in our bodies, how we walk, what we choose, what we allow – this is how we live and accept the truth of who we are.
Equality would not even be a thing if we honoured and expressed from our essence and accepted the same spark in all others. Equality would be our natural base line, our foundation from which true Godly connection and brotherhood then stems.
I love the question of “can I live as who I really am?”, because it forces me to look at who I really am, and drop away the pictures of who I think I am, and just be me.
The beauty of returning to who we are inside is the constant blossoming and expanding that is felt from our centre. The moment we live what we feel, we are called to take another step and deepen to feel the endless well of love that reveales itself constantly, shedding from our bodies anything we have lived, accepted or allowed that is not from the love inside. A walk in life that I cannot imagine being with out.
Thank you Luz for your fabulous blog, it requires quite in depth study as there is such a lot of gold here. I could relate to this line in regards to allowing myself to be the love, joy and harmony of the soul “It implied a sort of dissolution of the attachments I had to my personality, my little stories that felt very important and authentic”. I could definitely feel the identification I have also had to the smallness, to the human life, and even the issues, instead of the multidimensionality of the Soul and myself as a being. There can even be a sense of safety, comfort and familiarity in that smallness, and also in the actual misery it brings.
“Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life. ” So true Luz. When we all can accept – and appreciate – that our innermost has it all, the world will be a very different place.
Such a powerful and inspiring blog Luz on accepting and living who we truly are and this line is a beautiful reminder of this ‘ I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.’
This is gorgeous Luz, the more we accept the fact we are love, the more we can move in this truth. The more we move in this truth, what is not of this truth comes to the surface to be exposed giving us the opportunity to stop this movement away from love and bring it back to our divine truth.
It’s amazing how we can build ourselves an identity out of traits or issues that are in truth not a part of our essence and yet not surprising due to how much individuality is championed in our world.
It is a well-worth re-discovery of ourselves to bring awareness to all of the roles and ideals we have adopted in life and to know ourselves by our true essence – by the purity of Love that is forever inside us, untainted.
What a great exploration of the use of your mind and coming to accept the truth as being the quality through which you are living IN your body. Awesome blog Luz. Thank you.
“This has required a new level of acceptance, as to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body”.
Yes beautifully true, it is an embodiment of love lived and not a mental construct.
Who we are is not who we think we are. There is always a grander version of us waiting for us. This is our truer us. Connecting to it is always extraordinary just to realize how natural is for us to feel grander.
I love Luz how you are totally realistic in what you have shared, that “My well-known imperfections haven´t magically disappeared from one day to the next.” you know that these, as you say well-know imperfections, or we could say old behaviours, don’t go away magically. It is in bringing awareness to the fact that they are there, being more conscious of them, so the make other choices, that is how we change ourselves, lovingly so.
“Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life. It is something that deserves true consideration and a commitment to be explored in each one of us. It is true evolution!” Absolutely Luz, I truly enjoyed your sharing here.
When we reduce ourselves to the layers that stand in the way of us living our truth – life feels incomplete and we seek recognition for what we do within those layers rather than being in the expansiveness of what lies beneath.
Thank you Luz, that is a beautiful example to start knowing who we truly are.. We are the torch carriers of our own light. So the moment we taking our lights out is the path of a new (or actually re-born) beginning.
In essence we are One and the same.
Who we are can never be identified by what we do, as much as our minds would like to tell us so. And words are empty unless lived. As you say Luz, it is through the body and the quality of how we live and move each day, that re-connects us to the true qualities of love, truth, harmony, stillness and joy that we are.
YES to this, the power of your words and lived experience ask me to step up to knowing who I really am and exploring this.. Not waiting until it comes with the wind, but actually committing all of you to exploring this and making sure you take care of you and your body the best you can. Beautiful marker and this shows us the power we have inside..
It is quite exposing to find – in a world where everything is about individuality and becoming someone – that it’s not what we do or what we have become it is actually who we are – the inner quality that resides within us and is equal to everybody else.
It feels so true to me that we in essence are all the same and that only through the way we all individually express ourselves we bring that flair and joy to life that makes us all complete.
Beautiful blog Luz. It feels absolutely beautiful to acknowledge that I am so much more than my talents and imperfections. When I connect to this everything else seems simple.
Thank you Luz, as you share it made me aware that being who you are is actually a choice of commitment. As deep down we all know we are more than this current existence we are living. Hence it requires a level of willingness to go there and feel the past and at the same time the future that is awaiting. No shame, no game, just simply being with what there is and making changes is the way.
Feeling as though I am not being who I truly am was a very familiar tension that I had felt for a very long time, but we won’t find ourselves by being someone. We are the One and every one. Knowing oneself has nothing to do with identification.
I really love how you have come to accept your true essence and are able to see the choices that were previously made possible by not choosing to accept who you truly were for what they are.
Letting go of the layers of the what is not and allowing ourselves to surrender brings about a change within ourselves where we are more in connection with the essence of who we are, something that can never be intellectualised only lived with the wisdom and joy that is natural for us.
I remember crossing a number of parts in life of ‘who am I’ and it seemed to hit me harder when something was changing. I remember a few years back when I was changing jobs and it hit hard, who was I without this job. What I have come to learn and still learning since is that we are not what we do and it’s about the quality we are that truly supports us. As is said in this article, “This has required a new level of acceptance, as to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.” This living way holds everything steady and keeps growing in relationship with others. I have seen the enormous growth in how I understand and move around people that then also supports them more. The Way of The Livingness isn’t so much a new spin on things but an relearning of an older way, http://www.unimedliving.com/voice/about-the-audio-presentations/the-way-of-the-livingness-presentation.html
Accepting that it is a process discarding all the issues that I have taken on as part of my ‘identity’ and that there is no perfection allows me the space to explore a new relationship with myself and how I relate to others.
Becoming who I really am is a journey that I too have been on since deciding to come down out of my head and the many twists and turns that my mind has taken me on over the years. I have started to appreciate the depth of my essence in practical ways like choosing to notice the movements of my body and experimenting with how I can support myself to move more gently and with greater presence which then has a knock on effect in how I move through my day. It is sometimes hard to see the effects of these changes and I have often been discouraged by my slow progress but this is always because I am choosing to return to old patterns and judging myself for my frequent ‘mistakes’. Accepting that I am not any of these things but can align to a far greater purpose with the commitment to keep coming back to my body and who I really am is an ever unfolding journey that I am never need to make by myself. The reflection offered by Serge Benhayon and others inspires me daily.
Good question Ray, what is it that we’re afraid of? Could it be letting go of control and investment in how we’ve made our lives, and allowing ourselves to feel vulnerable – and to live that vulnerability?
It can be so easy to lose ourselves in emotions or feelings that aren’t really the true, ‘us’ – i.e. aren’t the core of who we are, but sometimes do a great job of being imposters and pretending that they are us. It takes practice and commitment to stop identifying with our ‘stuff’ and to realise that it is a surface layer, and tiny in comparison to the enormity of our essence and who we are when we’re connected to that.
Loved your blog Luz, I picked up on your words ‘or when sabotage looks like an easy way out of difficult situations’ it made me realise two things, one how easy it has been to sabotage myself, because it’s easier to feel lesser, and secondly I’m starting to appreciate the times now when I don’t sabotage myself, and instead allow myself to feel my connection to my essence.
I love the way you say it like it is Luz : ‘when sabotage looks like an easy way out of difficult situations’ We don’t usually consider sabotage this way, we focus on what we have done to ourselves rather than the simple truth that we are avoiding the simple truth.
“What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all? What if we are all equal in our essence, but express in many different ways and it is never about validation, competition or defence?” I love this Luz. Allowing doubt and struggle to creep in is literally – soul-destroying. Sabotage doesn’t support anyone, regardless of whether it is done by oneself or another. Discarding the outer – the ‘what-is-not’ allows who we really are to flourish.
Naturally we are our qualities within, everything on the outside is an illusion.
So true Lucy, when I have random none supportive thoughts this is an indication that I have been moving and expressing in a way that is disconnected to my body. When we connect to our body the quality of our thoughts changes.
I am also on the same journey as you Luz, learning to live more lovingly, in harmony and joy more and more every day. What you’ve shared is very relate-able and deeply inspiring. The process of letting go of things that no longer support me to be who I am constantly needs to be revised and deepened.
The concept of ‘becoming who I am’ Luz is very interesting. We spend so much time adhering to the roles and societal expectations placed upon us we can often forget that within we have a wealth of qualities unique to us that when connected to and expressed literally brings our world alive.
All I could feel while reading this beautiful blog, is the need to surrender to everything we all ready are. Dropping all the ideals that we have created as us, and feeling that we are born divine. Living with with this known truth everyday helps us surrender to this fact.
Our innate essence is an exploration of living in all its honesty and rawness. There is such an expansion to be found from looking at our lives and how we live them day to day. To discover what may be holding us back from all that we are naturally, the only hinderances we may have on accessing our innate qualities is the judgments, comparison and ideals that have been from lives past or hurts we may have experienced. To discover these old ways of being and let go of them, returns us to our natural way. That is where true living begins.
“Is someone going to know who I am, better than I do?” Yes, God and our Soul knows who we truly are and constantly call us to return to feeling the natural Love, Joy and Harmony that we are in essence.
It also makes sense that if we’re attached to ideas of who we think we are, or need to be – images or expectations of how we need to be, what we need to do – then we have no idea who we truly are. It’s not until we’re prepared to look at and let go of these pictures and expectations we’ve put upon ourselves, and begin to develop our relationship with our bodies, that things start to change. So if I’m avoiding being and living who I truly am, it would make sense that I sabotage my body by living in a way that means I can’t connect to it.
Thank you Luz. What you’ve written here about claiming who we are not through our mind but through our body completely turns the idea of ‘who we are’ being about what we’ve done, achieved and learnt on its head. To know ourselves through our body is a fascinating unfoldment that feels expansive.
‘I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.’ – Luz this makes a lot of sense to me and really reflects to me how important the relationship with our body is. We have a responsibility to connect and listen to our bodies and develop a relationship with them – then as soon as we feel something is not right we can look at it rather than ignoring our bodies and getting to a state where our hurts rule, where we don’t feel joy al the time, and where we are getting sick.
Another amazing blog Luz – thank you! It is becoming clear to me that our systems, amongst other things, are designed to take us away from who we truly are, and replace that with a lesser form of ourselves, shaped by ideals, beliefs and self deprecating feelings and actions. I have often wondered who I truly was, and enjoyed completing psychological and personality tests such as Myers Briggs, just to have someone else tell me that I was worthy. It felt good to read about my strengths, but why did I need this validation from outside of me? I am slowly but surely peeling back the layers to see my true self, with the support of Universal Medicine, its teachings and practitioners.
When feelings of emptiness and misery look like me, or when sabotage looks like an easy way out of difficult situations, I use honesty, discernment and detachment to support me with these. I use these too, and they work, getting honest and real is powerful and has greatly supported me to make different choices and in making more self-loving choices, more choices keep opening up for me to continually evolve.
“If I could stop identifying myself with all the heavy stuff I´ve been dealing with for ages, could it be that everything that was holding me back, keeping me messy and re-creating more of the same, would start to finally shift?” When we live more from our essence, these things that are not us drop away as they can not stay in a body where the energy is at a different frequency.
“Is someone going to know who I am, better than I do?” – this stopped me on my track this morning. It reminded me how I held others’ validation higher than my own knowing, and I still do when I go into doubt – i.e. when I step away from my power.
Whenever I question who I am I take my relationship back to my body and how I treat it, and the way I move and express with it, and I always find my body knows the truth of the matter.
As I become more consciously present and self-loving I am able to be accountable for my life and the consequences of my unloving behaviours I realise I am human and don’t need to go into self-loathing and the cycle of beating myself up for hours days or weeks on end for every little thing I judge myself for as being unloving. I no longer use this cycle to keep myself small I let it go without judgement and comparison to the best of my ability and reclaim my connection with my true self and express lovingly in power and authority of truth.
I can feel I am in a period of discarding some of what I have identified myself with and learning to let things go. At times it can feel a little raw as I have to feel what I haven’t chosen or not chosen and also letting go of what I have identified myself by. It is all external things as in life, before hearing Serge Benhayon speak I had never nurtured my inner.
Once again an in depth look at who we are. Recognising “our natural essence of Love Harmony and Joy” is beautiful and opens the heart! Thank you Luz.
For most of my life, I didn’t know who I was, walked in the shadow of others and became many things to many people. Today I walk with all of me, fully present in my body, never ever to walk in another’s shadow or footsteps. It’s a glorious feeling. I thank Universal Medicine practitioners for their guiding light, love and support.
Another gorgeous blog and one that is again so timely for me to read, as I feel and see who am I really in another way and understand that many of the ways I’ve operated and can still operate are about protecting me and my hurts and not truly about connecting with myself and how things feel and about keeping people at arms length. And I’ve tried it all with my mind but it doesn’t work, the way is through the body, so actually embody it, not just speak it, in how we move, in everything – there is no other way.
‘Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life’ Yes it can Luz. I feel a gentle unfolding taking place inside: I live from inside out and much of the ‘trying’ has stopped. I simply allow my true essence to shine through, no effort required.
“ I spent most of my time in my mind; I used self-criticism a lot, tried to control how I came across, and was always trying to better myself as I craved being recognized.” This is something I can relate to and have struggled to acknowledge I now realise trying to do or be someone for recognising places such a stress on the body and takes us further away for who we truly are in essence. I am becoming more consist in claiming my essence, who I truly am when I am connected and expressing for the core of me the joy of feeling the love and synchronisation of my natural expression and emanation.
The journey of the evolution of you which becomes the evolution of the all.
To ‘just be who you are’ you first have to let go of the images of who you think you are. It is all in the letting go and no longer holding on to . . . well . . . anything. It is a total surrender to the wisdom of the body.
The phrase ‘just be who you are’ can feel almost frustrating when we’ve completely forgotten what the ‘who we are’ feels like, because we’ve spent so long making ourselves into the picture of who we think we should be. But re-discovering what this feels like is a beautiful process and a very simple one, when we make it so. It’s a choice every time to keep adding to the layers of complexity and the masks of the what is not, or connect to and appreciate our body as being the thing that connects us back to who we are.
It has become totally normal to accept ‘all of those shabby places’ within ourselves as inevitable, solidified parts of who we are, using them for protection and defence against our hurts and to ensure self-interest reigns supreme. But the body is the thing, the vehicle that can support our way out of this self-made imprisonment, by the way we choose to live in it and through it.
Interesting that we can be so identified with the not so great bits about ourselves – the hurts and the ‘stuff’, as well as what we pride ourselves on. When someone rejects us, it’s an opportunity to understand more of who we are: are they truly rejecting the essence, the core of who we are, or are they rejecting a behaviour that we’re in that isn’t really us anyway?
The way we have behaved and identified with ourselves in the past can easily be discarded if we consider ourselves being a small, but equally important part of a much grander whole, the divine. Living in accordance with this grander whole will remove the need for the individual self and in that does bring us the grandness of life we belong to and have to live in order to heal all the harm we have brought to the world by living in disconnection to this for a long time.
“I now know that all of those shabby places within myself shouldn’t be accepted as normal or inevitable parts of Who I am, but ways I have ignorantly used to self-protect, and self-defend, from all sort of deep emotional hurts, and ultimately for survival and self-gain.” Thank you for being so open in your sharing Luz. I’m starting to have this awareness around myself and understanding the selfishness in this when the true antidote to our perceived hurts is to remain eternally open both to ourselves and others.
“The expression, “Be who you really are,” expanded and I was offered the possibility to know myself by my essence of Love, Harmony and Joy.” And the thing is we are all equally this and if we accepted this fact we would understand that there is no individuality and therefore no point in striving to be different which is really only creating complication.
Thank you Luz – this is very inspiring and as you share – it is simply about connecting back to our quality first. And I love how you share that you have gone ‘ through a journey of deep self-transformation and acceptance of humanity.’ – for us to truly accept ourselves and each other is so humbling – we absolutely surrender to the bigger picture – there is no more self.
When we appreciate and nurture our loving qualities from within they do indeed expand and can be expressed outwardly with confidence and grace.
Something I have realised is that if we don’t accept that we are more, that we are forever expanding, that we at that point are rejecting the next opportunity that will allow for us to confirm the fact that we are always expanding. As these opportunities are offered to us constantly the moment we reject one, it sets us up to then confirm that we are not constantly expanding. Which is not true, but does however reveal that it is our choice to accept or not accept the constant expansion we are in.
Thank you Luz for a very inspiring and insightful blog, as layer upon layer of who we thought we were with our talents, ideals and beliefs being removed, this allows us to feel the inner essence of love harmony to unfold as we deepen our connection to our body intelligence with more loving care.
