788 thoughts on “Letting Go of an Old Way of Protecting Myself”

1. I was also scared of the dark, as I could feel things around me that were there but couldn’t be seen and they terrified me especially at night. This was totally dismissed in my family, the narrative was that there was nothing to see and nothing to know, which puts a child on the back foot and undermining what they naturally feel. I wasn’t aware that this meant I disconnected from my body, until I started to attend the courses of Universal Medicine and saw some of the Universal Medicine practitioners, then it become obvious that I had disassociated from myself. Re-learning to read and understand energy has been one of the biggest hurdles to overcome as I had been led to believe that there is only one linear life and there is no energy to worry about. Now it makes complete sense that we are surrounded by energy and energy affects everything we do.

2. Pretending that dark energies are not there doesn’t make them disappear but they lose their potency when we recognise them for what they are.

3. I agree Bianca, what you share is so true, ‘I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets’.

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5. If I have an energetic understanding of a situation, I am less likely to react or demand/expect the situation to be a certain way that it is not.

6. Feeling our bodies and appreciating what our essences are connected to and thus we are also letting people in or True-intimacy deepens all our relationships.

7. It’s a wonderful reminder to honour the sensitivity we have, and how we have along the way developed tools that may not be truly supportive like escaping into our minds and becoming racy. I felt myself sinking more deeply into my body as I read, and it feels very settling to deepen that connection

   1. Serge Benhayon’s workshops and healing modalities have really supported me to come increasingly back to my body, ‘With the support of Universal Medicine’s Healing modalities I have been re-connecting with my body, re-building my awareness and escaping less and less into my mind.’

8. One of the most important and empowering things we can do is to honour what a child feels and acknowledge that they can feel energy (as we all can).

   1. Yes, it is important to honour what children feel, to allow them to share exactly what is happening in their lives.

9. We all have ‘enormous wisdom’ within us all, to appreciate this and live this brings greater understanding to everything we experience.

   1. To give ourselves the permission that we have a connection to this ‘enormous wisdom’ that it is there for everyone to tap into and then to feel the resistance to this, shows us what energy is truly running us. One that does not want anything to do with the wisdom we can tap into because then the energy currently running our bodies would be exposed. It’s all about control and for the majority of us we are not aware or may be do not want to be aware of this fact. We are completely played, mere puppets, but who wants to admit to this as after all aren’t we supposed to be the most intelligent species on earth?

      1. We like to think we are the most intelligent species on earth, but then, all too frequently our behaviours do not back that up.

10. How honest can we be with ourselves is always the question. Honesty about our choices and the effect they have on the body, and the effect on our short and long term health. The body always has to suffer the consequences of what we choose.

11. I can relate, as my escape plan was also to leave my body and go into my head and daydream, so as not to feel what I didn’t want to feel: the environment did not feel safe. Day dreaming was my escape.

    1. Many of us went into our heads as a way of trying to cope with the world, and what we were feeling, ‘It was like I was a walking head completely disconnected from my body and filled with distracting thoughts while I went about the activity of my life.’

12. Awareness is the name of the game when it comes to reading energy and everything that comes at you. How aware or unaware you are comes down to how we live each day, and the energy we are choosing or aligning too, either spirit (all that which is not love) or Soul (love and brotherhood, all being equal).

    1. jacqmcfadden04 you have raised another lesson that life comes to us, however we have been taught that we go out to life. There are so many lies about life but why is it we have been encouraged to dull our awareness by eating and drinking substances that keep us dull and disconnected. What if there was a bigger game being played here but we are so dull and disconnected we don’t realise we are the ones being played. How smart or intelligent are we really?

13. The escape plan into the mind is to run into a trap of thinking you are escaping but to stay with the awareness in the body you know you are grander than anything in the darkness.

14. When we check out of a situation and go into our head in order to escape we think we have found an answer yet it is not long before we realise that we miss out on so much because we are not in full connection with our body and that it is through that connection that we find a greater wisdom.

15. I could have written the first paragraph of this very relatable blog. Yes, I too was that child who lay in bed for many nights, terrified of what I could feel, not wanting to breathe, holding myself so still, hoping that whatever it was would go away. No wonder I used to go off into fantasy land so often, a form of escape that stayed with me for so much of my life. It has taken a long time to let go of the need to escape, but I finally have, and these days I am enjoying living fully in the world instead of hiding away in fantasy land.

16. When we let our body lead there is a solidness and a knowing of how to move and be we will never experience with going into our head and living from this lonely place, our head seperates us from the rest of our body but also from the rest of humanity.

17. The image of the walking head… This is so real and such a true reflection of what is happening for so many many people.

18. You make it so clear how protection offers us a level of comfort, but it is actually incarceration that costs us our true power.

19. We go into repose when it gets dark. Yet, our relationship with repose and darkness may not be an easy one. If we need light to feel relief, does this fact affect the quality of what we get during our repose?

20. It is only, when we truly start to feel the interplay of everything around us that we can start to know, what is consistently manipulating us, and also what is there for us to totally trust

    1. There is so much more to life than what we can physically see, ‘ I have also reconnected to the truth that all is energy and that there has always been an unseen energetic outplay rippling underneath the physicality of life that we all have experienced but rarely speak of. ‘

21. It’s no wonder children often begin to escape from themselves when so much is going on around them that they struggle to understand, as do the adults in their lives. I know now that the night terrors I experienced for many years were not of my own making or my imagination but an energy that was trying to get at me to destabilise the very wise and joyful child I was and it succeeded many times. Finally coming to understand the energies that are always around us has supported me to ‘let go of the old way of protecting myself’, a way that in itself was very harming to this precious body of mine. I now know that staying connected to me and to my inner heart is all the protection I need.

22. Reading this blog I got to wondering about why so many kids have trouble getting to sleep and are scared at night. I certainly was scared at night and would lie awake looking for things in the shadows and when I would fall asleep I would have nightmares. Does the fact that most adults outgrow this fear show that we lose/numb our sensitivity or deny/can’t feel all the energies that are around us?

23. To leave our bodies and go into our heads is such a trap and one we easily take, but in essence we abandon us and in doing so leave our bodies at the mercy of life and it’s many unseen forces. Far wiser to keep our minds with our bodies and let our bodies lead.

    1. I totally agree with you Monica but until Serge Benhayon came along and started to present life and discuss energy, who amoung us knew any of this? Serge Benhayon has been presenting on this subject and many more for over 20 years now but we are so saturated with the ideals and beliefs that the mind is king, that it has been quite a journey of rediscovery for many of us. To realise this is not actually true, that it is the body that actually knows more than our minds because it is connected through its divine particles to the universe which is a vast intelligence beyond my understanding.

24. It feels like when we sleep in the fetal position we are trying to protect ourselves but what I have found is that it takes more energy to sleep like that and I would wake up feeling the tension in my muscles. The opposite to this is sleeping on your back where there is transparency, and the body can surrender deeper, with no protection needed.

25. Tracking back to that first time you start to check out of the body and disappear into the head is such a great opportunity to understand where the seed of escapism was planted. We know what we feel but when it is not confirmed we doubt ourselves and that is the start of a very slippery road.

26. ‘Choosing to live in this dulled down way felt like a part of me was achingly missing – no wonder I was always anxious!’ I can relate to this and being in my head, thinking, completely disconnected made me controlling as well which was the cause of even more anxiousness. I thought I was protected but I wasn’t at all, living in connection with my body gives me all the wisdom I need to feel solid and with myself, not a part but activating the whole.

    1. Annelies I know what you mean we ‘think’ we are protecting ourselves but it’s such a false way of living as it is impossible to protect ourselves as energy is passing through us all the time, how can we protect ourselves against something we cannot see?

27. The mere fact that we tend to go into our heads to escape the imposing feeling of a presence around us as a child proves to me that these spiritual forces do indeed exist, for why would a child make up such a negative experience as that and continuously feel a cold, foreboding presence at night?

28. To stay connected to the body is key, I can then catch myself more easily when I check out or wander off into my mind.

29. Being honest and aware that we have an escape plan, can be the beginning of change. I can relate to the raciness and supposed escape into the mind where all is safe. But it is actually in being with and reconnected to our bodies that we are safe.

30. Thank you Bianca, old ways of protecting yourself simply do no longer make sense when you have connected to a deeper love within yourself.

31. Wow Bianca, this blog is as if it has been written on my behalf – being so aware of energy changes and building up enormous anxiousness in my body and the disconnection to it, to the detriment of the nervous system.
    This disconnection began to change somewhat over the years, but attending presentations with Serge Benhayon was the key that offered the opportunity to re-connect to that which is real and true within us.
    “I found it very difficult to accept what I was feeling in my body. The anxiousness felt so big and unbearable that I began to disconnect from my body and escape into my head where I would make up stories and run scenes of lovely images in my mind. This felt comforting and I would eventually fall off to sleep”.

32. When we disconnect from our bodies there is that feeling of relief, but also unease, because we know that the relief is only temporary, and all of the tension, the raciness, the stuff we don’t want to feel, is there waiting for us to connect to it and deal with it. There’s nothing we need to ‘do’ to deal with it – just by allowing ourselves to feel it, it dissipates, and we can let it go.

    1. yes often there is a push to ‘do’ something about it, make it better, stop it in its tracks, hope it will go away or whatever we think we need to do. But feeling it is the only way to allow it to lose its grip and then be let go off. I can never be reminded too many times of the power of simply feeling something.

       1. Simply feeling things can be very healing, ‘feeling it is the only way to allow it to lose its grip and then be let go off. I can never be reminded too many times of the power of simply feeling something.’

    2. So true, if we just acknowledge what we are feeling the tension eases.

33. When we feel centered and at home with our body the flow of our movements cannot but be filled with grace and integrity.

34. I could only watch so much TV until my eyes hurt. Or eat or work so much until I get sick. But going off into my mind didn’t appear to have any side affects. Making that link between daydreaming and anxiousness and misery I’d definitely agree. Esoteric Yoga has shown me how disturbing daydreaming can be, especially on my nervous system.

35. Feeling everything is what we do, letting ourselves be aware of what we feel is the key to no longer being afraid of life as it actually enriches our lives, but I know I only let myself be aware of a smidgen of what is really going on every moment of every day, positively and negatively. The constant measurement of how life is is a major game of control most of us play in order to try and be secure and protected. It is such a false economy that only exhausts us. Better to let go and feel everything and allow.

36. I also used to escape life by leaving my body and going into my head and dreaming off. This does and has to cause a lot of anxiety as it is like driving a car whilst sitting on the bonnet looking in the other direction! Not a safe feeling at all. When I eventually hopped off the bonnet and sat once again in the driver’s seat my anxiety ceased. Simple as that.

37. “Choosing to live in this dulled down way felt like a part of me was achingly missing – no wonder I was always anxious!” What you have written here makes so much sense of my life as a child, in fact most of my life. It makes sense because if we are not living from and with all of us we are forever searching for something to fill the emptiness we have created, and so, continuously living with the feeling that we don’t have everything we need, the seeds of anxiety are sown.

38. Thank you for sharing your life affirming confirmation that if we surrender to moving with our body then our minds have the opportunity to support rather than sabotage this harmony as we move through our days with no need of an escape plan.

39. Thank you Bianca, all it shows is that protecting ourselves is making us feel not enough and continuously casts out that we don’t want to be love or beloved whilst actually we deep down do. Playing with our hurts is even more painful as opening up doesn’t hurt at all!

40. One of the greatest lessons I have understood from Serge Benhayon is that energy is in, through and the cause of everything.

41. That awareness of the energy that is all around us all of the time seems elusive to me somehow, and yet there is so much information about what is really going on all of the time and we are mugs if we don’t choose to read that.

42. It’s an all too common story of how children are bullied by things that are unseen by adults, and there needs to be more conversation around this. I specifically remember this happening to my two daughters when they were little but because I had some understanding of these things I did not dismiss there cries and anxiety.

43. I love these moments offered by the soul. Moments that allow us to feel life living from soul. They offer a marker, a point of light within that we can refer to that holds truth and absoluteness of where we’re from and who we are.

44. Anxiousness is feeling that we are not able to cope with what we are going to be faced with, and as I am understanding it now it is a choice I make, when I make life about connection, staying with my body instead of going into my head, I feel much more settled.

    1. Staying connected with our body, being present does help us to be more settled.

45. Thank you Bianca, it’s always a reminder for me when I read this that the over thinking is a way to try to cope with being sensitive to all I feel in life, an escape plan that unfortunately has its own consequences. This is a great line about learning to live from the whole body and what it brings “a knowing that with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way.”

46. It shows us that through feeling our body and connecting to it step by step deeper, we actually start to understand energy and its flow through us. And actually does our physicality and our non-physicality starts to co-relate and make sense.

47. When i go into anxiety or feel myself getting anxious about something… i know that i’ve left not just myself but also myself in connection with my body.. And that easiest way to feel less tense, less anxious and restore some of the lost confidence is through movement. Movement changes the thoughts, and changed thoughts lead to moving differently.

48. Whether we want to be aware of it or not we all get affected by all of the unsaid stuff that is there between people, it seems the more we ignore it the more affected we are and the more we choose to read it, then we give ourselves the opportunity to not be affected by it.

49. There is no escape for we must all, sooner or later, deal with what we don’t want to deal with.

50. We so need to start supporting and teaching kids how to be with these forces and presences they feel. So many people have experienced the sense that you are not alone, that there is a shadow lurking somewhere in the room or as kids had the ‘monsters’ visit us while we’re sleeping, yet we still don’t talk about this openly in conversations and for speaking up you can be labelled ‘crazy’.

    1. I so agree Susie W. I was told that it was all in my imagination but I could feel that there was some anxiety in my mother sometimes when I told her what was scary to me as a child. I feel she could feel things too but just wanted to reassure us as children and pretend there was no such thing as unseen forces, when all along she knew there were. Our society is a lot more open now but generally I feel children are not told the truth about the energies at play. Serge Benhayon has been very clear about how these different energies work and it has helped me to understand so much that before was mysterious and no one seemed to have answers for.

51. So the more we surrender to the love and truth within the more solid our foundation and the less the outside affects us. From experience I know this to be true the more I am connected with me my sensitivity stays the same but energy that does not feel harmonious outside of me affects me less and less. Although this is still very much in progress and I feel like this is just the tip the iceberg with regards to just how much love I can be.

52. We may talk about protection (new or old ways). We may also talk about the same but by only talking about movements. In the first we are mainly individuals and remain us such. In the second, we bring everything and everyone with us. To keep moving freely is the key.

53. When we go into protection to not feel, we actually close the door on so much more. And the reality is you can actually never not feel, it is impossible as energy runs through us all the time. You can check out, disassociate, build up walls of protection, but not actually stop it. It is wiser to begin to understand energy, and support yourself to stay with your body and to feel what is going on, and from there you can begin to access the incredible wisdom that your body offers you.

    1. It is much wiser to stay connected with our bodies, understand, read and feel energies, and what is truly going on in this world.

54. It is interesting I chose to re-read this Bianca. I have been observing a pattern and caught myself withdrawing and putting up walls of protection recently. But when i felt the quality of the energy within me, I was able to stay open and let go and simply hold me and express from the reconnection within my body. No protection or reaction.. it was very cool.

55. Bianca, this feels very true; ‘simply acceptance with a knowing that with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way’, when I choose to be present in my body I feel a solidness, strength and power, I feel confident in what I am doing and what to say, this feels like a very simple, beautiful way to live and a way I am choosing more and more.

    1. We are powerful beings when connected to our body, surrendering to the wisdom of the Universe,
       ‘simply acceptance with a knowing that with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way’,

56. It’s great to break down the realities of life; that we are sensitive and aware of the energetic outplay behind the physical, and that there can be a lot to feel that is uncomfortable or imposing, and this can lead to habits like racy thinking or other ways to dull or make ourselves heavy to stop our awareness. We can either try to escape or fight the body somehow, but as you have shared Bianca actually being with the body and letting it lead fully equips us to deal with what is in front of us.

57. Connecting to the body and honouring it for all that it brings is to live in harmony with ourselves and each other. When we choose to ignore our body it will offer us a healing by way of illness and disease at which point we can either carry on as before or by beginning the path of return to a way of livingness that brings true love and wisdom into our lives.

58. I too was a child who was incredibly scared of the dark and convinced that there were monsters waiting to get me. My parents just didn’t know how to deal with this fear so I can feel that like you I began to build walls of protection around myself, walls that sadly not only kept the ‘monsters’ out but also everyone else. And of course, at the same time those walls kept me separated from the world. It goes to show that our children need all the support that is possible when they share their fears so that the world can feel like a safe place for them to live in and those walls do not need to be built.

    1. Children need a safe space to express what they are feeling, and what is going on for them.

59. The more I connect to and surrender in my body the less life’s ups and downs effect me.

60. What we life is what we breathe so the quality of breath is our everything. Our movement that is one with our breath than equalls importance and so is our daily interaction effected and so on and on.. Powerful when we understand the authority we have once we step into our power that is our responsibility from the angle we need to particulary shine – on

61. When I choose anxiousness to not feel my fragility I am leaving myself behind and play ball with my body, it is a complete disconnection from the wisdom of the body. My way to come back to me and my tenderness is to feel the smallest movements and sensations in parts of my body and to allow my body to guide me.

62. I was walking down a dark alleyway just the other day and felt someoone walking up behind me which confirmed how aware I am of all that is going on around me, naturally so. I then have a choice to either embrace this awareness or choose to dull it down and convince myself that it’s not really happening.

63. The anxiousness that comes from dulling awareness is super uncomfortable that no one would really choose this in their clarity and wisdom.

64. “I also felt open to accepting all that was going on around me, no judgment, simply acceptance with a knowing that with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way.” We can forget that in trying to protect ourselves or not feel what is going on around us, we leave ourselves open to not being able to deal with what we feel and what happens because we feel ‘blindsided’. If we stay open to feeling everything we are likely to find we are fully equipped to deal with it all.

65. re-reading this blog made me realise that pretty much every child has the experience of nightmares, feeling there are monsters in the room and being scared in the dark. I know I had. Yet we have never even stopped to explore what this is about and brush it off as if it is nothing. But once we realise all is energy we will know that nothing is nothing and we will be compelled to look deeper and uncover a energetic truth that was otherwise hidden but is real and true for every child in this world.

    1. As children, we can feel we are the only one experiencing ‘that there is something else’ in the room as we try to go to sleep. To be able to talk about this, and know it is very common, would support children, and even more so to explain what is the truth of the situation.

66. What you share Bianca is both beautiful and profound, our body is so wise, ‘the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.’ If we were to bring this way of living into our lives I am sure we would all experience a more loving way of being.

67. Connecting with our bodies, being honest with what we feel, and allowing ourselves to surrender allows harmony to come in, ‘The other day I went to a whole new level with this connection and I had the most exquisite feeling of surrender where my body was leading and my mind was following smoothly along.’

68. We really have gotten it all backwards by believing that we can protect ourselves from being hurt by dulling ourselves down and making a choice to not feel everything. The only true protection is allowing ourselves to be transparent and aware of all that is before us.

69. It is likely a common thing for many of us to have different strategies for not being with ourselves, as in feeling us in our body. Things like TV, drugs, alcohol, racy foods and so on. So when the decision is made to feel again, it can be a bit confronting, and take some time to adjust to this way of living while feeling who we truly are.

    1. Yes, it’s quite a journey and for me in the early days the anxiety and exhaustion was so extreme that I would frequently numb myself with coffee and cake before I was willing to really feel what was going on. Now, I would not even think of drinking coffee as I know it would take me away from the stillness and joy I feel in my body.

70. Choosing to dull our awareness and escape in to our head, creates new problems in itself; bringing it back to being in our body and staying connected with our body is the way forward and what I am choosing.

    1. Beautiful Lorraine, it really is that simple.

71. Escape plans we have many and some are quite sophisticated in the sense of being well accepted and or even held in high esteem as they fit the common standards or ideals like for example being very intelligent/intellectual, working hard, being successful, doing good, etc. It sometimes needs a wake -up call to shake us out of the slumber of numbness and comfort before we even get to recognise the insidious falseness we have happily bought into.

72. It is a massive adjustment to stop escaping into my mind, to again trust my body and in that trust be absolutely willing to fill every cell that it is made up of with my presence. There is this constant trigger mechanism that I have, to protect, that goes off at the slightest thing that again reduces my presence, pulling away from fully owning my body. What I am coming to learn, through much trial and error, is that when I don’t fill my body, it is open to be filled, immediately with energy that is not me, that comes from the world around and this then alters my feelings and thoughts. My learning that what I have thought to be protection is actually when I am least protected, as my body is open to be filled with whatever. True protection, if you want to call it that is to fully allow my body to be filled with my essence.

    1. Thank you Leigh, I needed that reminder today. We are never empty so what are we allowing to fill the space left by us reducing who we are as a result of not wanting to feel all there is to feel? Embracing ourselves in full means not reacting to what we feel around us or see but simply observing it.

73. There is so much in this blog that I can relate to. How do we let go of years of ingrained protection and not being aware of how much protection we are in, and how much we keep people at a safe distance unable to truly connect with others – this was my old life. With the support of the esoteric healing modalities, the barriers to my heart, one by one came tumbling down. My life now is so much richer in terms of connection and allowing myself to feel and discern energy.

74. Protecting ourselves has never been healthy.. thus we need to find ourselves back and open ourselves up, letting go of this old way of protecting ourselves — so that we can truly be loving again.

75. With the support of Universal Medicine amazing modalities, I was able to release so much baggage that I had collected over the years, most of it not mine…. and as I did, I was able to once again honour all that I felt and to trust all that I felt which I can feel now is the only true compass in life.

76. Letting ourselves feel and trusting all that we are feeling, is the return path to connecting with our amazing bodies and all they have to communicate with us.

    1. I love how you describe your “escape plan”, I think most of us commit to a certain level to life but we do always have an escape plan – now what would life look like if we committed one billion percent without having a potential escape plan for when things get rocky or we’ve had enough?

77. Living from our body is something I am learning as an amateur. It is very beautiful and a way where it feels surrender is natural and nothing can compare to it, I am giving it a try and life opens up more and more opportunities for me to go deeper and to open up more.

78. It is a fact, we cannot ever stop feeling energy, so we can either embrace our sensitivity or learn to live with it, seeing the blessing that is on offer or we can harden in order to get a false sense of protection that will ultimately affect the quality of our living, it is simply a choice.

79. If we think of our body as a our gateway to life and living with a greater sense of awareness at all points in time – then how would we treat it today?

80. I love what you share Bianca, and can so relate; I am now enjoying being with my body more and allowing that to lead the way is becoming more familiar.

81. What I’ve noticed is that I feel anxious when there’s something I’m feeling but haven’t expressed to myself. It’s like it’s sitting there, gnawing away, an unspoken murkiness of something hovering close by that I don’t want to look at. But it’s only by shining a light on the anxiousness that it actually goes away. Ignoring it means it continues to fester, and I can only distract myself from it for so long. By actually dealing with it, looking at what it is that I’m not wanting to feel, it’s never as bad as I think it’s going to be, and it leaves my body feeling instantly lighter and freer.

82. This is so familiar Bianca, I’ve spent a lot of my life leaving my body and going off in my head, but in fact as I’m come back to reclaiming my body I can see that I know exactly what is needed when I’m with it and it’s my greatest guide and life just becomes simpler. It’s still a work in progress as I learn to break down those old habits that the mind knows when in fact it’s not true, the mind is fed and rather than being a mind on a stick why not be a body being with and bringing the mind alongside.

83. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets,….” When we choose to feel everything – so called ‘good’ and ‘bad’ – we are then in a position to understand and make sense of the world. Trying to protect ourselves by remaining unaware does everyone a disservice.

84. Bianca I had a similar experience to you as a child and to me this is the evil of those energies that are as yet unseen but play havoc when we are children because the energies deliberately target young children to scare them into contracting into their bodies or leaving them completely. My family never believed me when I told them about the energies that plagued me as a child. And it wasn’t until I was in my mid 50’s that while attending a workshop of Universal Medicine that Serge Benhayon asked people to put their hand up if they had such an experience and as I looked around the room the vast majority had their hands up! But no one talks about this? We seem to keep it to ourselves? For me it wasn’t until someone in my family had an visitation in the night by an energy that they were at last able to understand what I had been telling them as a child. They were terrified by the experience and it took a long time for them to settle again in their bodies.

85. Unseen (but felt) forces are most scary when we choose not to see them. Unfortunately they are designed to scare us so that we then choose to do our best to shut off from them and when this happens, they can have their merry way with us and we are walking through life with blinkers on and not in the fullness of our awareness. They win. Whereas if we choose to stay aware we can read/see/feel these forces and when we do that, game is up.

86. When we let go and trust, life becomes a lot easier (obviously!), because we’re not in this constant state of high-alert. We allow ourselves to connect to our bodies and actually be in our body, instead of constantly trying to orchestrate and plan everything from our minds – an exhausting and complicated way to live.

87. How easily we may fall back on former patterns and behaviours that have given us some relief from the tension we feel… and yet what an amazing opportunity to let go of such ways and to reconnect to the whole and true us and to at one with our body and all that we are feeling in any moment.

88. Thank you for sharing the turn around you have experienced in your body. It is amazing to hear what happens when we are willing to feel everything – and that the more we experiment and trust this, the more it becomes natural to us.

89. “The depth of this experience has left a beautiful new point of knowing for me to build on.”

    Once we know something, it can never be undone. It becomes a marker in your body. Whether you choose to live it or not, is up to you, but the miracle is, that it is always there for you to draw from if you so choose.

90. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets” – I love this. When we’ve chosen to be unaware for so long coming back can be a bit scary as we have to feel all that we’ve chosen not to feel. But choosing to be unaware is like walking around with blinkers on, which can’t really lead to us expressing the fullness of who we are as it is a form of contraction.

91. Being present and attentive within our body allows us to observe and to respond to life – it is far too easy to be swept along by any number of events in life and another’s rhythm when we are not at ease in or living our own true flow.

92. As a child i would cover my head with the blanket in an attempt to shut out my fear of the dark. As an adult I have found other ways to avoid feeling things I don’t want to, but this shuts out everything and just leaves me walking around disconnected from everything. My best asset is to allow myself to feel everything, and the key I am learning is not to absorb, but observe from the standpoint of being connected to my body.

93. Connecting with our bodies and bringing presence to our movements is a wonderful way to build confidence.

94. Daydreaming was my escape plan as a child also Bianca. The anxiety that comes from escaping into the head I now liken to driving a car whilst sitting on it’s roof. Of course this is going to cause anxiety just as deserting our body does.

95. There’s no other place to go but to the full awareness of what we feel. Otherwise, we may fall in the trick of freeing ourselves from the tension of feeling something uncomfortable or threatening, This freeing it’s nothing but a relief, a façade that masks the truth of that we are completely engulfed by what we were escaping in the first place.

96. There was one bedroom that I had as a child where I too would look under the bed and in the cupboards before going to sleep. I knew there was a lot of unseen activity in that room and I experienced it several times but was able to satisfy myself that i would be all right because, for the most part, I was not seeing anything. This then puts a lot of emphasis on sight and can foster a mistrust in the innate knowingness that we are choosing to ignore.

97. How many of us get into a situation where we are uncomfortable with a feeling in our body and so try to get rid of it, by checking out, comfort eating, putting our head in the sand, even creating a different problem so we don’t have to experience that one in full. I would say a round 100%. But imagine if we were taught at school that this is the single biggest marker or indicator of our health and wellbeing and so critical information to be used to help us chart a course through life.

98. It took me many years to realise that I was living with a suit of armour to protect myself against what I perceived the world might throw at me next and I know without a doubt that the suit building began as a child; a child like you who was terrified of the dark. The fear was so great that I would hold my breath, with the breath holding staying with me right until recently. Now being able to stay with me, connected to my body and breath gently when any challenges arise means that I no longer need to protect myself but instead simply respond to what is being presented.

