CLOCK WATCHING – A Race with Time

As long as I can remember I have always been a clock-watcher, constantly checking the time or racing with it, my wristwatch firmly placed on my bedside table and an alarm clock ready to start my day. This was my safety net that I thought would give me a good night’s sleep, but often left me worrying whether I would get up on time or get to work on time.

I would often feel like I never had enough time to get everything done in the day and was clock watching at every opportunity. To others I was known as the punctual, hardworking and reliable one that could be counted on to get to work on time. I was prepared and would wait ahead of time for others. As a result, I often found it hard to unwind at the end of the day and this would lead to my collapsing into bed feeling exhausted.

This merry-go-round continued for a great part of my adult life and left me feeling a constant nervous tension in my body of where to be next. I was under the impression that this was the way life was and that I just had to keep my head down and keep going. The results were leaving the feelings of stress and exhaustion that were taking their toll on my body.

The race with time was evident in the quality of my interactions with others. They were fleeting exchanges rather than moments of quality connection, as I was constantly thinking of what needed to be done next and never enjoying the moment.

That was until I watched a Unimed Living Presentation in Sydney 2015 by Serge Benhayon on Time, Space and all of us.

As Serge presented, there was a key sentence that stood out for me that I began to understand not only in my head, but it also made sense in my body…

I discovered that I was racing with time rather than being with time.

This sounded a bit odd at first and it took me a few days to get my head around this thought. How could I be racing with time when the clock was controlling how long I had to get from A to B?

Was it possible that I was controlling and rushing the time rather than staying with time?

After a few days of experimenting I came to the realisation that time stayed the same and I was the one pushing and driving all the tension. A big ‘ouch’ and that ‘I get it’ light bulb moment rang true.

As a practical person I decided to put this key sentence into action and started to use a clock or watch to . . .

 . . . read the time rather than worrying about staying on time.

At first it took a while as I was so driven by a fast pace of living that would see me filling in more ‘things to do lists’ when I noticed I had more time up my sleeve. I could feel that I still had a need to be ‘doing stuff’ in this extra time rather than connecting to the opportunity that became available for me to appreciate and confirm that I was starting to feel an ease in my body that I never felt before. I could feel what was true in my body but the levels of drive and momentum I had built up over my life were still very strong and overrode my ability to stay settled. I was looking for a way to find a marker that felt true in my body. My only experience that connected me to this was an Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy session I had a few months prior.

The decision to delve deeper into understanding what I was resisting led to regular sessions of this modality with a local practitioner. I was able to feel the natural pace in which my body moved. There was an ease that didn’t have me rushing ahead but still felt that I was moving with the movements that supported me to work with vitality and a steady flow.

After a number of weeks I had noticed gradual changes in how I was working. These included:

  • Less tension in my body and trusting that the pace I was working with supported me and was within time
  • Letting go of the alarm clock and working on a nightly routine where I made sure I wound down before placing myself in bed
  • Ability to work longer periods of time without feeling exhausted
  • Appreciating the changes daily that build a foundational support level to connect to.

A year later, I have started to truly feel what my priorities are in each day. My day starts with a connection to me first and then where I need to go next to support others. The tension in my body has led to physical changes where I am more settled in my walk and have an increased sense of self-certainty. Physical changes have occurred in my face, arms and legs due to the release of tension, and the clock is just that – a clock that tells the time – nothing more!

I am deeply thankful to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for offering the opportunity to truly understand my relationship with time and the support that is provided by the Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy modality. What was offered was paramount in supporting me to return to my natural rhythm that funnily enough has nothing to do with time! I am now living my life, rather than rushing through life, and I can feel that my body thanks me each and every day.

By Anonymous

Further Reading:
A Race Against Time
Time and our perception of it
So Long Sciatica – Thanks to Universal Medicine and Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy

1,258 thoughts on “CLOCK WATCHING – A Race with Time

  1. ‘read the time rather than worrying about staying on time’ … absolutely – if we try and fight time we will lose, if we consider the true purpose of time and what it is really showing us at any given moment, we will learn so much about ourselves and realise that time is actually always on our side.

  2. I’ve also had those light bulb moments (thanks to Serge’s work) where I’ve realised time is not something I can race or push against, it’s still something I can get into a panic about but it’s more me not managing myself with time well. It’s amazing how much we give our power to and let run us. Everything Serge presents is extraordinary and I agree that the wisdom around time is something that can take some ‘time’ 🙂 to get your head around!

  3. I have a strange relationship with time, it’s always been up and down over the years and although we have a few good days, over all there is no consistency. I always feel like time gets away from me and there for if I don’t bring my focus to it, I miss things, like getting the kids to school on time or getting to work before the day is over! Since I have mapped out how long things take me to do, I have been able to at least get to work on time a couple of days a week but again, no consistency, I was at least consistently late before! Ha-ha.
    Anyway, I know what is being presented in this blog is actually asking me to look at quality, not the clock and this is the choice to put energy first, above our investment to the world. In all honesty, I am still figuring this out and I enjoy every day that I discover and uncover more and more about the illusion of time.

