I came to the loving understanding at the age of 63 that I was using suppression to abuse my body without any consideration of how sacred the body is, and how it truly works.
Suppression was a behaviour that I would go to when I felt defeated and crushed and it seemed the way to avoid not wanting to deal with situations every time I felt overwhelmed and could not cope with life.
At a young age I could feel everything. But I never knew that the body I lived in was sensitive, fragile, delicate and that it has the wisdom of knowing, the power of healing and bringing all that is needed from a place within me that is divine and full of love.
Growing up as a child, teenager and adult, I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing. I found I was always making choices to keep myself constantly busy in the ‘doing.’ This behaviour was deeply ingrained in my body and it originated from being told that “time was not to be wasted.”
I was lost in the drive of achieving with no consideration to the body and what this truly meant for my wellbeing and how I was living. I used outcomes and recognition to receive acceptance from others. On the surface it looked like I was a super woman, nothing was a problem that I couldn’t handle, but within I could feel the anxiety building up through the aches and pains in my physical body – there was a deep tiredness and exhaustion. The truth was I was using suppression to mask all that I was feeling; I was putting a lid on everything that I felt, concealing the judgment of self and others by playing the victim game.
What I did not realise is this behaviour was abusing my body by not allowing the self to be honest and express what was truly going on deep within.
It wasn’t until I met Serge Benhayon at one of the Universal Medicine workshop presentations that I realised how sacred my body is: the way Serge moves in every step and the quality of the tone of his voice allowed me to connect to my own truth. It was through his reflection of the appreciation of his delicateness and tenderness that I came to the clarity of how important my body is.
Through Serge Benhayon’s teachings and presentations of the true Livingness I have come to learn that the body is a vehicle of expression and with that learning to love everything and every part of my body – after all it is my greatest teacher. With allowing myself the space to stop and surrender, comes a loving understanding of accepting and trusting what my body brings to each and every moment, connecting from a quality of stillness – the wisdom that we all hold within.
Life is full of opportunities when I truly honour my body and what it brings without suppressing any feelings. What I love is when I don’t indulge in any of these old patterns or behaviours and instead use them as my friends of learning and letting go, for deep down they are not who I truly am but a part of creation that I created by not wanting to feel truth in its completeness.
My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.
I am now choosing to listen to how I feel in my body, treating it with respect, commitment, taking responsibility and honouring the truth that it reveals. Accepting the loving relationship between Soul and my body, as we work together as one.
By Kathy Avram, Melbourne, Loving all that life brings in the learning of every opportunity and living the purpose of serving humanity that comes from deep within a forever student
Related Reading:
Self-Care – Saying no to Abuse
Walking your Walk
Poisoned through Self-Abuse
The Truth about Serge Benhayon 
What you have written here Kathy is very wise
“What I love is when I don’t indulge in any of these old patterns or behaviours and instead use them as my friends of learning and letting go, for deep down they are not who I truly am but a part of creation that I created by not wanting to feel truth in its completeness.”
Our bodies share so much wisdom that it makes sense to listen to them.
Very beautiful to feel and hear how you are now using your body, ‘My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.’
I was told by a psychiatrist I saw for years that people who had been in prison for many years were so conditioned to prison life that they found it difficult to adjust to life out side of prison so would reoffend to go back to the familiarity of what they knew. So is it possible that we have become so familiar with our way of life that when someone comes along and suggests that actually there is a true way to live that we don’t want to listen to this possibility as we have been so condition by life times of repetitive behaviour. Have we ever stopped to consider that we been set up for just such a scenario? While we think we think we will never break the repetition.
What you share Mary is so true, we have allowed ourselves to be conditioned to live in a way that is the antithesis of what is true for us.
This sharing is a great reminder and how this statement is insidiously ingrained within me, “I used outcomes and recognition to receive acceptance from others”, the remanent’s are still there. The antidote is to, “allowing myself the space to stop and surrender, comes a loving understanding of accepting and trusting what my body brings to each and every moment, connecting from a quality of stillness the wisdom that we all hold within” – is so true. As I nurse a headache, I’m pondering what my body is revealing to me this morning!…
For me, there is another level of “treating it with respect, commitment, taking responsibility and honouring the truth that it reveals”, so more to build.
I love how the relationship with anything never stops to unfold, it is beautiful and not always easy at times, but the commitment will always be there.