Just as most of us have lived a false persona so too do we corrupt the meaning of words. Therefore, even if we say things like “I am love, harmony and joy” we don’t even know what the true qualities of these words are. To know love, harmony and joy we have to live it and to live it we will be who we are. A great introduction into the truth of love, harmony and joy can be found here: http://www.unimedliving.com/unimedpedia/word-index
It is a great step in discovering the truth of who we are to become aware that we are in fact living a false life. Who we are is always fully there the minute we stop being and living all that we are not!
Its a simple choice to connect to self and live by the impulse within
Luz this has been a great subject for me at this time. Our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy are great markers in gauging whether we are in alignment to our true way of being.
Thank you Luz…My body was just `something´ I took everywhere without much care or awareness and respect for its powerful intelligence… this is a profound and very true statement that applies to most of humanity … even if we are absorbed in being super-fit, we are not letting ourselves tune in to the body’s innate wisdom that can guide us
“The more I discern and keep aligning back to a quality that to me feels closer to harmony, the more I organise my movements, my choices and all of myself in ways that allow for a more loving way of living to unfold naturally, without sacrifice or becoming alien in a very busy world” – I love this, Luz, particularly ‘aligning back’. I wobble and fall, but there I have a choice to simply align back. It exposes the falsity of complexities and intricacies we often indulge in.
Gorgeous Luz, you took the words right out if my mouth!
Thank you Luz for a very inspiring blog , I too loved these words ” I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.” The mind will want to compete with the body, but the body definitely has the wisdom. you have expressed so much in your blog, I will enjoy reading it again.
So many gems to reflect upon in this blog Luz, this one stood out for me today ‘ I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.’ Beautifully expressed and what a game changer when we begin to claim and live this truth everyday.
‘I have come to understand that the connection to my inner amazing being was progressively lost when growing up as I learned to adhere to ways of living and being that allowed me to fit in and gave me accepted identities, but in truth did´t support my loving qualities to expand from within and express out confidently.’ Yes, we accept identities to get recognition and to please others, in my case being the good girl. Letting go of these identities is uncover what is true and living with our innate loving qualities that are just there the moment we choose to connect with our innermost.
‘All my efforts to become someone in a world where recognition, identification and standing out over the crowd are very much appreciated, all of a sudden became meaningless.’ This is a great observation, for the fact is everyone is putting effort into their own version of this. Just one big collective soup of individual effort going on but without a commensurate collective value being reached. Your blog shares true wisdom, that claiming who I truly am occurs from within, through how I live in my body and know myself through my body, not via the ideals and beliefs that are running the show from my head.
When I think of “Who I am” I usually think of when I was young and didnt know anything other than being who I am. We learn in life to carry moments, ideals and attachments with us, and we use these to then mould and ‘shape’ who we are, and this is championed by our current form. What can be realised though is that in an instant, one can re-connect with God, who has always been there and discover that it is we who have chosen to be living in ways and movements that make us who we are, which may not be the true joy we come from.
Reading this blog I am realising more and more that I am not different to anyone else. What makes me different are simply the choices I make.
Learning to recognise behaviours that are not us is the first step. With a true connection to our bodies we can feel this. From that we have a choice to react and continue away from ourselves and truth, or to reconnect and choose love all the way.
Just so beautiful to read Luz, thank you for sharing.
We simply have to live in accordance with the extraordinary matrix of a universe that, with every breath of wind, and every breath we take, is configuring for US to evolve and know our deepest inner selves
It all is a choice, to know who we are or stay in the illusion of all the ways we created to not be who we are. I feel it is a great journey to choose to get to know who I am in truth, and in turn what is god, and the what are the amazing qualities accompanied with that.
‘Be who you truly are’ is a very much used statement in all kinds of places, and it often is about reinforcing the identification, polishing an image we craft and put ourselves out to be.
Luz, the way you have been observing and developing your relationship to yourself is so inspiring. It shows your commitment. And I totally agree with you that our body plays a big part in our process of accepting and knowing and confirming our natural essence – love, harmony and joy.
‘Accepting myself as being Love, Harmony and Joy has made me go through lots of self-doubt and hesitation.’ As someone who is in the process of learning to accept myself fully, I can really relate to this sentence. I can understand the concept of self acceptance on an intellectual level easily, but for me to fully get it and feel it with my body has not been as easy. I am so used to criticising myself or being riddled with self doubt, which I can now see as being self abusive behaviours, that accepting that I am love, imperfections and all is a bit of a different ball game. But it is certainly changing as I notice the choices I naturally make during the day have become a lot more self loving, the food I eat is also allowing more space of love in my body. And as I slowly accept myself, I find myself more embracing of humanity, just like you said Luz. This just shows that acceptance, or love, or appreciation has to begin with ourselves first before truly bring these qualities to the rest of the world.
Re-discovering who we are is a magnificent journey of unfoldment everyday. Peeling back the layers of past hurts, beliefs, ideals etc allows for the openness of our souls to share so much. This is monumental.
Thank you Luz for your honesty in sharing, I still get caught at times in identifying with the old patterns when they come up, I love these words ” as to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.” It is a continual coming back to feeling the body and allowing what is there to be felt, with no need to to fix, or judge.
Thank you Luz for such a beautifully honest blog. I have identified with all my old patterns and behaviours believing that is who I am until I started attending Universal Medicine presentations and was supported and inspired to connect to my inner heart and feel the truth of who I really am.
All there is to do is truly appreciate our own qualities, and feeling all that we have put in front of these to not truly show who we are. There are lots of ideals that cover it up, but when there is a moment of connection, we can see and feel the illusion they are, and connect deeper every other time to that what is in truth who we are.
Really beautifully said, the journey to who we really are is one of accepting and allowing ourselves to feel all there is.
Yes indeed, and feeling the movements from our body that align with our true quality of love within can clear this “I spent most of my time in my mind; I used self-criticism a lot, tried to control how I came across, and was always trying to better myself as I craved being recognized.”
And I have been inspired by what you have written Luz, I can feel that it is sitting on the surface at the moment, and with rereading it again more will be felt.
Judging the things we don’t like about our personalities can be so exhausting and time consuming. I have been working on building new habits that replace the old ones of judgment. Simply finding a few things to appreciate about myself each day has made a vast difference. I am gradually moving away from judgment to acceptance and that feels great.
‘My focus is not anymore about changing or judging my personality, my looks, my nose, my job, my family, my friends, my country, but how to live in a way that allows all the beauty I am reclaiming back to come out and express.’ Now that is an amazing focus to have in life, and its great that you have shared its not about thinking or working it out in the mind, but about how you live in your body. I can relate to this because the more I respect and stay in touch with my body, the more I feel a connection to that beauty that is within.
This is beautiful blog Luz, the more we discern and align to a true energy within ourselves the more our movements become in union with the universe.
Removing the layers we build up over time to show how simply glorious we are underneath, is a beautiful way to be. We can constrict and mould ourselves into people that we think we are meant to be,but the true us is there all along waiting to break free from the falsities we place on ourselves. Its like the birth of a beautiful butterfly.
Shifting that focus from the need to change every aspect of life to allowing what is within to come out and build on this step by step is not an easy, quick-fix shift but so needed. It all starts with the entertaining of the idea but then as I am learning now to keep that focus turning from the outside in to the inside out there needs to be an appreciation and a claim of what is there and what we can feel comes from us and each of those steps. For so long I’ve had it in my head that all the doing is wrong, and in excess it is, but this has blinded me to all that is done that has started from within and how that feels when it does come out – those are the steps that need to be celebrated.
In getting to the answer of ‘who we really are’ we must first face who we are not, this can be a very painful process, yet necessary to strip away the falsities we have stood behind in our striving to ‘be someone’. With honesty and commitment to Truth, within our heart our answer is found.
I agree Matthew, it is an ever-unfolding understanding of the depths and expanse of who we are, the part that is always true, but we change in our awareness of it. And so we can change, not the part that is true, but all the stuff we live that is not true that can be let go of, so we can more freely live the truth of who we are. And it is thanks to one person, Serge Benhayon who first reflected that truth and love can be lived constantly, and that it is about living for the all, that inspires so many to remember they too can live in this way.
Thank you Luz for sharing your experience, I love these words ” Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life. It is something that deserves true consideration and a commitment to be explored in each one of us. It is true evolution!”. Beautiful.
Becoming that which we truly are again, needs a commitment to love and an honesty to see that what we have chosen is not supporting us. Coming back to our inner most essence is allowing us to be more aware and seeing all that happens in this world for what it is.
As you say Luz, mind affirmations will not support me to claim ‘who I am’ –it’s ‘how I live in my body’ that lays the foundation that banishes all doubt. We embody the knowing by living it, by being honest about what is really happening and being willing to let go of what is not me. It’s great to read how you have applied the teachings of Universal Medicine to bring yourself to a greater awareness of who you are.
Luz, what a relief when we see that ‘All my efforts to become someone …. all of a sudden became meaningless.’ How exhausting it is to jockey for recognition and acceptance from others and how important it is to first accept and appreciate ourselves are we truly are, not as we think we ought to be.
Adam, I love what you say here, ‘it is a question the answer to which evolves over time as we unfold who we truly are’. This brings in a deep understanding that we need to be patient with ourselves knowing we are unfolding back to who we truly are and that it is a process of ever-deepening. The more we claim ourselves at each stage the deeper the steadiness as we build a foundation of knowing that cannot be shaken. As we do this, whatever is not matching this knowing is not taken on and we discard what is not us at a finer and deeper level. Your word ‘coloured’ is very apt as these beliefs and ideals are not part of the original blue-print.
The beginning was puzzling. Who I really am? What? How this can be different from who I know I am, to the one I know to be? Then slowly, slowly, I started realising the there was more to it. Actually, there was so much more that who I know to be ended up acquiring minority status. I have started making inroads into myself as a Divine being. As I did so, life acquired a new meaning and started making much more sense than before.
I agree with you, Eduardo, at first it was confusing. I also couldn’t find an answer to this simple question. Every time I say” A woman” I know that’s I am more. “Daughter”, “Mother”, “Wife”, “Human Being”, “Engineer “, “Lover”, ” Friend”, “Collegue”, “Student” etc.- none of those words reflected who I am.
Son of God does. Divine Being does too.
“I had found relief in defending that I am both my shadow and my talents. After all, it seemed impossible to get rid of my darkness; therefore I should stop fighting against it and accept it as part of me as well.” I’m learning to accept this part of me but realising it’s not the true me Luz and to not give it too much focus or credence to it but instead to focus on my values and what I truly bring and let go of the criticism.
From reading your blog Luz I get a true feeling of Love Harmony and Joy ! Thank you for sharing.
Your blog is truly supporting to me at a time where I can feel the hardness of my previous way of living in my body but at the same time the tenderness, the light and the love that is flowing. I am discovering that I can choose to stop fighting these darker parts and instead let love flow through them. This way I can lovingly stop identifying myself with issues that are not me and start living all that I am.
Luz the following sentences helped me this morning: “The more I discern and keep aligning back to a quality that to me feels closer to harmony, the more I organise my movements, my choices and all of myself in ways that allow for a more loving way of living to unfold naturally, without sacrifice or becoming alien in a very busy world.” That was a good reminder for me and as I type my command right now I chose to do it in the most harmonies and tender way ever – what a joy to do so!
Hear, hear. Buying in that our ‘lack of worth’ is ‘us’ is just a game we run – and often one we have become incredibly masterful at in order to avoid the truth of our greatness (shared from personal experience…).
Facing this and bringing awareness to not actively feed it, is deeply empowering. As you’ve said Ariana, it is an avoidance of responsibility to play less than who we are and entertain such ill ways – what are we reflecting to others, our children?
The knowing begins with the choice to know, doesn’t it… And from that choice we may search, but if our intent is sincere, the knowing of who we truly are can indeed return. With no ‘end point’ to the knowing and the deepening in our relationship with ourselves, and from where we are sourced from – for God has no end, and thus neither can His Children.
Easily done when one knows the Love of God in one’s heart, and has re-found who they truly are. Thanks to the enormity of inspiration brought forth by Serge Benhayon in these times…
A choice and a commitment – most certainly Katie. For there is so much in life that would seek to take us away from our innate knowing. And yet, in the way we choose to live our lives and commit to living love, honouring ourselves and each other every day, we offer ourselves the true foundation to remain connected to our inner knowing, and deepen in it. It’s all most definitely there, and it is ‘our own call’ to live in such connection.
Such an honest description of what it can mean to us, to undo the complication that has enshrouded ‘who we truly are’ Luz – and deepen in our relationship with ourselves through this process. Appreciating your honesty in regards to how we’ve thought, the way in which we’ve perceived ourselves… are we truly willing to pause and foster a deep relationship with our own bodies that allows us to feel the qualities of our essential selves and divinity within?
We are so worthy of such an exploration, and a ‘keeping real’ with it all, that our way can be turned far less inward, and from a strongly forged foundation in self, we may relate to our fellow man in a way that confirms all that he or she is within, also.
“What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all? What if we are all equal in our essence, but express in many different ways and it is never about validation, competition or defence” Luz I love your words and something fro me to take into my day, every day forever!
So great to nominate, what we are not, as you do put so greatly in a nutshell, when you write: “I now know that all of those shabby places within myself shouldn’t be accepted as normal or inevitable parts of Who I am, but ways I have ignorantly used to self-protect, and self-defend, from all sort of deep emotional hurts, and ultimately for survival and self-gain.” to distinguish, understand and become aware, of what we are not and what “fuel” we had run with what we are not through our lifes. Albeit the process itself is not so pleasant, really learning to accept to be in truth nothing else, than Love, Harmony and Joy, means that the process of becoming aware and letting go of what is not true takes place naturally.
The term ‘be who you really are’ is used a lot these days. However I am not convinced many people really understand what this means, as often our idea of who we are or want to be gets in the way of this. It is only through Esoteric Yoga that I started to discover that I wasn’t who I thought I was. My body kept showing me who I really was. Once felt, I could ignore it but not deny it. This steady marker has led me to keep reflecting and reviewing who I am as my body reflects more of this truth to me.
Yes Fiona, Esoteric Yoga is a great modality to reveal who we really are rather than who we think we are. For me it revealed how much I lived in my mind in disregard and ignorance to my body. I also relate to ‘once felt, I could ignore it but not deny it. The body tells me who I am really if I allow the space to simply listen and feel.
Reading this blog again, I reflected on the comment made about how you had accepted the darkness that you thought was you. This is a common understanding amongst people. It has even been made into songs, lines like ‘there is good and bad in everyone’. It has been life changing to meet Serge Benhayon and no longer accept this commonly held belief. Instead, I now know from my own body that there are two forms of energy, fire and prana and we have a choice about which flows through us in every moment. There is no original sin, we are divine by nature.
Very clearly expressed Fiona and believing we are sinful is a lie that is fed to us to not see and feel the enormity of where we come from and who we are.
You have summed things up perfectly Liz, live and express from the love we all have within.
This is a great sharing Luz. I am in the process of uncovering who I really am,
Sometimes I feel there is a long way to go but in truth it is about that inner connection and the consistency of living that truth. It is always there for me to tap into at anytime.
On the way to evolution I too “sometimes I have felt apprehensive about losing my identity and certain relationships.” Yet I know that the beliefs and ideals that have been part of my life for so long do not make me, they are loans, external to me, that I borrowed to survive and cover up my perceived deficiencies. Love, Joy and Harmony on the other hand are inherently part of me and everyone on this planet. All I need to do is reconnect to it via my body.
So true that to experience self acceptance and really appreciate what we uniquely bring to the planet we need to develop a stable, consistent and loving relationship with our body. I recognise that I can be thrown something tricky to deal with during the day but when I feel solid in myself because of how I have eaten,exercised and slept , I can cope with whatever the situation is.
Well said Shami, it comes from an alignment to our inner-self first, as that is our connection with the truth that already lives within. When we allow that to be our guide in life profound healing can take place through the love we allow to flow through our bodies.
The power of feeling that amazing you underneath all of that mind stuff is absolutely mind blowing and truly beautiful.
So amazing Julie as you share – that oh so busy mind just loves complication if allowed to roam free and get the upper hand. That inner beauty just waiting for us to truly connect then the celebrations begin. Thank you Luz awesome sharing.
This website was… how do you say it? Relevant!! Finally I’ve found something that helped me.
Appreciate it!
Exactly the same for me Matthew… Pre my introduction to Universal Medicine I was totally identified by ‘doing’ and my worth was very tied into how busy I was and how much I could get done… It was exhausting in fact because ultimately it didn’t really support my self worth, just had me in a cycle of more and more ‘doing’! Since beginning to develop a loving relationship with myself, I am finding more and more than my true value is on just being me… And yet the interesting part is that the more I focus on being me, the more in fact I can naturally ‘do’… 🙂
I have felt the organisation that occurs in my body when I deeply connect to my essence and live from an honoring of my feelings and what I know will support my connection in that moment – magic happens, events and people constellate in a way that I could not orchestrate through my mind as I can feel how there is a greater intelligence that lives within me that holds the grand plan of love. As the Glorious music song goes “love is our greatest responsibility – together we evolve”..
