by Vicky Cooke, Customer Service Advisor, London, UK
With all the lies and ill-allegations made towards Serge Benhayon, the Universal Medicine Team and many of us recently, I have noticed something. When I was younger and something didn’t feel right, I used to say it didn’t feel right. An example would be listening to the news and politicians talking, and thinking that sounds like a load of crap, saying this to my parents, and wondering why people who to me only felt like they were in it for themselves, seemed to be deciding our fate. Why was it just up to these few people, when clearly all the decisions and actions they were taking and making didn’t seem to be for all, or improving anything?
As the years went by I stopped questioning and started accepting. Feeling that I didn’t matter, that one voice doesn’t count, that everyday people cannot make a change and we had to let others decide our fate and just get on with it. Only recently have I come to deeply realise that by just accepting this, not only did I give up on life – I also buried my voice of reason and questioning deep within and let it be silenced.
Currently in my life I have a reference point where I can look at where I am now, to how I was a few years ago and go wow (!), I have changed a lot – for the better.
Recently I had to move out of the flat I was renting, and move in with my parents. This felt like an opportunity to give myself a bit of space, a stop and a breather to feel what is truly right for me moving forward with my life, and it felt like the most supportive thing for me to do.
This was where I could see how much I have changed.
Before meeting Serge Benhayon and attending courses and workshops, I had moved back with my parents some years ago. I was stroppy, blaming them for my life, frustrated and definitely not taking responsibility for my life and how I had lived it. I also felt lost. I was not sure about where I was going or what I was going to do for a living. In fact I didn’t even speak with them when I was living with them – how crappy was that!
So now… this time being with them, I really appreciate them for just being who they are. It feels really supportive to be able to stay with them and just give myself a bit of time. I am certainly not blaming them for my life. I no longer feel frustrated or lost; in fact I feel really lovely – so much clearer and much more joy-full. I have an understanding that how I live every day affects the next day. This makes such sense, and I wish I knew this or was taught this at school. I know how I can support myself whilst I am staying with them – even if I don’t know where I am going to be living next, or what I am going to be doing. My focus is on how I can support myself with food (that is a massive learning in itself), with sleep, and so many other tools I have been given and learnt. And I am starting to take responsibility for my life and all the choices that I make – even though there are still times when I can feel I don’t want to do this because it’s more comfortable to get away with not taking responsibility. This doesn’t feel lovely for me, it just feels that I am not listening to what I know feels true.
So it’s really beautiful for me to see this and confirm how much I have changed, which again is something I would not have felt able to truly do for myself in the past. And it feels fab, really great to see and feel this within myself compared to how I was – I felt pretty yucky back then. There is still a lot to learn and possibly change, but it is a massive improvement, and the learning and changing part just feels like a natural progression and unfolding instead of a drive that says I have to be better.
I recently read a blog that said ‘There was very little in life that was reflecting back to me that how I was living my life was not true.’
This really resonated with me and I could feel the deep appreciation in me that what Serge Benhayon has been presenting over the years is amazing and so needed. It is consistent, simple, true (I can definitely feel that), and it makes sense. It feels like it is everything I wanted to be taught and learn when growing up as a kid, but no-one in my life could teach me.
So it’s true – Serge is amazing and so are we.