“The truth was I was using suppression to mask all that I was feeling”. I recently saw myself on a video and could see in my face the years of tolerating what was going on and not speaking up and expressing what I felt. My whole face felt suppressed and I could see it was generational in that other family members did that also. I could see the years of strain on my face, it has opened me to exploring this and beginning to trust to say what I feel because the body is reflecting the suppression of my truth.
We don’t realise how much emotion we carry on our faces till we see those old videos or photos. Last year whilst I was doing practice massage hours, one of the things I observed in all of the women I massaged was the shape of their lips as they laid on the table. and everyone revealed something about them. Some were clenched, not speaking their truth. Some pursed, being sweet, some down, carrying sadness, it was absolutely fascinating that we can read so much from a face let alone a body as it walks.
Shushila, I can feel the sadness I’m carrying in my face as it comes up to clear from my cheek bones. Underneath the sadness is a numbing where I have numbed myself down rather than face whatever it was that needed to be faced, pushing everything down as a way to deal with situations that seemed far too difficult to cope with. All this puts an enormous strain on our bodies so it is any wonder we live in nervous tension that we then try to deal with by suppressing it further by either dulling our bodies or stimulating it. We do anything to avoid actually dealing with what needs to be dealt with. Our bodies reflect back the truth that we are all suppressing.
Life is amazing and content when I listen to how my body feels and act on such. All the stress and tension comes from suppressing and ignoring it.
Love what you have shared Kathy, and when relating to how much vitality we can have in our bodies a simple exercise program where the focus is on our connection works wonders for our bodies and the vitality we have.
Most of us do not get taught at a young age that to hold onto our essence is the most important thing. In fact we get taught the opposite – to abandon who we are to please others. But if one day we wake up to this realisation, then so too does the path of return get revealed to us – and then it is for us to tread this path again lovingly so.
We forget at a conscious level how precious our essence and bodies are, ‘to abandon who we are to please others’.
When we are young children we are the canaries in the cage, we sing out the abusive ways families treat each other. We call out the energies that we can sense coming through family members. This clear sense of energy and how invasive it is, is not welcomed and so our clear sense of the world gets crushed as we shut it down as you correctly say Henrietta, we abandon our natural feelings to placate the elders who cannot bear to be caught living the lie, that we all live when we abandon the truth that we feel when we are connected to our inner sense.
Most if not all of us fall for this: “I used outcomes and recognition to receive acceptance from others.” – this is our substitute for being loved, the closest thing we can get to but which always leaves us feeling empty and craving for more.
Spot on Henrietta, we abandon love for acceptance and recognition, which keeps us searching and seeking more.
The truth is our body as a vehicle of energy is here to express who we truly are in essence. Anything else is a waste of time. Expression of essence can of course be very practical in that it can express itself in a lot of things such as taking the rubbish out, or going to work etc.
‘Put a lid on it’, ‘Button your lip’, we all know these terms for suppressing what we are feeling and the tension this creates in our body by not expressing. Becoming more aware and truthful with ourselves in what we feel and know expands our awareness of all there is to be aware of that is truth.
Absolutely Mary, when we give a child the open-ness to express freely the difference in their energy is tangle-able in the Love they bring to any conversation.
I agree with you Greg there is a huge difference. Children are like light bulbs, they light up everything and everywhere. It is so utterly beautiful to see children who sparkle with the joy of life. However the energy that can come through an adult just looking at a child can shrivel them up so that they do not dare to be the natural light bulbs they are. It’s as though the adult does not want to be reminded that they too were a light bulb once and that they gave into the pressure not to shine but to conform. Deep down we hate the fact that we conformed and abandoned our essence so that we could fit into the model of society where abuse is more prevalent than the natural love that we all are.
Making compromises in our expression, pulling in contraction in any form is an age old behaviour for the vast majority of us. Recognising the devastating consequences this choice has on our bodies is huge. So many of us dismiss and ignore how the body feels when we are in contraction and the long lasting effect it has. We have so normalised it that to feel the vitality, joy, health and spontaneity we were born with has to be re-learned, if we are open to re-learning it all.
Contraction is indeed an age old behaviour for many of us and I love how you have highlighted here how important it is that we never compromise how the body is feeling and the messages that it is giving us.