Well said Joe. There is just so much for us to accept, and even then, it is only the tip of the iceberg.
I love this Marika “It was a revelation for me when I realised I just needed to surrender to the beauty of who I already am as opposed to what I was doing in the past – constantly searching and striving and looking outward for the answers which was exhausting.”
Through the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine we can find our way back to who we really are. Bearing in mind that just like it is more easy to eat than to be on a diet or to give in to an addiction than to stop the ill behavior, the way to discover our true selves is not easy but well worth it.
To me it is definitely what life should be all about Floris. It is either that or sharing life’s mind made dramas with eachother which I believe keeps us going in circles.
Beautifully said Marika – I especially like your last sentence… “Allowing life to unfold and accepting the grace that has always resided within is life changing.”
‘What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all?’ I love this Luz. Learning to really feel my body and understand its messages, then act on them – which I was so numb to for so long – to stop being busy – in my displacement to cover my emptiness – is forever deepening, as I unfold to the true me – to my inner essence, which we all have inside us.
Discovering the real me: so simple and yet so much grander than I could ever have imagined.
Love the simplicity in this Michael – what a simple direction or undertaking for our way through life – “discovering the real me”…!
Thank you for sharing this very revealing blog Luz Helena, It is very common that we only know ourselves from our behaviors or the false side of us we want to project we mistakenly think will protect us. You have gone very deep to reveal this behavior: “My little stories that felt very important and authentic. All my efforts to become someone in a world where recognition, identification and standing out over the crowd are very much appreciated, all of a sudden became meaningless.” Meaningless compared to who you really are, a loving soul, but with respect to what you have learnt, and what you have still to learn.
Great call Ariana, and there is an identity we have involved in this game, that keeps us wanting to keep it going even if it is seemingly causing us great misery… but once we can see the game at play, and why we invest in it, then we the freedom of a choice – to choose a different way.
If there’s been a life of fully being involved into stories, it is quite a way to rebuild the trust in the beauty of the own essence. And it is quite a way – but it’s with it!!! Thanks Luz!
Shami It’s not a common teaching to ‘ align to our inner-self ‘ Everything in this world is promoting a product, cure, answer if we buy and try … rarely are we encouraged to get to know ourselves deeply and to come from their, and Luz has shown us if we support ourselves first and appreciate our quality and essence we stop the endless searching and feel our love and connection with ourselves.
The first step is to really feel that these untrue feelings are homemade. It is like standing in a forest and being asked to see the fields. If you feel like you never have been outside the forest, it takes a while to reconnect to the time you knew how to walk all the landscape.
Well said Ariana. It is the biggest con that we are all lined up to. I thought for so long that I was my darkness/shadow/hurts and to realise that I had signed up to that and stood on the foundation of this untruth so I did not have to be the love that I am, is a pretty big pill to swallow. We are so so so so enough as we are and I thank god for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for re-connecting us all to this and to people like Luz who write so eloquently about it.
My life has been a struggle and to accept that it can be the opposite is about letting go of all I have believed in and have put on as a coat, a very heavy coat. It is just choosing to take off my coat and to feel, and know it is definitely warm enough without it, it is even hot, and absolutely no need to wear a coat any longer.
Living in a way that reflects the deep and abiding love that we truly are is a unique quality that the world will see more and more of , as people come to know … who they truly are.
Thank you, this blog helped me again to realise what it really is that is me, it is the quality of my being. Not that what I do.
Luz, this is a beautiful sharing which I can relate to with identifying to things that are the opposite of who I am.
“I know I am in a process of healing, saying goodbye and discarding issues that have a strong hold on me because for so long I believed they were me. When feelings of emptiness and misery look like me, or when sabotage looks like an easy way out of difficult situations, I use honesty, discernment and detachment to support me with these.”
Thank you for this wisdom and support.
‘My body was just `something´ I took everywhere without much care or awareness and respect for its powerful intelligence. I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.’ These sentences are so powerful and resonate deeply – discovering the intelligence of the body takes time and is an adjustment. Once we are shown, in my case connecting with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, it starts to be an integral role and requires a lot of support to start to fully live all that is. Amazing to take those first steps in re-claiming what is absolutely true.
I can totally relate to what you have said David. Now the question is what more is there within us waiting to come out?
I like that question Vicky.
That’s true Carolien, living love is a whole different ballgame to talking about it, and it requires a steadfast commitment and dedication to honesty and openness, and that’s just the very beginning of the journey back.. but a journey worth embarking upon.
This line stood out for me as well Ariana. Oooh – what a big pill to swallow in accepting that we might have indulged so much in this belief that we aren’t enough because we don’t want to take responsibility of our choice to not be all of our self. Ouch!
So much juicy inspiration shared here Luz. Definitely going to keep coming back for more. Thank you.
Jenny, I seemed to land my gaze on your last sentence in your comment to Luz, in reference to seeking who we truly are “When we surrender to the wisdom of the body, we can let go of the struggling mind.” That feels to be such a reminder for me today. Thank you.
I agree Fiona, saying the words from the mind is an empty vesslel, living them from the heart , the vessel overflows.
Hi Luz, thank you for your beautiful sharing about your way back to yourself. It is a great reminder that identifying with what I do, my profession, ideals and beliefs etc. is creation and means separation from myself, but has nothing to do with who I really am.
There is a great sense from re-reading your blog again Luz that we tend to struggle with expressing who we truly are. Not because we don’t want to be who we truly are because who could turn their back on true Love? Rather because it is confronting to feel how much we have invested in not being who we truly are yet that was exactly what we could have done from day one.
Well said Ariana, we have deeply invested in not being enough as it creates the perfect space to avoid our responsibility to bring who we truly are.
The feeling of not being enough and therefore always wanting to better yourself has no true foundation, yet it is the false foundation that so many of us live with. Myself included. Universal Medicine has supported me enormously and still does, with realizing that it is not true and that we are everything already.
” it got complicated as I went through a lot of thinking” I love this line – for it’s absolute truth and simplicity.
We get recognised for something. If we start out seeking recognition, it can be manufactured by the things that we do but the motivation is recognition first. When we connect and develop a relationship with ourselves, that gets recognised, but from a different place, so recognition is inevitable, it just depends on the initial intent and what one leads with in their life.
I really connected with the fact that if we truly support our children to connect to their ‘loving qualities and allow them to expand from within and express out confidently’ then they would grow without the need to protect or hide the love they are, that would become the ‘norm’.
I love this blog and this line today “What change would it make to know myself through my essence rather than through what I did”. Woah….such an important question and if you allow yourself, there is much to ponder upon. I have known myself for so long through what I did and not through my essence and it is a challenging yet amazing process to return to the essence of all of us – Harmony, Love, Joy and Stillness and to learn to live through this first. It is a great marker on how to live your life because when I dont come from that, it feels pretty wrong in my body. When I come from my essence first, it feels divine.
Brilliant blog, Luz, thank you for taking the question “Who am I r e a l l y?” to a whole new level. It’s sort of dazzling to ponder on it, it’s like the question and or answer slips away the moment I give it my attention. Lately I have started to connect to my essence instead of what I see in the mirror, my appearance or my actions, which to me is a whole new perspective. I am my essence, but the same question can be posed, – “who/what is my essence”? It’s so easy to identify with appearance, actions, relationships, but that’s just the outer. Thank you for reminding me that we all are Love, Harmony and Joy.
Luz, I’ve really enjoyed reading your blog again, there is so much there as it is a question that has been important for a very long time.
“Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life.”- so true Luz, and your beautiful blog shows the amazing transformation you have gone through from being self critical, and searching for recognition.
I love this Luz, “to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.” This is something I have come to know too Luz, that I am fooling myself (and lying to myself) if I think it can be done by any other way than the way I live in my body.
We spend so much of our lives trying to be what we think others want or expect us to be it becomes easy to lose sight of who we truly are, and when it is presented to us in a simple way by Serge Benhayon, we resist for no reason other than our desire to remain in the comfortable existence of the falsehood we have devised. Allowing the truth of who we are can be a lightbulb moment or a gentle unfolding – either way it is a beautiful journey as we begin to feel our true light and allow all that is not us to drop away.
Yes true ladies could it be we get comfortable with the uncomfortable but familiar, familiar feeling to us probably for life times of not truly connecting with our essence and don’t want to feel the pain of that.
Thank you for sharing your level of care you now have for yourself luz, it’s really inspiring to read how someone has gone through such changes.
Yes truly beautiful.
Beauty-full ! And ever so caring and sweet 🙂
This is so true, my body was just something I carted around, and I gave no real value or consideration of for much of my life. I now know how absolutely precious I am, and how I have opened up to a whole new way of being that means my body is extemely important in every decision and every moment. This has been very emancipating to feel and understand, accept and grow.
Being who we really are is a simplistic way of living life that needs to be cherished instead of the complication and struggle we have been so used to.
Ive been on a search in the past trying to figure out who I trully am and it was starting me in the face when I looked in the mirror. Its me, its what I bring and how I bring it, its me in everything I do. And Luz you expressed so much more in your blog about who we are, a beautiful blog, thank you
What we live in our bodies has much more power than any ideal or knowledge, because it cannot be shaken by some influence from outside.
I love how you came to realise that you couldn’t claim who you were by only using the mind or incrementing your knowledge or changing your beliefs, but through how you live in your body. The beginning of such profound awareness accelerates our evolution back to soul.
There is much to appreciate and enjoy in your inspiring blog Luz. Exposing the mind and how limiting it is to be defined in this way brings more understanding to ‘that which is not’ who we truly are.
“My mind came with a possible list of qualities that could define me. They were more like talents I had been trying to cultivate, ideals I had picked up in my psychological researches and spiritual searches, values I had taken from all sorts of institutions such as family, school, friendships, and things that I had admired or envied in others”.
Thank you Luz for this great question to ponder on and enjoy the process of revelations. The joy of living who one really is immense and powerful and requires a diligence of acceptance and responsibility from within with the ever expanding love we truly are.
I love that Vicky, ‘Like a treasure hunt that never ends.’ What a fun and gorgeous way to describe this process.
I am inspired to feel and to know that the true me is my natural way. Love Joy and Harmony feel so natural and there is a release in my body as I feel this truth. The letting go of all that is not so sometimes feel momentous and yet as you suggest Luz, it is about staying connected to the Love Joy and Harmony that is key -connected to the truth.
Yes life can certainly erode away the connection and we can end up being so different to who we naturally are. Great blog Luz.
I love your summary: “All my efforts to become someone in a world where recognition, identification and standing out over the crowd are very much appreciated, all of a sudden became meaningless.” I have also found that the outer searching and looking were nothing but a merry-go-round with somewhat changing scenery but basically of the same ilk and leading nowhere at all.
If Who I Really Am is Joy, Love and Harmony—what does that actually mean? Am I Joy, Love and Harmony in all aspects of life that I live? To know Who I Really Am feels to be a commitment deeper into the nitty gritty details and relationships in every day life, a tangible Joy, Love and Harmony lived consistently in relation to the world.
How awesome to expose that to be Who we Really Are, we just have to be that and not try to improve and change everything that we are not.
Luz, you inspire me to feel deeper Who I Really Am? Who I Really Am, actually is connected to who We all Are, and it is the deepest Joy and grandness felt, it is real and accessible to all, it does not take royal blood to have, only responsibility.
What a great question Luz, “Who I Really Am”? Working in an industry (fashion and image) which confirms us only from how we look on the outside, it was only when I began feeling a steady stillness and firmness within myself that I truly began to have a glimpse of who I am, because it was finally my choice to live it rather than seeking for it.
It can seem like free-falling, letting go of all the things we have created to present to the world as us. But some part of us knows to varying degrees this isn’t it and what we crave most in the world is to just be ourselves. Finding the true self, which is an on going exploration, actually creates a steadiness and real feeling of security, as nothing outside us can change that.
Gosh I can so relate to this: “even though accepting this reality would mean the liberation from the many struggles in my life and the end of the separation I felt to others, I just wouldn’t accept it so easily”, with a lot of decisions in my life, I could choose to accept and make things a whole lot easier, but I often choose the hard route.
This is a important question to ask, Jessica i agree.
A blog full of wisdom and I love the honesty here in this sentence “I also didn’t like that, if I was these, or had these qualities in myself, I was not the only one, the rest of humanity had them as well.” I can relate to this. I know this energy is not who I am in that I know nothing separates us; that there is only equality but the seeking of recognition and attention which I have so craved in my life can creep in from time to time. What I am, only recently learning to do is observe it and appreciate that it has come up for me to feel and to let it go. Thank you Luz for sharing.
Beautifully expressed Carolien. Identifying the ideals, beliefs, roles and reactions I have taken on in life… seeing them clearly as what they are, ways of not feeling and expressing the essence of love within; to reveal the sweetness and dedication of my unique expression. Now this, is something worth living for.
“now this is something worth living for” I love that sentence Emma and it is so true, we pursue so much in life and often get disappointed or disheartened but what we find within is for ever there to connect to and it makes life sweet and beautiful in so many ways!
You write with beautiful honesty and clarity Luz, taking the reader from living life from the separatist mind to the Universal mind. Letting go of the self is HUGE and continually presents itself to me as I learn to express from the love and harmony within. The need to feel different and identified is something I am letting go of, to make way for expressing my unique qualities that emerge from my love and commitment, NOT from reaction or the need to be noticed.
I enjoyed reading this because whilst knowing the truth of what has been presented – that we are all in essence love, harmony and joy – it certainly brings up much to feel that is not the way I have lived! Stopping focusing on and identifying with the stories and issues and seeing them as simply ways I have used to protect my hurts; and instead being present and caring with myself so that I can begin to express from my innermost essence of love, is the path of return to who I really am. Because then I have the strength of my love to hold myself to feel the hurt and let it go.
It is truly a beautiful revelation to know we are all equal – and competition, comparison and endless striving for individuality and identity is a great deviation from this simple truth.
The potential for Humanity to live in equality with each other, free of comparison and competition has always been and will become a living Truth when we cast aside the ‘self’ for the ‘all’.
This part Luz ‘What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all? What if we are all equal in our essence, but express in many different ways and it is never about validation, competition or defence?’
We are all equal with so much to share in our many different flavours. That’s brotherhood. 🙂 🙂 🙂
“Even though accepting this reality would mean the liberation from the many struggles in my life and the end of the separation I felt to others, I just wouldn’t accept it so easily.” This is super powerful and shows just how much we make life far more complex than it otherwise needs to be. The bottomline is that I am learning is that being equal with all and letting all in is what we are truly seeking. It is the most yummy feeling ever to feel loved and held with all others equally so and in truth something we naturally never forget.
You have raised two great questions here Luz: “What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all? What if we are all equal in our essence, but express in many different ways and it is never about validation, competition or defence?” How different the world would be if we truly appreciated everybodys qualities instead of judging and criticising the things that we find difficult, but which are in fact only refelcting the things in ourseves that we find difficult to look at.
Thank you for highlighting these questions Donna. Whose agenda are we trying to live up to when we allow others to validate us or tell us who we are? What an awful set up! Who are they to tell us who we are? If we constantly seek who we are in others we will forever be judging ourselves through endless differing reflections – presumably from people who are on the same quest themselves! How can someone who doesn’t know who they are themselves reflect anything other than the same uncertainty back to us? In my experience coming home to our inner hearts allows us not only to feel the truth of our own being, but the equal truth of everyone else’s being as well…and we can finally end the search.
Well said Toni and I feel as I read your comment that it is so easy to become caught up in the identity of answering the question ‘who am I?’ – seeing ourselves as a seeker. It is my experience that this identity can divert us from the actual knowing that we are Love for we are too busy searching for the answer to stop and accept that we have found it.
This is very beautiful Luz, thank you for sharing it here. What comes up for me as I read your blog is of how easy it is to take for granted what we are being shown by Serge Benhayon. In your expression here, I feel you are ‘squeezing every last ounce of juice’ from your alignment with the truth he brings and this is a great example of a true and full commitment to ‘being who you really are’. Awesome!
“If normally I am not who I really am, then who am I most of the time?” a question that I feel is worth deeply pondering on. Throughout different areas of my life I know their are society expectations such as how you are in meetings, at work, at home, shopping yet what is very clear is that if we/I give into these then by virtue I can’t be who I really am – just a version that is void of truth, of me and therefore of love.
