Choices, I’ve Made A Few… Shockers!

by T.S, Bricklayer, Coraki, Australia

At age 28 my life was out of control. I had a job, girlfriend, home, car, etc and everything appeared to be fine (I sure thought it was) – but for me to get through the day I needed my cans of coke, chocolate, cigarettes and my pot. And that was just the days through the week – come time for the weekend and I needed all that, plus ecstasy and speed. My life was a blur, and whilst I was holding down my job as a bricklayer, I was completely thrashing myself. I took so much pride in being the fastest brickie in the gang, but not so much care in what I was building. I was always a neat worker but I just wanted to get the job done so I could get home and get out of it: I was even contemplating a career change as I had had enough. At the time I thought it was my job that I was sick of, but I look back now and it was my life that was turning me off.

It was around this time that my girlfriend (now wife) was making slight changes in her life as a result of attending a few Universal Medicine events. We clashed on a few changes, and as a result I moved out; this was mainly because I wanted to keep drinking. I was shattered. This was a difficult time as I dearly missed my girlfriend and kids, but I didn’t want to change my life, even though I could see it falling apart. I’m not sure what the turning point was, but after several months I knew something had to change. The drugs I was consuming were making me feel sick and I was not enjoying myself as I used to.

I moved out of the house I shared with two mates and into my own place with no drinking or drugging: I basically cut contact with all my friends as everyone was a pot smoker and I was positive I didn’t want that anymore. It was a little lonely but I felt better within myself. During this time I was making more contact with the family I had left; our relationships started to grow, and I also started attending Universal Medicine events.

All of this had a huge impact on me – I was no longer feeling so alone in the world and I was happy a lot more often. With attending Universal Medicine courses it was interesting as a lot of what was presented was quite confronting and hard to take, but at the same time I left each event feeling a lot clearer in the head and looking forward to life, rather than dreading it. Also, it seemed to make sense what this man called Serge Benhayon was talking about, and he was very easy to be around. I felt very comfortable in his presence as he wasn’t judging me on what I did or how I looked, he was just letting me be me – which was wonderful as most men are comparing/judging/sizing each other up like dogs do when they meet each other (except for the butt sniffing!).

What was confronting was the fact that I came to the realisation that my life was the way it was because of the choices I had made – and boy had I made some shockers! That realisation took a lot to get over as it was so easy to blame this or that and take no responsibility for my actions. Another big one was the word love. Love for me had always been an emotion or a word to use when you wanted to get a girl in bed with you, I never thought of it as an expression of who we are.

Over the next few years my life dramatically changed. I am no longer the scruffy dressing bloke hiding behind the beard and dreadlocks, but am now the handsome clean-shaven, neatly dressed man you see. I now allow myself to feel how I am and how others are, and I don’t see myself as better than or less than anyone else. I have become a gentle, caring, loving and respectful man in all that I do. I am now talking about my feelings. I still lay bricks, but now they are laid with a purpose – I am creating homes, walls, letterboxes etc. for people to live in and around. I now realise that everything is energy so I make a point to lay those bricks as lovingly as I can. Who would you rather have build your home… Tony now, or Tony seven years ago? It’s a no-brainer.

My diet has radically changed. I don’t drink coke for breakfast to wash down the six cones I had just smoked. I barely have sugar in my diet as it is too sweet and it makes me racy or on edge. I eat to support myself to be the best I can be; I don’t eat to a point where I am so full I get tired and need to sleep it off.

My life now doesn’t have the huge swings between the chemical highs and the dreadful lows that always used to follow close by. I am now married to the beautiful woman who gave me the choice between drinking and family years ago, and I am grateful she did, as it gave me time to sort out what I really wanted: our relationship continues to grow as we do. I feel closer with my mother and father now than I can ever remember; mum and I can actually talk about life. I know Dad thinks I’m a bit different and he doesn’t agree with some of my decisions, but he can feel my love. I now want to be around my children as they are lovely people, not just my kids. Of course, at times I still find there are challenges. I have found if I have expectations on how my children should be or what they should do, then I am setting myself up for hurt: I have had to look at why I need my children to look, act or behave in a certain way. Could it be that we need our children to look and act the part so people can say what a great job as a parent you must be doing? The more I let them be themselves and not want them to be anything but themselves, the easier it seems to get. I still set boundaries and pull them up, but I no longer expect a set outcome, or try to control them.