We have swallowed a huge fat lie which I feel has its roots deep in mainstream religion and that is to look after others first before ourselves and we have made ourselves martyrs to this doctrine.
We cannot truly honour our body till we acknowledge that we are more than this body, that we in-house our soul and as such there is a level of delicateness and sensitivity that honours the relationship between the body and the soul.
Ab’soul’utely Lucy, honouring every aspect of our way of living deepens our relationship with our Soul and everyone we connect to, so we are not anxious about life and the sensitivity and delicateness we all innately bring.
Kathy we know that what you say is correct
“At a young age I could feel everything. But I never knew that the body I lived in was sensitive, fragile, delicate and that it has the wisdom of knowing, the power of healing and bringing all that is needed from a place within me that is divine and full of love.”
When we are born we feel everything we are open to the world, but society doesn’t want sensitive, fragile, delicate human-beings because currently we are all being suppressed by the astral energy which is run by our spirit . We are not allowed the freedom to choose between the only two energies there are (astral and fire (the energy of the Soul). And those people that do make a determined choice to reconnect back to their soul are threatened with mob violence and ostracized from their communities as weirdo’s and freaks. So we may live in the 21st century but the mindless violence remains the same.
How often do we talk about suppression? Yep probably many feel this. Sometimes just even being able to name something in how we are feeling or what we are using, like suppression, and calling this out to ourselves is enough for a shift to start to happen.
Yes, being aware of what we are feeling, and nominating it, can start change to happen.
‘I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing.’ I can relate to this very well. In fact, I felt insignificant and worthless because I held the opinion that everyone was way more important that myself. That’s self-abuse right there, although I did not perceive it to be at the time!
Kathy what I could feel reading your blog today was how you have simply accepted the body as wise and truthful, and are so willing to now let go of everything that suppresses the body and the truth it’s always communicating.
Thank you Melinda for your response. It is always great when we come from a loving understanding and total honesty of taking responsibility to look at what is no longer needed in the body so that we may allow space to let go of the things that are not working and so we can bring more love and to live in a way that brings truth in what we do and say.
“My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.” I always appreciate reading these words, it completely changes our relationship with our body and our purpose in life – reflection.
Yes, more and more I am understanding how much we pick up from reflection. Our movements give off messages and building a relationship with our body that is then reflected in our movements is a study well worth undertaking.
“My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.” I have found that by no longer striving to achieve stress dissolves and there is spaciousness. This does not mean that life is less full, in fact the complete opposite and has greater purpose.
I love what you have shared here jstewart51 – in fact when we surrender to ourselves and let go of the perceived pressures, our life opens up in a completely different way. This is a great reminder for me today as I have allowed myself to fall into the trap of life’s pressures recently.
“I was lost in the drive of achieving with no consideration to the body and what this truly meant for my wellbeing and how I was living.” This sounds like so many in life because the body’s delicateness has not been considered a strength.
I agree there is so much we can learn about life when we don’t suppress, over-ride or ignore how we feel and basically be honest about how we feel and how our bodies feel.
I also agree Andrew that when we do no suppress or over ride our body and be totally honest that our body can bring so much more that we could ever image. If we allow ourselves to communicate with our body and surrender we can feel the truth in that awareness.
Being honest about how we feel and our bodies feel is super important, ‘I am now choosing to listen to how I feel in my body, treating it with respect, commitment, taking responsibility and honouring the truth that it reveals.’
“…. I was using suppression to abuse my body without any consideration of how sacred the body is ….” Until having the role model of Serge Benhayon and his family I would never have considered that that I was doing this to my body or that it is sacred. The realisation and the application of this awareness in my life has been life changing and transformational.
“My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.” Before coming across Universal Medicine I would never have considered my body’s purpose to be other than to achieve my needs. However, with this new perspective it has brought about for me a completely different relationship with my body, one that is far more loving and responsive which is reflected in all aspects of my life.
Making everything outside of oneself more important than one’s inner wellbeing is to lessen oneself and thereby never live one’s full potential.
The body can only take so much of the suppression before it starts to show the signs of fatigue and then the illness and disease sets in.
That is an interesting word to use because ‘suppression’ really does illustrate how we reduce ourselves when we make it all about doing and achieving.
Prior to meeting Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine sacredness was never something I would never have ascribed to anything about myself. With my present understanding it has brought a depth of appreciation and responsibility towards myself which then extends out to all in my life.