To hear the words ‘be you’ when I first heard took a long while to comprehend – I resisted them strongly convincing myself I had no idea what they meant, stubbornly insisting the version of me at the time was ‘me’ and refusing at all costs to go deeper and reconnect to a knowing I had successfully dedicated my ‘acting’ life to avoid.
I had painted on so many faces in place of my own (a different one for every occasion, situation and person). Life had become a stage for my complex performances. I knew I was playing to an empty house but I kept the roadshow going.
There were many faces to peel away, beliefs to expose and roles to discard, in order to reveal the treasure of ‘me’ that had always been there pristine and without tarnish and it was worth every moment of this process. To bring ‘me’ to the world and to live the love I am without disguise nor excuse is the most natural thing in the world – the world gets the richness of ‘me’ and never will I let that go.
Beautifully said Vanessa and Luz “I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.”
And a draining exercise at that – it all adds to the story, the struggle, the pain and the investment in the lies we are peddling.
Wow – what an incredibly honest blog Luz and relatable to us all.
How we clutch to the drama, the story, the identity, the accolades, attention and role play our lives with anything but the real deal when True Love and Joy is only a choice away.
Just asking this question opens a door to considering that life can be different….”What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all?” I know I have gotten caught up in my issues, but the more I recognise that the issues are a very small part of what I am a made of, the more I am free to express who I truly am.
It is astonishing when I really consider how much of my time I actually spend not being who I truly am in my daily life. It is usually simple subtle things that creep in. Little compromises that bring me a little bit of relief or comfort from feeling the tension of my knowing of who I really am and what the world is telling me I am. I am slowly learning to not only handle that tension but thrive in the tension.
Thank you Luz for this beautiful sharing of your journey. It was in first having a session with Serge Benhayon a that I learnt to feel who I really was and therefore what and who was I living. This has taken me a long time to truly know and accept for myself with all my stuff in the way when really it is simply a choice to feel and be who we are and live it on a moment by moment basis lovingly. I am learning that appreciation and confirmation is a golden key.
Be who you really are, this is a question I certainly had no clue to years ago. I always had this really strong feeling of commitment but to what, I had no idea. Thank-fully I found out about Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine and reignited my life back on track to a truer more real me.
I can relate to this Julie. I remember asking myself that question years ago ‘who am I’ and never got an answer but I knew there was something more to me. I too discovered through the presentations by Serge Benhayon that there a life within me and these qualities of Love, Harmony and Joy I could choose to live by. This is who I am.
I really love the line you share- ‘My focus is not anymore about changing or judging my personality, my looks, my nose, my job, my family, my friends, my country, but how to live in a way that allows all the beauty I am reclaiming back to come out and express’.
This is really important, so many people give themselves a hard time and forget to acknowledge and appreciate who they are. I am very much in the process of learning to do this.
Very true Kristy it seems so much easier to be critical and bring ourselves down then it is to truly appreciate ourselves, On th other end of the scale we can pat ourselves on the back for things we are good at or do well but this is not self love either. I am discovering more and more that self love and appreciation is being able to feel from within the qualities and values I hold and am no matter what my expression is. None the less appreciating the things we are not critical of and bringing them to the limelight is a good way to start on the road of re-connecting.
You make me realize Luz, that while it feels that I am that far away from who I truly am, that in fact it is just a matter of choice because everything is already in my inner most waiting for me to connect to if I choose so. Only the outer taken on images of how life should be are withholding me from connecting deeper to what lives within as I have invested deeply in the creation of life.
Luz Helena there is a lot in this blog. One thing I have learnt is that self-criticism is devoid of love and is a roadblock to understanding. The easy path turns into a dead end muddy detour when a bit of self-love would have revealed a gleaming highway.
Self criticism well exposed, instead of a muddy dead end, some self love would have exposed a gleaming highway. Thank you Bernard.
Love the analogy. I agree that self-criticism is a roadblock that quickly takes us off road.
Yes I agree well said Bernie!
I too have a greater awareness of all of my past unloving choices and am increasingly aware of choices that I continue to make that are not always supportive. What has changed for me is my ability to bring some understanding to why I made these choices and accepting that I chose to make them. Appreciating where I am at and that I am not perfect has stopped self abusive thoughts from having any hold, which has in turn, allowed me to be more of me!
Yes I too have had to bring much awareness to my past momentums and choices in order to start to let them go. It’s a constant process of refinement that will never end, but I am so worth it!
I’ve found that appreciation of my choices, and the reasons i made them, has really helped me to appreciate myself. Not perfect, but me uncovering more of the amazingness waiting to be revealed.
Knowing, being and living who we truly are is a natural joy that we all deserve and deep down know how to connect to and action.
Yes, a no-brainer for we all know truth …this is but a loving choice away.
Yes I agree Carolien it is a balance between a beingness and an action. Meaning we need to be able to just hold and emanate who we are, without the need to do or action anything to express it, but we also need to know how to fully express and let it out in all that we do.
It is a given that when we are trying to be someone, control who we are and/or are in self criticism we are not being who we are. We spent so much energy and effort in bettering ourselves and all along we are not noticing that everything we could ever wish to be – and much much more – is already there for us to connect to. Instead of bringing the outside in the learning is to bring the inside out.
This is a great reminder Carolien, thank you, to not rely on the outside to bring us what we want, but to know that all that we need and want is already there inside us.
Luz your honesty in exposing your attachment to individuality and the ideals and beliefs you had gathered is insipirational. It is one thing to chant the words I am love but it is an entire different ball game to actually live it and honestly look at everything that we hold on to that delays or gets in the way of the true evolution you so well describe.
what we think of as our identity is really just an attachment to the individual self, at the expense of connecting to the vast grandness that we are all part of together. It is keeping us dense and locked into our own limited world view and a prisoner to the myriad of forces playing us and almost everyone else in this life. Only through relinquishing the attachment to individualism can we come to know the greatness of us, the truth and that we are far beyond anything that this world can bring to us.
Thats deep Annie C, I like it! I still cannot quite grasp the concept of not being well ‘me’ and although I have moments of feeling the interconnectedness of this universe I am yet to fully embody this as my everyday living truth.
So true Alex. ‘Just be you’ can feel like a tall order sometimes. Identifying the things we are not is a step towards understanding who we truly are.
Luz your sharing is a confirmation that everything starts with the connection to ourselves and feeling ourselves first.
A beautiful sharing and expression for all to ponder on and realise that underneath we are all amazing loving beautiful beings and can appreciate ourselves and each other for who we truly are. The world would start to change and we could find more caring, compassion understanding, love and harmony in everything starting from inside our bodies and our hearts. Thank you Luz
“I now know that all of those shabby places within myself shouldn’t be accepted as normal or inevitable parts of Who I am,” well said – so often people just accept or believe that is who they are – but what Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine have done is come along and completely blown this myth out the water for dust. This is beyond huge – they have completely shifted and changed the way every single person in this world can now see themselves – in their true light. It’s like the difference between standing in front of a mirror with a dark veil over it – so you can’t really see your reflection or what you look like clearly at all, maybe you can make out a shape or feature or two – this is who you believe or think yourself to be. The along comes Serge or another as there are many choosing to live this way too – and takes this cover away – and bang – here you are met with the most crystal clear reflection, every tiny detail, and amazing light. Sometimes it can be wow is that really me, maybe you start to cry, doubt, feel unsure – but all along you are drawn back to the light.
“to know myself through my essence rather than through what I did” life would be very simple indeed. There would be no room in the world or our lives for war, lies, corruption, greed, control, supremacy, protection, abuse, self flagellation or any form of control, amongst many other beliefs, ideals and behaviours which are not true to us. We would be left to know the truth of who we are. Equal – Sons of God.
There was a period of advertising that used the marketing strategy, ‘Be the (fill in gender) you were always meant to be’. What they meant to say was, buy this and be what we want you to be. We have been trapped with talents, ideals and values all supported from out side of ourselves. When we loose all of the things outside of us that are attempting to define us, there is hidden gold where we least expected to fined it…within ourselves.
Absolutely. advertising is one of the ways we are told to be something that we are naturally not. But our compliance with these messages makes us just as responsible. Perhaps if there were a shift in this responsibility to be all of who we are, then with that come the true connection with others too.
“Who was I really?” This is a question I have no doubt world over in some way or another people ask themselves everyday, some may be on a whimsical note and some really from the depths of despair. People world over are driven to ‘find’ themselves through whatever means possible, it may be yoga, meditation, working hard, going off traveling, self help through hobbies, activities, relationships, having what some may term ‘a mid life crisis’ – but as you have shown, does any of this really help? Or does it take us further away from our truth and everything we are looking for in the first place?
Something I have never heard or imagined a small child would ask themselves, they just are, and contently so. So it then begs to ask the question, at what point do we loose that connection to ourselves and why?
‘I am a son of god, just like you’. I love this Nicholas. The ‘just like you’ is so important because when this is truly known and felt, we know it is true of everyone and that in fact, ‘we are all The One’.
Great point Gyl, Knowing Who We Are comes with the responsibility and simplicity of just being that.
Learning to feel again is great – learning to trust what I feel and express that instead of thinking ‘Oh is doesn’t matter’ or dismissing that I felt anything. Sometimes the feeling is a fleeting one, but I’m learning to catch even those, like a gossamer thread to my inner truth. It is a delicate unfolding but one that had untold power, the power of Truth.
It is so true that trying to define oneself from the mind is an eternal search that can only ever come from borrowed ideals and values. In contrast feeling who I am from the inner heart never changes and is a constant.
This is such a beautiful blog Luz – so much in here. Thank you for sharing your journey of coming back to you.. It makes it tangible for others to know the process and how it may unfold. Many would relate to the creating an identity and doing things for recognition. I have certainly felt for myself how I have used this as a false protection. Everything we have ever wanted and strived for is right there waiting for us.
‘What if we are all equal in our essence, but express in many different ways…’ I loved this line as it was when I truly came to know this that I was able to let go of any ideas or beliefs around how I should be and allow my natural expression, that was always there, to come out.
Reading your blog Luz made me realise how truly lost I was before Universal Medicine, without even knowing it. I had a lot of fun but never really looked at who I was or why are we here. I know I’m not there yet but at least I now know the way and have purpose, whereas before I just didn’t see the point to it all.
Great point kevmchardy, without Universal Medicine, I don’t think I would have ever been able to give you an answer for who I am
Luz thank you as your blog has helped me look at the fact that until we actually know who we really are we can’t then see other people for who they truly are, and in turn if we don’t see others for who they truly are we don’t then see ourselves for who we truly are. In effect then everyone is missing out on not only not living who they are but then not meeting each other as who we are instead we meet what we want the other person to be for us. The result is the state of health and society at the moment – not a pretty picture but one that we can all choose to change.
How true this is David. We are living lives missing out on ourselves and missing out on everyone around us. Living a lie is bound to show itself to us in one way or another, be that a growing nose or declining world health.
I agree with your sharing Sally in reference to Luz beautiful blog when referring to the question of “Who I really am…” when one takes away all the extraneous appendages of the doing in this life. I feel for me that was the hardest thing when the ‘nest’ became almost empty of chldren when boarding school replaced the local choice of educating the young. At that time I was quite bereft – lost absolutely, and thought what was I if I wasn’t a mother – I was nothing was my belief back then. I ultimately discovered that that choice of belief further cemented the un-planned downward spiral further and further away from my self. It took a very long time before I remembered who I was – and it was the meeting with Serge Benhayon that dislodged that old belief system – thank God.
So true in all you say Abby, firstly i have felt Serge’s support to the bone, and this has allowed me to trust, in trusting i feel who i am, and its divine and freeing…trusting is an ongoing unfoldment deepening and deepening until one day, we don’t need to even trust because we know!
Me too Karoline, I have also felt Serge’s total unwavering support and love for me no matter what I have said or done – it is always the same. It has helped me regain that love and knowing in myself that I am love and not all the layers of emotions/hurts that I have allowed myself to take on over the years and become identified with.
Yes Linda ‘…the key to unfolding naturally the harmony, joy and love we are all within…’
When we are is disharmony, such has having awful thoughts about ourselves, striving for recognition outside of us and the list is endless, it is actually hellish! But when we feel the harmony by unfolding a deeper acceptance of who we truly are, essence it is like walking in nature on one of those most glorious sunny days, where we feel simply amazing and in appreciation of all. Two very different states of being!
I too have lived in my head and it was a living hell! As I started to connect to my body and move more deeply within, in reconnecting to my essence, the living hell alchemically became living in heaven. The quality of my whole life has changed. Definitely no perfection, and I sometimes dip into hell, but I can really feel the difference because I know another way, where before that was all I knew.!
I can so relate to what you share here Luz…”My body was just `something´ I took everywhere without much care or awareness and respect for its powerful intelligence.” I too treated my body with total disregard – it was just a means to fulfil whatever my mind wanted to do. It has only been through attending Universal Medicine presentations that I have started to take loving care of my body and to respect the wisdom it so freely shares with me, and as a result the whole way I am within the world, and how I relate, has completely changed in a very positive way too.
As soon as I start to think things through instead of feeling what is true in my body, I notice situations and life become very long drawn out and complicated.
I have never really known myself from my qualities before. I have just started to bring it to the forefront and bring more awareness to them. It’s a whole different kettle of fish to knowing yourself from what you do, can bring for another or look like, as this has always been the case for me.
Brilliant Nicola! Great question, ‘why on earth do we live in separation?’ It exposes how I used to live and I have started uncovering the answers from within. This is deeply inspiring to have this beautiful reminder of our true qualities. We can choose to connect to Love, Joy, Harmony, Truth and Stillness at any time. I love what you’ve shared, Thank you!
Luz its huge to let go of all our old ways of being and thinking of who we think we are, to return to our natural loving way of being. Thank you for sharing your experience of this.
I feel we all deep down already know who we are, but sometimes we simply forget due to so many things going on in our lives, emotions, dramas, hurts, etc. It’s like we use so many layers of protection, we don’t allow access to our divine essence, this is never lost, it’s only heavily covered and protected. So when we slowly start to uncover these layers we start to reveal who we truly are. This process is simply magical in re-connecting to our essence and sharing it with humanity.
Luz you touch upon a subject that is huge, there is much out there that talks about ’embracing your shadow’. If we do this then we accept and identify with something that is not actually us. Everything is energy and we come from, and thus are, in essence nothing but love, light, truth, joy and harmony. All else is not who we are and an energy we have allowed to express through us for various reasons. If we are to identify with this energy how could we ever return in full to our essence (our core)? And so is everything that makes us think we are what we are not therefore not absolutely evil?
HI Deanne that is the danger isn’t it, if we are being taken a long way but not all the way then the ‘better’ that we will get to will stop us from knowing exactly who we are and what we are not.
This is a great point to clarify here Carolien. Until I came across Serge Benhayon, never had I been presented with the fact that there are two energies we choose to align to – fire/love or prana/spirit and that it is impossible to align to them both at the same time. Therefore when we choose to ’embrace our shadow’ we are indeed embracing prana, an energy that is not true to us and therefore not who we are. Knowing that there is a choice in every moment as to which energy I align to has been a revelation and something I continue to develop in my return to who I truly am.
Well said Caroline and the same is true for me. Not until Serge Benhayon had I been presented with the fact that there are in fact two very different qualities of energy to align to and that which ever we choose will affect our choices thereafter until such time that we make another choice. This is such an important fact of life that all should know about as too many embrace the notion of everything being energy without the awareness of this fact and are therefor mostly left at the mercy of their spirit/prana. For if we do not choose love intentionally the quality of energy will be chosen for us.
Thank you Luz… Understanding that we are not all of those things that you talk about, the career, looks, the personality, but that we are that deep abiding essence which, when we let go all that we are not, starts to shine with a beauty that is unmatched in this world, because that is the beauty of the soul.
Luz I love your paragraph ‘my acceptance of something so simple yet powerful and universal would take me through a journey of deep self transformation and acceptance of humanity.’ It is so simple and when you do start to accept this your journey is quite profound and it changes your world and the whole world.
I have found the excavation process hard as it can be so easy to fall into self criticism during the process. As behaviours come up it has taken a lot of effort to not let them overwhelm me. During excavation, when we come across something its gets brought up before being discarded. When it comes up it can be quite intense feeling it and self criticism can run amok. Self appreciation is paramount and acts as the antidote.
In a recent session we talked about self appreciation and taking it to a new level. To appreciate myself before I move. I can appreciate what I do but start to look at the being that does those things and what my values are that allows me to do the things I do so well. For example, I am a good mother not because of any outcome but because I bring love. The more I do this the more it helps with that burning question.
Beautifully expressed Lee. “I have a sense of who I am but struggle to articulate it” sums up how I feel. It’s like I know I know who I am but I am not quite there yet. A little more gets revealed all the time and adds to that growing knowing.
