CLOCK WATCHING – A Race with Time

As long as I can remember I have always been a clock-watcher, constantly checking the time or racing with it, my wristwatch firmly placed on my bedside table and an alarm clock ready to start my day. This was my safety net that I thought would give me a good night’s sleep, but often left me worrying whether I would get up on time or get to work on time.

I would often feel like I never had enough time to get everything done in the day and was clock watching at every opportunity. To others I was known as the punctual, hardworking and reliable one that could be counted on to get to work on time. I was prepared and would wait ahead of time for others. As a result, I often found it hard to unwind at the end of the day and this would lead to my collapsing into bed feeling exhausted.

This merry-go-round continued for a great part of my adult life and left me feeling a constant nervous tension in my body of where to be next. I was under the impression that this was the way life was and that I just had to keep my head down and keep going. The results were leaving the feelings of stress and exhaustion that were taking their toll on my body.

The race with time was evident in the quality of my interactions with others. They were fleeting exchanges rather than moments of quality connection, as I was constantly thinking of what needed to be done next and never enjoying the moment.

That was until I watched a Unimed Living Presentation in Sydney 2015 by Serge Benhayon on Time, Space and all of us.

As Serge presented, there was a key sentence that stood out for me that I began to understand not only in my head, but it also made sense in my body…

I discovered that I was racing with time rather than being with time.

This sounded a bit odd at first and it took me a few days to get my head around this thought. How could I be racing with time when the clock was controlling how long I had to get from A to B?

Was it possible that I was controlling and rushing the time rather than staying with time?

After a few days of experimenting I came to the realisation that time stayed the same and I was the one pushing and driving all the tension. A big ‘ouch’ and that ‘I get it’ light bulb moment rang true.

As a practical person I decided to put this key sentence into action and started to use a clock or watch to . . .

 . . . read the time rather than worrying about staying on time.

At first it took a while as I was so driven by a fast pace of living that would see me filling in more ‘things to do lists’ when I noticed I had more time up my sleeve. I could feel that I still had a need to be ‘doing stuff’ in this extra time rather than connecting to the opportunity that became available for me to appreciate and confirm that I was starting to feel an ease in my body that I never felt before. I could feel what was true in my body but the levels of drive and momentum I had built up over my life were still very strong and overrode my ability to stay settled. I was looking for a way to find a marker that felt true in my body. My only experience that connected me to this was an Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy session I had a few months prior.

The decision to delve deeper into understanding what I was resisting led to regular sessions of this modality with a local practitioner. I was able to feel the natural pace in which my body moved. There was an ease that didn’t have me rushing ahead but still felt that I was moving with the movements that supported me to work with vitality and a steady flow.

After a number of weeks I had noticed gradual changes in how I was working. These included:

  • Less tension in my body and trusting that the pace I was working with supported me and was within time
  • Letting go of the alarm clock and working on a nightly routine where I made sure I wound down before placing myself in bed
  • Ability to work longer periods of time without feeling exhausted
  • Appreciating the changes daily that build a foundational support level to connect to.

A year later, I have started to truly feel what my priorities are in each day. My day starts with a connection to me first and then where I need to go next to support others. The tension in my body has led to physical changes where I am more settled in my walk and have an increased sense of self-certainty. Physical changes have occurred in my face, arms and legs due to the release of tension, and the clock is just that – a clock that tells the time – nothing more!

I am deeply thankful to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for offering the opportunity to truly understand my relationship with time and the support that is provided by the Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy modality. What was offered was paramount in supporting me to return to my natural rhythm that funnily enough has nothing to do with time! I am now living my life, rather than rushing through life, and I can feel that my body thanks me each and every day.