99. It is interesting, I have found the more we seek to protect ourselves, the more we expose ourselves to hurt, shut people out and the more likely we are to have unloving thoughts and behaviours.

100. Without a doubt there is so much to be aware of and feel in life, most of which we do not always want to feel because it hurts to see others around us acting in ways that are not only disrespectful at times but also purely lying and not just to others but to themselves. But indeed with feeling the rawness of all that is going on around, there is indeed an empowerment to knowing what is in fact occurring and what’s more there is great sense of feeling beyond all the yuck of human life that there is a beauty to everyone you meet just as there is a great beauty within yourself.

101. We can either view our sensitive awareness and ability to observe in great depth as a negative burden, or our best asset. It’s all dependent on whether we want to turn a blind eye to the current state of society, or if we can feel the responsibility AND how we can bring light and a high quality to everything we observe in our environment.

102. I am learning, coming back to the awareness (by my willing), that everyone feels everything.
     No matter if one says it or denies it. To feel and see beyond what we are facading, and to stay true with what we will without wanting a visual approvement. Gaining trust and confidence from our connection to the Universe, God -‘all we are,’love” and all that we come from – ancient knowingness.

103. I know that I have had a strong knowing and reading abilities since I was very young and would often be told that I was being silly by what I shared and what I felt. It is from this time that I shut down this natural ability because I felt I was being naughty, but the truth I have now become to see is that we all have the ability to read and observe life and it is a true strength to be able to move from this knowing without judgement or fear and to see the world for what it is and know that we can continue to move from our bodies connection and feel what is going on around us but to not let it take over or hinder our natural way.

104. You are so right Bianca that if we can let go and be aware of all that goes on around us this is our greatest assets and can be so much fun because you can never be fooled by what someone is saying because you read the energy they are expressing with.

105. “A knowing that with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way”. It may sound boring to ‘be with your body’ but it gives you the most extraordinary sense of ease and steadiness that allows you to deal with whatever comes your way. I am also realising more and more that it is better to stay in my body where I can feel and discern want is going on around me than skip off into my head where I am less aware of what I am feeling but affected all the same.

     1. I have found the same Fiona, I also find that the more I stay present with my body and what is going on the moment I actually deal with what is before me and so the less I then carry around with me. I can then more clearly have the sense that that is done and completed so now what is next, rather than the incessant thoughts or I should have said this or that, or what if etc, etc..

     2. True – we are not equipped to respond to what is before us when we are in escape mode and have exited to our mind.

106. “accept what I was feeling in my body’ This is massive and key to truly living ourselves, life is so much more simple when we read what’s really going on and not make it personal.

107. I disconnect from my body to not be responsible for all that needs done.

108. I can relate to a lot of what you have written about Bianca, jumping onto the bed so that whatever was lurking under the bed couldn’t grab my ankles, and then later living from my head, as if in a walking daydream. Sometimes we get so caught up in the make believe that the lines become fuzzy as to what is real and what is made up in the mind.

109. It is so sinister that energies stop us from being fully in our body and feeling the loveliness that we truly are and clever in that by causing anxiousness can create us to go into our heads … therefore not fully being present and connected to our body. We are powerful when we are truly connected and living from the body and whole body intelligence. I too used to feel similar energies in the room when I was younger however over the years and with the help of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I now feel so more connected and solid to my body and am starting to live the wisdom that is felt from my body (this is a continuous learning process) the more we are this the less outside energies have a so called hold over us. Awesome to hear how this has changed for you and you now have this knowing ‘I knew without a doubt this is the way we are meant to live: the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.’

110. I had a very similar experience as a child, spending hours in tension at bedtime, staring at the hallway or at the cupboard door. And when I fell asleep there were snakes, sharks and crocodiles everywhere so it wasn’t much better! Reading this blog I realised that this childhood experience of big and overwhelming anxiety and the energetic feeling not matching what was physically there (creating doubt), contributes to the suppression of our awareness being anxious. I find most people these days are anxious to varying degrees but very few are aware of it. Did we all disconnect from it when we were little, as we didn’t know how to cope? This lack of awareness or denial of the anxiety means that it is never addressed or healed. I have found the pattern of escaping into our heads is key, as it is not being present and aware in our bodies that creates anxiety.

111. When I start to put pressure on myself for whatever reason I escape and I leave my body as everything else is in this moment or situation considered more important and the body is second. I am aware what I am choosing and how horrible my body feels afterwards. When I accept I am sensitive and that by my choice to escape I avoid to feel that I know how to be and what to do. Accepting my grandness, why not?

112. I couldn’t agree more – feeling everything keeps us far more safe than protecting ourselves and numbing ourselves. It is how to handle all we feel without running for the hills that is the challenge and that takes an understanding of what we are feeling. Your blog and the honest conversations through so many of the Universal Medicine courses supports us to see how to make this practicle application in our lives.

113. Night time was an ongoing horror story for me as a child… And that intense fear of the dark continued until a doorway within was opened up with the extraordinarily beautiful wisdom and guidance of Serge Benhayon, and when I walked through this doorway, the understanding of my true nature shone through all darkness

114. Learning that our sensitivity and awareness is actually our greatest strength, as it exposes the absolute truth of all things, is a learning through confirmation that we can and need to offer our children and ourselves.

115. Bianca, this is really helpful, ‘I also felt open to accepting all that was going on around me, no judgment, simply acceptance with a knowing that with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way.’ I have noticed that if I do not judge what is going on around me and do not react to it then I can stay with myself and feeling lovely and steady no matter what is going on, if I judge people and situations and react then I feel anxiousness and unease in my body.

116. In not wanting to feel we actually make life harder for ourselves.. we start disconnecting from our bodies and escaping into our heads where it feels safer, but actually we’re less protected as we then can’t feel energy around us, and have lost our knowing of how to respond to it. When we allow ourselves to feel and accept everything that is there to feel, we are much better equipped to deal with anything.

117. The escape plan of going into our mind or into the doing, whatever is ours, and in that to disconnect from that clairsentience which is naturally in us, makes us imprisoned in a three dimensional world while we belong to a multi dimensional world in which it is about energy first and not about its physical outplay which is secondly at best.

118. ‘It was like I was a walking head completely disconnected from my body…’ I used to feel like that too – completely divorced from my body with my mind running the show. My body was just a mode of transport for my mind and was either a nuisance, or acceptable if some sort of physical indulgence was on the table. I too chose disconnection when the answer was always to re-establish the connection, and from there go deeper. It took years of practice – and only once I discovered Universal Medicine – to be able to reconnect and 10 years on, it’s an awareness I need to be on to every single day. There’s a lot in our world that’s designed to pull us away from ourselves.

119. What a great understanding you share Bianca – that hypersensitivity can trigger the need to escape. You did it with your mind; others choose to act out or withdraw or bury themselves in books, and perhaps as adults choose escape via drugs, alcohol, food, sex, work and so on. Acknowledging the reality of entities with children – and how to deal with them – would go a long way to alleviating this particular path of anxiousness.

     1. Indeed Victoria, we have to learn our children that entities are real and not something we make up as what is told a lot and in doing that we will empower them to cherish this clairsentience and to make it part of heir lives instead of having to go into all kinds of behaviours to dull them away from that feeling that will always be there.

120. Someone once said that when you do not feel like a son of God then you know something is not right. Often we settle for feeling ok but it’s great to know that underneath the façade of life there is another life happening that effects the life we experience as our everyday life. That is the unseen world that perhaps cannot be seen but it can sure be felt and I feel it’s important to recognise that. If not we will keep on searching for the answers in the seen world but we forget that things happen first in the unseen world, energetically.

121. When we make life about energy first and foremost, there is nothing that cannot be felt in our bodies unless we choose to and then align to something that would only offer a temporary relief from the hurt of not being ourselves.

122. Beautifully and simply said Elizabeth – when we feel what we feel there is no need to try and quell, distract or escape ourselves, which is a huge part of the ills in the world.

123. Energy is a fact – we live in it, we are it and we express it. The more openly we talk about energy the less we will be frightened of what we feel around us and give our power away to that. It’s especially important to talk to children openly about energy so they feel their power in life and not feel small in comparison to what they feel around them.

124. Wow, astonishing. We could easily observe and clock how we become protective around people who display anger, or have a jagged outer appearance but rarely do we clock when we become protective of unseen energies.The stories that we tell as children of seeing presences and feeling unsafe in the dark should be more ackowledged! for we would see how these unseen energies are effecting our lives.

125. As children our sensitivity is often dismissed or even ridiculed, no wonder we shut down and don’t want to acknowledge it. When we realise it is safe to feel again and to express those feelings we are on the way back to reclaiming ourselves and our own power. All the while we might be tempted to react to the outside world but as we strengthen our connection to our bodies and the fire within we build a solidness and a confidence that cannot be shaken.

126. I would not want to close my eyes and would choose to lie on my back so I could see every corner of my bedroom.’ I was exactly the same i would not want to turn on my side and have my back to part of the room as I felt very vulnerable. This shows just how sensitive we are of energy and are aware of our surroundings but yet we use so much to block this out or dull it down like tv and food etc. What if we allowed ourselves to be sensitive and aware all of the time without trying to turn this down?

127. We believe we are protecting ourselves when we deny what we are feeling but in fact it is the complete opposite as it lays us wide open to energetic attack.

128. Accepting and developing conscious awareness of the “unseen energetic outplay rippling underneath the physicality of life” is like putting the skin on the bones of life.

129. Great wisdom this is to develop our connection to our body and to heed its call, impulse and revelation.

130. When the wisdom of the body leads the way, we are with the grace and beauty of God.

131. Often we are not supported to connect to our feelings when we are young as a form of protection and then as adults we tend to fear what we can feel. This often opens us to use various things to numb what we feel and disconnect from our body.

     1. This is so true Chan and if we do not address those unresolved fears that we carry with clarity, acceptance and understanding they will continue to haunt us in our adulthood until we address them and let them go.

132. I can so relate to being a “walking head completely disconnected from my body” for that is exactly how I lived; in fact most around me were living in the same way, separated from who they truly are as well. I can see that to be connected was way too painful and also, if I did know how my body was feeling I would have had to begin to make some changes in my life. I am delighted that I finally came to understand that living connected to my body is actually the way we are made to live and being disconnected will only end up with a body that is suffering greatly which is crazy because it is without doubt our best, wisest and most loyal friend.

133. There is in fact no escaping energy even when we try to numb it, ignore it or pretend we do not feel it. Energy is who we are and what the world is made of, hence why evasion is impossible. Our connection to our bodies are our greatest tool through which, if we are willing, we can be guided to know the truth at all times. We all already respond to the truth in our bodies to some degree through putting warm clothes when we are cold, or sensing that something is not right with another, so the more we honor and build this relationship, the more we can read the quality of energy at play in any moment and know how to respond with truth accordingly. This is true power.

134. In my experience too by staying connected with my body and what I’m feeling this gives me the opportunity to understand situations in a much clearer way and have access to the wisdom of the body in how to deal with or respond to life. And shutting down from what I’m feeling actually creates anxiousness in me because I’m disconnecting from something that I know is there but am trying to push away, and in that dis-connection am not really equipped to handle whatever is going on…

135. It could very much be that the reason we have so much illness and disease is because we don’t really have an honest relationship with our bodies. If we are all disconnected with it then it’s hard to know what it’s telling us.

136. It changes everything when we accept that we are creatures that feel everything, and that doing so allows us to understand life and not be so affected by it. We are always only limited by our own willingness to admit to the sensory grandness that we all actually have. Our sixth sense should never be confined to an idea in a movie.

137. Your blog shows me that the moments of escape I seek actually result in me missing out on me, I will not be able to get those moments back but I can make choices now to ensure that I am truly present in my own life.

138. This wonderfully confirming blog about the beauty of being fully present in our body is so supportive for me. Though I know it in times I feel anxious or stressed I go into flight mode and want to leave my body. Sometimes there can be no apparent reason for this – just general everyday stresses and a walk at lunchtime requires constant coming back to being present. What I’m realising is that when I do commit to being present and with myself, allowing myself to feel all that there is to feel no matter how uncomfortable, I’m also feeling a solidness within and this I am knowing I can return to no matter what happens in my day. The more I connect the more I know it is unwavering and I can trust. An inspiration to allow all that is there to be allowed and experienced – no shutting off compartments and living in fear of their contents.

139. There are so many ways we protect ourselves, when we heal one protection, another one can present for us to then let go of as well. It is in having a willingness to feel those protections that can ultimately free us from them and trust that we can.

140. I can completely relate to this Bianca. Having an escape plan and being constant alert. It’s very much a work in progress for me to change my default setting back to before it became my default. But with a willingness to let go and trust that I’m ok the layer of protection becomes thinner and thinner.

141. I only just realised that what you described as a child was me all over. I had never clocked the level of sensitivity I had as a child. As I have connected back to my body more, I feel how my greatest protection is to be in connection.

142. In connection with our bodies, we are offered access to an infinite communication with the stars confirming our true nature of what we can live when we commit to the in-between moments of our lives, as it through this consistency that we get to accept and embody the truth of who we are.

143. We spend so much of our time trying to avoid being hurt yet when we allow ourselves to feel everything that is going on in life it is awesome.

144. When we are young, our whole body sings with the wisdom of the Universe unfiltered. So it is no accident that at a very young age ‘things in the night’ come for us, to make us scared, to make us shrink, to make us ‘turn down our light’ and thus in effect dim our awareness of the vast intelligence we belong to. This is one of the many ways we are influenced from young to live from our head alone rather than from the body that otherwise obediently works in sync with the meticulous order we are an innate part of. The great separation we all feel deep within us comes from allowing such a division to occur and from championing the human intellect at great expense to the whole body intelligence we never once questioned as a child.

145. Our children tell us many times of things that they see and hear whilst on their own in their bedrooms, and it cannot be put down to imagination because how is it that nearly everyone has had an experience they remember or an experience as an adult they can recall.

     Reading this has triggered a childhood memory of not wanting to get close to the bed because it felt like there was something underneath, so I would jump on the bed, so as not to let my ankles be grabbed.

146. So true Bianca, it is all intrinsically linked… to be open and able to be seen in full, to see others in full, and to feel everything that is going on in life around us, at every level, down to the subtlest energetic changes.

147. I can very much relate to what you are sharing, and it is like a breath of fresh air when I am able to make the choice to surrender and feel my every movement, knowing that it is right. It is our true way to live, living from the movements of our body a movement in sync with what we think, conscious presence is such an important tool to practice.

148. It’s crazy how we need to surrender so that our natural way can lead in every moment. The mind is a controlling force and the power we have allowed is such that humanity have come to believe that it is who they are, to the degree that the body is totally over-ridden and completely disconnected from. Serge Benhayon has exposed the choices we have been making and the wisdom of the body that is there to be chosen – this is to be celebrated, this is evolutionary.

149. I can remember being anxious of the dark as a child, and would always want a light left on when I went to bed. I could sense there were energies around that wanted to frighten me, but it was not something I ever shared with ayone. As I got older I would listen to music or drift off into some fantasy in the hope that I would go to sleep before anything could scare me. So it was very confirming to learn from presentations by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that what I was feeling was not something I had made up, but was in fact very real. Children feel everything and we should never dismiss what they are telling us when they talk about what they can see, even though we as adults may not see what they are talking about.

     1. It is remarkable that such a huge number of us adults have been deeply hurt by having our awareness and expression dismissed and even at times ridiculed as a child (although no one can be blamed for this as for generations we have not known any better). It seems we do such a great job at becoming numb to our hurts and making ourselves forget what happened that we end up doing exactly the same to the young ones in our own lives! It is a great blessing that so many have been supported by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine to heal the hurts they have been carrying and to reconnect to their innate awareness and understanding of the energetic dynamics at play through life.

150. I could so relate to what you have shared here Bianca, especially around escaping into ones head as a young girl. This was a form of protection and not wanting to truly feel what was going on around me. As well as not wanting to really stay connected to the amazing little girl i was. I would daydream, have entire conversations in my head with people and replay situations, all the while not at all appreciating who I was or have any connection with my body. This has now changed immensely, thanks to the amazing presentations and support from Universal Medicine.

151. I can very much relate to escaping into mind – and although it was the comfort I was seeking, it was not always lovely thoughts that I entertained, it could actually be totally horrible and negative and certainly not the kind of thoughts I would willingly choose to have. How is that possible?! I thought I was escaping from the nasties and the horribles of the world, but somehow I trapped myself in a world full of unpleasant thoughts that I had no idea where they came from so I reasoned it must have been me. We become an easy prey for the astral to have its way when we vacate our body and refuse to feel what we feel.

152. its so obvious that as children we are not dumb, we really do know and feel all kinds of things. the way the world is set up is so disregarding of this however, and falsely set up that adults are the ones who ‘know’ and that kids are not naturally feeling to be aware of all that is going on in life, and just don’t know always know how to express or deal with things that are so undeniably occurring in their lives, Kids instinctively know who to be around and who doesnt feel right- if given a chance they can tell us so much about what is going on.

153. i know how that feels, to know something is there, and yet have no one supporting you to give voice to that experience. I am so glad to have come across the works of universal medicine so that i can be validated in what i always knew was going on.

154. Bianca, this is really lovely, ‘the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.’ I notice that when I focus on my movements – how I cross my legs, how I place my hands and feeling my feet as I walk for example, that this feels very simple and powerful, I get to feel my femininity and loveliness and it means that I am present in my body and not in my head thinking all sorts of unnecessary things.

155. Thank you Bianca. Lately I have noticed moments when I will ‘zone out’ and even though I am in one place in the room with people, for example with friends, work colleagues or family, my thoughts can be elsewhere. And this actually feels strange, and makes me wonder why would I want to be anywhere else but with all these amazing people, and especially with myself?

156. Hi Bianca – like you I know I am deeply sensitive and can feel a lot. I feel what is going on around me and I too have tried to go to my head to avoid the feeling. But in that I am not myself, not open, not connecting to my body. What a waste. Now I know that it is OK and natural to be sensitive and feel everything and when I claim that It Is possible to feel something but observe it rather than take it on, that brings a settlement to my body,

157. Protecting is such great topic to discuss as it can reveal much of the unnessesary in life. How we are used to protect ourselves from hardness instead of love. Which in fact, it makes more sense to protect ourselves from a love and abundance, than to actually close ourselves off from it , which makes us feel unsafe in the first palce, and than put up a wall or behavior to protect ourselves second. it simply makes no sense. But it is beautiful to out date it, and call it for what it is , as we all know it is simply a choice were we can love ourselves as it is our One and Only true protection. The one we actually need.

158. “I was hypersensitive and could feel every little change in the energy around me. I was on high alert and there was so much tension in my body.” This is a level of awareness that never goes away. I feel we just learn how to read situations better in life experience and deepen our understanding of how to be ok with the intensity. Observing it and not absorbing it, as a wise man once said. It makes so much sense.

159. Bianca, this is great to read and very helpful, my son has trouble sleeping at night sometimes because he feels scared, it feels lovely to be able to share with him that ‘with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way.’

160. I have lived most of my life like this ‘I was forever on alert, watching and waiting for the next imposing feeling to be there and then I would use my emergency escape plan which was to go into my head and distract myself with thoughts for relief.’ Like you (and most people) I am very sensitive to energy and I was always on alert, in fact I lived on ‘alert’ being aware of energies that didn’t feel great and feeling that had power over me. Sometimes feeling intimidated even if I was in a room on my own! Since knowing Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have claimed myself more within my body, have a deeper and true understanding of energy and no longer live in ‘alert’ mode I still have awareness of what goes on around me in the physical and non-physical but this no longer dictates my life instead it is the love within … well more so than this has ever been and always work in progress : )

     1. It is so refreshing to be having this conversation isn’t it?! To actually say out loud that there are things we feel and things we see, that they sometimes don’t match or make sense. This level of alertness that never really turns off is draining to the point of chronic disease. So let’s keep these conversations going!

161. Fabulous article Bianca, thank you. Your description of your childhood in particular has just helped a personal penny to drop – understanding the depth to which I too was reading and feeling and not knowing what to do with that other than to escape into my head, mostly through books and then a little later on TV and mental activity. Food has been another big comfort. Thankfully, also like yourself, I’ve re-learned via Universal Medicine another way to be so I am no longer just a body propelling an over-active mind around.

162. Connection to my body has been one of the greatest teachings offered by Universal Medicine. It changes how I see myself, how I move, how I exercise, even how I breathe. It has been a marker of my health greater than I could possibly have imagined.

     1. For a long time I avoided this connection, thinking I was connecting with my body but still resolutely holding on to what I thought connection looked like, so as to avoid feeling and looking at my own choices. Slowing down, not filling every second of every day with constant activity, has strengthened this connection and given me the space to actually feel what’s going on within and around me.

163. I recently dropped a neighbour off to the health centre not far from where I live and waited in the reception. It was interesting to share conversations with other people about their ailments and the tension they were feeling in their body. When the stories of hardships, stresses and strains started to flow a connection was made of how we protect our body in order to deal with the onslaught of behaviours from others. It is timely that this blog shares the powerful teachings of Serge Benhayon and the simplicity of life that we can come to know if we choose not to allow that which is not true out or in.

164. “I felt so solid and grounded; there was an unwavering confidence that my body just knew how to move and what to do next.” Great blog and observation, this is the way it is meant to be, we are meant to be connected to our bodies and then to move in such a way eliminates all self doubt, I am learning to surrender more and trust the own wisdom of my body and every time I do I feel the bigger picture and I lose the part of me that wants to make life all about me which in turn benefits everyone.

165. It is so common for us to find a way to escape from what we are feeling without truly connecting and understanding what it is that we are trying to run from. Often it is an opportunity or point of evolution that we do not want to face or take responsibility for, so the willingness to surrender at these times is paramount for in the surrender, the infinite wisdom of the body knows the next movement to make.

166. I can so relate to your blog and the anxiousness that is caused when we start numbing our body to feel due to the fear of the unknown energy lurking around us. But like you share “We can come back from this choice though, by connecting to our body and allowing ourselves once again to be honest about how and what we feel.” It has been a steady unfoldment but supper supportive as I have been building a foundation to come back to my body and not be in my head, the anxiousness has begun to fade, this is so much more loving and supportive.

167. There are movies, cartoons, about monsters scaring children in the night. I hadn’t clocked the relevance and reality before between what we think it ‘make believe’ and what is actually happening.

168. Surrendering to being in my body is a choice I might have to consciously remind myself to do. Without surrendering to my body I’m in my head, then creating more tension and complication than is needed. With surrendering comes the clarity and simplicity, and a loving way to be with myself and everyone.

169. Interesting that so many children make similar experiences, but without adults understanding what actually is going on they are left to find an escape from what they are not supported to deal with and thereby becoming the adults that are not understanding and supporting of their children who just experience the same like them when they were children.

170. Beautiful Bianca, showing us that living what we are and letting go of the old ways of protecting that – is simply our way. Hence, no need for an escape (plan) or some sort.

171. I still live with a high alert and tension in my body – as many people do
     – it’s exhausting and affects my posture, you can see this in other people too- shoulders rolled in – I can feel it in my shoulders, upper chest and neck. It’s not always there, for example after Esoteric Yoga – where I am completely surrendered to my body – I know this is me. And I know it’s something I can work on and let go, it won’t change overnight but with a commitment to myself this will change – for everybody.

172. I have been realising more and more lately that the more I try and shut out the so called bad stuff that I am feeling, that this also has the byproduct of shutting out the good stuff! In other words when I try and protect myself, guard myself, daydream or distract myself with thoughts because I don’t want to feel something unpleasant or disturbing, this has the side effect of also cutting myself off from feeling the abundance of love and stillness that is constantly all around me and inside of me also. So then I feel even more lost in the intensity of what is occurring.The key I feel is allowing myself to feel and read it all, but staying connected to me in the process.

173. It is an age old conundrum – how do we hold on to our sensitivity and our awareness of any energetic change around or within us, but not get overwhelmed by what we are feeling or react to what we are sensing? Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine in my opinion has solved this conundrum by teaching how to stay connected to our soul and a source of energy that is way more powerful than any disturbance we might be feeling. In this we can observe and allow ourselves to feel what is occurring on all levels, but not get swamped by it.

174. I’m sure many people could relate to this sensitivity and depth of awareness you speak of here in your blog Bianca. I know I can. And I can say that through the teachings and example of Universal Medicine, it has supported me to understand how energy works in the world which has supported me to realise that far from this sensitivity being a burden or a weakness, it is actually one of my greatest strengths.

175. I love this blog, it’s something every parent and child ought to read… for your experience as a child Bianca is such a common one, of being a sensitive child fully aware of the energetic world around us, which we then shut down because we’re not held in that – because our parents weren’t held in that and on it goes. But when one person reclaims their energetic awareness and honoured their feelings and sensitivity, they snap that cycle which hugely benefits all.

176. It just goes to show the extent of shutting down we have to do as children to then get to the point where we do not believe that spirits exist, and of course the spirits who visit children at night know eventually that they will go into their minds to get away from what they feel – job done. Is it any wonder we have anxiety as children when we are being bullied by something that is unseen and unfelt by our parents, and then coming back to our bodies seems difficult as the pull to go into the mind feels addictive.

177. Interesting subject Bianca, showing us what we all know, but a simple reminder this is what we all have felt before and made choices from to not be aware (of energy). Hence, rising up our awareness truly, supports us to come back to what we all know. Thank you Bianca, as Serge and Universal Medicine contiously supports us to choose.

178. thank you Bianca… I often feel an extraordinary sense of gratitude to Universal Medicine whenever I walk in the dark of night. This used to hold such fear for me which was surreal particularly when I was working In Security… The fear was palpable and overwhelming. With what I know now there has been such a transformation because I know that whatever is in the dark the light within me and my true self is so much stronger. The difference now is so profound and so deep in something that I thought was absolutely impossible to shift.

179. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets” This is so true, I have been feeling this a lot, especially since I just started a new job. I have been feeling into my new environment, the people, how they work. There has been already times when I know I could have been swept up in emotion or drama as things unfold, but have chosen to stay with me, this is a our greatest asset.

180. It is super helpful to know that the anxiousness that we feel in our bodies is not us but mainly comes from the relationship we have developed with life in general where we react in order not to feel what’s there to be felt -so reconnecting back to our bodies is the key.

181. I feel extremely blessed to be able to read this blog today. I have been noticing that I spend my days in a constant spin of distraction (especially with my phone). You remind me to look deeper and bring understanding to the fact that I am choosing to shut down my awareness in the false belief that this will protect me.

182. Our awareness and understanding of the world around us are both definitely precious resources that we can forever grow and expand upon.

183. Its also so beautiful how you have chosen to let go of anxiety which is simply in the body, and accepting what the body is feeling.

184. What you have shared Bianca is common for so many people I am sure, we all feel so much and aren’t taught with where to go with al of these feeling and anxiousness so find one way or another of escaping and managing. I remember also laying in bed and feeling like something was around me, and at night would often wake up and think we were being burgled, If I think about all of the experiences like this I’ve had when I was younger and even still to this day it would be silly to say that life is only physical and thats all we are here for.

185. “to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets” Today I was curious about feeling what was going on around me and what I felt was not nice, it actually disturbed me a lot. But my normal go-to behaviour of over-eating to numb my feelings did not help any. Only by being gentle with myself and bit by bit accepting what I am feeling do I come to not shy away but to stay present. As such I am curious if I chose to feel again that same situation with more presence, because without presence that which we are avoiding doesn’t go away, it just carries on while we blind ourselves to it.

186. As multidimensional beings, we either can choose to accept this and feel everything or to choose not to. It’s awesome that you’ve now chosen to feel – and to inspire others to follow suit…and to show that it’s actually okay.

187. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets” – it is. Without this we are at the mercy of what our eyes and ears tell us which is only a small and often inaccurate part of what is going on. It is the energy in which something is said or done that is felt.