  4. For me if I go into racing against time it’s like I put blinkers on to narrow my view and way of doing things to just get something done rather than staying in connection with my whole body and sensing the way in which I need to do something to make it truly harmonious for all involved.

  5. Today in my swimming I realised I started one stroke before I had completed the last and I have been doing it this way for years. It is a beautiful reflection on how I have lived my life. I have been very much in the doing often not asking for support thinking I had to do it all on my own. I have started many things but left many incomplete. This way of living leaves very little space to enjoy life. When I started to swim enjoying the space my strokes completed much more easily, almost effortlessly, not all my strokes completed absolutely but I know that allowing myself to enjoy the space repeatedly and with this new awareness of completing as I go I am bringing a deeper level of care to life and letting space take care of the timing.

    1. I had the same experience Elaine, and it made me aware of how important completion truly is and how I tend to not complete but start already the next and the next and the next, leaving a lot of work that is not yet completed and drained me. I am now working on completing tasks one by one and allow to feel space in this commitment I have made to myself and what is there to complete joyfully.

  6. Physical changes have occurred in my face, arms and legs due to the release of tension, and the clock is just that – a clock that tells the time – nothing more! Same here, there is a deeper softness in my face now that I am not in constant ‘rush mode’ along with increased awareness as all my movements have changed.

  7. The cycle of racing the clock and falling exhausted in bed, but being too wired to sleep is one that is all too common for people. When you feel caught in this, it is no wonder that people groan when the alarm goes off in the morning. When I clock-watch, there is no joy or flow to my day. Even though there may be adrenaline with meeting deadlines, I feel tense and tight in my body.

  8. I felt in my body how it hurts when I go into rushing because every movement becomes hard, jagged and tensed. I realised by doing this, it doesn’t make me get from A to B any faster but perhaps even slows me down because I am more likely to bump into things and have an accident.

  9. Anonymous, this is relevant for me to read at the moment as I am completing a college course; ‘Less tension in my body and trusting that the pace I was working with supported me and was within time’, I can feel how with a lot of work to do there is a tendency to rush and panic to get everything done and to feel tension with this, reading your article though makes me aware that I can choose to simply do the work at my natural pace in a very practical way, without the tension and stress.

  10. I can so relate with having been like this, and still have to watch this, ‘The race with time was evident in the quality of my interactions with others. They were fleeting exchanges rather than moments of quality connection, as I was constantly thinking of what needed to be done next and never enjoying the moment.’

  11. ‘The tension in my body has led to physical changes where I am more settled in my walk and have an increased sense of self-certainty. Physical changes have occurred in my face, arms and legs due to the release of tension…,’ This is so true, the physicality that our body takes on is a reflection of how we are living.

  12. I’ve noticed that the less I watch clocks and listen to what the body is saying I am not only on time but am completing most tasks within a short period of time with time to spare!

  13. Time still likes to play with me, but the more I stay with myself, the more I am aware of how I move and clock immediately if I go into rush mode. Great to clock it and then change it.

  14. To feel our movements in the natural flow and order of life is to realise how time has been created to support us back to live who we truly are.

  15. There has been such a huge shift in my relationship with time, I now have space rather than time when I get ready in the mornings.

  16. The title says so much, why are we so fixated on racing against time when all it does is create tension in our bodies?

  17. I was racing with time on Sunday and it was not pleasant. My day was full with 2 different jobs to go to. When the morning job ran late, I got very stressed knowing I was going to be late for my next job. In the stress I took a wrong turn in the car and was going in the wrong direction. I did call and inform work that I would be late, but my lesson was; I was packing too much into my day! Two days later I am still feeling the stress I created in my body and having to go very gentle with myself.

  18. Clock watching – a race with time is something I can relate to and only recently my relationship with time is changing, for me it is about completion, dedicating time to complete before I go to the next thing otherwise I get this overwhelming feeling of never having time enough and I notice when I am in this energy I watch the clock and misuse time to be my boss.

    1. This resonates with me Annelies, your sharing over making time to complete before moving onto the next thing. Completing things creates so much space for the next thing to flow smoothly, which sets up a beautiful momentum of flow and space.

  19. This blog and all the comments have been super supportive in raising my awareness of how I have been racing with time all my life – allowing time to rule and dictate me! But that is changing as I have been making lots of space in my life and with more space – the time game is losing its rule!

  20. Again I failed to win the race with time today, and yesterday, and… 😉
    That I am falling for that meaningless competition again and again shows me how often I am still invested in the temporal affairs and thereby losing myself in the world. The proverb ‘To be in the world but not of the world’ perfectly relates to this time phenomena.

  21. It’s interesting how we use our relationship with time as a sort of security safety blanket, whereby we can prove to ourselves that we’re enough, if we get x, y and z done within the time frame that we’ve set ourselves. Yet this way of operating keeps us stressed out and on high alert, constantly clock watching and racing against time, trying to beat it. There are always things that we need to do, and taking our time doing them doesn’t necessarily feel good either, but letting go of time, by working with space to feel what needs to be done in every moment feels so much more empowering and liberating.