Merrilee – that is absolutely gorgeous and very inspiring. I want to repeat your entire comment as all of it is gold.
‘I was offered the possibility to know myself by my essence of Love, Harmony and Joy.
Could someone be described through these qualities and nothing more? What about all the things I´ve done? What about my intellectual knowledge? What about my hidden cravings and not so nice stuff?’
I know for myself that, as Truth was laid out before my eyes, I was stopped in my tracks, how could I possibly redeem myself? But then I realised that this was a huge trick, and the moment that we connect and live the Love that we truly are, we are that Love , and we are living our future.
When I came across the words “become who I really am” I was a bit stumped. I’d forgotten. Delayering all the things I had associated with myself has been a long process that is ongoing. I still don’t really know but I’m getting more of an idea as I commit more to myself and to dropping many past behaviours and patterns.
If we constantly deny what we truly feel inside and take on thoughts from outside (because e.g. the society, culture, religion wants it like that) – then it is no wonder we lose ourselves and dismiss who we truly are. And plus we start disliking the true us, because it does not conform with the demands of the outside.
Yes I agree Sonja and the weird thing is that WE are the society, culture, religion – all these things are made up of people. So by not being who we are we are all giving each other a false and harmful reflection… but who we are always lives there within untouched by all this nonsense. Then it only takes one to come along (which could be you or me or anyone) and be who they are and it triggers others. That is what happened for me when I met Serge Benhayon – in his absolute dedication to lovingly living and expressing from his innermost my own got awakened as did thousands of others and now it is spreading like fire!
A beautiful and inspiring sharing Luz. A few years ago I made a huge life change that included giving up a career in which I had become successful. At the time I had not really appreciated that the choice I made was/is to discover ‘Who I really am’. One of the most poignant aspects I came to realise was that I completely identified myself by what I did. To take away all that identification is an ongoing journey and for a time I felt very lost and that I was nothing. Having gone through that stage so I am now re-discovering the amazing beautiful tender man I am.
A beautiful sharing Luz and a great reminder to appreciate our own uniqueness in the bigger picture of life. For so long I always felt intelligence was something you had to study towards – it was a constant searching outside of myself to get to the bottom of ‘who I really am’. In my teens I remember standing in front of a mirror and saying those very words to the reflection looking back at me. It was another 45 years until my searching ended. I attended my first Universal Medicine presentation with Serge Benhayon. This was my shining light to rediscover and choose a different unfolding path – one of self love.
Wow I really don’t know where to begin, there are so many points in this blog that made me pause and I feel quite humble in knowing that we aren’t any of the struggles or stories we run with, just the avoidance of responsibility for our choices.
As you discovered for yourself Luz, and I have too through the teachings of Serge Benhayon, we are all misleadingly identified by our individual traits, skills and personalities when in truth we are all equal in essence, we are all Love, Joy, Harmony and know truth in our bodies. When we surrender the need for identification and recognition we are free to appreciate the skills and abilities of everyone else instead of measuring ourselves against them. This is the essence of equality, of brotherhood and it is truly divine.
” I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.” Something that can only happen if we actually go through the process ourselves and begin to surrender to the wisdom of the body and deeply feel what is happening on the inside as a consequence of our actions as we live in the world. I can feel that this is your lived experience Luz and appreciate your sharing here and the inspiration it brings.
“The more I discern and keep aligning back to a quality that to me feels closer to harmony, the more I organise my movements, my choices and all of myself in ways that allow for a more loving way of living to unfold naturally, without sacrifice or becoming alien in a very busy world.” If I confirm that my true essence is Love, Harmony and Joy it makes total sense that I would then live my life in a way that honours these values. Thank you Luz – I felt something change in me as I read this.
This makes sense to me, ‘If I confirm that my true essence is Love, Harmony and Joy it makes total sense that I would then live my life in a way that honours these values.’ I will bring more awareness and acceptance to this, especially if I get caught up in doing.
Leonne, this really stood out for me too, ‘“The more I discern and keep aligning back to a quality that to me feels closer to harmony, the more I organise my movements, my choices and all of myself in ways that allow for a more loving way of living to unfold naturally, without sacrifice or becoming alien in a very busy world.” This feels like a very practical way back to living in our natural soulful way.
What you raise is so important Leonne, to confirm and appreciate who I am in every movement, word and action allows no space to live from the what is not me.
Thank you for sharing your story so far Luz Helena. It never ceases to amaze me how little I knew my true self, and how much more of me is yet to be revealed. Like you I thought what I did was who I was and I also could not shake the darkness and I accepted it as part of me, which was my biggest mistake. All the self-criticism was just an excuse for not claiming my true self. Looking back it was irresponsible, but it did not feel like that when I was in it, I felt more like a victim.
“Be who you truly are”- what an amazing gift we give to ourselves and others when we surrender, accept and reconnect to our innermost natural qualities that define us all- love, joy harmony and stillness.
“What if we are all equal in our essence, but express in many different ways and it is never about validation, competition or defence?” Yes, what if this is the case? This awareness would change the whole world. How awesome would it be if we all shared an understanding of this fact, let the competition and comparison drop and accepted our innate equality.
Who was I really? If normally I am not who I really am, then who am I most of the time? These are great questions to ask. I find for myself that I try to fit into pictures, molds and ideals of the person I think I need to be. Understanding my essence, feeling it and knowing this is my true-self has changed everything. To discover the beauty inside has been a revelation which has given a tangible marker to counter these false ideals.
A long time ago I made a choice to stop feeling and I spent most of my life finding ways to support that – through overeating, being super-intelligent, or playing dumb, reading fantasy feel-good novels, watching TV, and doing ‘good works’ in my local area. When I started learning about energy, I would put myself down, saying ‘Oh I can’t feel’ and therefore settled into a comfortable existence of avoiding any kind of energetic responsibility for how I was living. In truth I can feel and I’m very good at it, and sometimes I don’t like what I feel so I return to the old ways of numbing myself, but as the awareness grows, the truth of who I am is gently unfolding.
It is so easy to jump to values, ideals and talents when asked the question who are we really? These things define us and give us an identity of sorts and make us all different and separate from each other. But if the answer to the question was simply that we are all divine multi-dimensional beings equal to each other and to God? This would surely unify humanity not divide it.
Who I really am – Luz you have so clearly embraced this question and discovered that when we take away all the stories, roles, achievements, beliefs, ambitions and constructs, that we are all loving, harmonious beings in our essence. I feel that for children to grow up with this knowing wisdom will be so healing and empowering for them and everyone they connect with.
Beautiful Luz expression of our true self brings about an amazing joy and knowing and the more we do it the more it becomes our natural way. This is reflected to us by Serge Benhayon and his family and bringing us back to feel and live who we really are. This is the greatest gift in the world.
Sometimes it freaks me out when other people, especially Esoteric practitioners seem to know me better than I know myself, but by staying out of the mind and learning to feel again I am slowly but surely learning more about me.
‘Studying’ myself with curiosity not criticism has allowed me to develop appreciation for the tenderness and truth of my qualities and who I am. Nowadays I can do this without the slamming voice just around the corner that used to knock it out of me before I had taken the next step.
‘I also didn´t like that, if I was these, or had these qualities in myself, I was not the only one, the rest of humanity had them as well.’ This is an ongoing tipping point for me. When that individualised voice grabs the microphone and says, ‘I am me – smaller, bigger, more or less important, prettier, uglier etc etc’, I am lost. What I am learning and loving is that in surrendering to a bigger picture that has me as an integral, essential part that incorporates everyone, all isolation dissolves and I am evolved by being part of the whole.
‘To claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.’ Perfect, Luz, this is so true, and as we make each small choice in how we live with/in our bodies it is amazing how this builds and confirms us in our being, simple but transformative.
Absolutely Elizabeth, we have collectively focussed on our faults, and have got used to doing this so much so that it has become an habitual way of being and it often feels ‘easier’ to go this way. To learn to focus on what is true in us, our loving tender being, seems at first an effort or should I say we have to learn to let go of effort to do this. But boy is it worth it.Thanks to Luz for detailing the way.
Beautiful Merrileepettinato, I really feel where you are coming from: appreciating ourselves and what we naturally bring. I am engaged in the same process and can already feel how much more harmonious it is to live this way, and I notice how things invariably seem to come towards me now and life had more of a flow. Not to say that I do nothing, not at all but my commitment is naturally deepening as I let go of trying to be anybody other than who I am naturally, learning to recognise and come back to my essence and letting go of the need to be and/or do more.
Thank you Luz, Living from our heads creates a crisis within us as we don’t really know who we are or always feel that we are good enough so we go out of our way to prove that we are worthy. What I have learnt through the presentations by Serge Benhayon is that I am enough and that I don’t need anything by connect to my own essence and confirm that in every way possible so there is no room for self doubt only the acceptance of who I am.
Indeed Francisco there is no solid foundation in my ideals and beliefs I have created in regards to who I am. They can be constantly challenged by the next mental idea. There is such relief and no room for self doubt when I connect to who I am in my inner heart.
I totally agree Oliver, all those thoughts that come streaming in uninvited certainly aren’t the real me, slowly chopping away at these prolific words has revealed much more of who I really am.
Luz, a great question to ask. Who I really am, when you take away the identity of what I do, my talents and beliefs, there seemed at first an emptiness that I filled with all my doingness. The emptiness was caused by my lack of true connection to myself, through reconnecting to my true self I am beginning to find the real me.
I can relate to what you have written here Sally, ‘when you take away the identity of what I do, my talents and beliefs, there seemed at first an emptiness that I filled with all my doingness’, I very much felt like this initially when I started attending Universal Medicine presentations, but now i have let go of attachment to these things and have connected much deeper to my true qualities, such as tenderness and stillness and have found that these far outweigh any of the things that I was identifying with such as what I do.
Great point Sally, when we take away all the things we do in life, what are we left with? And are we content with it?
I love your comment Sally Cranwell-Child. How strange it is that we often do all we can to avoid developing a truly loving and intimate relationship with ourselves. I feel inspired to explore this further.
So true, Paulmoses39, those images keep us locked into some rather strange self concepts which do not serve our natural sense of health, or self, at all. I’m learning that as soon as an image arises, clock it so it does not lead me off on a trail away from myself. Otherwise, I end up miles away, wondering how I got there – but it started with a little image!
I love your reference to the body as a magnet indicating truth! Beautiful.
That’s so true HartAnne60. I can relate to this too – we desperately want to find more of ourselves – but try to do so through others… without taking responsibility for connecting to who we are first.
It is truly amazing how the acceptance of oneself as being, by essence, Joy, Harmony and Love, can bring up so much stuff, initially, that seems to militate against the truth of that claim. I have found it simpler to see that all of that stuff is arising for a giant spring clean – like letting out all the stale air from a room that has been closed up and curtained off for a long time- it needs a breath of fresh air….. and sunshine. Your article, certainly brings that fresh air to this matter, Luz, and your essence brings the sunshine 🙂
So true Coleen, we aren’t always able to see our essence and true qualities for all the dust and cobwebs inside ourselves, but it is there none the less. Luz’s gorgeous essence certainly lights the way forward and encourages us all to open a window and let some fresh air in.
Carving an individual path on the Earth will never take us anywhere – no matter how much effort and time we invest in it, from a rugged goat track, to a grand, and manicured pathway. We create something to convince ourselves we are going somewhere… We invest far more in the distraction of carving the pathway in life – our identification, job, looks, abilities, rather than stopping to connect to the quality of each footstep within it.
This illusion is grand. Much like time, which we have allowed to feed our minds and control our bodies. Believing we are going or getting somewhere takes us away from the simple connection of being who we are in each moment.
Beautifully put Kylie. We can and do spend so much time trying to create this ‘happy’, manicured life where we can function and work, but still have our comforts in and out of the home, but as you say investing in this will never fill any emptiness. No matter how much we throw at it, it will always be an image outside of us. As you said we should be connecting to the quality of each footstep, and building foundations of joy within, rather than trying to perfect an exterior.
Great analogy Kylie. This is true any path will not only go no where but around in circles until we stop and connect to the quality of each footstep.
So true Luke we are under the illusion that in each special circle we carve out will deliver us something and yet we need only to connect with what we are in essence and end the eternal false creations.
This reminds me of my little dog ‘Leo’ I had in Australia, he always dug big holes at the beach, he was digging for hours, until he was exhausted. His nails were bleeding most of the time. He could have had a great time with me in the sun and playing in the water. It felt like he had to release old aggressions that his little body was holding onto.
Kylie I love your comment. It really supports me to connect to what is true in life and important and not give energy to what is not. I love how it is staying with what is presented to me in the present to respond to and feel it’s importance and not discount it in favour of any self-created self-serving goals and ideals. Thank you.
Very true Kylie. When we do this we forget to see what is in front of us all along- a true connection with others and that reflection in the mirror. Life would be a lot simpler if we stopped running from it.
Love this Kylie ~ ‘We invest far more in the distraction of carving the pathway in life – our identification, job, looks, abilities – rather than stopping to connect to the quality of each footstep within.’
A beautiful comment Kylie, and so true what you share, ‘We invest far more in the distraction of carving the pathway in life – our identification, job, looks, abilities, rather than stopping to connect to the quality of each footstep within it.’
To know ourselves from our essence would mean that we understand true equality. Without all the rah rah that goes on as we live the human existence, we get to where we came from, an energy that defies everything that we have been taught is important. To live this awareness in human life would mean an end to wars and suffering.
Very true Suzanne. When we truly know our qualities we can see and recognise them in another and so find equality hard to ignore. How can you go to war with someone that is completely equal to you ?
It is quite extraordinary how connected we are to who we are when we are young only to progressively let this knowingness go and adapt accordingly to fit into the world, only to end up suddenly realising we don’t know anymore and end up searching for what we once had.
You have perfectly and succinctly shown what we have done Samantha. We are just now returning to our starting point.
Yes Samantha, what a round-about we ride on.
Well said Samantha, this crazy merry go round we choose to fit into the world. So absurd.
I agree, if you see young children play and generally be with each other it is beautiful but when you get to my age of 14 it becomes heavy fights, drugs, alcohol and parties. Such a massive difference, where did the innocence go?
Well said Samantha, ‘…we don’t know anymore and end up searching for what we once had’…when it is always within us, we just left it, and its simply returning back to what we have. It is simply returning but sometimes its not easy as we clear what took us away in the first place.
From very young I knew myself to be love harmony and joy but, as I grew, felt this was not enough or what was wanted. I blamed the world for ‘forcing’ me to be other and retreated from it and disconnected from my body in a myriad of ways. “My body was just `something´ I took everywhere without much care or awareness and respect for its powerful intelligence.” I did all I could to numb and stifle all it was trying to convey to me. Thanks to the love and grace of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, like you Luz, “I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.” I no longer deny the truth and intelligence of my body and also know that harmony love and joy are the essence of us all and to be and express this is more than enough. Thank you Luz for this beautiful and powerful post.
Luz you have given an amazing in depth description of what for many of us it has been like when reawakening to our true self. The illusion of living a life of self, that disconnects one from the many. Seeing how when all those illusions of built up self are gone, we are lift we something more incredible than we could have every created with the self.
Absolutely Kim, ‘when all those illusions of built up self are gone, we are left with something more incredible than we could have ever created with the self’. Its like living in hell, changing address and moving to heaven!
I agree, there’s an element of being inspired to actually ask the same question more often, leading to more understanding of oneself.
Being committed to being all of who we are is the healing for us in our temporal life. I agree it is an unfolding Lee, and an expansion at the same time.
I can’t help but imagine how different life would be in general if we were taught this in school and at home. That recognition through being ‘good’ at something was not what made us who we are, that the moto ‘ what doesn’t kill us makes us stronger’ isn’t actually something to aspire to.
My need to special really gets in the way of truly appreciating the simplicity of who I really am, which is just me minus the drama.
Wow Luz, what beautiful honesty and truth you share. I am deeply humbled by the truth we are all Love, Harmony and Joy and that we can live that through our bodies. I am coming out of just thinking my body is something I carry around with me. I am learning to appreciate I hold so much wisdom within each cell. My body is my lifeline to that wisdom so to love it and truly cherish it and discover who I am through it’s particles I share with the world makes complete sense and feels lovely.
Beautifully expressed Karin, I love what you’ve shared. I too am learning to appreciate this, the grandness and wisdom we each hold within and can be accessed at any time.
My feeling exactly steffihenn. I can certainly feel that enormous attachment to needing to be ‘special’ and ‘different’ to everyone else as well as needing to be identified by how much I have ‘struggled’ in life. It’s amazing how difficult I find it to accept that I am none of those things but that I am so much more of those things, equal to everyone else around me.