188. ‘I often used this escape plan of leaving my body and going into the head to deal with feelings that I didn’t want to accept were there.’ I can really relate to this as a way of coping. What I am building up now is a relationship with my body that I trust it to know how to let go of any anxiety I may feel and return it self to its natural harmony. This is done by reconnecting and establishing a connection with it, with me so that now I know there is nothing that can sink it.

189. The best form of protection is connection and this is something we all would have had as kids, so as adults we have to return to the way we naturally were.

190. I love this Bianca ” . . .with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way” . . . as connecting to the body is the key antidote for anxiety. Being lost in our heads having deserted our body gives one a very good reason to be anxious!

191. That mental ‘escape plan’ leaves us in the dark not knowing where to go, whereas when we come back into our body and feel who we are the light calls us back to who we are.

192. “that there has always been an unseen energetic outplay rippling underneath the physicality of life that we all have experienced but rarely speak of.” This is one of the things that really struck me when I starting attending Universal Medicine presentations – how much we actually do know about that everything is energy, but how little attention we actually give it.

193. “I felt so solid and grounded; there was an unwavering confidence that my body just knew how to move and what to do next.” – how real this is Bianca. The more I connect with my body and do less mind gymnastics, the more at ease and confident I feel within myself too – thanks to Universal Medicine and what they present, and thanks to me for going there and taking the steps to reconnect and live from my body and not so much from my mind.

194. Now this is what I have discovered is the most wonderful way to live, with “the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.” Being with myself in every moment and with every movement offers me a way to be all that I am, and I am slowly discovering that all that I am is pretty amazing.

195. It can be so easy to get caught up in the day and not even recognise how much this is affecting you. I loved reading your blog and feeling the quality of the changes you made to not be so affected by the outside world but to choose the quality that you would live your day- inspiring.

196. We live in one giant pool of energy, so awareness is without doubt one of our greatest and most valuable assets, and when our awareness comes from our body, and so that makes the relationship we have with our bodies literally everything.

197. Bianca what you have shared here I feel is huge and something I know for a fact happened with me as I am sure many others, and still does. As a child I was too super sensitive to energy in the room while sleeping and could feel something sinister on reflection with what you have shared it has given me an ‘ah ha’ moment in that my body would tense and harden in order to protect myself and instead of staying with me and being present in my body with awareness and allowing my sensitivity I instead lived in and from my mind, this was my biggest form of protection and meant I did not have to feel and I did that for many years to follow without even consciously realising it. You mention we are actually designed to ‘live the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.’ I also know this to be true, we are designed to live from the body and from the wisdom of the body and thank goodness for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine because through all they present and live they have helped me to gradually come back to this truth. To live from the mind in protection is not living at all!

198. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets” how very true. To really know ourselves is to know the body and to listen to it, no matter what.

199. Another amazing blog that is testament to the truth you have chosen to live. Very inspiring- thank you Bianca.

200. To feel all that is around us is a gift and one that is strengthened by our willingness to not be consumed by the feelings, but to simply connect to our body and observe all that is there to experience. There is much to learn and appreciate all around us when we live life from this quality.

201. I love this home you describe Bianca. It might be hard to accept but there is something in us that actively fights this awesome feeling, choosing instead short-term safety. It is time we came to see the safe haven we perceive, is like a dingy dark dark cave we go into. In the process we make ourselves a prisoner and rob the world of our unique flavour. There are so many ways and places we can hide but it only ever delays and perpetuates our difficulty in life.

202. ‘I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets,’ So true Bianca. I am so very grateful to have been introduced to the laws of energetic awareness through Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

203. Choosing to live in a dulled way, we do this more than we think we do. How we focus so much on social media these days, our obsessions with our phones. We are just so distracted a lot of the time. That we really don’t know how to be still and spend time with ourselves. This has to change if we are to bring more of ourselves to our life and relationships we hold.

204. I can so relate Bianca as the head was my escape route also and as a consequence anxiety was my middle name and my constant companion. Allowing myself to feel all that I do feel anyway and acknowledge this and accept it has been an ongoing learning. One well worth embarking on.

205. ‘Choosing to live in this dulled down way felt like a part of me was achingly missing – no wonder I was always anxious!’ This is a great and exposing point Bianca. Anxiousness feels like a very mind driven condition, and like you have said, the root is living in a body that is not fully housed with ourselves. Of course we are anxious… what energy is running or fuelling the body if we are not choosing to be present or with it?

206. I remember also times in my bedroom as a child when I would feel things and feel scared because I did not know what I felt and it was not really confirmed by my parents either. I can now see that the fact that my parents did not know consciously either what it was that I felt and dealt with it like many parents do, looking in all cupboards and turning the light on to show there is really nothing there, but forgetting with that, that we all can feel and thus feel energy. No blame on my parents whatsoever as they did not know better either growing up. It would be truly supportive for children growing up to know that what they feel is true and that there are energies around, that alone already takes away the fear. Nothing is worse than feeling something and not really getting acknowledged that it is true. So therefor what you shared here is so important to know and share with our children: “I have also reconnected to the truth that all is energy and that there has always been an unseen energetic outplay rippling underneath the physicality of life that we all have experienced but rarely speak of”.

207. “an unseen energetic outplay rippling underneath the physicality of life that we all have experienced but rarely speak of.” This is one of the things I really love about Universal Medicine, it is bringing to the forefront so many things we experience and have an knowing of (even if it is super buried) but as you say, we rarely speak of. So many subjects we rarely speak of but play out such a large part of our lives.

208. Only after a few years of Universal Medicine could I fully allow myself to feel how draining and exhausting living in and from my head actually is – it is like living in two worlds, two time zones and two planes of existence all at once and it ain’t great!

209. Being disconnected from our body and in our heads is a big issue in society, many of us have a running commentary swirling around our minds, that distracts us and leads us to do and say who knows what….as you say as a child we are naturally connected, mind, body, heart, somewhere along the way, it becomes often separate…I wav been returning to being connected with my body, listening, feeling it, being aware of it, every small moment when I honour what I feel, rewards me two fold, in terms of well being, self love and confidence.

210. Very true Bianca, our best form of defence is our connection and transperancy

211. Thank you Bianca – what you share is very important. We are not even consciously aware at times that we hold back who we are, yet our body can feel it hence the contraction, illness and disease. Thank you for sharing this : ” I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets, because this means we can have a true understanding of the energetic outplay of all things and thus make choices that support us to stay in our connection and keep building our knowing of life.”

212. If I go into fear I have found the best thing for me to do is to move my body. I find this grounds me and brings me back to myself.

213. How often to parents dismiss their children’s fear in the night and tell them that everything is ok? If we were more open with what we feel in the body and around us we would be able to support children to understand what they are feeling, that there are entities and how to stay with the body as our greatest protection. Think about it, to leave the body in escape to the mind we are leaving the body vacated for other energies to interfere. Learning to be with our body together with the mind, to be present, is a life changing ability.

214. I actually just realised that for me, when I go into daydreaming, it’s because there is something I want to say/express but am too afraid to, so instead I play out the conversation and how I wish it to go in my head, and then fool myself into believing it’s enough. It never ends there, the fantasy just continues, it’s literally like a soap opera in my head….a dangerous place to be!

215. ‘my emergency escape plan which was to go into my head and distract myself with thoughts for relief.’ I have always done this, and interestingly more recently it’s returned at full force. I day dream probably more than I realise, but in the past week I’ve felt myself slip into a coma of fantasy land – where I’m constantly daydreaming about conversations, events etc. It’s very familiar, so on one hand I just let it continue, but on the other I’m clocking how it’s been a very long time since I’ve done this, and that’s enough for me to notice that something needs to be looked at.

216. Yes Bianca, the way many of us live is like trying to talk with the stereo turned up loud or expecting a restful sleep in the middle of a motorway lane. For when we ignore and disregard energy we make ourselves blind and unable to make sense of the world around. Like someone walking with a blindfold on, consistently bashing in to things, if we simply stop cutting our senses off we will get to see we are perpetually safe.

217. The home-like quality you describe provides a foundation that supports whatever is to come, as you say “with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way”

218. We are hypersensitive – even now. We know this about kids and can talk to them about it (sometimes), but do we allow ourselves to feel that as adults – just as precious, just as sensitive.

219. “As I was going off to sleep I would often feel a presence around me that felt big, cold and imposing. ” I can relate to this, it use to really scare me, but I was unable to share it with my parents, as I knew they would not believe me. So I would curl under my blanket and pray to God to protect me and keep me safe. I would be curled up like a ball and fall asleep often finding myself waking up in the same position. I felt that if I was still no one would know I am there.

220. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets” Indeed it is, letting oursleves feel what is being presented in our lives not only stops us seeking ways to manage life but also allows to develop our awareness beyond our five senses.

221. When I choose to only use my eyes to see then I am cutting off from so much of what is there and so much is then unexplained – for me that is the scary bit. Whereas when I choose to see energy 1st then I get the full (well a fuller) picture of what is actually going on. It means things are no longer taken so personally and I have a much better understanding about life. Thanks to Universal Medicine for re-awakening my awareness that there is more than purely what the eyes can see.

222. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets” Huge realisation and one that can only evolve us.

223. I use food to fight my awareness, to not feel something I don’t want to feel, if the food is not there then I feel the anxiety in my body. I have been asking myself okay how do I let this go, and it is accepting my awareness, and feeling everything, even the stuff that hurts and the things I don’t want to feel, and not taking it personally. I may not be 100 % correct, but I am backing myself, this is something I am working on.

224. Thanks for the reminder Bianca, I am getting to know about protection in a whole new light recently… and the subtlety with which I can go into it. It can be as simple as an in-breath through the mouth rather than the nose, or a change in quality of breath from gentle to harsh or sharp. We are so driven by the need to feel ‘safe’ that protection has become second nature… I say second because it really is not our true nature. That is as a newborn baby… open, completely transparent and responsive to all around it.

225. I now realise that I too had an “exit strategy” just like yours, from a life that sounds just like yours. The night terrors, lying rigid in a cold sweat and holding my breath for as long as I could was almost unbearable, so to escape into another reality in my own little universe became a choice that I made regularly, one that stayed with me for many, many years. To let go of this very old way of protecting myself has taken some time but the freedom I now feel in my body from the release of this old burden is worth every choice I made to finally let it go.

226. Bianca I know exactly what you’re saying here, so well in fact! I too have shut down my awareness throughout life to not feel the scary stuff but hadn’t quite made the connection that that’s why I too am so “in my head” for a lot of the time. This is an interesting observation as I’ve just been looking myself at how when I try to spin a million plates and have an eye on all of them, AKA control them all to make sure they don’t come crashing down, they all come crashing down!! But when I just focus on the plate I’m currently spinning and have trust that the rest of the plates will spin as they need to, they all stay in perfect harmony…. So for me it’s the letting go of control and having trust that my body will know which plate to spin next to keep the whole thing flowing and due to shutting down my awareness such a long time ago, I dont currently have that trust. So it’s just a process of rebuilding that trust, as you say through connection with my body, and that just takes some time after all these years.

227. The head is such a great place to hide. Even though it is part of our body, it’s a great place to disconnect from the body and not be aware of what is going on within and around us. It’s as tough you can take a holiday in head, albeit a warped kind of holiday.

228. Letting go of the escape plan is essential for our connection to ourselves, everyone and life. I was with you all the way on this Bianca and I love your description of what happens when we surrender to the wisdom of our bodies. Noticing all the patterns that we have developed over the years to escape from the feelings that we don’t like is really useful for letting them go and understanding that we can handle everything that comes our way through embodying understanding, acceptance and love.

229. The best form of protection we can ever achieve is that connection to the body.

230. This understanding and knowing is available for us in every moment, if we but make the choice to connect… and if we helped children hold on to this natural way to be, we could see the world transformed.

231. “re-connecting with my body, re-building my awareness and escaping less and less into my mind.” This is what I have also got support on from Universal Medicine, it has made so much difference in my life as I feel more solid in myself. I am no longer checking out but truly connecting to my awareness, which I have always had.

232. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets” it sure is one of our greatest assets, to let go of our protections and truly let people in. Letting them see and feel what is going on for us, no matter the outcome. This is what holds us back so often from saying what is there to be said, often us not wanting to feel what is there to be felt, because that would mean accepting what we at times may not what to accept.

233. The relief I got from disconnecting from my body and my sensitivity was that then people would leave me alone and I would fit in. But like yourself Bianca, I also did not account for the misery it also brought into my life.

234. Bianca I remember checking under my bed and in my wardrobe too, it is amazing as young children how much we feel, and how aware we are, and as parents if we talk to children in a way of understanding, rather than dismissing what they feel, it will enable them to keep their clairsentience.

235. I would say that the vast majority of the entire world has shut down their innate sensitivity, having not been met in that precious sensitive way, when we were young. A long time ago, we bored our heads down to an ill force that said no, sensitivity is to be shunned and buried – and so it has been. And so, we interrelate from a disconnect fromour own bodies, with no anchor or true foundation of who we are… we interrelate from protection and fear. The preservation of self reigns, separation is the currency and the longing to be in true brotherhood, to live in harmony, is buried deeper and deeper.
     Our deepest wound right there, self-inflicted, passed on from one generation to the next, and the madness in the world today continues.

236. I once thought my walls of protection and shutting people out served me as a shield of protection. I now know the safest way to be in the world is to honour and love myself and what I feel, express and emanate all of who I truly am and be gently tender and understanding with myself and others and then there is no need for protection.

237. Your words ‘While on one level, this escaping seemed comforting, there was also a constant feeling of raciness and a huge anxiety that I couldn’t ignore.’ I agree when we try to protect ourselves it leads to a raciness within us, and I have noticed how we always select foods that then keep us racy, keeping us further from who we naturally are.

238. I still notice patterns of not being able to cope with what I feel around me, and leaving my body to be in both anxiety and overthinking. Our energetic awareness or clairsentience is not a commonly discussed topic, yet it has such a huge impact on our choices. I know for me I did not understand the anxiousness I felt in life until I came to Universal Medicine and gained insight into the bigger picture of life, including how I can react to what I am feeling energetically.

239. We have complete parallel experiences with this Bianca – I have been a master of escaping into the mind for relief from what I feel and read in life. No wonder I grew up with such a lack of confidence and very successful at hiding who I was, because I wasn’t in my body. Reducing oneself to an aspect of the mind feels like it cuts us off to the enormity and universality of who we actually are. Because, the mind can’t get it or fathom it, but the body knows it well by virtue of it’s particles.

240. Thank you Bianca for your reminder to not get caught up in what is happening around me. But rather accept what is going on around me.

241. I know when I was younger and clearly reading what was going on around me, I felt like I was going mad because everyone else close to me denied that there was anything happening at all. After a while it was much easier to dull this down and keep things to myself. But this does not work for a joyful life. Bringing understanding into our lives, knowing that what I feel is real and accepting the world and where others are at allows me to let go of the hurts around this. Coming back to my body and living from this truth first allows me to feel and know truth.

242. The mind is like a drug when used in certain ways. What makes it so different to other things we use to escape is that it is not commonly referred to in this way, its addictive and numbs us just as much as any other substance or food we might use though. In one of my old relationships that I was very unhappy, I used my mind to fantasize about another person, I didn’t cheat but in truth it felt the same. Its great to expose the true damage disconnecting from the body actually causes.

243. I felt like you were writing my experiences too, Bianca. I was always hypersensitive, and would react to this by shutting down and being in a state of permanent anxiety. Knowing that the anxiety is not who we are, but a behaviour we’ve adopted to manage and get through life allows us the space to see it for what it is – and to know that we can let it go, by committing to building a connection with our bodies and being honest with ourselves about everything we can feel.

244. Checking out offers a quick relief from what we don’t want to feel or take responsibility from, this is short lived as eventually it catches up creating bigger issues such as dementia. Committing to develop our relationship with our bodies is the way forward to meeting life as energy first and not from a mental place.

245. That world we are usually connected to when we are children should be cherished and held on to. Unfortunately most of us leave that space because quite often when we share about it people brush it off as child’s imagination.

246. Invisible guerrilla wars. This is what spirits play with us at night when we are sensitive children just to make sure that we shut down our capacity to feel what is going on and make this our way to walk in life.

247. This great to read as it is so common that how easily our experience from childhood can still impact us now, and how important it is to understand why we react in the way we do, as most of us have gone through fear of the dark due to the level or sensitivity.

248. Gorgeous to read this, it is deeply supportive. Feeling the constant raciness within, it is indeed key to connect deeply to the body. And allow ourself to feel this way, letting it all be.

249. Thank you for sharing the more we honour what we feel and are given space to openly talk about the less we feel we need to go into protection. I used to think hardening up and putting a wall/shield on was protecting myself but it shuts everything else, at least seemingly so – love included! Whereas when I stay open with love I get to clearly see and understand what is going on so it does not affect me and so is a far greater form of protection without trying to be!

250. I have just recently experienced this total and defining connection to my body and my being as being complete and solid . An ability to feel i could handle what came my way and that i would know what to do. And now recently in my work environment I have been destabilised from this, as i see i have invested in my abilities and others’ perceptions of me to be more important than my connection to myself. I have been feeling anxious and gone into many head stories the last few days. It feels awful and yet i haven’t released myself back to my body. I realize that only by surrendering myself back into allowing my body to feel that i will understand the bigger picture and energetically what is at play here… i won’t be able to work it out in my head!

251. There is nothing more beautifully wholesome than feeling that ‘home like quality’ in my body. Being present in the body and aware of my movements. Staying with the simplicity and letting the wisdom of the body lead the way.

252. This is very beautiful Bianca. The more I know and get to cherish this ‘home like’ quality in me you mention, the less I am willing to settle for the numbness and checked out way of living in my mind. Just this weekend I have started to see how almost everything I did was designed to knock my feelings out. So now I am wondering what my life would be like if I cherished and supported my physicality in everything, no matter what came up, living protection free – wowee then I would finally set myself free.

253. Understanding that we do feel absolutely everything that is going on around us in the form of energy is truly supportive. That we we can start to feel and understand it for what it is and the messages it brings. The key I’m discovering is that we are sensitive to energy, we are meant to be so we can feel the true message that is there, but let it keep passing through not to hang on to and attach. The other alternative is to try and fend it off, which means numbing which amounts to abusing myself. It has also led to being hyper-vigilant to what may be next; this is a breading ground for anxiousness in my experience

254. “It was like I was a walking head completely disconnected from my body and filled with distracting thoughts while I went about the activity of my life.” I lived life like this too, being constantly in my head, escaping what I did not want to feel. But with understanding from Universal Medicine I have come to know how to connect to my body, staying more present with myself in the day and this has made a huge difference to the quality and vitality I feel day-to-day.

255. This is such a helpful blog for someone who wants to understand more about how debilitating anxiety is and how to bring change. I see it is so much about the body. This comment really rang true and gives a great insight: “It was like I was a walking head completely disconnected from my body and filled with distracting thoughts while I went about the activity of my life.” That really would create an anxiety of what you know you are about to do is calling for you to be very in your body and you don’t feel prepared because you have spent so long in your head.

256. This is really beautiful and confirming to read. I’ve not realised the extent to which I hide in my mind but I’m learning to feel my body, go beneath the anxiety and have moments where, as you said, ‘my body just knew how to move and what to do next.’ These moments are more often as I return to allowing my body move and I get to feel the wisdom inherent within.

257. Gorgeous blog Bianca, which I can completely relate to. My ‘exit strategy’ includes a raciness and anxiousness that leaves my head in a mental lock-down, disconnected from my body too, and often counting items, numbers or anything really(!) too. Sometimes we can make it difficult or think it is hard to come back to our bodies but the truth I have found is that to surrender within ourselves is but a mere choice and a simple one and our bodies are so naturally designed to be in this flow that you so beautifully describe that they can naturally drop the facade. It takes practise and a building of trust in who we are as well as a clearer understanding of that which we are not.

258. I was putting the bins out with my teenage son in the dark and we were tailing about night horrors and being afraid of the dark. ‘You are not afraid of the dark any more, are you’ he said. And the answer was no. But only because I have come to connect and understand so much more about myself and my body and have an ever-growing understanding relationship with energetic awareness. Thank you Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

259. Thanks Bianca, for sharing how being in our body, and living from this connection supports us in so many ways.

260. Escaping into our heads is a very effective way to disconnect from others, life and our surroundings. A while ago I became aware of how much I did this. Sitting at the dinner table with my family I noticed that I was in head and not really with them or myself at all. There was my gorgeous family for me to connect to and enjoy and I was off in my thoughts. We can use our thoughts for many reasons including to escape what we do not want to feel as well as way to keep others out and ourselves in.

261. Living in protection can really hinder many things, connection, how you behave with others, how you are with yourself. If we truly want to connect with and have deep relationships with people, letting go of protection, letting love in, being open and transparent with others is the way to go.

262. Living life with an escape plan is something that holds us bound to experiencing anxiety everyday.

263. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets.” I love this line Bianca as it reminds me just how amazing it is to now feel what is going on not only around us but from our bodies too. It’s the honesty from our body and the awareness we have that allows us to read situations which expands our opportunities to learn. Thank you Bianca.

264. I remember being told not to be so silly or that I had imagined seeing or feeling things that supposedly weren’t there, to the point where I stopped seeing and feeling these things and am finding it a hard road to get it back after disconnecting so successfully.

265. If asked I am sure all if not many of us have felt a presence that did not feel great around us at night and even though it wasn’t seen it could be well and truly be felt. Currently predominantly we see life as it ‘appears’ the physical and material but there is so much more to us and why we are here. I could also feel this growing up, that there was more to life a bigger purpose a grander love and it was only when I met Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that I could truly acknowledge what I felt within by what was presented and reflected. It matched, it was the truth. We have a lot to learn about the Soul and spirit, the Universe, God, the Hierarchy ourselves our relationships and how we live including the astral plane which is where the not so nice things we feel are from. This line really stood out for me ‘I understood that I had created this disconnection by dulling my awareness’, as I feel this is still something I do in order not to feel everything what is going on around me.

266. What if the energies that visit us when we are trying to sleep or when we are sleeping have a single purpose: for us to learn how to disconnect from the body and to reach the conclusion that this is the way?

267. Great post here. I think most of us in the world are guilty of spending much of our lives in our heads and I’m no different. I do have a few exercises or times when I check in with my body – a daily walk, showering, brushing my teeth, lying in bed. And as I continue to build this into my daily rhythm I begin to notice more and more how my body is feeling. That deep connection with the body is a different type of intelligence, a sensitivity that leads me to how I’m feeling ahead of what I’m thinking.

268. Interesting how we often use our thoughts to escape what we are feeling, i.e to avoid feeling anxiety or our hurts. I never used to be aware of my thoughts, or be aware of how harmful they could be when I wasn’t connected to my body but let my thoughts run wild which often create anxiety. I notice by connecting to my body more and being more aware of my thoughts, this has reduced anxiety to being almost non-existent.

269. It is confusing as a child, to be feeling everything that is going on around you and for the people we are in this life with to be seemingly not feeling the same. Shutting down seems the sensible option. I know I used to feel like I was going mad, reading what was going on and having it denied by all around me. But now everything has changed. There is so much joy and love in knowing what you feel is true and surrendering to feeling it and trusting that what we need will always be there.

270. It is a shame that our feelings are often ignored or fobbed off as irrelevant because as I have experienced they make far more sense than any justification my mind can ever come up with. We get taught from young and learn to override and to actively avoid our feelings much to our detriment and the ensuing misery that comes from such avoidance. But when we start opening up to feeling the various aspects of life, situations, perceptions and other people everything starts making sense and fitting together. I too have experienced that relief that comes from drifting off into the mind but it’s like blinding myself to whats going on and then comes the inevitable panic when I bash into something in the dark (or wind up in a situation with no idea as to how I got there). Feelings provide us with a before, during and after awareness of life whereas the mind has no idea as it is not with us in life at that moment.

271. It sounds absolutely silly that we resist the presence with our body, with ourselves and with God when it is all of what we ultimately want in every moment. Perhaps we are hesitant with embracing it because we do not know how it will be received by others. Or whether it will be attacked. Nothing can hurt it though and it is in fact our responsibility to embrace it.

     1. This is interesting Joshua, the more we seek to protect ourselves from being attacked the more tension we can feel in our body. So surrendering to what we can feel in our body and trust what we feel and also taking responsibility for our choices really means we are naturally already protected, because any attack we may receive from others will not be easily absorbed but we can simple observe everything in life with understanding and clarity.

272. ‘I also felt open to accepting all that was going on around me, no judgment, simply acceptance with a knowing that with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way.’ When we are connected there is this natural confidence which is lacking when we dull ourselves down. When we go in our escape mode, our head, we are at the mercy of what is going on around us, as we are not clocking what is truly going on.

273. I learnt how to numb myself and check out and I have had to relearn to my body and allowing myself to be honest about how and what I feel.

274. What you share here Bianca, is so important to our way of relating to others in this world and really connecting to the essence of another person.

275. Without our bodies and our awareness of how they feel we are lost and I know this well having devised a similar strategy in running a whole other life in my head, I’ve even talked to myself, and yet the more I come back and feel my body the more I can engage with life. It’s still a journey for me to learn to accept all that I feel and allow it to be there, without wanting to escape into my head but it’s one that is giving me an ever growing appreciation of the wisdom of my body.

276. Thank you for sharing your experience, I too have felt how hard it is to let go of my own protection, something I have developed into an almost natural way of being, although I am very aware now how unnatural it is to be living in protection, as I learn to let go more and more it feels very freeing and less exhausting.

277. ‘I understood that I had created this disconnection by dulling my awareness and I enjoyed the relief it provided, but what I didn’t account for was the misery it also brought to my life.’
     This is true Bianca, such disconnection leaves an unsettling anxiety and tension that rules one’s life.

278. The escape plan into our heads to not feel what’s going on in our body isn’t really an escape, it’s a temporary numbing to not feel what is going on and escaping into our thoughts or daydreaming is a way to disconnect from our body. It doesn’t change anything though, because our body still experienced everything, it just lessens our awareness of what is going on temporarily.

279. By connecting to our body and allowing ourselves to feel what is going on for us is key, not to avoid feeling what is coming up, i,e anxiety, awkwardness, sadness etc. allowing our selves to feel, then nominate what and why a certain emotion is coming up, I find is supportive in healing. This can happen at any time when I interact with people and I have found with an openness there is always an opportunity for me to learn. Often I have been avoiding this, but I am now realising instead of covering up what I am feeling, it is more evolutionary to allow myself to feel it, study it, observe it and then act in accordance to the impulse of love and truth, which is the rhythm of the universe.

280. The ability we have to feel, observe and read what’s going on around us shouldn’t be taken for granted. It not only allows us to UNDERSTAND the way life works and why people make the choices they do but it also means we can learn lessons based on our observations and utilise life as the teacher it’s designed to be.

281. Some great points and observations presented here, and whilst reading this it occurred to me that when we spend so much time away (in our heads) from our bodies it is easy to see the body as the enemy when it breaks down and becomes sick, after all it needs our attention and that takes us away from our addictive activity of being in our heads.

282. You may have been feeling entities in the room as a child, this is very common and something the majority of the world acknowledges as shared in this blog: http://universalmedicinefacts.com/entities-spirits-and-ghosts-serge-benhayon-offers-a-core-religious-understanding/.

     Strange how we always want to check out to not feel these imposing energies, whereas in fact the only way to handle them is to check in. When we are with ourselves they can’t touch us and get exposed for the powerless and cowardly bullies they are.

283. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets” Bianca I am finding this out too and the more I do it the more I will want to overeat to numb myself actually feeling what there is to be felt is very powerful it is when we react and shut our own knowing out is when we start to make problems. The ability to truly feel what is going on is worth more then any qualification.

284. Thank you Bianca. When we open to what we feel the awareness can be overwhelming if we are not equally able to observe what we feel rather than absorb it.

285. Its strange – I’ve always loved the dark. With the reduced stimulus of being able to see I find it asks me to feel more, and when I do that there is a stillness and space which I find quite magical.

