CLOCK WATCHING – A Race with Time

As long as I can remember I have always been a clock-watcher, constantly checking the time or racing with it, my wristwatch firmly placed on my bedside table and an alarm clock ready to start my day. This was my safety net that I thought would give me a good night’s sleep, but often left me worrying whether I would get up on time or get to work on time.

I would often feel like I never had enough time to get everything done in the day and was clock watching at every opportunity. To others I was known as the punctual, hardworking and reliable one that could be counted on to get to work on time. I was prepared and would wait ahead of time for others. As a result, I often found it hard to unwind at the end of the day and this would lead to my collapsing into bed feeling exhausted.

This merry-go-round continued for a great part of my adult life and left me feeling a constant nervous tension in my body of where to be next. I was under the impression that this was the way life was and that I just had to keep my head down and keep going. The results were leaving the feelings of stress and exhaustion that were taking their toll on my body.

The race with time was evident in the quality of my interactions with others. They were fleeting exchanges rather than moments of quality connection, as I was constantly thinking of what needed to be done next and never enjoying the moment.

That was until I watched a Unimed Living Presentation in Sydney 2015 by Serge Benhayon on Time, Space and all of us.

As Serge presented, there was a key sentence that stood out for me that I began to understand not only in my head, but it also made sense in my body…

I discovered that I was racing with time rather than being with time.

This sounded a bit odd at first and it took me a few days to get my head around this thought. How could I be racing with time when the clock was controlling how long I had to get from A to B?

Was it possible that I was controlling and rushing the time rather than staying with time?

After a few days of experimenting I came to the realisation that time stayed the same and I was the one pushing and driving all the tension. A big ‘ouch’ and that ‘I get it’ light bulb moment rang true.

As a practical person I decided to put this key sentence into action and started to use a clock or watch to . . .

 . . . read the time rather than worrying about staying on time.

At first it took a while as I was so driven by a fast pace of living that would see me filling in more ‘things to do lists’ when I noticed I had more time up my sleeve. I could feel that I still had a need to be ‘doing stuff’ in this extra time rather than connecting to the opportunity that became available for me to appreciate and confirm that I was starting to feel an ease in my body that I never felt before. I could feel what was true in my body but the levels of drive and momentum I had built up over my life were still very strong and overrode my ability to stay settled. I was looking for a way to find a marker that felt true in my body. My only experience that connected me to this was an Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy session I had a few months prior.

The decision to delve deeper into understanding what I was resisting led to regular sessions of this modality with a local practitioner. I was able to feel the natural pace in which my body moved. There was an ease that didn’t have me rushing ahead but still felt that I was moving with the movements that supported me to work with vitality and a steady flow.

After a number of weeks I had noticed gradual changes in how I was working. These included:

  • Less tension in my body and trusting that the pace I was working with supported me and was within time
  • Letting go of the alarm clock and working on a nightly routine where I made sure I wound down before placing myself in bed
  • Ability to work longer periods of time without feeling exhausted
  • Appreciating the changes daily that build a foundational support level to connect to.

A year later, I have started to truly feel what my priorities are in each day. My day starts with a connection to me first and then where I need to go next to support others. The tension in my body has led to physical changes where I am more settled in my walk and have an increased sense of self-certainty. Physical changes have occurred in my face, arms and legs due to the release of tension, and the clock is just that – a clock that tells the time – nothing more!

I am deeply thankful to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine for offering the opportunity to truly understand my relationship with time and the support that is provided by the Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy modality. What was offered was paramount in supporting me to return to my natural rhythm that funnily enough has nothing to do with time! I am now living my life, rather than rushing through life, and I can feel that my body thanks me each and every day.

By Anonymous

Further Reading:
A Race Against Time
Time and our perception of it
So Long Sciatica – Thanks to Universal Medicine and Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy

1,376 thoughts on “CLOCK WATCHING – A Race with Time

  1. ‘Ability to work longer periods of time without feeling exhausted’ I totally get this one.

    If I think about all I have to do, even if I gave myself a week to do it, I’d feel exhausted. Instead I am learning to stay with myself and do what’s there to do which works amazingly. Sometimes I fall off the cliff and my need for control and perfection kick into panic and stress. But then I go back to doing what’s in front of me having let go of getting it all done in a certain time. What happens is what’s needed does get done.

    1. Yes and I have found the things that don’t get done actually need longer to perculate and other things get completed quicker. If we surrender and honour the rhythm and order everything takes care of itself with no drive.

    2. Yesterday from 5 in the morning until 8 at night I didn’t stop. There was a lot to do. I reckon in total I had about half an hour to sit down during that time. But far from getting into overwhelm, I simply got on with each job as I was ready for it. There was no investment in getting some things done that there was no time for, I just got practical with what had to be done and found that I enjoyed each moment of my day. Whilst I was quite tired at the end of it, I realised just how long I could work without pushing and how well and unstressed within myself I felt.

  2. I often catch myself being anxious about time or the lack of it and I completely concur with your approach here that the best thing to do in these moments is to stop, breathe gently and come back to a known connection with the body.