I agree, because when we discover that relationship with ourselves we see that others are sacred too and we find we cannot carry on treating people the way we did because they deserve so much more! You cannot recognise what is needed for another if you are not living it for yourself.
When we suppress our feelings we deny ourselves the awareness of so, so much and hence deprive ourselves the fullness of life.
Reading this reminds me of song lyrics “when we admit that we created it, Only can then we be free from it”. I know a pattern of mind to suppress my feelings but only after this admitting that I actually created it for a reason.
Today I could feel an old pattern creep in which wanted me to hold back and not ask for help, but what I noticed is that the underlying belief was saying that we shouldn’t ask for help that we should figure things out on our own, even if it means to struggle. So, after a while, I asked for help and now I will wait and see what happens with no attachment.
Gorgeous, something I am learning to do too.
When we continually suppress that which we naturally are, our joy, our expression, our love, it is our very delicate body which is impacted on, often quite severely; but we keep on suppressing as it becomes our normal. To let go of the suppression is the most liberating feeling, like we are taking a long, deep breath and gently sighing out, and in the process returning to living all that we truly are; absolutely amazing beings, each and every one of us.
It is a returning to the freedom of expression we had when we danced like no-one was watching. To re-ignite that relationship with our body again is part and parcel of good medicine.
How do we listen to our bodies and so respond from there….my go to has been taking time to observe my breathing…there was a time I would get so anxious and panicky, and not want to feel my body, but eat and drink to not feel. Learning slow, steady and consistently that when I bring awareness to my breath it changed how I felt, was a break through moment and I have been practicing ever since. And this has given me the space to respond to the messages my body offers, loud and clear. Be it a bump, getting cold, tired, hard and stressed, I listen and I chose something to support it.
For me I find focusing on the warmth in my hands helps. If it’s not there then being aware of my body or how my hands are moving eventually brings back the warmth.
I never tire of hearing the truth of how wise our bodies naturally are. They are informing us 24/7 and when we listen so much is revealed. A treasured relationship worthy of our greatest love and attention.
Our body gives us a true marker or reference point for the quality in which we are ‘doing’ or living life, and the more I learn to observe what I’m feeling or sensing the more understanding and awareness I have of myself and those around me, which is genuinely priceless.
When we have been hard and rough with ourselves someone telling us we naturally have the qualities of being gentle, delicate and sacred inside of us seems to be something that is out of reach and unbelievable but it isn’t, for in a very short time these qualities can be accessed and feel very real. It is our choice to allow ourselves to go there.
Abuse comes in so many forms, bringing honesty to what these forms of abuse are is a great place to start.
Agreed and honouring what we truly feel from our body is a great place to start with being more honest with ourself.
I can feel how abuse plays out through the energy people choose and how we have openings that mean we allow this through us
Yes and the more we hold ourselves steady and the more we are able to observe abuse the more we are able to close these openings.
I am so struck by the fact that Serge Benhayon reminds us of the importance of delicateness in our body as we don’t often connect men with that reflection. But why not? It is only when we allow ourselves to see the underlying beliefs that we can challenge them and release ourselves and others from their grasp.
Reading this blog reminded me of the elderly people near to me and how them not living in that honesty is affecting them both mentally and physically.
This honesty is paramount, when we ignore those signals it compounds the body. The body is just like a car, take loving care of it, it will lovingly care for you too. It is that simple if we choose to do so.
Actually I’m disgusted at the way we raise our children to not know how delicate and sensitive they are. We rob them and ourselves of a huge opportunity to restore balance to this life on Earth. Instead we insist that they toughen up to live in the world that we feel is unforgiving. We have not once stopped to consider it is us as the collective that has made life here so difficult. Watching young children being confirmed in their gorgeous, sensitive, delicateness just the way they are is so heartwarming. How we treat our children I feel is how our future will be. So what future do we want more of the same or are we prepared to encourage our children to fully know who and what they are?
Mary I loved what you have expressed about how we grow up our children to keep passing on the same in every generation instead of appreciating our children in what they are bring and reflect to us as adults that we too were children once but we get caught up as adults in our hurts and dismiss what true divine being is all about… Divine love and truth in expression
We impose on our children wanting them to turn out the way we want them to. We want them to get a good jobs or jobs which fit our picture of what we enjoy doing, we don’t want them become the party animal that dishonours themselves again and again, or we do want them to be the party goer, the popular child that everyone likes. We impose all our ideals and beliefs all the time whilst robbing them of the freedom to be themselves.
