Why didn’t I Recognise that I Deserve More in life?

by Angie, Australia

During the last 15 years, I have worked in mainstream alternative medicine clinics that have offered chiropractic, acupuncture, musculoskeletal therapy, kinesiology, as well as detox and weight loss programs.

As it was one of my duties to assist clients with their program, it was important for me to have experienced this for myself as well. I was overweight and most certainly could benefit from a thorough detox. Of course, at the end of each program, I could expect wondrous results… to feel vital, drop a dress size, and much happier within myself. Guess what… it didn’t happen!

Then along came a practitioner who had also trained with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, offering us a treatment. I took up the offer and had no expectations. This was a new experience and sometimes it felt really weird, but my body felt light and gentle, and I realised that this was the real ‘ME’ without all of the impositions of life. I had not experienced anything as profound as this before. This was such a contrast to my experience of everyday life, as well as the end result of the detox / weight loss program that I had been on. And all this revealed within a one hour session!

Why was it that with only one treatment, I was left feeling so good? I felt I needed to know more about this ‘mystery’, so I attended my first workshop, and so began my association with Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine.

I have since attended many workshops and healing courses presented by Serge. He speaks in a way that is so common sense. You sit there thinking “Deep down, I know this” – but no one has ever put it in words that make it so simple.

Through Serge Benhayon’s presentations I have been able to identify patterns of behaviour that would previously have had me holding on to emotions, and running stories over and over in my head. I have been able to identify my relationship with food and how certain foods feel in my body. I have been able to join the dots about feeding emotions with food when facing issues I didn’t know how to deal with.

After attending Universal Medicine presentations and receiving support from some wonderful Esoteric Practitioners, I realised that I wanted a modality that took ‘ME’ into account and asked me ‘WHY’?

Why was I feeling how I did?… Why did I need to eat that way?… Why did I feel sluggish?… Why didn’t I truly enjoy life, and… why didn’t I recognise that I deserved more in life? 

More recently, I have been attending presentations by some amazing women practitioners from Universal Medicine. These are specifically for women discussing women’s health issues as well as pressures that affect our daily lives. There are many open and honest discussions, and it is wonderful to know that I am not alone in feeling the intensity around the ideals we feel we need to live up to as women, and more importantly providing the support to just be ourselves in the world. I have received a number of Esoteric Breast Massages as well, and continue to be amazed at how much more of the real and lovely me there is to feel.

Several years ago, I updated my qualifications to include Beauty Therapy. Many of my clients comment on how steady I am (seemingly unaffected by outside influences) and quite often ask how I do it. Others comment on the weight I have shed, and how my eyes are always sparkly. There have also been many comments on the salon being their little sanctuary, and different from others – how calm they feel, and how they can just be themselves there. We have some amazing conversations, and other times nothing much is said. Either way, I know that what I have taken away with me from the courses I have attended through Universal Medicine, as well as treatments from Universal Medicine trained practitioners has not only helped me and my family, but has made a great difference for my clients as well.

So, here I am eight plus years later, about ten kilos lighter, with my doctor telling me how good I look, amazed that my cholesterol has gone down steadily each year (even though I eat enough eggs and nuts to feed an army), and commenting that I never need to come to see her except for my annual ‘grease and oil change’.

Thank you to Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, I can now feel the real me! For me, the saying ‘de-clutter and simplify’ really sums it all up. Maybe that’s a little too basic, but why does life need to be so complicated anyway?

155 thoughts on “Why didn’t I Recognise that I Deserve More in life?

  1. ‘de-clutter and simplify’- oh I can feel this is in my bones, and my feeling is, it is the answer to all our issues, problems and illness. It is that simple, declutter and make space for love to flow through your house and through your body.

  2. “Why was I feeling how I did?… Why did I need to eat that way?… Why did I feel sluggish?… Why didn’t I truly enjoy life, and… why didn’t I recognise that I deserved more in life?”  Great questions for anyone feeling stuck in their lives and feeling the need to change….. At any moment we can make a different choice.

    1. Whenever I feel stuck in my life, down or not enjoying life, I know it’s a call to go deeper – what it is that I’m doing or not doing, and repeating, that is making me feel stuck? What is there to be dealt with that I’m not willing to look at, and so creating complication to avoid? Getting really honest, decluttering all the noise in our life, allows the space for the answers – a solid sense of knowing – to arise from the body and not from the head.

  3. Letting go of the patterns of behaviour that feed our emotional reactions lightens the load we carry from day to day immensely.

  4. What Serge Benhayon reflected to me when I first met him made absolute sense to me too and the truth of his words were deeply felt in my body that impulsed me to start looking at how I was living, the choices I was making and to identify the patterns of behaviour that allowed me to be in emotional reaction to life. Connecting to how I am truly feeling in my body and learning to love and care for myself has opened the door to building a simplicity to life listening to my body’s inner wisdom and allowing my natural rhythm to guide me in making choices that feel truly supportive.