286. It’s so true Bianca. We feel so much more than what we see, and this is the underlying energetic outplay that is the very basis and substance of our everyday life.

287. This is one of the greatest understandings and profoundly powerful, that it is through our body that we can truly understand life around us, and within us. And learning to be honest, that is, being present and choosing to feel and be aware of what the body is signalling to us, is the first step towards unravelling and clearing the veil or fog that surrounds us, leaving us ever clearer to see what is true, and all that obscures that truth.

288. Escaping from life and checking out are our means of comfort as they keep us in the illusion that life is good and there is no need to be responsible for what actually is being presented in our lives. This is short lived as resisting the pull the evolution is saying yes to disharmony and eventually disease in our bodies.

289. Beautifully expressed by allowing ourselves to feel and be aware of the fact that everything is energy our connection with our essence bring us such insight and true understanding to life from the deep wisdom we all have access to.

290. Bianca, thank you sharing so often we feel energy around, especially when we were children at night and our 1st instance is to react to it and get scared but the key is staying with ourselves and knowing that the love we are is the best form of protection we could ever want.

     1. I agree, James. And Bianca, your writing has made me reflect on how I felt as a child and the comfort of daydreaming. I could escape on little adventures rather than feeling what was around me.

291. A timely read, I did the same as a child. I was in reaction to how my family life was so in my mind created a different family. I used to draw designs of our house and I had lots of siblings to play with and this picture of a big, happy and supportive family. I would escape to this all the time, later I replaced this mainly with drinking and food. I can still feel I have a tendency to escape in thoughts or getting busy when I react to and don’t like feeling what is happening around me.

292. ‘My mind was not racy, it was clear and focused on how my movements flowed and the centeredness I felt.” this is the most beautiful, natural, very normal and joyful way we can all live with great ease and simplicity.

293. I have found the same Bianca – “While on one level, this escaping seemed comforting, there was also a constant feeling of raciness and a huge anxiety that I couldn’t ignore.” Escaping doesn’t solve anything, only compounds our woes and our inability to deal with them, hence the rising anxiousness and stress. Far better to learn simple techniques that allow us to hold steady whilst we stay present with whatever is being offered to us.

294. I can relate to what you’ve shared Bianca about your body doing one thing and your mind consistently running off on tangents and allowing in thoughts about this, that and the other – anything BUT the activity our bodies are actually doing e.g. walking, having a conversation, working etc. You’ve used a great word to describe this – ‘dulling’ – and it absolutely does dull the awareness we have of what’s happening around us and what our body is feeling as we’re so far from being connected to it.

295. Thank goodness we have our bodies to register the deep settlement you describe Bianca.

     1. I agree Luke, well said.

296. Well said Bianca – to further build on who we are and to commit to life. It is incredible what joy comes with this and misery dissappears.

297. It is always our choice, to live in a way that numbs our awareness or to connect and stay being aware, and even develop this further, ‘ We can come back from this choice though, by connecting to our body and allowing ourselves once again to be honest about how and what we feel.’ To me now this is the only way.

298. It’s a wonderfull feeling when we are re-connected to our bodies. There is a fullness that can be felt in the body, with lots of warmth, strength and an internal solidness. When we stay connected we see life differently and as you’ve described we can observe and understand more of what is happening around us. There is a real and true confidence that comes from being connected to our bodies.

299. Gosh we love to indulge in our so called issues or woes, when life is really simple, it’s about getting ourselves out the way and being in true service. Even saying I don’t want to feel, it hurts to much etc, is a complete lack of responsibility and all about self – it’s not about people at all. I know for I do it. It is actually our responsibility to feel everything, no excuses.

300. “I had created this disconnection by dulling my awareness and I enjoyed the relief it provided, but what I didn’t account for was the misery it also brought to my life”.This is pure indulgence and lack of responsibility – in no way do I mean that to you, I can say that because I do it – .It’s all driven by our spirits love and enjoyment for self, creation and identification which we allow and choose. If we didn’t have all this so called drama, issues, complications, woes, and even so called great, successful and extreme times – then we would feel truth, the absolute equality we have with everybody, and are held in with the all, the fact we have a purpose for being on this planet – and it’s not about indulging in life – but being in true divine service.

301. Bianca, thank you for your blog. Your early childhood events clearly shows to me how I was as a child, feeling the energies around me and not knowing what it was all about. I learned as a child when going to sleep to become very still and then nothing could have an effect on me and then I would go off to sleep. What I did not take into account was my level of sensitivity that was there within me, something that I have now acknowledged in my old age. Again this is an opportunity for me to feel the depth within me and allow myself to gracefully accept exactly who I was and now am.

302. You bring back memories of me checking in my wardrobe, under the bed etcetera, even if i popped to the toilet for a second I would re check. I felt i was also always on alert watching and waiting for the next imposing feeling to be there, quite an exhausting way of being. I can’t remember how I started to escape from all this back then, but I do know as an adult that I used my head to escape and numb myself from feeling, and
     ” that I had created this disconnection by dulling my awareness and I enjoyed the relief it provided, but what I didn’t account for was the misery it also brought to my life.’

303. Being distracted by thoughts of how it could have been, or how it could be, or even what I am going to do tomorrow etc and not remaining focused on my movements in the present I realise is another way of checking out and actually makes life complicated and living in reaction to life instead of living life. When we have been doing this for so long it requires a strong commitment to change those behaviours and surrender to remaining in the present with all we are doing all of the time, but little by little I am re-learning to be this way and it is a much simpler, more responsible and self-loving way of being.

304. If by the time we are adults we have lost the ability to honour our sensitivity and are in a habit of denying our awareness, it is not surprising that we would not be able to support our young with deepening their understanding of what they are feeling and finding their own way of responding so that they neither lose themselves nor shut down. If we could we would support them to remain open, aware and empowered. It is wonderful that the teachings of Serge Benhayon have been inspiring many adults to let go of those old protections and return to living with openness and sensitivity.

305. “The anxiousness felt so big and unbearable that I began to disconnect from my body and escape into my head.” I can apply this to so many areas of my life. It has been a long, slow journey back into my body and out of my head. However, every step has been worth it. As there is so much more of me to feel now, coming back to life. Being reborn.

306. Life can become a concophony by overriding feelings and our own knowing with the instrument of our mind if we allow it. We can talk ourselves into and out of anything tuning our mind so, but reliance on our mind does not guarantee true harmony – often leaving us playing solo, removed from our body that is actually living our choices and ‘facing the music.’

307. The mind can always twist things to alter our perception of reality. The body, meanwhile, has a way of ensuring that we stop and at least take note.

308. Thank you Bianca I love this blog and the many gems contained within, this one stood out for me today ‘I have strengthened my commitment to let go of my escape plan and continue to build this relationship with my body that supports me to feel the enormous wisdom that we all hold within.’ Having lived with an escape plan into my mind for many years I can totally relate and can feel the absolute difference when I choose to stay connected to my body – a simple choice but a powerful one that leads us to greater understanding and truth.

309. I am so much more aware now of the impact of my preconceptions and judgements. Expectations cause much harm, as it doesn’t allow things to just be what they are.

310. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets…” – and we just have to be willing to see and feel everything, and not put pictures up of how we want things to be as that’s when I go into my head and disconnect from what I’m feeling because I have an image of how things ‘should’ be rather than allowing them to be what they are.

311. The more we appreciate and confirm ourselves for the level of sensitivity in our bodies and how much we feel all the time the more we realise we can read absolutely everything and therefore observe and bring more understanding to whatever presents in life.

312. So there is far more to the Universe than just us here on planet Earth! What if the energy you felt in your room as a child was purposefully trying to stop you feeling this ‘I felt so solid and grounded; there was an unwavering confidence that my body just knew how to move and what to do next.’ So instead of being this and living from your body the fear made you instead ‘escape’ into the mind which played out over most of your life, living in constant anxiousness. Exactly the same thing happened to me, as a child I was aware of energy in my room that made me feel scared and uneasy. The consequence …. I started to escape to my mind so as not to feel my body and what I was sensing around me. Because we don’t talk about what we can feel but not see, we don’t foster our clairsentiance to evolve, everything stays capped, measured and ‘unknown’ but actually we DO know it is just not spoken of! I feel this is massive what you have shared here. Knowing Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine has seriously been the best thing ever for me. Here is a man that is not only not afraid to talk of all the unseen but speaks with Absolute knowing and clarity and in doing so lifts the veil of illusion so no longer energy, including what is felt that makes us uneasy is unknown.

313. We use our thoughts as a means of protecting ourselves, and often conjure up an image that we try to replicate to meet our thoughts and that image is not based on reality.

314. The body is from where we will express everything that we ever will in this lifetime. As much as we celebrate the mind and all that it can think up, it is nothing without the body to make dreams manifest. In fact, a mind with no body is completely powerless. Therefore, does it not make sense to develop the connection to our body first and foremost? Letting our body lead the way will only strengthen our sense of who we truly are in this world.

315. I lived in a very similar way and can relate to escaping into my head to avoid the uncomfortable feelings and one of my things was to read at night time as a child to quell the anxiousness and to get myself to sleep. Now I’m gently unravelling this propensity to go into my head and to instead stay with my body and trust what it is telling me.

316. For how many generations, indeed eons has the fear of the dark being lurking in our consciousness… I know for me it was always there… Even when it was my job to go into very dark places where there were actually ‘baddies’ lurking… I was always fighting the fear inside. Imagine, just imagine being free of this, and this is one of the many great gifts that working with Universal Medicine has given to me. You see now I know myself so well, and so deeply, that nothing in the dark holds fear for me any more… In fact it is quite the opposite… The dark feels warm and beautiful… And I reflect upon this change often.

317. For me the old way is one where things have to make sense to other people, that I fit into their expectations rather than simply expressing my feelings. Its funny but I have always admired eccentricity (to a point) not necessarily because it is always right or clever or sometime particularly loving… but it is an expression of how they feel inside which is unfettered by another’s opinion.

318. ‘with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way.’ This is the truth and great confirmation to come back to. So often we can escape into different scenarios in our head – what if this, what if that and play out pictures and games. But it’s really really simple, it’s about trusting, surrendering to being you, living and knowing there is nothing greater than you, and that we are all held by God in one huge great ball of love, and allowing life to unfold from there. We don’t need to chase it.

319. ‘accepting all that was going on around me’ this is a massive key point, acceptance. Accepting how powerful, grand, sweet and delicate we are but also accepting what we feel and see around us all the time, be it at home, family or work. If I am honest I find this difficult to do at times, as I don’t want to feel where or what people are choosing because it hurts. It hurts to see family, friends and so called strangers in the street choosing to abuse themselves and others they deeply care about. I harden or go into my head to not feel this, though this is a lack of responsibility on my part. When I stay open and fragile, and don’t need them to be a certain way, I actually love the person deeply and feel them for who they really are, in all their sweetness, tenderness, rawness and strength. It is also much easier to feel where the hurt or behaviours is coiming from and not see it as them. My responsibility in all of this is to not choose abuse and allow people to make their own choices and not impose or need them to be another way.

320. “I was forever on alert,” this is an exhausting way to live, I have reaIised I live this way, in pretty much constant flight or fight mode, running on nervous energy. Just over the past few days when connecting to two people very dear, one by simply seeing a picture of her and another speaking with her on the phone, both through just being themselves allowed me to feel safe, I felt a complete letting go and surrendering into my body and a knowing everything is and is going to be okay. My body actually physically let out a big sigh, and all the tension went, it was like I hold my breath all day. It also confirms the power and support we bring to other people in how we live, without or needing to do anything, just by being ourselves, very simple really.

321. ‘I often used this escape plan of leaving my body and going into the head to deal with feelings that I didn’t want to accept were there.’ I can very much relate to this, it’s something I still use, often these feelings are ones of hurt or sadness, in saying that I no longer use food as a distraction to cover them up, which is great, as although my body may feel hard, tense or tight at times, I know underneath it all is a beautiful, delicate exquisiteness, a raw fragility, honesty and tenderness and is something I can come back to, like the way you would hold or treat a new born baby.

322. This brings a great understanding to anxiousness and how it effects us and the vicious circle of events and mayhem in our body and lives it causes. With the steadiness of connection to ourselves built up from our choices to build a foundation of love in our bodies this really does make a difference and offers the only true option to support this very devastating illness and ever increasing suffering of it in the world and to eliminate it in our lives. Thank you Bianca.

323. ‘Choosing to live in this dulled down way felt like a part of me was achingly missing – no wonder I was always anxious!’ – this is something that is SO pertinent and prevalent today. I know that I do this with food, it’s my no 1 response when I don’t want to look at what’s really going on, I eat food that dulls my awareness. It’s comfort eating and it doesn’t make anything better, rather, the problem is still there and I end up feeling even worse as I’ve chosen to dull my body rather than offer true support to myself. It’s no wonder that the rates of depression and anxiety are shooting up at an alarming rate.

324. Thank you Bianca. I really appreciate your sharing “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets.”

325. Having observed my own children and other children, and also remembering how I was as a child, I am convinced that as kids we are all incredibly sensitive and aware of energy and what is happening around us energetically. It is so important to support children to be able to express this, otherwise they begin to believe they are not feeling what they are feeling and start to shut down their awareness which most adults have done. This is crazy because the energy is still there and it still influences us in the same way, but if we shut down our awareness we cannot really feel and discern what is going on and constantly therefore struggle to make sense of only physical life leading to many of the problems and issues we face today in the world.

326. Interesting to observe that this morning I woke up in a loving connection with my body and not in the anxiousness I usually wake up with. The anxiousness that is usually there immediately the moment I wake up, grabbing me with what day of the week it is and what I all have to do and in that I disconnect completely from my body. I sense that the way I woke up this morning is the way to be and asks me to surrender to the experience and wisdom of my body and with that to acknowledge that I live in and world of energy where everything can be felt and known from this steadiness and connection with love that resides in my body.

327. Sometimes I feel like I am looking to the west for the sunrise convinced that it must be this way when a simple 180 degree turn will reveal all the light that is ever needed – all the ‘anything’ that is ever needed! Your blog reminded me of this Bianca.

328. Yes my ‘escape plan,’ has been very well used over the years too. I spent many years continually being in my head and thinking two paces ahead of myself. My awareness around my body has changed and that has been one of the major changes in my life today and how I can now feel the connection between the clarity and steadiness offered from simply re-connecting to my body and how I feel in any moment. I don’t live with so much anxiousness or raciness and it is a forever deepening relationship that I thoroughly love having and experimenting with.

329. Thank you for this sharing Bianca. Protection comes in so many forms, both subtle and obvious that unless (like you) we confront it, most of us accept it as just part of life and never ever question it. We may complain and ‘suffer’ the consequences of feeling tense, worried, anxious or fearful for example but we don’t take it deeper to understand that we are in fact abusing ourselves. It is akin to beating ourselves up on an energetic level. I appreciate how you have shared the way in which you connected with the truth that our bodies are naturally made to surrender to the love that is within which is totally holding. Our acceptance of this truth is the only way to melt the freeze like paralysis of protection.

330. The knowing that you speak of comes from a place of love for ourselves and everyone else. When we experience fear we have immediately left love behind. Reconnecting to ourselves and the love that we are banishes the fear.

     1. That is really interesting elainearthey that fear can only exist after we have disconnected from our own inner essence of love.

331. Checking out is the easiest way of managing life, we can totally disconnect from the unsavoury part of life and find refuge in mental fantasies that will eventually take its toll on the body, it is only through feeling what is there to be felt that we can let go of the need of protection and being one step ahead in life and surrender our bodies to the wisdom within and to movements that reflect this connection.

332. In my past I did escape a lot by daydreaming. I read big books and looked a lot of TV and used my imagination to create a life I would enjoy in my head. This did lead me to no real lovely life but the opposite. I felt anxious, depressed and lonely. Through the teachings and workshops with Universal Medicine I understand now that ‘taking responsibility’ is not something to escape from but to embrace. The love I wish to have in my life is on me to live and to bring. This is empowering and I feel how much more I become a true member of community and a person you can count on. I can count on me as well, what leads me to less insecurity and less anxiety. Life is not just better now – it makes sense.

333. Just because we don’t understand something (like a cold dark presence around you when you go to sleep) it does not mean it is not real. If we start to consider that energy exists then it can make more sense of these feelings, of the world. We can start to truly honour ourselves as sentient beings and allow those feelings inside to show us what is really going on.

334. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets” this is so true Bianca and exposes how crazy it is that from an earlier age we are encouraged to hide and numb of feelings. For sure this denial of what we are feeling and consequent dulling of awareness is a massive contributor to the rise in dementia.

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337. We learn to shut down at such an early age, as I am rediscovering how to live in a way that keeps that connection open to all the grace and the energy that opposes it to feel life in full.

338. I can so relate to your escape plan Bianca and the fleeting, but miserable relief this brings. Surrendering to the wisdom of my body is a complete letting go and something I continue to explore.

339. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets”. Thank you for your reflection, understanding and the depth of appreciation you have for this truth. Any blocking of awareness is so hard on the body offering a perceived protection but only delivering physical symptoms to distract while the truth still exists.

340. That does sound absolutely gorgeous Bianca.

341. It’s great to hear exactly how you began the process of reconnecting to your body. I am interested in how the universal medicine therapies helped you feel like you wanted to reconnect to your body again. I can relate to that, through universal medicine therapies my body has again become a place I want to be., after decades of letting it not be felt.

342. It’s so true that dulling your awareness does bring incredible misery to life. The majesty of feeling our body is not to be discounted. Being aware is everything, yet we reduce it to nothing becasue we are not taught to value what we feel.

343. I love how you have explained your development so clearly, amd how you are no longer afraid to feel. This is Gold.

344. This is such an incredible realisation Bianca . . . I understood that I had created this disconnection by dulling my awareness and I enjoyed the relief it provided, but what I didn’t account for was the misery it also brought to my life. Thank you.

345. That feeling of settlement in the body that you describe from not having any judgments or opinions, images or concepts feels wonderful and like the only way to live, really. Why exhaust ourselves living in opposition to that?

346. I found that although initially letting go of protecting myself was difficult, the more I got to feel and to know what was going on around me I no longer required the old way of protecting myself, because my body is able to alert me if required and I am more open with everyone.

347. Bianca thank you for sharing your experience with us, I too tried escaping into my head like hundreds of thousands of other people do, what I found was that eventually it created more problems and as a result I learnt to trust my body instead.

348. Over the last couple of months this escape plan of going off into thoughts has been more in my focus. Especially this morning as I woke up feeling overwhelmingly tense and tight in my body – to not be aware of what we are aware of we tense up our sensory device – our bodies. But even then we can’t stop feeling so theres the escape route into the mind. I am finding that the more I stay with my body, release the tension and tightly held areas I can handle anything I feel and the mind escapes are not required. Our feelings being ‘too big’ for us to cope with is a lie, it’s just as children this ability is not fostered.

349. So many key points Bianca and it is so easy to check out from what we are feeling. We have come to believe if we shut it out then we don’t have to deal with it. In this we naturally harden and our bodies are just machines that operate in auto pilot mode. To claim that yes we are super sensitive and that this is ok to be and actually, as you say, it is worth gold because you are fully aware of what is going on. In this awareness you have the connection of clarity to the Divine source. What a beautiful choice.

350. I still avoid feeling all I am and have developed masterful strategies to do this. What is breaking through right now is my willingness to be honest with myself. This opens up a dialogue with my body that is not complicated by the deceit of wanting to have things look/be a certain way.

351. Thank you for sharing this Bianca. There is so much more going on than what the eye can see, and we can all feel it all, we just choose to shut down this feeling. I was very sensitive as a child too and did not know how to deal with everything I could feel, particularly at night and in my dreams. I now know that the protective ways I built up do not truly help and only serve to numb me to what was going on so that I didn’t feel it as much, however, it was still going on. These days I want to feel everything and address any issues, rather than just not feel it.

352. I find fascinating just how simple life really can be when we live in connection to our bodies, honouring our truth and not discounting our feelings. It is exhausting, dulling and joy-less to live any other way.

353. When we numb to one thing, we numb to much more. It is impossible to turn off the tap on part of your life without either turning it off in other aspects or drip feeding it in others. Everything is connected. It is a timely reminder, thank you Bianca.

354. It is amazing how as kids we lose the connection with our bodies and revert to our heads to work things out and continue in life not really feeling and observing situations which is our natural way but reacting to everything around us. In reaction life becomes exhausting and miserable. What I have found supportive in reconnecting back to the body is the Gentle Breath Meditation which teaches you to breath your own gentle breath a natural quality within us all and in doing this supports the reconnection back to the amazing body.

355. It is well and fine to protect ourselves from the harsh realities of life, but what we don’t realise in doing so is that we are equally shutting ourselves down to the ability to let in love.

356. It’s interesting how we fight sensitivity in our bodies – and as soon as we acknowledge that we feel everything, we go into our heads to avoid this – and there lies the start of disregard to the body – focusing everything on the mind that brings us a numb comfort, rather than living from both the mind and body in the awareness of what we naturally feel. The fact is we cannot escape what we feel, and therefore by accepting our sensitivity we allow our bodies and minds to be – and honour what we feel rather than numb it.

357. You have exposed for me Bianca, that I can still use the escape plan in my life but at least I’m now much more aware of it, thanks to re-reading your blog. Your description fits perfectly exactly what I do to attempt to cope, and now I can observe my feelings more and know when I feel an anxiousness, I’ve escaped and can choose to return back to my connection. Holding and feeling the energy of what is happening in our every day is key to connecting back to our awareness with a knowing that is all we need.

358. I too find that when I am out of my body I don’t feel like I can handle what is coming at me. Being in my body by feeling it, is absolutely crucial to feeling at ease within myself.

359. I never did want to feel how sensitive I was. Sensitivity was always used in a negative way in my childhood as in weak and pathetic. This judgement I have taken on and tried in every way to prove I was not sensitive at all and developed a controlled way of living full of tension. Since I discovered it is the other way around in being sensitive is very powerful I am learning to surrender and deepen my awareness and my connection with my body.

360. ‘The harmony I felt was amazing and yet so natural and it felt like every cell in my body was working as one. My mind was not racy, it was clear and focused on how my movements flowed and the centeredness I felt.’ What an amazing marker to have Bianca as you have known the anxious version of yourself so well. Nowadays I feel how I restrict my body when I go into anxiousness and that there is no harmony within myself and the outer, the focus is on my small world and not about the all where I am a part of just like everybody else, that’s the harmony you are talking about, being as one.

361. .
     “With the support of Universal Medicine’s Healing modalities I have been re-connecting with my body, re-building my awareness and escaping less and less into my mind. I have also reconnected to the truth that all is energy” This is so confirming of who we are and with this presence there comes a solidness and grounding and confidence and a knowing in the body of what to do next. The true way to live is through the way of the livingness and this simply confirms this beautifully.

362. ‘I have strengthened my commitment to let go of my escape plan’ This is huge. I have often run away from situations I don’t want to face and deal with. I don’t want to feel the conflict that is there but if I know it to be there why can’t I just nominate it? Because I fear reprisal. Everything has to be exposed to be cleared. Transparency allows that protective holding to loosen it’s grip and opens the doors to a deeper love. just plainly speaking the truth, or at least being honest , and more honest than we may have been before. Making sure we are really connected to our body before we share anything that we are apprehensive about is key, staying steady allows the other to stay steady also and the conversation can take place on an even keel.

363. Some do fight physically to protect themselves, some simply choose absenteeism which is no less harming to the body, to our own body and equally so to the one we interact with.

364. I remember feeling scared as a small child about things in the room very vividly; wouldn’t it be amazing if parents and caregivers could support us in the confirmation of what we are feeling and the next generations won’t have to go into the denial of it.

365. I love your writing Bianca as it shows a clear way forward from your lived experiences and when I read them I feel like it gives me greater clarity of my situations.

366. I too have learnt that escaping into one’s mind does not prevent our body from living the effect of our choices. There is no true ‘escape’ at all – the illusion that we are leaving something behind when all the while our body is bearing the brunt of life and every ill we choose to live is awaiting us to take responsibility and to deal with it’s effects. The answers lie in the body when we heed the ceaseless wisdom on offer.

367. II can feel how I have been out-of step with myself the past week or so and realised it’s because I’m ‘thinking’ of what needs to be done days in advance with out actually knowing what these are. Therefore I’m not truly present in my body while living each moment. So to some extent I’m living in the shadows of uncertainty which is missing the wisdom that the divine intelligence my body has to offer.

368. One of our greatest strengths is to be in touch with our sensitivity.

369. This is very well described in the process of letting go “…There was such a home-like quality in this level of surrender to my body…” In surrendering, there is a vivid feeling of being supported.

370. “Choosing to live in this dulled down way felt like a part of me was achingly missing – no wonder I was always anxious!” There was a period when I was choosing to live like this and was not a nice place to be,my body for always feeling heaving,tired and anxious.

371. It’s quite incredible what we put our bodies through to avoid feeling what is going on around us. Yet when we do feel what is going on around us we know that what we use to avoid feeling all that is much more harmful for our bodies than simply feeling what’s going on.

372. I remember as a kid having unwanted energies in the room and it was like a nightmare that would not leave me alone. I felt scared but I never really shared that with my parents as far as I can remember. I thought that they would never have understood what I was feeling or experiencing. Daydreaming was and still is today a common practice for me not to feel what I don’t want to feel, and sometimes food or cravings for food come along the way.

373. Yesterday I could feel I was disturbed and anxious and was not sure why, then it came to me really clearly I was fighting my own awareness I did not want to feel what I was feeling, once I clocked this I gave myself permission to feel and even though I still did not like what I felt the anxiety drop as I let go a heavy layer of protection.

374. I am discovering how our own natural quality of awareness and reading situations, can play a major part in how we live in and with the world in so many amazing ways. We really do hold the key to everything within us always. Thank you Bianca.

375. Bianca your sharing in this blog is deeply wise and beautiful, and it comes from your lived experience not some concept in your head. Thank you, i love it and i am deeply inspired.

376. This is profound Bianca: ‘I also felt open to accepting all that was going on around me, no judgment, simply acceptance with a knowing that with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way’.
     Being in acceptance of all going on around us, is allowing life to be and not reacting to it…then we are not snagged…but walk in our connection, fearless of feeling life in all that is happening…

377. This so needs to be talked about – energy. Because if we don’t and it is something still kept behind closed doors, then we can only find escape routes from what we feel as we are not equipped to deal with it as we’ve never been taught. It is not some mystery, it is something we all feel everyday but have learnt not to, so we say it’s not true, or it is a spiritual concept, unscientific etc etc…but for example if we walk into a room and someone is angry, we feel a discordance in the room.

378. ‘I often used this escape plan of leaving my body and going into the head to deal with feelings that I didn’t want to accept were there’. Wow! What an insight I get from my deeper understanding that this statement brings to the way I would check out at night. After 12 years of being a student of The Livingness this is such a great revelation that I can now bring to my own healing.

379. Bianca, I deeply appreciate what you’ve shared here about remaining present with our own bodies, and how this offers us the deepest true security there is. Our body has the ability to feel all that goes on around us, and this feeling-sense is to be treasured and cultivated – we are far stronger when all is acknowledged and we live with a strong connection in our physical form.
     As a wise practitioner said to me once, “never for one moment stop feeling – everything”. At the time I was picking up on some very discordant goings on, yet I realised I was far more empowered by feeling and acknowledging all that I acutely sensed, rather than numbing myself from this and pretending it wasn’t there.

380. There is a plethora of accounts throughout our human history of the reality of discarnate beings who can come into our spaces – nothing new here, yet such occurrences largely seem to remain ‘hushed’, dismissed and pushed under the carpet. What if we truly gave voice to what goes on?
     When I was young, I also readily felt if anything ‘untoward’ entered my room when I was in bed. Feeling such a ‘presence’ was as real as if someone had walked in in physicality… Something in me just knew ‘what to do’, and I’d send the being ‘out’ – unequivocally – through the ceiling and out past the moon (that’s just what I did as a child), letting them know they had no place there whatsoever. I never spoke of it to my family. Upon reflection, there was simply no framework to have such a discussion within.