There are a million ways that we have learnt to suppress how we feel – keeping busy, the way we eat, alcohol, drugs, relationships… its a dedication we have that is incredible (in a rather awful way), to just the alternative of feeling it all as we once did when we were young. Its all still there and it feels amazing when we do.
Yes there are many ‘shoulds’ that we can impose on ourself that override what we’re really feeling underneath, but it’s never too late to come back to the honesty of our body and re-nurture the sensitivity of feeling and awareness that is innate in all of us.
We do not honour children and all that they bring to the world. I’m not saying we should ‘molly coddle’ them
but they do have a wisdom beyond their years and if we truly understood re-incarnation it would be much easier to appreciate why they have such wisdom and why they deserve much more respect and understanding than we currently give them.
“My body – the vehicle of expression is no longer used for needs or achievements but to reflect the sacredness, beauty and grace from within in God’s divine love and light.” Once we recognise this, embody it, and honour this every moment of the day it becomes very difficult to misuse and abuse our body again.
Any deviation away from the natural love we are feels like an abuse… if we allow ourselves to truly feel it.
What an absolute treasure this is with regards to dishonesty with ourselves as being a form of abuse “What I did not realise is this behaviour was abusing my body by not allowing the self to be honest and express what was truly going on deep within.”
The more that we love our body the more we get to appreciate that it is in fact the vehicle for the divine to come through.
yes Elisabeth, love recognises love and welcomes it.
This has given me a new perspective on those behaviours I do which are abusive, how they can be used as a mark to see and understand where I’ve created something to avoid the truth, how in being willing to deeply feel their impacts and understand that they are not me, but a choice I’ve made to avoid truth that I can let them go and more deeply honour the body I live in and inhabit.
So agree Monica, it is a choice we make to simply avoid the truth.
Yes, great observation, we move in a way to not feel what is there to be healed, known, cleared, reflected….it is another level to look at as to why we avoid truth and what we choose instead.
It fascinates me that we behave in ways where we bury what we feel. It is an age-old pattern when in fact we are just masking how sensitive we all are.
I really appreciate how Serge Benhayon has shown me how possible it is to actually stay deeply connected with our sensitivity and awareness of energy in life in a very practical and loving way, without being emotionally reactive to what we’re picking up on…
Realising what our body is truly here for changes everything about the way we are with it.
Perhaps not something we often consider? Our bodies as vehicles of expression for divinity to flow through..
To surrender the body to the soul asks us to let go of our spirit. The one who was in charge of us for so long.
and this is a proces of evolution back to Soul, which asks us to be honest and see that there is a greater purpose to us than succeeding this life on earth.
You probably could also conclude that being in the mind, escaping in thoughts, is a way to not feel what is happening in the body, and thus a way of suppression.
Yes, suppression, distraction, anything to not feel. It is also, when we peel it right back, an abdication of our responsibility to ourselves because we leave ourselves ill-equipped to deal with what is in front of us.
The body has to live all the choices of the mind especially ones where there is no regard or care for the body. In doing so dismisses that it is within the body that our true wisdom lies.
Living on other people’s recognition of us can work for a while until we don’t get the recognition for some reason and it is shown that this way of living is not working. When we are running our body without any acknowledging of it and just for the outer recognition or reward, we will run our bodies down and that is why many of us get so exhausted, especially when we take away coffee and sugar, emotions and distractions.
It is how much we allow suppression to take over our true expression. A moment of true expression is a moment of love and so – no suppression is allowed.
This is the education we need from young, to build an honest relationship with our bodies and allow ourselves to express and honour the truth of all we feel.
This really is a crucial part of life that belongs in our education from day 1.
Agree, I remember there always being a focus on physical exercise and the outer expression which I loved, though do not remember any discussion or attention brought to honouring what was felt from the inside, from the connection with how our bodies felt.
This one is a big one for many of us – being “in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing.” How many of us have fallen for this one, and continue to do so? Give our all to a project/cause/family member etc…only to come out the other end exhausted. I know I have.
To have really felt the devastation of seeking for external recognition we would not devote to the illusion of it.