This is so true rebeccawingrave. With our natural qualities we are so loving towards our self and to others. So beautiful and simple. What a difference the World would be if we all knew ourselves through our inner qualities.
It is interesting Jenny how this question ‘who I really am’ is difficult for most people. I know I struggled with this and can remember not having a clue to who I am. Through the teachings and presentations by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have been able to reconnect with my inner qualities of Truth, Love, Stillness, Joy and Harmony. This is who I truly am.
As I discover more and more who I truly am the ‘what is not me’ lessens enabling space for a deeper connect with my true qualities.
And that space Anne just keeps expanding as I confirm who I truly am and express that in every movement thought and action.
The more we focus on the falsity the more falsity there becomes…and yet when truth is given the lead, there is no limit to what will come forth from the love and the joy that we already are.
‘Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life’. – This comment encapsulates simply how to live the life we are here to live. The truth of who we truly are. The answer to the question – Who am I really? Thanks Luz
That is such a key quote to pick ch1956 thank you. What an amazing pre-requisite to life, to focus on living our lives in a way that expands our natural essence, that makes us truly grow. I am aware these days that when we want to celebrate something in life, whether it be a birthday, a holiday, an anniversary or wedding we tend to do so in ways that diminishes our natural essence with alcohol, sugar and other indulgences. What a difference it would make to our lives to focus on ways to live that contribute to our expansion all the time, and find a way to celebrate major events that lifts and evolves who we are all the time. It would bring a completely different flavour to birthday parties, weddings and anniversaries as well as just everyday life.
Yes Sally it is. We are all living miracles when we do this and it is a much needed reflection in this world today.
The big challenge for a lot of us is to come out of our heads and stop identifying ourselves with our Doing, and allow ourselves to feel the beauty in the Love , Harmony and Joy of our true essence.
I agree Peter, it is a big challenge and a seemingly massive hurdle at first when we see how we have configured our lives to all be about getting recognition for what we are doing or have achieved. When we start to see it is not what we do but the way we do things that is important slowly things, well everything changes. For me this has meant I have become a lot less anxious and worried about how things will turn out and have become a lot more content with myself knowing that no matter what happens I know the way I have done something felt right to me and no one can bring doubt to me otherwise. I have also found that it means I do not need to constantly try to prove myself which is something I would constantly do before which was exhausting as it was never ending as nothing was ever enough.
‘I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.’ This sentence Luz explains it all.
Yes, The Body.
This part was hard for me to ‘accept’ (here we go with acceptance again). I really didn’t want to take responsability for how I had been living in my body, I just wanted to keep moving in ‘ it’ with no quality or respect whatsover. So off course it was something I avoided at all cost, so I could keep living in my mind, checking out, incrementing knowledge, etc.
It is huge how all our identifications and dishonesty come from..our mind and what runs it. The body on the contrary, is this amazing, present, tender vehicle of expression, that as Amelia mentions above, can help us create markers that can guide us amazingly well in knowing how far we are from being our true selves.
As my yoga teacher told me once: ” chosing to connect to my body….this is a choice I make again and again, repeteadly again and again during the day…” The only way to take us away from the mental energy that is so tempting and lingering….
Yes Joshua, and that when we detach ourselves from our imperfections, we see them not as parts of us, but on the forever aspects of us having accepted a lesser way of being that we are now renouncing, choosing to now come back to our essence, gloriously so. No longer do these imperfections drag us with a ball and chain, we embrace them as part of our forever developing and unfolding back to who we truly are.
I agree. I love how you share Luz Helena, how you used to identify with all the ‘shabby parts’ of you, thinking these were actually a part of who you are, and how it is such an illusion and evil to go with the accepted notion that we have to take the bad with the good. Those shabby bits within us are not who we are, but just as you so beautifully out it Luz Helena, they are what we took on as a result of hurts we wanted to protect ourselves from — ‘ultimately for survival and self-gain’. The story of individualism, of the glorious Son of God diminishing to the small self.
“When sabotage looks like an easy way out of difficult situations, I use honesty, discernment and detachment to support me with these.”- this for me I have found to be very important and invaluable in getting to truth.
Rachel, I can very much feel to what you share here. Without being in touch with my essence, self-doubt reigned, and so did a lot of lack of self-esteem and self-worth. Getting to know the real me has been a tender, exquisite process and a very humble one to feel and realise that in effectively dismissing my essence, the real me, I was saying yes to all that I was not — i was saying yes to self-doubt and lack of self-worth because what I was really saying was that my essence was not enough. There is nothing like reclaiming our essence back, and saying YES to the true us.
That is where it all starts deborahmckay, we first must trust and appreciate ourselves and from there truly know and value what we bring to the world around us.
My body was something I just carted around too with no awareness what I was doing to it with all my unloving choices. Now that I have a new found respect for my body and now honour it instead of bashing it, I have so much more awareness about myself and about others. And there is an easy flow to my life that was not there before.
I would find this very challenging, everybody around my would do something that I didn’t do or felt like doing. I experienced this strong as a child. It made me doubt or think I was the odd one out. Since I discovered truth has nothing to do with how many people think it is normal and/or have accepted it as normal behavior I give myself the space to feel the truth.
I really love this statement Luz: “…to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.” It is so true – how we live in our body any moment of the day really lets us know how much we truly claim ourselves in our daily lives; something to be really aware of.
Thank you for these words Rik: “I have focused on those dark thoughts that take away my feelings of being great or at ease just being me.” This I have done so well… and I am still working on consciously NOT choosing to focus on these thoughts and instead focus on taking up my responsibility to surrender to my self, take deep care of my body and feel/know who I really am.
I know this is the way to bring about a truly different & much more loving life and future.
Luz, I laughed when you described you didn´t like the fact that the qualities of your essence were equally true of everyone else, in other words no-one is special and/or everyone is special: I am not the only one. I laughed because I have also seen my own attachment to my identity in similar ways, and could feel myself choosing separation when the deeper call is to simply surrender to love. Nutty!
I agree, Rosannabianchini, totally inspiring.
This is the big question. What and who is the part that says ‘I’. There are tons of books written about it, but humanity has not got very far in actually getting it. Who am I? is a question I have also asked. I have also gone on trips into the jungle to ‘look for myself’. Sounds a bit ridiculous really when it is considered that who I am is inside me and has always been. Why go looking in a jungle? I guess the whole search for oneself is fuelled by a knowing that there is more to oneself than we actually live, but in this search we are distracted by tantalizing quests.
That is a very good question and one that I keep asking myself as well. This inquiry supports me to deeply understand myself and find out where my strength is and what I bring to humanity as well as what my patterns, my ideals and beliefs are, so I can let go of them and no longer be confined by them.
This is a big subject Luz and this blog needs to be re-read as I feel like it has so much in it. Letting go of our identity is huge, all this self-investment, righteousness, being good, bettering… does not serve nobody, not even ourselves, but we cling to it as if our lives depend on it. In truth it keeps us from connecting to and expressing from the amazing beings that we are.
Luz, thank you, there are many insights in this blog, and it is one I shall need to re-read several times. You said ‘However, what has truly changed is my understanding and how I relate to all these in ways that no longer seek to indulge in a debilitating self-loathing or self-condemnation and the evasiveness of aloofness and avoidance of responsibility.’ This feels a key thing for us to ponder on – so often we build ideals of how and who we could be and go into self-loathing at our failure to meet those ideals. To accept that is an indulgence and avoiding responsibility puts a new slant on the way we live.
I always enjoy your sharing Luz and this is no different , a truly honest and inspiring blog. I am inspired to be more aware of what is going on for me as regards to who I feel I truly am and not just an individual but one of a whole, that is Love. Thank you.
Great point. There is much to embrace out there in the world, and by staying small, concerned about self and our individual needs, we close ourself up and off to the world and the abundance of opportunities out there.
Luz this was an illuminating blog to read. I like how you get to the bottom of the problem in your writing step by step . The question you pose about who we really are is a simple one, yet if we really want to know the answer, we have to be prepared to get very honest. Thank you for your honesty, since it has helped me to see how attached I am to the stories that make me feel different and identified and even special. Yet it is these stories that keep me busy and distracted away from the simplicity of who I truly am.
Luz, It is always great to hear that we are imperfect, it can be easy to put pressure on ourselves to be perfect and of course we are not so this can only set us up to fail. Self acceptance allows us to see the world much more clearly as I find if I have a regard for self then I can be much more among people and work to help others accept that they too are also not perfect and never will be yet are still ultimately amazing beings.
There is a line in this blog about initially feeling apprehensive about losing identity and certain relationships. It is great to know that in coming back to who we truly are nothing is lost, and in fact relationships can become more genuine.
“I also didn´t like that, if I was these, or had these qualities in myself, I was not the only one, the rest of humanity had them as well.” – That would mean we are all one and the same. This highlights the fact that identification and struggle are a from of separation, it’s all just a game to stop us connecting to our essence, opening up and letting love in or out. If we are the same then is there really need for protection, in whatever shape or form it comes in?
Gorgeous Luz. And what an amazing gift you are to the world when you claim who you truly are.
Wow Luz love how you have nailed the struggles we can go through to be who we really are. Letting go of the stories in our minds and living from our bodies opens up the possibility to live from our essence, without perfection but with deep appreciation.
This blog cements the fact that we don’t have ‘ to do’ anything, but make a choice to allow and surrender to who we are.
Yes Gyl it is the key and for some reason I resist using it rather prefer to start the car(read body) with the automatic function rather than actually chose to be myself and allow that to run the car… I find it frustrating at times but are becoming more and more loving of myself and that seems to be the other key to really feel that I am worth making loving choices and surrendering to the love that is in my body.
Absolutely Gyl, it is not in the doing, but in the being. Surrender is key.
Very true Gyl, it is that choice to surrender and let go of all those ideals and beliefs we have carried for so long that allows us to know who we really are.
“My focus is not anymore about changing or judging my personality, my looks, my nose, my job, my family, my friends, my country, but how to live in a way that allows all the beauty I am reclaiming back to come out and express. This has required a new level of acceptance, as to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.” This is an incredible realisation and offer to humanity. If we think about the millions of people across the world who in some form or another have or do feel the way that you describe – there are millions, yet the fact is , and all the support out there thus far through psychology, doctors, health, well being, fitness, exercise therapies etc has been about change from the mind, bettering ourselves, by force at times, control, but never ever has it truly been presented, until Serge Benhayon, Universal Medicine and the teachings of The Ancient Wisdom – that true change occurs through how ‘we live in our body’. This is ground breaking, so simple and has changed and offered the world and they way we can and many do live, forever.
Thank you for sharing Luz, I have found the same that only when I start with the fact that I am love does everything change. I spent ages trying to get to love, to an ideal instead of stopping to accept that I already am love and come from love. It completely changes the picture and takes away any of the drive that I had before.
Wow Luz, what an inspiring blog with much to ponder upon with every re-read! I love the honesty and lighthearted way you have shared your past experiences and the feeling of deep joy in being re-connected to more of the truth of you since meeting Serge Benhayon.
“What became clear though, was that I spent most of my time in my mind; I used self-criticism a lot, tried to control how I came across, and was always trying to better myself as I craved being recognised.” this is fostered world wide from a very early age – recognition, celebration and identification with what we do – from a very early age, our very first time we use a potty, or do something that pleases another. This then sets us up to see that we get praise, attention, recognition for something we do rather than just being being loved and appreciated for who we are. This is a very tiring and draining way to live, it’s no wonder exhaustion is a world plague.
I agree Gyl, and where then is the room for our innate joy and love, when it squashed and squeezed out by the pressures from the mind?
Thank you, this is a really interesting blog, just how many people in the world, from a very young age, grow up being taught to be who they are not – the idea that we have to achieve, have an aim, a goal, simply from the fact that we start to be celebrated, not for who we are but for what we do. Hence in comes the identification, recognition, comparison and jealousy – all on the grounds of the fact we are actually looking for the truth, to be love and to be loved unconditionally, just as we did as children.
I can understand why people can become harsh or self critical, this may come from the drive and idea of achieving what we are taught as we grow up, that’s not to blame anyone, but to say okay, this isn’t the way and I have a choice and a responsibility to change this. It’s not about achieving something or becoming better, again another belief many are taught growing up, but a returning and letting go of everything that we know is not true about us by a process of re-learning; a simple okay this isn’t it, this isn’t me, that’s cool – now I can let go and move on from this.
Awesome blog, Luz. I can very much relate to your journey. Even though I would have never said my life was ‘successful’ and even though I had such self-loathing – I felt more resistance than acceptance when realising all I was doing all my life was just to accumulate the ‘doings’ to fill me up to get recognition and who I used to identify as myself was far off from the truth.
I agree Luz, it has been quite challenging to realise that all the things that I thought I was is not who I am. But, as I choose to feel deep in my body that I am my natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy I can feel the beauty of who I truly am and this opens me up to feel this equally in others to expand our essence of Love, Harmony and Joy – a shared evolution.
If I focus on the self doubt, I feel the self doubt, but when I discovered through the workshops of Universal Medicine that there is another part of me that I had forgotten and was not focusing on, the self doubt began to lift. That part is our grand inner essence, which is within all, every person walking the planet.
When we focus on our essence and connect to who we truly are there is not an ounce of self-doubt that can enter, as WE stand clear, open AND strong in who we ARE.
Thank you for this reminder Matthew. Our essence is so much greater than the fog of self-doubt.
‘My body was just `something´ I took everywhere without much care or awareness and respect for its powerful intelligence.’ I can relate to this Luz, I had no respect for my body whatsoever, it had to do what I needed and when my body gave me signals that I was not living in harmony with my body I didnot see the truth of what it was telling me. Now I know and feel the wisdom of my body and that I can only live who I am in connection with my body.
This line stood out for me too Annelies. Being aware of our body and listening to what it says supports us to connect to its intelligence which shows us how to live.
Annelies your comment to Luz’s amazing blog rang true for me also – that is not even recognizing that I was responsible for how the state of my body was as I did not really appreciate its’ role in my life. I’ve discovered this as I have been preparing a case study of sorts about the various bodily pains and challenges during many years – suddenly seeing that in the past I had no respect, understanding or appreciation for this vehicle of expression – and I see the beauty of the learning now, as the body was always expressing, I just was not listening nor understanding – taking no real responsibility at all. To repeat your words ” Now I know and feel the wisdom of my body and that I can only live who I am in connection with my body.”
Thank you Luz Helena Hincapié, for sharing your journey back to you true self with us. The journey back to who we truly are is found by the reconnection to our bodies, because in contrary with our mind, our body knows and can support us in our way back, as our bodies are an integrated part of all of the universe and is in constant communication with it.
I love that you have exposed ‘living in your mind’ as this is something the whole world takes as ‘normal’ but in this way of living everyone loses out. This is what feeds the separation and individualism in our world and follows on with comparison, competition, corruption and jealousy; yet these only exist because the separation from each other and our true quality and connection is missing.
Connecting to our qualities is an invaluable took to have as it is from our essence that we speak the depth of wisdom and truth that we are. When I experience this my body resonates and knows me inside out, cementing more that I am such qualities and confirming how amazingly gorgeous I am when I speak with them too.
Luz your examples so beautifully and precisely describe the constructed self that we have manufactured, to try and explain to ourselves who we are. I can relate to your freedom in letting go (sometimes reluctantly) to these stories, and bit by bit, discovering and living the love and harmony that is our true nature.Thank you.
I have always liked the phrase “who I really am”. When I first heard it, it brought me to a STOP and asked me to consider the fact that there was more to me than what I lived out everyday. Slowly over the years I am seeing how true this is. It has also made me realize just how many people live out their entire life not knowing who they really are and indeed living from a false and limited perception of themselves and the enormous richness that lays within them.
Thank you Luz , There are so many layers in what you have written . I agree that it is a day to day journey of discovery and commitment to allow what we know is true . It’s amazing how difficult it can be sometimes to just be our natural self. As I write this I am looking around at lots of people going about their day. You can see it on their face and in their posture that they are holding back their true self…..we have so much to share with humanity thanks to Serge sharing with us.
Thank you Luz for expounding on the nature of control. Control is such a harming form of comfort, trying to work things out, staying in the complication of thinking that ‘ who we are’ is needing to be in control. When we are ready to let go, it whips around and pinches us from another angle. It is a very manipulating and owning energy, this old energy of control. It seems to be there at the moment of choosing to exist outside of oneness – wanting to have things our own way. Obviously that part which feels uncomfortable in letting go, is part of the desire to be in control. So what you have opened up Luz seems very important as a platform for everyone to express about their own unique, private ways of controlling. Intellect is certainly one for me, yet it is just as controlling to dumb down our expression and there is a very playful way to be intelligent and speak the truth.
In reading this it really made me aware of all the attachments we have as a way of identifying and trying to work out who we are, when as you describe it is none of this that makes you who you are but it is an expression of qualities lived through the body. This is a very big learning.