381. Thank-you, as always Bianca, for the depth of wisdom you share so simply and with such practical common sense. There is so much going on around us at all times – both seen and ‘unseen’ – yet the ‘unseen’ can most certainly be felt. How important it is to not discount what we do feel here, and give voice to what we feel and permission for our children to also express openly.

382. In bringing the awareness we have as children in to adult life, we are paving the way for generations to come. In reality there does not need to be a single adult who is unaware of the energetic facts of life, however this is indeed the case. Saying that, we can at anytime begin again, by re-raising ourselves in to adulthood fully aware of who we are and what choices we are making. So even though not being fully aware is the normal for most of us today, I feel that it is not our forever future and things will eventually start to shift as we, a collective humanity, begin to choose to go deeper with ourselves and our understandings and as such begin to question more the underlying factors that are making life what it is today. The beautiful thing is, that this is available now for everyone – the opportunity to explore the energetic truths of life.

383. To be able to go to sleep completely surrendered means I have to pay attention to detail in my day and “clean up” as I go along at not let it snowball into anxiety as I am lying in bed. This is a daily commitment.

384. I was also hypersensitive to energy as a child and found the only relief in ‘happy’ imaginings. The result was just as you describe: living in constant raciness, high alert, disconnection from my body, anxiousness and protection. Do the professionals who treat or support those with anxiety understand this link? I only began to heal when I came to the work of Universal Medicine and started to reconnect my body, mind and soul.

385. When we escape into our mind we leave our body at the mercy of our thoughts, when we are connected to our body it can lead us to greater wisdom.

386. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets,” The paradox is that many –myself included, develop a way of living from young to over-ride what we are feeling. What you share deeply resonates with me and is a wonderful sharing for re-imprinting and fully claiming our greatest asset.

387. Letting myself feel everything that is going on around me means there are no longer shady corners for fears and worries to hide in; shining a light on things also makes me realise they are never as scary as I was letting them be.

388. Most of us think what we see in front of us is the only reality, and yet we use mobile phones and wireless internet, which clearly shows us there is more to life than what we see.

389. A beautiful blog – almost one I could have written myself, and a great reminder to come back to the solidness within me that can handle all of life.

390. “From this time on, I often used this escape plan of leaving my body and going into the head to deal with feelings that I didn’t want to accept were there”… I have used this escape too, and sometimes still do when I feel overwhelmed which leads to anxiousness. But what you so beautifully express Bianca is how simple it is to make the choice to let go of the old ways and acknowledge that we DO feel everything, with every cell of our bodies and not dismiss it which keeps us in our heads.

391. It is ironic how we think that by making ourselves comfortable our problems will go away but actually we are just hiding from them and accepting a lower level of clarity. If we allow ourselves to stay in the discomfort and feel more deeply, bringing a deeper level of care to ourselves there is a possibility of greater clarity and an invitation for things to work out.

392. One aspect and purpose of the Universal Medicine healing modalities is to allow us the experience of being present in and with our body, to be really fully there in our body, alive, vibrant, sensitive, aware, something most of us only can remember from being children. That is how we actually want to feel and live but it means to clear the stuff we have taken on and hold on to but is not of our original making – that is healing.

393. I remember similar experiences as yours in my childhood, the constant sense of and also seeing beings in the shadows, the tension, the imposition. We were kept in check, I would say today as strange as it might sound. To shrug off the very common experience of most if not all children of seeing and sensing etheric entities as dreams, fantasies etc is a heritage of ignorance and exactly the sought result by the energetic impostors, ie. to shut down our energetic awareness.

394. We need to be equipped to deal with life, the physical reality and the energetic dimensions equally. Both need to be part of our upbringing and education system, otherwise we are lost and overwhelmed and only coping with life as best as we can.

395. Somehow it is like finding a way back into life from all the strategies of escapism we have chosen to avoid facing and dealing with the falseness and tension we encounter in life, may it be day dreaming, the whole range of entertainment modern life offers, reading books, studies etc etc. The way back into life is by reconnecting back with one´s body, the body being the one that never escapes life but always feels and reflects everything we experience.

396. What you have expressed in this blog Bianca is beautiful, a wonderful reflection for us all to learn from and be inspired by. From anxiousness and protection to harmony and centredness is a divine transformation;
     “The harmony I felt was amazing and yet so natural and it felt like every cell in my body was working as one. My mind was not racy, it was clear and focused on how my movements flowed and the centeredness I felt”.

397. I completely agree Bianca – feeling and observing what goes on around us is such a key skill to develop, as it allows us to make decisions based on what we feel to be true rather than on ideals/beliefs formed around how we ‘should’ be.

398. The wisdom of our body should be a subject in every school, supporting kids to grow up being connected with their body and feelings and appreciating the wisdom we all innately have access to via that connection and awareness.

399. You provide a great explanation of that which we know but can’t necessarily see: ‘all is energy and … there has always been an unseen energetic outplay rippling underneath the physicality of life that we all have experienced but rarely speak of’.

400. It can often feel like it will be too much to feel if we don’t protect or dull – that somehow it will be overwhelming to feel everything – and yet it is the one thing that will prevent the overwhelm, for once you feel it you can see and deal with the feeling, where as while we dull we still feel, but don’t know how to deal with what we feel.

401. We do often find it hard to accept what we are feeling in our bodies, and engage in so much to keep ourselves from feeling . I have come to realise that this is a huge trick and that in fact it is far scarier to ignore what is going on. The world does not come to an end , nor does the sky come crashing down on my head – when I allow myself to truly feel as much as I can, a world of grace, acceptance and expansion opens up before me.

402. From reading this blog I am reminded of how I felt as a child when I went to bed – feeling something in my room which neither myself nor anyone else could see. This caused me to feel anxious at night in bed and often difficulty with sleeping. Eventually I dulled my awareness, or as other saw it,I ‘grew out of it’ and it was no longer as issue. It would make such a huge difference if children were supported by their parents to have confidence in what they were feeling.

403. Do we keep building our knowing of life or do we actually stop numbing our knowing of life?

404. The feeling of the flow with harmony in the body, Bianca is what we have been missing, and when we return to it, we know it immediately and can feel the true wisdom we hold within. It’s beautiful to rediscover.

405. I agree that surrender is a coming home – allowing ourselves to just be and to not get in the way of the Godliness we are.

406. Being hypersensitivity as a child, I protected myself by completely disconnecting with my body. This resulted in me feeling hyper anxious about the world, as I could feel energy around me all the time, and didn’t feel safe. I didn’t trust life or people so I walked around being very closed and protected. Thanks to the help of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I have reconnected with my essence and regained my trust in life and people. I can now say ” I know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets, because this means we can have a true understanding of the energetic outplay of all things and thus make choices that support us to stay in our connection and keep building our knowing of life.”

407. Feeling the body can be extremely uncomfortable at times. The anxiousness can feel so overwhelming but stopping without going into the mind and surrendering can feel like a huge weight being lifted. It is my responsibility to choose the quality of energy I am in and to know and accept that I am a vessel is supporting me enormously to let go of any anxiousness I may go into.

408. I can remember too from a young age how I would go into my head to check out from not feeling. It seemed easier to go into my head where I would have conversations rather than to face what was actually going on. This behaviour carried on and although it can still happen it is becoming much less in my day. I have noticed recently how I can be focussed then all of a sudden thoughts pop into my mind to have a conversation! This is a great reminder that when this happens what has and is actually going on and what am I avoiding?

     1. I agree – those moments when my thoughts race away from me are great opportunities to stop for a second and review what I am feeling, reacting to or avoiding taking responsibility for.

409. As someone that has always been deeply sensitive I fully relate to the way you protected yourself with mind escapes, i also thought this was the way. However i also would always feel very lost, from what i now understand this makes sense, we leave us and think we are safe but actually that is when the damage is done.

410. Protection is so ingrained and comes in so many forms and layers. I am always appreciative when I discover another way I have been using protection to keep others out as a false way of not getting hurt. My greatest learning is that the more I allow myself to surrender, be with my movement, be honest, vulnerable and tender then I am more with myself and am open to feel everyone and everything. This awareness and openness is the greatest form of strength.

411. “Choosing to live in this dulled down way felt like a part of me was achingly missing – no wonder I was always anxious!” This is so true, we don’t not feel everything and just feel anxious about what we are missing therefore end up constantly searching outside rather than stop and look inside building this innate wisdom rather than running from it.

412. I know this escape into the mind all too well. And can feel how it truly isn’t serving any purpose other than keeping myself small. Being in the presence brings an authority of living that I don’t always feel free to show. But it is all a trick, as living from the body is amazing and brings a strength that is deeply supportive in life.

     1. Escaping in the mind comes in so many forms and for me has been an unfolding process that requires honesty and presence. Sometimes I have caught myself thinking I was in my body and being present but actually I was in my head. Tricky mind.

413. This blog reminded me so much of how I spent such a large amount of my time in school daydreaming so as not to feel the pressures I felt were put on me and the rest of the students, along with all the competition to be recognised and fit in, which I never did. If we approach teaching from the basis of connecting with the students fully and reinforcing the fact that they are complete and enough as they are without needing to prove themselves or get any certain grade, it would go a long way in helping them be more connected with themselves and their true power.

414. I have been through life with many escape plans! Now however if I am faced with a challenge I am more likely to commit to seeing it through and learning from it. The more we allow ourselves to be aware the more we can surrender to what is true.

415. Today I had an esoteric massage session and in that got to feel a beautiful level of surrender, but also how it is so lacking from my life and instead I live with protection, that comes from not really living in connection to my body but instead being in my mind.

     1. I love the depth and connection the esoteric healing modalities allow me to tangibly feel in my body. This depth has always supported me to make choices that further support my connection and allowing of that depth to remain.

416. I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets, because this means we can have a true understanding of the energetic outplay of all things and thus make choices that support us to stay in our connection and keep building our knowing of life.
     Absolutely Bianca. Being the observer in our lives as it were, truly leaves it open for us to come from that solidness within and stay connected while moving through situations. Thank-you for your words of absolute wisdom and truth.

417. It is interesting that we attempt to escape from our bodies when these same bodies are the only place we can feel truly at home while we are alive. Thank you for reminding me how supportive it is to nurture my awareness through my connection to my body Bianca.

418. As I read your words Bianca I could feel my childhood coming back to me as I recalled ‘The anxiousness felt so big and unbearable that I began to disconnect from my body and escape into my head where I would make up stories and run scenes of lovely images in my mind. This felt comforting and I would eventually fall off to sleep.’ It felt deeply confirming as your blog unfolded and you described your surrender as ‘a whole new level with this connection and I had the most exquisite feeling of surrender where my body was leading and my mind was following smoothly along. I felt so solid and grounded; there was an unwavering confidence that my body just knew how to move and what to do next.’ What a beautiful inspiration for everyone to know that we can change how we are in life as we commit to let go and allow ourselves to blossom and bloom.

419. ‘I was hypersensitive and could feel every little change in the energy around me. I was on high alert and there was so much tension in my body.’ As children we are not supported to see high sensitivity as a strength and supported to use our sensitivity to read situations and bring understanding to what we feel, instead we can feel overwhelmed by what we feel. I feel so deeply appreciative of Universal Medicine showing me the way to deal with being highly sensitive in life.

420. I feel what you are describing, about the body having so much wisdom and leading the way. It is so unbelievable to my mind sometimes, but then the mind can’t feel the innate divine harmony that the particles of our body can feel. My mind can drift into dreams and illusions that are not true and not real, but thinks that they are, if I let it. If I let it it can get such a momentum, specially at night in the dark. It used to drive me crazy, getting most bizarre with frantic lights and colours appearing before my closed eyes when I tried to stop thinking. Now I know what to do – connect with my body and my breath, and all is still again. My body is my best and wisest friend.

421. As you say, Bianca, we cannot stop feeling energy but we are so conditioned from childhood to deny this. What a game-changer it is to no longer deny this but instead to surrender to our body and to acknowledge and respond from what we are feeling. Such an empowerment and liberation.

422. This escaping and not wanting to feel what is going on is one that I totally have engaged in. Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon teachings are such a great support in breaking this behaviour and pattern. The Gentle Breath Meditation is a magnificent tool in supporting coming back to feeling me in my body and with the stillness having the confidence and strength to observe life and not to absorb it. A crucial way of living that I am still mastering.

423. It’s amazing what unconscious habits we can be carrying with us from earlier years in our life, and beautiful how you showed Bianca that we can develop our awareness of them and heal them so that they no longer impact how we are today.

424. To live life walking around with little or no connection to the body is devastating. I did this for most of my life up until 6 years ago before coming to the work of Universal Medicine. Learning to reconnect with the body has brought a whole different dimension to life that is far richer than any escapism into the mind.

425. I used to experience this too as a kid Bianca and always found it confusing when my body was sensing there was something there and my parents (and I) could never see a thing. Shows there is more to this world than meets the eye and the value in never ever discounting what we feel.

     1. Very true Joshua. I have been appreciating how powerful it is to reconnect to the awareness we have always known.

426. I love how the reconnection to your body supported you to find a place within that meant you didn’t have to indulge anxiety or feel out of your depth when dealing with imposing energies.

427. This is an awesome way to be. To be so solid in your body, so surrendered that you are in tune with all around you is very beautiful. Bianca, you are an inspiration.

428. Could the answer to many of our woes be as simple as returning to our body and being present with our every movement?

429. How true it is that when we escape to our head we do so at the expense of our body – it is little wonder we become disconnected from the truth of how we are living and our bodies unending wisdom.

430. “We can come back from this choice though, by connecting to our body and allowing ourselves once again to be honest about how and what we feel.” Acknowledging that we can feel energy and all that is going with everyone around us is very freeing and empowering.

431. This sounds very familiar in that this was the case for me especially with living in high anxiety. Also it was Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine along with the Sacred Esoteric Healing modalities that helped me eventually not only come back to my body (not be a walking head!) but give myself permission to honour what I feel all the time and truly understand energy, including the dark or not so nice energies I felt; so this was no longer the unknown, a ‘mystery’ or something I just thought I felt but instead I know exactly what it is and why which is very empowering. As you have shared ‘I have also reconnected to the truth that all is energy and that there has always been an unseen energetic outplay rippling underneath the physicality of life that we all have experienced but rarely speak of.’

432. “We feel this energetic outplay all the time; we cannot stop feeling it but we can choose to live in a way, like I did, that numbs this awareness and makes us feel like it doesn’t exist.” How often do we over ride the energetic outplay numbing our senses to it, so that we don’t have to feel the truth of what is going on around us. As you show Bianca we start to do this early on in life, I remember feeling and hearing an energy that used to come up the stairs, I never dared to tell my parents about it, so I would hold my breath and harden my body and hope it would go away. Looking back now, I can see how it was there to instil a fear in me, and so I would harden to try and protect myself, which was my way of numbing myself from what I was really feeling.

433. Using the mind to avoid what I am feeling is something I have done a lot and something I have even worked hard to learn. It works too – on some level but the cost is very high. To disconnect from our feelings means that we disconnect from the innate wisdom in our bodies. Learning to come back to our feelings and to honour this wisdom has been a wonderful and confirming thing. We do feel, we feel a huge amount, we sense everything and learning to live in openness to sensing life is like becoming aware of a new world – that is not actually new – but a return to one we chose to leave behind when we closed down.

434. Opening up to this unseen energetic outplay explains much in life I feel. Like the strong sense that a relationship isn’t ‘right’ from day one, or the awareness that someone is not listening when we are speaking to them, even down a phone line. I have no doubt any more that we have an energetic relationship with others and with things before we have a physical interaction and as you rightly say Bianca, ‘we cannot stop feeling’ energy.

435. I do remember escaping into dream-like states where I made up stories to distract me from what was really going on; but then they started to assume a life of their own and extending and embellishing them became a bit of an obsession. The consequence was that instead of calming and soothing me, they actually ended up making me racy, kept me awake and were quite addictive.

436. “The way we are meant to live: the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.” This is so true. It is exquisite when connected in this way yet it is ironic that we have to re-learn to live this way. Observing children who have been supported and growing with this awareness is such a huge joy.

437. I completely numbed out from a very young age as it seemed being sensitive was not an option, as things I saw and felt were discounted as my imagination so much I started to believe them and probably thought I was a bit mad.

438. Hello Bianca and this is true for me, “I often used this escape plan of leaving my body and going into the head to deal with feelings that I didn’t want to accept were there.” You would try and work it out or prove something you saw or deny something you didn’t see. All a game of not wanting to feel or should I say not wanting to be aware of something you already felt. You can’t ‘protect’ yourself from feeling in the way we think of protection, you can only feel it, every part of it and then from there respond.

439. The time will come when more parents will be aware of energies and will acknowledge and support their children in what children they are feeling, allowing them to continue to trust their feelings and their connection to their body.

440. The mind leads us around the houses but the body will actually lead us home.

441. Being in connection with our bodies is divinely scrumptious, and you just want to keep moving to feel how gorgeous it feels to move in your own love, and magnify that out to others.

442. That response of ‘I’m OK’ when someone asks how you are is so automatic. I am practicing being more honest when asked that question. Not that I necessarily go into the details of what’s happening in my life, but not pretending all is well when it isn’t. I think we can sometimes fool ourselves that things are better than they are. Also when I ask that question, not to ask it as an automatic question where I don’t really want to hear any other answer than ‘I’m OK.’

443. ‘Choosing to live in this dulled down way felt like a part of me was achingly missing’ – well said, Bianca, it is. We put so much effort into searching for what’s missing, not realising that it’s been there all along, it’s US. We are missing our gorgeous selves. Choosing to reconnect to our bodies is a gift that keeps on giving.

444. Feeling into that anxiety of a small child and knowing what I know now of energy, I would like to have the opportunity to share this with a young person . Knowledge and experience of the sensitivity of this energy takes away the fear and allows connection to our inner most!

445. It is so beautiful to observe the parents who are Universal Medicine students and how they interact with their young ones. Their listening, understanding and love for their children is so evident, none more so than around the children’s fears of monsters and the dark – and how to deal with that. I also relate very differently to my grandchildren compared with how I raised my own two children. Always something to learn….

     1. Yes there is always something to learn, and we will keep learning because there is no end point, there is only love.

446. Awesome blog Bianca, escaping in the mind is something I know so well and it was normal for a long time. After having reconnected much more with my body though through the support of Universal Medicine, it started to feel so uncomfortable and racy, I would feel like loosing myself completely when I was thinking a lot. Now I love feeling my body and all there is and being with that instead of escaping in my mind. No perfection but a work in process.

447. I recognise that Emergency Escape Plan Bianca, going there myself when things get too much or I feel overwhelmed. But the mind does not have the answers and letting go of the old patterns of behaviour is an ongoing commitment to ourselves but one well worth the effort. Indeed, it may not be an effort after all, but just a conscious choice to deeply connect to our body, through our every breath and every movement, that way bringing ourselves back to truth and our innate wisdom within.

448. ‘While on one level, this escaping seemed comforting, there was also a constant feeling of raciness and a huge anxiety that I couldn’t ignore. I understood that I had created this disconnection by dulling my awareness and I enjoyed the relief it provided, but what I didn’t account for was the misery it also brought to my life’. – It is interesting that being in comfort creates a tension that is never satisfied.

449. Our bodies not our minds are the key to feeling energy and reading life.

450. I can relate here to the cycle of feeling anxious in the body and then disconnecting from my body and going into my head which of course makes the anxiety even worse in the end because I am not present in the moment and struggle to deal with whatever situation is in front of me! It has been the inspiration of Universal Medicine that has supported me to know it is ok and safe to remain in my body and feel and discern whatever there is to feel.

451. Thank you for sharing the harmony you felt when your body and mind were flowing together at a deeper level and how if we are fully present with our body and surrendered then our mind can support us in our connection rather than working against us.

452. I too used to escape into my mind to dull my awareness of what was happening around me so much that it eventually became my default setting which has taken a lot of unpicking but the rewards of being more present in my body are huge and one of them is letting go of the anxiousness that was my constant companion even though I did my best to hide this from everyone including myself.

453. I can remember when there was a change within me where the mind started to play a bigger part and I became less connected to my body and unfortunately being in my head started to become a way to escape school, family situations and then later on family and work life. Eventually I got to such a state of desperation that life had to mean more than what I was experiencing and then came along Universal Medicine that has and is helping me continuously to connect back to the essence I once knew as a child. I now know that it never left me, I left it.

454. I love this line, Bianca – “There was such a home-like quality in this level of surrender to my body, I knew without a doubt this is the way we are meant to live”. There is so much authority to be lived from this absolute knowing in the body, as well as the freedom and confidence of being able to discern what is true and what is not.

455. This is a brilliant article that I have found both inspiring and supportive. The understanding and revelation with which you have talked about the body disconnect that occurs when we live in our heads has made so much sense of my childhood and early adulthood. All the script writing and planning I did simply to cover up what I was feeling all of the time. Giving my body permission to have its voice again has been, and continues to be, the most amazing process – giving me access to the wisdom of feeling again.

456. The healing modalities of Universal Medicine allow us to us heal and be more of who we truly are by releasing that which is not us and by breaking through the mental barriers that have been imposed over us making us live in comfort and reconnecting to our bodies and the essence of who we are.

457. Bianca, I can relate to a lot of what you have shared here, I used to feel the same “Choosing to live in this dulled down way felt like a part of me was achingly missing – no wonder I was always anxious!” I also felt there was something achingly missing within me. I have now learned that that was true, but it wasn’t what I thought was missing, what i have learned was missing was me! My connection and relationship with myself. That was actually always there, but I didn’t know how to choose it, because there was too much protection, hurt and behaviours in place that weren’t allowing me to deeply connect. That is a very different story now, thanks to the work of the ageless wisdom, Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

458. Staying with my body and allowing my sensitivity used to be hard to handle. More recently, with the support of Universal Medicine and what was presented about energy in practical workshops, it became not only ok, but led to the power to say no to influences I did not choose to effect me. As a consequence I have experienced much less drain and a building sense of joy and wellbeing which is much more consistent in my life now.

459. I have had that anxiety as well. One night I said “Do your worst”, turned over and went to sleep. Since then the anxiety is gone.

460. The feeling when every cell in your body is alive is truly exquisite…and is proof that the mind is not the big player we thought it was after all…

461. I love the way you describe your ‘escape plan’ – something I can relate to and became a master at. Yet the letting go of this and the seeming protection is far more supportive than any escape plan will ever be. Knowing my body and my connection to it allows me to live in life rather than being a recipient of it.

462. Absolutely beautiful Bianca ~ ‘I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets, because this means we can have a true understanding of the energetic outplay of all things and thus make choices that support us to stay in our connection and keep building our knowing of life’

     1. Yes, this is a stunning quote from this article. I am coming to a deep understanding that to ignore and try and shut down all that I feel simply cuts me off from life. To feel means I see all of life – the grim and the glorious – and in embracing it all I realise that the grim (that I have been so overwhelmed by in the past) is small fry alongside the glorious.

463. Living life from the impulses of our body brings a simplicity to life and a way of living that supports not only us but everyone we meet.

464. Our minds ‘think’ they have life all sorted but our bodies wisdom is so, so much wiser than anything we think!

465. It makes so much sense Bianca to follow the lead of our bodies. Our body knows everything – it knows how to maintain an equilibrium within, it knows how to move, how to breathe without us making anything happen, it feels everything and it lives with the consequences of all our choices. It knows how we have made it work in opposition to its natural state, and so when we surrender to our bodies, they welcome the opportunity to return to their natural way of being.

466. I also remember as a child wanting to sleep with the lights on, and the feeling of something else being in the room, something that did not feel very nice. As children in particular we are aware of so much that is going on around us all of the time. When our well-meaning parents come in and say ‘no there is nothing there in the cupboard’ it actually does not validate what we are feeling and so it teaches us inadvertently to begin the shut down process of feeling. Of course this is not their intention, but would it not be amazing if the parent said something along the lines of ‘What can you feel? Where is it that you feel it the strongest? What colour/smell is it? – this alone would validate the experience and allow you to feel more. Then of course it is about knowing that we are not alone, that through the deepest part of ourselves we have the capacity to deal with this energy and that it is actually powerless when we connect and hold ourselves in that space of deep love and care. Nothing is greater than our own light, but it is a learning for us each time to claim this.

     1. Great point Henrietta it is really important that we honour what our children feel and be careful not to dismiss these things so easily.

467. We do know when we surrender that this is our home, this is our natural state as it is so easy, so simple and spacious. In surrender you get to feel all of you and all that you are connected with. This is what we need to rediscover how to come back to and make our living way.

468. Suppressing what you are feeling does feel like a huge part of you is missing. It also sets up a feeling of constant judgment of what is ok to feel and what is not. As a woman, I found it was ok to be happy, nice, friendly but pushed down anything socially unacceptable like feeling angry or frustrated. Now I find the more I accept what I am feeling the easier it is to let it go and not judge it as being who I am. This means I don’t have to push it down into my body to keep causing harm as it sits and festers.

469. This escaping into our thoughts to avoid feeling is behind a great deal of the anxiety we are seeing in society today. There is only so much tension and hyper-vigilance you can ignore before it spills over and affects every aspect of our lives. I have found that being present in my body, feeling what I am doing and actually acknowledging how and what I feel has made a huge difference to the level of anxiety in my body. Being with my physical self has collected every part of me back into the one place, so I feel solid and steady.

     1. I love this – ‘back into one place’ is where I can completely surrender to life – no longer spliced and endlessly anxious.

470. It was interesting to read that you used escaping into comforting images and thoughts to fall asleep. I can’t recall how I used to finally fell asleep. I suspect I just waited until I felt too exhausted to keep my eyes open. However like you, I did become a person who lived from my head and became expert at suppressing feelings almost before I could register them. Your comment makes me wonder about the patterns our coping methods set up for us in life. Do we skip off into our thoughts, or try to rationalize what we are feeling etc? How much easier and more confirming of our clairsentience would it be to know that we are feeling energy and to develop an inner confidence and steadiness within ourselves to deal with it?

471. My nights as a child sounded very similar to yours. I would stare into shadows looking for any movement and listen intently. I felt that my bed was the only safe place to be. There was always a sense that someone was coming although it never happened. To fall asleep would often bring nightmares, where there would be snakes dripping from the floors, walls and ceiling or under me there were sharks or crocodiles. I never felt safe at night and somehow I knew my parents in the next room couldn’t protect me. I felt very alone and constantly on guard. This has made me very respectful of what some kids experience at night and know to never dismiss what they feel. Kids need to be confirmed that although there may not be something physically there, that they can feel the energy that is there.

472. Being willing to get real with myself about the various escape plans I have concocted over the years has been a slow revelation at times. But so very worth the choice each moment in time to come to the body and not choose to be scared out of it or live in distraction just incase something comes up I don’t want to feel. It’s a bit like going on medication in case you get an illness. Living in vigilance becomes far more destructive on me than actually sorting out what is simply there to sort out.

473. To distract ourselves from something we do not want to see and most particularly not feel is a common “tool” we use. So we actually learn this from little, anything unpleasant that is happening or going to happen can be escaped from by thinking of something else or by focusing on something else. But as you describe this is a way to “leave” our body and yet our body is still there and experiences everything. So to practice to stay with us whatever happens buddy true confidence as we are always aware of what is going on, it might be unpleasant but at least we know what it is.

474. Holding onto past hurts or creating hurts is a sure way to hold back and hide the love, vibrancy and jovial and joyful people we truly are. The added evil is that this is fully appeared by society as a normal thing to do.

475. “There was such a home-like quality in this level of surrender to my body, I knew without a doubt this is the way we are meant to live: the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.” There is such beauty and truth revealed in this paragraph.

476. Wow Bianca, this is revelatory for me..”I also felt open to accepting all that was going on around me, no judgment, simply acceptance with a knowing that with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way.” I will give this a go for my next challenging situation with my family and work environment.