I think it’s a good point how you say that we can be aware of our feelings and emotions that may be there without indulging but simply to learn from them and with that we can evolve with being more true to who we are in essence.
-I listen to my body, it has a lot to say
it tells me how I truly feel and when to rest and play-
as the words of the children’s song go, we really do have to listen to our bodies
It has so much to say if we just take a moment to listen
Beautiful lyrics, so simple and a sincerely helping reminder.
Suppression is the self-censoring that we do in order to be accepted by others. This can never work because we end up not knowing who we are.
And with that not really knowing who others are either…
Gosh not a great set up, may as well be honest and know where we stand… and others know where they stand with us as well.
‘Growing up as a child, teenager and adult, I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing.’ To me, not only is this a very honest and clear observation of oneself, but also a very accurate understanding of why the world is the way it is. Why we have such chaos, such violence and aggression and disconnection from our neighbours and one country or race or religion to the next. We’ve made the outside world more valuable than the inner Kingdom.
This really highlights to me the importance of the quality of relationship that we have with ourself for the benefit of everyone.
When we indulge this just goes into circulation energy, that is staying stuck in the same feeling or emotion and not being able to move away from this. However, once we have more awareness, and start to love ourselves more, the truth then becomes clearer as it did with you. It is great you were honest enough to feel how you were using suppression and just how abusive this was to your body so this could be truly healed.
“I came to the loving understanding at the age of 63 that I was using suppression to abuse my body without any consideration of how sacred the body is, and how it truly works” – when it comes to touching even the sides and a hint of the beauty of sacredness, we realise then or at that point the extent to which we have not and for a very long time used this reserved space for the quality [of sacredness], but instead utilised and junked it with abuse.
Being part of Universal Medicine shows me everyday how important is stay humble and real with what I feel. This is a very self-loving choice that supports me to be expanded, very joyful, alive and still in my life. Not having anything to hide or protect frees me from the pride and makes me see how needed is this way of being in the world we live in. A unifying way of living where we are all the same.
Inma I agree with what you have expressed, we are blessed having Universal Medicine to bring the truth of the wisdom of The Livingness to come from the loving understanding of how to truly live life with responsibility integrity and honesty with respect of what our body brings through awareness.
We are encouraged from a very early age to look outside of ourselves that this is the only way to be. I feel from my own experience that this leads to a disassociation from our bodies and it is in this disassociation that we can and do abuse our bodies in so many different ways. The moment we stop looking outside of ourselves and reconnect back into our bodies we discover how harmfully we have lived with ourselves and others, but more than that, its actually impossible to stay in the abusive behaviour. To me the science of the changes that take place is fascinating.
Suppression and neglect can be equally as damaging as what we might call ‘forward’ types of abuse, such as assault or self harm.
Thank you Kathy for expressing from the absolute love that we are from. Anything else, is the suppression of that truth and hence absolute abuse.
Danna I love how you came from the beautiful understanding from a deeper level that everything we are and do is love and suppression is abuse but in that there comes love that brings awareness of the behaviour that shows us the truth
‘What I love is when I don’t indulge in any of these old patterns or behaviours and instead use them as my friends of learning and letting go, for deep down they are not who I truly am but a part of creation that I created by not wanting to feel truth in its completeness.’ I can relate to what you are saying here Kathy, old patterns can be like an addiction and it is something to look at without judgement, to see them for what they are and that is indeed not a part of our truth but a part of creation, and to let it go.
When I think of suppression it can appear to be fairly passive in activity. It usually comes with a power difference where one gives their power away and another takes the power. I see this normalised in society, between kids and parents for instance., partners, work colleagues. It is an act of abuse to treat anyone as less or more than ourselves and to inflict this energy on ourselves is just as abusive. We need to be very aware of how we are treating ourselves.
Holding back our light is an arrogance that says you can only receive so much of heaven through me.
This takes the personal out of it and exposes how self-central our issues really are.
Children have so much wisdom and knowing most adults don’t know how to handle. And then you see children being busy doing sports or indulging in foods, TV, social media etc that suppresses their awareness further, it’s a vicious cycle. Then society wonder why we have issues with teenagers.
If we allow our children to be who they are from a very young age, we would see they are unique and have their own expression of wisdom – they know who they are.