  5. I love the title, it is a great question to ask. How come that we do not know how precious we are and the deep love and care that we deserve? The preciousness that we are held in as babies we deserve throughout our entire life.

  6. Beautifully expressed Angie! We are so fortunate to have access at this time to such wonderful healing modalities as those offered by Universal Medicine and the wonderful Practitioners and founder and Presenter Serge Benhayon.

  7. Those WHY questions just being asked empower simplicity to be known and will lead to the answer if honesty is applied “why didn’t I recognise that I deserved more in life?” = Exactly!

  8. it can feel a little unusual to be not ‘cluttered’ with all our usual emotional baggage and burdens, however the lightness of being we can feel after a session resonates with something deep within we recognise is innate and true. and so even though we may sometimes seek to reclutter due to its familiarity and comfort, there is something undeniable now awakened within us that we can thenceforth return to any time we choose.

  9. ‘You sit there thinking “Deep down, I know this” – but no one has ever put it in words that make it so simple.’ I know this exact feeling. It’s like a far away knowing, and you don’t know how you know it, but you just feel it. And then Serge puts it into words, and it confirms all that you always knew, but always felt alone in knowing it.

  10. It doesn’t matter whether another chooses to see and feel the changes in another that have taken place from attending Universal Medicine presentations, workshops or from having Esoteric Healing. What matters is the relationship we have to ourselves. We know when we make changes and let go of old behaviours and we don’t need to say a word; simply knowing others can feel the changes is enough.

  11. I feel ‘declutter and simplify’ sums it up beautifully. Certainly for me doing this has opened up space in my life where the busyness of life is not all-consuming and there are opportunities to stop and reconnect or take stock when needed.

  12. Sometimes I used to ask myself ‘how did Serge Benhayon know that?’ as I felt it was directed at me and my own life but I have come to realise that whatever it was that happened to me that Serge was reading for healing purposes there was a very good chance it would have happened to another too. Nothing is ever personal it is only me that chooses to make it about me.

  13. I love this Angie ‘de-clutter and simplify’ we often associate this with our home but to apply this to our bodies and everyday life is a game changer that continually empowers us and evolves us.

  14. There is this constant reality of having an awareness, which can often feel uncomfortable, then if so choosing, letting go of what is sitting in our bodies affecting the clarity we naturally have. Learning to go with the flow and the simplicity it brings to life is worth feeling the unsettled, uncomfortable feeling that comes with the awareness. So love the adage ‘de-clutter and simplify’.

  15. To work as a health and beauty therapist and be truly healthy and thus not only talk about the possibilities of a healthier life but live it is enormous as it inspires by the simplicity of a living example.

  16. What a comment Angie – “For me, the saying ‘de-clutter and simplify’ really sums it all up. Maybe that’s a little too basic, but why does life need to be so complicated anyway?” This is so true, I haven’t heard it expressed in such a simple way… I’ve been one like many others I hear say “well how do I explain it there’s just so much?” But there has been complication in that too. Each day or more accurately in every single moment and second we can make a different choice, and see what supports us and what doesn’t.

  17. Some great questions you asked yourself, ‘Why was I feeling how I did?… Why did I need to eat that way?… Why did I feel sluggish?… Why didn’t I truly enjoy life, and… why didn’t I recognise that I deserved more in life?’ These are not our natural ways of being, lovely how you embraced the real you.

  18. This is lovely Angie, and so key, ‘the saying ‘de-clutter and simplify’ really sums it all up’.

  19. Wow, that’s so awesome Angie. I love how much you are reflecting to all those people that walk through your door, and it’s all coming from your own lived experience, not an idea.

  20. Beautiful Angie, making true changes has to involve re-establishing a connection and relationship with the ‘real me’… current medical and complementary medicine fields still ignore the fact of an inner being, one that in fact is responsible for the true harmony of function in the body as well as our vitality, sense of true self and the inclination towards choices that are self-loving.

  21. We all deserve the very best in life! But often we have not seen our beautiful qualities nor appreciated how wonderful our bodies are and their inner intelligence and love.

  22. When listening to presentations by Serge Benhayon I too often have a feeling that I already know the truth of what is being said but I have not been listening to my body which has been consistently telling me the truth.

  23. Letting go of behaviours and ideals that distract us from recognising that we are truly worth looking after is the way to find simplicity in life and a natural ease and flow through deepening our awareness of what feels truly supportive for our body and what does not.

  24. That’s awesome Angie. It’s pretty wonderful to finally come across a modality that feels really true, and really honouring of the person you are as opposed to a ‘one size fits all’ approach.