477. “I understood that I had created this disconnection by dulling my awareness” How profound it is to think that going into our heads, which in life is seen as the seat of all intelligence, is actually dulling our awareness.

478. “This disconnect from my body continued into adulthood. I would constantly run conversations through my mind, making plans or daydreaming about what might happen. It was like I was a walking head completely disconnected from my body and filled with distracting thoughts while I went about the activity of my life.” I have lived like this for most of my life. It took me a long time to admit it because it seemed so normal.

479. It is as if the whole world is set up for us to distract us from our deep sensitivity that you speak of Bianca from TV, computer games, over eating, over drinking so that we are not present with what we are feeling. We are not taught from young how to stay present with ourselves and what an amazing asset that is to have in life.

480. ‘The harmony I felt was amazing and yet so natural and it felt like every cell in my body was working as one’ ….. I love this …. Imagine the day when we will all feel like this, living together in harmony, just as we are meant to be.

481. Bianca, I have used the same escape plan all my life, I would happily go off into my head while I didn’t want to feel what was going on in my body or around me and recently I’ve been catching and understanding even more how damaging this is. I now connect more to my body and I’ve begun to understand how deeply sensitive I am and how much I feel, but rather than judging this I’m learning slowly to allow myself and others to feel this, and not push it down or away by going off into my head or using other things like food to numb myself. It’s very much a work in progress and it’s great timing reading your blog as I’ve been uncovering more of those starting points, those little points where I step away from my body and how they lead to the bigger steps away later. It’s also been very instructive how much images and ideas of how things should be can rule us and this is where the mind in particular is lethal, and going into the mind and ignoring the body means you are more at the mercy of those images – I’m learning that as I come back to the body in those moments I get a real feeling of what is true and can see how those images can be deeply imprisoning and another way to stay away from feeling what is actually going on.

482. Allowing myself to feel and be aware of everything that goes around me supports me and my body. It serves me and is a loving thing to do otherwise I can get depleted and tired.

483. ‘I had the most exquisite feeling of surrender where my body was leading and my mind was following smoothly along’ – This is gorgeous Bianca and it’s so true that when we let our body lead the way and make choices according to what we FEEL is true rather than what we THINK is true the need for control slips away, and we can feel that sense of surrender.

484. The more present I am with my body, the more I can feel and read what is going on around me, therefore it is my utmost responsibility that when I go into behaviours that do not support me that I bring myself back to me and my body.

485. It has been a long road for me to re-connect to who has been hiding within. My mind has been in charge for a very long time of everything I did. My wall of protection I had built had been well fortified to the point that I had lost the reason of why it had been made to start with! Choosing to feel and self-love was at first strange alien concepts, they are now just the way I have decided to live.

486. Bianca, I fully agree when you said ‘I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets’. It makes sense because the more aware we are, the more we understand life and what is going on around us and so the less we react to life or see things as personal attacks.

487. This is so interesting Bianca. I can go into my head for many things – to disconnect from what is around me; to create drama where there is none; to distract myself; or just to simply not be present. When I connect to my body and allow it to lead, life is much simpler and follows flow.

488. “I also felt open to accepting all that was going on around me, no judgment, simply acceptance with a knowing that with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way.” When I read this sentences I could feel that there was no anxiousness inside your body and that is very inspirational for me as it showed me that it is possible to be without this anxiousness at all.

489. You have described it so well that from early on we have those intense moments when we can sense something and all adults act as if that it is a pure fabrication, causing confusion and bewilderment. It seems simpler to close off from this sensitivity, and we soon forget we even had it in the first place. But the disconnection from our body, the dulled awareness and the resulting undercurrent anxiousness is not what we would ever consciously choose. Universal Medicine supports a deeper understanding of energies everyone of us feels whether we choose to be aware of it or not. I have found it immensely valuable. It would be amazing if this support of understanding was offered to us from young by our families.

490. When we reconnect to our body we return to our natural state of being, a way of living impulsed from our soul and in connection with the all, the Ageless Wisdom as presented by Serge Benhayon in all his lectures, courses and workshops and is available to us when choose to connect to it out of free will.

491. I remember as a young child hearing, seeing and feeling things that I was told were just my imagination or to not be so silly. I suppose some of these things may have been my imagination but a lot wasn’t and it would have been great to have the support of someone to explain about energy and point out that what we feel is a natural thing and not something to discount and dismiss.

492. As you say Bianca many of us have had those experiences when all the clues picked up by our brain tells us one story yet we sense something different. It is great to know that such awareness is not just a random thing, but is something inherent in all of us. It shows that rebuilding our connection to our body, just as we did when we were young, is an important and a very wise thing to do.

493. I love the way you have described how your deepened level of connection to your body actually felt. Reading it I wanted to say “Sold. Where can I sign? I would like half a dozen of the same.”

494. ‘There was such a home-like quality in this level of surrender to my body, I knew without a doubt this is the way we are meant to live: the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.’ – absolutely, Bianca, we have been living back to front, allowing our minds to numb the wisdom of the body – where our truth lies. It’s no wonder that sometimes things can become quite a mess.

495. I have found that my anxiety dissipates when I commit to addressing the issue that I am feeling anxious about. This has shown me that anxiety is actually choosing to be not fully committed to myself and therefore not appreciating who I am and what I can bring to a situation. The commitment grabs hold of purpose and anxiety loses its grip. Awesome sharing Bianca.

496. ‘…it felt like every cell in my body was working as one.’ I love this comment Bianca and I know that our bodies work in every moment to bring the harmony that they are built for. It makes perfect sense that we feel tension when we are not feeling that harmony. I understand more and more that tension is my guide not my foe and is my cue to deeply examine what has happened to upset my natural harmony.

497. Great sharing Bianca, I especially agree that when we are young the way we often deal with scary energy is to go into our heads and make up a comforting story to follow. I remember feeling too scared to move when in bed some nights as a child . To then come back to ourselves now, and experience the connection and harmony , through the knowledge shared by Serge Benhayon of the Ancient Wisdom is so healing!

498. This discussion needs to happen… “I found it very difficult to accept what I was feeling in my body.” I still have the distinct memory of when I was a child 5 or 6 just how much I could feel what was going on not only in my house but in my neighbours house too – I could feel everything and it was never really pleasant in how people were living and as a neighbourhood with each other.
     The bedroom and where I slept was the place I was most sensitive because this is where I surrendered to sleep – my guards dropped a degree. It makes sense that this is the place where you felt it most putting me in a state of distrust. I then interpreted this as an issue with trusting people because I was not supported by any of my peers to discuss this, and it turned into not trusting myself as I would seek relief by going to the mind and checking out. I would soon be ‘in trouble’ not acting on my own true will and power what I felt. Thank you for the blog Bianca.

499. I appreciate how you described the energy as “I would often feel a presence around me that felt big, cold and imposing.” I have held back with the exact words when I feel the energy because it was unusual to say. I now voice it in the detail even if it is to myself and use that sense of high alert to allow and confirm that awareness and continue to move in a way that I know instead of shutting down in fear – it is empowering and it takes away the charge.

500. “I felt so solid and grounded; there was an unwavering confidence that my body just knew how to move and what to do next.” This feels so exquisite and so natural – who wouldn’t want to feel like this!

501. If everything is about movement and we are not what we think, then what are we actually doing when escaping into the mind..? From what Serge Benhayon has been presenting I am beginning to understand that the detraction into my thoughts is actually me allowing myself to be moved by an energy that is not true to it. That’s why body awareness is a huge deal, because when I am present with my movements I am with my body and can feel the quality of energy that is sourcing my movements and choose wisely with what is true and what is not.

     1. Well said, Rachael. Body awareness is key in being able to feel and discern what is going on within us and all around us.

502. When we go into protection we may succeed in shutting others out but we are actually shutting ourselves in – imprisoning ourselves.

503. I recall being scared of the dark as a child and I would look under the bed and in my wardrobe to make sure no ‘baddies’ were hiding there. Also, we had an outside ‘dunny’ (toilet) in the back yard without any lighting and I would hold off going as long as possible and then I would brace myself and dash out and go as quickly as possible and race back into the safety of the home. My mother was deeply caring and loving and if only I had expressed to her how frightened I was I know she would have willingly escorted me but I also know that this would not have addressed the underlying reasons for my fear.

504. Awareness of the way things are is our best form of protection in order to not succumb to living in a way that is not true to our essence. Our bodies belong to a Universal order, no different to the plants, the animals, the stars etc. and as such our bodies are our markers of truth, for they belong to Truth. There is much at play in our human created reality that seeks to keep us living in separation to such truth and as so it is that we allow ourselves to bludgeon our bodies with behaviours and foods that do not support our expression of truth in order to not feel and hence live the fullness of who we truly are.

505. This is my escape plan too – straight into the mind as an attempt to ‘work things out’ or just flee a situation I may be uncomfortable with feeling. The thing is, the more this escape happens the more it becomes a default way to live. Like a muscle being worked and worked it becomes a sort of reflex. I’ve noticed it in myself that even reading a blog seems to be impossible without at least 2-3 moments where I need to bring myself back from the mind play going on as I trail off. I don’t feel this is done on purpose but the mind has had so much attention that it is used to being centre stage and unfocused. Body awareness is absolutely key, so thank you for sharing Bianca.

506. This is a great thing to draw our awareness to Bianca, thankyou. You could have been writing about me as a child and your words have helped me come to a deeper understanding of how I too took leave of my body and sought refuge in the realm of the mind. However, there can be no true ‘protection’ when we live in separation to our body, it simply means we fool ourselves that we are not feeling what is there to be felt and that we always feel whether we attune our senses to it or not.

     Having lived a life riddled with anxiety and nervous tension I have come to learn that it is ignoring such signals from the body – a divinely designed instrument highly attuned to truth – that we become lost in a sea of un-truth, forever at the whim of the surging tides that seek to uproot us. Our bodies are the anchors for the Soul’s light on Earth and re-learning how to be connected to them and listening to their inherent wisdom is a sure fire way in which to once again hear the voice of God/the Universe that speaks within us all.

507. Being able to be with the discomfort of a reaction lets us see the bigger picture, rather than dull down our feelings.

508. I can relate to not knowing how to cope with sensitivity and escaping into the mind. I appreciate all you have shared here Bianca as its the same thing I’m working on, to simply be with the body and observe, instead of retract and use the mind to numb and disconnect myself.

509. “With the support of Universal Medicine’s Healing modalities I have been re-connecting with my body, re-building my awareness and escaping less and less into my mind.” I haven’t met any healing modality yet that can re-connect us to us to our bodies, heal our inner pain and restore us to the present moment like the Universal Medicine modalities do. A pure gift from Heaven laid before us, all we need to do is be prepared to go there and feel what we have avoided for so long.

510. “I often used this escape plan of leaving my body and going into the head to deal with feelings that I didn’t want to accept were there.” This is a common escape plan for many of us as we grew up not knowing how to deal with our sensitivity. Yet our sensitivity can be our strength when we learn to stay with our connection to our body so that we feel all that is going on, yet are not affected by that which we feel. Deep appreciation to Serge Benhayon for sharing such simple tools of reconnection back to the body so that we can observe life yet not become absorbed by it.

511. Its almost like I wrote this blog – i was always terrified of the dark as a kid, convinced something was there and I would only be able to sleep with my mum. Then as I got older, I learnt to check out in my head, make up stories and fancies until i eventually dropped off. And even now, although I no longer fear the dark, the time before bed is when I am most likely to sabotage myself because sleep in such a golden opportunity for rest and healing – is it any wonder that energy gets us to be frighted at night as kids.

512. I love when people write about things like this – experiences they have had and over come because I myself and so many other will be able to relate and learn

513. “While on one level, this escaping seemed comforting, there was also a constant feeling of raciness and a huge anxiety that I couldn’t ignore. I understood that I had created this disconnection by dulling my awareness and I enjoyed the relief it provided, but what I didn’t account for was the misery it also brought to my life.”

     This is really powerful in which you share here Bianca. When we say yes to one thing (escape, comfort) we say yes to a whole bunch of other things as well. We say yes to disconnection from our bodies which can bring such anxiety because our bodies are designed to live in connection. And we don’t then get the solidness that you share that we can have when we live in connection. One cant be without the other. It is our choice what we say yes to and to expand our awareness as to what we are really saying yes to.

514. I always find your blogs inspiring Bianca as they clearly support you to look at areas that you can deepen and show a clear example of another way.

515. This blog reminds us of the connection to truth we are born with and the forces around us that attempt to interfere with that purity. Once we choose awareness and claim what we are feeling, our U-tiun is complete and we return to this truth. No longer do we call in someone else to save us but choose the love we know that has always been within us and live that.

516. It is great that you expose this going into the mind as an escape to not feel what is there for us to fee, which when we allow ourselves only brings a deeper understanding and opportunities to grow. The fear on which the shutting down is based on nothing more than the inability to cope with life, not trusting the answers that are on our bodies, so when we start to honour this there is a true possibility to connect to our tenderness, which is a incredible experience to feel this absolute presence we can be in.

517. Its very responsible of you to keep exploring like you are, deepening your relationship with your body and mind is important in any profession but being a Nurse and treating patients everyday, its paramount that you are as crisp and present as you can possibly be, as people in hospital are usually in a very vulnerable place, your awareness and willingness to get to the bottom of your core issues makes you more available to support with everyone else’s.

518. I also love what you share about the clarity that’s felt from the surrender into the body. We go into our minds to try and work things out, but what we end up with, is fogginess in the brain!

519. Bianca, this is inspiring to read as i can very much relate to the escape plan you talk about here, going into the mind for all sorts of escape routes and strategies — anything not to feel what I can rally feel around me. I’ve also learnt over time with the support of the Universal Medicine modalities to trust my body much more and stay in it as opposed to escape from it into my head, but this is still a work in progress. In stressful situations the mind default can kick in again — as I desperately look for the safety switch. Reading your blog I felt the strength and solidness of surrender, not escaping and trying to shut things out but dropping deeper into my body to feel. Still lots to learn on this for me.

520. Its very true Bianca, we do feel the energetic outplay around us all the time… understanding what we do with what we feel is a whole other things. Thanks for the insight into what you did, for me I ate certain foods to ensure I wasn’t aware of what I felt, and today that is still my first go-to in a situation I am not wanting to be aware of.

521. I love your description of the “exquisite feeling of surrender where my body was leading and my mind was following smoothly along.” I have had moments of this and know how exquisite it feels. It’s a wonder e do anything else, yet maintaining this or even coming back to the frequently seems so challenging.

522. On reading this I realised how much I have used thoughts as a distraction. The saying “being a million miles away” refers to someone who is lost in their thoughts and is very apt. I know when I do it, my body is in the same place I left it but it is as though nobody is home – because I’m not, I have removed myself and gone off into the land of thoughts.

523. Beautifully felt and expressed Bianca “There was such a home-like quality in this level of surrender to my body, I knew without a doubt this is the way we are meant to live: the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.” I have felt this on the rare occasion where the body just moves in a graceful way from one action to another with the mind following.

524. As more parents become aware of energies and are able to support their children, to honour what they are feeling instead of dismiss it, this will have a major effect on how they grow up, how they feel they can trust their senses and that is massive.

525. What a beautiful heart warming blog, thank you Bianca. I can so relate to growing up dulling my awareness of what I could feel was happening energetically around me. By not choosing to feel the unseen around me I put myself in a cage of fear and anxiousness, which disconnected me from my source of truth and steadiness which is my body. Over the years with the great love and support of Universal Medicine , its practitioners and the Esoteric healing modalities I have grown my relationship with me and my body – as you have so graciously written I am solid and confident in myself when it is the wisdom of my body that leads the way with my head in line. The beauty of the body is that it is so responsive and always ready for when we choose to reconnect which can be as simple as keying gently as I write this, or moving smoothly and gently from room to room in my home and not be in my head as to the next task I must do.

526. I was just thinking about how when we are young, we are just as sensitive as we are as adults just we have had years and years of not listening to our self, over riding what we feel and even making fun of ourselves as if we were imagining things. How dishonouring is that! And now, to slowly go back, feel and trust what I feel and with that I get to appreciate what a sensitive being I am and always have been. I always knew deep down, I just didn’t always trust what I knew.

527. My head’s been the most safe place to be for most of my life. When I was introduced to feeling life, I converted feeling into a doing. Because I didn’t want to feel, or at least only feel what I wanted to feel. When I read about the energies in the bedroom trying to scare me, I’ve got no clear memory. I used to bash myself for that as I told myself that I have to feel it. But I buried it and that’s fine as I feel (!!) now that I’ve got my own way and time to come back to the experiences and choices I made.

528. Awesome blog Bianca, thanks for sharing. We are all super sensitive and have like you found different escape mechanisms and have shut down this level of sensitivity. I can feel when someone is not okay, even if they look the part and all, I can feel when something just isn’t right, I can feel how I shouldn’t wear a certain piece of clothing anymore and sometimes I confirm and trust what I feel but very often, I over ride it, because this is something, a behaviour infact that I have been doing for a long long time. More recently though, I have been confirming what I feel, checking in with others as to do they feel that too and learning a whole lot about mine and others sensitivity. Lets celebrate how much we do feel!

529. ‘..to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets’ This understanding is the opposite of what we have believed and bought into, which has been that being sensitive and aware of everything going on around us is a sign of weakness.

530. Bianca, I can relate to the great escape of the mind. But it’s really not so great as we leave the body only to return to the same body of tensions and feelings that we didn’t want to feel. Meanwhile we have allowed another energy to run our body in our absence. It’s a big sacrifice in the end.

531. Escaping into the mind in order to disconnect from what we are feeling all around us is something most of us have done as children and still do, if left unchecked. Even though that is understandable when there is no support and understanding for the fact that we all feel everything, all of the time, It is like living in two worlds at the detriment of our health, mental and physical.

532. I’ve often had difficulty in getting to sleep, too anxious to let go. Today a friend’s baby fell asleep on the mat outside with a smile on his face, arms splayed an I looked at him and felt wow, that is surrender. So for all the wars, the abuse that goes on in the world actually this doesn’t have to enter my body. I too can surrender.

533. It’s amazing to read this. I go for walks and have been shocked how much I go into my head to not be in the present. So it’s lovely to read about how we can choose to come back to our bodies and really appreciate feeling energy is how we look after ourselves. As I choose this more and more I am really feeling the more energy I allow myself awareness of, the more I move in a way that acknowledges what’s happening and looks after me without going into tensing up and being hard.

534. Escaping into our heads or day dreaming is considered a normal response when living in stress…often comments are made “think of something else” or “think of a nice place” but we don’t realise the detriment this causes by way of disconnecting to ourselves. It’s never too late to change this pattern and reconnect back to our body as a great communicator.

535. I can totally relate to your experience Bianca. I have found throughout my life allowing myself to feel what was going on was key to supporting me through a lot of trauma I experienced as a child. I now understand it is our connection to our body, allowing ourselves to feel all that comes up so we can understand it and heal from it. It was through listening to my body that has supported me hugely and I am learning to deepen my connection with my body as there is so much more to learn. Our body is our connection to ourselves, to God and to humanity, if we listen to its messages it will guide us through life to live in harmony.

536. “we have all felt what it is like when we talk with a friend who says they are fine but we can feel that behind this “I’m ok” facade there is something disturbing them” amazing, we know what’s going on around us but it’s though investing into what we need for protection and safety that we switch off. Life is full of these experiences where we can sense more than we can think.

537. I know if I push down something that I’m sensing then it can make me anxious too – which makes sense because it’s my body’s way of telling me that I’m overriding what’s there rather than staying with all that is there to be felt.

538. “the way we are meant to live: the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.” That makes absolute sense to me, whereas we have made life the other way around.

539. I developed the same escape plan and I am still dealing with the consequences. After having lived for decades in my head it is absolutely freeing to start to live from the presence of being in my body without having to fear what is felt!

540. Not everyone reports or recalls being disturbed by energy or spirits when they were young. Maybe, like me, you felt you were ‘fine’? Yet when we look at our world today it is so apparent that we can say that almost everyone of us is escaping life, and hanging out in our heads as you describe Bianca. If we stop and see that this is the case, wow what are we all running from? What is this tension that we must feel so strong? And if many of us thought that we were ‘fine’ all this time, well what else is truly going on energetically in our lives?

541. The more we appreciate and confirm those moments in which we feel connected to the all and with a deep knowing of what is at play the easier it is to accept the magnificence of who we are and to surrender to what is divine.

542. I can relate to what is shared as I felt the same as child and remember lying petrified in my bed when I felt unexplained movements or noises. If we grew up with this awareness of energy the impact on our bodies and health is quite likely to change improve hugely.

543. I can very much relate to escaping in a scenario (real or perceived), a conversation, organising something, and making lists in my mind. You know, like surfing the net for no reason and then the moment you stop you realise oh my gosh how long was I on there for!… is exactly how it feels when I go into my head and have a holiday from reality. And then wonder why I lived constantly with anxiety 24/7! It’s like we are waiting for the next thing to impose on us or person to abuse us but unknowingly doing this same thing, we are trying to avoid, to ourselves. You are spot on Bianca, “We can come back from this choice though, by connecting to our body and allowing ourselves once again to be honest about how and what we feel.”

544. Most of us were rarely if ever confirmed when little that we felt energies and knew exactly what was playing out around us… and that’s because the adults in our lives were also told to ‘stop being silly there’s nothing there’ or ‘no you’re wrong that’s not what is happening’ when they were growing up, so we have a world sky rocketing with mental illnesses and checked-out-ness off the richter scale and we wonder why. Thank you Bianca for revealing how damaging escaping into our heads can be and how when we disengage from our bodies that our thoughts will very much lead us astray and even further into separation. Very inspiring how you made conscious steps back to trusting your body and the energy it always feels and being honest with that.

545. This blog has reminded me of how scared I was as a child goingto bed at night. I would delay going upstairs so that I didn’t have to see or feel what was in my room, but eventually had to go to bed and would lie there hiding under my covers in fear of what was in my room. I would distract my self with thoughts until I fell asleep, and as I got older would listen to music on my headphones and would often wake up with them still on. These ways of distracting ourselves really do become our coping mechanisms as we move into adulthood, and become engrained habits that are hard to shake off until we start to allow oursleves to really feel what is going on in our bodies. Thankyou goodness for Serge Benhayon who has shown so many that these ‘things’ are very real, and that we all have the potential to connect to our true power and to disempower energies that come with an agenda to frighten us as children.

546. Bianca I recall having similar experience when I was a child, I would end up counting numbers under my blankets curled up in a ball, until I fell a sleep. I could always feel the heavy energy and it felt so big, but if i shared it with anyone no one would believe. So I too learnt to go into my head and too that into my adulthood.

547. It is of immense importance that people share their experiences from childhood, when the presence of entities was still felt. Everybody I know and have talked to has experienced this. How can it be that we live negating this fact? I work with teenagers and every single one of them has the same experience and they are taught it is their fantasy. We live in a skeptic world only believing that is rooted by evidence and here we have the evidence of every single person on this planet and we simply negate it. Check out this article on the same topic: http://theworksofsergebenhayon.com/spirits-entities-possession-and-the-wisdom-of-serge-benhayon/

548. Heartfelt … Your blog describes the magnificence, the true capacity and potential of the human body which is the doorway to the light of the soul.

549. It is interesting to observe how the word energy can cause a recoil in many, as it is often associated with something intangible, unreal. Yet we have all experienced sensations that we dismiss as coincidence, deja vu, a chilling presence, and so many more. There is so much we deny is happening because it does not happen with our seeing eyes, yet this denial can never take away from the fact that we do feel it in our bodies. It really is all about how much we want to know we know.

     1. Totally agree Stephen, if we only use our eyes, and trust them, then we miss out on a lot because there is so much more to feel and sense that we miss out on if we keep our senses limited to only our eyes.

550. Bianca thank you for sharing this blog. It is vastly underestimated or ignored how much children suffer from the energies in the house. As adults we have a huge responsibility in how we live and the choices we make as they will impact our children. Unfortunately at this time many are not willing to see the truth of the fact that all is energy as they do not wish the responsibility that comes with it.

     1. Hear, hear Carolien – very well said.

     2. I agree Amina, if we would make energy part of our daily lives we would built awareness to a point that we would be able to take true responsibility for our choices and way of living, knowing that this impacts all around us.

551. I have the same feeling about my childhood with monsters etc. under the bed at night and feeling the need to escape. This is something that I continue to work at after 12 years of being a Student of The Livingness. My feeling is we heal to the depth we are willing to feel at any point in time. The anxiety was a new feeling for this situation and can now be discarded as another feeling that was never true. It was an alert response for that situation probably because my parents were closed off to the fact of the visitations by spirits!

552. I can so relate Bianca, I was terrified at night as a child. I could feel things watching me, following me around and sometimes crushing and pinching me in my bed. I was so anxious that looking back I can see that my protection in response was to resort to leaving my body and dream off in my head. I was often caused to task for being ‘off with the fairies’. It was through Universal Medicine that I learnt that being present in my body that was the true antidote to anxiety . I can assure you this is true.

553. We know far more than we think we know. There is a world that underpins what we see and hear with our usual everyday bodily senses, one that is subtle and yet holds an enormous amount of information about life and who we are in it.

554. That is an excellent point. I do know exactly the distinction you are making. The truth is the vast majority of people can feel energies around them, its what they then do that is important to know- not many people know how to handle what they feel, hence the rise and rise of overeating in order to not feel.

555. Thank you Bianca. This blog allows me to feel that I have used thoughts and fantasies in much the same way as I have used alcohol and food. The big problem with thoughts is that others cannot see them and they don’t come with a warning label and so we don’t always realise the devastating impact being lost in our mind has.

556. “Choosing to live in this dulled down way felt like a part of me was achingly missing – no wonder I was always anxious!” Without doubt I have found that by connecting to my body – and what a revelation it was to discover I could connect to my body, such were my efforts to escape it!, we bless ourselves with a confidence and undeniability that feels steady and certain.

557. thank you Bianca, many people all around the world can relate to feeling scared and not ‘alone’ in their bedrooms at night. It is great to see this fear being written about, and its impact being overcome

558. Thank you for sharing this with us, Bianca. How many of us can relate to having an escape plan? Residing in the mind is a cold and loveless substitute for the power and connection of being embodied, living in full awareness of what we are feeling and able to truly see things for what they are, never holding back from expressing from what we know to be true because we feel it in every cell. Thank heavens for Universal Medicine, reminding us that there is another way to live.

559. Very supportive Katie – thank you.

560. Last night I laid in bed and just let myself come out of my thoughts and be in my body. It showed me that I am often in my head and how lovely it is to surrender to the body, just being with me, and not let my complicated thoughts take over.

561. How key is awareness in life.

562. “Alternate plans for fog or mist” An old teacher of mine used to say this all the time. I feel this is what my mind did all the time. It would run through all sorts of scenarios and made up stories giving me options of things that may happen. This was (and still is) enough to bring me to a stop. The quality of our thoughts influences so much.

563. I have read a lot of blogs about the eerie feelings children experience when they are by themselves mostly in their dark twilight bedrooms just before sleep. I always thought that this didn’t occur to me.

     However, since reading this blog and some self-reflection I did experience these eerie feelings of another presence being in the room that wasn’t physical. This was as real to me as the keyboard I;m typing on right now.

     Times, when I would experience these feelings of another presence they would also follow by intense dreams, were I would be chased by monsters.

     These blogs are fantastic for without them I wouldn’t have realised that I have actually suppressed these memories.

564. I am really touched by this blog and how much you care Bianca to want to release impediments from living a full life.

565. Bringing more awareness to each moment presents doors of opportunity which we may not have otherwise noticed.

566. ‘We feel this energetic outplay all the time; we cannot stop feeling it but we can choose to live in a way, like I did, that numbs this awareness and makes us feel like it doesn’t exist.’ Bianca, you have just summed up, so beautifully, why we have so many issues in our world today with drug & alcohol abuse, obesity, caffeine & gaming addictions, in fact any addiction …… we’re all numbing ourselves like crazy. We all have the ability to feel so much more and when we don’t like what we’re feeling we choose to numb ourselves so we can feel comfortable again. However, this isn’t fixing anything, as soon as the comfortableness wears off, the dis-ease is still there and so the cycle continues unless we choose instead to take a look at what’s really going on, why are we feeling this way and how can we change things. Thank goodness for Universal Medicine for showing us that there is another way to live.