  3. “Ability to work longer periods of time without feeling exhausted.” A benefit of not racing with time! When it’s just about the doing, and the time we have to do it in, life loses its richness, it loses its purpose and its enjoyment – because we lose the quality of our presence and of being our true selves in each moment. Occupying fully the space we are moving in is much bigger than time.

  4. I’ve felt trapped by time most of my life: the stress of having too little time and the fear of having too much. I’ve been working with simply being in all these occasions and today took a timed test which was 30 minutes long where by you had marks deducted for every minute over or under the time period. I did what I usually did which was trust and sure enough there was enough time to say what needed to be said without being under or over the designated time. Reading this today has made me appreciate I can be much more playful and trusting with space and time.

  5. How we feel about time is a marker of how we have been living in that period of time. When we have not done much that is truly needed we feel time goes too fast when we do what is truly needed I noticed time seems to be spacious and expand.

    1. That is a great revelation: “When we have not done much that is truly needed we feel time goes too fast when we do what is truly needed I noticed time seems to be spacious and expand”. Our angst with time does show that there is something out of sync, but what requires attention is not ‘time’ but our relationship with and expression within life itself.

  6. ‘I am now living my life, rather than rushing through life, and I can feel that my body thanks me each and every day.’ The difference is huge! I can feel that when I go into time I become instantly stressed and this is so unhealthy as well as striping the quality from what I do.

  7. When we go through our day at a natural pace, aligned to the natural space that is always there instead of the time pressured pace we put ourselves in, life feels very different, because we’re offering ourselves a different relationship with it.

    1. Yes and it is worth reflecting back on situations where we have felt the pressure of time we can see that it was a race, and dare I say one that we were never going to enjoy!

  8. Esoteric Connective Tissue Therapy has been instrumental in me learning to be with me and not to be racing ahead of myself, and exhausting myself in the process. I do the exercises every day and learned very quickly that racing ahead was not allowing me to be totally present with my body in that moment, thus losing that beautiful connection which allows me to feel what is going on for me, right there and then, not somewhere in the future.

  9. It is great to check in with myself with regards to my race against time. I can still go into a little bit of drive if I am not careful, but mostly and happy to say I no longer rush around the place such was my old habit.

  10. It is very easy to use time to get nervous, tense, an adrenaline rush – similar to drinking coffee. Once that stimulus becomes less attractive it becomes easier to reorganise one’s life with much less nervousness and tension and no rush.

  11. What you describe here is an important factor in our lives. We live in a way where we have accepted to be constantly under pressure but the key is that we do not have to live with this pressure in us but can live in a way that supports us to meet the world’s demands without being constantly tensed and stressed.

  12. It’s amazing how much energy we can waste worrying about time rather than being present in the moment… Not that time doesn’t matter but it has its place and I find if I get into stressing about it then it doesn’t actually help.

    1. I agree Fiona, the key is to be present in one’s body to the best of our ability, as this feels more spacious without the feelings of pressure and tension that we do not have enough time.

  13. The race against time is a very familiar one indeed, and one that no one wins, for Time robs you of your space when you go by the rules of time, so that even if you complete the task on time, you feel like you have left yourself behind…Where as space allows you to be with you when you complete the task on time. 😉

    1. Very well said Liane, it makes sense because when we go into time, every movement thereafter lacks spaciousness and it feels like we are being compressed, dense and tense.

  14. I met a friend the other day I hadn’t seen for a few months and he looked so well, years younger than when I had last seen him. This man is in his sixties. He then proceeded to tell me that he was working twice as much as he had before and although he had a few aching joints he was amazed at how, overall, he felt so well and how his business was just blossoming. He had a sparkle in his eye and and joy in his voice, it was lovely to witness. His relationship with time had changed and with it this idea that he had to limit his output because he was getting old. I found this inspiring…..too often we are told it is time to slow down and do less because of our age and we can deny ourselves and others so much if we take this as gospel.

    1. Thank you for sharing that I think it’s such a worthwhile thing to be aware of – not to limit our vitality or capacity to work due to a belief about how we think we should be as we age…

    2. I can so relate to what you have shared – the belief that as you age you should be slowing down. Well this is one ‘should’, that at 69, I am not taking much notice of. It doesn’t mean that I ignore my body if it is tired, but that I embrace the space that I have and do as much as I am able to, in the highest quality possible.

    3. Beautiful sharing Elaine and your sharing exposes how our current model of how ageing is not at all appealing or joyful. Your friend is breaking the trend and showing us another way.

  15. Whenever we are racing against time we are caught up in something that is not real because it is not time that we need but space.

  16. I tend to mostly watch the clock at work when I am bored, but then I remember watching Serge Benhayon sitting quietly, and this inspires me to just be still and to wait.

  17. Once I start to feel pressured by time all these thoughts come flooding in of not being able to fit in and complete all that needs to be done. But then things can only be done one thing at a time and when I allow myself to focus on that, one step at a time, one breath at a time, time is not the dominant factor anymore but simply how I am with myself and what I am doing.

  18. When we are connected with ourselves it is quite amazing how time appears to expand and so much more space is created. This ought to be studied.

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