I am not the shy man I once was, thinking I wasn’t worth anything. I enjoy talking to people.

Serge Benhayon never told me what to do or how to be, he simply talked about what happens in life, and gave reasons as to why. He never judged me, and that was cool because I was constantly judged by the way that I looked, and I hated that. Serge is simply a man full of love, sharing with all of us how we too can be full of that same love. I am proud to be his friend.

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216 thoughts on “Choices, I’ve Made A Few… Shockers!

  1. You sure did rebuild your life TS in the same way that you built homes- brick by brick no matter the shocking choices you made. Fantastic how you were able to see through the haze in your life and make such huge, loving choices.

    1. It amazes me that so many people can make such an incredible shift from being in quite a medicated way to living without those crutches etc. The difference is incredible and literally blows all the preconceived ideas that you will forever struggle with an ‘addictive personality’. This is something that needs to be blown out of the water!

  2. TS what stands out is that when you were presented with truth by your girlfriend (now wife) and Serge Benhayon you were offered a choice that was not there before, and that by choosing love all other details of your life began to realign with that. I sure would love to live in a house that you lay the bricks for now.

    1. TS, I love the fact that you made choices to change, not because anyone told you to, not because your girlfriend said ‘if you do this, you can come back’ (what a wise woman she is), but because you felt to. And though challenged, continued to feel, and make more choices to be the amazing home maker that you are as the bricks you lay build homes now, not just houses.

  3. Great blog TS I have to say a lot of your story matches mine I also made choices that were shockers. My wife also started going to Universal Medicine events which over a period of time brought a gradual change as I started attending them too and the more often I went the less I could tolerate my old life until none of it felt right anymore.

  4. T.S, this is really beautiful to read. The changes you have made are truly incredible… I loved hearing about the choice your wife gave you and your discovering of being sick of existing through life. I love your little hint into why most are dissatisfied with their jobs too.. “At the time I thought it was my job that I was sick of, but I look back now and it was my life that was turning me off.” and what you found out about love.. ‘Love for me had always been an emotion or a word to use when you wanted to get a girl in bed with you, I never thought of it as an expression of who we are.’ Thank you for sharing this awesome Gem.

    1. So often we feel a change of job is he answer to happiness or moving to a new house or area or going on a holiday, the list can go on but non of these things provide the desired fix. As you say Tony, it is the way we are living, the choices we are making where the unhappiness is coming from and as you have shared choosing to work with our problems and make more self loving choices.

      1. I agree Katie, I have found that whenever I was running away from any issues and chose to move to a new home or new job those same issues followed me to wherever I went. When you stop and realise this fact it’s really quite fascinating.

  5. This is a very inspirational story T.S; I so appreciate and admire the transformation and the loving choices you have made.
    We have all made “shockers” but what I so love about you is your honesty and your level of self responsibility and awareness.
    To be honoured and truly supported by your wife is awesome; what a power couple!!

    1. Yes Shirl, we certainly have all made “shockers” when it comes to choices but T.S.’s blog really shows the ease in which we can turn these shockers around.

  6. This is an awesome testimony that shows that choosing love does not mean to change your life or who you are, but the quality we live in. It also shows how the choices we take are not who we are, but just issues we load on ourselves that hold us back from fully being ourselves. What you thought was your identity actually wasn’t and it was nothing more than a way to not be fully in life. This is how we were all brought up to put on this faces and think that this is who we are. It is beautiful to read in your testimonial that this is a big illusion and that we can all choose differently. Thank you for sharing Tony!

  7. Tony I have seen your transformation over the years, It is a tribute to you and super inspirational how you have turned your life around from the absolute disregarding ways you treated yourself and others to the caring and loving man you are today. I feel it is important to share our stories of transformation for others to see that they too can change if they want to commit to making different choices like you did.