  25. So true, it doesn’t need to be complicated, de-clutter and simplify. Feeling it in your body without the words ignites the spark that is within us all. Once it is felt in our body, the choice is there to nurture that flame or cover it again. What you share here is the absolute joy of nurturing that which is within us all.

  26. Indeed, why does life need to be complicated! I used to identify with complication, my story always having so many elements, so much drama as to why things didn’t run smoothly. Today, I have nothing to complain about, nothing that needs over dramatising. I approach life a million times more simply and feel a whole lot better for it.

  27. We can talk about these things and changes all we want but until you actually see it or experience it for yourself there will still be a part of you reserved or perhaps critical. I put all this to the test some years back and challenged what I was seeing and yet through this part I learnt so so much. I used the questions I had as mirrors back into me and to see what was going on for me. Life and what goes on within it is always a reflection for us and from there there is always understanding and awareness to bring. In other words you see yourself as a part of everything, every cycle and as cycles do, they cycle. We as a race or group of people appear to like to think we lead the world from a place almost above the world and yet the truth of it is we are just a part and from that part we need to play our part. Life and everything held within it cycle and so to reflect on your part is important as there is always a return, to everything.

  28. Why was I feeling how I did?… Why did I need to eat that way?… Why did I feel sluggish?… Why didn’t I truly enjoy life, and… why didn’t I recognise that I deserved more in life? All great questions we can ask ourselves, for when we are honest ourselves, it is in this space much easier to make different choices.

    1. I agree jacqmcfadden04 – asking these question of ourselves is an act of love, the first step to developing an honouring relationship with ourselves, our bodies and our truth.

  29. I love the connection you make Angie, that you wanted a modality that asked you why and asked you to see your part and be an engaged and active participant and that is in fact exactly what the Universal Medicine therapies do, as an client you are very much a part of it all; it’s not about relief but about looking underneath and providing support for people to see how they are and to choose to change if they wish, all the while just giving them a space to be themselves. There is nothing quite like them and they are a huge gift to us all.

  30. Declutter and simplify . . . I love it, Angie. And the more I declutter and simplify my life the clearer I become as more space is available and the clearer life is.

  31. Thank you Angie, this is a gorgeous reflection of how the Ageless Wisdom Teachings inspire us to return to live the realness of who we are, which naturally feels does great. This makes absolute sense, as the more we are willing to be honest with how we feel in our bodies, the more we get to feel how our lightness and our love feels true, which allows us to develop greater awareness of what does not feel true in our bodies and why we are choosing what we are choosing.

  32. These are powerful questions Angie, “Why was I feeling how I did?… Why did I need to eat that way?… Why did I feel sluggish?… Why didn’t I truly enjoy life, and… why didn’t I recognise that I deserved more in life?” Imagine if this was a questionnaire you filled out before going into a doctors surgery or any complementary medicine session? You would then be approaching your appointment with responsibility and an awareness of what got you there and what support is needed. I can just imagine how this would feel from the practitioner’s side, not being lumped with the pressure of a patient wanting them to ‘fix’ them.

  33. The simple revelation from my experience in esoteric healing sessions and from Universal Medicine presentations is that we are naturally light and gentle when we are connected with ourselves and the real ‘me’ is not tarnished by what we have accepted from the impositions of life and is always available to us when we choose to reconnect back to our true quality of being.

  34. “Why didn’t I Recognise that I Deserve More in life?” . . . this is such a telling question and a great title Angie. So many of us have to work through this and take responsibility for allowing ourselves to be squashed and shutdown for so long. The true self stands up to be counted as we begin to expressed from our inner knowing of who we truly are.

  35. I agree Angie that whenever I have heard Serge Benhayon present I have always had a sense of him confirming something I already know deep inside but I have put it to sleep so to speak. Serge has a wonderful way of reawakening these slumbering wisdoms and understandings of life in everyone and ‘joining the dots’ as you describe to form a more complete understanding of life for I often have had snippets of wisdom or realisations here and there but have not always been able to piece it all together. Universal Medicine has really supported me in this way to put it all together for myself and to discover my truth and my living way.

  36. ‘Why was I feeling how I did?… Why did I need to eat that way?… Why did I feel sluggish?… Why didn’t I truly enjoy life, and… why didn’t I recognise that I deserved more in life?’ These ‘why’ questions show that we deep down know what Serge and Universal Medicine presents and how simple it all can be when we start to listen to the wisdom our body has to share and deepen the relationship we have with ourselves as there is always more.

  37. I can so relate to feeling undeserving and not having much self-worth, and I can feel how I used to figure out a mid point in-between to manage life. I find sharings like yours here in blogs and women’s groups are so fantastic because by making us realise how others are going through the same stuff and we are not alone in our own stuff, which is very supportive in itself, but it also highlights how much we have actually been investing in those ‘issues’ so-called as a form of self-identification.

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