567. I remember worrying as a child trying to go to sleep, which would be the better choice, to lie facing the wall so I couldn’t see what I could feel was there or face the room so I would be able to see what I clearly felt. Being able to talk openly about such things with one of my grandchildren when she had a similar experience was awesome. I suggested she could tell the scary energy to “Go Away!” which it did completely after the 3rd time she said “Go Away!” very firmly.

568. I can totally relate to your escape plan Bianca – as a child I remember doing just the same. But I have a different experience now, no need to escape true Love and Connection. Thank you Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

569. Wow Bianca – thank you so much for committing to letting go your ‘escape plan’ and opening up to life in all its rawness and beauty. Each time one of us renounces our false creative ways it makes a stronger foundation for all to make the same choice. Wonderful!

570. You are so right Bianca – we never stop feeling. All we can do is shut the sense of feeling down, drown it, dull it, numb it, deny it. Such a crazy thing to do considering what becomes available to us if we do consent to ‘feel’ what is going on.

571. ‘I found it very difficult to accept what I was feeling in my body. The anxiousness felt so big and unbearable that I began to disconnect from my body and escape into my head where I would make up stories and run scenes of lovely images in my mind. This felt comforting and I would eventually fall off to sleep.’ It is so great to observe what has gone on here, and it applies not only to the situation of a child feeling an imposing presence in the dark, but also to our whole overall life situations where we see and feel so much hurt and cruelty in the world – we begin to create a world of ‘good images, of good things, of things that we hold to be good and pure but which are not. So we have escaped into a whole world created by the head which leaves out true feeling and thus truth.

572. It is refreshing and very very beautiful to read a blog such as this one which highlights the importance of building a true and loving foundation of connection and love within our body and hence in life. An unfortunate rarity to hear on the internet these days and hence a much needed presentation.

573. “the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.” Being present with every movement we make is so powerful. I found it makes me able to choose in each moment what way I want to live and to appreciate every step I make.

574. I can relate so well to what you have written, Bianca, as I too have lived in the ‘safe world’ of my mind only to discover how false and illusory that safety is. And like you, through the support of the Esoteric Modalities and the Teachings of the Ageless Wisdom, I also experience “The harmony I felt was amazing and yet so natural and it felt like every cell in my body was working as one. My mind was not racy, it was clear and focused on how my movements flowed and the centeredness I felt.”

575. ‘there has always been an unseen energetic outplay rippling underneath the physicality of life that we all have experienced but rarely speak of.’ and these conversations need to be had, in which we explore and honour what we feel, because it’s normal – for all of us.

576. Yes its true isn’t it…. We do feel everything …. Everyone does, and until this is recognized, accepted and indeed encouraged, humanity will never come to terms with its destiny.

577. Its interesting what you shared about feeling the anxiousness as a child and choosing to consciously disconnect from your feelings to find comfort in your mind. I feel this is a common coping mechanism for whatever we don’t want to feel and yet at great detriment and loss considering the absolute beauty and power available to us when we surrender to the depth and exquisiteness you have now experienced.

     1. I agree Samantha. The escape into our mind is a coping mechanism that is often championed, it is little wonder that most of us still use it, harmful though it may be. Bianca’s blog shows me that the misery that this choice brings is simply not worth the temporary feeling of relief.

578. Bianca I used to permanently scroll through a well worn catalogue of favourite fantasies and scenarios that was wedged firmly in my head. How I delighted in flicking through it’s well thumbed pages of falsification. The spiritual new age compounded my habit by implying that I could manifest things by having images of them first and then bringing them into being by believing in them enough. All in all I was simply checked out, numbed out and basically not at home. I now don’t fantasize or day dream at all, real life is a pretty magical affair, no need to go anywhere else.

579. Bianca as others have shared I felt a very similar situation growing up, energy at play that I did not like the feel of. And in a similar way I build a whole world in my mind, void of the reality of what was going on, what I didn’t want to feel. It was and has been my biggest drug, my biggest escape. A fantasy where I can “create” whatever I want. Yet that comes at a cost, I was not able to “deal” with life and felt empty when I was having to engaged in life. The more I’ve built being present with me the greater and simpler life has become, plus a whole lot more enjoyable.

580. Bianca such a deeply profound sharing. What you have shared is the key to understanding life, live it from the body and not the head, the body will lead us home and the head will lead us on a journey that has no end.

581. When we are having bad thoughts or fears it’s common to try and ‘fight’ this with more thoughts. Although they may be ‘happy’/’positive’ thoughts, overloading our heads with images and ideas can make us feel racy, overwhelmed and distracted. It’s really important what you’ve shared about how reading and observing what’s going on around us can be very supportive when we notice the bad thoughts coming in, and feeling into how our body is rather than focusing on countering it in our minds can help clear the shadows.

582. “The depth of this experience has left a beautiful new point of knowing for me to build on.” With this marker in our bodies we can make lasting, purposeful resolutions that serve one and all.

583. “I also felt open to accepting all that was going on around me, no judgment, simply acceptance with a knowing that with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way.” I can really relate to this Bianca, i have found that when i have allowed space for connection with my body, i no longer get swept up in what is going on around me, no longer do i feel this rising anxiousness within, but a contentedness, a unified settlement of body and mind that allows for my day to unfold without drive or push.

584. Another way I protected myself when I was a child not to feel any imposing energies was to overeat. In overeating, I remember feeling stuffed like a turkey, which also dulled my awareness and my ability to feel. This is something I still have to watch out for as this old habit of overeating became my comfort as I used food as a ‘ go to’ not too feel what was going on in my family.

585. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets…” beautiful Bianca its remarkable that through building a loving and honouring relationship with your body you are returning to see that your hypersensitivity is in fact a golden asset.

586. ‘ I felt so solid and grounded; there was an unwavering confidence that my body just knew how to move and what to do next’. I have more and more of these moments or rather periods, where I just feel amazing in my body and very light, and then I move in a way that truly supports this connection to my body. It is just a matter of claiming or just being in this gentle and tender way with my body all the time.

587. Bianca an “escape plan” is a great way to describe these coping mechanisms that we choose as a child, indeed many of the issues that we carry as adults are simply a more layered version of the original escape plans.

588. This blog is very timely to read Bianca because I have surrounded myself for a couple of days with people close to me saying they are fine when I can read the energetic outplay that gives a different feeling. We have all been in the similar situation of not wanting to admit the difficulties we feel, and it’s very important to understand and allow everyone to be where they are and hold them in love. When we strengthen holding of ourselves in connection, it gives the reflection of reconnection for everyone.

589. I can so relate to everything you have shared and experienced Bianca. I too am letting go of an old way of protecting myself, which was cutting off from feeling and dulling my awareness which as you mentioned only made my life miserable….. I too found Universal Medicine’s Modalities a fantastic support in healing my old behaviours and outdated way of living.

590. It’s so understandable that we want to escape into our heads when we can feel disturbing energies around us. It can be scary to stay in the body to fully feel what is there. This has changed for me since attending Universal Medicine events, as I now have an understanding and experience of what it feels like to be connected to myself within my body so I can observe what is going on. Without that solid connection to myself I can become lost and scared, but with that connection I know myself and I can feel love, which is much greater than any other energy that can choose to show itself. This is the missing element that can dissolve the fear.

591. I can also understand, after connecting more with what you write Bianca, how our patterns of pictures become such a habit. This is how I have behaved since early childhood to manage, I really didn’t remember there was another way. (because I have been recalling from my head!) We can have these images of how we think something will go, or how a meeting with another person will be, and plan what we are going to say, but I hadn’t realised until now that happens because we continue the pattern to make the picture in our heads, coming from disconnection and an anxiety that we may not be good enough. When we reconnect back to ourselves, we simply only ever need to be ourselves in any and every situation.

592. Bianca, you have given a voice to similar experiences of mine and it has re-awakened deeper awareness within me as I can reconnect to the escape plan that used to run through my head then, and understand how it supported me at the time, but that pattern of behaviour does not need to continue to run now. I know I thought distraction and disconnection would stop the feelings but energy never stops and the feeling of the nervous energy becomes the normal.

593. This is a great topic and one that you never ever hear being discussed, at least not amongst my family, friends, work colleagues – no one ever says ‘I’m feeling disconnected to my body today and in my head’ or ‘I’m daydreaming today so that I don’t have to feel what is going on with my body’. Being more in our heads and not being aware of our bodies has become our normal, but from what you have described here Bianca there is so much more we are missing out on by not being aware of this fact.

594. There’s a powerful constellation here, this blog offers support at a time when I need to receive the wisdom presented. The past few weeks have shown that I’m still learning how to completely surrender to the body and be more aware of the energy I choose in each movement I make. Thank you Bianca.

595. As I too let go of my escape plan I am connecting to the wisdom that my body shares when I am open and listening and out of my head!

596. Bianca I can relate to feeling scared at night as a child with feelings of ominous presences and weird shapes in the room. I also used going into my head and day dreaming as a way of dealing with it. This escaping into my mind as I grew up became normal and I disconnected strongly from my body. I am relearning to stay present and with my body and allowing myself to feel what is there to be felt.

597. You could of been writing about my own life here the similarities are so close if not spot on, which I reckon is relatable to so many people. We are not supported to express how we feel so all these tensions start to become overwhelming as they remain in the body. When we bottle up what we feel it hurts and the world’s response is to just leave the place (the body) and not deal with the disturbance. Over the last few months I am learning that the more I observe and face what I am feeling it clears out of my body whereas all the solutions from the mind are based on escape and not taking responsibility for the tension in my body. To face and express our awareness is far more healing than it is to ignore what our bodies cannot ignore.

598. ‘There was such a home-like quality in this level of surrender to my body, I knew without a doubt this is the way we are meant to live: the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.’ Bianca thank you for this powerful confirmation that we can re-connect to the harmony that lies within each one of us and so often missed when we allow the head to rule and not the body.

599. I spent so much of my life ‘out of my body’ – sometimes consciously so – that I thought that was ‘normal’. Learning to stay connected and stay in my body certainly felt like coming home.

600. Beautiful blog Bianca. We often don’t get confirmed in what we are feeling as young ones. This can set us up for a lifelong pattern of not wanting to feel and not trusting what we do feel. Coming to Universal Medicine presentations exposed this for me.

601. In the same way that we can use food or distractions to numb ourselves, what about when we use food, and eating less of it, to keep us racy and unaware? The over-eating numbing thing gets a lot of airtime, but the under-eating and the raciness it causes so that we’re not aware, also needs to be outed as another form of abuse.

     It all comes back to committing to really listening to the body and what it needs, and constantly fine tuning this so that we deepen that connection to it. It’s only then, when we have this connection, that we can surrender to its wisdom and trust its messages – and the more we do this, the more there is to feel, and the more we’re able to let go of the anxiety and trust in ourselves and life.

602. Thank you Bianca. Your blog has reminded me of how I felt as a child: on high alert, very anxious and racy and choosing to constantly wander off into my head and daydreams to avoid feeling and being aware of the energy I could feel around me. 30 years later, I’m only just now beginning to understand how I took this pattern with me into adulthood and to reconnect to my body that I haven’t wanted to be connected to for a long time. It sometimes feels like a long process but in fact it’s just a choice in every moment to choose to feel everything, and to observe rather than react to it. The more I surrender in my body, the more it relaxes and there’s a trust that builds: that I’m actually much more capable to deal with anything when I’m open to feeling and reading everything, rather than when I leave my body and go off into my head as a form of perceived protection.

603. My home felt amazing this morning, so still and divine, I felt aligned with it, I was saying yes to the energy that was in my home, with my heart, my soul. I was appreciating this choice. It can alter depending on how much I say yes to divinity, love and stillness. We all feel it, the whole family, in the home and in the world.

604. This is so confirming Bianca. As you say, we have all had experiences where we have felt that there is more to life than what we can immediately see. Letting our body and heart lead the way and trusting what we feel is a beautiful way to live.

605. Brilliant blog Bianca – I can relate to what you have written here and now have a deeper understanding from reading this why there was always a sense of being constantly on the alert and experiencing anxiousness from childhood time. Much of this has been addressed since attending and being deeply inspired by Serge Benhayon’s presentations and there are deeper layers that are still being exposed.

606. I agree, it is something that i do attempt to deny at times, but I know that there more I am willing to feel there clarify and ease I have felt in life…”I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets.” It has allowed me to stop feeling stressed, fearful and worried or unclear. I feel it, read it and let it go. The present is much more present.

607. As an adult some times when I have been on my own, in the dark, going to bed, walking somewhere, even in my home I have felt presence around me. I am realising I get to choose how close I allow it to come. To be willing to feel energy has enabled me to not allow it to scare or intimidate me as it used to. It is this understanding that if we are willing to feel it all, we will now it is in the body of God and not nearly as scary as it pretends to be and that we w are intimately more powerful when we stand in our connection God. Something that I am learning and honouring more, but it feels deeply familiar and something that is natural, real and supportive.

608. Even highlighting this possibility of an escape plan shines a light on something many of us may well be doing inadvertently. We are taught distraction techniques from an early age, for example counting sheep, but seldom are we taught to listen deeper to our bodies and to truly connect.

609. Once we are re-acquainted to letting ourselves feel everything, our life is never the same again that just keeps expanding.

610. Great how you mention that these experiences resulted in a disconnect, I have felt that in my life. Coming back to a relationship with and in my body endnote just with my head has deeply supported my well being and feeling of connection, love and support in my life.

611. You have reminded me of how I felt at night. Some nights I used be petrified by noises, shapes, things in my room and I recall my body going stiff and hard and yes, I also went into my head with dreams. I am a parent now and we talk about energy with our children. We are all learning here, but we honour that we do feel energy and that this is real and not just in our heads. This step enables us to have more clarity and so counter the energy that is not love, that is all around us and a choice away. And I know as a child I was hounded at bedtime without support to challenge or see it for all that it was, energy is real and it is a part of all of our lives.

612. Bianca, what you have written feels so true, ‘We can come back from this choice though, by connecting to our body and allowing ourselves once again to be honest about how and what we feel.’ I have become aware lately how I often feel what is going on around me and then go into my head and overide this, when I override what I’m feeling it doesn’t work, the override is always exposed and there is again a confirmation that what I originally felt was true.

613. Well said Bianca, I used to think that trying to protect myself from what was going on in the world was the best way to deal with it. So I would withdraw, not speak up and generally accept what was happening. But none of this worked, I was exhausted and very unsettled in my body struggling hugely with insomnia amongst other things. Whereas I now know the only protection is love and being open to be aware of what is going on.

614. To shut off our awareness and dull down our ability to feel energy leaves us confined to an empty, cold and isolated place, which is not our natural state of being and will leave us forever longing for love and connection.

615. That escape plan into the head is a trap as it just leads us further away from truth. When we understand that energy is all around and passing through us all the time those ‘feelings’ begin to make sense and we no longer need to fear the unknown.

616. I also experienced this as a child and I was so scared, nobody was able to help me because they were not able to see this. Remebering myself of these nights I feel my heart so closed down and anxious. It is like I go willingly under an energy which wants to frighten me. I understand myself so much that I numb myself to not see and feel these energies anymore.
     I have the feeling that also the religious belief has a lot to do to foster this fear concerning those energies.
     Today I feel very different through The Way of the Livingness. I know about these energies, I know that they exist, but do not have any power over me. I know truth and therefore I feel more strong.

617. “I had the most exquisite feeling of surrender where my body was leading and my mind was following smoothly along.”
     This is a very new approach to life! We are taught from young that the mind is it and the reason for our intelligence – it is supposedly the mind that makes us the so called leading species on the planet. Who would have thought that exactly the opposite is true and that our body has access to a much greater intelligence, an intelligence we have lost connection to long ago.

618. The world that we live in is totally populated with checked out people , everything is set up so that it is so easy to get sucked into it. I just cannot believe this new pokermon craze thing that is going on. If these people could check in with themselves instead of their smart phone once in a while, it would be a good thing. So it’s great to hear that there are people like you Bianca connecting to themselves on this level and writing about it so we can all get there one day.

619. If people were just to consider that energy exists, for a moment, it would make sense of so many situations. In this instance there would be no problem with calling your parents in because you feel a presence… instead the focus would be on what is energetically going on and that in itself would be confirming for the child and already put them back in the driving seat, and confirm that what they feel is true.

620. Now that’s a world that I would love to see happen.

621. Bianca – a beautiful blog and sharing thank you. You summed the key to the simplicity of life up in your last paragraph ‘I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets, because this means we can have a true understanding of the energetic outplay of all things and thus make choices that support us to stay in our connection and keep building our knowing of life.’ This says it all.

622. Once in disconnection the monsters feel so huge and there seem to be a thousand reasons to stay unaware of the truth. But the truth is so much stronger than any monster could possibly be.

623. Reading this blog has enable me to be super honest about how ‘busy’ my mind is; always planning and chattering. What is sacrificed and lost is the wisdom continuously on offer – it’s like having two radio channels – which one do we tune into?

624. As young children we are naturally very open in our hearts and can sense everything around us.
     We know energy but we have no explanation for it and are unable to express what we are feeling.
     I was supersensitive as a child and depending on what I felt around me was how open I allowed myself to be, therefore calibrating my love 24/7. Only now do I realise that our love and light that we come from is more power- full than any outside influence/ energy coming at us.

625. I too remember being terrified of the dark if I was all alone in my bedroom, as I sensed there was something out there, which could not be visually seen. I felt unsafe most nights so I would curl myself into a ball protecting myself and this is how I would go to sleep. I would leave my body and believe I was invisible like ‘casper the friendly ghost’. Here no-one could see me or touch me. This so-called protective behaviour continued well into my adulthood. If I felt unsafe anywhere I would just leave my body in a flash. And only when it appeared safe would I choose to come back into my body. This left me with feeling anxiousness all the time and led me to keeping myself busy i.e. raciness, or dulling myself with food so I couldn’t feel the tension in my body. Thanks to the help of the gentle breathe technique taught by Serge Benhayon and healing sessions from esoteric practitioners that I have reconnected to my body and can feel the strength within, therefore not needing to leave my body anymore.

626. It is just exquisite to feel when the body is allowed to just be and start navigating my movement from its core essence. I really miss that.

627. I can very much relate to escaping from the body into head, but it never actually stopped me from being hyper sensitive, and I didn’t even realise how disconnected I was from my own body – as that was the only way I knew and was used to be, and my experience tells me that that way of living makes it very hard to comprehend the world and its people.

628. My whole life I seem to have been more sensitive to feeling things when it was dark. I have often wondered whether this is because there is more to feel at night, or if it is simply because we cannot rely on our normal sense of sight that our other senses, including our “6th sense,” become more heightened.

629. As a very young child of 2 or 3 i wet the bed, and it was a real family issue at home. I always had to have my bedroom door ajar to see the shaft of light of the hallway. I could always feel a presence and any subtle changes in the room during sleep time… and when unable to sleep I would ask for my parents to come and sleep with me, or me with them…. and if they didn’t respond, get my duvet and drag it into my brother’s rooms and sleep on their floor. I would also wake and sit up in my bed in the middle of the night, and see things/images/scenes too, not knowing if what i saw was for real or a dream, and at times would often feel a presence up close breathing on or pressing down, it was terrifying. It’s really necessary to address the levels of anxiety that infiltrate a young child/person’s life and talk about what they can feel is going on, because dismissing or keeping quiet or as rubbish, means that as adults we then don’t trust what we do feel, that results in self-doubt and lack of confidence, which has certainly been the case and theme with me. This huge momentum of lived anxiousness is what i continue to work on dissolving today… and to not feel anxious would be the most freeing thing ever.

630. Yes Bianca, a very similar story for myself too, this avoiding what we’ve felt – has been for as long as i can remember and indeed causes a shut down or switch off.. and the result a “talking head”, and as time went by this manifested into the most severe or acute neck aches in my 20’s, and although i would understand i needed to to see a medical practitioner/chiropractor, i never connected to a more meaningful reason for my pain – the anxiousness of living not connected to my body or myself [and what that actually means and is].. because i didn’t want to feel what i could feel. The moment i chose to feel, and come back to my body, my truth, the severity of the neck pain went completely.

631. Everything is energy and we could feel energy all the time. Being able to feel energy and being aware of what we are feeling is very powerful. No wonder there are forces around that want to deter us from feeling from our bodies by retreating into our heads. Our minds can make the most absurd claims which are not true, but our bodies can never lie.

632. Escaping from our bodies and retreating into our minds is only a temporary comfort that needs to be sustained constantly, which is deeply exhausting. Not only does it not relieve us from truly feeling (it can only dull us), it delays us in being aware of truth from not wanting to feel, and that causes tension in us like a poison, not to mention the back log that we still have to eventually deal with one day, it is just not worth it.

633. Thanks Bianca, I suspect you have put words to something I experienced a great deal too, but chose less awareness around. I had many ways to dull that awareness and not acknowledge what was in fact there and what I could feel.

634. How empowering would it be to regain the sensitivity we had when we were children

635. There is no greater protection than a fully open heart that allows us to feel the enormity and expansive nature that we all are in essence.

636. We often don’t receive outer confirmation of the subtleties we feel.

     Being aware of and understanding energetic outplay brings a deeper settlement and confirmation of that which we have always known but perhaps not said.

     1. I agree, often life is lived not the surface layer, but there is some much more going. I had a conversation yesterday where I went to talk about the surface layer, something that bothered me and I stopped and decided no, it is the energy that needs to be discussed. What is the intention of the energy, in this choice, this issue. I went from the ‘comfortable’ outer layer and broached energy in a very regular conversation and it felt amazing to go there. I have chosen this before, but I really appreciated, how often our conversations are kept to the surface, where we can make the choice to go deeper and it felt great. I do this with certain people, but I am now feeling are able and confident to do this in any situation. Why should I have to be confident to talk about energy, it is so real to me and yet it is denied by so many. Time to make a new normal and talk energy.

637. ‘I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets, because this means we can have a true understanding of the energetic outplay of all things and thus make choices that support us to stay in our connection and keep building our knowing of life.’
     This is super freeing and empowering to live in this way.

638. How is it we have experienced feeling unseen energies, yet we accept they are not real. I had an experience when I moved into a house, spending the first night by myself, I was frightened by a presence that had me grab my bag and leave. Can’t tell me that wasn’t real, it was only when I acknowledged it to be the husband of the former owner that I felt safe to re enter.

639. Great conversation to be opening up, as the more education we can bring to what often goes left unspoken, the more awareness and understanding we have. Children’s sensitivity is something to encourage and nurture so we don’t grow up feeling the need to protect or distract from what we are truly feeling.

640. Bianca thank you for your experience, you have left a beautiful new point of knowing for me to build on, and acknowledge in my own body. I have felt this complete knowing, but not appreciated the tactics I have used to avoid these feelings, as a result living with certain ‘go to measures’ so as to dull my awareness.

641. It’s ironic how eventually – a racy mind will cause trouble getting to sleep (well it did in my case) I remember laying off to sleep on most school nights in grade 11 and 12 with thousands of images and scenes, songs and thoughts racing through my head and at that point it became very scary, why couldn’t I get to sleep? Our mind which is made to be with our body, when used in isolation is very dangerous! It only knows what goes in.

642. Thanks Bianca! Our minds have become the common tool for escape and pleasure. It is quite bizarre how we can create and play out many fantasies in our mind and run them – meanwhile reality is always happening and our body is experiencing so many things. Coming back to simplicity and presence does wonders for the anxiousness in the body and a racy mind begins to settle.

643. Wow Bianca, this is an amazing description of your escape plan and how you managed to ‘escape’ that and come back to the reality of living here in the body! I did not experience the ‘presences in the dark’ thing as a child but when I first began to see my ex-husband and my little daughter and I would stay overnight at his place I could not stay in the bedroom my daughter was sleeping in very long when I was tucking her in. I just wanted to get out of there. My daughter seemed okay so I didn’t raise any questions and thought I was a little crazy. Some years after she confided to me how terrifying it was to go to sleep in that room and it felt as if a murderer was climbing in the window and how it wasn’t like this at our home. If only we had communicated with each other. I will do it differently next time!

644. All children are super sensitive – that’s how we are born – open, feeling everything before we’ve developed skills to understand speech and communicating this as we know how. As we grow up, we learn to dull this sensitivity, to dull our awareness. But I’ve realised that it doesn’t change the fact that I still feel and sense everything going on around me, just as I did as a child, I’ve just developed strategies so as to not be aware of what I’m feeling, but am slowly returning to my natural state of being which is to feel everything and just observe it and not react to it… I’m very much a work in progress with this and do still choose to dull myself or escape into my mind to think things through or analyse things, but with what I’ve learnt from Universal Medicine, I have ways to bring myself back.

645. I really enjoyed reading your blog Bianca. Leaving our body and going into our head as a form of protection and distraction from feeling all that is going on around us doesn’t change the fact we are still feeling it all, and are being affected by it on an energetic level. It has also been my experience that when I stay connected with my body and let myself feel it all, it is actually the best form of ‘protection’ as my body knows what to do next.
     There is such wisdom that we can access through our bodies.

646. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets.” I wholeheartedly agree Bianca as I too spent a lot of my life daydreaming and thinking of stories to offset my fear and anxiousness I carried for a lot of my life. Having the power of awareness and connection from our bodies is a beautiful gift we have and it is as simple as making a choice to connect or not to connect. We can re-configure our movements instantly, that’s a pretty cool asset to have.

647. Your “escape plan” Bianca, is something many of us develop quite early on as a way of dealing with the world. But we pay a price for this “comforting relief” and as you say there is an awareness of something “achingly missing”.

648. Beautiful Bianca , simply beautiful as when I read your words I sense this feeling of absolute wonderfull light that is there , sitting there in presence, instead of this hiding and checking out (being not there). This shows us the importance of self-connection, a love that knows no bounds – one that is allowing us to be in the moment- just who we are..

649. Bianca, this “level of surrender” does have a “home-like quality” because it is how we naturally are before we layer ourselves with the tensions of dealing with the world.

650. “. . .without a doubt I could feel that something was there lurking in the shadows even though there was no visual proof.” Bianca, many children experience this and your blog helps confirm that though there is no proof they are not making it up. It’s very damaging for children if the parents dismiss what they have seen because the children then start to doubt their own perceptions and often stop expressing what they feel.

     1. I as a child, and still today, feel energy. Thank God for Serge Benhayon who was the first one to put voice to these feelings in a very normal and part of life way (energy) without all the so called weird spiritual witchcraft talk that I had heard people say in my life. Life is energy and we must learn to feel all by caring for ourselves, remaining in connection with our bodies so we can make the truest choices.

651. Thank you Bianca for speaking about something many people do not, and that is that as children, we did feel energies around us at night that led to feelings of anxiety, being afraid of the dark and not being able to sleep. I certainly experienced this and remember having tummy aches to the point where my parents would get a Dr out in the night on a couple of occasions thinking I might have appendicitis only for the Dr to say nothing physically was wrong. And I sometimes would sleep on a pull out bed in my parents bedroom because I was so scared of sleeping alone. It was intense and I can still remember it all these years later. I always felt a presence around me at night and was terrified of the dark. Like you, I was very sensitive and used to escape into my head to daydream and escape what I was feeling in my body.

     1. Yes it is refreshing for more of these sharings to be out there. We all feel, it’s just for some reason do not speak about it – which is crazy and a bit like ignoring what is happening around us. So if we choose to ignore or dumb down what we feel then what body are we making our choices from?

652. The more we are open to all that is going on around us the more we are able to respond in truth and walk with Love, as this is what the world in is need of today.