  8. The changes that have occurred in your life through your choices are awesome to read. I really enjoyed the way your write as well, to the point and clear. I agree whole heartedly concerning what you write about Serge Benhayon “Serge is simply a man full of love, sharing with all of us how we too can be full of that same love.” I have found this deeply inspiring, I know this for myself now and I learning to live from this place. Thank you for sharing.

  9. “At the time I thought it was my job that I was sick of, but I look back now and it was my life that was turning me off.” This is huge – something that so many people could relate to I’m sure. It’s beautiful to read of the changes that you’ve made and the difference in how you feel now.

    1. Yes I agree Fiona, this is huge as so many, including myself at times in my life, have blamed the job when life is not working out for us. In fact we will blame anything so as to not take responsibility for our part in it . . . when we change our choices our whole world changes with us.

  10. Goes to show through loving commitment what can be achieved, congratulations Tony this is an amazing transformation. With love it is amazing what can happen, and no matter how difficult it probably was at times you kept choosing love over all else.

  11. “but not so much care in what I was building” this could also relate to ourselves, in the sense of how we are our body, building love and care, on a day to day basis.

  12. What you felt to share is tremendous T.S. I really appreciate your honesty and sense of humour.
    “With attending Universal Medicine courses it was interesting as a lot of what was presented was quite confronting and hard to take, but at the same time I left each event feeling a lot clearer in the head and looking forward to life, rather than dreading it. Also, it seemed to make sense what this man called Serge Benhayon was talking about, and he was very easy to be around. I felt very comfortable in his presence as he wasn’t judging me on what I did or how I looked, he was just letting me be me – which was wonderful as most men are comparing/judging/sizing each other up like dogs do when they meet each other (except for the butt sniffing!).”
    You are quite right a lot of what Serge Benhayon presents can be confronting because it disturbs the comfort we have been living in even though like you say we know life’s not working. For some it’s too much and they walk away and then hurl abuse from the side lines, trying to put people off from what could the most life changing time of theirs lives.

  13. What a lovely confirmation TS that we can all make different choices. I love how you took care not to beat yourself up for past choices but also knew you had to create a more supportive surrounding for yourself in order to implement the changes you wanted to without being influenced by others. To make changes for you. That is pretty cool.

    1. Yes Lucy, that is so true. Not at one time I was reading this blog did I feel T.S. beating himself up or blaming himself or others for his past choices. That is pretty unusual and very cool. This was a straight forward account of past choices and how they were not working for him any longer and what he chose to do about this.

  14. This is a beautiful blog Tony. The changes we make because we feel to make them are the ones that make the foundations for our true joy. They are the ones we can stay with because they come from us and not from being told what to do. The way you live now comes from the true quality of you and that feels beautiful.

  15. What a great story TS, you may have made some shockers but you have also made many beautiful and self honouring ones also. It appears as if the shockers are few and far between now!
    What a wonderful realisation that our lives are a result of choices we have made.

  16. Thank you Tony I agree. Seeing we are responsible for all our choices in life starts the true healing. Serge Benhayon shares by looking into his past choices and seeing them in a responsible way with no judgment and the healing process can start. To me this was a revelation and the start of me letting go of my deep hurts that caused the misadventures into drug abuse. This is true healing!

    1. What you are saying here Greg is so important, that is, to only look back at past choices and see them in a responsible way, with no judgement, allowing for the healing process to start. Allowing the space for the hurts to come up and lovingly be with that, yourself. I know for me it took some time to truly bring love to that process, not beating myself up for past choices. There is a way to heal without it being a traumatic process.

  17. This blog really shows the true power of inspiration and love. I have often been caught telling someone what to do but this shows it is far more powerful to inspire another through our way of living

    1. I absolutely agree Joshua, and what a powerful way to inspire another! T.S through his choices made himself a role model to all who knew him. We are all capable of going deeper with our choices and being that role model for others. A very inspiring blog on all counts.

