Learning to be in Relationship without Pictures

The mental pictures that we hold onto, if they are not expressed openly, clearly and respectfully, seem to be one of the causes of conflict in the world.

Recently I went on a trip with my son. The picture I carried was we would enjoy common time together, while the picture that he carried was he would enjoy his time and do whatever he felt like doing. He is twelve and at the age that he feels compelled to make his own choices.

The two pictures do not need to be conflicting in truth, but when we carry only our own picture and do not provide space for understanding another’s picture, conflict arises.

So every morning I would follow my usual routine of waking up early and going for a walk, while my son would follow his usual routine of waking up late and skipping breakfast. Because of this we never had the chance to go to breakfast together, and my picture of having common time together during breakfast was smashed. If my son wanted to sleep more, but was then asked if he wanted to go to breakfast, his picture of doing what he wanted to do and making his own choices would be smashed and both of us would feel tension within us.

One morning we went to town together. We made plans the day before and my son agreed, possibly because he felt that was what I would have liked. Even though he agreed, he did not really want to do it, and did not sleep earlier the night before, so he woke up tired. When we were in town he was moody and wanted to go home. I asked if he was tired and he said yes, so we went directly back to the hotel.

I did not find the experience of going out with him fun either, because he was not really there with me. All he wanted to do was to go back to the hotel and find ways which he felt would not further exhaust him, and that I can understand.

With the understanding that this was not a pattern built solely from one day, and therefore, neither can it be undone in just one day, I was able to hold more understanding for why he was making the choices he was. Even though we are mother and son and we do live in the same house, we have very different lifestyles and we are both stubborn in our choices.

It was then I realised that it was not reasonable for me to suddenly expect my son’s built up pattern of sleeping late to be easily changed just because we were on a trip together, simply because of my expectation that it would be awesome to do some activities together. If we had not built up this foundation together in Hong Kong, how would this be possible all of a sudden just because we were in a different time zone, especially if my son wanted to exercise his ability to choose for himself?

And so with that I simply went about my activities and I began meeting old and new friends, who were delighted to do things together with me. We met and chatted and I even got invited to a wedding ad hoc! Meanwhile my son enjoyed his time alone, doing what he wanted. Every evening I would invite my son to join me, or sometimes some of my friends, for dinner. Most of the times he would willingly say yes.

The Ancient Wisdom Teachings presented by Serge Benhayon teach that no matter what our roles are in life, if we try to fulfill these roles with pre-conceived pictures, then we are limited by how we should be, rather than feeling how to be in the unlimitedness of the moment.  

I had to let go of the picture of how being a mother should be on a trip, which was to arrange activities for the both of us to enjoy. Sometimes this was at the expense of both of us, because in truth, neither of us really wanted to do them, but I was carrying the picture that it would look ‘good’ and we would have ticked the box of doing something together on a trip. I also had to let go of the picture that, because we were on vacation, our rhythms would suddenly unite.

None of these expectations are true. And if they were enforced and accepted by us, then the relationship between my son and I would be reinforced by a picture that may have been ‘good’, but not true, because hanging onto any picture does not bring us to full truth.

I made the point that, henceforth, we will both express what we feel, as that is our only responsibility and, with expressing, we get to choose what we feel is true for us, as long as it does not compromise the other person’s choices. And with that, there need be no expectations either.

So we enjoyed the rest of our trip and continued to enjoy a deeper relationship with each other, even though our daily choices are completely opposite in life.

What I have observed is also a very precious opportunity, and no doubt an ongoing one, for me to let go of the pictures of what being a mother is and to start rediscovering what being a woman with parenting duties means. I am deeply enjoying the deepening of relationship with myself as it is impacting on all the other relationships I have in my life, such as how I am now able to hold my son in much more understanding of the choices he makes.

Published with the permission of my son.

By Adele Leung, a woman, image consultant, writer, photographer, model and then some, Hong Kong

Further Reading:
How We Start Relationships
To Be Truly Heard and To Be Truly Met For Who We Are

837 thoughts on “Learning to be in Relationship without Pictures

  1. Images and expectations of how we want things to be are very controlling and draining, in contrast it is worth considering what would it be like to live life with no pictures, expectations, or beliefs?

  2. I experienced this yesterday, I had taken a vacation day from work as my husband and our two boys were off as well. Biggest learning from the day was, don’t have pictures beforehand of what we could get done or do together. After the yucky emotions of being disappointed and feeling let down by the pictures not being played out, and throwing them away, we all ended up doing exactly what felt true for each of us. The boys stayed home and my husband and I went out for lunch and went down town which was great.

  3. It is great to let go of pictures, ideals and beliefs, but go with the flow of honouring people and their space. It is with this flow that people come together to spend true valuable time together. There is a mutual honouring and respect.

  4. Holding images and pictures of how things should or could be limits us as it places conditions on situations and ourselves and others and blocks our learning and therefore our evolution.

  5. Communication and honest expression moves relationships forward. No matter what others think, we can hold our relationships to feel loving for us. By dropping the pictures and images, we let go of how things should be and they evolve into being beautiful how they are.

  6. I learnt early on in my relationship with my daughter not to have pre-conceived pictures of how things should look like because they always went pear shaped and never worked. I once took her on the London eye thinking it would be a great thing for us to do but she was more interested in a colouring book she had brought with her.

    1. This made me giggle and squirm a little when I consider the number of times I have planned things with a whole script and picture of how they will turn out. Children are very good at exposing this…

  7. “I also had to let go of the picture that, because we were on vacation, our rhythms would suddenly unite.” Yes this is the illusion that we can fall for that a holiday will solve our issues at home when quite often they do the opposite and hi-light and bring up something for us to look at.

  8. ‘…if we try to fulfill roles with pre-conceived pictures, then we are limited by how we should be, rather than feeling how to be in the unlimitedness of the moment’. This is an absolute gift of a quote that offers me the exact tool I need to support some profound relinquishing of roles and pictures.

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