By Anonymous

Further Reading:
A Race Against Time
Time and our perception of it
So Long Sciatica – Thanks to Universal Medicine and Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy

1,108 thoughts on “CLOCK WATCHING – A Race with Time

  1. The seemingly inbuilt ‘race-against-time’ is, as this article delightfully points out, not a ‘hard-wired’ phenonomena, but rather something that we have all taken on, like an enormous confidence trick

  2. I used to live in constant anxiety and would always be racing time. I’d work out in my head how long something ‘should’ take and then put myself under pressure to fit that so there was an enormous tension in my body. Now, I feel what needs to be done and how long to allow for it, and I’ve had instances where I’ve felt how long to leave to get somewhere, and it’s been much longer than I would have expected. I’ve gone with it and then have had hold ups which if I hadn’t allowed the extra time, would have resulted in me being late. So yes, the clock is just that, it tells us the time.

  3. The minute you start rushing you compromise the quality of your whole life, we can’t see how amazing the world around us is when we rush through life.

  4. The very thought of clock watching is enough to stress me out! Racing against the clock feels like we are racing against our divine nature because there is an order and a flow to life and if we are racing around then we are against the divine order and flow of the universe. No wonder it is stressful!

  5. Anonymous, this is a great article, I can see and feel how there is a natural pace that is graceful, gentle and true and that feels harmonious and the there is a pace that has a push to it and is rushed, I can feel how latter pace is getting caught up in time; trying to get things done as quickly as possible and this feels very different in the body.

  6. Getting caught in time creates such a pressure on ourselves, it is no wonder we look for anything to take the edge of this tension such as food, entertainment etc.

  7. I broke a few watches in my time growing up and looking back now, I think I exhausted them! I have been working on being with time as opposed to racing against it since that talk and have found it is so much more about space and how we are with that space, what we choose to do than a linear race. I feel like I am at the beginning of something that there is so much more to experience and understand.

  8. Goes to show how much time owns us when we allow it and the harmful ramifications on our body. To be with time is an art, a science known to us all and requires us to firstly connect to our inner-most truth and natural flow rather than live outside of ourselves to another’s rhythm.

  9. We can’t underestimate the effects of stress, even if it’s something we consider not too “stressful” like time, because the body is still under pressure. All the changes we make actually do have a huge effect on the body, allowing it to be at ease and enjoy the day without needing space to recover from how we have lived.

  10. Surrendering to our own natural innate rhythm is where the true expression of who we are is ignited. Every movement we make thereafter becomes a reflection of deep surrender to our connection and our heart simply soars from its own unique symbiotic rhythm.

  11. If I find myself racing against time it helps to check in with myself why I am doing this – is it really needed? And to see if I have set myself up to need to ‘race’ rather than having moved in a way beforehand that prepared me to be ‘on time’ so to speak…

  12. Our bodies are designed to be naturally spacious on the inside. They are like ‘Dr Who’s tardus’, an ordinary body on the outside but capable of divine expansiveness on the inside that is not held by the constraints of the physical form. Time is one of the greatest killers of this natural expansiveness. It creates a constraint and squeezing down of the particles, which creates tension, density and hardness in the body. Although it doesn’t happen all the time, when I do not allow time to impose, there is such a magic to the way my day flows with ease and joy.

  13. For a very long time I didn’t really clock the fact that I have a body. No, I am serious. I thought all my thoughts were already me. I did not think twice of what my body felt was being important, as if my body was something separate to me, and it didn’t matter. So I also did not feel that rushing was any big deal, if I was rushing, it could very well be something outside of me that’s rushing, it has nothing to do with me. As such, I lived many years. But the body never stops loving us, and eventually I had to own up to this loveless irresponsibility, to not disregard again what the body knows (awareness) and to live this awareness. Giving permission ourselves to once again live what is true, is a life changing experience. There is no race in life, but an unfoldment. Racing causes delay in unfolding, and actually intensely unnatural and uncomfortable for us, as our bodies can never lie.

  14. Simply beautiful! If I bring all of me to each moment, I am not trying to beat time or racing against time and then space often emerges to allow me to bring even more of me.

  15. ‘I was under the impression that this was the way life was and that I just had to keep my head down and keep going.’ Yes – and what an interesting belief that is – one I laboured under too for most of my adult life, convinced there was no other way. It’s a deeply ingrained belief and one I’m still de-constructing after close to a decade. The good news is, there is a way forward but I wouldn’t have found it unless I’d found Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine – the illusion was far too thick!

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