  18. What a beautiful sharing of how one can really make choices that are loving and evolving. There was another way your story could have turned out, but your clearly took responsibility for what you did want and wanted your life to be about. Really wonderful to read and be inspired by.

  19. “What was confronting was the fact that I came to the realisation that my life was the way it was because of the choices I had made ” Waking up to the responsibility we all have for our own lives is big. We complain and blame situations and people outside of ourselves, but it all comes back to the choices we make….Great sharing TS.

  20. What has given you the strength to change and then to be consistent in your choice, is inside you, Tony. This is so beautifully expressed in your writing. What Serge Benhayon does is to support to connect to this inner strength. I love this about Serge, because it leaves you free.

  21. I have just re-read this blog and I am so touched I am moved to tears. Thank you T.S. You are indeed a beautiful man, thank you for sharing yourself so openly and honestly. This is such a news worthy article! Changing our choices changes everything. Well done.

  22. Lovely blog, Tony. Full of the honesty that comes with self-reflection and self-knowing. Particularly liked what you said about what you bring to the building of homes for people now and how builders carry huge, long-lasting responsibility for the quality of the home they create. Not just the physical quality of the build itself, but the quality that is a reflection of your own, that becomes an intrinsic part of what you leave behind in your work.

  23. Hmm I can so relate to what you say about being fast in what you do ‘but not so much care in what I was building’ Tony. Haste will always compromise quality.

  24. “What was confronting was the fact that I came to the realisation that my life was the way it was because of the choices I had made”; I agree it can be very confronting especially when we own our shocking choices. I love how you took responsibility, making different choices to turn your life around.

  25. I love this blog, what you share is very powerful, a story that has stayed with me. The transformations that occur within the Universal Medicine Student body are inspirational.

  26. I am 99.9999% sure that everyone has made shocker choices in their lifetimes, with varying flavours.
    If this is the case then why the secret nature of hiding them as a shame when indeed it is as common as breathing.

    This links to the analogy that anything left in the dark starts to develop mould. Meaning that what is left un dealt with becomes more messy and difficult to clean up if left unattended.

  27. It’s true Tony, when we thrash our bodies with the way we live our every day and pay no attention to the detail or the quality that we attend our responsibilities and work in it erodes the very value of all that we do.

  28. T.S. it is so lovely and inspiring to read how you are now creating, brick by brick, a loving foundation from which to live your life from.

  29. There is much to appreciate here – but the stand out remark is how your life no longer swings between the massive highs and lows. That way of living is so common, marketed through the drama in daily soap operas and reinforced by the way society lives its life. Yet the rollercoaster is far from our true potential.. its only when there is a deep stillness inside us that we can see deep within to the divinity that we all have. For me, when I got a glimpse of that, that was when I realised that the drama is simply a distraction from the potential gorgeousness that is waiting deep inside us all.

  30. This is a powerful piece of writing that is world newsworthy; it says it all without any put downs or judgment. We have all made ‘shocker choices’ to numb ourselves from feeling but at what cost to ourselves and others? We clearly hurt ourselves more with our various methods of protection that if we simply allowed ourselves to feel. This is a very inspiring blog T.S. thank you for coming back to you.

  31. I love your title – my sense is we can all relate to it, we’ve all made a few shockers in life. I love what you have shared here, deeply honest, exposing and claiming. We definitely have all had hurts we’ve not wanted to feel and then layer up the protections and then the self abuse through whatever medium suits, comes in. I went through my own stint of drug abuse in my 20’s, it was an incredibly lonely, depressive and debilitating time. So can understand a lot of what you have shared. Thank you.

  32. Tony – this is a phenomenal testimonial to the power that we all have to make life-changing choices if we have the courage and commitment to so do. The choice is absolutely ours and you have made some stupendous choices. Full respect. A glorious example to all and a gloriously transparent expression that allows so many others to see themselves in your words.

  33. And I love that you are still laying bricks. When the chips were down in my life I often contemplated changing jobs, homes, countries, girlfriends, cars, clothes..anything that avoided me taking responsibility myself. All of these things are supportive and need looking at, but none of them will change the game – only changing our own movements and choices will do that.