In a true search for who we really are, we do have to let go of all those ‘efforts to become someone in a world where recognition, identification and standing out over the crowd are very much appreciated’ and it can be a challenge and a sense of loss when it’s all rendered meaningless. You nailed it for me though when you said it’s ‘through how I live in my body’ that we can connect to who we are. The body is the gateway to that inner essence that has always been us but we’ve been erroneously dressing up with all the external ‘stuff’ that we’ve believed is so important in creating an identity.
“The more I discern and keep aligning back to a quality that to me feels closer to harmony, the more I organise my movements, my choices and all of myself in ways that allow for a more loving way of living to unfold naturally, without sacrifice or becoming alien in a very busy world. It is not perfect, but a deeply powerful process that is forever unfolding and deepening towards the true Harmony, Love and Joy I am”.
I really love what you have expressed here Luz, very powerful and wise.
Thank you for sharing your experiences which I could certainly relate to.
I feel what you have shared is an inspiration for us all.
Luz, you make the stark difference between living from our self invested place, created from ideals and beliefs and their miserable lairs, and the expanded jewel like truth that we are Love, Harmony and Joy, so simply obvious. That is not to say we do not hang on to the old ways, however your transition though completely confronting almost feels irresistible! Thank you from my heart.
Luz, there is just so much absolute Gold here in your sharing. ” Who I really Am”. Everyone could do with reading your blog! I am very grateful for how you so beautifully put it all together and a definite reread is coming up soon! With many thanks.
Awesome Luz, you describe the tension between the everyday existence yet knowing there is more to life so well, it’s a ‘U-turn’ we make at some point and once we discover the connection to the body and the love, joy, harmony and stillness that is within it, there’s no going back! Great blog, thank you!
Luz, beautifully expressed. Feeling who we really are is so spacious and light that the need for recognition and personal identity pales in significance. However, as you describe it is an unfolding process, as the heaviness and patterns that we have identified with have long been our companions. I am truly thankful that I have been given the opportunity to feel who I really am so that is a known foundation I can come back to – a foundation I have built from listening to Serge Benhayon, practising Esoteric Yoga, personal sessions and rediscovering how this spaciousness can be lived day to day when I so choose.
Being love, harmony and joy does indeed sound like a great idea, and that is all that they are unless we truly understand what it means to ‘be’ love, harmony and joy. And with choosing to consider this deeper, that there is more than just ideas of how to live, comes the choice to let go of all the ideas of who we thought we were. I too had in the past read these words and thought ‘yes that’s nice, yes I like the idea of that’ and that would be it. I had not considered how I would or could live this, as I did not truly understand what these words meant or what their quality felt like. Through choosing to want to know who I truly am I have discovered that there is much more, within us, and began to connect to this, and all that was not of these divine qualities became apparent. From this what developed was a deeper connection and knowing of who I truly am and I now understand that this is who we all truly are in essence.
Beautiful Luz, thanks for your honest sharing. As we uncover what is not us, the ‘real’ us then naturally reveals itself. Like a sun that is sitting behind the cloud, always shining. When the clouds move on we feel the radiance of the true light.
You know when you read something and it says to you “thats where I am right now, that is what I am developing and in lots of ways struggling with right now” thats what happened when I read this Luz, I am tired so haven’t taken it all in, so will return for a reread. The surrendering of the identity is the last key to actually being what we are naturally – this whole set up is is bonkers!
hi Luz, the part that stood out for me was, ‘All my efforts to become someone in a world where recognition, identification and standing out over the crowd are very much appreciated, all of a sudden became meaningless.’ We are encouraged to live in this way from the start and yet I have found this isn’t it at all. Yes stand out for Truth and lead the way in equallness to everyone else but to stand out just to be seen and recognised is a separation from the whole.
Ah Luz, I know its not really funny, but the sharing in the first half of your blog had me laughing, as I could relate to some of the things you came up against – and love the way I can feel in your writing that you are not bound by these things, but looking back on them – which is kind of amazing actually. Celebrating how far you have come back to you and all that you have allowed to drop away as actually not being part of who you really are. How totally worth it.
Wow, on reading your blog Luz, I really felt the difference between me, and all the mental driven illusions of me. I am just me, beautiful me, nothing complicated or heavy about it. Thank you.
This has absolutely been my experience too – “…to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.” My body gives me a great marker for which of my choices and expressions are in line with who I truly am and which ones are not.
Agree Sandra, if I find myself trying to make a decision by working something out, I know I have to come back to my body, and feel/know what to do from there. I can feel how held I feel when I am with myself in this way and how cold and uncertain it feels when I’m in my head.
Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life. It is something that deserves true consideration and a commitment to be explored in each one of us. It is true evolution! Luz, I totally agree with your words here. We are most definitely the key to our own evolution back to our much grander and more amazing selves, and Serge Benhayon has been enormously instrumental in showing us the way back to that loving return.
I enjoyed “…who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.” Indeed how we live in our body and the qualities that we emanate are what’s important in spreading the Christ energy we are all a part of.
This complete package of wisdom you have delivered Luz is pure gold. To truly consider and accept my essence to be that of Love, Joy, and Harmony is one I feel am at an embryonic stage with, however one I am committed to until my last breath.
I feel the same Giselle I have an awareness of the essence that is within but am still very much at the baby stage or as you have shared the embryonic stage.
..and with that, often I can feel like as a child the wish to ‘be there already’. It has been beautiful to realise how the ‘there’ is merely a picture in my head that appears only by way of distraction to feeling the appreciation for where I am in myself now.
Serge Benhayon is an incredibly supportive man in so many ways in enabling people of all ages, backgrounds, skin colour and nationalities to know and feel who they truly are. I am not surprised that you have been inspired by him Luz, as Serge’s presence re-ignites who we really are quite naturally.
Thanks Luz, coming out of the mind and into the body so we can again feel the essence within, now that something to truly celebrate.
Simply and beautifully put Victoria. Living from our minds is incarcerating and most of my life I have not even known I was in jail. I ‘thought’ this was it and though I could access the deeper knowing that there was more I did not have a way to express this more fully or have it confirmed. Escape from that incarceration has only come through the Ageless Wisdom teaching presented by Serge Benhayon. And now it is my choice as to how I develop my relationship with God and who is in everyone I meet!
Thank you Luz for sharing your experience of revealing ‘Who I Really Am.” I found much in the content that resonated with myself as you expressed your transformation and developing awareness in this blog. The line that stood out especially for me this morning was “When feelings of emptiness and misery look like me……..I use honesty, discernment and detachment to support me…….”. I can feel the impact of those few words and can sense when those elements of certain emotions that may ‘look like me’ are attached to and believed as we have now been reminded of the wisdom held within each one of us, via the Ageless Wisdom Teachings as presented by Serge Benhayon, and lovingly and effortlessly they dispose of the vagaries of these untruths.
Luz as always your writing is relevant and very relatable. It’s a great topic to explore, this gripping onto individual identity for the sake of identifying with drama, or ideals and beliefs, to the detriment of our inner most essence of joy, love and harmony. For me it’s also about wanting to stand out and be recognised. This is such an illusion hanging onto the negative aspects of life in the belief if we do not, and we surrender to the soul, we will somehow be voided, or dissolved and lost. This true surrender though is falling back into all that I am and into a greater fullness of self. This is where true brotherhood is.
Observing this in myself, I am always surprised how tenacious the holding on to struggle and hardship can be. It doesn’t make sense, but it also can’t be denied.
I am so with you on this Gabriele, I find it hard not to find it frustrating but that in itself is part of the game, to keep you tied into it, that is the identification of the identity of the struggle. The real key is to let go and surrender back into the arms of God.
For me it has been about letting go of the belief that life has to be hard and somehow has more value it I have had to struggle…
Thank you for expressing with such honesty and power Luz. So much resonated with me, and I particularly felt this line to be very poignant for me right now, “I know I am in a process of healing, saying goodbye and discarding issues that have a strong hold on me because for so long I believed they were me. When feelings of emptiness and misery look like me, or when sabotage looks like an easy way out of difficult situations, I use honesty, discernment and detachment to support me with these.” Bringing understanding to myslf in these moments is something I am also learning to do as this allows me to feel compassion not criticism.
Lucy, I love how you say you are learning to use compassion not criticism with your self. This is something I am working on too and the difference between the 2 ways of handling myself is huge!
This is gorgeous Luz, and so honest. It is great to feel that we are joy and love, but this brings with it that we can see how we have avoided it for such a long time. Not that it has been that long for me, but in these 2 decades, I have created a lot of things to protect me and be comfortable with, I can feel how developing this love inside me needs learning to walk again with small steps and truly feeling what is my expression and what I am needed for in this life.
The honesty and clarity you share in your story, including the challenges along the way, is very inspiring and makes our journey back to who we truly are very real…thank you.
Luz, I can really relate to your ‘search’ as I too had been looking and wondering what I, and life, was all about, for many years. Through Serge Benhayon’s presentations, I gradually began to open up to the concept of being who I really am.
Serge would not tell us…that was up to us to discover for ourselves. Crikey, there were so many things to discard which I realised were what I was not: for example, self-doubt, trying to find a ‘purpose’ and putting up a false protective shield.
It was probably through the gentle-breath meditation and esoteric yoga that I could feel my essence and from there through various Unimed workshops, being present and feeling my body, I was able to discard much of the rubbish I had accumulated over many years.
There’s still more rubbish to put out, but at least I’ve reacquainted myself with who I really am…which is quite delightful.
It’s not an understanding that takes place in the head, if so, then joy, harmony and love would be mere words. How I live in and with my body manifests who I am, this is such a great revelation!
I absolutely agree. I struggled with the notion of who I am and it is so simple. It’s how I live in my body, I used to think it was about how or what I identified with that was outside of me. A career, hobby or passion, but no, it’s me just being me, in my tenderness, gentleness and beautiful connection to all that I come in contact with.
Luz I love the way you so openly and playfully shared all the unfolding steps forward, back and sideways as you considered ‘who I really am’. Very familiar story, I can recognise so much of it. A delightful read with so many insights. Thank you.
I agree Luz, everything you say ‘deserves true consideration and a commitment to be explored in each one of us. It is true evolution!’
There is nothing more empowering than living our authentic selves. Much gets in the way in life, and always will, but with the tools to connect to our essence provided by studying with Universal Medicine, it is clear that there is only one way – be you in everything you do! It is also beautiful to recognise that although we are all the same energetically, we also all have our own individual expressions.
Luz, there are countless gems in this blog, and your tory of coming to realise who you really are, without the identifications and titillations we are so often use to, I can hugely relate to as well. It’s like we play a game to avoid our true essence, and in doing so we have to add so much complication and struggle in order to maintain something that really is a lie. Accepting and surrendering to who we truly are is so so simple but not always easy, because we’ve invested in so much that we are not in order to comply with a society that has lost its way. But taking that stand is the biggest true investment we can give ourselves and in fact to all of humanity.
This is truly beautiful Luz. Although you write from the perspective of your own journey you are in fact writing for humanity as all of us need to travel this path.
I agree with you Jonathan, thats how it felt to me when I read it. All of humanity would benefit from reading this blog. It doesn’t need to be complicated, accepting that we are all one, on the same journey back to God is the key.
I agree Jonathan, this blog brings a great awareness for everyone.
Beautiful Luz, your article is so refreshing and honest, thank you. While it is a really simple sentence, “be who you really are”, it can be quite baffling at first because we are so laden with impositions and false beliefs we have forgotten what that really means. The way you have asked the question and unravelled all the false answers is very inspiring, leading you back to the joy of truly honouring the wisdom of your body and the appreciation of your natural qualities by the way you choose to live. It has taken me a good few years too, but now I am beginning to recognise and feel within me who I truly am, qualities I too can nourish with how I live in my body and express and celebrate everyday.
A powerful blog Luz. You sum it up so well: “Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life. It is something that deserves true consideration and a commitment to be explored in each one of us. It is true evolution!”
When stumbling across the work I also got caught up in ‘who am I’ when listening to the audios and the presentations. For so many of us we define ourselves by what we do, or what sports we like or what style we go for. But never for who we truly are and this is a mind piece, in the beginning. For how do we not know who we truly are when we have been living for so many years. But that which we are living is nothing compared to the depth and the beauty and the exquisiteness of who we truly are underneath all of the patterns, and the ideas, and the believes about ourselves… mostly based on what we think of ourselves and what we have done because of what we think others will like. It’s an amazing science.
Luz , this is an amazing article. I have felt deeply who I am, since I became associated with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. I felt finaly who I was, and since then I have a marker to come back to everyday. I could also feel the contrast of not living from who I was, and so having quiet some momentum going on in my life from misery and dispair – no love. Having felt this misery and the absolute love that I am, have opened me up to the fact that I have a choice – a choice to change this absolute contrast and live in a way that is holding me – just as I am. Therefor I have to take responsibility and feel and let go of basically all my behaviors, acts and thoughts that are not loving.. I still do this everyday. But I can say that this is the most freeing feeling when letting go of all these hurts and unloving acts – as they bring me back to me – the love that I am = who I really am. I will only unravel and let go of more , so I can be me even more and more, and it is here that I know that I am not the only one – I am here with humanity.
There can be much searching and striving for ‘who I really am’ and yet falling well short of who we really are – I can relate to going into the same trying to ‘be love’ and to ‘choose love’ initially, intellectualising the words rather than understanding their true meaning. It is curious how was can immediately go into motion and needing to perfect something or acquire it rather than settling deeply within ourselves and simply letting out who we deeply are.
and how our bodies are the key back from our minds, the thinking of who we are rather than feeling within who we are. The feeling inside the body when we are connected is undeniable and strong, to allow ourselves the grace to be filled up by this is what is being offered here.
I just feel to add that as I wrote this I got the sense that it is that – allowing ourselves to feel the love, and grace we are be felt – I hold myself back from feeling this as I want to identify with not being worthy, the old flagellation type thing. So outdated and so last era! Let it go Vanessa!
Me too Deborah, my approach towards love, harmony and joy was intellectual and at times still is, when I disconnect from my body. This is when seriousness kicks in. I have recognised that a big part of how I express my essence is playfulness which is a good approach to love, harmony and stillness. If I miss this in my life, then I am not connected.
Who am I? that goes beyond all the identifications, including my personal talents and values. The answer goes beyond me, what I consider what makes up ‘me’. Wow. This blog shows me that truly there is just Love, Harmony and Joy, all residing in me. All the other things like talents are just thin outer layers, called me. To embrace this what you write in your blog in full, feel it and expand from there indeed makes life very simple. Just one tiny little thing….take off all my ME-Layers 🙂
I like what you share here Caroline “take off all my ME-Layers.” That is exactly the only thing that is in the way of feeling who I truly am.
I love the simplicity of making choices based on discerning what is truly in alignment to the ‘real us’ in our lives which in turn allows more of us to be known.
Who really am I, was a question that I asked myself a multitude of times in this life but it didn’t begin to be answered until I met Serge Benhayon in 2005. Then slowly from his revelatory presentations I was finally being offered answers to this very huge question; but from those answers came even more questions, and in this ongoing and very exposing process, who I really am, began to be revealed. One of the biggest revelations was around my body and the arrogant attitude that I had had towards it a lot of the time: “My body was just `something´ I took everywhere without much care or awareness and respect for its powerful intelligence”. Wow how damaging was that, ignoring the absolute wisdom of this incredible body that had been carrying me for so long. But today as my relationship with me slowly but surely grows, and with it the understanding of who I am, I have now the deepest respect for my body and its wisdom, and in return the life that I now am living is way beyond anything I thought was possible. Thank you Luz for this amazing blog.
I appreciate the way you have explored your true harmony Luz not as a solution but just a possibility that may be true. Beautiful to read then how these aspects of critical thinking and issues fall away to reveal a love that lives underneath.
Thank you Luz Helena for expanding on the unfolding process taking you towards the true “Harmony, Love and Joy” that you are. This is the path we are all seeking and will eventually find if we listen and feel into the wisdom of our body.
I like how you say that simply by aligning to a more harmonious quality your life falls into a more organised rhythm, movements and choices. It is no big effort just a natural rhythm.
I love the questions you have had the willingness to ask for yourself Luz. It is very easy to go through life – as you have pointed out – simply accepting and justifying the way things are without ever actually questioning why and if there is another option.
“What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all? What if we are all equal in our essence, but express in many different ways and it is never about validation, competition or defense?”
This question is a game changer. And there are so many questions like this we can ask ourselves of we simply feel that there is more to life waiting for us.
Thanks for asking the questions and sharing with us what you are discovering.
