Reconfiguring the Energy of Abuse – all by a Simple Choice

Currently I have been working with a highly qualified and very well renowned Esoteric Practitioner and Physiotherapist Kate Greenaway-Twist on a Connective Tissue Exercise program.

Each month we have an online session where Kate shares different Connective Tissue Exercises to support my body. I have made the choice to commit to do these exercises every day and night, when I wake up and before I go to bed. I have found this to be an incredible support, and also the changes and expansion from these simple movements in my body is immense. Until last night I didn’t realise how much, as I tend to brush aside the grandness of things, thinking it’s no big deal.

Kate asked how this past month had been and I shared what has been going on for me. Lastly came a question about my pelvic floor area, an area I shared the previous month I was completely disconnected from; that I couldn’t, or in truth, didn’t want to feel.

This whole area I actually looked at – and have looked at – with disgust for around 20 years. Why? Because of the level of abuse I have allowed in my body by having sex with people I didn’t want to and when I didn’t want to, purely through a lack of self-worth, a need, and growing up thinking I would find love outside of myself from someone else or in a relationship, rather than inside me, and my relationship with myself.

What I shared with Kate was huge; through the simple choice to connect to my body and move, doing two Connective Pelvic Floor Exercises for a few minutes every day – nothing else – I actually feel absolute love in and for this whole area.

It feels a joy to connect to and feel this part of my body, and to be honest when I look down I now smile; there’s a warmth, a tenderness and a love there that I have never felt before, or at least not for a very long time. I can absolutely say I love this area of my body, it feels precious and I want to take care of it deeply.

To feel this, I didn’t have to go into analysing my past choices, or wallow in my woes, I simply made the choice to connect to this part of my body and move it in a different way, following the Connective Tissue Exercises with a very loving quality, every day.

If I can make a simple choice to change and reconfigure a more than twenty-year-old pattern of abuse in my body, then I can make a choice to change everything that’s not loving or supporting me. It doesn’t have to be a big deal.

I have always heard and known the fact that everything is a choice, but until yesterday I have not felt this so clearly, simply and deeply in my body.

Inspired by the incredible Kate Greenaway-Twist and my pelvic floor.

by Gyl Rae, Teacher, 38, Scotland

Further Reading:
Listening To Your Body
Claiming Back My Body
Self-Care And Learning to Respect My Body

810 thoughts on “Reconfiguring the Energy of Abuse – all by a Simple Choice

  1. Your comment about it not having to be a big deal is spot on and exposes how much we are addicted to making things a big deal. I know I can, and when I choose not to, it feels so much lighter in my body.

  2. Often I feel tension in my pelvic floor muscles but I love what you share and I noticed how just feeling the area whilst reading this blog changed the area completely, Letting go of the tension in the muscles can actually be very easy, just a constant commitment and choice.

    1. I know and it is true for me, I would say the only way to change how I feel about myself is to change my movements.

      1. Yeh even in the smallest movement, from slouching to sitting up straight or being more delicate with our hands – all these movements count and add up to the summation of how we feel at the end of the day.

      2. I catch myself thinking at times it is not ‘enough’ and it ‘won’t work’ or ‘can’t be that simple’ but these things you describe do work and moving delicately is a great way to do this.

  3. “If I can make a simple choice to change and reconfigure a more than twenty-year-old pattern of abuse in my body, then I can make a choice to change everything that’s not loving or supporting me. It doesn’t have to be a big deal.’ Yes so true and how inspiring to hear it is always possible for healing.

  4. “there’s a warmth, a tenderness and a love there that I have never felt before,” Connecting and feeling the delicate tissues of our body is to appreciate how precious we are.

  5. From my own experience of Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy it gives you an opportunity to reconnect to your body to feel and realign areas that we have for whatever reason lost connection with. ECTT is a modality that not only helps you reestablish that connection but also makes you feel more vital too.

  6. Not only a beautiful testimony to Kate Greenaway and Connective Tissue Therapy but also, what bounced out for me, was the word ‘precious’ – to transform our relationship with our body (any part) from abuse, disregard and disgust to being able to use the word ‘precious’ is properly remarkable.

  7. The Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy is a deeply healing and powerful modality, I felt my hips adjust in a session once and it made such a difference, it was like my body had a complete grease and oil change.

  8. Gyl when we come to this realization, this understanding that you share “I have always heard and known the fact that everything is a choice, but until yesterday I have not felt this so clearly, simply and deeply in my body.” It is an incredibly liberating feeling, like we go from feeling we are the victim of life, like its not our fault to understanding and appreciating the power we actually do have.

  9. Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy is so gentle yet powerfully initiates the body to release long held traumas, patterns and believes that are configured and stored in the connective tissue.

  10. There is a natural power and authority within our body that is only a choice away from activating. Whilst we are stuck in our heads this choice will seem like an impossibility but thats exactly that point the choice is to choose to listen to the body not the head!

  11. I love what you present here Gyl, how we can make a simple choice to change and reconfigure the ingrained patterns we have lived with in our body that are not supporting us but has been there because of what we have created by false ideals and beliefs. And Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy is super simple and divine in how it assist us to let go what is not love.

  12. I am currently doing an Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy course and am finding it truly amazing in how it supports the body to come back to harmony. We cannot help but know God when we experience the flow that is present in the connective tissue of another.

  13. What I find absolutely astounding about all of the Esoteric Modalities is complete and utter reconfiguration it offers us. My body has changed so much due to the discarding of stagnant negative energy. Wow are we blessed to have such modalities.

  14. It is impossible to sing the praises of ECTT too much… it is so simple, and yet so profound, and can move those mountains inside of us that we thought were impossible to climb.

    1. It simply helps us to shift our perception so that what we saw as insurmountable mountains, are exposed for the molehills they in-truth are.

      1. Depending on the light, the shadow of a molehill can look like a molehill. Instead of focussing on the molehill and its shadow we only need to live that light.

  15. It is interesting we don’t really hate parts of our body, we hate what we allow to be done to it through lack of self worth and self love, and rather than be honest with ourselves we blame the body, even though it was us that made the choices in the first place. “If I can make a simple choice to change and reconfigure a more than twenty-year-old pattern of abuse in my body, then I can make a choice to change everything that’s not loving or supporting me. It doesn’t have to be a big deal.” Absolutely Gyl it really doesn’t have to be a big deal, just the willingness to make loving choices.

  16. It makes so much sense what you present here, because all the ingrained patterns that we have are not there because we have done them once or twice but because we have been doing them over and over again. So it is our dedication to repeating things that lets us be who we are and thus the very important factor here is the quality we do things in, whether it is with love or not love for ourselves that we move through our day.

  17. Amazing to feel how movement can be used to reconnect and reactivate our true essence no matter how much and how long we might have disassociated from it. It makes so much sense to pay attention to the quality in which I carry and move my body in my everyday activity.

  18. When we have been supported to be more loving to ourselves this opens up more awareness of what is abuse and what is not. Sometimes we confuse abuse with love because there is a lot of false love circulating in our world.

  19. A really huge transformation. It makes me consider how as a woman, I have not wanted to the feel that area as I too have given my body over in the past to men who had no respect. So it is a huge reflection of how important it is for us to want to feel and heal what may have happened in the past.

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