  34. We have all made quite a few shockers – they key is not to dwell on them but see them for what they are and the energy we choose to align to when we made those choices. After all I know for sure that love would not have chosen many of the shockers that I have made!

  35. What a life changing turn around! This is a miracle to see such changes in someone, a completely different person. It’s proof that often who we think we are is so far from who we truly are and with healing and self love we can all return to the true us.

  36. ‘My diet has radically changed. I don’t drink coke for breakfast to wash down the six cones I had just smoked. I barely have sugar in my diet as it is too sweet and it makes me racy or on edge. I eat to support myself to be the best I can be; I don’t eat to a point where I am so full I get tired and need to sleep it off.’ – What remarkable changes you have made to your life. It takes a great deal of self love and dedication to change addictive habits in the way that you have. What an inspiration

  37. What really comes through in this blog is just how nonjudgemental Serge Benhayon is and how powerfully healing this is. We are so used to judging ourselves and each other that it is a relief to meet someone who does not judge but instead who sees our essence first before all the ways that we try and hide it.

  38. ‘Looking forward to life’ – that brings it to the point: regaining perspective to life by reconnecting to its original purpose and meaningfulness, shaking off the shackles of resignation and the coping mechanisms through the Ageless Wisdom that is our innate wisdom being reactivated by the teachings of Serge Benhayon.

  39. The absence of judgement can appear strange as we are so used to it and actually hold it against ourselves not expecting anyone to see things different than we do, but it is this judgement of self that keeps us from reconnecting to the underlying truth of who we actually are. Non-judgement is crucial to have true understanding and thus healing. Serge Benhayon is meeting everyone with a depth of understanding that looks right through to the bottom of things where nothing we did can cloud who we essentially are.

  40. Very true, Serge never tells anyone what to do but helps to get an understanding of one´s own truth, never is there any judgement, hidden agenda or self-interest. The choice is always left to one´s own responsibility.

  41. Never before and since have I heard anyone revealing the true meaning of love like Serge has and does. And it is more than just words, it is an activation in oneself by truth resonating with what is known to be truth deep inside.

  42. Wow that’s such a massive change to move out and stop all drinking and drugs, often people get stuck in behaviours and really struggle with big changes, but I think you have presented the key here – and that is a total commitment to make your life truly loving.

  43. This is a powerful sharing TS and such an awesome transformation you’ve made. When faced with the crossroad you chose LOVE. Very inspiring.

  44. Wow what powerful changes, committing to yourself in this way is not easy as there is a momentum pulling in the other direction. Congratulations for offering yourself the loving devotion that you have.

  45. If we accept that there is something like being out of control, we also accept that there is the opposite: being in control. Is being ‘out’ of control really being out of control? Or is it more a way of calling our attempt to control what we call our world? And, in truth, are we, human beings, ever ‘in’ control? Control is a way of moving that runs counter to the Universe. We can only control how we move.

  46. Amazing! And yes, I’d totally want the Tony who lives his life with integrity, self responsibility and love to build the foundational walls of my house!!

  47. We have an enormous capacity to make the abnormal normal if it suits us. The process of normalisation of what obviously does not belong with us is simply an indication that life is about oneself, although not even so because the normalisation of the abnormal is not even good for self.

  48. So often when we are not happy we change jobs, living arrangements or locations thinking these changes will make us happy, when in reality nothing outside of us can make us can fulfil us.

  49. This is a great sharing T.S and shows that if you build a house on a foundation of sand it will crumble overtime and not be able to withstand the pressure. Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine offers practical and honest bricks of living that support and inspire us to explore them for ourselves and uncover our own foundations for life. Thank you T.S.

  50. Great blog TS, the choices you have made and the level of responsibility you have taken is very inspiring, thank you for sharing your experiences and your wisdom.

  51. Thank you for sharing the way you bought quality back to your life with a number of changes. What rang true was the willingness to not judge your self as this was felt by the work of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine. The choices to change were there TS and you were making them when you were ready to deal with the next marker of truth. Truly inspiring!