Its precisely that – not a question of changing this or that, or trying harder to be another. I now reach for the simplicity of accepting all the love that is in me, and all I have to do is express that. There is a great feedback loop in being able to feel when I am not being that – so the tools are already there to start this journey home.
Luz the honesty and acceptance you have claimed here is absolutely beautiful. Thank you for sharing.
Yes indeed I also enjoyed reading your blog Luz, what a beautiful process!
I really enjoyed reading it to, Luz you have a beautiful way of expressing and sharing.
I so enjoyed reading your blog Luz and had many ‘yes’ moments in recognition of how I used to get a headache from all the thinking I did about ‘who I really am.’ It was an exhausting process which didn’t get me anywhere but often left me feeling lost and empty. Through the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have been learning what it means to let go of the need to achieve in order and instead feel the beauty of connecting to my essence and ‘who I really am.’
This is so simply and beautifully put, Luz, thank you. So often we are confused about who we really are and it is great to bring honesty to the answer and to admit that, either we do not know, or that we are not what we do or what we believe. I know that for most of my life before studying with Universal Medicine, I identified with what I did, what my star sign was, my personality and what I perceived my ‘values’ were (which were largely copied from others). Nowadays I can feel the joy, harmony and love within again -things I took for granted when I was a small child.
Growing up, I often heard from other teenagers, “I’m just being Me, so get used to it”. This was usually said in the middle of an argument about the teenager’s so-called bad behaviour in explanation to their parents and was usually followed soon after by “I can’t change who I am”. When I heard this, even though I was a teenager too, I used to think this was such a cop out of a a response, an excuse for kids to get away with being a ‘pork-chop’. I didn’t have the language to understand what was going on, all I knew was that it didn’t feel like they were even being themselves at the moment they were yelling these phrases.
I know now after a few years of listening to the presentations by Serge Benhayon combined with many many moments of self reflection, that my teenage friends were holding on to a behaviour that in essence wasn’t them, but they had accepted the good with the bad and decided or believed that nothing could be done about their emotions – or darkness as you describe it Luz. And I see too that I can find Me when I start to separate the layers of the emotions from the core of me, and see that beneath the veneer of behaviours, there is a Me that is very grand, the words still, joyful and harmonious ring true. And I know this is true for everyone too, no matter what their individual experiences.
Wow Luz what an incredible journey you have gone on. Can you imagine if all of the world went on a similar one, what the world would look like? How would it be for all of us to know our essence of Harmony, Love and Joy and to live from that to the best of our ability? It would be pretty special. And it can start with each and everyone of us.
Luz, I found your story offered me a wonderful reflection of what it is to discover what you bring to this world when you disarm yourself and just allow in an openness to the possibilities. Being someone who has lived from the mind and discounted my body’s wisdom all my life, I can well understand the struggles you describe regarding trying to shift from knowing yourself through ideals and beliefs etc to stepping back and getting to know what was on the inside. I have found some of the biggest barriers for me have been pride, stubbornness and wanting control but these are definitely weakening their grip over time and there is some lovely sparkly bits starting to get the opportunity to emerge :).
The following passage speaks volumes about our body but also the truth of who we are and the potential to live our way in every day. – “My body was just `something´ I took everywhere without much care or awareness and respect for its powerful intelligence. I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.”
A powerful sharing Luz – i really appreciate your insight and the words you use to bring what you have experienced alive, to make it tangible and relatable, offering us ‘aha’ moments where a few more light bulbs go on.
This is a beautiful blog which I can really relate to. For me, the idea that my less loving qualities and behaviours were part of me was something I thought about & tried to grapple with, analyse and change for several years. Then I realised those choices are not really from me and changing them has been simpler and natural. Thanks for sharing your methodical approach to living from your essence, it shows me a great choice to deepen my own experience.
“What if we are all equal in our essence, but express in many different ways and it is never about validation, competition or defence?” Your question really highlights the difference between going into these protective ways, and simply being the love that we all are…and therefore how futile it is to compare ourselves with another’s expression of the same love we are too.
Letting go of our attachments which can be the patterns, behaviours and reactions we have lived with for a long time is huge, especially if they change our relationship with ourselves and others – we can get very exposed. What you have shared Luz, is that in letting go there is space for joy, harmony and love. These three words feel so simple -why do we make it so hard?
‘My body was just `something´ I took everywhere’ this is so very true, how much thought or care do we take looking after our body with food, rest, gentle exercise, tenderness – not even on my radar for many years. Blogs like this one show us we can choose to live another way and truly begin to care for our own body and the more we care for ourselves the more we truly care for others.
Thank you Luz, knowing who we truly are is very power as you say, it allow us to shift from all the struggles and things we hold on to in life which create a lot of misery. Towards a very simple way of being. Knowing I am not my issues has enabled me to deal with many things that I thought were ‘me’ and I would never be able to let go.
Luz, to know that love, joy and harmony, you have to live it in the body – this is really powerful and as you say we can’t just pay lip service to this in the mind when it comes from the body, it’s innate in the body, and I love how you express your journey with it and learning to re-orientate yourself so that this is truly lived in the body. It’s super powerful and one to explore more deeply for me as I learn how appreciation and acceptance of who I am inside, love is key.
Thank you Luz, – My body was just `something´ I took everywhere without much care or awareness and respect for its powerful intelligence.’ – This pretty much says how all of us have treated, and for most still are treating, the amazing vehicle of expression we have, our body. The Love that can be expressed through us as we live it in our daily lives, heals so much and is the true medicine that the world is yearning for, and needs so desperately.
“I now know that Harmony, Joy and Love can only expand and be expressed through my body and how I connect and live in it.” I loved this line Luz, after reading this I focused on how my body felt and asked “What if I accepted that I am Love, Harmony and Joy?” and I felt like my arms had been wrapped up in a warm blanket. But it also only feels like the tip of the iceberg, What if this feeling could follow me into more moments? What if it is normal to feel this way?
It is extraordinary that we are born “who we are” – in all of its purity and simplicity. Our early years are the expression of the natural grace of us just being us. And then we get a little older and the expectations of how we “ought to be” arrive on our doorstep. What starts as a trickle (“sit up straight”, “use your knife and fork properly”, “don’t be silly”) turns into an avalanche (“no you are not cut out for that career”, “you’ll never make anything of your life”, “who do you think you are?”).
The innateness of “who we are ” gets buried, seemingly never to be found again. But of course it is always there..waiting..patiently…
Nothing to do really, nothing to go and get, and nothing to improve. Who we are is just taking to our life very gently with a broom, sweeping way every “ought to”, “should have”, “could do better” and every “success”. Underneath it all is the true essence of us in all of its imperfect perfection.
Amazing isn’t it how we have no difficulty accepting, or living uncomfortably comfortable with our supposed faults and self destructive behaviours but are unable to accept or enjoy our beauty and grandness. The love, harmony and joy inherent in us all. Who we really are. Thank God for Serge Benhayon who has offered us the tools to support us to develop, and maintain, the awareness that we have a choice and can choose love, harmony joy, in any and every moment.
Wow, there is so much in this blog for me, I am going to read it several times. But reading it now the first time gives me a deeper sense of acceptance and how the feeling of not being enough is absolutely based on a non-true foundation.
“…to claim who I am is not something I can get by only using my mind, incrementing my knowledge or changing my beliefs, but through how I live in my body.” It’s through that livingness that we express the love, harmony and joy that we naturally are. Thanks for you blog.
What a beautiful connection to the five elements of God that form our essence and are lived through our body. The process of not making our personality the centre of life, but our true divine beingness has been and is the most beautiful way to live as I have been introduced to by Serge Benhayon. Great sharing full of wisdom!!!
This is very powerful Luz. To be able to have a relationship between the quality of how you live and who you truly are is deeply empowering as it gives an amazing foundation to know who you truly are before anything that goes on outside. There is nothing you need to do to be you and to live this is a very powerful liberation over being identified by all that we do.
I truly appreciate your honest sharing Luz, it is inspiring and very supporting. I also used to have the questions “What if all the struggle and dissatisfaction of never feeling enough had no true foundation after all? What if we are all equal in our essence, but express in many different ways and it is never about validation, competition or defense? But know I now and feel that there is absolutely no foundation in the struggle and dissatisfaction or never feeling good enough. And yes we are all equal in our essence and express in many different ways. And competition, defense and jealousy are very harming and hold us back in our evolution.
Stopping to look outside for solutions for the tensions in our life and starting to honestly and lovingly observe ourselves will be the key to changing our lives. Nothing to be reached but very much to be discovered and lived.
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An expansion to Who I Really Am. Worth considering. Not always easy as we come accross the non-loving choices that we made and are making.
I agree and it is a forever letting go process of all the things that we have done in the past and stepping into the beautiful glory that we are inside.
“If normally I am not who I really am, then who am I most of the time?”
I love that question and how it is phrased. Nothing more to be said, but much to be pondered.
I find it so interesting how we feel shy or back away when we realise that everyone is the same equal-ness, equal joy and love as us. I know for me it has come from a need to be recognised, stand out and have a sense of self worth, like I am the one that it is all about, but this is not so, for true harmony and joy is about all being the one, equally. I really enjoyed how you shared about this.
‘Who was I really? If normally I am not who I really am, then who am I most of the time?’ This is such an important question as so many of us have lived our lives being a lesser version of ourselves for so long and it is this version of ourselves we take to work, school, our families and friends. As I am learning to be myself more of the time it makes sense that I am feeling less anxious and less stressed as it must be exhausting walking around living a continuous lie which effectively is what not being ourselves is.
We are more than the sum total of all our supposed ‘faults’, ‘weaknesses’ and character traits. The truth is, these are often all in place as a form of defence to hide our inner preciousness – our love. It is no easy task to live love in a world that does not. And not only is it not lived by us on mass, it is actually opposed in full force. A small child learns very quickly what they have to do to get by in this environment – put up a shield, harden, arm yourself, grit your teeth and smile. Don’t speak Truth lest you upset the others, don’t express Joy lest you attract the force of jealousy, don’t live Love lest you get attacked, keep moving so you will never connect to your Stillness, and in a world forever at war give up on Harmony, settle for peace instead. These are the 5 elements of our Soul; Truth, Joy, Love, Stillness and Harmony – they are our true essence. Anything else is a lie that we live so we don’t rock the boat.
We are so busy living a false version of ourselves moulded from the many images, ideals and beliefs that are fed to us through our societal ways, we have forgotten what the ‘real deal’ even looks like. However, this real deal is actually very, very simple, as Luz has so perfectly laid out for us to see. If we learn to live from the inside – out, we never have to be shaped from the outside – in. Thus, live love, and by virtue of that, love will live through you.
One for every classroom Liane, live from the inside – out so we never have to be shaped from the outside – in. I can imagine this to be ground breaking when it comes to self esteem. I can hear the illogical words as I write them, that being true to who you are and living from the inside – out is the new and revolutionary way and outside – in is the norm! Crazy crazy norm ‘eeek face’.
“Who am I really?” This is a question I have often asked myself and it was something that I used to consider was only about the things I ‘did’. The problem with this was that when I didn’t have the things I ‘did’ to define me (i.e. whether it was working, mothering etc) or wasn’t doing these things that well, I felt a little lost and / or very self-critical and low in self-esteem. It has been a long journey, but since being introduced to a different way of being through the presentations of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, and beginning to introduce self-love and self-care, ‘who I am really’ is becoming more and more about just ‘being me’ without necessarily having to ‘do’ anything.
Dear Luz,
Tears of self-understanding prick my eyes as you describe, so specifically, much of what I am experiencing…inspired by Serge Benhayon and supported by others who have been inspired to be more of who they are I am learning to live with more and more acceptance of who I really am. As I bring more self honesty to all the dark ways I have used and identified with to ‘get by’ and learn to care for my body so that I can feel and express more of my true loveliness from the inside out, some very deep self doubt has been rising up…I find I am uncomfortable with how supportive & flowing my life is becoming!..I feel my deep pattern of thinking I am inadequate and going into fear believing that I will ruin everything… but like you, the ancient teachings, as shared by Serge, have inspired me to start feeling the love that I am again and to be developing trust in my body & more self honesty around how I have lived that is NOT me so I know the difference. I am not less than anyone, I am not loved for what I DO or give people; I am love to begin with and the more I feel this (who I am inside) the more whole and full my life becomes and the more I am sharing what I am here to share.
It was amazing to read this blog as this is something I have been contemplating recently. There are a lot of words bandied about these days about ‘being yourself’ and ‘knowing your true self’ but it was not until I started to use the gentle breath meditation and especially Esoteric Yoga that I really knew what this meant. Before it was ideas and probably things I wished were true mixed in with lots of self criticism. To know who I am, I know that I simply have to feel my body and allow myself to feel without any agenda or preconceived ideas.
Thanks Luz, I really relate to the journey you describe, becoming me, more or me, more of the real me, but still wanting to hold onto those things that identify me and made me special. The reality is they made/make me miserable and there is truly something grander within.
Yes Joel, I can relate. And what Luz has shared about the resistance, that geeky feeling that ‘hey, if I’m simply love, joy and harmony in my essence then that doesn’t make me that different to everyone else after all’, is also a big one. We might not want to admit it, but our problems and even our so-called negative traits can be things we can hold on to because they define us for being different, for being who we are — so leave me alone kind of thing. Crazy when we think about it, and realise that we’ve been playing a big manipulative game that keeps everyone separate when in truth we are so much the same and equal in our essence and that it is our most natural way to live in true brotherhood in connection with each other.
At first the thought of being more of me made me think that I am not enough as I am… but that is not really the case at all.. because really all I have done over the last 6 years is get to know myself more and more and its been a beautiful process.
My feeling is that most of my life I have been living who I am not, for recognition and for protection most of all. Afraid of what might happen if I let my guard down and let everyone see how sweet and delicate I actually am. Like you mentioned Joel, the old way of living was making me miserable and I have slowly been connecting to the grandness within and I am loving it. The way in which I interact with people is completely different and I am so glad I made these changes now and not later in life, as the road I was heading down was very hard and I kept everyone out.
Rosie I can so relate to what you are sharing. We think we are protecting ourselves when we try to hide the fragility and vulnerability, but when we compromise on this we are compromising on our essence and this hurts. I am slowly learning that to allow others to see my delicacy and to come out of hiding and risking the possible attack on this is far preferable than the hard walls I put around my heart!
This is interesting Rosie, I notice this too. The way we are taught to be self reflective is to make ourselves wrong or bad. Rather than being honest about the traits we have picked up that are NOT us and a willingness to uncover the what is us, which is naturally vital, joyful and amazing.
It is almost like we are not giving ourselves permission to feel vital, joyful and amazing. I know sometimes I question if it is okay to be this. I felt guilty about feeling amazing. ??
Keep on being the delicate man that you are, you are awesome and you are a very much needed inspiration for other men out there in the world. In you just letting them see you, they may realise that they can live like that too.
These things do make us miserable and always wanting for more. What resides within will always be grand and in itself forever expanding, never wanting for anything other than just to be all that it is.
Very powerful, true and beautiful words Sara Harris
Love this Rachel, the sign over the door says “every soul welcome, baggage can be left at the door” – Its a might lighter way to travel 🙂
My shoulders feel lighter reading this. 😉
Thank you Luz for your uncovering of who you really are. I’m sure there are many people in this situation as I know I have been too. It just goes to show how the real us has been hidden by a mindful of thoughts that keep distracting us from the inner being with it’s love, harmony and joy.
I love what you share here Luz, I too find life is constantly calling me to consider my choices, and my body takes on the impact of whatever my choices have been. I find the smallest things can make huge impacts, like deepening my focus on my delicate textured skin on my face. I notice the tenderness in my eyes and the incredible love for people that dwells within. Wow its amazing how gorgeous I know myself to be, and I am able to call this in so simply by choosing to focus on what is there naturally anytime I choose to connect.
Thank you Luz for sharing your reflections on re-connecting to who you truly are. This blog has the most beautiful ‘naturalness’ about it. There feels to be a tender easing way around the gentle undoing of the layers of false beliefs and ideals that have been plastered to you. i have found that there is lots of observing and pondering, checking in and allowing that goes with the locating of the joy, harmony and stillness that resides within. Your blog has been a joy to read and I agree with you whole-heartedly when you say – ‘Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life.
Wow Luz, this a great article, very humble and inspiring, I enjoyed reading ‘Accepting our natural essence of Love, Harmony and Joy and looking at how to live in a way that lets it expand from within can really make a difference in human life.’ I love the simplicity here and the feeling of experimenting with ways of bringing love, harmony and joy into our lives.
Absolutely Amelia. Comparison, competition and judgement are the main things causing so much disharmony in the world today. Just look at work places, or schools; disagreements, arguments, tension and feuds are all fuelled by the need to be better (competition), or because someone has something we want or desire – from a promotion to a good relationship with the boss or teacher.