Shushila thank you for your sharing. It would be great if we were taught from young in each generations to honour and allow our children to live and bring all that comes naturally to them in their expression and not have to change them in the way from our ideals and beliefs of controlling and holding on to them as some sort of prize possession.
When we suppress living the light of who we are, we are basically abusing ourselves and this then is the quality we reflect to all through our movements and bring to all our relationship in all varying degrees. Yet abuse is abuse regardless how subtle it may seem and this is not who we are or our true way of being.
Carola I agree that abuse is still abuse when we don’t live our true beingness
We do not realise how much abuse we do to ourselves without the knowing of the truth of who we truly are which hold us in the illusion of separation.
Suppression is harming ourselves to get at others.
Our bodies are our greatest friends and mentors for they always reflect back to us the truth of our choices.
You say at a young age you could feel everything – actually that never changes. We all feel everything but as we develop (which is really the opposite of develop) we develop (that word again) more and more ways to shut down, override and disconnect from what we feel – end result we still feel it but become less consciously aware of what we feel.
Being aware is the greatest protection as choosing to not be aware of what we feel and are picking up allows us to be fooled, interfered with and harmed in many ways.
It took me a little while to trust what I felt – and it has become really cool to find that whoa, I know a lot more than I was giving myself credit for. I then realised I could become more clear in hearing what I was feeling by cutting out certain foods, drinks and habits that could cloud my ability to feel what was going on.
I can feel the iron bars of suppression in my own body when I hold back, our body feels it all, let’s listen and feel and break free of our self made prisons.
Yes so agree davidsonsamantha, and in that suppression we are magnifying the very energy that we so do not want to be part of .
Our body is a constant reflection of the Love we are from and as such, if we choose something that abuses our body it shows us in whichever way it can, for example, we might be more moody, more resentful, more irritable. I have noticed a very clever brain can justify these, perhaps more ‘negative’ emotions, with the balance of the highs and euphoria that comes from injection of adrenaline from whatever substance I have consumed or activity I have done. Yet the rollercoaster of highs and lows does not offer me any consistency and this is incredibly draining.
Trying to suppress what we feel and know leads us to continue to swim in a murky pool of our own making, through our habits, hurts and we can only climb out of that pool when we begin to choose to be honest about how we feel, what we know and live life from that place, otherwise everything we choose and see is veiled in the murkiness.
To feel into the sensitivity of the body gets us to the place where suppression feels like abuse, because we can become aware of its beautiful delicacy and sacredness, and just how much it has been putting up with and carrying us until we get to a point where we can feel this. It deserves a huge thank you.
We look around and say how sad the world is with military juntas, dictators and no freedom of speech – but overlook the fact that we suppress our own true nature every day, with seemingly small but brutal acts.
“Growing up as a child, teenager and adult, I was in the illusion that everything outside of me was more important than my inner wellbeing. I found I was always making choices to keep myself constantly busy in the ‘doing.’ I can so relate to this Kathy. @make yourself useful’ was a phrase I heard a lot. Coming to appreciate my own body – and the messages it brings me was such a revelation when I attended Universal Medicine presentations, it seems strange to think I lived for sixty years with this unknowing…..
“learning to love everything and every part of my body – after all it is my greatest teacher.” It is a beautiful awareness when we realise that every ache and pain is not a problem but an opportunity to look at how we are living.
I like this too Mary. Rather than looking for a quick fix or blaming someone or something it offers us an opportunity to reflect on our daily choices and to make appropriate changes.
I agree with you both, Mary and Sue. A friend once told me that they were told by an Esoteric Practitioner to appreciate what their bodies were communicating and for me, this message has been a godsend. Now I have a different relationship with my aches and pains when they occur, and the messages from them are always spot on, and so much can be revealed with regards to our reactions in life.
What you have shared is so important for children growing up to not suppress what is going on for them.
As a child once too I could feel inside of me things weren’t right or things didn’t quite gel with me but didn’t have anyone to support me that what was going on was ok and just honour the feeling.
Since meeting Serge Benhayon I started to learn more about my body, I may not have perfected it but I can honestly say I’m honouring me and my body more.
Shushila thank you for your sharing. We are truly blessed, since I have meet Serge Benhayon and choosing to go to the Universal Medicine workshops I am learning how to live life in honouring and appreciating my body in all that it brings and what it shows me.