  52. Interesting how we can blame work for our woes and not be willing to look at our lifestyles. I’ve been here and know many who are also in this boat. Work is an opportunity to give back to humanity, connect with people and live purpose. It is our livelihood, it pays the bills and puts food on the table. So why blame the one consistently providing element of life? I love that my work ethics have and are still changing. We spend a great deal of our lives in the work force so why not do it purposefully and enjoy it!

  53. How many of us have stood back and watched our lives shatter and fall apart around us and yet have still resisted the changes we know in our hearts we need to make. What are we doing to ourselves and everyone else when we do this?

  54. Alcohol or family, is not a choice many want to be faced with. Thank you Toni for sharing how through choosing firstly you and then family, you found your tenderness and grace and have turned your life around. In today’s world of acceptance of alcohol this is a miracle.

  55. The life you have now chosen for yourself is an extraordinary transformation from who and what you lived before… you are literally a different man, inspirationally so. It is truly amazing what can come from choosing responsibility over blame.

  56. “At the time I thought it was my job that I was sick of, but I look back now and it was my life that was turning me off.”
    I love this sentence, because it is something I observe and hear a lot, people think it is their job or something else on the outside that needs to change and I was in that trap for a long time myself, always believing the next relationship would be better. To then learn through the inspiration from Serge Benhayon that if I change my approach to life and bring me into everything I do then everything changes from the inside out.

  57. This is such a gorgeous and humble story Tony and knowing you now i can absolutely vouch for the gorgeous and tender man you’ve become. And absolutely I would have you laying bricks much moreso than the Tony of those years back.

  58. At my own workplace I observe how may people consume bottles of coke throughout the day to get by. If anything, the consumption of cake, coffee and sugar is increasing as people are so exhausted and miss the sweetness of themselves so much.

  59. Men sizing each other up and comparing the comparability of one another… stone age?, or a common human trait that doesn’t belong to primitive origins but one of an ego that needs to be addressed.

  60. For absolute and undeniable proof of the extraordinary gifts that Universal Medicine offers to humanity, we need to read no further then this beautiful testament… Especially when one knows the writer.

  61. “Could it be that we need our children to look and act the part so people can say what a great job as a parent you must be doing? ” Now there’s a question I’d love you to explore as a blog Tony!

  62. Understanding that our choices have consequences is empowering. The consequences show us the results of our choices. We then have the clarity and power to make different choices.

  63. One of the many outstanding qualities of Serge Benhayon is that he does not judge people. When we experience not being judged something happens within us, we become more able to face the truth of how we are living. Judgment on the other hand closes us down and we become more defensive and protective of ourselves.

    1. Indeed Elizabeth, thats it. When we are judged we tend to go into protection and with that we build another layer on the brick wall we have created around us as a way of protection. That brick wall does not only not protect us at all, but in fact closes us down as you say and with that withdraw from living a life in full in which we could prosper and grow.

  64. A honest sharing of the different choices we have all made that lead us into despair even though we know deep down inside there is another way to live. Thank you for sharing that everyone’s choices can be different. For what could be considered extreme and to others is may appear to be mild. Either way the hurt of not living the truth vitality that is now part of our lives from the teachings of Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine is what needs to be celebrated here. The turn around is truly incredible and the support that can be provided when we are willing to stop and take stock that the way we are living is not true, brings a whole new level of living that undeniable is far greater than one can ever imagine.

  65. mmm how many of us have had a time (or still do) where we thought it was a job or career change we need because of being fed up, bored or sick with how our life is when instead what really needs to be address is actually how we live, every moment of every day ‘At the time I thought it was my job that I was sick of, but I look back now and it was my life that was turning me off.’ Years ago I wanted to always change so much in my life and would continually look at the outside things (work, where I was living etc) but not HOW I was living!!!! I agree I would much rather have the Tony now build me a house, wall or letterbox than the Tony before the changes you made. It is truly Gorgeous to hear how things have changed for you, especially your relationships since meeting Serge Benhayon and Universal Medicine, something that I too can also greatly appreciate the change within my life.