653. You have expressed so much of what I experienced as a child also Bianca. I too remember as a child shutting out the feelings of what I could sense around me, including in my room me at night. Not being understood and unaware that the power of my connection to Soul was greater than any force that existed, I found an escape in being silent and pretending that what I was feeling was not real. Cutting myself off from the very core of my essence, my connection to truth gave way to an anxiousness to exist that troubled me for as long as I can remember. I now know that shutting out what I feel in protection offers no safety but in fact separates me from the greatest strength we have, our connection to our truth, to our essence.

654. Thank you Bianca for this wonderful and very timely blog; I was in tears from the first line as I found myself back in my childhood bed, terrified of what I could feel around me, not being able to do anything about it, and not able to share it with anyone. No wonder my body, like yours, was always on high alert, waiting for the next “attack” in whatever form that appeared in. After years of living with this anxiousness and the huge effects in my body, I am finally beginning to understand the reasons why, thanks to the inspiring presentations of Serge Benhayon, and with that understanding the healing of the anxiousness is slowly unfolding, and the days of living on edge are slowly becoming a thing of the past.

655. “There was such a home-like quality in this level of surrender to my body, I knew without a doubt this is the way we are meant to live: the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.” I had a very similar experience the other day when a removalist was delivering things to a storage shed quite late in the afternoon. They were very tired and becoming a little irritable, but there was a time limit for them to finish the job before the gates closed, so they had to get on with it. I also was very tired, but amazingly became extremely focussed and positive, I felt as if I went far beyond my own mind, I felt an enormous support and just knew how to instruct them and support them in what they had to do with each item. It was as if I was being led by a very strong impulse and the whole job just flowed incredibly, and they were finished well before the gates were due to be shut. Yes, I can see as you share, I have had a similar experience, and now I know that is how we are meant to be living all the time. Instead of feeling more tired that day, I felt quite refreshed, and relieved with a job done well. How crazy it is that we forget that great support that is there within us all the time, if we just let ourselves let go and surrender.

     1. The amount of wisdom in our body is incredible. The more I allow myself to surrender I am continually blown away with just how must wisdom my body shares and is connected to – how much of the All we can access if we do choose to.

656. Bianca this is so great what you have shared. We are not just our physical bodies and there is FAR more to life than what we see with our eyes. I too could feel the presence of dark or not very nice energies around when I was a child, and sometimes still feel them now. I would forever be asking if I could get into the middle of my mum and dads bed when I was little as I felt nothing could get me there and I would be protected. Even as a teenager when everyone was out at night and I needed to loo I would be too scared to go upstairs so would camp out by the tv all night until someone came home. And it completely makes sense from reading your blog why I was so mental (in my mind the whole time) as a young adult … because it was an escape mechanism of not wanting to feel what I could feel. I used to be a walking head the whole time .. and sometimes it feels in moments I still do this a bit ‘It was like I was a walking head completely disconnected from my body and filled with distracting thoughts while I went about the activity of my life.’ We can numb ourselves to what we feel by tv, alcohol, food, drugs, denial … so many many things that billions of us use everyday to not feel. But what if this was just because we thought or felt we are alone with these experiences, not just ones to do with feeling something around us but questioning the purpose of life or feeling how there must be something more to life than what we are living. That is why conversations like these are vital in opening up discussions so everyone knows we are not alone. And thank goodness for Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine who are dedicated to living and presenting the Truth.

657. This blog brings an opportunity to reflect on my own experiences of childhood and the realisation that there are very few childhood memories of my early years. This tells me that i choose to block out all that I was feeling happening around me and the power to do this is profound. This sensivity we experience as a child never leaves us and so what we do to numb or dull ourselves is exposed. The different ways we can distract ourselves is growing and encouraged by the world around us but what you are sharing Bianca shows that in any moment we choose the level of re-connection we are open to.

658. “I would constantly run conversations through my mind, making plans or daydreaming about what might happen”. I know all about that one, Bianca, I have been so good at playing out scenarios in my mind, for example maybe something I should have said to someone but held back, or the ‘what if’ scenario if I am afraid how something may go wrong that I am thinking of doing. These images that we build with our own minds can be so very damaging, they are not truth, just things that are being fed to us through the mind. How beautiful it is when we can let go those games that our minds play, connect deeply to ourselves and FEEL the truth of a situation and KNOW what needs to be done.

659. We all do feel energy and are responding or reacting to the energy we feel constantly throughout our day. For example whenever we ask how someone is and they answer that they are OK, we know, we can sense whether this is true or not. Yet how do we respond when we feel this is not true? Do we retreat, go into protection and tread on eggshells so as not to upset them further or try to ‘make the happy’ or do we respond with truth and love? I have discovered the more I stay connected to my body the more truth I am able to respond with in any situation that I am in. My relationship with my body is one that I cherish deeply and choose to continue to develop and deepen. As it is this relationship that supports me and my connection to my Soul through my every breath.

660. Beautiful blog, Bianca. I had such a sense of familiarity when I read your introductory remarks about how you were afraid of the dark and felt so sensitive and anxious because of all the things you were feeling when you were young. I realise this is also what I shut down to so long ago. I know I used a similar strategy, going into my mind to distract myself. For many years I buried myself in books and distracted myself with imagining myself in all the exciting situations that were presented by these stories. But how refreshing it now feels to let that all go and truly let myself feel what is there to be felt. And what is there to be felt within us is so absolutely awesome, who would want to run away from that?

661. I was constantly being told I was a daydreamer as a child and I came to feel it was an acceptable thing to do. In truth I was literally escaping from life and therefore not a participant in it. The more I retreated into my preferred world the less confident I was about dealing with life, and so, the more anxiousness became a constant companion. The work of Universal Medicine and Serge Benhayon has made a huge difference to my life. I engage with life and people more and more and notice very quickly if my mind tries to wander off. I am relearning to feel everything as your beautiful blog so clearly explains Bianca.

662. Very beautiful Bianca. Our bodies are our divining instrument of God through which we are guided to know and access universal wisdom untold which resides within every single one of us. Our willingness to surrender to the truth in our bodies is the key that will open the door to all that is already deeply known of the truth of our Soul and all that is not of this truth.

663. Hello Bianca and you must have watched my childhood videos because it was the same for me. I was scared of the dark and would always go to sleep with the light on. Shadows, noises, anything would spook me. Mum and Dad would always be in my room checking out the cupboard and under the bed. At times it would terrify me and I got use to the fact that I would feel something but when I couldn’t see it physically or it was proven that this wasn’t ‘true’ that I would then shut this feeling down. It was like I was open to another world almost and then when I couldn’t understand it, I discarded it.

664. When we deeply honour our sensitivity rather than run away from it, it becomes our strength, our super power. Staying connected to our body is paramount to this honouring.

665. The timing of this blog is impeccable for me. Last night I had a night terror which I rarely have and I thought something was coming to get me. It kinda freaked me out and once I fully came out of sleep, and checked the house as nothing was there, I grabbed my mobile and checked my emails. This was escaping in my head to not feel what was going on. I spent a lot of the day feeling out of sorts.

     And in the ride to work, listening on the radio. they were interviewing an adult who had been abused by a priest as a child. He talked about dissociative disorder and he described a bit like a living hell when you are in your body but have separated and you know you need to get back in but not sure how and if you stay out for too long, they could take you to the mental ward of the hospital. i know these 2 aren’t really related but in some way they are, we use many tools – to varying degrees – to check out from the true energetic forces around us.

     So thank you Bianca for writing so impeccably on this subject and reminding us that there is unseen energetic forces around us at any time and that when we choose to live in connection to our bodies, we are equipped to deal with whatever comes our way – to the best of our ability.

     1. This would be a great discussion and addition to understanding mental health Sarah! Thanks for sharing.

666. I love how you’ve described being connected to your body ~ we tend to not want to be connected and live from it day to day, yet life is so much easier and simpler when we do. Not to mention we feel amazing !

667. A common “go to” to not feel is to escape into our minds. This can give us temporary relief for a while and that may even last years or lifetimes, yet at some point our body starts to offer us signs that we can’t ignore calling us deeply to return to a way of living and being where the body and mind are working together in unison.

668. I wonder how many people experienced / experience the same thing. I remember feeling similar when I little.. And I know That I use to dream up fantasies and play senarios out in my head to get by. How awesome to know how to support our children with it now, rather then keep it in the loop.

669. Disconnecting from our body and escaping into our head is a common theme for many people to avoid feeling all that is going on around us. Imagine if at school that we were taught that it is okay to feel, that it is our natural way of being, but also offered the tools to support us to stay connected to our body so we are not affected by what it is that we feel. We would grow up holding our sensitivity, not shutting down or going into protection, yet not be affected by that which is surrounds us.

670. I love that Otto I too have that experience of expanding into the universe it is awesome to feel and know so tangibly how gorgeous to have that confirmed by everyday people doing every day things. We are so much more than what can be seen and physically felt. SO so much more!

671. Interesting points raised about feeling energies around you at night time, I actually had a sound which others also could hear, I was not afraid of it though more intrigued and baffled. Now I know it was an entity around me that wasn’t doing anything sinister but just reminding me that everything is not about what we just see it is about energy and other realms/dimensions.

672. A great subject to explore as so many of us are disconnected to our bodies. It can seem so much safer to hang out in our heads but we miss out on so much grandness and beautiful feelings that can only be felt in our bodies.

     1. And also in addition to missing ourselves – we end up missing out and being able to appreciate all the beauty in others and nature around us that is literally taking place every second of the day.

673. The way you describe these protective behaviours Bianca, the thoughts and places in our head are like TV channels we can switch into to, to try and block out life. No wonder as adults we are so addicted to the internet and TV series that you can download. It seems this relentless desire to escape does not go away but just escalates the more that we grow. Wow, what would our life actually be like, if we accepted and embraced all that is unseen that we can actually feel?

674. To know who I am and who we all are again does change everything.

675. When I was a child I wish someone would have told me that this monsters are there but that they can not hurt me because I am sacred and this sacredness is in fact indestructible.

676. True understanding does really support so much our empowerment. I am blown away how less I am in fear or anxious since I study with Universal Medicine and understand more about what truly is going on.

677. I can relate to this experience. Last week after an amazing working together with a friend, I felt a few hours later so incredible much lightness in my arms and through my body. For me this was a marker and confirmation of the Divinity we are from and that indeed surrendering to the body is the only way to live in a oneness connected to the oneness outside of us.

678. The anxiety I felt as a child and as an adult were very much ‘unreal’ like monsters under my bed or in the cupboard, or the darkness, or strangers who will come into my house and rape me. With Universal Medicine courses and teachings I found that all is energy and so that nothing is totally ‘unreal’. It is maybe not truth but somehow it did became ‘real’ in a sense as a creation from the spirit. Also with more understanding and healing I realized how much I do not trust in my choices for truth (but for creations) and so was looking outside for a solid thing, looking outside for a partner, relationships and circumstances which would give me a ‘safe feeling’. But in fact I felt not safe at all…maybe comfortable but not really unhurt and sound. The mechanisms to not feel my hurts as my vulnerability did vary from checking out (dreaming from a different reality) till fighting. Through my way with Universal Medicine I found a different way to live. To deal with it. To take responsibility about all my choices. To connect deeply with people. To serve all in the way to live more harmony instead of making sure that I am ‘safe’. Even it is ‘normal’ to look for protection when we feel hurt or anxious it is not the way that heals us from this feelings – the opposite is the case and I am very much thankful to have people in my life who support me to re-learn to trust and to understand what is really going on. Connection instead of separation and empowerment (through understanding/reading) instead of powerlessness is what Universal Medicine does offer. I take this offer and scare away the monsters till they transform again to who the truly are.

679. Bianca thank you your experience as a child that has offered me a greater understanding and connection back to my body. Being hyper sensitive to all that is energetically and physically around is very familiar. I have been aware for a long time as being hyper vigilant in surveying my surrounds by using my peripheral vision. Doing this to make sure I was safe. What I’ve just understood is that it is possibly the energetic impositions I was looking out for more than the physical.

680. We start numbing at a very early age because as children we are not truly heard when we voice what is really happening for us, and this is related to the fact that our parents were not heard either. Universal Medicine is showing us a new way of parenting which is so needed where children are met at all levels and will not need to numb themselves to feel safe in this world.

681. What an honest sharing Bianca and how fantastic that you have been able to see the one thing that you thought was saving you was actually in fact crippling you. Universal Medicine has so much they offer everyone, the wisdom, clarity and understanding from what Serge Benhayon presents is profound yet so practical and real. It makes sense that if we dull our awareness and find a way to ignore this that this is going to create dis-harmony and contraction in our bodies. Being prepared to see everything and not just at face value but on an energetic value is one thing that I keep deepening in and the more I do the more life becomes easier and at the same time I feel the enormity of what we are a part of in this Universe.

682. It is great to understand what was really going on when I was a child. With support from Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine I told these spirits to GO AWAY! And they did ! Now I can tell children when they are attacked that they can be themselves and tell the nightmares to leave.

683. I remember too as a child being afraid of the dark but this fear was always dismissed as there was nothing visibly there. I now know that there were spirits and entities there, trying to scare me into shutting down my body, from disconnecting as you describe Bianca. If only as adults it was widely known this is the case children’s feelings and fears at night would not be dismissed, they would be confirmed instead which supports the child to feel confident and strong in what they know and feel.

684. Interesting that so many who have commented on this blog have shared the same experience! Clearly there are energies that like to disturb and clearly each child who experiences them feels very alone in this. I know for a fact that one of my children has been targeted this way, but what has supported her the most is knowing that we understand and believe what she is communicating.

685. Escaping into thoughts that are disconnected from our body and what we’re actually feeling is a major epidemic. Great to talk about this and bring awareness to it as we can be so used to getting lost in our mind that we think that’s just how life is and don’t appreciate the harm it causes us or that it is possible to practically live connected with our feelings and intuition.

686. Bianca your closing paragraphs have inspired me to let go of the tight grip I have on my escape behaviours. Living in denial of what we know is so obviously true hurts us deeply.

687. I can certainly relate to your escape plan Bianca as I went the same way. Not wanting to feel I went into my head and spent a lot of time there and also numbed myself with food… I am learning too the power of being consistently present in the body but it is slow going as I often find myself in my head again and have to keep reminding myself to feel my body!

688. It is great that you have opened up a conversation about energies. With so much anecdotal evidence it is quite surprising how we are quick to dismiss that there is more going on than the eye can see. As a child I didn’t feel particularly safe in the dark and was aware of heavy energies but learned to dismiss them as those around me were telling me that nothing was there..

689. I used to pretend these energies didn’t exist and my escape was reading, and eating. I spent many years of my adult life numbing myself from feeling things that I felt were too uncomfortable. The reality is they don’t go away and we never stop feeling, we just take the edge off for a little while.

690. I can relate to feeling unpleasant energies around me when I was a child. At night I used to wrap the blanket around me and make sure my head was covered and my feet were not poking out of the bottom as if that would somehow protect me. It would have been great to be able to talk about these experiences as a child. Its only since becoming an adult that I have started to feel comfortable having conversations about them. What is interesting is that almost everyone I talk to has experienced similar things.

691. I have so much clarity when I live connected, it is when I disconnect that the world gets rather foggy.

692. I can allow my mind and thoughts to run me ragged with self critism and negativity, the relief is also abuse so it makes no sense that I do not choose to live connected to my body in every moment.

693. We disconnect from feeling what is there to be felt and live from our heads in a world of images and ideals which will never match and only ever cause disappointment. Our bodies take the hit when we live like this, we feel racy and exhausted in return for a moments relief.

694. Your childhood experience is so familiar to me Bianca, and I have also lived most of my life escaping into my head, fantasies at first and then invading thoughts and mental control. Cutting off from being aware of what is happening around us, and the energies that are affecting us, feels like a safe thing to do, but by vacating ourselves we make ourselves even more vulnerable, and so the tension builds. Something inside me knew that fully inhabiting my body was the key to healing this, as I worked in body work all my life. I thought I knew my body but I didn’t, and it was not until I met Universal Medicine that I began to find out what being in my body really means. It is an ongoing journey , and your break through and transformation shows how we can heal even from the most damaging child experiences, for we learn that nothing can actually hurt us if we know and feel our inner essence, the love that we are and the power we have to express our full selves.

695. ” I have strengthened my commitment to let go of my escape plan and continue to build this relationship with my body that supports me to feel the enormous wisdom that we all hold within.” Bianca thank you. I had an escape plan too, day dreaming, going into my head but like you building a relationship with my body those so called coping ways disappear and with that connection I can continue to feel but with a steadiness be guided by my own wisdom from within and listening to my body.

696. At night I used to lie in my bed and feel my whole body, soul, everything just expand and expand to an infinite degree. Sometimes it scared me. The sheer size of it all. But mostly I loved it and would welcome it and would love going to bed and experiencing it. I never spoke to anyone about it (I know there was no point because it would just be written off as hocus-pocus) and it is only after listening to the teachings of Universal Medicine that I have begun to understand what was going on. We are so way, way, way more than what most of us live.

     1. Amazing to read this Otto! There are 2 kinds of sleep then, one like you have described where we expand and are with our Soul and expand to infinity (awesome sleep) and one where we stay stuck in our stuff and enter the mind, and I am learning it all comes down to choices during the day including up until closing my eyes and after, every second counts.

697. It’s so crazy how I used to hold on so tight. Trying to feel safe and secure. And now that I am letting go I have never felt more solid in myself. For years and years I had it totally the wrong way round.

     1. I so hear you on that one Otto.

698. “It was like I was a walking head completely disconnected from my body and filled with distracting thoughts while I went about the activity of my life.”
     I can so relate Bianca as I used the same strategy to not feel what is going on around me. I am now learning that being fully aware and feeling everything is a much better way to deal with life and a healthier one too!

699. This story I very much relate to – every sentence. It’s great to hear another voice speaking up about being sensitive to energy. I did not know the term hypersensitive. I have a very similar story .. My father took me to the doctor not knowing how to deal with it. It was full on .. I remember how a figure would walk towards me when I woke in the middle of the night. To this day I still sleep with a pillow over my head. This is just one example..
     There is much to the energetic world — a world worth knowing – “…and thus make choices that support us to stay in our connection and keep building our knowing of life.” I used to think this was a disadvantage but it is confirmation that there is more to life.

700. How rich our feeling sense is and how much we are forever feeling and aware of around us is endless.
     When we connect to what we are feeling rather than escaping our body, we are able to understand life more deeply and all that is at play, the seen and unseen.

701. Feeling and trusting our inner-knowing tops anything the eye can see or the mind conjure up.

702. What a treasure-trove of insights – thank you Bianca.

703. I found this line struck me as where confidence comes from…”simply acceptance with a knowing that with this connection to my body I could handle anything that was to come my way.”

704. Thank you Bianca, this is most beautifully explained how we can feel so much but learn to dim our awareness and then, with this limited awareness, feel at loss, insecure and anxious, and how grand it actually is to allow ourselves to be aware as the more we are aware of everything the more we will understand and see life.

705. It is quite remarkable how similar the experiences are that we have as children and yet we feel alone with them as our parents have learned that these feelings and the sensing that something is not quite right is not real. So we all get caught up in this cycle of denying our own feelings and living more and more form our heads. What a blessing to have Serge Benhayon who presents life as a whole and not only what we can see with our eyes, so we can step by step reclaim and honour what is innately ours – our sixth sense, and with that learn to trust ourselves again.

706. Energy first then physicality is our true way of knowing what is actually going on around us.

707. Bianca I can so relate to your story of feeling like there was something there. I too used to feel that when I was young, but unlike you, I was fine if I didn’t see what was there so, I would have to put my head under the blankets, as my theory was if I couldn’t see it I felt ok. And that’s how I went to sleep even in summer for many years, until one day, I just didn’t need to do that anymore. I never told anyone how I felt or what was happening most nights and I too, used to go off into my head and daydream, preferring to be in my daydream than have to feel what was going on around me.

708. I have learnt protection doesn’t work, it creates a huge big wall to keep people out. It’s a bit like on one side there’s the person on their own who loves and longs to be with people, and can feel, hear and sense all the joy and fun the people on the other side are having partying in the sun. But they haven’t quite realised is all they need to do is take a few steps to the left or right and the wall stops, they can just walk right round.

709. Bianca, a powerful statement
     “I felt so solid and grounded; there was an unwavering confidence that my body just knew how to move and what to do next.” One we all need to hear and ponder on the absolute wisdom that is held in your words. Then after the pondering accept the possibility that living life in truth has always come from the body. Either a body filled with our full selves that brings through the solid knowing, or one open to the energies, demands and pushes of others that fills our bodies with anxiousness. Either way, our body dictates our actions.

710. “I have strengthened my commitment to let go of my escape plan and continue to build this relationship with my body that supports me to feel the enormous wisdom that we all hold within.” This is an awesome statement Bianca and one I can fully appreciate. I had never realised how much I used daydreaming as a way of escaping from the world, a way of avoiding what I was feeling. I can really appreciate what a huge commitment this is. The Universal Medicine healing modalities are an immense and God given support that empower us to re-build our relationship with our bodies and allow our selves to start feeling the world around us once more from a place of steady inner stillness that allows us to observe what we can feel and to respond accordingly so that the desire to escape eventually becomes entirely redundant.

711. The truth is that children are regularly visited by spirits (humans out of bodies) in the night. We should be confirming our children on their awareness and sensitivity and not telling them that what they are truly feeling is not true, for that causes great harm, shuts them down and disconnects them from their bodies. We too would have been aware of these energies when we were very young, but if we were not supported we might have forgotten and shut ourselves down to true feeling. This disconnection from our true feelings and bodies is a major contributor to the disharmony and rise in illness and disease we see in the world.

     1. Talking about spirits and entities is not as far out as some would have us believe. Have alcohol or check out and often one will speak through you. We have many words in our language to acknowledge this simple fact such as: what got into him?, you don’t seem to be yourself today, she was beside herself. I just read another great blog on this subject here: http://theworksofsergebenhayon.com/spirits-entities-possession-and-the-wisdom-of-serge-benhayon and there are heaps more, so why do we not speak more openly about it more often?

712. It is incredible when we get ourlseves out the way and surrender to God – life’s super simple, joyful and flows.

713. ‘leaving my body and going into the head to deal with feelings that I didn’t want to accept were there’ – I can very much relate to this. Often when I don’t want to feel things or take responsibility I go into my head or eat to avoid what I feel, and the thing is these feeling are not bad but maybe just stuff I don’t want to accept like feeling abuse or jealousy directed at me from someone I love. But it’s much better to feel, as I don’t take it personally or make it about self and I have a much greater understanding of where those emotions are really coming from; whats going on for the other person or people and with that I don’t judge – it’s all about responsibility.

714. Dear Bianca, this is an amazing blog, thank you for writing this. I can vouch for what you shared about feeling dark presences around, in other words spirits and entities, I too have felt and feel these, they are very very real. There’s a great blog that goes deeper into this – http://theworksofsergebenhayon.com/spirits-entities-possession-and-the-wisdom-of-serge-benhayon/

715. Brilliant blog Bianca – I can relate to what you have written here and now have a deeper understanding from reading this why there was always a sense of being constantly on the alert and experiencing anxiousness from childhood time. This has been addressed since attending and being deeply inspired by Serge Benhayon’s presentations.

716. ’We feel this energetic outplay all the time; we cannot stop feeling it but we can choose to live in a way, like I did, that numbs this awareness and makes us feel like it doesn’t exist. We can come back from this choice though, by connecting to our body and allowing ourselves once again to be honest about how and what we feel.’ – No one can escape energy, we can override what we feel or even deny it, but fact is that we all feel energy all of the time. To accept this fact and learn to work with it rather than against it, has been a complete life changer for me.

717. Love this account on energetic awareness Bianca – an important step on the path to taking energetic responsibility. Responsible for what we put out, whether it be by action, words or thoughts.

718. “There was such a home-like quality in this level of surrender to my body, I knew without a doubt this is the way we are meant to live: the wisdom of the body leading with the mind in full presence and focusing on every minute movement that is made.” Beautifully expressed Bianca, it was not until i too felt this level of surrender in my body that i came close to understanding what true harmony feels like.

719. “I now know without a doubt that to let ourselves feel and be aware of all that goes on around us is one of our greatest assets.” What a completely different way of living this is from the general norm yet the irony is, it is our true nature.

720. Hypersensitivity is little supported by our fast paced, loveless world that does not confirm or cherish the heightened awareness that they are here to bring.

721. I also had terrifying experiences as a child trying to fall asleep at night. My parents banned me from watching TV things like Dr Who, but it didn’t make a difference. Up until 8 years ago as an adult I would experience night terrors where I would wake up screaming and in tears and and heart racing so hard I thought I would have a heart attack. My terrors would also create havoc in my household waking up my husband and children. I had to deal with what was the causing this in my body. My first point was to accept that I could feel way more that I was acknowledging and then I had to change the way I was living to support me to understand why and what I was feeling, that meant looking at how I was exercising, eating, understanding my reactions and what I was being affected by. I no longer experience night terrors, and I am living with way more responsibility.

     1. That’s such a great starting point Nicole – for us to accept that we are feeling way more than we are acknowledging. I can feel how this automatically brings an openness to us.

722. We escape both into the mind and into the images of the world our mind put together for us.

     1. So true, Eduardo. In the mind lives a picture show full of images and expectations. In the body lives a known truth. I am sometimes guilty of feeling something in my body and then analysing it or taking it to my head – there is a growing level of commitment to trusting what I feel that I am building.

723. Great point, leaving ourselves behind, only brings misery our way. The misery of not being who we are and trying to cope with that fact forever.

724. The truth is when we leave our bodies, we leave ourselves behind.

725. When we leave the body and decide to give our backs to what is real, do we do it to not accept what is out there anymore or is it more trying to protect ourselves by aligning to a world of people who are not aware of anything beyond their senses and are not worried at all by this fact?

726. It is fascinating the different routes through which one arrive to decide to disconnect its body to avoid feeling that we live in a world of energy that does not match what our senses are telling us.

727. Bianca what an amazing change you have gone through to now live from your body first. I have to say that I too used to feel a presence in my room when I was little and I used my head to let it wind me up and keep me very anxious. That is a very easy place to slip back into even today if I am home alone for a night – but what I understand is that this is coming from my head, rather than letting my body surrender, appreciating that I am sensitive and I do feel energy, and accepting this, not trying to fight it or think of it as ‘scary’. Our minds really can take us very far from our bodies, and it is so important to be aware of this.

728. Thank you, Bianca. I can so relate to what you are saying here about going into your head to avoid what you were feeling in your body. I did that throughout my childhood and adult life and it was only through attending presentations by Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine that I discovered the safest place that I can be in is my body. The body knows what is going on and is our greatest friend when we listen to it.

729. It is easy for children to escape into fantasy and create a world that feels lovelier than the one they are experiencing in reality. As a child I used to create dreams of visiting fairy realms where I was treated as a special person, so that I felt valued, but it wasn’t real. In real life I was the youngest of three, recognised for my intelligence but always too small or too young to do what the others could do, and constantly lived with a feeling of being left out or left behind that continued into school and adulthood. Learning to accept, appreciate and truly value ourselves is a challenging step for many of us, but one well worth taking.

730. Thank you Bianca. You remind me that I too spent my childhood absolutely terrified of the dark and the presence of menacing energy. It wasn’t until I read this blog that I was able to see that I escaped into my head to deal with the anxiousness I felt. I know without a doubt that this pattern of behaviour continues today. Your blog inspires me to address this.

731. I found this very intriguing to read. There is not a lot of stuff regarding disassociation on here so thank you for sharing your story.

     I remember being hypersensitive as a child also. I always thought that there was someone whispering in the corner of my room, right near where the rocking chair creaked of its own accord. As you can imagine I was pretty freaked out. I had to curl the covers around me like some kind of protective cocoon and pretend that it was some kind of force field that this malevolent force could not penetrate.

     Either way, this was an excellent article and your last paragraph made me feel better about it all 🙂

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