  22. Appreciation is so important to help build a strong foundation of how we are now living and the quality of our movements, ‘Appreciating the changes daily that build a foundational support level to connect to.’

  23. I used to also race with time, I never seemed to have enough time to get everything done in the day, a fast way to burn myself out. Now, if I go into a rush or drive it feels so horrible in my body, staying present and being aware of my quality in moving is really supporting me to build a relationship with space.

  24. When we stay in tune with our bodies and follow what we feel is needed rather than do what we ‘think’ we should, space literally opens up and we can be far more efficient and productive in less time than if we try to keep going and push through our tiredness when all our bodies want to do is rest.

  25. You can so easily get caught up in time and needing to push yourself to complete something so you can get onto the next thing or be somewhere. This used to be my normal but thanks to understanding and feeling that this wasn’t supporting or working for me, letting go of time and supporting myself with having loads and not asking to much of myself with things I need to do then my day is so much more open and spacious yet I am super productive and get so much more done.

  26. To impulse our movements we can rely either on time or space. In the first scenario, it is about making sure that you get to B at a time that will give you the necessary time to move to C and so on and at the end of the day, you can proudly say, I achieved everything I meant to and go to sleep in that satisfaction. In the second scenario, you make a permanent effort to align to a quality that also impulses your movements. When this happens, you go to sleep in a body deeply held by you and deeply held by your body. Two totally different scenarios, possibly same ‘actions’.

  27. Our body lives life in moments and doesn’t lend itself to being rushed; it is our mind that takes over and starts racing time, competing with and trying to outsmart it, to our detriment.

  28. Moving with our bodies and the rhythm in which feels most supportive not only offers us a greater ease in life but also more expansion and space to be simply as we are and live via our natural rhythm.

    1. It’s true Kelly. If we read time we have the space to read energy, opportunities and influences in a way that completely changes the course of our lives.

    1. I have found the same Michael and so the question begs what do people get when I get caught up and focus on time? I know I can easily inadvertently blank people as my focus can become very blinkered, I can be short with people as I do not want to waste time etc.. so effectively all my relationships suffer as does the quality and end result of whatever task I am doing.

  29. When we are in connection with ourselves we will be in harmony with the flow of the universe and in this space our watches and clocks become time tellers rather than time dictators.

  30. Putting pressure on ourselves is a really effective way to disregard ourselves, and is related to being attached to time. We then go either too fast to get things done or we hold back and procrastinate, neither being natural expressions…

  31. It’s a big ouch to realise that time is a construct that we buy into. When we make this purchase we pay with our lives.

  32. Isn’t it amazing how accurately our physiology reflects our choices, emotions, activity and investments. This is a great article to read in amongst a week of mock (practice) exams, when the tension of the exams often take it’s toll on my body. Walking and focusing on posture is definitely a way to support these kind of periods.

    1. I agree Susie walking and focusing on our posture is a great support. I know for myself the moment I find things getting a little intense if I stop for a moment and go for a brief walk even just change my posture and take a few steps almost immediately everything can change and it is like my body is given the space to recalibrate and come back to itself.

  33. It is amazing how focussed and caught up we can get with time and getting things done, yet when we let go of the time pressure we can do what is needed without the extra tension and raciness I find myself all too easily slipping into. Effectively if I just do what is there to be done it gets done yet if I think ok well its going to take me this much time, but I only have this much time etc.. then suddenly I do not have enough time, I start to rush, make mistakes and what I achieve is rather a jumbled mess yet i could do exactly the same task just go for it, not worry about time do what needs to be done and it can flow. It is this flow that I feel the pressure we put on with time can so easily disrupt.

  34. It is interesting how we choose to put our whole body into tension when we think we need to catch up with time. Not only are all our movements affected, becoming hard and rushed by running our body from our mind, there is no quality in what we are doing and we often end up having to re-do the task or job again because of the energy in which it has been completed.

  35. How freeing it has been to finally release the need to ‘clock-watch’, especially as until I began to observe how often I did it, I didn’t realise how all-consuming it would sometimes become. Getting ready for work was one of the biggest ones but also watching the clock in my car as I was heading to an appointment that I had not allowed enough time for; as if that somehow would help to get me to where I was going, faster – what an illusion that was! I now do not look at my car clock from the moment I start the car and as a result my journeys have been most enjoyably free of the previous tension and if I happen to be late for my appointment that is my responsibility, not times!

  36. How awesome it is when we stop to consider our bodies and how we move moment by moment and how this then brings a greater awareness and presence to our days and a lot less time watching and stress. Finding a rhythm of living that not only supports us but also expands us is a great foundation for living by our own natural cycle and how this cycle then interconnects everything around us too.

  37. Just reading this line I could feel the exhaustion anonymous.
    “As a result, I often found it hard to unwind at the end of the day and this would lead to my collapsing into bed feeling exhausted.”
    I feel so many people live like this and then we wake up just as exhausted as we went to bed, so is it any wonder we then reach for stimulants such as coffee and sugary foods to support us to cover up our exhaustion so we can keep going through our day.

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