  66. Such a beautiful read and inspiring, the choices you made and the journey you have traveled to be where you are today. What you have shared is very common in many of our lives, it really all comes to the choices we make and love we give to ourselves first.

  67. Truly inspiring TS to turn your life around from where you did. Such a pity we have to get so desperately unhappy, unhealthy or unfortunate before we make these sort of life-transformative, self-loving choices!

  68. Every time it amazes me what changes people can make when they are able to meet themselves and connect to that love that lives in their heart equally so. Same with you T.S. what you describe here is unfathomable for our current care system that are there to support people that are in trouble through the choices they had made in life. While they are only looking for solutions the forget that it is actually that simple. Just to be met by someone that does not impose or judge but simply connects to the essence of you, ignites that spark of love that equally lives in all of us and when reignited will grow and become stronger afterwards.

  69. It is empowering to know that every choice is with us, that we hold our life in our own hands and thus can make changes that we would not have thought possible.

  70. Amazing to come to the realisation that our quality of life comes from the choices we make…how empowering is that!

  71. It is amazing how healing it can be for someone when we allow the space for them to be and to come to their own realisations in their own time while we hold them with understanding and non-judgement for their actions, this is something I have felt and been deeply inspired by when in the presence of Serge Benhayon. His love for humanity is indescribable and it allows us to know ourselves for who we truly are in all our awe as the sons of God.

  72. There is so much in this blog that is gold, this quote is one of them ” Could it be that we need our children to look and act the part so people can say what a great job as a parent you must be doing? The more I let them be themselves and not want them to be anything but themselves, the easier it seems to get. I still set boundaries and pull them up, but I no longer expect a set outcome, or try to control them.” the investment we have in our kids I often feel is a huge pressure and stifles our children’s natural expression.

  73. I love this sharing, its great to hear from a man who has made different choices, and I would imagine in the construction industry where it is all about being tough and manly this is doubly difficult. It really is our responsibility as men to support each other better and stop falling back on the banter as a form of communication. I admire any man who has the courage to engage with other men in a real and honest way and talk about stuff that actually matters.

  74. The thing that I feel the most from reading your blog Tony is that how much I used replacements in my life for the drugs and alcohol that I had given up at the age of 40. When I gave up drugs, cigarettes, alcohol and caffeine I had to have some sort of replacement as I had no understanding of the energy and that I had to align to an energy to fill the emptiness that I had no idea existed in me until one day in an esoteric healing session. I had finally felt my emptiness and could finally feel why I was addicted to, which was first the drugs and then the foods, life style, patterns and behaviours that trapped me in my emptiness. Thanks to Serge Benhayon for not giving up on the students or anyone else for that matter because once the truth is know, felt and then lived I can say I feel free of an addiction that controlled my life and this is so true for many Students of The Livingness.

  75. This is an amazing story, a miracle indeed. And I would definitely prefer to have my house built, or anything for that matter, by someone who understands and takes care of the energetic impact therefore lives and works with and in love. And your sharing makes me realise that that is what I have to live too. Totally inspiring. Thank you.

  76. I am so glad you committed to turning your life around, and seeing that the way you were going was not providing you with any true satisfaction- all things you didnt have to choose, but you loved this woman enough to choose your life with her and the kids, in a way that honoured all of you.

  77. As you have stated TS Serge Benhayon never judges, and often we judge ourselves far more harshly than others do, and let others off the hook by being gentle with them, but often forget to give ourselves the same consideration.
    Great to read the transformation and how you have turned your life around to what it is today. I am sure that had you not heeded the wake up call, things would be far different today.

  78. That’s a great point that you raise about children needing to be a certain way when we get hurt because they don’t act that way. I so often catch myself expecting such high standards from my children so much higher than I live myself, and it puts a great big wedge in between us.

  79. T.S, the transformation that you describe all came down to the choices that you made. I love your honesty about how you missed your girlfriend and kids but had to come to something within yourself to decide whether you wanted yourself and your family or your pot. This is not a decision that another can make for you, it is a decision that only you can make and whatever happens thereafter is for you to deal with. Life is so simple if we let it be.

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